POLYSEXUALITY

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1. SELF SEX

P I E R R E G U YOTAT P. 14
BODY OF THE TEXT.

DA N I EL SLOATE P. 21
I STRUGGLED WITH A DEMON

D E M E TR I U S ZA M B ACO P. 22
CASE HISTORY.

2. SOFT SEX

P I E R R E K LOSSOWSKI P. 38
ROBERTE'S DIARY (CONTINUED)

ROG E R C A I LLOI S P. 42
THE OCTOPUS IN JAPAN.

PA U L V E R LA I N E P.415
ON THE BALCONY.

DU NCAN H . S M ITH P. 46
MEMOIRS OF AN OCCUPATION

3. ALIMENTARY SEX

J EA N POU I LLON P. 154

TABLE MANNERS. BED MANNERS. LANGUAGE
MANNERS.

P A U L V E R LA I N E/ARTH U R R I M B A U D P.62
THE SONNET OF THE HOLE IN THE ASS.

T E R E N C E C. S E LLERS P. 63
COPROPHAGY AND URINOLOGY

PAUL VERLAINE P.66

A LITTLE SHIT • • .

4. SEX OF THE GAZE

MICHEL BERNARD P.68

THE MUTE NEGRESS.

A L A I N ROBBE-G R I LLET P. 72
TEMPLE IN THE LOOKING GLASS.
5. AMBIGUOUS SEX

FELIX G U A TT A R I P. 8 0
I HAVE EVEN MET HAPPY TRAVELLOS.

DA N I E L SLOATE P. 8 1
POLLY ORlAND PAUL.

JEAN FRANCOIS LYOTARD P. 8 2

USE ME.

FELIX G U ATTARI P. 8 6
BECOMING-WOMAN.

6. A NIMAL SEX

F R E D E R I C ROSSI F P.90
THE WILD CELEBRATION

CATH E R I N E D U N C A N P.9S
JOURNEYS OF A GENTLEWOMAN.

G I L L E S D E LEUZE/FELI X GUATTARI P. 97

A BLOATED OEDIPUS.

B E R N A R D NOEL P. 1 02
THE DOGS.

DA N I E L SLOATE P.l06
TRUDY OR THE SECRET APHID.

7. CHILO SEX

PETER WI LSON P.I 08

THE SILVER PIPE CAFE.

TONY D U V E RT P.l l 0
COUNTESS LULU

W I LLI A M B U RROUGHS P. 1 1 9
THE POPLING

ROGE R MOODY P. 1 215

THE COMMITTAL.

8. MOR BID SEX

GEORGES BATAILLE P.IS 6

THE CULPRIT.
 ANONYMOUS P.14!5
MY LATE GRANDMOTHER.

9. VIOLENT SEX

PIERRE KLOSSOWSKI P.I!54

THE PARALLEL BARS.

P I E R R E B E N I CHOU P.1!57

SAINT JACKIE. COMEDIENNE AND TORTURER.

M I C H E L DE M ' U ZAN P.162

M.

FRANCOIS P E RALDI P.167

POSTFACE: VIOLENCE AND POLYSEXUALITY.

10. CORPORATE SEX

JOHN PRESTON P. 172

ONCE I HAD A MASTER.

JASON K L E I N P.17!5
CHORUS FOR A PSALM.

JOHN P R E STON P. 18!5

LETTER TO JASON.

JACQU ES LACAN P.190

THE OEDIPUS COMPLEX.

1 1. D I SCUR S IVE SEX

QUESTION N A I R E P. 202
DO YOU KNOW CORRECT TERMS FOR WHAT
SOME MAY CALL "SEX PERVERSIONS."

ROLA N D BARTH ES P.20!5

VOCABULARY.

JACQU ES LAC A N P. 208

SAINT ANN.E . • . 1 972.

CHANTAL M A I L L ET/SYLV I E LEGER P. 219

JOUISSANCE AND DIVISION.

M I C H E LE MONTR ELAY P. 228

INQUIRY INTO FEMININITY.
 ROLA N D B A R T H E S P.236

FRAGMENTS OF A LOVER'S DISCOURSE.

12. PH I LOSOP H I CAL SEX

PA U L V I R I LIO P. 242

MOVING GIRL.

ROBERT V A N R O D E N A LL E N P. 249

DISCOURSE AND SEXUALITY: TOWARD THE

TEXTURE OF EROS.

1 3. C R I TICAL SEX

G U Y HOCQU E N G H E M P. 260

TO DESTROY SEXUALITY ...

G I L L E S D E L E UZE/ F E L I X GUATTARI P.26!5

HOW TO MAKE YOURSELF A BODY WITHOUT

ORGANS.

M I ST E R M A RG U L I E S P. 270

FRONTIERS BROKEN

SYLV E R E LOT R I N G E R P. 271

DEFUNKT SEX.
POLYSEXUALITY
POLYSEXUALITY IS NOT ONLY A SET OF TEXTS WRITTEN BY CAREFULLY CHOSEN

AUTHORS AND ILLUSTRATING THE PLURAL ASPECTS OF SEXUALITY.

POL YSEXUALITY IS A TEXT IN ITSELF, THE EDITORS OF WHICH ARE THE AUTHORS.

LET'S CALL IT A COLLAGE OR A TEXTUAL PATCH-WORK, IF YOU PREFER.

IT TELLS WHAT THE REALITY OF SEX HAS ALWAYS BEEN WITH RESPECT TO ITS

ALIENATION TO 'USURA' AND EXPLOITATION.

IT ALSO POINTS TOWARD THE 'REAL OF SEX' WHICH STILL LIES UNTOUCHED,

UNTHOUGHT OF, BUT PERHAPS ALLUDED TO BY FREUD WHEN HE SUGGESTED

THAT LIBIDO HAD NO GENDER.

LIBIDO: AN IRREPRESSIBLE 'VOLONT E DE JOUISSANCE' (WILL TO PLEASURE)

NEVER PURE SINCE IT IS ALWAYS LINKED TO THE DEATH DRIVES TO THE POINT

THAT FOR SOME RIGOROUS SEEKERS, 'JOUISSANCE' CULMINATES IN DEATH: THE

ULTIMATE SEX.
IF LIBIDO IS THE ORGANIZING FORCES OF ALL ACTIVITIES LEADING TO

'JOUISSANCE,' ALL THESE ACTIVITIES, INCLUDING WRITING ABOUT SEX AND

'JOUISSANCE,' HAVE TO BE CONSIDERED AS IMAGES OF THE OTHER SIDE OF THE

DEATH DRIVES.

THE DEATH DRIVES, WHICH CENTRIFICATE POLITICS, HAVE BEEN PRESENTIFIED

IN THIS TEXT BY IMAGES OF POLITICAL DISASTERS, MASSACRES, GENOCIDES,

CRIMES OF WAR: OUR DAILY LOT. THE THEORY OF CATASTROPHIES IS AT THE

VERY CORE OF THE THEORY OF POLITICS AND IT HAS TO BE THOUGHT OF AS

GIVING SHAPE TO THIS OTHER SIDE OF LIBIDO.

FROM COVER TO COVER, THIS WHOLE ISSUE IS NOTHING ELSE, IN OUR OPINION,

THAN THE TEXTUAL WORKING THROUGH OF THIS THESIS. WE CALL IT TEXTUAL,

BECAUSE LANGUAGES, OF COURSE, CONSTITUTE THE THIRD SIDE OF LIBIDO, AND

DEATH DRIVE, BY KNOTTING THEM TOGETHER· AND MAKING THEM TANGIBLE,

SYMBOLICALLY OR SEMIOTEXTUALLY SPEAKING.

FRANCOIS PERALDI

BOSTON, MARCH 1 6, 1 981

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 BODY OF THE TEXT

THI S IS NOT WRITTEN. BUT DICTATED. I M PROVISED. I NTO PR ACTICE THIS M A STUR BATORY SYSTEM. I WAS

NOTEBOOKS IN H A N D-NOT FOR A STOCKTA KING OF ACTI NG IN A VERY COHERENT WAY AS TO THE

PAST O R P R E S E N T JOTTINGS ON WHAT I AM ABOUT MASTERING OF M Y N E E DS AND WANTS: AS I SAW IT.

TO D E SC R I B E : THE R E LATIONSH I P BETW E E N ORGAS M-ALTHOUGH I COULDN'T H AVE N A M E D IT AT

M A STUR BATION A N D WRITI NG-BUT IN ORDER TO A TI M E IT DID NOT YET LEAD TO EJACULATION­

SPEAK TEXT I N HAND A N D EXPOSED TO VI EW-; NO W I TH E L D TH E TURD AND URINE. REPEATED

USE E X P ECTI NG TH E N . A TEXT THAT M I GHT BE SEVERAL TI M E S A DAY. THI S OPERATION S E E M E D TO

D E SC R I B E D AS "SCHO L A R LY" OR "M A RG I N A L" ME IN NO WAY R E P R E H E N S I BLE. IT TOOK PLACE. AS

(N ECESSARY TERMS AT AN EPOCH DETE R M I N E D BY U NOBTR U S I V E L Y AS POSSIBLE. U N D E R THE DESK:

POLITICAL E NGAG E M E NTS OF AN ADM I N I STRATIVE FIST TH RUST I N TO M Y POCKET !ITS SEAMS FULL OF

KI N D. OR BY A HESITATION TO EXPRESS THE MOST C R U M BS. ORANGE P E E L, SUGA R. ETC.). J E R K I NG THE

VOCAL SOU N D I NGS OF THE M A STURBATORY TEXT). LITTLE S E X. TH ROUGH THE U N D ER PA NTS AT FIRST.

N O N E TH E L E S S . THE NEED TO MAKE MY FI RST THEN G R A D U ALLY. M O NTH BY MONTH AS THE

DECLA R ATIONS ON T H E R E LATIONSH I P M A STURBA­ PL E A S U R E BECA M E MORE P R A C T I S E D . W I TH

TION-WR I TING DATES FROM A POLITICAL CONTEXT U N D E R PA NTS PUSHED AGAI NST THE THIGH. FROM

("LA NOUVELLE C RITIQU E"). THAT TI M E ON I A LSO M A STURBATED M UCH LESS IN

THE WC. A C CO R D I N G TO A KIND OF G A M E. A

I R E M E M B E R HA V I NG B E G U N TO MASTURBATE AT C H A L L E N G E TO MY OWN BODY; ARSE DIST E N D E D

THE AGE OF N I N E. IN O R D E R TO "PUT OFF" A DESI R E OV E R T H E H O L E (OUT OF WHICH R I S E T O PALPITAT­

T O P I S S OR C R A P. AT THAT AGE IT W A S D I FFICULT ING MOUTH A N D NOST R I LS ALL THE OOORS OF THE

FOR ME TO PUT UP MY HAND IN CLASS AND S U M P A N D THE HERCY N I A N MOU NTA I N EA RTH ON

P U B L I C LY MAKE KNOWN MY N EEDS. DRAWING WHICH THE SCHOOL I S B U I LT. PERVADED. FI LTE R E D

ATT E N T I O N T O M Y S E L F AS A BODY. ORGA N I S M . BY THE F R A I L E R S M E L L OF S E M E N). A N D I - H I D D E N

PRODUCER OF M A TT E R . A LTHOUGH I H A V E N E V E R I N T H E V E R Y H A U N T OF H U M A N A N D OFTEN A N I M A L

EVER FELT THE LEAST E M B A R R A S S E D ON TH E DEJ ECTIONS (DOGS. CATS. SCREECH-OWLS FROM

CONTRARY. ABOUT B E I N G S E E N AS BODY. ORGANS. THE FARM COM I NG THE R E TO DE FECATE)- I . MOST

A L R E A D Y TH E N . BY D I SC O V E R ING AND PUTTI NG COMICA LLY. CONDUCTING A D I A LOGU E BETW E E N

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THE A RSE-HOLE AND THE SEX. BETWE E N T H E MORE A S S I D UOUSLY. AS EXC E PTIONALLY S E X U A L.

SLITH E R O F TH E T U R D A N D THAT O F T H E ORGASM. IT IS ONLY WHEN I BEGIN TO WRITE THAT THE

M A STU R B A TO R Y PROCESS A CC E L E R A T E S AND

LEA DS. A S E R ECTION A N D D I SC H A R G E I NC R E ASE I N

SOM ETI M ES. G E TT I N G OUT OF CONTROL. ORGASM
CAPACITY. TO A DRAMATISATION O F THE PRACTICE.
AND D E F ECATION TOOK PLACE S I M U LTAN EOUSLY.

AND SUCH M O M E NTS ARE P I N N AC L E S OF PLEA­

SURE. AS A R E S U LT. B E C A U S E M Y U N D E R PA N TS FOR T H I S R E LATION S H I P WRITI NG/MASTURBATION

BEAR T H E M A R K S (SOM EWHAT OVER- ESTI MATED) OF THERE ARE TWO MAIN SETTI N G S : ONE IS TH E

THI S TRA N S F E R . I R E F U S E TO G I V E T H E M TO T H E COLLEGE I NOW ATTE N D E D. T E R M T I M E . THE OTH E R

LAUNDRY OR T H E SC HOOL LA U N D R E S S E S . A N D HOME. HOLI DAYS. T H E FI RST SETTI NG I S D I V I D E D

H I DE THEM UNDER MY M ATTR ESS IN THE DOR­ INTO TWO: CLASSROOM A N D DOR M I TORY.

M I TORY, THEN. STUF F I N G THEM I N TO M Y POC KET

W H E N W E FALL I NTO L I N E AT 6 A.M. TO GO DOWN TO -CLASSROO M : I CONTI N U E MASTU RBATI NG WITH

C H A PEL. I CARRY T H E M OUTSI D E SCHOOL L I M I TS THE LEFT HAND. THE RIGHT HAND D E V OT E D
B E H I N D T H E T U M B L E DOWN W.C.: T H E R E . I H I D E T H E M H E NCEFORTH TO W R I T I N G -SOM ETI M E S A "DECENT'
U N D E R A PILE OF STON ES. IT H A PP E N S AT MOM E NTS TEXT ( PO E M S ) COP I E D A FTERWARDS ON TO L U X U R Y
OF PANIC THAT QUITE U N I N T E N TIONA LLY I SHEETS OF D R A W I N G PAPER A N D PUT TOGETH ER I N
EVACUATE TH E LAST OF MY S U PPLY OF U N D E R ­ A L B U M S OR "BOOKS", A T OTH E R TI M ES. A CON V U L­
PA NTS. AND AM FORC E D ( B U T W I T H WHAT PLEA­ SIVE SERIES OF O R G I A STIC NOTES K NOW N AS
S U R EII TO PUT MY PANTS ON OVER BARE SKIN. ORGIASTIC W R I T I N GS. W R I TT E N . SCRIBBLED ON
S U B M I TT I N G TO THIS A D D I T I ON A L STRA I N OF PI ECES OF R U LE D PAPER TO R N F R O M EXERCISE
DRESSI N G A N D U N D R E S S I N G I N P U B L I C U N TI L I CAN BOOKS. WHERE N E I G H BO U R I N G BODI ES. WITH TH E I R
R E C U P E R ATE A P A I R FROM UNDER TH E STON ES. OWN N A M ES. PHYSICAL P EC U L I A RI T I E S . CLOTH I NG.
D U R I N G T H E HOLIDAYS M Y MOTH ER. WHO DIED I N ETC.. BECOM E TH E D R A MATI S P E R SONAE OF THE
AUGUST '158. WAS SURPRISED B Y MY DWI N D L I N G ACT-BOYS WITH WHOM I LOOK AT POR NOGRAPHIC
PAC KET (NUMBER 49) OF WASH I NG . AND AFTER MAGAZI N E S BROUGHT FROM THEIR HOME TOWNS. A
LAY I N G SIEGE TO ME FOR S E V E R A L DAYS F I N I S H E D COM M U N A L EXCITE M ENT PRODUCI NG THE HOMO­
8Y REDUCING HER "WE E P I N G C H I L D" TO AN SEXUAL R E LATION S H I P W H I C H LINKS US U NCON­
A D M ISSION OF WHY AND W H E R E A BO U T S : A N D. SC IOUSLY ( A LTHOUGH W H E R E OTH E R S OF M Y K I N D
M A K I N G T H E MOST OF A V I S I T P A I D BY MY DOCTOR ARE CONC E R N E D I WAS THEN. AND STI L L AM.
FATH E R IN THE VIC I N I TY OF T H E SCHOOL. CLOSE D CONSCI O U S OF M Y S E X U A L S U P E R IORITY BEC A U S E I
F O R THE S U M M E R . S H E C A M E W I T H M E T O LI FT T H E CAN WRITE WHAT IS VOCALLY I M M I NENT BETW E E N
STONES ONE A FTER ANOTH E R A N D . U NKNOWN TO US). N OT I N F R EQ U E N TLY IN THESE N OT E S A
MY FATH E R WHO D I E D I N NOV E M B E R ' 7 1 . R E C U P E R­ PROCESS E M E R G E S (VERY PRODUCTI VE SUBCON­
ATE AND PUT BACK I N TO C I R C U LATION THAT SC IOUSL Y) IN CONTRADICTION WITH THE M ETHODS
I M PORTANT P A R T OF M Y WA R D ROBE. OF " D E C E N T" WRITI NG. N A M E LY: A WRITTEN

PHON ETISATION O F T H E USUAL SPEECH O F ONE OR

OTH E R OF TH E BOYS. BASED ON THEIR SEXUAL

THE R ELATION BETW E E N WRITING AND MASTU RBA­
BREAT H I N G Q U I C K E N E D BY TH E SIGHT OF THE POR N
TION A PPEARS FOR THE FI RST T I M E ROU N D THE AGE
P H OTOS. TO D A Y . I CA N'T SAY AT WHAT POI N T
OF TEN O R E L E V E N . I STA RT TO DRAW (WOM E N WITH
("DEC E NT" OR O R G I A STIC T E XT?) TH E MASTUR­
H A LOS. I L LU M I NATED TITLES) A N D THIS GESTU R E
B A TO R Y A C T BEGAN T O PREDOM I N ATE. BUT I F I A M
B R I N G S MY H A N D. MY R I G H T H A N D. TH E MASTUR­
PERS U A D E D T H A T NOBODY E V E R S A W M E MASTUR-
BATOR. OUT OF M Y POCKET. I I M M E DI A T E LY WOR K E D
8ATE IN C LASS. IT I S BECAUSE I A M MORE AND MORE
OUT ANOTH E R SYSTE M-WHAT I D O N ' T R E M E M B E R ­
CO NVI N C E D TH ROUGH M Y OWN E X P E R I ENCE AND
T O POSTPO N E T H E N E E D TO D E FECATE, THE N . THE
HEARI NG OTH E R S TALK. THAT MOST OF THOSE
LEFT H A N D . M O R E A N D M O R E E X P E RT. BEG I N S TO
RO UND M E W E R E DO I N G THE S A M E THING AT THE
TA K E OVER. TO M A STU R BATE. T H I S COI N C I DE S WITH
SAME TIME.
TH E FI RST E J A C U LATI ON. THE E X P U LSION T H E R E ­

FORE OF A NOTH E R M A TT E R . D I ST U R B I N G B E C A U S E

H A LF WAY BETW E E N S H I T A N D U R I N E. A N D WHICH. - D O R M I TO R Y, H E R E. MASTUR BATION WITH

BECAUSE IT S M ELLS AND WETS T H E CLOTHES. PUTS SUCC E S S I V E ORGASMS I N DU C E D BY LECH E ROUS

A STOP ONCE AND FOR A LL TO R E SORTING TO R E VE R I E . F U NCTIONS AT F I RST ON T H E THRESHOLD

ORGASM AS AN A NTI-DEFECATOR. I DON'T R E M E M ­ OF TH E S U BCONSCIOUS. ON T H E EDGE OF DREAM.

BER THAT P E R I OD . DURING WHICH I PRACTI S E D WHEREAS LATE R. I NTO WHAT I S A FTE R ALL A VERY

D R A W I NG A N D S PECIALLY PA I N T I N G MORE AND ORDI N A R Y SITUATION. I S I NTRODU C E D A N I M POR-

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TANT MATER I A L E L E M E N T : T H E M A S T U R B ATO R Y LITTLE LESS AT N IGHT ( M Y ROOM U N D E R T H E EAVES

COSTUME. W H I C H . ONCE T H E SESSION I S B ROUGHT AT SOME DI STA N C E F ROM TH E PARE NTAL BED­

TO A N END BY LACK OF J U I C E . M UST BE R E MOVED. ROO M . W A S R E LATI VELY P R I V I LEGED. A N D I COULD.

SPERM AND ALL. FROM BETW E E N THE THIGHS. ITS BY LEAVING TH E DOO R S ON TH E ATTIC AND

CLEAN END USED FOR W I P I N G BALLS AND P E N I S I N STA I RC A S E OPEN. FOR E STALL A N Y I M PORTUNATE

THE P R OC E SS. IN OTH E R WORDS. TH E ACT OF V I SITS FROM M Y FATH E R IF CALLED ON A N U RG E N T

M A STURBATION . ORIGI N A L LY M E RGED WITH S L E E P VISIT D U R I NG TH E N I GH T ) . T H E COSTU M E WENT

A N D D R E A M . I S P ROG R E S S I V E LY DISTI N G U I S H E D B Y THROUGH VARIOUS STAG E S . EVOL V E D OR DE­

TH E N E E D TO D I SPOSE OF THE COSTU M E A N D W I P E T E R IO R A T E D ACCOR D I N G TO TI M E AND PLAC E.

TH E ORGANS I N VOLVED B E FO R E GOI NG TO SLEEP. ORIG I N A LLY I T WAS M A D E U P OF TWO E L E M ENTS: A

MARKING IN THIS WAY A MATERIA L BOU N D A R Y K I N D OF J OC K-STR A P FAS H I O N E D F"ROM RAGS. A N D

BETWE E N CONSC I O U S N ESS AND U NCONSCIOUS­ A CLOTH L A I D U N D E R TH E C E NTRE O F OPERATIONS

N E SS. BECAUSE ALL O P E RATIONS HAD TO BE (OBV I O U S LY AT COLLEGE IT SERVED TO PROTECT

C A R R I E D OUT A S S I L E NTLY A S POSSI BLE. I BEC A M E THE S H E ET FROM STA I NS. BUT IN MY B E D ROOM IT

MORE AND MORE SKILLFUL IN M A K I NG THEM WAS OFTE N S U P E R FLUOUS AS THE SESSION OFTEN

COI N C I D E WITH O N E O F TH E PRE DICTABLE SOU N D S TOOK PLACE NAKED AND I N T H E RAW O N THE TILES

I N T H E DOR M I TORY-FOR E X A M PLE. TH E RUSTLE O F" OF T H E B E D ROO M FLOOR.

W R I G G L I N G O U T OF" T H E COSTU M E W I T H THE RUSTLE

OF THE P R I E ST'S CASSOCK A G A I NST TH E C U RTA I N

-TH E JOCK·STRAP: A M ET I C U LOUS SEARCH IN
D U R I N G O N E OF H I S ROU N D S OF I N SPECTION ( S I N C E
C U PBOA R D S . L U M B E R - R OO M . ETC. FOR THE
MY S E SS I O N A L W A Y S T O O K PLACE B E FO R E HE
M A TE R I A L . TH E CHOICE DETE R M I N E D BY T H E
RETI R E D TO H I S A LCOVE F O R TH E N I GHT)-QR W I T H
POSSIBI LITY O F SOM E O N E DISCOV E R I NG A PIECE
U N P R E D I CTABLE SO U N D S (OUTS I DE. A SUCCESSION
M I SS I N G O R TO R N F R O M A LE NGTH OF M ATERIAL.
OF DOGS BA R K I NG. OR A S U DDEN SHOWER) W H I C H
AND A L SO B E C A U S E OF ITS LEC H E ROUS E FFECT O N
SERVED AS DAMPER OR M UFFLER FOR MY
T H E BODY: N E V E R F O R I T S A E STHETIC EFFECTS.
BREATHING. A N D D I VERTED ATTENTION FROM THE
BECA U S E OF ITS SOFTN ESS. FOR EXAMPLE. BUT I N
HEAVING OF SHEET AND B L A N K E T. O N C E TH E

COST U M E REMOVED. A H A N D DRAWING IT UP A LONG F U NCTION O F ITS SOC I A L R E F E R E N C E (CHOICE O F A

PROLETA R I A N CLOTH AT A TI M E. 1 91515. W H E N I T

THE BODY WEIGHTED WITH WARMTH AND TH E
S E E M S T O M E T H E R E W A S STI L L A CONSI DERABLE
LATEST ODORS. IT WAS S L I D U N DER THE MATTRESS.
DIFFERENCE BETWE EN. LET U S SAY. MY MOTH E R
AS I SUFFERED FROM SOM N A M B U L I S M AT THE TI M E . I
A N D H E R M A I D I N T H E W A Y T H E Y DRESSED): THIS
WAS A F" R A I D OF F A L L I N G A S L E E P BEFORE H I D I N G I T .
S H O U L D B E S E E N A S A D R A M ATIC D E S I R E OF M Y
OR WALKING IN M Y S L E E P B R A N D I S H I N G I T . TH I S
EFFAC E M E N T A S T H E BOURGEOIS BODY: K N E A D I N G
F E A R . TOO VAG U E TO R E C A L L. N E V E R PREVENTED
B Y BOU RGEOIS H A N D O F BOU RGEOIS SEX TH ROUGH
THE D A I LY SESSION. SHOULD THIS BE S E E N AS AN
PROLETA R I A N TISSUE. M A S T U R B AT I O N AND
E A R LY MARK OF CON F I D E N C E IN MY U NCONSCIOUS
EJ A C ULATION PROD U C I N G A B L E N D I N G OF ONE A N D
BODY. IN THE POW E R O F CONTROL (NOT OF SE LF­
TH E OTH E R M E M B E R W I T H TH E D Y E A N D W O R N A N D
EFFAC E M ENT AT THAT PARTICULAR EPOCH) OF OR

G U I LT F E E L I NGS. I N EVITABLE I N THE ATMOS P H E R E FADING FIBRE IN A S E R I ES OF I NC R E A S I N G L Y

OF C U L T U R A L V I S C E R A LITY PRODUC E D BY TH E V I O L E N T ORGAS MS. C H O I C E DETE R M I N E D ALSO BY A

CLOTH C A PA B L E OF A C R A D L I N G O R LEC H E ROUS

PRACTI C E ? U NLESS. THE PROFOU N D PROSTlTU­
C U R B I N G OF TH E PARTS ( R USTIC WITHOUT RIGI DITY.
TION A L D R I V E TO W H I C H I WAS PREY AT THE TI M E .
G E N T L E IN ITS T H R EADBA R E G I V E . ACCORD I N G TO
PREVENTED M Y S L E E P I N G BODY FROM M A K I NG A

BAWDY STROLL BETW E E N BEDS AND BOD I E S . W H ETH E R I WAS IN TH E MOOD TO B E PI M P O R BAWD­

AND O FT E N IN THE COURSE OF A SESSION A

C H A N G E OF COSTUM E TOOK PLACE BETW E E N TWO

THE SECOND S ET T I N G A L SO COM P R I S E S TWO
ORGASMS. SO THAT I SWITC H E D F ROM BAWD TO
D ECORS: BED ROOM A N D "NATU R E".
P I M P. ACCOM P A N I E D OBVIOUSLY BY A S I M U L­

TAN EOUS C H A N G E IN ORGIASTIC TEXT: WITH P I M P'S

THESE TWO HOM E LY AND HOLIDAY SETTING ALLOW COST U M E P I M P'S TA L K O R VICE VERSA. WITH BAWD'S

MORE F R EEDOM FOR E LABORATE DRAMATISATION. COST U M E BAWDY TALK O R VICE V E RSA-. OR ELSE.

IT IS AT TH I S POI N T THE N . T H AT W E SHOULD IF UNDECIDED AS TO SOC I A L POSTU R E . BOT H

DESC R I B E T H E M A STU R BATORY COST U M E . FOR I T COST U M E S O N E ON TOP OF TH E OTH E R . BUT N E V E R

WAS AT HOM E . NOT AT COLLEGE THAT I M A D E I T : I N T O TH E POI N T W H E R E H A N D . P A L M A N D F I N G E R S

MY B E D ROOM AND U S U A LLY A T NIGHT. SINCE A C E A S E T O F E E L T H E E X A C T OUTL I N E OF M Y SEX; A T

C H I LD'S ROOM IS O P E N BY DAY TO ITS MOTH E R . A WHICH POI N T THE T E X T T U R N S I NTO A G E N E R A L

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A POSTROPHI S I NG OF MY BODY). U S U A LLY I M A D E THE OFFICIAL U N D E R PA NTS. A C L A N D E S T I N E

T H E COST U M E S S I TT I N G N A K E D ON TH E E D G E OF M Y COSTU M E . D E L I B E RA T E L Y A LLO W I N G TH E M O I ST

BED: I C U T TH E C LOTH BY G U E S S - WO R K . NOT SEXUAL MASS TO "NOR M A L I S E" IT, WARM ITS

BOTH E R I N G W I TH A HEM AS TH E ROUGH EDGES STRA N G E N E S S . SO T O SPEAK. R E WO R K I N G TH E

MADE IT LOOK MORE R E M I N I SC E N T OF A BAWDY SU BSTA N C E N E UTRALI S E D D U R I N G TWE NTY-FOU R

HO U S E. AROUND THE SIDES I PO K E D HOLES HOURS OF A B A N DON BY LETTI N G TH E SAPS SOFTEN

THROUGH WHICH I T H R E A D E D COA RSE PACK I N G A N D R E A N I MATE THE DRY S P E R M STUC K TO TH E

STR I NG. A N D TH E R E. ON T H E N A R ROW M E DI A N OF CLOTH. T H E N TA K I NG MY B I K E . I SET OUT FO R THE

CLOTH THUS P R E P A R E D. I SAT WITH A HARD ON. H I G HEST POS S I B L E PO I N TS IN THE M O U N TA I N S

FORC I N G IT DOWN SO TH E C LOTH COULD BE LACE D WHICH I KNOW A R E R A R E LY FREQU E NTED. T H E R E .

ROU N D MY LOI N S : THE SOU N D OF THE HOLES TA KIN G T H E C U R R E NT N O T E S OUT OF MY C L A M M Y

TEA R I NG UNDER T H E STR A I N OF T H E LACE S DURING POC K E T AND R E ST I N G TH E M ON ONE OF THE

MASTURBATION C O U LD. B Y R E F E R E N C E TO T H E SATCHELS FROM T H E B I K E. U N DO I N G MY FLY A N D

BO R D E L AND THE TH R E AT OF TH E COST U M E'S WRIGG L I N G MY H I PS SO T H E S H O R T S S L I P D O W N M Y

DESTRUCTION. PRECI PITATE ORGASM EVEN AT THE LEGS OF TH E I R O W N ACCORD. I D E N U D E . S O TO

EXPENSE OF A TEXT R I C H IN LECH E ROUS PROMI S E . SPEAK. TH E C L A N DESTI N E COSTU M E BY P U L L I N G

TH E SIZE OF THE C O ST U M E VA R I E S A LSO. THE OFFIC I A L U N D E RPANTS ASI DE. MY FIST

ACCO R D I N G T O TH E C A PACITY OF E RECTION A T A S E E K I NG T H E S E M I N A L H A LO D I S P E R S E D B Y THE

GIVEN PERIOD: THE PERIOD OF A DOLESC E NC E SEXUAL MASS D U R I NG ITS RIDE ON THE B I K E'S

W H E N I H A D M Y BIGGEST E RECTIONS CORRESPONDS SADDLE. THEN ST R ETC H O UT. B A R E - A R S E D , O N

WITH A COST U M E R E D U C E D TO ITS M I N I M UM. A GROU N D S E LECTED F O R I T S G E N E RA L H U M I DITY.

M I C ROSCOPIC SC R A P OF C LOTH OVER THE FRONT NAPE OF MY N EC K AGA I N ST A T R E E T R U N K : A F I R TO

ON LY. LACE D A R O U N D THE LOI N S A N D DOWN THE BEGIN WITH, SYM BOL FOR ME AT THAT M O M E N T OF A

CLEFT OF TH E A R S E . A K I N D OF SC R E E N WHE R E THE ROMANTIC. WESTERN A U STER I TY W H I C H . IN SPITE OF

J ET. S P U RT I N G FROM T H E R I G I D VOI D. ROD BENT TO TH E F A SC I N A T I O N OF M YT H . MADE ME R E J ECT

TH E STRA I N I N G C LO T H . STRI KES TH E STU F F GREEK H I STORY. TRAGE DY. AND E V E RYTH I N G THAT

DECORATED WITH ITS FOR M E R SPERM. HERE. IT I N LA N DSC A P E AND W R I T I N G A P PEA R E D AS IN THE

SHOULD BE REMARKED THAT THE PA RT W H I C H FULL LIGHT OF DAY-LATE R S UBSTITUTED BY A P I N E

ATT R A CTS ME MOST IN TH E MALE BODY. THE TREE (TH E TRUNK BOTH D R Y E R . W A R M E R. MORE

BUTTOCKS. R E C E I V E D. S O F A R AS T H A T P A R T OF M Y "OPEN"'. EXPULSING R E S I N O U S- S E M E N FROM ITS

O W N BODY WAS CON C E R N ED. NO S P EC I A L DRAMA­ C R EV I C E S ) AND BATH I N G THE O R G I A ST I C BODY

TISATION D U R I NG T H E S E SESSIONS. MORE "COS M I C A LLY" IN ITS S PA R E R S H A D E AND

STRON G E R ODOR: SINCE TH EN. T H E E F FORTS M A D E

TO REACH SUCCESSIVE ORGASM R E P E RC U T I N G

-THE CLOTH : NOTH I N G TO SAY A BOUT TH I S E XC E PT
THROUGH V E R TE B R A� M USCLES, N E R V E�
TO NOTE THAT TH E DOM I N ATING COLOR WAS R ED.
THROUGH TH E N A P E OF TH E NECK P U SH I NG ON
TEXT U R E SPONGY. I TOOK TO COLL E G E WITH ME THE
CERVICAL V E R T E B R A E. HANG OVER ALL MY
MOST E LE M E NTARY M A TE R I A LS !THAT I S TO SAY.
WRITING.
TH E LIGHTEST OF COSTU M E S AND THOSE THAT

LEAST R E S E M B L E D FACTORY-MADE U N D ERPA NTS.

M Y I D E A B E I N G THAT IN CASE OF A S E A RCH THEY

M IGHT AT F I RST G LA N C E BE M I STA K E N FOR A

IN THE NOTES I R E F E R R E D TO E A R L I E R ( N U M B E R E D
BANDAG E .
ACCORDI NG T O A H A B I T I STI LL RETA I N A N D W H ICH

CAN LEAD TO A WHOLE DAY'S SEARCH FOR A N IDEA

-NATU R E : D U R I NG TH E DAY WHEN MY BED­ TO BE TRAC ED THROUGH THE S UC C E S S I O N OF

RooM'S L A C K OF SECU RITY P R E V E NTED M E FROM " I DEAS" NUMBERED AND M ENTALLY NOTED TH E

SATI SFYI N G A DESI R E ACC E N T U A T E D BY THE N I GHT BEFORE) TH U S PUTTI NG A STOP-NOT SO

S U D D E N R E SOLUTION OF A PROBLE M O F WRITING MUCH TO T H E WORK OF WRITING (WH I C H F U N CTIONS

WHICH H A D BEEN TROUBLING M E FOR SOME TI M E WITH EVEN G R EA T E R I NTENSITY D U R I NG THIS

(ATTE M PTS AT A N E W SYNTAX). OR T H E TRANSC R I P­ SC I ENTI FIC S E A RC H FOR T H E LOST " I D EA" A N D ITS

TION OF A SOCIO-BO R D ELLO I N T U ITION; OR AGAIN. PLACE. A LSO LOST. IN TH E N M E NTAL FLUX)-BUT TO

BY A S U D D E N P A N I C B E FO R E T H E I N SOLUBI LITY OF MY "ADH E R A NC E" TO T H E A M BI E NT R E A L I T Y.

MY SOCIAL CONTRADICTIONS AND THE I R RE D UC­ EMOTIONAL. POLITICAL. SEXUAL. SO . THAT WHAT

TlBLE I NC A PA C ITY OF THOSE CLOSE TO ME TO H ELP E M ERGES IN TH E NOTES ARE W H AT M IGHT BE

M E U N D E RSTA N D TH E M EXCEPT BY T R E ATING TH E M TERM E D R E SO L U T I O N S BECA U S E OF TH E I R

W I T H STRICTLY E MOTIO N A L R E S PECT. I DON. U N D E R FOR M U LATION:

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"TON I G H T. ORGY" , "TOMORROW NIGHT. USE THE RECORDER IS A D D E D T O THIS V I S U A L D I S POSITION.

P L A S T E R COST U M E" / "TI GHTEN T H E COSTUME" , M AC H I N E AND M I C ROPHON E SET U P BETW E E N T H E

"LET THE S P E R M R U N DOWN MY LEGS" '''TREAD IN IT KNEES TO TApE TH E M A ST U R BATORY S E S S ION.

ON TH E T I L E S" / " E A T THE S P E R M " , NEXT MORNING. CONCENTRA T I N G ON SOUNDS PRODUCED R I GH T IN

E X A M I N E IT THROUGH A MAGNI F Y I N G GLASS" '''TH I S FRONT O F T H E MICROP H O N E. NA M E LY THE SPLASH

S U M M E R . S M E A R S P E R M ON M Y MOUTH" , "TONIGHT. O F SpE R M A S IT HIT T H E COST U M E . A RECOR D I NG

TIE TH E COSTU M E ROUND M Y NECK" , ETC . . THESE USED A FT E R W A R D S NOT ONLY AS A D D I TIONA L

R E SOLUT IONS A LTERNATING WITH OTH ERS A BOUT STI M U LA NT. B U T TO P U NCTUATE T H E M U SIC O F

M Y W R I T I NG. FI CTITIOU S L I STS OF RECORDS TO BUY. M A STU R B A T I ON.

OR S O M E M ECHANICA L PROB L E M ( R E PA I R S TO THE

B I K E . INVENTION AND FA B R I CATION OF I MAGINARY

THE SESSION TAKES PLACE B E H IN D C LO S E D
M A C H I N ES. ETC.). PERHAPS THIS SYSTEM OF
WINDOWS. N E U T R A L I SING D I U RNAL A N D NOCTUR­
R E SOLUTIONS CAN B E S E EN A S THE BEG I NNINGS O F
NAL SOU N DS FROM T H E VILLAGE. T H E TOWN. OR
A DRAMATISATI ON TH E N TA K I NG TEXTUAL. SOCIA L
B A C KG R O U N D NOIS ES. SO THAT THE M USIC.
AND POLITICAL FORM: IT A LSO. I THINK. PROVIDED A
V OC A L I SING ON THE O R G I A ST I C S C O R E . S O TO
SOLI D CORPOR E A L BASIS FOR M Y W R ITING. STI LL SO
SPEAK. M A Y RETURN TO THE BODY F ROM WHICH IT
F R A I L AND UNRECOGN I S E D . FINA LLY. IT SHOULD BE
COMES. ONLY LATER A N D ON R A R E OCCA S I ONS.
SAID TH A T T H E S E RESOLUTIONS CALLED FORTH
W A S C O M M E RCIA L M U S I C USED (GENRE POP SINGER
AND P R E P A R E D THE LONGEST POSS IBLE SCENA RIO:
AND ANGLO-SAXON POP. ETC" THE VOICES HIG H L Y
NOW. TH E FI RST ORGASM DESTROY E D TH E
CHARGED S E X U ALLY) TO WH I P UP F L A G G I NG
IMAGINARY EDIFICE (THOSE THAT FOLLOW E D
O R GIA STIC ENE R G I ES. IN WINTE R . THE N E E D IS SO
I M M E D I ATELY S E RVED T O PROLONG T H E TEXT A S
GREAT THAT EVEN T H E A W F U L COLD DOES NOT
FA R A S POS S I B L E A N D A T T H E SAME T I M E EFFACE.
P R E V ENT ME FROM M A ST U RBATING NU DE. EVEN
IF POSS I BLE. BY M USCULAR FATIGUE. BOTH T H E
LYING N A K E D . TENDONS TAUT A G A I NST T H E TILES.
"D E S P A I R" OF TH E DISGUISE AND THE POST
AND FO R Q U A RT E R OF A N H O U R A FTERWARDS IN A
O R G I A STIC RELAPSE I NTO A SA V I NG MYSTI C I S M I .
POST-ORGIASTIC STUPOR. WITH ORGA N S. M USCLES.
AND OF TH I S E X A LT E D R E SO L U T I O N NOT H I NG
N E R V E S FROZEN STI F F I N TH E I R R E LA XATION. LIKE
S U B S I ST E D IN MY E Y E S E X C E PT A L U D ICROUSLY
A FROSTY ECHO OF T H E O R G I A STIC C I R C U I T.
T R U NCATED SCENA RIO: B U T ON REFLECTION. WHAT

MORE B R UT A L L Y E X C I T I NG S P ECT A C L E C O U L D

TH E R E BE THAN A C H I LD M A S T U R B A T I NG IN D U R I NG THOSE S A M E W I NT E R HOLIDAYS. THANKS TO

COST U M E WITH H I S LEFT H AND. AND W R I TING WITH MY " P L U S-FO U RS" AND ON DAYS OF E XT R E M E

TH E OTH E R ? "SOLITU DE." I C O U L D P U T O N O N E OF M Y CLAN­

D E S TI N E C O ST U M E S. W E A R I NG IT TILL E V E N I NG

W H EN I H A D DECIDED TO MASTUR BATE: TO W A L K

M Y D I S A RRAY AT T H A T T I M E STEM MED FROM T H E R O U N D TH U S GI RDED IN THE F A M I L Y CIRCLE. O R

CONT R A D I CTORY D R I V E S T O B E BOTH S E E N AND A MONG MY FE LLOWS A T COLLEGE. GAVE ME AN

S E E- E R ("S E E R"). PIMP AND BAWD. BUYER AND A LMOST pER FECT SATISFACTION. PARTIC U L A R L Y I F

BOU G H T. F U C K E R A N D FUCKED. AND THESE D R I V E S T O TH E COST U M E UNDER THE OFFI CIA L UNDER­

WERE PA RTLY R E FLECT E D IN THE APPA RATUS PANTS. TIGHT ROUND ORGANS. LOINS. BUTTOCKS.

E M PLOYED D U R I NG T H E M A ST U R BATORY SESSION : C I RC U M SC RIBING MY VIRILE ATTRIB UTES. SO TO

FO R INSTANCE. W H EN M A STUR BATING ON TH E BED. S P E A K. W E R E STUCK SC R A PS OF TH E ORGIASTI C

A G A I N ST THE BOTTOM B A R S OF THE B E D- E N D N OT E S . AT THE END OF EACH M A STU R B A TO R Y

C L O S E S T T O M Y H E E LS. W A S P R O P P E D A P I E C E OF SESSION. T H E S E SCRIB B L E D NOTES WE RE. ONCE

FA M I LY M I R RO R (ONCE PART OF THE B E D ROOM T H E RELATI V E pA RTS HAD BEEN WIPED. ROLLED UP

MIRROR W H E R E M Y P A R ENTS COULD CONTE MpLATE W I TH T H E COST U M E IN THE CLOTH AND H IDDEN.

T H E M S E LVES FULL LENGTH ) . STILL BIG ENOUG H A LWAYS IN A D I FF E R ENT C R A NNY OF T H E ATTIC

FO R ME TO CONT E M P LATE MYSELF-IN A FOR E ­ W H E R E . D U R I NG T H E DAY ANO NIGHT P R ECEDING

SHO RTENING R E M I N I SCENT O F MANTEG N A -WH I LE THE N E XT ORGASM. I COULD COUNT O N TH E M

MASTURBATING: THIGHS OPEN. L E FT HAND A C Q U I RING A LAYER OF TH E DAMp AND D U ST

KNE A D I NG THE M A SS O F O R G A NS. C LOTH AND TYPICA L OF SUCH PLACES. IT SOMETIMES H A P­

STRING. BELLY AND LUNGS WOR K I NG LIKE B E L LOWS. PENED T H A T. FOR A GI N G TH ROUGH H E A PS OF RAGS

H E A D SWE ATING. EYES STA R I NG TILL ECLI PSED BY A N D PILES O F BROKEN F U RNIT U R E WITHO U T HAVING

THE ORGASM. AND TH E R IG H T HAND W R I TING. GIVEN ME FAIR W A R N I NG . THIS M A ST U R BATO R Y

W R I TING. W R ITING U NT I L THE SWEAT OF HEEL AND ROLL F E L L INTO M Y MOTH E R'S H ANDS. WHO. I N A L L

TOES M I STS UP THE M I R RO R. LATER. A TAPE INNOCENCE. PUTS IT SOM EWH E R E WHICH TAKES

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F I N D I NG: FOR EXAM PL.E. H A V I N G FINAL.L.Y TRACKED TIM ES. IN S U N A N D W I N D. IN RAIN. IN COL.D AND

THE ROL.L. TO M Y FATH E R'S G A RAGE UNDER THE HEAT. IN A C ROWD. R U N N I N G. S L. E E P I N G . IN

HOUSE. I GOT I NTO TH E H A B I T OF TA KI NG IT DOWN CONTACT WITH OTHER PROSTITUTI ONAL. BODI ES. I N

THE R E A FT E R TH E N I G H T L. Y M A STU RBATION. TH E STREET. I N SHOPPING CENTRES. ETC.-WHICH.

B R I N G I N G IT U P N EXT D A Y COV E R E D I N GREASE. SEEN IN R E T R O S P E CT. MAY APPEAR AS TH E

G I R D I N G IT O N L.IKE A M ECHA N IC'S A P P R ENTICE OR OUTWA RD M A N I FESTATION OF A CONTROL. I HOPE I S

ADOL.ESCENT PROSTITUTE. PRO M I S I NG MYSEL.F TO L.ASTING. EXT E N D I NG FU RTHER A N D F U RTHER. A N D

E XA M I N E IT AFTER M A STU R BATION FOR TRACES OF MORE AND MORE D I A L. ECTICALL.Y O V E R ALL MY

A MIXTURE O F SPERM AND G R E A SE. DRIVES.

AL.L THE ORGIASTIC NOTES OF MY ADOLESCE N C E

I N ITI AL.L.Y. ORGASM I S FOL.L.OWED B Y A REL.APSE
HAVE B E E N L.OST. T O R N U P I NTO M I N UTE SCRA PS S O
I NTO MYSTICAL. AND L.ITURGICAL. PHANTASIES. THIS
THAT NO ONE C O U L. D R E C OG N I S E TH E BAWDY
SWITCH. AT THE VERY MOMENT OF ORGASM. FROM A
TERMS I W A S A L. R E A DY U S I NG: O R TH ROWN AS THEY
M E N TA L I TY A N D A BODY STRETC H E D TO THE L. I M ITS
WERE DOWN THE WC AT THAT PRECISE MOM ENT
OF PROSTITUTIONAL. DESI R E TO A M E N TAL.ITY AND A
WHEN I K N E W A N D D I D NOT KNOW IF DES I R E WO UL.D
BODY SL.IPPING BACK I N TO T H E V I S UAL.. TACTIL.E.
RETURN. I HAVE A M EMORY OF SHORT FRAG M ENTS
A U D ITORY AND OL.FACTO R Y S E N SA T I O N S OF A
WHE R E NAR RATIVE AND SPEECH A L. T E R N A T E .
SOCI ETY LlTURGICAL.L.Y I M MA C U LATE. A PROCESS
SOM ETI M E S VERSE. AS I WAS W RITING M A I N LY
SO I M PERCEPTI BL.E IN ITS SWITCH OF E N E RGY. OF
POETRY AT THE TIME. IN AN E PH E M E R A L AND
FORCES. CROWDS. AND R I T U AL.S. THAT IT HAS
SUMMARY FASHION. T H E Y D R A M A T I S E D. UNDER
AL.WAYS CON V I N C E D M E . NOT ONL.Y OF THE E N E RGY
THEIR OWN N A M E S A N D APPEARANCE. CERTA I N OF
OF MY D R IVES. BUT AL.SO OF THE D R I V E B E H I N D AL.L.
MY SCHOOL. F R I E N DS. OR PEOPLE I HAD CA UGHT
HUMAN AND M A T E R I A L. A C T I V I TY. IT IS TH I S
SIGHT O F IN THE SL.UMS OF THE I N DUSTRIAL. TOWN
CONVICTION THAT. ONCE TH E COSTU M E A N D NOTES
WHERE THE COL.L.EGE FL.A U NTED ITS MACMAHON I E N
ROL.L.ED U P. R ESTORES ME TO EQU I L. I BRI UM. BUT
ARCHITECTUR E-FUGITIVE BUT OBSESSIVE VI­
EVEN BEFO R E THAT. BETWE E N THE FI RST ORGASM
SIONS-L. I K E THAT OF A BOY. GLI MPSED ONE
AND THE ROL.L. I N G UP OF TH E CL.OTH. CL.EAR­
SUM M E R E V E N I NG R ETURNING FROM A PIL.G R I M AGE
HEADED MOMENTS I N T E R V E N E: A FT E R THE
ON FOOT TO SOM E "GROTESQUE" CAVERN OF A
TRA NSPORT OF TH E F I RST ORGASM. BECA USE OF
M I RACUL.OUS V I RG I N . THE BITTER TASTE OF A D R I N K
THE S W I TC H IN MY TH O U G H T PROCESS. THE
DISTR I BUTED BY T H E G U A R D I A N N U N S STIL.L. I N O U R
COSTU M E S T I L. L. G I R D I NG ME SEEMS LIKE A
MOUTHS . . . TORSO B A R E. W E A R I N G A PA I R OF TIGHT
H O R R I FY I NG D E R ELI CTION BY COM PA R I SON WITH
BL.UE L. I N E N SHORTS SOAKED WITH SWEAT BETW E E N
THE I M MACUL.ATE L I N E N S O F LITU RGY (L.IT-QRGY):
THE T HI G H S . SEATED IN FRONT OF A HO U S E
THEN. AT A L.ATE R DATE. THE COST U M E STUCK TO
I NHAB ITED BY S L. A V WORKERS. H I S L.EGS SO W I D E
M Y FL.A N KS WITH S E M E N FEEL.S L I K E TH E PESTI L.EN­
APART I C O U L. D S E E THE WH ITE E DG E OF U N DER­
TIAL. CAST-OFF O F A DECADENT WEST AS OPPOSED
PANTS THAT M O U L. D E D A P R E COC I O U SL. Y DE­
TO L. I N E N AND OBJECTS R E STO R E D TO PRISTI N E
VELOPED V I R I LITY. HEAD THROWN BACK. THROAT
W H I T E N E S S AFTER EACH BOMB. EACH SPL.ASH O F
PULSI NG. BL.ACK C U RL.S STUCK TO HIS BROW WITH
M U D OR B L. oo D BY A REVOL.UTIONARY V I ET NAM. A S
WHAT I I M A G I N E D WAS SPERM. OR FL. U I D BELON G I N G
REVEAL.ED I N FIL.MS BY JORIS I V E N S A N D OTHERS.
T O A WOM A N I N A FUL.L D R E S S AND WHITE KERCH I E F

L.EANI NG. LAUGHING. O V E R THE BAL.L.USTRADE OF A

D U R I N G EACH SESSION. AS T H E R E ARE SEVERAL. ROUGH WOOD E N B A L. C O N Y A B OV E H I M-A MAN

EJAC UL.ATIONS. SEVEN AT MOST. T H E I NTERVAL. SUDDENL. Y L.OO M I N G U P BEHI N D THE BOY FROM A

BETWEEN THE FI RST ONE AND THE ROL.L.ING OF THE DARK PASSAGEWAY. BROOM IN ONE HAND. KNIFE I N

COSTUME IN TH E CL.OTH I S E M PL.OYED AS FOL.L.OWS: THE OTH ER. I N P U R SUIT O F A RAT-RAT J U M P I NG

FROM ONE E J A C U LATION TO THE N E XT I OSCIL.L.ATE OVER THE BOY'S B A R E N ECK. SPLASHI NG H I M WITH

BETWEEN TR I U M P H A L. L.OI N -CL.OTH AND A B J ECT ITS BL.ooD. V E E R I NG BACK TO THE WAL.L. SQU E A L.­

C A ST-OFF SO L. O N G AS THE W H O L. E IS NOT I N G. T R Y I N G TO SC A L. E TH E COA L- B LA C K E N E D

NEUTRALISED. WITH THE RES UL.T. THAT I N EITHER STON ES-A N D SUDDENL.Y. THE SHOWER THAT HAS

D I R ECTION ( M YSTIC O R POL.ITICAU MASTUR BATION BEEN THREATE N I NG. BREAKS OVE R THI S S U B U R B

E X C R ET E S DESIRE AND ITS A N T I DOTE S I M U L.­ HANG I N G A L. O N G A SCHIST OF ROCK. WHERE

TA N EOUSL.Y: TH E "HYG E N IC" R E FL. E X (WIPING AND FAMI L I E S L. I V I N G IN C E L. L A R S A N D AT G R O U N D

ROL.LlNG U P) F R U STRATI N G WHAT. FOR OBVIOUS LEVEL. HAVE T O C L. E A N UP THE SHIT THE M SEL.VES.

SOCIAL. REASONS. IT C A N C EL.S OUT. N A M EL. Y: THE THAT POU R S FROM BU RST SEWERS I N TO THE I R ONE

W E A R I NG OF T H E S E M E N-SOA K E D COSTU M E AT AL.L. AND ONL.Y L.IVI NG ROOM.

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A M O N G OTH E R REAL OR I M A G I N A R Y BOD I E S . 'ON TH I S EXC H A NGE: HAVING WEDGED THE E RECT

WOM E N . VERY SEXY O F B U M O R BREAST. A LREADY M E M B E R I NTO TH E COST U M E BY IMPRESSING ON IT A

LOOKED ON AS "SERVANTS OF THE MALE BODY." PROP ULSION THAT R E M I N DED ME OF A COG-WHE E L

WEARERS OF MASC U L I N E ATTI RE R EMOVED FOR OR A SCREW. I ABANDONED IT. D I R ECTI NG MY

"I NTERCOURSE" (MORE FA M I LI A R TO M E AT THAT THOUGHTS TOWA R D NON-SEXUAL ZONES. M Y EYES

MOM ENT AS A N E N S E M B L E OF SOCIAL POSTU RES ON A PAGE OF E UROPEA N H I STORY I N A BOOK I KEPT

TH A N AN ACT OF P E N ETRATION). PUSH E R S OF BESIDE THE BED. O R B ETTER STI LL. A PAGE OF
ORGI ASTIC BODI E S. MENDERS OF PROSTITUTIONAL P H I LOSO P H Y O R H I STORY OF PH I LOSOPH Y .

G A R M E N TS TOR N D U R I NG "I NTERCOURSE." TH E A LLOWI NG TH E M EMBER TO SUBSI DE. A N D WRITING

FREQUENCY OF TH I S S E X U A L C HOICE SHOULD BE AS MUCH TEXT A S POSSI B L E B EFORE IT ROSE

SET AGAI NST A NOTH E R VERY DEFINITE TENDENCY AGA I N . TH I S I COU L D DO SEVERAL T I MES. U NTIL THE

OF MY F I FT E E N T H OR S I XTE E NTH YEAR: AS I MOMENT CAME WHEN TH E M E MBER. OVER-STI M U ­

REMEMBER IT. TH R E E Q U A RTERS OF MY WAKING LATE D BY R EPEATED M A N I P U LATION. ERECTION/

THOUG HTS ARE B U S Y PLOTTI N G "HOMOS E X U A L" D E J ECTION/RE- ERECTION. DISCHARGED ITS J ET

SC E N A R I OS. W H I LE S L E E P A N D DREAM AFFORD M E B E FO R E I COULD S U M MO N UP ALL THE M E NTAL A N D

O N L Y CONFRONTATIONS. I N TH E NUDE. WITH THE COR PO R E A L TENSIONS T H A T USUALLY PRESIDED

BOD I ES OF VERY REAL AND BAWDY WOME N . QUITE AT THE MOMENT OF ORGASM. O N THE OTH E R HAND.

E A R LY IN THE PIECE. BOTH M A LE AND FEMALE THE STR I C T U R E OR L A X ITY O F TH E COST U M E

SCE N A R I OS TA K E A T U R N TOWARD SLAVERY IN MOULDING TH E TEXT M A D E I T EITHER TOUGH OR

ANTIQUITY (TH E LATI N I S E D OR GRECIAN N A M ES OF TENDER. E V E N COMIC. IF I LET THE COSTU M E H A N G

BODIES CONSTITUTI NG BY T H E I R SOLE E N U M E RA ­ LOOSE ON M Y LOI NS. THE M A N I P U LATON O F T H E

TION ALL T H E TEXT R E Q U I R E D T O STI M U L ATE P E N I S I N S I D E THE U N I N H IBITED CLOTH PRODUCED A

DESIRE): THEN THE TH E M E CHA NGES TO PROSTITU­ RELAXED TEXT. S P E ECH A N D N A R RATIVE WRITTEN

TION AS I LE A R N FROM R A D I O HOW S E X UALLY WITHOUT THOUGHT OF TH E P ROSTIT U T I O N A L

C H A R G E D C E R TA I N O B V I O U SLY MODERN N A M E S SITUTATION; WH EREAS THE TIGHT LAC I NG OF THE

CAN BE. TH E I R HACKNEYED. COMMON SOU N D CLOTH ON TH E M E M BER. ITS E R ECTION SCREWED

E V O K I NG A PROSTITUT I O N A L "SO A P O P E R A . " DOWN. OR FORCE D TO TH E BACK OF THE BA LLS.

(DU R I NG M Y TRIPS T O NORTH A FR I CA I DISCOVERED I N D U C E D A TEXT OF N A R RATIVE AND SPEECH I N

THAT MANY A R A B SERVA NTS. SHOP ASSI STANTS WHICH TH E H A R D ECONOMIC FACTS O F PROSTITU­

AND APPRENTICES CALL T H E MSELVES "CH A R LEY." TION (SALE. H I R E. P R I C E OF BOD I E S. COST OF

"JA C K Y." " E D D I E . " " FR A N K I E . " ETC . ) THE ONLY M A N I P ULATING TH ESE BODIES. ACCOUNTANCY OF

OFFIC I A L FRENCH NAMES THAT FIGURE AMONG THE NUMBER OF TIMES. ETC.) FO U N D TH E I R

THE S E ANGLO-SAXON BORROWI NGS A R E OF SLAV EXPRESSION IN THE H A N DW R ITI NG ITSELF.

ORIGIN (SERGE). I H A V E A LWAYS CONSIDERED THAT CRA M PED A N D MORE D E L I B ERATELY VE RTICAL

TH E NAMES I NTEGRAL TO THE F RENCH LANGUAGE

CARRY WITH THEM TH E DESUET ATMOSPH E R E OF A

WESTERN CIVILI SATION W H I C H . AT THAT TI M E . WAS TH I S A LT E R N A N C E . M U LT I P L I E D LATER BY T H E

TRYI NG TO I M POSE ON M E THE MOST I NS I P I D A N D NUMBER OF PLACES (HOTELS. ETC.) I N WHICH I

SUPERFICIAL OF I T S PRODUCTIONS. M A ST U R B A T E D . LED TO A R E P ET I T I O N WITH

VARIATIONS O F PRECEDING SEQU ENCES I N S C R I B E D

ON TH E MASS OF NOTES WHICH I COULD NOT

THE I R REGULAR A LTERNATION N A RRATIVE/SPEECH TRA N SPORT. PRODUCI NG A TEXT W H E R E TYPI N G
SHOULD A LSO B E SEEN IN R ELATION WITH THE N ECESSA R I LY OPERATED A C H O I C E OF I N TRO­
POS I TIONING OF ORGANS AND COSTUME. OR WITH DUCED A N O R D E R : THE M A N U SC RIPT ( 1 962- 1 969)
TH E D EG R E E OF THE M E M B E R'S ER ECTION. FOR B E A R S G R A P H I C WITNESS NOT ONLY TO THE DETA I L
EXAM PLE: PRONO U N C E D E R ECTION ACCELE RATES A N D C H RONOLOGICAL C U RVE O F TH I S PROCESS O F
ORGAS M I C URGE NCY. WHICH MEANS THE TEXT HAS I NT E R A C T I O N . B U T A LSO I N I T S W R I TI NG. O F A
TO B E WRITTEN IN H ASTE; THIS H A STE ONLY A LLOWS P R OG R E S S I V E C O N V E R G E N C E B E T W E E N T H E
FOR WORDS TO BE PUT ON PAPER. OR FRAGME NTS "DECENr' (THAT I S TO S A Y TH E PUBLISHABLE OR
OF WORDS. I NT E R J ECTIONS W I THOUT SYNTACTIC P U B L I S H E D ) TEXT WITH TH E G R EAT SEXUAL SWELL.
LINKS-QNLY SPEECH. T H E R E FORE: BUT GRA DUAL­ FROM TH E M E ET I N G O F THESE CONT R A D ICTO R Y
LY. A S I GOT M Y "TONGUE" I NTO THE WRITI NG OF C U R R E NTS. " D E C ENT" T E XTII N DECENT M A ST U R ­
FRENCH. SO TO SPEAK. F A M I L I A R ITY AND EASE IN BATORY. R E S U LTS TH E ABUNDANCE. I N THIS
H A N D LI N G ITS RH ETOR I C GAVE M Y HAND TH E SPEED M A N U SC R I P T. O F V A R I A T I O N S . R E P E T I T I O N S .
NECESSARY. I N C A S E OF A P RONOUNCED E REC­ O V E R LA P P I NG O F SEQUE NCES. NOMINAL CONFU­
TION. TO WRITE A NARRATIVE SEQUENCE. I PLAYED SIONS. ETC. D U R I NG THIS P E R I OD WHICH I

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R E M E M B E R B E ST. FROM O N E NIGHT TO ANOTH E R . SEL.VES. A R E I N V E N T E D S I M U L.T A N E IOUSL.Y WITH

F R O M A FTERNOON T O E V E N I NG ( A T C E RTAIN TI M E S WORK ON A "DECENr' TEXT. W H I C H M AY SUBSE­

THE RESURGENCE OF DESIRE A C C E L. E R AT E S . QUENTL.Y ENTA I L M A KI N G CERTA I N C UTS. FINA L.L.Y.

H E N C E TH E EXAL.TATION O F C E RTA I N TEXTS. NO A N U M B E R OF NOTES FROM THIS P E R I OD. WHEN I

DOUBTI I HAVE TO I N TE R R U PT WHAT THREATENS TO WAS ASSAILED BY THE DIFFI C U L.T I E S OF PUBLISH­

BECO M E A P H YSIOL.OG IC D A N G E R - P U L.M O N A R Y . I NG EVEN "DECE Nr' TEXTS. L.ET AL.ONE A L.ITERARY

CARDI AC. R E N A L.-A N D B R I NG M Y B O D Y B A C K TO PUBL.ICATION OF T H E NOTES. ARE U N R E A DABL.E

WHAT I BELI E V E 15 A CRUDER. M O R E COM M O N TODA Y : ST U C K A N D U NS T U C K BY S U C C E S S I V E

R E A L. I TY: D E S I R E AND ITS R E SOL.UTION I N TH E ORGA S M S . A L. L. T H A T E MERGES THROUGH THE

ORGASM: THE STYL.E C H A NG E S . A FRAGMENT OF FADED M I XT U R E O F I N K A N D S E M E N . A R E FRAG­

R HETORIC CHOSEN FOR ITS QUASI-B A N A L.ITY TO FIT M E NTS OF S E X U A L. WORDS. I N S U L.TS. A POSTROPHIC

TH E "DECENr' TEXT SUCCEEDED BY A FRAG M E NT PUNCTUATION. OR PRICES OF TH E SAL.E AND H I R E

OF SPEECH OR N A RRATIVE TEXTUA L.L.Y COMPLEX O F BODI E S . A N D NOM I N A L. A P P ELL.ATIONS. PRINCI­

AND ELL.IPTIC IN ITS J ARGON. I T SHOULD B E NOTED PAL.LY BECAUSE WHEN WRITING NAMES AND

THAT THE TEXTUAL. AND MASTURBATORY SESSION. NUMBERS I PRESSED H AR DEST WITH T H E N I B .

A BOVE AL.L. O N E THAT PRODUCES WRITI NG-JARGON.

15 P R E PA R E D "T E X T U A L. L. Y" L. O N G HOURS IN P I E R R E GUYOTAT

ADVANCE OF TH E SESSION: R H Y T H M I C A L. S .

MODUL.ATIO N S . WORDS O F T H I S J A RGON TH E M - fRANSLATED B Y CAT H E R I N E D U N C A N

I STRUGGLED WITH A D E M O N I N TH E WOODS. I WAS NAKED A N D ALONE.

I SAT UPON THE ANCI E NT STUM P.

TOUCHING TH E C R U MBLED FINGERS THAT HAD I HOWLED LIKE A BEAST U PO N T H E DEAD SHADOWS
FEL.L.ED TH E TREE.
WHERE THE FA L.L.EN TREE HAD L.AIN.
MARVEL.L.lNG T H ROUGH TH E I R EYES AS IT TOPPLED

SL.OW.
AND I SPRINKLED TH E GRASSES WITH MY OFFE R I N G

TO I T S SILENCE A N D I T S WOO D E N C A R ESS.

THOSE ECHOS STIL.L. TREM BL.ED IN TH E GRASS.

THOSE FOOTPRINTS STI L.L. FL.ICKED TH ROUGH TH E

THE DEMON L.EFT M E AND S L E PT UPON THE
S U NL.IGHT.
OFF E R I NG.

GL.IST E N I NG THE R E L. I K E A M U S H ROOM AFTER R A I N .

THE DE MON SEIZED M Y L.OINS A N D WRESTL.ED TH E M .

T H E S U N L. A Y L. I K E A P R E S E N C E ON M Y C H EST. DA N I E L SL.OATE

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TWO L I TTLE GI R LS

CASE H I STORY J E A LOUS. E N V I O U S . V I N DICTIVE. Q U I C K TE M P E R E D .

HER MOOD WOU L D CHANGE W I TH O U T WA R N I NG.

SOM ETI M ES IN A FIT OF RAGE SHE ROLLE D

X . . . WAS TEN Y E A R S OLD. O F D E LICATE COM PLE­
SCREA M I NG ON THE F LOOR: OR SHE BECAM E
XION. TH I N . N E RVOUS. EXTREMELY I N TELLIGENT.
D E P R E S S E D FOR N O R E A SO N . A T OTH E R T I M E S S H E
RAT H E R OLD-FA S H I O N E D I N H E R W A Y S . SHE ACTED
WAS POS S E S S E D BY A F E V E R I S H GAI ETY. OR E LS E
AND T A L K E D LI K E A GROWN-UP. A LWAYS S M I L I NG.
F E L L I NTO A BROWN STUDY. S H E W A S COQU E TT I S H
WITH SOM E T H I N G SACC H A R I N E I N H E R EXPRESSION.
A N D A TT R ACTI V E . A DO R E D CLOTH ES A N D DOTED O N
A H I N T OF' HYPOC RISY THAT SEEMED OUT OF PLACE
P E R F U M E. ONE F A C T THAT SHOULD B E NOTED I S
IN SOM EO N E OF HER AGE. HER KIND AND

C ON S I D E R ATE M A N N ERS MADE E V E R YON E LIKE THAT FROM E A R LY C H I LD HOOD SHE STOLE AND

C A R E F U LLY H I D OBJECTS THAT TOOK H E R FANCY.

H E R. S H E W A S P R O U D . V A I N . CAPR ICIOUS. I N EVERY

G A M E SHE H A D TO B E THE LEADER. RESE RVING FOR EVEN WHEN TH E Y COULD HAVE B E E N H E R'S FOR

TH E A S K I N G . T H I S TENDENCY TO TH E FT H A D B E E N
HERSELF TH E ROLES OF Q U E E N . PRI NCESS O R
REMARKED WHEN SHE WAS NOT YET FIVE. SHE
FA IRY. A LWAYS TRYI NG T O DOM I N ATE T H E OTH E R
LOV E D TO LEARN A BO U T T H I N G S AND NEVER
C H I L D R E N A N D F I G H T I N G TOOTH A N D N A I L I F T H E Y
S TO P P E D ASKING Q U E ST I O N S . OF A LIVELY
D A R E D OPPOSE H E R . S H E E X E R C I SEr;> A CON S I D E R ­
I MAGI NATION. S H E L I K E D W H A T WAS B E A UTIFUL. B U T
ABLE I N FLUENCE ON A LL H E R C O M PA N I O N S .

TYRA N N I Z I N G T H E M A T TI M E S. IN SPITE O F THAT. D I S L I K E D P R A Y I N G ON T H E CONTRARY. POK E D F U N

THEY PUT U P WITH IT B E C A U S E OF HER U N F A I L I N G AT T H E PI ETY O F OTH E R C H I LD R E N A N D M A D E A

C H A R M . S H E WON EVER YBODY'S HE ART W I T H H E R F A C E W H E N TOLD A BOUT GOD.

SWEET AND TE N D E R D I S PO S I T I O N . E V E N L I TTLE

BOYS W E R E H E R A D M I R I N G SLAVESI LITTLE X . . . WAS E A R LY IN 1879. THE C H I L D BEGAN TO LOSE WEIGHT

GOOD AT PRETE N D I NG . AND THE GAME S H E L I K E D IN SPITE OF HER USUAL A P P ETITE. SHE WAS

PL A Y I N G B E ST OF A LL WAS G E TTING MARRIED. ANAEMIC AND H I GH L Y E XC I TA B L E . TH E R E W E R E

SUCCESSI V E LY. S H E M A R R I E D A N D DIS M I SS E D A L L SIGNS OF LEUCORRHOE A I C D I SC H A RG E FROM T H E

H E R L I TT L E BOY F R I E N DS. I N S I STING T H E Y SHOULD G E N I T A L ORGA NS. A N D A N A L I R R ITATION. A LOCA L

BE H E A RTBRO K E N TO THE PO I N T OF TEARS. E XA M I NATION R E V E A L E D T H E P R E S E N C E O F ENOO-

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PARASITES. C A L.O M E L. S U P PO S I TO R I E S WERE ADM ITTED, AT THE S A M E E POC H STEA LING BECA M E

PRESCRIBED A N D TH E C H I L.D GIVEN A TREATM ENT A D A I L Y EVE NT. CAPRICIOUS A N D QUARRELSOME,

OF IRON A N D BROMIDE OF POTASSIUM. AS A RESUL.T H E R B A D T E M P E R M A D E THE CHIL.D U N B E A R A BL.E.

OF TH I S T R E A T M E N T X . . . S E E M ED TO I M P ROVE. THE GOV E R N ESS A LSO NOTICED HOW L.ASCIVIOUS

TOWA R D THE MONTH OF JUNE TH E SA M E YEAR. IN HER MOV E M E NTS X . . . WAS BECOM I NG. AT TIMES
PETTY L.ARC E N I E S OF DESSE RT. SWEETS. RI BBONS X... WOUL.D EVEN STA RT SCRATCHING H ERSEL.F
A N D OTHE R SMAL.L. OBJECTS ARE CONTI N UAL.L.Y W IT H BOTH HAN DS. HER FAC E BETRAYING AN
P E RPETRATED BY X . . . WHO FAL.L.S INTO TH E TRAP EVIDENT PLEA S U R E. QUITE OPEN LY A N D AT ANY
SET FOR H E R . GIVEN M O M E N T TH E CONTACTS WOUL.D BE RE­

PEATED. T H E C H IL.D DEVEL.OPED A STRANGE WAY

OF WAL.KING; SHE WALKED WITH H E R L.EGS APA RT.

I N SPITE OF BEING CAUGHT RED H A N D E D L.ITTL.E X . . .
B E N D I N G H E R K N E E S A N D ROLLING THE HIPS. IT
D E N I E S H E R GU ILT WITH BLATANT DEFIANCE; SHE
WAS MOST I NDECENT B E HAVIOUR. SEATED ON A
POSES AS OUTRAGED INNOCE NCEI SHE PROTESTSI
C H A I R . S H E A DOPTE D REVOLTING POSITIONS; SHE
H ER FACE CONTORTS WITH RAGE; TH E SC ENE WAS
SAT O N T H E EDGE. OPENED HER LEGS. BENT
I NDESCRIBABL.E. FROM THAT DAY ON A PROGRES­
FORWARD. A N D L I K E T H I S CONTRACTED SUCCES­
S I V E CHANGE TOOK PLACE I N THE CHIL.D. MORAL.L.Y
SIVEL.Y VARIOUS PA RTS O F HER BODY IN ORDER TO
AND PH YSICAL.L.Y: SHE S E E M E D MORE AND MORE
GIVE H E RSEL.F VOLU PTUOUS SENSATIONS.
SICKLY. AT TH E SAME PERIOD IT WAS NOTICED TH AT

SH E WAS FORE V E R GOING TO T H E LAVATORY AND

STA Y I N G SO L.ONG THAT AT TIMES SOM EON E WENT AS KINDNESS M A D E NO I M PRESSION ON X . . . WHO

TO LOOK FOR H E R; ON ONE OCCASION SHE WAS GAVE H E RSELF UP MORE AND MORE TO VICE. THERE

FO U N D ASL.EEP TH ERE. IT WAS AL.SO NOTED THAT WAS NO HELP FOR IT BUT TO CHANGE TACTICS AND

D U R I N G GA MES X .. . HAD A SPECIAL. L.IKING FOR TA KE STE R N E R M E A S U RES. EVEN TO B E HARSH A N D

H I D I N G IN TH E S H R U BBE RY. OR OFF IN TH E WOODS C R U E L. IF N EC ESSARY.

W I TH C E R TA I N C H I L. D R E N . AS FAR AWAY AS

POSS I B L E FROM M A I DS A N D GOV E R N E S S E S; A

CORPORAL PUNISHM ENT WAS R ES O R T E D TO.
LITT � A R BOU R WAS H E R EXC L.USIVE PROPE RTY.
PARTI C U L A R LY FLOGGI NG. X . . . SUBM ITTED WITHOUT
SH E TOOK A C H A I R OUT TH E R E A N D REFUSED PROTEST. BUT A LS O W I THOUT ANY SIGN ON
ACC E S S T O A L L EXCEPT C E RTAIN FAVO U R ITES.
I M P ROV E M E NT. S H E B E C A M E ABJ ECT; H E R FEA­
BOYS A S WELL AS GIRLS. S H E CAL.LED IT HER TURES TOOK ON A BESTIAL. EXPR ESSION. SHE
"PL.EASURE PAL.ACE." SHE OFTEN STAYED TH ERE SPREAD HER LEGS. TIGHTENED HER BODY AND
FOR A LONG TIME WITH A LITTLE BOY. WHAT WENT ON
P R OC U R E D THE V O L U PTUOU S SPASM. WHEN
I N THAT PLEAS U R E PA L.ACE? SUSPICION WAS NOT SCOLDED S H E T R E M B L. E D A N D WEPT BITTERLY. S H E
YET SUFFICIENTL.Y A ROUSED. A T ALL EVENTS THE W A S T E R R I B L Y A FR A I D O F T H E R O D W H I C H W A S
C H I LDREN PL.AYED AT G E TT I N G ENGAGED AND
A D M I N I S TE R E D U N S P A R I NGL.Y; A N D I N S PITE OF
BEING MARRIED. THEY E V E N EXCHANGED RINGS
THAT S H E A B U S E D H E R S E L F MORE A N D MORE IN A
A N D PROMISED TO MARRY EACH OTH ER WHEN THEY THOUSA N D WAYS; WITH H E R HANDS. H E R FEET. WITH
G R E W U P. A N Y KINO OF FOR E IGN BODY THAT CAME TO HAND;

R U B B I NG H ERSELF ON' THE COR N E R S OF F U R N I ­

LATER AN END WAS PUT TO THIS PRECOCIOUS TURE. A DOPTI N G CERTA I N POSES A N D STIFFE N I NG

I NTIMACY AND SUPE RVISION I NCREASED. WITH CONTRACTIONS, ETC. ETC. FURTHER ON I WIL.L

D E SC R I B E IN DETA I L. ALL THE ING E N IOUS M ETHODS

INVENTED D A I LY BY HER F ERTI LE I M AGI NATION. A N D

IN MA RCH 1881, X . . . WAS ST RICKEN BY VIOL.ENT
TH E E N E RG Y S H E E X P E N D E D I N P E R PETRATING
PA I N S IN TH E LOWER A BDOM E N , WITH TEN ESMUS
WHAT S H E HERSELF C A LL.ED HER HORRORS.
AND H A D GREAT DI FFICU LTY IN URINATI NG; IT WAS

TH E N THAT H A VING A S C E R TA I N E D , DE VISU, A

PRONO U N C E D I R R ITATION OF THE VU LVA WITH AT THAT PO I N T I T WAS D ECIDED TO ATTACH H E R

SWELLING OF THE VARIOUS PA RTS, I MADE MY H A N DS, TH E N H E R L.EGS A N D FEET. R E M A RKABLY

F EARS KNOWN TO THE PARE NTS. X . . . WAS FORCED ENOUGH. THE U P P E R PART OF HER BODY GREW

TO A D M IT TH E PRACTICES SHE INDULG E D IN, WEPT THI N N E R AND T H I N N ER . W H I LE THE THIGHS. H IPS

COPIOUSL.Y A N D PROM I S E D NOT TO DO IT AGAIN. IN AND G E N ITA L ORGA N S DEVELOPED. IN FRONT OF

S PITE O F THAT SHE CONTI N U E D TO L.OSE W EIGHT. THE GOVE R N ESS. HER PARE NTS. S E R V ANTS.
K I N D N E S S , A D V I C E , A D M O N I SH M E N T S , S U P E R­ F R I ENDS, STRANGERS. S H E TOOK UP LASCIVIOUS

VISION , NOTHING HAD ANY EFFECT ON HER. X . . . POSES AND GAVE WAY TO HER PASSION I N THE

CONTI N U ED HER S E L. F - A B U S E , A S S H E L.A T E R MOST I N DE C E N T FASH IO N . H E R BEHAVIOUR EVEN IN

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THE S T R E ET A T T R A CT E D THE ATTENTION OF SO OFTEN HA P P E N E D. T H E HACK E T AND STR A P

P A S S E R S- B Y . T H U S . N E I TH E R K I N D N E SS NOR REMA I N E D IN PLACE. WHILE THE SEXUAL PA RTS

SEVERITY H A D THE SLIGHTEST E F F ECT. WERE CO V E R E D IN B L OOD AND MARKED BY

SCRATCHES. SOM ETI M E S EVEN D E E P GASHES.

F L OGG I N G MADE HER SEEM MORONIC. MORE

D E C E I T F U L. MORE PERVERSE. MORE S P I TE F U L. I N THIS WAY SHE ALM OST A LWAYS M A N A G E D TO

THOUGH KEPT U N D E R CONSTANT WATCH. SHE STILL SATISFY HERSELF D U R I NG THE N I GHT. WHEN SHE

MANAGED TO SATISFY HERSELF I N A THOUSAND DI DN'T SHE WHI M PE R E D. E M ITTING RA UCOUS C R I E S

DIFFERENT WAYS. WHEN SHE D I D NOT SUCCEED IN THAT GREW MORE A N D M O R E SAVAGE. J E RK I N G

D U P I NG HER G U A R D I A N S. SHE FLEW IN TO THE MOST HERSELF F U R I O U S LY ON THE B E D. WORKI NG

FRIGHTFUL TEMPER. SHE FROTHED AT THE MOUTH. HERSELF UP TO �UCH A STATE SHE K N E W N E I TH E R

CHA NGED COLOUR: SHE WRITHED AND STRUGGLED RESTR A I N T N O R SHA M E: S H E GROU N D H E R TEETH.

FURIOUSLY IF A N YO N E TRIED TO HOLD HER. AT CURSING EVERYONE. SHOUTING AT THE TOP OF H E R

SUCH MOMENTS SHE SHOUTED AT THE TOP OF HER LUNGS: " I DETEST DADDY. I LOATHE MUMMY. PLEASE

VOICE. SOBBING: "WHY DO YOU DEPRIVE ME OF SUCH GOD MAKE THEM DIE," I N SHORT. SHE WAS P R E Y TO A

AN INNOCENT PLEASURE?" AND A M O M E N T LATER: FIT OF M A D N ESS: HER FACE BECA M E DEAD WHI TE.

"ITS DI RTY. I KNOW. BUT THATS MY BUSINESS. LET ME HER EYE-BA LLS ROLLED AND GLA R E D AS I F THEY

ENJOY MYSELF! IF IT KILLS ME. WHAT DO I CARE? I WANT WOULD BU RST FROM THE I R SOCKETS. DROPS OF

TO DO IT AND DIE. I WANT TO!" SWEAT STOOD O N H E R TEMPLES. THESE VIOLENT

SC ENES. TH ESE ATTACKS OF FOLLY W E R E FOLOW E D

ONE DAY SHE S A I D THE FOLLOWI N G PRAYER: "DEA R BY AN I M M E D I ATE R EACTION. WITH DEMONSTRA­

GOD. I F. AS MY S I ST E R SAYS. YOU ARE A LL­ TIONS O F T E N D E R N ESS A N D REPENTA NCE. I N SUCH

POWE R F U L. SHOW ME A WAY TO 00 I T WITHOUT MOMENTS OF A F F ECTION AND LUCI DITY SHE

S I N N I NG . " ADMITTED E V E R YTHING A N D TOLD H E R SECR ETS.

P R OMI S I N G TO I M PROVE AND B E GG I N G FOR

ANOTHER CHA NCE.

AT THIS EPOCH A STRAIT-JACKED WAS E M PLOYED

TO P R E V E N T THE C H I L D T O U C H I N G H E R S E LF

CONT I N UOUSLY. BOTH FO R E A R M S WERE HELD DURING THE D A YT I M E W:-I E N TH E TE M PT A T I O N

CROSSED ON T H E CHEST. HANDS I N PROXI M I TY OF BECA M E I R R E S I STABLE. X . .. ASKED A S A M E A N S O F

THE SHO U LDERS: LEGS A N D F E ET SET W I D E APA RT OVERCO M I NG I T . T O WASH HER P A R T S WITH C O L D

A N D F I R M L Y ATTACHED TO THE I RO N B E D-STEAD: A WATER. BUT SOON THESE ABLUTIONS B E C A M E OVER

BODY-BELT IN THE FOR M OF A STR A P FIXED THE F R EQU E N T. B E FO R E LONG I T WAS D I SCO V E R E D

TRU N K TO THE MATTRESS BY CORDS K NOTTED TO THAT A L L THE S PONGES H A D B E E N PO K E D F U L L OF

THE BED. IN SPITE OF ALL THE S E PRECA UTIONS X .. .. HOLES. AND THAT THE WASHING WAS NOTH I N G B U T

BY A V E RITABLE TOU R D E FORC E WORTHY OF THE A PRETEXT IN O R D E R T O SATISFY H E R C R A V I N G

D A V E N PORT B R O TH E R S . MANAGED TO UNTIE WITH I M P U N ITY. I N ONE OF HER M O M ENTS OF C A L M

E VERYTHING I N O R D E R T O SATISFY H E R C RAVI NG. I N AND R EPENTA N C E . X ... MADE THE FOLLOW I N G

THE MORN I NG T H E S E X U A L PARTS BOR E OBVIOUS CONFESSION:

TRACES OF ASSAULT BY A SHA R P I N ST R U M E NT. THE

FOLLOW I N G N I GHT A WATCH WAS K E PT UNDER "I VAGUELY RECA LL. BECAUSE I T HAPPE N E D YEARS

PRETEXT OF S L E E P. W H I C H P R O V E D THAT SHE AGO. A MAID WHO LOOK E D AFTER M E WHEN I WENT

SUCCEEDED I N ATTA I N I NG H E R OBJECTIVE AFTER TO BED LI FTI NG H E R SKI RTS A N D R U B B I NG HER

SEVERAL HO U R S OF E F F O R T. C O N TO R T I N G SHA M E F U L PA RTS FOR A LONG T I M E. I THIN K I T WAS

HERSELF I N I M I TATION O F THE K A BYLES. HER BODY SHE WHO G A V E M E THE I D E A OF TOUCHING MYSE LF,

FREQUE NTLY SHA K E N BY SPASMS. THEN. SUPPORT­ LATER I HAD A GOV E R N ESS W HQ. WAS A LWAYS
ING HERSELF ON THE CROWN O F H E R HEAD. SHE TELLING ME NOT TO PUT M Y HAND S'.TH E R E : SHE
PULLED AT THE JACKET WITH HER T EETH UNTIL SHE TOLD M E NOT TO SO OFTEN IT M A D E ME C U R I O U S

SUCC EEDED IN R E ACHING THE S E X U A L PARTS WITH A N D I SA I D T O MYSELF THAT J U S T ONCE WOULDN'T

HER H A N DS. D U R I NG THE DAY SHE HAD TA K E N THE HURT. ITS A LONG T I M E AGO NOW S I N C E I GOT I NTO

PRECAUTION O F H I D I NG HAI R- P I N S IN H E R PILLOW. THE HABIT. I USED TO GET U P EARLY TO PLAY WITH

AND THESE SHE PULLED OUT AT N I GHT AND MY DOLLS. I USED TO DRESS THEM A N D PLAY WITH

STRAIGHTENED WITH H E R TE ETH: THU S. B Y HOLDING MYSELF A UTOMATICA LLY. WHE N EVER I FELT BOR E D

ONE END OF THE E XT E N D E D PIN IN HER M OUTH. SHE I ALWAYS PLAYED THE S A M E GAME. BUT WITHOU T

WAS A B LE TO TOUCH H E R S E L F WITH THE OTHER. R E A LL Y WANTING TO. W I TH O U T G E T T I N G ANY

THIS WAS THE A N SWER TO THE R I DDLE O F HOW. AS PLEASU R E FROM IT. LATER. I USED TO P R E T E N D I

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H A D SOMETH I N G WRONG W I TH ME DOWN THERE. A N D "WH E N AT L A ST' SHE WENT ON. "PEOPLE BEGAN TO

PLAYED A T G I V I NG M Y S E L F A DOUC H E OR BATH I N G NOTIC E W H A T WAS H A PPE N I NG A N D TR I E D TO STOP

MYSELF AND PUTT I N G ON A POU LTICE. I USED M E. I GOT I NTO A TE R R I B LE RAGE. I SA I D NOBODY

WHATEVER I COULD F I N D. G R A SS. S A N D . E T C . G I V I N G HAD THE RIGHT TO STOP ME U S I NG MY F I NG E RS A N D

MYSELF THE DOUC H E WITH L I TILE STI CKS: FOR MY BODY AS I W A N T E D TO. I B LA M E D EVERYONE.

Y E A R S I'VE L I K E P U TI I N G LlTILE STICKS UP M E. BUT E V E N GOD FOR HAVING MADE M E U N H A PPY AFTER

ITS A LWAYS BEST R E A L LY WHEN YOU C A N DO I T LETIING ME BE SO H A PPY. I GREW WICKED AND

WITH EXACTLY T H E T H I N G Y O U F E E L L I K E A T T H E W A N T E D T O DO AS MUCH HARM AS POSS I B LE. I

M O M ENT. LA T E R THE DESIRE C A M E OVER ME AT O FT E N THOUGHT O F T H E DEVI L A N D C A L L E D ON H I M

A L M OST REG U L A R I NTERVA LS. AT FI RST. TOUC H I NG T O H E L P M E. HE D I D C O M E. I S A W H I M. H E M A D E

MYSELF TWO OR THREE T I M ES WAS E NOUGH. E V E RYTH I N G E A SY. H E H ELPED M E G E T F R E E . T H E

USUALLY I N FRONT (THE C LI TOR IS), B U T LATER I F I RST TI M E H E C A M E THOUGH. I T W A S W I THOUT M Y

H A D TO RUB H A R D E R A N D HA RDER. WHEN WE LIVED A S K I NG. I T WAS D U R I NG THE N I GHT. I W A S I N BED.

I N SUCH A N D SUCH A HOUSE (1877) I SHOWED M Y WHEN ALL AT ONCE THE WAR DROBE OPE N E D A N D

LlTILE SISTER HOW T O DO IT. ( T H E LITILE S I STER T H E D E V I L A P P E A R E D. H E W A S B I G. A L L BLACK A N D

WAS FOUR YEARS OLD AT T H E TIM EIl I GOT 80R E D G R I N N I NG. HIS EYES WERE GREEN. THEN. EVERY

P L A Y I N G TH E G A M E ON M Y OWN: I WA NTED SOM EON E C U P BOA R D O P E N ED. EVERY DRAWER. AND OUT

TO DO IT WITH M E . M Y LlTILE S I STER D I DN'T ENJOY I T CAME A SWARM OF L I TT L E DEMONS. IT WAS

A N D DI DN'T WANT TO: I M A D E H E R. S H E ONLY 8EGAN H O R R I B LEI I'VE N E V E R FORGOTIEN THAT A BOM I N ­

TO LIKE IT I N THE WI NTER OF 1881. A B L E S I GHTI

"WE DID LOTS OF T H E S E HOR RORS WITH Y .. . WE "IT WAS A FT E R THAT I R E P E N TED. I WENT TO

U S E D TO SHUT O U R S E L V E S U P I N THE LAVATORY C O N F E S S I O N . BUT IT WAS I M POSS I B L E TO STOP A N D

AND TAKE ALL OUR C L OTH E S O F F . ST A N D I N G I STA RTED A G A I N . I OFTE N CA LLED ON T H E DEVI L TO

OPPOSTIE A N D TOUC H I N G EACH OTHER. SOMETI M E S H E L P M E: O N C E I FELT H I S H A N D ON MY SHOU L D E R

W I T H OUR H A N D S . SOMETI M E S W I T H B I TS OF WOOD. A N D SOM ETI M E S I B E GG E D H I M T O K I L L M Y P A R E N TS

AFTERWARDS I M A D E F R I E N D S W I TH A LITILE BOY I A N D M A K E E V E R YO N E SU FFER. IF ONLY I COU L D B E

L I K E D VERY M UCH. A N D I D I D THE S A M E HORRORS A D E M O N M YS E L F T O M A K E M I SC H I EFI

W I TH H I M . SOM E MONTHS LATER I SHOW E D LITILE

V . .. HOW TO DO I T AND W E USED TO TOUCH EACH " E V E N SO. I LIKE GOI NG TO C H U RC H AND R E A D I N G

OTHER. TH E B I B L E . I F I N D I T V E RY SOOTH I NG" . . . W H I C H D I D

N O T P R E V E NT H E R F R O M B E I NG C A UG H T O N E D A Y

P E R F O R M I NG HORRORS W I T H H E R PRAYE R-BOOK I N

"ITS AWFUL TO WANT TO DO I T A N D NOT BE ABLE TO.
A C RO W D E D C H U RC H .
I TS ENOUGH TO D R I V E YOU M A D. I WOU LD HAVE

KI LLED A N YO N E WHO TRI E D TO STOP US. AT

MOMENTS LIKE THAT IT'S AS !F I'M G!DDY. ! CAN'T A F U RTH E R P ROOF THAT THE POOR C H I LO

S E E. I CA N'T T H I N K. I'M NOT A F R A I D OF A N YT H I N G OR SUFFERED FROM M E NTAL A B E R RATION WAS THE

A N YBODY. NOTH I N G M A TI E R S SO LONG AS I CAN DO FACT THAT N O T ONLY D I D S H E PRACTI SE O N A N I S M

ITI I N A L L ITS R E F I N E M E NTS. BUT U R I N AT E D A L M OST

U PR I G H T IN F RONT OF H E R SI STER. A FTERWARDS

E XA M I N I NG TH E PATIERNS MADE BY T H E JET OF

"WHEN I WAS SAD O R C ROSS A BOUT SOMETH I NG I
U R I N E. S H E A LSO H A N D L E D H E R E XC R E M ENTS A N D
D I D IT ALL TH E M O R E : FOR I N STANCE THE T I M E S I
FORC E D H E R L I TI L E S I STER T O D O L I K E W I S E .
WAS CA UGHT STE A L I N G I D I D IT WORSE THAN EVER.

THAT WAS W H E N I STA R T E D STIC K I NG U P BITS OF

WOOD AND RUBBING HARD ( V AG I N A L O N A N I S M ). IN A DD I T I O N TO T H E PRACTI S E S A LR E A D Y C ITED.

OFTEN I USED A PALM FROND THAT HAD BEEN X . . . PROVO K E D THE VOLUPTUOUS SPASM BY

BLESSED I N J E R U S A L E M . " ( A PPARENTLY T H I S PALM R U B B I N G H E R S E L F ON T H E ANGLES OF F U R N I T U R E.

FRON D GAVE HER MORE SATI SFACTION THAN ANY BY P R E S S I N G H E R T H I G H S TOG ETH E R. OR ROC K I N G

OT H E R FO R E I G N BODY B E C A USE IT ADDED TO BACKWARDS AND FORWA RDS ON A CHAIR. OUT

S E N S U A L PLEA S U R E T H E SPI RITUAL ECSTASY OF W A L K I NG S H E WOU L D BEGI N T O L I M P I N A N O D D WAY

SACRILEGE.) F I N A LLY. A FT E R U S I NG S M OO T H A S IF SHE WERE LOP- S I DED. O R K E PT LI FTI N G ONE

I N STR U M ENTS. SHE R E SO R T E D T O SHARP ONES. OF H E R F E ET. AT OTH ER TIMES S H E TOOK LlTILE

SUCH AS SCI SSORS. FORKS. O R D I N A R Y P I NS. ETC. STEPS. W A L K E D Q U I C K LY. OR T U R N E D A B R U PTLY

SHE PARTI C U LA R LY L I K E D H A I R-PI NS. THE SIGHT OF L E FT. F I N A LLY SHE T R I E D AND OFTEN SUCCEEDED

O N E WAS ENOUGH TO M A K E HER WANT TO USE IT. I N STR I KI NG H E R PA RTS WITH T H E EDGE OF A PIECE

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OF WOOD. W H I C H S H E R E L E A S E D B Y PRESSING IT I N D U LG E I N THE S A M E M USC U L A R CONTRACTION S

WITH H E R FOOT. A N D PROD U C E T H E S A M E SOU N D S I M ULTANEOUSLY.

YET. TH E C H I LD R E N R E M A I N I M MO B I LE. A S IF N A I L E D

T O TH E I R B E D . A N D P R E T E N D T O B E A S L E E P. X . . .
IF S H E SAW SOME SCR U B S H E STR A D D LE D IT A N D

R U B B E D H E R S E L F B A C K A N D FORTH. THE C H I LD'S SAYS I T TAKES A LONG TI M E . SOMETI M E S MORE

PATI E N C E AND CUNNING WERE TRULY A M AZI NG! THAN A N H O U R TO R E A C H THE FI N A L VOL U PTUOUS

OFTEN SHE LOCATE D A S H R U B TO B E M A D E USE OF SPASM IN THIS WAY. I F. A FTER HAVI NG LEARNT

FROM TH E S E NOCTU R N A L SCENES. X . . . WAS G I V E N

S E V E R A L DAYS LATER.
A GOOD SLAP A S SOON A S S H E B E G A N . S H E COULD

BE STO P P E D . BUT IF SHE HAD TI M E TO WO R K

SHE P R E TE N D E D TO FALL OR S TU M B L E O V E R
HERSELF U P. A SUDDEN I N TE R R U PTION BEFORE
SOM ETH I NG I N O R D E R T O R U B AGA I N ST I T . A L L A T
THE CLIMAX CAUSED TH E OUTBR E A K OF T E R R I B L E
O N C E S H E WOULD STOP A N D EXCLA I M : "LOOK A T
STOR MS. T H E N X . . . SC R E A M E D. STRUGGLED L I K E
THAT P R E TTY F L OW E R I " S I MPLY TO D I V E RT
O N E POSSE S S E D. A N D FELL I NTO C LON I C OR TON I C
ATTENTION A N D G I V E . A Q U I C K K I C K OF T H E H E E L TO
CONVULSIONS.
H E R PA RTS.

AS W E HAVE A L R E A D Y STATED. WHEN X . . . BEGAN

BUT THAT WAS NOT A LL! B Y C U N N I NG A N D PRACTI CE
TO PRACTI S E O N A N I S M I T WAS NOT TH ROUGH TH E
X . . . WOULD ATTA I N H E R OBJ ECTI V E I N WAYS THAT
EXIGENC I E S O F NATU R E . THAT IS TO SAY. THE N E E D
WERE I NCONCE I V A B L E IN A LITTLE GIRL OF GOOD
T O MASTURBATE DID NOT ORIGI N ATE FROM THE
FA M I LY. W E L L BROUGHT-U P S I N C E C H I LDHOOD. I N
SEXU A L ORGA N S. I T W A S A THOUGHT. A C E R E B R A L
H E R I T WAS C E RTA I N LY D U E TO M O R A L PERVERSITY.
I M PULSE THAT INCITED X... TO STI M U LATE THE
A LEWD I NSTI NCT. AN ETH I C A L N E U ROSIS IN THE
SEXU A L PA RTS. STI L L M UTE A N D U N R ES PONSIVE. A
MORAL S E N S E. AS SHOWN BY THE FOLLOW I N G
BETTER WAY OF PUTTING I T WOU LD BE TO SAY THAT
EXA M P LE: THOUGH WATC H E D O V E R B Y T H E E Y E S O F
AT FIRST. MASTURBATION WAS E N C EPHALIC. ONLY
A RG U S . X . • • IS S U D D E N LY OVERCOM E BY TH E
LATER DID I T BECOME G E N ITAL WHEN TH E CLITO R I S
I R R ES I ST I B L E DESI R E TO COMMIT H E R HORRORS.
AND VAG I N A ROUSED AND MADE SENSITIVE BY
SHE IS TIED UP. PUT I NTO H E R STRAI T J A CKET A N D
R E PEATED CONTACTS. GAVE R I S E I N TH E I R T U R N TO
C H A STITY B E LT I P U B I C BANDAGE). H E R F E E T A R E
THE LASCIVIOUS CONC E PT. THUS. X . . . AT TH E POI NT
ATTA C H E D. A N D YET T H E VOLUPTUOUS S ENSATION
IN HER H I ST O R Y WHICH CON C E R N S U S AT TH E
I S A BSOLUTELY ESSENTI A L ONCE SHE GETS THE
MOMENT. WAS D R I V E N TO CONTI N U E HER DISAS­
IDEA. SHE C A N N OT R E S I ST P U TT I N G IT TO
TROUS H A BITS BY TWO DIFFERENT I MPULSES:
E X E C UT I O N . SO S H E CONTRACTS H E R N EC K TO
CEREBRAL A N D G E N ITAL.
M A K E IT SWELL. HOLDS H E R B REATH M O M E NTARI LY.

M A K E S E FFORTS A S IF S H E WANTED TO BLOW H E R

NOSE O R E X PECTORATE. AFTE R W H I C H S H E STARTS OFTEN. A S SOON A S TH E F I R ST TOOK PLACE. IT

SQU E EZ I N G HER ANUS AS AT TH E END OF REPERCUTED A S IF B Y LIGHTNI N G ON THE SEXUA L

D E F EC A T I O N . T H U S . B Y TH E A LT E R N A T I V E CON­ ORGA N S . AND X . . . B E CA M E I N C A PA B L E OF

CHEC K I N G TH E I RR E S I STABLE D E S I R E TO SATI SFY

TRACTING AND R E L A X I NG O F THE ANAL SPHI NCTE R

A N D A N A L LEVATOR. BY THE R E PETITION OF THESE H E R PASSION.

MOVEM ENTS W H I C H I H A D HER PERFORM I N FRONT

OF M E. T H E VAGIN A'S CONSTRICTOR I S M A D E TO WHEN. FRIGID PHYSICALLY SPEAKI NG. X . . . GOT THE

TA K E PART I N TH E S E SPASMODIC CONTRACTIONS. I DEA OF M A ST U R BATI NG. S H E B R A C E D H E R WHOLE

WHICH PERTU R B T H E WHOLE P E R I N E U M . TH E V U LVA BODY A S STI F F L Y A S SHE COU LD. P R I N C I PALLY THE

SWELLS. A N D A DULL. R H YTH M I C SOU N D C A N BE LEGS. THUS P R O VO K I N G PHYSICAL DESI R E

HEARD SOME D I STA N C E AWAY. IN E F F ECT. THE CONSECUTIVELY TO T H E C E R E B R A L STI M U LUS. AT

A LTER N ATIVE OPE N I N G AND CLOS I N G OF T H E LA B I A THAT PERIOD S E X U A L E R ETH I S M WAS SUCH THAT A

PUDENDI PRODUCES A SMACKING SOUND. NOT S I NGLE TOU C H WAS E NOUGH TO PRODUCE ORGA S M .

UNLIKE THAT R E S U LT I N G FROM A S U D D E N LY T H E MORE S U D D E N TH E TOUCH . THE M O R E QUICKLY

OPEN I NG OF T H E L I P S W H E N TH E MOUTH H A S B E E N THE DISCHARGE OC C U R E D. I N T H E MONTH OF J U N E .

CLOSED. OR THE S I M I LA N C E OF THE TO N G U E AS A R E S U LT O F C O N S I D E R A B L E A B U S E . X . . .

AGA I N ST T H E PALATE. T H I S MONOTONOUS NOISE I S SUFFE R E D FROM A FIT O F N E RVOUS TR E M B L I N G

OFTEN K E PT U P F O R A G OO D PART O F T H E N I GHT. T H A T G A I N E D A L L H E R L I M BS. A N D ACCOM PAN I E D

THOSE IN C H A RG E O F THE C H I L D SAY I T IS ODIOUS BY PA I N S SO VIOLENT TH E Y MADE TH E CHILO

TO H A V E TO LI STEN TO I T IN TH E SILENCE W I TH ONLY SCREAM. T H I S W A S FOLLOW E D B Y A TETA N I C STATE

TH E N IGHT-LIG H T B U R N I NG. OFTEN BOTH C H I LD R E N LASTING S E V E R A L M I N UTES. D U R I N G WH I C H IT W A S

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I M POSSIBLE FOR H E R TO PERFORM THE SLIG HTEST UP S H E LLS AND L I TT L E STO N E S WHICH SHE

MOV E M ENT: SHE WAS A R I G I D AND MOTI ONLESS AS I N S ERTED I N T H E PARTS. O R E LSE. W H I LE GETTING

A FROG SUBJECTED TO VIOLENT E LECTRIC SHOCKS. U N D R ESSED. S H E STOLE A HAIRPIN A N D HID IT IN

HER MOUTH UNTIL SHE FOU N D A FAVOU R A B L E

THIS GAVE HER SUCH A FRIGHT SHE WAS GOOD FOR MOMENT T O U S E I T . S H E WOU L D D I V E A N D STAY

SEV E R A L DAYS A FT E R W A R D S . X . . :S G E N E R A L UNDER WATE R SEVERAL SECONDS IN ORDER TO

H E A LT H WAS D ET E R I O R A T I N G RAPI DLY. SHE M A N I PULATE H E R S E LF.

COM PLA I N E D OF VIOLENT H E A DACHES: S H E WAS

SUBJECT TO A SUDDEN N ERVOUS RISE IN FROM TI M E TO TI M E X . . . HAS MOMENTS OF

TEMPERATURE THAT LAST E D SEVERAL HOURS: S H E REMORSE. A D M I TT I N G THAT SH E IS ON THE

HAD ER RATIC PA I N S ALL O V E R HER BODY AND D OW N W A R D PATH. WEEPS AND P R OM I S E S TO

SHOOTI N G PA I N S IN HER PA RTS. THERE WERE I M PROVE. BUT IT I S NO M O R E T H A N A D R U N K A R D'S

FREQUENT ATTACKS OF A N X I ETY. SUFFOCATION. PLEDGE. A MOM E N T LATE R SHE I S I N VENTING SOME

PALPITATIONS WITH A T E N D E N C Y TO LI POTHYMY. AT NEW TACTIC. O N E DAY. FOR EXAMPLE. ON R E C E I V I N G

TI M E S SHE BECAME HIGHLY AGITATED. I NC A PABLE A L E TT E R F ROM H E R MOTH E R E XHORTI NG H E R T O

OF KEEPING STILL. S H E WOU LD J U M P UP FROM H E R I M PROVE. S H E IS MOVED TO TEARS BY I T S T E N D E R

CHA I R A N D PA C E U P A N D DOWN T H E BEDROOM: S H E A FFECTI O N . BUT AT T H E SA M E MOMENT T H E LETTER

COULDN'T SLEEP A N D D E C L A R E D SHE SPENT TWO THAT H A S SO MOV E D HER I S B E I NG ROLLED I N TO A

OR TH R E E NIGHTS AT A T I M E WITHOUT CLOS I N G H E R SPOO L WHICH. UNDER HER CLOTH ES. SHE A RT­

EYES. S H E IS U TT E R L Y W O R N OUT. A S W E L L AS I N A FULLY I NTRODUCES I NTO H E R SEXUAL PARTS. S H E

DEPLORABLE MENTAL ST A T E . SHE IS ONLY C A NNOT B E LEFT ALON E F O R A MOM E N T. NOT E V E N

A LLOWED OUT O F H E R STR A I T-JACKET A T M E A L W H E N R E S PO N D I N G TO U RG E N T CA LLS OF NATURE.

T I M E S. EVEN S O . D U R I N G T H O S E BRIEF MOME NTS O F AT N IGHT O N E GOES SO F A R AS TO T I E LITTLE B E LI.S

L I B E RTY. H E R O N E A N D ON LY THOUGHT I S TO G E T TO THE H A N D S A N D FEET OF THE TWO C H I LD R E N

H E R H A N DS ON H E R PA RTS. OR I N SERT A F O R K OR ATTAC H E D W I TH T H E I R STRAIT-JA C K ETS. B E LT A N D

TH E H A N DLE OF HER K N I FE. ON ONE OCCASION. STRAPS AS A L R E A D Y D E SC R I B ED. I N O R D E R TO

CAUGHT RED-HA N DED. TH E FORK I S SNATC H E D PREVENT ALL M O V E M E N T. A LL DANGEROUS

FROM H E R. SHE B U RSTS I N TO TEARS. J U M PS U P FRICTION. BUT HOW DOES ONE PREVENT T H E

F R O M TH E TA B L E A N D Y E L L S AT T H E TOP O F H E R MUSCLES O F THE P E R I N E U M FROM CONTRACTI N G

VOI C E : I WANT TO! FOR PITY'S S A K E LET M E DO IT! AND PRODU C I N G VOLUPTUOUS SATI SFACTION IN

SPITE OF A L L PRECAUTIONS?

AS X . . :S STATE P ROGR E S S I V E LY WORSENED. IT

WAS D E C I D E D. IN O R D E R TO AVOID A SCANDAL, OR

S E N D H E R TO T H E COUNTRY. S H E WAS I NSTA LLED IN X. . . OFTEN SPOKE OF THE D E V I L WHO C A M E TO

A C H A LET I N T H E M I D D L E OF A GARDEN. H E R LITTLE FREE ONE OF HER HANDS AND H E LP HER

SiSTER Y . . . AGED A BOUT SIX. TO WHOM SHE HAC P E R PETRATE H E R HORRORS.

I M PARTED H E R S H A M E F U L H A BITS. WENT WITH HER.

AND IN A DDITION TO T H E STAFF. TWO GOVERN ESSES SEA BATHS HAVING OVER-EXCITED T H E C H I LDREN'S

WERE ENGAG E D TO WATCH OVER THE C H I LD R E N N E RVOUS SYSTEMS. THEY W E R E R E PLAC ED BY SOFT

DAY A N D NIGHT T O C H ECK A N Y GUI LTY I NCLINA­ WATER BATHS. W A R M A N D PROLONGED. A DOSE OF

TIONS. EVERYTH I N G H A D B E E N WELL ORGA NIZED: FOU R G R A M M ES OF B R O M I D E OF POTASS I U M P E R

TH E DAY DIVI D E D I N SUCH A WAY AS TO OCCUPY D A Y . M I LK. VEGETA B LES. B E E R . NO R E D M E AT.

EACH MOMENT. AND D I V E RT THEIR ATTENTION FROM

VICE BY I N C U LC A T I N G R E L I G I O US S E NT I M E N T S
THIS D I ET AND THE PROLONGED BATHS CON·
THROUGH PRAYER AND R E A D I NGS F R O M P I O U S
T R I BUTED FU RTH E R T O TH E C H I LD R E N'S W E A K E N E D
WOR K S .
STATE. FOR A BOUT TH R E E MONTHS THINGS

CONTI N U E D I N T H E S A M E WAY. WITH A RE PETITION

WA L K S T W I C E A DAY A N D VARIOUS G A M E S D I D MUCH OF TH E SAME SC E N E S OF A G I TATION AND

TO MAKE TH E I R LIFE A G R E E A BLE. BUT TO NO VIOLENCE.

PURPOSE. X • . :S ONE I DEA WAS TO OUTWIT T H E

VIGILANCE OF H E R G U A RDIANS. WHILE TH E MAID IF PRESENTED WITH A C RU C I F I X X . . • BECAME E V E N

W A S D R ESSING H E R . S H E WOULD SUDDENLY PUT MOR E U N M A NAGEAB LE. BITING A N D SPITTI N G ON IT.

HER FINGERS ON HER PARTS. OR GIVE THEM A K I C K C R Y I N G OUT THAT SHE P R E F E R R E D THE DEVI L WHO

W I T H H E R H E E L. W H I L E BATH I N G IN THE S E A S H E H E LP E D HER 00 WHAT S H E WANTED. A MOMENT

USED H E R TOES W I T H ASTO N I S H I NG AGI LITY T O P I C K LATER SHE WOULD R E P E NT. B E GG I N G TO BE

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PRAYED FOR A N D R E A D T H E PSALMSI SHE ALSO GREATER THE OBSTACLE S H E HAD BEEN OBLIGED

HAD H A LLUCINATIONS D U R I NG THE DAY. I N TH E TO OVE RCOME.

M I DDLE OF A G R A M M A R LESSON S H E SUDDENLY

BEGAN TO SHOUT: "CHASE HIM AWAY. CHASE HIM TREATME NT: COLD SHOWERS. B R O M I D E OF POTAS­
AWAY, I DON'T W A N T THE DEVIL AT T H I S MOM ENT!" ONE SIUM AND AMMONIUM. TWO G R A M M ES EVERY
DAY IN THE M I DD L E OF A WALK SHE STOPS TWENTY-FOUR HOURS. FE R R U G I N O U S W I N E. A
ABRUPTLY AND LETS OUT A SCREAM. HER FACE VARIED DIET TO B U I LD UP THE SYST E M . I N T H E DAYS
CONTORTS WITH FEAR. SHE THROWS H E RSELF I NTO FOLLO W I N G X. . . APPEARED TO BE M E NTALLY
H E R GOV E R N ESS'S A R M S CRYI NG: ''TH ERE HE IS. H E'S CALMER. SHE DID NOT HAVE H A LL U C I N A TIONS.
HORRIBLE! HOW HIS EYES GLEAM! I'M GOING BLIND. I N EVERTHELESS S H E A D M ITTED TO H AV I N G YI ELDED
CAN'T SEE A N Y T HI N G!" HER VOI C E BECO M E S SEVERAL TIMES TO H E R I N C R I M I N A T I N G M A N I PULA­
RA UCOUS. H E R EXPRESSION THAT O F A MADMAN. AT TIONS. THOUGH IN A MORE MODERATE FASHION. BY
ONE MOMENT SHE E M B R A C E S H E R GOV E R N ESS D I NT O F TOUC H I NG A N D E XC IT I N G H E RS ELF. T H E
WITH EFFUSION. THE N EXT S H E H I TS AND BITES H E R . SENSITIV ITY OF TH E SEXUAL P A R T S H A D BECOM E
SHE WA NTS TO RUN AWAY FROM E V E R YTH I N G . SO GREAT THAT TH E M A I D . IN P U L L I N G OFF THE
FINA LLY. THE DAY COM E S WHEN S H E TR I E S TO CHI LD'S NIGHT-SH I R T WHEN DRESSI N G H E R. SET OFF
THROW H E R S E LF OUT OF A SECOND-STORY W I N DOW AN ELECTRIC CURRENT THAT SENT A S H U DD E R
INTO TH E STR EET B E LOW. AT CERTA I N MOMENTS TH ROUGH H E R W H O L E B E I NG. X • . . FLU S H E D. H E R
SHE WA NTS TO BE CUDDLED AND EXPRESSES BR EATH I N G BECA M E U N EVEN. H E R S K I N D A M P. H E R
GRATITUDE W H E N S H O W N AFFECTION. AT OTH ERS. FACE A S I F I L L U M I N ATED; I N A F E W SECONDS THE
ON TH E CONTRA RY. SHE GETS ANGRY I F A N YONE VOLUPTUOU S S E N SATION R E AC H E D ITS C L I M A X .
SYM PATH I S E S WITH HER S U FF E R I NGS. "NOBODY "TH I S T I M E I T S NOT MY FAULT." SHE S A I D. "YOU
ELSE CAN S H A R E I N TH E M ." S H E SAYS. "BECAUSE PULLED IT OFF TOO QUICKLY. A R A P I D MOV E M E N T
MY SUFFERINGS ARE SHAM EFULI" ON TH AT P A R T OF M E STARTS OFF A S E N SATION I

C A N NOT C O N T R O L . " X . . . HAS I N D E E D B E COM E

THE 26TH OF A U GUST. S E E I NG TH E LITTLE SUCCESS
H YPER-SENSITIVE. THE SLIGHTEST P R ESSU R E PUT
OBTA I N E D BY M E A N S OF COERCION. BY TYING. BY
ON THE SENSUAL PARTS LEADS TO A N ERETH I S M
VARIOUS I NSTR U M ENTS. BY SEVERE PUNISHMENT. I
AS QUICK A S LIGHTN I N G W H I C H C A N B E READ ON
HAVE HER F R E E D ENTI R E LY. TRYING BY ADVICE A N D
HER FACE. THUS X . . . B E N D I NG OVER TO PICK A
K I N D N ESS T O STI M U LATE H E R AMOUR PROPRE. TO
FLOWER. GIVES H ERSELF A QUICK TAP ON THE
RESTORE H E R D I G N I TY A N D A WA K E N A SENSE OF
PA RTS WITH HER HAND AND THE R E S U LT IS
HONOUR. I PICT U R E T H E F E A R F U L CONSEQU ENCES
ACH I E V E D; TH E SA M E THING H A PPENS IF SHE
OF HER H A B I TS. P R O M I S I NG TO LEAVE HER
K N OC K S A G A I N ST A PIECE OF FURNITURE IN
COMPLETELY F R E E I F S H E WILL B E SENSI BLE A N D
PASSI NG. O R LEANS O N SOM EONE. I T I S EASY TO
O B E Y M E . B U T I A M QUICK T O A D D : "I F Y O U REFUSE
U N D E R S TA N D TH E UTTER I M PO S S I B I L ITY O F
TO LISTEN I W I L L H A V E TO B E C R U E L. I WILL BURN
AVOIDING ALL THE OCCASIONS FOR W H I C H S H E WAS
YOU R PARTS WITH A R E D HOT I RONI" ALTHOUGH X . . .
ON TH E LOOK-OUT. WHICH SHE SOUG HT OR C R EATED
APPEARED TO BE M OV E D BY MY MARKS OF
IN ORD E R TO CONTI N U E HER A B U SES.
SYM PATHY. S H E D I D NOT PROMI S E T O B E GOOD I N

THE FUTURE. "I WILL 00 M Y BEST." S H E TOLD M E .

"BUT I AM NOT SURE OF S U C C E E D I NG. AND TH E NIGHTS PASS WITH FR EQU E N T R E PETITIONS OF

T H E R E FO R E I C A N N O T P R O M I S E . " C U R I O U S LY TH E USUAL ABUSE. SHE O FT E N HAS N E RVOU S

ENOUGH SHE DID N OT WANT TO BE LEFT UN­ T R E MORS. BUT A FEW KIND WORDS FROM TH E

ATTACHED. " I 00 N O T T R U ST MYSELF." SHE SAID. GOVERN ESS A N D A H A N D SMOOTH I N G H E R BROW

"PUT ON MY STR A I T J A C K E T A GA I N ; TI E M E UP. I BEG OFTEN SUCCEED IN C A L M I N G TH E S E NOCTURNAL

YOU." I WAS OBLIGED TO C O M P LY WITH HER C R ISES. TH E C H I LD LOOKS BETTER. SHE SEEMS

REQU EST. ALTHOUGH R U L E S W E R E LESS STRICTLY H A PPY. SHE WORKS AT HER L E SSONS WITH

E N FORCED T H A N B E FORE. I I N SI STED THAT THE PLEAS U R E . S H E F R A N K LY A D M I TS T O PROVOK I N G

C H I LD BE LE FT TO H E RS E LF NOW AND TH EN. FOR I THE VOLUPTUOUS SPASM TWELVE T O E I G H T E E N

HAD NOTI C E D THAT SHE R E B E LLED AGA I N ST TIMES A D A Y . S H E EVEN I N SERTS A PAI NT-BRUSH

SEVERE TREATM E NT. THAT S H E J I B B E D AS I T WERE. I N TO T H E VAG I N A . THE PARTS ARE HIGHLY

AGA I N ST TH E B R UTALITY E M PLOYED. A N D FOUGHT I NFLAM E D. WITH A YELLOWI S H G R E E N DISCHARG E .

WITH A LL HER WIT AND C U N N I NG A GA I N ST T H I C K A N D A B U N DANT.

WHATEVER COERCIVE M E A S U R E S WERE ADOPTED.

ONE WOU L D HAVE SAID THAT SHE GOT MORE THE 29TH OF A U G U ST X. . . IS A LT O G E T H E R

PLEA SURE O U T OF OBTA I N I NG SATISFACTION. T H E CHARMI NG. A STR I K I N G C H A NGE HAS TAKEN PLACE .

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S H E B EHAVES PROPER LY. D U R I N G THE VISIT OF A SOM ETI M E S H E R FACE IS F L U SH E D A N D S H E HAS A

RELATIVE SHE IS VERY PO L I T E . K E E PS UP AN ROVING EYE: AT OTH E R S SHE IS PALE AND

A N I M ATED CON VERSATION. RECITES POE M S AND LI STLESS. OFTEN S H E C A NNOT K E E P STI LL. PAC I N G

SINGS A BALLAD. BUT A FT E R THE VI SIT. SHE U P A N D OOWN TH E B E D R OO M . O R BALANCING O N

TOU C H E S H E RSELF SEVERAL T I M E S. I S GLOOMY ONE FOOT A FT E R T H E OTH ERS. W H E N SPEAKING

DU R I N G TH E WALK. H E R VOI C E GROWS HOA RSE. A S H E D E C LA I MS. OR PUTS O N A I RS. HER FEATU R E S

SURE SIGN OF INCREASING TENSION. LATER. TWITC H . S H E G R I M AC E S . S H E LA UGHS O U T LOU D

S E A T E D ON A C H A I R. S H E K E E PS MOVING H E R H E A D WITHOUT R H Y M E O R R E A SO N . D U R I NG THESE BOUTS

ABOUT. ROLLI NG H E R EYES A N D LOOKI N G U P AT THE X . . . IS I NC A PA B L E OF A N YT H I N G : READI NG.

C E I L I NG. COM PLAI N I NG THAT GOO I S UNJ UST TO HER CONVERSATION. G A M E S . A R E EQUALLY ODIOUS. A L L

BEC A U S E H E H A S G I V E N HER EVE RYTH I N G TO MAKE A T ONCE H E R E X P R E S S I O N BECO M E S C Y N I CAL. H E R

HER H A PPY A N D NOW TAKES I T AWAY F ROM H E R. "I EXCITE M E N T M O U NTS. X... I S OVERCOME B Y T H E

A M ASKING HIM TO M A K E M E DIE." S H E SAYS. "I A M D E S I R E T O 00 I T . S H E T R I E S N O T T O OR SOMEONE

SO AFRAID OF THE OPERATION THE DOCTOR TRIES TO STOP H ER. H E R O N LY DOM I N ATI NG

TH R E ATENEDI A N D HOW H U M I LIATI NG TO B E FORC E D THOUGHT I S T O S U CC E E D. H E R E Y E S DART I N A L L

TO M E N D MY W A Y S I N STEAD OF B Y M Y O W N F R E E D I R ECTIONS. H E R L I P S N E V E R STOP TWITC H I NG. H E R

W I L L . " W H A T C H A O S R E I G N S I N T H A T LITTLE H E A D I NOST R I L S F LA R E I L A T E R . S H E CALMS OONW A N D I S

A T TI M E S S H E S A Y S : "YOU W I LL SAVE M E W I T H GOD'S H E RS E L F AGA I N . "IF O N LY I HAD N EV E R BEEN

H E LP." AND HER EYES SH I N E WITH JOY. AT OTH ERS. BO R N . " SHE SAYS T O HER L I TT L E S I STER. "WE

SHE L A M ENTS THAT I T I S TOO LATE A N D THAT S H E IS WO U L D NOT HAVE BEEN A DISGRACE TO T H E

LOST FO R E V E R I HER H A LL UC I N A TIONS R ETU R N . FA M I LYI" A N D Y • . • R E P L I E S : "WHY D I D YOU TEACH M E

WI LD-EYED. S H E S E E S THE T E R R I B L E H E A D WITH ITS ALL THESE HORRORS T H E N ?" U P S ET BY THIS

GREEN EYES. SHE I M AG I N E S THAT A PLAGUE OF R E PROACH . X . • • SAYS: " I F SO MEONE WOULD ONLY

D E V I LS SETTLE ON THE HOUSE AND THAT SHE K I LL MEl WHAT JOY. I COU L D DIE WITHOUT

H E R S E LF T U R N S I NTO A DEMONI COMM ITTING S U I C I DE."

SHE FANCIES S H E I S A L R E A DY DEAD. THAT SHE THE A FT E R NOON OF T H E 1 4TH OF SEPTEM B E R X • • .

E N T E R S A HOUSE WITHOUT B E I N G SEEN A N D DOES I S I N A T E R R I B LY OVER-EXCITED STATE. S H E WALKS

H A R M TO EVE RYONE IN IT. W H I C H M A K E S HER VERY ABOUT R ESTLESSLY. G R I N D I NG H E R TEETH. THE

HA PPYI SHE I S SURE OF BEING I N TOUCH WITH THE GOV E R N E S S T R I E S TO CONTROL HER. BUT SHE

DEVI L AND H A V I NG M Y STE R I O U S C O N N ECTI O N S KICKS BACK. THERE IS FOA M ON H E R LI PS. S H E

W I T H H ELL. IT SHOULD BE N O T E D TH AT EXCESSIVE GASPS. R E PEATI NG: " I DONT WANT TO. I OON'T WANT

ONANISM IS I N EVITABLY F O L LOW E D BY SUCH TO. I CANT STOP M YSELF. I M U ST 00 ITI STOP ME.

HA LLUCI NATIONS A N D M E NTAL A B E RRATIONS. HOLD MY H A N DS. TIE MY F E ETI" A FEW MOMENTS

LATE R SHE FALLS INTO A STATE OF PROSTRATION.

BECO M E S SWEET AND G ENTLE. BEGGI NG TO BE

FOR SOME TI M E X . . . HAS BEEN THI NKING A GREAT
GIVEN A N OT H E R C H A NC E . "I KNOW I'M K I LL I N G
DEAL A BOUT M A R R I AG E . A L READY SHE SEEMS
MYSELF." S H E SAYS. "SAVE M E."
I N ST I N CTIVELY ATTRACTED B Y T H E I D E A OF T H E

PLEAS U R E T O BE H A D I N SEXUAL R E LATIONS.

WHICH PROVES THAT A FT E R A DESPERATE

STR U G G L E . T H E I N ST I N CT O F P R E S E R VATION IS
ONE DAY. FOR I N STANCE. TO A M USE HER. SHE WAS
SOMETI M E S STRONGE R T H A N T H E A LL U R E S O F
TOLD A BOUT THE MYTH I C A L POWERS OF FA I R I ES TO
VICEI S H E E X P LA I N S HOW S H E SHOULD B E T I E D SO
OBTA I N WHATEVER THEY DESI RE. "WHAT I DESI RE."
THAT SHE C A N NOT POS S I B L Y ATTA I N HER OBJEC­
SHE A N SW E R E D. " I S THAT TH E R E SHOULD BE AS
TIVE. BUT HER I NCONS I STENCIES ARE E N DLESS.
MANY MEN AS LA D I E S ON EA RTH SO THEY C A N
N EXT D A Y SHE HAS A F I T OF DESI RE. THIS TI M E I N
M A R RY."
TH E P R E S E N C E O F A STRANGER. ATTEM PTS A R E

M A D E I N VA I N T O I M PO S E A RESPECT FOR DECORU M .

"00 YOU TH I N K TH E ONLY H A P P I N ESS I S I N B E I N G SHE C A N NOT CONTROL H ERSELF. D U R I NG THE I R
M A R R I ED?" H E R GOV E R N ESS A S K E D . 'TH E R E A R E OUTING SHE WALKS IN THE M OS T I N D EC E N T
M A N Y U N M A R R I E D WOM E N WHO ARE U S E F U L A N D FASHION I N FRONT O F PASSERS-BY. DESPITE THE
CONTE NT." PLEA D I N G S O F HER GOV E R N ESS. IN THE LITTLE

VI LLAGE T H E Y COM E TO. S H E CAUSES A SCANDAL.

X . . . R E P L I E S AT ONCE WITH A S M I LE ON H E R LI PS: THE GOV E R N ESS. W I T H TH E HELP OF A SERVANT.

"NOT M E-I'M NO S A I NTI" PUTS A STOP TO THE SC E N E BY BRINGING HER H O M E

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IN A C A R R I A G E . H A RDLY IS X . . . S E A T E D THAN S H E S H E OFTEN R E P ROAC H E S H E R SISTER F O R H A V I N G

FLINGS H E R S E L F B A C K A N D ACTS I N SUCH A W A Y TAUGHT H E R SUCH HOR RORS. BUT TH I S DOESN'T

AS T O PROVOKE T H E VOLUPT U O U S S E N SATION. THE PREVENT H E R FROM MODELLI NG H E R C O N D UCT O N

SERVANT'S PRESENCE I N N O W A Y D I SS U A D E S HER THAT O F H E R O L D E R S I STER: T H E S A M E I N D E C E N T

FROM TH I S S H A M E LE S S BEHAVIOUR. TH E 28TH. MOVE M E N TS WHEN THEY ARE OUT, TH E SAME

TO R M E N T E D BY REMORSE, SHE ASKES FOR A TRICKS W H E N S H E I S ATTACHED TO T H E B E D , T H E

PRI E ST TO G I V E H E R CON F E S S I O N . N OTH I N G COULD SAME R US E S T O OUTWITH HER G U A R D I A N S. THE

BE MORE D I ST R E S S I N G THAN TH E SC E N E THAT S A M E T R E A T M E NTS A D M I N I ST E R E D T O X . . . , TH E

TAKES PLACE UNDER OUR EYES. WHILE THE SA M E L A C K OF S UC C ESSI

V E N ERABLE P R I EST G I V E S H E R I N STRUCTION, X . . .

BATHED IN TEARS, H A N DS J OI N E D TOG ETH E R ,

DURING MY JOURNEY TO LONDON FOR THE
P R A YS FERVE NTLY, BOW E D TO T H E G R O U N D: BUT
I N TE R N A T I ON A L M EDICAL CONGRESS. I WAS
ALL AT ONCE A D I A BOLIC THOUGHT C ROSSES H E R
FORTU N ATE ENOUGH TO M E ET DR. J U LES G U E R I N . I
WRETC H E D M I N D A N D, M A K I NG TH E M OST OF H E R
SUBMITTED THE HOPELESS CASE OF THE TWO
I N C L I N E D POS I T I O N , S H E R U B S H E R PA RTS W I T H . . .
CHILDREN TO OUR E M I N E NT COLLEAGU E AND
THE PRI ESrS CASSOCKI
ASKED H I S A D V I C E . DR. J . G U E R I N A F FI R M E D THAT,

AFTER A LL OTH E R TREATME NTS H A D FA I LE D , HE

HAD SUCCEEDED IN CURING YOUNG G I R LS

I W I L L CUT AS SHORT A S POS S I B L E T H E H I STORY OF A F FECT E D BY THE VICE OF ON A N I S M BY B U R N I N G
LITTLE Y . . . WHO I S X . . :S SISTER A N D WHOM I HAVE THE CLITO R I S WITH A HOT IRON.
A LREADY M E N TI O N E D WHEN R E LA T I NG FACTS

CONC E R N I NG THE LATTE R . SHE IS NOT AS

ON MY RETURN TO CONSTANTINOPLE I HAD NO
I NTELLIGENT O R A S ATTRACTIVE A S H E R SISTER.
D I F F I C U LTY I N P E R S U A D I NG THE F A M I L Y TO FOLLOW
U N FORTU NATELY. THE TWO C H I LD R E N WERE NOT
THE R E CO M M E N DA T I O N P ROPOS E D BY T H E D I S­
S E PA R ATED. AS A R E S U LT, TH E LITTLE O N E COPI E D
TiNG U I S H E D ACA D E M I C I A N . I DEC I D E D TO E X P E R I ­
E V E R YTH I N G TH E 81G ONE D I D, AND EVERY
M E NT F I RST ON L I TT L E Y . . .
PRACTICE I N V E N T E D BY X . . . I S A DOPTED B Y Y . . .

THE G E N I TA L ORGANS ARE SO P R E C OC I O U S L Y

THE 8TH O F S E PTE M B E R, T R E M B L I N G I N E V E RY L I M B ,
D E V E LOPED T H E R E A R E A LR E A D Y T U FTS OF H A I R
THE P OO R CHILD IS EXT R E M E L Y VOLU B I LE, BUT
ON T H E LABIA P U D E N D I A LTHOUGH Y . . . I S N O T YET
R EASONS L I K E A G I R L OF 1 6. S H E B E G S M E N O T TO
SIX. T H E SA M E H A R S H M ETHODS U S E D O N X . . . A R E
BURN H E R A N D IS EVEN VERY G RA TE F U L W H E N I
E MPLOYED ON Y . . . BECAUSE OF HER STU R D Y
R E MOVE HER STR A I T J A CKET. I NOTE THAT T H E
CONSTITUTION S H E I S W H I P P E D SO FORCI B LY T H E
SMALL LABIA ARE SCORED BY P E R P E N D I C U LA R
BUTTOCK S A R E STR I P E D BY D E E P ECCHYMOSE. I T
WOUNDS. TRACES O F I N J U R I ES I N FLICTED YESTER­
H A S A S M U CH E FFECT O N Y . . . A S I T H A D O N T H E
DAY BY A TABLE FORK! TH E ORI FICE O F T H E VAGI N A
E L D E R S I STER: T H E P U B I C B A N DA G E I S EQUALLY
I S BRIGHT R E D . I T I S MOST D I STR E S S I NG T O TH I N K
U N S UCCESSFUL. THE SEXUAL PA RTS ARE VERY
THAT S O YOUNG A C H I L D CAN BE S O P E RV E R S E !
I N FLA M E D AND BLOOD- R E D I N COLO U R . A TH I C K
S H E A D M I TT E D EVE RYTH I N G SHE H A D DON E D U R I N G
Y E L LO W DISCHARGE WITH A R EPULSIVE ODOR
M Y A B S E N C E . "I A M A S H A M ED, S I R :' S H E S A I D, "TO
P E R S I STS IN SPITE OF A B LUTIONS R E PEATED
TELL YOU A BO U T MY H O R RO R S : ' A FT E R SO M E
SEVERA L TIMES A DAY. THE C H I LD. WHOSE
HESITATI O N , S H E A D M I TT E D TO R U B B I NG H E R S E L F
V E N E R E A L DESI R E S , A S A R E S U LT O F PROVOK E D
WITH HER H A N DS , WITH HER F E E T, WITH ANY
STI M U LATION, HAVE ALREADY BEEN ACTIVE FOR

SEVERAL MONTHS, G ETS VERY WOR K E D UP AND FOREIGN BODY S H E COULD F I N D . A T M Y I N S I ST E N C E ,

OFT E N R O U S E S D E S I R E B Y A S E R I E S O F P R E PA RA­ S H E SHOWED M E WHAT S H E D I D I N B E D I N O R D E R T O

TORY BODY MOVE M E NTS. A LTHOUGH WELL B U I LT GET A T H E R S E LF, A N D H O W S H E PROD U C E D T H E

AND A L E RT, SHE IS REDUCED, BY EXCESSIVE SMACKI N G SOU N D OF T H E V U LVA W H I C H S H E K E PT

UP MOST OF THE NIGHT IN CONCERT WITH HER

A B U S E , T O SUCH A STATE O F I M BE C I LI TY, S H E N O
S I STER. W E H A V E A L R E A D Y DESC R I B E D I N DETA I L
LON G E R U N D E RSTA N D S W H A T I S SA I D T O H E R . A T

S U C H TI M E S S H E I S P A L E A N D C ROSS-EYED. THE MEC H A N I S M O F T H I S SOU N D W H I C H C A N B E

H E A R D S E V E R A L M ETERS AWAY. I T I S C A U S E D B Y

T H E OPE N I NG A N D CLOS I N G O F T H E LA B I A P U D E N D I

BUT THE MOMENT SHE G ET S THE IDEA OF UNDER THE I N FLUENCE OF R H YT H M I C AND

SATI SFYING HERSELF, HER EYES SHI NE, HER E N E RGETIC CONTRACTIONS STARTI N G FROM THE

S P E EC H BECOM E S J E RKY, H E R S A L I VA A B U N DANT. ANUS, W H I C H SET T H E WHOLE P E R I N E U M I N MOTION

S H E H A S EVEN B E E N KNOWN TO W E E PI A N D SPREAD TO T H E LA RGE. SWOLLEN L A B I A . "BUT

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WHO SHOWED YOU HOW TO 00 SUCH I N FAMOUS W H A T H A P P E N S W I T H BOTH SISTERS W H E N , O R I V E N

THI NGS?" I ASKED HER. " 1 FOU N D OUT FOR MYSE L.F. BY THE I R R E S I STABL.E OESIRE T O TOUCH TH EM­

S I R , "' SHE R E P L. I E D . "IT F E E L. S NICE WHEN I S E L.VES, THEY A R E P R EVENTED FROM OOI NG SO.

CONTRACT A N D SQU E EZE. MY SISTER DOES THE

S A M E:' THE 1 5TH , S H E T H R U STS A PIECE OF WOOD I NTO THE

VAGI N A , L.ATER, STOO P I N G OVER A L.ITTL.E TABL.E,

EVE RYTH I NG WAS READY FOR THE TRANSCURRENT S H E R U B S HER PA RTS AGA I NST T H E OECORATION

C A U T E R I S ATI O N . BUT B E FO R E THE TEARS AND ON ITS L.EG. HOWEVER, SHE ABUSES H E RSEL.F MUCH

SU PPL.ICATIONS. THE PROM I S E S MADE BY Y. . . I L.ESS S I N C E THE CAUTERI SATION, TOUCH I NG A L.ONE

R E L.ENT. FOR OVER AN HOUR I L.ECTU R E HER. I S NOT E N OUGH TO PROOUCE ORGASM, L.ONG A N D

EXPL.A I N I NG THAT HER H E A L.TH WIL.L. BE RUINED REPEATED F R I CT I O N IS R EQ U I R E D ROU N D TH E

A N D HER RE PUTATION L.OST I F SHE CONTI NUES T H E O R I F I C E OF T H E VAG I N A , BECAUSE THE CL.ITORIS IS

WAY SHE IS G O I N G I BUT I F S H E F A I L. S T O KEEP H E R NOT ONL.Y I N S ENSITIVE BUT EXTR EM EL.Y P A I N F U L. TO

WOR D SHE W I L. L. BE BURNT ON MY N EXT VISIT. "IT IS THE TOU C H . AT L.AST, THE SUPERVISION OF Y • . .

DISGRACEFUL. TH AT YOU S H O U L. D HAVE TO BE TIED BECO M E S POSS I B L.E A N D REWARDING.

UP LIKE AN A N I M A L. IN A STA BL.E, OR A C R I M I N A L.. .. I

TEL.L. HER. COL.D SHOWE RS, BROMIDE OF POTAS­ THE 1 6TH, SECO N D CA UTERISATION. I A PPL.Y THE
S I U M . BUT H A R DL.Y HAD I L.EFT BEFORE SHE WAS AT HOT POI NT T H R E E TIMES TO EACH OF T H E L.ARGE
IT AGA I N WORSE TH A N EVER. LA B I A ANO A N OTH E R O N THE CL.ITORIS. TO P U N I S H

H E R FOR O I SOBEDIENCE, I C A U T E R I S E BUTTOCKS

THE 1 1 TH OF SEPTE M B E R I N ORDER TO FRIGHTEN AND LOI N S WITH TH E BIG I RON. SHE SWEARS SHE

HER AS MUCH AS POSS I B L. E . I MAKE A GREAT WIL.L NOT B E N A UG H TY AGA I N AND A D M I TS TO BEING

DISPL.AY OF BRAZIERS FUL.L. OF BURNI NG COA L.S IN ooUBL.Y G U I LTY BEC A USE, SHE SAYS, S I N C E T H E

WHICH I PL.ACE AN ENORMOUS I RON I N THE FORM OF FI RST C A U T E R I SATION SHE H A SN'T H A D TH E S A M E

A N AXE. I BL.OW ON I T U NTIL. I T BECOMES RED HOT. DESI R E TO EXCITE H E RS E L.F, "I SEE T H A T TH I S

SHE T R E M B L. E S AT T H E S I G H T OF A L. L. T H E S E M ETHOD W I L. L. C U R E M E , BECA USE I C A N GO FOR

I N F E R N A L. GOI NGS O N . "'YOU D I D NOT K E E P YOUR MORE T H A N TWENTY-FOUR HOURS WITHOUT DOING A

PROMISE," I SAID TO H E R . " A N D I'L.L. SHOW YOU THAT HORROR."

YOU MADE A M I STAKE BY K E E P I NG M I N E:' I SHOW E D

H E R THE BIG H O T I RON. BUT I CAUTERISED T H E

N E XT DAY S H E COMPL.A I N S OF H E R B U R NS. S H E I S
CLITORIS WITH A L. I TT L. E STY L.ET THREE M I L.L.I­
NONE THE L.ESS ON THE L.OOK OUT FOR ANY
M ETERS I N D I A M ETER H E ATED OVER A SPIRIT L.AMP.
C H A N C E TO TOU C H H E RSEL.F B U T STOPS A S SOON
" I F YOU DO IT AGAIN,"' I TOL.D H E R. "I WIL.L. BURN YOU
A S SHE IS THREATE N E D WITH B U R N I NG.
WITH THE BIG I RON N EXT TI M E AND WITHOUT PITY:'

S E E ! N G TH E P U N I S H M E N TS I N F L I C T E D O N H E R
TH E 1 4TH OF SEPTEMBER, THE OPERATION PROVED
S I ST E R, X... BECO M E S VERY DESPONDENT; SHE
TO HAVE HAD AN I M M EDIATE AND S A L.UTA R Y
K E E P S R E PEATI NG: "'I F O N L. Y I C O U L O O l E ! I K N O W I
E FFECT. L. I TT L. E y , . • H A D B E E N GOOD EVER S I N C E
WIL.L H A V E TO U N DE RGO THE S A M E TORTURE, WHAT
TH E CA UTERI SATION, '''TH E P A I N IS HORRIBL.E," SHE
CAN I DO?" HER E XCESSES CONTI N U E AND HER
SA ID, "I'L.L. N E V E R DO I T AGA I N :' AL.THOUGH L.EFT AT
STATE B E C O M E S A L.A R M I NG: SHE IS PALE, THIN,
L.IBE RTY, S H E WAS VERY W E L. L. BEHAVED ON THE
WEAK, H E R LOWE R LI M BS HAVE OEOEMA AL.MOST TO
WAL.K AND VERY GOOD AT N IGHT, BUT, ON THE
TH E K N E E .
A FTER NOON OF TH E 1 5T H , H ER PHYSIOGNOM I E

U N OERWENT A SUDDEN C H A NGE; HER HANDS

YESTEROAY W H E N TH E A NGEL.US W A S R U N G , S H E
SHOOK AS THEY A L.WAYS O l D W H EN SHE WAS ON THE
BEGAN TO SHIVER, HER FACE TOOK ON AN
POINT OF · P E R P E T R A T I N G HER CRIME, IN A
EXPRESSION OF TERROR A N D H E R E Y E S FL.OODED
TW I N K L I NG ONE OF HER H A NDS D I SA P P E A R E D
WITH TEARS, SHE T R I E D TO RUN AWAY, CRYI NG: "TH E
U NDER THE P L. E A TS OF HER DRESS AND Y.,.
SOU N O O F T H E BE LLS M A KES M E TH I N K OF T H E DAY
BECA M E RED IN TH E FACE. QUESTION I E D, SHE
O F J U D G E M E NTr'
A DMITTED T O HAVI NG DON E I T , B U T SOUGHT TO

J U STI FY HERSEL.F BY SAYING IT WAS I M POSSIBL.E TO

RESIST THE CRAVI NG. SHE W A S REMINDED OF THE TH E 1 9TH, TH I R D CA UTERISATION OF L.ITTL.E y , . .

SESSION WITH THE FIRE AND K E PT UNDER WHO SOBS A N D VOC I F E R ATES.

SUPERVISION, TOW A R O E V E N I NG S H E B EC A M E

C A PRICIOUS, THEN BROKE DOWN, SOBBING. THIS I S IN THE DAYS THAT F O L. L. O W E D Y . . . FO U G H T

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SUCCESSFULLY A G A I N ST T E M PT A T I O N . SHE VICIOUS R U B B I NG HAS DISAPPEA R E D . THE 1 2TH OF

BECA M E A C H I L D A G A I N . PLAYING WITH H E R DOLL. OCTOBER TH E HORRORS BEGIN A GA I N . LITTLE Y . • .

AMUSING HERSELF AND LA UG H I NG G A Y LY. S H E HOWLS L I K E A W I LD BEAST W H E N S H E H E A R S M E

BEGS T O H A V E H E R H A N DS TI E D E A C H TI M E S H E I S COMI NG . I T R Y G I V I N G H E R S E V E R A L VIOLENT A N D

N O T S U R E O F H E RS E LF: ONE R E LA PS E I S EVEN V E R Y PA I N F U L E LECTRIC SHOCKS O N T H E PARTS

PUNISHED BY F L A G E L LA T I O N ON THE RAW WITH C LA R K'S APPA RATUS. AS MIGHT BE EXPECTED,

BUTTOCKSI OFTEN S H E I S S E E N TO M A K E A N EFFORT TH I S M ETHOD P RO V E S U N S UC C E S S FU L . O N TH E

AT CONTROL. NONETHELESS SHE DOES IT TWO OR CONTR A R Y, ACCORD I N G TO T H E GOVE R N ESS, Y . . .

TH R E E TI M ES E V E R Y TWENTY· FOU R H O U RS. H A V I NG BECA M E H I G H L Y EXCITED A N D A B U S E D H E RS E L F

IN GENERAL FULL L I B E RTY OF ACTION. THIS IS EVEN MORE THAN SHE HAD DURING THE DAYS

R E LATIVELY LITTLE COMPA R E D WITH THE THI RTY OR BEFORE H A N D.

FORTY A B U S E S COM M ITED EACH D A Y BEFORE THE

C A UTERI SATION. T H E GOVE R N ESS IS E N C HANTED THE 1 7TH, X . . . ONCE AGAIN H A S A V E R ITABLE FIT
WITH T H E R E S U LT OBTA I N ED. BUT X M O R E AND
OF FOLLY D U R I NG WHICH SHE TRIES TO THROW
. • .

MORE DROPS ALL PRETENCE O F MODESTY. ONE

HERSELF OUT O F TH E W I N DOW. YESTERDAY, S H E
N I G H T SHE SUCCEEDS I N R U BB I N G H E RSELF TILL RUBBED T H E V A G I N A S O VIOLENTLY WITH A PIECE
T H E BLOOD COMES ON THE STRAPS THAT B I N D HER. OF BRONZE S H E B L E D F R E E LY. I CAUTERISE T H E
A N OTH E R TI M E . C A UG H T IN TH E ACT BY THE CLITOR I S A N D E N T R Y T O THE VAGINA. F R O M TH E N
GOV E R N ESS A N D U N A B L E T O SATISFY H E RS E LF, O N THE TWO LITTLE PATI ENTS W E R E N O LONG E R
SHE HAS ONE OF H E R T E R R I BLE FITS O F RAGE, UNDER M Y O B S E R VATION. T H E Y W E R E SEPA RATED.
D U R I NG WHICH SHE YELLS: "I W A N T TO, O H HOW I ACCORD I NG TO M Y I N FO R M ATION, LITTLE Y . . . WAS
WANT TOI YOU C AN'T U N D ERSTA N D. M A DE M O I S E LLE. COMPLETELY C U RED. AS TO X . . . , S H E CONTI N U E S
HOW I WANT TO DO ITI" HER M E M O R Y B E G I N S TD F A I L. T O A B U S E H E R S E L F A S I N TH E PAST. S H E I S F A R
S H E C A N N O LONG E R K E E P UP WITH LESSONS. S H E AWAY, IN THE COUNTRY. WITHOUT ANY MEDICAL
HAS H A LLUC I NATIONS A L L TH E TI M E . EVEN HER
SUPERVI S I O N A N D D E P R I V E D OF A L L TREATMENT.
ARMS ARE COV E R E D W I TH OEDEMA. TH E SAME

I NDECENT ACTS AS I N T H E P A S T D U R I NG TH E I R

OUTINGS: S H E TH ROWS H E RS E L F ON T H E BUSHES.

KICKS HER PARTS W I TH HER H EEL. ETC. HER U R I N E

CONTA I N S NO A L B U M I N .
COM M E N TS

THE 2 3 R D. S H E R EPEATS: "I D E S E R V E T O B E BURNT

THE DETA I L S OF THE FOREGOI N G C A S E · H I STORY
AND I WILL BE. I WI LL BE BRAVE D U R I NG THE
HAVE B E E N R E LATED IN SUCH M ETIC U LOUS DETA I L.
OPERATION, I WON'T C RY." FROM T E N A T N IG H T UNTI L
A N D THE SA L I E N T POI NTS OF T H I S I N T E R E ST I N G
SIX I N TH E MOR N I I NG, S H E H A S A T E R R I BLE ATTACK,
CASE MADE S U F F IC I E NTLY C L E A R FOR THE
FALLING SEVERAL TIMES I N TO A SWOON THAT
ADDITION O F A N Y LONG COMM ENTA R I E S TO BECOM E
L A S T E D A B O U T A QUA RTER OF A N H O U R . AT TIMES
U N N ECESSARY.
SHE H A D VISUAL H ALLUCI NATIONS, A T OTH E R

T I M E S S H E BECA M E D E LI R I OUS, W I L D E Y E D, SAYING:

EXAMPLES O F O N A N I S M AT SUCH A N E A R L Y AGE
"TUR N TH E PAGE, WHO I S HITTING ME. ETC."
A R E RA R E I N LITTLE G I R LS, W E KNOW OF ONLY TWO

CASES: THAT O F FONASSA·G R I V E S R E LATING TO A

TH E 25TH I APPLY A HOT POI NT TO X . • :S C LITORIS. SEVEN Y E A R OLD C H I LD WHOSE H A B I TS NECESSI·

S H E S U B MITS TO T H E OPERATION WITHOUT W I N C I NG. TATED THE R E M E D Y OF A B E LT, W I THOUT ANY

AND FOR T W E NTY· FOU R HOU R S A FT E R THE SUCCESS, FOR T H E C H I L D OBTA I N E D SATI S FACTION

OPERATION S H E I S P E RFECTLY GOOD. BUT TH E N BY S LI P P I N G A LONG FEATHE R INSIDE THE

S H E R E T U R N S W I T H R E N E W E D F R E N ZY TO H ER OLD BANDAGE I N O R D E R TO REACH TH E G E N ITA L PA RTS;

HABITS. F I N A LLY. TO OBVIATE ANY F R I CTION. SHE IS AND THAT O F D E S L A N D E S. WHOSE PATI ENT WAS A

KEPT ON HER F E ET, LEGS CLOSED A N D TIED L I TT L E GIRL OF THREE. IN SPITE OF SUCH

TOGETH ER, OR E L S E ATTACH E D TO A C H A I R, BUT PRECOCIO U S ABUSE A N D ITS FREQUENT R EPETI·

LYING ON HER BACK TO A VO I D A N Y R U B B I NG O N THE TION, T H I S YOU N G G I R L M A N AG E D TO R E S I ST UNTI L

CHAI R'S E DGE. SHE COMPLA I N S O F V A G U E PAINS IN M A R R I AGE.

TH E C H E ST, SHE B EG I N S TO COUGH, BUT AN

EXA M I NATION O F T H E C H EST R E V E A L S N OTHI NG. I N THE CASE O F TH E TWO LITTLE S I STERS, AS O U R

OBSERVATION D E M ONSTRATES, O N A N I S M WAS BOTH

LITTLE Y • . . I S GOOD. THE I N FL A M MATION SET UP BY CLiTORIA L A N D VAG I N A L.

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IF ONE SEEKS THE ORIGIN. THE EARLY C I RC U M ­ M A N I AC A L AGITATION SO VIOLENT THAT TH E C H I LD.

STA N C E S IN W H I C H THESE V I CIOUS H A B I TS W E R E USUALLY SO SWEET AND DOC I L E . B EC A M E AS

CONTRACTED. TWO PRINCIPAL CAUSES E M ERGE: FURIOUS AS A WILD B E A ST. H ITT I N G A N D BITING

THE I N TESTI N A L PARASITES (AT LEAST I N TH E CASE T H O S E S H E M O S T R E S PECTED I F THEY OPPOS E D

OF THE ELDER SI STER). AND I N ITI ATION. AT AN THE SATISFACTION OF HER CRAVING WHEN HER

EARLY AGE. LITTLE X . . . H A D WORMS. FOR W H I C H I E XC I T E M E NT WAS AT ITS H E IGHT.

TREATED HER. NOW. BOTH THE RASH ON THE

SEXUAL PARTS AND THE P R E S ENCE OF H E L M I N ­ TH I S WAS FOLLOWED SOON AFTER BY A P E R I OD OF

THES AT T H E LOWER EXTR E M ITY O F TH E R ECTU M PROST R A T I O N . OF CALM AND REMORSE. THE
CAN. BY THE I R R E S I ST A B L E I R R ITATION TH E Y EXTINCTION O F A L L M O R A L S E N S E SHOULD A L.SO
C A U S E. LEAD TO TH E M A N U A L EXCITATION OF THE R EC E I V E S P EC I F I C M ENTION. W H E N E V E R T H E TWO
PA RTS. BUT X . . .'S C U RIOSITY H A D A LREADY BEEN C H I L D R E N WERE OVERCOME BY A N A RD E N T DESI R E
AR O U S E D BY THE MAID TO U C H I N G HERSELF T O M A ST U R BATE T H E Y D I D NOT C A R E I N T H E LEAST
VIGOROUSL Y W H E N S H E B E L I E V E D THE C H I L D TO B E ABOUT PROPRI ETY OR THOSE P R E S E NT. TH E Y GAVE
AS L E E P. A S TO LITTLE Y . . .. A T THE AGE O F FOU R WAY WITHOUT BLUSH I NG TO TH E I R D I SG R A C E F U L
S H E WAS COR R U PTED BY H E R S I STER. I N COM PANY PRACTICES IN F R O N T O F P A S S E R S- B Y OR SER­
WITH OTH E R C H I LD R E N . VANTS. I F TO TH I S WE A D D THE H A L L UC I N A ITONS W O

W H I C H X . . . WAS F R E Q U E N TLY SUBJ ECT. T H E R E C A N

BECA USE OF THEIR YOUTH AT TH E TI M E T H E Y BE NO D O U B T THAT SHE SUFFERED FROM DEEP

BEGA N T O A B U S E TH E M S E LVES. IT WOULD HAVE PSYC H I C D I STU RBANCE.

BEEN I M POS S I B L E FOR O U R YOUNG PATI E N TS TO

H A V E DON E SO BY G E N I T A L N E E D. IT WAS S I M PLY BY X . . .·S EYE-SIGHT HAD A LSO CONSI D ERABLY

I M ITATION. OR TO A LL E V I ATE BOREDOM WHEN L E FT D E T E R I ORATED. O N TH I S POINT I F E E L I T N ECES­
U N O C C U P I E D. IT WAS ONLY A FT E R CONSTA NT S A R Y TO REFER TO A S I M I LA R C A S E W H I C H C A M E
RE PETITION OF S U C H CONTACTS THAT A N AWAKEN­ UNDER MY OBSERVATION WHEN I PRACTISED IN
ING OF THE S E X U A L I N ST I N CTS TOOK PLACE. WITH PA R I S . I T WAS THAT O F A YOU N G LADY O F TWENTY­
I M PU LSION TO SATI SFY T H E M I M MEDIATELY AT A L L EIGHT Y E A R S OLD W H O CONFESSED TO M E THAT
COSTS. I TH I N K WE M A Y C O N S I D E R THIS I R R ES I ST­ SHE TOUCH E D H E R S E L F A GREAT MANY TIMES EACH
ABLE DESIRE. TH I S U N C O N T ROLLA B L E C R A V I N G DA Y. WHICH L E D TO A PROGRESSIVE AND A LMOST
W H I C H TOOK POSSESSION OF THE CH I LD R E N . AS A TOTA L A M A U ROSIS.
V E R I TA B L E N E UROSIS. VERY OFTEN X... STRUG­

GLED WITH ALL HER MIGHT TO OVERCO M E THE

D E S M A R R E S SENIOR. TO WHOM I S E N T T H E PATI E N T
U N H E A LTHY I M P U L S E W H I C H D ROVE H E R T O EXCITE
WITHOUT A C QU A I NTI N G HIM OF HER H A B I TS.
HER ORGANS. WITH TH E B E ST WILL I N THE WORLD
R E C OG N I S E D THE E S S E N TI A L CAUSE OF HER
S H E COULD NO MORE CONTROL H E RSELF THAN A
F A I L I N G S I G HT. H E I N FO R M E D M E O F I T I N A S E A L E D
SU F F E R E R FROM C H O L E R A C A N PREVENT C R A M PS.
LETT E R WHICH HE GAVE THE P."TI ENT. L"TER.
OR A N HYSTE R I C A L WOM A N A VERT A N ONCOM I N G
H A V I N G FOLLOWED O U R A DVICE. T H I S Y O U N G L A D Y
ATTACK.
RENOUNCED ONAN AND A LSO RECOV E R E D PER­

FECT E YE-SIGHT.

MANY TIMES X... TRIED TO GET THE BETTER OF

H E R S E LF. BEGGI NG TO B E TIED U P A N D PREVENTED

I WILL SAY J U ST A WORD CONCERNING THE
FROM DOI N G ITI A MOMENT LATER SHE E M PLOY E D
T H E R A PE UTIC M ETHODS E M PLOYED I N T H E CASE OF
EVERY R U S E TO O U T W I T TH E V I G I LA N C E OF THOSE
THE LITTLE G I R LS : M E D I C A M ENTS HAD NO E FFECT.
I N C H A RGE OF H E R .
N E I TH E R SEDATIVES NOR TON I C S M ET WITH ANY

S U C C ESS. NOR DID SHOWERS AND WARM BATHS

IN THE B E G I N N I NG . TH E STI M U L U S FOR THESE B R I NG ABOUT A RETURN TO N O R M A L. MORAL

V I C I O U S H A B I TS O R I G I N A T E D EXCLUSIVELY I N T H E TH E R A PY W A S E Q U A L L Y I N E F F E C T U A L. ADVICE.

E N C E PH A LO N : ONLY LATER AS A R E S U LT OF COA X I N G . C A R E S S E S . I N TI M I D A T I O N . T H E C R U E L­

FREQUENT AND R E P E A T E D R U BBING. THE STI M U LUS LEST P U N I S H M ENT. RELIGION WITH ITS T H R E ATS

ORIGI NATING FROM THE G E N I TA L PARTS THEM­ A N D P R O M I S E S . NOTH I N G COULD D I SSUADE THESE

SE LVES. POO R C H I L D R E N FROM Y I E L D I NG TO TH E I R FATA L

A D D ICTION!

LITTLE X. . . S U F F E R E D FROM M U LTIPLE N E RVOUS

D I SORDE RS. E I TH E R SHE WAS SUBJECT TO THE PUBIC B E LT. STRA I T J A C K ET. STRAPS. BONDS. T H E

MOST PROFO U N D D E P R E S S I O N . OR ELSE PREY TO A M O S T A S S I D UOUS S U P E R V I S I O N ONLY R E S U LTED I N

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TH E I N VENTION OF NEW EXPEDI ENTS INSPIRED BY A LSO LESS PRONE TO TOUCH THEMSELVES.

RUSE AND SU BTLETY.

IT I S EQU ALL.Y PROBABL.E THAT. THE CL.ITOR I S A N D

CAUTE RISATION BY HOT IRON ALONE GAVE VUL.VAL. O R I F I C E H A V I N G BECOME M O R E O R L.ESS

S A T I S FACTO R Y R E S U LT S . A FT E R THE F I RST I N FLA M E D AS A R E S U LT OF THE OPE RATION. THAT

OPERATION. FROM FORTY T O FI FTY TIMES A DAY. THE TOU C H I NG M A Y P ROVE P A I N F U L RATH E R THAN A

N U M B E R OF VOLUPTUOUS SPASMS WAS REDUCED SOU RCE OF PL.EAS U R E .

TO THREE OR FOUR. ACCOR D I N G TO THE I N FORMA·

TION I R E C E I VED. LITTLE Y • . . T H A N K S TO T H I S F I N A LLY. T H E T E R RO R PROVOKED BY THE S I G H T O F

M ETHOD. W A S COMPELTELY C U R ED. IN ALL. S H E THE I N STRU M E NTS. A N D T H E I M PRESSION M A D E O N
WAS C A UTERISED FOU R T I M ES. X... U N DERWENT TH E C H I L.D R E N·S I MA G I N ATION BY T H E RED H O T I RO N
ON LY ONE CAUTERISATION. A FTER WHICH I LOST M UST A L.SO B E C O U N T E D A M O N G THE B E N E F I C I A L.
SIGHT OF H E R ENTI RELY. T H E R E IS NO REASON TO EFFECTS OF TRANSC U RRENT CAUTERISATION.
CONCLUDE THEN. THAT SHE PERSI STS IN HER

A B U S E . OR THAT TH E M ETHOD I S I N E FFECTI VE.

WE BELIEVE TH E N . THAT IN CASES S I M I L.A R TO

THOSE S U B M I TT E D TO YOU R CONSIDE RATION. ONE

IT I S R EASONABLE TO I N FE R THAT CAUTERI SATON SHOULD NOT H ESITATE TO RESORT TO THE HOT
BY HOT I RON D I M I N I SHES THE SENSITIVITY OF THE I RO N . AND AT AN E A R L.Y HOUR. IN ORDER TO
C L I TORIS. WHICH CAN B E COM PLETELY DESTROYED COMBAT C LI TO R A L AND V A G I N A L. O N A N I S M IN
IF THE OPERATION IS R E PEATED A C E RTA I N L.ITTLE G I R LS.
N U M B E R OF T I M E S . THE SECOND POINT OF G E N ITAL

S E N S I TI V I TY CONSTI TUTED BY THE VULVAL ORIFICE

HAVING ALSO BEEN DEADENED BY THE CAUTERI­ D E M ETRIUS ZAMBACO

SATI O N . IT IS EASY TO CONCEI VE T H AT T H E

C H I L D R E N . H A V I NG BECOME LESS EXCITABLE. ARE TRANSL.ATED BY CATH ERINE DUNCAN

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ROBE RTE'S D I A R Y {CONTI NUEDl

MAY 1 954 . . . NOT EVEN A BATH WAS A N Y H E LP, LIKE T H E LAST

TIME. IS IT POSS I B L E THAT A WOM A N SEEKS TO

I L E A V E OCTAVE T O H I S RATIOCINATIONS A N D H I S E X PE R I E NC E A VIOLENT F E E L I NG OF S H A M E J UST

PRAYERS, THAT H E SHOULD H AVE TH E I NCONC EIV­ B EC A U S E SHE I S R E S PECTA BLE? ITS A POI N T O F

ABLE A R R OG A N C E TO I MAGINE H IMSELF THE V I EW: FOR A L O N G TI M E OCTAVE H A S M A D E I T H I S

A UTHOR O F M Y I M PROP R I E T I E S I S O N E TH I NG-BUT PA BULUM. FOR M E SUCH A RESEARC H I S U N R E A L. NO

A S TO CONSI D E R I N G H I MS E L F AT THE ORIGIN OF MY DOUBT: O R AM I I NC I TED BY M Y R E SPECTA B I L I TY TO

T E M P E R A M E N T . . . THE POOR DEAR HAS NO I D E A M A K E IT? I R E M E M B E R THAT I WAS A S H A M E D: WAS M Y

WHAT I A M CAPABLE O F WH ITHOUT H I M . A N D THOUGH VOLUPTU A R Y A N Y T H E L E S S FOR THAT? A N D NOW

HE GOES TO SO MUCH TROUB L E SU PPOS I N G WHAT MY SHAME IS EVEN LESS R E PUGNANT TO ME IN

H A P P E N S TO ME AND WHAT H E'D LIKE TO SEE M E R ETROSPECT S I N C E I C A N S E E HOW ATTRACTIVE I

S U B M ITTED TO, I'LL N E V E R TELL H I M T H E T H I NGS M U ST H A V E B E E N TO THOSE TWO I N DI V I D UALS . . .

THAT HAVE H A P P E N E D AND STILL COULD HAPPEN DOES T H A T M E A N THEY H A V E SOME I M PORTA N C E

TO M E I N ALL L I K E LI H OOD: A NTOI N E WOU LD KNOW B EC A U S E OF I T ? SHOULD TH E S A M E T H I N G H A PP E N

A BOUT IT AT ONCE A N D N E V E R S L E E P AGA I N , AGA I N, I N A L L HON ESTY I M UST A D M I T I W O U L D NOT

R E S I ST. A N D I TA K E (AS I D I D E A R L I E R ) AS M U C H

ONCE I WOU L D N E V E R H A V E D R E A M E D OF GOING P LE A S U R E IN MY D I SG R A C E AS THOSE WHO

BACK OVER S U C H THI NGS. I MEAN THOSE DUE TO I N FLICTED I T ON M E ,

OCTAVE. BUT NOWA DAYS I C A N'T R E S I ST TELLING

MYSELF THE STORY OF TH I S OR THAT I N C I D E N T AFTER M Y M A N I C U RE, R U E SCR I B E , J U STI N WHO WAS

( W H I C H TOOK PLACE U N K NOWN T O H I M) : NOTH I N G WAITING FOR ME AT TH E W H E E L OF O U R BUICK

COULD BE MORE V U LG A R , BUT S I NC E THAT COU L D N'T G E T I T TO START, TH E BR EAKDOWN D I DN'T

H A PPENED TO M E A N D K E E P S COM I N G BACK TO ME, WOR R Y M E, I HAD T I M E TO KILL B E FO R E R E TU R N I N G

I ' L L TRY TO TAKE REFUGE I N WORDS SO AS NOT TO TO THE PALAIS B O U R BO N , A N D, NOT HAVING

H A V E TO TH I N K A BOUT IT D U R I NG THE DAY. T H I S A RR A N G E D A N Y A PPOI NTM E NTS I N THE M EA NTI M E , I

M O R N I N G AT T H E C O M M I S S I O N I WAS D I S T R A I T B E ­ W A N T E D TO M A K E T H E MOST OF SUCH A W A R M A N D

C A U S E OF T H A T , NO O N E NOTICED, BUT E V E N S O WON D E R F U L LY S U N N Y A FTERNOON. I J U M PE D O N

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TH E PLATFO R M OF TH E F I R S T BUS, A N D LEANT OUT LEGS APART P E R H A PS. A N D A S M I LE O N M Y LI PS
WATC H I NG IN A K I N D O F D R E A M THE SHOPS GO BY, FEELING THE WARM B R E EZ E THROUGH THE
WHEN A SUGGESTIVE PRESSURE FORCED ME TO LOW E R E D W I N DOW. D I D I CONTI N U E TO S M I L E WITH
C H A NGE PLACES A N D S I T I N S I D E " , AS HE DI DN'T HALF-OPEN LIPS A S HIS REGARD BEC A M E MORE
STOP LOOKI N G A T M E, I ROSE AND GOT OUT AT TH E I NT E N T? AT LEAST I I M M EDIATELY CROSSED M Y
TH EA T R E F R A N C A I S , PASSI N G THROUGH THE ENTRY LEGS. FOLDED MY H A N DS. A L L T H E S A M E I WAS
OF THE P A L A I S- ROYAL, I SET OFF DOWN THE WEA R I NG T H E ROSETTE O F THE LEGION O F HONO U R
G A L L E R Y D E MONTPE N S I E R . U N D E R T H E A RCADES I N THE B UTTONHOLE O F MY S U I T. I T WA S THEN I
A L MOST DESERTED AT THAT HOUR, FOOTSTEPS DECIDED TO G ET OUT. A N D I R E M E M B E R. I PULLED
LI K E THE ECHO OF MY OWN DREW C LO S E R : OFF TH E ROSETTE A N D HID IT I N MY BAG. CASUA LLY
SOM ETH I N G QUITE USUAL FO R A M EMBER OF I C RO S S E D THE SQUA R E OF THE T H EAT R E
PA R L I A M ENT, I WAS BEING FOLLOWED, THE FRANCA I S, WALKED I NTO T H E PALA I S-ROYA L. A N D
I N D I V I D U A L, A K I N D O F L A R G E COLOSSUS, FAT, SO ON UNTIL REACHING TH E V A U LT OF THE
CLEA N-SHAV E N , THE P E R F E C T T Y P E OF POL I C E GALLERY D E BEAUJOLA I S . . . A T T H I S POI N T LET M E
PI M P, STOPS T W O O R T H R E E S H O P W I N DOWS AWAY TRY TO I MA G I N E EACH STAGE O F T H E I N D I V I D U A L'S
EACH TIME I G LA N C E AT O N E O R OTH E R O F THE ITI N ER A RY. I H A D ATTRACTED HIM. H E H A D FOUND I T
D I S P LAYS, WHERE C A N T H E N E W BLOUSE SHOP B E N EC E S S A R Y TO TOUCH MY FINGERS AND AFTER
THAT GI LBE RTE T O L D M E A BOUT? F I N A LLY I PASS THAT TH E R E COULD B E NO STO P P I N G FOR HIM UNTIL
U N D E R THE V A U LT O F THE G A L L E R Y D E BEAUJO­ THE DESCENT I N TO THE B A S E M E NT. B EG I N N I N G WITH
LAIS: IT M U ST BE T H E R E, TO T H E R I G H T, BUT AT TH I S THAT FURTIVE BUT I R R E S I STA BLE P R E S S U R E . WHAT
S A M E MOMENT T H E I N D I V I D U A L W A L K S PAST M E . I A RAPID AND AT THE SAME TI M E D E TA I L E D
PUSH OPEN A G L A S S DOOR, M I STA K I N G THE SHOP­ SCEN A R I O M U ST HAVE U N WO U N D INSIDE HIS
THIS ONE I S U N D E RGOING T R A N S FO R MATION-THE SKULL . . . O R H A D T H E R E B E E N NOTH I N G A L L T H E
I N D I V I D U A L FOLLOWS M E IN. ALTHOUGH IT I S QUITE WAY BUT T H E SOLE I MA G E OF T H O S E P A R A L L E L
POSSI B L E FOR PEOPLE PASSING O R STOPPING I N BARS A N D THE F E A R T H E Y M I GHT R E M A I N FIXED I N
F RO N T OF THE BOOK- S H O P OPPOSITE T O SEE VAIN U NTI L T H E E N D OF T H E D A Y ? W H E N H E FOU N D
THROUGH THE H A L F - F R O S T E D P A N E A N YT H I N G H I MSELF A FTERWARDS O N H I S K N E E S I N FRONT OF
U N U S U A L THAT M IG H T H A P P E N IN TH E E M PTY SHOP, ME. F I N A LLY BOU ND HAND AND FOOT, POW E R LESS.
NO ONE G I V E S I T A THOUGHT, HIS BACK AGAI NST DID TH E TWO I M AG E S : ONE OF THE BEAUTIFUL
THE GLASS DOOR, THE COLOSS U S BARS MY U N K NOWN WOM A N W I TH T H E ROSETTE. T H E OTH E R
PASSAGE A S SOON A S I TRY TO LEAVE, H I S H A N D ON O F T H E S A M E WOMAN S U S P E N D E D A N D TIED, D I D
T H E K NOB. T H E N , TH ROUGH A DOOR A T T H E REAR, THEY C O I NC I D E T O T H E POI NT OF S U BSTITUTION, O R
A N OT H E R MAN A PPEA RS, OF MEDIUM H E I GHT, W E R E T H E Y S U F F I C I E NT L Y C O N T R A D I CT O R Y T O
S Q U A T I N S H I RT S L EEVES. T H E T W O E X C H A N G E A PROVO K E TH E E M OT I O N T H A T C O N TO R T E D HIS
CON N I V I NG LOOK. T H E SECON D M A N STA N DS A S I D E SORRY FACE? ONCE H A V I NG GOT OFF THE BUS,
A N D L E A V E S TH E I N N E R D O O R A J A R . THEN FOLLOW I N G CLOSE E NOUGH O N M Y H E ELS TO

WATCH ME STROLL AHEAD OF HIM U N D E R THE

L E S S TH A N A N HOU R LATE R I F I N D M Y S E L F SITTING A RCADES OF TH E PALAIS, H A V I NG "CONTACTED"

O U TS I D E TH E REGENCY C A FE , MY TEM PLES TH E EPI D E R M US OF M Y F I N G E RS. HE M U ST H A V E

POU N D I NG. M Y H A N D S A R E T R E M B L I N G N O DOUBT BEEN E LABORATING T H A T SEN SATION, EXTENDING

AND THE WAITER ASKS M E AT ONCE IF I'M ALL R I GHT. IT TO M Y WHOLE BODY W H I C H H E W A S CONSCIOUS

I S M I LE, R I S E A N D GO TO THE WASH ROOM, CONSIDER OF, ST U D Y I N G THE MOV E M E N T O F MY H I PS, MY

MYSELF I N THE M I R ROR: N O N E E D TO PUT ON N E W POSS I B L E POSITIONS IN T H E I M P E N D I NG SITU ATION

M A KE-UP, I LOOK F I N E, W H A T, I N FACT, DO I H A V E WHICH HE KNEW WAS U N PRECEDE NTED FOR ME,

AGAI NST T H E M ? I F T H E Y G O T A P I TI F U L P L E A S U R E . . . I NCONC E I VABLE A N D TH E R E FO R E A L L TH E MORE

FOR ME, NOW TH E P L E A S U R E B E G I N S . I RETURN TO I M PERIOUS FOR HIM . . . TO THAT MOMENT WHEN TH E

THE TERRACE AND RECA PITULATE. WHEN I HAD ONLY T H I N G HE COULD DO WAS TO COR N E R ME I N

STOOD ON T H E PLATFORM OF T H E B U S , M Y BACK T H E EM PTY SHOP. I T W A S W H I LE, A L MOST DAZED. H E

AGAI NST THE R A I L, A R M R A I S E D , H A N D LYING ON WAS CON S I D E R I N G M Y H A N D O N T H E KNOB W H I C H

THE BALUSTRADE, THE C O LOS S U S . WHO WAS HE PREVENTED ME FROM OPE N I NG, THAT THE

T A L K I NG T O TH E COND UCTOR AT F I R ST. TOOK M Y SQUAT M A N LOO M E D U P TH ROUGH T H E R E A R DOOR.

FI NGERS. I HAD GONE INSIDE AND CHOSEN AN THAT FATAL DOOR AJAR ON THE S H A DOWY

E M PTY S EAT, B U T H E . H A V I N G S A T DOWN OPPOSITE. STA I RCASE! PERCEIVING A N E X I T T O THE FLOOR

BEGAN SC RUTI N I Z I N G ME IN AN I NSOL E N T FASHION. I ABOVE G I V I N G ON TO THE RUE D E B E A UJOLA I S NO

WAS SEATED. BOTH H A N D S LYING ON T H E LEATH ER. DOU BT. I T R I E D TO M A K E A DASH FOR IT. BUT THE

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SQUA T M A N WAS WAITI NG FOR ME ON THE STA I RS. HIDE THE I R RESISTABLE E FFECTS ON MY THIGH.

BRI NGS HIS H A N D DOWN ON MY FINGERS A S T H E Y "PUT O U T T H E LIGHTS T H E N." I SAY IN A VOIC E NO

G R I P T H E B A L U S T R A D E . A N D I . STI LL B E L I E V I N G I T LONG E R M Y OWN. D U R I NG WHICH TIME THE SQUAT

POSSI B L E T O ESCAPE. SNATCH T H E M AWAY. T U R N MAN E X H I BITS A CARD OSTENTATIOUSLY AND SLIPS

DOWN AGA I N AND-TWO STEPS FROM THE BACK­ IT I NTO M Y BAG. BUT TH E LIGHT STAYS ON A N D . EYES

ROOM OF TH E SHOP-THE MOME NT COMES W H E N . CLOSED. UNDER THE WHIRR OF T H E FANS ON THE

STI L L DETE R M I N ED T O DEFEND MYSELF. H I TT I N G C E I L I NG. I ABANDON MYSELF I N FRONT O F THOSE

T H E COLOSSUS I N T H E FAC E W I T H MY B A G . I SAW H I M TWO U N K NOWN MEN . • . WHAT A R E L I E F IT I S LETTING

CROUCH. OR S L U M P RATH E R . . . A N D AT TH E S A M E MYSELF GO AT L A ST. BESIDE MYSELF WITH

TI M E INSIN UATE HI MSELF U NDER MY S K I RT IN P L E A S U R E U N D E R T H E I R EYES I N THAT I M POSSIBLE

BETW E E N S U S P E N D E R BELT A N D FLESH. GRABBING POSITION. T H E SOU N D O F A D U L L TH U D AT M Y FEET. I

A H A N DFUL O F THIGH. H I S ARM GOES ROU N D M Y OPEN MY EYES. THE COLOSSUS H A S COLLAPSED.

L E G S . LI FTS M E . TH ROWS M E OVER H I S SHOU LDER. TH E SQUAT MAN TAKES HIM U N D E R TH E S HOUL­

THE WHOLE M OV E M E NT SO U N E X PECTED AND DERS AND DRAGS HIM STAGG E R I N G AWAY. FOR

P R E C I P I TATE I H A V E TO SAVE M YSELF B Y H A N G I N G MOR E THAN A M I N U TE I STAY T H E R E . TIED U P.

ON TO T H E N A P E OF H I S N E C K W I T H BOTH H A N DS­ A LO N E . C E RTA I N LY T H E LEAST PLEASANT MOMENT

A N D T H E N T H E D I ZZY DESC E N T WITH ME BY T H E IN W H A T I C A NNOT EVEN CA LL A NIGHTMARE. A N D I

SPI R A L STA I R C A S E T O T H E BASEM ENT. THE OTH E R AM A L MO S T GLAD TO SEE THE SECOND MAN

MAN WHO HAD PRECEDED HIM WAS A L R E A DY RETURN. SLOWLY. H A N DS IN POCKET-FA I R BOY.

P U SH I NG O P E N THE H E AVY STEE L DOOR G I V I N G ON C R E W- C U T H A I R. LEVEL EYES. I NT E L L I G E N T

TO A N EON-LIGHTED ROOM W I T H GLEA M I NG W A L LS. E X P R ESSION. H I S S H I RT I S I M PECCABLY WHITE A N D

THE FLOOR SHONE WITH L I NO L E U M A N D. AS THE HIS H A NDS. WHICH HE NOW TAKES O U T OF HIS

ENORMOUS FANS OF A V E N T I LATOR B E G A N TO POC K ETS T O U NT I E M E . W E L L K E PT. A BRACELET O N

WHIRR ON TH E C E I LING. TH E R E IN THE M I DDLE OF A T H E L E FT WRIST. H E T U R N S AWAY W H I L E I READJUST

PHYSICAL C U LT U R E S E T- U P. T H E SIGHT OF THOSE M Y S K I RT. GOES TO FIND M Y BAG AND RETU R N S TO

PA R A L L E L BARS EQU I P P E D WITH LEATH E R G I V E IT TO M E. O F F E R I N G ME A G LASS OF BRANDY.

STRA PS . . . TO TH I N K THAT A MOMENT AGO I WAS B U T I SLAPPED HIM. THEN. WITH A G ESTU R E . HE R I PS

STROLLING L E I S U R E LY BETWE E N TH E OPERA A N D OFF MY SKIRT AGAIN. PUTS HIS FOOT ON IT.

T H E TH EA T R E F R A NC A I S W H I L E H E R E THOSE BARS RETURNS HIS H A N DS TO HIS P OC K E T S AND.

W E R E WAITI N G FOR M E l SO TH A T NOW. T I E D BY THE W I T H OUT FLINCHI NG. RECEIVES A N OT H E R SLAP:

W R I STS. MY CLAMMY H A N DS E X H A L E THE P E R F U M E AFTER W H I C H TH E R E I S NO STOPPING M E T I LL I

OF T H E I R C R E A M I N TH E S T U F F Y A I R D E S P I T E THE H A V E NO STRENGTH L E FT . . . WHAT ELSE COULD A

V E N T I L A TO R S . THE N A I LS P E R F ECT AND USE­ WOM A N DO IN SUCH A SITUATION? • • . SCREAM.

LESS . . . WITHOUT SHOW I N G A N Y I NTEREST IN MY O B V I O U S LY . DISTURB TH E WHOLE B U I LDING-IN

BUST O R R E MOVING T H E C O A T OF MY G R E Y SU IT. M Y S U C H A B U S Y QUA RTER-BUT WOM E N L I K E M E WHO

S K I RT I S U N HOOKED A N D T H E REST TAK E N O F F . I WERE ON THE "CHA RITY FRONT." WOMEN LIKE M E

CAN STI L L K I C K: MY A N KLES ARE SPREAD AND W H O A R E NOW AT T H E CONTROLS OF T H E NATION.

ATTACH E D TO T H E EXTRE M I TI E S OF T H E V E RTICAL WOM E N LIKE ME WHO H A V E "BEEN AROUND"-SO

B A R S A N D ALL THAT I N S I L E NC E. A SILENCE M A D E LONG AS WE A RE B E A UTIFUL. SO LONG AS WE

OF M Y O W N M U T I S M I N ACCORDANCE WITH T H E TWO R E M A I N SO-WE C A N O N LY R E M A I N S I L E NT. C A L L

M E N . A S IF O U R B R E A TH I NG R E PLAC ED ANY WORDS FOR AN I NVESTIGATION? BECA USE O F T H I S C A R D

WE COULD EXCHANGE H E R E. T H E COLOSS U S WHICH R E P R OD U C E S . . • MY FINGER-PRI NTS?

A PPROACH E S H I S MOUTH TO O N E OF M Y TIED H A N DS R E T U R N T O T H E "SO U RCE"? H A R DLY WORK ENOUGH

A N D. AS I C LOS E MY F I ST. HE U N FO L D S AND FOR THE RUE DE SAUSSAIES TO KEEP THAT

ST R A IGHTE N S M Y F I N G E R S. PASSES TH E M BETW E E N I NC A PA B L E C. OC C U P I E D . . . W H A T NONSENSE! BUT

HIS LIPS A N D D ELICATELY SAVOURS EACH N A I L. TO RETURN O N E OF T H E S E DAYS TO THAT PLACE.

THEN. H A V I N G TA K E N B R E A TH . REELING AND RUN MY H A N DS OVER THOSE PARALLEL BARS

SWEATI NG. L E A N I NG A G A I NST THE BA R. HE PUTS WH E R E T H E Y H A D B E E N S O F I R M LY T I E D . . . THATS

OUT HIS TONG U E W H I C H MOVES BACKWA RDS A N D A NOTHE R MATTER. THAT PARTI C U L A R OCCASION OF

FOR W A R D S IN A M I S E R A B L E A TTE M PT A N D ONLY F E E L I N G R E A LLY M Y S E L F FROM THE M O M E N T W H E N

SLOWLY SUCC E E D S I N TOUCH I NG MY OPEN PALM. AT I E M BA R K E D ON T H E A DV E N T U R E I N T H E B U S UNTI L

LAST THIS TONGU E SETTLES TH E R E AND B EG I N S ITS T H A T OTH E R MOMENT I N THE BASEMENT WHEN I

TITI LLATIONS MORE A N D MORE RAPIDLY. I TURN MY FOU N D M Y S E LF S U S P E N D E D A N D AROUSED. THAT

H E A D AWAY . . . SOON I CAN CONTROL MYSELF NO OCCASION IS STI L L N E IT H E R MORE NOR LESS THAN

LON G E R . IN V A I N I A TT E M PT TO LIFE MY K N E E TO TH E BOW OF M Y R E F L ECTION DRAWN OVER THIS

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LAZY AFTERNOON. WHAT A DELICIOUS CROISSANTI P I E R RE KLOSSOWS K I

HOW SOOT H I N G THE PLAY OF THE F O U N TA I N S TRANSLATION BY CATHERI N E D U N C A N

UNDER TH E P LA N E TREESI HOW EXQ U I S ITE THE CITY

AS IT GLIDES BYI TAKEN F R O M THE REVOCATION OF T H E

EDICT OF NAN TES.

S EQUENCE OF TH E PARALLEL BARS

(SHOT LIST BY P I E R R E KLOSSOWSKI MADE ROUND 1 966 FOR AN I M AG I N A R Y FILM)

1. LONG SHOT. CROSSROADS R U E SCR I B E-OPERA.

2. TH E CAR IN PAN SHOT FROM ROBERTE.

3. JUSTI N. THE C H A U FF E U R . GETS OUT. LIFTS THE BON N ET.

4. ROBERTE GETS OUT SLOWLY IN H E R TURN.

5. FRONT OF PALA I S BOU R BON (HOUSE OF PARLI AMENTI.

6. WATCH ON ROBE RTE'S W R I ST.

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T H E OCTO P U S I N J A P A N

THE OCTO P U S IS U S U A LLY CONS I D E R E D T O B E O N T H E OTH E R H A N D. I T S S E N S U A LITY. I S N O LESS

B E N E F I C I A L. AT T H E O R D E R O F TH E PROTECTOR I N DI C A T I V E AS A C H A RACTE R I ST I C TRAIT OF ITS

YA K U- S H I NYO- R A i . B U D D H A THE H E A L E R OF SOULS N A T U R E . C L E A R L Y TH I S IS V E R I F I E D IN T H E L E G E N D

AND THE GOD OF WISDOM. THREW A SMALL O F TH E B E A U TI F U L A N D L I C E N T I O U S K I Y O- H I M E. W H O

S C U LPTED STA T U E I N T H E I M A G E O F TH I S D I V I N ITY SOU G H T T H E I M M O D EST A D V A N C E S OF T H E M O N K

(WITH WHICH HE H A D N E V E R PA RTED) I NTO TH E SEA A N -C H I . THE P R IEST HID ON THE BELL OF THE

DURING A T E M PEST. IT WAS SAVED. LATER. AN MONASTERY. SIX F E E T H I G H A N D SO H EA V Y T H A T

OCTO P U S C A R R I E D I T TO J A P A N A N D SET I T DOWN O N E H U N D R E D M E N C O U L D N O T L I FT IT. IT F E L L A N D

ON THE COAST O F H I R A - DO. J I - K A K U DAi-SHI T H E N THUS I M PR I S O N E D THE S A I NTLY MAN. K I YO- H I M E

B U I LT A T E M P L E AT M EG U RO. W H E R E H E E R ECTED A TR I ED T O B R E A K T H E M ET A L W I T H H I S M A G I C W A N D

L A RG E STATU E OF Y A K U - S H I IN T H E WOODS. W H I C H AND MAKE I T M E LT B Y E X H A L I N G ON I T W I T H HIS

S E R V E D A S A C A S E FOR TH E R ELIC. F L A M I NG B R E A T H . I N V A I N . I T WAS C H A NGED I N TO A

SORC E R E R W I T H A H U M A N H E A D A N D A D R A GON'S

IN THE SAME WAY. ONE OF THE PRINCIPLE AND S E R P E N T' S BODY. LIKE A NOTH E R GIANT

OCTOPUS LOV I N G L Y E M B R A C I N G T H E B E L L W I T H ITS

M ESSENGERS OF RYU-J I N IS FIGU R E D WITH AN

OCTO P U S ON HIS H E A D. THE ASCETIC K E N-SU SIN UOUS TENTACLES.

SOM ETI M E S C A R R I E S I T O N H I S S H O U L D E R S . T O T H E

P L A C E O F T H E T R A D I TI O N A L S H RI M P . W H I C H B R I N G S M A N Y WORKS. NOT A B L Y A N E N G R A V I N G OF KOU N I ­

T O M I N D H I S S O L E N O U R I S H M E NT. T H E A S H I - N AGA YOS H I . PROVI D E A N E L E G A N T I L L U STRATION OF A

ARE LEGENDARY M E N WHO C A RRY T H E TE- NAGA. SIGNI FICANT CHANGE.

WITH ITS N I N E - M ET E R - LO N G ARMS. ON TH E I R

S H O U L D E R S . T H E Y TH E M S E L V E S H A V E LEGS S E V E N TH I S CONSTANT L I A I SO N WITH SA LAC IOUSNESS

METERS LONG. AROUN D WHICH THE OCTO P U S ' E X P L A I N S W I T H O U T DOU BT T H E EQU I V A L E NT ROLE

TENTACLES ARE ALWAYS W R APPED. ONE THUS W H I C H T H E OCTO P U S S E E M S TO PLAY I N B U D DH I S M .

TH I N KS OF TH E OCTO P U S A S F R I ENDLY. H E L PF U L. A TH E S E N S U A L I T Y OF T H E C R E A T U R E A P P E A R S I N

LITTLE LIKE THE PRINCE OF THE G R E E KS. AND THE MOST EXPLICIT MANNER IN A FAMOUS

E N J OY I NG T H E COM P A N Y O F MONASTICS. E N G R A V I NG O F HOKOUSAi. WHICH PLAYS O N T H E

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M O L L U S K'S CA PACITI E S FO R E M B RA C I N G AND FROM OBSERVATION: A L MOST E XC L U S I V E LY, T H E Y

SUCTION. T H E OC TOPUS, B E TW E E N T H E T H I G H S O F A A R E D E D U C E D F R O M T H E N U M B E R O F TENTAC L E S

RECLI N I NG WOMA N , IS G L U E D G R E E D I LY TO T H E SEX A N D T H E A R R A Y O F S U C KERS W H I C H C H A RACT E R ­

ORGAN OF ITS CONSENTING AND NO DOUBT IZE TH E S P E C IE S (MOLLUSK), IN FACT. THE

GRATI F I E D PREY, WHILE HE C A R ES S E S AND A M ORO U S R E LA T I O N S O F T H E OCTO P U S ARE

ENTW I N E S , EXPLO R E S A N D S U C K S W I TH H I S EIGHT E XC E E D I N G L Y C H A STE. TO M A N . T H E Y C A N H A R D L Y

ARMS AND SUCKERS. THE A R M S CLOSE U PON THE B E PERC E I V E D A S ANYTH I NG B UT D I S M A L.

BODY O F T H E B E LO V E D IN A L A SC I V IO U S WEB,

W I THOUT E V E N R E A CH I NG T H E N E C K A N D SHOUL­
A R I STOTLE O F F E R S A S U M M A R Y DESC R I PTION O F
DERS. WHERE IT FINDS RELIEF AND LETS I TS
THE M A T I N G O F OCTO P I : TIGHTLY I N T E RTWI N E D ,
TENTACLES WA N D E R . TH E R E IS A LSO A S M A LLER
THEY PRESS MOUTH AGA I NST MOUTH, A R M AGA I N ST
OCTOPUS W H I C H APPLIES I TS MOUTH, OR TO BE ARM. IN THIS FASHION. ONE LEADI NG, ONE
MORE EXACT. ITS HORNY BEAK O R T R U N K WITH
FOLLOW ING, T H E Y S W I M TOGETH ER. T H I S D E P I C T I O N
A V I D I TY TO THE F R E E LI PS OFFER I NG T H E M S E LVES.
IS PURELY IMAGI NARY. I MYSELF FOU N D NO
THE ARTIST HAS PUT TO USE TH E S U R FE I T OF
OBJECT I V E D E S C R I PT I O N OF OCTO P U S M A T I N G
L U B R I C ITY W H I C H COM E S FROM T H E C O N S I STENCY
BEFORE T H E O N E B Y H E N R Y LEE. F U RT H E R M O R E .
AND CONFIGURATION OF THE C REATURE. WHAT
T H E TERM " D E SC R I PTION," IS I N C O N S I STENT W I T H
HORROR I S S U RELY E L I C I T E D B Y T H E S PECTACLE!
T H E O B SC U R E L Y CONVOLUTED AND AWKWAR D
YET TH E A RTI ST'S I N S I ST E N C E IS V I S I B L Y TO G I V E
STATE M E NTS THAT THE A UTHOR. R ESTR A I N E D B Y
THE I M PRESSION OF ECSTASY PROC U R E D BY A
VICTOR I A N DECO R U M , USES TO CONVEY THE I D E A
PA RT N E R W H O S E CONTACT IS S I M U LT A N E O U S L Y
OF TH E S E S E X U A L Y E T EXTRAOR D I N A R I L Y ASCETIC
F E L T I N SO M A N Y PLACES.
RELATIONS. ACCO R D I NG TO THE A UTHOR, IT S E E M S

THAT T H E R I G H T TH I R D A R M O F T H E M A L E OCTO P U S

I N HIS WORK ON HOKOUSAi. EDMON D D E GONCOURT SWELLS AT T H E M O M E N T O F EXCITATION: O U T O F

HAS S U C C E SS F U L LY C A PT U R E D THE E C STATIC THE A R M , A K I N O OF ELONGATED WORM E M E R G E S

EXPRESSION OF THE WOMAN IN A SWOON OF WITH A FILAMENT AT THE END: TH I S IS THE

PLEASU R E , SICUT CADAVER. TO SUCH A DEGREE H ECTOCOTY LE. THE MALE PROFFERS I T TO THE

THAT O N E DOES NOT KNOW W H ET H E R S H E IF LIVING FEMALE. W H O A C C E PTS I T A N D C A R R I E S IT A W A Y

O R DROW N E D . WITH H E R . S H E PLACES IT H E R S E L F W I TH I N H E R

PA LLIAL CAVITY, A POCKET SITUATED BETW E E N

BY THIS AMBIGUOUS PROCESS THE OCTOP U S H E R BODY A N D T H E FOLDS OF H E R M A NTLE. AT T H E

S H A R E S T H E I D E N T I TY WITH W H I C H I T I S I NVESTED BACK OF W H I C H THE G E N I TA L ORIFICES O P E N U P.

BY THE E AST. I T IS CLEAR THAT IN THE M ATTER OF THERE. THE HECTOCOTYLE COM ES BACK TO L I F E TO

LASC I VIOUSNESS, T H E OCTOPU S ETCH E D BY THE FERTI LIZE THE EGGS. O N E CAN SEE. LEE STA T E S .

ASIATIC B E LONGS TO T H E S P EC I E S D E SC RI B E D BY S U C H EXCRESC E N C E S S E V E R E D I N T H I S STATE A N D

T H E M E D I T E R RA N E A N OPPI E N , W H O STATES THAT PRESERVED I N J A RS I N T H E M U S E U M O F N A TU R A L

T H E MALE C LI N G S TO HIS D E L I G H T U NT I L HE D I E S OF H I STORY I N P A R I S . T H E E N IGMATIC A N D OBSC U R E

PLEASU R E AND E X H A USTION. TEXT S E E M S T O H A V E K NOWN N O CON F I R M ATION. I N

F A C T . A C C O R D I N G TO LATE R OBSE RVATI O N S ,

THI NGS H A PP E N OTH E RWISE.

OPPI E N , IN ANTIQU I TY, E M P H A S I Z E D THE OCTOPUS'

U N C T UO U S I M M O D E STY: IN JAPAN, HOKOUSAI

DEPICTED I T PREVA I L I NG O N A S L E E P I NG WOM A N . I N WHILE A L L I N D ICATIONS S E E M TO D E ST I N T H E S E

THE 1 6TH CENTURY, A LD R OV A N I R E C A L L E D THAT. BOD I E S TO E N TW I N E . IN FACT. THERE IS NO

ACCO R D I NG TO THE A N C I ENTS, ITS FLESH WAS AN E M BRACE A N D V I RTUALLY NO CONTACT BETW E E N

APHRODISIAC, AND THAT THE CREATURE WAS THEM. TH E Y AVOID, I F N O T T O S A Y TH EY FLEE. T H E

CO N S I D E R E D THE MOST L A SC I V I O U S OF SEA C LOS E N E S S AND I N T I M A TE. M U LT I P L E . M U TU A L

DWELLERS. IN THE 1 9TH C EN T U R Y, IT WAS FA R CONTACT THAT TH E I R S U C K E R S WOU L D PERM IT. T H E

FROM FORGOTTEN BY V ICTOR H UGO THAT "TH I S D I STANCE WHICH S E P A RATES T H E PARTNERS IS

LOATH SOM E C R EA T U R E HAS ITS P A S S I O N ATE K E PT A S W I D E A S POS S I B LE. THESE C R E A T U R E S .

R E LA T I O N S , " THE FEMALE RADI ATES A PHOS­ W H O POSSESS T H E M O S T H I G H LY PER FECTED E Y E S

PHO RESCENT G LOW A T T H E M O M E N T O F I N I TIATION: I N THE A N I M A L K I NGDOM. 0 0 N O T EVEN L OO K A T

"SHE A W AITS U NION. SHE MAKES H E RS E L F EACH OTH E R . T H E F E M A L E RESTS ON A ROCK OR O N

BEAUTI FU L, S H E LIGHTS U P, S H E GLOWS . . ." THE THE SAND. THE MALE IS DRAWN UP ON HIS

FLI RTATIOUSN ESS AND L A SC I V I O U S N ESS O F THE TENTACLES. A S L E E H A D WELL OBSERVED. ONE O F

OCTOPUS ARE IN N O SENSE C O N C L U S I O N S DRAWN TH ESE TENTACLES, T H E TH I R D O N TH E RIGHT S I D E .

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IS A LT E R E D : A SPOON-S H A P E D DEPR ESSION EYES. A D E E P B ROWN STRI P E WAS A LSO VISIBLE ON

REPLACES O N E SECTION OF T H E SUCKERS. T H E HIS M A NTLE. BEHIND T H E CAVITY. A N D ANOTH E R IN

R E PRODUCTI VE ORGA N W ITH WHICH TH E TENTAC LE THE M I DDLE OF TH E M A NT L E . THE R E ST WAS

IS EQUI PPED I NT R O D U C E S ITSELF W I TH I N T H E SOM EWHAT DINGY W H ITE. THE DARK ST R I P E S

PALLI A L CAVITY OF THE F E M A LE. B U T WITHOUT GLOWED. S E T OFF M O R E OR LESS. SOMETI M E S VERY

BECOM I NG DETACHED. C L E A RLY. FROM T H E BACKG R O U N D. AT T H E TOP OF

HIS HEAD. T H E SKIN FOR M E D STRANGE LOO K I N G

SUCH I S WHAT I S SHOWN. AT LEA ST. I N THE DRAWING PROM I NA N T N O D E S . N O D E S A LSO A P P E A R E D ON

WHICH ACCO M P A N I E S THE STUDY ON THE MATING THE SKIN O F T H E ARMS A N D M ANTLE, NOTAB L Y ON

AND F E R T I L I ZATION O F TH E COMMON OCTO P U S THE R IGHT SIDE.

OBT A I N E D BY E. G. R A C O V I TZA IN 1 894. THE

A LTE R E D A R M D E POSITS C E RTAIN SPERM-FI LLED ''THE M A L E K E PT T H E F E M A L E W I TH I N T H E V I S U A L

CAPSULES IN THE A PPROPRIATE POC K ET. WHEN F I E L D O F H I S RIGHT EYE. A FTER FIVE M I N UTES, H E

THE F E M A LE RELEASES H E R EGGS. THE C A PSULES EXTE N D E D H I S TH I R D R IGHT A R M A N D I NTRODU C E D

OPEN A N D FERTILIZATION I S COM PLETED. I T I NTO T H E F E M A LE'S M A NTLE-AT A D I STA NCE O F

40- 60 C M . THE THIRD ARM. A WHITISH COLOR.

I N 1 962. J . Z. YOU NG P U B L I S H E D SKETCHES OF THE RESTED O N A ROCK BETW E E N THEM. THE MALE

STAGES OF T H E SEXUAL M A TI N G DANCE AND R E TA I N E D H IS V E RT I C L E S T RI PE S . WHICH THE

COPULATION O F T H E OCTOPUS HORRIDUS. NOTH ING F E M A L E A LSO SHOWED A T C E R T A I N M O M E NTS. A T

COU L D APPEA R MORE S I N I ST E R . TH E TWO LOVERS OTH E R M O M ENTS. B ROWN SPOTS WITH TRANSVER­

LOOK L I K E SENTI N E LS AT ATTENTION. A N D. WITH S A L STR I PE S APPEARED ON HER A R M S .

HORN-L I K E PROTR U S I O N S GROWING OUT OF THE

TO P S OF TH E I R H EA DS. SEEM EVEN MORE "TH E Y R E M A I N E D I N T H I S POSITION F O R A PPROXI­

LUDIC ROUS. ONE M IGHT D E SCR I B E T H E M AS MATELY T E N M I NUTES. THE M A LE'S COLO R ATION

C A R N I VALESQUE DEVI LS. THEY ARE DESPONDANT. C H ANGED. A T N U M E RO U S T I M E S . THE S T R I P E S

MEASU RED. RESERVED AND DI L I G E NT. THE D I S A P P E A R E D COMPLETELY FROM H I S LEFT S I D E . . .

ESSENTI A L L I N E S O F J . Z . YOUNG'S OBSERVATION I N SUCH A W A Y THAT A LL THAT R E M A I N E D TH E R E

MERIT R ECOUNTING. TH E WORK WAS C A R R I E D OUT WERE SOM E TRANSVERSAL S POTS, WH I L E THE

WITH PROFESSOR R. S U RGEON D U R I NG A DIVE N E A R V E RTIC LE STRI PES ON T H E R I G H T S I D E R E M A I N E D

SI NGAPORE. TH E OCTOPUS COU PLE WAS WATCHED STRONGLY M A R K ED.

FOR A H A LF HOUR AT A D E PTH O F SEV E R A L FEET IN

A CORAL REEF. THE S K ETC H E S W E R E DRAWN "NO MOVEMENT W A S V I S I BL E ON T H E THIRD A R M .

I M M EDI ATELY UPON C L I M B I N G O U T O F T H E WATER. I T H E O B S E R V A T I O N W A S U N I NT E R R U PTED, B E I N G

LEAVE THE A UTHOR O F T H E R E PORT TO SPEAK FOR M A D E THROUGH A D I V I NG M A S K . A N D I W A S A B L E TO

H I MSELF: MOVE C O M P LETELY A RO U N D THE COUPLE WITHOUT

D I ST U R B I NG TH E M .

"TH E MALE WAS NOTI C E D B Y PROFESSOR S U RGEON;

H E WAS COM I N G OUT O F A C R A NNY IN THE CORAL. "TH E N . T H E F E M A L E D R E W A W A Y , S LOWLY ENOUGH,

HIS HEAD RISING UP V E RTICALLY FI RST. NO NODU LE PULLING THE MALE A LONG BY HIS THIRD ARM.

A PPEARED A BO V E THE E Y ES. I BEGAN MY AFTER T H E Y H A D GO N E A BOUT T H R E E METERS, T H E

OBSERVATION. W H E N W E EXTENDED O U R HANDS. ARM P U L L E D BACK . T H E F E M A L E CONTI N U E D T O

THE A N I M A L DOVE BACK DOWN I NTO ITS HOLE, THEN. MOVE A W A Y . A N D T H E M A L E FOLLOWED H E R STI L L

A FT E R S E V E R A L M I N UT E S R E A P P E A R E D . TH E K E EPING H E R W I T H I N THE F I E L D O F V I SION O F H I S

F E M A L E A P P E A R E D T H E N . A LSO FROM A C R A N N Y. R I G H T E Y E . H E K E PT H I S H E A D ER ECT, THOUGH NOT

ABOUT 60 C M . FROM THE M A LE. BUT EXTENDING AS M A R K E D L Y A S BEFORE.

O U TW A R D LAT E R A L L Y A FEW A R MS. A FISH

A P PROAC H E D (SEEMI NGLY TO ATTACK THE "TH E FEMALE SLIPPED UNDER A ROCK. A FTE R A
FEMALE). A N D H E R A R M S T U R N ED TOWA RD IT. F E W I N STA NTS. S H E R E A P PE A R E D ON TH E OTH E R

S I D E . T H E M A L E STI L L FOLLOW I NG . I N TH I S FASHION.

"THE M A LE ROSE OUT O F ITS HOLE. TO A H E IGHT OF T H E Y COV E R E D A P PROX I M A T E L Y 2 0 M ET E R S .

1 5- 2 0 CM. P E R H A PS , STR I K I NGLY MARKED BY W H E R E U PO N T H E F E M A LE C A M E TO A STA N DSTI L L

V E RTICLE STR I PES. A B R IGHTLY COLORED BAND I N A C REVASSE. T H E M A L E A LSO STOPPED, A BOUT

APPEARED R U N N I NG A LO N G THE E DG E OF TH E 50 C M . FROM HER. A FT E R A N EW AND BRIEF

BACK SIDE O F EACH A R M . UP TO THE HEAD. THE A PPEARANCE OF THE B R I L L I A NT V E RT I C A L

COLO R I NG TU R N E D A DARK BROWN A RO U N D THE STR I PE S, H I S TH I R D A R M WAS A G A I N EXTE N D E D A N D

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I NTROD UCED. WITH NO DELAY OR H E S ITATION ON OF JOYCE M A N SO U R . IN HIS LETT E R S TO LOU.

THE PART OF EITHER OF THE TWO. IT R E MA I N ED I N APOLLI N A I R E CONFIDES TO HIS M I ST R E SS:

PLACE A P PROXI M ATELY T E N M I N UTES. WHER E U PON

THE F E M A L E BROKE SHA R P LY AWAY A N D THE MALE "I SAVOUR YO U R TON G U E LIKE THE STU M P OF AN
WITHDREW I N TO H I S HOLE." OCTOPUS' A R M WHICH ATTACHES ITSELF TO YOU
THE TEXT IS E LOQUE NT. VOLU PTUOU S N ESS HAS WITH ALL THE FORCE OF ITS SUCKE RS."
LITTLE PLACE IN THESE R E S P ECTFU LLY DI STA NT

AMOROUS RELATIONS. M A N'S I M AGI NATION HAS

WHEN S A I NT-JOHN PERSE C A LLS TO MIND TH E
M I SCONSTRUED THE NATU R E OF THE COU PL I NG OF
GREAT TEXTS RECITED BY TRAGE D I A N S (TR AGIC
THESE ORG A N I S M S SO WELL EQUIPPED FOR AN
HEROI N E S1). WHE R E I N FLOW "THE GREAT A D M I S­
I NS E P A R A B L E U N ION. I N THE CASE O F THE PA PER
SIONS OF THE DR,E A M A N D THE SOUL'S USURPA­
NAUTILUS. WHICH COULD BE D E FI N E D AS AN
TIONS." HE DEFINES TH E M IN TH E FOLLOW I N G
OCTO P U S IN A SHELL. THE FERTILIZING ARM
FASHION:
SEPARATES FROM ITS OWNER AND WANDERS

A I M LESSLY FOR HO URS A T A TI M E UNTI L F I N DI NG A

"THERE WHISTLES THE OCTOPUS OF PLEASURE."
F E M A L E TO WHICH IT ATTACHES ITSELF WITH ITS

SUCKERS. C E RT A I N S C HO L A R S. AMONG TH E M
IT WOU LD B E EASY TO M U LTI P LY THE EXA M PLES,
C U V I E R . F I RST I D I E NTIFI E D I T A S A P A R A S ITIC WOR M .
THERE IS A S I G N I FIC A N T CONTRAST BETW E E N AN
THESE A R E PROBA B LY T H E TRAVELLING P E N I S E S
U N SETT L I N G R E A L I TY AND THE I MAGES OF
WHICH LEE NOTICED IN THE MUSEUM IN PARIS.
VOLUPTUOU S N ESS AND RAPTURE WHERE LIBIDI­
TH E S E V I R T U A L LY A P HY S I C A L A MO R O U S R E LA­
NOUS DREAM I NG I S I N VOLUNTA R I LY TRIGGERED BY
TIONS. OR T HO S E E FF E C T E D BY " S A T E L L I T E "
BODIES OF E XC E PTI O N A L S U P PLEN ESS. SO M A N Y
[LARGU E l ORGA N S A R E AT THE OPPOSITE EXT R E M E
LITHE A R M S A N D A V I D MOUTHS.
F R O M T H E H U M A N CONC E PTION OF S E N S U A LITY. OF

WHICH. HOWEV E R . THE OCTOPUS HAS OFFERED A

P R I V I LEGED S Y M BOL RIGHT I N TO MODERN LITERA­ ROBER CAI LLOIS

TURE. IT I S FOU N D MORE THA N ONCE IN THE POE M S TRANSLATED BY L I N DA McNEIL AND M A RGA RET McGAW

ON THE BA LCONY

BOTH G I R LS WERE WATC H I N G THE SWALLOWS FLY: THE STRANGE G I RL-COU P L E THAT LOOKS I N PITY ON

ONE PALE. HA I R BLACK: THE OTHER BLOND THE OTHER COU PLES:

AND P I N K: THE I R LIGHT ROBES OF OLD GOLD DREAMING ON THE B A LCONY STOOD THE GIRLS.

WERE FLUTTE R I N G LIKE C LOUDS AND VAGUE.

BEHI N D THEM. IN THE LISTLESS DARK OF TH E I R

AND BOTH THE G I R LS. A S SLOW A S LANGOROUS A S ROOM.

A S PHODEL. AS DRAM ATIC AS THE THRONE OF A QUEEN.

AND A S THE MOON ROSE ROU N D AND SOFT. RUMPLED WITH S M ELLS. WAS THE B E D FLOWER­

DRANK D E E P LY AND FULL OF THE TREMBLING OPE N I NG IN THE SHADOWS.

EVENING

A N D THE WISTF U L J O Y OF CONSTAN T H E A RTS.

P A U L VERLA I N E

STAN DING THE R E . DA M P LY E M B R A C E D. W A R M A N D

LOOSELY C U R V E D. TRANSLATED BY DANIEL SLOATE,

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M E M OI RS OF A N OCC U PATION

W H E N I WAS VERY YOU NG I WAS FASC I N ATED WITH LIKE THE OTH E R A N I M A LS. TH E I R D E L I B E RATION

MOLLUSKS. THESE CREA TURES A R E MOSTLY OF THE ATTR A C T E D ME GR EATLY. AN EX Q U I SITE SENSI­

SEA. WITH THE EXC E PTION OF L A N D SNA I LS A N D TIVITY T O TH E EFFECTS O F TO UCH A N D LIGHT M A D E

SLUGS OR T H E F R E S H - W ATER S PECI ES. M Y LOC A L E . M E TH I N K TH E M TOO D E L I CATE A N D V U LN E R A B L E

T H E PA C I F IC NORTHW EST. I S A DVANTAGEOUS FOR T O T H E C R U E LTI ES OF T H E OUTS I D E WORLD.

GROWTH O F THE L A N D S N A I L OR SLUG. S I N C E THEY

TH R I V E IN ZON E S O F H E AVY R A I N FA L L. TH E I R PROF U S I O N I S G R EAT I N THE MOIST FORE STS

OF O R EGON. D ESPITE A L L THE K I DS W H O ENJOYED

ON MY W A L K S H O M E FROM G R A D E-SCHOOL I WO ULD S N I PPI NG THE I R EYES OUT OR C U TTI NG TH E I R

USUALLY SEE H U N D R E DS OF S L UGS A LONG BOD I E S IN HALF OR POU R I N G T H E PROV E R B I A L

GARDEN PATH W A Y S . LEOPA R D SLUGS. BANANA S A LT ON TH E I R NEVER DRY BACKS. I REGA R D E D

SLUGS OR B ROWN-ORANGE O N E S ABOU N D E D . ONE T H E M A S V E R Y E XOTIC A N D O R I G I N A LLY FROM T H E

GARDEN H A D STEPS OF ROUGH LY-C H I S L E D ROCK: SEA. NOW TH A T THEY W E R E I N V A D I NG T H E S E G L E N S

THROUGH TH E I R CREVICES GREW THE GRASS. RICH I N PLANT L I F E . PORTLA ND. O F T E N OVERCA ST.

BRA KEN A N D MOSS T H E S E SLOW-MOV I NG THINGS A L LO W E D TH E M M U C H R EST FROM THE I M MO D E R ATE

WOU LD EAT. YOU HAD TO A VO I D THEM FREQUE NTLY BLAZI NG OF THE SUN. SOM ETH I N G THEY WILL

AND STEP WITH A G I L I TY OVER TH E I R SLI PPERY A LW A Y S H AT E . WHEN RAINS ENDED AND SUN

BOD I E S. T H E R E W E R E A LWAYS THOSE T I M E S W H E N SHONE. O R A N G E SLUGS D R I E D TO BLACK A N D TH E I R

Y O U WOULD S L I P A N D H A V E THE S M E E R E D R E M A I N S S L i M E Y TRA I LS T U R N E D I R I DESC ENT. TH ESE TRA I LS

OF A SLUG DO W N YOU R TH I G H . D U R I NG THESE SHOW E D YOU THEIR PA I N F U L ROAD TO DooM -A

H O U R S A F T E R SC HOOL I W O U L D STOP A N D STA RE I N DRY. S U N - BA K E D SI DEWALK.

A D M I RATION O F T H E I R A N T E N N A E A N D PU LSATI NG

BO D I E S. THE SLICK. M O I ST COATS U S U A LLY O F SLUGS A PP E A R E D MORE P L E N TI F U L AND LESS

G R E E N . TH E I R BOD I E S W E R E C U RIOUSLY S H A P E D . A TT R A C T I V E T H A N S N A I LS. SLUGS WERE CON­

NEITHER LEGG E D. S A V E F O R O N E . A N D PON DER­ S I D E R E D BY E V E RYONE T O BE T OO N U M E RO U S . A N D

O U S LY A L I G N E D TO TH E GROUND. THEY NEVER TH E I R R E L A T I V E U G L I N ES S DI DN'T R E M E D Y TH E LOW

A P P E A R E D EQU I P P E D T O J U M P. FLY. H O P A N D TWI R L OPINION. WHEREAS S N A I LS C A PT U R E D O N E' S

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 I N TEREST M O R E : T H E Y H A D S H E L LS, O F VARYING E V E N I N G I T U R N E D ON T H E S P R I N K L E R I N O R D E R TO

S I Z E AND COLOR. AND THEIR FLESH WAS NOT SO SEE AS MANY OF THESE N OCTU R N A LLY ACTIVE

STARTLI NGLY HUED AS THE I R S H E L L- L E S S C R E A T U R E S A S POSSI BLE. A R M E D W I T H A F L A S H ­

COUNTERPA RTS. LIG HT. I D I SCOV E R E D A P A I R C E M E N T E D TOG ETH E R

I N A N E X C E S S OF S L I M E . I W A S I N IT I A L L Y H O R R I F I ED.

BUT T H E N REASONED T H E Y WERE F U C K I NG, I D I D N 'T

ONE RA I N Y DAY. IN M Y M A N Y WALKS THROUGH A
STAY LONG B E C A U S E IT WAS D I STA ST E F U L TO LOOK
WOODED N E I G H BORHOOD. I DI SCOV E R E D A MOST
A T FOR A N Y LE NGTH O F T I M E . T H E S HOCK L I N G E R E D
B E A U T I F U L S N A I L, THE SHELL HAD ORANGE A N D
ON WHEN I FINALLY LEFT TH E GARDEN TO GO
YELLOW STR I PS A G A I N S T B R O W N A N D P U R P L E . ITS
I N DOORS TO WATCH TV WITH MY PA R ENTS,
BODY WA S LONG AND THICK. NOT L I K E THE T I N Y
IGNO R A N T OF · W HAT I H A D J U ST S E E N .
WHITE ONES T H A T POSS E S S E D M E D I OC R E S H E LLS.

I T WAS SO B E A UT I F U L THAT I LET IT CRAWL OVER MY

FINGERS AND H A N D S AS I W A L K E D H O M E . I CALLED AFTER POKY'S DISAPPEARANCE I WAS D E S PO N ­

THE S N A I L "POKY" A FT E R T H E HORSE I N THE G U M BY DE NT. I THOUGHT I'D NEVER BE A B L E TO F I N D A

TV C A RTOON AND PA RTLY A FT E R ITS S LOW. S N A I L AS B E A U T I F U L A S THAT. I H A D S P E N T H O U R S

I M PLO R I N G N A T U R E . I W A S H E A RTI LY W E LCOM ED B Y LOO K I N G F O R A COMPA R A B L E S N A I L. BUT T O N O

MY YOU NG E R B ROTH E R W I TH T H E C R E ATU R E . W E AV A I L. TH E R E W E R E O N LY S L U G S O R T H E S M A L L E R

COI N E D A S O N G F O R T H E LOV E L Y PET W H I C H R A N S N A I L S W I T H F U R R Y S H E LLS. WHOLE DAYS WERE

A S FOLLOW S : TA K E N U P W I T H LOO K I NG F O R A S N A I L B E A R I N G A

POKY T H E S N A I L COLO R F U L S H E LL . ON THESE DAYS I'D HUM THE

POKY T H E S N A I L "POKY T H E S N A I L" SONG. D E S P A R A T E L Y S E A R C H I N G

YO U M A Y S E E H I M L A U G H I N ' FO R T H E P E R F ECT S N A I L. A SNAIL AS GOOD AS

YOU M A Y S E E H I M C R Y I N ' POKY.

BUT Y O U K NOW H E'S GOT

A GRE-E-E-E-E-EN MOUTH !
WITH POKY GONE. I E V E N T U A L L Y R E SORTED TO A
RIGHT AWAY WE B U I LT A TE R R A R I U M FOR H I M -A
PET SLUG. CALLED " F L A S H , " ITS H O M E WAS IN A N
LARGE GLASS J A R W H E R E I N WE PLACE D SOM E SOIL.
O R I G I N A LLY BOTA N I C A L T E R R A R I U M . O N T H E TOP
MOSS. FERN AND G R A SS , T H E TOP WAS S E A L E D
OF TH E CLEAR PLASTIC BOX WAS A SMALL
WITH A METAL LID W I T H H O L E S F O R A I R T O C O M E
VENTI LATION CAP; TW I S T AN UPPER P O RT I O N
THROUGH. S O M E T I M E S POKY WOULD E S C A P E A N D
C LOCK W I S E AND V E N TS A P P E A R. FLASH'S LONG
B E S E E N LAT E R C R A W L I N G U P T H E S I D E S OF O U R
BODY WOULD I NCH U P TO T H E S E H O L E S A T THE
B E DROOM W A L L . O N E T I M E W H E N I LET P O K Y C R A W L
VERY TOP. TH E R E H E'D SC R A P E HIS R A D U LA N I GHT­
OVER MY FINGERS (MY S I STERS AND OLDER
LO NG: IT SOU N D E D LIKE A FAINTER VE RSION OF
BROT H E R THOUGHT IT D I SG U STING. B U T TIM. T H E
C H A LK SC R E E C H I N G AC ROSS A B L A C K B O A R D . D I D
YO U N G E R B ROTH E R . E V E N A LLOW E D POKY O N H I S
H E W A N T T O E SC A P E O R D I D H E J U S T L I K E T O SUCK
F I N G E R S ) . I T B A C K F I R E D : T H E T H I N G BIT M E . I K N E W
ON PLASTIC? THE T E R R A R I U M WHICH HOUSED THIS
THEN THAT SNAILS HAVE AN UNUSUAL TON G U E
SLUG W A S PLACED ON A G I G A N T I C T E L E V I S I O N SET
LINED WITH TEETH CALLED A RADULA. TH I S
TIM AND I WOULD WATC H . AT TIMES F L A S H COULD B E
FAC I L I TATES T H E W E L L-A I M E D STROKES AT LEAVES
H E A R D T H ROUGH T H E D I N OF COM M E RC I A L S . HIS
AND FLOW E R S THEY'RE DESPISED FOR. I NEVER
SC R A P I N G CRY FO R REVENGE. F R E E DOM, FOOD­
W A N T E D T O B E B I T T E N BY A S N A I L AGA I N I N MY L I F E .
WHO KNOWS WHAT IT WANTED! (WE O R I G I N A LLY
SOON WE L O S T POKY, B U T W E COULD DETECT H I S
C A LLED HIM FLASH A FT E R TH E COMIC BOOK
SLI MEY TRA I LS OVER THE B E D R OOM WALLS
S U P R H E RO WHO C A N T R A V E L AT S P E E DS NO S LUG
A FTE RWA RDS.
COULD EVE R M A TC H . ) ONE TIME I PLACED MY

FI NGE R TOO C LOSE T O T H E VENTI LATION HOLE

O N E QU ESTI O N WE ASKED A BOUT S N A I LS WAS. DID WHEN FLASH WAS SC R A P I N G . HE, LIKE POKY

B E F O R E . B I T I T . I'M S U R E I S E N S E D S O M E P E R V E R S E
THEY "GO TO THE BATH ROOM." IT REMAINED

MYSTERIOUS U NT I L W E S A W T I N Y G R E Y COILS ON PLEAS U R E . L A T E R O N , I T H R E W F L A S H O U T, S I M P LY

T H E S U R F AC E S O F THE T E R R A R I U M . F U RT H E R M O R E , B E CA U S E I C A R E D NOT TO C L E A N OUT HIS C A G E . BY

T H E G E N D E R OF S N A I LS S E E M E D NO M ATTE R : W E TH I S TIME V E R Y S M ELLY A N D S L i M E Y.

WERE SO C H I LD I S H AT THE TIME THAT IT DIDN'T

CO N C E R N US. I WAS TO LATER F I N D OUT THAT THEY SLUGS W E R E BY NO M E A N S MY SOLE O B S E S S I O N . MY

ARE H E R M A P H RODITI C AND THAT THEY NEED TO C H I LDHOOD F R I E N DS S H A R E D TH E I N T E R E ST. T I M . A

M U T U A L L Y I N S E M I N A T E E A C H OTH E R : THE R E S U LT FRIEND CALLED M A TT A N D MYSELF I N V E NTED A

IS BOTH A N I M A L S B E A R I NG T H E EGGS. ONE S U M M E R R E A L M C A L L E D "SLUGO N I A " POP U L A T E D BY SLUG-

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I N S P I R E D CA RTOON C R EATURES. TH E Y D I DN'T H A V E D E SC R I PTION O F T H E I R R E PRODUCT I V E . D I G ESTI V E

A N Y A N T E N N A E OR SLI M E OR R A D U LAS A N D TH E Y A N D R E S P I RATORY SYSTE M S. T H E CLASSI FICATION

R E S E M B L E D H U M A N S I N TH E I R W E A K E R M O M E NTS. I NTO F A M I LY. GENUS AND SPEC I E S WAS BA S E D

THESE CA RTOON SLUGS WERE VERY SELF­ U PO N T H E ORGA N IZATION OF T H I E R R E S P I RATORY

I N D U LG E NT. P R I D I N G T H E M S E L V E S O N R A V E N OUS TRACTS. TH E BOOK H A D V E R Y STR A N G E ACCOU NTS

A P P ETITES OR EXCESS I V E TV WATC H I NG. WE DREW ON C E R TA I N S P E C I ES. ONE SPEC I E S WAS PREDA­

C O M I C S ABOUT T H E C E N T R A L SLUG C H A RACTERS. TORY-C A N N I B A L I STIC. IT WOU L D ATTA C K BY

SO M E O F TH E I R NAMES WERE HARVEY (A TRICK­ SWAYI NG ITS H E A D A N D T R U N K BACK A N D FORTH I N

STE R ) . H O B A RT (TH E D I CTATO R OF S L UGON I A ) . FRONT OF T H E V I CTI M A N D TH E N LUNGE VERY

F E E DOR ( A T V A D D I CT). GA RFO ( A SLUG W H O H A D A QUICKLY FOR T H E OTH E R SNAI L'S M A I N A RTERY

S I G N ON H I S BACK R E A D I N G "BEAT M E"). C H E E R F U L R U N N I NG U P TH E C E N T E R O F THE S P I R A L.

(A COMPULSIVELY H A PPY SLUG). AND FLASH

( A GA I N . A VORACIOUS EATER-LI K E MY FOR M E R D U R I N G A S U M M E R C A M P V ACATION I REQUESTED A

PET-WITH A SUPER F A S T TONG U E > ' M A TT W A S F R I E N D O F MY P A R E NTS' TO B R I N G THE BOOKS WITH
I N G E N IO U S A N D P ROLI F I C I N C R EATI NG FICTIO N A L HER SINCE SHE WAS GOING TO VISIT SO M E
SITUATIONS CON C E R N I NG S L UGS. HE ALSO COU N S E LORS. TH E A R E A H A D A N U M B E R O F S N A I LS
O R I G I N ATED TH E I R I M AG E A N D I N V E N TED MOST OF I DI DN'T K N OW TH E N A M E S TO. W H E N S H E A R R I V E D
TH E C H A RACTE RS A N D TH E ( R N A M ES. TIM AND I S H E M A D E A W I S E C R A C K A S TO T H E WEIGHT O F THE
CONTR I B UTED A G R E AT D E A L. E I TH E R IN O U R OWN BOOKS. MANY OF THE COUNS ELORS HELD ACA­
I DE A S OR J UST LAUGHTER OV E R MATrs TALKS ON DEMIC POSITI O N S AND ONE OF THEM WAS A
THE I D EA O F SLUGO N I A . T I M AND I M A D E A S U PE R - B BIOLOGI ST. HE WAS STRUCK BY MY I NTEREST I N
A N I M A TION F I L M A B O U T SLUGO N I A . W H I C H U N FOR­ THESE C R EA T U R ES. EVEN THOUGH A T M O M E NTS
T U N ATELY A P PEA RS TO H A V E BEEN LOST. M ATT D U R I N G O U R TALKS ON T H E MATTER I FELT AS IF H I S
A N D I E V E N WENT SO FA R AS TO SUGGEST A "SLUG I NTEREST W A S TOO A TT E N T I V E A N D TOO OBSES­
PATROL" TO O U R BOY SCOUT TROOP. T H E SCOUT­ SIONAL. IT F R I G H T E N E D ME I N TO TH I N K I NG I WAS
M A STER WAS C H A R M E D BY THE I D E A BUT HAD TO A LSO STRANGE FOR D E VOTING SO M U C H TI M E TO
R E F U S E THE TITLE (HE WAS A STU P I D M A N ) S I N C E FI NDING S N A I LS A N D C LA S S I F Y I N G THEM. TH E
TH E R E W E R E S O M A N Y OTH E R N A M E S OF A N I M A LS BULGING VOLUM E S ON S N A I LS HELPED ME
T H A T WE COULD USE B E S I D E THAT O F "SLUG:' W E SOM E W H AT WHEN MUCH OF IT WAS DON E I N AN
K N E W IT W A S A POOR REASON-BESI DES. W E W E R E EFFORT T O I M P RESS MY PEERS THAT I WAS A
ALREA DY RESIGNED TO HIS D I S A P P RO V A L. SCHOL A R LY TYPE.
B E FO R E H A N D. M ATT H A D COM POSED A FLAG W I T H

SOM E R S A U LTING O R " F L I P P I NG" S L U G S (OUR S L U G S

A S I A LSO LEA R N E D F R O M THE BOOK. HELIX PO MOTA
C O U L D F L I P I N M I D- A I R ) ; TH E F LAG'S S L U G S W E R E
WAS C A L L E D T H E E U RO P E A N G A R D E N S NA I L. A N D IT
A LSO W E A R I N G BA N D A N A S A N D H A T S . V ESTIG ES OF
IS THE SNAIL THAT THE FRENCH USE FOR
O U R U N I FORMS. W E EVEN I N V E NTED A H A N DS H A K E
ESCA RGOTS. E V E RYTI M E I WENT TO A FRENCH
W H I C H CONSI STED O F CONTACT W ITH E I TH E R PA LM
RESTA U R A N T I O R D E R E D ESCA RGOTS. C H A R M I N G M Y
ONLY TO HAVE SQ U I S H I NG SOUNDS M EET TH E
M OT H E R WITH MY SOPH I ST I C A T I O N ( " I S N 'T T H A T
OTH E R P E RSON; A NOTH E R ONE WAS CONTACT BUT
CUTE. H E'S O R D E R I N G ESCARGOTSI"). W H E N E A T I N G
R A P I D D R A W I N G AWAY-"YECCH '''-AS I F T H E PALM
S N A I LS B EG A N . I T WAS O N LY A FOODSTUFF POOR
WERE S L I M E Y.
FA R M E R S R ESORTED TO W H E N TH EY HAD NOTH I NG

ELSE TO E AT. IN HIGH SCHOOL I REMEMBER A

AROUND TH I S TI M E (l I TO 14 YEARS OF AGE. I
SKI N N Y BLACK GIRL IN FITS OVER A FRENCH
C A N NOT RECALL S P E C I F I C A LLY) I H A D BOUGHT THE
TEAC H E R EATI N G A S N A I L : " YO U ' R E EATI NG A
M O S T COM P R E H E N S I V E BOOK ON TH E S U B J ECT.
S N A I L?'" S H E S H R I E K ED. W H E N ONE WAS O F F E R E D
P I L S B U R Y'S LAND M O L L USCA O F NORTH A M E R ICA
TO HER ON BREAD WITH GARLIC B U TT E R . SHE
NORTH OF M E XICO. (TH E ACTUAL TITLE M I G H T B E
BEC A M E H YSTE R I C A L. REFUSING IN FITS OF
LONG E R . ) THE BOOK WAS A FO U R - V O L U M E D
LAUGHTER AND S H OC K . E A T I N G E SCA RGOTS WAS
M O N OG R A PH SOLELY ON LAND S N A I LS AND
O N E W A Y O F SHOWI NG YOU WERE S M A RT.
S L U G S. WHEN IT A RR I V E D. I NOTI C E D TH E PAGES

WERE U N C UT, A N D A FTER PLYI NG TH E M A P A RT WITH

A LARGE K I TC H E N K N I FE. I WAS ABLE TO M A R V E L AT MANY TI M E S THE IMAGE OF S N A I LS GREW TO

THE H U N D R E D S OF I L LUSTRATION S OF MY FAVORITE D I STU R B I N G PROPORTIONS. ON A BOAT TRIP

A N I M A L. I COULD NOW SAY T H A T SUCH-A N D-SUCH THROUGH TH E STRAIT OF GEORGIA IN BRITISH

W A S " A R I O N ATE R." "VESPERCOLA LATI N B R U M . " "HELIX CO.L.U M B I A I S A W A POST O R LOOK M AGAZI N E THAT

P O M ATA." EVERY SPECIES HAD A TEC H N IC A L FEATURED A S H ORT STORY A BO U T MONSTER

4B
S N A I LS ON A R EMOTE I S L A N D . T H E M A I N C H A RAC­ (THOUGH NOT WITH TH E SATIN A N D ER M I N E J A C K ET)

T E R D E SC R I B E D HIS H O R ROR AT THE E N O R M ITY OF AND POS ITIONED BEFORE THE W I N DOW O F STRE A M ­

THE C R EATU R E S WHICH WAS ALL TH E MORE ING D A Y L I GHT, I T F A I L E D S I M PL Y B ECA U S E S H E W A S

B E L I EVABLE WITH A N I L LUSTRATION OF ONE. I TH I N K MEASU R I NG GOLD. A V U LGA R ITY I N I T S F A I L U R E T O

MY YOU NG E R S I ST E R SHOWED ME THE PICTURE. UNDERSTA N D T H E R ESONATING SIGN I F I C A N C E O F

W H E N I SAW IT. TER ROR W A S T H E R E ACTION. A G I A NT PEAR LS. SOM E C RITICS E V E N THOUGHT V E R M E E R'S

S NA I L WAS DWA R F I NG A T R E E ITS DEVOU R I NGS HAD WOM A N WAS WEIGH ING GOLD. BUT MY PA P E R

PROBABLY D E N U D E D. T H E MOUTH O F T H E MONSTER E N DO R S E D LAWRENCE GOW I N G ' S POINT-HOW

LOO K E D LIKE A BALL O F A THOU S A N D ICE-PICKS. COULD A N YO N E THINK SHE WAS WEIGHING

R E A DY TO R I P A P A RT A N YTH I N G ORGANIC. THE SOMETH I N G B E S I D E S TH ESE J E W E LS FROM OYST E R

I M A G E OF THE MOUTH W A S MOST D I STU R B I N G AND I BEDS?

THOUGHT ABOUT I T OFTEN D U R I NG T H E VACATION. I

WOULD FREQUE NTLY O P E N TH E MAGAZINE AND A NOTH E R P A I NTI N G . BOTTI C E LLrS LA P R I M I V E RA.
F I X E D LY STA R E AT T H E MOUTH'S P R I C K LY CAVERN. FEATU R E D THE BIRTH OF V E N US FROM THE

LEGEN D A R Y S E A - S H ELL. I THOUGHT I T TO B E A M OST

DURING THAT VACATION. M Y MOTH E R AND A GOOD
B EA U T I F U L PICTU RE. IN IT HER HAIR COILS IN
F R I E N D OF H E R S . T H E MOTH E R OF T H E ACCOMPA NY­
S P I R A LS WHILE A M ALE ZEPHYR. FLORA, IS
I NG F A M I LY. LOVED TO P R E P A R E F R E S H OYSTERS.
FITFULLY BLOWING H I S G E NTLE B R EATH. W H I C H . I F
WITH P L E NTY O F OYSTER BEDS AROUND. WE WOULD
YOU DON'T MIND THE F R E E - A S S OC I ATI N G . WAS
PARTAKE OF MANY LUNCHES "ON T H E H ALF-SHELL."
SOMETH I NG I OFTEN D I D T O SNAI LS: I B L E W ON TH E I R
I T S E E M E D A V E R Y E LEGANT T H I N G TO DO IN THE
A N TE N N A E T O S E E I F THEY WERE TRULY THAT
W I L D E R N ESS. MOM'S F R I E N D WAS Q U I T E WORLDLY I N
S E N S I T I V E, AND VERY O FT E N THEY WERE­
MY EYES AND B E A UTI F U L E N O U G H T O HAVE ME
RECOI L I N G T H E T E N D E R F I LA M E NTS. TH I S D E L I C A C Y
COM P A R E H E R T O A U D R E Y H E P B U R N . W E ' D A L L D I V E
S E N T M E I N S M I LES. PROMPTING MORE A S S E RT I V E
F O R OYSTERS I N C L E A R- B L U E W A T E R . A R M E D WITH
MEASU R E S SUCH A S TOUC H I NG TH E STA LKS, O N LY
BUCK ETS OR PLASTIC BAGS. LATE R ON WE'D PRY
TO HAVE THEM R E CO I L MORE R A P I D L Y, HENCE
TH E M OPEN. A P A I N F U L TASK FOR A S H E L L'S S H A R P
TAKING LONGE R T O E M E RGE AGA I N F A C I N G T H E
EOG E S W O U L D CUT Y O U . A N D T H E K N I F E O R PRYING
H U M A N A D V E RSA RY. M Y S ELF.
TOO L . A FT E R HAVING P U NCTU R E D YO U R SKIN.

WOULD A D D T O T H E M I S E R Y O F A L R E A D Y SLICED

FINGERS. A L E M O N A N D TOMATO SAUCE AWAITED

TH E H U NGRY M I N O R I TY S I N C E MANY IN O U R PARTY

D I D N'T C A R E FOR TH E M . O N E TI M E I FOUND A PEA R L; A G A R D E N'S B R I G HT FLOWERS AND G L I ST E N I N G

I T WAS V E R Y S M A L L A N D B R O U G H T M U C H ATTEN­ LEAVES H A S A R A PAC I O U S PRE DATOR. TH E S N A I L

TION FROM THE OLDER WOM E N . I D I D N 'T KNOW A N D SLUG. TH E Y S C A R S U C H LUMI NOUS P A R A D I S E S

W H E R E TO PLACE IT. SO I L E FT I T IN THE C H A NGE T H A T R E FLECT A PROUD OWNER'S LABOR. A N D T O

PURSE OF E I TH E R MY MOTH E R 'S BAG OR HER SEE MY MOTHE R SPREA D I NG SLUG-BE-GONE OR

F R I E N D·S. I N E V E R SAW TH AT PEA R L A G A I N ONCE I T SOME S U C H S I M I LA R POISON O N OU R G A R D E N H U R T

W A S S A F E I N S I D F T H E FO LDS OF LEATH E R . M E I N ATTEN U AT E D WAYS. N O W TH E PETALS OF OU R

I R I S ES. L I L I E S A N D PETU N I A S COULD FLOU R I SH I N

A Y E A R A FT E R T H E BOAT T R I P . I H A D W R ITTEN A M A N Y A S U M M E R'S LIGHT U N R A VAGED BY G A PS A N D

LONG PAPER ON THE DUTCH PAINTER JAN HOLES. T H E S N A I L'S H A T E D STATUS W A S W H A T I

V E R M E E R . H I S ATTE NTION T O P E A R L S M U ST H A V E ATTEMPTED TO C H A NG E . I VAINLY THOUGHT MY

CONTR I BUTED T O M Y EXC ITMENT O V E R H I S WORK. DISCUSS I N G O F T H E C REATURES WOULD S W A Y M Y

BESI DES, THE DUO OF MOTH E R AND H E R FRIEND FAM I LY I NTO A P P R EC I A T I N G TH E M . TH E B R I LL I A N T

THO UGHT M E Q U I T E S E N S I T I V E T O S E L ECT V E R M E E R GROWTH O F RLOWE R S WAS NOTH I N G T O H A R M . Y E T

A S A S U B JECT FOR A R E S E A RCH PA P E R . ( I W A S 1 4 HARM TO THEM SEEMED I N EVITA B L E F O R THEY

Y E A R S OLD A N D A F R E S H M A N I N H I G H SCHOOL.) WOULD N O D O U B T Q U I C K L Y WITH E R A N D D I E . I E V E N

MOM EVEN TOLD ME ONCE THAT VERMEER WAS CHASTISED I N F R O N T OF MOTHER A M E RICA'S C U LT

CON S I D E R E D TO H A V E GROU N D R E A L P E A R LS I NTO OF YOUTH F U L N E S S IN WOMEN WHEN SHE WAS

HIS O I LS. CONT R I B U T I N G TO T H E S O FT . M I LKY P A S S I NG I N TO M I DDLE-AGE AS SEEN BY MY

PALLOR OF H I S MOSTLY F E M A LE S U B JECTS. I G R E W OBSESSIO N A L S C R U T I N Y OF H E R FACE'S G ROWTH

T O A P P R ECI ATE THE P A I N T I N G E NTITLED "WO M A N OF WRINKLES. H E R FACE IS STI LL VERY YO UTH F U L

W E I G H I N G PEA R LS" A S H I S M O S T E X Q U I S I T E E FFORT. A N D MY V I C I O U S N E S S AGAI N ST TH E ONE WHO H A D

V E R M E E R'S CONTEM P O R A R Y D E H O OC H D E PICTED A LOOKED O V E R M E W I T H T E N D E R N ESS FOR SO M A N Y

WOM A N W E I G H I N G GOLD COINS. SI M I LA R LY ATTI R E D Y E A R S A P P E A R S O N L Y T O B E R E V E N G E A G A I NST

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H E R O B S E S S I V E P I C K I N G O F MY ZITS AS I A D V A N C E D A N D ZITS.

I N TO T H E H O R M O N A L D I S F I G U R E M E NTS OF A DOLES­

CENCE. S N A I L A LLOPHON I C A L L Y R E S I D E S IN " A I LS . " I . THE

ONE WHO A I LS F R O M ACNE. HER F I N G E R NAILS W E R E

THE BITING S N A I L, LIKE THE L E ECHES THAT H A D T H E V E R Y I N S T R U M E N T OF M Y R E P E T I T I O N : S N A I L IS].

FASC I N ATED ME IN FI FTH G R A D E. COU LD A LSO WITH N A I LS, JESUS C H R I S T'S HANDS AND FEET

DRAW B LO O D FROM MY FACE AS A F R E S H LY WERE B L OO D I E D B Y T H E M , A N I N C I D E N T K N O W N I N

EXTRACTED W H I TE H E A D A LW A Y S WOULD. MY EVERY C H R I ST I A N HOME. BEFORE MY G R A N D­

M OT H E R , TRUE TO HER N U R S I NG EDUCATION FATH E R ' S D E A T H H I S H A N D S W E R E A L SO WOU N D E D

DEGREE, WOU L D WIPE OFF THE OIL FROM HER BY I M P R O P E R PROTEC T I O N F R O M X - R A Y S H E G A V E

F I N GE R N A I LS/FI N G E R S N A I LS O N TO H E R D R E S S O R TO H I S PATI E N TS . H E W A S A P E D I A T R I C I A N L I K E M Y

A PR O N . T H E ATTA C K W A S A L W A Y S ON, W H E T H E R I T FATH E R 15 NOW. WHY DID I LIKE TO HAVE POKY

WAS C O M B I N G M Y H A I R O R W I P I NG OFF D I RT FROM C R A W L O V E R M Y F I N G E R S ? I A M A LSO S U P PO S E D TO

ANY PART OF MY BODY. A C O M P U LS I V E LY NEAT BE "GE N ET I C A L L Y I D E N T I C A L" TO H I M . MY FATH ER

P E R SO N , A P R O D U C T O F L U T H E R A N U P B R I N G I N G . 1 5 SAYS 50, AND I B E A R H I S FIRST NAME A S M Y M I DDLE

STI L L I NSPI R I N G ME TO W A SH AND SHAVE O N E . M Y H A N D S H A V E B E E N C A L L E D "ATT R A C T I V E "

EVERYDAY. CLEANSING A P E R PETU A L L Y DI RTY, B Y T H O S E CLOSE T O M E . B U T A G I R LF R I E N D I O N C E

S H I T- R I D D E N E N V E L O P E O F F L E S H . TH I S BLAsEN, OR K N E W H A D A N EXQU I S I T E P A I R , C O M P E N S A T I N G F O R

B U B B L E OF S K I N I S W H A T THE S N A I L- H E A D E D M A N , HER VERY BLEMISHED FACE. HER NAME WAS

FREUD, HAD DESIGNATED TH E PHYSICAL M ET A ­ I D E N TI C A L T O M Y M O T H E R'S, FORC I N G M E T O TH I N K

PHOR O F T H E EGO. OF A M OT H E R RAVAGED BY WHAT I HAD, A

H O P E L E S S R E V E NG E . IT A LSO H E LP E D M E E N D U R E

B E I N G B RO U G H T U P IN A SOC I A L A P P A R A T U S T H A T WHATEVER PAROXYSMS MY COMPLEXION WENT

EXU LTS I N A S T R E A M L I N E D P A S S I O N F O R A S S I M I LA ­ THROUGH. WITH BAD SKIN BEING MY G R A N D­

TING E G O- I D E A L S . HAS F U R T H E R T R A N S FOR M E D F A T H E R ' S DOO M . SO H A V E I F E LT I T TOO TO B E M I N E.

TH E PAST O F P U R I F Y I N G D I R T ON T H E S K I N I NTO A TH E W O R D S K I N , T H O U G H A N A S E M IC D EC I PH E R I NG.

MI LITA NT OC C U P A T I O N . I H A V E SUCC U M B ED TO T H E I S R E LATED TO T H E LETTERS I N S N A I L, T H E "5." " I "

ADVE RTISI NG VISAGE OF G R EATER P OT E N C Y , A N D "N": P L A C E A N D "L" FOR T H E " K . " A N D YOU H A V E

" s L l N " -T H E N GO ON T O "S N A I L. " T H E "5" A N D " L " A R E

W I S H I N G THAT T H E P HOTOS A N D COM M E R I C A L S I

SEE W I L L B E P R E S E N T I N MY L I FE A S A R E S U L T OF C R U C I A L: BOTH P A R E N TS POSS ESS T H E M I N T H E I R

BUYING THE PRODUCT. THEN R E A LITY WILL O R IG I N A L N A M ES. A LSO, W R I N K LES A R E L l N Es/LA I N S

CONC U R E W I T H M Y H A L L U C I N A TION A N D I S H A L L B E ( S N A I L ) ON T H E s K I N /S L I N (SNAIL).

A I R - B R USH P E R FECT L I K E A L L THE B E A U T I E S WHO

C O U L D GET I NTO STU D I O 54 W I THOUT W A I T I N G . A N D F U R T H E R MO R E , W I T H S L U G E L I M I N A T E T H E " S " A N D

IF YOU WENT H TE R E , THE LARGE MALE HOMO­ W I T N E S S " L U G , " BETTER YET, " U LG." O R A S I S C L E A R .

SEXUAL CROWD OBEYS THE SA M E I M P U LS E ! "U LGIYI." " S L U G S A R E 50 U G L Y " S A Y T H E C O M M O N

S E C R ETLY C H E R I S H : AN O R A L D R I VE. T H E D R I V E OF LOT. SLUGS MAKE U G LY, AS FLA S H DID WITH ITS

THE VAMPI RE FOR THESE OT H E R S WHO HAVE C A G E , O R A S I T D I D TO M Y F I N G E R B Y ITS B I T I NG: A

TR I U M P H E D IN TH E I R I D E O LOG I C A L P E R FECTION, B I T I N G . U G L I F Y I N G S L U G , S C R A P I N G AT MY S K I N . M Y

OUR SOC I E T Y ' S I N DICIA I N CLEAN, BO D I L Y M OT H E R ' S NAME, J U LI E, IS A LL O P H O N I C A L L Y

S P L E N DOR. THE FEW M I LDLY ACNED AND H A N D­ R E LA T E D T O "G U L IS]," S I M I LA R T O D A D'S E N D E A R ­

SOM E MEN THERE HAVE SENT ME IN S H I V E R S. M E N T, " J U L E S, " SOU N D I NG M UC H L I K E "J E W E LS." A N

PROPELLING MY EYES TO FIX ON TH E I R HUMAN U G L Y J E W E L I S THE S L U G THAT COULD R E N D E R T H E

RA D U LA S T H A T C O U L D B I T E T H E V E R Y P I M P L E S I C H I L D-J E W E L OF J U L I E U G L Y A S W E LL.

POSS E S S T H A T E V E N I N G .

OFTE N TI M E S MY MOTH E R WOULD LA M E N T, "D U N C A N

A LTHOUGH I A M NOT I D E N T I C A L T O T H E WOLF- M A N YOU'RE SO P I C K Y . " M E A N I NG SHE PROBABLY WAS

PAC I NG H YSTE R I C A L L Y TO A N D FRO I N A D E R M A ­ D I SC O N T E N T W I T H M Y FON D N E S S F O R C R IT I C A LITY

TOLOG I ST'S OFFICE WITH M I RROR AND FACE AND D I S T I NCTION. W H I L E T H I N K I NG I WAS P I C K A B L E,

P OW D E R IN HAND, I HAVE E N C R Y PTED UNDYING T H A T I S . P R E Y TO HER FON D N E S S FOR D R A W I N G O I L

F A N T A S I E S A N D TH E I R C O R R E S PONDING PLEA S U R E­ OUT OF MY SKIN. A SISTER OF MINE WAS A LSO

WORDS. H I S P L EA S U R E-WORD. A WORD IN H I S NOSE­ NOTED FOR GOUGING HER YOUNGER B ROTH E R S'

LANGUAGE, T E R I ET, THE R U SS I A N TERM FOR F L E S H W IT H A F I N G E R C A L L E D " P I N K Y . " I T WAS A L L A

SCR A P I NG AND R U BB I N G SEEMS S I M I LA R TO MY JOKE, A LT H O U G H AT TIMES HER ATTA C K S WERE

VERBARIUM: SNAIL, SLUG, PICK OR PICKY, ACNE FRIGHTENING. " P I N K Y" APPEARS O R T H OG R A P H I -

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POK E . POKY ON MY F I N G E R S . THE POKY. PICKY A P PLICATION OF C R E A MS. R E PRODUC I N G THE

F I N G E R/SNAI L. FU RTH ER. M U C U S O R SNOT. AS IT IS M U C I LA G E FROM SNA I LS I ONCE PUT ON M Y BODY.

MORE COMMONLY CA LLED. I S PICKED I N THE NOSE. PROFESSIONAL FAC I A LS ARE SU RGEON- L I K E WITH

SOM ETH I NG MELANIE KLEIN CALLS AN ANAL RUBBERY HANDS V I O L E NTLY PICKING AWAY.

ATTACK U PON T H E MOTH E R . PIC K I NG YOUR NOSE S N A I LS. N A TU RE'S S U RGEONS (THE Y LEAVE SC A R S

F R E Q U ENTLY LIKE I DO IS G H ASTLY. D E L I C ATE ON PLANT TISSUE) ARE N O W O N L Y COSMETOLO­

R E A D E R . AND THIS H A B I T OF M I N E I S EVEN WORSE G I STS FOR PEOPLE TO K E E P CORPSEHooD I NTACT

WH E N I VENTURE TO EAT THE STUFF. BITING THE AND GOLDEN. I'M RECALLING B A U D E LA I R E' S

G R E E N J U N K A LONG THE WAY. ("HE HAS A GRE-E-E­ EQUATION O F LOVE- M A K I N G A N D S U RG E R Y I N H I S

E-E- EN MOUTH.") JOURNAX I N TI M ES.

A N OT H E R CRUC I A L P L E A S U R E - W O R D. ACNE. IS
TO M A K E GOLDE N A N D YOUTH EVOCATIVE. TO GET A
B U R I E D I N MY N A M E : DUNCAN/DUNACNIEL
T A N . IS A C R Y PTIC I M PULSE IN N E W YORK. THE NEW

YORK WITH AN ISLAND CALLED M A N H ATTA N . OR

ZITS OR "szlr' VIBRA TES WITH "SHlr' A N D CLEANING
M A N - H A T-TAN. THE N U M E ROUS "NOC T U R N A L L Y
I S OF COURSE A N A N A L MOTIF. M Y "C RITICALITY" (MY
ACTIVE C R E A T U R ES" H E R E WITH D E E P BROWN TA N S
"PICKY" NATURE- IS A L LOPHON IC WITH "ZIT" :
IS ONLY T H E MANY M E N W I T H THE EVIDENCE O F
C R I TI C A L . C ITICAL. ZITI C A L. I N DEED "ZITICAL
BEING A FFLICTED BY S U M M E R'S RAYS. THE
THEORY" BECO M E S AN E X P L A N A TION FOR MY
SONNENSTRAHLEN. A P E R FECT TA N I N M A N H ATTA N
FASCIN ATION FOR T H E WR ITINGS O F THAT SCHOOL.
TA KES SOME TI M E, BE IT DAYS. WEEKS, MONTHS.
THE (SIUGLIY I N T E LLECTU A L READI NG AN I MAGE­
EVEN A H U N D R E D YEARS.
I M A G I N A R Y B A N I S H I NG T. W. ADORNO-DON'T A DORE

" S E LF-STY L I N G A DO R N . " A DORE ME. "OUI. JE

TADORE." I BEG FORG I V E N E S S FOR ALL THIS CONFESSING

AND THE ATTE N D A N T M O R B I D I T I ES. IT S C R A P E S

M Y MOVE TO N E W YORK WAS OPPORTU NE. I CAME STI LL. IN T H I S C I TY OF SKYSC R A PERS OR STA R­

HERE TO FA LL I N TO THE A RMS OF ITS BEAUTIFUL SC R A P E R S . THOUGH NOT SO H A R S H LY. AND

M E N . NEW YORK WAS -FU N-C ITY" AND I ENVISIONED N IGHTLONG L I K E M Y PET SLUG H A D DON E ATOP THE

THE M A N Y " F U N " PEOPLE L I V I N G H E R E . BUT "FUN­ GIANT TV SET. TH E TV SHOW WILL N OT BE

C ITY" IS. FOR M E . A ·'FU N-ZITY." SINCE WHEN YOU FORGOTTEN A S LONG A S I LIVE W H E R E TV'S A R E

H AVE A "ZIT' I N FU N-CITY YOU DON'T HAVE F U N . AN WATC H E D. C R I TICIZED, PICKED AT. WITHOUT END.

U N L U sT· I C H . A. NO- F U N EGO. WITH A ZIT ON ITS UN ENDLICH.

B U BBLE, 15 NOT A L U ST-IC H . A FUN EGO I N A CITY­

ZITY WITH ALL ITS FUN. B E A UTIFUL PEOPLE. DUNCAN S M I TH

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T A B L E M A N N ERS, B E D M A N N E RS,
LA N G U A G E M A N N E R S

TO MARIE BONA PARTE, WHO HAD ASKED H I M IF K I LLS, I N G E N E R A L A N D I N PA RTIC ULAR, TH I S ALSO

PSYCHOA N A L Y S I S HAD SOM E R E A SO N TO D I S ­ I S ONLY TOO E V I D ENT. O N T H E CONTRA RY, THERE IS

COURAGE I N C ESTUOUS R E LA T IONS H I PS, FREUD NO R E A SO N FOR NOT EATING H U M A N FLESH. THE

REMARKED: P R O H I B I T I O N O F C A N N I BA L I S M T H U S A P P E A R S

U N J USTI F I A BLE. DESPITE T H E FACT THAT I N EATING

T H E SITUATION OF I NC EST I S EXACTLY LIKE THAT

O F C A N N I B A LI S M . NATURALLY THERE ARE GOOD A MAN ONE NEED NOT B EG I N BY KILLING HIM:

REASONS THAT IN MODERN LIFE ONE DOES NOT NON ETH ELESS. W E R E S PECT IT M UC H LESS. HOW

K I LL A MAN TO DEVOUR H I M , BUT THERE IS NO CAN ONE SAY THEN THAT FOR I N C EST, AND

R E A SO N WHATEVER FOR NOT EAT I N G HUMAN I M P L I C I TL Y FOR M U R DE R , THE S ITUATION IS

FLESH I N PLACE O F M EAT. N E VERTHELESS MOST "EXACTLY L I K E THAT O F C A N N I B A L I S M ?"

OF U S WOULD FINO THAT COMPLETELY I M POSSI BLE.

I N C EST I S NOT SO FAR REMOVED. AND IT OCCURS TO BE A C A N N I B A L IS TO EAT OTH E R M E N . A N D O N E

O N LY TOO OFTEN. WE CAN EASILY SEE THAT, I F IT C A N ONLY E I T H E R B E O N E OR N O T B E ONE. M A TT E R S
WAS PRACTISED ON A LARGE SOC I A L SCA L E IT
ARE N O T SO S I M PL E WITH R ESPECT TO I NC E ST,
WOULD BE A S H A R M F U L TODAY AS IT WAS IN T I M E S
W H I C H P R E S ENTS BOTH A SEXUAL A N D A SOCIO­
PAST.
LOGICAL A S PECT: T H E Y C A N NOT B E COMPLETELY

TH I S TEXT IS F U L L OF GOOD SENSE. BUT GOOD D I S SOC I AT E D ONE FROM THE OTH E R , BUT ARE

S E N S E -A N D F R E U D WOULD NOT HAVE S A I D THE R A RELY R IGOROUSLY L I N K E D : O N E C A N PROH I BI T

CONTRA Ry-oFTEN E R RS. ONE SHOULD JUDGE­ TH E M A R R I A G E O F C E RTAI N K I N WITHOUT M A K I N G A
TH E LAST P H R A S E M A K E S O N E TH I N K THAT I N C E ST D R A M A OF T H E I R EVENTUAL SEXUAL R E LATIONS.

COU L D HAVE BEEN PRACTI S E D ONCE, BUT THAT WITH US FOR E X A M PLE, TWO NEAR KIN CAN S L E E P

MEN HAD RENOUNCED I T FOR GOOD R EASONS. THE TOGETH ER, T H E Y S I M PLY C A N NOT B E M A R R I E D A N D

PROH I BI TION IS THEN J U STI F I ABLE: HOWEVER, I T IS TH E I R C H I LD R E N W I LL N O T B E LEGITIMATE: TH E I R

TRANSGRESSED "ON LY TOO OFTEN." M U R D E R IS T H E R E LATIONS W I LL B E S E X U A L BUT N O T CON N U B I A L.

SA M E : ONE S H O U L D N EV E R K I LL, ESPEC I A L LY I N TH U S O N E WILL B E -M UST O N E SAY, MORE OR

O R D E R T O D E V O U R O N E ' S V I C T I M , A N D H E R E A LSO LESS-EXACTI N G : THE SEXUAL R E LATION S H I P AT

"GOOD REASONS" CAN BE I N VOKED: BUT THAT O N E ONE TIME TREATED R I T U A L LY W I LL BECOM E A
FULLY LEGAL M A R R I AGE . T H U S A G A I N . ITS S I M P L E OPPOSITE R U L E . T H E POSSIBI LITY OF I N C EST I S S O

E X I ST E N C E COULD FOR M T H E B A S I S O F A RECOG­ WELL P R E D I C T E D T H A T OFT E N ONE HAS A LS O

N I Z E D U N I ON OF I N F E R I O R STATUS . IN E V E R Y CASE FORSEEN A RITE T O A C H I EVE IT. T O F I L L TH E GAP.

A TWO-S I DED PLAY IS POSS I B L E . WHICH ALLOWS AND P E R H A PS A LS O , AS ONE HAS ALREADY

ONE TO M A INTA I N THE PROH I BITION, TO E FFACE ITS INDICATED. WITHOUT CONSTRA I N I NG T H E S E PA RA­

VIOLATION . . . AND TO BEGIN AGAIN. ON THE TION O F T H E I NC ESTUOUS PARTIES. T H E C A N N I B A L.

CONTRA RY. I N TH E M A TT E R OF C A N N I B A LI S M . O N E I N A SOCI ETY W H I C H I S NOT, TRANSGRESSES T H E

C A N NOT THUS DI SSOCIATE DE FACTO A N D DE J U R E NORM I N A M A N N E R T H A T I S . ON T H E CONTRA RY.

STATUS. IT I S U N DE R STOOD THAT I N C A N N I B A L I S M I R REPA R ABL E: ONE C A N NOT CON S I D E R HIM A

A S WELL THERE A R E T W O A S PECTS: T O E AT. A N D TO MEMBER OF THE SOCIAL BODY. TH I S IS WHY. IN

EAT OTH E R M E N P R EC I S E LY : B U T T H E B I OLOGICAL SOC IETIES W H E R E O N E DOES NOT EAT OTH E R M E N.

A S PECT O F TH E MATTER IS NOT S E P A R A B L E F ROM BUT W H E R E M E N FEAR B E I N G EATE N. A N D W H E R E

ITS SOCI A L CONSEQU E N C E . I CAN SLEEP WITH A ONE ATTR I B U T E S M A LA D I E S AND D E ATHS TO

WOM A N WITHOUT M A R R Y I NG H E R A N D S H E R E M A I N S C A N N I B A L ACTIONS. O N E I M PUTES T H E C O M M I S S I O N

A POSSI B LE SPO U S E . F O R M E O R F O R SOMEONE OF THE C R I M E S T O M YSTERIOUS FOR E I G N E RS. O R T O

ELSE. B U T I F I E A T HER SHE I S NO LON G E R EDIBLE SORC E R E R S W H O A R E D I F F I C U LT T O I D E NTIFY.

FOR A N Y ONE E L S EI D I F F E R E N T FROM THE SEXUAL

R E LATIO N S H I P. T H E C A N N I BA LISTIC R E LATION S H I P

S Y M M E T R I C A LLY, WHERE CANNIBALISM IS THE
C A N NOT BE RE PEATED. ITS A C H I E V E M ENT EX­
RU LE, T H E R E I S N O WAY TO ELUOE IT. POS I T I V E O R
H A U STS IT. AND IF IT IS PROH I BITED AND
N EGATIVE. I T TOLE RATES N O M E A N S O F ESCA PE.
NONETH E LESS R E A LIZED, T H E R E I S N O POSSIBLE
" F I N A LLY." W R I TES H. CLASTRES A BO U T T H E
R E M I SSION. THE V ICTI M IS I R RECU PARABLE. ONE
A N C I ENT TU P I . "TH E ESSENTIAL R U L E O F A NTH RO­
W O U L D SAY T H A T THE SA M E I S T R U E O F M U RDER.
POPH A G Y IS PERHAPS THE EXIGENCE THAT
BUT THE FACT IS T H A T. AS FOR I NCEST AND
EVERYO N E PARTICI PATE. " ONE F I NOS O N E S E L F I N
CONTR A R Y TO C A N N I BA L I S M . O N E C A N G E T A ROUND
THE P R E S E N C E O F A PARADOX THAT I S A T L E A ST
T H E R U L E . VIOLA T I N G I T WHILE M A I NTA I NI NG It.: THIS
A P P A R E NT: THE U N I VE R S A L RULE SUFFERS ITS
I S NOT TO S P E A K O F WAR WHERE TO KILL I S AN
TRA NSG R ESSION, WHILE, WHERE I T A P P L I ES. T H E
E X PLOIT: T H E ACQUITTAL O F A M U RD E R E R WHERE
PARTI C U L A R R U L E KNOWS PRACTICALLY NON E . I N
E X T E N U A T I N G C I R C U M ST A N C E S CAN BE R ECOG­
R E A LITY THE D E F I N I TI O N S OF I N C EST AND OF
NIZED DOES NOT PLACE THE PROH I B ITION IN
C A N N I B A L I S M E A S I L Y EXPLA I N T H I S .
QUESTION. A S FOR T H E E X EC UTION O F A M U R DER­

ER, W H I C H ITSELF I S A M U R D E R. ITS P U R POSE IS TO

R E I N FORCE THE PROH ITI B I O N . NOT TO W E A K E N IT: TO A R E L A T I ON S H I P IS O N LY I N C ESTUOUS WITH

KILL SOM EON E WHO HAS KILLED DOES NOT R E S PECT T O T H E P R O H I B I TI O N IT B R E A KS : O N E

TR A N S FO R M THE S OC I ET Y I N TO A S OC I ETY OF CAN NOT, THUS, PRESC R I B E I T WITHOUT CONTRA­

K I LLE RS. A N D TH I S IS W H Y THE P U N I S H M ENT OF DICTING ON E'S TERMS: S I NCE IT S U PPOSES THE

DEATH C A N BE A L LOWED BY THE V E R Y PEOPLE WHO R U L E WHICH CON D E M N S IT. IT A LWAYS A PPEARS A S

MOST VIGOROUSLY CON D E M N M U R D E R . S I M I LA RLY A TRAN SGRESSION, A N D THIS TRANSGRESSION C A N

IT WOULD COME TO NO O N E'S M I N D. IN A NON­ BE FO U N D EVE RYWH E R E BECAUSE OF THE

CA N N I BA L SOC I ETY. TO S UGGEST TIojE CON S U M P­ U N I VERSA LITY OF SEXUAL DESIRE. AN APPEAR­

TION OF SOM EONE WHO H A D B E E N FOU N D G U I LTY OF A NCE MORE OR L E S S F R EQUENT ACCO R D I N G T O

C A N N I B A L I S M . ONE ONLY E ATS A C A N N I B A L I N A THE E X T E N T O F I T S PROH I BITION: R E LA T I V E LY R A R E

SOCI ETY OF CAN N I BA LS. W H I C H B R I NG S US BACK TO IN SOC I ETI E S WITH A LARGE POPULATION, AND

TH E FACT THAT C A N N I BA L I S M IS A LMOST A LWAYS WHERE T H E C I RCLE O F FOR B I D D E N PARTNERS I S

AN I N STITUTION. N E V E R A T R A N SG R ES S I O N . L I M ITED, MORE F R EQU E N T IN THOSE SOC I ET I E S

THAT HAVE FEWER M EMBERS AND THAT HAVE

SYNTH ESIS A N D R E S U LTS O F A L L T H E S E OPPOSI ­ ENLARGED T H E BOUNDS OF T H E PRO H I BITION. FOR

TH I S REASON. THE P R ETENDED UNIVERSAL

TIONS: I N C EST (AND M U R D E R) IS PROH I B IT E D
HORROR O F I NCEST I S IN GEN E R A L M UC H LESS
E V E RYWH E R E A N D E NC O U N T E R E D E V E R Y W H E R E .
PRONO U N C E D I N T H E S E LATTER: W H E R E O N E H A S
C A N N I BA L I S M IS O N LY PRACTISED WHERE IT IS
AFFIRMED IT IN A B U S I V E LY E XT R A PO L A T I N G A
AUTHO R I S E D A N D N E V E R W H E R E I T I S PROH I B ITED.
SENTI M E N T W H I C H , FOR US. K E E PS THE RESTRIC­
I N G E N E R A L. TH E R E I S ON ONE S I D E A PROH I B I TION
TION OF T H E PROH I B ITION TO T H E ONLY K I N W H O
WHOSE V I OLATION I N N O W A Y COM P RO M I S E S IT. ON
A R E CONSISTENTLY FOR B I DDEN.
THE OTH E R . A R U L E W H I C H C A N NOT B E VIOLATED

SINCE THAT WHICH I T CON D E M N S . IF O N E DOES IT.

PROVES ITS ABSENCE AND M A N I F E STS THE A S FOR C A N N I BA L I S M . O N E CAN NOT EXPLAIN WHY

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BUT THAT ITS PROH I B I T I O N N EV E R PLACES ITS VALID FOR A GIVEN POP U L A T I O N . BUT CAN

PRACTICE IN QUESTION: TH I S POSES THE PROBLEM PRETEN D TO N O G E N E R A L VALI DITY. T H E Y H A V E

OF A D M ITTING A U N I V E R S A L DESIRE TO EAT M E N . ABOVE ALL AN I DEOLOGICA L C H A R ACTER: THEY

BUT M U ST THERE BE O N E ? SUCH A D E S I R E DOES EXPRESS THE IDEAS THAT TH E I N T E R E STED H A V E

NOT EVEN SEEM PRESENT FOR ALL C A N N I BALS. OF T H E POST MORTEM EXISTENCE OF T H E H U M A N

TRUE THE I ROQUOIS E N JOY THIS KIND OF FOOD. AND PERSON. O F T H E RELATIONS BETWE E N T H E L I V I N G

J E A N DE L Il: RY WRITES OF T H E TUPI: "ALL ADMIT T H I S A N D T H E D E A D: F R O M THIS LAST POI N T O F V I EW.

HUMAN F L E S H T O BE WON D E RFULLY G DO D A N D CA N N I BA L I S M CAN BE CONSI D E R E D A S WELL A S A

D E L I CATE." E X P LA I N I NG THAT OLD WO M E N IN M E A N S TO K E E P A W A Y THE DEAD BY D E STROY I N G

PARTI C U LA R H A D A TASTE FOR IT. BUT T H I S TASTE THEIR C O R PO R A L S U PPORT-SO THE GUYAKI

1 5 NOT THE ONLY T H I N G I N VOLVED. BECA USE H E TH I N K-AS A M E A N S T O ASSU R E CERTA I N D E A D OF

A D D S : "TH E I R P R I N C I P A L I N T E NTION 15 T H A T I N ACCESS TO THE SU PREME POW E R . THAT OF

P R E P A R I N G A N D EATING T H E DEAD I N T H I S WAY. TO A N C ESTO R S H I P-SO TH E FATA L E K A THI N K . I N O N E

TH E BON E . THEY GIVE. BY T H E S E MEANS. F E A R A N D CASE AS IN THE OTH E R . THERE IS NO EVIDENT

T E R R O R T O THE LIVI NG." T H I S CONFI R M S STADEN: REASON TO S U PPOSE A PROPERLY C A N N I B A L

"TH EY DO TH I S NOT TO E A S E T H E I R H U NGER. BUT DESI R E .

THROUGH HOST I LITY. O U T OF GREAT H ATE." AND

CLAUDE D'ABBEVILLE WHO CONTESTS THE VERY

R E A LITY OF C A N N I BA L I STIC DESI RE: "IT I S NOT THAT HOWEVER. IF THE P RACTICE DOES NOT I M PLY A

T H E Y SO MUCH ENJOY EATING HUMAN FLESH BUT DESI R E . ABSTENTION DOES NOT H I N D E R C A N N I BA L­

THAT T H E I R SENSUAL A PPETITE BRI NGS THEM TO ISM FROM H A U NT I N G THE LANGUAGE AND FROM

THESE M EANS. FOR I H A V E HEARD THEM SAY THAT NOU R I S H I N G FEARS. P E RHAPS EVEN D R E A M S . O F

A FT E R HAVING EATEN. THEY ARE SOMETI M E S NON-C A N N I BA LS . C U L I N A RY LANGUAGE IS FRE­

FORC E D T O V O M I T . THEIR STO M A C H N O T B E I N G QUENTLY E MPHASIZED TO DESIGNATE. IN THE

CAPABLE OF DIGESTI NG IT." T H E S A M E M I SADVEN­ FA M I L I A R OR A RGOT MODE. SEXUAL R E LATIONS.

TU R E C A N H A P P E N TO TH E FATA LEKA. O F WHOM R. AND T H E USE O F NAMES OF M A N-EATI N G A N I M A LS

G U I D I E R I TELLS U S THAT TH E Y A R E C A N N I B A LS. NOT OR OF COMESTI B L E S TO DESIGNATE THE LOVE

BY TASTE A N D FOR PLE A S U RE. BUT BY OBLIGATION. PARTN E R . TO E X P R E S S T H E F E A R OF B E I N G I N SOM E

BY S U B M I SSION TO THE WILL OF A DEAD C H I E F WHO. WAY D E VO U R E D BY H E R ("WHAT A T I G R E SS") OR TO

THA N K S TO HIS CON S U M PTION OF A SACRIFICED FOR M U LATE A S E N S U A L ATTRACTION ("WHAT A N

VICTIM. ACCEDED TO T H E R A N K OF ANC ESTOR. TH I S A PPETIZING C H ICK"). O N E COULD A D O THAT S E X U A L

S U B M I S SI O N IS DESERVI NG. B EC A U S E HUMAN PLAY CAN CONTA I N C A N N I B A L I ST I C B E H A VI O R

FLESH IS DANGEROUS. AND TO E AT IT. THE (BITING. SUCTION) . T H E R E I S NO DOUBT THAT TH E R E

FATA L E K A MUST S U R M O U N T A C E RTA I N AVERSION: E X I ST S A N O R A L COM PON ENT OF S E X U A L DESI R E .

TH E VICTI M M U ST BE C O M P E LT E LY CONS U M ED. IF AND IT IS THIS C O M PON E N T THAT PERMITS

O N E OF T H E CONVIVES VOMITS. H I S COM M E N SA LS C A N N I B A LISTIC LA N G U AGE. BUT-A N D TH I S I S WHAT

M U ST COMPLETELY R E ABSORB WHAT H A S U N FOR­ WE WISHED TO SUGGEST IN THE PRECEDING

TUNATELY BEEN R E J ECTED. THIS IDEA THAT O N E PA R A G R A P H -C A N N I B A L I S M DOES NOT REDUCE

C A N NOT EAT HUMAN FLESH WITHOUT RISK IS. I TS E L F TO O R A LITY. T H E A M O R O U S A N T H R OPO­

MOREOVER. W I D E S P R E A D: I T I S A GOOD F OO D BUT PHAGE IS NOT. IN H I S S E X U A L R ELATIONS. MORE

TOO STRONG FOR ONE TO EAT I T PURE: T H E GUYAKI "OR A L" T H A N T H E NON-CA N N I BA L : NO MORE DOES

M U ST M I X IT WITH A VEGETA B L E FOOD: O N E COOKS I T HE D E VOU R H I S PARTN E R I HIS C A N N I BA LI S M E X I STS

I N RAGOUT W I T H HEA RTS OF PA L M . BESIDES. U N L I K E ON A NOTH E R GROU N D ENTI R ELY. A GROU N D OF

TH E S E X ACT. T H E C A N N I B A L A C T I S A LWAYS PUBLIC W H I C H THOSE WHO DO NOT EAT T H E I R COUNTER­

AND R I TUALIZED: TH E R E I S A LWAYS A N E L E M ENT. PA RTS ARE I G N O R A NT. AND THIS IS WHY TH E

PERHAPS A CAPITAL ONE. OF A COMPLEX L A TT E R . WHE N HE T R I ES TO U N D E R STA N D TH E

C E R EMONY O F T E N LIKE A FUNERAL. THIS IS FOR M E R . C A N NOT DO IT WITHOUT CON FOUN D I N G

E V I DE NTLY TR U E O F THE G U A Y A K I WHO EAT TH E I R A N T H ROPOPHAGY A N D EXCESSI V E ORA LITY. FROM

D E A D A N D O F T H E FATA L E K A W H O EAT FOR TH E I R TH I S FACT. THE PROHI BITION OF HUMAN FLESH

D E A D: IT IS A LS O TH E TUPI WHO EAT TH E I R L I B E R ATES THE M ET A PHORIC USAGE OF CANNI­

P R I SONERS I N ORDER. A MONG OTH ER R EASONS. TO BALISM: PRECISELY BECAU S E ONE DOES NOT

APPEASE THE SOU L O F A DECEASED R E LATI VE. T R A N S G R E S S T H E P R O H I BITION. T H E R E P R E SENTA­

THESE C E R E M O N I E S HAVE BEEN THE OBJECT OF TIONS OF CANNIBALISM SERVE TO SIGNIFY

DIVERSE I N T E R PRETATION S : DE S I R E FOR V E N ­ A N OTH E R T H I NG. A N D NOT ONLY. I F OFTEN. O F A

GEANCE. DESI R E TO A PP RO P R I ATE T H E QUA LITI ES SEXUAL ORDER.

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C U R R E NT LANGU AGE. G I V E A N E XC E S S I V E I M AGE PHAGY EITH E R U N D E RGONE--CONS U M PTION O F TH E

OF AN ADMISSIBLE EXCESS (IN THE ORDER OF SICK ORG A N BY A SORCERER-QR I N VOLUNTA R I L Y

T E N D E R N E S S FOR EXA M PL E l . I N M Y T H S A N D TALES. PRACTICED A B SORPTION OF H U M A N F L E S H BY T H E

IT F U R N I S H E S MOST FREQU E NTLY A D I SQ U I ETING BEWITC H E D PATI E NT. POLITI C A L AND RELIGIOUS

I M AGE OF A N I NTOL E R A B L E EXCESS. SOM E STO R I E S D I SORDER: T H E G R E E K C I TY. W R I T E S M . DETI E N N E.

A N ALYSED BY G. C A LA M E G R I A U L E M A K E A F I G U R E REPRESENTED ITSELF BY WAYS OF EATING. A N D "IT

O F U N SO C I A L I Z E D S E X U A L I TY O U T OF EATI NG. A S R E J ECTED W I T H O U T A M B I G U I TY" A C A N N I B A L I S M

WELL A S O F I T S P E R I L S O R S A N C T I O N S : ENDOCAN­ THAT IT S I T U AT E D AT THE CO N F I N E S OF ITS

N I BA L I S M -EATI NG O N E 'S KI N-EXPRESSES AN H I STORY. I N A N A G E ANTERIOR T O H U M ANITY. O R TO

EXC E S S I V E ENDOGAMY. THAT IS TO SAY I N C EST TH E L I M ITS OF ITS SPACE. AMONG TH E PEOPLE WHO

WHICH M ENACES THE I NTE R I O R OF SOC I ETY: COMPOSE THE WORLD O F BARBA R I A NS. TH E VIEW

EXOC A N N I BA L I S M -TO EAT OR TO BE EATEN BY IS NOT CONTRADICTED BY TH E MOVE M E NTS W H I C H

STRA N G E R S -R E S U LTS O N T H E CONTRARY I N A N I N G R E E C E ITSELF H A V E CONTESTED TH E SYSTEM

E X A GG E R A T E D E X OG A M Y WHICH MENACES TH E OF VALUES WHICH E X P R ESSES THIS REJ ECTION :

SOC I A L GROUP FROM THE EXTERIOR. IT IS THE CANNIBALISM. WH ETH E R IT BE I N TEGRATED I NTO

I M PR U D E N T U N I ON WITH T H I S S T R A N G E FOR E I G N E R C E RTA I N D I O N YS I A N RITUALS I N ORDER TO PROVI D E

WHO I S T H E SE D U CTI V E OGR E . T H E C A N N I BA L I STIC DI RECT CONTACT W I T H THE S U PE R NATURAL. OR I T

M ETAPHOR SERVES HERE TO C I RC U M S C R I B E THE BE DEMANDED BY T H E C Y N I C S "TO A FF I R M TH E

FIELD OF ACC E PTABLE A L L I A N C E : BETW E E N THOSE RIGHTS OF T H E I N DI V I D U A L IN THE FACE OF SOCI ETY

I NELIGIBLE FOR M A R R I AG E BECAUSE TOO NEAR AND AGAI N ST EVERY FORM OF C I V I LIZA T I O N . "

A N D T H O S E I N E L I G I B L E FOR M A R RI A G E B ECA U S E REMAINS A MEANS TO MAKE MAN SAVAGE. FOR

TOO D I STANT. B U T I T C A N A LSO S E R V E TO E X P R E S S THOSE WHO CONTEST IT. A S WELL AS FOR THOSE

OTH E R O P POSITIONS WHICH D E TE RM I N E P E R M I S­ WHO CONFORM. I T PLACES C U LTURE IN QUESTION.

S I B L E A N D FORBI DDEN M A R R I AG E S . OPPOSITION OF NOT ANOTH E R D E F I N ITION OF CULTURE.

THE HUMAN AND THE I N H U M A N -B U T NOT THE

I N VERSE-WHICH C A N B E C ON S I D E R E D A S COI NCI­ THE USE OF T H E CAN N I BALI STIC M ETAPHOR. AND
D I N G W I T H THAT WHICH DETE R M I N ES C O M E STI B LE TH E REJ ECTION OF C A N N I BALISTIC PRACTICE

AND NON-COM ESTI BLE. THE POLI T I C A L AND RESTS. A S W E S E E . ON T H E I D E A T H A T C A N N I B A L I S M

ECONO M I C OPPOSITION OF THE RULER TO HIS I S A N U N REGULATED B E H A VIOR. OF W H I C H D I V E R S E

SUBJ ECTS. O F W H I C H A N A L I M E N T A R Y C O M P A R I SON FO R M S - A U T O - E N DO- E X O - C A N N I B A L I S M - A R E

FOR M U LATES I N S U PPORTA B L E TENSION. T H E C H I E F O N LY I NT E R C H A N G E A B L E V A R I ETI ES. WITHOUT
"EATS" M E N . S A Y T H E H A D J E R A I . A N D TH E Y A R E NOT TH E I R OWN S I G N I FICATION. IT POI NTS OUT "SA·

TH E O N L Y O N E S TO A F F I R M T H I S: ACTUA L LY. I T IS VAGES." BUT NOT THE I N DICATION OF ANOTHER

AGGRESSIVITY. MORE T H A N ORALITY. THE D E S I R E TO C U LTURE. T H E V E R Y PROOF O F TH E ABSENCE OF
A BSORB. W H I C H IS M ETAPHORIZED. C U LTURE. TH I S G E N E R A LIZED CAN N I BA L I S M . S U B­

OR PRE-H U M A N . A PPEARS AS AN I RR U PTION OF

ALL THESE VIRTUALITIES OF THE A L I M ENTARY NATURE IN THE BODY OF C U LTURE: IT EFFACES THE

C O D E ( A N D N O T O N L Y TH E C A N N I BA L) A R E FOUND I N FRONTI E R S W H I C H SEPA RATE THE H U MAN WORLD

TH E A M ER I N D I A N MYTHOLOGY: T H E M YTH O LOGIES OF FROM THE I N HUMAN WORLD. JUST AS I N C E ST

C. LEVI-STR A U S S G I V E S I N N U M E R A B L E E X A M PLES. ABOL I S H E S T H E D I ST I N CTION W H I C H . I N THE BODY

IN WHICH THE STORY D E V E LO P S IN PLAYING ON OF SOC I ETY. MAKE IT A NOTH ER T H I NG THAN AN

HOMOLOG I E S BETW E E N DIFFERENT CODES. THUS AMORPHOUS MAGMA. THE TWO P R OH I B I T I O N S

TH E STORY OF A G I R L WHO. H A V I N G T A S T E D H E R ORGA N I Z E TH E SOC I A L F I E L D CONJOI NTLY. TH E ONE

O W N B LO O D - A U T OC A N N I B A L I S M - A L I M E N T A R Y DELI M ITING IT FROM THE OUTSI D E . THE OTH E R

I NC EST-FEELS THE A RD E N T D E S I R E T O CONS U ­ ARTICULATING I T F R O M TH E I N S I DE.

MATE A REAL I N C EST. AND THIS F R U ST R A T E D

DESI R E RETRANSFORM S ITSELF I NTO A L I M ENTARY

A PPETITE. I S TOO INSPIRED BY THE BODY O F A

RETICENT BROTH ER: OR THAT OF T H E S U N-WOMA N . WE A R E B ROUGHT BACK TO F R E U D. A FACT WHICH IS

A C A N N I BA L . WHO A H ER O "TE M P E RS" A N D M A K E S NOT S U R P R I S I NG. SI NCE FREUD WAS C E RTA I N LY NO

M O R E C L E M E N T TOW A R DS M E N B Y POSS E S S I NG H E R C A N N I BAL! BUT I T IS TIME TO ASK IF THIS I S HOW

WITH A PENI S M A D E OF I C E . F O R T H O S E W H O A R E THOSE WHO ARE THI N K A N D ACT. WE I M MEDIATELY

L I M I T E D TO I M A G I N I NG IT. C A N N I B A L I S M I S T H U S A GIVE A RESPONSE THAT I S PERHAPS U N EXPECTED:

F I G U R E O F DISORDER. I N DI V I D U A L A N D B I O LOGICAL THIS IS WHAT THEY TH I N K . BUT-A N D U N DOUBTEDLY

D I SORDER: T H E EBR I E AND T H E ALLADIAN STU D I E D FOR THIS-TH I S I S NOT WHAT THEY DO .

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F I R S T OF A L L. WHAT DO THEY SEEM TO TH E M ­

SELVES. THOSE W H O S E E M T O US T O BE C A N N I ­ MORE O R LESS E LABORATE J USTI FI CATIONS. THIS

B A L S 1 A C U R I O U S PROBLE M . A N D AT FI RST G L A N C E HAS N OT H I N G TO DO WITH A GENERALIZED

INCOMPR E H E N S I B L E : THEY TAKE O F F E N S E AT BEING C A N N I B A L I S M . W H I C H . C O M P L E T E L Y U N ATTESTED

TREATED AS EATERS-OF- M E N . THE C A N N I BA LS A R E AND E V E R YW H E R E D R E A DE D . IS PU RELY I M A­

ALWAYS THE OTH ERS. A N D T H E S E OTH E R S ARE G I N A RY.

PRECISELY THE "SAVAGES." PEOPLE WITHOUT GOOD

MAN NERS: NEAR N E IG H BORS WHO BEHAVE D I F­ ONE SEES THAT REAL C A N N I BA L I S M OUGHT NOT TO

F E R ENTLY. OR MYTHICAL POPULATIONS-DI STANT EXC L U D E I M AG I N A R Y C A N N I B A L I S M . SINCE IT I S I N

IN T I M E AND SPACE. WHO ARE IGNORANT OF ANY O P PO S I N G ITSELF THAT THE L A TT E R DEFI N E S

R U LES. NOTABLY THOSE OF M A R RIAGE AND OF DI ET. ITSELF. O R . I F O N E P R E F E R S . T H E PROH I B ITION OF

I N SHORT. I N C ESTUOUS C A N N I BA LS. TH E FATA LEKA. SAVAGE C A N N I BA L I S M DOES NOT EXC LUDE R E A L

GUIDIERI TELLS US. "OPPOSE TO THEIR I NSTITU­ C A N N I BA L I S M . THE C A N N I BA L A N D TH E NON­

TIONALIZED C A N N I B A L I S M A SAVAGE C A N N I BALISM. C A N N I B A L JOI N I N CON D E M N I N G I N T H E S A M E WAY

. . . THIS C A N N I BA L I S M . W H I C H EXISTED BEFO R E THE AND FOR T H E S A M E R E A SO N S AN U N R ESTRA I N E D

SOC I ETY OF MEN . . . I S ATT R I B UTED TO AN ANCIENT C A N N I BA LI S M . EACH R E PR E S ENTS I N THE S A M E

PEOPLE OF THE I NTERIOR . . . (OF WHOM) CANNIBAL W A Y TH I S I N A D M ISSABLE ANTH ROPOPHAGY. AND I N

C U STOMS. STRONGLY R E P ROVED. A R E SYSTEMATI­ T H I S S E N S E O N E C A N S A Y THAT THEY RESPECT THE

CA LLY OPPOS ED TO RITUAL PRACTICES." AS FOR SAME PROH I BI T I O N : ON E C A N NOT EAT EVERYTH I NG.

TH E I ROQUOI S. OF WHOM U . CHODOW I E D SPEAKS. THE C O M ESTI B L E IS N OT A LWAYS LIABLE TO

THEY PEOPLE TH E I R MYTHS WITH CHA RACTE RS WHO C O N S U M PT I O N . THE PARALLELISM WITH SEXUAL

EAT ANYONE AT A LL-TH E I R NEAR KIN. IT IS PROH I B ITIONS (OR S I M PLY WITH MATRIMONIAL)

U N D E RSTOOD-A N D P E R H A PS EVEN THEM SELVES. BECOMES E V I D E NT: O N E C A N NOT M A R R Y A N YO N E .

AND PREPA R E D IN ANY WAY AT ALL-RAW. FOR ANY "KISSABLE" P E R SO N IS NOT A L WA Y S M A R­

E X A M PLE-AND I T I S N ECESSARY TO DESTROY TH E M RIAGEABLE. A PARALLELISM THAT EXTENDS IN

OR TO B R I N G TH E M T O R E A SON. T H A T I S T O T H E ANOTH E R D I R EC T I O N : SAVAGE C A N N I BA L I S M IS

PROPER M A N N E R OF E A T I N G M E N . THE B A S I C M YTH PA I R E D WITH P R I M ITIVE "PRO M I SC U ITY." O N E AND

OF THE CELEBRATED POLITICAL ASSOCIATION. "TH E T H E OTH E R EQUALLY R EJ ECTED . . . A N D EQUALLY

FIVE NATIONS: THE I ROQUOI S. TELLS HOW MAN I M A G I N A RY. A PA R A LL E L I S M . F I N A LLY. THAT

PASSED FROM A SAVAGE MONSTROUS C A N N I BA­ E M PLOYS C A N N I BA L I STIC M ETAPHORS.

L I S M TO I N STITUTION A L I Z E D . SOC I A LIZED. C A N N I ­

BALISM. T H E G U Y A K I H A V E NO N E E D OF M YTHS TO O N E WILL SAY THAT THERE R E M A I N S ' A N I R R EDU­

CONDEMN CANNIBALISM: THEY EAT TH E I R OWN C I B L E DIFFERENCE BETWEEN T H E C A N N I BALS AND
DEAD A N D IT I S WELL. BUT THEIR NEIGHBORS. THE T H E OTH ERS: J U ST A S S E V E R E A S T H E FI RST C A N
GUAIANI. WHO KILL TH E I R E N E M I ES A N D EAT TH E M . BE IN T H E I R CON D E M N ATION OF S A V A G E C A N N I ­
G I V :;: AN EXAMPLE T O B E AVO! DED. T H E Y A R E TRUE: B A L I S M ; T H E F A C T I S T H A T T H E Y E A T M E N A N D THAT
C A N N IBALS. THE LATT E R 00 NOT. THIS APPEARS I NCONTEST­

A B L E -E S P E C I A LLY TO US WHO G I V E C A N N I BA L I S M

IN OTH E R WORDS. R E A L C A N N I BA L I S M IS NEVER A G E N E R A L A N D S I L L Y D E F I N ITION; BUT THIS I S NOT

U NORDERED: T H E EXOCA N N I BA LS. FOR . EXAM PLE. SO S U R E . A S M . DETI E N N E SHOWS. ONE IS A LWAYS

DO NOT EAT T H E I R DEAD. AND THE ENDOC A N N I BALS SOM E O N E ELSE'S C A N N I BAL; E V E RYTH I NG DEPENDS

WHO DO DO NOT EAT FOR E I G N E RS; THE VICT I M 'S SEX ON THE POI N T OF V I EW. I F. IN HIS A L I M ENTA R Y

I S I M PORTANT TO C E RTA I N OF TH E M WHO ONLY EAT R EG I M E -"A PLAN OF P R I V I LEGED S I G N I FICATION TO

MALE I N D I VI D U A L S AND EXCLUDE WOM E N . WHILE D E FI N E TH E SYSTEM OF R E LATIONS BETWEEN M A N .

OTH ERS D O N O T TA K E TH I S INTO ACCOUNT; THE NATURE. AND THE S U P E R N A T U R A L" FOR THE

P R ACTI C E MAY BE G E N E R A L. BUT IT MAY BE G R E E KS - M A N M UST PLACE H I M S E L F SOM EWH E R E

R E SERVED FOR C E RTA I N CATEGO R I ES OF I N D I VID­ " B E TW E E N B EASTS AND GODS," AND IF TH E

U A LS; THE CON S U M M ATION. M A Y BE COMPLETE OR ANTH ROPOPHAGY IS O N LY A MODALITY OF

NOT; THE D I STRI BUTION OF PARTS MAY BE A L L E LO P H A G Y . ONE R I S K S B E I N G I N E V I T A B LY A

A LEATORY O R REGULATED; TH E FUTU RE VICTIM MAY LITTLE BIT O F A C A N N I BAL, S I N C E ONE C A N NOT BE

H A V E H I S WORD TO SA Y. AS WITH THE FORE WHO CUT CONTENT LIKE THE GODS. WITH SMOKE AND

U P THE DEAD I N EATING TH E M , OR THE MORIBUND A R O M AT I C ODORS. IN THE EYES OF STRICT

MAY " D ET E R M I N E WHICH OF HIS KIN W I LL BE PYTHAGO R I A N S . C A R N A L A L I M E NTATION I S A FORM

A U THOR IZED TO TASTE HIS FLESH." THE M ETHODS O F A NTH ROPOPHAGY. AND THOSE THAT ACC EPT A

O F COOKI N G AND OF P R E P A R ATION VARY AS WELL CO M P R O M I S E " D EC I D I NG T H A T C E R TA I N SAC R I F I ­

FROM ONE GROUP TO A NOTH ER. I N BRIEF T H E R E I S CIAL VICTI MS-PIGS A N D GOATS - A R E NOT.

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PROPERLY S P E A K I NG . M E AT. AND THAT M EAT HAVE TIES OF K I N S H I P. AT THE S A M E T I M E. T H E Y

A C T U A LLY IS THE FLESH OF FARM COWS. THE C A NNOT EAT T H O S E WITH WHICH THEY C A NNOT

SLAUGHTER O F W H O M I S T H E OBJECT O F A FOR M A L COPULATE: FATH ERS AND MOTHE R S DO NOT EAT

PROH I BITION." T H I S R ESTRICTION I S EXPLA I N E D B Y T H E I R SONS AND DAUGHTE RS. AND RECI PROCA LLY:

TH E CLOS E N E S S O F C O W A N D M A N : F U N D A M E NTAL­ BROTHER AND S I STER DO NOT EAT EACH OTH E R .

LY M EAT IS MORE OR LESS M A N . A N D AS ROUSSE A U H ERE. C O N S E Q U E NTLY. THE TWO PROH I B I T I O N S

ALSO THOUGHT (SEE EMILEI. E V E R Y C A R N I VO R E I S A COM B I N E A N D H A V E THE S A M E B R E A DTH. S I N C E T H E

C A N N I BAL. AT LEAST POTEN T I A LLY. NOMENCLATURE OF K I N S H I P S U F F I C E S T O I N DICATE

WHO CAN AND C A NNOT BE EATEN. ONE COULD

SPEAK OF AN " E L E M E NT A R Y S T R U CT U R E OF
C A N NIBALISM THUS DOES NOT E X I ST. EXCEPT IN THE
CANNIBALISM." EVEN WHEN THEY ARE N OT
I M A G I N AT I O N . AND ONE ENCOUNTERS ONLY
D E T E R M I N ATES. KINSHIP AND A LL I A N C E OFTEN
CA N N I B ALS WHO DEFINE T H E MSELVES BY THE
FURNISH A LANGUAGE FOR C A N N I B A L I S M : WITH I N A
N EG A T I O N OF THI S PHANTASM. SINCE THI S
GROUP. THE TUPI. K I N OR NOT. ALLI E S O R NOT. NON E
PHANTASM IS I MA G I N E D B Y A L L A S R EAL. IN A
ATE EACH OTH E R : THOSE THAT T H EY ATE THEY
SUPPOSED ELSEWHERE. ONE C A N SAY THAT NO O N E
C A LLED "BROTH ERS-IN-LAW." M ETA PHORI Z I N G THE
IS A C A N N I B A L. BUT. LIKE EVERYONE ELSE.
NON-C A N N I BALS I NVERSELY. I ROQUO I S D I D NOT EAT
ACCOR D I N G TO HIS EFFECTIVE A L I MENTARY
I ROQUOIS. E V E N THOSE OF ANOTH E R NATION: TH E I R
R EG I M E. CAN BE J U OG E D A C A N N I BA L B Y T H E
V I CTI M S WERE FO R E I G N E RS; HOWEVE R THE
OTH E R S . ONE COULD SAY J UST AS W E LL T H A T
P R I SO N E R S T H A T T H E Y B R O U G H T FROM THE I R
EVERYONE I S O N E .
EXPEDITIONS W E R E THE OBJECT O F A CHOICE. O N E

ATE T H E M OR O N E ADOPTED THEM. A N D T H O S E THAT

F I N A LLY. THE E R RO R N O T T O B E COMMITTED I S THAT
WERE EATEN WERE THUS THOSE W ITH WHOM O N E
OF CONTENTI N G ONESELF WITH A M A T E R I A L.
D I D N O T W I S H TO FORGE A L I N K OF K I N S H I P. I N T H E
BIOLOGICAL D E F I NI T I O N OF C A N N I BA L I S M : TO EAT
T H I R D CASE. ONE E A T S R E A L OR POTENTI A L A LLIES.
MEN. OR TO R ECONS I D E R THE E X A M P L E OF THE
T H I S I S I N EVITABLE FOR THE G U Y A K I . S I N C E THE
GREEKS. A FLESH ESTI MATED TOO C LO S E TO THAT
O N LY PEOPLE EXCLUDED FROM TH E RITUAL WERE
OF MAN. I F THE FLESH OF T H E F A R M COW M UST NOT
THE FATH E R AND M OT H E R . THE SON AND TH E
BE C ON S U M E D . TH I S IS NOT B EC A U S E OF ANY
DA UGHTER . THE BROTH E R OR THE S I STER OF THE
EFFECTIVE R E S E M BLANCE. I N TASTE FOR EXAM PLE.
DEAD PERSON. FOR TH E TUPI. IT W A S A POSSI B I LITY
WITH THAT OF M A N . I T IS B EC A U S E OF T H E QUASI­
EXPRESSED BY THE LANGUAGE; THE WOM E N OF
SOCI A L STATUS OF T H E A N I M A L S I M I LA R LY. IF ONE
E N E MY GROUPS FROM WHICH ONE HAD TA K E N
FORBIDS ONESELF T H E E A TI NG OF ONE'S KIN. BUT
P R I SO N E R S FOR T H E P U R POSE O F EATI NG THEM
O N E EATS STRA NGERS. T H I S IS NOT BECAUSE THE
COULD BE M A R R I ED. FOR THE I ROQUOIS. TH E GROUP
LATTER A R E MORE D E LECTABLE. IT IS BEC A U S E
THAT O N E TOOK P R I SO N E R WAS A L SO THAT FROM
THE FORM E R I S NOT D O N E . FOR A SOCIOLOG I C A L
WHICH ONE BROUGHT BACK P EO P L E . WHO.
R E A S O N . C A N N I B A L I S M I S A W A Y OF TH I N K I N G M O R E
A DOPTED. ENTERED IN FULL R IGHT IN THE
THAN A WAY OF E A T I N G . THUS. J UST A S I NCEST A N D
M ATRI M ON I A L F I E LD: THOSE ADOPTED COU L D H A V E
C O R R E L A T I V E LY THE A UT H O R I Z E D ALLIANCE
B E E N EATEN J UST A S THOSE E A T E N C O U L D H A V E
FORM A LLY DEFI N E S ITSELF B Y T H E G E N E A LOG I C A L
B E E N ADOPTED. T H E R E AGA I N THE M ETAPHORICAL
POSITION OF TH E P A R T N E R . T H E PROH I B I TION A N D
AND REVERSIBLE L I A I SO N OF CA N N I BA L I S M AND
PRESC R I PTION O F C A N N I BA L I S M DEFI N E S ITSELF
SEXUALITY I S EASI LY U N D ERSTOOD.
FOR M A LLY BY THE SOC I A L POSI TION O F HIM WHO

M U ST BE EATEN. AS FOR I NCEST AND THE

A L L I A N C E. TH E V A R I A B I LITY O F THE PROHIBITED IN FACT. WHAT IS DETE R M I N I NG FOR TH E I ROQUOIS

F I ELD EXPLAI N S T H E M U LT I P L I C I TY O F SYSTEMS. AND THE TUPI IS LESS KINSHI P THAN THE

A P P A R TE N A N C E TO A POLITI C A LLY DEFINED

GROUP. A N D T H E PERTI NENT OPPOSITION I S T H U S

ONE W I L L FIND. I N THIS R E V I EW. SO M E EXAMPLES T H A T OF E N DOCA N N I B A L I S M . I L LUSTRATED B Y THE

WHICH GIVE AN I DEA-A FOR E T A ST E -O F THAT GUYAKI. AND EXOC A N N I BA LI S M . I L L U STRATED BY

WHICH C O U L D B E A G E N E R A L T H EORY OF C A N N I ­ THE OTH E R TWO POPULATIONS. I T IS U N D E R STOOD

BALISTIC STR U C T U R E S . THE V A R I ANTS M UST BE THAT THESE NOTI O N S ARE RELATIVE. AS ARE

O R D E R E D SI M U LT A N EOUSLY ACCOR D I N G TO M A N Y THOSE OF EXOGAM Y A N D EN DOGAM Y. TWO G RO U PS

A X E S . T H A T OF K I N S H I P . N A T U R A LLY: T H E G U Y A K I THAT WAGE W A R P E R IODICALLY. BOTH PRACTI C I NG

EAT THE DEAD IN THE GROUP TO WHICH TH E Y C A N N I BA L I S M WITH TH E I R PRISONERS ARE

B E LO N G AND WITH WHICH. BECAUSE OF ITS EXOCA N N I B A LS. BUT CONSIDERED I N TH E L I G H T OF

EFFECT I V E WEAK N ESS. T H E Y A L MOST I N EVITABLY TH E I R COM M U N A L H I STORY. DO THEY NOT FOR M A

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S I N G LE. E N OOCA N N I B A L GROUP7 THE TUPI SEEM TO L I V I NG B E I NG THAT ONE EATS RAW; CA N N I B A L

BE CONSCIOUS OF TH I S : T H E V A LOROUS WARRIOR. PEOPLES H A V E B E E N D I SCUSSED. B U T O N E SAYS

ON T H E POI N T OF BEING EATEN. N E V E R FAILS TO NOTHI N G A BO U T T H E E V E N T U A L D I V I SION BETW E E N

R E M I N D H I S TORTU R E R S OF HOW M A N Y OF T H E M H E COM M E N SA LS. O N T H E CONTRARY. T H E SECON D. I S

HAD EATEN I N T H E PAST. A N D THAT THOSE WHO REGULATED CON S U M PTION --<lFT E N T A K I N G PLACE

WERE PREPARI NG TO DINE AT HIS EXPENSE WERE IN A VERY E L A BO R A T E R I T U A L-OF A C OO K E D

GOI N G TO REC UPERATE TH E I R C A N N I B A LIZED DEAD C A D A V E R O F W H I C H C E RTA I N ORGANS C O U L D B E

BY I NGESTING HIM. VENGEANCE. WHICH T H E TUPI RESERVED OR FOR B I D D E N TO C E RTA I N CATE­

SAID EXPLICITLY I NC I T E D THEM TO EAT THEIR GORIES OF PERSONS. T H E CON S U M PTION G E N E R­

E N E M I ES. W A S A LSO A R E C U P E RATIO N . A L L Y IS TOTAL. O N L Y T H E BONE S B E I N G THROWN

AWAY; THE CANNIBAL IS A L M OS T A LW A Y S A

IT I S A L S O NECESSARY T O TAKE I NTO ACCO U N T THE C A R N I VO R E . STI LL. SOME. IN THE O P PO S I T I O N

M A N N E R I N WHICH T H E O N E WHO I S EATEN DIED: BETW E E N F L E S H A N D BONES. PRIZE T H E LATT E R .

FROM A NATU RAL O R A VIOLENT DEATH. OR FROM T H E Y A N O M A M I . LET TH E F L E S H OF T H E C A D A V E R

THE H A N D OF THOSE WHO H E I S GOI NG TO NOURISH. D E C A Y . T H E N C L E A N A N D P U L V E R I S E T H E BON E S

THE E N DOC A N N I BA LS. EVIDE NTLY. DO NOT KILL TO W H I C H T H E Y E A T M I XE D W I T H A B A N A N A P U R E E . T H E

EAT. AND EVEN. S I NC E ONE ON LY K I L LS ONE'S C U I S I N E. PROPER LY S P E A K I NG. I S N O T T H E S A M E

E N E M I ES. DO NOT EAT THOSE THEY H A V E K I LLED: A L L O V E R . A N D W I T H O U T A DO U BT T H E SYSTEM OF

TH E Y EAT TH E I R "DEAR DEPA RTED." I N V E R S E LY. C A T E GO R I E S E L A BO R A T E D BY CLAUDE LEVI­

TUPI AND I ROQ U O I S EXPLAIN THAT IT IS NOT STR A U S S WOULD B E A P P LICABLE H E R E TOO. WITH

N EC E SSARY T O EAT T H E L I V I NG. O R T H E PEOPLE R E G A R D TO T H I S . T H E TORTU RES ENDURED B Y T H E

WITH WHOM ONE LIVES-TH I S IS "SAVAGE" VICTI M S B E FO R E TH E I R E X ECUTION SHOULD N O T B E

C A N N I BA L I S M -BUT I T I S F I R ST N ECESSARY T O K I L L N EG LECTED: AFTER THEIR EXPEDITIONS. ON THE

( E N E M I E S. CON S E Q U E NTL Yl A N D T H A T O N E C A N E A T WAY BACK. THE I ROQ U O I S I N F LICTED ATROC IOUS

THOSE T H A T O N E HAS K I L LED-TH I S IS POLIC E D TREAT M E N T O N TH E I R P R I SONERS; P E R H A PS ONE

CA N N I BA L I S M . AT T H E S A M E T I M E . T H I S D O E S NOT M U ST S E E I N T H E S E TORTU R E S A SORT O F C U I S I N E .

M E A N THAT THE I ROQUOIS M A D E WAR S I M PLY TO PRACTICED. O N E COU L D SAY. I N A NTICI PATION.

K I L L AND EAT: THEY FOUGHT TO TA K E PRISONERS.

AND THEY TOOK PRISONERS WITH TH E P U R POSE OF F I N ALLY. AND E V I DENTLY. RELIGION. TH E CONCEP­
A DOPTI NG A GOOD N U M B E R ; I N FACT. I ROQUOIS OF TION O F T H E WORLD A N D MAN. SHOULD B E T A K E N
PURE STR A I N WERE QUITE RARE. THE DEMOG R A PH­ I NT O CONSIDERATION. THE EXAMPLE OF THE
IC AND THUS POLI T I C A L I M PO R T A N C E O F TH E FATA L E K A . THAT T H E A N ALYSIS OF R. GUIDIERI
I ROQUOIS FEDE RATION CAME FROM THE SYSTE­ M AKES. IS PARTICULARLY REVEALING FROM THIS
MATIC USAGE OF TH I S M ETHOD; ON THE WHOLE IT POI NT OF VIEW. IN EVERY CASE. PEOPLE AND
WAS THE RESI D U ,l LS WHO WERE EATEN. THOSE THINGS M U ST BE PLACED IN A C O R R ECTLY
THAT WERE N'T WANTED. AS FOFl T H E TUPI. THEY O R D E R E D WOR L D: P A R E NTS. A L L I E D A N D FOR E I G N .
KI L L E D AND ATE A L L THEIR P R I SONERS. BUT A FT E R GODS. MEN AND A N I M A LS . DEAD AND L I V I NG.
SO LONG A DELAY THAT O N E COU LD NO LONGER CANNIBALISM C A N NOT BE I SOLATED F R O M "TH E
CONSIDER THEM. AT THE M O M E NT OF THEIR GROUP OF R E P R E S E NT A T I O N S T H A T SOC I ET Y
EX ECUTION. AS S I M PLY C A PTURED ENEMY; THEY MAKES FOR ITSELF AND FOR OTH E R S . " (M.
HAD BEEN I NT E G R A T E D . E F F E CT I V E LY. IF TEM­ DETA I N N El. I T I S A C U LT U R A L PHENOM ENON.
PO R A R I L Y . I N TO THE G RO U P . THEY WERE NO

LON G E R A N YON E I N PARTI C U L A R ; O N E WOU L D H A V E

THAT IS WHY. FOR H ON O R A B L E C A N N I BA L I S M .
L I K E D . W R I T E S H . C LASTRES. ''TH EM T O H A V E B E E N
THOSE W H O PRACTICE IT OPPOSE A C A N NI B A L I S M
MUCH B E TT E R DETE R M I N E D . " MOREOVER. THE
T H A T I S DISHONORABLE. SO M UC H SO THAT. O N C E
M U R DERER WAS T H E ONLY O N E NOT TO PA RTICI ­
THE M I S U N D E R S TA N D I NG S A R E DISSI PATED.
PATE I N T H E D I N N E R . I T WOU L D THUS BE SI M PLISTIC
C A N N I BA LS AND N O N -C A N N I B A LS JOI N IN CON­
TO SAY THAT O N E K I LLS TO EAT.
D EM N I NG I T IN T H E N A M E OF T H E S A M E P R I N C I PA LS

OR ORDER AND OF THE PRECISE D E L I M ITATION

TH E PASSAGE FROM SAVAGE AND MYTHIC C A N N I ­ BETW E E N N A T U R E A ND C U LTURE.
B A L I S M T O SOC I A LIZED C A N N I BA L I S M I NC I T E D T H E

I N VENTION OF C U L I N A RY P R E PA RATION A N D TABLE

M A N N ERS. T H E FI RST I S TH E SOLITA R Y EATING OF A JEAN POUI LLON

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APPE N D I X N A NGUY TOH I : K I LLED AGOUSSI-BRI A N D H E R C H I L D

YUEMIN . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . ( 2 )

T H E D I O U LA S K I L L E D 6 PERSONS WHOSE N A M E S I

DO NOT K NOW . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . (2)

BUEGRE-B R I : KILLED A G O U A TC H A GOUA AND

OFFICE OF T H E S E C RETA R Y O F
A KOUATC H A YOUA . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . (2)
PRO P H ET ATCHO A LB E RTS A S SOC I AT I O N
KOFFI KPA: KILLED N ' M LOUYA AND A N EW-BO R N
B R EGBO P.O. 2 5. B I N G E R V I LLE
C H I LD W I T H O U T N A M E . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . (2)
R E P U B L I C OF T H E IVORY COAST
Y ESSI MOBIO BOTTY: K I LLED TWO O F A M I A N - M I N'S

C H I L D R E N : BEUGRE, T H E OTH E R'S NAME I 00 NOT

AUGUST 22, 1 954
KNOW . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . (2)

D I A BOLI C A L CONFESSION

THAT I S , 1 B PERSONS K I LLED BY MY ASSOC I ATES

NAME: LOGA I D J U I

SEX: FEMALE SUMMARY:

V I LLAGE: ABIGJAN-ADJ A M E THEREFORE I K I L L E D . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 5 PERSONS

RACE: E B R I E MY ASSOCIATES K I L L E D . , . . . . . . . . . . . . . 1 8 PERSONS

RELIGION: HARRIS WHICH M EA N S A LTOGETHER . . . . . . . . . . 2 3 PERSONS

K I LLED

"LET THE A U D I E N C E K N O W T H A T THI S PASSAGE I S

NOT COMMON: IT I S EXCLUSIVELY A D I A BOLICAL

CASE."
DAMAGES AND M I SD E E D S

I D R I N K H U M A N B L OO D A N D I EAT H U M A N F L E S H . I ,

LOGA I D J U I , W A S T E M PT E D BY T H E DEVILS AND I

I O P E N LY DEC L A R E THAT I A M A D E V I L. ENDED UP EATING T H E I R M EAT, FROM THAT VERY

DAY, I H A V E STA Y E D WITH THEM I N ORDER TO DO

BY WAY OF MY D I A BOLICAL ACTIVITY I K I LLED M Y EVERYT H I N G A N D EAT W I TH THEM.

O W N MOTH E R, M Y O L D E R BROTH E R N'GBA D J U I , M Y

BROT H E R J E A N N A N TC H IO, M Y S I S T E R A K R A I WHO THERE ARE 1 0 OF US DEVILS A SSOC I A T E D IN

HAD JUST GIVEN B I RTH, A N D M Y SON AKE G U I A N I . ORDER TO EAT: 7 E B R I E S A N D 3 D I O U LAS, EACH OF

U S MUST GIVE TWO PERSONS ACCOR D I NG TO OUR

T H A T I S , 5 P E R S O N S K I LL E D. AGREEM E NT.

H E R E A R E MY ASSOCI ATES' N A M ES: MY C H I L D D J A N N E A N D DJOMAN-BIE WERE G I V E N U P

1 . A H l M A N LOBA TO T H E D E V I L S B Y M E . I CHOSE DJOM AN-BIE T O B E

2. MOMO GBEKRAI K I LLED FI RST, A N D T H E N M Y C H I LD D J A N N E .

3, NANGUY TOH I

4 . TH R E E D I O U LAS WITHOUT N A M E S I CONVERTED MYSELF I NTO A M A N TO SLEEP W I T H

5 . B E UGRE-BRI D J A KO- B I E , THAT IS WHY SHE C A N NOT HAVE
6. KOFFI A K PA CH I LD R E N A N Y M O R I!:.
7, YESSI MOBIO

I SOLD DJOKE-BRI'S PLANTATIO N . SHORTLY

THAT I S , 9 PERSONS A S S OC I A T E D. THEREA FT E R I G A V E U P T H I S PLANTATION.

THE PERSONS K I LL E D BY MY ASSOCI ATES: ONCE I WANTED TO GO AND TAKE D J OM A N - B I E BY

FORCE. TO GIVE HER TO THE D E V I LS . I FOU N D TWO

AHlMAN LOBA: KILLED A TO B I O- M O B I O WHO WAS P R I E STS IN DJOKE-BRI'S Y A R D. THESE TWO P R I ESTS

PREGNA NT, ALOKE D J E B A . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . , (2) T U R N ED ME AWAY WITHOUT SAYING A N YTHI N G TO

MOMO N ' B EGZA I : KILLED A N NO H AND A NOTH E R ME. FROM THAT M O M ENT, MY I LL N E S S HAS G ROWN

WHOSE N A M E I DO NOT K NOW , . . " . . . . . , . . . . . . . . . (2) STRONGER.

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I GAVE SOME D I S E A S E S TO A L MOST E V E RYBODY I N AT A TI M E I WANTED PEOPLE IN M Y V I LLAGE TO

TH I S COU RT. EXC E PT D I E K E A N D R E . Y E ZOU DJAKO. COME TO TAKE M R. ATC H O A LB E RT'S WATER OF

A N D M Y BROTH E R DJO M A N . BLESSING. NOW I A M NOT PLEASED WITH TH I S WATER

B EC A U S E I T TA K E S AWAY FROM U S THE W A Y OF

ONCE. I TR I E D T O GO A S A DEVIL TO HARM MY EATING AND DOI NG WHAT WE WANT.

H U S BAND. BUT G O D D I D N O T G I V E ME A W A Y . I D I D S O

BEC A U S E ONCE H E C H A S E D A FTER A WOM A N . OF I AM REALLY A D E V I L AND I SEE E V ERYTH I NG THAT

WHICH I A M NOT PLEASED. T H I S I S WHY I A M A LWA YS THE D E V I L S O F M Y V I LLAGE DO. AND E LS E W H E R E

ILL WHEN I STAY AT HIS HOUSE. WHEREAS TOO.

ELSEWH E R E I A M A LWAYS W E LL.

M R. ATC H O A L B E RT. I BESEECH YOU. P R A Y FOR MY

ON THE OTH E R HAND I DO N OT L I K E A H I BA K E S A K E SO THAT I F I N A LLY RECOVER A N D-WHAT I

A H O B R I AT A L L A N D I A LWAYS TAKE H E R BLOOD. MY FORGOT TO SAY TOO-A SK GOD TO FORG I V E M E .

D E V I L D I S L I K E S ONLY THIS GI RL. PRAY FOR MY S A KE. SO THAT I CAN FORGET

E V E R YTH I N G T H A T N O W H A P P E N S THROUGH T H E

TH E H A R R I S A POSTLES U PSET M E . THEY DECLARED D E V I LS.

THAT WE WHO HAD NOT C O N F E S S E D IN TH E I R

PRESENCE B E FO R E GOI NG TO BR E GBO WOU L D I DO NOT WANT TO S E E TH E M ANY LONG E R . I A S K

NEVER R E C OV E R . AND WOULD RETURN FROM E V E RYBODY I N M Y V I LLAGE.

BR E GBO S U F F E R I NG F R O M THE S A M E I LLNESSES. I

AM V E R Y U PS E T. I D E C I D E D TO MAKE A D E V I L OF

MYSELF SO THAT I WOULD B E R E P R I M A N DED BY

TH E M IN ORDER TO F I N D A WAY TO DIE IN TH I S (SIGN E D ) : LOGA I D J U I

RELIGION. TRAN SLATED B Y P . ZOBERMAN

TH E SO N N ET O F THE HOLE IN THE ASS

PAUL OFTE N MY S O U L W I L L Y E A R N FOR A FUCK WITH

VERLAINE FLESH.

AND I T TA K E S I T FOR ITS D A N K EST D R I PSTONE. ITS

D A R K A N D P U C K E R E D L I K E A VIOLET ROSE N EST

IT PULSES. H U M BLY H I DD E N A M I DST THE MOSS. O F T H R O B B I N G S I G H S.

STILL DAMP FROM LOVE THAT TRICKLES SOFT

INVENIT
A LONG WHITE T H I G H S RIGHT TO ITS LIP.

FECIT I T S T H E O P E N O L I V E I N ECSTA SY, T H E BLOWN FLUTE

IN T H E A I R :

LITTLE DROPS LIKE T E A R S OF MILK I T S THE C E LESTI A L T U B E DO W N W H I C H A L L

HAVE W E PT. B E N EATH T H E ZEPHYR BLOWING C R U EL. FONDANTS F R E E L Y FLOW,

F E M A L E C A N A A N F I R M L Y MOIST A N D F I L L E D WITH
U PO N THE PEBBLES OF A U B U R N M A R L.

O B E Y I NG T H E SLOPE A N D H E E D I NG ITS C A LL. PROM I S E D E E P.

A R TH U R

R I M BA U D

P A U L V E R LA I N E A N D A R TH U R R I M B A U D

OFTEN M Y MOUTH I S P R ESSED AGA I NST I T S HOLE. TRANSLATED BY DANIEL SLOATE

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COPROPHAGY A N D U R I N OLOGY

I WISH TO I NTRODUCE THI S MOST EXTR E M E TR U E LOW N ESS OF BEI NG. IT I S V E R Y PEC U L I A R TO

FETI S H I S M B Y R E M I N D I NG T H E S U P E R I O R O F THE THE SUPE RIOR TO R E A L I ZE TH E S L A V E WORS H I PS

OCCA SION WHEN SHE OR HE M A Y H A V E NOTIC E D H I S OR H E R WASTE MORE THAN A N Y G OO D Q U A LITY.

TH E I R SLAVE PICKING UP CRUMBS THEY HAVE THE SUPERIOR CAN TA K E NO PRIDE IN SUCH

DROPPED ON T H E FLOOR A N D EATI NG T H E M . T H E SLAVES. U N LE S S HE OR SHE REGARDS TH E I R

SA M E P R I N C I PLE I S AT W O R K H E R E -TH E S U B M I S­ PRODUCTS WITH T H E SA M E GLAMORIZED E Y E S A S

S I V E SOUL THAT C L I NGS TO E V E R YTH I NG. EVEN THE T H E MASOC H I ST. T H U S DOES TH E I R W A STE BECOME

LEAVI NGS OF HIS B E LOVED S U PERIOR. THE LOW L Y ' S O N E N O U R I S H M E NT : TH E I R F I LT H

C L E A N S E S THE S L A V E : T H E I R FOU L N E S S S E E M S A

AFTER A SLAVE H A S FANTASIZED H I M S E L F AS A N R A R E PERFUME. IN T H I S POOR WAY. AS WELL. DOES

A N I M A L. A PET. T H E N A W O R M . SUB-H U M A N . A N D T H E SLAVE I NGEST. A N D SO POSESS. H I S B E LOVED

MOVES O N T O ACTI N G L I K E F U R N I T U R E A N D BEING SUPERIOR.

INVISI BLE. HIS PRIDE DRIVES HIM O N TO MORE

ELA BORATE I N D E N T I F I C A T I O N S W I TH LOW L I N E SS THUS DOES THE M A SOC H I S T SEEK OUT HIS

AND S E LF - E F F A C E M E N T . HIS I NVERTED LOG I C VI LENESS THROUGH H I S CONCENTRATION O N WHAT

SEEKS TO MAKE HIM S U B M I SS I V E B E YO N D ALL IS COM M O N L Y REGA RDED AS THE MOST VILE

OTH ERS. A SLAVE A MONG SLAVES. A N D WORTH­ SUBSTA N C E O N E A RTH. B U T FECES A N D U R I N E ARE

LESSNESS PERSONI FI E D. HE ATTA I N S THIS END. TH E RAW MATE R I A L FOR A LL THAT EXI STS AND

AND B E CO M E S UTTE R LY D I S G U ST I N G . WHEN HE G R O WS IN THIS W O R L D-TH E Y ARE NO MORE

PROFESSES HIS A M BITION AND ATTRACTION TO BE WO N D E R F U L THAN THEY A RE D I S G U ST I N G -T H E

AS ONE W I TH THE FECES AND URINE OF THE SLAVE D E VO U T L Y PREPARES A COCOON OF

SUPERIOR. PLASTIC SACKS AND BOXES TO CARRY HIS

PRECIOUS SACRA M E N T H O M E WITH H I M.

TH ESE SU BSTA NCES. U N EQ U I VOCALLY REGA R D E D

AS HORRID. A R E R E V E R E D A N D SOUGHT A FTE R B Y TH E SLAVE D E I F I E S THESE SUBSTA N C E S. GIVING

THE M ASOC H I ST AS THE SOURCE OF H I S TRUE TH E M SUCH NAMES AS "GOLDEN E L I X I R." "SHOWER

IDENTITY. H I S CONTACT W I T H T H E M C O N F I R M S H I S OF SWEETN ESS." A N D SUCH LIKE. H E M A Y D E VOUR

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TH E M OR M E R E LY HOLD T H E M IN HIS MOUTH FOR A S: WILL YOU PLEASE WATCH M E CLEAN OUT TH E
SPAS MODIC I N STANT B E FORE SPITTING THEM OUT. U R I N A LS WITH MY TONGUE?
TH I S BEHAVIOR C R E ATES SUCH REVULSIVE

CO N T E M PT IN THE SUPERIOR FOR T H E W E A K

M: WOM EN DON'T USE U R I NALS, I DIOT.
ADO R A TION O F T H E SLAVE THAT T H E SUBMISSIVE

M U ST B E PREPARED TO DO A BSOLUTELY ANYTHING

5: I'M SORRY, M I STRESS. I'M J U ST A TOILET,
TH E S U PERIOR MAY THEREAFTER COM M A N D H I M TO

DO. BUT THE SUPERIOR MAY C ERTAI N LY B E AT A

M : YOU'RE THE TYP E WHO T H I N KS IT WOULD BE
LOS S . AS NO DEGREDATION CAN S U R PASS THIS
HEAVEN TO H A V E H U N D R E DS O F ST R A N G E
ON E . IT IS ADVISED TO AVOI D I NDULGING TH E SLAVE
WOM EN SQUATTI NG OVER YOU R FACE, EVERY
SO THAT H E R E M A I N S I N A STATE OF CONSTANT
DAY, U S I N G YOU A S TH E I R SEWER. ADMIT IT,
LO N G I N G
VI LENESS.

T H E TOI LET-SLAVE ENJOYS B E I N G R E F E R R E D T O A S

S: ITS TRUE. OH PLEASE, PLEASE, LET M E K I SS
JUST T H A T PIECE OF BATH ROOM FURNITURE. AND
YOUR B E AUTI F U L ASS, MY M I STRESS,
MAY B E LEFT H A PPILY CHAINED TO IT FOR HOURS,

R E A DY AND WILLING AT ALL TI MES TO RECEIVE A

DOSE OF H I S BELOVED COM M U N ION. M : (KICKS H I M ) DON'T SAY "MY" M I STRESS. I OWN

YOU, T H ING. AS FOR KISSING EVEN THE BOTTOM

OF MY SHOE, YOUR MOUTH IS TOO DI RTY. WHO
ONE MAY MAKE A M I NOR DISTI NCTION IN TH E CASE
K NOWS WHAT YOU'VE BEEN LICKING TODAY, THE
O F T H E A F F I C I O N A DO O F " G O L D E N SHOW E R S."
GUTTERS YOU C R A W L ABOUT IN, SO SHAME­
TH E R E IS A SENSUOUS A P P E A L IN TH E COU RSING
LESSLY. I DON'T WANT TO C A TC H YOU R
OF THE HOT LIQU I D OVE R THE BODY-AS WELL,
DISEASES.
SUCH A SLAVE IS NOT SO F I LT H -O B S E S S E D
BECAUSE ( I ) U R I N E I S STER I L E A N D ( 2 ) THE FLOW

M A K E S IT S E E M FRESH AND LIVE, L I K E A FLOW OF S: PLEASE M I STRESS, U S E M E AS YOUR TOILET,

BLOOD. BUT BOTH THESE SCATOLOGICAL FETISHES PISS ON ME. I WANT TO EAT YOUR S HIT.

A R E MOST I L LUSTRATIVE IN TH E FACT THAT ALL

FETIS H I S M I S A FORM OF N ECROP H I LIA-A LOVE M: S I L E N C E I KEEP YO U R D EG R A D E D LU STS TO

A N D ATTRACTION TO WHAT I S DEAD. YOU R S ELF, BESI DES, M Y PRODUCTS ARE TOO

GOOD FOR YOU. TH E FOOD I EAT I S VERY

EXPEN S I V E .

FI LTH DIALOG U E S: I ' L L P A Y , I'LL PAY.

M , I KNOW YOU WILL. I OUGHT TO HAVE A LITTLE

PORC E L A I N BOWL FITTED OVER YOUR R EVOLT­

TA K E S PLACE IN THE B A T H R OOM . S LA V E IS I NG ORIFICE. I DON'T L I K E TO SIT DOWN ON

C H A I N E D T O THE TOILET A N D L I E S ON THE FLDOR. MOVING OBJECTS. LETS SEE HOW WIDE YOU C A N

M I STRESS IS PERC H E D U PON THE SINK. OPEN YOU R M O U T H . W I D E RI ( I N S E RTS H E R H EEL.J

LICK!

S: (SALIVATES ALL OVER THE SHOE,) PLEASE,

M I STRESS, I WANT T O BE Y O U R TOILET!

M : HOW M A N Y GALLONS C A N YOU DRINK?

M: G R EEDY LITTLE PIG! I TOLD YOU TO LICK M Y

S : A S MANY A S YOU W I LL G I V E ME, M I STRESS,
SHOE, NOT E A T I T ! (TA K E S A LONG TI M E WAS H I N G

OFF H E R S HOE.) N O W , Y O U W E R E S A Y I N G YOU

M : YOU ARE A TOILET-YOU LOVE TO BE A TOILET.
WANTED TO SERVE AS MY TOILET, THAT T H I S WAS

YOUR T R U E PLACE IN LIFE, P E R H A PS THAT I S

S : YES, YES, ANYTH I NG YOU SAY. ALL YOU'RE F I T FOR, B UT YOU H A V E T O L E A R N

T O MOVE U P I N THE WORLD, T O E A R N YOUR

M : ITS TRUE, YOUR H IGHEST AMBITION IS TO BE PRIV I L EGES, FI RST YOU MUST SHOW ME HOW
I N STA LLED IN THE LADIES' ROOM AT GRAND USEFUL YOU R MOUTH CAN BE, CLEAN TH E
C ENTRAL STATION. FLDOR! (HOLDS H I S H E A D DOWN WITH H E R FDOT.J

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S: M I STRESS, P L. E A S E , IT'S HARD TO L. I C K T H E M : SIL.ENCE. TOIL.ET-BOY. KNEEL. OVER T H E R E A N D

F L. oo R W H E N Y O U ' R E STEPPING OOWW . . . WAIT F O R M E TO NOTICE YOU. ( M I ST R E S S M A Y

(TR I E S TO P E E R UP H E R S K IRT,) T H E N A M US E T H E SL.AVE BY TEL.L.ING A STOR Y

O F H O W SEVER E L.Y S H E PU N I S H E D A S L. A V E FOR

SOI L I N G H I M SEL.F,) AND I THOUGHT THAT

M : WHAT'S TH I S ? COM P LA I N I N G? AND ON TOP OF I T
WOU L.D TEACH H I M TO L.EARN TO H A V E M O R E
A L. L. ! O H ! L.ooKI N G AT M Y L. E G S ! I DON'T L.ET M Y
SEL.F-CONTROL..
SERVANTS L. O O K AT M E W H I L. E THEY'RE

WORK I NG!

S: OH D A R L. I NG DARL.ING M I STRESS. PL.EASE MAY I

GO TO THE BATH ROOM?

S: I ' M SORRY, GODDESS, I COU L.DN'T HEL.P MYSEL.F,

PL.EASE FORG I V E ME. (SPRAWL.S OUT ABJECTL.Y

ON THE BATHROOM TIL.ES.) M : NO.

M : GET BACK ON YOUR K N E ES, S P I N EL.ESS! YOU S: PL.EASE. PL.EASE MAY I GO. ( M I STRESS DOES NOT

N E E D SOM E D I SC I PLI N E ! BOTH E R TO ANSWER.l PL.EASE I H A V E TO . . .

S: O H , N O ! (WATC H E S I N H O R RO R A S T H E M I STRESS M: Y O U D I D N 'T ASK ME " P L. E A S E . M I ST R E S S IU"

FIL.L.S U P AN E N E M A BAG WITH STE A M I NG HOT (WH I PS HIM A FEW TIM ES.)

WATER.) P L. E A S E , P L. E A S E , DON'T I · L. L. DO

ANYTH I NG! S: (ON HIS K N E ES) PL.EASE. D A R L. I N G M I STRESS.

M : YOU·L.L. DO A S I SAY A N D NOTH I NG ELSE. STOP M: OKAY. YOU C A N GO. (SLAVE STARTS TO RUN . . .
PAWING M El M I ST R E S S SC R E A M S • . • ) COM E BACK HERE.

K N E E L. DOWN.

THE M I STRESS REQUI R E S TH E SL.AVE TO PRESENT

S: YES. M I STRESS?
HIS BUTTOCKS TO T H E AIR A N D KEEP HIS H E A D ON

THE GROUND A S SHE A D M I N I STERS THE DOUCHE.

M : YOU DI DN'T SAY THANK YOU.

M : NOW. THAT OUGHT TO C L. E A N UP YOU R ACT. L.ET'S

HAVE A L.ITTL.E ENTE RTAI N M EN T A ROUND THIS

P L. A C E . ( P UT S ON A D I SC O R EC O R D AND
(ETC. FIN A L.L.Y SL.AVE I S PERMITTED TO R E L. I E V E
R EQ U I R E S TH E SL.AVE TO DANCE FOR H E R. I F H E
H I MSEL.F I N THE BATH ROOM .) WHEN H E COM E S OUT
I S A POOR DANCER. H E OUGHT TO B E EGGED ON
1 5 M I N UT E S L.ATER. H E L.ooKS V E R Y A S H A M ED.)
TO I M PROVE WITH A FEW L.ICKS OF THE W H I P.)

M: THAT S H O U L. D C L. E A N UP YOUR ACT. YOU

S: M I STRESS. M I STRESS. I BEG O F YOU • • .
DEG R A D E D L.ITTL.E FART. I·L.L. TEACH Y O U TO

L.ooK AT MY L.EGS WITHOUT MY P E R M I S S I O N .

M : YOU L.ET O N E DROP FAL.L. O N M Y C A R PET OUT OF

YOU R SOR R Y L.ITTL.E ASS. AND YOU·L.L. WISH YOU

S: Y E S . M I STRESS. (L.ONG PAUSE.) M ISTR ESS?
H A D N E V E R BEEN BORN T H E SLAVE YOU AREI

M : ASK M Y P E R MI SSION TO SPEAKI

THE M I STRESS M AY , IF SHE T H I N KS TH E SLAVE CAN

TOL.ERATE IT. REQU I R E THAT HE NOW R U N A FEW

S: M ISTR E SS. M A Y I SPEAK?
L.APS AROUND THE HOUSE. P R E F E R A BL.Y HOPPING

ON ONE FOOT.
M : NO. (L.ONG PAUSE.l

M: H U P. TWO. H U P. TWO. EX E R C I SE I S GOOD FOR

YOUI (SL.A V E IS BY NOW G R I M A C I NG IN PAI N S: M ISTRESS. M A Y I SPEAK?

WHICH DEL.IGHTS THE M I STRESS I M MEASU RAB­

L.Y.l M : WHAT I S IT?

S: M I STRESS. I NOW T H I N K I A M VE R Y CL.EANED OUT. S: WON'T YOU P L. E A S E USE ME AS A T O I L. E T .

PL.EASE M I STRESS . . . M ISTRESS?

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 M: NO. I DON'T H A V E TO GO. S: I ADORE B E I N G YOUR TOILET. I A DORE B E I N G

YOU R TOI LET. I A DO R E B E I NG YOUR TOILET. I

A DO R E B E I NG YOUR TOILET. I A DO R E . . .
S : I'LL M A K E YOU A D R I N K . M I STRESS?

M : VERY WELL.

M I ST R E S S REMOVES SLAVE FROM STOC K S A N D

OFFERS HIM A D R I N K. IT IS HER SPECIAL SUB­

SLAVE DONS AN A PRON A N D H U RRIES TO TH E BAR.
STA N C E IN A GLASS. WHICH H E I S R EQ U I R E D TO
THE M ISTRESS RECEIVES THE COCKTA I L. THE
DOWN. SLAVE S I PS C A R E FULLY.
SLAVE STA R E S AT TH E LIQUID COURSING OVER H E R

LI PS. T H E M I STRESS PUTS T H E BOY I N A STOCKS SO

HE WON'T BE BOTH E R I NG H E R. M : WHAT IF I HAD A TUB F I LL E D TO THE BRIM WITH

M Y S P EC I A L LIQUID. WHAT I F I SHOV E D YOU R

H E A D RIGHT U N D E R U NTIL YOU SOA K E D I T A LL

M: NOW. I WANT YOU TO A M U S E ME BY S I N G I NG THIS
UP. YOU'D B E SATURATED WITH M Y S U BSTA NCEI
LITTLE SONG. YOU M U ST S I NG. "I ADORE BEING
J UST L I K E A N A STY LITTLE SPONG E I
YOUR TOILET." TO TH E TU N E OF "I A DORE B E I N G A

G I R L." K E E P S I N G I N G I (SLAVE SI NGS TH I S ONE

LI N E. T U N E LESSLY O F COURSE. OVER AND S : OH. YET M I STRESS. 0 TH A N K Y O U SO M UCH.

OVE R ' > D I V I N E Q U E E N. 0 THA N K YOU . . .

M : ( L A UGH I N G R ESTRA I N E D L Y ) "WHAT A STU P I D

LITTLE BOYI YOU A R E SO TORM ENTABLE. T.C. S E LL E R S

VIII

A LITTLE SHIT. A LITTLE C U M TH E N DROOLS U PON T H E KNOB.

W I L L N EVER. NO B U T N E V E R

A FFRIGHT M Y N O S E . MOUTH O R B U M AND D E E P IT SUCKS. DYING FOR

W H E N CROTC H E R I E S A R E N I G H . T H E S W E ETS IT K N OWS ARE T H E R E:

L I V E . HOT C R E A M FROM TH E BORE

YES. T H E S M E L L I S GAY T O M E P U M P E D S T R A I G H T FROM THE WELL OF LOVE.

F R O M THE H O L E I N M Y LOV E R'S A S S

COOL A N D S O U R A S A N O L D C H E R R Y ONCE ALL DUE LOV I NG C A R E

ROTTING GA YL Y I N THE R A I N . I S ROUNDLY PA I D T O T H E JUICY SLIT.

BACK S L I PS M Y TONGU E TO MY MOUTH W H E R E

A N D MY RESTLESS TON G U E . SO MAD. H I S P U L S I N G P R I C K PLUNGES

FLICKS ALONG H I S SOFT D A M P H A I R S

S T I F F A N D QUICK A N D OH. SO BAD AND TH E R E SPU RTS OUT ITS CUM;

A S IT LICKS ITS FAVORITE FOOD. AND I POOR SLAVE. A-WA LLOW I N HIS BLESSING.

I SWALLOW ALL O F IT. THEN ON M Y K N E E S

IT TICKLES ITS WAY FROM THE HOLE W A I T H U M BLY F O R H I S S ECON D COM I NG.

TO BA LLS AND OH. SO SLOW PAUL V E R LA I N E

A LONG TH E THROBBING JOY-POLE TRAN SLATED B Y D A N I E L SLOATE

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S E X O F T H E G A Z E
THE MUTE NEGRESS

". . . I WAS SEVEN O R E I G H T YEARS OLD AND I W A S PROPHET USED TO PROCLA I M THAT M I RRORS ( LI K E

WATC H I N G A H I V E O F B E E S STUCK T O A B R A N C H . P A T E R N I TY ) WERE A BO M I N A T I O N S . FOR THEY

THE DESI R E T O G R A B IT A N D DIS LODGE IT T I N G L E D C ON F I R M AND M U LT I P L Y TH E E A RTH WHICH WE

T H ROUGH MY FI NGE RS. I WAS GOI NG T O GET A I N H A B I T . G R OTE S Q U E E R RO R . U N A UT H O R I Z E D

STIC K-AT T H E R I S K NO DO U BT OF C RO A K I N G FROM PA RODY.

T H E SWELLING STI N G S -WH E N I SAW LITTLE SOPH I E .

M Y N E IG H BO R . A LITTLE B L O N D G I R L F R O M TOWN

WHO WAS A RO U N D ONE MONTH A YEAR. "SOPH I E STILL K E PT H E R S K I RT R A I S E D. E X A M I N I NG

H ER S E L F W I T H S U C H G R EAT ATTENTION THAT I WAS

·SH E W A S W A L K I NG S LOWLY IN MY D I RECTION. A S A F R A I D O F SEEING SOM ET H I N G S U RG E FORTH FROM

THOUGH F A SC I N ATED BY SOM ETH I NG W H I C H M U ST B E TW E E N HER THIGHS. A PP L Y I N G MYSELF TO

H A V E B E E N AT H E R FEET THAT I COULD NOT SEE. I DETECTING ITS A PP E A R A NC E . I PERCEIVED THE

I M M E D I ATELY FORGOT THE BEEHIVE A N D LAY DOWN DOWN OF H E R SEX. I DON'T KNOW W H Y . BUT I T M A D E

IN THE TALL G R A SS. SHE WAS WALK I N G SO SLOWLY ME LA U G H . I I M M E D I ATELY FEARED THAT I HAD

THAT I HAD N O HOPE OF H E R BEING ABLE TO R E A C H R E V E A L E D M Y P R E S E N C E . BUT I WAS ASTO N I S H E D

M E . I W A S S W I M M I NG. I W A N T E D TO BITE. U N K NOWN TO NOTE T H A T SOP H I E H A D N O T H E A R D M E . I R A I S E D

I N STINCTS R I PPED TH ROUG H M Y NECK. SOPH I E WAS MYSELF ON M Y E L BOWS BUT COULD S E E NOTH I N G

A BOUT TWELVE. P E RH A PS LESS. FOR H E R LOV ELY AT H E R F E ET. A N D T I R E D OF WAITI NG. I WAS A BOUT

F L E S H I N E S S N O DO U BT AGED H E R. FINA LLY S H E TO GET U P. TO SCARE HER AT L E A ST. WHEN I H E A R D

W A S WITH I N R E A C H . I STI L L DI DN'T SEE W H A T WAS A N O I S E B E H I N D M E . I THOUGHT T H E B E E H I V E H A D

F A SC I N A T I N G H E R. BUT HER FASC I N A T I O N IN­ J U S T F A L L E N . BUT FOLLOWI NG SO P H I E'S G A Z E NOW

T R I G U E D M E A L L T H E MORE. S H E STOPPED. A N D AT F I X E D ON A PO I N T ABOVE MY HEAD. I SAW A MAN IN A

THE SAME M O M E NT. R A I S E D HER S K I RT OVE R H E R TREE. I L OO K E D AT SO P' H I E AGAIN: SHE WAS

N A K E D STO M AC H . W E LL. I H A D ALREADY SEEN M Y S M I LING. A N D W H I L E S H E S M I LED. S H E R A I S E D H E R

SI STER C A R ES S H E R S ELF. A N D I H A D F E LT NO .. EAL D R E S S S O H IG H THAT S H E U N V E I LE D H E R PALE

P L E A S UR E FROM I T EXCEPT FOR THE DAY I CAUGHT L I TTLE B R EASTS. 'ARE YOU COM I NG?' S A I D A VOICE.

HER DOI N G IT IN A M I R RO R . A FALSE MUSLIM BUT SHE S HOOK H E R H E A D .

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"I HADN'T RECOGNIZED THE VOICE. A N D SOP H I E'S WAS SUSPICIOUS. IT S E E M E D TO ME THAT I WOULD

REFUSAL S E E M E D TO ME TO I NDICATE THAT SHE HAVE TO WAIT. OR ELSE DO SOM ETH ING OTH E R

H E R S E L F H A D N 'T R E C OG N I Z E D IT. THE SC E N E . T H A N WHAT SHE W A S H O P I N G F O R . A N D I N STEAD O F

H ENCEFORTH I N D E E D QUITE BANAL. THREATENE D RUBBING MY FACE AGAI NST WHAT WAS IN SUM

T O PROLONG ITSELF. W H E N SOPH I E ADVANCED NOTHING B U T AN ALREADY R I P E F R U IT. I BRUSH E D

DEC I S I V E LY ALMOST T O T H E P O I N T OF B R U S H I NG I T WITH MY FINGERS. THEN. T U R N I N G H E R OVER O N

ME. FLAT DOWN I N TH E GRASS. I NONETH E LESS H E R B E L L Y . R E V E A L E D H E R B U TTOC K S W H I C H

HAZARDED A GLANCE: A N D TO MY GOOD FORTUNE. BOTHE R E D M E EVEN MORE. I M UST H A VE H URT H E R .

FOR A H A N D C A M E DOWN FROM T H E TREE. BRUSHED FOR S H E ARCHED H E R BACK. SO I GOT U P W I T H A

H E R NECK. AND I M P RISONED ONE OF H E R B REASTS. LEAP: S H E D I SG USTED ME NOW.

I COULD MYSELF H A V E RAISE D M Y ARM AND SEIZED

THE C H U BBY R U M P I F M Y ATTENTION H A DN'T BEEN "THE A DVENTU R E COULD END H E R E . THE R EST IS
DRAWN TO THE A R R IVAL O F A T H I R D C H ARACTER. IT PROBABLY M YTH I C A L . BUT THE COLLECTOR
WAS A TALL M A N WITH A ROUGH A PPEARANCE. NOT SOMETI M E S CAN NOT KEEP H IMSELF FROM
A PEASA NT. BUT A POACHER P E R H A PS . ANYWAY I DREAMING. FROM SLIPPI NG I N A MONG H I S RIGOR­
WAS TOO YOU NG TO P REOCC U P Y M Y S E L F WITH OUS CLASSIFICATIONS SOME S U M PTUOUS A POC RY­
PEOPLE'S P R O F E S S I O N S . O N L Y TH E I R A C T I O N S PHAL PIECE. THUS I N THE EV E N I NG . IN OUR LITTLE
MATTE R E D T O M E ( J U ST AS TODAY. A N D I C A N WELL PROVI N C E . THEY SET O F F FIRE WOR K S . I GOT
SAY THAT IN THAT SENSE I HAVEN'T AGED). H E WAS PERMISSION TO ATT E N D . ACCO M P A N I E D BY MY
A P P R O A C H I N G WITH LONG STR I DES. WITHOUT GRANDMOTH E R . A STU PID PERSON WHOM I COULD
BOTHE RING ABOUT T H E NOISE H E WAS M A K I NG. A S EASILY LOSE I N A FEW SECONDS. WH ICH I D I D. FOR I
I F H E HADNT S E E N THE LITTLE G I R L; B U T I WAS HAD A PLAN MORE I N TE R ESTI N G THAN A FEW
WRONG ABOUT TH AT. BECAUSE. H A V I NG TURNED M I SERA BLE FIRE WORKS: H I D I NG MYSELF IN
HA LFWAY A RO U N D. SHE SAW HIM A N D M UR M U R R E D SOPHI E'S ROOM.
SOMETHI NG I D I DNT U N D ERSTA ND. W H I LE A SECOND

HAND GRABBED HER OTH E R BREAST. THI S H U M A N

"I HAD H A R DLY ANY DIFFICULTY GETTING IN. IT WAS
PLANT W A S RATHE R A M U S I NG. THE M A N STOPPED
ON THE GROUND FLOOR OF ONE O F THOSE HEAVY
B E H I ND SOPHI E . I M M E DI ATELY SHE LET GO OF H E R
HOUSES LOVED BY THE M I DDLE C LASS. AS SOON AS
DRESS. A N D . W I T H G R EAT D E XTERITY. U NBUTTONED
I GOT I N SI DE. I H I D MYSELF B E H I N D A WAR DROBE
THE M A N WHOSE P E N I S POPPED OUT. THEN SHE
PROV I D E N T I A L L Y PLAC E D O B L I Q U E LY O P POSITE
RAISED H E R DRESS AGA I N AND. LEAN I N G FORWARD.
THE LITTLE BED. THE W I N DOW WAS ON MY RIGHT.
WHICH OBLIGED T H E H A N DS AND TH E ARMS FROM
AND THE DOOR FACING M E . A FT E R AN HOUR IT
THE TREE TO COM E DOWN A LITTLE FURTHER. SHE
SUDDENLY OPENED WITH GREAT C O MMOTION A N D
PRESENTED HER B E H I N D TO THE KNOTTY COCK­
CLOSED LIKEWISE. SOPH I E THREW H E RSELF ON T H E
FOR. IN TRUTH. THE SCE N E DIDNT LOSE A BIT OF ITS
BED. I N TEARS-oR A T LEAST I TOOK T H I S PERSO N
RURAL C H A R ACTER. AND ONE COULD HAVE
F O R SOP H I E . F O R Q U I T E F R A N K L Y I COULDN'T S E E
I MAGI N E D (AS I DID. P E R H A PS) THAT T H E GROUP
A N YTH I N G . TH E ROOM O N LY B A R ELY LIT BY A
WAS ONLY WAITING TO B E SC ULPTED.
DISTANT STREET LAMP. THEN T H E SOBS BEC A M E

LESS FREQUENT A N D A N,I GHT L I G H T W A S LIT. I

"SHE D I DN'T SCR E A M WHEN T H E MAN PEN ETRATED LEANED OUT A N D SAW TWO LEGS R A I SED. BUT TH EY

H E R. AND ALTHOUGH I H A D ONCE C A UGHT MY WERE MUCH LON G E R THAN SO PHIE·S. I WAS
SISTER U N D E R THE B E LLY OF A NAKED MAN. I CAN ALREADY ASTON I S H E D THAT S H E H A D GROWN SO
NONETHE LESS SAY THAT SOP H I E IS T H E FI RST THAT QU I C K L Y . P R E F E R R I NG . AS IS S UITABLE. TH E
I REALLY SAW MAKE LOV E . THE MAN SOON M IRACULOUS TO THE LOGICAL. B U T I N STEAD O F
WITHDREW F R O M THE LITTLE G I R L A N D TH E H A N DS TA KING A DVANTAGE O F THE SITUATION AND MY
FROM THE TREE D I S A P P E A R E D. SOPHI E LET G OO D L U C K . I FEARED B E I NG D I SCOVERED. T H I S
HERSELF FALL O N THE G RO U N D W H I L E THE RED­ FEAR WAS CHANGED I NTO TERROR WHEN TH E
H A I R E D M A N (HAVE I M E N TION E D THAT? IT PLEASES WOM A N GOT UP AND CAME TO CLOSE THE
ME THAT HE WAS A R EDH EAD) WAS ALREADY SHUTTERS. THUS I WAS A P R I SO N E R ! N E XT S H E

MOVING AWAY. THE N S H E SPOTTED M E . ' W E R E YOU T U R N E D ON THE BRACKET LIGHTS A N D B E G A N T O

THERE?' SHE ASKED. I D I DNT ANSWER. I TH REW UNDRESS. A T THAT M O M E N T I FIG U R E D OUT THAT

MYSELF ON H E R NAKED B R E A STS. BIT THE M . WHICH SHE WAS THE C H A M B E R MAID A N D I F E A R E D H E R

MADE H E R SCRE A M . S H E DIDNT PUSH M E AWAY. N U DITY: IT W A S NOT SOPHI E'S N U D I TY THAT I H A D

THOU G H . ON THE CONT R A R Y SHE VERY MUCH DESIRED B U T SOM E U N K NOWN A C T THAT I MIGHT

WANTED TO PULL M E ONTO H E R STOMACH. BUT I HAVE SEEN WHICH WOU L D HAVE SATISFIED ME.

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HOWEVER. THE MAID HAD F R OZ E N . HER EAR PREVENTED T H I S; C A R ROT-TOP. K N E E L I NG. SHACK­

ATTENTIVE A S THOUGH S H E WERE LISTE N I NG OUT L E D HER STOC K I N G E D TH I G H S WITH HIS ARMS. THE

FOR A PREARRANGED SIGNAL. STR A N G E L Y OTH E R SLOWLY MOV E D H I S F I N G E R S I N TH E MAUVE

ENOUG H . I REGA I N E D HOPE JUST A S A B R U PTLY A S I MOUTH. I S A W THE S A M E WHITISH FOA M THAT I H A D

HAD BECOME SO Q U I C K LY D I SCO U R A G E D . TH E C A UGHT S I G H T OF I N T H E ORCH A R D ON SOP H I E'S

WOM A N PUT H E R H A N D S B E H I N D H E R BACK A N D THIGHS. TH E SAME? THAT IS INDEED WHAT I

H E R D R ESS FELL. I T W A S DAZZLING. THE R E V E LA­ BELIEVEDI

TION OF THE S U M PTUOUS AND VULGAR T R A P P I NGS

WITH W H ICH WOMA N T I T I L LA T E S . MAGNIFICENT

"TH E R E WAS A C R A C K L I N G OF A BUZZER. C A R ROT­
M A R E I A SHORT BLACK-LACE S L I P. A B R A . A N D A N
TOP J U M PE D U P AS IF HE H A D B E E N STUNG TO TH E
A R AC H N I DE A N G A R T E R B E LT. A S W E L L A S T I N Y R E D
Q U I C K . T H E OTH E R STARTED TO T R E M B L E . BUT THE
PANTI ES. W H I C H M A G N I F I E D. I N STEA D O F H I D I NG. A WOM A N REMAINED M A RBLE. IIF I MAY PERMIT
TH I C K TAWNY FLEECE. COM POSED A M U C H MORE MYSELF T O A N T I C I PATE. I W I L L S A Y THAT IT W A S A
SATISFYING S P ECTAC LE THAN ALL THOSE I HAD RED AND W H ITE M A R TH A . AND THAT IT WOU L D
D R E A M ED. SHE TURNED. A N D. IN PROF I LE. ONLY INDEED BY PLEASANT TO FIND HER AGA I N ­
HER TAUT C H EST AND R U M P COULD B E SEEN. T H E ALTHOUGH I KNOW. ALASI HOW BADLY DOM ESTICS
THIGHS AND HOLLOWED W A I ST BEING ONLY AGE,) THE MEN TOOK OFF. AND I . WITHOUT TH I N KING
SECON DARY S U P PO R T S FOR THESE SUPERB A BOUT IT A NY M O R E . SHOWED MYSELF. S H E M A D E
I N D E C E NC I ES. N OT THE SLIGHTEST G E ST U R E OF SURPRISE.

LOOK I N G AT M E ON T H E CONTRARY WITH C U RIOSITY.

THEN R E A L I Z I NG THAT HER BELLY WAS BARE. S H E

"THArs WHEN THEY ENTERED. THE R E D-H E A D E D
P U T H E R H A N D O V E R IT. BUT IT W A S REA LLY SO
MAN. AND A NOTH E R I RECOGNIZED AS SOP H I E'S
THAT SHE COULD C ARESS HERSELF. AND I
FATH E R . HE C A R E F U L LY C LOS E D T H E D OO R .
CLEARLY SAW TWO OF H E R F I N G E R S G E NTLY MOVE
PLAC E D HIS EAR AGA I N ST T H E WOOD B E FO R E
INSIDE HER.
TU R N I N G T H E K EY. W H I L E T H E C A R ROT- H A I R E D M A N

WAS A L R E A DY FEELING UP THE SERVANT. WHO

" S H E C A U G H T MY GAZE. OFFE R E D M E H E R OTH E R
BENT OVER AT THE WAIST. THUS OFFE R I N G TO MY
H A N D WHOSE ODOR E N C H A NTED M E . I D I DN'T KNOW
GAZE HER R I PE B U TTOC KS. A THOUSAN D EYES
HOW TO E X P R ESS IT TO HER. BUT I WOU LD H A V E
WOU LD N O T H A V E S U F F I C E D T O FOLLOW A LL T H E
L I K E D T O H A V E H E R T A K E M E I N H E R A R MS. B U RY M E
D E V E LO P M E NTS OF T H A T SITU ATION; C A R ROT-TOP
I N H E R B E D WITH H E R . TO ROLL O N H E R BREASTS.
HAD ALREADY SLIPPED ONE HAND I N S I D E TH E
AND ESPECIA L L Y TO PLUNGE MY FACE IN HER
P A N T I E S . WITH THE OTH E R H A N D HE WAS LIG HTLY
FLEECE. I M A D E A G ESTU R E W H I C H S H E D I D NOT
S L A P P I NG H E R ASS. THE FATH ER IN A LOW VOI CE
U N DERST AN D . B EC A U S E SHE PLAC E D H E R F I N G E R
WAS SAYI NG: · M A RQU I S E. M A RQ U I S E I' AND WAS
T O H E R LI PS A S THOUGH ORDE R I N G M E T O B E Q U I ET.
TA K I N G H E R B R E A STS OUT O F THE ST R A P L ESS B R A .
BUT I WASN'T TALKI NG. S U D D E N LY. I THREW MYSELF
K I SSING THEM WITH A R DOU R . AND THE M A I D.
AGAINST HER B E LLY. SHE H E LD MY HEAD. I
M E A NW H I LE. PLAYED WITH TH E FUR WHICH
CONFUSEDLY FELT T H AT SHE WAS G I V I N G I N . TH AT
PROT R U DE D FROM B E H I N D T H E R E D C LOTH. THE
A LL R E S I STA N C E WAS CEASING IN H E R. HER
MEN NOTI C E D THIS A C T I V I T Y. THE R E D- H E A D
P E R F U N E WAS S O A R DE NT. T H E BUTTON O F FLESH
PULLED T H E PANTI ES WHICH SNAPPED. B U R ST.
SO H AR D . THAT I W A S BITING SAVAGELY. I H E A R D
B U RSTING IT S E E M E D TO ME ESPEC I A LLY FROM THE
HER SIGH I NG. I THOUGHT S H E WAS O N C E AGA I N
PRESSURE O F TH AT PRODIGIOUS FLEECE. T H E MEN
GOI NG TO C R Y A N D I DREW A W A Y VERY Q U I C K LY .
JOSTLE D E A C H OTH E R A N D I FIGU R E D THAT EACH
BUT SHE. IGNORANT OF MY IGNORANCE. ONCE
ONE WANTED TO BURY HIS FACE I N THAT M A N E .
A G A I N S T U C K M Y F A C E AGA I N ST THE NEW MOUTH.
S I N C E I WAS M Y S E L F G R I P P E D BY THE S A M E D E S I R E .

T H E Y C O M I C A LLY B U M P E D THE I R HEADS TOGETH E R

A N D T H E S E R V A N T L A U G H E D. B U T T H E Y W E R E TOO "AFTERWA R D . SHE OPENED TH E SHUTTERS WITH

B U S Y TO NOTIC E . I LOO K E D AT THOSE L A U G H I N G I N F I N ITE PRECA UTIONS. SHE KISSED M E O N THE

EYES. C I RC LES D A R K E N I NG BEN EATH THEM. THE FOR E H E A D W H I LE I WAS CRAWLING OVER THE

WOR D 'PLEA S U RE' WHICH I H A D ON LY R E C E NTLY W I N DOW LEDGE. I LIKE TO TH I N K THAT I ONLY

L E A R N E D C A M E TO M E . AND I FOU N D IT TO H AVE A RETU R N E D HOME THE NEXT DAY. A FTER H AV I N G

SINGULAR SAVO U R. I WATC H E D THE TWO FREED W A N D E R E D T H R O U G H T H E COUNTRYS I D E . OR. M O R E

LI P S B ETWE E N TWO H E DGES OF LONG S H I N Y H A I RS. E X A CT L Y . PROWLED UNDER THE SERVA NT'S

TH E W O M A N LEA N E D O V E R TO SEE. A LSO TO E N JOY S H U TT E R S . A N YW A Y . I DEMANDED THAT MY

H E R OWN SPECTACLE. BUT T H E BAC KS OF THE M E N G R A N DMOT H E R W E A R LONG PANTI ES. A N D S H E D I D

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NOT R E F U S E." YOU R ADMIRER. THERE ARE A LS O C O U R S E S IN

BEHAVIOR, LITERATURE, AND LOV E . "

IRENE C LO S E D THE PINK BOOK. "WHO IS THAT

BLAC K S M I T H ?" A S K E D L A U R A . "LOVE? . • :'

" TH E A D M I R A L:' A N S W E R E D I R E N E, "TH E M A S T E R O F "DON'T FORGET THAT ONE M UST MAKE LOVE

THE 'SA N S-SOUC I'." DIFFERE NTLY F O R A VOYEUR'S PLE A S U R E . "

"BUT WHY 'BLAC KSM ITH'?" ' W H A T A BOUT T H O S E WHO D O I T WITH U S?"

"YOU'LL U N D E R ST A N D LATER, DID YOU LIKE IT?" " S I M P L E E X ECUTORS. T H E I R PAY IS V E R Y LOW, SOM E

EVEN PAY, I M A G I N I NG THAT T H E Y W I L L T H U S F E E L

" I DON'T U N DE RSTA N D THE D I G R ESSIONS; WHAT I S A SOM E N EW PLEASURE, BUT THEY'RE WRONG

COLLECTOR?" BECAUS E WE TEACH YOU TO R EDUCE THEI R

PLEAS U R E . "

"HE lSI I A L R E A D Y TOLD YOU THAT TH I S HOUSE I S

FU LL O F TRICKS; SPYHOLES, P E E P HOLES, HOLES " R E D U C E IT? I DON'T U N D ERSTA N D AT A LLI"

A R E HIS OBSESSION."

"YOU M UST FI RST CON S I D E R TH E ONE WHO'S

" HOL ES? THAT'S ODD, LIKE I N P U BLIC TOI LETS," WATCH I N G YOU, I T'S AS THOUGH YO U W E R E M A K I N G

LOVE W I T H T H E O N E WHO'S LOO K I N G AT YOU; T H E

PE RFOR M E R M U ST COM PLETELY D I S A P P E A R FROM

"YES, IF YOU LIKE. BUT THE ADMIRAL PREFERS
YOU R THOUGHTS, A N D, O B V I O U S L Y , FROM YOU R
LOO K I N G AT SOMEONE WHO'S ALREADY LOOKI NG."
FEELI NGS, TOO."

"TH E LITTLE GIRL SOPH I E , S H E'S LIKE ME, I SN'T

"BUT WHY A R E T H E R E VOYE URS?"
S H E?"

"YOU CAN ASK THE A D M I RAL THAT, I T'S A S U BJECT

"I DON'T KNOW, SHE S E E M S LESS I N NOC E N T THAN
H E'LL BE H A PPY TO DEAL WITH."
YOU."

" YOU'RE M A K I N G F U N OF ME. H E'S T H E O N E WHO

" I N N OC E N T? YOU'RE M A K I N G F U N OF M E ! . , . A N YWAY,
ENTERED, TU R N E D OUT THE LIGHTS, AND H E L D U S
H E COULDN'T KNOW M E. "
S O ROUGH LY?"

"HE KNOWS YOU WELL. EVEN B E FO R E YOUR

"IT WAS H I M ; H I S H A N D , H I S SHA DOW, H I S M A S K , WE
A R R I VAL, H E K N E W E V E R YT H I N G A BOUT YOU, I TOLD
N EVER S E E H I M IN THE LIGHT OF D A Y . B U T HE IS A
YOU THAT WE O N L Y T A K E S I N G L E PEOPLE, IF H E
CONQU E RO R , A B U I LDER. IF H E N E V E R L E A V E S H I S
ACCEPTED YOU. I r s BECA U S E H E T H I N K S YOU HAVE
E M P I RE, H E C A N FORGET T H E REST O F T H E WORLD."
E X C E PT I O N A L G I FTS; YOU WILL TAKE SPECIAL

COURSES TO D E V E LOP T H E M . "

" H E FRIGHTENS ME. WILL YOU PROTECT M E?"

"TH E R E A R E COU RS E S , TOO?"

"H E'S A C H I L D TOO, H E KNOWS IT. WHAT DO YOU

WANT TO DO NOWT
"YES. NUDE COURSES. A TYPING COURSE. FOR

EXAM PLE, IT'S I NTERESTING TO SEE THE WORK OF

THE M U SCLES, THE Q U I V E R I N G OF B UTTOCKS AND 'TO L I K E YOU TO R E A D SOME MORE,"

TH E LO I N S , THE SEPARATED THIGHS, C E RTA I N

C L I E NTS O F O U R S L I K E T O G E T O N TH E I R K N E E S "NO, TOM O R ROW,"

A N D STROKE YOU D U R I N G T H I S T E S T , I T ' S A GDOD

TEST, EVEN THOUGH THE I NC R E A S E IN YOU R

M ISTA K E S C A N NOT WITH M UC H EXACTITUDE BE MICHEL BERHARD

ATTR I B UTED T O YOU R AGITATION O R T H E S K I L L O F TRANSLATED BY RICHA RD G A R DN E R

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 TEM P L E T H R OUGH THE LOOKING GLASS

ONCE I N SIDE AND ONCE THE H E AVY STE E L. DOOR AFTER A FEW STEPS FORWA R D. AND U N EXPECTED­

HAS C L.OSED BY ITSEL.F WITH A L.DW SOU ND L.IKE LY IN SPITE OF THE L.IGHT THAT IS S L. I G HTLY

TH E WHOOSH OF SOME N IGHT B I RD FOL.L.OWED BY A STRO NG E R (OR A R E T H E EYES S I M PLY ADAPT I N G TO

SERIES OF S M OOTH C L.I C K S FROM WEL.L.-O I L. E D T H E G L.OOM11 THE COR R I DO R HAS A NOTH E R R IGHT­

B O L.TS S L. I D I N G I NTO P L. A C E . I FIND M Y S E L. F A N G L E D E L.BOW L. E A D I NG A GA I N TO TH E L. E FT A N D

PL.UNGED I NTO B L. U I S H S E M I -DARKNESS A N D I HAVE AGA I N T H E R E I S A W I D E N I NG OF THE PASSAGEWAY

TO STA N D STI L.L. FOR A F E W SECON DS-A FEW TO WHICH THE TERM " N A R ROW" NO L. O N G E R

M I N UTES POSS I B L. Y - B E F O R E I CAN SEE W E L. L A PPUES-AND PROBABL.Y THE L.IGHT I S STRONGER

ENOUGH TO M A K E O U T MY SURROUNDI NGS A N D FOR G RADUAL.L.Y I T HAS BECOME BRIGHT ENOUGH

TA K E MY B E A R I NGS CAUTIOUSL.Y. TO S HOW C L.EARLY THAT TH E R E I S NOTH I NG TO SEE

EXC E PT THE WALL.S. T H E C E I L.ING AND THE FLOOR.

AL.L OF THEM COV E R E D WITH THE SAME WH ITE

L.ACQU E R . S MOOTH. A B STRACT-o N E M IGHT SAY­

ACTUA L.L.Y THERE IS NO CAUSE FOR HES ITATION:
CONV E Y I N G THE I M PRESSION OF B E I N G U N A LTER­
O N L. Y ONE D I R ECTION IS POSS I B L. E : A N A R ROW.
ABLE. U NATTA I N ABLE. TIME-PROOF.
S MOOTH-WA L.L.ED COR R I DO R WITH NO SIDE OPEN­

INGS: M Y FI RST I M P R ESSION I S THAT IT M U ST B E

L. O N G AND STRA IGHT. BUT IT TURNS S U D DENTL.Y AT

RIGHT ANGL.ES TO THE L.EFT THEN CONTI NUES IN THE LIGHT H E R E. PALE AND M I L. K Y . CAUSES
TH I S NEW D I R ECTION WITH STI L. L. NO SIDE OPENI NGS A N OTH E R Q U E R Y TO ARISE I N TH E M I N D O F H I M WHO
OR PASSAGES: ITS WIDTH. HOWEVER. NOW A PPEARS I S WA L. K I N G (ONCE AGA I N ) SLOWLY FORWARD: EVEN
SOM EWHAT I NCREASED . . . I N THE SIL.ENT D I STANCE THOUGH IT HAS I M PE RCEPTI B LY B U T DEFI N ITEL.Y

WHAT SEEM TO B E THE NOTES OF A P I A NO CAN BE GROWN B R IGHTER. N O LIGHT SOURCE CAN B E SEEN.

H E A RD. FORL.ORN. SPACED UKE DROPS OF WATER. A NOTH E R D I SQ U I ETING FACT IS THE R IGHT-ANGL.ED

M U FFL.ED BY TH E H EAVY H A N G I NGS AND C U RTA I N S TU R N S W H I C H HAVE B ECOME MORE FREQUE NT. NOW

O F A N O L. D A PA RTM ENT W H E R E EVERYTHI NG. EVEN TO THE R I G HT. NOW TO THE LEFT. BUT WITH NO

TH E UTTLE GIRL DOZ I NG OV E R H E R SCHOOL BOOKS. REGULAR D I ST A N C E B E TW E E N TH E M AND RE­

I S MOTIONL.ESS IN T H I S MONOTONIC ETERN ITY. PEATED SO OFTEN THAT IT I S NOW I M POSS I B L. E TO

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TELL IN WHAT D I R ECTION O N E H A S B E E N MOVING I MAGINA RY ORGA N I Z E R . O N E M UST M E R E LY CHOOSE

S I NCE ENTERING T H E SANCTUARY. ONE OF T H E ELEM E NTS I N THE TA B LEAU, BUT IT

MUST B E DONE WITHOUT DELAY. A FAINT PERCUS­

THESE UNANSWERED Q U ESTI O N S RECEDE S U D­ SIVE SOU N D HAS DRAWN NEARER. NOW STR I K I N G

D E N LY AT TH E APPEARANCE OF Y E T A NOTH E R WITH TH E DRY, REGULAR BEAT OF A M ETRO N O M E ,

DETA I L. NEW AND REMARKABLE. A LO N G TH E I N EXORA B LY.

PASSAGEWAY A FTER A N OTH E R A B R U PT T U R N TO

TH E R I GHT: AGA I N ST TH E PALE POLI S H E D WALL ON THE N A R R AT O R , FRANK V. FRANCIS, WHO IS

THE LEFT IS A V E RY D A R K RECTA N G L E THE SIZE WOR R I E D WHETHER H E I S COM MITTING A N ERROR I N

A N D LOCATION OF WHICH WOU L D S UGGEST A N OPEN FINDING H I M SE L F A T T H E STARTING POI NT O N T H E

DOORWAY. TERRACE STEPS OF I M I TATION GRAN ITE I N FRONT

OF THE NUMBERLESS STEEL DOO R S WITH ITS

ACTUALLY. AS ONE DRAWS N E A R E R IT IS OBVIOUS M I SS I NG K NOB. EVENTUA LLY OF COU RSE CHOOSES

TH E R E I S NO OPE N I NG. A N E A R LY I N V I S I B L E GLASS TH E PALE BLUE SHOE LYING ON ITS SIDE AND

STA N D S TH ERE. UTTERLY B R E A K I NG THE CONTI N U ­ WHOSE H E E L APPEARS BROKEN A T T H E BASE. A N D

ITY OF THE VARNISHED WALL. BEHIND THIS I M M EDIATELY HE IS PLANTED BEFORE THE N E XT

U N S I LV E R E D M I RROR LIES A VERY DARK ROOM WIN DOW, P ROBABLY A LITTLE FU RTH E R DOWN T H E

WHOSE CONTO U R S AND SIZE ARE D I F F I C U LT TO LONG CORRIDOR.

ASSESS BECA U S E OF THE VERY DEEP H U ES­

BLACK P E R H A PS-OF ITS HIDDEN C O N F I N ES. THIS GLASS RECTA NGLE IS I DENTI C A L WITH THE
CAR PETS. TAPEST R I E S AND H A N G I NGS. AGA I N ST FI RST ONE, G I V I NG ON A N UTTERLY DARK SPACE.
THIS I N KY BACKDROP ON LY TH R E E T H I N G S STA N D THE SPECTAC LE U N FOLDI NG TH E R E I N PROV I D E S AN
OUT MORE S H A R PLY I LL U M I N ATED OR P E R H A PS EXPLAN ATION (TEMPORA RY?) FOR T H E R E PEATED
R E F LECTI NG MORE LIGHT FROM T H E C O R R I DO R SOUNDS THAT ISSUE FROM A METRONOME OR A
BECA U S E OF TH E I R B R I G H T E R C AST. PIA NO, OR FROM LIQU I D DROPS SOU N D I NG I N T H E

SI LENCE. IT WOULD B E M O R E ACCU RATE T O S P E A K

FROM THE RIGHT F O R E G RO U N D AND M OV I N G O F PEARLS STR I KI N G AGA I N ST EACH OTH E R AT T H E

DIAGONALLY TOWARDS T H E L I M ITS OF O N E'S V I S U A L CENTRE OF AN OVA L M I R RO R ON THE FLOOR

R A N G E . THESE T H I NGS ARE A PA I R O F WOM EN'S DIRECTLY BEHIND THE GLASS WIN DOW. NOTH I N G

SHOES M A D E OF FINE B L U E SKIN AND V E R Y HIGH­ ELSE C A N B E DI STI N G U I S H E D I N THE R OO M S A V E

H E E LED, A FLESH- P I N K ROSE AT T H E END OF A THE M I R RO R A N D THE S I LVER PEA RLS SUCCES­

LONG. STI F F STALK S I M I LA R TO THE ROSES SIVELY FALLING FROM A N INVISIBLE CEILING THAT

OFFE R E D TO G E NT L E M E N IN EVENING DRESS ST R I K E S I M U LTA N E O U S LY AGA I N S T TH E I R O W N

LEAVI NG THE OPERA HOUSE BY TH E L I TT L E I MAGES A N D THE E P H E M E RAL SURFACE R E FLECT­

FLOWER-G I R L K NOWN A S T E M P L E I N THE QUA RTER, ING THEM WITH A M USICAL SOU N D, PURE AND

AND LASTLY TH E FLOWER-G I R L H E RS E L F (OR SO IT BA R E LY M U FFLED BY TH E TRANSPA RENT WALL,

APPEARS) LYING OUTSTRETC H E D O N THE S H A DOWY THEN BOU N C E BACK H IGH IN THE AIR TRACING

FLOOR, L I K E TH E OTH E R THI NGS IN TH I S I N V E NTORY. TRAJECTO R I E S THAT ARE FAIRLY PRONO UNCED I N

THE G I R L I S N A K E D EXC E PT FOR H E R LONG BLACK TH E I R I N C L I N E FROM THE VERTICAL, A N D THAT A R E

GLOVES AND A PA I R OF STOC K I NGS-oF A S I M I LA R OCCASIO N A LLY S U B J ECTED T O I N F I N ITELY S M A L L

SHADE BUT MORE TRANSLUCENT-FASTE N E D AT VARIATI O N S C A U S E D BY T H E CONTACT BETW E E N

M I D-TH IGH BY FRI LLY GARTERS W I T H T I N Y PERCALE EACH S P A R K L I N G S P H E R E AND ITS REFLECTION,

ROSE S AROUND T H E M . HER N EC K I S C LA S P E D IN A BOTH OF WHICH SOON VANISH FROM THE S PECTA­

SORT OF WIDE LACE COLLAR, A LSO BLACK. S H E TORS' VIEW AS SOON A S THEY NO LONGER CATC H

S E E M S T O BE A S L E E P BUT TH ROUGH THE SPREAD THE LIGHT FROM T H E ROOMS FOR EXA M I N ATIONS,

FINGERS OF O N E O F H E R H A N DS OVER HER FACE AS AU DITIONS, SUPE RVISION, EXHI BITIONS OR I NTER­

THOUGH TO S H I E LD H E R FROM THE BRIGHT LIGHT OF ROGATIONS, ETC.

A L A M P-A B S E N T-IT IS I M AG I N A BL E THAT TH E

C H I LD HAS H E R EYES O P E N A N D IS WATC H I NG. OR I S

THE CON C E RT CONTI N U E S IN TRANQUI LLITY. T H E
SHE D E A D . . . OR AT THE L E A S T U NCONSCIOUS? NOTES V A R Y F R O M O N E P E A R L T O T H E N E XT, A S

WELL A S T H E I NTERVAL BETWEEN TWO CONSECU­

THE ENIGMA OF T H E WHOLE COM POSITION PROM PTS TIVE PEARLS: BUT IT SHOULD BE POSSIBLE TO

ONE TO ATTE M PT TO MAKE A CHOICE, A BET, RATH E R ASCERTA I N , IN THE M I DST OF TH E I R APPARENT

TH A N ASSEMBLE THE D I FF E R E N T E L E M E N TS IN CON F U S I O N , A R E LATI V E LY SMALL NUMBER OF

ACCORDANCE WITH T H E R U L E S LA I D DO W N B Y SOME I NT E R VA LS AND N OT E S . AND SO THE SAME

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Q U E STION A R I S E S ONCE M O R E : IS IT A PROB LEM OF E X PO S E D. CA R E F U L LY SMOOTH E D. PRIMPED AND

CHOICE A S IN THE PRECEDI NG SC E N E OR ON THE P A M P E R E D. DECKED WITH P E A R LS OR LITTLE G E M ­

CONTRARY I S IT NOW A N E X P E R I M ENT I N STRUC­ ROSES. I S TH E DELICATE P U B I C FLEECE. D A R K OR

TURAL ORGA N IZATION? FAI R. WITH T H E C L E FT AT T I M E S R E V E A L I N G WAXEN

FLESH IN ITS MOST SECRET RECESSES W H E N E V E R

THE PATI ENrS POST U R E HOLDS H E R LEGS O P E N

PLUNGED PROBABLY IN THE D E PT H S OF AN
WIDE ENOUGH.
A N A LY S I S OF T H E S E D I STI NCT U N I TS AND TH E I R

COMBI NATIONS. THE WOM E N . SITTING IN A SEMI­

C I RCLE FACING THE SC R E E N O N SEATS A S V A R I E D I N T H E F I RST R O W . I M ITATING T H E POSITION OF H E R

AS THEY ARE U NCOMFORTA B L E . LOST IN TH E I R N E I G H BO R'S H A NDS. W H O A P P E A R S TO B E STO P P I N G

BLANK-EYED CONTE M P LATION. O R FASC I NATED B Y H E R E A R S T O D E A D E N T H E T I N K L I NG SOU N D THAT I S

T H E T I M E LESS FALLING L I G H TS BOUNC I N G AWAY H I G H E R A N D H I G H E R P I TCHED-NEARLY A W H I STLE

AND BACK IN ALWAYS U N FO R ESEEN ( U NFORSEE­ -W H I C H THE PEARLS PRODUCE WITH EVER­

ABLE?) D I R ECTIONS. T H E SPECTATORS. AS I SAID. DIMINISHING I NT E R V A L S BETWE EN THEM. HER

REMAIN MOTIONLESS. FROZEN IN POSES STIFFLY W R I STS TOUCH I NG B E N E ATH HER C H I N A N D HER

I M I TATI NG NAT U R E . LIKE THOSE TA BLEAUX OF LIFE­ PALMS ON EITHER CHEEK. IS L I TT L E TEM PLE

SIZES WAX FIGU R E S IN MUSEUMS AND I N WHICH H ER S E L F S U L K I LY WATC H I N G T H E SC E N E U N FOLD

FAMOUS SC E N E S FROM H I STORY A R E S U PPOS EDLY I N THE GREAT RECTA N G U L A R GLASS W H E R E I N S H E

R E PRODUC ED FROM LIFE. S E E S H E R O W N N A K E D . I NVERTED I M AG E . BLACK­

STOC K I NG E D LEGS SPREAD APA RT. FACE STILL

H E LD ( A S WAS J UST M E NTIONED) BETW E E N HER TWO

MADE U P EXTRAVAGA NTLY THOUGH I N PA LE HUES
SMALL HANDS WITH F I N G E R S H UGELY MAGN I F I ED.
EXCEPT FOR T H E BRIGHT PINK U PON TH E I R CHEEKS.
AND LY I N G SHOELESS U PO N THE CUSHIONS IN
DRESSED IN BLACK AND W H ITE. BUT IN LONG
O I S A R R AY AMONG T H E ROSES THAT H A V E S P I LLED
DRESSES OF BYGONE F I N E RY. RICH IN LACE. S I L K
FROM T H E W I C K E R TRAY S H E U S E S TO D I S PLAY H E R
BROCADE. FEATH ERS. SEQUINS AND STON E S .
FLOW E R S TO H E R CUSTO M E R S . SOM E H IG H - H A N D E D
SEVERAL O F TH E M A R E A LSO WEARING H U G E RINGS
A N D D I FFIC U LT.
AND GIGANTIC B R OOC H E S . J E WELS. P E N DANTS.

D I A DEMS. SPRAYS OF GEMS OR E A R R I NG S AS

S U P E RBLY COM P L E X AS F I R EWORKS A N D WHICH

IT WAS ONE OF THE LATTE R WHO HAS J U ST
A P PEAR TO BE MADE W I T H T H E S A M E DROP-SHAPED
B RUTALLY A N D U N E XPECTEDLY C A U S E D THE C H I LD
P E A R LS THE VISUAL A B S T R ACT I O N OF WHICH
AND HER D E LICATE WARES TO T U M B L E TO THE
CONTI N U E S T O FALL V E RTICA LLY BEFORE THEM.
F LOO R . IN THE DISTANCE. STA N D I N G S L I G HTLY
ON LY TO BOU NCE BACK AT ONCE TOWA RD THE
A P A RT FROM T H E OTH E RS. I S T H E M A N WITH THE
F L I ES A LONG E N D L E S S L Y R E N E W E D P A R A BO L I C
BALD HEAD AND N A R ROW D A R K GLASSES OBSERV­
SEGMENTS.
I NG T H E R E S U LTS OF HIS VIOLENT ACT. A C R U E L

S M I L E ON H I S L I P S . H E M A Y H A V E T A K E N ADVAN­
OTH E R S A R E B E D I Z E N E D WITH ARTI FIC I A L ROSES TAGE OF T H E MOM E N T TO P U R LO I N T H E HOLLOW
AND LILIES OR G I A NT BUTTERFLIE S. A PP L E USED FOR S E C R E T M E SSAGES THAT WAS

CONC E A L E D U N D E R TH E LEAVES O F THE FLOWERS.

THE F E E T OF N E A R LY ALL R E S T. IN VARIOUS BUT J U S T NOW A M U FF L E D CRY I S HEARD FROM THE

CONTORTED POSITIONS. U PO N CUSHIONS. LITTLE LITTLE THEATRE WHERE NOT H I NG. TO A L L A PPEAR­

FUR RUGS OR LACE MATS. THUS OFFERI NG. AS A N C ES. H A S MOVED.

THOUGH ON A S E R I ES OF S H ELVES. A WHOLE

COLLECTION OF FOOTWE A R FOR C U STOM ERS W I T H O N E OF T H E YOUNG WOM E N I N T H E A U D I E NC E A S

SPEC I A L TA STES. FROM B OO T S T O BA LL-SLI PPERS. THOUGH P A R A LY Z E D BY HER C O N ST R A I N E D
AND SANDALS WITH L E A T H E R THONGS C R I S S ­ POSITION H A S S U D D E N LY LOST CONSC IOUSN ESS.
CROSSING FROM P A I NTED TOE - N A I LS TO CA LF. WITHOUT HER COM PA N IO N S SO M UC H A S BATTING

AN E Y E L I D. E V E N THOSE N EXT TO H E R. S H E HAS

THE FULL EVEN I NG GOWNS A R E . MORE OFTEN THAN S L U M P E D BACKWARDS W I T H A LOW GROA N SHE WAS

NOT. TUCKED UP V E R Y H IGH E X PO S I NG LONG LEGS NO LON G E R ABLE TO RESTRA I N . HER HEAD O N O N E

SWATH E D I N S I LK. S O O N E M A Y ADMIRE AT GREATER S I DE. H E R L I P S PARTED A N D EYES C LOSED. Q U I T E

EASE THE DIFFERENT SPECIMENS (WILL IT BE U N C O N S C I O U S ON T H E C R U E L LY H A R D S EAT. I T I S

N EC E S S A R Y ONCE MORE TO BET ON ONE OF N O W A P P A R E N T THAT S H E I S ATTA C H E D T O T H E

THEM?)-SO HIGH I N FACT. AND I N THE ABSENCE O F FO U R TIGHT RO P E S OF P E A R LS WITH TH E I R

U N DE R GA R M E NTS. I T H A P P E N S T H A T WHAT I S ALSO M ET A L L I C G L I TT E R THAT FO R M A DOG COLLA R

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A R O U N D H E R N ECK. AS W E L L AS THE BRACE LETS ROSA R Y B I N D S TOG ETH E R AT H E R JOI N E D W R I STS­

AROUND HER W R I STS. ARE ACT U A L L Y SOLI D THE L U M I NOUS ROSE S Y M BOLIZING H E R V I RG I N ITY.

THONGS F I R M LY H O L D I N G THE G I R L PRISON E R I N THE TARGET OF A DD I T I O N A L C R U E LTY FROM H E R

T H E C H A I R : O N E A T THE TOP O F THE STRAIGHT BACK PERSEC UTORS.

AND O N E AT E AC H END O F T H E ARM-RESTS.

ON THE STAGE. HOW E V E R. THE SC E N E CONTI N U E S :

IN A LL LI K E L I HOOD HER SI NGU LARLY RIGID T H E L I TT L E FLOWER-GI R L I S N O W A WA K E N I NG AS

THOUG H FROM A D R E A M LESS S L E E P AND I MME­

POS I TION. WITHOUT T H E SLIGHTEST LATITUDE OF
D I A T E LY R I V ETS H E R GAZE O N THE E Y E S OF H E R
MOVE M E NT. THAT HER BONDS H A V E FORCE D H E R TO

A DOPT-A N D P E R H A PS FOR SEVERAL HOURS-IS D O U B L E . THE YOUNGEST OF A L L T H E SPECTATORS

S I TT I N G ON THE OTH E R SIDE OF THE GLASS.

THE CAUSE O F HER PRESENT STATE (FATAL?) . . .
WITHOUT D I STU R B I N G FOR AN I N STA N T TH I S
A N D A L L THE M O R E SO A S THE SPIKE H E E L OF O N E
R E F LECTED VISION. THIS M I RAGE. SHE R I S E S TO
OF H E R P I N K SLI PPERS WITH PEARL POM POMS H A S
HER FEET WITH A P I R O U ETTE. S H E D D I N G AS S H E
A LSO B E E N R I VETED T O TH E WOODEN FRONT OF T H E
D O E S SO T H E L I G H T E M B ROI D E R E D L A C E V E I L THAT
C H A I R . K E E P I NG H E R L E G I N T H E A I R A S THOUGH I N
HAD PA RTLY C O NC E A LE D HER TORSO. THE
A STI R RUP. TH U S FORC I NG HER KNEE TO BEND
M A K E S H I FT C H E M I S E O F T H E WRY YOUNG WHORE.
S H A R PLY T O T H E S I D E A N D H E R A N K L E T O TOUCH.
T H E N S H E A RR A N G E S HER BLACK STOC K I NGS A N D
OR N E A RLY. HER G E N I T A LS. WHICH A R E EXPOSED I N

FULL V I EW D U E T O T H E W I D E A NGLE PRODUC E D S L I P S I NTO A PA I R O F F I N E H IGH-H E E L E D S HOES.

MOTHE R-OF- P E A R L B U TT E R F L I E S ARE C L I N G I N G TO

W H E N H E R L E G S W E R E P U L L E D APA RT.
HER BLONDE TRESSES.

J U ST B E LOW THE LOW E R A R C. HOLDING HER

GA RTERS. O F THE BLACK WASP-CORSET S H E IS UPON R E M A R K I NG T H I S LAST DETA I L T H E N A RRA­

W E A R I NG A N D NOTH I NG E LSE. A N D WHOSE L I N E S OF TOR BECOME A WA R E O F A SECOND I NCONSISTENCY

FORCE THIN HER WA I ST AND P U S H U P H E R B R E A STS IN THIS ACCO U N T: IF HIS M EMORY SERVES HIM

U N D ERSCO R E D BY MORE ROPES OF P E A R LS. T H E W ELL-A N D I N T H I S CASE I T DOES-TE M PLE. T H E

SACRED T R I A N G L E' S B L O N D E TU FTS ARE DIS­ FRAGILE F L O W E R -G I R L PEDDLING HER ROSES

P L AY E D I N A L L D U E POMP. R EFLECTI NG MOREOV E R N E A R THE OPERA H O U S E . WAS D A R K- H A I RED. V E R Y

I N T H E C E N T R E O F T H E OVA L M I RROR I N V E N E TI A N D A R K - H A I RED. BUT P E R H A PS T H E L O N G BLON D E

C RYSTA L LYING O N T H E FLOOR BEFORE H E R TO H A I R OVE R T H E R E . A S GOLDEN A N D U ND U LATING

SERVE AS A FOOT- R EST. U N ATTA I N A BLE. A S A F I E L D O F R I P E N E D W H EAT. I S S I M PLY-L I K E SO

M A N Y OTH E R T H I NGS IN THIS HOUSE-THE R E S U LT

OF S O M E A RT I F I C E OR OTH ER. FOR I N STA NCE. O N E

FRANK V. FRANCIS A B R U PT L Y B E C O M E S C O N ­
WOU L D S W E A R T H A T T H E G I R L H A S GROWN E V E N
SC IOUS OF A N A NO M A L Y W H I C H DO E S NOT F A I L TO
YOUNGER. F O R T H I S I S T H E E FFECT PRODUCED BY
C A U S E H I M M I S G I V I NGS: NO O N E H E R E S E E M S TO
HER FEATURES-MORE C H I L D L I K E T H A N EVER-I N
NOTICE HIS PRESENCE. SINCE HE C A NNOT H A V E
THE G L A R E OF T H E P ROJ ECTORS. W H E R E A S O N T H E
B E C O M E I N V I S I B L E ( E V E N U N D E R TH E MAGIC S P E L L
CONTRA R Y T H E P E A R LS SC ATTERED AROU N D H E R
OF THE HOLLOW M ES S A G E - A P P L E I l . THE ONLY
H A V E G R O W N B I GG E R U NT I L THEY H A V E BECOM E
A DM I S S I BLE E X P LA NATION I S THAT H E I S PROBABLY
LIGHT PA RTY B A LLOONS FLOATING S I LVERY I N T H E
PART OF THE SC E N E: THE B A L D- H E A D E D MAN
C U BE-SH A P E D ROOM. CONC U R RENTLY THE OVA L
W E A R I NG N A R ROW D A R K GLASSES I S NONE OTH E R
M I R RO R A N D TH E ROSES LYING H E LTER-SKELT E R
THA N HIS OWN R E FLECTION IN A SIDE M I RROR.
NOW BLEND I NTO VA R IOUS DECORATIVE MOTIFS.
SATISFYING H I M S E L F WITH THAT INTERPRETATION
HARMLESS AND WITH NO OBVIOUS E ROTIC
FOR T H E T I M E B E I NG. T H E I NS PECTOR NOTES J U ST
CON NOTATIONS.
I N C A S E THE FACT THAT THE ROLE PLAYED B Y T H E

P E A R L S A S I N ST R U M E N TS O F TORTURE I S BECOM­

I N G I NC R E A S I N G LY OBVIOUS. I T IS TO BE CONJEC­ TH E N EXT TABLEAU. K N OWN A S "TH E BA RTER E D

TURED THAT SEVERAL OF THE J EW E L S THEY B R I DE." B E G I N S W I TH A PRESENTATION O F W E D D I N G

I N FO R M A R E P R I C K E D D I RECTLY I NTO T H E WOM E N ' S C O ST U M E S (FULL W E D D I NG GOWNS. W H ITE. DIA­

S K I N . A SECOND WOM A N . M O R EOVER. A L S O SHOWS PHANOUS. T R A N S L U C ENT; I M M AC U LA T E TULLE

SIGNS OF I LL N E S S O R D I STR ESS: CROWN E D WITH V E I LS. LACED P E A R L- C O V E R E D BOOTS. L I LY

M O T H E R-OF- P E A R L THORNS LIKE A C H R I ST I A N CROWNED TIA RAS. ETC.). FOR TEM PLE'S BENEFIT

M A RTYR. S H E I S GOING. A S SOON A S S H E C A N N O WHO IS STI L L N E ARLY NAKED BUT WHO IS

LON G E R HOLD H E R PRESCRI B ED POSE. T O DROP RENDERED A LMOST NUBILE BY A PPROPRIATE

FROM HER CUPPED H A N DS-THAT A KIND OF LIGHTI NG. W I T H H E R S M A LL R O U N D B R E A STS. H E R

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W A I ST A L R E A D Y P E R C E PT I B L E . HER BUDDING WAY AS T O MAKE ONE F E A R ( O R HOPE FOR) T H E
FLEECE SHADI NG H E R P U B I S WITH S I LKY DOWN. S H E WORST A S FAR AS TH E G I R LS' F A T E IS CONCERNED.
STANDS FACING THE PUBLIC. H E R L E G S SOMEWHAT
APA RT. THOUGHTFU LLY C O N S I D E R I N G THE ELE­ BUT NOW A DEATH FIGURE APPEARS I N THE PARADE
GANT DRESS M A K E R-SLAVES AS THEY SPREAD AT (THE BI R DS WERE PROBABLY ITS HARBINGER).
HER FEET TH E TRAPPINGS. THE F R I L LS AND THE COSTUM E D S O AS T O EVOKE ASSOCIATIONS-oFTE N
F L O U N C E S F O R THE S A C R I F I C E . SHE I S STI L L MACABRE-WITH WHITE V E I LS A N D BLACK M E S H .
WEARI NG ONLY H E R LONG BLACK GLOVES-oNE I S TEM PLE I S FRIGHTENED. S H E TURNS TOW A R D T H E
RESTING ON H E R H I P A N D THE OTH E R CUPS H E R TALL B A R OQ U E M I R R O R B E H I N D H E R . HER
CHIN. F I N G E R S S P R EA D - A N D STOC K I NGS THAT REFLECTION SEEMS BLURRED TO H ER. AS THOUGH
HALT AT M I D-THIGH. EACH GARTER SPORTI NG A IT MIGHT DISSOLVE. S H E CLOSES H E R EYES. A N D
ROSE WITH A GOLDEN H E A RT. HER AWAREN ESS OF W H A T IS A RO U N D H E R B E G I N S
T O F A D E . S H E FEELS FAI NT. THE M I R ROR'S LIQU I D I S

THERE I S A FURTH E R CHANGE IN THE LIGHTING AND SUDDENLY INVERTED A N D FI LLS WITH MARBLED

S U D D E N LY F R O M TH E S H A DOWS SEVERAL B I R O V E I N S. PANTHER SKINS A N D TATTE R E D C H L A ­

CAGES EM ERGE. CYLINDRICAL I N S H A P E AND O F MYDES. TOWA RDS W H I C H TEMPLE S E N S E S S H E I S

V A ST PROPORT I O N S (IF CROUCHED. THE G I R L BEING SUCKED. AS THOUGH BY A GIGA NTIC S E A ­

COULD FIT TH E R E I N ) . I N S I D E O F W H I C H HUGE JET­ A N E M O N E . BY THE G L A S S TURNED T O S P O N G E A N D

BLACK RAVENS B E A T T H E I R W I N GS . LONE A N D T H E FLOOR T H E SAME. SOFT AND Y I E LDING.

PERHAPS FAMISHED; T H EY APPEAR AT T H I S POI NT

IN THE NARRATIVE (EVEN THOUGH O N E DOES NOT SHE FALLS DIZZI LY FORWARD. HER BLONDE H A I R
EXACTLY U N D E RSTA N D TH E REASON FOR T H I S TRACES A W A V Y PATH DOWN H E R B A C K . . .
SUDDEN REFERENCE) AS A R E M I N D E R OF T H E
DEATH OF THE OLD K I NG . C H A R LES-BORIS. B U T THE LITTLE G I R L I S NOW ON THE OTHE R S I D E OF T H E
RIGHT NOW FASHION MANNEQUINS ARE ON M I R ROR WHOSE SI DES SHE HAS P U S H E D A PART TO
GRACEFUL PARADE. COSTU M E D L I K E B R I DES FOR STEP TH ROUGH THE FRAME MORE EASI LY. AND
THE CEREMONY. TH E BETTER TO SHOW OFF THE FINDS H ERSELF I N A VAST BOURGEOIS DRAWING
ARTICLES PRESENTED. S I LENTLY. ONE AFTER ROOM WITH ITS OVERLY OR NATE DECORATIONS AND
ANOTHER. THE G I R LS A PPROACH A N D G R E ET THE I N WHICH T H E YOUNG I M MOBILE WOM E N S E E M TO BE
N E WLY C H O S E N ONE. A U R EO L E D WITH THOSE WAITI NG THE H A B I T U E S OF TH E HOUSE. H A L F­
FLUTTERING WEDOING V E I LS ON DISPLAY A WHI LE DRESSED (SOMETI MES EVEN LESS SO. AS THOUGH
AGO-AS M E NTIO N E D - I N THE W I N DOWS O F TH E THE FA SHION DI SPLAY I N WHICH THEY TDOK PART
SPLE N D I D SHOP OF I LLUSIONS. AND WHOSE HAS LEFT THEM WITH O N LY TATTER E D. TOR N OR
I M PO R T A N C E HAS OFTEN B E E N CA PITAL I N M I S MATC H E D PIECES OF CLOTHI NG). THE WOM E N
EFFECTI NG THE DISCREET CAPTUR E OF MANY A ARE SEATED P R I M LY I N PADDED A R M C H A I R S A N D
PRISONER IN THE PALACE OF I LLUSION. O N VELVET D A R K R E D SOFAS. OR R EC L I N I NG O N
COUCHES A M I DST T H E H EAPED PI LLOWS. SOM E A R E
LYING U PON ORI ENTAL RUGS OR A N I M A L S K I N S I N
THE NEXT ONES. H E R D E D A LONG BY SEVERAL
THE MOST R E L A X E D OF POSES. THEIR LEGS
STERN N UNS. H A V E NOTH I NG COV E R I NG THEM BUT
A K I M BO. T H E I R H E A DS TH R O W N B A C K . T H E I R
BLACK MESH TIGHTS. FEATH ERS. A N D THE I R LONG
GENITALS O N DISPLAY. A S THOUGH U NCONSCIOUS.
HAIR. OR SOM ETI M ES AN ARRAY O F N EG LIGEES.
THAT PROFANE. LIGHT AND INTIMATE UNDERCLOTH­ PERHAPS EVEN LIFELESS. THE EFFECT OF THIS

ING WHOSE VESTAL WHITENESS ONLY S E RVES TO TABLEAU SUGGESTS TH E PASSAGE O F BARBA R I A N

EM PHASIZE ITS LICENTIOUSNESS. ONE OF THEM. CUSTO�. ERS W H O H A V E J UST VICTI M IZED TWO OR

L I K E SALOME BEFORE H E ROD. I S W E A R I NG NOTH ING TH REE OF THE I N M ATES. THE S U RVIVORS CONTEM­

BUT J EWELS I N A RABESQUE PATTE R N S ON H E R PLATE T H E SA C R I F I C E D BO D I E S W I T H O U T T H E

S K I N ; A NOTHER I S W E A R I NG O N L Y H E R SOFT. KNEE­ S L I G HT E S T V I S I B L E E M OT I O N . A C C U STO M E D ­

HIGH BOOTS A N D A DOG LEASH OF BRAIDED APPARENTLY-TO THESfi: EXACTIONS.

LEATHER THAT H A N G S ABOUT H E R N E C K A N D DOWN

TO H E R B ELLY W H E R E IT DANGLES BETWEEN H E R THE RAVENS H OW E V E R HAVE BEEN RELEASED

LEGS; S E V E R A L D I S P L A Y T H E P E R F E C T I O N OF FROM TH E I R C A G E S A N D T H E Y A R E P E R C H E D H E R E

TH E I R NAKED BREASTS WITH TH E I R H EADS NEARLY AND T H E R E U PON T H E C A R V E D CORNICES OF T H E

C I RCLED BY ENORMOUS H A LOS THAT RECALL TH E FURNITUR E OR ON THE PEDIMENTS OF THE

ONES ON BYZA N TI N E SAI NTS A N D U PON WHICH. M I R RORS. O N E O F TH E M TAKES POND E ROUS BUT

ONCE AGA IN. THE PEARLS A R E DEC K E D IN SUCH A SI LENT FLIGHT AND PERCHES ON THE U N PROTEC-

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TEO BELLY OF AN U NCONSCIOUS G I R L. A NOTH ER. GIRL FEIGNS I N D EC I S I O N TO C O N C E A L HER

WANTING TO BE STROKED. SPREADS HIS ROYA L DUPLICITY. T H E N S H E TRIES O N VARIOUS OUTFITS

PLUMAGE. E R ECT IN ALL ITS GLORY. AGAI NST THE DESIGNED TO A RO U S E THE I NTEREST OF A CERTA I N

NAKED BREASTS OF A DOOM E D CAPTI VE WHO IS C A TEGORY O F C US TO M E R. R A N G I N G F R O M BEG­

HA LF-RECLI N I NG O N A CA NOPY. AT H E R FEET LIES A GA R'S RAGS O R A TURN OF THE CENTU RY BATHI N G

LION S K I N EVOKI NG SOMETH I NG THAT M UST H A V E COST U M E TO A S INGLE F U L L - B LO W N ROSE

OCCURRED ELSEWH E R E I N TH E N A R RATIVE. BUT CONC EALI NG H E R VULVA. I F S H E DOES NOT BEHAVE

WHAT? A N D WHERE? S H E W I L L BE LOC K E D I NS I D E THE D E A D DOLL SHOP.

W H E R E SHE DOES NOT EVEN NOTICE. R EFLECTED I N

ONE OF TH E NUNS GOES U P TO TEMPLE AND THE DEPTHS O F A LOOKING GLASS. THE BALD H E A D

W H I SPERS A FEW I N A U D I B L E WORDS T O HER. WITH OF T H E N A R RATOR.

TH E PROBABLE I NTENTION OF PERSUA DING HER TO

REJOI N H E R COMPANIONS. A N D TO WAIT WITH THEM

I N THE A R MC H A I R OF THE DRAWING ROOM WHOSE ALAIN ROBBE-G R I LLET

YOUNGEST ORNAMENT SHE WILL BE. THE LITTLE TRA NSLATED BY D A N I E L SLOATE

7. R. MOVES AWAY FROM HER CAR. DISAPPEARS I NTO T H E C ROWD.

B. R. BOARDS A STREET BUS.

8 BIS. PLATFORM OF B U S TRAVELLING TOWARD THE PALAI 5- ROYAL.

8 TER. THE CONDUCTOR TA LKING TO A PASSENGER.

9. THE PASSENGER (FAT. CORPU LENT. TALL). H E GLANCES AT R.

1 0. R:S HAND HOLDING THE R A I L.

1 1 . TH E H A N D OF THE CORPULENT PASSENGER SLIDING A LONG THE R A I L TO R:S FINGERS W H I C H A R E

SLOWLY COV E R E D BY T H E H A N D.

1 2. R. GOES QUICKLY I N S I D E THE BUS.

1 3. R. S ITS I N A COR N E R SEAT NEAR AN OPEN W I N DOW.

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I H A V E EVEN M ET H A PPY T R A V E LOS

THE M I R A BELLES A R E EXPE R I M E NTI NG WITH A NEW BEST IT C A N ! I N F A C T IT DESERTS MAN'S B O D Y I N

TYPE OF M I LITANT THEATRE. A THEATRE S E PARATE O R D E R T O E M I G RATE T O THE SIDE OF THE WOM A N .
FROM AN E X P L A N ATO R Y LA N G U AGE. AND LONG OR M O R E P R E C I S E LY. T O TH E BECOMI NG·WOMA N
TIRADES OF GOOD INTENTIONS. FOR EXAM PLE. ON SIDE. W H A T I S ESSENTI A L H E R E I S NOT T H E OBJECT
GAY LIBERATION! THEY H A V E R E CO U R S E TO I N Q U E S T I O N . B U T T H E T R A N S FO R M A T I O N A L
TRANSVESTI S M . SONG. M I M E. DANCE. ETC .. NOT AS M OV E M ENT. Irs T H I S MOVEM E N T. T H I S PASSAGE.
D i F F E R E NT WAYS O F f LLUSTR.4.TING A TH E: M E . TO THAT T H E M I R A BELLES HELP US EXPLORE: A MAN
"CHANGE THE I D E AS" OF THE SPECTATOR. BUT I N WHO LOVES HIS OWN BODY. A M A N WHO LOVES A
O R D E R T O TROUBLE H I M . T O STIR UP U NC E RTA I N WOM A N'S BODY OR ANOT H E R M A N'S IS H I MSELF
D E S I RE·ZONES THAT H E ALWAYS M O R E OR LESS A LW A Y S S E C R ETLY C H A RA C T E R I Z E D BY A "BE·
R E F U S E S TO EXPLORE. T H E QUESTION IS NO C O M I NG·WO M A N . " THIS IS OF COURSE MUCH
LO N G E R TO K N OW W H E T H E R ONE W I L L P L A Y D I F F E R E N T THAT A N I D E NTI FICATION TO T H E WOM A N .
F E M I N I N E AGA INST M A S C U L I N E O R T H E REVERSE. E V E N LESS TO THE MOTHER. A S PSYCHOANA LYSTS
BUT TO MAKE BODIES. A LL BODIES. BREAK AWAY WOU L D HAVE US B E L I EV E . I N ST E A D . IT IS A
FROM THE REPRESENTATIONS AND RESTRAI NTS OF QUESTION OF A DIFFER ENT BECOM ING. A STATE I N
THE "SOC I A L BODY." A N D FROM STER EOTY P E D O R D E R T O BECOME SOM ETHING OTH E R T H A N THAT
SITUATIONS. ATTITUDES A N D BEHAVIORS. OF THE WHICH THE R E PR E S S I V E SOCI A L BODY H A S FORCED
"BREAST PLATE" OF W H I C H W I L H ELM REICH SPOKE. US TO BE. J UST AS WO R K E R S . DESPITE THE
S E X U A L A L I E N A T I O N . O N E OF C A P I T A L I S M 'S E XPLOITATION O F T H E I R WOR K POWER. SUCCEED I N
FOU N DATIONS. I M PL I E S T H A T THE SOCI A L BODY I S ESTA B L I S H I N G A C E RTA I N K I N D OF R E LATION S H I P
POLA R I Z E D IN M A S C U L I N I TY. W H E R E A S T H E T O THE WOR L D'S REA LITY. WOM E N . DESPITE T H E
F E M I N I N E BODY I S TRA N S FOR M E D I NTO A N OBJECT S E X U A L E X P LO I T A T I O N W H I C H T H E Y U N D E RGO.
OF LUST. A PI ECE OF M E RC H A NDISE TO WHICH ONE SUCCEED IN E ST A B L I S H I N G A C E RT A I N T R U E
CANNOT HAVE ACCESS EXC E PT THROUGH GUI LT R E LATIONSH I P T O DESIRE. AND THEY LIVE THIS

AND BY SUBMISSION TO ALL THE SYSTE M'S R E L A TI O N S H I P PRI MARILY ON THE L E V E L O F TH E I R

M E C H A N SI M S ( M A R R I AG E . F A M I LY. WOR K . ETC . 1 . BODIES. AND I F A T T H E ECONOM I C L E V E L TH E

DESIRE. ON THE OTH E R H A N D. H A S T O M A NAGE A S B O U R G E O I S I E IS NOTH I N G WITHOUT T H E PROLE·

BO
TA R I AT, MEN A R E N'T M UC H WHERE BOD I E S ARE R E A L D E S I R E S O F T H E PEOPLE I M PL I E S THAT O N E I S

CONC E R N E D IF THEY DO NOT ACHIEVE SUCH A C A PABLE OF L I STE N I NG TO H I S O W N D E S I R E A N D TO

B E C O M I N G- WO M A N , F R O M W H E N C E C O M E S TH E I R THAT OF H I S MOST I M M E D I ATE ENTOURAGE. THAT

DEPENDENCE ON THE WO M A N ' S BODY OR TH E DOESN'T AT A L L M E A N THAT W E SHOULD PUT CLASS

WOM A N I M AG E W H I C H H A U NTS TH E I R D R E A M S A N D STRUGG LES WAY DOWN ON T H E LA D D E R B E N EATH

TH E I R O W N BOD I E S , OR W H I C H T H E Y PROJ ECT ONTO DESIRE STRUGG L E S . ON THE C O N T R A RY, EACH

THEIR HOMOSEXUAL PARTNE R'S BODY, FROM J U NCTU R E B E TW E E N TH E M WILL BRING AN

WHENCE COM E S TH E COUNTER-D E P E N D E NC E TO U N E XPECTED E N E RGY TO THE FORM E R.

WHICH THEY TRY TO REDUCE WOM E N OR THE

P R E D A TO R Y SEXUAL B E H A VI O R S WHICH THEY

THAT IS TH E " F R ONT" ON WHICH. WITH M UCH
A DO P T IN REGARD TO THEM, ECONOMIC AND
MODESTY A N D T E N A C ITY. TH E M I R A BELLES WORK.
S E X U A L E X PLOITATION C A N NOT B E D I S S OC I ATED,
BUT THEY E S P EC I A LLY DON'T W A N T U S TO T A K E
B U R E A UC R A C I E S AND TH E B O U RG E OI S I E M A I NTA I N
THEM S E R I O U SLY: THEY ARE S T R U G G L I NG FOR
TH E I R POWE R BY B A S I NG T H E M S E L V E S ON S E X U A L
SOMETH I N G MORE I M P O RT A N T T H A N WHAT IS
SEGR EGATION, AGE C LA SS E S , RACES, THE
" S E R I O U S!" (TH E I R MOTTO: "T R A N S V E ST E D AND
CODI FICATION O F ATTITUDES A N D C L A S S STRATI FI­
MON ETA RY C R I SI S . T R A N SVESTED G R E E N B E A N " . . . J
CATION, I M ITATION OF TH E S E SA M E S E G R EGATIONS
W H AT I NTER ESTS THEM IS TO H E LP TO PULL
AND STRATI FICATIONS BY M I LITANTS ( FO R EXAM­
HOMOS E X U A LITY O U T O F ITS G H ETTO, E V E N I F I T I S A
PLE, REFUSAL TO LOOK C LO S E LY AT THE CON­
M I LITANT G H ETTO: WHAT I N T E R ESTS T H E M IS THAT
C RETE A L I E NATION O F WOM E N A N D C H I LD R E N . AT
SHOWS LIKE T H E I R S TO UCH NOT ONL Y HOMOSEX U A L
POS S E S S I V E AND DOMI NATI NG A TTI T U D E S , AT
C I RCLES. BUT A L S O THE M A S S OF PEOPLE WHO
R E S P E CT FOR THE BO U R G E O I S S E P A R A T I O N O F
J U ST DON'T FEEL GOOD A BOUT TH E M S E LVES.
P R I V ATE LIFE AND PUBLIC ACTIV ITY, E TC , )

CONSTITUTES O N E O F T H E FOU N DATIONS O F THE

PRESENT B U R E A UCRATIZATION OF TH E REVOLU­ F E L I X G U A TTA RI

TION A R Y WORKER'S M O V E M ENT. LISTE N I NG FOR THE TRANSLATED BY RAC H E L McCOMAS

POLLY ORlAND PAUL

POLLY WAS SECRETLY A M A N IN WOM A N'S PANTIES. FROM TH E USUAL FUM BLINGS B E FO R E THEIR

H E R / H I S P A R E NTS H A D DEC I D E D O N F E M A LE I S S U E N U PT I A L A N D S O THEY W E R E QUITE U N P R E P A R E D

A N D W H E N POLLY A P P E A R E D W E A R I N G THE USUAL F O R WHATEV E R OCC U R E D. R E PORTS ARE CON­

M A LE ACCOUTR E M E NTS. H E R/ H I S P A R E NTS PUT FLICTING. ACTUA LLY. AS FAR AS M I SS T H R I P PE .

TH E I R COLLECTI V E IDS TOGETH E R A N D S I M PLY LIBRARIAN, CAN A S C E R TA I N (TH I S FROM A

IGNORED POLLY'S ADDENDA. POLLY WAS RAISED FOOTNOTE ON A N E W E NZYM E S H E D I SCOVERED I N

POLLY. BOUNC I NG R I NG LETS UNTI L TWELVE YEARS T H E A M A N ITA V I ROSA W H I C H PROVES CONC L U S I V E ­

OF AGE AND BANGS A FTERWARDS W E LL I NTO THE LY T H A T M O S T DEATH A R E PSYCHOSOMATIC) POLLY

P U B L I C Y E A R S . M A S T U R B A T I O N T R I GG E R E D B Y WAS UNMASKED AS PAUL. AND PA U L, ONCE H I S

POLLY'S F U RT I V E R E A D I NG S A LA F L A S H LIGHT PANTS WERE DOWN THOROUGHLY. W A S B A S I C A LLY

UNDER M I D N IGHT BLA N K ETS. WAS ACCOM PLISHED A POLLY. A LTHOUGH THE FOOTNOTE B R E A KS OFF

BY M E A N S O F A N A D ROIT F I N G E R I NT R O D U C E D HERE IN M I D-ECSTA SY. NO ONE S E E M S TO KNOW

UNDER TH E PREPUCE A N D TWI R L E D COUNTER­ ANYTHI NG AT ALL A BOUT THE ACTUA L GOI NGS- I N

C L OC K W I S E . THE WH ITE R E S U LTS W E R E LONG A N D -OUT OF THAT N IGHT ( M I S S T H R I P P E FOOTNOTE.

M I STA K E N FOR TH E M E N ST R U A L FLOW AND POLLY ALAS. MAY EVEN BE A POC R Y P H A L ) . ALL WE DO

DUTIF ULLY MASTURBATED ONCE E V E R Y TWENTY­ KNOW, AND T H I S M E R E L Y A D D S TO TH E CON FUSION.

EIGHT DAYS, E V E N THOUGH S H E / H E FOU N D THE BUT WE FEEL I T S H O U LD GO INTO TH E DOSS I E R

TIM E LONG B E TW E E N P E RIODS, EXPOSU R E OF A N YWAY. I S THAT PA U L A N D POLLY O P E N E D A D I N E R

COU RSE WAS I N E V I TA B L E : IT HAPPENED ON OUTS I DE A N A UTOMOBILE PLANT I N W I N DSOR M EWS.

H A LLOWE E N WHICH A LSO H A P P E N E D TO B E HER/HIS THE DINER WAS A R E MODELED H A N D- C A R .

WEDDI NG NIGHT, POLLY'S PARTNE R (WE S H A LL CALL

HIM PA U L FOR A M B IGUITY'S SAKE) HAD R E F R A I N E D D A N I E L S LOATE

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LET US R E R E A D P R E S I D E N T SC H R E B E R'S M E MOIRES: BUT F I RST. WHO W A NTS THIS S C A N D A L. THIS

"TH E R E M A R K H A S A L R E A DY BEEN MADE I N THE F E M I N IZATION? " I T W A S P E RFECTLY N A T U R A L THAT

PREVIOUS C H A PT E R S THAT THE RAYS (GOD'S FROM A HUMAN PO I N T OF V I EW DOMI NATING ME

N E RVES) W H I C H WERE ATTRACTED. CONSENTED TO T H E N . O N LY I N PROFESSOR FLECHSIG ISCH E B E R'S

T H I S ATTRACTION A G A I NST TH E I R W I L L BEC A U S E IT A N A LYSTl. O R I N HIS SOU L. D I D I CONTI N U A LLY S E E

L E D TO A LOSS OF T H E I R OWN E X I STENCE. A N D MY REAL E N E M Y. AS MY A LLY. I I MA G I N E D THE

THUS. CONTRADICTED THE CONSERVATION IN­ A L M IGHTY D I V I N I TY W H O M I P E R C E I V E D I N D A N G E R .

ST I N C T . IT WAS A Q U E ST I O N . THER EFORE. OF TH R E A TE N E D BY P ROFESSOR FLECHSIG. THERE­

CON STA NTLY TRYING T O S U S P E N D T H E ATTRAC­ FOR E . I THOUGHT I H A D TO H E L P GOD BY EVERY

TION. IN OTH E R WOR DS. TO GET AWAY FROM MY MEANS POSSI B L E . EVEN IF IT MEANT BEING

N E RVES L . . J. T H E M A I N IDEA WAS A LWAYS TO H A V E SACRI FICED. IT WAS O N LY MUCH LAT E R THAT I

M E STRA N D E D. T O A B A N DO N M E . W H I C H AT TH E TI M E B EC A M E CON V I N C E D THAT GOD H I M S E L F H A D B E E N

S E E M E D POS S I B L E T O ACCOMPLISH BY PUTTING A A N ACCO M P L I C E I F N OT A UTHOR OF T H E PLOT S E T

P R I C E ON MY BODY. AS ON A PROSTITUTE'S BODY. U P TO K I LL M Y SOU L A N D PROSTITUTE M Y BODY L . . 1 .

SOM ETI M E S A LSO BY PUTTING M E TO DEATH A N D.

LATER. BY THE DESTRUCTION OF MY INTELLIGENCE THE P ROSTITUTE A C C E PTS P ROSTITUTION I N T H E

( BY D R I V I NG M E M A D)." A N D. L I K E A R E A L WHORE. N A M E OF A S U PE R I O R I N T E REST. S H E WA NTS IT. A N D

SC H R E B E R A DDS. "AS F A R AS THE ATTEM PTS AT I N T H I S R EG A R D. S H E I S S I M I L A R T O A M A RTYR; S H E

TRAN SFORMATION ARE CONC E R N E � IT SOON TESTI F I E S THROUGH H E R H U M I LI ATION. M A G D A L E N E

BECA M E C L E A R THAT TH E PROGRESSIVE FILLING A S J E S U S. SHE B E G I N S TO TESTIFY A G A I N ST H E R

UP OF MY BODY WITH (FEMI NINE) V O L U PTUOUS P R OC U R E R . THE D I S S OC I AT I O N OF THE TWO

N E RVES H A D THE OPPOSSITE EFFECT. THAT THE I N STA NCES (GOD A N D P I M P) I S STI L L N A I V E : G O D A S

R E S U LTA NT VOLUPTUOUS D E LIGHT WITH I N M Y BODY THE A FFECTIVE I N STANCE. S I N C E T H E S U F F E R I NG I S

W A S IN FACT I N C R E A S I N G THE POWER OF ATTRAC­ E X PO S E D T O H I S EYES A N D G I V E N T O H I S H E A RT;

TION," LIKE A REAL G I R L. OR RATH ER. WAS HE THE P R OC U R E R AS THE ECONOMICAL I N STA NCE.

CARRIED AWAY BY T H E POW E R OF T H E D E PEN­ SINCE H E R E I T IS F L E C HSIG. BUT A LSO H E ROD. OR

D E N C E? P I LATE. WHO C O N V E RTS THI S SUFFERING I NTO

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SUCH. THEN. IN THE S UCCEEDING MOMENT. IN THE ASYLU M: SUCH IS THE LAW OF T H E MOB. HERE

SUCCEEDING TI M E FRAM E (THE MOMENT OF WRITING. XAVIERE SAYS W H A T IS ESSENTIA L: "TH E P U N I SH­

AND THIS IS I M PORTANT: "TH I S I DEA E M E RGED ONLY M E NT IS AGA I N THE WAY TO GET A H U MAN B E I NG TO

MUCH LATER. COMING TO MY M I ND. I DARE SAY. ONLY ACCEPT THE UNACCEPTA BLE. BUT IT I S A LSO THIS

AS I WAS WRITING THI S PI ECE."). THE TWO NAMES. SA DO-M ASOCHI STIC LINK THAT I N THE END MAKES

FLECHSIG AND GOD. M ERGE. TH E I N STANCE OF YOU FEEL SOMETHING TOWA RDS YOU R PROC U RERS.

APPEAL APPEARS TO B E J UST AS IF NOT MORE THIS SOMETHING H A S NO N A M E. IT IS BEYOND LOVE

C R I M I N A L THAN THAT OF THE C R I M E. THE N THE AND HATE. BEYOND SENTIM ENTS. A SAVAGE JOY

P I M P- G O O - D O C T O R A C Q U I R E S H I S L I B I D I N A L MIXED WITH SHAME. JOY TO E N D U R E AND TO HOLD

D I M E NSION: T H E O R D E R O F T H E WORLD. SAYS OUT. TO B E LONG A N D TO FEEL FREED FROM

SCH REBER. I S R E A L LY VIOLATED BY TH E PROJECT FREEDOM. IT M U ST E X I ST FOR ALL W O M E N . I N EVERY

OF M Y TRANSFORM ATION I NTO WOM A N ( PROSTI­ COUPLE AT LEAST ON A M I NOR OR U NCONSCIOUS

TUTE): THERE I S NO I N STANCE OF A PPEAL. GOD IS LEVEL. I C A NNOT REALLY EXPLA I N I T. IT I S A DRUG.

ALSO PERSEC UTING M E . HE I S NOT THE HONEST LIKE THE FEELING O F LIVING YOU R LIFE SEVERAL

J UDGE WHO R EC E I V E S M Y S U F F E R I NG. H E I S THE T I M ES ALL AT ONCE WITH U NBELIEVABLE INTENSITY.

PIMP WHO D E M A N D S IT AND USES IT TO MAKE A THE PI M PS TH EMSELVES F E E L THAT "SOMETHI NG"

PROFIT. THEREFORE R E V E A L I NG IT A N D EXPLOITING WHEN THEY PUNISH. I'M SURE." THAT N A M E LESS

IT I N THE DUPLICITY OF S U FF E R I NG-JOUISSANCE. SOMETHING. WHY GIVE I T TH E N A M E O F SA DO­

MASOC H I S M AS SHE SUGGESTS? H E R E WE ARE IN
SCHREBER PROTESTS: HIS FIGHT TO GET OUT OF THE MI DDLE OF A PROCESS O F D I S S I M U LATION. I F
M E NTA L I NSTITUTION S. W H E R E EVERYBODY WANTS FLECHSIG I S THIS VERTIGO'S NAME, THE P I M P OR
TO PUT H I M. I S THE SA M E STRUGGLE A S THAT OF A TH E COM M U N ITY OF PIMPS I S TOO. WHAT DI SAP­
G I R L TO GET AWAY FROM THE U N D ERWORLD AND P E A R S I N T H E P U N I S H M E NT. R E G A R D I N G T H I S
THE WHOREHOUSE/R E D LIGHT D I STRICT W H E R E S H E VERTIGO. I S T H E I LLUSION O F A N EGO: "TH EY HAD
IS C O N F I N E D. BECAUSE. AS WE HAVE SEEN. SUCCEEDED SINCE FROM THEN ON I E X I STED ONLY
SCHREBER WANTS TO B E T H E PROSITUTE O F GOD. THROUGH THEM,"
HE W A NTS T O E X P E R I E NC E P L E A S U R E L I K E A
WOM A N AND GIVE GOD PLEASURE. I F NOT AS H I S BUT OF COURSE. A S I N THE GOOD OLD M A STER­
LOVER. T H E N A T LEAST A S H I S M A STER. T H I S I S WHY SLAVE D I A L ECTIC. T H I S EXTR E M E D E P E N D E N C E
SCH R E B E R WANTS TO B E ALL WOMEN A N D WOMAN C A N BE M A N I P U LATED BY T H E WOM A N AS A W E A PO N
ALL T H E T I M E . A N D T H E " I N C E S S A N T LY" A N D AGAINST THE M ASTER. I N LOVE. IT I S P E R H A PS THE
"CONTIN UOUSLY" THAT REA PPEARS U N D E R H I S PEN FEM I N I N E ORGASM THAT ATTRACTS TH E BOD I E S TO
TO DEFINE T H E NATU RE. ACCORDING TO HIM. OF BLIND M I X I NG: THUS SCH REBER WANTS TO BE MORE
FLECHSIG-GOD'S PLEASURE: THERE IS (A) CONTl NU· WOMAN A N D MORE PROSTITUTE. AND T H E R EFORE.
OUS WOMAN. T H I S C A N BE CON S I D E R E D AS THE MORE AND MORE M A D. MORE A N D MORE "DEAD." I N
EFFORT OF T H E CREATURE TO REACH THE LEVEL ORDER TO SEDUCE FLEC H S I G A N D GOD EVEN
OF THE DIVI N E O M N I T E M PORALITY: "EVEN WHEN I BETTER. SO, I S IT A QUESTION OF INTU ITION RATH E R
WAS LIVING ALONE I N MY STUDIO." SAYS XAVIERE THAN I NTENSITY? A N D AT TH I S . .PONT. W H E R E WITH
LAFONT. A FORM E R PROSTITUTE OF RATHER GREAT XA V I E R E WE THOUGHT WE HAD FO U N D T H E
N OT E R I ETY. "T H E P H O N E W O U L D R I N G AT A L L STRENGTH OF POWERLESSNESS ("I WOULDN'T SAY I
HOURS. CHECKING I F I W E R E H O M E I . . . THE PIMPS] REGRET THI S LIFE. BUT YOU M I SS IT FOREVER. IT I S
HAVE ALL THE TI M E THEY N E E D TO GET YOU. EVEN LIKE COCA I N E. YOU NEVER FIND T H I S INTENSITY I N
I N A M ERICA I F THEY WANT." AND EVEN WHEN SHE . . . NORM A L LI FE"). SHOULD W E M A K E ROOM FOR
QUIT HER JOB. "SOM ETI M E S THE PHONE WOULD POWER AND ITS COM PLICITY WITH EVERY WEAK­
R I NG. EVEN IN THE M I DDLE OF THE NIGHT. AND ON NESS? FOR S U REI BUT TH ERE IS NOT A REASON TO
TH E OTHE R END. THERE WOULD B E NOTHI NG. J U ST DISREGARD THE STRENGTH OF POWERLESSNESS:
THE SOU N D OF H E AVY BR EATH I NG. A N D T H E N . I NSTENSITY H I DES IN SIGNS AND I NSTA NCES. IF THE
T H E Y WOULD HANG U P." PROPER NOUN I S THE PIMP OR GOD. IT I S A LSO THE
OCCASION OF TH I S U NSPEAKABLE "SOMETHI NG."

IN THE CONSTITUTUTION O F T H I S A M B I V A L E N C E THE "EGO" DOESN'T FALL INTO D E P E N DENCE ONLY

WHICH MIXES UP GOD AND P I M P, GOD AND BECAUSE O F A M I S E RABLE FLUCTUATION IN T H E

FLECHSIG. THE PUNISHMENT I S A DECISIVE ELEM ENT: POWER G A M E. I N THE D E A D OF N IGHT, WHEN P A L M S

IT IS CALLED P E R SECUTION BY SCH REBER. STI LL IT AND LOOKS ARE EXHAUSTED. W H E N P E N I S A N D

I S THE SAME AS THE P U N I S H M ENT THAT XAVI ERE VU LVA ARE I N TATTERS. WHEN T H E SCORCHED

M UST E N DURE. BEING LOCKED U P. REDUCED TO A EARTH HAS NO TACTICS LEFT. TH I S ORDER CAN

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THROAT OF A WOM A N : "USE M E"-TH I S M E A NS. PRICED Q U A LITY IS FIXED BY JESUS AS THE

TH E R E IS NO ME. NO EGO. PROSTITUTION I S THE R E D E M PT I O N P R I C E OF S I N . I N T H I S SENSE. J E S U S I S

POLITICAL A SPECT O F D E P E N DENCE. BUT THERE IS A CALCULATING P ROSTITUTE: YOU M A K E M E D I E . I T

A LSO A L I B I D I N A L A SPECT. OVERLOOK E D B Y SADE. H U RTS. B U T E V E R YO N E B R EAKSI E V E N P E R V E RTS

THE DEMAND FOR PASSIVITY IS A DEMA N D FOR OR FOOLS ("THEY KNOW NOT WHAT THEY DO") W I L L

SLA V E RY. THE DEMA N D FOR D E PENDENCE IS NOT A B E R E C U P E R A T E D I NTO THE GRACIOUS B O D Y O F

PLEA TO BE DO M I N ATED. TH E R E IS NO D I A LECTIC OF THE C R EA T E R. I . E. . T H E C A PITAL. A N D G O D I S A P I M P

THE SLAVE: NEITHER H E G E L' S NOR LACAN'S W H O S A Y S TO H I S W I FE JESUS. A S H E S A Y S TO

D I A LECTIC O F TH E H YSTER IC. BOTH PRESU PPOSE A SCHREBER. "DO IT FOR ME. DO IT FOR THEM." WHAT

P E R M UTATION OF ROLES WITHIN THE SPACE OF DOES J E S U S GET F ROM ALL TH I S. YOU ASK? A N D

DO M I NATION. ALL TH I S IS V I R I L E BULLSH IT. "USE ME" JUST W H A T D O E S A PROSTI TUTE G E T FROM SELLING

TENDS TOW A R D S THE MALE MEMBER E R ECTED TH E MOST U N P REDICTABLE PA RTS O F HER BODY?

ABOVE T H E SMALL O F A BACK. THE I LLUSION OF HER LOOKS. HER TA LENTS A S A DRESS M A K E R. H E R

POWER. OF A R E LATION SH I P OF DOM I NATION. BUT SHOES. A N D W H A T DO E S SCH R E B E R GET? T H I S I S

SOMETH I N G COMPLETELY D I FFERENT HA PPENS NOT T H E Q U E STION. T H E PROSTITUTE SCH RE B E R O R

WITH I N T H I S SMALL O F T H E BACK. SOM ETH ING M UC H J E S U S I N VENTS A N D D E F I N ES H I M SELF BY C A R E F U L

MORE I M PORTANT. N A M ELY THE OFFER TO SUP­ P LA N N I NG AS A S U B J ECT. EVEN IF O N LY IN

PRESS THE CENTER. T H E H EA D . WHEN THE MAN. FA NTA SY. C A P A B L E O F CONVERTING PERVERSION. O F

FLECHSIG. THE P I M P. USES THIS D E M A N D IN ORDER C I R C U M V E NTING I T. AND DON'T FORGET THAT AS

TO BECOME HEAD OR POW E R H I M S E LF. HE IS JESUS I S A LSO GOD. T H E PROSTITUTE I S A LSO H E R

P R OT E C T I N G H I M S E L F: HE DOESN'T D A R E PAY OWN P ROC U R E R. THE MYSTERY OF THE T R I N ITY

ATTENTION T O THE O F F E R . M U C H L E S S A NSWER IT. WHICH IS A LSO THE MYSTERY O F S I M I LI T U D E IS T H E

TH E PASSION FOR PASS I V I TY WHICH CAUSES THIS V E R Y M AC H I N E R Y PRODU C I N G T H E M E A N I NG F U L

D E M A N D TO BE FOR M U LA T E D IS NOT A SINGLE S I G N A N D H I DI N G T HI:: T E N SOR. U N DERCOV E R SIGN.

FORCE. A COM P L E M E NTI NG POWE R IN A CONFLICT.

BUT RATH E R . IT IS THE OV E R W H E L M I N G AND "USE ME": AN E N U N C I AT I O N OF V E RT I G I N O U S

U N M E DIATED POW E R [PUISSANCE] ITSELF THAT S I M P L I C I TY T H A T I S N 'T M Y ST I C A L B U T R A T H E R
LIQ U I FI E S ALL STASES I N T E R MITTENTLY BLOCKING MATE R I A LI ST. I ' L L B E YOU R SACRIFICE A N D YOU R
TH E FLUX O F I N T E N S I TY. BECAUSE THE OFFER OF TISSUES. YOU BE MY O R I FICES. MY PALMS A N D MY
OPEN BUTTOCKS AND A N U S ON THE PART O F THE M E M B R A N ES. LETS GET LOST A N D LETS LEAVE T H E
WOM A N BENT OV E R AS A GLEENER IS NOT A POWE R A N D T H E A B J ECT J U ST I F I CATIONS O F T H E
C H A LLENGE OF TH E POTLATCH K I ND-" H E R E I S R E D E M PTION D I A LECTIC B E H I N D . "LETS B E D E AD."
WHAT I G I V E YOU. LET U S S E E WHAT YOU HAVE AND NOT: I WANT TO DIE B Y YOUR H A N D. A S MASOCH
GOT'-IT I S T H E O P E N I NG O F THE L I B I D I N A L BAND. SAYS. HERE LIES THE SUPREME DECEIT. I NTEN­
AND THIS O F F E R I NG . THIS I NSTANTA NEOUS TIONAL OR NOT. SO THAT FROM THIS ULTI MATE
EXTENSION A N D I N VENTION I S PREC I S E LY WHAT THE C OM M A N D. C O M I NG FROM A BODY ALREADy
MEN OF POWER. TH E P I MPS. THE POLITI C I A N S DENY. EXHAUSTED B Y C A RESSES A N D I N SOM N I A . WOULD
THEY CONTENT THEMSELVES WITH A MEAN R E E M E RG E IN TH E ROA R I NG OF U NTI E D PARTI A L
C A P ITA LIZATION O F L I B I D I N A L I NT E N SI T I T E S I N '
D R I V ES T H E S U B J ECT F U NCTIONS. H EG E L I A N GLOSS
ORDER TO C R EATE S U R PLUS VALUE. A N OVER­ OF THE PLEA: BE M Y M ASTER: MAY YOU R WILL BE
EX PLOITATION OF JOU ISSANCE'S FORCE. DONE. T H I S IS HOW SADE. OR F R E U D . O R BATA I LLE

U N DE R ST A N D S IT. R E I N TROD U C I N G POLITICS. A N D

"USE M E" I S AN O R D E R A N D AN I M PE RIOUS PLEA. T H E R E FORE. O R D E R . STR ATEGY. T H E RATIONA LITY

BUT WHAT SHE ASKS I S THE S U PRESSION O F THE OF WAR. LAC LOS A N D C LA USEWITZ.

I/YOU R E LATION S H I P ( M A STE R/SLAVE. REVERSIBLE)

AND A LSO OF THE R E LA T I O N SH I P O F USE. OF NOW. WHAT DOES SHE W A NT. SHE WHO D E M A N D S TO

COU R S E . THIS SU PPLICATION A P P E A R S A S P U R E BE U S E D I N T H E A R I D ITY A N D EXASPE RATION O F

R E L I G IO N A S L O N G A S I T REQU ESTS D E P E N D E NCE. A L L PA RTS O F H E R BODY. S H E . T H E O NE-WOM A N

I SN'T THIS WHAT JESUS SAID O N THE C ROSS? BUT B A N D? TO B E T H E M ASTER OF H E R MASTE R A N D A L L

JESUS CAN ASK FOR D E P E N DENCE BECAUSE HE THAT. DO Y O U T H I N K? C O M E ONI S H E W A NTS Y O U TO

OFFERS HIS SUFFERING AS S I N ' S SALARY: TH E DIE WITH HER. SHE WANTS THE L I M ITS OF

"OV ER-PR ICED" NATURE OF H I S OFFERING. OF H I S EXCLUSION TO B E FORC E D BACK F U RTHER. S H E

A B A N DONI NG OF S E LF. T H E T E R R I B L E SCHREBER­ DEMANDS TH E SC A N N I NG. THE V I S IO N OF ALL

IAN DEMIRACLENESS H E S U F F E RS. R E L I N QU I S H I NG TISSUES. I MMENSE T A C T I L I TY . THE FEEL OF

OF SELF P E R PETRATED AND ACCOMPLISHED BY E V ERYTH I N G CLOSING U P WITH I N ITSELF. B U T NOT

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U A LLY E XT E N D I N G W I T H O U T C O N Q U E R I N G . OP­ I DENTI C A L IN THE CONN ECTIONS O F A L L TH E I R

POSED TO TH I S I S THE SE LF-A DHESIVE M E DIOCRITY TISSUES. " I T WOULD BE MORE I N ACCOR DANCE WITH

OF THE VIRILE, LA U G H I NG, B E L I E VI NG I TS E L F THE REALIZATION OF DESI RE, I N L I F E AND B E YOND,

CAPABLE OF UNVEILING AND EX PLOITI NG T H E I F WE COULD BE F R E E D FROM THE D I F F E R E N C E OF

HYSTERIC O R T H E WOM A N A N D H E R SO-CALLED LIE. SEX." W R ITES SCH R EB E R, QUOTING M IGNON'S SONG

A M E D I OC RITIY S I M I LA R TO THE POLITIC I AN'S. IT I S IN WILHELM MEISTER: "AND THESE C E L E ST I A L

WRITTEN I N T H E L E TT E R L E N I N S E N T T O TROTSKY FIGURES N E V E R ASK WH ETHER W E A R E M A N O R

TH ROUGH THE H A LLS O F THE WI NTER PALACE (I WOM A N . " THE DESIRE THAT E V E RYTH I N G BE

H A RDLY HAVE TO M A K E I T U P) : "SAY, IF THE WH ITE CARRI E D AWAY A N D B U R N ED U P I S CALLED B Y T H E

G U A R DS KILL US, DO YOU TH I N K SVERDLOV AND GR EAT TH I N K E R S THE DEATH I N STINCT. BUT O F

B U K H A R I N HAVE A C H A N C E TO ESCA PE?" IT'S THE COURSE! W H E N T H E Y T H I N K ABOUT L I FE, DON'T THEY

WOR D OF A MAN OF THE U N D E RWORLD. THE LAST A LWAYS T H I N K A BO U T GATH E R I N G , U N I FY I N G ,

COM M E N T COMES, OF COU RSE, FROM XAVI E RE: "AT CAPITALIZI NG, CONQU ERI NG, EXTE N DING, C LOSING

F I RST S I G HT, THEY SEEM TO BE Q U I TE JOVIAL UP AND DOM I N A T I N G ? T H E G R E E KS, LENIN AND

FELLOWS. THEY A R E WELL DRESSED, OFTEN WITH A N TROTS K Y , THE GAYS WHO MOVE IN PACKS,

E F F E M I NATE FLAIR. T H EY A R E N O T N ECESSA RILY PROSTITUTING TH E WOM E N-MASSES. BUT CA UGHT I N

H O M O S E X U A L, BUT THEY A LMOST COULD BE. THEIR D I SGUSTING PROPER NOUNS O F RULERS. T H E

AN YWAY, THEY A R E NOT V E R Y GOOD LOVERS. THEY I N SANE P L E A OF THE M ASSES IS N O T "LONG LIVE

A LWAYS MOVE IN PACKS," BECAUSE THEY NEED A N SOC I A L I TY" (AND EVEN LESS, "LONG LIVE TH E

ORGA N I ZAT I O N , THESE S M A L L TOWN PE RVERTS, A S ORGA N I ZA T I O N " ) , BUT RATH E R "LONG LIVE

D E L E U Z E A N D GU ATTA R I PUT I T (AS F O R THEM . . J. LIBIDINA LITY."

"WHAT DOES A WOMAN WANT?" ASKS F R E U D. SHE J EAN-FRANCOIS L YOTA R D

WANTS THE M A N TO BECO M E N E IT H E R MAN NOR TRANSLATED BY M I C H E L F E H E R

WOMAN. SHE WANTS H I M NOT TO WANT A NYTH I N G A N D TOM G ORA

SIS
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I N T H E GLOBAL SOC I A L F I E LD. HOMOSEXUALITIES SEXUAL POWE R ON ITS OWN TERRAIN. NOW

FU NCTION SOMEWHAT AS MOV E M ENTS. C H A P E LS H ET E R OS E X U A L I TY M U ST ACCOU NT F O R I T S E LF;

WITH THEIR OWN C E R E M ON I A L. TH E I R I N ITIATION THE PROBLEM IS D I S P LA C E D . P H A L LOC R A T I C

RITES. THEIR M YTHS OF LOVE ( M YTHES AMOU REUXI POW E R TE N DS TO BE PUT I N TO Q U E S T I O N ; IN

AS R E N E N E LLI PUTS IT. DESPITE T H E I NTERVEN­ P R I N C I PLE. A CONJU NCTION BETWEEN THE ACTIONS

TION OF GROUPINGS OF A MORE OR LESS OF F E M I N I STS AND H O M OS E X U A LS THEN BECO M E S

C O R PO R A T I S T NATURE LIKE ARCADIA. H O M O­ POSSI B L E .

SEXUA LITY CONTI N U E S TO BE T I E D TO THE VALUES

AND I NTE RACTION A L SYSTE M S OF T H E DOM I N A NT

HOW E V E R. WE SHOULD P E R H A PS DI STI N G U I S H A
SEXUAL ITY. ITS DEPENDENCE IN REG A R D TO THE
T H I R D LEVEL. A MORE MOLECULAR ONE IN W H I C H
H ET E ROSEX U A L NORM IS M A N I FESTED IN A
CATEGO R I E S . GROUPINGS AND "SPEC I A L I N STAN­
POL ITICS OF THE S E C R ET. A H I DDEN ESS NOUR­
C E S" WOU LD NOT B E D I F F E R ENTIATED I N THE SA M E
ISHED BY R E P R ESSION A S WELL AS BY A FEELING
WAY. I N W H I C H C L E A R C UT OPPOSITIONS BETWEEN
OF S H A M E STI LL LIVELY I N " R E S P ECTABLE" M I L I E U S
TYPES WOU L D B E R E P U D I ATED. I N WHICH. ON TH E
( P A R T I C U LA R LY A M O N G B U S I N E S S M E N . W R IT E R S .
CONTRARY. ONE WOULD LOOK FOR S I M I LA R ITIES
SHOW-BIZ PEOPLE. ETC,) I N W H I C H PSYCHOA NALYSIS
AMONG HOMOSE X U A LS . T R A N S V ESTITES. DRUG
IS PRESENTLY TH E R E I G N I NG M A STER. IT ENFORCES
A D D I CTS. SADo-MASOCH ISTS. PROSTITUTES. AMONG
A SECON D DEGREE NORM. NO LONGER MORAL. BUT
WOM E N . MEN. C H ILDREN. TEEN-AGERS. AMONG
SC I E N T I F I C . H O M OS E X U A L I T Y IS NO LO N G E R A
PSYCHOTICS. A RT I STS. R E VOLUTION A R I ES. LET'S
MORAL MATTER. BUT A MATTER OF PERVERSION.
SAY A MONG ALL FORMS OF SEXUAL M I N ORITIES
PSYCHOA N A L Y S I S MAKES AN ILLNESS OF IT. A
ONCE IT IS U N D E R S TOOD THAT IN THIS REALM
DEVELOPMENTAL RETA R DATION. A FIXATION AT TH E
T H E R E C O U L D O N LY B E M I NORITI ES. F O R E X A M PLE.
PRE-GEN ITA L STAGE. ETC.
IT COULD BE S A I D. BOTH AT T H E SAME TIME 1 I THAT

A L L FORMS O F S E X U A LITY. ALL FOR MS OF S E X U A L

ON ANOTH ER. S M A L L E R A N D MORE AVANT-GARDE ACTI VITY A R E F U N D A M E NTALLY ON T H I S SIDE OF TH E

LEVEL IS FOU N D M I LITANT HOMOSEXUALITY. OF THE PERSONOLOG I C A L OPPOSITIONS HOMO-H ETE RO: 2)

F H A R TYPE. HOMOS E X U A L ITY CON FRONTS H ETERO- THAT NON ETH E L E S S . THEY ARE C LO S E R TO

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FE M I N I N E BECOMI NG. DENCE. I N G I N S B E RG'S W O R K . OF A FU N D A M ENTA L

POETIC M U TATION WITH SEXUA L M UTATION). IN A

MORE GENERAL FASHION. E V E R Y " D I S S I D E NT"

ON THE LEVEL O F THE SOC I A L BODY. THE L I B I DO I S
ORGA N I ZATION OF T H E L I B I DO M U ST T H E R E FORE BE
CAUGHT I N TWO SYSTEMS O F OPPOSITION: C LASS
D I R ECTLY LINKED TO A B ECOMI NG-FEM I N I N E BODY.
AND SEX. IT IS U N D E R ST O O D TO BE MALE.
AS AN ESCAPE ROUTE FROM THE R E P R E SS I V E
P H A L LOC R ATIC. IT IS U N D E R STOOD TO DICHOTO­
SOC I U S. A S A POSSIBLE ACCESS T O A " M I N I M U M - O F
MIZE A L L V A L U E S -T H E O P PO S I T I O N S S T R O N G /
SEXED BECOMI NG. A N D A S TH E L A S T BUOY Vls·A-vIS
WEAK. R I C H/POOR. U S E FU U U S E LESS. C L E A N/DI RTY.
THE ESTA B L I S H E D ORDER. IF I STRESS T H I S LAST
ETC.
POINT I T S BECAU S E T H E BECOMI NG-FE M I N I N E BODY

SHOULDN'T BE THOUGHT OF AS B E LONG I N G TO THE

CONVERSELY. O N THE L E V E L OF THE S E X E D BODY
WOM A N CATEGORY FOU N D IN THE COUPLE. THE
THE L I B I DO IS ENGAGED IN A B E C O M I NG-WOMAN.
FA M I LY. ETC. SUCH A CATEGORY. I M IGHT A DO. ONLY
MORE P R EC I S E LY. T H E BECOMI NG-WO M A N SERVES
EXISTS IN A SPECI FIC SOC I A L F I E L D THAT D E F I N E S
A S A POI N T OF R E F E R E N C E . A N D E V E N T U A LLY A S A
I T . TH E R E I S N O SUCH T H I NG A S W O M A N PER S E !
SC R E E N FOR OTH E R TYPES OF BECOMI N G (EXAM­
NO MATE R N A L P O L E , NO ETE R N A L FEMI N I N E . . . T H E
PLE: BECOM I N G-C H I LD AS IN SCH U M A N N . BECOM­
MAN/WO M A N OPPOSITION S E R V E S T O ESTA B L I S H
I NG-A N I M A L AS IN K A FKA. BECOMI NG-VEGETABLE
THE SOC I A L O R D E R BEFORE C L A S S A N D CASTE
AS I N NOVA LIS. B E C O M I N G- M I N E R A L AS IN
CONFLICTS. I N V E R S E LY . W H AT E V E R S H A TT E R S
BEC K ETT>.
NORMS, WHATEVER B R E A KS FROM TH E ESTA B­

LISHED ORDER. I S RE LATED TO HOMOSEX U A LITY O R

I T IS BECA U S E IT IS NOT TOO FAR R E MOVED FROM
A BECO M I NG-A N I M A L OR A BECO M I NG-WO M A N . ETC.
T H E B I N A R I S M OF P H A LLIC POWE R THAT BECOMI NG­
EVERY S E M I OT I Z A T I O N OF A BREAK I M PL I E S A
WOMAN CAN PLAY THIS I N TE R M E D I A RY ROLE. T H I S
SEXUALIZATION OF A B R E A K . THUS. TO MY M I ND, WE
ROLE AS M E D I ATOR V l s · A· v I S OTH ER SEXED
SHOULDN'T ASK W H I C H W R I TERS A R E HOMOSEXUAL.
B E CO M I N G S . IN ORDER TO U ND E RSTA N D T H E
BUT RAT H E R . WHAT I T I S A BOUT A G R EAT WRITER­
HOMOSE X U A L. W E TELL O U R S E LVES THAT I T I S SORT
EVEN IF H E'S, IN FACT. H ETEROSEXUA L-THAT IS
OF "LIKE A WOMA N . " AND A NUMBER OF HOMO­
HOMOS E X U A L.
S E X U A LS T H E M S E LV E S J O I N IN THIS SC A R C E LY

NOR M A LIZING GA M E. T H E PA I R F E M I N I N E/PASS I VE.

I TH I NK ITS I M PORTANT TO DESTROY NOTIONS W H I C H
M A SC U L I N E/ACT I V E T H E R E FO R E R E M A I N S A POI NT
ARE F A R T OO I N C L U S I V E . NOTI ONS LIKE WOM A N .
OF REFERENCE M A D E OB LIGATORY BY POWER IN
HOMOS E X U A L . . . T H I NGS A R E N E V E R T H A T S I M PLE.
ORDER TO PE R M IT IT TO SITUATE. LOC A L I Z E .
WHEN TH EY'RE R E D U C E D TO BLACK-WHITE. M A LE­
T E R R I TO R I A L I Z E . TO CONTROL I NT E N S I T I E S OF
FEMALE CATEGORI ES. ITS BECAUSE THERE'S AN
D E S I R E . OUTS I D E O F T H I S E XC L U S I V E BI-POLE. N O
U LT E R I O R M OT I V E . A B I N A RY- R E DUCTION 1 ST
SA LVATION: O R ELSE ITS T H E PLUNGE I N TO THE
OPERATION TO SUBJ UGATE T H E M . FOR E X A M PLE.
NON-SEN 51 C A L. RECOURSE TO T H E P R I SON.TO T H E
YOU CAN NOT QUA L I FY A LOVE U N I VOCA LLY. LOVE I N
ASYLUM. TO P S Y C H O A N A LY S I S. ETC. DEVIATION.
PROUST I S N E V E R S P EC I FI C A LLY HOMOS E X U A L. I T
DIFFERENT FOR M S OF M A RG I N A L I S M ARE THEM­
A LW A Y S HAS A S C H I Z O I D. PARANOID P A RT. A
SELVES COOED TO WORK AS S A F ET Y VALVES.
BECOMI NG-PLA NT. A BECO M I NG-WOMAN. A BECOM­
WOM E N . IN S H ORT. ARE THE ONLY A UTHORIZED
I NG-MUSIC.
TRU STEES OF A B E C O M I N G - S E X E D-BODY. A MAN

WHO DETAC H E S H I MSELF FROM THE PROM I S E D

PHALLIC PROFITS I N H E R EN T IN ALL POW E R A NOTH E R OVER-BLOWN NOTION WHOSE RAVAGES

F O R M A T I O N S U N D E R TA K E S S U C H A B E C O M I NG­ ARE INCALCULABLE IS THE ORGASM. DOM I N A N T
WOM A N A C CO R D I N G TO DIVERSE POSSI B L E SEXUAL MOTI VES REQU I R E OF T H E WOM A N A QUASI­
MODALITI ES. IT IS O N LY ON TH I S CONDITION. HYSTERI C A L I DENTI FICATION OF HER ORGAS M W ITH
MOREOVER. THAT HE W I L L BE A B L E T O BECOME THE M A N·S. AN EXPRESSION OF A SYM M ETRY, A
A N I M AL. COSMOS. LETTER. COLOR. M U S IC. SUBMISSION TO H I S P H A L L I C POWER. THE WOM A N

OWES H E R ORGA S M T O T H E M A N . I N "REFUSI NG" H I M .

HOMOSEXUA LITY. BY THE VERY N AT U R E OF T H I N GS. SHE ASSUMES THE F A U LT. SO MANY STU P I D

I S THUS I N S E P A R A B L E FROM A BECOMI NG-WOMAN­ DRA M AS ARE BASED ON THIS THEME. A N D THE

EVEN NON-OED I PAL. N O N - P E R S O N O LO G I C A L SENTENTI O U S ATTITUDE O F PSYCHOANA LYSTS AND

HOMOSEX U A LITY. THE SAM E H O L D S T R U E FOR SEXOLOGISTS ON TH I S POI N T DOESN'T REA LLY H E L P

I N F A NT I L E S E X U A L I TY . P S YC H OT I C S E X U A LITY. THI NGSI IN FACT. F R EQ U ENTLY. WOM E N WHO. FOR

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SOME REASON OR OTH ER, CA N'T HAVE R E LATIONS B E TW E E N EACH POLE IN THIS T R I A NGLE AND

WITH MALE PA RTN E R S ACHIEVE ORGA SM EASILY BY VARIOUS C H A RACTERS L I K E T H E C USTOM ER A N D

MASTURBATING OR M A K I NG LOVE TO A N OTH E R TH E POLI C E M A N . PROSTITUTES S U R ELY HAVE VERY

WOM A N , B U T THE SC A N DA L R I SKS B E I NG M U C H I N T E R ESTING T H I NGS TO TEACH US A BOUT THESE

WORSE I F EVERYTHING I S OUT I N TH E OPENI LErS Q U E STIONS, A N D , I N STEAD OF PERSECUTING THEM.

CON S I D E R A FINAL E X A M PLE, THE PROSTITUTE IT WOULD BE BEITER TO SUPPORT TH E M FINAN·

MOVEM ENT. E V E RYON E , OR J U ST ABOUT, AT F I RST C I A L LY, A S THEY DO I N RESEARCH LABORATOR I ES.

Y E L L E D, "HURRAH, PROSTITUTES ARE RIGHT TO I'M C ON V I N C E D, PERSONA LLY, THAT IN STU DYING

REVOLT. BUT WAIT, YOU SHOU LD SEPA RATE THE A L L TH I S M I C RO-POLITICS OF PROSTITUTION, ONE

GOOD FROM THE BAD. P ROSTITUTES, O.K.. BUT M IG H T S H E D SOM E N E W LIGHT ON WHOLE A R E A S OF

PI M PS, PEOPLE DON'T WANT TO H EAR ABOUT TH E M !" C O N J UGAL AND FA M I L I A L M I C RO· POLITICS-TH E

AND SO, PROSTITUTES WERE TOLD THAT THEY M O N E Y R E LATIONS BETWEEN H U S B A N D A N D WI FE,

SHOULD DEFEND TH E M S E L V E S , THAT TH E y ' R E PA R E NTS AND CHILDREN, AND U LTI M ATELY, TH E

BEING EX PLOITED. ETC. A L L THAT I S ABSURD! PSYC HOA N A LYST AND C U STO M E R . (WE SHOULD

BEFORE EXPLA I N I N G A N YTHING WHATSOEVER, ONE A LS O RECALL WHAT THE A N A R C H I STS OF THE

SHOU LD FIRST TRY TO U N D E RSTA ND WHAT GOES ON "BELLE EPOQUE" WROTE ON T H E S U B J ECT.'

BETW E E N A WHORE AND HER PIMP. TH E R E'S THE

W H O R E · P I M p· M O N EY T R I A NG L E . B U T THERE ARE FEL I X GUAITA R I

ALSO A WHOLE M I C R O · P O L I T I CS OF D E S I R E. TRANSLATED B Y RACHEL McCOMAS A N D
E XT R E M E L Y COMPLEX, WHICH IS PLAYED OUT STAMOS M ETZI DAKIS

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A N I M A L S E X
T H E W I L D C E L E BRATION

J EA N - P I E R R E BA R O U : FI RST OF A LL, BY W H AT F. R.: SOM ETI M E S . T H E R E'S A F E A R I N THE FACE O F IT.

S I NG L E T R A I T WOULD YOU DEFI N E LOVE I N I SHALL R E P EAT SOMETHING MICHEL FOUC A U LT

TH E A N I M A L WOR LD? TOL D ME O N E DAY: Irs REA LLY T H E F E E L I NG O F

A N I M A LITY, OF T H I S A N I M A LITY W H I C H D R I V E S U S

CRAZY. W H I C H M A K E S U S HA PPY. W H I C H M A K E S U S
FR E D E R I C ROSS I F : BY M A D N ESS. ONE T H I N G THAT
SAO. T H E S P I R I T OF C E L E B RATION I S SO COMPLETE.
HAS A LWAYS S E E M E D A M AZING TO M E I S THAT W H E N
YOU RUN A FT E R O N E A NOTH E R. YOU FALL, YOU
THEY'RE IN H E AT, A N I M A LS LOS E ALL THEIR

I N H I BITIONS: FOR SOM E O F TH E M , YOU CAN'T E V E N FALL AGAIN. W I LD GOATS COM I NG DOWN FROM

MOUNTA I N TOPS BY T H E H U N DR E DS, JUMP, TURN

G E T C L O S E E N O U G H T O FI LM EXCEPT AT THAT TI M E,
AND FIGHT. THEY HAVE BECOME SO C RAZY. SO
BECA U S E THAT'S W H E N TH E Y ' R E R E A LL Y OUT O F
MAGICA L. THAT T H E Y LEAP 20 O R 30 M ETERS. SOM E
TH E I R S E N SES. THEY'RE HOPELESSLY D I STRACTE D.
DIE IN THE FALL. THE FLOCK DOESN'T STOP: IT
YOU CAN EVEN KILL TH E M . YOU R E A L LY HAVE TO
K E E PS GOI NG. DRAGGED A LONG BY A STRONG W I N O
HAVE S E E N A N I MA LS S U P R E M E LY "IN LOV E": T H E Y

DON'T MOVE ANYMORE.

J.-P. B.: DO E S A B SOLUTE LOV E E X I ST?

J.-P. B . : T H E MOTION L ESS O F M A D N E S S , , ,

F. R.: C E RTA I N LY. T A K E FOR I N STANCE ANTIGO N A L

F. R . : TO THE EXTENT THAT S E V E R A L S M A L L T R I B E S CRANES. A N T I GO N A L CRANES WHOSE LOV E

I N A NTIQU ITY. A N D STI LL TODAY. PRO H I B I T H U NTING DANCES LAST FOR H O U RS. THEY TALK TO O N E

D U R I N G THIS PE RIOD. IN T H E COU R S E OF SPRING A NOTH E R : SPREAD THEIR WI NGS. AND WALK

AND A UT U M N . AROU N D E A C H OTH E R . THEY J U M P U P WITH TH E I R

FE ET. L I K E W I L D D A N C E R S . A N D T H E N , W H E N O N E

D I E S -T H E I N D I A N S SAY-THE OTH E R LETS H I M S E L F

J.-P. B.: YOU HAVE FILMED MANY LOV E D I E . TOO. Irs A D I SCONTI N U ITY O F L I F E . M A Y B E D U E

SC E N E S BETW E E N A N I M A LS. THAT M U ST B E TO A K I N D OF S Y M B IOTIC R E LATION S H I P BETW E E N

M U C H M O R E T H A N J U ST A SPECTAC LE. TWO B E I NGS W H O H E L P ONE A NOTH E R.

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J.-P. B . : TH E LION, TOO, IS FAITH F U L . . • I N THOSE TERMS, L.ET'S J U ST SAY THAT C A RESSES

BETWEEN F E M A L.E S EXIST A S WEL.L. A S DO THOSE

BETWE E N M A L E S AND BETWEEN C H I LD R E N A N D

F. R : T H E L.ION I S FAITH F U L B E C A U S E T H E L.IONESS
PARE NTS, T H E YOU N G LION, FROM H I S F I RST A N D A
BEATS HIM: HE R E C E I V E S T E R R I B L. E BEATI NGS.
H A LF Y E A R UP, BEGINS TO DESI R E H I S MOTH ER:
THAT'S COM PL.ETEL.Y D I F F E R E N T.
SOMET I M ES , HIS FATH E R K I L. L. S HIM. AND THE

MOTH E R D E F E N DS H E R SON, WHO I S H E R L.OVER.

J.-P. B.: ITS T H E LAW OF T H E J U NGLE.
YOU K NOW, THE L.OVE C E L E B R A T I O N IS OFTEN

P R EC E D E D B Y FATAL B A TTLES, A N I M A LS FIGHT

F. R: I N A WAY. TA K E T H E CASE O F P R A I R I E DOGS I N
E A C H OTH E R T O T H E DEATH. M A L. E S F I G H T TO G ET
A F R I C A , L.ICAONS. Y O U KNOW, T H E Y ' R E T E R R I FY I NG
TH E FEMA LE. DEATH PRECEDES TH I S GREAT LOVE
A N I M A L.S THAT K I L.L E V E RYTH I N G IN TH E I R PATH .
M A D N E SS, THAT GREAT LEAP W H E R E EVERYTHING
NOTH I N G CAN STOP T H E M . T H E Y ATTACK COL.L.EC­
CHANGES, A FT E R W A R D S, THEY B EC O M E VERY
TIVEL.Y, BE IT A H Y E N A , B U F F A L.O, G I RAFFE OR A
MOU R N F U L. THEY M A K E TH EMSELVES U P, DECORAT­
L. I O N . Y ET, ONE OF THE G REATEST A N I M A L.
ING AND PAI NTING THEMSEL.VES.
S P E C I A L.ISTS, I F NOT TH E B E ST. I N M Y EYES, M I SS

J A N E GooDA L.L., FOL.L.OWED FOR A Y E A R A B A N D OF

J.-P. B.: D ECORATE TH EMSELV E S ?
L. I C A O N S W H O S E L. E A D E R WAS A F E M AL.E. T H I S

FEMALE HAD THREE O R FOU R M A L.ES D I R ECTL.Y

F. R.: IN A U S T R A L. I A . IN NEW G U I N EA. BI RDS
DEPENDING ON H E R S E X U A L.LY. ONE DAY, ONE OF
DECORATE T H E I R N EST I N R E D, B L. U E A N D G R E EN.
THE M A L.ES C O H A B I TA T E D W I T H A N OTH E R FEMAL.E

WHO BECAME P R E G N A N T. T H E LICAON, T H E H E A D OF

THE B A N D, F I R ST R EL.EGATED H E R R I V A L. TO THE J.-P. B.: YES, B UT, PA I N T T H E M S ELVES?

VERY END OF THE G R O U P: T H E N , W H E N THE L.ATTER

GAVE B I RTH, SHE TOOK H E R B A B I E S AND K I L.L.ED F. R: T H A T TOOl SOME EVEN CHANGE C O L O R A N D
THEM A L.I.., EXCEPT FOR ON E , THE P U N I EST, WHICH A PPEA R A NC E .
S H E GAVE A S S H E WO U L. D A TOY. O R A SL.AVE TO

H E R OWN C H I L. D R E N . ONL.Y A FT E R THAT D I D S H E

J.-P. B , : I N O R D E R TO SEDUCE?
D E F I N I TI V E L. Y E XC L. U D E HER R I V A L. FROM THE

GROUP. Y O U S E E , O N E C A N AL.SO F I N D A BSOL.UTEL.Y

FEROCIOUS J E A LOUSY. F. R: OF COURSEI YOU A L.SO HAVE LOV E SONGS AND

CRI ES. IT'S A CHA RACTER I STIC OF THAT P E R IOD.

THE WOL.F M A K E S L.OVE C R I ES FOR HOURS. THE

J.-P. B.: AT THE SAME TI M E, IT'S A V E RY SOU N D, THE SONOROUS W E L.COME, T H E SONO ROUS
O R D E R E D WORLD. R ELATIONSH I P ARE VERY I M PORTANT. SOM E T H I N G

REA L.LY A M AZING: G I RAFFES A R E D E A F A N I M A L.S

F. R: I T DEPENDS ON T H E SPECI ES, T H E GROUPS. WHO, I N THAT SITUATION, START WHAT O N E M I G H T

ONE OF THE MOST B E A U T I F U L. L.OVE STO R I E S I KNOW CAL.L L O N G MIME ROUTI N ES: EACH WRAPS AND

I S ABOUT T H E O RC H I D AND THE BEE, THE HUGE R U BS H I S N E C K A ROUND THE OTH E R ON E'S, A N D­

WASP OF NEW G U I N E A . THE O R C H I D S M E L.L.S L I K E WHO K N OW S ? - T H U S , COM P E N S A T I N G FOR AN

F E M A L. E G E N I T A L. I A (OF THE W A S P) , SO THE M A L. E ABSENCE O F SOUND.

G O E S STRA IGHT AT I T A N D M A K E S L. O V E T O THE

P L. A N T . HE R U BS HIS STI N G E R AGAI NST IT. J.-P. B.: FOR YOU, THIS A N I M A L WORLD, W H E N
A FTERWA RDS, T H E F E M A L. E S M E L.L.S H I S ODOR A N D YOU LOOK AT IT, DOES IT COR R E S PO N D T O A
C O M E S A N D R U BS H ER S E L F I N I T , I N H E R TURN. SA LVATION?
THAT'S HOW SHE I S I M P R EG N AT E D, T H ROUGH THE

PL.ANT. STR A N G E . . . W H Y DOESN'T THIS COUPL.E

F. R: I T I S TO L I V E I N S A L.VATION, IT'S E S P EC I A L.L Y TO
EVER M EET, E X C E PT THROUGH T H E PLANT? WHAT
L.IVE I N SOMETHI NG U N L.EARNED. FOR M E, A N I M AL.S,
PHYSI OL.OGI C A L., BIOL.OG I C A L. L.AWS OF T H E WO RL.D
AS BAC H E L. A R D SA I D SO WE LL., ARE O U R OLDEST
OF S M E L.L.S AND FEEL.I NGS GIVE RISE TO THIS TRIO?
COM PANIONS IN D R EA M I NG. WHIL.E FI L M I NG T H E M , I ' M

FILM I NG A LOST DREAM, A DREAM WHICH GOES

J.-P. B.: AND, HOW A BOUT POSS I B LE HOMO­ BACK THOUSANDS OF YEARS, W E L L I N TO PRE­
S E X U A L OR I NCEST U A L R E LATIONS? H I STORIC T I M ES. I ' M A BLE T O H E A R LOVE, T H E D E E P

C R Y , DEATH, T H E FOREST, WATER A N D R H YTH MS,

F. R: T H E R E' S L. O T S O F H O M O S EX U A L I TY, E V E N A N D A L L B E C A U S E TH E R E WAS A M A S K , M A SKS,

THOUGH I T R E A L.L.Y DO E SN'T M A K E S E N S E T O P UT I T WALLS SET U P , H I STO RICAL C I RC U M STANCES, ALL

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OF W H I C H WERE A CONTI N U A L T U R N I NG-AWAY- FROM J.-P. S.: YOU HA V E R E P EATEDLY R E M I N D E D U S
OUR A N I M A LITY. THAT A N I M A LS. B E FOR E D Y I N G . F I G H T O N C E
AGA I N .

J .- P. S.: ARE YOU R ECOM M E N D I N G TH I S

A N I M ALITY? F. R.: A WO U N D E D ANIMAL IS DA NGEROUS. A

WOU N D E D MAN IS WOU N DED: H E'S GOOD FOR A

F. R.' WHAT I MEAN IS THAT THERE ARE LOST STRETC H E R . A WOU N D E D LION ATTA C K S WITH A L L

C E LEBRATIONS DEEP IN OUR M EMORY. WE M U ST H I S M I GHT. S A M E W I T H A N ELEPHA NT. M A N TH I N K S

E N D EAVOR TO R E M E M B E R T H E M . IF WE SUCCEED. OF GOO. A N I M A LS DONT H A V E GODS. T H E Y H A V E

WE'LL BE LIKE T H E POETS AND PROPHETS. IF WE O N L Y T H E P R E S ENT. A N A N I M A L DOESN'T BARGA I N

R E D I SCOV E R THE POETRY O F O U R CRADLE. WE'LL WITH H I S DEATH. W E DO l THAT I N DICATES A LACK O F

HAVE THE M E MORY OF THE FUTURE. BECAUSE. A N I M A LITY.

E I T H E R WE DISAPPEAR. OR. A S S U M I NG THERE I S A

F U T U R E FOR M A N . I T W I L L O N C E AGA I N BE POETIC. TRANSLATED BY STA MOS M ETZI DA K I S

1 4. THE COR P U L E N T M A N S I TS DOWN OPPOSITE R.

1 !5. THE EYES OF THE CORPU LENT M A N .

1 6. G R A D U A L F A D E IN O N : T H E I NTERIOR OF A DESERTED G Y M N AS I U M . P A R A L L E L BARS EQU I PP E D WITH

LEATH E R STRA PS.

1 7. IN THE BUS: R:S LEGS SET A P A RT. H A N DS LYING E A C H S I D E OF H E R ON SEAT.

l B. EYES OF CORPULENT M A N .

1 9. R. CROSSES H E R LEGS.

20. R:S BUST. THEN HER F A C E IN PROFI LE. TURNED TOW A R D THE W I N DOW.

2 1 . PLATFORM OF T H E BUS AT THE B U S STOP: R . JUMPS DOWN. SQU A R E OF THE THEATRE FRANC A I S.

22. THE CLOCK. SQU A R E O F THE THEATRE FRANCAIS. M A R K S 4 P . M .

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SHOT LATE R W H E N T H E Y C A M E ROU N D T H E F A R M S

STEALING C H I C K E N S, B U T TH E R E WAS ONE OLD

IT M U ST HAVE B E E N TOWA R D 1 9 30 THAT THE ROAD F E L LOW M U ST HAVE B E E N A LON ER, H E STA Y E D I N

WENT THROUGH TO Q U E E N STOWN ON T H E W I LD WEST TH E BUSH, A N D I F YOU CAN B E L I E V E WHAT T H E Y

COAST OF TAS M A N I A . IN RETROSPECT. MY A M BITION S A Y D O W N TH E R E, M ATED WITH A TA S M A N I A N TIGER.

TO BE ONE OF THE FI RST TO M A K E THE JOU R N E Y I DON'T BELIEVE I T MYSELF, THE TIGER B E I NG ABOUT

S E E M S P U E R I L E . BUT I W A S O N L Y S I X T E E N AT THE AS EXTI NCT A S THE ABO T H E S E DAYS, AND A N YWAY,

T I M E. A V I D TO E X P LO R E T H E WORLD AND OPEN U P THOSE C H A PS ON THE WEST COAST . . ." HE

TH E CONTI N E N T OF M Y S E N S E S . STOPPED, A N D AFTER LOOKING S I DEWAYS AT M E ,

ADDED A B R U PTLY: "YOU SHOU LDN'T D O T H I S T R I P

ALONE."
TH E LITTLE I N FORM ATION I POSS E S S E D A BOUT T H E

W EST COAST H A D B E E N S U P P L I E D BY A H UNTER

"BECA U S E OF THE MEN? I CAN LOOK A FT E R
WHO MADE OCC A S I O N A L EX PEDITIONS THERE IN
MYSELF."
S E A R C H OF K A NGA ROO AND W A L LA BY. SOMETI M E S

HE SPENT A NIGHT BOOZ I N G WITH THE M I N ERS

A MONG T H E D E SOLATE SLAG-H E A P S OF QUE ENS­ "OH. I DON'T TH I N K TH EY'D TOUCH A WOM A N , " T H E
TOWN, BUT H E P R E F E R R E D C A M P I NG A LO N E I N THE H U NTER S A I D S LOWLY. "NOT ON T H E FARMS-B E E N
B U S H . I WAS ON O N E OF THOSE N IGHTS, HE TOLD ME, T DO LONG WITHOUT · E M . "
THAT H E HEARD THE HOWL OF T H E W I LD DOG. I

EXPRESSED S U R P R I SE . NOT K NOWI N G O F D I NGOS I N

"YOU M E A N THEY P R E F E R T H E I R O W N K I NDT'
TA S M A N I A .

H E SHOOK H I S H EA D, S U D D E N LY F I N D I NG H I S P I PE

' T M NOT S U R E I T WAS A D I NGO:' H E S A I D . "WH E N THE NEEDED ATT E N TION. "NOT EVEN TH AT. A N I M A LS .

LAST OF THE A B OR I G I N E S WERE ROU N D E D U P AND AND NOT E V E N W I TH T H E M T H E W A Y YOU'D T H I N K . I

KI LLED, THEI R DOGS WERE L E FT TO FEND FOR ONCE CA M E O N A C H A P A L L A LO N E I N A PAD DOC K

T H E M S E LVES IN TH E B U S H . MOST O F T H E M W E R E AT SUNSET. S U C K I N G A C A L F'S EA R:'

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KNOWING B U S H M E N A N D T H E I R LOVE OF YARNS. I WOR D S. A L MOST WITHOUT OPEN I N G H I S MOUTH. THE

R E M A I N E D SC E PTI C A L OF T H E H U NTE R'S TALES. I F SOU N O S SO F L U I D AND U N FO R M E D THEY S E E M E D

A N YT H I N G THEY MADE ME M O R E DETE R M I N E D TO HA RDLY D I STI N G U I S H A B L E FROM THE STRING OF

VISIT A REGION WHERE NO WOMAN COULD BE S A L I V A D R I P P I N G F R O M T H E DOG'S JAWS. PANTING

PERSUADED TO SHARE THE LIFE OF R E M OT E O N T H E END O F ITS C H A I N.

HOM EST E A DS.

I H A D N O I NTENTION OF S P E N D I N G AN H O U R IN THE

THE NEW ROAD HAD BEEN HACKED L I T E R A LLY V I C I N ITY O F THE H O U S E . N O R OF R ET U R N I N G TO THE

THROUGH V I R G I N B U S H . AND I M ET NO OTH E R CARS CAR W H I L E T H E MAN WOR K E D . TH E BEST A LTERNA­

A LONG THE WAY. SO THAT WHEN. STI LL TWENTY TIVE S E E M E D TO B E A WALK IN THE BUSH. W H I C H

M I LE S F ROM Q U E E N STOWN. MY ENG I N E STARTED COULD BE R E AC H E D BY C ROSSI NG ONE OF T H E

G I V I NG TROU B L E IT LOO K E D A S THOUGH I WOU LD BE P A D DOCKS. AS I R E P LA C E D T H E S L I P-RA I LS T H E

S P E N D I NG T H E N IGHT U N D E R THOSE C H I LLY G U M S CATTLE STOPP E D GRA�NG AND EVERY HEAD

UNTIL THE MAIL CAR CAME T H RO U G H N E XT TURNED IN MY D I R ECTI O N . T E L L I N G M Y S E L F THAT

MOR N I NG. FORTU N A T E LY. A L I TTLE F U RTH E R O N . A TH E C U R I O SITY O F CATTLE WAS L ESS I NTI M I DATING

D I R T TRACK W I T H RUTS M A D E B Y A DRAY PROM I S E D TH A N TH E MEN WHO IGNORED ME. I SET OFF.

A F A R M A T T H E E N D OF I T .

W I THOUT HASTE. THE C A TTLE A LSO STA RTED TO

TH E H O M ESTE A D W A S A TYPI C A L WOODEN STRUC­
MOVE. A N D H A L F-WAY A C ROSS THAT STRETCH O F
TU R E WITH VERANDAH A N D CORRUGATED I RO N
O P E N L A N D I BECA M E A W A R E THEY W E R E FOLLOW­
ROOF SET I N T H E M I DD L E O F PADDOC KS W H E R E A
ING ME. NOT O N LY FOLLOWI NG. BUT CLOS I N G IN
FEW C A TTLE G R A Z E D . A DOG TIED UP IN THE Y A R D
FROM A L L S I D E S . R A I S I N G A GROU N D - M I ST O F DUST
B E G A N TO B A R K . B U T I R E A C H E D THE BACK DOOR
FROM WHICH E M E R G E D THE BUTTRESS OF TH E I R
BEFORE A MAN A P P E A R E D. I TOLD HIM THE
C H ESTS A N D HORNS. M Y S I LHOU ETTE R E FLECTED I N
TROUBLE A N D WITHOUT A WORD H E WENT BACK I N TO
THE GLOBE OF TH E I R E YES. I COU L D HAVE NO
TH E HOUSE L E A V I N G M E . I S U PPOS ED. TO FOLLOW.
DOUBT OF TH E I R OBJECTIVE. THAT H U M A N I M A G E

P R I NTED I N S I D E T H E I R S K U LLS. A S T H E P R E S E N C E
I N S I D E. THE H O U S E WAS S U R P R I S I NGLY U N L I K E ITS OF WATER MIGHT BE D ETECTED BY A DROUGHT­
COU NTERPA RTS. I N STEA D O F B E I NG D I V I D E D BY A STR I C K E N H E RD. B U T T H E R E WAS N O P A N I C : TH E Y
C ENTRAL PASSAGE. IT R E SE M BLED A RABBIT C A M E TOW A R D M E . DRAWN. I WOU L D H A V E SA I D I F
WA R R E N . WITH ROO M S G R O U P E D HAPHAZAR DLY ON THE I DEA HAD N OT BEEN SO ABSURD. BY A
DI F F E R E N T L E V E LS. A LONG B R I E F PASSAGEWAYS. COVETOUS E X PECTATIO N . I D I DN'T K NOW W H ET H E R
ALL OF THEM COM M U N I C A T I N G WITH THE K I TC H E N . T O R U N OR TO S T A Y . TO B E A F R A I D OR EXCITED. THE
T H R O U G H O N E OF T H E H A L F-OPEN DOORS I COULD H E A DS. A S TH E Y A DVA NCED. LOOKED C U R IOUSLY
SEE S E V E RA L MEN ON A I RO N B E DSTEAD. T H E I R HUMAN. A ST E E R WITH A ST R I N G OF SLAVER
BACKS A GA I NST T H E W A L L. IN A SECON D ROOM P E N D A N T FROM I T S J A W R E M I N D I NG M E A G A I N O F
A N OTH E R GROUP MIGHT HAVE BEEN PLAYING T H E M A N'S S P E E C H . H I S I N A RTIC U LATE ATTE M PT A T
CA RDS OR D R I N K I N G. A L I.. THE ROO M S WERE C OM M U N ICATION. I H A D A S U D D E N V I S I O N O F T H E
OCC U P I ED. B U T T H E H O U S E W A S S O S I LENT THE T W O TOGETH E R . T H E M A N A N D T H E S T E E R . R E LATED
F I G U R E S ON THE BED M I G H T H AVE B E E N E F F I G I E S BY A K I N D OF M UT U A L Y E A R N I NG. EACH O F THEM
OR STRAW MEN. I S A W NO T R A C E OF A WOMAN'S WOU L D K NOW WHAT W A S E X PECTED OF THE OTH E R .
PRESENCE ANYWHERE. WHEREAS I STOOD O U TS I D E THE C O M P L I C I TY .

I G N O R I N G W H A T GESTURES OF TEN DE R N ESS OR

E V E N T U A LLY THE F I RST MAN RETU R N E D W I T H A L U ST THESE B E ASTS A TTE N D E D. T H E H U N T E R ' S

H A N D F U L O F TOOLS. I N D ICATING HE WOULD LOOK TALES CAME BACK TO ME. AND IF NOW I WERE

AT THE CAR. A N D ONCE AGA I N I FOU N D M YSELF READY TO BELIEVE THEM. THEY E X PO S E D TOO

A LO N E IN THE K I TC H E N . EVEN MORE A LO N E LITTLE OF THE MYSTERY I S U S P E CT E D : THE

B E C A U S E O F THOSE H A LF-O P E N DOORS A N D T H E BACCH A N A L I N P R E PA R ATION BETW E E N THOSE M E N

MEN FOR WHOM I MIGHT NOT HAVE E X I STED. IT I N T H E H O U S E W A I T I N G F O R DA R K N E SS. A N D T H E S E

S E E M E D P R E F E R A B L E TO W A I T OUTS I D E W I T H T H E B E A STS THE I R PARTNERS. I N W H I C H THE M E MORY

DOG. A N D I R E A C H E D TH E Y A R D AS THE M EC H A N I C OF FOR M E R RITUALS HAD BEEN BURNT LIKE A

RETU R N E D T O T E L L M E H E COULD M A K E T E M POR­ BRAND. MY A RRIVAL B E FO R E TH E HOUR HAD

ARY R E PA I R S THAT S H O U L D G ET ME TO Q U E ENS­ RELEASED A FOR M I D A B L E R E FL E X . S E TT I N G IN

TOWN. BUT I T MIGHT TAKE A N HOUR. H E G A V E M E MOTIO N R I T E S THAT B E LO NG E D TO T H E S E C R E C Y OF

THIS I N FO R M A T I O N IN THE FEWEST PO S S I B L E MOO N L E S S PA DDOC K S . TO A S A B BATH OF N A K E D

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M E N A N D BEASTS STU M B L I N G TO TH E I R K N E ES. OF CR UELTY. I F I C R I E D O U T M Y VOI C E WOU LD S K I M

CRIES THAT RESEMBLED AN I N H U MA N AND ACROSS TH E S I L E N C E OF THE B U S H A N D S I N K LIKE

PLA I NTIVE LOWI NG . A PEBBLE. I THOUGHT OF T A K I N G R E F UGE I N A TREE.

AND SAW IN MY M I N D' S EYE TH E I R A RC H A I C

I F THE SHOT H A D B E E N F I R E D AT M E I W O U L D H A VE B R EADTH AND H E I GHT. NO DEFENCE E X I STED I N

ACCE PTED THE J U STICE OF ITS P U N I S H M E N T FOR THAT P R I M A L SOLITU DE W H E R E T H E ABO R I G I N ES

H A D WA NDERED AT A T I M E W H E N M A N D R E A M E D
M Y I NTRUSION . A N ECESSARY ACT S I N C E N O WOMAN

SHOULD H A V E BEEN W I T N E S S TO THAT CONCEALED H I MSELF AS OTH E R THAN A N I M A LI TY. N O W TH E Y

AND POI G N A N T I NT I M ACY. BUT I T C RACKED OV E R WERE A LL DEAD. A N D O N L Y T H I S W I LD DOG A N D I

THE BACKS OF THE HERD LIKE A STOCK WHIP. R E M A I N E D I N TH E I R H U NTING GRO U N DS. W H E R E I

FOLLOW E D BY A SECON D S HOT. THE LEADING H A D BECOME TH E PREY.

CATTLE STO P P E D. M Y I M AG E DROWN I NG I N TH E I R

EYES IN POO L S OF ANGUISH. AND S U D D E N LY I STOOD UP. A N D AT ONCE THE DOG S HOWED ITSELF

VEER ED. TA K I N G THE HERD W ITH THEM IN A A L E RT. I B E G A N TO W A L K TOWA R D IT. SLOWLY.

STA M PEDE TO THE F A R COR N E R OF T H E PADDOCK. PUTTING O N E FOOT I N FRONT OF T H E OTH ER. M Y

SOMEHOW I M A N AGED TO REACH THE FENCE R E G A R D N E V E R QU I TTING T H O S E Y E L LOW EYES. THE

WITHOUT R U N N I NG. N O R D I D I LOOK BACK T O SEE CR EATU R E SEEMED UNCERTA I N OF M Y I NTENTIONS.

WHO HAD FIRED THE S HOTS. BUT ONCE UNDER A N D I H A L F-EX PECTED I T TO TU R N TA I L A N D SLOPE

COV E R OF THE T R E E S M Y K N E E S BUCKLED U N D E R OFF INTO THE BUSH ES, WHICH I C O U NTED O N BY

M E A N D I SA N K O N A F A L L E N LOG. BRAVING IT AS MY ONLY CHANCE OF ESCAPE.

I N STEAD. THE DOG C H A N G E D ITS S TA NCE. E V E R Y

M U SCLE TAUT. A N D I S A W . E XTE N D I N G U N D E R T H E

B E LLY, T H E LONG. R I S I N G R O D OF ITS SEX.

II
I MUST HAVE STOPPED. AND AT THAT I N STA N T THE

DOG SPRANG. KNOC K I N G M E TO TH E GROU N D WITH

WAS IT A DOG? C E R TA I N LY A BREED I D I D NOT
THE WEIGHT OF ITS BODY. I N THE BLI N D N ESS OF OU R
RECOG N IZE. A LMOST TOO BIG FOR A DOG. SET HIGH
BATTLE. STIFLED BY THE R A N K STENCH OF FUR,
ON T H I N . S I N E W Y LEGS. ITS FLANKS M A R K E D BY
FEELING THE DOG ' S TEETH AS IT RI PPED MY
STRI PES OF A D A R K E R G R E Y. A PA R I A H TO J U DGE
CLOTHES. ROLLING AND STRUGGLI N G AGA I NST THE
BY ITS WA R I N ESS. T H E COC K OF ITS EARS IN THE
CON TACT OF SEX A G A I N ST MY M O UTH. I STILL
D I R ECTION OF T H E FARM. I T H A D HEARD THE SHOTS
EXPERIENCED THE S A M E F U RIOUS JOY AS W H E N I
NO DOUBT. A N D K N E W WHAT THAT M E A NT. A LWAYS
HAD WRESTLED WITH BOYS A N D P I N N E D THEM DOWN
O N T H E A LERT AGA I N ST A R M E D AND HOSTILE M E N .
BY MY FORCE. BUT MY STRE NGTH W A S NOT EQUAL
BUT I T W A S NOT A F R A I D OF M E . A V U L N E R A B L E
TO THE DOG·S. IT WORKED WITH THE F R E NZY OF THE
THING S LO U C H E D ON THE LOG. A FEMALE
KI LL. I WAS COV E R E D IN SLOB B E R , AND BLOOD
REDOLENT O F SOME OBSC U R E M E MORY. I T TOOK A
TRIC KLED W H E R E TEETH TO R E THROUGH THE LAST
STEP I N TO THE C LE A R I N G A N D I COULD ALMOST
RAGS O F CLOTH I N G . EVEN THE W I L L TO R E S I ST
HAVE A DM I R E D ITS A R ROGA NCE H A D I NOT F E LT
S E E PED OUT OF ME AT LA ST. AS MY BODY
THOSE YELLOW E Y E S O N M E . B U R N I N G WITH THE
CAPITULATED. I SEIZED TH E BLACK S E X . D I R ECTI NG
H U NG E R OF HOW MANY CAMP FIRES WATC H E D FROM
IT AGAINST M YSELF IN THE ONLY G ESTURE THAT
TH E RIM OF D A R K N ESS. NOSTRILS TWITCHI N G TO
COULD SAVE M E . AND IN THAT SAVAGE COU PLING
TH E ODOR OF COOK I NG M EAT. A N D THAT DISTA N T
WE A R RIVED. PERHA PS. AT A RECO N C I LIATI O N .
W A R M T H OF H U M A N B O D I E S . OF VOICES. THAT S E N T

A S H U DD E R A LO N G ITS R I BS LIKE WINO OVER

WHEAT. T H E C R E A T U R E'S SOLITUDE A S S A I LE D M E .

A N D I N VOLUNTA R I LY I STRETC H E D OUT A H A N D A N D

S A I D : "HERE -CO M E H E RE." III

M Y OVERTU R E S W E R E G R EETED BY A LOW SNA RL. I N T H E OLD TOWN O F PRAG U E W H E R E A RC H I M BOLDO

THE POINTED M UZZLE L I FTED AND I SAW TH E TEETH. ONCE VISITED THE A LCH E M I STS A N D COLLECTED

THEN I WAS A F R A I D . A T E R ROR THAT STA RTED FROM OBJECTS FOR THE E M P E RO R R U DOLP H'S CABI N ET

MY A R M-PITS A N D STA N K THE C L E A R I NG. I K N EW IF OF CURIOSITI ES. TH E R E STI LL L I V E D AFTER THE

I TR I E D TO ESCAPE THE DOG WOULD HUNT ME WA R THE LAST S U R V I V I NG M E M B E R O F THE K I SCH

DOWN AS P I T I L E S S L Y A S TH E A BO R I G I N E S H A D FA M I LY. EGON . TH E I N V E N TOR O F " R E PORTAGE"

B E E N H UNTED. A N D DES PATC H E D W I T H THE S A M E H A V I NG D I E D A WEEK BEFORE M Y A R R I VAL. KASPAR.

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"TH E CLOWN." WAS THE YOUNGEST OF THE K I SCH ABLE. P E R H A PS FOR THE SAME REASON. HE CHOSE
BROTH ERS AND HAD ESCA PED TH E DESTI NY OF THAT CH RISTMAS EVE TO TELL M E THE STORY OF
E U ROPEA N JEWS BY SERVING AS A S U RGEON WITH THE C H I N ESE P ROSTITUTE,
THE 8TH ROUTE ARMY I N C H I N A . THE R EST OF THE
FA M I LY P E R I S H E D. AND NOW KASPAR LIVED ALONE D U R I N G THE E A R LY PERIOD OF THE WAR IN C H I NA
I N THE ECHOING APA RTM E NT. WITH A HOUSEKEEPER W H E N C H A N G K A I S H E K STI LL. PROF E S S E D H I S
TO LOOK AFTER HIM. SHE WAS A TACITURN WOMAN A L L I A NC E WITH T H E 8TH ROUTE A R M Y I N FIGHTING
WHO K E PT A GOOSE ON T H E LAN DING. FATTEN I NG I T THE JAPANESE. KASPAR FOU N D H I MSELF ON ONE
FOR C H R I STMAS. T H E GOOSE B E I NG A R A R E B I R D I N OCCASION I N A TOWN HELD BY THE G E N E R A L'S
POST·W A R P R A G U E . I W I L L I NG L Y ACC E PT E D TROOPS. THE SOLD I E R S B I VOUAC K E D ON THE EDGE
K A S PA R'S I N V I TATION TO SHARE I T WITH H I M ON OF T H E BOMB E D C I TY. WHERE THE QUA RTER OF A
C H R I STMAS EVE. THOUSA N D FLOW E R S H A D BEEN DECLARED OUT OF
BOU NDS, AS A PALLIATIVE TO T H I S PRI VATION ONE
OF THE MORE ENTE R P R I S I NG PROSTITUTES H A D SET
W E SAT OPPOSITE AT THE LONG TA BLE. I THE ONLY
U P A LITTLE TENT NOT FAR FROM T H E CAMP, IN
GUEST TO OCC Upy ONE OF THOSE E M PTY CHAIRS.
FRONT OF W H I C H A LONG L I N E O F S O L D I E R S
AND IT HARDLY LIGHTE N E D T H E GHOSTLY ATMOS­
AWAITED T H E I R TURN.
P H E R E WHEN THE HOU S E K E E P E R S E R V E D TH E
GOOSE IN A FLOOD OF TEARS. STANDING B E H I N D MY
C H A I R W H I L E WE ATE. SOBBI N G A U D I BLY AT EACH KASPA R'S S A R DO N I C DESC R I PTION OF THE SCENE,

MOUTHFUL OF HER DEAR D E PARTED. NOT A LTO­ OF ITS FLIMSY TENT J U ST LA RGE ENOUGH FOR TWO

G E TH E R A FESTIVE OCCASION. BUT WITH KASPAR I R EC U MBENT BODI E S O N E ON TOP OF THE OTH E R. OF

H A D BEC O M E H A B I T U A T E D TO M A C A B R E CON­ THE Q U E U E OF SOL D I E R S ABSORBED BY TH E I R OWN

TRASTS. I F. D U R I NG OUR WALKS THROUGH PRAGUE. N E ED. ADDED TO ITS D ESOLATION. FOR HOURS THE

WE VISITED TH E OLD JEWISH CEMETERY WHERE Q U E U E K E PT M O V I N G . A N D D A R K N E S S C A M E

S PACE IS SO L I M I T E D THE DEAD ARE B U R I E D ONE BEFORE THE LAST M A N E M E RGED. RE-ADJUSTING

ON TOP OF ANOTH ER. JOSTLING CENTU R I E S OF HIS U N I FO R M . WHEN EVER YON E H A D GONE, KASPAR

TOM B-STON ES. HE FOLLOWED THIS BY SHOWING ME. TOOK H I S DOCTOR'S BAG A N D A PPROAC H E D THE

AND D E SC R I B I NG WITH BAWDY B R U TA L I TY, TH E TENT, NOW A VAGUE H U M MOCK ON THE GROU N D .

CA RVING OF A N U N ON THE CHARLES BRI DGE, A A N D T OO S M A L L F O R KASPAR'S BULK T O PENE­

P E A S A N T STIC K I NG H I S H A N D UP H E R H A BIT. I TRATE EVEN ON H A N DS AND K N E E S. VIOLENTLY. HE

SOM ETI M ES S U S P ECTED T H A T KASPAR'S BLACK TOR E UPON THE WRETC H E D SCR EEN AND ON ALL

H U MOUR SU BSTITUTED FOR H I S CHI LDHOOD ROLE THAT EN DLESS PLAIN THERE WAS NOTH ING BUT A

OF "HE WHO GETS S LA P P E D." WHEN THE E LDER WOM A N LYING S P R E A D·EAGLED ON A MAT. S H E HAD,

BROTH ERS DONGED H I M ON THE H E A D TILL H E WAS KASPAR S A I D. BEEN D E A D FOR A LONG TIME.

D IZZY. A TEST OF HOW M UC H HE COULD ENDURE, A

FORM OF PHYSICAL PA I N TO MASK THE I N TOLER· CATH E R I N E DUNCAN

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A B LOATED O E D I P U S

TWO YEARS AFTER T H E L E TT E R T O H I S FATH ER. FOR TH E E F F E CT OF COMIC DISTE N S I ON I S DOUBLE.

KAFKA A D M I TS T H A T HE "TH R E W H I M S E L F I NTO ON ONE H A N D. BEHIND THE F A M I LY TRIANGLE

DI SSATIS FACTION." A N D THAT HE D I D SO "WITH ALL (FATHE R - M OTH E R-CHI LD) A R E DISCO V E R E D OTH E R .

TH E M EA N S M A D E ACCESS I B L E TO ( H I M ) BY (HIS) I N F I N ITELY M O R E ACTIVE T R I A NGLES. F R O M W H I C H

ERA AND TRADITION." I T T U R N S OUT THAT OEDIPUS T H E FA M I LY BORROWS I T S O W N POW E R . I T S M I SSION

I S O N E O F T H E S E M EA NS. W H I C H . QUITE MODERN. TO PROPOGATE S U B M I SSION. TO BOW A N D TO M A K E

BECA M E COMMON IN F R U E D'S TIME. P E R M ITTING OTH ERS B O W TH E I R H E A DS. BECA U S E THAT I S WHAT

MANY COMIC E F F ECTS. I T S U F F I C E S TO ENLARGE TH E INFANTILE L I B I DO I NVESTS FROM THE

U PO N IT: "IT IS STRA NGE T H A T. P R ACTI CING B E G I N N I N G : THROUGH THE F A M I LY P HOTO. A M A P O F

DI SSATISFACTION I N A S U F F I C I ENTLY SYSTEMATIC TH E W H O L E WORLD. SOMETI MES O N E O F T H E T E R M S

M A N N E R . ANY COM E D Y CAN BECOM E A R E A LITY." OF THE F A M I LY T R I A NG L E IS R E PLAC E D BY

BUT KA FKA DOES NOT C H A LLENGE TH E EXTE RIOR ANOTH E R T E R M W H I C H S U F FICES T O DE-FA M I L I A L­

I N F L U E NC E O F T H E FATH E R I N ORDER TO I N VOKE A N IZE THE WHOLE PICTU R E ( I N THIS W A Y THE F A M I LY

I NTERIOR G E N E S I S O R A N I N T E R N A L STRUCTU R E STORE E NACTS THE TRIANGLE. FATH E R - E M PLOYEE­

WHICH WOULD STI LL B E O E D I P A L "IT I S I M POSS I BLE C H I LD. T H E C H I LD BEING PLACED O N THE S I D E OF

FOR M E TO ADMIT THAT THE B EG I N N I NGS OF M Y THE LOW LI EST E M PLOYE E S WHOSE F E ET H E WOULD

U N H A PP I N ESS W E R E I N T E R N A LL Y N E C E S S A R Y . B E HAPPY TO LICK); OR ELSE I N "TH E J U DG M E NT'

TH E Y M A Y H A V E H A D A C E R T A I N N E C E SSITY. BUT THE RUSS I A N F R I E N D TAKES THE PLACE OF O N E O F

NOT A N I NTE R N A L N E C E S S I TY. THEY C A M E UPON ME TH E T E R M S O F T H E TRIANGLE A N D TRANSFORMS I T

F L UTT E R I NG L I K E FLIES AND COULD HAVE BEEN INTO A J U D I C I A L OR CON D E M NATORY A P P A R ATUS.

C H A S E D AWAY A S E A S I LY." T H A T I S THE ESSENTIAL AT OTH E R T I M E S THE WHOLE T R I A N G L E C H A NGES

THING: BEYOND EXTERIOR AND I NT E R I O R . AN ITS FORM A N D C H A R ACTERS. AND I S SHOWN TO B E

AGITATION. A MOLECULAR DANCE.A WHOLE J U D I C IA L. O R ECONOMIC. O R B U R E A UCRATIC, O R

R E LATION-LI M I T WITH T H E OUTSIDE WHICH WILL POLITICAL E T C . SUCH I S T H E T R I ANGLE, J U DGE­

A S S U M E O E D I P U S ' I N O R D I N A T E L Y D I ST E N D E D ATTO R N E Y- A C C U S E D IN THE TRIAL. WH E R E TH E

(GROSSI ) MASK. FATH ER N O LONGE R EXI STS AS SUCH (OR E L S E T H E

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 B U R E A UC RATS. THE I N FINITE AND UNGRASPABLE
UNCLE-LAWYER-BLOC K TRIO_ A N XIOUS FOR K. TO
H I E RARCHY. T H E CONTA M I N ATION OF SUSPICIOUS
TA K E H I S T R I A L SERIOUSLY AT ALL COSTS) . OR
SPACES. A N EQ U I VALENT OF WHICH . THOUGH IN
OTH E R PROLI FERATING TRIOS. BANK E M PLOYEES.
COMPLETELY D I F F E R E NT TERMS. COU LD BE FOU N D
POLICE OFFICERS. J U DGES. OR ELSE THE GEO­
PO L I T I C A L . G E R M A N S - C Z E C H S - J E W S . W H I C H I N PROUST W H E R E THE UN ITY OF C H A RACTE RS A N D

PARADES B E H I N D KA FKA'S FATHER: " I N PRAGUE. THE F I G U R E S THEY CONSTITUTE GIVE WAY TO

(TH E J EWS) WERE R E P ROAC H E D FOR NOT BEING N E B U LO U S FOR M S . T O PROLIFERATING. B L U R R E D

CZECHS_ IN SAAZ A N D IN EGER FOR NOT BEING GROUPI NGS. I N T H E S A M E W A Y . BEH I N D T H E FATH E R

GERMANS. ( . . . ) THOSE W H O W A N T E D TO B E I S TH E WHOLE N E B U LOUS GROUP O F J E W S WHO.

GERMANS HAD TH E M S E LVES ATTACKED BY CZECHS. H A V I NG L E FT THE RURAL CZECH M I L I E U B E H I N D

AND AT TH E SAME TIME BY GERMANS." FOR THIS F O R A N U R B A N . G E R M A N ENSEMBLE. A R E L I A B L E TO

REASON. THE FATH ER'S HYPOTH ETI C A L I N NOCENCE BE ATTA C K E D FROM BOTH SI DES-A TRANSFORMA­

A N D DISTRESS FOR M S THE WORST ACCUSATION. TIONAL TRIANGLE. THERE I S NO C H I LD I N C A PABLE

SINCE THE FATH ER HAD DONE NOTHING BUT BOW OF K NOWING TH I S : THEY EACH H A V E A GEOGRAPHI­

H I S HEAD. SUBMIT TO A POWER WHICH WAS NOT H I S C A L A N D POLITICAL M A P WHOSE M A R K I NGS A R E

OWN . P U T H I M S ELF AT A N I M PASS B Y BETRAYING H I S D I FFUSED A N D S H I FTI NG. E V E N I F ONLY D U E TO

R U R A L JEWISH CZECH ORIGI N. T H U S . TOO WELL N A N N I E S . M A I DS. TH E I R FATHE R'S E M PLOYEES. ETC.

FO R M E D . THE FAM I LY T R I A NGLE WAS O N L Y A A N D I F T H E F A T H E R R ET A I N S T H E L O V E A N D

CATA LYST FOR I NVESTMENTS OF A COM PLETELY ESTI MATION O F H I S SON. I T I S BECAUSE I N H I S

D I F F E RENT NATURE W H I C H THE C H I LD N EVE R YOUTH HE H I M S E L F C O N F R O N T E D C E R TA I N

CEASES TO D I SCOV E R B E N EATH H I S FATH ER. IN HIS " D I A BO LI C A L POWERS" AT TH E R I S K OF B E I N G

MOT H E R . IN H I M S E L F . J U DG ES . COM M I SS I O N E R S . OVERCO M E B Y T H E M .

B U R E A UC R ATS. E T C. . A R E NOT FATH E R S U B STI­

TUTES. RATHER IT IS THE FATH E R WHO IS F U RTH E R MO R E . T O T H E E X T E N T T H A T O E D I PUS'
CONDENSED FROM ALL T H E S E FORCES TO WHICH C O M I C E N LA RG E M E N T A L LOWS TH E S E OTH E R
H E SUBM ITS AND I NCITES HIS SON TO SUBM IT. THE OPPR ESSIVE T R I A NGLES TO B E SEEN U N D E R THE
FA M I LY HAS ONLY DOORS AT WH ICH. FROM THE M I C ROSC O P E . THE POS S I B I LITY OF A N ESCAPE
START. K NOCK "DIABOLICAL POWERS" THAT REJOICE HATC H . A ROUTE OF FLIGHT APPEARS. TO T H E
EXCESSIVELY AT THE PROSPECT O F ENTERING ONE DAY. I N H U M A N ITY OF "DIABOLICAL POWERS" A N S W E R S
IN K A FKA_ IT IS N E I T H E R THE FATH ER. NOR THE TH E S U B- H U M A N I T Y OF B ECO M I N G A N I M A L :
S U P ER-EGO. NOR ANY SIGN I F I E R WHICH M A N U FAC­ B E CO M I N G- B E E T L E . B E C O M I NG- DOG. B ECOM I N G­
TURES ANXI ETY OR PLE A S U R E . BUT RATH E R THE A P E. "TO R U N OFF. TOPPLING H E A D OVE R H E ELS."
A M E RICAN TECHNOC RATIC M A C H I N E. THE RUSSIAN RATH E R THAN TO BOW THE HEAD A N D R E M A I N A
B U R E A UC R ATIC MACHINE. OR T H E F A S C I ST B U R E A UC RAT. I N S PECTOR. J U DGE A N D J U DG E D .
M A C H I N E . IT COULD BE SAID THAT TO THE EXTENT H E R E A G A I N . TH E R E A R E N O C H I LDREN W H O DON'T
iHAT THE FA M i L Y TRIANGLE I S UNDONE. ! N ONE OF CONSTRUCT OR SENSE THESE ESCAPE ROUTES.
ITS TERMS. OR S U D D E N LY AND COMPLETELY IN T H E S E I N STANCES OF BECOMI NG-A N I M A L AND T H E
FAVOR OF T H E POWERS WHICH ACTU ALLY ARE AT A N I M AL. A S A BECOMI NG. HAS NOTH ING T O DO WITH
WO R K . OTH E R T R I A N G L E S P U S H I NG OUT F R O M E I TH E R A FATH E R SUBSTITUTE OR A N A RC H ETYPE.
B E H I N D HAVE A CERTA I N F L U I D ITY. A DIFFUSENESS FOR. I N A S M UC H A S H E I S A JEW WHO LEAVES T H E
AND ARE P E R PE T U A L L Y C H A N G I N G I N TO O N E C O U N T R Y TO G E T ESTABLI S H E D I N T H E CITY. T H E
A N OTH E R . EITHER BY M E A NS OF A SU DDEN FATH E R I S NO D O U B T CA UGHT I N A MOV E M E N T O F
PROLIFE RATION OF ONE OF THE T E R M S OR REAL D E T E R R I TO R I A L I ZA T I O N ; BUT HE N EVER
V ERTICES. OR BECA USE TOGETHER T H E SIDES ARE CEASES T O RETER RITOR I ALIZE I N H I S FA M I LY. I N H I S
CONTI N UOUSLY B E I NG DEFORMED. THUS. AT THE B U S I NESS. I N T H E SYSTEM O F H I S A UTHORITY A N D
B EG I N N I N G OF THE TRIAL. THREE UNIDENTIFIED S U B M I S S I O N S . A S FOR A RC H ETYPES. T H E Y A R E
C H A R A C T E R S A R E T R A N S FO R M E D I N TO T H R E E PROCESSES OF S P I R I T U A L RETER R I TO RI A LI ZATION.
B A N K WORK E RS. I N A MOBILE RELATION S H I P WITH F O R M S OF B E C O M I N G - A N I M A L A R E J U S T T H E
TH E THREE I N SPECTORS_ AND WITH THE THREE OPPOS I T E : A T L E A S T I N P R I N C I PA L. T H E Y A R E
B USY-BODIES GROUPED AT THE W I N DOW. I N THE ABSOLUTE D E T E R RITORI A LIZATIONS EMBEDDED I N
FI RST REPR ESENTATION OF T H E LAW COU RT. THERE TH E A R I D WORLD W H I C H KAFKA H A S ACTIVATED. "MY
IS STI LL A WELL- D E F I N E D T R I A N G L E WITH TH E WORLD'S POWE R OF ATTRACTION I S GREAT TOO.
J U DGE A N D TWO SIDES. RIGHT AND LEFT. BUT ONE I S THOSE WHO LOVE ME LOVE ME BECAUSE I H A V E
U LTI MATELY WITNESS TO A N INTERNAL PROLIFERA­ BEEN A BA N DO N E D . A N D P E R H A P S I T I S N O T THAT
TION S I M I LAR TO A CANCEROUS I NVASION. THE THEY LOV E ME A S W E I SS'S VAC U U M . BUT BECAUSE
I N E XTRICABLE ENTANGLEMENT OF OFFICES AND THEY F E E L THAT I N M Y GOOD M O M ENTS AND I N

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A N OTH E R S P H E R E , I AM ACCORDED THE F R E E DOM OTH E R SOLUTION FOR M E S I N C E W E W A R D E D O F F

OF MOVEMENT WHICH IS COM PLETELY LAC K I N G THE POS S I B I LITY O F F R E E DOM,"). ON THE OTH E R

H E R E . " TO BECOM E A N I M A L I S PREC I S E L Y T O M A K E H A N D, THE I M ITATION IS ONLY APPARENT SINCE

TH E MOTION, T O T R A C E ROUTE O F FLIGHT I N A LL ITS W H A T I S A T STA K E I S N O T T H E R E PRODUCTION O F

POS I T I V I TY, TO CROSS A T H R E SHOLD, TO REACH A F I G U R ES , B U T T H E PRODUCTI ON O F A CONTI N U U M

CONTI N U U M OF I NT E N S I T I E S WITH V A L U E ONLY I N OF I NT E N S I T I E S IN AN APARALLEL AND ASYM­

A N D O F TH E M S E LV E S , T O F I N D A WORLD O F P U R E M ET R I C A L E VO L U T I O N WHERE MAN DOES NOT

INTENSITIES WHERE A L L FORMS AS W E L L AS ALL BECOM E L E S S A P E T H A N T H E A P E B E C O M E S M A N .

SIGNI FICATIONS ARE U N DO N E , S I G N I FI ERS AND THE B E CO M I NG I S A SEIZURE, A POS S E S S I O N , A N

S I G N I F I EDS, I N FAVOR OF A N U N FO R M E D MATTER, A D D ITION A L V A L U E , A N D N E V E R A R E PRODUCTION

OF DETERR ITOR I A LI Z E D F L U X , OF NON-SIG N I FY I N G O R I M I TATION. " I W A S N 'T S E D U C E D BY TH E NOTION

SIGNS. KAFKA'S A N IMALS NEVER REFER TO OF I M ITATION, I I M ITATED BECA U S E I WAS LOO K I N G

A RC H ET Y P E S OR A M Y T H O L OG Y , BUT ONLY F O R A W A Y O U T , A N D N O T F O R A N Y OTH E R REASON."

C O R R E S PO N D TO G R A D I E N TS CROSSED, TO ZON E S IN R E A LI T Y , AN ANIMAL C A PT U R E D BY MAN IS

OF FREED INTENSITIES W H E R E CONTENTS B R E A K D E T E R R I TO R I A L I Z E D B Y H U M A N FORCE, T H E ENTI R E

OUT OF TH E I R FOR M S , J U ST AS EXPRESSIONS B EG I N N I N G O F "A R E PORT" I NS I STS O N TH I S POINT,

B R E A K O U T O F T H E S I G N I F I E R W H I C H FOR M A L I Z E S BUT THE D E T E R R I TO R I A L I Z E D A N I MA L FORC E IN

TH E M . NOTH I N G IS L E FT BUT MOV E M E NTS, V I B R A ­ TURN PRECI PITATES AND I NT E N S I F I E S THE

TIONS, TH R E S H O L D S IN A DESERTED M A TT E R : D E T ER R I TO R I A LI ZATION O F T H E DETE R RITORI A L I Z­

A N I M A LS , M I C E , DOGS, A PE S , COCK ROAC H E S C A N I NG H U M A N FORC E ( I F IT C A N BE SO pun. "MY A P E

O N L Y B E D I ST I N G U I S H E D B Y V A R I O U S T H R ESHOLDS, N A T U R E F L E D OUT O F M E, H E A D O V E R H E ELS A N D

VARIOUS V I BRATIONS, BY SOME U N D E RG R O U N D A W A Y , I N S U C H A W A Y T H A T A S A R E S U LT M Y F I RST

PASSAGEWAY IN THE TUBER OR B U R ROW. FOR TEAC H E R BECAME A PE-LI K E H I M S E LF , AND SOON

TH E S E PASSAGE W A Y S ARE U N DERGRO U N D I NTEN­ H A D TO G I V E UP T E A C H I N G TO ENTER A N A S Y L U M . "

SITIES. IN TH E B E CO M I N G - M O U S E , A W H I ST L I N G THUS IS CONSTITUTED A CONJUNCTION OF

D E P R I V E S WOR D S O F TH E I R M U S I C A N D M E A N I NG, I N D E T E R R ITOR I A L I Z I N G FLUXES WHICH O V E R F LOWS

THE B ECOM I NG - A P E , A C O U G H "SEEMS WORRISOME," T H E L I M I T S O F STI L L T E R R I TO R I A L I M ITATION. IN THE

BUT H A S NO S I G N I F I C A N C E ( B ECOMI NG-CO N S U M P­ S A M E M A N N E R, THE O RC H I D S E E M S TO R E P RO D U C E

TI VE-A P E ) . IN THE BECOM I NG - I NSECT, A PAINFUL A B E E'S I MAGE, BUT D E T E R R ITOR I A L I Z E S MORE

SQU E E K W I N S O U T O V E R T H E VOICE A N D SC R A M ­ PROFO U N D L Y IN IT A T T H E S A M E T I M E THAT T H E

BLES THE R E SO N A N C E OF WORDS. G R E GO R BEE, IN TU R N , D E T E R R I TOR I A L I Z E S IN COUPLING

BECO M E S A C OC K R O A C H NOT ONLY I N ORDER TO WITH TH E ORCH I D : S E I Z U R E OF A B I T O F CODE A N D

FLEE FROM H I S FATH E R , BUT MORE I M PORTANTLY, N O T I M A G E R E PRODUCTION. I N " I N V E STIGATIONS OF

TO F I N D A W A Y OUT AT T H E VERY POI N T W H E R E H I S A DOG," ANY INKLING OF RESEMBLANCE I S EVEN

FAT H E R COU L D FIND NONE, IN ORDER TO FLEE MORE E N E RG E T I C A L L Y E LI M I N ATED: KAFKA

F R O M THE C H I E F C L E R K , B U S I N E S S A N D B U R E A U ­ A TT A C K S "T H E S U S P I C I O U S T E M PTATI O N S O F

C R ATS, I N O R D E R T O R EA C H THAT R E G I O N W H E R E R E S E M B L A N C E W H I C H I M A G I N ATION M A Y PROPOSE

TH E VOICE N O LON G E R D O E S A N YTH I N G BUT B UZZ­ TO H I M : " T H ROUGH H I S SOL I T U D E , T H E DOG S E E K S

"'DID YOU HEAR HIM S P E A K I NG? THAT WAS AN T O G R A B T H E G R EATEST D I F F E R E N C E , TH E S C H I ZO

A N I M AL'S V O I C E : T H E C H I E F C LERK DECLA R E D," DIFFERENCE,

IT IS TRUE THAT K A F K A'S A N I M A L TEXTS ARE FAR THESE THEN ARE THE TWO E FFECTS OF TH E

MORE COM P L E X THAN WE SAY, OR, ON THE DEVELOP M E N T O R COMIC BLOATING O F O E D I PUS:

CONTRARY, FA R S I MPLER. IN "A R E PORT TO AN TH E D ISCOV E R Y A CONTRARIO OF OTHE R T R I ANGLES,

A C A D E M Y" FO R E X A M P L E , I T I S NOT A QU ESTION O F TH E A FORTIORI M A R K I N G OUT OF T H E O R PH A N E D

A BECOM I NG - A N I M A L FROM H U M A N , B U T A BECOM­ BECOM I NG - AN I M A L'S ESCAPE ROUTES, NO TEXT

ING-H U M A N FROM APE; TH I S BECO M I N G IS PRE­ WOULD S E E M T O S H O W THE TI E BETW E E N T H E S E TWO

SENTED AS A S I M PL E I M I TATION; AND I F IT I S A A S P ECTS B E TT E R T H A N "TH E M E T A M O R P H O S I S , "

Q U E STION OF F I N D I N G A W A Y OUT (A WAY OUT A N D THE B U R E A UC R AT I C TRIANGLE PROG R ES S I V E L Y

N O T " F R E E DOM"), T H I S W A Y O U T I S N O T THE R E S U LT COMES TOG E TH E R : FI RST TH E R E IS TH E CHIEF

OF F L I G HT, Q UITE THE CONTRARY, BUT, ON ONE C L E R K W H O COMES I N ORDER TO M E N A C E . T O EXACT

HAND, FLIGHT IS ONLY R E J ECTED AS USELESS COM PLIANCE; THE N THE R E IS TH E FATH E R WHO H A S

MOTION I N S P A C E , O N L Y A S E E M I NGLY LI BERATING RETU R N E D TO WORK AT THE B A N K A N D WHO SLEEPS

MOTION; IN RETURN, FLIGHT IS AFFIRMED AS A I N HIS U N I FO R M TH E R E B Y M A K I N G E V I D E N T T H E YET

FLE E I NG IN PLACE, FLIGHT BY I N T E N S ITY ("THAT'S EXTERIOR FORCE TO WHICH H E I S SUBJ ECTED. A S IF

WHAT I'VE DON E , I'VE S N UC K AWAY, T H E R E WAS NO "EV E N AT HOME H E E XPECTED TO HEAR TH E VOIC E

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OF HIS SUPERIOR:" FINALLY, ALL OF A S U DDEN O P POS E D TO O E D I P A L I N C EST, I N C E ST W H I C H
TH ERE I S THE I NTRUSION O F THE TH R E E BUREAU­ M A N I FE STS A N ON - H U M A N S E X U A L I TY LIKE
CRATIC BOAR D E R S WHO NOW PENETRATE THE VERY BECOM I NG-AN I M A L. BUT. JEALOUS O F T H E POR­
FAM I LY, SUBSTITUTE I N IT, TAK E TH E I R SEATS "IN TRAIT. SHE BEGINS TO HATE G R EGOR AND
THE PLACES WHICH THE FATH ER, T H E MOT H E R AND CONDEM NS H I M. FROM THEN ON, THE BECOM I NG­
G REGOR FOR M E R LY OCCUPI ED," A N D, COR R E LA­ ANIMAL ASPECT OF GREGOR'S DETE R RITORIA LlZA­
TIVE LY, T H E R E IS G R EGOR'S W H O L E BECOM I NG­ TION FA I LS : HE A L LOWS H I M S E L F TO BE RE­
A N I M AL, HIS BECOMI NG-BEETLE, M A Y-BUG, DUNG­ OEDIPALIZED B Y THE TOSS OF AN A PPLE A N D C A N
B E ETLE, COCKROACH, WHICH TRACE S THE INTENSE ONLY DIE. APPLE E N C R USTED IN HIS BACK.
E SC A P E ROUTE IN R E LA T I O N TO T H E FA M I LY L I K EWISE, TH E F A M I LY'S DETE R R I TO R I A L I ZATION
TRIANGLE, A N D ESPECIALLY IN R ELATION TO THE INTO MORE COM PLEX A N D DIABOLICAL TRIANGLES
BUREAUCRATIC AND COMM E R C I A L TRIANGLE, HAS NO ROOM TO CARRY ON: THE FATHER KICKS OUT
THE THREE BUREAUCRATIC BOARDERS. RETURN TO

BUT WHY, AT THE V E R Y I N STANT O N E BELIEVES HE THE OEDIPAL TRIANGLE'S PATER N A L PRINCI PAL.

HAS CAUGHT HOLD OF THE TIE BETWEEN OEDIPUS' THE FAM I LY C LOSES H A PPILY IN ON ITSELF, O N E

BEYOND AND BEFORE IAU-DELA ET EN· DECAl, I S O N E CANNOT E V E N B E CERTAIN THAT G REGOR W A S AT

FARTHE R A W A Y THAN EVER F R O M A WAY O U T ? W H Y FAULT. RATHER. ISN'T IT TRUE THAT FORMS OF

DOES ONE REMAIN STUCK I N A N I M PASS? IT I S BECOM ING-A N I M A L FAI L TO FULFILL TH E I R OFFICE

BECAUSE THE R E I S STI L L DANGER OF A RESUR­ AND ALWAYS RETAIN A N AMBIGUITY THAT MAKES

G E N C E OF O E D I P A L MASTERY. TH E I N C R EASING THEM I N S U F FI C I E NT A N D CO N D E M N S THEM TO

P E R V E R S ITY OF THE USAGE HAS N OT BEEN FAI LURE? A REN'T A N I M A LS THE M SELVES STI LL TOO

A DEQUATE T O EXORCIZE A L L RE-CLOSING, A L L FORMED, TOO SIGNI FYING, TOO TERRI TORIALIZED?

RECONSTITUTION OF THE F A M I LY TRIANGLE WHICH DOESN'T T H E BECOMI NG-A N I M A L. AS A WHOLE.

ITSELF TAKES C H A RGE OF OTH E R TRIA NGLES AS IT OSCILLATE BETWEEN A SCHIZO ESCA PE A N D AN

DOES OF THE ANIMAL ROUTES. I N T H I S S E NSE, "THE OEDIPAL I M PASS? OEDIPAL ANIMAL PAR EXCEL­

M ETAMORPHOSIS" IS TH E EXEM PLARY STORY OF A LENCE. THE DOG, OF WHICH KAFKA FR EQUENTLY

RE-OEDIPALIZATION. IT COULD BE S A I D THAT AT A SPEAKS I N HIS D I A RY AND LETTERS, IS AT THE S A M E

CERTA I N MOMENT G REGOR'S DETERRITORIALIZING TIME A SCHIZO BEAST, S U C H AS THE MUSICIAN

PROCESS, HIS BECOMING-AN I M A L, WAS BLOCKED, I S DOGS I N "INVESTIGATIONS" OR THE DIABOLICAL DOG

GREGOR A T F A U LT I N THAT H E DOES NOT DARE TO IN "THE TEMPTATION AT THE VI LLAGE." THE FACT I S

GO ALL THE WAY? H I S SISTER WANTED TO CLEAR THAT K A FKA'S P R I N C I P A L A N I M A LE SQ U E TEXTS

OUT H I S WHOLE ROOM I N ORDER TO PLEASE H I M . WERE W R I TT E N J U ST BEFORE THE TRIAL. O R

BUT G R E GO R R E F U S E S T O ALLOW T H E M T O TAKE COEXTENSIVE WITH I T A S A COUNTERPART TO THAT

AWA Y THE PORTRAIT O F THE LADY M U FFLED I N NOVEL WHICH IS FREED FROM ANY ANIMAL

FURS, H E CLINGS TO TH I S PORTRA I T A S T O A LAST PROBLEMATIC, I N FAVOR O F A H I G H E R CONCERN,

TERRITORI ALIZED I MAGE, IN REALITY, THIS IS WHAT

HIS SISTER C A N N OT TOLERATE. SHE ACCE PTED H I M . GI LLES DELEUZE AND FELIZ GUATTA RI
LIKE GREGOR S H E WANTED SCHIZO I NC E ST. H I G H EXCERPTED FROM KAFKA
VOLTAGE I N C E ST. I NC E S T WITH T H E S I STER A S TRANSLATED BY RACHEL MCCOMAS

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THE C E RTAI NTY OF MY COMI N G DEPARTU R E H A D B E C A PTU R E D IN A WORD. I WAS ON MY WAY; I H A D

R E STORED MY TASTE F O R E M MA. ALTHOUGH M Y N EI TH E R M EMORY NOR PRESE NT; I WAS CROSSING.
DREAMS REMAINED UNDER THE SIGN OF THE AND DO U BTL.ESS-FOR A T THAT MOMENT M Y M I N D
H U NTER'S MOON. W H Y D I DN'T I CON FIDE M Y PLAN TO COUL.D D I SC E R N NO D I V I SION BETWEEN THEM-TI M E
HER? WHY SHOULD 17 T H E PRESENT IS THE PRESENT WAS C A R RY I NG M E A S T H E S E A WAS CARRYING M Y
A N D TH AT'S ENOUGH. BESIDES. I MYSELF H A D NOT BOAT.
SET T H E DAY.

THERE C A M E A M I LD E R EVENING WITH A LITTLE FOG S U D D E N L.Y BEFORE ME. I SAW THE ISLAND. W H I L E A
ON T H E HORIZON. A N D I SAW AS ON THE FI RST P I N K F I NGER ON T H E HORIZON A N NOUNCED T H E
EVENING THE MOON E M E RG E D FROM THE SEA. I T ADVENT OF D A Y . THE L. O W COASTLI N E WAS A M E R E
WAS F U L L : THE CYC L E WAS COM PLETED. I DECI D E D M A R G I N OF S A N D AT T H E B A S E OF A N A B R U PT
THE T I M E HAD C O M E . I L.OVED E M MA S O M UC H T H A T I CLI FF. I SET A BOUT TO F I N D A MORE FAVORABL.E
FILLED H E R WITH MYSEL.F. AND. WHEN SHE H A D PORT. BUT T H E CL.IFF CONTIN U E D TO PRESENT T H E
GON E T O SL.EEP. I WENT T O A RATH ER DISTANT SA M E RIGHT A NGLE. I WAS STE E R I NG AROUND THE
CREEK WHERE THE BOATS WERE K E PT. IT M UST HORN OF A S M A L. L. PROMONTORY WHEN I SAW THE
HAVE BEEN TWO IN THE MORNING: I HAD J UST YACHT WHICH H A D B E L.ONGED TO T H E COUNTESS. IT
ENOUGH TI M E TO R E A C H T H E I S L.A N D B E F O R E TRIGG E R E D IN M E A N E W FEAR. PERHAPS BECAUSE
DAYBREAK. I T WAS TOO WH ITE; I DOUBL.ED BACK AND DECIDED
TO L. A N D ON T H E N A R ROW BEACH. THEN CONTI N U E
THE WAVEL.ESS OCE A N BARELY RI PPLED B E N EATH ON FOOT. I T H E R EFORE M A NOEUVERED I N THAT

THE PROW OF M Y BOAT. A LTHOUGH I USED THE OARS D I R ECTION AND. HAVING TOUCHED SHOR E . BUSIED
I N O R D E R TO GO FASTER THAN THE COM ING DAY. MYSEL.F WITH L.A N D I NG M Y BOAT AND F I N DI NG
THE MOON WAS IN FRONT OF M E. BUT S ETTI NG. M I LKY S H E L.T E R FOR IT. S U D D E N L.Y A NOI S E B E H I N D M E
AND V E I L.ED. FATIG U E R E N D E R E D M E ACUTEL.Y M A D E M E T U R N A RO U N D: A N E NORMOUS N I GG E R
AWA R E OF ALL. THAT WAS GOI NG ON BETWEEN THE ACCOM P A N I E D B Y T W O M A STIFFS WAS WATC H I NG
A I R A N D THE WATER-ACTIVITY TOO I NTA NG IBL.E TO ME.

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I S M I LED AT T H E M A N : HE R E M A I N E D I M PASSIVE. H I S M A N CONTI N U E D TO STA N O O V E R ME. WITHOUT

EYES A N D THOSE OF T H E A N I M A LS E X A M I N E D M E MOVING MY H EAD, I FOLLOWED THE T H R E E B R UTES

WITH A N A B S E N C E O F C U R IOSITY A N D COLDN E SS WITH M Y EYES,

THAT WAS F R I G H T E N I NG. TH E SUN WAS R I S I NG

B E H I N D ME: ITS R E D N ESS, E N V E LOPING ME. GAVE

JUST A S I THOUGHT T H E ORDEAL W A S D R A W I N G TO
M E COURAGE. I STEPPED FORWA R D AND SAID:
A CLOSE, THE M A N POI NTED TO MY GROIN AND THE

TWO WOLFISH DOGS POU NCED ON MY CROTCH . I

"I WOU LD LIKE TO S E E T H E COU NTESS." FELT A S H I V E R DOWN MY BACK AS T H E I R TON G U E S

TOUC H E D M E . I C H O K E D B A C K THE C R Y WHICH ROSE

THE DOGS STRETC H E D TH E I R N EC K S TOWA RDS ME: I N M Y TH ROAT. THEY WERE NOT GOI NG TO DEVOUR

THE MAN 010 NOT C H A NG E HIS STATU E-LI K E ME-NOT YET. ANOTH E R M I NUTE AND I WAS NO

POSITION. I CONTI N U ED: LONGER STRUGG L I NG AGAINST FEA R BUT A G A I NST

THE ABOM I NABLE T E M PT A T I O N WHICH THOSE

TO N G U E S AWOKE IN M Y C R OTC H . A RO U N D MY
"I HAVE M ET T H E COU NTESS, I WOULD LIKE
SCROTU M , A LONG MY PHALLUS. FROM HEAD TO

H E E LS I R E S I STED. I E X E RT E D MY WI LLPOWER
THE M A N MADE A N I M P E R C E PT I B L E SIGN. AND THE
M IGHTI LY TO K E E P F R O M BECOMING E R ECT. B U T T H E
TWO MONSTE R S LEA PT ON ME, BEFORE I COULD
LENGTH OF T H E I R TONGUES GAVE THE DOGS A
TH I N K OF MOVING, I W A S T H ROWN ON T H E S A N D: ONE
TERRIBLE A D V A NTAGE: NO MOUTH H A D E V E R H A D
OF T H E BEASTS G R I P P E D M Y THROAT W H I L E T H E
SUCH POW E R O V E R ME. THE LONG PINK W H I PS
OTH E R S A T A S TR I D E M E, N E I TH E R OF THEM H A R M E D
HANGING FROM TH E I R M A WS HAD AN A M AZING
ME, BUT I COULD F E E L THEY W E R E R E A DY T O TEAR
SUPPLEN ESS A N D E N A BLED THE T W O Q U A D R U P E DS
ME APART ON C O M M A N D. FEAR CA USED REO
TO ENCI RCLE M Y P R I C K A N D PROBE MY A N U S WITH
FLA KES TO SWIM IN M Y TH ROAT A N D MY EYES.
I R R ES I ST I B L E VIGOR. AND T H E I R SLAVER. W I TH
BEH I N D THAT SC R E E N MY BRAIN WAS WOR K I NG,
WHICH I WAS A B U N D A NTLY D R E N C H ED, F A C I LI­
S E A R C H I NG FOR AN E X P L A N AT I O N , WATC H I N G ,
TATED TH E I R TASK BY GIVI NG MY MEMBER THE
NOTI NG. P R E P A R I NG M Y N E R V E S TO OBEY I N STANT­
I LLUSION O F ENTE R I N G A HOSPITA BLE PORT.
LY. AND THEN I REMEMBERED: "WHATE V E R

H A P PE N S:' SHE HAD S A I D. "SUCK IN YOUR

STO M A C H , BREATHE DEE PLY. S PA C E YOUR I N THAT I N STA NT. M Y P E N I S WAS THE OTHER, W H I C H

BREATHING R E G U L A R LY." T H E S H E E R U RGE T O F U C K COM M A N D E D T O S T A N O

U PRIGHT I N S P I T E OF MYSE LF. TH E THICK U N DER­

VEIN I N FLATED MY PENIS IN REG U L A R TH ROBS,

A S H A DOW PASSED OVER ME: T H E N I GGE R WAS
I N EXORA B LY: I WATC H E D TH I S PROCESS WITH A K I N D
A PPROACH I NG . HIS I M M E N S E BODY DOM I NATED ME,
OF HORROR. WITH THE FEELING OF PA RTIC I PATING
HIS EYES, STI L L COLO, F I X E D ME FROM A BOVE. I SAW
IN SO M E UNCLEAN ACT. WHEN MY PENIS HAD
HIM BEND H I S LEGS, THEN MOVE HIS ENORMOUS
ATTA I N E D ITS LARGEST DI M E N S I O N S , I SAW IT
FOOT TOWA R D M Y FACE, SLOWLY, SO THAT I SHOULD
BECOM E A N ENORMOUS BON E, S O T O SPEAK, I N T H E
HAVE PLENTY OF T I M E TO C O N T E M P L A T E T H E
MOUTH OF THE DOG WHO WAS PULLING AT IT. T H E
R E P U LSIVE P A L LO R O F THAT GOURD STRI ATE D WITH
N I G G E R L E A N E D OVER ME; A VAGU E S M I LE S H O W E D
PINK W R I N K L E S W H I C H WAS GOING TO CRUSH ME.
H I S TEETH. SUDDENLY H E DREW A D A G G E R F R O M
TH E FOOT STO P P E D A FEW I NC H ES FROM M Y EYES.
H I S POCKET A N D A S THE DOG L E A PT A W A Y , H E
TH E R E WAS A SECOND O F I N FI N ITE ANGUISH IN
POINTED H I S WEAPON AT M Y BELLY.
WHICH I 010 MY UTMOST TO CONTROL M Y B R EATH I NG

A N D NOT TO B U DGE. HE WITH D R E W H I S FOOT. THE

DOGS LET ME GO, A FLASH, A MARK ON MY SKIN. I WAITED FOR THE

PA I N . I DI DN'T D A R E LOOK. THE NIGGER STRA I G HT­

ENED U P , STA R I NG ME IN THE FACE, WITH TH E K N I FE

I R E M E M B E R . THE M A N M A D E A N OTH E R SIGN. THE
STILL EXTE N D I NG FROM H I S R IGHT H A N D. I D I D N'T
TWO WILD A N I M A LS ATTACK E D AGA I N . FURIOUSLY,
MOVE. THE BLADE WAS A BOVE MY EYES. IT F E LL. IT
THEY TORE OFF MY CLOTH ES. I D I DN'T MOVE. I KNEW I
GRAZED M Y FOR E H E A D SLIGHTLY A T THE B A S E OF
MUST NOT MOVE. BUT T H E DOGS WORKED S K I LL­
MY NOSE. THEN WAS L I FTED AGA I N .
FULLY WITH T H E I R T E ETH A N D CLAWS: THEY D I DN'T

HARM M E. IN A M A TT E R OF SECONDS I WAS N A KED.

THE DOGS SAT ON EITHER S I D E O F M E, TH E I R L I PS N O W M Y GAZE. TOO. WAS COLD. THE NIGGER D REW

C U R LE D BACK IN A S N A R L, THE I R TO N G U E S BACK. I COULD NO LONGER SEE H I M. BUT HIS

H A N G I NG OUT: T H E Y WATC H E D M E C LOSELY. T H E S H A DOW C OV E R E D ME COMPLETELY. THE AIR

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W H I STLED; T H E R E WAS A NOTH E R FLASH; H I S K N I F E COULD HARDLY DECEIVE MYSELF ABOUT THE

F L E W TOWARD M Y G ROI N. NO P A I N . I LOW E R E D M Y I NTENTION T H E DOGS H A D I N TERMS OF M E : BUT

C H I N A L I TTLE. I SAW T H E H I LT O F T H E DAGG E R W H A T I D I D N 'T K N OW W A S T H A T A B E I N G A L I E N TO

ST I C K I N G OUT OF THE SAND. RIGHT BETW E E N M Y TH E I R R A C E H A D E N L A R G E D T H E F I E LD OF TH E I R

L E G S . THE NIGGER W A S STA N D I NG AT MY FEET. H I S I N STI NCT BY T E M P E R I NG I T WITH H I S O W N I M AG I N A ­

S M I LE D I S P L A Y I N G MORE T E E T H . TION.

H E WHI STLED. TH E DOGS. WHO HAD DRAWN BACK. I BEGA N TO GUESS THIS WAS THE C A S E WHEN ONE

R E T U R N E D . AGA I N HIS HAND POI NTED TO M Y BELLY. OF T H E MONSTERS-THE ONE WHO H A D PERFOR M E D

AND THE BEA STS R E S U M E D THEIR TASKS. FOR THE M I RACLES WITH H I S TONG U E I N T H E S E R V I C E OF M Y

BON E HAD LOST M U C H O F ITS S I Z E D U R I NG THE ORGAN-SUDDENLY C HANGED HIS POSITION

K N I FE-T H R OW I N G . THE TON G U ES REKINDLED MY WITHOUT L E TT I N G G O O F H I S OBJ ECT. A N D STOOD

SHAME. AND I WATC H E D M Y B E LLY HOISTING ITS D I R ECTLY O V E R ME: H I S R E A R LEGS PLANTED ON

M A ST. I WAS WATC H I N G AND I WAS WATC H I N G EITH E R S I D E O F MY H E A D . H I S BALLS J U ST ABOVE

MYSELF W A TC H I N G . THERE WAS A STRANGE M Y EYES. HIS P E N I S NOW D R I P P E D O N M Y N EC K A N D

D I STANC E WITH I N M E W H I C H CONTA I N E D T H E H A L L C H E ST A S I T J E R K E D A BOUT I N A N ACC E L E RATED

OF M I RRORS WHERE MY S ELF-IMAGE D W E LT-A R H YTH M . MOREOVER. IN HIS I N C R E A S I N G EXC I TE­

SHATTERED I M AG E I NTO W H I C H M Y FUTU R E B L E D M ENT T H E A N I M A L BEGAN TO KICK U P T H E SAND SO

I NTO THE PRESE NT. VIOLE NTLY THAT I WA S SOON COV E R E D WITH IT. T H E

N IG G E R GAVE A SHORT CRY. THE ANIMAL HESI­

TATED A S T H O U G H I N THOUGHT. TH E N CROUCH E D

I WAS E RECT. ALL OF A S U D D E N I ACCEPTED THE
DOWN , R U B B E D H I S H A I RY M UZZL E I N M Y F A C E A N D
FACT. THE FIRE HAD TO B U R N ITSELF OUT. I R A I S E D
B E G A N U S I NG H I S TON G U E W H I L E H I S T H I G H S A N D
MY H I PS TOWA R D S TH E I R M O U T H S . ONE O F THE
HAUNCHES BEGAN TO QUIVER ST R A N G E LY : HIS
TON G U E S WAS R E LENTLESSLY FLIC K I NG M E FROM
BALLS S L A P P E D AG A I N ST ME. H E BEGAN PANTING. I
MY BALLS TO MY ANUS; THE OTH E R ONE WAS
R E A L I Z E D HE W A N T E D TO F I N D A HOLE. I S HOUTED:
WRAPPED AROU N D MY P E N I S - E N V E LO P E D IT.

SQUEEZED IT. 0 1 0 WON D E R S . A N D I LET MYSELF GO. "NO. STOPI"

E N T E R E D NATU RALLY I NTO THE HORROR OF IT-FOR

AFTER A L L. TH I S WAS N A TU R E TDO. NO L I M IT. AN T H E NIGGER G A V E ME A KICK TO S H U T M E U P AND

A N C I ENT VOI CE W I T H I N M E C R I ED. NO L I M IT. EXCEPT T H E OTH E R DOG I N C R E A SE D H I S A R D E N T ATTEN­

PLEASURE. TIONS: HIS DAMP NOSE SLIPPED B E TW E E N MY

BUTTOC KS. S N I F F E D AT MY ASSHOLE. ROOTED AT IT

WITH HIS M UZZLE AND THEN BEGAN U S I NG HIS

WHAT I WAS G O I N G T H R O U G H EXC E E D E D E V E R Y ­
TON G U E , DA RTI N G IT I N A N D OUT. DROPPI N G GOBS
T H I N G I COULD H A V E I M AGI N E D. A N D IT S E E M E D T O
OF S A L I V A IN AN ATTE M PT TO FORCE OPEN T H E
M E THEN. AS TH E T W O DOGS PLAYED WITH M E . T H A T I
SPHINCTER. MY COCK F LAI LED VIOLENTLY BACK
WAS PAST THE H IG H EST PITCH; T H I S REASSU R E D
AND FORTH, THE D E S I R E TO FUCK DEAD E N E D ALL
ME. B U T I N T H E M I DST OF M Y PLEAS U R E I D I D NOT
R E ST R A I NT.
R E A LIZE THAT THE I M POSSIBLE GIVES R I S E TO T H E

I M POSSI B LE.

MY RIDER BENT HIS LEGS. STR ETC H E D OUT H I S

I STA RTED TO BECOME AWA R E OF TH I S AS D ROPS O F C H E ST, L I FT E D H I S H A U N C H E S SLIGHTLY A N D A I M E D

A MUSKY ESSENCE SPURTED O N M E . M A K I NG M E HIS COCK AT MY MOUTH. I REMEMBERED MY

R E A LIZE I WAS N O T THE ONLY O N E ER ECT; FOR MOTH E R ' S REMA RK: "IT S M E L LS LIKE A WILD

I N D E ED. U N DE R THE MONSTERS' B E LLIES I COULD A N I M AL," S H E S A I D T U R N I NG H E R H E A D AWAY. T H E

SEE TH E I R LONG P E N I S E S WHOSE REDNESS A N D MONSTE R'S L A N C E W A S ON M Y L I PS: IT K N OC K E D

J UT T I N G MEATUS L E FT NO DOUBT AS TO THE A G A I N ST TH E M CONTI N U A LLY A N D COV E R E D T H E M

DEGREE O F TH E I R E XC I T E M E NT. T H O S E R E PU L ­ WITH A BITTE R-TA STING L U BRICA NT, T H E N FORC E D

S I V ELY T H I N M E M B E R S C A N S W E LL CON S I D E RABLY THEM OPEN. WEDGING B E TWE E N MY JAW AND

IN T H E H EAT OF ACTION O N C E T H EY HAVE ENTERED CHEEK, AND CARESSED THE GUMS SO PLEA­

TH E I R R E C E PT A C L E ; SO M UC H SO.THAT HEAVY S U R A B L Y THAT I O P E N E D MY MOUTH. A N D TH E N I

WOR K A N D M U C H T I M E A R E R E QU I R E D BEFORE TH E Y HAD IN MY MOUTH THAT STR ANGE TH I NG . THAT

C A N W I T H D RAW. F O R T H E T I M E B E I N G TH EY W E R E I N H O R R I B L E TH I NG. THAT S H A M E F U L M E M B E R , AND

I NC E S S A N T MOV E M E N T, A LT E R N A T E L Y C A U S I N G Y E T I FOU N D N E I TH E R S H A M E NOR HORROR WITH I N

TH E I R M E M BERS T O STICK O U T O F TH E I R F U R R Y M E . W H Y D I D I H A V E T O L E A R N S O C R U D E LY THAT A

S H EATHS A N D T H E N P L U N G E BACK I NTO T H E M . I DOG IS WORTH A P RI EST . . . NOW, A GENTLE IN A N D

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OUT MOVEMENT WAS WR ITING ON MY TONGUE THAT A I R WAS ROA R I NG I N MY EARS. MY H EA RT WAS I N M Y
ALL DOGMA I S H ATEFUL, BEC A U S E I T C A STRATES THROAT. A N D EVEN THOUGH I WAS S UFFOCATI NG,
THE I MAGINATION AND T H E R EFORE IS A N OBSTACLE ALL I COU LD FEEL WAS THE I NSANE T H ROB B I N G OF
TO EXPERI ENCE, THE DOG ' S COCK IN MY MOUTH AND MY O W N
SWO L L E N C O C K IN H I S M O U T H . H EC A T E W A S
BEATING T H E COUNTRY S I D E WITH H E R MONSTERS:
T H E WRITING BECA M E U RGENT AND M Y TONGU E
THE CRESC E N T WAS BLACK ON HER B ROW. AND MY
BEGA N T O MOVE: I T E XPLOR E D T H E GLANS, T H E
BODY, A MERE C R E SCENT STRETC H E D BETW E E N
B E V E L B A R E L Y A P P A R E NT, AND T H E B I TT E R ,
TWO ORA L CAVITI ES, WAS BLACK A S WELL. THAT
DRI PPI NG M EATUS, TH E D OG T E N S E D H I S M U SCLES,
S H A DOW S U D D E N LY ACROSS THE T H RESHOLD! THE
E A G E R L Y A TT E N T I V E . HE STOPP E D M O V I N G H I S
CAGE I S SO N A R ROW! M Y H EART I S GOING TO STOP.
TON G U E , T H E N M I N E BEGAN M O V I N G AGA I N : I T
THE AIR IS ROAR I NG : I HAD NEVER REALIZED HOW
W R A P P E D ITSELF A RO U N D T H E G L A N S . MOV E D U P
L I K E A N O C E A N TH E A I R C A N B E WITH W A V E S
A N D D O W N S P R E A D I NG S A L I VA A L L A LONG IT,
CRASHING A N D ROLLING. FROM T H E VERY H EA­
LICKING A N D TICKLING. A LONG S H U DD E R WENT
VENS, HUGE WAVES WITH T H E I R BLACK WALLS W E R E
THROUGH THE A N I M A L AS I T T U R N E D BACK TOWA R D
H U RT L I N G T O W A R D ME A N D W E R E C R E A T I NG
M Y M O U T H . BUT AS W E W E R E A B O U T TO PITCH INTO
H I D EOUS HOLLOWS I NTO W H I C H W E W E R E GOING TO
THE FRAY, THE N IGGE R'S S H A DOW FELL UPON US.
FALL. A N D T H E LAST ONE WOULD· S U R E LY D ROWN
WAS HE COM I N G CLOSE R T H E BETTER TO WATCH US,
ME.
OR WAS H E GOI NG TO TEAR ME AWAY FROM MY
LOVER7 I WAS A L R E A D Y EXPRESSING MY RAGE I N
G R U NTS BECA U S E I COULD NOT PRONOUNCE A N Y WHEN I REGA I N E D M Y S E N S ES, THE TWO DOGS W E R E
WORD, SO BUSY WAS I I N S U C K I N G H I S T H I N G THAT STA RING A T M E : O N E WAS QUI ETLY SITTI NG T H E R E ,
SLID BETWEEN M Y LIPS AGA I N AND AGAIN. H I S TONGU E LOLLI NG; THE OTH ER O N E W A S TRYING
TO NIP AT W H ITISH FI LAM E NTS DROOLING FROM HIS
LODGE D AGAI N ST M Y PALATE WAS A CARESS, A C H I N . BEHIND T H E M , STA N D I NG VERY STRAIGHT WITH
CARESS I H A D D R E A M E D ABOUT WITHOUT KNOWING H I S LEGS A P A RT. T H E N IGGER WAS WATC H I NG ME.
WHAT TH E D R E A M M E ANT. I N M Y MOUTH H I S T H I NG WHEN O U R GLANCES M ET, HE CA M E U P TO ME,
GREW ROU N D A N D SWELLED U P: IT W A S AS THOUGH LEANED OVER A N D GRABBED M E BY T H E NAPE,
M Y TONGUE W E R E FLAT ON THE G R O U N D AND MY PICKED M E U P, DRAGGED M E BEHIND H I M, AND
JAWS WERE D I ST E N D E D TO F O R M T H E MOST THREW ME VIOLENTLY I NTO THE SEA, THE SHOCK OF
STU PEFI E D 0 M Y LIPS H A D E V E R M A D E . I BEGAN TO THE WAT E R BROUGHT M E BACK TO MYSELF AND TO
SUFFOCATE WITH MY NOSE B U R I E D I N H I S FUR: I WAS THE PRESENT. I W A S THI RSTY A S THOUGH I HAD
SUFFOCATI NG AND I MOV E D MY ARMS A N D LEGS EATEN VERY SPICY FOOD. I WASH E D AND SHOOK
LIKE A N I N E X P E R I E N C E D SWI M M E R WHOSE EVERY MYSELF OFF, A N D THEN C A M E OVE R TO T H E MAN
MOVEM ENT, I NS T E A D OF H EL P I N G H I M , DOES A N D H I S A N I M A LS.
NOTHI N G BUT E N S U R E H I S PERDITION,

"I WANT TO S E E TH E COUNTESS," I SAI D.

THE N I GG E R M U ST H A V E B E E N WAITING FOR THAT
M O M E N T : I H E A R D H I M C R U N C H I N G THE S A N D A FLASH OF HATE GLI M M ERED IN THE N I GG E R'S
AROU N D M E A N D T H E N C H A S I N G AWAY T H E DOG EY ES: T H E DOGS TH R EW THEMSELVES ON ME AGA I N
WHO WAS BADG E R I N G T H E HOLE IN M Y ASS-AND A N D KNOC K E D M E T O T H E GROUND. T H E DOG WHO
WHO WAS LOATH TO LET GO. B EC A U S E HIS TONGUE H A D LATELY LICKED T H E HOLE I N M Y ASS S E E M E D
H A D M A D E SOM E PROGRESS. T H E N T H E N IGGE R M U C H M O R E EXCITED T H A N H I S COMPANION. H E
GRABBED M Y F E ET, L I FTED M Y LEGS, TWI NED THEM STARTED T O MOVE H I S DAGGER I N A N D O U T OF ITS
AROUND THE N EC K OF THE A N I M A L THAT I WAS SHEATH, AND IT WAS H E THIS TIM E WHO TRIED TO
SUCKING, TH E N H E SEIZED MY H A N DS TWI N I NG THEM GET MY COCK H A R D. RESIGNED TO A REPLAY O F THE
AROUND THE C RO U P O F M Y R I D E R SO THAT I FOU N D PREVIOUS PERFORMANCE. I D E C I D E D TO L E T
M Y S E L F H A N G I N G U N D E R I T S B ELLY. T H E A N I M A L'S M Y S E L F GO A N D T O ACCEPT T H E RITUAL. BUT A S
HUGE KNOT THAT I HAD IN MY MOUTH H E LD M E FAST, SOON A S I H A D REACHED T H E DESI R E D STATE,
EVEN MORE F I R M LY T H A N MY K NOTTE D LIMBS DID. I N STEA D O F STR I K I NG M Y MOUTH WITH THE TIP OF
HIS BLADE. THE DOG SU DDENLY T U R N E D HIS BACK
THERE WAS A G U T T U R A L C R Y A N D THE DOG ON ME. D R U GG E D BY MY OWN DESI RE, I DID NOT
I M M EDI ATELY STA RTED OFF AT F U L L SPEED. M Y MOVE FROM THE GROUN D, M Y MAST UPRIGHT A N D
B A C K SCRA P E D AGA I N ST T H E S A N D A N D W A S TOR N SHINY W I T H S LI M E I N T H E SUN LIGHT. THE N I GG E R
O P E N BY T H E STON ES; FLA M E S E N V E LOPED M E : T H E SCREA M E D . B U T S E E I NG T H A T I STI LL D I D NOT

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R E ACT. HE GRABBED ME UNDER THE ARMS AND WAS THERE FOR A LL TO S E E . A N D F LA S H I NG ITS

TH R E W M E D O W N ON MY K N E E S . SEIZED M Y COCK I N B L A D E IN THE S U N LI G H T .

ON E OF H I S E N O R M O U S H A N DS A N D DRAGG E D T H E

R U T T I N G DOG C LOS E R T O M E W I TH H I S OTH E R H A N D .

T H E N I G G E R H E LP E D M E T O M Y F E ET.
TH E A N I M AL. P E R FECTLY T R A I NED. I M M E DI ATELY

BACKED U P TOW A R DS M E AND LOW E R E D HIS H I N D

"DO YOU WANT TO SEE THE COUNTE SS?"
E N D S O AS TO P L A C E T H E H O L E I N H I S A S S AT T H E

RIGHT ANGLE. THE N IGGER ST E E R E D MY C OC K

I STA R E D STR A I G H T AT H I M AND DID NOT A N SW E R .
TOWA R DS T H E H O L E OF H I S FAVORITE'S ASS. AS H E
A N D T H E N . S I NC E H E A P P E A R E D T O BE E X P ECTING
FO R C E D ME TO GRAB HOLD OF THE DOG'S
A N A N S W E R. I DREW B A C K M Y L I PS AND SHOWED H I M
T H R O B B I N G COCK. T H E MONSTE R I M PA LED H I M S E L F
M Y C L E N C H E D TEETH.
ON MY PENIS IN ONE QUICK MOVEMENT AND

TIGHTENING THE R I NG OF HIS ASS A ROU N D MY

STA LK. H E TRIED TO EXTRACT M Y ESSENCE OF M A N . "TH E C O U N TESS WILL B E P L E A S E D TO S E E YOU. SHE

BUT SINCE I WAS N O T M A N I P ULATING TH E DOG'S IS E X P E C T I N G YOU AND I WAS S E N T TO W E LCOME

PENIS AT A LL.TH E DOG TURNED AND STA R E D YOU."

Q U I ZZICALLY A T M E A N D TH E N A T H I S MASTER. T H E

N I G G E R DEC I D E D T H A T I N E E D E D A H E LPI NG H A N D HE TU R N E D ME A RO U N D G E NTLY. WITHDREW THE

A N D . HOLD I NG H I S D A G G E R B Y THE B L A D E . R A M M E D W E A PO N I M PA L I N G M E A N D POI N T E D A T T H E S E A :
I N O N E STR O K E T H E H A N D L E U P M Y ASS.

"YOU S H O U LD W A S H AGA I N ."

SOM E T H I N G S TR A N G E HAPPENED IN MY B ELLY

W H E R E CONTR A R Y F E E LI N G S O V E R W H E L M E D M E : A
I W A L K E D STIFFLY A N D C A R E F U L LY TOWARDS T H E
TE R R I B L E PA I N IN MY BATTE R E D ASS AND AN
OC E A N . B A T H E D V E R Y L E I S U R E LY, A N D T H E N C A M E
EQU A L LY T E R R I B L E P L EA S U R E I N M Y BALLS. T H E
BACK T O THE NIGGER.
R E S U LT W A S A F R A N T I C E FFORT ON MY PART TO

F U C K AS W E L L AS J E R K OFF T H E DOG . MY E S S E N C E

S P U R T E D I N U N I SON WITH T H E A N I M A L'S WHO B R O K E " P L E A S E . FOLLOW M E ."

AWAY HOWLI NG. I FELL FACE FOR W A R D ON THE

S A N D . STRETC H E D OUT ON T H E T H R ESHOLD OF T H E

I N F I N ITE. BERNARD NOEL

A N D YET M Y ASS. STU F F E D WITH A DAGG E R H A N D L E TRANSLATED BY D A N I E L SLOATE

TRUDY OR THE S EC R ET A PH I D

TRUDY H A D A CROTCH B E A U T I F U L. LARGELY W E LL­ RUDDER. THIS HE WOU L D STRO K E . FONDLE.

PROPORT I O N E D E X C E PT FOR THE HEAD. WHICH W A S M A N I P U LA T E A N D S T E E R A S THROUGH I T W E R E A N

REA LLY A CONVEX. I N S I D E-OUT N A V E L. TH I S HE A P H I D U NTI L T H E J U I C E S F LOWED. S O P A S S E D T H E

D U L Y CONTE M PLATED F R O M D A W N T I L L STA R - R I S E . N I G HTS A N D T H E Y E A R S . W H E N T R U DY'S C ROTCH

T H E N OTH E R S D I D. H E H A D A S M ALL ANT F O R PET B E A U T I F U L WENT TO POT. THE ANT DID NOT S E E M TO

W H I C H H E K E PT I N A N OLD- F A S H I O N E D TOOTHPASTE CARE. OH. IT RUBBED ITS H I N D-LEGS TOGETH E R

TUBE. H E L I K E N E D HIS DESTI N Y TO A S H I P'S A N D M O R E O FT E N . P E R H A PS. W H E N A LO N E . BUT YOUTH

T H E A NrS T O A C A PT A I N·S. W H I C H I S T O S A Y (OTH E R W I L L OUT. BY-TH E - B Y E . T H I S IS A H A PPY TALE A S I

TH A N THE OBVIOUS) THAT T R UDY'S SENSE OF H A V E O M N I SC I ENTLY D E C I D E D A N D T H E R E FO R E I T

B A L A N C E W A S E ROTIC I N T H E EXTR E M E. THE A N T W I L L NOW E N D .

WOU LD GRAZE U PON HIS FACE EAR AND NOSE

HAIRS TH E N WORK SLOWLY DOWN TO T R U DY'S D. C. S LOATE

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C H I L D S E X
TH E S I LV E R P I P E C A F E

ORPHANED AT N I N E H E LEFT H I S VI LLAGE A LONE PIPE. CHOOSE HOT COALS AND ARRANGE TH EM

AND CAME DOWN ON THE C O A ST B E LOW TH E WITH TONGS OVER THE D R UG. TA M P THEM DOWN.

SOUTH E R N H I LLS-ONCE AN I N DE P E N D E N T S U L­ TAK E A FEW PUFFS TO STA RT TH E SMOKE FLOWI NG.

TANATE W H E R E THE M E N M A D E TH E I R LIVINGS AS H A N D I T OVER TO THE PATRON. ONE RUPIYAH PER

P I R A T E S -S O M E GRAN DFATHERS NOW STI L L PIPE. FETCH TEA AND C I G A R ETTES FOR THE OLD

REMEMBER-I N THE I R LATEEN RIGS WITH REO SAILS BROWN MEN I N TH E I R FLOWER-PATTERNED LUNG­

OR B LACK. LYI NG A QUARTER OF A MILE OUT IN THE H E ES. DARK S A I LORS WITH E A R R I NGS. A C H I N E S E

S H A L LOW B A Y - LONG BOATS FETCH AND CARRY OR MOSLEM M E R C H A N T. D I SSOLUTE E U ROPEAN

FROM TH E S H I PS TO THE BEACH. WHITELY CURVED ADVENTURER OR F A I L E D PRI EST. WITH THE T I PS H E

AND PALM L I N E D -THE TOWN: TI N-ROOFED HOUSES. E A R N E D H E C O U L D B U Y RICE A N D F I S H . AND SLEPT

SHOPS TILTING OVER TH E GARBAGE I N THE CANA LS. AT N IGHT IN TH E CA FE OR ON THE BEACH. AT FI RST

A CRACKED STUCCO CATH E D R A L IN THE STYLE OF HE F E LT NO I NT E R E S T IN TH E D R U G -BUT T H E

GOA OR MACAO. AT THE FAR E N D OF TOWN. FAC I N G OLDER BOYS SAVED U N B URNT R E M N ANTS AND

THE SAND. A LONG SHED. THATCH-ROOFED AND C R U M B S A N D SMOKED T H E M . H UDDLED TOGETH E R

D E C AY E O . THE S I V E R P I P E CAFE-STA I N E D WALLS. OUTS I D E TH E BACK OF THE CAFE NEXT T O T H E

TEA-POT SPUMES CAUGHT IN SLANTING SUN. LOW LATR I N E . A N D W H E N THEY L I T P I P E S F O R C USTO­

PLATFORMS AROUND TH E ROOM WHERE HABITUES MERS THEY I N HA LED AS M UCH AS THEY COULD. I N

REC L I N E . A YELLOW CAT. FLYSPECKED CALENDARS T H E E V E N I NG S O N E O R TW O O F TH E M WOU L D DRESS

WITH COLOU RED PRINTS OF GODS. RADIO CRACK­ LIKE GIRLS IN A SAC R E D DRAMA AND P E R FORM THE

LING WITH GAMELAN AND C H I N ESE POP TUNES­ TRADITION A L DANCES. TH E I R LONG C U RLS BRAIDED

AND DARKLY S H A DOWED AS THE STAGE BETWEEN A N D C ROWNED WITH H EAVY WHITE FLOWERS. LIPS

WAKI NG A N D S L E EP-A HYPNAGOGIC CAFE. AT TEN ROUGED. ARMS AND LEGS B R ACLETED WITH TI NSEL.

HE FI RST LEA R N E D HOW TO SERVE THE CU STO­ S I LK C LOTH S B OU N D A R OU N D TH E I R C H I LD I S H

MERS: THE OLDER BOYS TAUGHT HIM TO HEAT THE W A I S T S -GO L D E N MOTHS. MOVI NG S LO W AS IF

HASHISH OVER A BRAZIER TILL I T CO U L D BE N A RCOTI Z E D . S H I FT I N G SLENDER H I P S TO T H E

CRUMBLED I NTO LI ITLE PASTI LL ES-TH EN FILL THE CANDLELIGHT OF D R U M . FLUTE A N D GONGS. THE

BLACKSTONE BOWL OF THE LONGSTE M M E D S I LVER DA N C E R S WERE WELL TI PPED. DISAPPEARED WITH

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TH E I R A D M I R E R S A N D C A M E BACK WITH TOYS OR BUT THE H A S H I S H NOW K E E PS H I M AWAKE SOM E

JEWE LS. AND HE DETE R M I N E D TO M A STER THE I R NIGHTS, TOO I NSANE TO MOVE, STA R I NG AT THE

SKI LLS. BY ELEVEN H E D I SCOVERED T H E PLEASURE C R ES C E N T MOON UNDER THE ROOF, A GREEN

OF TH E PI PE. A N D H E TOO BEGA N TO STEA L GREEN PARROT PERCHED O N ITS CUSP, A N D T H E SILVER

FLA K E S FROM HIS C U STOM ERS. HE SAVED COI N S HANDS D R I PPING FROM TH E STARS-NOW H E I S A

AND BOUGHT A N E W SA RONG F R O M A THI EF. OF D E VOTEE H I M S E LF: IN TH I S R E LIGION I HAVE

BLACK WATER E D C H INESE SI LK-WITH HIS WHITE I N VENTED, OF HASHISH A N D LITTLE BOYS. HE IS

BLOOD H E WAS T H E PA LEST BOY IN THE CAFE. AND BOTH WORSH I PP E R A N D OBJECT OF WORSH I P. T H E

THE I N K Y CLOTH SET O F F HIS PALLOR A N D THE H I NT S K Y OPEN S A N D BETWEEN H I S LEGS T H E BLACK

OF GOLD IN H I S BROWN B A NGS A N D COFFEE-TINTED SILK CHAFES HIM TI LL H E TH ROWS I T OFF-THE S I LK,

EYES-A N OLDER BOY TA UGHT HIM A TRICK: IF YOU AND THE TROPICAL LIMBS OF SLE E P I NG BOYS, MORE

WANT A BIGGER TIP. LET YOU R SARONG FALL OPE N . ELECTRIC THAN SILK AND DA RKER, BRIGHTER THA N

AS I F BY ACCIDENT. W H I L E YOU SERVE TH E M TH E I R A M BER. T H E MOON. A H U NDRED A N D S I X MOONS

PI PES. T H E N P R E T E N D N O T T O NOTICE BUT STAY INVADE HIS VEINS WITH THEI R PULSING L I G H T,

NAKED FOR A FEW M I N UTES TILL YOU TIE IT AGA I N . SPERMY AND OPALESQUE . HE LIGHTS THE PIPE

E V E R Y D A Y H E SWA M I N TH E SEA. A M A N GAVE H I M A AGA I N, BALANCING TH E COOL S T E M ON H I S K N E E ,

GOLD C H A I N FOR H I S N E C K IN EXCHANGE FOR A WATCHING IT GLITTER IN THE MATCH-LIGHT, AND

KISS. BY THE TI M E HE WAS TWELVE H I S EYES WERE SMOKE ENGLOBES H I S SPACE, OWL'S W I N G S B R U S H

ALWAYS LAZY. M E LTING WITH I NTOXICATION -LATE H I S SHOU LDERS AND THIGHS, H E A L O N E AWAKE I N

AT NIGHT. THE LAST FEW C U STOM E R S SLUMBERING TH IS ANDROGYNOUS C A F E , T H E MOON LIGHT K I S S I N G

D E E PLY. HE AND HIS F R I ENDS WOU LD H U DDLE H I S FEET, R U N N I N G I T S G LOWWOR M TONGUE O V E R

TOGETHER ON ONE OF T H E PLATFORMS. AWAY FROM H I S TH I N L E G S . THE N I GHT STROKES HIS I N NO­

THE PATRON'S EYE AND EAR AS H E NODDED OVER CENCE, FINGERS IT TILL IT WA KENS. A PI RATE OF

HIS TEA-POTS-CE I L I N G FAN S STI R R E D THE A I R. A S E LF-A B U S E , A N D TH E HASH I S H M I RRORS HIS

WARM SLUGGISH R A I N SPATTERED THE DRY ROOF­ PIGEON'S MOA N S, FEARFUL THE OTH ERS M IGHT B E

THE BOYS SMOKED. C U R L E D UP TOGETH ER AGAINST FEIGNING SLEEP. M I RRORS. THE SILVER PIPE CAFE

TH E D I RTY BOLSTE R S TO W H I S P E R A N D SLEEP. IS MADE OF M I R RORS-TAKE TH I S N IGHT FOR A N

LIMBS TANGLED TOGETH E R . LIKE YOUNG PYE-DOGS E M BLE M . THE H A LF-B R E E D ACOLYTE F O R Y O U R

IN TH E SHADE-NIGHTB I R D S MOA N E D OUTSIDE THE DERVISH BOY, YOU R DOU B L E - S E X E D S H A M A N

CAFE. AT TH IRTEEN HE DANCES IN A COSTU M E OF CHI LD, A N D THE LILACS O F H I S H A NDS OPEN FOR

HIS OWN I NVENTION: A LONG LOINCLOTH OF LILAC­ YOU A CRACK BETWEEN EARTH AND SKY, AND FILL

COLORED SHANTUNG, A B E LT OF CHASED SILVER, ALL TI M E WITH THE PUBESCENT LIGHTNI NG OF A

N ECKLACES OF SEED PEA RLS AND J A S M I N E , BELLS SINGLE PIPE.

ON HIS BARE A N K L E S A N D W R I STS. STILL ANOTHE R

Y E A R OR TW O BEFORE H E M U ST BEGIN T O DEPILIATE

H I S BODY AND U S E POWDER L I K E THE OLDER BOYS- PETE R WI LSON

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TH R E E T I N Y N A V E LS S E E N TOG ETH E R A L L A LMOST OH YOU'RE TOO C H I C K E N WE'LL N E V E R A S K YOU TO

A L I K E ONE M I N USCULE E M B EDDED WITH I N A BELLY C O M E A LONG WITH US AGA I N B E R N A R D SWUNG
TH E C O LO R OF DAWN ANOTHER E LO N G A T E D H I M S E LF L E I S U R E LY O F F HIS B I CYCLE R A N G T H E
SLA N T I N G TH E E Y E OF A DOE T H E T H I R D LIGHT B E L L A LONG S I D E T H E G R I LLEWORK G A T E C A L L E D
BROWN TINGED WITH A M B E R FLECKS THE T I N I EST OF OUT I M PATI E NTLY AND A F A T B O Y H I S OWN A G E
THE TH R E E B E LONGS TO ME STA N D I N G ON THE CAME TI M I D L Y OUT OF TH E TI N Y HOUSE THEY
RIVERBANK WATC H I NG TH E OTH ER TWO D A I S I E S H EA D E D O F F TOW A R D T H E R I V E R F A T L U L U ON FOOT
R E A C H I NG UP TICK I NG M Y A R M P ! TS TH E Y G ROW S O B E R N A R D BACK ON H I S B I K E ZIGZAGG I N G SLOWLY
V E R Y T A L L H E R E I N TH E M A RSHLAND BIG WHITE BACK AND FORTH OVER THE H U M P IN THE C E N T E R
GOL D E N FLOW E R S S M E L L I N G OF PEE P E E SMELLING OF TH E ROAD WOBBLING P E R I LOU SLY AT TIMES
OF FLOWERS M A K I NG ME S N E EZE DOE'S E Y E B EC A U S E TH E FRONT W H E E L T U R N E D T OO SLOWLY
W I N K S D I SAPPEARS W I TH I N A FOLD OF C L A U D E'S MOV I N G TO THE L E FT THE RIGHT B E R N A R D TRYING
BELLY H E'S SEATED A M I DS H I P S FEET SPLASH T H E TO KEEP THE BIKE B A L A N C E D SO HE WOU LDN'T
WATER T H A T COV E R S T H E TA R R E D B O A T BOTTOM FA LL ON H I S A S S G I V I N G A FEW I DLE T U R N S NOW
DOE'S E Y E W I N K I N G B LI N K I NG W H E N E V E R HE LEA N S AND T H E N TO T H E P E D A LS T H E R E ST OF T H E TI M E
O V E R TO B A I L O U T MORE WATE R AMBER NAVEL C O A ST I N G F R E E WH E E L I NG TIRES ON GRAVEL
F L A TT E N S TAUTENS STRA I N S EXE RTI ONS OF E M ITTING A N AG R E E A B L E H U M M I NG O F H A PPY B E E S
B E R NA R D'S TORSO A S H E HOI STS H I S A R M S H I G H B E R N A R D H A D C A L L E D OUT H I T H E R E FAT C U N T
C L U TC H I N G TH E HANDLE OF THE STER N OAR WHEN LULU CAME OUT OF THE HOUSE WE'RE
LOO K I N G L I K E H E'S ABOUT T O POLE VA U LT WITH I T SAILING OVER TO THE I S LA N D W A N T T O C O M E

A LONG F A T C U NT? L U L U I S NOT R EALLY A L L THAT

FAT ITS MOSTLY B E C A U S E OF HIS ROU N D MOON

Y A N N H E Y A R E N'T YOU COM I NG TOO S H R I M P? FACE HORMONES MAYBE A N D H I S C L U M SY SLOW­

HE G E ST U R ES TOWARD M E TH E N TUGS Y A N K S U P ..,OV I N G M A N N E R B E R N A R D I DLI NG A LONGS I D E H I M

H I S R E D B R I EFS S H I N Y M A T E R I A L CAUGHT P I N C H E D PLAYS T H E R O L E O F TH E H A NDSOME YOUNG HOOD

T I G H T W I T H I N T H E FUR ROW OF H I S A S S I S H A K E M Y F R E E W H E E L I NG BERNIE ON HIS W H E E LS THEY'VE

H E A D T H A T BOAT DOESN'T B E LONG TO U S SOM E H OW WITHOUT E V E R DISC U S S I N G I T A G R E E D

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TO PLAY T H E S E RESPECTIVE ROLES B E R N A R D T H E YES

CRUEL BUTCH NUMBER L U L U T H E N E L LY YO UNG

TH I N G S I M P E R I NG T R E M B L I N G W I TH A D M I RATION A BIG FAT COCKSUCKI NG FA IRY THArS WHAT YOU

A L W A Y S I N ANTICI PATIO N I NS E P A R A B L E N O W E A C H A R E I TH I N K WHAT I ' D LIKE MOST I S TO SMASH YOU R
OF TH E M N E E D I NG THE OTH E R TO C O M PLETE UGLY FAT M UG IN C O M E OVER H E R E CLOSER I S A I D
H I M SE L F PUT UP YOU R M I TT S

IT WAS TWO TH R E E Y E A R S A G O B E R N A R D FI RST

NO NO PLEASE STOP THATI
WENT TO PLAY AT LUCI EN'S THAT COM B I N ATION

CAFE AND GROCERY STORE IN TH E C E NTER OF

TOWN AND LEFT A RO U N D TEN O'CLOCK L U C I E N WE BERNARD N E V E R TOLD A N Y OF U S AOBUT IT AND I N

CALL FAT LULU FOLLO W E D HIM OUT I NTO TH E THE ST R E E T WHEN WE ARE ALL STROL L I N G

STREET G R A B B E D H I M O N E A R M A R O U N D THE N EC K ROA M I N G TOGETH E R A N D W E H A P P E N TO PASS B Y

K I S S E D H I M WETLY AS A WAY O F S A Y I N G GOOD NIGHT FAT LUC I E N H E A LWAYS TURNS H I S E Y E S A W A Y B U T

BERNARD OF COURSE SHOVING HIM AWAY AND C L A U D E A N D M E A L L THE S A M E WE SAW TH E N O N

D I SG U STEDLY W I P I NG H I S C H E E K W I TH T H E B A C K OF THE ISLAND WE'D G O N E T H E R E O U R S E LV E S TO

HIS HAND N E V E RT H E L E S S THE N EXT NIGHT F I N I S H OFF O U R LOOT STRING B E A N S IN TOM ATO

BERNARD WAS B A C K FOR MORE BECAUSE LULU SAUCE A CAN OF CONDENSED M I LK A BOX OF

SEEMED TO POS S E S S O N E O F E V E R Y TWO E V E R CHEESE C R A C K E R S I'D J U ST P I N C H E D FROM T H E

M A D E PLUS TH A N K S TO H I S FATH E R A L L T H E C A N D Y GROCERY WE R E A LLY LOVED PAC K I N G I T I N T H E TWO

A N D S O D A P O P TOO LULU R E M A I N E D T H E R E THAT OF US B U LLSHITTING Q U I ETLY AND TH A T ONE T I M E

N IGHT U N MOVI NG STA N D I N G BY THE CAFE DOOR WE H E A R D T H E M BOTH THEY W E R E V E R Y N E A R U S

SI LENTLY WATC H I NG BERNARD jiP E E D OFF TA I L B E H I N D SOM E B U S H E S B E R N A R D LEA N I N G AGA I N ST

LIGHT C L I M B I N G U P U P A N D OVER T H E R I S E I N T H E A T R E E H I S H E A D H I DDEN BY LEAVES A N D LUC I E N

M A I N S T R E E T G O N E NOW NOTH I N G L E FT BUT N IG H T O N A L L FOU R S B E R N A R D BREAKS OFF A B R A N C H

AND B L AC K N E S S AND SILENCE LULU'S MOUTH HI NGING DOWN AND SWATS LULU'S SHOU L D E R S

TREMBLING HE N O LONG E R EVEN TRIES TO KISS WITH IT TH E LEAVES SCRAPING FALLING L I K E R A I N

B E R N A R D BUT TH E Y S HOW T HE I R COC K S T O E A C H TH E N BERNARD RAINS TOO plSSES A LL OVER

OTH E R J U ST LIKE ALL THE OTH E R G U YS AND LULU'S F A C E W H O L E A PS U P TRYING T O E SC A P E

BERNARD LETS H I S O W N BE S U C K E D O F F SOM E ­ B U T B E R N A R D I S TOO QUICK G R A B B I N G H I M B Y T H E

T I M E S WHICH A LWAYS C A U S E S LULU TO G E T TOO SHOULDER FO R C I N G HIM TO K N E E L O N C E M O R E

RED IN TH E FACE BERNARD OF COU R S E N E V E R LULU F A T L U L U P I S S STILL STR E A M I N G DOWN H I S

TOUCH E S L U L U D O W N TH E R E H E P U T S O N H I S MOST CHEEKS W H I L E B E R N A R D STARTS P U M P I NG A W A Y

D I SG U STED M A N N E R IF HE SO M UC H A S SEES I T A N D ON H I S O W N M A CH I N E GETTING M O R E A N D M RO E

HE P U R POSELY NEVER WASHES HIS OWN COCK E X C I T E D H E STARTS T A L K I N G F A S T A N D L O W F I LT H Y

B E FO R E H A N D BUT THE FAT BOY DOESN'T EVEN D I SG U S T I N G S TO M A C H - TU R N I N G TH I N G S SOME

S E E M TO MIND H E L I K E S SUCKING SO M UC H LITTLE GYPSY G I R L H I S GANG HAD BEATEN UP A N D

TH EN GANG-FUCKED L U L U WATC H I NG BERNA RD

H EY FATSO WANT T O KNOW SOM ETH I N G FATSO GROW H A R D MOVES H I S MOUTH N E A R E R G R A S P I N G

TH I N K YO U'RE A R E A L Q U E E R C U N T FATSO FISHLI K E B E R N A R D SLAPPING H I M H A R D A C ROSS

BOTH C H E E K S B U T LUC I EN BEGS I N S I STS NOSTRI LS

Q U I V E R F LA R I N G W I D E LIKE A FRIGHTEN E D M A R E'S

YES
STI NK O F PISS STI N K OF S E M E N AND TH E N B E R N A R D

LETS G O W I T H A F A T GLOBULE OF S P I T R I G H T I N
I T E X C I T E S Y O U M A K E S YOU W A N T TO D ROP YOU R
LULU'S K I S S E R Y A N K S H I M BY THE H A I R S H OV I N G
COOK I ES H U H S UC K I NG O F F A R E A L TOUGH G U Y
M OO N CHEEKS AND ALL HARD U P A GA I N ST HIS
L I K E M E YOU' R E I N L O V E WITH M E A R EN'T Y O U YOU'D
GLISTE N I N G C O C K M A K I NG H I M S U C K S U C K A LL T H E
LIKE M E TO FUCK YOU UP THE ASS TI LL YOU ' R E
WHILE SUCK POU N D I NG ON LU LU'S SKULL WITH
C R I S S-EYED H U H
BOTH FI STS A LITTLE LATER H E LI FTS O N E LEG

SENDI NG HIS KNEE C R A S H I NG I NTO LUCI EN'S J A W

Y E S O H YES
WHO FALLS BACKWARD BLUBBERING BLEEDING

BERN A R D U N T I E D THE BOAT FROM I TS M OO R I N G

SHIT ON TH AT FATSO YOU R A S S I S TOO BIG TOO A N D S A I L E D OF L U L U R U N N I NG AFTER C L A U D E A N D

M U C H LI K E S HOVI NG M Y TOOL I NTO A T U B OF LARD M E W E D I DN'T F E E L M UC H L I K E TALK I N G W E J UST

O N E H U N D R E D POU ND S O F SHIT I N A FI FTY-PO U N D STA R E D A T E A C H OTH E R I M A D E A FULLY OH-LA-LA

B A G THArS W H A T Y O U A R E FATSO FA I RY GESTU R E WITH O N E H A N D A N D C L A U D E GRABBED

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TH E TIN OF CON D E N S E D M I LK FROM ME PUCKERING COLOR A N D H A I RY TOO BIG BROWN B L E M I S H ON ONE

HIS LI PS AT THE HOLE SUCKING IT A LL UP F I NA LLY A R M A N D SHOES WITH HOLES I N TH E M SHE WASN'T

WI PED HIS MOUTH C L E A N A N D S A I D QUITE CA LMLY E V E N PR ETTY BUT S H E WAS YO UNG AT LEAST A N D

ITS NOT A VERY PRETTY SIGHT HIS COCK, SO I D I DN'T D A R E A S K C L A U D E TO TELL M E WHAT

H A D H A PP E N E D WE BOTH TOOK THE ROAD B A C K

THAT W I N DS T H R O U G H T H E OPEN M E A DOWS UNTIL I T

A T FI RST WE KNOW ONLY B E R N A R D NO OTH E R GUYS
G ETS TO THE LANE T H AT LEADS UP TO THE
FROM THE VI LLAGE H E STOLE W I TH US POI NTED OUT
C H A T E A U THAT'S WHAT THEY A L L CALL O U R HOUSE
CHICKS THE ONES YOU C O U LD COP A QUICK FEEL
AROU N D HERE T H E C H ATEAU
FROM BRAGGED A LOT A BOUT B E I NG A REAL COOL

DUDE NOBODY L I K E S H I M VERY MUCH TO TELL YOU

K I C K I NG U P C H A LK Y DUST H E STA RTED W H I STLING
THE TRUTH WE LISTEN TO H I S STOR I E S BUT HAVE A
50 I FINALLY DARED WAS IT FUN? CLAUDE
H U NC H THEY'RE ALL A C ROCK OF SHIT ESPECIA LLY
S H R UG G E D S P E A K I NG I N A VOICE MORE SERIOUS
ALL THAT ABOUT HOT-ASSED C H ICKS IF YOU ASK M E
THAN USUAL I D I DN'T ENJOY I T A L ALL SHE'S A
WE'LL N E V E R GET T O S E E 50 M U C H A S ONE HOT ASS
F U C K I N G H ALF-WIT HE R E A LLY SUCKED US IN THAT
BELONG I NG TO ANY OF THEM I D I D N'T MUCH CARE
BERNARD CLAUDE WAS NO LIAR HE DI DN'T
A N YWAY I H A D ENOUGH TI M E FOR THAT LATER ON
E M BROI D E R T H I NGS A N D SO I LISTE N E D B E L I E V I NG
AND BESI DES I'M ALREADY I N LOVE BUT CLAUDE

HOPED BERNARD COULD FIX H IM U P WITH SOME

BUT SHE GOT B A R E-ASS E D DI DN'T SHE?
TOWN WHORE SOME H O T - A S S ED BEAUTY AND

TOGET H E R THEY M I G H T FUCK THAT HOT A S S O F

H E R S H E KEEPS TALKING A BOUT I T T O M E OH TH E I R Y E A H WELL NO NOT REALLY S H E Y A N K E D H E R S K I RT

E Y E S T H E I R H A I R I DON'T THI N K HE'S PRETENDING UP O V E R H E R W A I ST

EITHER HE REA LLY SEEMS TO FEEL THAT WAY

STA R I NG A T TH E M TH E WAY YOU M IGHT EYEBALL BUT YOU D I D GET TO S E E H E R PUSSY DIDN'T YOU?

SOM E MONUMENT TO THE WAR DEAD IN SOM E

V I LLAGE SQU A R E I T S THE OLDER BROADS WHO

TH R E E BOYS C ROSS IN A GREEN AND BLACK BOAT
EXCITE H I M MOSTLY TH E ONES OF OUR OWN AGE
HERE WHERE THE RIVER BROADENS BEFORE
DON'T EVEN HAVE R E A L TITS YET THEY J UST STI KE
REACH I NG THE DARK FOREST THERE WH E R E IT
POSES GO A RO U N D ACTI N G COY A N D GIGGLING
L A P S LAZILY A R O U N D A T I N Y I S L A N D COV E R E D ALL
W H I L E T H E BIGG E R O N E S ARE A L L TOO FLESHY WITH
OVER WITH U N DERBRUSH C H ESTN UT TREES T H E
SWOLLEN H A U N C H E S B I G HAMS CHEWING ON TH E I R
B L O N D BOY A N D TH E YOUNGEST K I D A R E N O T F R O M
C U DS L I K E STU P I D COWS V I C I O U S DEPRAVED HUGE
THE VI LLAGE THEIR D E L ICATE FINE FEATU R E S
RED MOUTHS AND H I G H H E E LS M AYBE ITS TH E I R
GRACIOUS MANNERS A T T E S T TO T H A T Q U I T E
STI N K THAT ATTRACTS C L A U D E THAT FEMALE
OBVIOUSLY THEY B E LO N G TO THAT P R I V AT E
S M E L L S I NC E HE KNOWS H E'S VERY H A N DSOME
I N STITUTION T H E C HATEA U T H E TWO BIGGEST A R E
THEY REA LLY SEEM TO S H A K E HIM UP A LOT H E
A BO U T TWELVE W E A R I NG B R I G HT L Y C O LO R E D
NEVER STOPS TA L K I N G A BO U T T H E M ONE
B R I EFS W H I L E T H E TH I R D I S N O MORE THAN TEN
A FT E R N OO N B E R N A R D F I N A LLY M A NAGED T O L U R E
TORSO NUDE A LSO BUT DOWN B E LOW H E SPORTS
ONE OF THEM I NTO THAT SHANTY BY THE SAWM I L L
BLACK VELVET K N E E B R E E C H E S R E M N A N T S OF
THEY MADE ME STA N D OUT BY TH E DOOR A S
SOM E E L E G A N T E IG H T E ENTH-C E N T U R Y COSTU M E
LOOKOUT I COULD H E A R T H E G I R L LAUGH A LOUD
F A L L I N G DOWN LOOSELY FROM H I S H I PS FOR WANT
SC R E E C H MAKING FUN OF THEM ALL TH E N
OF A B E LT WHITE ELASTIC BAND O F H I S U N D E R ­
COM P LA I N THEN MOAN T H E N S U DDENLY BECOM E
S H O R T S P E E K I N G OUT H E R E A N D TH E R E W H E N E V E R
S I LENT SHE WHISPERS F I N A LLY OH STOP THATI AND
H E W R I G G L E S H I S B UTTOCKS
THEN SHE WHISPERS AGA I N OH YOU'RE GETTING M E

A L L HOT A N D W E T DOWN T H E R E LOVERBOY WHAT A

LITTLE PIG YOU A R E I A N D THEY A LL LEFT BEFORE W E WENT TH E R E A LL FOUR OF US LULU I N C L U D E D

SHE DID BERNARD HAD NOT SHOT OFF I NOTICED B E R N A R D NO L O N G E R M A KES A N Y BON ES A BOUT

THAT RIGHT AWAY NOR LULU SO THAT LOVERBOY THAT H E'D TOLD U S LULU'S A FAT CUNT BUT YOU

PIG STUFF MUST HAVE BEEN FOR CLAUDE ALL TH E CAN ALL FUCK HIM IF THAT SORT OF T H I NG

S A M E HE DOESN'T EVEN H A V E H A I R DOWN AROUND I NTER ESTS YOU LULU WON'T M I N D HOW M A N Y

T H E R E YET SHE WAS FAT F R I ZZY R E D HAIR STI C K I NG A S F O R M E I'M D I SG U STED W H E N C LA UD E A G R E E S

OUT EVERY WHICH WAY STI N K I NG OF SWEAT GREEN A N D W H E N THE TI M E C A M E H E BROUGHT WITH H I M

CHECKERED S K I RT NOSE A L L D O TT E D WITH FROM T H E C H ATEAU A B I G SACK W E J U M P E D I NTO

BLACKHEADS STUM P Y D U M PY LEGS A SIC KLY GRAY T H E ROWBOAT A N D H I D OUT ON THE I S L A N D T H E

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BAG CONTA I N E D A Y E L. L.O W S I L. K GOWN G I L. T YEAH NOT L.OTS BUT A L.ITTL.E YEAH J UST L. I K E
EMBROIDERY G L. A S S J E W E L. S SEWN ON FOR ME
DECORATIONS A WH ITE WIG SOM E POWDER AND

PA I N T A N D E V E N A PA I R OF H I G H - H E E L. E D P U M PS
YOU DON'T H A V E A N Y H A I R

YEAH S H E SHOWED IT TO US A L. L. R I G H T BUT I T WAS

WHAT DO YOU KNOW ABOUT IT?
SO FUCKING D A R K IN THAT S H A N TY AND THEN WITH

AL.L. THOSE TH I C K BL.ACK H A I R S COV E R I N G I T

I'VE SEEN YOU

BUT Y O U TOUC H E D I T D I D N'T Y O U H U H

WHEN?

N O NOT M E B E R N A R D S H E D I DN'T A PPEAL. TO

OH WHEN W E GO TO B E D AND SOM ETI M E S TOO I N THE
M E AT A L.L. S H E STUN K SO B A D
MORN ING

S HA M E H U H Irs B E R N A R D'S F A U L.T C H OO S I NG O N E

AND IT DOE SN'T E M B A R RASS YOU TO STA R E AT
L. I K E THAT BUT Y O U D I D SOM ETH I N G W H A T THOUG H ?
GUYS DOWN THERE HUH BUT A L. L. T H E S A M E YOU

M U STN'T H A V E L.OO K E D V E R Y CL.OSE L.Y BECA U S E I

NOTH I N G H E R U BB E D H I M S E L. F A G A I N ST I T
HAVE SO GOT
WHEN IT C A M E T O M Y T U R N S H E U S E D H E R

FINGERS M E S S I NG AROU N D F E E L. I N G M Y Y O U K N OW
AND IN H E R GOL.DEN GOWN S H E S C R E A M E D HOOTED

FOR HEL.P B E R N A R D A R R I V I NG ON THE SCENE H I S

IS THAT WHY S H E S A I D S H E WAS A L. L. WET DOWN
WOODEN L. E G A S T U B O F B A M BOO H E'D L.ASH E D TO
TH E R E YOU D I RTY P I G ?
HIS THIGH C A L. F BENT BAK UP A G A I NST O N E

BUTTOCK H E A S K E D COU NTESS L.UL.U WHERE S H E ' D

H I DDEN THE TR E A S U R E OF COURSE CLAUDE A N D

THEY F O R C E L. U L. U TO U N D R E S S T H E N DON THE ME WE'D STA S H E D IT AWAY E A R L. I E R CANS OF
GOWN B E R N A R D G R I PS THE F A T BOY'S H EAD W H I L.E S H R E D D E D C OC O N U T L. I C O R I C E S T I C K S F I LT E R
C L. A U D E A P P L. I E S ROUGE TO HIS L. I PS POWD E R TO CIGARETTES BOOKS O F M A TC H E S TH R E E NOUGATS
H I S C H E E K S C L. A M P I NG T H E WIG DOWN H A R D U PO N CHOCOLATE EGGS F I L. L. E D WITH LIQU E U R A BIG BAG
H I S S K U L. L. W E U S E D I S G U I S E S L. I K E TH I S W H E N E V E R OF POTATO C H I PS A GL.ASS JAR OF BRA N D I E D
W E H A V E PARTI E S B A C K A T TH E C H ATEA U so NOW PEACH E S M A YO N N A I S E C R A C K E R J ACKS TINS OF
Irs COUNTESS L. U L.U W E AL.L. START T E A S I N G H E R CHOCOL.ATE C U STA R D P U D D I N G STRAWBERRY J A M
EXC E PT S U D D E N L.Y B E R N A R D POINTS T O M E A N D MACKEREL. IN WHITE WINE SOM E BROWN SUGAR
THIS SQUI RT H E R E I S N 'T H E GOING T O B E A HOT­ BACON F I V E C A N S OF SARDINES O N E OF BLACK
ASSED C H I C K TOOl L.UC K I L.Y C L. A U D E D E F E N D S M E OL.IVES TWO O F PORK AND B E A N S C A SSOUL.ET TWO
NO NOT HIM H E' S A R E A L. G U Y J UST L. I K E US OF RAVIOL.I WITH A BOTTL.E O F SPARKL.ING W H ITE
B E R N A R D M A K E S A FACE S U C K S I N H I S B R EATH BUT W I N E A N D O N E OF L. E M O N SODA BUTTER HOL.L. A N D
HE PUTS OUT A LL. TH E S A M E DON'T YOU SQUI RT? RUSK SALTED N UTS SOUR P I C K E L.S A JAR OF
TREMBLING I LOOK AWAY M U M BL.E NO I ooN'T PUT SPAGHETTI S A U C E A L L. TH E L.ooT WE'D B E E N A B LE
OUT I'M STAYI NG H E R E WITH C L. A U D E F I N A LLY TO PI NCH OVER AN E N T I R E W E E K'S TI M E B E R N A R D
WE S T A RT OUT L. E T ' S PRETEND TWO PIRATES
I N T U R N H A D S W I P E D T H E BOAT WH E R E L U L. U N OW
K I D N A P I N G TH E A D M I R A L.' S NOBL.E DAUGHTER A T PL.A YEO THE FIGHT E N E D HYSTERICAL COUNTESS
FI RST S H E'S A LL A L.ON E O N H I S S P LE N D I D GAL.LEON MY R E S PECTS DEAR LADY SAID C L. A U D E WHO
EVERYBODY E L. S E A L R E A DY M UR D E R E D TU RNED U P N O W A S T H E S H I P'S CA PTA I N H E H A S A

L.ITTL.E BURNT CORK M U STAC H E MY P I S S P ECTS

S H E D I DN'T S A Y I W A S A DI RTY P I G S H E S A I D W H A T A QUEER LADY R E PEATED B E R N A RD A N D THEY EACH

LOVE RBOY B I G I WAS TH E R E'S A BIG D I FFERENCE GRABBED COUNTESS L U LU B Y O N E PUDGY A R M M E

B E RN A R D WA NTED TO GO A L.L. T H E WAY WITH H E R E STEPPI NG A S I D E T O L.ET T H E M PASS

H E E V E N TRI E D T O STIC K I T I N B U T S H E FOUGHT H I M

O F F A N D S O H E STOPPED G E TT I N G A H A R D-ON H E'S YOU'VE O N L.Y TO SHOW THEM TO ME THEN SO

A REAL. WEI R oo A N YWAY THAT B E R N A R D IF YOU ASK L.ET ME SEE IF YOU H A V E TH E M C L.A U D E H A D
ME A L. R E A D Y REACHED TH E STEEP EMBANKMENT

WHERE T H E ROAD VEERED U N D E R T H E POPL.AR

H E H A S LOTS O F H A I R ooWN TH E R E THOUGH TREES HE TU R N E D H I S BACK TO THE HOU S E S ON

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TH E OUTS K I RTS OF THE V I LLAGE A N D OPENED H I S COV E R I NG HIS FACE B UT NOBODY LAUGHED

F L Y LOOK I NG O V E R H I S SHOULDER A L L T H E WH I LE B EC A U S E HE'S SUCH A S I LLY ASSHOLE ANYWAY

TO M A K E S U R E NO C A R WAS COM I NG FOR B E L I E V I N G I N LETS PRETEND A N D B E R N A R D

L I FT E D U P THE H E M O F H I S GOWN HEY COUNTESS

STA N D A LONG S I D E ME H E R E AS IF WE'RE BOTH J U ST YOU'RE BARE-ASSED UNDER YOUR S I LK DUDS

TA K I N G A PISS YOU'VE GOT S U C H A F A T A S S COUNTESS I T LOOKS

SUSPICIOUS TO ME I ' L L WAGER THATS W H E R E T H E

C A PT A I N ' S T R E A S U R E I S H I DD E N I A N D H E SLAPS
I F E E L LIKE PISSING A N YWAY SO H E LOWE R E D
CO UNTESS LULU ON BOTH BUTTOCKS DEAR ME
H I S B R I EFS A B I T W H E R E THE FLY G A P E D BUT NOT
D E A R M E SAYS C L A U D E COULD B E COULD B E
ENOUGH TO R E V E A L HIS PRICK AND I STAR E D DOWN

SOME HAIRS YES A LITTLE CURL TO THE L E FT

A N OTH E R TO T H E R I G H T BUT A LMOST NONE IN T H E THEY C O M E U P A LONGS I D E THE ISLAND A N D T H E

M I DDLE I F I N I S H E D PISSING I WANTED SO BA D BLOND B O Y L E A PS OUT OF THE ROWBOAT T O M OO R

TO TOUCH IT BUT H E S I TATED STRUGGLING TO S E E IT IT F I N A LLY T H E OTH E R TWO FOLLOW ALL TH R E E

BETTER I SA I D IF M A Y B E YOU COULD J UST FLUFF I T D I S A PP E A R I NG I N TO T H E UNDERBRUSH CAUSING

OUT A BIT BIRDS TO FLY UPWARD CAWING SC R E E C H I N G

D R OW N I N G OUT ALL SOU N D OF THEIR GAME

A LTHOUGH T H E I S L A N D I S E XT R E M E LY S M A L L
WHAT? W I T H J U ST U S TWO HERE? YOU
A LMOST AT T H E S A M E TI M E A S E C O N D B O A T MOVES
KNOW YOU CA N'T COME YO U'RE NOT OLD E NOUGH
OUT FROM T H E STEEP R I V E R B A N K TH I S TIME O N THE
YET
TOWN SIDE IT A LSO CARRIES THREE BOYS ALL

TH R E E NAKED TO TH E W A I ST A LL TH R E E T H E S A M E
NO I CAN'T S H OOT ANY J U I C E BUT I CAN STI LL ENJOY
AGE A S THE F I RST G R O U P B U T TH E I R C R A FT I S
TH E FEELING
DEC K E D O U T T O LOOK L l E K A S A I L BOAT A N OAR

STA N D I N G UP A LMOST STRAIGHT IN ITS CENTER

OH ALL RIGHT T H E N I D I D N'T R E A LIZE BUT LOOK
H E LD IN PL A C E BY TW I N E R E P R ES E N T I NG TH E
H E R E TELL ME SOM ETH I N G F I R ST WOULD YOU
STAYS OF A MAST A SQUA R E PIECE OF B LACK
SAY YES IF FOR E X A M PLE SOM E B I G GUY ASKS TO
C LOTH WITH WHITE POLKA DOTS N A I LE D TO
FUCK YOU UP TH E ASS TH E R E ARE BIG GUYS BACK
A N OTH E R STIC K SET C ROSSWI S E U PON THE O A R
AT THE HOUSE L I K E THAT YOU KNOW THEY WANT TO
BLACK AND WHITE B E I NG PIRATE COLORS A L L
DO IT TO THE LITTLE O N E S ALL TH E TI M E
TH R E E S PO R T I N G BANDANAS OF THE SAME

M A TE R I A L KNOTTED A RO U N D THEIR FOR E H EADS

NOW YOU' R E B E I NG DI SGUSTING BEC A U S E PLUS A BLACK P A TC H OV E R ONE EYE B E LTS
UH U H B E C A U S E WOULD YOU U H D O IT? B U LG I N G WITH WOODEN W E A PO N S K N I V E S S A B E R S

N E V E R U S I N G T H E S A I L A C T U A L L Y F O R S A I L I N G BUT

NO WELL E R THAT A L L DEPENDS ON WHO TWO OTH E R OA RS I N ST E A D VEERING TAC K I NG TH E

IT WAS SOM E TI M E I M IG H T I T ER A LL DEPENDS M A N Y C H A N G E S OF D I R ECTION SUGGEST I N G A LONG

ON WHO VOYAGE ACROSS P E R I LO U S SEAS AS THEY RUN U P

A N D DOWN TH E LENGTH OF T H E BOAT C A L L I N G OUT

V A R I O U S COM M A N DS THAT TH E W I N D ON TH I S LATE

YES M A Y B E M E TOO YES B UT J U ST THE SAME
A FTE R N OO N COUPLED WITH THE GUSH OF R U S H I NG
NO NO I DON'T THINK SO
RIVER CARRIES AWAY R E N D E R S I ND I STI NCT A N D

FLE ETI NG
TH E N LETS GO OV E R TH E R E H U H H E POI NTED

A T THE CARCASS O F AN A UTOMOBILE A B A N DON E D

ONLY TH E BODY STILL I NTACT THERE WAS A S H A R P S P R E A D YOU R CHEEKS W I D E R

TU R N I N G I N T H E ROAD L E D STRA IGHT DOWN T O TH E

R I V E R I T D I D N'T H A V E S E ATS A N YMORE NOR DOORS

M A Y B E I F WE COULD K I S S F I R ST H U H
EITHER WE LAY DOWN IN THE TALL G RASS RIGHT

BEHIND IT I HAD TO BE CAREFUL BEC A U S E OF

N ETTLES BUT T H I S T I M E T H E Y D I DN'T S E E M TO STI NG WHAT? HAVE YOU LOST ALL YOU R MA RBLES?

STRETC H YOU RSELF OUT LENGTH W I S E THAT WAY

YOU WERE A SECOND AGO

THEY STOPPED ALL THREE O F THEM BESIDE THE

HOLE I N WHICH T H E B U R I E D T R EASU RE LAY OH MY

POOR D E A R DEAD FATH E R M U R D ERED SO V I LELY B U T WITH G I R LS DON'T YOU KISS F I RST? AND

SAID LULU SOB B I N G QUITE S E RIOUSLY BOTH H A N D S S I N C E W E ' R E DOI N G T H E S A M E TH I NG NOW?

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AFTER THEY REACH THE I S L A N D AND DISEMBARK FIRST OF ALL Irs BOATS NOT CARS I ' M I NTERESTED

THEY PULL TH E I R BOAT U P ONTO TH E NA RROW IN

STRA NO OF S A N D L I FTI N G A FOURTH OCC U PANT

WHO HAS UNTI L NOW B E E N HIDDEN I N TH E BOTTOM

Irs YOU LOSS PUT YO U R PANTS BACK ON TH E N
BODY BOUND AND GAGGED A TINY GIRL LO NG

BLACK TRESSES DA R K BROWN S K I N TH READBARE

Y O U MEAN WE'RE LEAVI NG?
C LOTH E S AND HARDY IF E M ACI ATED BODY

PROCLA I M I NG HER TO BE A GYPSY HER LONG

TH I N K IT OVER CAREFULLY MY FOU R RACING CARS
C A LICO S K I RT HAS BEEN RI PPED OFF EARLI ER
PLUS TH E TRACK AND I'LL GIVE YOU SOME­
S H E'S CLOTH ED NOW ONLY IN A FI LTHY GREEN
TH ING ELSE TOO ALL THE TRADE-SPITS YOU
SWEATER A N D BADLY TORN B LOO M E R S SALLOW­
WANT
BROWN FROM TOO M UC H WEAR AND WHOSE LACE

TR I M M I N G U N R A V E LS TH E MORE ROUG H LY THEY

HANDLE H E R I NTO A S E R I E S O F STRINGY FESTOONS YOU CAN SHOVE YOUR STUPID RACING CARS BUT

F L U TT E R I N G DOWN U PON HER THIGHS LIKE WHArs A TRADE-SPIT?

J ELLYFISH TENTACLES T H E GROUP SETS OFF

IN A M A RCH THICK U N D E R B R U S H C LOSING B E H I N D DUMB ASSH OLE Irs WHEN TWO PEOPLE KISS

TH EM W I T H A R U STLE OF R E E D S EACH OTH E R BUT WITH THEIR MOUTHS OPEN ALL

THE WH I LE AND USING TH E I R TONGU E

ALL R I G H T L E r S SAY I DO K I S S Y O U B U T JUST ONCE

AND ONLY ON ONE CONDITION WHOSE TONG U E ?

WHArs THAT? BOTH TONG UES ASSHOLE INSIDE EACH OTH ER'S

MOUTHS YOU RS AND M I N E I F YOU'D L I K E

THAT YOU SUCK ME OFF IN EXC H A N G E

U G H TH AT SO UNDS D I SGUSTING STI LL WE

OH NO THArS NOT FA I R YO U'RE A R E A L BASTARD COULD MAYBE TRY I T J U ST ONCE TO SEE

YOU ARE

THEY A PPLIED A SCA RF OVER T H E GAG COV E R I NG

Irs NOT DI RTY TO SUCK HON EST I'VE DONE IT H E R MOUTH AND ONE OF THE TH R E E BOYS CAME

CLOSER A N D CLOSE R FEELING TH E LITTLE V U LVA

MYSELF
G ROWI N G MORE AND MORE EXCITED BY HIS

EXPLORATIONS BUT ONE O F TH E OTH E R TWO SAYS

YOU? WHO WITH? WITH SI MON MAYBE?
NO Irs R E N E WHO'S TO TAKE HER C H E R R Y A FTER

ALL IT'S R E N E WHO FOU ND H E R FOR US A N D THE

YOU'RE N UTS YOU K NOW THAT? NOBODY HOME BUT
BOY N A M ED RENE NODS UNBUTTON S HIS PANTS
THE CLOCK A N D THArS STOPPED AW COME ON
LETS H I S B ELLY DROP DOWN OVER THE BELLY OF
I F YOU SAY YES I'LL GIVE YOU MY FOUR RACING
THE LITTLE GYPSY WHO BEGINS TO STRUGGLE EVEN
CARS AND TH E E LECTRIC TRACK THAT GOES WITH
MORE STRONGLY
TH EM I'M NOT J UST LENDING T H E M TO YOU EITH E R

I'LL GIVE TH E M T O Y O U OUTRIGHT HON EST

YOU'RE THE ONE WHO AGREED TO IT R E M E M B E R

ALL TH E TRA DE-SPITS I W A N T A LL R I G H T GO A H EA D

THEY UNTIED TH E LITTLE G I R L G R I PPING HER BODY
K I S S M E C O M E ON
ALL TH E WHILE BECAUSE SHE HAD BEGUN TO

STRUGGLE YA N K I NG DOWN HER B E I G E BLDOM ERS

NO SUCK ME OFF FI RST
TH E R E WAS THE ROTTING H U LK OF A BOAT ITS

BOTTOM COMPLETELY F L A TT E N E D OUT RUN

SHIT YOU'RE THE ONE WHO'S ACTI NG D U M B NOW I
AGROUN D A LONG TI M E AGO D U R I N G SOME SPRING
MIGHT F E E L MORE L I K E SUCKING YOU OFF IF YOU
FLOOD THAT C OV E R E D TH I S ISLAND T H E Y' V E

TU RNED IT OVER N O W A N D H A U LED IT I NTO THE KISSED ME FI RST

BUSHES TYI N G T H E GIRL TO I T BACK A N D BUTTOCKS

PRESSED H A R D UP AGAI NST THE OUTER H U LL LEGS OH ALL RIGHT MOVE YOUR MOUTH CLOSER YOU

SPREAD APART E X H I B I TI NG A V ULVA FLAT AND TINY WANT TO KNOW SOM ETH ING YOU'RE A REAL PAIN I N

AND F U RTH E R B E LOW THAT THE I NC U RVATE T H E A S S YOU ARE I C AN'T BELIEVE A N YONE C A N B E

SHADOW O F A N A N U S S O STU P I D AT LEAST W I P E YOU R MOUTH O F F FI RST

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YOU'RE DROOLING SPIT A LL OVE R M E H IMSELF OVER THE TINY BODY AND JERKED

H I M S E L F O F F C L U M S I LY K E E P I N G ONE H A N D DOWN

B E R N A R D DECLARED THAT COUNTESS LULU WO ULD THE R E BETW E E N TH E I R TWO CROTC H E S HOPING TO

HAVE TO SQUAT DOWN AND SHIT I N ORDER FOR BE ABLE TO I N S E RT H I S THI NG I N TO BUT N E V E R

THEM TO S E E WHAT S H E MIGHT BE H I D I NG U P HER QUITE S U C C E E D I NG AND SO HE F I N A L LY SAT

HOLE BUT C LA U D E MADE A FUNNY FACE NO WE CAN A S TR I D E HER TINY T I TT l E S AND M A ST U R BA T E D

TAKE A SOU N D I NG I N THAT WELL OURSELV E S O N E FINALLY E J A C U LA T I N G THE TIP OF HIS SEX

THAT WILL B E A LOT M O R E F U N B E S I D E S A N D S O PRESS I N G AGAI N ST M A KI N G A WELL I N THE GAG

THEY BOTH DREW FORTH THEIR COCKS KICKING COV E R I N G HER MOUTH THE UP AND DOWN P U M P I NG

LULU OVER I N TO A L E A P F R OG POSITION R A I S I N G MOV E M E N T OF H I S F I S T CONTI N U A LLY S M A S H I N G

H I S G O W N U P OVER H I S B A C K COV E R I NG H I S H E A D AGA I N ST TH E C H I LO'S NOSE WHILE HIS SPERM

WITH YE LLOW S I L K W H I L E THEY FUCKED H I M THE SPLASH E D FORTH I N C O LO R L E S S BUBBLES

BOTH OF THEM B E R N A R D F I R ST THEN CLAUDE AND S E E PI NG TH ROUGH T H E GAG THE T H I R D BOY

A S FOR M E I WAS TOO E M B A RRASSED BEC A U S E OF C A R E F U LLY WIPED OFF THE STICKY B EG R I M E D

THOSE BIG SOFT LARDY CHEEKS SO PALE AND SCA R F WHICH P E R H A PS BELONGED T O H I M A N D

SQU I S H Y LOOK I NG I FO U N D I T S A D THAT C L A U D E THE N P E N ETRATED HER ROUGH L Y BUT BETW E E N

COULD EVEN T O U C H L E T A LO N E WANT T O E N T E R TH E T H I G H S

TH E M A N D SO I SAT D O W N A G A I N ST A TREE A N D

LOOKED SOM EWH E R E E L S E PLUGGING U P M Y E A R S YOU ' R E C H E A T I N G Y A N N YOU' RE N O T S U C K I N G M E

WITH M Y FINGERS S O I WOULDN'T HAVE T O H E A R ALL A T A LL LOOK S E E HOW I C A N STI LL PUT M Y ENTI R E

THOSE HORRIBLE SO U N DS THEY TAPPE D M E ON F I ST AROU N D I T T H A T M E ANS YOU H A V E N'T E V E N

TH E SHOULDER THEY WERE N'T PIRATE S ANYMORE TA K E N A L L O F TH E H E A D I NTO YOU R M O U T H Y E T

L U L U STI LL H A D ON H I S S I L K GOWN BUT I T WAS

YA N K E D EVERY W H I C H WAY T H E WIG FALLEN OFF

WE SET A BOUT D I GG I N G U P THE T R E A S U R E I LOVE
AND THE H I G H - H E E L E D PUMPS AS WELL
COLO CASSOULET PORK AND SAUSAGE AND WHITE

B E A N S ESPECIA LLY THOSE LONG THIN SAUSAGES

AND THE ONE I LOVE A M I N LOVE WITH KISSED M E MY SHAME W E D I D N 'T PINCH SOME M U STA R D AS WELL

E N T I R E FACE LAY DOWN A LONGSIDE M E H E I SN'T WE WON'T GIVE ANY OF I T TO LULU ITS HIS FATH E R

E V E N P RETE N D I NG ANYMORE HE REA LLY E NJOYS IT W E STOLE I T FROM BUT THAT PIG C U N T WON'T D A R E

KISSES SOFTLY G E N TLY MY L I PS SO WET AND SQU E A L O N U S FOR IF HE DOES WE'LL P U T H I S

S H I N I NG WITH H I S LOVELY W E T S H I N I NG LIPS MOUTH FATH E R W I S E T O A L L THOSE BOTTLES O F A P E RT I F S

HOT AND SILKY AGA I NST MY CHEEK I YANK OFF MY H E'S B E E N B R I N G I N G A S G I FTS T O B E R N A R D A N D

JERSEY SO THAT WE CAN FEEL OUR BELLI ES THAT'S EVEN GOING TO G E T WOR S E NOW T H A T

R U B B I NG SKI N AGA I NST S K I N T H E S U N I S A LREADY TH EY'VE BECOM E S U C H A SSHOLE B U D D I E S

B E H I N D TH E TREES A N D TH E TALL G R E E N GRASS

TICKLES M Y E A R S

W H A T S WRONG Y O U LOOK F U N N Y DOES IT

H U RT TOO M U C H ?
OH ITS S O LONG YOUR C OC K I F I ' D BEEN I N H E R

PLA C E I ' D H A V E LOVED GETTING I T FROM YOU BUT

A N YWA Y I ' M A BETTER LOOKING BOY THAN S H E I S A NO ITS I ' M A L L R I G H T

G I R L DON'T YOU TH I NK?

W E ' L L DO I T AGAI N E V E R Y NOW A N D THEN H U H Y A N N

I DO N 'T KNOW A N YTH I N G ABOUT THAT I F YOU W E R E THE M O R E WE DO I T T H E M O R E

T W E L V E Y E A R S OLD YOU RS WOULD BE LONG TOO

Y E A H BUT W H A T I F YOU M A K E A BABY I N S I D E M E ?

so T H E N YOU'D RATHER H A V E H E R THAN M E ?

A L L T H E S A M E S H E WAS A R E A L D OG T O L OO K AT Y O U ' R E B A TT Y A S A BEDBUG W I T H A G U Y THAT CA N'T

H A P P E N B E S I D E S ITS NOT T HROUGH THE ASSHOLE

YOU CAN'T COM P A R E THINGS L I K E THAT YOU MAKE A BABY

RENE CLIMBED OFF THE C H I LO'S V U LVA D I RTY OH GOOD ARE YOU SURE EVEN WITH

COV E R E D WITH M UC U S FOAM I N G S N AI L T RA I LS BUT G I R LS?

SHE H ADN'T BELD ANOTH E R OF THE BOYS T H I S

ONE BROA D-ASSED A N D B A NDY-LEGGED S P R E A D TH E S A M E

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THE:N LE:rS STA RT O V E: R A GA I N R I G H T NOW LI STEN DON'T SQUI R M SO MUCH YOU'RE G I V I N G ME: A

A N D TON IGHT WE: C A N H A R D TI M E I'M .JUST ABOUT READY TO COME A N D

A FTERWA RD Y O U CAN D O WH ATEVE R Y O U W A N T

S U R E: WE CAN CLIMB I N TO MY SACK HAVE

O U R S E LVE:S A BALL H U H YOU'VE SHOT OFF? I DON'T FEEL I

T H E: T H R E E PIRATES H ELD A LONG CONSULTATION SHUT UP I C A N'T CONCENTRATE IF YOU ONE

SQUATTING ON THE G R A S S A D I STANCE AWAY FROM SECOND OR SO MORE AND THERE AH

THE R U I N E D BOAT W H E:RE T H E I R VICTI M R E: M A I N E D THAT'S I T

BOU N D A N D G A G G E D THE: D I SC USSION GROWING

MORE AND MORE CONFUSE:D UNTIL F I N A LLY THE N O W Irs M Y TURN

MOST ROBUST O F THE T H R E E GOT UP AND WENT

OVER AND RAPED THE: LITTLE: GYPSY ONCE MORE

RENE B E: N T DOWN OVER THE ROPES WHICH
WHO B Y THIS TIME SCA RCE:LY STRUGG L E D TH E N THE
C R I SSC R O S S E D T H E G I R L'S T I N Y B R E ASTS A N D
OTH ER TWO I M I TATE:D T H E I R L E A D E R
SEEMED EITHER TO B E U NTYI NG T H E M O R ELSE

MOVING THEM H I G H E R U P TO TIGHTEN A RO U N D HER

AFTERWARD I'D L I K E T O DO I T T O YOU TOO NECK THEY S ET SA I L ALL T H R E E OF T H E M

L E A V I N G T H E I S L A N D NO LONGER P LA Y I N G

OH NO I ' M OLDER T H A N YOU SO I COULD HAVE A K I D

I F SOMEBODY F U C K S M E Irs N O T T H E S A M E TH I NG S P R E: A D YOUR CHEEKS WIDER CLAUDE I C A N 'T

AS WITH YOU YOU K NOW SEEM TO F I N D T H E HOLE

BUT YOU .J U ST TOLD ME THAT IN T H E ASSHOLE THAT'S YOUR WORRY

STOP I T NOW I DON'T WANT YOU TO MAKE A

BABY I CAN SEE N OW YOU D I D N 'T TELL ME THE I CAN'T REACH I T YOU'RE A REAL BUDDY YOU A R E
WHOLE STORY B E FO R E ONCE Y O U SHOOT O F F Y O U DON'T G I V E A D A M N

OH S H I T Y O U N E V E R U N D E R ST A N D A N YT H I NG YOU W E L L W H A T D O YOU W A N T M E TO DO H U H ? GO
DON'T HAVE TO WOR R Y I TOLD YOU THAT ALREADY
A H E A D I ' L L H E L P Y O U B U T .J UST TH I S ONE TI M E TRY

STICKING I T IN YES THERE Irs A LMOST I N NOW PUSH

NO I DON'T BELIEVE YOU IF I C A N'T FUCK YOU AS IT FURTH E R MAKE IT HARD SO IT WON'T K E E: P

WELL SLIDING OUT

DO YOU LIKE I T TOO C A N YOU F E E L IT?

H E GIVES M E H I S POTATO C H I PS HIS NOUGAT CANDY

I G I V E HIM MY RAVIOLI E XC E PT FOR ONE C A N A N D M Y

S H A R E OF TH E C I G A R ETTES FROM T I M E T O TI M E WHAT 00 YOU T H I N K I A M SOME HOT-ASSED C H I C K

.J U ST FOR KICKS W E TOSS O U R O L I V E PITS AT LULU OR SOM E FAGGOT H U H ? DOES TH I N K I NG I M I G H T L I K E

A S W E BULLS H I T AND B E R N A R D A LO N E EATS ALL IT M A K E Y O U A L L H O T T O D R O P YOU R COO K I E S O R

F I V E CANS OF S A R D I N E: S W I T H TOM A TO SAUCE AND SOMETH I NG ?

T H E M A YONN A I S E MOPPING U P T H E R E M A I N S WITH

H I S FINGERS L I C K I N G T H E M HE H A SN'T R EBUTTON E D NO NOT THAT I L I K E IT TOO BUT ONLY

H I S F L Y A N D I N T H E C ENTER O F H I S B R I EFS THERE'S BECA U S E Irs YOU I ' M DOI NG IT WITH BECAUSE I
A BIG STA I N OF WETN ESS SOM ETH I N G ROUND LIKE A LOVE YOU

R I N G STANDS OUT Irs HIS FOR E S K I N STRA I N I N G

FORWA R D THROUGH T H E F A B R I C L I K E A T I N Y HOSE SHIT YOU'RE A LWAYS COM I NG OUT WITH STUPID­

NOZZLE: ASS EO T H I NGS LIKE THAT FOR C H RI S S A K E S YOU

SOUND LIKE SOM E SILLY CUNT O R SOMETH I NG M E

E:VEN I F I TH I N K SUCH THI NGS I N EVER

ALL RIGHT I'LL LET YOU DO I T TO ME TONIGHT ONLY

YOU WON'T TELL A NYBODY ELSE PROMISE? BUT WH E N YOU FEEL THEM WHEN YOU REALLY LOVE

SOMEBODY

I PROM I S E B U T N O T TON I G H T RIGHT NOW

OR E LS E TAK E A W A Y YOU R COCK FROM M I N E I F I DO Irs OBVIOUS A I N'T IT SO W H Y DO I HAVE TO

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SA Y IT? HURRY UP SHAKE IT MORE YOU'L.l.­ TION W E L. F A R E YOU M E A N S N E E R S B E R N A R D NO Irs

NEVER COME A N YWAY AT YOU R AGE SO WHY P R IVATE A N D THEY'RE L.OAD E D WITH DOUGH WE'RE
BOTH E R NOT J U ST TAK E N I N OFF TH E STRE ETS YOU K N OW

W E ' R E C H O S E N WE'RE BETTER D R E S S E D THAN YOU

NO I ' M NOT F I N I S H E D I W A S STAYING I N S I DE YOU V I L.L.AGE GUYS FOR O N E TH I NG BUT DON'T YOU H A V E

J U ST FOR THE ENJOYMENT A N Y PA R E NTS? A S K S L.UL.U

YO U A I.-WAYS EXAGGERATE TH I NGS COM E ON PUl.-l.­ NO I DO N 'T HAVE ANY P A R ENTS A NSWERS C L. A U D E

I T OUT RIGHT NOW A N D H U R R Y I T U P TOO WE'VE GOT

TO BE GETTI NG BACK M U ST BE AWFUI.-L.Y I.-ATE SINCE HIM NEITHER?

I A I.-READY F E E l.- SO H UN G R Y A R E YOU GOING TO

G I V E ME YOU R DESSERT AT D I N N E R TONIGHT H U H ?

ME N EITH E R I ANSWER NOBODY DOES AT TH E

C H ATEA U
LU I.- U WATC H E D US GORGE O U R S E I.-V E S WITH L.ITTLE

S I D E I.-ONG GLANCES HE H E L.PED OPEN ALI.- TH E

W H E R E W E R E YOU FROM BEFORE T H E N ?
C A N S A N D T H E N SAT TH E R E SWA LLOW I NG H I S SPIT

LOOK I N G GL.UM WHAT A PACK O F GLUTTO N S JESUS

T H A r S O U R BUSI N E S S S A Y S C L. A U D E
DON'T YOU E V E R GET A N YT H I NG TO EAT AT YOUR

BOA R D I N G SCHOOL WE EAT A LOT BETTER TH ERE

TH A N YOU DO FATSO SAYS C L A UDE AND Irs NOT A

BOA R D I N G SCHOOL. Irs A P H I L.A NTHROPIC I N STITU - TONY D U V E RT

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TH E POPLI NG

AUDREY A N D JERRY SET OUT TO I SOL.ATE AND CAP­ "WE'L.L BE S E E I NG YOU, M I L.K BOYS."

T U R E A POPL.ING. AN OL.D STE A M R A I L.ROAD TAKES

TH E M TO A DESOL.ATE TOWN I N NORTH E R N CANADA.

THE WAGON ROAD, W H I C H WAS A LSO PASSABL.E FOR
A TRADING POST. A FEW CABINS. A GROUP OF
TRUCKS IN DRY WEATH E R . WAS YE L.L.OW G R A V E L.
ADOL.ESCENTS STA N D I N FRONT O F THE TRADING
WINDING B E TW E E N B I RC H AND PINES. W I L. D
POST. THEY S N I GG E R A N D G I G G L. E A N D N U DG E
FL.OWERS GREW B Y THE S I D E OF THE ROAD, A N D A
E A C H OTH E R A S T H E TWO BOYS P A S S T H E M O N T H E
MOU R N I NG DOVE COOED SOFTL.Y FROM WOODS. A S
W A Y I N TO T H E TRADING POST. O N E O F T H E L.OCA L.
THEY W A L. K E D T H E Y SWATTED AT D E E R F L. I E S THAT
YOUTHS TWISTS H I S H E A D T O O N E S I D E A N D RUBS
L.IT ON THEIR NECKS AND HANDS AND FACES.
HIS CROTC H . A U D R EY F E E L.S A B L. U S H B U R N I NG THE
STIN G I N G L.I K E S PA R KS O F F I R E .
BACK OF HIS N ECK.

"THEY C A N EVEN BITE Y O U ON TH E PAL.MS OF T H E

T H E CL.ERK I S A YOUTH WITH ON E E Y E SL.ATE GRAY.
HAND," A U D R E Y S A I D . " A N D THE B I G H O R S E F L. I E S
TH E OTH ER BL.ACK. HE PUTS OUT HIS H A N D.
CAN BITE TH ROUGH J E A N S."

"I'M STEVE . . . YOU TWO A R E L.OOK I N G FOR T H E

"YOU KNOW THIS COUNTRY PRETTY WEL.L. • • :'
P I P E R BROTH ERS, R I G H TI WEL.L. J U ST FOL.L.OW T H A T

WAGON ROA D OUTS I D E . YOU CA N'T M I SS IT. T H E R E'S

''THE C A B I N W E ' R E GOI N G TO STI L.L. BEL.ONGS TO M Y
ON L.Y ONE ROAD. WAL.K A BOUT TWO M I L.ES A N D TAKE
FATH E R , BUT I H A VEN'T BEEN H E R E S I N C E I W A S
T H E PATH TO YOU R R IGHT. ITS A M I L. E FROM THE
TH I RTE E N. W E A L. W A Y S N E EDED A G U I DE T O F I N D I T
FOR K TO THE PIPER P LA C E . . . "
. . . THIS M U ST B E TH E T U R N OFF."

OUTS I D E , THE BOYS A R E S I TT I N G IN A U N E , L.EANING THEY T U R N E D I NTO A N A R ROW FOOTPATH AND TH E

AGA I N ST THE WAL.L., KNEES UP, WOB B L. I N G TH E I R SHADOW OF DEEP WOODS. WEEDS AND BUSHES

KNEES BACK AND FORTH AND R U B B I NG TH E I R BRUSHED TH EM AS THEY PASSED, AND NOW

C ROTC H ES. O N E CA L.L.S A FT E R TH E M . CL.OUDS OF VORACIOUS MOSQUITOS TOOK OVE R

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FROM THE BITING F L I E S . T H E Y STO P P E D A N D CANOES G L I D E D OUT I N TO THE CLEAR BLUE WATER,

RUBBED CITRONELLA ON T H E I R FACES A N D H A N DS. A U D R E Y COULD SEE GREAT BOU L D E R S ON THE

THE MOSQUI TOS HOV E R E D AROUND THEM. BUZZ I N G BOTTOM, SOME F I FTY F E ET I N HEIGHT. H E S H I V E R E D
I N FRUSTRATION. S L I G H TLY-TH E R E WAS SOM ETH I N G C H I LL I N G
A BO U T T H E SILENT BLUE D E PT H S AND THE

THEY STEPPED FINA LLY I NTO A CLEARING BY A S H A DOWS O F THOSE BOULDERS. ROLLED DOWN BY

LAKE. A N D T H E R E ON A H I G H ROCKY BA N K OVE R GLAC I E R S M I LLIONS O F YEARS AGO. HE KNEW THAT

T H E L A K E W A S T H E P I P E R C A B I N. TH E MOSQUITOS T H E LAKE WAS MORE THAN A THOU S A N D FEET D E E P

FELL AWAY B E H I N D TH E M . THE YOUNGER PIPER, I N T H E M I DDLE.

WHO WAS ABOUT 20, WAS CUTTI NG WOOD, H E DROVE

HIS AXE INTO THE BLOCK A N D CAME OVER TO GREET THEY PADDLED FOR TWO HOURS. A N D AT SU NSET
THEM. HE COULD SEE A H E A D A LITTLE PI E R AND A SANDY
I NLET. H E KNEW THAT THE HOUSE WAS SET I N A

"YOU'RE AUDREY A N D J E RRY. I'M CARL P I PER." GROVE OF PI N E A N D B I RCH A FEW H U N D R E D FEET
A BOVE THE PIER. THEY TIED U P AT THE PIER A N D
J U M PE D OUT. TH E P I E R E N D E D I N TEN F E E T O F
TH E OLDER BROTH E R . W H O WAS AROUN D TH I RTY.
WATER. A U DR E Y R E M E M B E R E D F I S H I N G FROM T H E
WAS SITTING IN THE OPEN DOOR OF TH E CABIN
E N D OF IT FOR ROC K BASS A N D YELLOW P E R C H . T H E
TY ING A FLY. H E LOOKED U P AND NODDED GRAVELY.
B A N K SLOPED STE E PLY F R O M THE E N D OF T H E P I E R
BOTH T H E PIPERS H A D Y ELLOW H A I R. BRIGHT BLUE
I N TO C L E A R B L U E D E PTHS. A U D R E Y L E O TH E WAY
EYES. A N D C U RIOUSLY POI NTED EARS. THE OLDER
UP TH E PATH TO TH E HOUSE.
PIPER WENT BACK TO HIS FLY. H E FINISHED IT. HELD
IT U P TO THE LIGHT A N D LOOKE D AT IT C RITICALLY,
TUR N I N G IT IN H I S H A N DS. HE PUT IT I NTO A FLY BOX. IT W A S JUST A S HE R E M E M B E R E D IT. A SC R E E N E D
PORCH I N FRONT. TWO P I N E C H A I R S ON TH E PORCH .
H I S K E Y O P E N E D THE LOCK A N D THEY STEPPED
"WELL," HE S A I D AT LAST. "SO YOU WANT TO GO TO
I N TO TH E LIVI NG ROOM, P I N E P A N E LLING, SMALL
YOU R FATH ER'S COTTA G E AND F I N D A POPLI NG. YOU
W I N DOWS, P I N E F U R NITURE. LOW TABLE, A BOOK
KNOW THAT A POPLING HAS A LREADY FOU N D YOU?"
C A S E WITH SOM E OF A U DR EY'S OLD BOOKS STI L L
T H E R E . THE BOOK O F KNOWLEDGE. SOM E COPI ES OF
H E LOOKED AT J E R RY A N D A D D E D "BOTH OF YOU,"
ADVENTURE A N D AMAZING STORIES. A N D A STACK OF
LITTLE B L U E BOOKS. T H E KITC H E N H A D A WooD­
"WELL YES, WE KNOW THAT A N D THATS WHY. WE'LL B U R N I N G STOVE A N D P I N E TABLE WITH C H A I RS.
HANG I T A LL. W E HAVE TO COME TO TERMS WITH T H I S
TH ING,"
UP THE STE E P STA I R S ON THE SECOND FLOOR
TH E R E WERE TWO B E DROO M S OVER THE LIVING
H E NODDED, "YES. i F THATS WHAT YOU WANT." R O O M A N D A S M A L L E R B E D R OO M O V E R T H E
K I TC H E N . T H E R E WAS A BATHROOM WITH R U N N I N G
"WH E N CAN WE START?" W A T E R A N D F L U S H TOI L ET A N D BATHTU B . WATE R
FLOW E D FROM A TWO- H U N D R E D-GA LLON TA N K I N

" R I G H T AWAY. ALL P R E P A R ATIONS H A V E B E E N T H E ATTIC, W H I C H WAS F I LLED B Y A P U M P FROM T H E

MADE." L A K E . T H E R E W A S A BOI L E R T H A T C O U L D B E
H E A T E D BY A S M A L L STOVE T O PROV I D E HOT
WATER, ON THE BACK PORCH, WHICH WAS A LSO
THE TRIP TOOK T H R E E DAYS. WITH BACK-BREAKING S C R E E N ED, TH E R E WAS A N ICE BOX A N D A WOOD
PORTAGES EVERY FEW M I LES, AT THE E N D OF THE BIN.
DAY J E RRY AND A U D R E Y WOULD FALL ASLEEP
I M M E DI ATELY AFTER SUPPER. WHICH WAS BLACK B E H I N D T H E HOUSE W A S A W OO D S H E D A N D A N I C E
BASS O R WALLEYED PIKE WITH B I SCU ITS AND D R I E D H O U S E A N D A L O N G L O W B U I LD I N G WITH A B E A M E D
FRUIT. TH E PIPERS SAT U P D R I NKING COFFEE A N D C E I L I NG T H A T H A D BEEN H I S FATH E R'S WORKSHOP.
P LA Y I N G ON T H E I R W OO D E N F L U T E S , A U D R E Y T H E TOOLS WERE STI LL TH ERE-SOM E L U M B E R, A
DRI FTED OFF TO SLEEP WITH T H E STRANGE WILD D R U M OF KEROSENE. A N D A COI L OF ROPE. AUDREY
MUSIC IN H I S EARS: THE P I P E S OF PAN, LOO K E D U P AT T H E B E A M S A N D REMEMBERED A N
I N C I DENT T H A T H A D OCCU R R E D ON H I S LAST STAY
LATE A FTERNOON ON T H E TH I R D DAY THEY C A M E TO H ER E . W H E N HE WAS THI RTEEN, HIS FATH E R A N D
WIDE LAKE A FTER A TH R E E M I LE PORTAGE. AS THE BROTH E R H A D ROWE D T O TH E OTH E R S I D E OF T H E

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L. A K E TO F I S H . A U DREY WATC H E D T H E M GO WITH A EXPL.A I N IT TO H I S FATHER1 HE GOT AN IDEA. H E

T I N G L. E OF A NTICI PATION IN H I S CROTCH A N D T H E TOOK A PA I L AND W E NT OUT TO PICK SOME

P I T O F H I S STO M A C H . H E WAS GOI NG T O JACK OFF. B L. AC K B E R R I E S . WHEN HIS FATH E R C A M E HOME

BUT TH E R E WAS NO H U RRY NOW. H E COUL.D T A K E J U ST B E FO R E S U N S ET AND ASKED. "WHAT

H I S TI M E A B O U T I T . H A P P E N E D T O YOUR N EC K A U D REY1"

H E W E N T OUT TO H I S FATH E R'S WOR KSHOP. L.OOK I N G "WELL. U H I W A S P I C K I NG BL.AC K B E R R I ES AND I FEL.L.

UP AT T H E SMOOTH ROU N D BEAMS. H I S FATH E R AND A BRANCH GOT TANGL.ED A RO U N D M Y N EC K . "

P L.A N N E D T O N A I L. P L.A N K S T O THE B E A M S T O FORM

AN ATTIC AND STORE ROOM TO THE WORKSHOP. BUT H I S FATH E R L. OO K E D A T H I M S P E C U L. A T I V E L Y F O R A

THIS WAS NEVER ACCOM P L. I S H ED. L.OO K I N G U P AT M O M ENT. AND AUDREY FEL. T H I M S E L. F B L. U S H I NG.
THE BEAMS. A U D R EY S U D D E N L.Y FEL. T A FEEL.I NG OF BUT NOTH I NG MORE W A S S A I D . A L L TH I S C A M E BACK
W E A K N ESS IN H I S C H E ST. HE WAS STA RTI NG TO GET TO HIM AS HE STOOD IN THE WORK ROOM WITH
A H A RD-ON AS HE R E M E M B E RED SOM ETH I N G H E JERRY AND T H E PIPER B ROTH E R S AND GLANCED U P
H A D R E A D I N A N O L. D M E D I C A L. BOOK H E FOU N D I N A AT T H E B E A M .
T R U N K I N T H E ATTIC OF T H E FAMI L.Y HOUSE IN ST.

L.OU I S . I T WAS A BOUT DEATH BY HANGI NG:

A U D R E Y P I C K E D U P A S H O V E L A N D A C A N . " L. ErS

CATCH S O M E FISH FOR D I N N E R 1"

"EJAC UL.ATION IN YOUNG MAL.E SUBJECTS D U R I N G

H A NG I NG I S SO FREQUENT AS T O BE TH E R U L.E. T H I S
HE K N E W EXACTL. Y T H E SPOT TO DIG FOR WOR M S .
G E N E R A L.L.Y O C C U R S TW I C E . ONCE I M M E D I ATE L.Y
TH I S WAS A COM POST HEAP OF GARBAGE AND
AFTER THE DROP W H E N THE NECK I S BROKEN AND
H U M U S F O R T H E W I LD F L. O W E R G A R D E N AT T H E S I DE
ONCE J UST BEFORE T H E BL.OOD STOPS C I RC U L.AT­
OF THE HOUSE. V I O L ETS AND FORGET-ME- NOTS.
ING AND THE H E A RT STOPS. HOWEVER. IN SOME
AND EVEN SOME OF THE IRIS HIS FATH E R HAD
CASES EJACU L.ATION MAY OCCU R TH R E E TI M E S
BROUGHT IN. S T l L. L B L.OO M E D TH ERE. EVERY
A N D SOM ETI M E S A S OFTEN A S FIVE T I M ES. F U L. L.
SHOVE L O F D I RT TU R N E D U P T H I C K R E D WORMS.
CONSC I O U S N E S S M A Y P E R S I ST F O R A S L. O N G A S
A U D R E Y COULD S E E T H E FISH FLAPPING ON THE
TH R E E M I NUTES WITH THE N E C K BROK E N . A N D A S
PIER. FEEL T H E JERK AND VI BRATING W E I G H T ON
L. O N G A S TW EL.VE M I N UTES I N CASES W H E R E T H E
T H E LINE. J E R R Y AND A U DR E Y GOT TH E I R F I S H I N G
NECK IS UNBROKEN OR L. I G H T L. Y FRACTU R E D .
PO L E S A N D W A L K E D DOWN T O T H E P I E R .
E J A C U L. A T I O N IS THOUGHT TO R E S U L.T FROM

P R E S S U R E O N T H E VAGUS N E R VE."
THE P I P E R S W E R E B U S Y U N P A C K I N G G E A R FROM

T H E C A NOES. T H E SUN WAS SETTING AC ROSS THE

A U D R E Y WAS STA N D I N G U P AT TH E ATTIC W I NDOW
L. A K E . AND THREE G E ES E FLEW N O RT H IN V
WHEN HE READ THIS. HE BECA M E QUITE DIZZY. A N D
FO R M ATION. S O M EW H E R E IN THE D I STANCE THE
SI L.VER SPOTS BOI L. E D I N FRONT O F H i S E Y E S A N D
L A U G H OF A L.OON. T H E WATER WAS SMOOTH A S
H E W E N T O F F I N H I S PANTS. WEL.L.. NOW W A S H I S
G L. A S S . AUDREY B A I T E D H I S HOOK A N D L. E T T H E
CHANCE TO TRY IT. H E A RT POU N D I NG. BREATH
UNE SUDE I N TO THE BLUE WATER. J E RRY WAS
W H I ST U NG T H R O U G H H I S T E E T H . H E F A S H I O N E D A
FI S H I N G FROM TH E OTH ER SIDE OF TH E PIER.
H A N G M A N'S K N OT A N D THREW THE ROPE OVER A
A L.MOST AT O N C E A U D R E Y FELT THE T U G O N H I S
BEAM. HE STRI P P E D OFF H I S C L.OTH ES. H I S COCK
L I N E A N D P U L L E D O U T A O N E-POU N D ROCK BASS. I N
HARD AND L. U BRI CATI NG AS HE ADJUSTED THE
TWENTY M I N UT E S T H E Y H A D S I X R OC K B A S S A N D
KNOT B E H I N D HIS L E FT EAR. REACHED U P AS FAR
S E V E N Y E LL.OW PERCH. T H EY C L E A N E D T H E FISH I N
AS H E COULD O N THE LOOSE E N D OF T H E ROPE.
T H E LA K E A N D C A R R I E D THE ENTRA I LS I N A P A N
AND P ULLED H I M SE L. F U P ON TI P TOE. THEN H E
A N D D R O P P E D T H E M O N T H E COM POST H EAP. A F I R E
A R C H E D H I S F EET. S W I N G I N G A FEW I NC H E S OFF T H E
W A S A LR E A D Y B U R N I N G I N TH E K I TC H E N STOVE.
FLOOR. B L OO D POU N D E D A N D S A N G I N H I S E A R S

A N D T H E R OO M BLAC K E D OUT A N D H E WENT OFF.

H E C A M E TO H I M S E L F LYI NG ON THE FLOOR. H I S IN THE DAYS THAT FOLLOWED T H E Y FISHED A N D

N E C K V E R Y SORE A N D A TASTE OF BLOOD I N H I S SWAM A N D H I K E D A N D C ANOED A R O U N D T H E L.AKE.

MOUTH. HASTILY H E D R E S S E D A N D U N D I D T H E KNOT

AND COILED THE ROPE. HE WENT BACK TO T H E "TH E P R E S E N C E OF H U M A N BODI E S W I L L DRAW THE

H O U S E A N D LOO K E D I N THE M I R ROR. TH E R E WAS A POP L. I N G,'· L I E F TOL.D A U DREY. "SOO N E R OR L.ATER

RED MARK AROUND HIS N EC K . HOW WOU L.D HE HE W I L L SHOW H I MS E LF:'

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FOR A W E E K NOTH I N G H A PP E N E D, A N D THEN ONE ALMOST TRANSPARENT. A ND WAS EXACTLY THE

AFTE RNOON A S J ER RY AND A UD R E Y WERE COM ING COLOR O F TH E SAND, WEBBED FEET TRA I L I N G I N

BACK FROM A WALK A R O U N D T H E EDGE OF TH E TH E WATER. A T TH IS MOMENT A B R E EZE R U STLED

LA K E WITH TWO BLACK BASS A N D A WALL EYED PIKE ACROSS THE LA K E BETW E E N THE C R E A T U R E'S

A U D R E Y SUDDENLY STOPPED A N D PUT H I S H A N D IN LEGS, STI R R I N G SAND-COLORED PUBIC H A I RS. A N D

FRONT OF J E R RY. H E K N E W THAT J U ST AHEAD WAS T H E CREATU R E GOT AN E R ECTION AND EJACU­

A LITTLE SANDY I NLET BETW E E N TWO BOULDERS. LATED WITH A LOW WHISTLING SOU N D . THE B R E EZE

YOU COULD E A S I LY M I SS I T BECAUSE THE R E WERE D I ED A N D TH E C REATU R E LAY TH E R E AS IF DEAD.

BUSHES GROW I N G A RO U N D TH E BOULDERS THAT

ALMOST CON C E A L E D T H E I N L ET. H E KNEW IT WAS TRYING TO MAKE AS LITTLE NOIS E A S POSSI B L E THE
TH E R E BECA U S E TH R E E DAYS B E FORE, H E AND BOYS DROPPED DOWN ONTO THE SAND BETW E E N
JERRY HAD STOPPED H E R E FOR A S W I M . TH E POPL I N G A N D TH E WATER. T H E C R E AT U R E

LEAPED U P. A N D WHEN H E SAW H I S WAY TO THE

THE W A T E R W A S S H A L LOW FOR A BOUT TWENTY
WATE R WAS CUT OFF H E GAVE A W H I STLING SIGH OF
FEET, AND TH E N THE B A N K FELL AWAY S H A R PLY
FEA R, TU R N E D GREEN, AND SHIT O N THE SAND.
I NTO DEEP WATER. SOM E HOW A U D R E Y COULD
AUDREY COULD S M E LL IT AS H E MOVED FORWA RD,
N E V E R B R I N G H I M S E L F T O S W I M OUT I NTO T H E D E E P
QUICKLY STRI PPING OFF H I S BELT AND P I N I O N I N G
WATER, A N D A N YWAY T H E WATE R WAS M UCH TOO
T H E CREATUR E'S A R M S . IT S M E L L E D LIKE H UM U S ,
COLD TO STAY IN FOR MORE THAN A FEW M I N UTES.
STA LE F L OW E R S, A N D STA G N A N T W A T E R W I T H
SO THEY SWAM C LOSE TO SHORE AND THEN C A M E
ACCENT S P R I N K L E D OVER IT. TH EY CA R R I E D T H E
O U T A N D STOOD ON TH E SAND, R U N N I NG TH E WATE R
POPLING S E V E R A L H U NDRED Y A R D S B A C K T O T H E
OFF TH E I R BOD I E S A N D S H IVERI NG. AS THE S U N
HOUSE. TH E G R E E N COLOR SLOWLY S U B S I D E D. T H E
WARMED THEM TH E Y S T O O D W I TH TH E I R ARMS
CREATU R E WAS LOOKI N G AT AUDR EY, WHO WAS
A R O U N D E A C H OTH E R 'S S H O U L D E R S , LOOK I N G
CARRYING HIS LEGS, A N D H E GAVE A LITTLE COOI NG
ACROSS T H E LAKE. A N D TH R E E G E E S E FLEW OVER,
GIGGLE THAT S E N T A SHIVER DOWN A U D R EY'S
HEADING NORTH. A U D R E Y BECA M E AWARE THAT
SPINE. C A R L OPENED TH E DOOR AND TH EY C A R R I ED
SOM EONE OR SOM ETH I N G WAS L OOK I NG AT HIM. H E
THE POPLING I NTO THE LIVING ROOM. CARL BOLTED
F E L T A S U D D E N R U S H OF B LOOD T O H I S CROTCH.
TH E DOOR .
J E R R Y G LA N C E D DOW N . G R I N N I NG.

"THEY'VE GOT H I M."

"YOU'RE GETTI NG A H A RD-ON. A U DREY."

LIEF CAME OUT OF TH E KITC H E N WHERE H E HAD

"YEAH. I S U D D E N LY GOT HOT FOR SOM E REASON."
BEEN PREPA R I NG THE EVEN I NG M E A L . A S M E LL OF

FRYING F I S H C A M E OUT WITH HIM A S H E OPENE D

"ME TOO. LOO K . " HE POI N T E D DOWN TO HIS TH E DOOR. NOW T H E POPLI NG BEGAN TO STRUGGL E
STI FFE N I NG P H A L LU S . LIKE AN I M PATI ENT DOG AS H E WHI STLED O U T . . .

"FISH FISH FISH."

THEY STOOD THERE WITH TH E I R ARMS ST I L L

AROUND EACH OTH E R'S SHOULDE RS, AS IF THEY AUDREY UNTIED THE C REATU R E 'S ARMS A N D SET

WERE HAVING A P I C T U R E TA K E N , AND A U D R E Y HIM GENTLY ON H I S FE ET. H E S N I F FE D THROUGH

REA LIZED THAT IT F E LT EXACTLY L I K E SOMEONE TH E OPEN DOOR OF TH E KITCHEN. WHERE LIEF HAD

WAS TAKING A P I CTU R E . N EXT TAKE SHOWED THE ALREADY LA I D OUT PLATES O F FRIED FISH WITH

TWO BOYS J A C K I NG OFF, BOD I E S CONTRACTED, BISCU ITS AND RICE. THE PO P L I N G G R A B B E D A

LOOKING DOWN A S TH EY EJACULATED A N D AUDREY PLATE OFF THE TABLE AND C A R R I E D IT I N TO A

THOUGHT OF A PICTURE H E H A D SEEN I N PARIS OF A CORN E R OF TH E KITC H E N , W H E R E HE SQUATTED

LITTLE BOY PISSING I N TO T H E WATER . . . "NE BUVEZ DOWN EATING THE FISH WITH D E LICATE VO RACITY,

JAMAIS D'EAU" A S THE I R S E M E N SLASHED INTO THE CRAMMING RICE A N D BISCUITS INTO HIS MOUTH

WATER LIKE SALMON ROW. WITH HIS HA NDS. I N A FEW SECONDS H E H A D P IC K E D

TH E BON ES C L E A N . A U D R EY H A N D E D H I M ANOTH E R

NOW HE KNEW THAT WH ATEV E R HAD BEEN PLATE A N D H E ATE THAT TOO. THEN H E C U R L E D U P

WATCHING TH E M WAS TH E R E I N TH E I NLET. THEY IN H I S COR N E R A N D WENT TO S L E E P.

MOVED FORE W A R D CA UTIOUSLY AND PARTED THE

BUSHES OVER THE I NLET A N D P E E R E D DOWN. AT A FT E R T H E Y H A D F I N I S H E D EATING, A U D R E Y

FI RST THEY SAW NOTHI N G . TH E N A U DR E Y MADE OUT STEPPED OVER TO THE POPLING A N D TOUCHED H I S

A FIGURE LYI N G IN THE S A N D. THE FIGU RE S E E M E D SHOULD E R . TH E POPLI NG LOOK E D UP AT HIM,

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T U R N E D A SALMON P I N K COLOR A N D ROLLED OVER HE CAN SEE WITH H I S WHOL.E BODY A N D OFTEN

ON H I S BACK WITH HIS LEGS I N THE A I R A N D MADE A TURNS AROUND AND B E N DS OVER TO L.ooK AT ME

STRANGE POP P I N G SOU N D IN HIS TH ROAT. HIS WITH HIS ASS. THIS M ET H O D OF P E R C E PT I O N

P E N I S SURGED E R ECT L. I K E SOME P I N K TRANSL.U­ PRODUCES A P H Y S I C A L. I M P A CT. L. I K E SOFT

CENT FISH. A U D R EY AND J E R RY CARRIED HIM EROGENOUS S P A R KS. I C A N TEL.L. I F H E I S L.OOKI N G

U PSTA I RS TO T H E BE DROOM A N D L. A I D H I M DOWN ON AT M E W I T H M Y B A C K T U R N E D.

T H E B E D WITH A BATH TOWEL UNDER HIS ASS. THE

P O P L. I N G W R I T H E D E C S T A T I C A L. L. Y . HE T U R N E D J E R R Y A N D I A R E N A K E D MOST OF THE T I M E . A N D WE
BR IGHT REO AND S HIT. A U DR E Y AND J E R RY ARE SL.OWL.Y L.EA R N I NG HOW TO SEE WITH OUR
STRIPPED OFF TH E I R SHORTS. DROPPED THE BATH BODIES. THE ASS. N I PPL.ES AND GENITAL.S ARE THE
TOW E L ON TH E FL.ooR A N D BEGAN CARESSING H I M . MOST S E N S I T I V E S E E I NG AREAS. A N D THE L.ooK ­
R U N N I NG LIGHT F I N G E R S OVER H I S N I PPL.ES A N D OUT IS D I F F E R E N T ACCOR D I N G TO WHICH AREAS
N UTS AND ASS. THE PO P L. I N G TU R N E D P U R PLE. A R E USED. A BOVE A L.L.. THE POPL.I N G WANTS TO BE
ORANGE. S A L. M O N . P I N K-TH E COLORS WA S H I N G SEEN WITH OTH E R BODIES AND TO SEE OTHE R
THROUGH H I S BODY SO T H A T AUD REY A C H E D TO BOD I ES. W H E N H E L.OOKS A T M E WITH H I S N I PPL.ES.
L.OOK AT H I M . K I C K I NG H I S L.EGS SPASMODICAL. L.Y I N M Y N I PPL.ES BECOME E R ECT. TODAY I WAS IN T H E
TH E AIR. THE COL.ORS FLASH I NG THROUGH HIM WOR KSHOP A N D T H E PO P L. I N G C A M E I N . H E L.oo K ED
FASTER AND F A ST E R . HE CAME IN A S H R I L. L. AT THE BEAMS AND MADE A L.ITTL.E C H I R P I N G
W H I STL.E OF ECSTASY THAT BROUGHT THE TWO GIGGL.E SOU N D T H A T V I BRATED I N M Y TH ROAT. A N D
BOYS OFF WITH H I M . T H E N H E L.OOKE D AT M E W I T H H I S N E C K W H E R E A

REO L. I N E L. I K E A ROPE MARK A P P E A R E D. AND

J ER K E D H I S H E A D TO T H E L. E FT A N D I EJACUL.ATED.

HIS W H I STL.ES AND C H I RPS VI BRATE IN M Y BODY

A U DREY'S NOTE ON THE POPLl NG: PHYSICAL L.IKE SOM E SON A R L.ANGUAGE.

C H A RACTE R I STICS: H E I S Q U I T E TA L L. A L. MOST S I X

F E ET. BUT SO S L.E N D E R THAT HE C O U L. D NOT H E CAN MAKE H I M S E L. F TRANSPA R E N T AND SHOW

W E IGHT MORE THAN 1 1 0 PO U N DS. HIS NECK IS HIS V I SC E R A . U K E A TROPICAL. FISH. HE SEEMS TO

S E R P E NTI N E AND FL.EXIBLE. H I S HEAD COMES TO A BE ABL.E TO E J A C U L.ATE ANY N U M B E R OF T I M E S .

POINT A N D IS QUITE H A I R LESS. HOWEVER. HE HAS ACH I EV I N G E ROTIC FRENZIES THAT ARE A L.MOST

PU BIC AND R ECTAL. H A I RS. WHEN H E SWIMS. H I S P A I N F U L. TO WATC H . THESE FRENZIES A R E MORE

P E N I S A N D TESTICLES A R E R ETRACTED I NTO H I S AND MORE F R E Q U E NT. HOWEV E R . HE W I L. L. NOT

BODY. L.EAV I NG A S M OOT H S U T . NORMA LLY H E I S A AL.L.OW J E R R Y O R ME TO FUCK H I M . I F W E TRY TO

S I L.VER GRAY TRANSLUCENT COL.OR. WITH HUGE F U C K H I M . HE T U R N S G R E E N AND SH ITS. CARL. H A S

CL.EAR G R A Y S H I M M E R I NG E Y E S . H I S BODY G I V E S EXPL.A I N E D TO M E THAT IT IS FATAL. F O R A POPL.ING

O F F A G R A Y GHOSTL.Y U N D E RWATER SPERM S M E L L TO BE FUCKED. " H E WIL.L. POP A L. L. T H E WAY AND DIE."

H E DE FECATES F R O M S U D D E N FEA R O R PL.EAS U R E .

B U T HAS N O W L.EA R N E D TO USE TH E TOI L.ET A T "WHAT HAPPENS I F HE FUCKS M E 1"

OTH E R TIM ES. HE IS AN I N STANT C H A M E L E O N .

C H ANGING COL.OR I N A S PL.IT S E C O N D TO M ATCH H I S

"THAT YOU W I L. L. F I N O OUT SOON ENOUGH."
S U R ROUNDI NGS. P L. E A S U R E IS A L.W A Y S MANI­

FESTED B Y REO A N D F E A R B Y GREEN. THE PUBLIC

AND RECTAL. H A I RS C H A NGE COL.OR WITH HIS SKIN. WIL.L.IAM B U R ROUGHS

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THE COM M ITTAL

TWO DAYS AFTER THE COMMITTAL HEARING, I WROTE THING AS I LOOKED AT H I M -THAT I LOVED H I M. THAT

TO A CLOSE FRIEND: WAS THE ONLY REALITY ON MY SIDE OF THE COURT.

EACH T I M E LOVE STRUCK THE A I R. W H E T H E R AS

"I FEEL CALM AND ACCEPTING AND HAVE A CLARITY GLANCES OR IN WORDS. THEY DEFIED BOTH THE
ABOUT WHAT I MUST 00 THAT I DIDN'T HAVE BEFORE. DEREUCTION OF T H E PROSECUTION AND T H E LEGAUSM
THE IRRELEVENCE AND CRUDITY AND H UMAN FAILURE ON THE DEFENCE. AND THAT OF COURSE IS WHY THE
(WHICH WAS VAST) O F THE COURT ON FRIDAY MANAGED CASE IS BOUND TO G O ON.
TO SIFT THE WHEAT FROM THE TARES. REMEMBER YOU

SAID THAT I COULDN'T GET UP I N COURT AND DENY

HOW COULD THE POLICE HAVE NOT BEEN AFFECTED?
THAT 1 010 LOVE BOYS? THE FEAR OF THAT. AND BEING
OR THE MAG I STRATES? IT WAS NOT PORNOGRAPHY AND
MISCONSTRUED. HAD HAUNTED ME FOR MONTHS. YET IT
RAPE AND I NDOCTRINATION WHICH PERVADED THE AI R.
WAS ALL SAID. M Y WORDS WERE OUT AND YOU WERE
MUCH AS THOSE MAY HAVE BEEN THE ONLY TERMS I N
RIG HT. THEY SURV IVED EVEN THAT MANGLING OF
WHICH THEY COULD UNDERSTAND O R ORGANISE THE
EXPRESSION AND M ISREADING OF SENTIMENT.
PROCEEDINGS--eUT THE ASSER110N OF LOVE: LOVE

FOR THOSE GENERALLY CONSIDERED INCAPABLE OF

BUT MOST I MPORTANT WERE TWO OTHER THINGS. FIRST.
RECEIVING IT FROM THOSE UNWORTHY OF GIVING IT.
THE LOVE A N D U N D E RSTA N D I N G I FELT FROM MY
THEREFORE IT WAS A COURT OF FOOLS. A HEARING FOR
FRIENDS. FOR TH E FIRST T I M E I N THIS WHOLE BUSINESS.
MISFITS: A PUBLIC GALLERY F I L LED WITH FOOLISH
I FELT THAT STRENGTH WHICH COMES FROM A COMMON
LOVERS OPPOSITE A COURT FILLED WITH LOVERS OF
PURPOSE. I HAD DOUBTED IT WERE POSSIBLE-AS YOU
THE FOOLISH. NO OTHER OUTCOME WAS POSSIBLE. HAD
KNOW. IT HAD PREVIOUSLY ONLY HAPPENED WHEN I
THERE BEEN ANOTHER RESULT. I WOULD HAVE FELT
STRUGGLED FOR OTHERS. NOW IT HAD HAPPENED WITH
CH EATED. DO YOU UNDERSTAND THAT? CAN ANYONE
ME AS THE BENEFICIARY. I HOPED IT REFLECTED WHAn
UNDERSTAND IT?
MIGHT HAVE BEEN ABLE TO GIVE OTHERS IN THE PAST.

SECOND. THERE WAS WHAT I FELT FOR LEE IN THE DARE I RISK O N E OBSERVATION WHICH MAY S E E M

COURT. I STILL CANNOT DIGEST IT. I ONLY KNEW ONE STRANGE. (IT M A Y A L SO BE SELF-DECEPTION BUT I

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THROW IT OUT IN ORDER TO HAVE I T TESTEDJ IT IS ONLY A L L. (THAT'S TO SAY. SINCE EV ERYTH I N G ONCE Irs

THE POLITICAL PROCESS. I N ITS BROADEST SENSE. THAT OVER "ISN'T SO BAD"), IF SHE HAD EXPECTED ANY

MAKES ANY SENSE OF SUCH WASTE AND STUPIDITY. AS HOSTI LITY F R O M M Y FRIENDS OR M Y S E L F . I T H I N K S H E

THAT COURT SHOWED. LOVE ALONE IS EASILY DENIED W I L L HAVE BEEN REASSURED. ON THE OTH ER H A N D. S H E

BY THOSE WHO CANNOT U N DERSTAND U NCONDITIONAL M U ST HAVE FELT H U M I LIATED A N D. TO AN EXTENT.

LOVE. I T IS ONLY THE ANALYSIS OF WHY SUCH PATHETIC BETRAYED, THE POLICE WENT ALL THE WAY UP TO THE

H U MAN CONSTRUCTS DENY H U MAN REALITY WHICH M I D LA N DS. AND EFFECTIVELY HOODW I N K E D HER. IF

LETS US DETE R M I N E H U MAN REALITY AT ALL. DOES THEY TOLD HER SHE RISKED GOI NG TO JAIL IF LEE

THAT MAKE SENSE? I F I HAD BEEN SET FREE IT WOULD D I D N 'T TURN U P IN COU RT-TH EN CERTA I N L Y S H E WAS

HAVE BEEN ON THEIR T E R M S-TH E TERMS THEY HOODWI N K E D.

CHOOSE. NO T R I U M P H . EXCEPT A TRI U M PH O F FORM

AND OF METHOD. NOW THAT THE STRUGGLE GOES ON. NOW SHE M UST REALISE THAT THE ASSURANCES ABOUT

HOWEVER. IT IS ON M Y TERMS AS WELL. COURT PROCEDURE WERE COMPLETELY FALSE: IT IS

THE COURT NOT THE POLICE WHO DECIDE THESE

TlH I NGS. INDEED. IF MY BARRISTER HADN'T INSISTED.

THIS I S THE ONLY WAY I CAN EXPLAIN THE INNER CALM
TlHEN LEE WOULD HAVE HAD TO TESTIFY NOT ONLY
NOW I FEEL. I AM FREE NOT TO TREMBLE. BUT TO FIGHT
WITH TWO M A G I STRATES. BARRISTERS. SOLICITOR.

SOLICITOR'S CLERK. PROBATION OFFICER. C O U RT

REPORTER AND MYSELF PRESENT. BUT FIVE OR SIX

I SAW MARK AND DAREN TODAY BRIEFLY. IT WAS THE
HEAVIES ABOUT WHOM HE M UST HAVE MIXED AND
ONLY TI ME THEY COULD GET OFF. I CANNOT LOOK AT
PAI NFUL FEELINGS.
EITHER OF THEM WITHOUT FEELING GLADNESS AND­

YES. PRIDE-AT THEIR U N D E RSTANDING AND BREADTH

OF VISION. HOW THEY K NOW TH INGS PEOPLE THREE

TlHE POLICE LIED TO JEAN AND THEY KNEW THEY WERE
TI MES THEIR AGE HAVE N O I N K L I N G OFI (WHICH AGAI N IS
LYING WHEN THEY DID SO. PERHAPS SHE NOW REALISES
WHY I AM I N COURT . . J"
TlHAT TlHE POLICE ARE CAPABLE OF LYING IN TlH E SAM E

WAY TlHAT I'VE MAINTAINED TlHROUGHOUT THEY LIED

ABOUT ME. IF THEY WERE PREPARED TO FLOUT THE

ORDER OF THE COURT TO QUIT IT. AND POSITION ONE

TlH E COMMITTAL PROC E E D I NGS LASTED A DAY. A OF TlHEIR N U MBER RIGHT NEXT TO WHERE LEE WOULD

B R I EF PROS E C U T I O N STA T E M E NT. OUTLI N I NG M Y TESTIFY. WHAT BETTER INDICATION IS THERE THAT THEY

A R R E ST AND L E E'S I NT E R ROGATION. WAS FOL­ HAVE NO SCRUPLES I N PUTTING ENORMOUS PRESSURE

LOWED BY THE APPEARANCE OF THE PROSECU­ ON KIDS. WHEN IN PRIVATE?

TION'S FI RST WITN ESS. LEE H I M SELF.

I WISH SHE COULD HAVE BEEN IN COURT WHEN LEE

AT THAT POI NT. MY B A R R I ST E R ASKED FOR THE
TESTIFIED. NOT SIM PLY BECAUSE OF TlH E SUPPORT HE
C O U RT TO BE CLEARED. BOTH TO RELIEVE
NEEDED FROM HER. BUT BECAUSE SHE MIGHT TlHEN
PRESSURE O N LEE. A N D A VO I D ANY POSSI B I LITY OF
HAVE UNDERSTOOD-lN A WAY COLD WRITTIEN WORDS
POLICE I NTI M I DATION -MERELY BY TlHEIR PRESENCE.
COULDN'T PERSUADE HER-TlHE EXTENT TO WHICH LEE
SINCE NO LESS TlHAN SEVEN BOFORS POLICEMEN
IS CONFUSED ABOUT TlHE ALLEGATION HE ORIGINALLY
H A D TURNED U P AT COURT. THIS WAS NO MEAN
MADE. THE EXTENT TO WHICH HE IN FACT WITHDREW
THREAT.
MUCH OF WHAT HE ORIGINALLY SAID. AND THE PAIN TlHE

WHOLE TlHING CAUSED HIM. I TlHINK SHE WOULD ONLY

L E E'S MOTHER• .J E A N . HAD TO LEAVE THE COURT AS
HAVE HAD TO LOOK AT HIM. STRUGGLING TO FIND
WELL THE POLICE H A D ASSURED HER TlHAT "ONLY
WORDS. STUGGLING TO REMEMBER. STRUGGLING TO
TH E MAGISTRATE" WOULD BE IN COURT. BESIDE
LOOK AT M E-TIHE ONLY PERSON IN THAT GAUNT ROOM
MYSELF-A N D TlHAT T H E WHOLE A FFA I R WOULD BE
WHO COULD GIVE HIM THE LEAST SIGN OF RECOGNI­
I N FORMAL
TION. (CRUELLEST IRONY-THAT IT WAS ME. THE VERY

PERSON AGAINST WHOM HE WAS "COMPLAINING," FROM

I N MY LETTIER TO M Y F R I E N D AFTER THE COMMITTAL
WHOM H E SOUGHT SOME HUMAN FEELlNGJ SHE MIGHT
H E A R I NG I CONTI N U ED:
TlHEN. AT LAST. HAVE SEEN AN ESSENTIAL TRUTH: THAT

TlH E RE IS NO QUESTION OF LEE LYING. BUT THERE IS A

"J EAN M UST NOW BE FEELING VERY M UCH IN TWO QUESTION OF HIS CONFUSION ABOUT EVENTS IN THE

MI NDS. ON THE OTH ER HAND. RELI EF THAT LEE HAS LONG GONE PAST ('TWO YEARS NOW> AND ABOUT WHAT

MADE HIS STATEM ENT. AND IT WASN'T "SO BAD" AFTER A SUCCESSION OF ADULTS HAVE WANTED OUT OF HIM.

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WHEN HE MADE THAT CLINCHING STATEMENT. I HEARD I T PROS: FOR HOW LONG?
I N WORDS OUT O F T H E MOUTHS O F T H E POLICE. (WOULD
LEE HAVE USED THE WORD "PENIS"7 1 THINK NOT. I N HIS
LEE: ABOUT TH REE MONTHS.
ORIGINAL STATEM E N T TO THE POLICE. THEY INSERTED
IT I N BRACKETS AFTER "DICK." AND WOULD HE HAVE
PROS: 010 YOU SEE H I M A LOT?
SAID "BACKSIDE"7 BACKSIDE IS A PECULIARLY ADULT
TERM-"I'LL HIT YOU ON YOUR BACKSIDE IF YOU'RE NOT
LEE: YES.
CAREFUL." KIDS WILL ALMOST ALWAYS SAY "BUM."
"ASS" OR "BOTTOM." AND I F A BOY WERE TRYING TO BE
POLITE IN ADULT COMPANY. SURELY H E WOULD SAY PROS: WHAT SORT OF THI NGS 0 1 0 YOU 00
. TOGETH ER?
..BEHIND7. ..

LEE: I CAN'T REMEMBER.

PROS: AFTER TH REE MONTHS 010 H E LEAVE

AS I SAT IN THE DOCK ON JULY 2BTH. WATCHING LEE AND COM E TO VISIT YOU FROM T I M E TO TI ME.
TESTIFY, I WROTE DOWN ALL THE Q U ESTI O N S

ADDRESSED T O H I M . AND HIS REPLI ES. I ALSO LEE: YES.

NOTED THE HESITATIONS IN INTONATIONS I N H I S

VOI C E -SO M E T H I N G NEVER R E FLECTED I N THE

PROS: 0 1 0 YOU GO A N D STAY WITH H I M I N
"DEPOSITION" WHICH TH ESE STATE M EN TS TH E N
LONDON?
BECOME.

LEE: YES.
WOMAN MAG ISTRATE: LEE, 00 YOU K NOW
WHAT TH E OATH MEANS?
PROS: ON TH E FIRST OCCASION WERE YOU
WITH A NYON E ELSE?
LEE: I'M SUPPOSED T O T E L L THE TRUTH.

LEE: NO.
MAGISTRATE: I T MEANS YOU PROMISE TO TELL
TH E TRUTH. YOU ARE GOING TO MAKE A
SOLE M N PROM I S E TO GIVE THE RIGHT PROS: CAN YOU REMEMBER HOW YOU WENT
ANSWER, YOU M U ST PUT YOU R HANDS ON TO LONOON?
THE BI BLE--oN THE WORDS OF J ESUS,

LEE: BY COACH.
LEE DELIVERS THE OATH

PROS: WHICH CITI ES 010 YOU GO THROUGH ?

PROSECUTI O N : L E E , W H E N 0 1 0 YOU FI RST
M EET ROGER MOODY? LEE: BIRM INGHAM.

LEE: ABOUT FIVE YEARS AGO. PROS: WHERE 010 YOU GO WHEN IN LONOON?
00 YOU REMEMBER THE ADDR ESS.
PROS: WH E R E 0 1 0 YOU LIVE?
LEE: NO. I CAN'T REMEMBER.
LEE: I CAN'T REMEMBER

PROS: 00 YOU REMEMBER WHICH PART OF

PROS: CLOSE? LONDON TH E HOUSE WAS I N ?

LEE: ABOUT THI RTY M I LES AWAY. LEE: NO.

PROS: 010 HE COM E TO LIVE WITH YOU AT PROS: DURI NG THE DAY WHAT 0 1 0 YOU USED
YOUR HOUSE AT ALL? TO OO?

LEE: YES. LEE: GO SWI M M I NG.

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PROS: WHAT E LS E ? LEE: MATTRESSES.

L E E : SOMETI M E S I W E N T W I T H ROGER. PROS: WH E R E DID ROGER SLEEP?

PROS: WHAT SORT OF THI NGS DID YOU U S E D LEE: N EXT TO ME.

T O DO?
PROS: W E R E TH E MATTRESSES C LOSE?

LEE: I WENT TO PLAY WITH THE OTH E R LADS.

LEE: Y E S.

PROS: WH E R E D I D YOU U S E D TO GO?

PROS: WHAT DI D YOU U S E D TO WEAR?

LEE: S O M ETI M E S THEY CAME TO OUR PLACE.

SOMETI M ES WE W E N T T O WH E R E T H E Y W E R E LIVING. LEE: PANTS. SOM ETI M E S A TEESHI RT.

PROS: WHAT WERE TH E I R NAMES? PROS: WHAT D I D ROGE R U S E D TO WEAR?

LEE: J I M M Y A N D STEVE. L E E : PANTS.

PROS: WAS TH I S THE FI RST TI M E YOU WENT TO PROS: ON THE F I R ST N IGHT DID A N YTH I N G
LONDON? HAPPEN?

LEE: NO. LEE: H E K I S S E D M E .

PROS: WHEN DID YOU GO BEFORE ? PROS: A N YTH I N G ELSE?

LEE: M E A N D M Y BROTH E R S W E N T TO STAY WITH LEE: I DON'T THI N K SO.

ROGER.

PROS: WHAT DID YOU DO A BOUT THAT?

PROS: WHEN YOU DESC R I BED YOU R T R I P ON LEE: C A N'T R E M E M B E R

YOU R OWN, HOW LONG AGO WAS THI S ?

LEE: I TH I N K T H R E E Y E A R S AGO,
PROS: ON LATER N I GHTS DID A N YT H I N G
H A PP E N ?
PROS: WHAT T I M E O F THE YEA R?

L E E (AFTER A LONG SILENCE): H E TRI E D T O GET CLOSE

LEE: SUM M E R HOLIDAYS. TO M E.

PROS: HOW OLD W E R E YOU? PROS: I N WHAT WAY?

LEE: ABOUT N I N E. LEE: I C A N'T U N D E RSTA N D .

PROS: WHERE D I D YOU SLEEP? PROS: TELL U S WHAT HAPPEN ED.

LEE: S A M E ROOM AS ROGER. THERE I S ANOTHER LONG SILENCE FROM LEE.

PROS: DID I T HAVE BEDS IN IT? PROS: YOU EXPLA I N TO TH E LADY UP TH E R E

(HE POINTS T O T H E MAGISTRATE).

LEE: NO.

MAGISTRATE: WE HAVE SOME I DEA OF WHAT

PROS: ON WHAT DI D YOU SLEEP? H A P P E N ED, W E WANT TO HEAR I T FROM YOU .

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PROS: HOW D I D YOU L I E IN BED? WERE TH E THERE IS YET ANOTHER LONG SILENCE
TWO MATTRESSES ALONGS I D E EACH OTH ER?

LEE: HE TRIED TO PUT HIS PENIS UP M Y BACKSIDE.

DEFENSE BARRISTER (INTERVENING>: DON'T LEADI
CLOSE WAS TH E WORD, NOT TOGETHER. PROS: DI D YOU SEE H I S PENIS?

LEE: TH E MATTRESSES WERE RIGHT NEXT TO EACH LEE: YES.

OTHE R.

PROS: DID HE GET IT I N ?

PROS: WERE YOU SLEEPING ON ONE OF TH E
MATTRESSES?
LEE: NO.

LEE: YES.
PROS: WHEN HE DID SO, WHAT D I D YOU DO?

PROS: WHERE WAS ROGER S LEEPI NG?

LEE: I MOVED FURTHER AWAY.

LEE: ON THE OTH ER ONE.

PROS: DID A N YT H I N G ELSE HAPPEN ON
ANOTH E R NIGHT?

LEE: HE KISSED ME A N D THAT.

PROS: DID YO U R R E S PECTI V E POSITIONS
STAY LIKE THAT?
PROS: WHAT DOES "AND THAT' M EA N ?

LEE: I STAYED THERE. YES.

LEE: NOTH ING.

PROS: WHAT ABOUT ROGER?

PROS: I'D LIKE YOU TO LOOK AT TWO PHOTOS.

LEE: H E T R I E D TO COME O V E R T O M Y MATTRESS. WHO TOOK THESE PHOTOS?

PROS: DID HE SUCC E E D AT ALL? LEE: ROGER.

LEE: I CANT REMEMBER. PROS: WH E N ?

PROS: CAN YOU R E M E M B E R ANYTH ING ELSE LEE: WHEN H E C A M E TO T H E M I D LANDS SOMETIME
HAPPENING AT A LL? BEFORE I CAME TO LONDON.

THERE I S A LONG SILENCE PROS: DID YOU R EAD ANY BOOKS WHEN
STAYI NG WITH ROGER?

LEE: H E TRI ED TO PUT H I S ARMS A ROUND ME.

LEE: YES.

PROS: ANYTH I N G ELSE?

PROS: WHAT SORT OF BOOKS?
THERE IS ANOTHER LONG SILENCE
LEE: SEX BOOKS.

MAGISTRATE: DO YOU K NOW WHY YOU' R E

HERE TO GIVE EVI DENCE TODAY? PROS: WAS THERE ANY QUESTION OF PHOTOS
BEING TAKEN?

DEFENCE BARRISTER (IN AN ASIDE): THE POLICE

OFFICERS TOLD H I M TO COME. LEE: HE WANTED TO . YES.

PROS: DID A N YTH I NG ELSE H A PPEN YOU CAN PROS: DID YOU AGREE TO THOSE TWO
TELL US ABOUT? PHOTOS BEING TAKEN?

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LEE: NO. DEF: IT COULD J UST AS EAS I LY HAVE BEEN A
H A N D AS A P E N I S COULDN'T IT?
PROS: DID YOU GO OUT IN TH E EVENING AT
A LL? LEE: YES.

LEE: WE WENT TO A PARTY. DEF: YOU R E M E M B E R THE PARTY TO WHICH

YOU WENT. DO YOU REMEMBER IT WAS FOR
PROS: WHO WAS AT THE PARTY? TWO PEOPLE GOING OUT TO BANGLADESH?

LEE: ROGER. I CAN'T REMEMBER WHO ELSE. LEE: NO.

PROS: WE RE THERE ANY WOMEN THERE? DEF: YOU WENT WITH ROGE R OTH ER EVEN­
I NG S D I DN'T YO U ? TO TH E CINEMA FOR
EXA M PLE.
LEE: NO.

LEE: YES.
PROS: WHAT D I D YOU HAVE TO DRINK?

DEF: WHEN YOU SAY MON OTH ER OCCASIONS"

LEE: I D R A N K POMAGNE.
HE T R I E D TO KISS YOU HE WAS DOING THAT
RATH E R L I K E A FATH ER WASN'T H E ?
PROS: HOW MUCH?

LEE: YES.
LEE: HALF A BOTTLE.

DEF: NOT IN A N Y OTH ER WAY?

MY BARRISTER THEN ROSE TO CROSS-EXAMINE

LEE: NO.
DEFENCE: LEE, YOU KNOW YOU SAI D ROGE R
TRI ED TO P U T H I S PENIS U P YOUR BACKSI DE?
DEF: A N D W H E N HE C U DDLED YOU HE DID SO
HE N EVER TOUCHED IT DID HE?
LIKE A FATH E R?
LEE: I DONT KNOW.

LEE: YES.
DEF: YOU TELL US.
DEF: NOT IN ANY OTH ER WAY?
LEE: I THOUGHT H E DID.

LEE: NO.
DEF: YOU'RE NOT SURE ABOUT IT ARE YOU?

DEF: HE ASKED TO TAK E PHOTOS OF YOU A N D

LEE: YES. Y O U SAI D N O . L E T M E SHOW Y O U THESE
OTH E R P H OTOS [CLOTH ED]. TH E R E'S NO­

DEF: YOU COULDN'T SEE HIM COU LD YOU? THI N G WRONG WITH THOSE IS THERE?

LEE: NO. LEE: NO.

DEF: YOU CAN'T REALLY BE SURE CAN YOU? DEF: TH E ROOM YOU SLEPT IN WITH ROGER.
I SN'T THAT RIGHT WHEN YOU R BROTHE R S CAME TO STAY, YOU
ALL SLEPT IN TH E SA M E ROOM DIDN'T YOU?
LEE: THATS RIGHT. I CANT B E SURE.

LEE: YES.
DEF: IT COULD HAVE BEEN A H A N D AGAINST
YOU COULDN'T IT? DEF: AND THE R E WAS ONLY ONE ROOM FOR
YOU TO SLEEP IN WHEN YOU WERE WITH
LEE: YES. ROGER?

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LEE: NO, THERE WAS A ROOM BESIDE IT, DEF: IT WAS REALLY LIKE A FATH ER WASN'T
IT?

DEF: DID IT HAVE ANY FURN ITURE IN IT?

WASN'T IT BARE? LEE: I DONT KNOW.

LEE: YES. THE PROSECUTOR RISES TO RE·EXAMINE

DEF: HAVE YOU EVER STAYED AWAY FROM PROS: LEE, WHY 010 YOU SAY I T WAS A P E N I S?
HOME ON YOU R OWN B E FORE W ITHOUT YOUR
BROTHERS OR MOTHER? LEE: I T DIDNT FEEL LIKE A HAND OR ANYTHING.

LEE: NO.
PROS: WERE YOU LYI NG DOWN AT TH E T I M E?

DEF: ROGER USED TO TREAT YOU VERY MUCH LEE: YES.

L I K E A SON D I DN'T HE?

PROS: WERE YOU FAC ING TOWA RDS ROG E R

LEE: YES. O R AWAY?

DEF: YO U R MUM AND DAD DON� U VE LEE: AWAY.

TOGETHE R DO TH EY?

PROS: COULD YOU SEE HOW HE WAS FACI NG?

LEE: NO.

LEE: NO.
DEF: THEY HAVEN'T DON E SO SI NCE YOU
WERE A BABY IS THAT RIGHT?
PROS: YOU SAY ROGE R KISSED YOU. W H E R E ?

LEE: NO, THEY HAVENT.

LEE: ON T H E CHEEK.

DEF: DO YOU SEE YOU R DAD VERY M UCH?

PROS: YOU SAI D YOU DIDN'T WANT H I M TO
LEE: NO. TAKE PICTUR ES-WE RE THEY L I K E THIS? (HE
HOLDS U P THE SEMI-NUDE SHOTS)

DEF: ROGER WAS REALLY LI K E A FATHER TO PROS: NOT L I K E TH I S? (HE HOLDS UP THE CLOTHED
ALL OF YOU? SHOTS)

LEE: YES.
LEE: NO.

DEF: SO WHEN YOU C A M E TO STAY IN LONDON MAGISTRATE: WE WANT TO ASK YOU ONLY O N E
WITH ROGER I T WAS NATU RAL FOR YOU TO
QUESTION LEE_ YOU SAID YOU SAW HIS
SLEEP IN THE SAM E ROOM A N D NOT IN A
PENIS. BUT LATER ON YOU SAI D YOU
ROOM-A BARE ROOM-ON YOUR OWN?
COULDN'T S E E IT. WAS I T DA R K OR LIGHT?

LEE: YES.
LEE: DARK, I THI N K.

MAG: W H E N D I D YOU SEE H I S PENIS TH E N ?

DEF: AND WHEN ROGER WAS TOUCH I NG YOU,
HE WAS BEING A F F ECTI O N A T E LIKE A
FATH E R W A S N 'T HE? HE W A S N 'T DOI N G LEE: I N TH E MORNING.

ANYTH I NG WRONG?
I CONCLUDED THE LETTER TO MY FRIEND:

LEE: I DONT KNOW WHETHER H E WAS TOUCH I NG ME

LIKE A FATHER. "HERE THERE IS A TERRIBLE IRONY. I'VE LITTLE DOUBT

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THAT WHAT LEE FEELS I DID WRONG TO H I M WAS TO POLICE: DID YOU FEEL HIM AGAINST YOU?
KISS H I M . H I S CONFUSIONS ABOUT WHAT THESE KI SSES

MEANT CAME OVER POI G N A N T LY IN THE C ROSS­

LEE: YES.
EXA M I NATION AT T H E C O M M I TTAL. AT ONE POI NT H E

S A I D H E DIDN'T K N O W WHETHER T H E Y WERE "FATHERLY"

POLICE: DID YOU FEEL HIS PENIS?
KISSES. AT ANOTH E R POINT. THAT. NOT HAVING KNOWN

WHAT IT WAS TO HAVE A REAL FATHER. THEN YES-THEY

LEE: I DON'T K N OW.
WERE FATH ERLY KISSES. LEE L I V ES IN A WORLD WHERE

PRESSING ONESELF A G A I N S T A N O T H E R PERSON IN

MOCK SEXUALITY OR J UST P H YSICAL ANTICS IS A POLICE: H E H A D HIS LEGS A G AINST YOU
SLIGHT NAUGHTI N E SS-IF THAT. AFTER ALL. WHAT DOES DIDN'T HE?

IT SIGNIFY? WHAT H A R M COMES OUT OF IT? KISSING

HOWEVER HAS DIFFERENT I M PLICATIONS AND THEY ARE LEE: I TH I N K SO.

M U C H MORE CONFUSING. K I DS LEARN FROM FILMS THAT

IT SIGNIFIES THE START OF SERIOUS LOVE-MAKING.

POLICE: WAS HE FACING YOU?
BOYS DO NOT KISS BOYS. A N D THOUGH M E N KISS BOYS

(A N D BOYS MEN) I T IS ONLY WITHIN THE FAM I LY. THAT

LEE: I DON'T KNOW.
LEE WANTED M E TO KISS H I M . I K N OW. PERHAPS H E ALSO

FANTASISED M Y PENIS C O M I N G I NTO CONTACT WITH H I S

POLICE: HE WOULD FACE YOU TO KISS YOU
BOTTO M : I KNOW OF ONE OCCAS I O N WHEN HE
WOULDN'T HE?
CERTA I N LY D I D SO. WAS I T THAT SPECIFIC FANTASY

WHICH THE POLICE LATC H E D ON TO? DID HE FEEL

G U I LTY ABOUT IT-SO THAT THE ONLY WAY OF LEE: YES.

ALLEVIATING T H E G U I L T W A S TO SAY I D I D IT T O H I M .

RATH ER THAN THAT H E WANTED "TO KNOW WHAT ITS POLICE: BUT PERHAPS HE DIDN'T KISS YOU
LIKE"? OR WAS IT S I M PL Y THAT THE WHOLE THING WAS SOME OF THE TIME7
SO I NCI DENTAL I N THE FI RST PLACE THAT UNTI L THE

POLICE POUNCED ON I T A N D M A D E IT THE KEY THING H E

D I D N 'T KNOW IT HAD A N Y SIG N I FICANCE? I N W H I C H CASE.

HE WOULD HAVE BEEN TAKEN U N AWARES AND. DESPITE

POLICE: 50 HE HELD YOU IN A DIFFERENT
H I M S E LF. E L A B O RA T E D ON IT. I CAN IMAGINE THE
WAY?
PROCESS:

LEE: YES.
POLICE: WHEN YOU WERE SLEEPING NEXT TO
EACH OTHER. DID HE TRY TO COME OVER TO
YOUR SIDE OF THE BED?
POLICE: HOW? PERHAPS HE WAS BEHIND YOU
BECAUSE YOU DIDN'T WANT HIM TO KISS
LEE: YES ONCE OR TWICE. YOU?

POLICE: WHAT DID HE OO? LEE: YES.

LEE: K I SSED ME AND THAT.

POLICE: AND WHEN HE WAS BEHIND YOU. YOU
FELT HIM AGAINST YOU I EXPECT?
POLICE: AND THAT?
LEE: YES.

LEE: CUDDLED ME SORT OF.

POLICE: DID YOU FEEL ANYTHING AGAINST

POLICE: HOW DID HE CUDDLE YOU? YOU?

LEE: HE PUT H I S A R M S A R O U N D ME. LEE: H I S D I C K I SU PPOSE.

POLICE: WAS HE NAKED AT THE TIME? POLICE: PENIS.

LEE: I CAN'T R E M E M B E R. LEE: YES.

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POLICE: YOU FELT HIS PENIS AGAINST YOU? FINALLY I WROTE THE FOLLOWI N G , T R Y I N G TO

WHERE AGAINST YOU? CONVEY SOMETHING OF WHAT I FELT WHEN I WAS

FORCED TO SIT OPPOSITE LEE IN COURT, WHILE HE

LEE: I DON'T KNOW. WAS COMPELLED TO STAND AGAINST ME:

"I NOW OFTEN SEE LEE IN MY INNER EYE AS HE WAS ON

POLICE: WELL, IF HE WAS HOLDING YOU IN HIS
A R MS I E X PECT YOU WERE IN HIS LAP FRIDAY. I FEEL THE TENDERNESS I FELT THEN AND

WEREN'T YOU? RECALL (PERHAPS SURPRISINGLY. BUT MAYBE THIS IS

WHERE THE H U MAN TRI U M PHS OVER THE MAN UFAC·

TURED) THAT THE LOOKS WE SHARED WERE THE MOST

LEE: YES.
I M PORTANT THING. LIKE PAUL HE HAD BEEN SHAKEN,
BUT WASN'T DEFEATED. AND I REALISED THAT, LI KE
POLICE: SO WHERE WOULD HIS PENIS HAVE
PAUL, HE HAD STRENGTH WHICH I HAD PARTIALLY
BEEN?
HELPED HIM TO ACQUIRE. THE CORE OF HIS TRUTH WAS

THAT I HAD BEEN WITH H I M LIKE A FATHER: IT WAS HOW I

LEE: AGA INST MY BOTTOM. HAD BEEN AND WHAT HE WANTED. YET I AM NOT HIS
FATHER-BEYOND THAT, HE DID NOT KNOW. WHILE HE

POLICE: SO ARE YOU SAYING LEE THAT HAD BEEN WITH ME, IGNORANCE ABOUT WHAT LAY

ROG E R PUT HIS PENIS AGAINST YOUR BEYOND HAD B E G U N TO G I V E WAY TO H I S OWN

BOTTOM? KNOWLEDGE: LACK OF DEFINITION HAD BEGUN TO GIVE

WAY TO HIS SELF DISCOVERY. HE WASN'T SURE HOW IT

LEE: YES. WOULD WORK OUT. AND HIS ILLNESS WHEN HE ARRIVED

HOME AFTER TH E '76 H OL I D AY WAS THE BEST

I N DICATION THAT HE DESPERATELY FEARED T H E

POLICE: DID HE GET IT IN?
TENSIONS THAT HAD BEEN CREATED. FOR A PERIOD HE

COULD NOT SEE HOW TO RESOLVE BETWEEN THE "IS"

LEE: NO.
AND THE "COULD BE." BUT HE RECOVERED. AFTER ALL, I

HAD SEEN HIM TWICE SINCE THEN: T H E GROWING

POLICE: SURE? AWARENESS COULD HAVE GONE ON . . .

LEE: YES. NOW H E HAD BEEN PENALISED FOR ATTEMPTING TO

GROW BEYOND THE CONFUSION; HAS BEEN TOLD IN THE

POLICE: OKAY. THATS ALL FOR NOW. MOST DEVASTAnNG FASHION THAT THE AREAS INTO

WHICH HE WAS MOVING WERE ABSOLUTE TABOO; THAT

AND SO. THE GESTURE BECOMES AN ACT. A AN ADULT WHO ENCOURAGES HIM IN HIS JOURNEY

CONFI RMATION, AN ACCUSAnON. LEE CANNOT SEE THE TOWARDS SELF-KNOWLEDGE WILL BE PENALISED BY

WICKED AND ESSENTIALLY FA LSE LOG IC IN THE OPPROBRI U M AT BEST AND INCARCERAnON AT WORST.

PROCESS, BECAUSE HE IS A VICTIM O F T H E PROCESS. HE KNOWS THAT THIS IS NOT THE TRUTH-HENCE HE

(AS FREIRE SHOWED IN BRAZIL. VICTIMS ALWAYS REMAIN SEARCHES M Y FACE I N COURT TO DISCOVER THAT I

VICTIMS UNnL THEY REALISE THE TRUE MEANING OF REALLY AM WHO I WAS WHEN WE LAST MET. BUT IT IS

THE WORDS: THAT WORDS ARE NOT N EUTRAL BUT THE ONLY "TRUTH" HE CAN E X PRESS. BECA USE

TOOLS TO BE USED FOR OR AGAINST OTHER H U MAN EVERYONE AROUND HIM FEARS-OR CANNOT SEE­

BEINGS.! IT IS TRUE THAT. UNTIL I ACTUALLY SAW LEE ANOTHER TRUTH."

OVER THE COURTROOM ON FRIDAY, I DIDN'T SEE THAT

THIS WAS PROBABLY HOW THE WHOLE THING HAD BEEN. ROGER MOODY

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M O R B I D 5 E X
THE CULPRIT

IS GOD M E RELY A MAN FO R WHOM DEATH. OR "JOU R N A L" W H I C H H E K E PT DESPITE H I M S E L F FROM

RATH E R . T H I N K I NG A BOUT DEATH. IS J U ST ONE. THE D A Y W A R BROKE OUT. FORTY-TWO YEARS OLD

PRODIGIOUS PASTI ME? AT T H I S POI NT. TH E A U TH O R HAD N E V E R B E FO R E

K E PT A DIARY. BUT FAC E D WITH TH E W R ITTEN

W RONG WAY TO TALK? P E R H A PS. PAGES. H E SOON R E A LIZED THAT H E H A D NEVER

WRITTEN A N YTH I NG SO M UC H A PART O F HIM AND SO

FU LLY EXPRESSIVE O F H I M S E LF. H E H A D ONLY TO

P E R H A PS. MORE ACC U RATELY. J UST ONE WAY TO
R E MOVE THOSE PA SSAGES CONC E R N I N G T H E TH I R D
LAUGH. B UT C A N� WE ONCE AND FOR ALL
PERSON: IN P A R T I C U LA R . THOSE PASSAGES
R ECONC I L E LAUGHTER A N D SPEECH? BY SPEECH. I
CONC E R N I NG L A U R E'S DEATH. T O W H I C H MICHEL
MEAN THAT SPEECH W I T H OU T T R A PS WHICH
L E I R I S R E F E R S I N LA REGLE D U J E U . THIS STORY I S
DO E SN'T FLEE I N T H E FACE O F THE TOTA LITY O F ITS
VIOLE NTLY DOM I N A T E D BY TEARS; I T I S VIOLE NTLY
OWN CONSEQ U E N C ES.
DOMI NATED BY D E ATH.

T H I S N A R RATIVE I S A BU RST O F C U N N I NG A N D T H U S TODAY. THE AUTHOR WAS STRUCK BY T H E FACT

L I V E LY LAUGHTER. THE LAUGHTER OF A M A N WHO THAT THE C U LPRIT IS DOM I NATED BY TEARS A N D

FORC E D H I M SE L F TO LIVE SH UT- U P WITHIN THE DEATH AT T H E S A M E TI M E THAT IT I S DOM I N ATED B Y

P E R S PECTI V E OF DEATH. HE DID THIS UNDER TH E R E P R E SENTATION O F GOD. I . . . J

FAVORA B L E C I RC U M STA N C E S. BUT W I T H GREAT

D I FFICULTY. A N D I N T H E E N D . H E FAILED. F O R L I F E .

A MOST I NTENSE. A N D OFTE N. MOST H E A R T R E N D I N G

L I F E . B R O U G H T H I M BACK I M M EDIATELY. S E PT E M B E R 1 4. 1 9 3 9

THIS NA RRATIVE EVOLVED OUT OF THE 1 939 YESTE R DAY. I W E N T TO LA U R E'S GRAVE: A S SOON

'DEC LA RAT10N O F W A R . I T I S I N D EPENDENT O F T H E A S I L E FT T H E H O U S E . I NOTI C E D HOW DARK THE

A UT H O R ' S LIFE. IN FACT. THE AUTHOR PUT NIGHT WAS. A N D I W O N D E R E D IF I WOULD EVER F I N D

T O G ET H E R THIS STORY FROM PI ECES O F T H E MY WAY A LONG TH E ROAD. I T WAS SO B L A C K THAT I

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FELT MY THROAT TIGHTEN: I COU LDN'T T H I N K OF SORROW THAT I H E LD MYSELF IN MY OWN A R MS

ANYTH I N G ELSE. SO I FOU N D I T I M POSSI BLE TO GO WITHOUT KNOWING WHY: AT THIS VERY MOM E N T. I

INTO THE STATE OF N E A R - ECSTACY THAT NORMAL­ FELT AS IF IT H A D SOM E HOW SPLIT IN TWO A N D WAS

LY OVERCOMES ME AS I FOLLOW THE S A M E PATH. STRANG L I N G HER. MY HANDS BECAME LOST

AFTER A LONG W H I LE. N E A R THE M I DDLE OF THE AROUND MY BODY AND I F E LT AS IF I WERE

WAY. MORE AND MORE LOST. I R E M E M B E RED THE TO U C H I N G H E R . P E RC E I V I NG H E R F R AG R A N C E .

A SC E N T UP ETNA AND I WAS DU MBFOUNDED. SUDDEN LY. A TERRIBLE SOFTNESS GRIPPED ME

EVERYTH I N G TH E N H A D B E E N J U ST AS D A R K AND JUST LIKE W H E N W E WERE CLOSE B E FORE: J U ST

CHARGED WITH CUNNING TERROR TH E N I G H T LA U R E LIKE WH E N T H E OBSTACLES SEPARATING TWO

A N D I CLIMBED T H E F A C E OF ETNA. PEOPLE DISAPPEAR. TH EN. W H E N I REA LIZED THAT I

WOULD SOON COME BACK TO M YSELF. TO THE OLD

SELF. R ESTRICTED BY MY C U M BERSOME N E EDS. I

MOU NT ETNA OV E R F LOWED WITH M E A N I NG FOR US:
BEGAN TO TREMBLE A N D TO ASK H E R PA RDON. I
WE H A D GIVEN U P A T R I P TO GREECE TO MAKE THE
W E PT BITTERLY. NOT KNOWING W H AT TO DO
CLIMB. WHAT WE HAD ALREADY PA I D FOR TH E
BECAUSE I K N E W I W O U L D LOSE H E R AGA I N . I W A S
CROSSI N G HAD TO BE R E F U N DED. AT DAWN. WE
U N B E A R A BLY A S H A M E D OF W H A T I W O U L D BECO M E .
FINA LLY REACHED TH E E DG E OF THE I M M E N S E AND
O F T H E PE RSON I A M N O W AS I WRITE T H I S. OR E V E N
BOTTOMLESS CRATER. W E WERE E X H A U ST E D AND I N
WORSE. I WAS SURE OF O N L Y ONE T H I N G: THE
A WAY TA K E N ABACK B Y T H E OVERLY STRANGE.
PERCEPTION OF THOSE LOST T O US W H O H A V E
OV E R LY DI SASTROUS SOLITUDE. IT WAS H E A RT­
BROKEN T H E I R ATTAC H M E NTS T O THE CUSTO M A R Y
R E N D I N G TO LEA N OVE R THAT G A P I N G C R EVICE.
CON F I N E S OF ACTI VITY IS I N NO W A Y LIM ITED.
THAT STARY VOI D T H A T W E B R E AT H E D IN. TH E

PORTRAIT OF C I N DERS A N D FLA M ES THAT A N D R E

MASSON PAINTED AFTER WE D E SC R I B E D THE WHAT I FELT YESTERDAY WAS NO MORE B U R N I NG .

SCE N E T O H I M W A S N E A R LAURE W H E N S H E D I E D: I T NO MORE T R U E OR FULL OF M E A N I NG CONC E R N I N G
IS STI L L IN MY R OOM. I N THE M IDDLE OF OUR T H E DESTI NY OF E V E R Y B E I N G T H A N ANY OTH E R
DESCENT. A FTER WE H A D E N T E R E D A N I N F E R N A LLY EXPE R I E N C E OF T H E U N I NTELLIGIBLE. NO MATTER
HOT AREA. WE COULD STILL F E E L THE FA R-AWAY HOW VAG U E O R I M PE R SONAL. ON E'S B E I NG BURNS
PRESENCE OF THE VOLCANO'S CRATER AT T H E WITH THE D E S I R E TO BECOME P U R E B E I NG TH ROUGH
OTH E R E N D OF T H E L O N G V A L L E Y OF L A V A . WE AND THROUGHOUT THE N I GHT. IT B U R N S EVEN
COULDN'T IMAGINE A SPOT WHERE THE T E R R I B L E BRIGHTER AS LOVE SHOWS ITSELF CAPABLE O F
I N STA B I LITY OF THI NGS WAS MORE E V I D E N T. ALL O F CRUMBLING THE P R I SON WALLS AROU ND EACH O F
A SUDDEN. LAU R E WAS G R I PPED B Y SUCH EXTR E M E U S . BUT WHAT C O U L D BE M O R E GRA N D THAN T H E
A N G U I S H T H A T SHE I N SA N E LY A N D BLI N DLY BEGAN BREACH THROUGH WHICH TWO B E I NGS MIGHT
TO RUN. THE TERROR AND DESOLATION THAT WE RECOGNIZE EACH OTH E R WITHOUT SUCCU M B I NG TO
HAD ENCOUNTE R E D B E W I L D E R E D H E R . THE VULGARITY A N D THE PLATITUDES OF I N F I N ITY?

(HE WHO AT LEAST LOVES BEYOND TH E GRAVE. FOR

YESTERDAY. I CONTI N U E D MY C L I M B U P THE H I L L H E ALSO ESCAPES THE VULGARITY O F DAILY L I F E

TOWA RDS H E R G R A V E . T R O U B L E D BY A M E MORY S O BUT NEVER T H E TOO-T E N UOUS T I E S T O L A U R E .

FULL OF NOCTU RNAL TE R ROR. BUT AT T H E SAME E V E N H A D TH E Y B E E N M O R E COMPLETE LY S E V E R E D

TIME. SO F U LL O F S U BTE R R A N E A N GLORY. AN BY H E R. S O R ROW. H O R ROR. TEARS. MADN ESS.

ALREADY SHATTE R E D NOCTU R N A L GLORY INAC­ SURFE IT. F E V E R A N D F I N A LLY DEATH: THESE A R E

CESSIBLE TO REAL MEN. ACC ESSIBLE O N LY TO T H E DAILY B R E A D T H A T LA U R E SHARED W I T H M E .

SHADOWS. S H I V E R I N G IN T H E COLD. BY T H E TI M E I THIS BREAD LINGERS AS THE M E MORY OF A

R EACH E D THE C E M ETERY. I FELT D E L I RIOUS. I WAS DREADFU L AND I M MENSE SORROW. AS THE

AFRA I D O F H E R. I FELT THAT IF SHE A P P E A R E D TO D I M E N SIONS O F A LOVE EAGER TO EXC E E D T H E

ME. I WOULD SCREAM. TER R I F I E D. DESPITE THE LIM ITS O F ALL THI NGS: A N D YET. H O W M A N Y TI M E S

EXTR E M E DARKN ESS. I WAS A B L E TO MAKE OUT THE WHEN WE WERE T OG E T H E R DID WE ACH I E V E

GRAVES. TH E C R O S S E S A N D THE TOM BSTON ES. U N A C H I E V A B L E H A P P I N E SS. STA R L I G H T N I G H TS.

THEY E M E RGED FROM TH E D A R K N ESS A S FAI NTLY FLOWING STREAMS? IN THE FOREST AT NIGHTFA LL.

PALE FORMS. I COU L D A L SO MAKE OUT TWO SHE WOULD WALK S I L E NTLY AT MY S I DE. I WOULD

GLOWING LINES OF VERSE. BUT L A U R E'S GRAVE LOOK AT H E R WITHOUT H E R KNOWING IT. WAS I EVER

WAS COM PLETELY COV E R E D BY V EGETATION A ND. MORE CERTA I N OF WHAT LIFE BRINGS TO U S IN

FOR SOM E REASON. WAS THE O N LY A BSOLUTELY RESPONSE TO T H E MOST U N FATHOMABLE MOVE­

BLACK STRETCH OF GROU N D. STA N D I N G IN FRONT M ENTS OF THE H EA RT? I WATCHED MY DESTI N Y

OF H E R GRAVE. I WAS SO OVERCO M E WITH PA I N AND APPROAC H I NG I N THE DARKN ESS N E X T T O M E . N O

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WORDS COULD E V E R E X P R E S S HOW MUCH I WAS MOVED. T H I S HOUSE. S U R RO U N D E D BY G R A N D OLD

AWARE OF HER. NOR CAN I EXPRESS J U ST HOW TREES, T H E O N L Y HOUSE TO A FFORD L A U R E SOM E

B E A UTIFUL SHE WAS; HER I M P E R FECT BEA UTY WAS REST BEFORE SHE DI ED, A BRIEF R E SPITE, THE

THE FLU I D I M AGE OF A N A R DE NT AND U NC E RTA I N N E A RBY FOREST, H E R GRAVE. THE C ROW A N D THE

DESTINY. THE FLA S H I N G TRANSPARENCE OF DESERT . , . SO M A N Y C U RSES, SO M U C H M I RACU­

S I M I LA R NIGHTS I S EQUA LLY I NDESCRIBA BLE.I A T LOUS DARKN ESS, BUT THIS MORNING, A SUN

LEAST H E W H O LOVES B E Y O N D TH E GRA VE H A S THE ATTE N UATED BY A LU M I NO U S HAZE A N D SOON, THE

R I G HT TO FREE T H E LOVE WITH I N H I MSELF FROM ITS FINAL DEPARTURE, TH E SECRET T R A N S P A R E N C E

H U MAN CON F I N ES. TH E R I G H T TO GIVE AS MUCH OF T H E LIGHT, OF C H AOS A N D OF D E A T H , A L L THE

M E A N I NG TO HIS LOVE A S H E WOULD TO ALMOST M A JESTY OF R E C E D I NG LIFE, MY FORT U I TOU S

A N YTH I NG E LSE. S E N S U A LITY, MY PERVERSIONS. I WILL NEVER

ABA N DON THESE TH I NGS O F W H I C H I AM M A DE ,

CONF U S I NG M Y S E LF WITH TH E I M M E N S E SOR ROW OF

I F E E L I T N ECESSARY TO I NC LUDE T H I S PASSAGE
A FRACTU R E D WORLD, A WOR L D FRACTU R E D BY ILL
FROM L A U R E'S LETTER TO J EAN G R E M I LLON OF
TEMPER, BY THE CROWD'S SOR D I D RAGE, B Y M I S E R Y
S E PTEM B E R (OR OCTOB E R ) OF 1 9 3 7 . AFTER OU R
C R I NG I NG B E F O R E FATE. I LOVE WHO I A M SO M U C H I
RETURN FROM ITALY:
BUT I'VE R E MA I N ED FAITHFUL T O DEATH (LIKE A

F A I T H F U L LOV E R) [ , , ' ] .
" G EORGES A N D I C L I M B E D ETNA. IT WAS T E R R I FY I NG.

I WOULD LIKE TO TALK TO YOU A BOUT IT. BUT I CAN'T

LA U R E'S P R E S ENCE, A S SOFT A S A N A X E F LA S H I N G
WI THOUT A GREAT DEAL OF U N EASI NESS; I
I N THE N IGHT, S P R I NGS U P A L L O F A S U D D E N " L I K E
COMPARE E V E R YTH I NG I DO TO TH I S M E MORY. SO IT
A ROBBER I N T H E N I GHT' A N D SPREADS A C H I LL I N G
IS E A S I E R FOR ME J U ST TO GRIT MY TEETH . . . SO
E M B R A C E A S D E E P A N D A I R Y A S A N IGHT W I N D. BUT I
H A RD-HARD E NOUGH TO B R EAK MY JAWS:'
M UST M A K E A CONCENTRATED EFFORT TO LEAVE

THIS PRESENCE; IT D E M A N D S THAT I LEAVE JUST AS

I COPI E D THESE SENTENCES DOWN BUT I DON'T
FORC I B LY . I . , ,I
K NOW ANYMORE IF T H E R E IS ANY TRUTH TO THEM. I

DON'T EVEN LOOK AT T H E M A N Y MORE. BECA USE I

I WAS EQUALLY TERRIFIED B EC A U S E LA U R E'S FACE
S I M PLY CAN'T U N LE S S I SET OUT TO A C H I EVE THE
VAG U ELY R E S E M B L E D T H E HORRI B LY TRAGIC FACE
B A R E LY AC H I EVA B L E. AND I HAVE TH E STRENGTH
OF THAT MAN O E D I P U S , E M PTY, H A LF CRAZED. THE
TO DO THIS ON LY R A RELY.
R E S E M B LE N C E G R E W THROUG HOUT HER LONG

PE RIOD OF S U FF E R I N G W H I L E FEVER W O R E HER

DO W N , P E R H A P S M O S T D U R I N G H E R F I T S O F A N G E R

A N D H ATRED F O R ME. I TRI E D TO FLEE WHAT I S A W

S E PTEMBER 1 9, 1 9 39
TH E R E , I FLED MY FATH ER, (TWENTY- F I V E Y E A R S

AGO, I A B A N DO N E D HIM TO FATE D U R I NG TH E

T H I S IS NOT A F E E L I N G THAT I ALO N E EXPERI ENCE.
G E R M A N I NVASION, WH I LE I FLED WITH M Y MOTH ER.
A N E RVOU S N E S S THAT CAN O N LY LEA D TO A
HE STA Y E D B E H I N D I N R H E I MS, A TTE N D E D BY T H E
CATACLYSM H A S B E E N G ROWI NG NOW FOR OVER A
M A I D. HE WAS B LI N D AND PARALYZED AND HE
MONTH . . .
CONTIN U A LLY E XP E R I E NC E D G R E A T P A I N , ) I FLED

LA U R E . ( I FLED HER IN A MORAL SENSE. I OFTEN

FACED HER IN TERRO R , ALTHOUGH I WAS BY H E R

S I D E U NTIL T H E V E R Y E N D; I COULD N EVER H A V E

S E PTE M B E R 20. 1 9 39 GIVEN ANY LESS OF MYSEL� BUT AS SHE

A PPROA C H E D THE T E R R I BL E E N D , I BEGAN TO TAKE

. . . BUT NOW I S E N S E A N E W N E RVOUS CONDITION. R E F U G E IN A SICKLY TORPOR, SOMETI M E S I DRANK,

FOR FOUR DAYS NOW IT H A S BEEN GETTING WORSE. SOM ETI M E S I JUST WASN'T T H E R E . I [ . . . J

THIS MOR N I NG I M A N A G E D TO ESCAPE IT SOMEHOW.

THIS MORN I NG I FOU N D M Y SELF IN AN ANGELIC T H E N A T U R A L CONDITION OF S I M PLI C I TY IS ACTION.

H A R MONY WITH R E A LITY THAT WAS THE MOST • . . BUT IN ORDER TO ACT, ONE MUST FOLLOW A C R U E L

T H I S MORNI NG. I N T H I S ROOM THAT I M U ST SOON I M PERATIVE TO IGNORE A LL OF T H E A PPARENT

LEAVE, H E R E W H E R E E V E R YTH I NG WA S ACCO M ­ CONTRADICTIONS. HOW CAN I POS S I B LY ACT I F THE

PLISHED. A L L OF T H E S H UTTERS W E R E W I DE OPEN. I M PERATIVES WHICH CONTROL ME ARE LA U R E'S

T H E SKY WAS SLIG HTLY H AZY, BUT THERE WERE N O S U D D E N PA N I C A N D S U FF E R I N G AS W E LL AS THAT

C LOUDS. A N D THE P L A N T S I N T H E W I N DOW H ARDLY NIGHT OF PA I N FU L AND SOR ROWFUL C R I E S W H E N

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MY FATH E R A P P E A R E D B EFORE M E [ . • . 1. WE C U R R E NTLY R ECOG N I ZE T H E B U R N I N G E X I S­

TENCE OF R ELIGION, IS P E R H A PS T H E MOST

ELUSIVE PRODUCT OF H U M A N INTERACTION. T H E

SACRED IS NOTH I N G MORE T H A N A PRIVILEGED

MOMENT OF U NITY I N COM M U N I O N . A CONVULSI V E

S E PTEMBER 30. OCTOB E R I, 1 93 9
MOMENT FULL OF W H A T I S NOR M A L LY SMOTH E R ED,"

I I M M E D I ATELY ADDED A NOTE IN THE MARGINS TO

A MONG ALL THE PIECES I'VE W R I TT E N FOR
C L E A R LY I N D I C ATE, AT LEAST TO MYSE LF. TH E
PUBLICATION I N A W I D E R A N G E O F P E RIODICALS.
M EA N I N G OF T H E S E LAST FEW L I N ES: "IDENTIFICA­
O N LY ONE, E NTITLED THE SACRED A N D PUBLISHED
TION WITH LOVE."
IN C A H I E RS D'ART, P O RT R A Y S WITH ANY REAL

C L A R I TY THAT P A R T IC U L A R RESOLUTION WHICH

I WROTE THESE WORDS IN TH E M ARGINS, AS I OFTEN
MOTIVATES M E NOW. ALTHOUGH T H E P I E C E I S FAR
DO WITH THE I NTENTION OF COM I N G BACK TO T H E M
,

BEH I N D ME NOW, ITS "CO M M U N ICATION" I S NO MORE

LATER I N THE A RTICLE. I DI DN'T. I N ADDITION. I R E A D
C L U M S I LY DISTANCED OR U N EASY THAN I N MOST OF
LAURE'S M A N U S C R I PTS B E FO R E I CONTI N U E D
WHAT I HAVE P U B L I S H E D S I NCE. IN ANY C A S E, THE
WRITING.
D EMONSTRATI VE SIDE OF THE TEXT D I D REACH

SOM E OF THOSE FOR WHOM IT WAS R E A LLY

INTENDED. I BELIEVE THAT THE REMAINING I REMEMBERED LOOKING U P AT TH I S MOMENT A N D

IGNORANCE A N D U N C E RTAINTY DOESNT MATTER, SEEING A TH I N RAY OF I N C R E D I B LY BEAUTI FU L

WE C A N NOT POSSI B LY L I M I T HOPE NOW. MEN WHOSE SUNLIGHT PLAYING OVER THE GOLD EN-RED LEAVES

LIVES SEEM N ECESSA R I LY LIKE A LONG STORM­ OF THE TREES A BOUT A H U N D R E D FEET FROM MY

WHO C A N BE SAVED ONLY BY A BOLT OF LIGHT­ W I N DOW. I TRIED TO CONTI N U E WRITI NG. BUT I COULD

N I NG-WA IT FOR SOM ETH I N G NO LESS D E L I R IOUS BARELY MANAGE ANOTHE R TWO S E NTENCES. TH E N .

THA N SACRED. THE MOMENT C A M E W H E N I WAS F I N A LLY ALLOWED

TO SEE LA U R E AGA I N I N HER ROOM. AS I DREW N E A R

TO HER. I I M M E DI ATELY REALIZED THAT HER

WHEN A R E A L LY E S S E NTI A L C H A NG E COM E S
CONDITION H A D WORS E N ED. I T R I E D SPEAKING TO
ABOUT. IT S H O U L DN'T BE ATTRI B UT E D T O TH E
HER, BUT SHE DID NOT RESPOND. SHE S PO K E
WRITTEN WORD. WHEN S E NT E N C E S I M P A RT A
CONTI N U A LLY, A BSORBED WITH I N A VAST DELI R I U M .
M E A N I NG. IT IS ONLY BECAUSE THEY U N ITE SOME
SHE NO LONGER SAW ME NOR R ECOGNIZED MY
OTHE R THI NGS WHICH WERE PREVIOUSLY SEARCH­
PRESENCE. I U N D E R STOOD THAT IT W A S A L L OVE R .
I NG FOR EACH OTH E R. S E NTENCES THAT SCREAM
THAT I C O U L D N E V E R S P E A K TO H E R A G A I N . THAT
CONTI N U A LLY D I E FROM TH E I R OWN OUTBU RST, WE
THIS WAS HOW SHE WOULD DIE I N A FEW HOURS,
M U ST ERASE WHAT HAS BEEN WRITTEN BY PLAC ING
THAT W E WOULD NEVER SPEAK TO EACH OTH E R
IT IN THE S H A DOW OF TH E R EA L I TY WHICH IT
AGAIN. T H E N U R S E W H I S P E R E D TO M E THAT I T W A S
EXPRESSES. THIS H O N E STY IS N OW H E R E MORE
A L L OV ER. I BROKE OUT INTO TEA RS: SHE NO
PERTI N E N T THAT I N THAT PARTICU LA R A RTICLE.
LONGER U N D E R STOOD M E. THE PITILESS WORLD

COLLAPSED ALL A ROUND ME. I WAS SO OVERCO M E

[CROSSED OUT: I WROTE IT LAST YEA R, FROM A UGUST T H A T I WAS U N A B L E T O KEEP H E R MOTH E R A N D

THROUGH NOV E M B E R, I AGREED TO DO I T WITH SISTERS FROM I NVADING T H E HOUSE A N D H E R

DUTHU I T, THE S P EC I A L E D I TOR OF T H E CAHIER D'ART ROOM.

ISSUE IN W H I C H I T WAS TO A PPEAR. I SHOULD ALSO

MENTION ONE E S S E N TI A L D E TA I L ABOUT THE SHE SUFFERED FOR FO UR DAYS. FOR FOU R DAYS.
C I R C U M STANCES S U RROUN . • • I SHE R E M A I N E D A B S ENT, TALKING TO THI S OR TH AT

PE RSON ACCOR D I N G TO SOME U N P R E D ICTA B L E

ESSENTIA LLY, I FEEL I M UST DESC R I B E ONE OF THE W H I M . AT TIM ES. S H E G R E W TENSE O N LY TO QUICKLY

SITUATIONS S U R RO U N D I N G THE WRITING OF THE R E LA P S E I N TO L E T H A RGY. SHE U N D E R STOOD

ARTICLE. D U R I N G T H E LAST FEW DAYS PF L A U R E'S N OT H I N G . SOMETI MES. B R I E F LY. HER PHRASES

SICKNESS, D U R I NG THE A FTER NOON O F NOV E M B E R MADE SENSE: S H E WOULD A S K M E T O LOOK I N H E R

2, I H A D COME T O TH E P A S S A G E I N T H E A RTICLE BAG O R A MONG H E R PAPERS FOR SOMETHI N G THAT

WHERE I WAS DESCR I B I NG T H E I D ENTITY OF THE SHE URGE NTLY N E E D ED. I SHOWED HER EVE RY­

"G R A A L" WHICH WE ARE A LW A Y S S E E K I N G AS TH I N G T H E R E BUT I COULDN'T F I N D W H AT SH E

RELIGION'S GOA L I E N D E D WITH TH I S SENTENCE: WANTED. FOR THE F I RST TIME, I CA M E ACROSS A

"CH RISTIANITY HAS SUBSTANTIALIZED T H E SACRED. S H E ET OF PAPER. BLANK EXCEPT FOR THE HEADING

BUT T H E EXACT NATURE OF T H E SACRED. IN WHICH THE SACRED. W H I C H I SHOWED TO HER. I H A D THE

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 FEELI NG S H E WOULD S P E A K TO ME AGAIN, A FTER TO D E SC R I B E A C APTIVATING I M AG E THAT J U ST

SHE D I E D, ONCE I H A D THE O P PORTU N I TY TO R E A D C A M E TO MY M I ND, AN I M A GE THAT ENCOMPASSES

T H E P A PERS S H E H A D LEFT B E H I N D. I KNOW THAT AN E N TI R E V I SION, AN IMAGE AT B E ST OF AN

S H E HAD WRITTEN, BUT SHE HAD NEVER ASKED ME ECSTATIC OUTBU R ST, OF A N " A N G E L," AS F A R AWAY

TO READ ANY O F IT. I N E V E R THOUGHT I WOULD FIND A N D AS I M PE RC E PTIBLE A S A DOT ON TH E H O R I ZON,

AMONG ALL OF HER A B A N DO N E D WORKS AN P I E RC I NG TH ROUGH THE CLOUDY T H I C K N ESS OF

A N S W E R TO PRECISELY THAT Q UESTION COWE R I N G THE N I GHT, BUT N E V E R A PP E A R I NG A S MORE THAN

I N M E L I K E A STA R V I N G A N I M A L. A STRA N G E LY INTERIOR GLOW, IT APPEARS LIKE

T H E U N FATHOMABLE VACI LLATIONS OF A STR E A K

I STO P P E D LOOK I N G FOR WHAT SHE WANTED. "TI M E" OF L I G H TN I NG . THE ANGEL RAISES UP BEFORE

WAS R E A DY TO "CUT H E R DOWN:" IT DID A N D I STOOD ITSELF A LANCE O F CR YSTA L T H A T S H ATTERS I N

WATC H I N G WHAT WAS H A P P E N I NG, HEAVY WITH LIFE TH E S I L E N C E . " I . . .J

AND YET, POWERLESS TO U N D E RSTA N D ANYTH I N G

M O R E THAN H E R D E A T H . I WON'T S A Y H O W S H E D I E D

ALTHOUGH I F E E L M O S T " H O R R I B LY" TH E N E E D TO

DESC R I B E IT.
OCTOB ER 2, 1 939

WHEN IT WAS A LL OVER, I FOU N D MYSELF S I FTING

MAYBE THE ANGEL IS THE "MOV E M E NT OF THE
THROUGH HER P A P E RS, R E A D I NG PAGES THAT I
WORLDS."
HAD NOTICED FOR T H E F I RST TIME DURING THE

PERIOD J UST BEFORE HER DE ATH. W H E N I READ

WHAT S H E HAD WRITTEN, I E X P E R I ENCED ONE OF I LOVE HER NEITHER AS AN ANGEL NOR AS A

R E C OG N I Z A B L E D I V I N ITY: THE VISION OF THE

THE MOST VIOLENT E MOTIONS OF MY LI FE. BUT I WAS
S H A TT E R E D C RYSTAL F R E E S T H E SC REA M I NG LOVE
NEVER MORE D E E PLY NOR B R UTALLY AF FECTED

THAN WHEN I READ THE LAST SENTENCE OF A W I TH I N M E THAT M A K E S M E WANT TO D I E .

PASSAGE ON TH E SACRED. I HAD N EV E R EX­

P R E S S E D TO H E R T H A T P A R A DOXICA L I D E A THAT I K NOW THAT THIS D E S I R E T O D I E R E S I D E S ON T H E

TH E SACRED IS COMMUNICATION. I MYSELF I M POSSIBLE E DG E S OF B E I NG, B U T I C A N S P E A K OF

DISCOV E R E D T H E NOTION O N LY ONCE I H A D PUT I T N OT H I N G E LS E S I N C E I D I SCOV E R E D THOSE TWO

I N T O WORDS. A FEW M O M E NTS B E FORE I NOTIC E D SENTENCES THAT LINK LAU RE'S LIFE AND MINE

THAT LAURE W A S ABOUT T O D I E . WITHOUT A DOUBT, TH ROUGH THE E A RTH COVER I N G HER C OF F I N .

NOT H I N G I HAD EVER S A I D TO HER CAME CLOSE TO MOREOVER, THESE V E RY SENTENCES E X I ST

EXPRESSI NG T H I S I D E A . THE WHOLE QU ESTION WAS N OW H E R E E LS E BUT A T TH I S V E R Y POINT.

50 I M PORTANT TO ME THAT I R E M E M B E R EXACTLY

HOW AND WHEN EVE RYTH I N G H A P P E N ED. WHATS LA U R E AND I OFTEN THOUGHT THAT THE WALL
MORE. WE A LMOST N E V E R C A R R IED ON "I NTELLEC ­ B E TW E E N US WAS C R U M BLING, THE SAME WORDS
TUAL CONVERSATIONS." ONCE SHE EVEN BLA M E D AND THE SAME DESIRES W E N T TH ROUGH O U R M I N D S
M E F O R NOT T A K I N G H E R S E R I O U SLY. T H E TRUTH I S , AT THE SAME TIME. LAURE WAS R E P U LS E D
I DISDAINED THE I N EVITABLE I M PUDENCE OF BECAUSE SHE OFTEN F E LT IT AS A LOSS, A
"I NTELLECTUAL CONVE RSATIONS." N EGATION OF H E RSELF, I CA N'T R E M E M B E R A N Y OF

T H E S E COI N C I D E NCES, BUT I DO K N OW THAT N O N E

FINA LLY, TOWA RDS THE BOTTOM OF THE PAGE, I OF T H E M E V E R H A D T H E EXTRAO R D I N A RY S I G N I F I ­

FO U N D THE FOLLOWI N G S E NTENCES IN LAURE'S C A N C E OF T H E S E T W O SENTENCES ON "CO M M U N I ­

SCRAWL: CATION."

"A POETIC WORK I S SACRED TO THE EXTENT THAT IT I FIND IT VERY D I F F I C U LT TO EXPRESS J U ST

IS T H E C R EATION O F A TOPICAL EVE NT, 'COM M U N I ­ EXACTLY WHAT THE P A R A LL E L PASSAGES M E A N . I

CATION' E X P E R I E N C E D A S N U DITY. I T I S SELF-RAPE, F E E L OBLIGED TO TRY, BUT FI RST, I M UST DESC R I B E

D E N U D I NG, COM M U N ICATING TO OTH ERS A R E A SON A L L O F T H E D I S P A RATE E L E M E NTS T H A T M A K E U P

TO LIVE, FOR THIS R E A SON TO LIVE 'DIS PLACES' T H E I R M E A N I NG.

ITSE LF. " E X ACTLY WHAT I HAD W R I TTEN IN MY

ARTICLE, SI NCE MY NOTION OF "UN ITY I N CO M M UN­ [CROSSED O UT: I W I L L DESC R I B E O N LY ONE MORE
ION" FIGURES I M P L I C I TLY I N LAU RE'S IDEAS, THING TODAY: THE NEARLY S I M U LT A N E O U S

P U B L ICATION O F THE TWO TEXTS OBLIGES M E TO

LET M E I NTE R R U PT TH I S N A R R A TIVE FOR A MOMENT SAY TO THOSE WHO S U F F E R FROM THE S A M E TH I RST

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A S L A U R E A N D I TH AT] GRAVEDIGGERS. I W A L K E D A LONG A P ROTRU D I N G

W A L L O F BRICK UNTIL I D I SCOV E R E D A M U STY PA N E

AT THE ONSET OF THE WAR W H E N I BEGAN WRITI NG, I OF G L ASS, COV E R E D ON THE O U TS I D E WITH A

CENTURY OF D U ST. I F SOME V I S I O N OF DECAY OR

WANTED TO B R I N G M Y S E L F TO TH I S POINT. THIS WAS

THE ONLY WAY I C O U LD DO IT. A N D I KNEW IT FOR A WASTE H A D A PPEARED TO ME IN T H I S A BA NDON E D

LONG TI M E. I D EC I D E D TO DO W H A T I'M DOING NOW PLACE. I WOU LD HAVE TAKEN I T A S A N A CC U R A TE

SEVERA L WEEKS B E FORE THE WA R BROKE OUT. BUT I MAGE OF MY OWN M I S FORTU N E. I W A S W A N D E R I NG

I HAVE N'T FI N I S H E D: I'VE H A RDLY BEGUN. FACED A I M LESSLY. F E E L I NG THAT I MYSELF HAD BEEN

WITH WHAT I STI LL W A N T TO SAY, M Y "TONGUE IS DESERTED. I WAS R E A DY T O W A I T A N I NF I N I TY FOR

TIED." THE WORLD OF MY DESOLATION TO OPEN UP

B E FO R E ME, S P LE N D I D BUT I N S U FF E RA B L E . I

WAITED A N D I TREMB LED. WHAT I SAW TH ROUGH THE

ON THE OTH E R HAND, W HAT'S H A P P E N I NG TO ME
W I N DOW WHERE M Y W A N DERING H A D B ROUGHT M E
TODAY I S SO VERY I N E X P R E S S I B L E AND A S FO REIGN
W A S ON T H E CONTR A R Y TH E V E R Y I M AG E OF L I F E I N
TO WHAT IS REA L A S A DREAM. W I THOUT ALMOST
ITS MOST LUC I D WH I M S I ES. THERE, A FEW FEET
ANIMAL A USTER ITY, NOTH I NG OF MYSELF C A N
AWAY. B E H I N D THE W I NDOW, WAS A C O L L ECTION OF
E M E RG E FROM THIS FA I R Y TA L E . T H I S F R AG I L E
BR IGHTLY COLO R E D , EXOTIC B I R D S. I COULDN'T
I LLUSION DISAPPEARS AT THE SIGN OF THE
I M AG I N E A N YTH I NG MORE S W E E T B E H I N D THE D U ST.
SLIGHTEST H E S ITATION, T H E SLIGHTEST B R E A K I N
THE D E A D BRANCHES A N D THE U PTU R N E D STONES
ATTENTI O N .
THAN THESE S I LENT B I RDS, FORGOTTEN BY THE I R

MA STER WHO H A D LONG S I N C E D I S A P P E A R E D. IT

EXCEPT W H E N I W A S N E A R LA U R E , I HAVE N E V E R
WAS OBVIOUS THAT NOTH ING HAD B E E N TOUC H E D
F E L T SUCH GE NTLE P U R I TY, SUCH S I LE N T S I M PLI·
SI NCE S O M E LONG A G O DEATH. U N D E R T H E D UST,
CITY. A N D YET, T H I S TIME. I T I S ON LY A F L I C K E R I NG
PAPERS WERE SPREAD A BOUT IN THE D E S K AS IF I N
IN THE VOID AS IF A NOCTU R N A L BUTTERFLY,
PREPA R ATION FOR A V I SIT. I NOTI C E D A PHOTO..
UNAWARE OF ITS E TH E R I A L B E A UTY, H A D COME TO
GRAPH OF THE OWN E R NOT FA R FROM THE W I N DOW.
REST ON THE H E A D OF A S L E E P I N G MAN.
HE HAD WHITE H A I R A N D A LOOK TH A T S E E M E D TO

ME TO BE ONE OF GOODW I L L A N D A N G E L I C NOB I L I TY.

HE WORE THE CLOTH E S OF THE M I DD L E C LASS, OR

MORE EXACTLY, OF THE LEA R N E D C LA S S OF T H E

SECO N D E M P I RE.
OCTOBER 3. 1 939

AT TH IS MOME NT, FROM THE DEPTHS O F M Y MISERY. I

IT IS B EC O M I N G MORE D I F F I C U LT FOR M E TO
NEVERTHELESS FELT THAT LAURE HAD NOT
CONTI N U E. I M U S T B E E N T E R I N G T H A T "KI NGDOM"
ABANDONED ME AND T H AT HER INCREDIBLE
WHERE EVEN THE K I NGS ARE AT A LOSS. AND NOT
SOFTNESS CONTI N U E D TO COM E THROUGH TO M E
O N LY THAT: BUT FROM W I TH I N T H I S "KI NGDOM" I
DESPITE DEATH A S IT H A D EVEN W H E N S H E WAS
HAVE TO SPEAK W ITHOUT STUTTE R I NG. IN FACT, I
EXTREM E LY ANGRY A N D VIOLENT TOWA RDS ME ( I
HAVE TO F I N D WORDS W H I C H GO STRAIGHT TO THE
C A N NOT REC A L L THOSE M O M E NTS W ITHOUT A
H E A RT. T H E M I SS I O N I M UST FULFILL I S A S FAR
FEELING OF HORROR>'
AWAY AS POSSI B LE FROM THE OBSC U R E N E E D I

FEEL TO LOSE M Y S E LF. I AM ENTE R I N G A DESERT OF

TOTAL SOLITU D E WHOSE E M PTINESS L A U R E , NOW

DEAD, ONLY M A G N I F I ES.

OCTOBER 4. 1 939

A BOUT A YEAR AGO, I FOU N D A R A Y OF M AGICAL

SUN LIGHT ON THE T H R E S HOLD OF THAT DESERT. TODAY I S THE F I RST REAL D A Y OF AUTUMN OR

STRUGGLING TO P I E RC E TH ROUGH THE NOV E M B E R W I NTER. I T I S C O L D A N D G R A Y . A N D , I'M THROWN

FOG, THROUGH THE R O TT E N U N D E RG R O W T H , BACK TO THE DESERT WORLD OF LAST FALL. ONCE

THROUGH THE UNREAL R U I NS, THIS RAY OF AGAIN, I F E E L FROZEN AND NUMB . FAR FROM SHORE

SUN LIGHT R E V E A L E D B E FO R E M E A N O L D P A N E O F AND NO LESS A STR A N G E R TO MYSELF TH A N

GLASS IN THE W I N DO W OF AN A B A N DO N E D A N YONE LOST A T SEA. ONCE A G A I N , I A M G R I P P E D

COTTAGE. A T T H I S M O M E N T, I F E LT ECSTATICA LLY BY A K I N D OF MONOTONOUS A N D A B S E N T ECSTASY.

LOST, AT THE DESOLATE EDGE OF E V E R YTH ING I CLENCH MY TEETH AS I DID LAST YEAR. S U D D E N LY.

H U M AN. I H A D J US T WA N D E R E D THROUGH A FOREST THE DISTANCE BETWE E N MY LIFE AND LAU RE'S

A FT E R HAVING L E FT LA U R E' S BODY TO THE DEATH V A N ISHES.

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W H E N I WALK TH ROUGH THE STRE ETS OF R H E I MS, I HOLDI NG IT AS I F E X H A U STED, A N D SHE C R I E D OUT
D I SCOVER ANEW A TRUTH THAT KEEPS ME FROM IN A V O I C E A L MO S T A BS E N T AND I N F I N ITELY
SLEEPI NG. THIS PEC U L I A R AND PAI N F U L CONTRAC­ PA I N F U L: "TH E ROSEl"' I THI N K TH ESE W E R E H E R
TION OF MY ENTIRE LIFE THAT IS SO C LEARLY LAST WORDS. T H E R E I N THAT OFFICE A N D LATE R
LINKED TO LAURE'S DEATH A N D THE L I NGERING THAT E V E N I NG, T H E U P L I FTED ROSE A N D THE C R Y
SADNESS OF A UTU M N I S THE O N LY WAY I CAN R E M A I N E D I N M Y H EART F O R A LONG T I M E. P E R H A PS
"CRUCI FY" MYSELF. LA URE'S VOIC E WASN'T PAI N ED, PERHAPS IT WAS
S I M PLY H EARTRENDING. I R E M E M B ERED WHAT I HAD

ON SEPTEMBER 2B, I WROTE: "I R EALIZE THAT IF I FELT THAT M O R N I NG; " TA K E A FLOWER A N D LOOK AT

WANT TO OVERCOM E MY EROTIC HABITS, I M U ST IT UNTIL H A R MONY . . . " THAT WAS A VISION, AN

I N VENT A NEW WAY OF C R UCIFYING M YSELF. IT MUST I NT E R N A L V I S I O N M A I N T A I N E D B Y A S I L E N T L Y

B E A S I NTOXICATING AS A LCOHOL." WHAT I NOW EXP E R I E NC E D N EE D. I T WASN'T A RANDOM THOUGHT

P E RC E I V E FRIGHTENS ME L. . l . [. 0 0 1 .

OCTOBER 2 1 , 1 9 3 9
OCTOBE R 1 I , 1 9 3 9

I SENT A LETTE R TOD A Y B R E A K I N G OFF RELATIONS

D U R I N G LA U R E ' S LAST H O U R S , W H I L E I WAS
WITH SOME PEOPLE WHOM I SHOULD NEVER HAVE
W A N D E R I N G A R O U N D O U R D I L A P I DA T E D Y A R D
T R U S T E D TO B EG I N W I T H . TOO O FT E N . I H A V E
A M I DST T H E D E A D LEAVES A.ND WITHERED SHRUBS,
SECO N D THOUGHTS ABOUT MY DECISIONS.
I FOU N D ONE OF THE MOST BEA UTI FUL FLOWERS I
[CROSSED OUT: O F T E N , I C R I T I C I Z E D L A U R E ' S
H A V E EVER SEEN. IT WAS A ROSE, "THE COLOR OF
VIOLENT C U R S I NG A LTHOUGH I BOR E I T WITH N O
A U T U M N :' BARELY OPENED. DESPITE MY FRAME OF
LITTLE PAI N, C LI N G I N G TO T H I S SUFFERING A S TO A
M I ND. I PICKED IT A N D B ROUGHT IT TO LAURE. S H E
CHANCE TO LIVE. NOW, K N OWING WHAT I HAVE LIVED
WAS LOST WITHIN H E RSELF. LOST WITH I N AN
THROUGH A N D WHAT I LOVE, I REALIZE THAT I
I N D E F I N ITE DELI R I U M . BUT W H E N I G A V E H E R T H E
WOU L D H A V E LOST E V E R Y T H I NG W I T H O U T M Y
R O S E . SHE C A M E O U T OF H E R STRANGE STATE
I N EXPLICABLE PATI E N C E. BUT THOSE WHO HAVE
LONG ENOUGH TO S M I LE AT M E AND SAY, "ITS
WORN OUT MY P A T I E N C E H A V E C O M P L ET E LY
BEAUTI F U L.'" T H I S WAS ONE OF HER LAST COHERENT
DESTROY E D T H E R AP PORT THAT I HAVE WITH THEM.1
SENTENCES. THEN, S H E B ROUGHT THE ROSE TO H E R
r. 0 0 1
L I P S A N D KISSED I T WITH A DELIRIOUS PASSION A S
I F S H E W A N T E D TO H O L D I N EVERYTH I NG T H A T W A S
WHAT S U R ROUNDS ME NOW COULD A L L DISAPPEAR
ESCA PING HER. T H I S LASTED B UT A MOMENT; S H E
I N A FEW HOURS. AT L E A ST. I COULD BODI L Y LEAVE
FLUNG T H E ROSE L I K E A C H I LD THROWING DOWN ITS
THIS DREAM PLACE. B U T A BEAUTI FUL NEED H A S
TOYS AND ONCE AGA I N , SHE WAS A STRANGER TO
BEEN I NS C R I B E D W I TH I N M E AS I T W A S W I TH I N
ALL WHO A PP ROACHED H E R, BREATH I NG CONVUL­
LA U R E'S DESTI N Y, A N E E D TO MOVE A RO U N D I N A
S I V E LY.
WOR L D F U L L OF S E C R E T M E A N I NG S , W H E R E I
CANNOT LOOK AT A W I NDOW, A TREE OR A CABI N ET
D O O R W I T H O U T A G R E A T D E A L OF A N G U I S H .
N E I TH E R O F U S D I D A N YT H I NG (OR VERY LITTLE) TO
OCTOBER 1 2, 1 9 39 O RG A N I ZE T H E W O R L D A R O U N D O U R S E LV E S . IT
S I M PLY A P P E A R E D I N PLACE AS THE FOG L I FTED
YESTER DAY, IN THE OFFICE OF ONE OF M Y CO­ LITTLE BY LITTLE. I T DEPENDED ON D I SASTE R NO
WORK E R S, WHILE H E WAS ON THE TELEPHONE, I WAS MORE THAN IT D I D O N DREA MS. BEC A U S E A M A N
O V E R C O M � W I T H A N G U I S H . I M P E R C E PT I B LY , I W H O D E S I R E S BEAUTY F O R W H A T IT I S W I L L N E V E R
R ETREATED WITH I N M YSELF, MY GAZE FIXED ON E N T E R I NTO THE WORLD. I N SA NTlY, ASCETICISM,
LA U R E'S D E A T H B E D (TH E O N E IN W H I C H I NOW HATRED, A N G U I S H AND THE DOM I NATION OF FEAR
SLEEP EVERY N I GHT!. LAURE A N D THE BED W E R E A R E A LL N ECESSA RY; ONE M U ST HAVE SO M UC H
WITH I N MY H E A RT: I N FACT, M Y HEART WAS LAURE LOV E T H A T E V E N O N I TS T H R E S H O L D , D E A T H
S T R E TC H E D OUT ON THE BED. WITHIN THE A P P E A R S L U D I C R O U S . A W I N DO W , A T R E E , A
D A R K N ESS O F T H I S THORAC I C CAGE, LA URE D I E D CABI N ET DOOR A R E NOTHI N G I F THEY C A NNOT BEAR
J U ST AS SHE W A S L I FTING ONE OF A B U N C H O F WITNESS TO MOVE M E NT A N D TO HEARTRENDING
ROSES SPREAD OUT BEFORE H ER. SHE WAS DESTR UCTION [ . . . 1 .

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NOVE M B E R 7, 1 93 9 THE THOUGHT OF D E N I SE, ALIVE, POSSESSES M E

ENTI R E LY. I N T H E M I DDLE OF A LL TH I S C H A OS, I A M

ALIVE, I N EB RIATED BY THIS WEIGHTY P U R I TY OF

LA U R E DIED O N E YEA R A G O TODAY.
DENISE, MORE BEAUTIFUL THAN I COULD H AV E

EVER I M AG I N ED (BUT BEAUTIFUL, I T S E E M S TO M E ,

I RECEIVED T H E FOLLOWI N G LETTER FROM M I C H E L
AS AN A N I M A L IS BEA UTIFUL). TO NOT LOVE D E N I S E
LEI R I S LAST S U N DAY. HE HAS NEVER BEFORE
T H I S W A Y , TO N O T F E E L THIS DEATH - L I K E U N EA S I ­
EXPRESSED H I M S E LF L I K E T H I S .
NESS IN MY H E A RT WO U L D BE TO BETRAY

EVERYT H I NG. I T I S A S I NCONC E I V A B L E A S A PLANT

COLOMB-BECHAR. OCTOBER 2 9 . 1 9 3 9
THAT H A S STOPPED B U D D I NG A N D G ROWING [ • • . J.

D E A R GEORGES.
IN DECEM B E R OF 1 937, WE ASKED M A U R I C E H E I N E

TO D R I V E U S T O T H E SPOT THAT S A D E H A D CHOSEN

HERE WE ARE. CLOSE TO THAT MOMENT OF THE YEAR
FOR HIS OWN B U R I A L. " H E SHALL B E SOWN OVER
WHEN WE CAN LOOK BACK AND CONSIDER. SOMETIMES
..
THE ACORNS . . . CON S U M E D BY OAK R OOTS.
WITH TERROR. ALL THAT HAS HAPPENED IN ONE YEAR
D I S I NTEGRATING TO NOTH I NGN ESS IN T H E E A RTH

BEN EATH A THICKET O F BUSHES . . . IT WAS SNOWING

I DONT WANT TO I N SIST ON A N Y O N E THING (ANY

THAT DAY, A N D WE LOST OUR WAY I N T H E FOREST.

INSISTENCE WOULD BE A SACRILEGE I N THIS CASE); THE WINO WAS SAVAGE. A FTER WE R ETU R N E D ,

RATHER. I WANT TO TELL YOU THAT SOMETIMES. WHEN LA U R E A N D I P R E P A R E D A D I N N E R FOR I V A NOV A N D

I'M IN A MELANCHOLIC MOOD. I A U TOMATICALLY o06IEVTSOVA. AS WE H A D EXPECTED, D I N N E R WAS

RETURN TO CERTAIN MEMORIES WHICH. EVERYTHING NO LESS SAVAGE THAN THE WIND. ODdlEVTSOVA
CONSIDERED. ARE MORE REASON TO HOPE THAN TO
UNDRESSED AND BEGA N VOM ITI NG.
DESPAIR.

IN M A RC H OF 1 938, WE WENT BACK TO THE SAME

WHAT U N ITES US WITH J U ST A FEW I N D I V IDUALS
SPOT WITH M I C H E L L E I R I S A N D ZETTE. HEINE D I DN'T
CANNOT BE THE EXTENT OF ALL H U MANLY VALUABLE
GO WITH US. ON T H I S OCCASION, AT E P E RON. L A U R E
THINGS. OF ALL THINGS CAPABLE OF SURVIVING ANY

AND ALL VICISSITUDES.

S A W THE L A S T F I L M OF H E R LIFE. T H E O N E W A Y T R I P

(A 1 9 32 F I L M BY TAY G A R N ETT) W H I C H S H E H A D

I'M USING RATHER SOLEMN LANGUAGE H ERE-FAR

N E V E R SEEN BEFORE. SHE WALKED A LL D A Y A S I F

FROM MY USUAL PRACTIC E-LANGUAGE WHICH MAKES DEATH W E R E N'T W E A R I NG HER AWAY, AND WE

ME A LITTLE ASHAMED, OUT OF MODESTY PERHAPS. OR A R R I VED I N B R O A D DAYLIGHT AT THE E D G E OF T H E

OUT OF HUMAN RESPECT (SACRIFICING ONCE MORE MY P O N D SA D E H A D CHOSEN. TH E GERM A N S H A D J UST
MANIA TO REDUCE EVERYTHING!. I HOPE YOU WILL TA KEN V I E N N A AND THE A I R ALREADY SMELLED OF
FORGIVE M E AND UNDERSTAND DESPITIE M Y WORDS
WAR. THAT EVENI NG, LA U R E THOUGHT A BO U T
ALL THAT I WOULD LIKE TO SAY TO YOU AS
TA KING LEI R I S A N D ZETTE FOR A WA LK A LONG A
SPONTANEOUSLY AS AN EXPRESSION OF GRIEF OR A
PATH WE BOTH LIKED. W E WANTED TO I NVITE T H E M
BURST OF LAUGHTER .
T O H A V E D I N N E R WITH US. B U T NO SOONER H A D W E

RETU RNED T H A N LA U R E B E G A N T O F E E L THE F I RST

MICHEL
E F F ECTS OF THE I L L N ESS THAT E V E N T U A LLY

CAUSED HER DEATH. S H E HAD A H I G H FEVER AND

I. . . J
WENT TO BED, UNAWARE THAT SHE WO U L D

PROBABLY N E V E R GET U P AGA I N. AFTER S H E SAW

I J U ST C A M E OUT OF THE H E LD E R THEATER WHERE I SADE'S "GRAVE," LAURE WENT OUT ONLY ONCE, AT
SAW WUTHERING H E I G H TS: H EA T H C L I F F L I V I NG WITH THE E N D OF AUGUST, I TOOK H E R BY CAR TO OUR
CATHY'S GHOST AS I WANTED TO LIVE WITH LA U R E'S SAINT G E R MA I N HOUSE I N THE FOREST. S H E FELL
G H OST. LAST S A T U R D A Y, IN LA V A I S S E NET, I ONCE, I N FRONT OF A T R E E TH AT H A D BEEN STRUCK
DREAMED ABOUT WUTH E R I N G H E I G HTS, I EVEN BY LIGHTNI NG. ON THE WAY THERE, W E TRAVELLED
DREAMED ABOUT IT I N F E R LUC. I S U PPOSE T H I S OVER TH E MONTAI G U PLA I N S WHOSE H ILLS AND
P E R EG R I N ATION F R O M H O U S E TO H O U S E I N T H E FI ELDS G REATLY D ELIGHTED LA U R E . BUT NO
MOUNTA I N S W A S N E C E S S A R Y TO H E L P M E FORGET SOONER HAD WE ENTERED THE FO REST THAN SHE
MY D I SLI KE FOR "CO M E D Y . " BUT THAT IS MY SAW TWO DEAD CROWS, HANGING FROM THE
C U R R E N T E XPLA N ATION. A FTE R A LL, I'M B EG I N N I N G BRANCHES O F A T R E E . • •

TO FEEL MORE A ND M O R E I G N O R ANT. I WOULD HAVE WANTED HIM TO A LW A Y S

ACCO M P A N Y M E

I'VE STOPPED T H I N K I NG I N S I STE NTLY A BOUT LAURE. A N D PRECEDE M E .

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 LIKE A KNIGHT A N D H I S H ERALD. THI S F U R Y TOOK ME BY T H E HAND A N D LED ME I NTO
(TH E C RO W . F R O M T H E W R I T I N G S OF H ELL.
LA URE)

I HAVE J UST TOL D YOU A BOUT M Y LIFE: DEATH H A D

W E WERE NOT FAR FROM THE HOUSE. I SAW THE TWO TAKEN T H E N A M E LAURE.
C ROWS A FEW DAYS LATER. W H E N I PASSED BY THE
SA M E S POT. I TOLD H E R : SHE S H I V E R E D AND FOR THOSE WHOM I LOVE. I A M A PROVOCATION. I
CHOKED ON HER WORDS SO BADLY THAT I WAS CA N'T STA N D TO SEE THEM FORGET HOW M UC H
F R IG H TE N E D. I U N D E R STOOD ONLY AFTER H E R GOOD FORT U N E T H E Y WOULD H A V E IF T H E Y ONLY
D E A T H THAT S H E H A D C O N S I D E R E D TH E D E A D WOU L D PLAY.
B I R DS AS A SIGN. BUT BY THEN. LA U R E WAS
NOT H I NG MORE THAN A N INERT BODY. I H A D JUST
LA U R E USED TO P LAY. I PLAYED WITH LA URE. NOW I
LOOKED THROUGH H E R M A N U SC R I PTS A N D ONE OF
CAN NO LONGE R REST B ECAUSE I WON. A LL I C A N
THE FI RST I HAD READ WAS T H E C ROW.
DO I S P L A Y AGA I N . R E A N I MATE T H I S REALLY I NS A N E
FATE . . .

LA U R E PLAYED A N D WON. LA U R E DIED.

J U N E 3. 1 940

SOON. SAID LAURE. I'LL M I S S THE SUN.

PA R I S WAS J U ST BOM B E D [C ROSSED OUT: AND
SOMEONE TOLD M E THAT A BOMB H A D FA LLEN ON ON NI ETZSCH E
T H E BOI LEAU STREET CLINIC WHERE LAURE HAD
SPENT TWO MONTHS BEFORE OUR TRIP TO SA I N T CONCERNING T H E MANUSCRIPT T O APPEAR UNDER THE
G E R M A I N ON J U LY 1 !s. 1 938. WHERE S H E EVEN­ TITLE OF THE CULPRIT. WHICH I S MORE O R LESS THE

T U A LLY DIED. I DON'T K NOW I F A NYTH I N G WAS D I A R Y OF LAURE'S DEATH. BEGUN ON YEA R "LATE," I T

D ESTROYED. WILL S A I NT G E R M A I N C R UMBLE TO THE S E E M S THAT A L L OF TH E FRAGMENTS WHICH M E NTION

HER N A M E HAVE BEEN CROSSED OUT OR OMITTED.

G RO U N D. TOO? IN A LETTE R TO L E I R I S . L A U R E
H E R S E L F W ROTE THAT TH E HOUSE W H I C H S H E
A LARGE "X" OR GAP INTE R R U PTS EACH OF THE
D I S D A I N FU LLY C A L L E D "TH E N U N N E RY" WOU L D
PASSAGES ON H E R DEATH. THE SPACING OF THESE
C E R TA I N L Y C O M E TO A D I S A ST R O U S E N D . I'M
I N C I S IO N S IN THE N A R R A TI V E R E P R E S E NTS A
W R I TI NG T H I S NOW A S E V E RYTH I NG I S T E N D I NG
C E N T R A L LOC U S I N THE R E LATION S H I P B E TW E E N
TOWA RDS THE "SONOROUS. ABSURD A N D VIOLENT
BATAI LL E A N D LA U R E .
C H AOS" SHE F O R E S A W AS T H E FATE O F T H E
W O R LD]. LET M E A D D : O N T H E TH R ESHOLD O F
J . P . F.
G LORY. i FOUN D DEATH M A SQU E R A D ! N G ... 5 NUD!TY. .

C O M PLETE WITH GARTERS AND BLACK S I LK

STOCKI NGS. WHOEVER M ET A N YTHI NG MORE HUMAN, GEORGES BATAILLE
WHOEVE R TOLERATED A MORE TERRIBLE FU RY? YET TRANSLATED BY TOM G O RA

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MY LATE GRANDMOTHER

THE C LOCK WAS STRI K I N G M I D N IG H T A S I ENTERED OF A TWENTY-YEA R-OLD MAN FOR THIS OLD WOM A N

THE K I TC H E N WHERE M Y G R A N DMOTH E R WAS LYING. W A S T H E V E R Y WATER OF L I FE. S P R I N G I N G FROM

THE WELL THAT HAD GON E DRY I N HER MANY YEA R S

A SWA R M OF DESIRES F L E W T HROUGH MY MIND BEFOR E. S U R E LY A L L S H E CO ULD EXPECT N O W WAS

THAT I T R I E D T O D R I V E AWAY. B U T I T W A S A HA LF­ HER BODY'S SLOW D I S I NTEGRATION I N SOM E D A M P

H E A RTED E FFORT AT B E ST. W A R M CONTRACTIONS CRYPT AS THE G N A W I N G WOR M S ASSA I LED HER

G R I PPED M Y GUTS. S E N D I N G WAVES OF SWEET PA I N FLESH.

R I PPLI NG THROUGH M Y BODY.

SURELY. T H E R E FORE. ANY REJ ECTION OF ME. H E R

THE S M E LL. ALL DAY LON G , HAD WAFTED U N D E R
GRAN DSON. WAS UTTE R L Y INCO M P R E H E N S I BLE.
THE D OO R OF M Y ROOM, A '4D I THOUGHT I HAD

F I N A LLY G ROWN ACCUSTO M E :) TO IT. A N D THOUGH I

D I D EVENTUA LLY TAKE P L E A S U R E TH E R E I N . I WAS THE SILK K E RC H I E F ON HER FACE A N D THE SHEET
FORCED TO HOLD M Y NOSE WHEN I F I RST C A M E COV E R I N G HER BODY ONLY ADDED TO HOW I
CLOSE TO T H E FOOT OF T H E B E D . R E M E M B E R E D H E R IN MY M I N D'S EYE: A J E A LOUSLY

H I DDEN PH OTOG R A P H OF HER WITH HER DRESS.

SLOWLY. DEATH A N D M E MO R Y B E G A N T O D I STI L L DRENC H E D IN A SUDDEN SHOWER. C L I N G I N G TO H E R

TH E I R H E ADY FRAGRANCE AS M Y B O D Y AVI DLY BODY, THE CLOTH WAS STI C K I N G TO HER SKIN.

BREATHED I T IN. THE THOUGHT F L A S H E D TH ROUGH FOLLOW I N G T H E CONTO U R S OF H E R BREA STS. F I R M

M Y M I N D THAT TH E OLD WOM A N . S U S PECTING THE AND PROUD. WITH TH E I R DARK N I PPLES ERECT

DESIRES STI R R I N G W I T H I N ME. HAD T R I E D TO REPEL FROM T H E FRESH CARESS OF T H E RA I N ; THE WET

M Y BY S U R RO U N D I N G HERSELF WITH HER S M ELL. FABRIC OUTLI N I NG T H E SOFT CONVEXITY OF H E R

THE I D E A THAT S H E H A D T R I E D TO R ES I ST ME. EVEN BELLY A N D N A V E L. THE S H A P E OF H E R P U B I S AS I T

FOR A N I N STANT. F I LLED ME WITH G REAT EXCITE­ DISAPPEARED BETW E E N HER THIGHS. THOSE

M E N T, YET I COU L D NOT U NDERSTAND WHY SHE THIGHS T H A T W E R E LONG A N D S L I M W I T H TH E I R

WOULD T R Y T O R EJ ECT M E. S U R ELY T H E PASSION M U SCLES J U ST B A R E L Y V I SI B L E U N DER THE S K I N .

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S U D D E N LY I THOUGHT I HEARD FOOTS T E P S WITH THEIR FINGERS LOC K E D TOG E T H E R . THEN

OUTSI DE. I COU L D DETECT T H E C R UNCH O F SHOES R A I S E H E R U P T O P U T H E R A R M S B E H I N D H E R BACK

ON GRAVEL AND STO N E S . THE R U STLE OF AND TIE TH E M . W H E N I LOW E R E D HER AGA I N . H E R

SOM E O N E ' S C LOTH E S BUT I COULD NOT T E L L N E W A N D I D A R E S A Y U NCOMFORTA BLE POSITION

WHETH E R T H E SOU N D C A M E FROM T H E ROAD O R CAUSED THE BONES IN HER FINGERS OR HER

THE COU RTYA R D I N FRONT OF T H E HOUSE. I W A S A A R MS - I COULD NOT T E L L WHICH-TO S N A P L I K E

LITTLE TREMULOUS BUT THE F E A R WAS IN KEEPING DRY TWIGS. I WAS D I S P L E A S E D AT T H I S I N C I D E NT

WITH T H E WARM P A I N GNAWING AT MY GUTS A N D T H E S I N C E I H A D NO W I S H TO C A U S E H E R A N Y PA I N .

DA RK EXCITE M E NT T H A T SENT A SLIGHT Q U I V E R

THROUGH MY EVERY MOVEM E NT. THE SHUTTE R S H E R D R ESS H A D ROL L E D B A C K T O H E R K N E E S AS I

WERE C LOSED A N D THE WOODEN P A N E LS HAD B E E N WAS A TTA C H I N G H E R F EET. T H E R E B Y D I S P L A Y I N G
DRAWN ACROSS T H E F R O N T DOOR W I N DOW. I W A S H E R BLACK S I L K STOC K I NGS PULLED H A L F WAY U P
PROTECTED O N A L L S I D E S BUT AT TH E S A M E TI M E HER L EGS. HER D R E S S W A S COM E LY. MADE OF
THE M YSTERIOUS H A P P E N I NGS O F T H E OUTS I D E SOM E F I N E . SOFT FABRIC I COULD N O T I D E NTI FY. IT
WOR L D D I SQU I ET E D ME: THE O N LY LINK I HAD WAS VERY I N TR I C A T E L Y PLEATED A BO V E THE
TON IGHT WITH THE EXT E R IO R W A S THE SOU N D O F WA I ST: TH E FOLDS W E R E NA RROW A T T H E TOP. TH E N
FOOT S T E P S WHICH HAD TA K E N ON UNREAL G R A D U A LLY BOR A D E N E D AND F LA R E D I NTO AN
PROPORTIONS I N M Y M I N D. A M PL E S K I RT. V E R Y D A I NTY M A U V E PEARLS W E R E

S E W N ON THE BODICE I N T H E S H A P E O F M A N Y­

THE STEPS SLOWLY MOVED AWAY. PETA L L E D ROSES C U R L I NG FROM THE LOW CUT

N E C K L I N E : M Y MOTH E R H A D THOUGHT I T TOO LOW

FOR T H E OCCASION A N D H A D COV E R E D T H E B A R E

I WENT QUICKLY TO TH E DOOR TO M A K E C E RTAI N IT
S K I N W I T H A B L A C K S I LK SC A R F.
WAS LOCKED. I SHOT HOME TH E TWO BOLTS MY

G R A N D MOTH E R H A D D E C I D E D T O I NSTALL A SHORT

TIME AGO. AND NOW C O N F I D E N T THAT WE W E R E GOD. MY G R A ND MOTH E R WAS B E A UTI F U L. A N D I WAS

SAFE F R O M A N Y I N TE R R U PTION I W E N T B A C K T O T H E PROUD S H E WAS M I N E . A LBEIT FOR ONE N IGHT ONLY.

BED.

IT WAS QUITE HIGH OFF THE FLOOR IN T H E STYLE OF

OLDER BEDS SO THAT I HAD SOME DIFFICULTY I N

S H E W A S N A K E D U N D E R T H E D R ESS. T H E Y HAD NOT
FOLDI NG BACK T H E S H E ET TO TH E FOOT O F THE B E D
GON E TO THE TROUBLE OF P U TTI N G ON HER
A N D FOLLOW I N G T H E C R EASES. STI L L I NTACT. OF
U N D E RCLOTH E S WH I C H . O N E M U ST A D M IT. WOULD
THE CLOTH. DAZZLI N G IN ITS WHITEN ESS. THAT HAD
HAVE BEEN Q U I T E U S ELESS.
BEEN SPECIALLY BROUGHT OUT FOR THE OCCA­

SION. I LEFT T H E K E R C H I E F IN PLACE ON H E R FACE.

BEFORE I U N DR E S S E D HER I C A UGHT MYSELF
W H E N A L L WAS SAID AND DON E. I REALLY D I D NOT
U N C O N SC I O U S LY O PE N I NG MY F L Y A N D U NCOVER­
WANT HER TO SEE M E : AND THEN TOO. TH E R E MAY
I NG MY PENIS. TH E COLD ROOM H A D CAUSED IT TO
HAVE BEEN A BUDDING S A D I STIC DESIRE TO
SHRINK D R A STICALLY. AND I T WAS A L L W I Z E N E D
CAR ESS HER AND ASSUAGE MY ACH I NG W A N T
AND W R I N K LE D . MY TESTI C L E S WERE H U RTI N G
WHILE SHE COULD N OT SEE MY N E XT M OV E .
SINCE TH E M ET A L T E ETH OF THE ZIPPER HAD
NATU R A L LY I W A S QUITE AWA R E THAT S H E WAS
BITTEN I N TO TH E M . BUT I TOOK PLEASURE IN
UNABLE TO R E A CT TO ALL THE CA RESSES I
I N C R EASI NG T H E PA I N B Y PRESSING DOWN O N M Y
I NTEN D E D FOR H E R : N E VERTH E LESS I DECI DED TO
PENIS.
ATT A C H HER S E C U R E LY . ON A SHELF IN TH E

CU PBOA R D SQUEEZED BETW E E N THE F I R E PLACE

A N D THE SINK I KNEW TH E R E WAS A M ETAL BOX T H E N C A M E T H E M O M E N T W H E N I D EC I D E D TO P U S H

FULL O F STR I N G A N D CORD THAT S H E HAD SAVED BACK T H E D RE S S C O M PLETELY.

TH ROUGH THE Y E A RS. I CHOSE SOME SECTIONS OF

HEAVY TWI N E USED FOR BINDING SHEAVES TH E R E WAS NO SOU N D OUTS I D E EXC E PT. FOR THE
BECA USE O F TH E I R I D E A L LENGTH A N D THE LOOP PAST FEW M I N UTES. THE CAT M EW I NG AT T H E DOOR .
AT O N E E N D. NOT U N D E RSTA N D I NG WHY HIS M I ST R E SS WOULD

NOT LET HIM I N. I C E RTA I NL Y H A D N O I NTENTION OF

IT WAS NOT D I F F I C U LT TO SPREAD H E R LEGS A N D O P E N I NG TH E DOOR FOR HIM. I HAVE A LW A Y S

ATTACH H E R FEET TO T H E B E D POSTS. IT WAS NO LOATH E D TH E C REATU R E . A H U G E TOMCAT W I T H

EASY TASK. HOWEVER. TO U N C L ENCH H E R H A N DS L O N G TAWNY F U R A N D B R IGHT. BALEFUL EYES T H A T

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COULD STA R E I NTO YOU R FACE BY THE HOUR. ENT IN THE SPARSE. WH ITE FLEECE ON HER

FOLLOW I N G YOU R E V E R Y MOVE AND N E V E R LOS I N G GENITALS. A N D WHOSE NATU R A L I NT R I C AC Y H A D

EVEN FOR AN I N ST A N T TH E I R I MPLACABLE BECOM E E V E N M O R E COMPLEX S I N C E E V E RY I NC H

COLD NESS. H E W A S QUITE W I LD A N D N O O N E WENT OF H E R S K I N . SO K N E A D E D BY T I M E. W A S F U R ROWED

N E A R HIM E XC E PT H I S OLD M I STRESS. TO THE B R E A K I NG PO I NT. ONCE SO PINK AND FRESH.

H E R SKIN NOW WAS NOTH I NG BUT STRETC H E S OF

S U D D E N LY . AND WITH A VIOLENT MOVE M ENT THAT WRINKLES. DESICCATED A N D P U R P L I S H .

SURPRISED ME. I P R E S S E D F I R M LY ON MY PENIS.

THUS CAUSING G R EA T PAIN. THE T I PS OF MY I W A S FASCINATED BY T H E FOLDS I N H E R A R M P ITS.

FINGERS. PALER THAN USUAL BECAUSE OF T H E THE GROIN. THE CLEFT BETW E E N THE B R E A STS. T H E

COLD. WERE STA I N E D WITH TINY RED DOTS: T H E I N S I D E OF THE T H I G H S . E V E R YW H E R E I N S U M THAT

TE ETH OF THE Z I P P E R H A D B RO K E N THE S K I N ON M Y CONSTA NT MOVEMENT AND CONSTANT SWEATING

TESTICLES. F O R S O M E T I M E T H E R E A FTER I WAS NOT H A D W R I N KLED THE SKIN A N D F I N A LLY T A N N E D IT

A W A R E OF THE N E A R-CONSTANT CONTRACTIONS OF SO THAT IT H A D THE S U PPLE TEXTU R E OF OLD.

M Y G UT. THE PA I N S E R V E D TO I G N I T E M O R E F I R E S D A R K E N E D LEATH E R .

U N D E R M Y P A S S I O N A N D D ROVE M E TO STR I P T H E

DEAD WOM A N OF H E R MODESTY.

EVERYT H I N G H A D BY NOW R EC E D E D I NTO OBLIVION.

EXCEPT T H E TWO OF US. NOTH I N G C O U L D COM E TO

I PUSHED BAC K HER DRESS TO THE A R M PITS. I TROU BLE THE T R A N Q U I LITY OF O U R E M B R ACES. SO

M A N A G E D TO DO S O BY L I FTI NG H E R A N D WOR K I N G FI LLED WITH EACH OTH E R'S P R E S E N C E WERE WE

THE D R E S S SLOWLY A N D P A I N FU LLY U PW A RDS. A N D BOTH.

EVEN THOUGH THE POS I T I O N OF HER HANDS

H I N D E R E D M E C O N S I D E R A B LY I H A D NO I NTENTION
NOTH I N G WAS OF ANY CON S E Q U E N C E TO ME
OF U NTYI N G T H E M . I F E LT M UC H SAFER KNOWING
EXCEPT H E R BODY L Y I N G ON A B E D T H AT I WAS
THE BONDS WERE F I R M L Y I N PLACE.
AWARE OF ON LY B EC A U S E TH E HEMP CORDS WERE

ATTA C H E D TO IT AND TO THE OBJECT OF MY

TICKLING MY PENIS W I TH ONE HAND. I G E NTLY OVE R R I D I NG PASSION. NOTH I N G WAS OF ANY

CA RESSED HER BODY WITH T H E OTH E R . S E N D I N G CONSEQ U E N C E T O H E R EXCEPT H E R LOV E R. D R U N K

S H I V E R S T H R O U G H M E FROM H E A D TO TOE. WITH DESI R E. A N D T O W H O M S H E WAS O F F E R I N G

H E R BODY WITH A LMOST U N R E A L P A S S I V I TY. H E R

THE SPECTACLE B E FORE MY EYES WAS A FASCI NAT­ G E N ITA LS OP E N I N G WIDE I N TO THE DE EPEST

I NG ONE. R E C E S S E S OF HER BODY. ACCEPTING IN HER

NAKEDNESS T H E H U M I LI ATION OF T H E R A VAGES OF

TI M E: ACCEPTING IN HER N A K E DN ESS THE

HER SA LLOW S K I N WAS STRETC H E D OVER A FRA M E
H U M I LIATION OF HER BONDS THAT I N S U RED MY
WHOSE SLIGHTEST DETA I LS W E R E A PP A R E NT. I WAS
COMPLETE ACC E S S I B I LITY T O H E R BODY.
VERY CA UTIOUS W H E N EV E R I TOU C H E D HER LEST

THE SKIN SPLIT WIDE OPEN AND R E LEASE THE

SOON MY H A N DS HAD EXHAUSTED ALL THE
J A G G E D E N D OF A BONE. BUT M Y DESIRES HAD
POS S I B I L I T I E S O F P L E A S U R E T H E Y C O U L D PRO­
BEEN R E P R E S S E D TOO L O N G A N D SOON M Y H A N D
CU RE.
G R E W MORE DA R I NG. M Y C A R ES S E S M O R E EXPLICIT.

HER B R E A STS. D A NG L I N G A C ROSS HER TORSO. I WAS STI L L STA N D I N G B E S I D E TH E BED. A S THOUGH

WERE NOTH I N G MORE NOW THAN TWO THIN BAGS LOATH TO DEFILE M Y M I STR ESS'S COUCH. WHEN I

THAT THE YEA R S HAD E M PT I E D A N D D R I E D U P. ONLY LEANED FORWA R D A N D TOUCH E D HER S A L LOW

THE DARK. N E A R LY BLACK N I PPLES AT EACH BE LLY WITH MY TONG U E . LEAVI NG A WET MARK

E X T R E M I TY G A V E THEM ANY TH I C K N E SS. THEY T H E R E U PON. THEN GROWING VERY E XC I T E D . I

LOOKED L I K E T W O D E F LATED B A L LOONS W I TH TH E I R PLACED MY H A N DS ON E I T H E R S I DE OF H E R TORSO

VALVES PITTED A N D STI PPLED WITH T I N Y BLAC K AS I BEGAN LICKING EVERY I NC H O F H E R COLD

C R ACKS. FLESH.

HER G E N I TALS W E R E COV E R E D WITH L O N G G R E Y MY PL E A S U R E WAS I M M ENSE AS I G R E E D I LY

H A I RS T H A T STRAGGL E D TH I N LY O V E R A W I D E A R E A SUCKED I N T H E S E R E GLOBES O F H E R B R E A STS.

OF HER BELLY. THE LABIA WERE AS DRY AS N I BBLING ON THE ROUGH N I PPLES. S A L I V ATING ON

EVERYTH I NG E L S E BUT W E R E D I ST I NCTLY APPAR- THEM. A N D ALL T H E WHILE I W A S AMAZED AT THE

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M I N E. DESP ITE T H E F R E N ZY TORTU RING THE TWO OF TOG ET H E R W E R E O U R L A ST O N E . ACTUA LLY I K N EW

US A N D W H I C H WAS FLOODING P A I N F U L PELASU R E IT WAS INDEED THAT LAST BUT I M AG I N I N G THAT

THROUG HOUT M Y PASSION-WRACKED BODY. TH E S E PEASURES WERE BUT THE P R E L U D E TO

OTH E R . MORE M A R V ELLOUS N I G HTS; I M AGI N I N G

BUT T H E DESI R E OOM I N ATING U S LIKE TWO A N I M ALS THAT SOMEONE. MY MOTH E R P E R H A PS. WAS

OVE R S E E I N G T H E S E D E LIGHTS A N D THAT ACCORD­

W A S SO I N TE N S E THAT IT I N H I BITED ANY SHOW O F

PLEASURE. IT WAS FAR BEYOND A N YTH I N G AS ING TO T H E M A STER'S W H I M THEY WERE G R A NTED

C O M M O N AS A N E R ECT M E M B E R . A N E R ECT N I PPLE. FOR BUT ONE N I G HT O NLY. I FELT MY TH I RST FO R

OR A DAMP C ROTC H . WE L E FT THAT STAGE B E H I N D PLEA S U R E I NC R E A S E D A H U N D R E D FOLD.

US WHEN ONE DAY. BARELY P U B E SC E NT. I

U N D R ES S E D IN FRONT OF H E R. STE A L I N G GLANCES TH U S IT WAS I M PE R A T I V E I B E VERY ATTENTI V E TO

TO S E E I F S H E SHOWED ANY I NT E R EST; O R THE DAY EVERY DETA I L AND I G N O R E THE SCRU PLES W H I C H

WHEN I ROSE EA R L I E R THAN SHE AND. T R E M B L I N G MIGHT HAVE FOR B I D D E N MY USING THE HEMP

AT MY N E RVE. I L A Y I N WAIT FOR H E R T O D O H E R BO N D S IN ORDER T O ATTA I N T H E MAXIMUM OF

TO I L ETTE . PLE A S U R E OUR VORACIOUS SENSES COULD

PROV I D E .

N O R W A S I CON V I N C E D T H A T B E YOND O U R PRESENT

PLEASURE. BEYOND OUR P RESENT I N H IBITING S I M I L A R T O D R I E D. S H R I VELLED MOR ELS. AS H A R D

STATE W H I CH. AT T H E E X P E N S E O F T H E M E D I OC R E A N D A S BLACK A S COAL W E R E T H E O U T E R F R I N G E S

EX T E R N A L SIGNS OF PLEASU R E ( A LWAYS FRUS­ OF H E R L A B I A . WITH I N . H O W E V E R . THEY W E R E STI LL

TRATING BEC A U S E OF A C A STRATI NG DETU M E S­ SOM E W H A T P L I A B L E SO THAT. A LONG WITH TH E I R

CENCE. A LW A Y S DEGRADING BECAUSE OF THE BROW N I S H C A ST. T H E Y S UGGESTED T H E CONSIS­

CONC O M I TANT POLLUTIO N S ) . WAS C U RTA I LI NG T H E TENCY A N D A P P E A R A N C E OF OLD LEATH ER.

VO L U PTUOUS E N J OY M E NT OF THIS N I GHT.-TH E R E

WA S NOT A N OT H E R S O R T OF PL E A S U R E . NEAR I R A N MY FINGERS T H R O U G H HER P U B I C HAIRS AND

M A D N E S S TH I S ONE. AND WHICH. WERE WE BUT PINCHED T H E S K I N TOGETH E R IN O R D E R TO OPEN
C A P A B L E OF ATTA I N I N G IT. WOULD I N DU C E US TO HER VAGI N A TO MY G R E E DY. S U C K I N G MOUTH . AND
E X P E R I E NCE T H E MOST VIOLENT AND U NCONTROL­ TH E N I DARTED M Y T O N G U E R E P E ATEDLY I NTO THE
LA B L E O F P L E A S U R E S : E XPLOS IONS OF SKIN A N D CONVOLUTIONS OF HER FLESH.
FLESH: EXTRA- A N A L D E F EC A T I O N S (FROM TH E

MOUTH. TH E SEXUAL ORGANS OR A N OTH E R

I STRETC H E D HER S K I N . EVEN R U N N I NG THE RISK OF
OPENING MADE SOMEWH ERE IN THE BODY);
TEA R I NG IT. I N S E A R C H OF HER CLITOR I S BUT TO NO
E V I S C E R ATION ( FOLLOWE D B Y A DISCHARGE O F T H E
AVA I L. I W A N T E D TO PLAY MY TO N G U E AROU ND IT
I N T E R N A L O R G A N S OR T H E E J A C U LATION OF T H E
BUT H E R S K I N WAS S O W I Z E N E D A N D F U R ROWED
BOW E L S ) : BONES THR USTING THROUGH DRY
THAT IT WAS NOT D I SC E R N I BL E . MOREOVER. I COULD
F I S S U R E S I N T H E S K I N ; WHITE DISCHARGES FROM
NOT T H R UST M Y TONG U E PAST TH E O P E N I N G OF HER
THE BRAIN; VERY DARK URINE CARRYING J E LLY·
V U LV A . SO N A R ROW HAD IT BECO M E .
L I K E S EEDS IN ITS FLOW; TH E ORGA NS OF S I G H T

L I Q U E FY I NG AND D I S C H A R G I N G TH E I R V I T R E O U S

S U BSTA NCE ON E A C H T E M PL E ; D I S S ECTION OF T H E SLOWLY. AS I WET H E R BODY W I T H MY S A L I V A . I

G E N ITALS: E M A SC U LATION; B L OO D VOM ITI NG FROM THOUGHT H E R F L E S H W A S G R A D U A L LY BECOM I N G

T H E A N US. T H E VAGI N A . TH E N A VEL; SUDDEN A N D SOFT E R A N D M O R E R E S I LI E NT A N D MY M O U T H . L I K E

U NCONTROLLA BLE E R P U T I O N S O F B R OW N I S H . A SUCTION C U P. STUCK AND SUCKED AND

A D I POSE G R OW T H S ; T H E S C A TTE R I NG OF F I LTH S A L I V ATED A S M Y TON G U E DARTED I NTO EVERY

BOTH I N S I D E AND OUTS I DE THE BODY. ETC. C R E V I C E . E XPLOR E D E V E R Y N O O K OF S K I N . L I C K E D

G R E E D I LY ; T E V E R Y I NC H OF H E R I C Y G E N I TA LS.

IT WAS NOT THAT I F E A R E D A D I S ASTROUS OUTCOM E

TO O U R RELATIONS; I S I M PLY W A NTED TO PROLONG AS I WAS C A R ES S I N G HER, I UNDID MY WARM

TH E M A S LONG AS POS S I B L E . B EYO N D ALL H U M A N C O R D U ROY T R O U S E R S A N D DROPPED T H E M ON T H E

BOU N D A R I ES. B U T I N PARTI C U L A R I W A S INTENT O N FLOOR. I POPPED E A C H BUTTON O F F M Y S H I RT. O N E

EXTRACTING EVERY L A ST D ROP OF PLEASU R E BY O N E. I WAS N A K E D I N A F E W M O M E NTS. THEN

FROM T H E M . O N ENJOY I NG T H E M TO THE F U L LEST KICKED M Y C LOTH E S A W A Y FROM T H E BED.

AND B U I LD I N G TO A G R A D U A L C L I M A X. SAVO R I N G

E V E R Y LAST ATOM OF D E L I G H T AS I D I D SO. I B E G A N S H I V E R I N G I N T H E COLD ROOM. I LAY OOWN

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C LOSE T O M E T O G I V E H E R M Y WARMTH. C R A N N I E S BETW E E N HER THIGHS. DART M Y TON G U E

I N TO H E R N A V E L. LA P AT THE S I D E S OF H E R FLAT.

H A R D B E LLY. N I BBLE LOVI NGLY AT H E R N I PPLES I N

SOON I WAS STRETC H I NG OUT M Y LONG. TH I N BODY
A R U S H OF SA L I V A . S U C K A T H E R A R M PITS I N T H E
OV E R H E RS. C A R E F U L NOT TO PRESS DOWN TOO
HOPE OF F I N D I N G A TRACE O F H E R SWEAT.
HARD LEST I H U RT H E R AND MAKE HER FRA I L

BON ES C R ACK.

MY P E N I S WAS LI M P. A N D AT EVERY THRUST OF M Y

LOI N S I T TWISTED A N D TU R N E D L I K E A LARGE WO R M E V E RYTH I N G C H A NG E D WHEN I. W I TH U N I NTEN­

ON THE W R I N K LED PARCH M E NT O F H E R B E LLY. M Y TIO N A L B R U TA L I TY . WAS SPREADING WIDE HER

L O N G . DANGLI NG TESTIC LES STRUCK AGA I N ST H E R L A B I A . WITHOUT W A R N I NG. THROUGH H E R PUBLIC

PUBLIS. R U F FLING T H E STR I NG Y GREY H A I R S I N H E R H A I RS. I SAW A S P L I T RUN A LONG HER S K I N .

TH I N FLEECE.

I T H A P P E N E D SO S U D D E N LY T H A T F O R A M O M E N T I

MY FACE WAS P R ESSED A G A I NST HERS AND I DID NOT R E A CT. HER SKIN HAD OPENED LIKE A

COULD F E E L THE S H A R P EDGES OF H E R BONES C R A C K IN A GLASS. T H E P U B I S H A D A F U R ROW AT

GOU G I NG M Y CHEEKS THORUGH THE S I LK K E R C H I EF. LEAST FOU R I N C H E S IN L E NGTH; T H E WOU N D WAS

HAD I R E MOVED IT. I KNEW I WOULD F E E L H E R P U R P L I S H A N D O D D LY D R Y AS THOUGH HER BLOOD

BR EATH M I NGLING WITH MY PANTI NG; I S E N S ED. HAD EVAPORATED I N DEATH. MY EYES R E M A I N E D

U N DER T H E TH I N CLOTH. THAT HER FACE WAS LIKE R I V ETED U PO N H E R TO R N P U B I S F O R A LONG T I M E ;

M I NE. BATHED IN SWEAT AND FLUS H E D WITH T H E S L I T H A D EXTE N D E D T H E CLEFT I N H E R LA B I A

PASSION AND PLEASURE. TO FREAKISH PROPO RTIONS. I W A S SPEECHLESS.

I NCAPABLE OF MO V E M ENT AND OVERCOME BY

SUCCESSIVE BOUTS O F DISBELIEF AND T E R RO R

A LTHOUGH MY BODY WAS M O R E MA LLEABLE. MORE
CAUSED BY THAT FISSURED FLESH. THOSE
FLEXIBLE THAN HERS AND N ICELY MOLDED THE
O V E R S I Z E G E N I TA L I A WHOSE D I M ENSIONS M A D E M Y
ANGULAR CONTOURS OF HER BODY. I WAS V E R Y
PENIS. S H R I VE L L E D A N D BLUE WITH C O L D . LOOK
CONSCIOUS O F H E R CO M P L ETE DOM I NATION O V E R
L I K E A M E R E WA RT.
M E W H I C H SHE ACCOM PLI S H E D BY THE COLDNESS

AND THE D E C E PT I V E R I G I D I TY OF HER BODY.

D E S PITE H E R B O N D S AND H E R I N FERIOR POSITION.

I FOU N D I T D I F F I C U LT AT THE T I M E TO B E L I E V E H E R

E N L A R G E D C L E FT COULD G I V E O F F S U C H A FOUL

ODOU R. BUT G R A DU A LLY I REA LIZED T H E S M E L L

H E R ONLY RESPONSE TO EACH OF M Y MOV E M E NTS.

TO EACH R H YTH M I C CONTACT OF MY BODY WITH THAT H A D A P P A L L E D M E SO MUCH AT FI RST ROSE

H E R S. TO EACH V I B RATION OF MY L I M BS. WAS T H E FROM H E R R E E K I NG COR PSE.

I R R I TAT I N G AND INCESSANT CRACKLE OF HER

BO N ES. Y E T I HAD NOTH I N G BUT T E N D E R N E S S FOR OUR PACT WAS NOW BROKEN. IT H A D BEEN S E A L E D

H E R . A N D FOR THE TWO OF US NOTHING BUT THE W I TH OUR F I R ST KISSES AND WAS TO HAVE

DESIRE FOR BOU N D LESS PLEASURE. EACH ONE OF T R A N S PORTED BOTH O F U S TO THE H I G H EST PEAKS

MY MOV E M E NTS WAS PLA N N E D SO THAT A LL MY OF P L E A S U R E .

C A R ESSES. THE MOVEMENTS O F M Y BODY ON H E R

BODY. WOULD BE SUFFUSED WITH I N FI N ITE S U D D E N L Y T H E SIGHT O F H E R R U I N ED G E N ITALS

G E NTLENESS. U N H I NG E D M E COM PLETELY AND I BEGAN P U N C H I N G

H E R B E LLY. EACH B L O W M A D E H E R DOUBLE U P AS

I K N E LT BETW E E N HER OPEN LEGS SO I MIGHT THOUGH TO PROTECT H E RSELF OR TO CATCH H E R

CONTE M P LATE H E R VAG I N A A G A I N . M Y DESIRE WAS BREATH. B U T H E R E F FO RTS W E R E V A I N . H E R H A N DS

F A N N E D ANEW AT THE WAY S H E OFFERED H E RSELF K E PT S N A P P I NG B E H I N D H E R BACK A N D T H E WHOLE

SO I M MODESTLY. K I TC H E N R E V E R B E R ATED WITH MY M U FFLED

D R U M M I N G ON H E R B E LLY.

I LOW E R E D MY HEAD AND BRUSHED MY H A LF­

C LOSED MOUTH AGAI NST H E R B E LLY AND B R EASTS. MY DESPAI R C A U S E D B Y THE GROTE SQUE F I N I S H TO

THEN PUSHED ASIDE THE BLACK SILK SCARF SO M UC H P L EA S U R E PROMISED TH E N WITH DRAWN;

M ASKING H E R TH ROAT SO I M IGHT K I SS H E R NECK M Y RAGE CAUSED BY T H E COMPLACENT PASSIVITY

AND SUCK AT ITS W R I N K LES. I TURNED AROUND SO I S H E S HOWED A FT E R T H E DISASTER. R E L E A S E D A

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HOUR. H A M M E R I N G E V E R Y I N C H OF H E R BODY. MY G R A N DMOT H E R I WAS P U NC H I NG A N D K I C K I N G

S O ATROC IOUSLY?

I WAS RACKED BY SPASMS O F U N E A RTHLY RAGE; I

R E LEASED A LL TH E C R U E LTY I COU LD M U STER. SHE R E M A I N E D A S I NSENSIITIVE A S TH E BED THAT

TH I N K SHE S U F F E R E D A G R EAT D E A L. SUFFERED O U R FERINE TH RA S H I N GS.

BUT H E R P A I N C A U S E D NO SHOUT. NO GESTURE OF NOT A S I N G L E TEAR. NOT A S I NGLE TEA R OF B LOOD.

SELF-DEFENCE. E V E N H E R EYES R E M A I N E D M UTE.

NO SIGN OF A PPROVA L. N O SIGN O F R E PROACH. HER WOU N DS W E R E RAPI DLY TU R N I NG PURPLE O R

YELLOW L I K E H E R S K I N . WITH N O T A S I N G L E R U B Y

AT TIMES I T WAS NOT H A R D TO B E L I EVE SHE WAS T E A R W I N K I NG I N THE LESIONS. N O SCA R LET TEA R

DEAD. TO COMFORT M E .

SHE N EV E R ONCE SHUDDERED. NOR DID HER

I SPA R E D N O P A R T OF H E R BODY; H E R B R E A STS.
MOUTH GAPE A N Y W I D E R T H A N B E FO R E . H E R HA LF­
HER A R M PITS. HER MONSTROUSLY GAPI N G L A B I A .
CLOS ED EYELIDS R E M A I N E D THAT W A Y . H E R EYES
H E R LEATH E R N B E L LY. H E R N E C K WERE A L L D U LY
W E R E FOCU S E D U N B L I N K I NG LY ON W H ATEV E R WAS
RI PPED A N D TOR N . BUT STI LL I KEPT ON. E V E R M O R E
B E FORE T H E M . A N D AT T I M E S H E R E M PTY GAZE M ET
I NTEN S E LY . EVER MORE FEROCIOUSLY .
M I N E.

AS LONG A S I STI L L H A D A N U N B ROKEN F I N G E R N A I L

H E R L I PS N E V E R Q U I V E R E D. NO T E A R ZIGZAGGED
I SLIT O P E N HER FLESH IN LON G . I R R E PA RA B L E
DOWN THE W R I N K L E OF HER W A X E N FACE.
WOUNDS.

UNDER MY R EPEATED BLOWS. THE H E M P BONDS

H E R S K I N . I N VARIOUS PLACES. C A M E AWAY BY T H E
TYI N G HER FEET TO THE B E D POSTS STRETC H E D
H A NDFU L A N D C U RLED U P I N T O WITH E R E D ROLLS.
N E A R LY TO T H E B R EA K I NG POI NT. GOUGI N G T H E

SKIN FROM H E R A N KLES IN SERE S H E ETS THAT

ROLLED AWAY FROM TH E FLESH L I K E STR I PS OF A N D NOT ONCE DID SHE CRY OUTI

Y E L LO W E D PA R C H M E N T. HER W A ST E D BODY

TWISTED A N D T U R N E D I N VIOLENT CONTORTIONS MY ACTIONS HAD BY NOW S U R PASSED EVERYTH I N G

THAT MADE H E R L I M BS S N A P L I K E K I N DL I NG AS I THAT M A D N ESS C A N D ICTATE. BUT IT W A S T H E N

P U M M ELLED H E R BATTE R E D BODY. K N OC K E D H E R THAT I W R E N C H E D O P E N H E R MOUTH. DISLOCATI N G

F R O M SIDE T O S I D E A S F A R A S H E R M E RC I LESS TH E F R A I L B O N E S O F H E R JAW. A N D S L I P P E D I N M Y

FETTERS WOULD A L LOW. AND PUNCHED HER SO PENIS. A T I N Y WORM B L U E WITH COLD.

H A R D SHE K E PT OOU BLI NG UP L I K E A J A C K K N I F E AT

EVERY S M A S H OF MY F I STS.
AND I BEGAN PISSI NG.

SHE SEEMED NOT TO BE T H E R E . IT S E E M E D AS

I PISSED I NTO THE DEE PEST REACHES OF HER
THOUGH I WAS POU N D I NG AN OLD ROTTEN TREE
TH ROAT. A N D WITH THE S I N G LE M I N D E D N E S S O F
TRU N K WHOSE O N LY R EACTION WAS SPLITS I N ITS
RAGING D E S I R E I M O V E D I N AND OUT O F H E R MOUTH
BARK.
IN SAVAGE I M ITATION OF T H E ACT I HAD BEEN

DENIED.
A N D Y E T I H A D PUT H E R T H R O U G H SO M U C H I THOSE

LONG MOMENTS O F M A D N E S S F U L L OF F U R Y AND

H O RROR UNTI L TH E CRUEL CRAVING O F M Y H A N DS A S MY U R I N E S P U RTED OVER H E R FACE IT G L U E D

WAS SATED. A N D T H E T R E M B L I NG OF MY FI NGERS H E R H A I R T O H E R S K U L L A N D FOR M ED A WET H A LO

HAD ABATED. BUT ONLY A FT E R THEIR N A I LS. UPON THE STI LL I M MACU LATE S H E ETS.

STI FFENED B Y T H E COLD. H A D F I N I S H E D TEA RING

H E R I NDI FFERENT BODY I NTO H I DEOUS SH REDS OF AND I K E PT ON P I S S I N G . C R EATI N G A RT I F I C I A L

S K I N A N D FLESH. TEARS OF PAI N ON HER C H E E KS. C R E AT I N G

ARTIFIC I A L BLOOD TO R E PLACE THE BLOOD S H E D I D

M Y RAGE R E A C H E D S U C H B E R S E R K H E IGHTS THAT NOT HAVE. T H E BLOOD S H E D I D NOT WANT TO G I V E

AT TI M ES I NO LONG E R KNEW ITS OBJ ECT; WAS THE ME.

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S U D D E N L.Y. REPUDIATING A L.L. DECAY. AL.L. THOSE DI STU R B E D .

WASTED STRIPS OF S K I N . FL.ESH AND MY OWN PISS

WITH ITS SMEL.L. NOW M I N G L. I N G WITH HER DEAD ANONYMOUS A U THOR

S M E L.L.. I FEL.L. I NTO A DEEP S L. E E P THAT NO D R E A M TRAN SLATED BY DANIEL SLOATE

23. T H E G A L L. E R Y MONTPE N S I E R .

24. R. S E E N F R O M R E A R W A L. K I N G UP THE G A L L E R Y U N D E R A RC A D ES.

25. FADE O U T-SO U N D OF R:S STEPS U N D E R THE ARCADES.

26. STEPS OF THE COR P U L E N T MAN.

27. THE CLOCK ON T H E SQU A R E OF TH E T H EATRE FRANC A I S M A R K I NG 15 P.M.

28 THE COLO N N A D E OF THE GA LLERY: R. SLIGHTLY D I S H EVELLED. A PP E A RS. W A L K I N G A S TH ROUGH NOT

S U R E OF H E R STEPS. STOPS TH EN CROSSES THE SQU A R E.

28 BIS. TH E FOUNTA I N S ON T H E SQU A R E.

28 TER. THE TERRACE OF T H E REGENCY CAFE WHERE R. I S SEATED AT A TABLE.

29. T H E WAITER MOVES TOW A R D R.-WIPES THE TABLE.

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T H E PA R A L L E L B A R S

EXTE R I O R PA R I S DAYLIGHT - N E A R B Y S H E H A S L E FT THE TEA THAT HAS B E E N

GYM N A S I U M I N T E R IOR DAYLIG HT. BROUGHT T O H E R A N D H E R BAG. S H E LOOKS AT T H E

FOUNTA I N S ON THE SQU A R E AND STROK ES HER

W R I STS, I N S E RT I N G H E R F I NG E RS U N D E R THE L A C E

OF H E R GLOV ES.

THE GARDENS OF TH E PA L A I S-ROY A L AND ITS

FOUNTA I N S PLAYI NG. ROBERTE·S . VOICE I S H E A R D

O F F STAGE.

ROB E RTE (VO I C E OFF): A FT E R A LL. WHAT H A V E I GOT

ROBE RTE (VO( C E OFF) : THAT OCTAVE SHOULD H A V E A G A ( N ST THOSE TWO M E N ? IF TH E Y FOU N D SOM E

T H E I N CONC E I V A B L E A R ROGA N C E T O I M A G I N E H E I S WRETC H E D PL E A S U R E . . . Irs NOW THE PLE A S U R E

T H E A U THOR OF MY I M PROP R I E T I E S IS O N E TH I NG . . . . BEG I N S F O R M E .

BUT A S TO B E L I E V I N G H I M S E L F THE ORIGIN ATOR OF

MY T E M P E R A M E NT, THE POOR DEAR DOESN'T KNOW

WHAT I'M CAPABLE OF WITHOUT H I M .

THE WAITER. CONC E R N E D BY HIS C Ll ENrs ODD

I S I T POSSIBLE A WOM A N S E E K S TO EXPE R I E N C E A B E H A V I O U R , C O M E S OVERo T O H E R .

V IOLENT S E N S E OF S H A M E J U ST BECA U S E S H E'S

RESPECTABLE? I REMEMBER I WAS ASHAMED W A I T E R : A R E YO,-' A L L R I GHT? Y O U LOOK P A L E . . .

W A S M Y PLEA S U R E A N Y THE L E S S FOR THAT?

ROBE RTE TURNS AWAY WITHOUT S E E I NG HIM,

S M I LES D R E A M I LY A N D R ETU R N S TO SIT AT H E R

TABLE.

ROB E R T E . ST A N D I N G IN THE SUN, HER BACK

AGAI N ST T H E COLON N A D E O F T H E PA LAI S-ROYAL. S H E TA K E S A POCK E T M I R ROR FROM H E R BAG AND

I N FRONT OF THE CAFE LE N E M OURS, ON A TABLE LOOKS A T H E RS E LF.

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BUS: S H E WATC H E S T H E PASS I N G SC E N E AS T H E MOLLUSK. WHO H A S FOLLOWED H E R . H E CATC H ES

B U S TRAVELS F RO M TH E C H A M B E R OF DEPUTI ES U P WITH H E R . WALKS B E S I D E H E R FOR A M O M E NT.

V I A THE PONT ROYA L TOWA R D T H E LOU V R E . THEN PASSES HER AND GOES OSTE N S I BLY

THROUGH A DARK PORCHWAY.

S H E P L A C E S H E R GLOV E D H A N D ON T H E R A I L. AS A

MASSIVE INDIVIDUAL TAKES UP HIS POS I T I O N ROBERTE CONTI N U E S HER W I N DOW-S H O P P I NG.

BESIDE HER. THEN. W H E N SHE REACHES THE PORCHWA Y T H E

HA LF-OPEN DOOR I S S U C H A B U RN I NG I N V I TATION

SHE C A N NOT R ESIST O P E N I N G IT.

CASUA LLY. AS ROBE RTE. LOST IN REVERIE.

WATC H E S TH E R I V E R A N D THE T R E E S G O BY. T H E

SHE FINDS H ERSELF IN A DELAPI DATED AND
I N DI V I DUAL. WHOSE H E AVY B O D Y A N D FACE A R E
GLOOM Y HA LL. RISKS A STEP I N TO T H E D A R K N ESS.
R E M I N I SCENT O F A MOLLUSK. S L I D E S H I S FINGERS
WHEN THE DOOR BANGS LOU D L Y BEHIND HER.
I M PERCEPTIBLY TOW A R D ROBE RTE'S ABA NDON E D
BARRED BY THE I M POSI NG S I LHOU ETTE OF THE
H A N D.
MOLLUSK.

HE TOUC H E S H E R F I N G E R S : ROBERTE WITHDRAWS

B E FORE SHE HAS TIME TO CRY OUT A DOOR IN
HER HAND.
FRONT OF HER I S OPE N E D BY A N I N T E RLOPER WHO

BARS THE ACCESS. S H E RECOG N I Z E S T H E SQUAT

TH E N . U N A BLE TO R E S I ST. T H E MOLLUSK DELIBER­ M A N OF T H E A M E R I C A N C A R.
ATELY PUTS HIS F I N G E R S ON THOSE OF ROBERTE.

ROBERTE R U N S TOWARD THE STA I RC A S E . CAUGHT

I N D I G N A NT. R O B E RTE I M M E D I AT E LY P U L LS HER I M M EDIATELY BY T H E MOLLUSK. WHO. A LTHOUGH
H A N D AWAY A N D GOES T O S I T I N S I D E T H E BUS. S H E HITS HARD AT H I M . TH ROWS HER LIKE A STRAW

OVER HIS SHOULDERS. HIS H A N DS SPLAYED

SHE F I N DS A PLACE IN TH E SUN WH E R E SHE ACROSS H E R THIGHS.

R E LAXES. ENJOYING THE BREEZE ON HER FACE

FROM T H E OPEN W I N DOW. HER LEGS LAZI LY APART. AND WI THOUT HOPE OF E SC A P I N G FROM HIS

DETERMI N E D GRASP. S H E I S C A R R I E D A LONG A N

INTERMINABLE PASSAGEWAY T O T H E TOP O F A

TH E MOLLUSK. WHO H A S WATC H E D H E R F ROM T H E
STARICASE W H I C H LEADS TO A VAST A N D E E R I E
PLATFOR M . NOW COM E S A N D SITS DOWN OPPOSITE.
ROOM. F U LL OF U N K NOWN FOR M S T H A T SH I N E I N
OBSERVI NG HER AT L E I S U R E OUT OF T H E CORN E R
T H E HALF-LIGHT.
OF H I S EYE.

R U N N I NG A H E A D OF TH E M . THE SQUAT M A N . H A S
ROBERTE I M M E DATELY C ROSSES HER LEGS AND
W A I T E D F O R THIS M O M E N T T O THROW A L L T H E L I G H T
CLOSES H E R EYES.
REQU I R E D ON THE SCE N E OF E V E N TS. H E TURNS ON

THE SWITCH AND I LLU M I N ATES TH E ROO M : IT I S A

OVER THE SHOT OF ROBE RTE C LOS I N G H E R EYES IS WORK-SHOP IN AN A B A N DO N E D FACTORY. IN T H E
S U P E R I M POSED A S HOT O F T H E PARALLEL BARS M I DDLE O F W H I C H . I M M E N S E ON A L E A D BASE. LOOM
FROM WHICH TWO LEATH E R STR A PS A R E H A N G I NG . TWO PA R A L L E L BARS.

WHEN TH E BUS STOPS AT T H E COM E D I E F R A N C A I S E A LARGE COLON I A L FAN SLOWLY B EG I N S TO T U R N

ROBERTE G E T S O F F Q U I C K LY. JUST ABOVE T H E M .

NOW S H E CAN B E SEEN T H ROUGH T H E COLON N A D E W H I L E TH E MOLLUSK F I R M LY ATTAC H E S ROBE RTE'S

OF T H E RUE DE MONTPE N S I E R IN THE P A LA I S­ WRISTS TO THE BARS BY M EA N S OF THE LEATH E R

ROYAL. LITTLE SCHOOLBOY X. W E A R I N G T H E S A M E STRAPS. THE SQUAT M A N DOES T H E S A M E FOR H E R

U N I FO R M AS L I TT L E F. A N D A NTOI N E . WATC H ES H E R . A N KLES. H A V I N G F I R ST. W I T H A S I N G L E G E ST U R E .

TH E N D I SA P P E A R S . T O R N O F F H E R S K I RT.

S H E PASSES A LO N G T H E GALLERY LOOK I N G I NTO SO THAT BEFORE SHE K N OWS WHAT HAS H A PP E N E D

SHOP-WINDOWS. ROBERTE F I N D S H E R S E LF. T O H E R F U R Y. TI ED H A N D

I SS
A N D FOOT TO THE BARS. THE COAT OF H E R S U I T PIECES ON TH E TILED FLOOR, TH E SQUAT MAN

D R A P E D OVER H E R S U S P E N D E R BE LT. S M I L E S AT H E R I N SO L E NTLY.

A N D W H I L E WITH THE H I G H H E E L OF ON E F R E E FOOT

WHICH THE SQUAT MAN HAS NEGLECTED TO

ROBERTE. LOST IN REVERIE. BACK AGAI NST T H E
IMMOBILIZE SHE TRIES TO PUSH AWAY THE
C O LO N N A D E OF THE CAFE LE NEMOURS IS
MOLLU SK'S BODY. H E D E L I CATELY RE MOVES THE
I N T E R R U PT E D B Y T H E WA ITE R'S VOI C E .
GLOVE COV E R I N G ROBERTE'S HAND. OPENS HER

FINGERS ONE BY ONE. AND WITH E M OTI O N

A P PROACHES H I S MOUTH TO H E R OPEN PA L M . F I X E S WAIT E R : A R E Y O U A L L R I GHT? Y O U LOOK P A L E . .

H I S TON G U E AGAI NST I T A N D B E G I N S T O TITI LLATE

TH E PALM WITH I N C R E A S I N G V I OLENCE. S H E T U R N S SLOWLY. W I THOUT S E E I NG H I M . STR OKES

H E R W R I STS A N D GOES TO SIT DOWN AT THE TA B L E

ROBE RTE CLOSES HER EYES. HER LEG IS NO W H E R E A C U P O F TEA A N D TWO CROI SSANTS A R E

LONG E R CAPABLE OF R E P U L S I NG THE MOLLUSK WAITING.

WITH T H E S A M E E N ERGY. ITS MOV E M ENT S LOW I N G

A N D C H A NG I N G LITTLE BY LITTLE I NTO A LANGUOR­ OPE N I NG HER BAG TO TA K E OUT THE POC K E T

OUS U N D U LATION OF THE K N E E . M I RROR. S H E S E E S A R E D C A R D SLI PPED I N S I DE.

R O B E R T E M U R M URS: S H E EXA M I N E S IT,

ROBERTE: PUT OUT THE LIGHT TH EN . . . THE CARD BEARS A FACSI M I L E OF HER OWN

F I N G E R P R I NTS. S U PE R I M POSED O V E R THE W O R D O F

GOD: " I N PRI N C I P I O E RAT VERBUM

FOR A MOM ENT SHE OPENS H E R EYES TO M E ET T H E

I M PLACABLE GAZE OF THE SQUAT MAN WHO

MA I N TA I N S HIS HOLD QUITE U N N ECESSA R I LY ON S H E PLACES T H E CARD ON THE TABLE A N D T A K E S

THE FETTE R E D ANKLE. WHEN IN A CLIMAX OF OUT H E R POC K E T M I R R O R .

E MOTI ON. THE MOLLUSK LETS GO HER H A N D A N D

COLLA PSES I N A DEAD F A I N T O N TH E FLOOR. T H E S H E L OO K S AT H E RS E L F A N D S M I LES.

S Q U A T M A N I M M E D I ATELY D R A G S H I M A W A Y . THEN.

WITHOUT A WORD. UNTIES ROBE RTE AND DISAP­

PEARS BY THE STA I RCASE. H E SLI PS T H E R E D C A R D

I N TO H E R B A G A N D POU R S A G LASS O F B R A N DY.

ROSERTE (VOI C E OFF): HOW SOOTH I N G T H E PLA Y OF

TH E FOU N TA I N S U N D E R TH E PLANE TREES.

L E FT ALONE WITH TH E BARS IN THE D E S E RTED

GYM N A S I U M . ROBE RTE PUTS ON HER S K I RT AND

HOW EXQUISITE T H E C I TY I N ITS RE FLECTIONS . . .
S U D D E N LY F E E LS HORRIBLY A LONE. S H E LOOKS U P

AT THE G L ASS DOME ABOVE HER WHERE TH E

S H A DOW OF A R EC L I N I NG BODY SLIDES DOW N : IT I S

L I TTLE X .

THE GARDENS OF THE PA L A I S- R OY A L AND ITS

FOUNTA I N S . STR E A M I N G WITH WATER,

TH E SQUAT M A N RETURNS. H A NDS H E R H E R BAG

AND THE GLASS OF B R A N DY . SHOC K E D BY HIS

I N SO L E N C E , ROBE RTE SLAPS H I S F A C E W I T H SUCH P I E R R E K LOSSOW S K I

FORCE THE G L ASS FALLS AND SPLINTERS TO TRAN SLATED SY CATH E RI N E D U N C A N

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TORTURER

LET THE M A N OF V I C E TALK, YOU'LL BE T A K E N FOR A D R UG WHICH SETS ITS O W N DOS E ; A R O U L ETTE

RIDE, HE WILL MAKE YOU SWA LLOW ALL OF HIS W H E E L W H I C H CHOOSES W H E R E TO STOP, OBVIOUS­

FANTA S I ES, H I S M Y T H S , H I S LIES, H I S P R E J U DICES, LY A LWAYS O N E SPOT AWAY FROM T H E W I N N I NG

LET'S GAG HIM. HIS TWO OBJECTIVE ACCOMPLICES. N U M BE R . SHE HAS SEEN E V E R Y T H I NG. HEARD

TH E PROSTITUTE AND T H E COP. TELL E N OUGH AS IT EVERYTH I N G . . . A N D U N D E RSTOOD NOTH I NG? SO

IS. THEY DON'T C H A N G E THE FACTS. TH E Y OON'T GET W H AT. SHE TALKS. SHE KNOWS WHAT SHE IS

DELI RIOUS. THEY A R E P ROS. TA L K I NG A BO UT. S H E ·KNOWS·. STOP.

W H Y T H E PROSTITUTE? IN W H A T SENSE I S SHE MORE J A C K I E : T H I RTY Y E A R S OLD N E XT OCTOB E R , 5'5",

QUALI F I E D THAN THE D R U G DEALER O R CROU P I E R 143 LBS. SOM ETH I NG H EAVY ABOUT H E R FACE, H E R

T O S P E A K A BOUT V I C E ? DON'T A LL T H R E E PLAY A GAZE, H E R G A I T. G R E E N EYES. SHORT BLACK H A I R .

S I M I LA R ROL E : TO FU R N I S H TH E M A N OF VICE WITH P R E TT Y ? AN ABSURD QUESTIO N WHICH NO

THE OBJECT OF HIS P L E A S U R E? U N OO U BTEDLY. CUST<.. M E R H A S E V E R ASKED H I M S E LF. S H I N Y R E D

A N D. IN A LL TH R E E C A S E S . O N E F I N DS THE OBJECT BOOTS. L A C E D T O T H E K N E E . 3" H E E LS. A BLACK

DEPRIVED OF I TS F I R ST D E ST I N A T I O N AND SLICKER COAT W H I C H S H E HAS WOR N FROM T H E

PLEASURE M A D E U N N AT U R A L : LOSS ENTERS I NTO B EG I N N I N G AND WHICH HAS EA R N E D HER TH E

T H E PLEASU R E OF TH E G A M B L E R . J U ST AS ' N E E D' N I C K N A M E : SLICK-JAC K I E . A PHOTO T A C K E D ON T H E

ENTERS I NTO THAT OF T H E A D D ICT. J U ST AS THE WALL: A WOM A N OF ABOUT FI FTY. B LOND, BOOTS.

S U P R E M E H U M I LIATION -OF PAYI NG TO B E LOV ED­ FITTED LEATH E R OUTFIT. 'HER FOOT ON A C H A I R . AN

ENTERS INTO THAT O F THE JOH N . VICE I S A LWAYS A N I M A L TA M E R'S W H I P IN H E R H A N D . S I G N E D: "TO

THE S A M E : IT H A PP E N S W H E N M I SFORT U N E I S GOOD. JACK I E W I T H BEST REGARDS. JOAN." "SH E'S DUTCH.

OF COURSE. BUT THE OOM A I N O F PROSTITUTION. SH E'S I N N E W YORK. YOU SEE HER IN A L L O F THE

SEXUAL DEVIATION. I S T H E O N LY PLACE WHERE A MAGAZIN ES. IN BOOKS TOO. SH E'S A STA R? S H E'S

D I RECT RELATION S H I P IS I N VOLVED. T H E PROSTI­ B E E N OOI NG S/M FOR TWENTY Y E A R S . S H E'S E V E N

TUTE OOES MORE T H A N FU R N I S H A N OBJ ECT. SHE IS SENT M E C U STOM ERS. S H E WRITES M E T O EXPLA I N

THAT O B J ECT. LIVING M A TT E R WHICH L I ST E N S . W H E N T H E Y OON'T S P E A K F R E N C H . N E I T H E R DOES

RECORDS. R ESPONDS, Q U ESTIONS. DECI DES. A SHE. BUT I H A V E A CUSTO M E R WHO T R A N SLATES

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HER LETTERS. SHE M IGHT COME SEE ME HERE. FOR C H I L D R E N -ODDLY. O N E OF W H I C H IS A F A K E

S H E'S TER R I BLY WELL· K N O W N . SHE'S A STAR:' M A D E OF R U B B E R I . COM PLETE T H E S E T . A L L O F T H E

OTH E R S M A L L E R PROPS-A N D TH E R E A R E M A N Y­

TUESDAY. 3: 1 0 P.M. THE DOO RBELL R I NGS. JACKIE A R E A R R A N G E D IN THE OTH E R ROOM. THATS LATE R .

GOES TO OPEN. SOUNDS AT THE DOOR. JACKIE

R E T U R N S TO TH E KITC H E N WHERE S H E HAS LEFT STI L L NOTH I NG. SECONDS FEEL LIKE HOURS.

US. THE PHOTOG R A P H E R A N D ME. "YOU'RE LUCKY. S U D D E N LY. T H E H E ELS O F T H E BOOT STR I K ES. T H E

HE'S ON E OF TH E BEST. AND HE LIKES TO BE TOR N SH I RT R A S P S L I K E FABRIC I N A D E S I G N E R'S

PHOTOGRAPHED. GIVE ME TI M E TO P R E PA R E H I M . WORK ROOM. NOW BOTH H E E LS. ONE A FT E R THE

TH E N J O I N M E I N T H E ROOM ON T H E LE FT. THIS OTH E R . ARE S H REDDING THE C LOTH I N G OF THE

MIGHT NOT BE BAD. HE'S W EA R I NG HIS RAGS. J UST C U STOM E R · S L A V E . D E L I BERATELY OR N OT. TH E

PUT ON A MASK OR A HOOD I F YOU DON'T WANT H I M S H A R P POINT M A K E S A LONG R E D M A R K ON T H E

T O S E E YOU R FAC E." S H E LAUGHS. BACK. S O F T M O A N S . A S I G N A L P E R H A PS?

SHE CALLS US TWO M I N UTES LATER. SHE IS IN F I N ALLY. J A C K I E' S MOUTH E M I TS A SOU ND. "SOl ITS

FRONT O F T H E DOOR. A T H E R FE ET. H A N DS A N D L I K E THAT! YOU D A R E TO COM E IN RAGS TO S E E

F E E T BOU N D W I T H A S I N G L E CORD. F A C E AGAI NST YOUR M I STRESSI THATS THE WAY Y O U W A N T ITI I N

THE FLOOR. A M A N OF A BOUT SI XTY·FIVE. HE I S RAGSI" S H E I S S U D D E N LY A N I MATED; S H E P U M M E LS

W E A R I NG AN ORDINARY G R E E N I S H ·G R A Y S H I RT T H E POOR M A N W I TH K I C K S A N D SLA PS. PU LLS OFF

WITH PANTS OF TH E S A M E COLOR A N D FABRIC. HE I S HIS LAST S H RE D S O F CLOTH I NG. TA K E S DOWN A

B A L D . SHE I S I N F R O N T O F US. PULLING A PACKAGE W H I P. C O U NTS OUT THI RTY LASHES IN A TIRED

B E H I N D HER. WE ENTER TH E TORT U R E ROOM. SHE VOIC E . OPENS THE CAGE. MAKES HIM ENTER IT.

T U R N S TOWA RDS US. AND IN A P E N ETRATI NG VOI C E H E A D FI RST. LOC K S I T WITH A K E Y. "I'M K E E P I NG H I M

A N NOUNCES: "H E'S B E LG I A N." TH E A B S U R DITY O F U N T I L E I G H T O'CLOCK TON I GHT." S H E SAYS. A S I F TO

T H I S C O N F I D E N C E . G I V E N TH E S I TUATION. D O E S NOT EXC U S E H E RS E L F FOR I N T E R R U PTING THE S E S S I O N .

E V E N M A K E US S M I L E . T H E TRUTH IS THAT WE A R E

T E R R I FIED. DEATHLY S I L E N C E .
I N F I V E M I N UTES T H E YOU N G C H I LD R E N W I L L L E A V E

S C H OO L . T H E F R E SH M E N WILL BE D I S M I SS E D IN
A N HOUR E A R L I E R . WE H A D EXAM I N E D T H I S S A M E VINCENNES. AND A N EW CUSTOM E R WILL COME.
ROOM WITHOUT A N YO N E I N I T . A G R A N D-G UIGNOL T R E M B L I NG. TO R I N G J A C K I E'S D OO R . H E W I L L G I V E
SET WHICH GAVE US A FEW GOOD LAUGHS. T H E N A M E O F A F R I E N D WHO SENT H I M . H E W I L L B E
OBVIOUSLY T H E ATMOSPH E R E H A S CHANGED: THE A S K E D I F H E I S "AWA R E OF W H A T I S DON E H E R E . "
MOTIONLESS BODY OF TH I S NICE MAN. T I E D AT OU R T H E N H E W I L L B E POLITELY A S K E D T O WAIT I N A
F E ET. J A C K I E'S P R E P A R A TI O N S -I N P A R T I C U L A R . LARGE. E M PTY ROOM. N EXT. HE W I L L BE BROUGHT
H E R I NSPECTIONS OF TH E W H E E L'S FUNCTIONING. TO T H E F I RST ROOM . THERE H E WILL FIND. H A N G I N G
WHICH SEEMS TO LEAVE SOM ETH I N G TO BE ON N A I LS I N T H E W A L L . AT L E A S T THI RTY S L I C K E R S .
D E S I R E D-THE S E E M I NGLY OBLIGATORY M UTENESS: COATS. G A R T E R S . B E LTS. B R A S . A N D PA NTI E S M A D E
ALL OF THIS A B R U PTLY M A KES THE D I FFERENT O F B L A C K LEATH ER. O N A R A C K . A L L OF T H E BOOTS
A PPA RATUSES REAL. AND S H O E S -I N CL U D I NG A P A I R OF BRIGHT R E D

P U M PS WITH STI LETTO H E E LS . S I Z E 1 2. ON THE

THE BIG C RO S S . AN X. TEN FEET H IGH. WITH S H E LV E S O F A S M A L L BOOKCA SE-FROM W H I C H I S

D A NGLING R I NGS F O R W R I STS A N D A N K LES. THE A B S E N T A L L O F TH E SC A N D I N A V I A N POR N OG R A P H Y

W H E EL. OPERATED WITH A C R A NK. W H I C H C A N PULL W H I C H M A K E S S E X·SHOP PROFITA B L E -A L L O F T H E

TH E L I M BS OF TH E VICTI M UNTIL H E I S QUA RTERED. S M A L L E R OBJ ECTS: D I LDOS OF E V E R Y SIZE AND

TH E I RO N CAGE. TH R E E F E ET H IG H . TWE N TY I NC H E S S H A P E . CLI PS. LEATH E R STRI PS. L I TT L E W H I PS ( T H E

D E E P. W H E R E T H E VICTI M M A Y BE 'PU N I S H E D' FOR OTH E R S A R E I N TH E TORTUR E ROO M ) . A BOWL FOR

FIVE HOURS ST R A I G H T . THE STRA N G E BULKY WASHI NG. SEWING U T E N S I LS (TE N KINDS OF

WOODEN C O N T R A PT I O N WHICH I M P R I SO N S TH E N EEDLES. AS MANY D I FFE R E NT Q U A L I T I E S O F

N EC K A N D A R M S ( U N DOU BTEDLY A R E P RODUCTION THR E A D ) . FIVE OR SIX PA I RS OF H A N DC U F F S

M A D E BY A HORROR MOV I E SET DESIG N E R . BUT T H I S M A R K E D ' P EGI' (AN I RO N WORK E R FROM T H E R U E

ONE WORKS!). F I N A LLY. THE CLASSIC COMMODE. D E S PETITS-C H A M PS. W H O M A K E S TH E M . H A D TH E

C H A I R FOR W H I C H DECENCY-AS IF IT W E R E N E EDED I D E A OF M A R K I NG TH E M SO A S TO SUGGEST T H E

A T TH I S POI NTI-FO R B I D S EXPLA I N I NG T H E EXACT I N I T I A L S O F TH E POLIC E J U D I C I A I R E J . F I N A LLY. A

USE. SOME WHI PS. ABOUT F I FTEEN. ON THE WALLS BLACK LACQU E R P E N C I L BOX FI LLED WITH S M A L L

( W H I PS FOR DOGS. FOR HORSES. FOR WILD A N I M ALS. P I EC E S O F PA P E R . FOLDED I N QUARTE RS.

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JACK I E SITS ON A THRONE PLAC E D ON A SHAKY DON, EVEN TRY. OF T H E OTH ERS. TWO OUT O F

P L A T FO R M . LEGS CROSSED. BUT C OV E R E D BY THREE ONLY REACH IT-HOW SHOULD I PUT IT­

SLICKERS-NEVER IS THE LEAST BIT OF SKIN THROUGH SCATOLOGY. THERE ARE SOM E . OF

REVEALED-RIDING W H I P IN H A N D . E Y E S GLAZED. COU R S E , WHO D O T H E M SELVES AND S E V E R A L.

WITH A TIRED LOOK. THE C U S TO M E R K N EELS WHOM I HAVE KNOWN FOR A LONG T I M E. W H O M I

B E FO R E H E R. DRAWS A S M A L L P I E C E OF PAPER HELP A LITTLE. BUT WITH THEM, I ALWAYS W E A R

FROM T H E P E NC I L BOX. U S U A LLY W I TH H I S TEETH. R U B B E R GLOVES, N O T T H E O N E S F O R DOI NG T H E

U N FOLDS IT AND R E A DS. IT M I G H T SAY-TH I S IS D I S H E S . THEY DON'T C O M E I N B L A C K . I H A V E TO B U Y

O N L Y ONE OF A HUNDRED E X A M PLES-LICK THE SURGEON'S G LOVES."

SOLES O F T H E M I STRESS' BOOTS; R E C E I V E FI FTY

LAS H E S B E H I N D THE K N E E S FROM A BLACK WH I P; A NOTH E R QU ESTION: WHAT IS TH E COST OF A

ONE H O U R IN THE BOX. SESSION? THOUGH HELL HAS NO PRICE. J AC K I E

S ETS H ER ABSOLUTE MINIMUM PRICE AT $ 50 .

WHATE V E R P U N I S H M E NT IS DRAWN. JACKIE WILL AVERAGE T I M E : O N E HOU R. NO SEWING, N O TORT U R E

E X P LA I N . H A LF-ADM I R I NG . H A LF SCOR N F U L. "NOW O N THE W H E E L OR THE C ROSS. L I M ITED W H I P P I N G .

YOU CAN REA LLY SAY YOU'RE LUCKY: YOU DREW D I A LOGU E REDUCED TO THE S I M PLEST EXPRES·

T H E E A S I EST P U N I S H M E N T!" O N L Y A FT E R TH I S W I L L SIONS. BUT O N E·TI M E C U STOM E R S ARE TH E

JAC K I E I N FO R M TH E CUSTO M E R OF H I S N U M BE R . EXCEPTION: O N E . AT MOST TWO P E R DAY. A N D T H E

W H I C H H E W I L L H A V E T O R E M E M B E R F O R FUTURE OTH ERS? W ELL. T H E Y PAY B Y THE MONTH .

V I S I TS. "YOU W I LL BE S L A V E 84." 84 W I L L TH E N

CHOOSE FROM T H E OUTFITS O N T H E W A L L T H E O N E SIX OF T H E M , WHO HOLD I M PORTA N T POS ITIONS I N

WHICH H E WILL WEAR DURING HIS P U N I S H MENT. BUS I N E S S AND IN GO V E R N M E N T . PAY HER A
ON LY T H E BEGI N N E R RISKS A S K I N G Q U E STIONS. H E MONTHLY FIXED SUM WHICH V A R I ES-AT LEAST
W I L L U S U A LLY B E A N S W E R E D WITH A W H I P. U N LESS ACCOR D I N G T O J A C K I E - B E TW E E N $ 1 500 A N D
HE ASKS A BOUT THE W H I T E WOOD T R E STLE TABLE. $ 2 500. THE OTH E R S PAY BETW E E N $250 AND
STA I N E D WITH LONG BLACK M A R KS . IN THAT CASE. $ 1 000 D E P E N D I NG O N T H E I R M E A NS. THUS. THE
JAC K I E E X P LA I N S, WITH TH E VOICE OF A HOME COST OF S U F F E R I N G I S C A LCULATED BY J A C K I E ON
ECONOM I ST, THAT I T I S A SEWING TABLE. AN INDIVIDUAL BASIS. THE MONTHLY PAYMENT

ENTITLES O N E T O A N U N L I M ITED N U M BER OF V I SITS .

LET'S A B A N DO N THE FALSE OBJ ECTIVITY OF BUT, E V E RYON E I S SATI S F I E D W I T H O N E T O TH R E E

DESC R I PTION A N D SPECIFY THAT M O R E T H A N HALF V I S I TS PER MONTH. JACKIE: "A NYWAY. THEY

O F T H E V I SITORS A S K TO B E SEWN WITH N E ED L E AND COULDN'T TA K E ANY MORE. P H Y S I CA L LY." HOW

T H R E A D . G E N E R AL LY, T H E N I P PLES, T H E TESTICLES MANY O F TH E M ARE THERE? "REGULA RS. BETW E E N

(TO TH E TH IGHS). THE CRACK O F THE BUTTOCKS. ONE H U N D R E D A N D O N E H U N D R E D A N D TWENTY."

THE OPERATIONS OBVIOUSLY ONLY TAKE PLACE

AFTER THE S U BJECT-RATH E R . T H E OBJ ECT-HAS A PRIVATE CHAT WITH A H IG H POLICE O F F I C I A L :

BEEN C A R EF U LLY BOU N D TO AVOI D ANY R I S K OF ',H E GI R LS L I K E T H O S E YOU A R E T A L K I N G A BOUT.
REBELLION AND GAGG E D TO STIFLE T H E C R I ES. WE KNOW THEM A LL . THEY ARE ON F I L E H E R E . L I K E
THERE IS BLOOD, OF COURSE. IT R U N S O N THE MOST OF TH E OTH E R PROSTITUTES, E V E N THOUGH
TABLE ("NEVER A LOT, I'M C A R E F U L" STATES TH E FILES WERE O F F I C I A LLY S TO P P E D ON
JACKIE!. WOU N D S . TOO. COTTON SOA K E D IN NOVEMB E R 2 5 , 1 960. I N OUR VOC A BU LA RY. TH E Y
A LCOHOL AT 200· I S S U F F I C I E N T TO C A UTERIZE A R E 'WH I P P I N G S P EC I A LI STS: T H E R E'S O N E O N T H E
T H E M . "THATS T H E M I RACLE." S A Y S JACKIE. "TH E Y R U E BLO N D E L . TWO OTH E R S O N TH E R U E Q U I NCAM·
L E A V E I N SH REDS A N D T H E Y R ETU R N . T H R E E DAYS PO I X (TEN YEARS AGO THERE WERE SEVEN OR
LATER, E V E RYTH I N G D R I E D U P." EIGHT ON THAT STR E E n . ONE ON T H E R U E D E LA

REYNIE. THEY EARN A LOT OF M O N EY. I N D EED.

THAT. ROUGH LY, IS WHAT ONE N EE D S TO KNOW GENERA LLY. THEY DON'T HAVE PI M PS BECAUSE

A BO U T S LI C K - J A C K I E ' S ACTIV I T I E S . LOTS OF THEY A R E M O R E I NT E LLI G E NT THAN THE A V E RAGE

Q U E STIONS COME TO M I N D . P R ACTIC A L QU ESTIONS, PROSTITUTE.

FOR OUR AIM HERE I S NOT TO A TT E M PT TO ENTER

I NT O THE WHY OF THIS UNLIKELY FORM OF "CONC E R N I NG T H E 'WH I P P I NG SPEC I A LI STS: WHAT

VOLUNTARY M A RTYRDOM. F I RST O F A LL: HOW DO WE FEAR MOST I S T H E R E VOLT O F O N E OF THE

THE VICTI M S R E A C H ORG A S M . THE U S U A L GOAL OF CUSTOM E R S . UNTIL T H E Y HAVE REACHED T H E PEAK

A VISIT TO A PROSTITUTE? J A C K I E'S A N SW E R : "MORE OF T H E I R PLEA S U R E . T H E Y A R E DANGEROUS. THEY

THA N HALF LEAVE WITHOUT REACH I NG IT. THEY A R E CA P A B L E OF M U R D E R . THATS W H Y THE G I R LS

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T I E THEM UP S E C U R E L Y A N D R E LE A S E TH EM ONLY SETTING: TH E THRONE ROOM. JACKI E. SEATED ON

WHEN THEY ARE COM P LETELY C A L M E D DOW N." TH E N A R ROW SOFA W H I C H oo U B L E S AS A BED-DNE

H A S THE I M PRESSION THAT I T HAS SHRUNK FROM

LACK OF USE-IS TELLING HER LIFE STO R Y . A

GROUP D I SC I P L I N E AT J A C K I E·S. W E D N E SDAY AND
PENSIVE LOOK. S O M ETH I N G A BOUT H E R G A Z E .
SATU R DAYS-FROM THREE O'C LOC K TO EIGHT
WITHOUT QU ESTION . . . BUT WH AT? . .
O'CLOC K - A R E DEVOTED T O THOSE C U STO M E R S

W H O S E E K T O COM B I N E T H E PLEA S U R E S OF T H E

WHI P W I TH THOSE OF THE G ROUP. TH E R E ARE "WELL. O. K . . I'LL START AT THE B EG I N N I NG. I WAS

U S U A L LY ABOUT A DO Z E N M E N W H O 'SU B M I T A N D BORN IN N O R M A N DY. M Y FATH E R WAS A CONTRAC­

S U F F E R TOGETH E R . T W I C E A W E E K. SOM E OF T H E M TOR. HE D I D N 'T GET A LONG WITH MY MOTH ER. I

W E A R B LACK VELVET M A S K S I N ORDER T O R E MA I N D I D N 'T GET A LONG W I T H E I T H E R OF TH E M . NOR EVEN

ANONYMOUS. THIS IS TO L E R A T E D BUT N OT WITH K I DS M Y OWN AGE. SO. AT THRITEEN I FELL I N

W E LCOMED. J AC K I E G E N ERA LLY LIM ITS H E RSELF TO LOV E. A N OLD E R G U Y. M A R R I E D A N D A LL. R E N E . H E

G I V I N G DI RECTI O N S A N D S U C C E EDS IN H A V I N G H E R WOR K E D I N I M PORT-EXPORT. I ' M SIXTEEN W H E N I GET

CUSTOMERS THEM SELVES TORTURE T H E I R C H A I N E D P R E G N ANT. H E WA R N E D M E THAT H E WANTED NONE

BROTH ERS. SHE A LSO REQU I R ES TH E M T O PLAY O F T H AT. BUT I ' M A FOOL. I DON'T KNOW HOW TO DO

EROTIC GAMES A M ONG TH E M S E LV E S A N D O N L Y A NYTH I NG RIGHT: S O I CONFESS TO MY MOTH E R .

GRABS TH E W H I P H E RS E L F W H E N TH I N G S GET OUT T H A T C A U S E S T E R R I BLE TROUBLE. SO I LEAVE. A L L

OF H A N D . "SOMETI M E S I FEEL LIKE I'M IN A LION ALONE. IN PARIS. I FOU N D A JOB ON THE

CAGE." SHE SAYS. "TH E Y TRACK MEl BUT BASICALLY BOU L E V A R D R I C H A RD-LENOI R . I N A B A K E RY. T H E N

I LIKE THEMI T H E LAST TIME I WENT ON VACATION IN AN ACCOUNTING F I R M I N A N OTH E R N E IG H BOR­

ALONE-USUALLY I A LWAYS HAVE ONE OR TWO OF HOOD. E V E RYTH I N G I'VE DON E . E V E R YT H I N G I'M

THEM WHO COME FOR T H E W E E K END: I MAKE THEM DO I N G . I DO N ' T GIVE A DAMN A BOUT IT. WHAT I

STAY FOR WHOLE DAYS IN T H E OUTHOU SES AT THE REGRET IS NOT H A V I N G AN E D UCATION. I WOULD

BACK OF THE GARDEN -AT T H E END OF TEN DAYS. I HAVE L I K E D TO L E A R N .

WANTED TO COME HOME. I M I SSED M Y PREY."

"A S I WAS THREE MONTHS PREGNANT WHEN I

A R R I VED. A L L OF T H I S D I D N 'T LAST LONG. W H E R E

S O M ETI M E S . C E R TA I N C U STO M E R S BEG TO BE
C O U L D I G O ? A HOM E F O R U N W E D M OT H E RS. I GAVE
ALLOWED TO B R I N G TH E I R W I V ES. EITHER TO BE
B I RT H O N M Y SEVENTE ENTH B I RTHDAY. M Y SON W I L L
W H I PPED BY HER IN TH I S SETTI NG. OR (MORE OFTEN )
BE TH I RT E E N N EXT OCTOB ER. H E'S A GOOD K I D.
T O I N ITI ATE H E R T O THE PLEASURES OF SUFFERI NG.
W H E N I LEFT THE HOME. I H A D TO F I N D SOM ETH I NG :
JAC K I E RARELY AGREES. O N E OF THE ODDITI E S OF
A N A I D AT A C L I N IC I N BOURG- LA- R E I N E F O R RICH
PROSTITUTION L EG I S L A T I O N IS THAT ITS E Y E S
P R EG N A N T WOM E N . $50 PER MONTH . THATS WHAT I
R E M A I N CLOS E D A S LONG A S T H E R E IS ON LY ONE
E A R N ED. BUT THE N U RSES GOT $ 1 00. SO. WITH T H E
" P R I E STESS." W H E R EA S TH E PRESENCE OF
HELP OF AN OLD F R I E N D F R O M THE HOM E FOR
ANOTH E R WOMAN I M M E DIATELY OPENS THE DOOR
U N W E D MOTH ERS. I GOT A JOB. A FTER WORK. AT A
TO PROSECUTION FOR P ROC U R I NG . AND TRY TO
B A R IN BELLEVI LLE. WITH THIS. I J U ST M A NAGED TO
EXPLA I N TO A TWENTY-TH R E E YEAR OLD I N S PEC­
GET BY.
TOR. J U ST OUT OF LAW SCHOOL. THAT TH E OTH E R

WOMAN I S A C U STOM E R L I K E T H E OTH ERS . . . OFTEN.

HOWEVER. E S P EC I A LLY ON SAT U R D A Y S . THE "IN FRONT OF THE BAR. THERE WERE G I R LS

CROWD IS SUCH THAT J A C K I E . IN SPITE O F THE WOR K I NG T H E STRE ET. I'M INTRIGUED. I F I N D OUT A

CLEVER SYSTEM OF M UTU A L D I SCIPLI N E WHICH SHE L I TT L E ABOUT HOW M UC H THEY MAKE. AND.

D E M A N DS. C A N NOT H A N D L E IT. AT THOSE T I M ES. I M M ED I ATELY I SAY TO M YSELF. I'M GOI N G T O DO I T

SHE CALLS ON A N E I G H BOR OR THE CLEANING TOO. BUT I H A V E N O E X P E R I E NCE. T H E FAT H E R OF

WOMAN FROM THE LITTLE STR E ET ON THE LEFT-I .E. M Y KID WAS THE ONLY MAN I KNEW S E X U A LLY. PLUS.

ON SOM EON E FROM TH E N E I G H BORHOOD WHOSE I HAVE THE I D EA THAT YOU STAY FOR HOURS WITH

PR ESENCE. IN CASE OF T ROU B L E . CAN BE T H E S A M E GUY. THAT YOU HAVE TO TALK TO H I M .

E X P L A I N E D TO T H E POLICE. T H A T Y O U H A V E T O G E T U N D E R T H E S H E ETS WITH

HIM. NOW THAT D I SGU STS M E . W H E N I FOU N D OUT

HOW I T R E A LLY WORKS. FAST. THE ROD AND THE

"TH EY A R E N'T TRICKY." SAYS JAC K I E WITH A BIG
EDGE OF T H E BED. WELL T H E N . I M M E D I ATELY I SAY
I N D U LGENT S M I LE. "TH EY'RE T I M ID. SO THEY LAUGH
YES.
ALL THE T I M E : THE MORE T H E GUYS SUFFER. THE

MORE THEY LAUGH. TH EY'RE P I SS E D TOO. BUT YOU

CAN SEE THAT THEY'RE A M ATEURS." "BUT THAT DOESN'T LAST LONG. THE A RA B PI M PS I N

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H A LL E S WITH A FRI E N D WHO KNOWS A HOT E L TO G E T F U C K E D ALL DAY F O R T H I R TYI

M A N A G E R , I ' L L A LWAYS R E M E M B E R M Y F I RST D A Y

TH E R E . I T WAS O N T H E R U E A U B R Y-LE-BOUC H E R , "WHERE WAS I? YES, IN MARSEI LLES. WELL IT

BETW E E N TOPOL A N D T H E R U E Q U I N C A M PO I S . I W A S H A PPEN E D ONE FO U R T E E N T H OF .J U LY . I WAS
A K I D. THE F I R S T C U STOM E R S A I D TO M E : ' C A N YOU SITTING ON A C A F E TERRACE. A LITTLE DANCE
DO A QUICKI E?' I A N S W E R ED: 'WHArs THAT?' I D I DN'T H ALL. IT WAS TWO O'CLOCK I N TH E MOR N I NG. A L I M O
K N OW A N YT H I N G . BUT A FT E R SEVERAL DAYS PULLS UP. I K N O W T H A T Irs F O R M E . I BAR ELY H A V E
THI NGS W E R E GOING VERY W ELL. S O OF COURSE, T I M E TO GET UP. THE B U LLET GOES THROUGH M Y
TH E OTH E R GIRLS GOT .J E A LOUS. SHOU LDER A N T E A R S U P M Y C H I N . I WOULD H A V E

B E E N HIT RIGHT I N THE H E A D I f' I H A DN'T STOOD U P.

-I CHANGED HOTELS I M M ED I ATELY, WITH THE H E L P THE LIMO LEFT. IT WAS MY GUY FROM PA R I S . I

OF A F R I E N D , I WENT TO TH E R U E Q U I N C A M POIS. I STAYED THERE, ON THE GROUND, ON MY H A N DS A N D

HAD ONLY BEEN TH E R E TWO DAYS WHEN GUYS KNEES. TH E R E W A S SUDDENLY NOBODY LEFT I N T H E

SHOWED U P. T H E F I R ST, A N A R A B WHO BUYS M E A DANCE H A LL. I M A D E IT T O A TAXI A N D WENT T O T H E

DRINK A T TH E BAR, TELLS ME THAT IF I'M NOT HOSPITAL A L L A LONE.

M A R R I ED, I HAVE TO M A R R Y H I M . I SAY NO. THEN H E

TELLS M E , 'THAT W I L L COST YOU A C-NOTE: YOU "AFTER ALL T H AT, IT'S FUNNIER, B ETT E R FOR
SHOU LDN'T H A V E D R U N K WITH M E . PUT A H U N D R E D ARTICLES. THEY S T I L L T R I E D T O G ET M E A S SOON A S
B U C K S I N A N E N V E LOPE A N D B R I N G I T T O T H E DOOR , I LEFT THE HOSPITAL. I G O T O U T A N D C A M E B A C K TO
R U E DES FRANCS-BOURGEOIS, TOMORROW AT SIX: I PA R I S . I PAID A P R O T E CT I O N FEE OF $2 500,
WENT TH E R E WITH T H E E N V E LOPE BUT I NS I D E I H A D THOUGH, I DON'T REMEMBER TO WHOM . . . SEE, AT
P U T TOILET P A P E R• .J UST T O S P I T E H I M , I WENT, I THIS TI M E , I W A S N 'T EVEN T W E N TY-O N E . I GOT
COULDN'T R E S I ST. IT D I D N 'T WORK. TH E R E WERE A ROUND • • • UTTLE BY L I TTLE, I SPECI A L I ZED. T H E
TH R E E OF TH E M . THEY BEAT MY HEAD IN . • •
CUSTOM E R S TAUGHT M E. THE I N ST R U M ENTS, T H E
SEVERAL TEETH, T H E C H E E K-BO N E , A SHOULDER, WORDS, A LL THAT CAME FROM THEM. W H AT'S
BOTH ANKLES • • •
U N I Q U E ABOUT M E I S M Y GAZE. A N D M Y STRENGTH.

WELL O. K . . I MOVE IN. I'VE GOT M Y PLACE. AND,

·WH E N I RECOV E RED, I H A D TO GET M A R R I ED: A FINA LLY, THEY FIGURE OUT T H A T TH E Y CA N'T TOUCH

LITTLE B A RTE N D E R , T W E N T Y- F I V E YEARS OLD, ME, THAT Irs FORBIDDEN. FOR HOW LONG? I H A V EN'T

SIC I U A N , A FRI E N D OF THE HOTEL M A N A G E R . WITH MADE LOVE WITI:I A CUSTOMER FOR TH R E E AND A

H I M , I WASN'T WOR R I E D ABOUT THE A R A BS. I STAYED HALF YEARS. NOT BAD FOR A PROSTITUTE. ONCE, I

W I TH HIM, I C A N'T SAY HE WASN'T NICE. ONLY MET MY SON'S FATH E R IN DIEPPE. L I K E EVERYON E

.J E A LOUSI HE SPIED ON ME I N THE STREET AND ELSE, HE WANTED TO S L E E P WITH M E . ESPECIALLY

SLAPPED M E A S I WALKED BY-I NSTEAD OF BEING BECAUSE OF WHAT I WAS WEA R I NG, I TH I N K. A N D

H APPY THAT I W A S WORKI NG-BECA U S E H E SAID I BECAUSE O F M Y DOUGH. H E DIDN'T WANT T O TA K E

C A M E l T E R R I B LY .J E A LOUS GUY. EVEN THOUGH H E ANY, B U T H E WAS FLA B B E RGASTED. S O I ACTED

H A D A W O M A N ON TH E S I D E , BUT S H E W A S FRIGID, LIKE I WANTED TO SEE H I M . WE HAD D I N N E R . I TOLD

POOR WOM A N I HIM ABOUT M Y S P EC I A LTIES IN PA RIS. HIS EYES

BULGED. H E WAS T R E M B L I NG. AFTE R D I N N E R , I WAS

"O N E F I N E DAY I H A D H A D ENOUGH, I ESCAPED TO THE ONE WHO PA I D FOR TH E HOTEL. THE FANCIEST

M A R S E I LLES. I HAD SOM E FRIENDS TH E R E WHO OF THEM ALL. HE GOT U N DRESSED. A N D I TREATED

H E LPED M E. B U S I N ESS WASN'T BAD. BUT, I WAS HIM LIKE A CUSTOM E R . T H E R E H E WAS, BEGG I NG ME

NEVER A MEAT RACK, TH I RTY T H R O W S A T TEN TO STOP, TO CONTI N U E, HE D I D N 'T KNOW WHAT H E

BUCKS, NOT FOR MEl FROM THE BEGI N N I NG, I HAD WANTED. H E W A S F U N N Y THAT WAY:'

THE BLACK D R ESS AND HIGH H E ELS. I W ASN'T AS

STRONG THEN A S I AM TODAY, BUT I A L R E ADY KNEW TRA N S LATED BY CHARLES CLARK

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[ M R . M·s STORY] EXTRE M E LY C A R E F U L TO CONCEA L H I S P E RVER­

SION FROM THOSE A RO U N D HIM. H E HAD B E E N A

H I G H L Y S K I L L E D T EC H N I C I A N IN RADIOELECTRICITY
MR. M. WAS 65 W H E N HE C A M E TO ME FOR THE F I RST
B E FO R E HIS RETI R E M E NT. HIS E M PLOYERS HELD
TIME. A R A D I O LO G I S T COLLEAGU E OF MINE
H I M I N S U C H H IG H ESTEE M THAT H E WAS ABLE TO
DISCOVERED H I M A FT E R H E HAD CONS U LTED H E R
OBTA I N S P EC I A L WOR K I N G C O N D I T I O N S . AND IN
A BOUT A H EMOPTYSI S W H I C H PROVED T O B E O F
P A R T I C U LA R A R R A N G E M E N T S A F F EC T I N G H I S
SHORT-LIVED D U RATION. M Y COLLEAGU E E XA M I N E D
HOURS A N D H I S VACATIONS. H E LOATHED T H E IDEA
HIM AND MADE A C A R E F U L INVENTORY O F A L L
OF P E RSONA LLY E X E RTING A N Y FOR M OF A UTHOR­
TRACES I N DICATING PERVERSE PRACTICES: SHE

DISCUSSED H I S STATE W I T H H I M A N D ADVISED H I M ITY OR OF HOLDING A COM M A N D I N G POSITION A N D

CON S I D E R E D BOTH G I V I NG A N D R E C E I V I N G ORDERS

TO SEE M E. M R. M. ACQU I ESCED AT ONCE.

R E M A RKING THAT H I S CASE M IGHT B E USEFUL TO TO B E S U R E WAYS O F LOSI N G H I S F R E E DO M I H E WAS

VERY FOND O F THIS F R E E DO M WHICH I NVOLVED

OTH E R S WITH T H E S A M E PERVERSION AS HIS. H E
LONG. SOLITARY WALKS D U R I NG HIS HOLI DAYS. HE
ALSO A D M I TT E D THAT B Y A G R E E I NG TO CONS U LT
LIVED I N A S M A LL S U B U R B A N COTTAGE WITH H I S
ME. HE M IGHT A LSO BE HOPI NG FOR AN OPPORTU­
A DOPTED DAUGHTER A N D H E R HUSB A N D. I N SHORT.
N ITY TO BE H U M I LIATED. AND A T THE SAME TIME TO
H I S D A I L Y E X I STENCE WAS S I NG U L A R LY DEVOID OF
BETTER U N D E RSTA N D H I S C U RIOUS STATUS. HIS

C U RIOSITY A BO U T H I M S E LF HAD NEVER BEEN A N Y MORA L M A SOC H I SM .

SATI S F I E D: H E H A D R E A D A L L TH E R E WAS O N T H E

SUBJ ECT OF M A SOCH I S M A N D HAD ALWAYS B E E N BUT WHAT A CONTRAST BETW E E N THESE OUTER

DISA PPOI NTED I N H I S F I N DI NGS. ACTUALLY. M A N Y A PP E A R A NC E S AND HIS NAKED BODYI PROV I D E D

OTH E R FACTORS PLA Y E D A PART I N H I S DECISION T H A T C E RT A I N T H R E S HO L D S BE E XC E E D E D .

TO S E E M E A S I S H A L L I N D ICATE LATE R ON. Q U A NTITAT I V E C ON S I D E RA T I O N S A N D I NT E N S ITY

FACTORS C A N M O D I FY T H E QUALITATIVE A SPECT OF

A P H E N O M E NON AND ITS S E NSE. GOING ON THE

M R . M:S APPEARANCE AND H A BITS W E R E THOSE OF A S S U M PTION THAT M A SOC H I STIC PRACTICES ARE

A CALM AND COLLECTED PERSON. HE WAS NO EXCEPTION. I SHALL DESCRIBE T H E M I N DETA I L

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TIONS OF MASOCH I S M .

MANY PHONOGRAPH N E E DLES W E R E I M B E DD E D I N

T O B EG I N WITH, M R . M : S BODY, EXC E PT FOR THE THE TESTES AS THE X-RAYS R E V E A L ED. T H E P E N I S

FACE, WAS A L M OST COMPLETELY COV E R E D WITH W A S BLUE A LL O V E R , PERHAPS A S THE R E S U LT O F

TATTOOS: "ALL BIG COCKS W E LCOM E , " A N D I N D I A I N K I N J ECTED I NTO A V E I N . THE T I P O F THE

LATERA LLY, WITH A N A R ROW, -BIG PRICKS ENTER GLANS H A D BEEN SLIT WITH A RAZOR BLADE SO A S

H E RE" ON THE BUTTOCKS: IN FRONT, I N ADDITION TO T O WIDEN THE ORI FICE. A STE E L R I NG OF S E V E R A L

THE PENISES TATTOOE D O N HIS T H I G H S, ONE FOU N D CENTIM ETE RS I N D I A M ETER H A D B E E N P E R M A N E N ­

THE FOLLOW I N G I M P R E S S I V E LIST: -I'M A SLUT," " I T L Y A F F I X E D T O THE T I P OF TH E PENIS, A FT E R

L I K E I T U P T H E A S S , " " U P WITH M A SOC H I S M :' -I ' M NOT THE P R E P U C E H A D BEEN MADE I N TO A S O R T O F

A MAN, I'M NOT A WOM A N , I ' M A SLUT, I ' M A WHORE, I'M C U S H I O N F I L L E D W I T H PA RAFFI N. A MAGNETIZED

FUCKM EAT," -I'M AN A M B U LATING SHIT-HOUSE," "I N E EDLE WAS I M BEDDED I N THE PENIS ITSELF, WHICH

LOVE SWALLOWI N G PISS AND S H I T," "I LOVE TO BE I DARE SAY BOR D E R E D ON BLAC K H U MO U R SINCE

BEATEN ALL OVER, AND THE H A RDER, THE BETTER:' THE P E N I S COULD "DEVI ATE" TH E N E E DL E O F A

"I'M A SLUT, GIVE IT TO ME UP THE ASS," "I'M A C O M PA S S , THEREBY A S S E RT I N G ITS P OW E R .

WHORE, USE ME LIKE A F E M A LE, I'LL M A K E YOU ANOTH E R RI NG, BUT R E MOVABLE T H I S TIME, GI R D E D

COM E BUT GOOD," "I'M THE S T U P I D E ST CUNT THE B A S E OF THE PENIS A N D TH E SCROTU M .

AROUND, M Y MOUTH A N D M Y ASSHOLE A R E FOR BIG

PRICKS." A L L OF T H I S COULD E A S I LY BE V E R I F I ED. TH E

TORTU R E S MENTIONED ABOVE L E FT D E F I N IT E

TRACES WHICH I NCONTESTABLY PROVED THAT M R .

MR. M:S SCARS AND MARKS OF TORTU RE WERE
M. W A S N O T LYI NG. AND YET (SHOU LD I ATTR I B UTE
EQUALLY STA RT L I N G , HIS R I G H T B R EAST WAS
THIS TO A DEFENSIVE ATTITUDE ON M Y PART?1 I
LITERA LLY A B S E NT, H A V I N G B E E N S E A R E D W I T H A
SOMETI M E S DOUBTED THE ACC URACY O F C E R TA I N
R E D-HOT IRON, P I E R C E D BY SHARP OBJ ECTS A N D
UNVERIFIABLE FACTS WITHOUT B E I N G A B L E TO
TORN OFF. HIS N A V E L WAS A SORT OF CRATER:
JUSTIFY MY DOUBTS IN ANY WAY. WHY SHOULD HE
MOLTEN LEAD HAD BEEN POURED I NTO IT WHICH
LIE ABOUT C E RTIAN DETA I LS WH E N OTH E RS W E R E
WAS PREVENTED FROM SPATTE R I N G OUT (AS IT
UNDENIA BLY TRUE? I CAN NOT SAY, A N D YET I H A D
WOULD HAVE DON E B E C A U S E O F R I V U LETS O F
VAGUE DOUBTS CONCE R N I NG IN PA RTICULAR WHAT
SWEAT) BY I N TRODU C I N G A RED-HOT M ETA L ROD
H E RELATED A BOUT H I S W I FE AND A SPEC I FIC CASE
I NTO THE L EA D. THONGS O F FLESH HAD BEEN CUT
OF AGGRESSIVE ACTING OUT.
ALONG H I S BACK, TH ROUGH WHICH HOOKS WERE

PASSED SO THAT MR. M. COULD B E SUSPENDED

WHILE A M A N P E N ETRATED HIM. H I S SMALL TOE WAS HER DEATH, CAUSED IN N O S M A L L A MOUNT, O N E

M I SS I NG: IT HAD A PP A R ENTLY BEEN SECTI ONED FEELS, BY THE TORTURES SHE H A D E N D U R E D , H A D

WITH A HACKSAW B Y M R. M . H I M S E LF, ACTING O N THE A PROFO U N D EFFECT ON M. H E WAS OVERCO M E B Y

ORDERS OF A PARTNER. T H E BONE SU RFACE WAS D E PR E S S I O N AND D E V E LO P E D PULMONARY

ROUGH AFTER THE A M PUTATION AND H E H A D FILED TUBERC U LOSIS I N H I S T U R N, BUT WAS COMPLETELY

IT EVEN. N E EDLES HAD BEEN P U S H E D N EA R LY CURED A FTER TWO YEARS SPENT IN A SANATO R I U M .

E V E R Y WH E R E I NT O HIS BODY, EVEN I N TO T H E

THORAX. H I S R ECTUM W A S E N LA RGED, "SO IT WOULD H I S MASOC H I STIC PRACTICES, W H I C H H A D C O M ­

LOOK LIKE A VAG I N A." PHOTOGRAPHS WERE TAK E N PLETELY C E A S E D DURING THIS P E R IOD, B E G A N

DU R I N G TH I S PROCESS. IT I S I NTERESTING T O NOTE AN EW, ESPEC I A LLY WITH M E N H E P I C K E D U P S I N C E

THAT NONE O F T H E S E TORTURES WAS FOLLOWED BY TH E RELATIONS W I T H H I S FOR M E R PARTN ERS H A D

THE S L I G H T E ST SUPPU RATION, EVEN A FT E R RAPIDLY DWINDLED T O NOT H I NG. HE MARRIED A

FOREIGN BOD I ES, SUCH AS N E E DLES, N A I LS A N D SECOND T I M E BUT THE M A R R IAGE SOON E N D E D I N

P IECES OF GLASS HAD BEEN I N FLICTED ON HIS DIVORCE : H I S SECOND W I F E WAS A PROSTITUTE

BODY. THE D A I LY I N G E ST I O N OF URINE AND WHOM HE HAD S E LECTED I N THE HOPE O F F I N D I N G

EXCREM ENT OVER A PERIOD O F YEARS D I D NOT A N EXPE R I E N C E D PARTN E R. TH E F A C T THAT S H E

CAUSE ANY A PP A R E NT U PSET. THE I NT E R N I ST W A S A PROSTITUTE A N D A P R EC U R ESS PUT M. I N

ASKED MR. M . TO SHOW H I M VARIOUS INSTRUME NTS D A NG E R OF BEING EXPOSED IF SHE WERE

OF TORTU R E : BOA R D S I MB E D D E D WITH H U N DREDS ARRESTED FOR H E R I LLEGAL ACTIVITIES A N D H E

OF N E E DLES, A W H E E L FULL OF PHONOGRAPHIC WANTED TO AVOI D THAT POSSI B I LITY A T ALL COSTS.

N E EDLES WITH A H A N DL E AND THAT WAS USED TO HE ALSO I NT I M AT E D T H A T H I S W I F E'S LAC K OF

BEAT H I M. LASTLY, A N D MOST R E M A R K A B LY, MR. M:S MORALITY SHOCKED HIM. HE LEGALLY A DOPTED

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TH E I R B R I E F M A R R I A G E . M . W A S 46 OR 47 AT THE N O R M A L S E X U A L ACTIVITIES. W E R E AT T H E S A M E

TIME. I T WAS THEN THAT H I S P E RV E R S E ACTI VITI E S TIME I N D U LG I NG IN S H A R E D M A SOCH I STIC R E LA­

C E A S E D A LTOGETH ER. F R O M T H E N ON. H E LIVED TIONS; "I L I K E D I T W H E N SHE M A D E ME S U F F E R . A N D

COM P LETELY WITH I N THE FRAM EWORK O F TH E SHE LIKED IT W H E N I MADE HER SUFFER," TH E N

FA M I LY L I F E HE H A D C R E ATED AND TO W H I C H H E CAME THE I DEA OF I NC O R PO R A T I N G A N OTH E R

WAS VERY M UCH ATTAC H E D . NOTH I N G O F HIS P E R SO N I NTO TH E I R ACTIVITIES. O N E PE RSON. TH E N

S I N G U LA R PAST W A S KNOWN TO T H E PE RSONS TWO. S H A R E D TH E I R S E X U A L EXISTENCE FOR T H R E E

I NVOLVED. CORRESPO N D E NC E WAS PRACTICALLY YEA RS. I F O N E C O NS I D E R S T H E D E V E LO P M E N T O F

TH E ON LY CONTACT H E M A I N TA I NED WITH HIS REAL T H I S CASE. IT SEEMS D E F I N ITE THAT CONSTITU­

D A U G HTER. HE TOLD M E THAT HE DID NOT TH I N K TIONAL FACTO R S WEIGH H EAVI LY I N T H E B A L A N C E :

SHE W A S M A SOC H I STIC. "EXC E PT FOR T H E FACT M. MARRIED HIS COUSIN WHO HAD BEGU N HER

THAT SHE HAD 1 0 CHI LDREN." M A SOCH I STIC PRACTICES W H E N S H E W A S E L E V E N

Y E A R S OLD (SHE WOU L D S T I C K N E E D L E S UNDER

M . D E SC R I B E D H I S PARE NTS AS HAV I N G B E E N VERY H E R F I N G E R N A I LS) L O N G B E FORE THEY K N E W E A C H

CON S I D E RATE AND K I N D TO H I M . H E WAS A N ONLY OTH E R . IN A DDITION. M. WAS 2 1 WHEN HE

CHILD AND HIS PARE NTS WERE NOT YOUNG WHEN D I SCOV E R E D THAT HIS FATHER (WHO H A D J U ST

HE WAS BO R N . HIS MOTH E R WAS VERY AFFECTION· DIED AND WHOSE C O R R ESPON D E N C E HE WAS

ATE; H I S FATH E R WAS A LITTLE MORE R I G I D . M . WAS EXA M I N I NG ) PROBABLY H A D M A SOC H I STIC T E N D E N ·

V E R Y ATTA C H E D TO BOTH OF THEM A N D GRA D U A L· CIES AS W E LL. OTH E R THAN THIS I M PO RTA N T

LY GREW QU ITE C LO S E TO HIS FATH ER IN CONSTITUTI O N A L FACTOR. TH E FACT T H A T M , ' S

PA R T I C U LA R . HIS FATH E R FOLLOWED M,'S PROG­ M A SOC H I STIC T E N D E N C I E S CEASED BETW E E N H I S

RESS AT SCHOOL QUITE CLOSELY BUT W I THOUT 4 S T H A N D H I S SOTH YEA R I S T O B E NOTED. AT T H E

B E I NG OVERLY SEVERE. ALL OF THIS IS VERY B EG I N N I NG O F T H I S P E R I O D H E STI LL H A D A F E W

O R D I N ARY. O N E M I G H T S A Y . N EV E RTHE LESS. M. A T 4 H O M OSEX U A L ENCOUNTERS BUT SOON ALL

Y E A R S OF AGE HAD SEEN A LITTLE G I R L IN HIS P E R V E R S E PRACT I C E S C E A S E D COM PLETELY. A N D

N E I G H BORHOOD E A T I N G H E R EXCR E M E NT. H E E V E N Y E T . A MOST C U R I O U S T H I N G DESERVES CON S I D E R ­

REMEMBERED HER NAME. HE SA I D THAT " I W A S ATION; M . STI L L H A D F A I R LY F R E Q U E N T NOCTU R N A L

D I S G U STED. B U T LAT E R ON I T CAME BACK TO M E . " E M I SS I O N S A FT E R E ROTIC DREAMS THAT HAD

A N OT H E R T I M E D U R I N G O U R T A L K S H E M A D E T H E BECO M E P E R F E CT L Y H E T E ROSEXUAL IN N A TU R E

FOLLOW I N G STATE M E N T ABOUT A B OO K H E HAD AND LESS AND L E S S M A SOC H I STIC. M. TOLD M E

READ ON F A K I RS; "AT FIRST I THOUGHT I T WAS THAT I N H I S D R E A M S H E W A S WITH " A VOLUPTUOUS

H O R R I B LE. BUT LATER ON IT C A M E BACK TO M E," WOMA N WITH W H O M MY SEXUAL ACTI V I T I E S W E R E

THE A PP E A R A N C E EARLY I N LIFE OF E R OG E NOUS CLOSE T O B E I N G NOR M A L," HE ADDED THAT "MY

M A S OC H I S M -OFTEN CITED BY WRITERS ON TH E I NT E R EST H A D D I E D O UT; I H A D EVOLVED; I F I C A N

S U B J ECT- W A S VERIFIED IN M,'S CASE; HIS J U DG E BY MY D R E A MS. I H A D B E C O M E NOR M A L

PRACTICES BEGAN W H E N H E W A S 1 0 Y E A R S OLD. H E AGAIN," (IT I S A F A C T T H A T H I S E A R L I E R D R E A M S

B EC A M E AWARE O F HIS P U N I S H M E NT· S E E K I N G WERE STRICTLY M A S OC H I STIC,) TH U S M:S M A SO­

PENCHANT AND HIS A TT R A C T I O N TO URINE AT C H I S M D E SC R I B E D A V E R I TABLE C U RV E STA RTING

BOA R D I N G SCHOOL HE WENT THROUGH A SHORT FROM J UST B E FO R E T H E MOMENT T H E CLINICAL

PERIOD DURING WHICH A C ER TAIN R E PUGNANCE S I G N S A P P E A R E D -TH E C O NSTI TUTIONAL FACTOR

A PPA RENTLY H E L D HIM BACK. BUT W H E N T H I S WAS WHICH M . H I M S E L F F I N D S V E R Y I M PORTA NT-TO THE

OVER HIS MASOCH I STIC PRACTICES STA RTED IN POINT WHERE THE P E R V E RSION CEASED. FOR A

E A R N EST A N D G R E W IN I M PORTANCE. A FTER B E I N G LO N G T I M E- R I G H T FROM P R E - P U B E RTY- H I S

SODOMIZED B Y A M O N I TOR. H E BECA M E THE TA RGET PERVERSION SEEMS T O HAVE B E E N T H E SOLE

OF M A LT R E A T M E N T BY HIS CLASSMATES. THE ACTOR ON S T A G E . B U T I F O N E CON S I D E R S T H E FACT

SEXUAL AS PECT OF WHICH IS OBVIOUS. HIS THAT LATER ON M. HAD BEEN CAPABLE OF

C L A SSMATES. HOW E V E R . OFTEN BAC K E D OFF. NOT ENGAG I NG I N P A R A L L E L. N O R M A L S E X U A L ACTI V I ­

D A R I N G TO ACTU A L L Y C O M M I T C E R TA I N D E E D S ; TIES WHICH OC C U P I E D HIS DREAMS AS HE GOT

TH E Y DARED NOT. F O R I N STANCE. PUSH N E EDLES OLDER. ONE CAN SAY THAT THE PERVERSION.

TH ROUGH H I S A R M T H E MSELVES BUT WOU L D G I V E I NT I MATELY L I N K E D T O M , ' S DESTI N Y . W A S A D DED.

HIM ORDERS T O DO SO. IN SEXUAL "GA M ES" HE A S IT WERE. TO HIS " N O R M A L" S E X U A L I TY TO M E ET

WOU L D A LWAYS ASSU M E T H E F E M A L E R O L E . AS H E AN ECONO M I C N E E D-AT LEAST O N E M A Y SU PPOSE

SAID. "I WAS REA LLY THE LOCAL SLUT. AND IT TH I S I S THE C A S E . D E V E LOPME NTS O F THIS KIND

SATI S F I E D ME." AFTER HIS MARRIAGE HIS MASO­ HAVE P R O M PT E D ME TO PREFER THE TERM

CHISM DEVELOPED TO ITS F U L LEST M. A N D HIS MASOCHISTIC MOVEMENT R A T H E R THAN M A SOC H I S M .

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M:S C A S E A LS O R E V E A LS THAT T H E P H E NO M E NON THI NGS." M. H A D M A S T E R E D THE A RT O F P RO D U C I N G

OF PHYSICAL PAIN AND ITS MYSTE R I O U S ABI LITY TO CONTRA STS. I.E. I N C R EASES AND DECREASES IN

TRIGGER E ROTIC P L E A S U R E A N D O RG A S M IS NOT TH E QUA NTITY OF STI M U L I WITH I N A G I V E N P E R IOD

WHAT C E RTA I N S P E C I A L I STS H A V E C L A I M E D IT TO OF T I M E. TH E S E I D E A S OF T I M E A N D QUA NTITY GIVE

BE. TH EODO R E R E I K. FOR I N ST A N C E . C L A I M S IT I S US D E F I N ITE I N FO R M ATION W H I C H C A N TH ROW SOM E

TER ROR AND A N X I ETY WHICH ARE A SSOC I A T E D LIGHT O N T H E M YSTE R I O U S CONN ECTION BETW E E N

W I T H PLEAS U R E A N D T H E N W I TH O R G A S M : M:S C A S E PHYSICAL PAIN AND PLEASURE. FROM M.'S

D I S PROVES T H I S . I N D I C A T I N G C LE A R L Y THAT PA I N E N D L ESS S E ARCH FOR P A I N . W E C A N LOGICALLY

ITSELF I S THE T R I G G E R . T H E B A S I C L I N K BETW E E N INFER AN EQUALLY E N DLESS NEED FOR PLE A S U R E .

TH E I NTENSITY O F TH E PA I N A N D T H E I NTENS ITY OF M. ORC H ESTRATED THE B RUTA L TORTU R E S

THE ORGASM UNDERLIES E V E RYTH I N G M. DE­ I N FLICTED ON HIM IN ORDER T O OBTA I N THE

SC R I B E D A N D AT T I M E S M E NTIO N E D O P E N LY: "ON K E E N E S T POS S I B L E P L E A S U R E . H E U N DOUBTEDLY

THE WHOLE. IT WAS PA I N T H A T T R I GG E R E D MY EXPER I E NCED "TH E FEELING OF HAPPINESS

EJACU LATION:' TH I S E X P LA I N S T H E C H A RACTE R I S ­ DERIVED FROM THE SATISFACTION OF A WILD

TIC ATTITUDE O F T H E M A SOC H I ST W H O CONSTA NTLY I N S T I N C TU A L I M PU L S E U N TA M E D BY THE EGO."

D E M A N DS THAT H I S P A R TN E R I N C R E A S E THE PA I N . WHICH F R E U D TELLS U S " I S I NCOM PA R A B LY M O R E

M. W A S QUITE AWA R E OF T H I S OUTB I DDI NG. F E A R O F I N T E N S E THA N THAT DERIVED FROM SATI NG AN

PA I N WOU LD B E A B S E N T FROM H I M A N D IT WAS H I S I N STINCT THAT H A S B E E N TA M E D:' O N E WO U L D B E

S A D I ST PART N E R WHO WOULD B A C K OFF BECAUSE I NC OR R ECT I N A S S U M I NG, HOW E V E R , T H A T M . W A S

OF T H E EXTR E M E NATURE O F HIS D E M A N DS : "AT T H E FREE TO DESIRE OR T O R E F U S E T H A T JOY. TH E

·
L A S T MOME NT. THE S A D I ST A LWAYS B A C K S OFF:' I T PARADOX IS THAT IT WAS FORC E D U PO N H I M . IN A

APPEARS MOREOVER THAT PAIN HAS A DOU BLE SENSE HE WAS CON D E M N E D TO PLEASURE AND

F U NCTION: ON T H E ONE H A N D I T A P P A R E NTLY ACTS T H I S I S W H Y H I S C A S E I S SO D I FFIC U LT T O U N R A V E L .

AS A CATALYST FOR S E X U A L A RO U SA L; ON T H E SUFFER THE WORST TOR M E NTS TO O B TA I N

OTH E R H A N D I T W O U L D S E E M TO I N C R E A S E S E X U A L PLEA S U R E U N D E R A B SOLUTE C O M P U L S I O N : S U C H

EXC ITEMENT AND PUSH I T TO ITS C L I MAX WHILE WAS M:S DESTINY F O R THE GREATER PART O F H I S

LOS I NG I T S OWN S P E C I FIC ITY. I N T H I S S E N S E . PA I N LIFE.

HAS NO BOU N D A R Y . "EVERY INCH OF MY BODY

COULD BE A RO U S E D TH ROUGH P A I N :' T H I S WOULD

I N D I CATE A N EXTR E M E M UTATION O F THE BODY'S I N THE SAME WAY THAT M:S REACTIONS TO PA I N

S E N SITI VITY. YET PAIN IN ITSELF WAS NOT T H E WERE DIFFERENT FROM WHAT IS GENERALLY

U L T I M A T E PLEA S U R E. IT WAS B U T A M EA N S. M. M A D E ACCEPTED. HIS R E LA T I O N S W I T H OTH E R S WERE

T H E DI STI NCTION V E R Y C L E A R LY : "AT FI RST. A N D ON U N ORTHODOX I N V A R I O U S WAYS. I T I S W E L L KNOWN

TH E SPOT W H E R E P A I N WAS A P P L I E D . I T H U RT. BUT THAT MOST S P EC I A L I STS STR E S S THE M A SOC H I SrS

THEN I GOT A N E R ECTION. M O R E PA I N . A N D STI L L QUEST FOR H U M I LI ATION. I WOU LD ADD THAT TH I S IS

MORE. A N D T H E F E E L I N G O F P LE A S U R E GRADUA LLY PARTI C U L A R L Y TRUE WHEN THE I M PORTA N C E O F

BECA M E SHARPER. C L E A R E R. E J A C U LATION PHYSICA L P A I N I N ITSELF I S M I N I M IZED: TORTU RE I S

OCC U R E D WHEN THE PAIN WAS AT ITS MOST S E LDOM VERY HO R R I FY I NG. TH E GENITALIA ARE

I NTENSE. AFTER E J AC U A LTION. T H E R E WAS PA I N N O T S U B J ECTED T O M UT I LATION. P A I N D O E S N O T G O

AGA I N A N D I T H U RT:' T H I S A SPECT O F PA I N A S A BEYOND A C E RTA I N T H R ESHOLD. ETC. M'S CASE

M E A N S WAS I D E N T I F I E D BY F R E U D IN T H E ECONOMIC SHOWS T H A T T H I S I S N O T T R U E A N D T H A T EVER­

PROBLEM I N MASOC H I S M W H E R E HE POSITS THAT. I N INCREASING PHYSICA L PAIN WAS A CT U A L L Y

TH E CASE O F M A SOC H I S M . PHYSICAL PAIN AND SOUGHT FOR. HOWEV E R . IT IS OBVIOUS THAT

U N P L E A S U R E A R E N E I T H E R E N D S I N TH E M S E LVES A LTHOUGH P A I N A N D H U M I LIATION B E LONG T O TWO

NOR S I G N A LS. BUT M E A N S TO A TTA I N A GOA L WHICH D I F F E R E N T REGISTERS. THE FACT THAT TORTU RE I S

I S A LWAYS P L E A S U R E . M . DID NOT O N LY D E M A N D I N FLICTED OF N E C E S S I T Y BY A N OT H E R PARTY

T H A T H I S TORTU R E S B E I N C R E A S I N GLY PA I N F U L. ESTA B L I S H E S A MOST I N T I M ATE LINK BETWEE N

BUT THAT T H E Y BE PROLONGED. SUSPENDED. T H E M . A N D HOW D I D M . L I V E T H I S CO R R E LATION?

R E S U M E D. A N D D I V E R S I F I E D . I N T H I S R E S PECT H E I S ACCORD I NG TO H I M. WHAT H E CRAVED FOR WAS

A GOOD A D E PT OF F R E U D W H O S A Y S I N CIVI LISATION ABOVE A L L A N A B A S E M ENT OF HIS PE RSONA LITY,

AND ITS DISCONTENTS: W H E N ANY SITU ATION THAT I S TO ACH I E V E THIS " V E R I TA B L E MORAL SUICIDE"

DESIRED BY THE PLEASURE P R I N C I PLE IS PRO­ EVERY M E A N S W A S V A L I D THE M O M E N T M . A N D H I S

LONGED. IT O N LY P R O D U C E S A F E E L I N G OF M I L D W I F E "WE R E R E A LLY TWO SLAVES O F TWO LOVERS:'

CONTENTME NT. WE ARE SO M A D E T H A T WE C A N EVERY M EA N S. I . E . IN A D D ITON TO THE TORT U R E S .

D E R IV E I NTE N S E ENJOYMENT ONLY F RO M A THE S I M PLEST SLAP OR OBEYI N G O R D E R S TO

CONTRAST A N D V E RY L I TT L E FROM A STATE OF I N DULGE IN C O P R O P H A G Y. WHICH A P PA R E NTLY

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PLEAS U RE " A FT E R E J A C U LATION. TH E O B V I O U S H E MOSTASIS. I T W A S A LSO H I S I M M E NSE P R I D E AND

H O M OSEX U A L S I D E O F A L L T H I S W A S. ACCORDING HIS SCO R N FOR HIS PA RTNERS WHICH PROMPTED

TO M .. ANOT H E R M E ANS TO H U M I LIATION. AS HE H I M TO R E M A RK. A L MOST I N C I DENTALLY. THAT "TH E

F E LT THAT HOMOSEXU A L ' PRACTICES WERE SA DIST A LWAYS BACKS OFF A T T H E LAST MOMENT,"

TANTAMOUNT TO I N S U LT S . WITNESS THESE THE S A D I STIC STUDENT WHO SHARED M:S LIFE A N D

P H R ASES M . GOT A PARTNER TO ORDER H I M TO H I S WI FE'S WAS SU PPOSED T O BE A LL-POW ERFUL:

I N S C R I B E ON H I S S K I N SO H I S MORAL DECAY COULD HE GAVE STRICT ORDERS THAT HAD TO BE

BE SEEN: "I GAVE THE I M PRESSION I WAS A N I N V E RT OBEYED-AND Y E T H E WAS I N FACT LOOKED U PO N

W H I C H I WAS NOT OUT O F PLEASURE. BUT OUT OF AS UTTER LY WORTHLESS. M. C LA I M E D THAT HE

H U M I L I A T I ON. I E X P E R I ENC E D NO PHYSICAL H I MSELF DID NOT E X I ST AS A SUBJECT B U T THAT H E

SATISFACTION. I T WAS A L L O N THE MORAL PLA N E ." S I M PLY E M BO D I E D THE SA DISTS FANTASI ES. HE

M. D E PICTED H I M S E L F A S H A V I NG A PRESSING N E E D C LA I M ED THAT HE HAD VERY LITTLE REAL

TO B E H U M I LIATED-HOMOS E X U A LITY WAS ONLY A N E X ISTENCE O F H I S OWN. AND H E R E H E HOODWIN K E D

INST R U M ENT TO H I S E N D AND T O HAVE H I S W I L L H I S I N T E R LOCUTOR F O R H E W A S V E R Y DEFINITELY

COM P LETELY D E STROYED. C E R TA I N E X P RESSIONS E X P R E S S I NG A DESIRE: THE D ES I R E T H A T TH E

K E PT R E C U R R I NG IN HIS SPEECH SUCH AS: OTH E R P E RSON PROCEED IN SUCH A WAY AS TO

D I S R EG A R D O F T H E W I LL. TOTA L ANNI H I LATION OF NEGATE M:S EXISTENC E . HE WAS READY TO SUBMIT

THE W I LL. THE W I L L EXISTED NO LONGER. ABOLITION TO ANY K I N D OF I NVESTIGATION SINCE RETICENCE

OF THE W I LL. ETC. THIS TRAIT U N DO U B T E D L Y WAS TOTA L L Y FOR E I G N TO HIM AND I N DE E D

CONC E A L E D SOM ETH I NG DES PITE THE GENE R A L LITERA LLY I NCONCE I VA B LE: TO SHOW ANY RETI­

TONE OF H I S DISCO U R S E W H I C H . ON THE WHOLE. CENCE WOULD HAVE M E A NT TO E X E RT HIS WI LL.

WAS RESTRAINED AND FREE FROM D R A M AT I C AND T H E R E FORE TO C A NC E L H I MSELF OUT. TH U S

E F FECTS. NEV ERTHELESS T H E R E W A S SOM ET H I NG THE I NT E R LO C U T O R OR THE PARTNER FOUND

A T R I FLE TOO STRONG IN THIS I N S I STENCE ON H I M S E L F I N T H E PARADOX ICAL SITUATION Of BEING

R ENOUNC ING H I S W I L L "FOR THE B E N E F I T OF THE STR I PP E D OF ALL POWE R O F SPEECH AND DESIRE.

PE RSON WHO WAS I N COMMA ND." A N D SO T H E M A SOC H I ST. B E H I N D THE FACADE OF A

D R A M ATIC A S S E R TI O N OF H I S NOTH I NGNESS.

ACTUA LLY S U B DU E D T H E SADIST B Y FORCING H I M

TO BE MORE P R ECISE. HE R E A LLY RENOU NCED
T O A S S U M E T H E R O L E W H I C H H E . THE MASOCHI ST.
NOTH ING AT A LL: F I RST. HE WAS THE ONE WHO
A PPEARED TO A S S U M E . THE TOTA L POWER THAT M.
WANTED THE E RO T I C R E L A T I ONS H I P TO E X I S T :
CONFE R R E D ON HIS PA RTN E R WA S AN U TT E R
S E C O N D. AS SOON AS I T W A S TE R M I N A T E D HE
M OC K E R Y . I P E RSON A L L Y BELIEVE THAT THE
RESUMED H I S FREEDOM V I S-A-VIS THOSE PERSONS
PERVERSE M A SOC H IST I S NOT TOTA LLY UNAWA R E
WHO S U PPOSEDLY HELD H I M IN BONDAGE AND H E
O F H I S D EEP-SEATED ATTITUDE. I N A N Y CASE. H E
DID N O T A L LOW ANY FURTHER S E RVITUDE TO
C A N NOT R E S I ST L ET T I N G IT BE GLIMPSED OR
OC C U R . M , ' S D E E PLY CONC E A LE D ASSE RTION O F
G U E S S E D A T . T H E BONDAG E T O W H I C H THE SADIST
TOTA L POWER WAS M A TC H E D B Y HIS OVERWEENING
I S CONDE M N E D B Y THE M A SOC H I ST IS. I N PART, SO
P R I D E WHICH COULD B E GLIM PSED WHENEVER HE
OPA QU E LY V E I LE D THAT ONE M I GHT CONSIDER T H I S
DESC R I B E D THE H I DE O U S TORT U R E S HE HAD
TO BE THE L A S T W O R D ON THE W H O L E MATTE R.
UNDERGONE. HE F E LT H E W A S ALMOST UNIQUE:
W H I LE ANOTH E R BONDAGE MUST IN FACT BE
ONLY ONE PERSON H E KNEW OF. WHO LIVED I N A
C O NC E A L E D , WHICH H OLDS P R I SO N E R THE
CAGE BRI STLING WITH S H A RP POINTS. HAD EVER
MASOCHIST H I MS E L F.
S U R PASSED H I M. HE S A I D T H E ONLY REASON HE

WAS RETICENT ABOUT PERFORM I N G EVEN MORE

DRASTIC MUTI LATIONS-SUC H A S A MPUTATING' HIS MICHEL DE M'UZAN

P E N I S-WAS THE FEAR OF M E DICAL O R LEGAL TRANSLATED BY DANIEL SLOTE

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MASOC H I S M AND POLYSEXUA LITY

YOU HAVE J UST R E A D M:S STORY A S HE TOLD IT TO STU D I ES ON SADISM A N D MASOC H I S M A R E V E R Y

A FRENCH PSYCHOAN A LYST, MICHEL DE M'UZA N , SELDOM BASED ON G E N U I N E "CLI N I C A L MATERI A L:'

A LT H O U G H M, HAS D E SC R I B E D H I M SELF AS A BY GENUINE I MEAN THAT WHICH REFERS TO

MASOC H I ST, WE SHOULD NOT CON S I D E R THIS STORY CONCRETE SADISTIC OR M A SOC H I STIC PRACTI CES.

AS AN OBSE RVATION NOR A C L I N ICAL CASE SINCE VERY OFTEN THESE STU D I E S REFER EITHER TO THE

M, DID NOT CON S U LT M IC H E L DE M'UZAN FOR H I S S A D I STIC A N DIOR M A SOC H I STIC F A N TA S I E S OF

MASOC H I S M , H E AGREED T O TALK W I T H A PSYCHO­ N E U ROTIC PATI E NTS, OR TO S A D I ST I C A N DIOR

A N A LYST ABOUT H I S M A SOC H I S M BECA U S E HE WAS MASOCHISTIC STORI E S SUCH AS M:S, OR MORE

URGED TO DO SO B Y H I S OWN PHYSICI A N WHOM H E O FT E N , SUCH AS THE NOVELS OF SADE AND

CON S U LT E D FOR R E S pi RA TO R Y P R O B L E M S A N D SACH E R M A SOCH .

W H O K N E W THAT M : S PAST L I F E WOULD C E RTAINLY

I NTEREST DE M'UZAN A S A C A S E H I STORY, THE TITLE I SHALL NOT EVEN TAKE I N TO C O N S I D E R ATION
OF D E M'UZAN'S PAPER, H E R E P ARTLY TRANSLATED THOSE M A S OC H I S T S AND S A D I STS WHO ARE
AS "A CASE OF PERVERTED M A SOC H I S M," I S TO A CONDEM N E D B Y A J UDGE TO CHOOSE BETW E E N
DEG R E E IDEOLOGICAL F R A U D S I NCE IT R E DUCES PRISO N O R PSYC H I ATRIC TREATM ENT.
M:S EXPERIENCE TO A M EDICAL CASE, ALTHOUGH

NOTHING IN M:S BEHAVIOR I N DICATES THAT H E

IT I S ALSO A R E M A R K A BLE FACT THAT MASOC H I STS
EVER THOUGHT O F U N D E RGOING TREATME NT. M:S
AND SADISTS A R E V E R Y M U C H AWARE OF TH E I R
C U RIOSITY TOWARD HIS OWN S E X U A L PECULIARI­
SEXUAL PEC U L I A R ITIES. B UT DO NOT CON S I D E R
TIES HAS NOTHI N G TO DO WITH T H E DESIRE OF
TH EM AS S Y M PT O M S OF A N Y PARTIC ULAR I LLNESS.
GETTING RID OF THEM. ON TH E CONTRARY, THE
AND FROM A PSYC H I ATRIC POINT O F VIEW, IT WOULD
SUDDEN I N T E R R U PT I O N OF HIS M A SOC H I S T I C
BE I M POSSIBE FOR T H E SADIST A N D/OR MASOCHIST
PRACTICES-WHICH C A N NOT B E COMPA R E D T O T H E
TO PRETE N D THAT W H E N HE I NDULGES IN THESE
S P O N T A N EO U S R E M I SS I O N OF AN ILLNESS­
PRACTICES, H E H A S LOST HIS "SE N S E OF REALITY."
SHOULD LEAD U S T O CONS I D E R M : S STORY A S THE

STORY O F A M A SOC H I STIC PROCESS.

GENUINE SADISM AND M A S OC H I S M THEREFORE

IT I S QUITE R E M A R K A BL E THAT PSYCHOANALYTIC SHOULD NOT B E CONFUSED WITH MORAL SADISM

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JOURN EES DE SODOME. THE P E R V E RT DOES NOT

NEED A DEEP AND DARK CAVE TO HAVE K I N K Y S E X .

GENUINE SADISM AND M A S OC H I S M ARE TWO
F A R FROM GOD'S S I GHT: H E S I M PLY WALKS A LONG
A S PECTS. A MONG MANY OTH ERS. OF POLYSEXUAL­
TH E STR E ETS. TA K I NG SUFFICIENT PRECAUTIONS TO
ITY : AN I N F I N ITELY D I V E R S I F I E D SEXUA LITY W H I C H
AVOI D BOTH PO L I C E A N D "PERVERT H U NTERS."
CONSTITUTES THE POTE NTI A L SEXUA LITY OF EVERY

BODY.
IN E V E R Y C I TY THERE A R E OPEN PLAC ES. OPEN

SPACES WHERE E V E R Y P E R V E RT C A N E X P E R I E N C E
THIS POLYS E X U A LITY. WHICH FREUD CA LLED THE SEXUAL PRACTICES OF H I S CHOICE. ONE
"POLYMORPHOUS S E X U A L I TY . " IS V I O L E NTLY WOULD C E RTANLY W I S H TO M E ET MORE PSYCHO­
R E PR E S S E D I N A L MOST E V E RYBODY A N D PARTICU­ A N A LYSTS THERE. OR AT LEAST THOSE AMONG
LALY A MONG THOSE WHO C LA I M TO BE SEXUA LLY TH E M WHO C LA I M THAT THEY H A V E SOMETH I NG TO
"NORMA L." I . E . H ETEROS E X U A L. THE I NTENSITY OF SAY ABOUT PE RVERSIONS. TH ESE ARE FREE
TH I S R E P R E SSION A N D ITS EFFECTS CAN EASI LY BE SPACES. A LSO. W H E R E A N YONE CA N DO A NYTH I N G
RECOG N IZED IN TH E HOR R I F I ED EXPRESSION OF W I THOUT EXPECTI N G A NYBODY T O N ECESSA R I LY D O
THOSE WHO ARE CONFRONTED-WITHOUT H A V I N G THE S A M E T H I N G S AS H E DOES. THE SO-CA LLED
BEEN PREVIOUSLY P R E P A R E D F O R IT-W ITH THE DESIRE OF THE PERVERT TO P E R V E RT THE
R E A L I TY TO W H I C H M:S STORY REFERS. NON P E R V E RT IS A M YTH. THE FANTASY O F THE

N E U R OT I C H ET E R O S E X U A L: THE DISGUISED

EXPRESSION OF HIS UNCONSCIOUS AND RE­

IN THIS RESPECT. MICHEL DE M'UZA N DOES NOT
PRESSED D E S I R ES.
PROV I D E US WITH WHAT M A S OC H I S M IS. AS M UC H A S

WITH WHAT "NOR M A L SEXUA LITY" IS: TH E I N EVIT­

ABLE MODEL A G A I N ST W H ICH MOST P S Y C HO­ IF I I N S I ST O N T H E FACT THAT M:S STORY IS A

A N A LYSTS COMPARE POLYSEXUALITY I N ORDER TO R E M A R K A B L E C A S E H ISTORY. IT I S FOR T H E MOST

D E SC R I B E IT I N TE R M S OF DEVIANCE. I T I S VERY PART BECAUSE IT D E M O N STRATES T H A T M A SO­

TRUE. HOWE V E R . THAT IT I S NOT EASY. EVEN FOR A CHISM I S NOT A STR UCTU R E : O N E I S NOT M A SO­

PSYC HOA N A LYST. TO A P P ROACH SOMETH I NG WHEN C H I STIC L I K E ONE IS N E U ROTIC. IT I S R E M A R K A B L E

TH I S SOM ETH I N G H A S B E E N VIOLENTLY R EPRESSED I N D E E D TO S E E HOW M . S U D DE N LY A B A N DONS H I S

WITH I N ONESELF: M I C H E L DE M'UZAN H A D TO WAIT M A SOC H I ST I C H A B I TS A FTE R TH I RTY Y E A R S O F

TEN YEARS B E FORE H E COULD START TO WORK ON CONSTA N T A N D H E AVY PRACTICE. A N D RETU R N S TO

M:S STORY. A N D IT IS Q U I TE I RONICAL TO SEE THAT A V E R Y Q U I ET A N D PEAC E F U L H ETEROS EX U A L LIFE.

TH E "SEX SPEC I A LI ST." THE PSYCHOANALYST. F E LT EVEN HIS DREAMS LOSE ALL M A SOC H I S T I C

LI K E A CHILD FACED W I TH TH I S R E M A R KABLE CONTENT. S U C H A S U DD E N C H A NG E . AS WELL AS

SEXOLOGI ST: M . THE M A S OC H I ST. THE FACT THAT WH I LE HE WAS A M A SOCH I ST. M:S

L I F E WAS VERY W E L L BALANCED BOTH SOC I A LL Y

A N D E M OTIO N A LLY. P R E C L U D E S A N Y TA LK OF A
WE ARE NOT REALLY I NT E R ESTED IN THE RE­
" P E R V E RT S T R U C T U R E . " M. WAS A SPECIA LIZED
STRA I N E D S E X U A LITY OF OUR PSYCHOANA LYSTS:
WOR K E R WHO WAS H I G H LY R E G A R D E D BY H I S PEERS
OU R AIM IS TO G I V E S H A P E TO A NEW NOTION­
AND HIS S U P E R IORS.
POLY S E X U A L I T Y -A N D TO D E SC R I B E T H E M A N Y

P R OC E S S E S THROUGH WHICH POLYS E X U A LI T Y

BECO M E S A "FACT OF L I FE:' S U C H PROCESSES A R E M A SOC H I S M IS NOT A STA NCE E I T H E R . A S SOME

TOT A L L Y A L I E N TO C L A S S I C A L O P PO S I T I O N S : FRENCH PSYCHOA N A LYSTS B E L I E V E . A STA N C E

M A N /W O M A N . H U S B A N D /W I F E . H O M O - / H E T E R O - . T H A T A S U B J ECT M IG H T ADOPT F O R A S HORT W H I L E

ACTI VE/PASSI VE. ETC . . . I N FACT. TH EY HAVE T O BE A N D T H E N A B A N DO N . IT I S N O T A STA NCE BECAUSE

I

STU D I E D A LONG C E RTA I N L I N ES OF I NCREASING M A SOC H I STIC PRACTICES C H A N G E WITH T I M E (AS

I NTENSITY: VIOLENT S E X U A LITI ES. V I S U A L S E X U A L­ DO S A D I STIC O N E S) . THEY CAN T R A N SFORM I NTO

ITIES. LIQU I D S E X U A LITIES. A L I MENTARY SEXUALI­ ONE A N OT H E R . THE M A SOC H I S T S O M E T H I M E S

TI E S . O B E S E S E X U A L I TI ES. ETC . C O N S I D E R E D BECO M I NG A S A D I ST A N D VICE V E R SA . B U T THEY

ALONG THESE LI N ES. POLYSEXUALITY DETE R M I N ES CHANGE FOR T H E MOST PART IN TH E SENSE OF A

A NEW CUT- U P OF T H E C ITY A S WELL AS OF THE BECOMING. T H E Y FOLLOW A PATTE R N OF I NC REAS­

EROTIC BODY O F PEOPLE. I NDEPENDE NT. ON THE ING Q U A N T I TATI V E I N T E N S I TY C A R E FULLY P RO­

ONE H A N D. OF THE OPPOSITION OF CLASSES AND. G R A M MED. A S O R T O F P ROG R E S S I V E T E N S I O N

ON TH E OTH E R . OF THE B I OLOGICAL OPPOSITION OF TOW A R D SO M E T H I NG. A TENSION WHICH IS

SEXES. C A LC U LATED ACCO R D I N G TO A N I NT E N S I F ICATION

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C A R E F U LLY P LA N N E D E X P LO R A T I O N OF THE R E A L M OF LANGUAGE. OUT OF A SYSTEM OF S I G N S

EROTIC BODY. WHICH ALWAYS PRE-EXISTED H I M A N D T O W H I C H H E

WAS S U P POS E D TO HAVE BEEN COMPLETELY

SUBJECTED. T H E STORY O F T H E S E X U A L PHASES

A CAREFUL R E A D I NG O F M:S STORY REVEALS THAT
(ORAL. ANAL. URETHRAL AND G E NITA L) I S NOT ONLY
TH E CONTROLS ON THIS P R OG R E S S I O N ARE
TH E STORY OF TH E ACCEPTA N C E OF OEDIPAL SEX.
DOUBLE. FI RST. T H E M A SOCH I ST C A N STOP W H E N H E
I T I S ALSO TH E STORY OF T H E S U B J ECTI V I ZATION OF
WANTS: H I S ACTI VITI ES A R E P R E P A R E D WITH GREAT
TH E EROTIC BODY. OR IN OTH E R WORDS. T H E
CARE A N D THE TERMS OF THESE ACTI VITIES ARE
PROHITIBION O F POL YSEXUALITY.
D E SC R I B E D P R E C I S E LY IN A " C O N T R ACT" AC­

C E PT E D BY BOTH PARTNERS. S E CO N D LY . T H E

P R OG R E S S I O N IS A L SO CONTROLLED BY THE H E R E AGA I N I HAVE TO B E B R I E F; W H AT I SAY IS

A N X I ETY W H I C H T H E M A SOCHIST A ROUSES I N H I S M ERELY A H I NT OF WHAT SHOULD B E DETA I LE D AT

PARTN E R WHO "ALWAYS G I V E S U P" A T A C E RTA I N SOME LENGTH.

POI NT. A S M . SAYS. NOT A LWAYS. HOW E V E R. AS A N

EXTRE M E EXPERIENCE L I K E "ULTI MATE SEX." T H E

MASOCHISTIC ACTI VITIES ARE NOT S U P POSED TO
R E A L ONE. H A S S H O W N US.
DRIVE TH E MASOCH I ST COM PLETELY OUT OF TH E

REALM OF LANGUAGE GEN ERALLY S P EA K I NG. AS I N

RATH E R THAN COM P A R E M A S OC H I STIC ACTIVITIES T H E CASE O F SOME PSYCHOTICS. TH E P E RVERTED

WITH R E LIGIOUS RITES. BY N A T U R E ESSENTIA LLY ACT ON ONE HAND I S NOT SPEECH. AND I T DIFFERS

R E PETITIVE. W E SHOULD COMPARE THEM WITH AN FUNDAM ENTALLY FROM T H E P E R V E RTED FANTASM

I NITIATION. IN FACT. IT IS AN EXPER I M ENTATION WHICH IS ALWAYS A PH R A S E . SOM ETH I NG LIKE

WHOSE U LTI M A T E GOAL IS DEATH : DEATH AS PRESIDENT SC H R E B E R'S: " I T WOU L D B E SO N I C E TO

ULTIMATE SEX! WE 00 NOT P RETE N D THAT SUCH A BE A WOMAN SUBJ ECT TO COiTUS." ON TH E OTH E R

GOAL IS ALWAYS REACH ED-ACTUA LLY I T IS VERY HAND TH E PERVE RTED A C T I S NOT HAZA RDOUS SO

R A R E LY SO-BUT WE TH I N K THAT SUCH A GOAL FAR. IF WE OBSERVE TH E CONCATE N A TION OF

ALWAYS EXISTS I M PLICITLY. PERVERTED EXPERI­ THESE ACTS OVER A CERTA I N PERIOD OF T I M E .

M ENTATION I S A WAY O F B E I NG-FOR-DEATH (ETRE· THEY APPEAR TO F O L LOW A P R OG R E S S I V E

POUR-LA-MORTI. BUT THERE I S ALSO PLEASURE I N ITS PATTERN L I N K E D T O EACH OTH E R A S I N A SYNTAGM ;

QUEST. AND THERE IS EVEN MORE THAN PLEASU RE. I T IS A DISCOURSE. A P E R FORMATIVE D I SCOU RSE.

THERE I S ECSTASY-JOUISSANCE-THE PLEASU RABLE WHICH MORE R E A D I LY OBEYS OTH E R LAWS T H A N

COUNTERPART OF DEATH. THE LAWS OF SYMBOLIC LANG UAGE. IT O B E Y S A N

A LTOGETH E R DIFFERENT LOG IC; IT OBEYS THE

LOGIC O F T H E BODY, I F I MAY SAY S O . I T I S QUITE

IT IS NOT POSSI BLE TO E X P LA I N FULLY IN THIS
A M AZ I NG TO SEE THE INCREASING CONTROL A
POSTFACE H O W A N D WHY JOUISSANCE I S PRECISELY
M A SOC H I ST CAN GET OVER HIS BODY AND ITS
WHAT WE HAVE H A D TO REJ ECT I N THE COURSE OF
P H Y S I O L OG I C A L F U N CT I O N S . T H I S CONTROL
BECO M I N G O E D I PA LIZED. W H I LE OUR BODY. OUR
I NC R EASES I N PROPORTION T O T H E VIOLENCE OF
EROTIC BODY. WAS S U BJ ECTED TO TH E STRUCTUR­
THE PERVERTED ACTS. SUCH A CONTROL I M PL I E S A
I NG A N D A L I E NATING POW E R OF LA NGUAGE. THE
VERY PREC I S E K NOWLEDGE. A KNOWLEDGE THAT
CONSTRUCTION O F T H E SO-C A L L E D " N O R M A L"
ONE CAN NOT FIND IN BOOKS. A KNOWLEDGE WHICH
H ETEROS E X U A L S U BJ EC T COMES A BOUT BY A N D
DERIVES FROM A NON-VERBAL S E M I OTICS, FROM
THROUGH LA N G U A G E . EVERY S U BJECT IS V U L­
BODY-SEMIOTICS.
N E R A BLE TO THE FO R M OF TH E SPECIFIC LAN­

GUAGE O F WHICH HE BECOMES T H E SUBJ ECT. EVEN

H I S EROTIC BODY I S V U L N E RABLE. EACH ZONE OF TH E MASOC H I ST ALSO USES A N OT H E R M EANS TO

WHICH HAS BEEN SUCCESS I F E LY N A M ED. EROTI­ D E S U BJ ECTI FY HIS BODY: I.E. H U M I LIATION. M:S

C I S E D A N D FO RBIDDEN. TO THE E XC LUSION O F T H E TATOOS, A LL OVER HIS BODY, SAY: "THE M EETING

G E N I T A L Z O N E A N D TH I S F O R ONE PURPOSE ONLY: POINT FOR THE MOST BEA UTI F U L P R I CKS," OR " I AM

HETEROS E X U A L I NTE RCOU RSES. A BITCH, I AM FUCKED U P, I A M NOT A M A N NOR A

WOMAN, BUT A BITCH. A SLUT, FLESH TO BE FUCKED,

A LIVI NG TOILET BOWL . . . "

THE AIM OF T H E M A SOC H I ST-A N D T O A LESSER

DEG R E E OF TH E SADIST-IS TO DECONSTRUCT THE

OEDI PAL CONSTRUCTI O N . IN OTH E R WORDS TO I WANT TO PO I N T OUT THREE I M PORTANT DETA I LS

DESUBJECTIFY HIS OWN BODY. ABOUT THESE TERMS:

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F R E N C H : A BITC H . A SLUT. ETC.'. M. I S A M A N . BUT I F DO NOT EVEN R E F E R TO A R E A L OB.JECT . . . TH E Y

HE WERE A WOMAN I F WOULD BE EXACTLY THE HAVE ONLY A P E R FO R M AT I V E F U NC T I O N : TO

SAME. HE IS NOT HOMOSEXUAL. HOWEVER. AND I NDUCE. TO PROVOKE HORROR AND TO MAKE

W H E N H E GETS FUCKED BY A MAN IT I S ON LY FOR PEOPLE G O A W A Y A NDIOR REACT WITH AGGRES­

M A SOCH I STIC P U R POSES. S I V I TY AND BEAT T H E SHIT O UT O F THE M A SOCH I ST.

BUT AT THE S A M E T I M E IT AROUSES THE DEATH­

DRIVES OF THE OTH E R . I T A ROUSES HIS A N X I ETY AS

2.1 IN SPITE OF T H E F E M I N I ZATION OF THE WORDS.
W ELL. AND THROUGH TH I S A N X I ETY TH E MASOCH I ST
T H E S E T E R M S REFER TO A N E UTRAL. RATH ER THAN
IS A B LE TO CONTROL THE AGG R ESSI VITY OF THE
TO A FE M I N I N I N E OR MASC U L I N E QUA LITY: A BITC H
OTH E R .
OR A SLUT H A S I N F A C T NO BIOLOGICAL SEX: "I A M

N E I TH E R M A N N O R WOMA N B U T FLESH . . . "

SUCH A D E S U B .J ECTIVIZATION OF T H E M A SOC H I ST

DOES NOT M A K E A PSYCHOTIC OF H I M . A SUB.JECT

3.' T H E S E T E R M S R E F E R N EITHER TO SUB.J ECT NOR
COMPLETELY A L I E N TO T H E REALM OF LANGUAGE
OB.JECT. BUT TO A FUNCTION: A BITCH I S SOMEONE
WHO REFUSES I T COM PLETELY. BUT THIS S U B.J ECTI­
WHO I N DUCES THE NORMAL H ETEROSEX U A L TO B E
V I ZA T I O N A L LO W S THE M A S OC H I S T TO FREE
BITCHY. A U V I N G TOILET BOWL I S A P L A C E THAT
H I M S E L F F R O M H I S U NC O N SC I O U S A L I E N A T I O N
R E C E I V E S SHIT AND PISS • • • HERE I SUGGEST THE
F R O M T H E S Y M BOLIC F U NCTION O F LANGUAGE: I T
R E A D E R VISIT T H E PIT AT "THE MINE S H A FT' I N NEW
ALLOWS H I M TO R E D I SCOVE R THE PERFORMATIVE
YOR K C I TY • • •

F U NCTION OF LANGUAGE ALONG WITH H I S BOOY­

LANGUAGE. A FTER H I S "TRI P," THE M A SOC H I ST C A N

GO B A C K I NTO T H E R E A L M OF SYMBOLIC LANGUAGE.

IT I S O N LY FOR THE N E U ROTIC. OR THE H ETERO­

S E X U A L . SO-CALLED "NORMAL PEOPLE" THAT THE BUT H E W I LL DO I T F R E E LY. AND H E W I L L PLAY I N I T

M A S OC H I ST P R ET E N D S TO BE E XC R E M E N T. A A N D WITH IT. H E W I LL M A K E A G A M E OF LANGUAGE.

G A R BA G E-CA N. THE MASOCHIST IS NOT EXC R E M E N T AND H E W I LL H A V E ACCO M P L I S H E D I N H I S OWN WAY

OR W H A T E V E R : H E S A Y S H E I S. AND T H A T M A K ES ALL THE LAST METAMORPHOSIS FORESEEN BY N I ET­

ZSCHE. HE W I LL H A V E BECOM E ' A C H I LD.

T H E DIFFERENCE. I F H E SAYS. A N D R E PE A TS THAT

HE I S A SLUT. A TURD. A PILE OF SH IT. A N D SO ON. IT

IS O N LY TO I N DUCE TH E AGGRESSIVITY OF THE

OTH E R . OF THE PARTN E R .

FRA NCOIS PERALDI

T H E S E T E R M S . FROM TH E MASOCHISTS POINT OF N E W YORK• .J ULY 1 978

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[ON C E I H A D A M ASTER]

TH E T H R E E FOLLOWI NG T E XTS A R E LOVE LETTERS. BEGIN THE D I S RO B I N G HE WOULD EXPECT. T H E R E

THE F I RST ONE. 'ONCE I HAD A M ASTE R , ' R E P R I NTED WERE TIMES ON HOT SUMMER N I GHTS THAT T H E

H E R E . I S A R E W R I T I N G OF T H E 23RD PSA LM. THE W I N D C A R E S S E D M Y B A R E C H EST WITH W E LCOM E

LAST TWO STOR I E S WERE CONSC IOUSLY AD­ COOLI NG R E LI E F. MY COM FORT D I D NOT CONC E R N

D R E S S E D TO EACH OTH E R B Y JOHN PRESTON A N D HIM. TH E R E WERE OTH E R TIMES IN THE WINTER

JASON KLEIN. WHEN THE D R A FT W O U L D S E N D C H I LLS THROUGH

MY BODY WHEN MY S H I RT R E MOVED THE LITTLE

PROTECTION IT HAD PROVI DED. H E DID NOT C A R E

F O R M Y D I SCOM FORT.

ONCE I HAD A M ASTE R

THE REMOVAL OF EACH PIECE OF C LOTH I N G

I O N C E H A D A MASTER WHO L I V E D FA R FROM THE M A R K E D T H E F I N A L LEGS O F OUR J O U R N E Y . B Y T H E

CITY. TIME H E WOU L D P U L L I NTO H I S O W N D R I V E W A Y I

WOULD BE N A K ED. SITTING BESIDE HIM IN THE

E V E R Y F R I DA Y I WOU L D LEAVE M Y JOB IN AN OFFICE TRUCK. W A I T I N G T O B E G I N T H E W E E K E N D.

B U I L D I NG. I WOULD TAKE A N E X P R E SS TO T H E N E XT

LARGE M ETROPOLIS AND CHANGE THERE FOR A W H E N HE F I N A LLY P U L L E D I NTO T H E SPACE B E S I D E

LOC A L T R A I N . I WOULD SIT WATC H I NG A PROGRES­ H I S H O U S E . A C T U A L L Y N O MORE TH A N A C A B I N I N

SION O F TOWNS. EACH S M A L L E R THAN T H E LAST. T H E WOODS. I W O U L D H A V E T O M A K E M Y O W N W A Y

S P E E D B Y MY W I N DOW. AT THE T E R M I N U S . I WOULD I N S I D E . H E A P P E A R E D I G N O R A N T OF T H E F R E E DOM

C LI M B OUT A N D FIND HIM WAITI NG. EVERY FRIDAY HE THAT MY N U D I TY R E P R E S ENTED ON A SUMMER

WOU L D B E STA N D I NG NEXT TO HIS TRUCK. T H E R E N IG HT. A N D EQUA LLY AS I GNORANT O F T H E DANGER

WOU L D B E NO G R E E T I N G F R O M E I TH E R OF US. T H E IT H E L D O N FROZEN W I N T E R E V E N I NGS. H E ONLY

R I T U A L W A S S O SEC U R E T H A T I T D I D N O T N E E D T H E WAS CON C E R N E D THAT I BE WITHOUT CLOT H E S I N

S U PPORT OF WORDS. H I S HOUSE.

AS HE DROVE AWAY FROM T H E STATION I WOULD THERE WAS A RITUAL EVERY FRIDAY E V E N I NG. I

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THAT WAS U N I M PORTANT. I WOU L D STA N D BEN EATH T H E R I T U A L O F D R E S S I N G A S H E D ROVE M E T O T H E

A HOT SPRAY OF WATER TO LET ITS MOISTU RE TRA I N STATIO N . I COULD B E FULLY D R E S S E D B Y T H E

SOFT E N M Y BODY H A I R . E V E R Y FRIDAY H E SHAVED T I M E H E PA R K E D I N FRONT O F T H E I RO N R A I LS .

EVERY I NCH OF M Y SKIN B ELOW MY N EC K . H E COULD

NOT TOLERATE EVEN A FEW STR A N DS E X I STENCE TH E F I R ST S U M M E R I L E A R N E D M O R E A BOUT M Y

S E P A R ATING M Y SKIN FROM H I S TOU C H . BODY THAN IN ALL THE SUMMERS THAT HAD

PRECE E D E D I T TOGETH ER. I RAN N A K E D ACROSS

F O R THE W E E K E N D I BECA M E H I S S E R V ANT. I WOULD FLOWE R E D F I ELDS AND SPRAWLED MY SHAVEN

COOK HIS M E A LS. C L E A N HIS HOUSE. WASH HIS TORSO I N OC E A N O F C LOVER. I BECA M E F E A R L E S S

CLOTHES. T E N D H I S G A R D E N . C H O P H I S F I R EWOOD. I OF M Y P H Y S I C A L S E L F. I TOOK ON COLOR ON M Y

WOU LD DO SO A LWAYS N A K E D. A LW A Y S VULNER­ S K I N A N D TON E I N M Y M U SC LES A S T H E Y WORK E D

ABLE. H A R D O N H I S F A R M . I W E LCO M E D E V E R Y T I M E H E

TOOK ME. R E S PO N D I N G P A S S I O N A T E L Y TO HIS

HE WOULD TOLERATE NO L I M I TA T I O N TO MY ASSAULTS. S P R E A D I NG FAR APART M Y JAWS A N D

S E R V I C E . T H E O R I FICES O F M Y BODY W E R E OPEN M Y SPH I NCTER AS H E I N VADED M Y O P E N B E I NG .

FOR HIM TO TA K E ON A W H I M - M Y MOUTH. M Y ASS. M Y

H A N D W E R E TH E R E W H E N E V E R H E H A D T H E DESIRE. TH E F I R S T W I N T E R I L E A R N E D M O R E ABOUT M Y F E A R

H E N E V E R LET HIS PHYSICAL W A NTS FALL I NTO A T H A N I H A D E V E R K N O W N . I OFTEN S A T D O W N N E XT

PATT E R N . HE WO U L D TA K E ME W H I LE STA N D I N G U P TO TH E S TO V E TO TRY TO EASE MY NAKED

COOK I N G IN FRONT O F THE S TO V E . OR WHILE COLDN ESS. M Y BODY A N D MY SELF W E R E C APTI V E S

WO R K I NG I N TH E F I E LDS. OR E V E N I N T H E SOU N DEST OF T H E H OUS E . D E S P E RATELY FRIGHTENED OF

OF S L E E P. THOSE TI ME S W H E N H E WOU L D FO RCE M E TO R UN

WITHOUT SHOES T H R OUG H T H E S NOW TO GATH E R

WE TA L K E D A LMOST NOT AT A LL. MY M I N I STRATIONS WOOD FOR T H E F I R E . H E . H I M S E LF. H A D N O OTH E R

WERE TO HIS BODY. NOT HIS FANTA S I E S OR HIS OUTLET FOR H I S OWN PHYSICAL B E I N G T H A N T O U S E

M I N D. I WAS H E D H I S TORSO W H I LE I T SAT I N T H E MY BODY. I R E C E I V E D T H E ONSLAUGHT O F HIS

BATHTUB. M A S SA G E D IT IN FRONT OF THE FIRE F R U ST R A T I O N ON EACH WEEKEND. TAKING TH E

P L A C E . TOOK ITS R E L I E F I N T H E F I E LDS. RESULTS OF A W I NTER'S W E E K OF I SOLATION E V E R Y

JOU RNEY.

H E WAS N EV E R M I N DLESSLY C R U EL. B U T H E WOU L D

BEAT M E G R EATLY I F M Y S E R V I C E E V E R FALTERED BUT. A LWAYS. THE S P R I NG WOU L D BEG I N AND WE

OR IF MY MIND WANDERED NOT I C E A B LY I NTO A WOU L D B E ABLE TO VENTU R E FU R TH E R OUT IN TO

P R I VATE WORLD OF D A Y D R E A M S . TH E R E WAS NO THE ALWAYS MORE WELCOM I NG SUN UNTI L O N C E

T I M E ON THESE W E E K E N DS FOR M Y S E L F- I N D U L­ AGA I N I T WOU L D B E S U M M E R A N D OUR S E L V E S A N D

G E NC E S . I WAS NEVER A LLOW E D TO R E S I ST O U R BODIES WOULD RUSH THROUGH FOR E STS TO

P U N I S H M ENT; TO DO SO WOU LD BE TO T H R EATEN MY FIND SWI M M I N G HOLES TO DIVE I NTO AND FEEL

ATTENDANCE. COM PLETELY ATTAC H E D T O N ATU RE.

NO OTH E R P E R SON EVER WAS ALLOWED IN HIS I WOU LD LOVE HIM I N THE SU M M E R TI M E.

HOUSE W H I LE I WAS THERE. THOUGH I COULD NOT

HAVE STOPPED A N YO N E . HE D I D NOT WANT THERE I WOU LD H A T E H I M IN T H E WINTER.

TO BE A NOTH E R P E R SON TO I N T E R F E R E WITH M Y

GROW I N G V U L N E R A B I LITY OR HIS OWN GROW I N G

BUT I WOULD ALWAYS R ETURN EVERY W E E K E N D FOR
CONTROL.
MY PILG R I M AG E .

T H E W E E K E N D S TOOK O N MORE M E A N I NG EACH T I M E HE N E V E R W O U L D TA LK T O M E . H E WOU L D LISTEN

THEY W E R E R E PEATED. THE FEW W O R D S T H A T H A D WHEN I PROFESSED MY LOV E . HE WOULD SIT

PASSED I N TH E BEGI N N I NG B E G A N TO D I S A P P E A R SI L E N T L Y W H I LE I BEGGED HIS R E S PON S E . HE

THEMS ELVES A S TI M E M A D E T H E M S U P E RFLUOUS. WOULD LET M Y A N G E R GLANCE OFF H I S B ROW I F

T H E DAYS BETW E E N MY JOU R N E YS BECA M E LESS EVER I D A R E D SPEAK IT. BUT H E WO U L D N E V E R

AND LESS I M PORTANT. RESPO N D T O M E .

I T HAD NOT TA K E N LONG FOR THE TRI P BACK TO THE FIN ALLY. I W E N T T O H I S FA RM NO MORE. I WAS

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NOT GOO. REPRINTED W I T H P E R M I SSION.

JOHN PRESTON

30. R. S M I LES AT WA I T E R.

3 1 . R."S H A N DS A R E S H A K I N G A LITTLE.

32. R . GOES I N S I D E THE CAFE.

33. THE WASHROOM. R. I S DO I N G HER HAIR.

34. R . SEATED AT TABLE ON TH E TERRACE. THE WAITER B R I NGS TEA AND CROISSA NTS.

3 5. R . CONSIDERS THE SQ U A R E OF THE THEATRE FRA N C A I S.

36. FADE OUT: G RADUALLY FADE IN ON LONG SHOT: THE GALLERY MONTP E NS I E R. R SEEN FROM REAR WALKING

TOWAR D TH E FAR END OF THE GALLERY.

37. ROBERTE LOOK I N G A T SHOP W I N DOWS. HESITATES. STOPS.

38. STEPS OF COR P U L E N T M A N .

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DA N I E L I S MY BROTH ER. M Y LOVE R . H E I S THE FI RST TONGUE'S PRODUCT. S U BJ ECT TO THE REALITIES I

MAN WHO LET ME E NJOY BEING B U R I E D ALIVE I N THE HAVE CONVINCED ME OF. B I R DS MAY H A V E AS M UCH

SAND. M Y SLAVES ARE ALL N U M B E R E D. M Y MASTER I MAGI NATION A S I DO. BUT WITH FEW E R WORDS TO

HAS YET TO B E I DE NTI FI ED. H E WILL B E THE FI RST DESCRIBE IT. F I X IT. A N D MODIFY IT. I A D M I R E THIS

M A N TO MAKE ME SUFFER BEING B U R I E D U P TO MY BASIC HON ESTY OF A N I MALS. WHETH E R OR NOT

N ECK I N THE G RO U N D FOR LON G E R THAN I WANT THEY CHOSE IT IS I M M AT E R I A L.

UNTIL I KNOW EXACTLY WHO I S I N CONTROL. WHO I

HAVE DELIVERED MYSELF U N TO . AND WHO I IN THE F I N A L TWI LIG HT. DA N I E L H A D ME SHOWI NG
WORSH I P FOR H A V I N G G I V E N ME TH E E X P E R I E NC E . HIM HOW TO S K I P STON E S AC ROSS THE LAKE'S
ALONG W I T H A N OPPORTUN ITY T O W R I T E ABOUT IT. AGITATE D H I DE. AND S TR A N G E AS IT SEEMS. I

SUDDEN LY FELT L I K E A BOY FEELI NG LIKE A MAN

WE SAT ON A D A R K E N I NG SHORE. D A N I E L FINDING FOR TH E FI RST TI M E I N HIS LIFE. I HAVE NEVER FELT

G R U ESOME FACES ON THE PEBBLES THERE AND THAT WAY BEFORE EVEN THOUGH PHYSICA LLY I AM

ALL OF US B URSTING. LACED. A L R E A DY A MAN. THIS RAISES EVEN MORE

QUESTIONS ABOUT SOCI A L EVOLUTION THROUGH

"EACH ON E LOOKS MORE R O TT E N . " DEBBIE AN O R I G I N A LL Y DISTRACTED. MODIFI ED. THEN

LA UGHED. REPRESSED HOMOS E X U A LITY I NTENSIFIED B Y TH E

SANCTI FICATION OF R EPRODUCTION. AM I MY OWN

EVI DENCE7 IS MY THEORY OF B E H AVIORAL NEOTENY

"DRAC U LA WITH E R ING." I AGREED.
U N I V E R S A L TO H U M A N I TY OR M E R E LY A U TO­

BIOGRA P H ICAL?
THE SUNSET C RACKED OUR I N D I F F E R E NC E .

GLOWING AND FLA R I N G BEHIND THE CON FIDENT

FLIGHT OF BI RDS C ROSSING T H E M A R S H WITH A

BROADER VISION THAN MY OWN. BUT POSSIBLY

LESS I M AGI N AT I O N . I NO MORE C REATED MY H U MAN BEHAVIOR IS LARGELY I N H E RITED. PARTLY

LANGUAGE T H A N THE BI RDS D I D. I A M ONLY M Y THROUGH TRADITION. PARTLY THROUGH G E N ETICS.

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EACH B E H A V I O R A L T R A I T ( S E X U A L I TY. AGGRES­ AT TH E SAME TIME T H A T TH E A N D R OG Y N O U S

SION. I NTELLIGENCE. S OC I A B I L I T Y . AND AES­ " M A N A PE" IS BEING SPLIT I NTO M A SC U L I N E O R

TH ETI C S - P E RC E PTUAL S E L ECTI VITY) BEG I N S A S A FEMININE H U M ANS. W H AT REMAINS OF THE

POLYG E N ET I C R E S PO N S E PATTE R N . AN ACTION I N D I V I D U A L'S B E H A V I O R I S ALSO S E PA RATED I NTO

POTE N T I A L G E N E RATED AND SHAPED BY A N O R M A L A N D A B N O R M A L. BEHAVIORS THAT DO NOT

M U LT I T U D E OF GENES. THEN MODI F I E D BY ITS FIT THE CONTRI V E D NORM ARE R I DDLED WITH

B IOLOG I C A L AND CULTURAL E N V I RO N M E NT. TH E FEA R S AND G U I LTS W H I LE CONVENTIONAL ATTI­

DEG R E E TO W H I C H THE E N V I RONMENT I N FLUENCES TUDES A R E E M OTIONA LL Y R E I N FORCED.

THESE G E N ET I C POTE N T I A LS D E P E N DS O N TH E

I NT E N S I TY WITH W H I C H T H E G E N E S COLLECTI VELY IF THE I N D I V I DU A L SURVIVES THIS LEVEL OF

WORK TO EXPRESS T H E M S E LV E S . SOM E BEING OPPRESSION LONG ENOUGH TO REACH PUBERTY.
EXTR E M E LY P L I A BLE. SOME EQUA LLY OBDU RATE. ITS E M E RG I NG S E X U A L I TY IS THEN D I V I DED I NTO T H E
MOST OF THEM V A R I ABLY D E F I N ITIVE. P E R V E R S E A N D T H E S A N CT I FIED. P E R V E R S E ACTS

A R E C R I M I N A L I Z E D A N D OFTE N P U N I S H A B L E BY

DEATH W H I LE TH E SA NCTI F I E D ACTS FLOUR I S H I N A

WITH ANY HUMAN POPULATION. THESE POLY­
N E U ROTIC M A N N E R . A N X I ETY- R I D D E N BY P R EVIOUS
G E N ETIC B E H A V IORS V A R Y W I T H THE I N D I V I DUAL.
OPPRESSIONS. SEXUAL POTENTI ALS A R E UNDER­
BUT ONLY WITH I N A S P ECTR UM OF Q U A L I T I E S
MINED AND STRICTLY CONTRO L L E D . BUT TH E
RANGING FROM ONE E X T R E M E T O A N OT H E R
S E X U A L U RG E IS NOT E A S I LY D I SCOURAGED A N D
( H ETEROS E X U A L TO HOMOS E X U A L. S U B M I S S I V E TO
R E S I STS EVEN THE M O S T BRUTAL REPRESSION.
DOM I N AT I NG. I DI OT TO G E N I US. SOC I A L TO ANTI­
THUS A LS O G E N E R A T I N G THE MOST I NT E N S E
SOC I A L. MONOTO N O U S TO E X TRAVAGANTI WITH
A N X I ETI ES.
VARYING DEG R E E S OF I N T E R M EDIATE QUALITIES

( B I S E X U A L . C O M P R OM I S I N G . P E R C E PT I V E . HOS­

PITA BLE. D I SC E R N I N G ) LYING BETW E E N T H O S E T H E E N D R E S U LT I S A B R E E D O F M E N A L I E NATED

CONS I D E R E D TO BE O P PO S I T E O N E A N OT H E R . FROM A BREED O F WOM E N A N D EACH I N D I VI DU A L

W H E R E A N Y O N E I N DI V I D U A L LI ES ALONG O N E OF A L I E N ATED FROM ITSELF. EACH S E LECTIV E L Y

THESE S P ECTR U M S AND HOW THE SOCI ETY ORI E NTS NOU R I S H E D T O G ROW I N A D I STORTED M A N N E R A N D

TO W A R D THAT PORTION OF TH E S P ECTR U M TRA I N E D TO B E H A V E I N T H E TRADITIONA L FASHION.

DETE R M I N ES W H E T H E R T H E I N D I VIDUAL'S G ROWTH THIS IS HOW HUMANS BREED A N D DOM E STICATE

W I L L BE H E A LTHY O R N E U ROTIC. T H E I R A N I M A LS. THIS IS HOW H U M A N S BREED A N D

D O M E S T I C ATE THEIR C H I LD R E N AND TH U S HU­

M A N ITY ITSE LF.

SINCE H U MANS TH I N K D I C H OTOMO USLY. HUMAN

SOCI ET I E S O R I E N T T O M A N Y O F THESE S P ECTR U M S

AS IF ONLY THEIR EXTR E M ES E X I ST E D . ONE

I N E V I TA B L Y REWARDED WHILE THE OT H E R IS

I N E SC A P A B LY P U N I SH E D . S I N C E THE MAJORITY OF
W H E N I HAD H I M SO HE WAS ABOUT TO S H I T. I T I E D
THE POPULATION LIES WITHIN THE INTE R M E D I ATE
HIM UP SO HE H U RT AND COULD NOT EASILY
RANGE. MOST PEOPLE ARE DISTORTED BY THIS
CONTROL H I S ASS. T H E N I TOLD H I M . " Y O U W I L L NOT
DIC HOTOMOUS TREATM ENT. TH E I R PSYCH E FRAG­
S H I T O N THAT FLOOR."
MENTED. AND THE F R A G M E NTS S E L E C T I V E LY

R E I N FORCED.

H E N E E DE D TO PISS.

HUMAN SOCI ETY F I RST S E PA RATES T H E I N D I V I D U A L

"NOR WILL YOU WET YOU RS E LF."
I N TO W H AT IS HUMAN AND WHAT IS A N I M AL.

PU N I S H I NG T H E A N I M A L W H I L E GLOR I FY I NG TH E
H E G R E W F U R I O U S LY ON THE VERGE OF C R Y I NG.
HUMAN. THE HUMAN IS THEN DIVIDED I N TO

M A SC U L I N E A N D FEM I N I N E . T H E SOC I A L E N V I RON­

MENT MA LNOU R I S H I NG O N E SEXUAL IDENTITY W H I LE " U N T I L I ORDER YOU TO. YOU WILL PISS AND S H I T

FOSTE R I NG THE OTH E R ACCO R D I N G TO THE W H E N I T E LL Y O U TO."

I N D I V I D U A L' S GEN ITALS. OFTEN WITH SOME

INCI DENCE OF SEXUAL CONFUSION OR TRANS­ H I S BONE R A G E D WITH THE REST OF H I M . FANATIC

S E X U A L I S M . U S U A LLY M A SC U L I N ITY EXAGGE R ATES WITH THE A T T E M PT TO CONTROL H I M S ELF. I

TH E MEN W H I L E FEM I N I N ITY DU LLS THE WOM E N AS A WON D E R E D I F T H I S W A S R EGRESSIVE. A SYNTHETIC

BACKGROU N D FOR M A SC U L I N E THEATRICS. N EOTEN Y OR AT L E A ST THE FANTASY OF O N E. BUT

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B E FO R E I COULD R E S E A R C H IT, I LOST THE IDEA HOWLING, BUT NOBOD Y CARES A N D A L L I CAN DO I S

INSIDE A NOTH E R BEATING, M I N E AS WELL AS HIS, W E T M Y PANTS I N FEAR,

HIS BLADDER TOO FRIGHTENED TO CONTROL

ITSELF, HIS ASS TO F I N A L.

FO RGIVE ME, I'M LACED AT THE M O M E NT. BEING

A MONG THE B O Y S A G A I N , I'M SEC R ETLY F E E L I N G

I U N D ERSTAND THE E Li M I N I ATION OF REPU LSIONS V E R Y COCKY, T H E W A Y WE W E R E W H E N L E A V I N G

I S N ECESSAR Y IF T H E PROC ESS OF M ATURATION IS TA N N H A US E R , A LSO. S I N C E Y O U W E R E CONCERN ED.

TO COM PLETE ITSELF. THEIR GLO R I F I C A T I O N IS DANIEL SEEMS VERY COM FORTA B L E WITH YOU ,

ONLY E ROTICALLY R E LEVA NT. H A V I NG M E T YOU. H E R E A LIZES M Y T R U ST I N Y O U I S

N O T POORLY FOU N DED.

M I SS YOU,

C I V I L I ZATION WORKS BY M A K I NG YOU FEEL SM A L L. IT WADE

B E L I TTLES YOUR I N D I V I D U A LITY, DEGRADES YOU

FOR D E V I ATING FROM THE CONTR IVED NORM. THEN P.S.: I WROTE THIS B E FO R E I ACTUALLY TALKED WITH

SHAMES YOU FOR HAVING PUT YO U R SOC I ETY J R A N D DISCOV E R E D YOU HAD ALREADY TOLD H I M

TH R O U G H THE BOTH E R . AND YOU DESERVE IT TH E BATTE R E D DETAI LS. H E COULDN'T WAIT T O SEE

B E C A U S E YOU A R E A C H I L D AND A DAMN N U I SANCE, TH E B R U ISES, SO I SADDLED M Y KITE A N D SWUNG

S U D D E N LY IT I S A CRIME TO DO, H A V E OR WANT C ROSSTOWN TO HIS PLACE. I DISPLAYED THEM, I

AN YTH I NG U N LESS YOU R SOCI ETY SAYS YOU CAN. WATCH THEM WITH U N PRECEDENTED PRIDE AND

YOU R E S I ST AT F I RST, BUT BY TH E T I M E YOU'VE M U C H HOOTI NG. T H A N K Y O U , S I R .

BEEN POTTY-TR A I N E D, YOU A R E S E R V I N G YOU R

SOC I ETY FOR EVER.

NOBODY ENJOYS SERVING THEIR SOC I ETY. FANATIC HE NEEDS TO REMEMBER ME.
OR D E P R E S S E D, THEY DO IT BECAUSE IT IS TH E I R

D U T Y A N D B E C A U S E LIFE I S T OO S E R I O U S T O E NJOY,

ENSH R I N E D WITH SOLE M N VOWS AND W H I S P E R E D

S U P P LICATIONS,
W I V ES, C H I LD R E N , A N D DOGS-AL L A R E S L A V E S TO

A FIERCE SORT OF MASCULINITY AND A SAD

SHOU L D YOU FAIL TO A P P R E C I ATE T H E S E R I OUS­
F E M I N I N I TY . OC C A S I O N A L L Y THE SAD B EC O M E
NESS OF SERVI NG, YOU R SOC I ETY THREATE N S YOU
F I E RC E A N D OVERTU R N THE MALE POWER STR UC­
WITH C R I M I N A LIZATION AND D A M NATION. F R IGHT­
TURE, SOM ETI M E S F I E RC E M A LE S HAVE OVER­
E N E D AN D F E E LI N G G U I LTY, YOU R E M A I N OBEDI ENT­
T U R N E D FEMALE POW E R STRUCTU RES. WHICH FI RST
LY S M ALL. THIS IS A POWE R GAME. THIS IS SM
OVERTHREW THE OTH E R I S PURELY ACADEMIC A N D
CON V E N T I O N A LI Z E D I N TO A STY L E OF L I V I NG,
NOT E A S I L Y PROV E N .
S OC I E T I E S WHERE PEOPLE ARE SET A G A I NST

TH E M SELVES AND EVEN MORE S O A G A I N ST O N E

I N M A N Y SOCI ET I E S , ALL FACES A R E EXPECTED T O
ANOTH E R . I T I S MASS N E U ROSIS IN PROGRESS.
L OO K U P T O M E N , B U T M E N CAUGHT E Y E I N G OTH E R

MEN ARE S U S PECTED OF PERVERSION, SO T H E

S A N CT I F I E D MAN EYES H I MS E L F I N ST E A D AND

THROUGH T H E WOME N B R E D TO M I R ROR H I M . IT I S N O

SIR, S E C R ET THAT WOM E N A R E EXPECTED TO A C T AS

SOU N D I NG BOA R D S FOR M A LE I N SECU RITI ES, T H E

TH E OFFIC I A L STORY IS THAT YOU DRAGG E D M E PREVALENCE OF MALE POW E R STRUCTU R E S

F R O M T R A S H C A N TO T R A S H C A N A N D P U B L I C LY S U GG E S T S TO SOME THAT T H E HUMAN MALE

BEAT THE LIVING WORMS OUT OF ME AT EVERY ONE POSSESSES A N I N H E R ENT ADVANTAGE OVER THE

OF THEM, AND NOW WADE I SN'T QUITE T H E SAME F E M A LE. IF TH I S I S T R U E , WHAT M E N H A V E DO N E

ANYMORE. TH E R E IS MUCH TRUTH IN THAT WITH WITH THAT A DV A NTAGE DOES N O T C R E D I T T H E M

ONLY A FEW CHA NGES TO COLOR C E R TA I N WITH M U C H MATURITY A N D FURTH ER SUGGESTS T H E

PEOPLE'S G R E E N . STI LL BLACK AND B L U E OV ER M A L E IS A LSO M O R E F R IGHTEN E D, AS N E U ROTIC A S

Y O U - SO U N DS LIKE, F E E LS LIKE A SONG AND HE IS I N S EC U R E A BO U T H I MSELF, ESPECIALLY

DANCE ROUTI N E AT THE E D G E OF A JU NGLE THROUGH THE I NVENTION OF NON E X I ST E N T

D R I P P I NG WITH TORTU R E D BODI ES, APOCALYPSE. I'M DANGE RS.

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PEOPLE A R E NOT DESPERATE FOR POW E R U N LESS LORD PRESTON'S B E LT CONTI N U E D B R E A K I NG M E

THEY ARE DESPERATE TO I M PR E S S T H E M S E LVES AND MY THOUGHTS. I SQUEEZED TEETH AND

A N D TO I N T I M I DATE OTH E R S . U S U A LLY BECAUSE G R A BBED R U B B E R CORNERS. PRAYING TO N O GOD

THEY A R E T H E M S E LV E S E A S I LY I N T I M I DA T E D ­ THAT I WOULD C O M E OUT OF THI S H A PP I E R T H A N I

SOMETI M E S B Y A T R U E E N E M Y. SOM ETI M E S BY T H E WAS. I WANTED TO CRY. BUT I W A S TOO BUSY

I N D I F F E R E N C E O F T H E I R WORLD. OFTEN BY THAT RESISTING T H E P A I N T O S U B M I T T O I T .

PORTION O F TH E M S E LV E S T H A T H A S R E M A I N E D

U NKNOWN. OPPRE S S E D YET FOR E V E R S E E K I NG TO F I N A LLY H E STO P P E D B E LTI NG M E . H I S FINGE RTIPS

BE R E A LIZED. R U P TU R I N G A LO N G MY B E A M I NG HIDE AS HE

T R A C E D T H E M U SC L E S W H E R E I CRI NGED. HE

WHISPERE D HOW BEAUTIFUL THEY W E R E AND

KISSED M E W H E R E I T F E LT BEST. I S A N K U N D E R

IN A H ETERONE U ROTIC SOC I ETY. PEOPLE OF THE SU PERFICI A L I DOLIZATIONS D R Y W I T H F E A R A N D

SAME SEX ARE NOT TO LOOK A T ONE ANOTH E R C RYSTA L LI Z I N G I NTO WORSH I P B E FO R E I EVEN

WITHOUT CRITICISM. IN A M A L E - DO M I N A T E D K N E W IT. A S E C O N D B E A T I NG S H A TTE R I NG ANY

SOCI ETY. M A SC U L I N E C R I T I C I S M I S STA N DA RDIZED S ELF-A N A LYS I S I M A Y H A V E BEG U N . I O N L Y K N E W

A S .J U STICE; FEM I N I N E C R I T I C I S M STA N D A RDIZED AS THAT I S A W A P A R T OF M YSELF I N LORD P RESTON

IDLE GOSSI P. IN M A N Y O F THE SOC I ET I E S B E FORE THOUGH HE WAS MORE PO W E R F U L AND MY

2000 B C AND SO M E AS LATE AS 50 BC. THE H A R MLESSNESS M O R E OBVIOUS.

MASC U L I N E/FE M I N I N E ROLES WERE COM PLETELY

REVERSED OR AT LEAST MORE BA LANCED. WITH T H A T T H O U G HT. I ANGER E D AND RAGED

( R E S E A RC H THE D OC U M E N TS FROM ANCI ENT AGAI NST T H E W H I P P I NG P A I N . B U T H E ONLY C A R E D

EGYPT. SUMER. A N ATO L I A . B A B Y LO N I A . THE A BOUT H I M S E LF. W H E N H E F I N A L L Y STO P PED.

M INOANS. AND ANCIENT E TH I O P I A ; A LS O T H E THOUGHT I T B EST I EXPRESS MY CONC E R N .

H I S TO R I E S O F D I O DO R U S S I C U L U S . H ERODOTUS.

AND SOPHOCLES). "I THOUGHT Y O U W E R E H E A VY." H E C H I DED.

I SENSED HIS SMUG EYE BEHIND M E . WON D E R I N G AS

H E BELITTLED M Y PREVIOUS TALES A S B R AGG I N G

MY F I R ST I M PRESSION OF LOR D P R E STON WAS THAT A N D LA B E L L E D M Y HEAVY A STRANGE S O R T OF

HE WAS M UC H TALLER THA N I H A D E X PECTED H I M PU FF.

T O B E . BUT NOT H E A V I E R W H I C H I N DICATED T O M E

H E W A S A PREDATOR I NSTEAD O F A SCAVENGER. I

-OTHERS H A V E TOLD ME I'M H EAVY . . • I NTENSE. I A M .
TOOK EVERY OPPORTU N I TY TO I N FO R M H I M OF WHAT
B U T I N OTH E R W A YS."
I LIKED BY TELLING F R E E LY OF MY P R EVIOUS

ORDEA LS.
H E COULD HAVE SMACKED MY INSOLENCE. I NSTE A D

H E GREW E X C I T E D BY T H E KNOW L E DGE THAT M Y

MY SECOND I M P R E SS I O N FEARED T H AT LORD
SHOULD E R S H A D N E V E R BEEN W H I PPED BEFORE
P R E STON WOU L D PUT M E I NTO SHOCK. H E BELTED
A N D THAT HE W A S OPE N I NG A R E A S WITH I N M E THAT
M Y V I R G I N SHO U L D E R S S O H A R D SO I M M EDI ATELY
H A D NEVER BEEN OPENED. I FED O N HIS FEVER.
THAT I K N EW I HAD N O HOPE O F B U I LD I N G DELIC ATE
A N D HE W A STED NO TI M E RELENTLESSLY BEATING
C R U ELTI E S I N TO A RC H I T E CT U R E S OF P A I N . T H E
M E FOR T H E R E ST O F T H E NIGHT A S H E LED ME
TEMPLE AUTOMATICA LLY W E N T U P WITH THE FI RST
FROM ONE TRASHCAN TO ANOTH E R . LORD P R E STON
SMACK OF HIS B ELT B R E A K I NG STA RS. THE SECOND
HAD A NEW DOG TO SHOW.
SMACK B U RST I N G MY A PP R E C I A T I O N . AND TH E

TH I R D SCREA M I NG . I H A D NO GAG TO B I T INTO. NO

C H A I N S TO P U LL AGA I N ST. NO ROPES AS M UCH AS I EXC E PT THAT HE PREFERS TO T H I N K OF U S AS

WANTED THEM. T H E FOURTH A N D S E V E R A L MORE STALLIONS.

BLOWS CUT I N TO MY SHOULDERS WITH NO

SENSITI VITY TO M Y OWN. A N D I H A D N O EXCUSE FOR HE LU R E D ME I N TO HIS CONTROL WITH THE

IT-NO BONDAGE. ONLY A FOOLI S H S U B M I SSION. I PROSPECT O F H I S TAKING M E O U T I N A BLACK

H A D F E LT BLOWS L I K E T H E S E O N C E B E FORE A N D LEATH E R COLLAR A N D LEATH E R RESTRAI NTS. M Y

FEA R E D GOI N G I NTO SHOCK EVEN MORE THAN I BACK DISPLAYING HIS MARKS AND MY MOUTH

FEA R E D THE BLACK A N D B L U E M A R KS. DAN I E L A N D GAGGED T O K E E P M E F R O M BRAGG I NG ABOUT T H E M .

I H A V E SURVIVED M Y B R UI S E S B E FO R E . MY BREATH I NG A LWAYS WOR RI ED. M Y E Y E S LESS

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GAG AND WITH A FAR S U BT L E R BONDAGE. I R E M E M B E R E D H E A R I NG O F T H I S TACTIC B E FORE. I

R E S E NTED IT THEN. BUT HOW M UCH MORE BREATHED WITH AN I N C R E A S I NGLY GEN U I N E

E F F ECTIVE IT WAS. HIS FORC I NG ME TO S E RVE D R E A D. M Y BELLY TIGHTE N I N G A N D PULSING W H I L E

WITHOUT TH E PHYS I C A L R E I N FORC E M ENT I ONCE. T H E TI P O F M Y P E A N U T STUNG. N E E DI NG T O P I S S . I

STILL FIND EROTIC. W A N T E D S O M E WATER.

MY THIRD I M PRESSION OF LORD PRESTI ON WAS AS THIS MAN WHO WAS PRETE N D I NG TO BE MY

THAT EITHER I D I D WHAT H E WANTED OR I WAS IN M A STER PROCEEDED TO B I N D M E S P R E A D- E AGLE

MORE TROU BLE THAN I A LREADY WAS IN. THIS TO A V E RTIC A L GRID. A M A I T R E S S E G R A B B E D ME

I M P R ESSION W A S L A R G E LY A PROJECTION OF MY FROM B E H I N D. K N EA D I N G HER CLAWS I N TO MY

OWN ANTICI PATION S . BUT SOON FRETTED WITH T H E E L E PH A NTS A N D M U N C H I NG I N M Y E A R . A S K I N G I F I .

KNOWLEDGE TH I S MAN COULD TU RN ME I NTO A POO R T H I NG. H A D B E E N LEFT T H E R E A L L A LONE. I

BLOODY M U S H A N D I WOULD LOVE IT. DEFI NITELY A T U R N E D MY E Y E S A W A Y FROM H E R WITH A LL T H E

LESS CON F I D E N T I M PR E SSION THAN THE FI RST A N D P R I D E OF K N O W I N G WHO M Y R E A L M A STER W A S A N D.

EVEN THE S E C O N D I M P R ESSIONS. FOR H E R I N FO R M A T I O N . EYED H I M . S H E A S K E D T H E

Q U E ST I O N AGAIN OF LO R D P R E ST O N AND HE

TH E N . A FEW TRASH C A N S LATER. TH E BEATINGS POLITELY D I S M I SS E D H E R . T H E N OVERW H E L M E D M E

BEGAN TO F E E L GOOD. ORGA S M S OF PAl N A N D FEAR W I T H THE MOST E ROTIC BEATI NG O F M Y LIFE. H E

BLASTING AS I FOUGHT A G A I N ST ROPES AND C O U L D H A V E B E A T M E UNTI L I ONLY H U NG TH E R E

C H A I N S WH I L E N A K E D I N FRONT O F STR ANGERS. B L U B B E R I NG. I N C A PA B L E OF ANY R ES I S T A N C E .

SOM ETI M E S I FEARED M Y LORD'S MOOD; SOM ETI M E S PHYSICAL OR S P I R I T U A L. HE COULD HAVE

I BATH E D I N T H E SWEAT A N D TH E HEAT OF H I S BODY CONTI N U E D BEATING ME EVEN THEN UNTIL M Y

EMBRACING ME. ALL OF ME IN A COLD TERROR R A G I N G BON E F I N A LLY SPI LLED A N D I S C R E A M E D .

THOUGH MY FLESH WAS HOT WITH B A TT E R E D M I N D LESSLY ROA R I NG. H E C O U L D H A V E B E A T M E

N E R V E S . I EXAGG E R A T E D E V E RY S E N SATION WITH F U R T H E R . B U T H E D I DN·T. K N O W I N G W H E N TO STOP

F R A N TI C BREATHI NG. OUR BODI E S IN LOVE. HIS S I N C E HE W A N T E D M E A G A I N AND WITH A S M A N Y

D E E P VOICE H U NGRY AT T H E V I S ION OF M Y M A R K E D M A R K S ON M Y BODY A S H E COULD L E A V E WITHOUT

M U SC LES. LOS I N G M Y A FFECTION.

AT THE SI LKY DINER. THE MAN W EA R I N G D E A D M I C E HE GOT MORE MARKS THAN EITHER OF US
A R O U N D H I S N EC K D I D N O T KNOW WHAT W E W E R E A N T I C I PA T E D BECAU S E H E WAS TOO S E N S UOUS
DOI NG. AT TH E TA N N H A U S E R , T H E H ETEROS E X U A LS AND I TOO C RAZY WITH IT TO S A Y N O A S H E PULLED
K N E W A N D W E R E A M AZED. THEY H A D GAT H E R E D ME OUT OF THE A PPLA U S E OF H ETEROS E X U A LS
TH E R E AT A CONVENTION F O R THE L I B E RATION OF I NTO T H E B I G G E S T P I S S- D R I N K I N G FI STD R I LLI N G
S A D O M A S OC H I S M FROM A NONCON SENSUAL T R A S H C A N OF T H E M A LL. AGA I N H E O R D E R E D M E TO
OPPRESSION. T H E H ETEROS E X U A LS A M AZED M E A S STRI P. C H A I N E D MY W R I STS TO A N OV E R H E A D B E A M
MUCH A S WE A M A Z E D T H E M . M A N Y O F THE M E N A N D. G R A B B I NG M E BY T H E H A I R . P ROC E E D E D TO
H A V I NG EROTICIZED B E I NG P U N I S H E D F O R TH E I R B E A T M Y T E N D E R BODY. BUT SO H A R D MY RAGE W A S
T R A N SV E STI S M . G LO R I O U S W I T H T R A N S S E X U A L G E N U I N E AGA I N . Y A N K I NG AGA I N ST H I S F I R M G R I P
H U M I L I A TI O N AS THEY S U F F E R E D- I N A VERY O N M Y S C A LP. M Y T E R RO R LOVELESS E V E N A S T H E
RESERVED SORT OF W AY-FOR TRYING T O B E WHAT C RO W D OF GRIMY M U SC L E D M E N S H O O K TH E I R
THEY W E R EN·T. TH E A I R W A S HEAVY WITH G U I LT. C A N S A N D S P R A Y E D M E WITH B E E R A N D SODA. T H E
SOM E O F IT N E RVOUS. S O M E O F IT SMUG. B E LT W A S T OO A N G R Y FOR M E T O W A N T I T ; M Y P A N I C

T OO C O L D . I E X P LO D E D . H AULING M Y S E L F OFF T H E

LO R D P RESTON EYED M Y E Y E AND S M I LED. "TH I S I S G R O U N D U NT I L S U S P E N D E D BY F L E X E D B I C E P S . T H E

V E R Y BIZARRE." REST O F M E TWISTING A N D STRUGGLING T O D E A L

W I T H . T H E N E S C A P E . RAGE AT A N D F I N A LLY S U B M I T

T O T H A T B E LT U N T I L F R A NTIC T O E SC A P E I T AGA I N
I LAU G H E D INSIDE A STI F F A ND TENDER BODY.
A N D AGAIN.
FASC I N A TED B Y T H E S E PEOPLE WHILE C RAZY WITH

A L U ST TO B E B E ATEN A GA I N AND T H E FEA R OF

WHERE IT WAS LEADING ME. BEFO R E I COU LD EVERY TIME HE S TO P P E D . I RUSHED AT HIS

SADDEN. LO R D P R E S TON FOR THE F I R ST TI M E E M B R A C E A N D A C C E PT E D H I S D E E P LONG K I S S I NTO

ORDERED M E T O ST R I P IN FRONT OF H ETERO­ MY H E A V Y B R E AT H I NG. EVERY T I M E HE BEAT ME

S EX U A LS. NAKED E XC E PT FOR MY SOC KS. I WAS AGA I N . I H A D NO T I M E T O WON D E R WHY.

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HE GRABBED ME I N THE M I DDLE OF A FEAR A N D F I L L I NG M Y S E L F WITH T H E S E N SATION S AT THE
SIGNALLED HE WAS DONE. RELEASING ME. I BACK OF MY H E A D RUBBING TH E BACK OF HIS.
GRABBED A POL E SO I COULD R E M A I N STA NDI NG.
VAGUELY AWA R E MY POSE WAS NOT A S THEATRICAL LORD PRESTON BROUGHT ME TO BED WITH H I M . H E
AS I B E L I E V E D . S H O U L D E R S A N D E L E P H A NT S WONDERED W H Y I DIDNT WANT T O TAK E M Y SOC K S
R A D I A T I NG. H I S V O I C E B E H I N D M E P R A I S E D M Y O F F E V E N AS H E BEGAN T O DO IT F O R ME. I TOLD H I ""
BODY. H I S M I N D A NXIOUS W I T H HOW BEAUTIFUL H I S I T WAS TOO EROTIC KEEPING TH E M O N . M E NTIONI NG I
MARKS WERE AS I STRUGGLED BACK I N TO M Y WAS DRAWN TO THEM BECAUSE OF TH E I R LABEL
CLOTH ES. I N A R OO M W H E R E WE W E R E A LLOWED TO WHEN A MORE HON EST RESPONSE WOULD HAVE
TALK. HE TOLD ME HE ON LY STOPPED BECAUSE H E HOOTED THAT I W A N T E D TO KEEP THEM ON
C A U G H T H I MSELF LOSI N G CONTROL. C R AZY WITH BECAUSE THEY CLUNG TO M Y FEET WITH THE FI LTH
THE SIGHT OF ME AT THE END OF H I S B E LT. I TOLD FROM EVERY FLOOR HE HAD B EATEN ME OVER. I
H I M HE ENJOYED BEATING ME M UC H H A R DER I N R E S O R T E D TO D I S H O N ESTY I N T H E F E A R O F
FRONT O F WI LD M E N THAN A MONG H ETEROSEX­ SOU NDING TOO ROMANTIC ONLY TO F I N D I H A D
U A LS. THEN LAUGHED D E F E N S I V E LY AT A GUSH OF FAILED T O FEED H I S E G O A N D PLEASE H I M AS I
U N E X PECTED PAIN. MORE SECRETLY I RESISTED WOULD HAVE L I K E D. I FEARED THE LOSS OF OTH E R
THE GROWING U R G E TO S P A R E M Y S E LF A N I NTE RESTS A N D S O RISKED THE LOSS O F LOR D
E M OT I O N A L T A N G L E B E TW E E N T H I S M A N A N D PRESTON.
D A N I E L. LORD PRESTON STI LL A L A R M S M E A N D
MORE SO W I T H EVERY R E-EVALUATION OF THAT
N I G HT.

FOR MANY PEOPLE. THE EXISTENCE OF A GOO I S A

I THI N K HE CAUGHT ME A N A LYZI NG TH E N . S U DD E N LY R E A LITY WHEN I N T R U T H TH E R E IS NO R E A L
HE ORDERED ME TO P U L L MY PANTS DOWN A N D EVIDENCE FOR THE E X I ST E N C E OF A N Y GOO.
P U S H E D M E B A C K ONTO T H E GAM ETABLE. I WORRI E D EXCEPT AS A N U LTIMATE EXTEN SION OF IMAGINARY
AS H E C H A I N E D M Y W R I STS T O M Y TH ROAT A N D POWER STRUCTURES.
PROC E E D E D T O W H I P M Y B A G S A N D BONE WITH
LOOPS O F THONG. I ADORED IT. TH E N R E SENTED IT:
WHEN YOU PRAY. YOU ARE ACTIVELY CONVINC I N G
WRITH E D A N D GROVELLED U N D E R IT. TH E N
YOURSELF T H A T A G O D DOES I N FACT EXIST. W H E N
SCR E A M E D BEFORE ADORING H I M AGA I N BECA USE
YOU PRAY DESPITE G ROWING DOUBTS. T H E N YOU
H E KNEW WHERE TO STOP WITHOUT LESSENI NG M Y
ARE HOPI N G SOMEBODY ELSE W I L L TAKE CONTROL
FEAR OF H I M .
OF YOUR LIFE. W H E N YOU ARE TRULY DESPERATE
TO BELI EVE IN GOO. THEN PRAYERS SOM ETIM E S
W H E N H E W A S DONE. I GRABBED H I S E M BRACE. "WORK." T H E I N T E N S I T Y OF T H A T DESPE RATION
FRANTIC TO TASTE HIM AND L I C K I N G W H EREVER HE DRAWING OUT OF THE I N DIVIDUAL POTENTIALS IT
ORDERED ME. HE S E E M E D TO K NOW I W A NTED H I S NEVER K N EW I T HAD. A N D NEVER WILL KNOW. GIVEN
A R M PITS A N D H I S C ROTCH A N D- SWEATY SOCKS. H E ITS KINO OF FAITH A N D THE FAITH OF OTHE R S
PUSHED M Y FACE I NTO ALL OF T H E M A N D A LLOWED FEEDING I NTO T H A T FAITH.
M E TO BATHE M Y TONG U E A N D M I N D T H E R E . WHEN
H E TURNED M E AROU N D A N D BROUGHT M Y BACK M I RACLES AND "FAITH H EALI NGS" ARE NO PROOF
INTO HIS C H E ST. I RISKED D R I V I NG M Y FLARING OF GOD. THEY ONLY P ROVE DESPE RATE PEOPLE
E L E P H A NTS I N TO HIS C ROTC H AND M A SSAGED CAN DO MORE WITH TH E I R OWN MIND AND BODY
BETW E E N HIS THIGHS W H I L E MY H E A D S A I LED. THAN THEY T H I N K THEY CAN. IT TELLS M E THEY
W O R D L E S S . T H I C K WITH S E N S A T I O N S W H I LE A HAVE BEEN TRICKED I N TO BELIEVING THAT THE I R
FLOOD OF CONFLICTING EMOTI O N S H I D B E H I N D M Y UNREALIZED POTENTI A L LI ES I N A NOTH ER BEI NG.
S M I LE. I CONSIDERED B I T I N G H I M . BUT D E C I D E D T H I S BE I T TH R O U G H POS S E S S I O N BY D E M O N S O R
P U B L I C WAS N O PROTECTION . T H E C ROWD H A D THROUGH TH E GRACE OF GOD. IT A LSO SUGGESTS
ALREADY SC R E A M E D F O R M Y BLOOD W H I LE M Y THAT GODS A R E HYPE RTROPH I C MANI FESTATIONS
MASTER W A S B EATI NG M E F O R H I S O W N PLEASURE. OF OUR I N N E RMOST DESI R ES TO BE MORE THAN W E
THEY WERE H A R DLY T H E SORT TO SAVE M E FROM ARE A N D THAT WE WORSH I P OUR GODS A S
HIS ANGER. I NTENSELY A S W E L U ST TO WORS H I P OURSELVES.
THIS PHASE OF S ELF-WORSH I P IS NECESSARY I F
LORD PRESTON YAWNED. CAUSING THE N A K E D M A N THE I N D I V I D U A L I S EVER TO GET OVER ITSELF A N D
W H O H A D BEEN WATC H I NG US T O F U M B L E H I S BON E MATURE W I T H TH E E N E RGY T O CONFRONT T H E
AND DEPART. INDIGNANTLY ASTO U NDED. I LA UGHED. B U S I N E S S O F A D A I LY S U RVIVAL. P R E F E R A B LY

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ENOUGH TI M E TO PLAY AS WELL AS WORK OF MY CLOTH ES. I K N E W WHAT THE S I NGLE WORD

TOG ETH ER. WITHOUT WORK. WE LOSE MEANING. FROM HIM WOULD BE.

WITHOUT P L A Y . W E LOSE OUR WARMTH A N D BECO M E

TOO SERIOUS T O LOVE . "STR I P. "

T H A T TERRI FY I NG O R D E R T O Y I E L D EVE RYTH I N G TO

H I S B R UTA L W H I M .

WHEN N E XT I WOKE. I FROWNED A T T H E LACK OF

ROPE A ROU N D MY H A N DS AND FEET. BUT HAR­ TH E THOUGHT C R A Z E D M E A N D I S P I L L E D EN DLESS­

DENED HAPPY IN THE W A R MTH OF LORD PRESTON'S LY UNTIL LORD P R E STON ENDED IT. OR SO IT
BODY CURLED ROU N D M Y OWN. HE STI R R ED. ROSE. S E E M E D.
TH E N BROUGHT HIS P E A N UT I NTO MY MOUTH A N D

NONCHALA NTLY P I S S E D . I GUZZLED E V E N AS H I S

EVEN MORE D I SQU I E T I N G IS THAT HE HAS ME SO I NO
BLADDER PROVED LA RGER T H A N MY BELLY. A L L O F
LON G E R K N O W W H AT'S R E A L A N D WHAT'S CON·
ME SNORTI NG F O R A I R A N D STEADYING MYSELF BY
TRIVED. I CA N'T S E E M TO DISC I P LI N E MYSELF TO
GRABBING H I S N A K E D LEGS.
FORGET H I M . IT SOU N DS R I D I C U LO U S . IT F E E L S

R I D I C U LO U S . BUT S O M ETI M E S HE HAS ME SO

"ARE YOU HORN Y?" HE W H I SP E RED I NTO MY HA LF­ CONFUSED I FIND M Y S E LF ON THE VERGE OF
SLEEP. C R Y I NG. DESPERATE TO BE E M B RACED.

"YES. SI R."

TH E N I GROW ANGRY AT MY FAILURE TO K E E P

HIS HAND M O L E ST E D THE HOLE BETW E E N MY
T H I N G S I N PROPORTION A N D I S H A K E MYSELF F O R A
ELEPH A NTS. G R E A S E D I T AND BROUGHT H I S FRESH
N E W P E R S P ECTIVE. HOW LONG IS THIS GOI NG TO
BONE I N TO PLACE. A FT E R A PRELI M I NA RY PEEVE.
LAST?
MY HOLE OPENED. H E SLID I N . AND I LEA R N E D H E

COULD DRI LL MY H O L E ALL DAY A N D I WOULD LOVE

IT. THE EXPLOSIONS A S P A I N LESS AS THEY W E R E

DISORI E NTING. A P A S S I O N T H I C K E N E D I N S I DE ME.

ON LY TO FLOU N D E R A S LORD PRESTON ORDERED A N X I ETY IS AN EMOTIONAL T U R MOI L DESPERATE

M E TO WORK MYSELF I NTO SPI LLING. MY BONE WAS FOR D I R EC T I O N . C H A RG E D WTH FEARS AND

ALREADY HARD AND I WOR K E D IT. BUT I N S I D E I DOUBTS. IT CAN BE R E ACTI V E . R E SOLVING ITS

WANTED HIS H A N D T H E R E I NSTEAD OF MY OWN. M Y D E S P E RATION BY F OC U S I N G ON A SPECIFIC

B O N E R E FUSED TO RAGE A N D S PI LL. AS I F WAITING CON C E R N ; OR IT CAN BE DIFFUSE. WITHOUT

FOR HIM TO TA K E CONTROL. SU DDENLY I REALIZED D I R ECTION OR M OT I V A T I O N . ITS DESPE RATION

HE WAS IN CONTROL. THE USE OF HIS HAND SUSPENDED AND T H E R E FO R E R E S I ST A N T TO

I N A PPROPRIATE. T H E U S E O F MY BODY H I S. FROM R E SOLUTION. T H I S D I FFUSE A N X I ETY I S USUA LLY

B E H I N D ME. HE W H I S P E R E D I NTO MY EAR. HIS BON E S U BC O N SC I O U S AND M A N I F E STS ITSELF AS

STI LL MOVING WON DROUSLY I NSIDE M E . H I S WORDS S E R IOUSN ESS. I F THE DESPE RATION I S SUSPENDED

SOU N D I NG A R E A LITY W H E R E WITH A S I NGLE WORD LONG ENOUGH. ITS E N ERGY D I S S I PATES AND

H E WOU LD B R I N G TEARS TO M Y EYES. A TREMBLING S O B R I ETY B E C O M E S A P ATH E T I C . D E S P E R A T I O N

TO MY BODY. A N D M Y BODY TO ITS KNEES. PLEADI NG. I N C A P A B L E O F R E SO L U T I O N . A N D I N S E C U R I T I E S

H E TALKED OF TAKING EACH P A RT OF MY BODY ONE FIXATED.

AT A T I M E . SHOULDERS. T H E N ELEPHA NTS. BAGS

A N D PEANUT. EACH ARM. EACH THIGH A N D CALF. A N X I ETY EVOLVED A S A M EC H A N I S M FOR QU ICKLY
HAND AND FOOT. TORTU R I N G EACH ONE U NTI L ALL R E S PO N D I NG TO ATTACK OR P E R I L. ITS DESPERA­
OF ME I S TOO TENDER TO TOUCH A N D MY M I N D TION WAS NOT MEANT TO BE SUSPENDED I N D E F I N ­
HU RTING SO MUCH THAT IT BREAKS WHEN HE ITELY UNTI L A PATHETIC. C H RONIC A N X I ETY IS A
ORDERS ME T O D E C I D E WHICH PART OF M E HE'LL M ENTA L D I SO R D E R . IT IS N E U RO S I S ; MASS
TORTURE N EXT. N E U ROSIS W H E N CONVENTION ALIZED.

R E M E M B E R I NG THE D E PTH OF MY UNEASIN ESS AS I BY B E L I TT L I N G AND DEG R A D I NG A N YO N E ' S

HAD TO WAIT. A NTICI PATING HIS NEXT BEATING. I N D I V I D U A LITY. CONVENTION A LI Z E D S M G E N ERATES

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A COMMON A N X I ETY. T H E N DI FFUSES I T D U R I NG T H E NO CONVENTION A L SYSTEM W I L L TOLERATE THIS.

E A R LY Y E A R S O F TRA I N I NG. U N A B L E T O R E SOLVE MASS N E U ROSIS I S M O R E DIFFICULT TO M A I NTI A I N I F

OU R D E S P E R ATION. W E FORCE I T OUT OF AWARE­ ITS CHRONIC A N X I E T I E S A R E B E I N G FOC U S E D A N D

N ES S A N D BECOME S E RIOUS. THE CONVENTI O N A L­ R E SOLV E D W I THOUT SOC I A L R E G U LATI O N . T H U S

IZED SM R E I N FO R C E S THIS S E R IO U S N ESS WITH LESSEN I NG THE S E R IOUSN ESS OR A PATH Y WITH

R E L I G I O U S A N D PO L I T I C A L DELUSIONS WHICH A C T WHICH PEOPLE W I L L S E R V E. FOR T H I S R E A SON

EITHER AS A N A RCOTIC T O E N C O U R A G E A PATHY O R A LONE. TH E CONVENTION HAS D U P E D ITS N E U ROTIC

A S A DECOY FOR THOSE W H O S E E N E RGY WILL NOT MASSES I NTO B E L I E V I NG THAT F A NTASY PLAY.

D I S S I PATE. TH E DECOY DRAWI NG TH E I R ANXI ETI E S ESPECIA LLY EROTIC S M. I S MORE N E U ROTIC THAN

O U T OF THE S U BCO N SCIOUS A N D FOC USING T H E M TH E I R CONFOR M ITY.

I N T O A L U S T FOR POW E R A N D G LORY.

THE DIC HOTOMOUS ACTION OF THESE DELUSIONS

ALLOWS CON V E NTIONALIZED sM TO BREED TWO

LORD PRESTON COM M U N ICATED WITH ME TODAY.
TYPES OF PEOPLE-THOSE WHO W I L L LET THEM­
HIS VOICE. HIS I N STR UCTI ONS L E FT ME WITH A
SELVES BE CONTROLLED AND THOSE WHO WANT TO
RAGING BONE. YET HE HAD MY E N TI R E BODY
CONTROL. THE POWER GAME ACQ U I R E S ITS
SHIVE R I NG A N D WOR R Y I NG. I'M STI LL S H A K I NG. I CAN
PLAYERS. A LL O F THEM C H RONICA LLY ANXI ETY­
S E E H I S GAME. I K NOW EXACTLY WHAT H E I S DOING.
R I D D E N . THE CONVENTION M A K E S TH E RULES. A N D
BUT IT CHA NGES N O N E OF MY R E ACTIONS. I STILL
M A S S N E U RO S I S S E T S TH EM I NTO ACTION.
FEEL POW E R LESS IN H I S PLAY. KNOWI NG HOW TO

ESCAPE BUT LAC K I N G THE WILL TO DO SO. EVEN AS I

THE SM OF S E X U A L FANTASY. EROTIC SM. I S M ERELY TRY TO CONVI N C E MYSELF I AM ON LY CONTRIVING

A R E F LECTI O N OF I T S CO N V E N T I ON A L FO R M . IT THIS. I CAN S E E M E TELLING MYSELF I W I L L GET

DOES NOT E X I ST AS AN ELEMENT OF MASS OVER H I M A N D AT THE SAM E TI M E STEPPI NG I NTO

N E U ROSIS. B U T A S A COM P E N SATION FOR IT. BY H I S PRESENCE. KNOWING IT TO B E A TRAP I MAY

EROTICIZING THE CONVENTIONAL POW E R GAME I NTO NEVER LEAVE.

A CONTEXT FOR FANTASY. S E X U A L S M A LLOWS T H E

PARTI C I PANTS T O P L A Y PA RTS OF T H E POWER G A M E H E MADE I T CLEAR HOW MUCH H E OWNS ME. WILL HE

T H E Y A REN'T P LA Y I N G I N T H E I R EVERYDAY LIVES. ACHIEVE HIS GOAL ONLY TO TOSS M E ASIDE LIKE

USUALLY T H E FANTA S I E S A LLOW THE PLAYERS TO SOME TOY THAT NO LONGER A M U S E S H I M ?

TAKE ROLES OPPOSITE TH OS !" THEY HAVE IN

R EALITY. B U T OC C A S I O N A L L Y T H E F A N T A sT Y

S I M PLY EXAGG E RATES T H E EVERYDAY ROLES TO

AN EXTR E M E THAT R E ALITY WOULD NOT A L LOW.

I F E A R T H E TOTALITY WITH W H I C H T H I S MAY FIXATE
EITH E R WAY. THE OBJECT IS TO R E LE A S E SU­
M E ON H I M . A L R E A DY HE HAS ME IN PLACES NO ONE
P R E S S E D EMOTIONS. FANTA S I E S A R E A R E S PONSE
HAS EVER HAD B E FORE. T H I S NO LONGER FEELS
TO U N R ESOLV E D A N X I ETY. J U ST AS A N X I ETY I S A
L I K E A GAME. IT N E V E R D I D . I ONLY TOLD MYSELF IT
RESPONSE TO D A N G E R .
010. W H A T R E A LLY A L LOWS ME TO C O N T I N U E .

BESIDES H I S OWN P E R SONAL FORCE. I S T H E FACT

F A N TA S I Z I N G LETS YOU FOC U S SOME DIFFUSE THAT HE HAS M A D E I T CLEAR THAT THIS W I L L NOT

A N X I ETY. G I V I N G IT A D I R ECTI ON. A N D R E LEASE IT. INTRUDE I NTO M Y R E LATION S H I P WITH DA N I EL.

D R E A M S R E L E A S E THE S U BT L E R A N X I ETIES. THOSE

O R I G I N ATI N G AND U N RESOLVED DURING THE TO LOR D P R ESTON. D A N I E L I S M E R ELY A N OTH E R

COU R S E O F A DAY OR TWO. T H E LO N G E R THE STA LLION LORD P R E STON's STA LLION HAS T A K E N A
A N X I ETIES P E R S I ST. T H E M O R E FIXED THE Y BECOME. STRONG FANCY TO.
REQUI R I NG MORE VIOLENT E MOTIO N S TO R E SOLVE

TH EM.

EROTIC SM'S MAJOR POTENTI A L I S I N ITS VIOLENCE. IT'S J U ST AN IDEA. BUT IT STR UCK ME THAT

THE MORE INTENSE TH E E ROTIC SM. THE MORE ORIGINALLY GODS M A Y HAVE A C T E D A S A P R I M E R

VIOLENT THE EMOTIONS IT RELEASES. E ROTIC SM FOR AGG R E SSION. THE E ROTI CIZATION OF FEAR

T H E R E FORE HAS TH E POTENTI A L TO R E SOLVE SOM E TRANSFIGU R E D I NTO A FINAL POW E R WE M U ST

OF OUR MOST FIXATED A N X I ET I E S . I NC L U D I N G FOREV E R D E F E N D O U R S E LVES AGA I N ST. THE F I RST

THOSE THAT H A V E U S S E R V I NG OU R SOCI ETY. GODS WERE L I K E THE P U NC H I NG BAGS WE WORK

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OUT ON IN O R D E R TO R E M A I N MORE AGG R E SSIVE N E W C E LLS. THEY S E E M M O R E A PART O F M E NOW

THAN WE A R E BUT H A V E TO B E TO S U R V I V E . IF THIS A N D M A K E ME LOOK L I K E A N A N I M A L . I S U S P E N D E D

IS M O R E T H A N J U S T A N I NTUITIVE I N SPI RATI ON. I F M Y S E L F BY T H E N EC K T O WATCH TH E M A N D H O W I

TH E R E I S A BASIC TRUTH H E R E . T H E N I N E E D TO M IG H T STR UGGLE. HOW I M IGHT LOOK I N YOU R EYE.

DETER M I N E HOW THE P U N C H I NG BAGS BECA M E ANGRY FOR AIR AND S U DDE N LY PISSING I N THE

OTH E R PEOPLE L A B E L L E D FREA KS. PERVE RTS A N D TERROR O F YOU R R EACTION A N D HOW IT WOU L D

INFERIORS WHILE THE GODS M UTATE D I NTO FEEL IF YOU WERE B E AT I N G ME THEN. YO U R

J U S T I FICATIONS FOR TH E I R P E R S ECUTION. D I V I N E R EACTION WAS O N LY A FANTASY. BUT I E A S I LY

D I SC I PL I N A R I A N S COM P E N SATI NG FO R OUR S P I L L E D E V E N THOUGH I COULD NOT BEAT M YSELF

FAILURE TO REMAIN R E S PO N S I B L E FOR OUR­ THE WAY YOU WOULD. I DI DN"T E V E N TRY. AND I

S E LVES. I N A N Y F O R M . GODS W E R E U N DOUBTEDLY D I DN'T ACTU A L L Y PISS IN TE R ROR U NTIL. STILL

I N V E N T E D OUT O F A DESPERATION FOR POW E R . H A N G I NG BY MY N EC K AND T I E D H A N D-AND-FooT. I

TRI E D FOR A SECOND C O M I NG.

SIR.

J A SON K LE I N

TH E B R U I S ES LOOK BEA UTI F U L IN THE M I RROR.

EVEN IF THEY HAVE DULLED U N DE R TH E DUST O F EXCERPTS FROM BUGS. A NOVEL

39. T R A V E L L I N G : R O B E R T E W A L K I N G SEEN F R O M R E A R .

40. EYES OF CORPULENT MAN WHO WALKS MORE S LOWLY.

41. ROBERTE'S H I PS. HER H A N DS. ONE HOLDING BAG. THE OTH E R SWINGI NG.

41 BIS. P A L M O F R:S HAND SEEN BY CORPULENT M A N .

4 2 . R . H ESITATES I N F R O N T OF TW O N E I GH BORI NG SHOPS.

42 B I S. W I N DOW D I SPLAY OF WOMEN'S BLOUSES.

43. THE CORPU L E N T MAN PLACES H I M S E L F BETW E E N THE DOOR OF THE SHOP AND R.

44. (CLOSE UP) R : S H A N D ON THE DOOR K NOB.

415. THE DOOR O F THE N E I G H BORING SHOP. W I N DOW S ROUGHLY PA I N TED.

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A STORY DEDICATED TO J A SON

JASON SAID: " M A K E ME F E E L LIKE A N A N I M A L." WI LL. THAT TH E FA NTASY I S HIS C R E ATION A N D H E

M A I N TA I N S POW E R OVER IT. HE TH I N K S TH E

GREATEST R I S K HE TAKES IS THAT SOM EONE ELSE

I AM SITTING IN MY L I V I N G ROOM. I HAVE TWO CATS. WILL NOT U N DE RSTA N D WHAT H I S FANTASY IS.

THE FEMALE IS IN H E AT. THE MALE POU N C E S

VIOLE NTLY O N H E R B A C K . G R I PPING THE NAPE O F BUT JASON I S W RONG.

H E R N ECK BETW E E N S H A R P TEETH. THE F E M A L E I S

CAUGHT I N A F U R Y OF CONTRADICTION: HER REAR TH ERE ARE OTH E R PEOPLE FOR WHOM THE REAL

E N D L I FTS U P I NVITING HIS COCK TO E NTER HER. WORLD I S DAYLIGHT: A N I N E-TO-F I V E JOB. A HOME. A

H E R MOUTH S N A RLS WITH A NG E R AND SPITE. H E LOVER. AT NIGHT THEY DON LEATH E R C LOTH I N G

FUCKS HER S A V A G E L Y. THE S H A R P. QUICK A N D T H E Y STA LK T H E B A R S O F FOLSOM STREET O R

PLUNGES OF HIS PELVIS SLAM A G A I NST HER TH E BANKS OF T H E H U DSON. O N C E H E HAD M ET M E .

WETNESS. JASON LOST T H A T DICHOTOMY. HE HAS H A D TO

LEARN THAT THE DAY TO DAY EXI STENCE HE H A D

EXPER I E N C E D AS REA LITY IS I N F A C T H I S FANTASY.

THAT I S WHAT JASON WA NTS TO FEEL.
HIS DREAM WORLD I S THE SPH E R E THAT A L LOWS

H I M TO CONC E I V E OF H I M SELF AS H A V I N G A F R E E
IT I S TOO S I M P LISTIC. HE WA NTS MY BODY SLA M M I NG
WI LL. M A K I NG DECISIONS. CR EATI N G I N DEPEN DENT­
I NTO HIS. BUT HE WA NTS T H E LUXURIES OF SPITE
LY. IT IS ENTI R E LY FALSE. HIS NEW REA LITY I S THE
AND CHOICE.
SOUND OF MY VOIC E A S I STAND IN F RONT OF HIM OR

AS IT I S TRANSPORTED THREE THOUSAND M I LES BY

JASON MAKES M A N Y M I STAKES.
TELEPHONE WIRE. THE WAVES THAT C A R R Y MY

WORDS TO HIM S H ATTER H I S WOR L D AND C R E ATE

H E CA N'T BE BLA M E D FOR A L L OF T H E M . H E THINKS THEIR OWN WORLD W H I C H H E M U ST NOW I N H A BIT.
TH ERE I S A R E A LITY A N D A FA NTASY WHICH E X I ST IN

CONTRADICTION TO O N E A N OTHER. H E BELIEVES HE TH ERE I S A JASON WHO DOES NOT EXIST WITHOUT

LEAVES REALITY AND ENTERS FANTASY OF H I S OWN ME.

I S!!
IT IS THE PERSON WHO HEARS MY WORDS AND MY F R I E N D SA I D: "YOU W I L L B R E A K H I M ."

T R E M BLES AT THE SOUNDS. SHUDDERS AT T H E

CONTENT. IT IS A BODY THAT IS A L LO W E D NO

I S A I D : "HE W A S A LR E A D Y BROKEN. I A M M A K I N G H I M
L I M I TATIONS TO ITS U S E . IT I S A SHELL THAT I FILL
WHOLE."
WITH MY LUST. M Y S E LF. MY POWER. A N D JASON

OOE S NOT CONTROL IT COMI NG AND GOING. AT

BUT I THOUGHT A BOUT IT. I THOUGHT A BOUT H I S
OTH E R T I M E S WITH OTH E R M E N H E CAN CHOOSE H I S
BODY AND HIS SELF AND S H OO K WITH THE
R E A LITY. HE C A N C H OO S E T O B E I N AN OFFICE
INTENSITY OF MY POWE R A N D THE FURY O F M Y
WOR K I NG. WITH A LOV ER H AV I NG D I N N ER . WITH A
CONTROL.
T R I C K ACTI NG AS THOUGH HE WERE A MASTE R . H E

C A N NOT DO THAT WITH TH I S PE RSON THAT I

COM M A N D I NTO EXI STENCE. THIS IS ONE P LACE

W H E R E JASON H A S N O POW E R .

" M A K E ME FEEL L I K E A N A N I M A L." JA SON S A I D .

WHEN THE F E M A LE CAT IS OUT OF H EA T SHE

W H E N I WOK E T H I S M O R N I NG THERE WAS A P A I N I N
ADORES M E . I S I T R E A D I N G A BOOK I N M Y CHA I R A N D
MY K N EE. I DON'T KNOW W H E R E IT C A M E FROM. BUT
SHE CLIMBS UP ON M Y L A P . S H E P U R R S AT T H E
IT. IT AND EVERY PAIN I F E E L. R E M I NDS M E OF
F E E L OF M Y W A R M GROIN. AT N IGHT S H E SOM E T I M E S
JASON. AS SOON AS I T H I N K OF AN A C H E. A SORE. A
CRAWLS U N D E R M Y COVERS AND C URLS AGA I N ST
S E N SATION OF ANY K I N D OTH E R TH AN PLE A S U R E . I
MY STOM A C H . SHE SENSES GREAT PROTECTION.
THI N K OF J A SO N . I WANT TO KNOW HOW TO
TH E HUGE BODY THAT IS M I N E S E E M S TO HER TO BE
REC R EATE IT IN HIS BODY. I CALL MY DOCTOR
A SOU RCE OF H EA T AND DEFENSE. W H E N I'VE BEEN
F R I E N D IN BOSTON: "HOW CAN I MAKE JASON FEEL
OUT A N D R E T U R N TO T H E A PA RTM ENT S H E C I RCLES
THIS WA Y7" H E T E L L S ME.
T H E ROOM SCRE E C H I NG LOUDLY. DESPE RATE FOR

M E TO P I C K HER U P A N D HOLD HER AGA I N ST M Y

C H E ST . SHE NEEDS THE REASSURANCE OF MY

TOU C H .

I T E L L JASON: "I A M GOI NG TO TA KE YOU TO THE

TH I S I S THE A N I M A L I C REATE I N J A SON.
P LA C E WHERE YOU WILL C R Y WHEN I WALK I NTO A

ROOM."
BUT M Y POWE R OOES NOT COM E FROM TH E CARE I

G I V E THE CAT-NOR T H E C A R E JASON T H I N K S I G I V E

H E SAYS: ''I'M A L R E A D Y T H E R E . "
H I M . T H E PO W E R C O M E S F R O M W H A T I DO N O T 00.

THE CAT T H I N K S I AM H E R B E N EFACTOR. I AM ONLY

AWA R E O F W H A T WOULD H A PPEN I F I ROLLED OVER

ON HER BODY AND S U F FOCATED H E R. OR. HOW

BUT I D O NOT WANT T O TERRORIZE J A S O N . IT WOULD VULNERABLE SHE IS WHEN SHE A L LOWS ME TO

B E TOO EASY. AND H E TH I N KS HE WANTS IT. I T IS NOT HOLD H E R ON HER BACK I N SUCH A WAY THAT I

ENOUGH. I DO NOT WANT TO PLAY SEX ROOM GAMES COULD DROP H E R A N D S H E WOULDN'T B E A B L E TO

WITH H I M; H E C A N L E A V E THAT BEHIND. I DO NOT RIGHT H E R S E LF B E FO R E SHE LA N D E D ON THE

WANT TO JUST EXPLORE HIS BODY. I WANT TO FLOOR. OR. T H A T S H E WOULD STA RVE I F I D I D NOT

EXPLORE H I S M I N D A N D TAKE HOLD OF THAT PART RETURN A N D F E E D H E R .

W H I C H I H AVE C REATED. I WANT TO G R I P I T WITH A

H A R D GRASP A N D P U L L I T OUT. SCULPT IT. M A K E

H I M H O R R I F I E D T H A T I T E X I STS OUTS I D E H I M . A N D

THEN. O N L Y T H E N . PUT IT BACK I NTO H I S M I ND. BUT

THE PA RT O F JA SON THAT I S MINE LIVES ONLY
WHEN ITS TH E R E I T WI LL STI LL B E M I N E. I WI LL HAVE
TH ROUGH M E. MY F R I E N D SAID: "YOU A R E PLA Y I N G
IT W H E N E VER I WANT IT. WHATEVER E LSE H E DOES.
GOD. "
WHEREVER ELSE H E GOES. W H ATEV E R ELSE HE

THINKS. T H E R E W I L L A LWAYS B E TH I S PART OF H I S

BEING THAT E X I STS O U TS I D E HIS POW E R . HE "I KNOW."

CAN NOT RESIST M Y T A K I N G I T . H E CAN NOT REVOLT

AGAI NST WHAT I 00 WITH IT. I HAVE C R EATED A PART OF JASON THAT IS M I N E . IT

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IS THE ONLY L I F E THAT I W I L L E V E R C R E ATE BY WORD, ·YES." I AM THE O N E WHO S A I D IT.
MYSELF. IT I S SOM ET H I N G THAT N O ONE ELSE CAN

HAVE. CAN FEEL, W I LL EVER SEE. IT IS A N ACT OF

C R EATION THAT I S ENTI R E L Y I N D I V I D U A L. IT DOES

NOT RELY ON THE H ET E R OS E X U A L ACT OF

MY FRIEN D SAYS: " H E'LL END U P I N SAN E:'
PROCREATION. I T I S M I N E: M I N E A LONE, IT I S F I N E R

TH A N THE CREATION OF A B A B Y .
"HE ALREADY I S."

M Y LOVER H I SS E S AT M E : " Y O U G O D D A M SADISTI"

I TELL JASON: ·YOU MAY END U P HATING M E."

I S M I LE.
H E SAYS: "I DON'T KNOW TH E DIFFERENCE BETWE E N

HAT E AND LOVE."

W H E N I A M WITH M Y LOVER I M E RG E WITH H I M TO

C REATE A N E W FORC E : T H E S Y N E RGY OF LOVE. I DO

LOVE H I M . I HOLD H I M C LOSE AT N I G H T A N D WONDER BUT LOVE ISN'T WHAT I WANT FROM J A SON A N YWAY.

AT H I S FEEL. I WH I P H I S BACK AND ASS A N D M A R K

H I M W I T H LOVE. H I S S U B M I SSION I S O U R U N I ON WITH

M Y DOM I N A NCE. HE BECOM E S A BOY. W E STAY TWO

M E N IN LOVE. HE SUCKS MY COCK G R E E D I LY. I TAKE ·WHAT WILL YOU DO TO HIM WHEN YOU GO TO
HIS ASS WITH M Y COCK, MY F I ST. W H ATEVER. W E A R E CALIFOR N IA?" MY FRI E N D ASKS.
TOG ETH ER : HE IS MINE: I AM HIS. WE P L A N T H E

FUTU R E . I LISTEN TO H I M C A R E FULL Y. I I NCOR­

I SAY: "I'LL SHOW HIM THAT H E EXI STS ONLY AT M Y
PORATE H I S DESI R ES. H E ACTS OUT M Y WISH ES. WE
WHIM."
C R EATE MORE TOG ETH E R T H A N WE ARE SEPA­

RATELY.
"WOULD YOU K I L L H I M ?"

"NO. BUT I HAVE DREAMT ABOUT IT."

JASON DOES NOT EXIST WITHOUT ME.

"ISN'T HE FRIGHTE N E D OF YOU?"

I DO NOT BEAT J A SON WITH LOVE. HE I S S I M PLY A

"ABSOLUTE LY."
BODY. I TA KE FROM H I M . A L L TH E EGO, ALL THE

SPITE, A L L THE ANGER. I WILL TA K E HIM BEYOND

ALL THOSE POI NTS. IN MY P R E S E N C E THE ONLY "WHY DOES N'T SOM EONE STOP YOU?"

JASON THAT E X I STS I S W H AT I HAVE C R E ATED. HE

C A N NOT RECLA I M T H E OLD. H E CAN ON LY EXIST I N "WHO?"

TH E N EW.

"WHAT DOES HE GET FROM ALL THI S?"

"LI FE."

I CALL JASON: "I WANT YOU TO DO SOMETH I NG."

PAUSE.

IT I S ALL SOM E FORM OF COMPENSATION. THE MOST

"DO I HAVE TO AGREE B E FO R E YOU TELL M E?"
PROFOU N D TRUTHS ARE THE E X I STENCE OF Y I N

AND YANG. W I T H MY LOVE T H E COMPLI M E NTARY

S I LENCE.
PARTS ARE OBVIOUS, O U R R E LATION S H I P R E M A I N S

A BALANCE. W I T H J A SON T H E ON LY ORDER I S THAT

"YES." WHICH I I M POSE. I HAVE A LOVER TO BECOME MORE

WHOLE: TO SENSE COM M U N ION WITH SOMEONE. I AM

IT DOESN'T MATTER WHOSE MOUTH UTTE R E D THE MY LOV E R 'S MASTER: WE ARE E QU A LS . THE

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CONTRADICTIONS OF L I F E C A N BE ACCOMODATED. " BU T J A S O N

B U T NOT WITH JASON. I H A R DEN AT TH E R E M E M ­

B R A NC E OF H I S N A M E : I A M FORCE D I NTO A S E N S E " JASON I S N O T A R E LATIONSH I P. ITS OWN E R S H I P:'

OF RE SPONS I B I LITY THAT OV E R W H E L M S ANY

S E M B L E N C E O F F R I VOLITY. I A M TOTA LLY FOC USED.

I M U ST BE. I C A N NOT L E A V E TH IS ROLE OR THAT

P A R T OF J A SO N T H A T I S M I N E WOU L D BE C R U S H ED.
I C A L L E D J A S O N . " A F R I E N D OF M I N E IS C O M I N G TO

SAN F R A N C I SCO. H E'S GOING TO W H I P YOU:'

HE R E P L I E S : " WH E R E DO I GO? W H E N ?"

MY FRIEND SAYS: " YO U C A N NOT DO TH I S TO

A N OTH E R H U M A N B E I NG."
MY F R I E N D SAYS: "W H E N YOU'RE WITH YOUR LOV E R

YOU TALK A BOUT W H E R E YOU'RE GOI NG T O L I V E ,

I S A Y : " H E'S NOT A H U M A N B E I NG. H E'S JASON:'
W H A T YOU' R E GOI NG T O DO. H O W YOU' R E GOING T O

FULFILL YOUR FANTA S I ES. W H A T DO Y O U SAY TO

" YO U H A V E TO R E S PECT A N YO N E THAT YOU LOVE:' J A SO N ?"

" 1 DONT LOVE HIM. I POS S E S S H I M:' "NOTH I N G . I B E A T H I M . "

I SIT IN NEW YO RK IN MY ROOM. MY READING IS HOW CO U L D A N YON E POSS I B LY KNOW WHAT IT

I N T E R R U PT E D BY A P L E A S A N T THOUGHT OF J A SON. M E A N S FOR J A SON TO H E A R M Y VOICE?
H E'S W A I T I N G FOR M Y A R R I V A L. IT WON'T OC C U R FOR

A NOTH ER THREE W E E KS. I S M I LE. HE M U ST BE

WHENEVER IT R A I N S, MY CAT HIDES IN TH E
Q U I V E R I N G W I T H E V E R Y THOUGHT OF M E . I STA N D U P
BATH ROO M , C RO UC H I N G V U L N E R A BLY B E H I N D T H E
A N D GO T O M Y D E S K . I F I N D A S E T OF LONG. STE E L
TOI LET. H E R M I N D C A N NOT F A T H O M T H E F O R C E S OF
P I N S. I ADDRESS AN E N V E LOPE T O J A SON AND
N A T U R E T H A T B R I N G WATER FROM T H E S K Y A N D
W A L K OUT TO M A I L IT. T H E R E I S NO NOTE. JUST THE
I L L U M I N A T E T H E N I G H T WITH BOOMS OF TH U N D E R E D
RETU R N A DD R ESS. WHEN HE REC E I V E S TH E P I N S
L I G HTN I NG .
H E ' L L K NOW T H E Y ' R E FROM M E AND I I M AG I N E W H AT

H E ' L L DO.
" M A K E M E F E E L L I K E A N A N I M A L, " J A SON PLEADS.

HE W I L L OPEN THE E N V E L O P E AND STA N D TH E R E

AND I DO. HE I S LIKE MY CAT, TOTA LLY U N A B L E TO
W I T H T H E T H I N . S H A R P M E T A L I N H I S H A N DS. H E W I L L
ALTE R O R CONTROL THE FORCES O F M Y V IOLENT
CRY SOB B I N G LY. I IMAGINE H I M STA N D I NG TH E R E
NATURE. J A SON E X I STS IN UTTER H O R ROR IN MY
WITH DEEP GASPS IN H I S C H EST A N D R I V E R S O F
P R E S E N C E . THERE I S NO R E ASON FOR W H A T W I L L
T E A R S FLOWI N G DOWN H I S C H EEKS.
HAPPEN TO HIM. TH E R E IS NO WAY FOR HIM TO

D E C I D E W H A T W I L L B E DON E . T H I S B O D Y THAT H E
I NEVER GIVE JASON THE SAT I S F A C T I O N OF
TH I N K S IS HIS PASSES FROM H I S S E LF-CONTROL
PREDICTA B I LITY. WHEN HE G ETS T H E PINS FROM ME
I N TO MY U TT E R D O M I N ATION. M Y P R E S E N C E A LTERS
HE WILL H A V E NO WAY O F KNOWING WHAT I I N TEND
TH E VERY FOU N D ATION O F H I S B E I NG.
TO U S E THEM FOR. I COULD DO A N YT H I N G WITH H I M

A N D TH E M . A N D H E KNOWS T H AT NOW. T H E UTT E R

HORROR OF TH E POSS I B I L I T I E S W I LL O V E R W H E L M

HIM.
W H A T DOES J A SO N FEEL L I K E WHEN I A M THERE?

HIS SKIN C A N NOT TO L E R ATE CLOTH I N G SEPA RAT­

ING IT FROM MY E Y E S . H E C A N NOT CONC E I V E OF

MY F R I E N DS SAYS: " B U T A N Y R E LATIONSH I P HAS TO H I M SE L F S I TT I N G A NY W H E R E BUT AT M Y F E ET. A L L
HA VE A BASE OF S A N ITY:' FO R M S OF HUMAN C O M M U N IC ATON B ECOM E

I NT O L E R A B L E TO HIM. TH E Y ARE I N S U F F I C I E NT.

I SAY: " TH A T S DOUG:' J U S T LIKE M Y CAT HE MAKES STR A N G E N O I S E S A N D

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HOPES I W I LL U N D E R STA N D TH E EQU I V A LENT O F BECOM I N G M O R E A N D M O R E AWA RE OF IT. IT AWES

P U R R I NG T H A T COMES F ROM H I M W H E N EVER I A M HIM. IT H O R R I FI ES H I M. IT ENTRAPS HIM. IT

N O T G I V I N G H I M P A I N . J U ST L I K E M Y CAT H E LICKS OVERWH E L M S H I M .

M Y BODY I N G RATITUDE FOR T H E VERY STUFF O F

E X I STENCE T H A T I PROV I DE. H E W I N DS H I S BODY

A RO U N D M I N E H O P I N G I T W I L L BE S O CLOSE TO M I N E

THAT I WON'T H U RT I T . H I S MOUTH F I N DS T H E SWEAT

JASON SAYS: " M A K E M E F E E L L I K E A N A N I M AL."
OF M Y BODY T H E SWEETEST TASTE IT HAS KNOWN.

THERE I S A PART OF JASON FOR WHOM I AM THE

ONLY SOURCE OF FOOD. S H E LTER. N U RTU RE. H E IS J O H N PRE STON

46. R . ENTERS T H E SHOP WHICH HAS NOTH I NG IN IT.

47. R . SHOWS H E R ASTO N I S H M E NT .

4B. THE COR P U L E N T M A N . I N S I DE SHOP. AGA I N ST M A I N DOOR.

49. AT THE R E A R OF T H E SHOP. A DOOR H A LF OPENS. A SQUAT YOU N G M A N PUTS H I S H E A D T H ROUGH.

WITH DRAWS.

50. R . GOES Q U I C K LY TOW A R D THE H A L F-OPEN DOOR.

51. LANDING O F A W I D E STA I RCASE. STEPS GOI NG STRAIGHT U P TO A C A R R I AG E DOOR G I V I N G ON TO T H E

STREET.

52. THE BALUSTRADE O F T H E STA I RCASE R . BEG I N S TO CLIMB.

53. THE SQUAT MAN. A FEW STEPS A BOVE. B R I NGS HIS H A N D DOWN ON R:S HAND H O LD I N G THE

BALU STRA D E .

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THE OEDI PUS COM PLEX

THROUGH THE D ISCOVE R Y OF OEDIPAL FACTS I N EXPANDING ON THEIR STRUCTU R E H E RE. LET US
TH E A N A LYSIS O F N E UROTICS FREUD GAVE B I RTH SAY THAT THEY CONSTITUTE A TYPE OF PSYCHO­

TO TH E CONCEPT OF THE COMPLEX. CONSIDERING LOGICAL P U B ERTY. V E R Y PREMATU R E . WE SHALL

THE NUMBER OF PSYCH I C R E LATIONS THAT I T SEE. IN R E LATION TO PHYSIOLOGICA L PUBE RTY.
I N VOLVES. AT MORE THAN ON E POINT I N TH IS WORK. TH E S E G E N I T A L D R I V E S . T A K I N G HOLD OF T H E
THE O E D I P U S CO M P L E X A S SERTS ITSELF. BOTH C H I LD BY A S E X U A L D E S I R E TOWARD THE CLOSEST
U PON OUR STUDY CIT SPECIFICA LLY DEFINES THE OBJECT WHICH PESENCE AND I NTEREST NORMALLY
PSYC H ICAL R E LATIONS OF THE H U M A N FA M I LYI­ A F FO R D H I M - N A M E LY THE PARENT OF T H E
A N D U PO N O U R C R I TI Q U E (FREUD GIVES THIS OPPOSITE S E X -G I V E THEIR O R I G I N S T O TH E
PSYCHOLOG ICAL E L E M E NT A S THE SPECI FIC FOR M COM PLEX: T H E I R FRUSTRATION FOR M S TH E CRUX.
OF T H E H U M A N F A M I LY A N D SUBORD I N ATES T O I T A LTHOUGH THIS FRUSTRATION IS I N HE R E NT TO THE

A L L I T S OTH E R SOCIA L VA R I ATIONS). T H E M ETHODIC ESSENTI A L P R E M ATURATION O F THESE DRIVES. THE

ORDER PROPOSED HERE. AS M UC H A S IN TH E C H I LD ASSOCIATES IT TO A THI RD PARTY WHOSE

CONSIDE RATION OF M E NTA L STRUCTU RES AS I N SA M E CON DITIONS OF PRE S E NCE A N D I N TEREST
S OC IA L FACTS. W I LL LEAD TO A REVISION O F THE NORMA LLY I N DICATE TO HIM AN OBSTACLE TO THE
COM PLEX E N A B L I N G O N E TO SITUATE THE PATER­ S A T I SFACTION OF T H E S E DR I V E S: N A M E LY. TH E
NAL FAM ILY I N H I STORY A N D FURTHE R I LL U M I N ATE PARENT OF T H E S A M E SEX.
CONTE M PO R A R Y N E U ROSIS.

TH E FRUSTRATION S U F F E R E D BY THE CH I LD IS
ORD I N AR I LY ACCOM P A N I E D B Y A N EDUCATIONAL

R E PRESSION WHOSE GOAL I S T H E PREVENTION OF

MATER I A LI ZATION O F THESE DRI V ES. ESPECI A LLY

SCH E M A OF THE COM PLEX
TH E I R M A STURBATORY MATER I A LIZATION. ON THE

OTH E R HA ND. THE C H I LD ACQU IRES A CERTA I N

PSYCHOA N A LY S I S HAS R EV E A L E D I NSTI NCTU A L I NTUITION O F T H E SITUATION FO RBIDDEN H I M . AS
G E N ITAL DRIVES I N C H I LD R E N THAT REACH TH E I R M U C H BY T H E D ISCRETE AND D I FFUSE SIGNS THAT
PEAK AT T H E AGE OF FOUR YEA RS. WITHOUT BETRAY PA R E NTAL R E LATIONS TO H I S S E N S I B ILITY

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AS BY THE I NO P P O RT U N E A CC I D E N T S [LES I N TRUTH. T H I S PREJUDICE WHICH ATTRIBUTES A N

HASARDS INTEMPESTI FSl THAT U N V E I L THEM TO EPIPHENOME N A L C H A RACTER TO THE PSYC H I C

H I M . IN THIS DOUBLE PROCESS. T H E PA R ENT OF THE ORDER-THAT IS T O SAY A N INOPERATIVE ONE-WAS

SA M E SEX APPEARS TO T H E C H I LD A T ONCE AS THE FAVORED BY A N I NS U FFICIENT A N A LY S I S OF THE

AGENT OF TH E SEXUAL I NTERDICTION A N D AS THE FACTORS OF TH I S ORDER. A N D IT IS P R EC I S E LY IN

EXAMPLE OF ITS TRANSGRESSION. THE LIGHT O F THE OEDIPAL SITUATION THAT SUCH

ACC IDENTS IN THE H I STORY OF THE SUBJECT TAKE

T H E TENSION T H U S CONSTITUTED I S DISSOLVED. ON ON THE I M PORTA NCE A N D THE SIG N I FICANCE THAT

ONE SI DE. BY R E P R E SS I O N OF THE SEXUAL ALLOW THEM TO B R I NG OUT A PARTI C U L A R TRAIT OF

TENDENCY THAT FROM T H E N W I L L R E M A I N LATENT THE PERSONA LITY. WE CAN ALSO SPECIFY THAT

UNTIL PUBE RTY-G I V I N G WAY TO N E UTRAL I NTER­ SINCE THESE ACC I D E NTS A FFECT THE OEDI PAL

ESTS. E M I N ENTLY FAVORABLE TO THE EDUCATION­ SITUATION AS TRAUMATISMS DURING T H E EVOLU­

,
AL PROCESS; AND ON T H E OTH E R SIDE. BY THE T I O N O F T H E C O M P LE X . T H E Y L A T E R R E P E A T

S U B L I M AT I O N OF THE P A RENTAL I MAGE THAT THEMSELVES A S EFFECTS OF T H E S U P E R EGO. I F

P E RPETUATES A R E P R E S E NTATIVE IDEAL IN THE THEY EFFECT IT A S ABNORMA LITI E S [ATYPI ESl OF

C O N SC I E N C E . G U A R A NT E E D OF THE FUTU R E ITS CONSITUTION. THEY ARE M O S T OFTEN RE­

COI N C I D E N C E O F PSYC H I C A N D P H Y S IOLOG I C A L FLECTED I N T H E FORMS OF THE EGO-IDEAL. THUS.

ATTITUDES AT THE MOMENT OF P U B E RTY. THIS LIKE I N H I BITIONS OF C R EA T I V E ACTI VITY. OR

DOU B L E P ROCE S S HAS F U N D A M E N T A L G E N ETIC I N V ER S I O N S O F S E X U A L I M A G I N A T I O N . A G R EAT

I M PORTANCE. S I NC E I T R E M A I N S INSCRIBED I N THE N U MBER OF D I SORDERS. M A N Y OF WHICH A PPEAR

PSYCHE IN TWO P E R M A N EN T AGENCI ES: THAT WHICH ON THE LEVEL OF ELEMENTA RY SOMATIC FU NC­

R EPRESSES CA LLS ITSELF T H E S U P E R EGO. THAT TIONS. HAVE FOU N D THEIR T H E O R ET I C AND

WHICH SUBLI MATES. TH E E G O- I D E A L . THEY THERAPEUTIC R EDUCTION.

R E P RE S E N T T H E C O M P LE T I O N O F T H E O E D I P A L

CRISIS.

THE FA M I LY ACCORDIG TO FREUD

THE DISCOV E R Y THAT DEVELOP M ENTS OF SUCH

THE OBJECTIVE V A L U E OF T H E COMPLEX I M PORTAN C E TO M A N A S SEXUAL R E P R ESSION AND

PSYCHIC S E X U A LITY WERE S U B M ITTED TO R E G U LA­

TION A N D TO ACCIDENTS OF A PSYC H I C DRAMA OF

THIS ESSENTIA L SC H E M A OF THE COMPLEX
THE FA M I LY FURNISHED THE MOST PRECIOUS
RESPONDS TO A G R E AT N U M BE R O F GIVENS IN
CONTR I B UTION T O T H E ANTH ROPOLOGY OF F A M I LY
E X P E R I E NC E . THE E X I ST E N C E O F I N FANTI LE
GROUPS. E S P E C I A LLY IN THE STUDY OF THE
S E X U A LITY IS H E N C E FO R T H N OT CONTESTED:
I NT E R D I C T I O N S U N I V E R S A L L Y F O R M U LA T E D B Y
MOREOVER. BECAUSE IT IS H I ST O R I C A LL Y RE­
GROUPS WHICH GOV E R N THE SEXUA L COM M E RCE
V E A L E D BY T H O S E AFTEREFFECTS OF ITS EVOLU­
BETWEEN C E RTAI N OF TH E I R M E M B E RS. BESIDES.
TION WHICH CONSTITUTE' N E U ROSIS. I T IS ACCESS­
FREUD WAS QUICK TO FOR M U LATE A TH EORY OF
I B LE TO THE MOST I M M EDIATE OBSERVATION. A N D

AG E-OLD M I S U N D E RSTA N D I NG [ M ECON N A I S­ THE FAMI LY. I T WAS FOU NDED ON A D I S S Y M M ETRY IN
ITS
THE SITUATION OF THE SEXES IN R E LATION TO
SANCEI IS AN I M PRESSIVE PROOF OF THE SOC I A L
OEDI PUS. APPARENT SINCE THE FI RST STUDIES. THE
RELATIVITY OF H U M A N KNOWLEDGE. T H E PSYCHIC
PROCESS THAT GOES FROM OEDIPAL D E S I R E TO ITS
AGENCIES THAT GO U N D E R THE N A M E OF "SUPER·

EGO" AND " E G O- I D E A L" WERE ISOLATED IN A

REPRESSION DOES NOT APPEAR AS S I M � LY A S I

HAVE J U ST PRESENTED. E X C E PT IN THE MALE

CONCRETE A N A LYSIS OF SYM PTOMS OF N E U ROSIS.
C H I LD. IT IS A LS O THE MALE C H I LD WHO IS
AND M A N I FESTED THE I R SCIENTI FIC VALUE I N THE
CONSTA N T L Y TA K E N AS A SUBJ ECT IN THE
DEFINITION AND E XPLI CATION OF PHENOMENA OF
DIDACTIC EXPOSES ON T H I S COM PLEX.
THE PERSONALITY: THERE IS IN THIS A POSITIVE

ORDER OF DETE R M I NATION THAT ACCOUNTS FOR A

GREAT NUMBER OF ANOMALIES OF HUMAN TH E OEDIPAL DESI R E A PPEA RS. IN EFFECT. M UC H

BEHAVIOUR. A N D BY T H E S A M E TOKEN. FOR THESE STRONG E R I N THE B O Y A N D T H E R E F O R E F O R T H E

DISORDERS. RENDERS OUTDATED T H E REFEREN­ MOTHER. ON T H E OTH E R H A N D. I N ITS M E C H A N I S M .

CES TO THE ORGA N I C ORDER WHICH. WHETH E R TH E REPRESSION R EVEALS TRAITS WHICH I N T H E I R

FROM P U R E P R I NC I P L E OR S I M PLY FROM MYTHS. TYPICAL FOR M AT FIRST SEEM O N L Y J U STIFIABLE I F

TAKES THE PLACE OF T H I S EXPE R I M ENTAL METHOD T H E Y A R E EXERCISED BETWEEN FATH E R A N D SON.

WITH AN ENTI R E M E D I C A L TRADITION. THIS I S THE FACT O F THE CASTRATION COM PLEX.

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THE R E LA T I O N T H A T I S ESTA B L I S H E D BETW E E N

TH I S REPRESSION OPERATES BY A DOUBLE TABOOS A N D OBSERVANCES I N REGARDS T O T H E

E MOTIONAL MOVEMENT O F T H E SUBJ ECT: AGGRES­ TOTEM. I N T U R N TH E OBJ ECT OF I N V IOLA B I LITY A N D

SION AGAI NST THE PARENT IN REGARD TO WHOM SAC R I FICA L ORGY. HE I M AG I N E S A DRAMA­

THE C H I LD'S SEXUAL D E S I R E PLACES H I M AS A M U R D E R O F T H E FATHER B Y THE SONS-FOLLOWED

R I V A L: SECONDARY FEAR. SUFFERED IN RETU R N . BY A POST H U M O U S CONSECRATION OF THE

OF A LIKE AGG R E S S I O N . THUS A FANTASY FATHE R'S POWE R OVER WOM E N B Y THE M U RDER­

U N D E RLIES THESE TWO MOV E M E NTS. S O R E MARK­ E RS. PRISON E R S OF AN I N SOLUBLE RIVALRY: A

A B L E THAT IT WAS I N DI V I D U A LIZED WITH T H E M I N A P R I MORDIAL EVENT. OUT OF WHICH TOGETH ER WITH

COM PLEX CALLED CASTRATION. IF THIS TERM IS THE TABOO OF T H E MOTH ER. A N ENTIRE MORA L A N D

J U STI F I E D BY REGRESSIVE A N D REPRESSIVE ENDS C U LTU R A L TRADITION WOULD COME.

THAT A R ISE AT T H I S MOMENT OF OEDIPUS. IT IS

HOWEVER HA RDLY CONSISTENT WITH THE FA NTASY EVEN I F THIS CONST R UCTION WAS NOT S POI LED BY

THAT MAKES OF IT TH E O R I G I N A L FACT. THE ONLY C I RC U L A R R E A SO N I N G THAT IT IN­

VOLVES-ATT R I B U T I N G T O A B I O LOG I C A L G R O U P

TH I S FANTASY C O N S I STS E S S E N T I A LLY IN THE THE POSS I B I LITY OF RECOGNIZING A LAW. PREC I S E ­

M U TI LATION OF A M E M B E R. T H A T I S T O S A Y I N A LY WHAT N E E D S TO B E EXPLA I N E D-TH E S E S O ­

M A LT R E A TM E N T THAT CAN ONLY SERVE TO CALLED B I O L OG I C A L P R E M I S ES . N A M ELY THE

C A STRATE THE MALE. BUT THE APPARENT R E A LITY PERMA N E NT TYRRANY E X E RCISED B Y TH E C H I E F O F

OF THIS DANGER. COM B I N E D WITH TH E FACT THAT T H E HORDE. WOU LD R E D UCE T O A N INCREASI NGLY

THE THREAT IS R E A LLY FORMU LATED BY AN U NC E R TA I N PHA NTOM IN P R O P O R T I O N TO T H E

E DUCATIONAL TRADITION. M U ST HAVE LED F R E U D ADVENC E M E NT THEY WOULD OFFER TO OUR

T O CONC E I V E IT AS E X P E R I E NCED FI RST F O R ITS K NOWLEDGE O F MAN. BUT ABOVE ALL. T H E PRESENT

R E A L VALUE. AND THEN R ECOGNIZED IN A FEAR U N I V E RSA L TRACES AND T H E E N D U R I N G SURVIVAL

I N S PI R E D FROM ONE MALE TO A NOTH E R. I N FACT BY OF A MATRIARCHAL FA M I LY STRUCTU RE. ITS

'
TH E FATH ER. THE PROTOTYPE OF THE OEDIPA L A PPEARA NCE I N A LL T H E F U N DA M E NTA L FOR M S O F

R E PRESSION. C U LT U R E A N D ESPEC I A LLY IN AN OFTEN EXTR E M E ­

LY STRICT R E P R E S S I O N O F S E X U A L ITY. D E MO N ­

STRATE T H A T TH E ORDER OF THE H U M A N F A M I LY

I N THIS WAY FREUD R E C E I V E D A SUPPRORT FOR A
HAS SOME FOUNDATIONS PRESERVED FROM THE
S O C I O LOG I C A L GIVEN: N OT O N LY DOES THE
FORC E OF T H E M A LE.
I NTERDICTION O F I N CEST WITH T H E MOTH ER HAVE A

U N I V ERSAL CHA RACTE R (ACROSS THE I N F I N ITELY

DIVERSE AND OFTEN P A R A DOX I C A L FAMILY I T S E E M S. H OW E V E R . THAT THE G R EAT H A RVEST O F

R E LATI ONS THAT P R I M IT I V E C U LTU R E S I M P RESS FACTS W H I C H T H E O E D I PAL C O M P L E X H A S LEO T O

WITH TH E TABOO OF INCEST) BUT N O MATTER WHAT BE O B J ECTI F I E D OVER TH E PAST F I FTY YEARS

THE LEVEL OF MORAL C O N SC I E N C E IS IN A COULD C L A R I FY THE PSYCHOLOGICAL STRUCTU RE

C I V I LIZATION. THIS I N T E R D ICTION IS A LW A Y S OF THE F A M I LY F U RT H E R THAN TH E H A ST Y

E X PRESSLY FOR M U LATED A N D ITS TRANSG R ESSION INTUITIONS W E H A V E J UST PRESENTED.

I S STRUCK WITH CONSTA N T REPROBATION. THIS IS

WHY FRAZ I E R U NCOV E R E D THE P R I MOR I D I A L LAW

OF H U M A N I TY I N THE TABOO OF THE MOTH ER.

THE FUNCTIONS O F THE COMPLEX: A PSYCHOLOGI­

CAL REVISION

THE OEDIPAL C O M P L E X MARKS A LL LEVELS OF T H E

T H E ORIGI N A L MYTH OF PARRICIDE PSYC H E . BUT THE T H EORETIC I A N S O F PSYC HO­

ANALYSIS HAVE YET TO U N A M B IGUOUSLY DEFI N E

IT IS FROM HERE THAT FREUD MAKES THE ITS COM POSITE F U NCTIONS: IT IS FOR WANT O F

TH EORETICAL JUMP WHOSE ABUSE WE HAVE H A V I N G S U F F I C I E N TLY DISTI N G U I S H E D T H E PLA N E S

I N DICATED IN OUR I N T RO D UCTION: FROM TH E OF DEVELOPMENT W I T H W H I C H T H E Y EXPLA I N T H E

CONJUGAL FAMILY THAT HE OBSERVED A MONG H I S COM PLEX. I F T H E COM PLEX A PPEARS T O TH E M . I N

S U B J ECTS T O A H Y POTH ETICAL P R I M ITIVE FA M I LY EFFECT. A S TH E AXIS ALONG WHICH TH E EVOLUTION

CONCEIVED AS A HORDE. THAT A M A LE DOMI N ATES OF SEXUALITY IS PROJ ECTED ONTO THE CONSTITU­

BY A BIOLOGICAL S U P E R I O RITY IN THE MONOPOLI- TION OF REALITY. T H E S E TWO PLA NES D I V E RG E WITH

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INCIDENCE I S C E RTA I N LY KNOWN TO THE THEORE­ SINCE IT DOES NOT HAVE TO REVERSE TH E

TIC I A N S AS THE REPRESSION O F SEXUALITY AND THE ATTITUD E OF I N T E R N A LI ZATION I N H E R I T E D FROM

SUBLIMATION OF REALITY. BUT SHOU LD BE I NTE­ THEM. D R I V E S THAT ARE N A RC I SSISTIC. THUS O N E

GRATED INTO A MORE R I GOROUS C O N C E PTION OF A RRIVES AT T H E A M B IGUOUS CONCLUSION THAT

THESE STRUCTU R A L R E LATIONS: THE ROLE OF FROM ONE SEX TO T H E OTH E R. THE MORE TH E

MATU RATION PLA Y E D BY TH E COMPLEX ON EACH OF FORMATION OF THE COMPLEX IF ACC USED. THE

TH E S E PLA N E S CAN O N LY BE T A K E N A P PROXI­ RISKIER I TS ROLE IN THE SEXUAL A D A PTATION

MATELY AS PARA LLEL. SEEMS TO BECOME.

MATU RATION OF S E X U ALITY THE CONSTITUTION OF REA LITY

THE PSYCHICAL A P P A R ATUS OF S E X U A LITY IS FI RST HERE WE SEE THE I N FLUENCE OF THE PSYCHO­

REVEALED IN THE C H I LD IN THE MOST A B B E RANT LOGI C A L COM P L E X ON A V I TA L R E LATI O N . AND

FOR M S RELATIVE TO ITS BIOLOG I C A L E N DS. AND FROM THI S PONT T H E COMPLEX CONTR I BUTES TO

THE SUCCESSION OF TH E S E FOR M S I S EVIDENCE THE CONSTITUTION OF REA LITY. WHAT IT B R I NGS TO

THAT S E X U A LITY C O N FO R M S TO THE G E NITAL REALITY IS REVEALED IN TERMS OF AN INTELLEC­

ORGA N IZATION BY A PROGRESSIVE M ATU RATION. TUALIST PSYCHOG E N ESIS: A CERTA I N EMOTIONA L

THIS SEXUAL MATU RATION CONDITIONS THE D E PT H TO THE OBJ ECT. A DIM ENSION WHICH.

OEDIPAL COM PLEX B Y FOR M I NG ITS F U N DA M E NTA L FORMING T H E B A S I S OF A L L SUBJECTIVE COMPRE­

TENDENCI ES. BUT I N V E R S E LY. T H E COMPLEX H E NSION. WOULD NOT HAVE BEEN DISTI N G U I S H E D

FAVORS SEXUALITY B Y D I R ECTING I T TOWARD ITS FROM IT A S P HENOM ENON I F THE TREATM ENT OF

OBJECTS. ME NTAL I LLNESSES HAD NOT MADE U S GRASP IT A S

SUCH-A P H E N O M E NON-BY ADVANC I N G A N ENTIR E

THE MOV E M E NT OF THE OEDIPUS COMPELX SERIES O F ITS DEGRADATIONS TO T H E L I M ITS OF

OPERATES THROUGH A T R I A N G U L A R CONFLICT I N UNDERSTA N D I NG.

THE S U B J ECT: W E H A V E ALREADY S E E N THE PLAY

OF T E N D E NC I E S THAT ARISE OUT O F W EA N I N G IN ORDER TO E ST A B L I S H A NORM OF LIVED

[SEVRAGEI PRODUCE A FORMATION OF TH I S SORT: EXPERIENCE. THIS D I M ENSION CAN ONLY BE

IT IS A LSO THE MOTH E R. THE FI RST OBJ ECT OF THE RECONSTRUCTED B Y M ETAPHORICAL I NTUITIONS: A

TENDENCI ES. AS FOOD TO BE A BSORB E D A N D EVEN D E N S ITY THAT C O N F E R S E X I ST EN C E ONTO THE

AS BREAST I N WHICH TO B E R E A BS OR B E D. WHICH IS OBJ ECT. A P E R S PECTI V E W H I C H GIVES US A S E N S E

FI RST OFFERED UP TO'1H E OEDIPAL D E S I R ES. THUS O F I T S D I STANCE. AND A LSO I N S PI R ES IN US A

ONE U N D E RSTA N D S THAT OEDIPAL DESIRE IS RESPECT FOR IT. BUT H I S D I M ENSION I S SHOWN I N

BETTER CHA RACTERIZED I N TH E M A L E . BUT ALSO T H E VACI LLATI O N S OF R E A LITY T H A T F E RT I L I Z E

THAT IT A LLOWS H I M A S I N G U L A R OPPORTUN ITY FOR [FECON DITEI D E LI R I U M: W H EN THE OBJECT TENDS

THE R E ACTIVISATION OF THE WEAN I NG TENDENCIES. TO CONFUSE ITSELF WITH THE EGO WHILE AT THE

THAT IS TO SAY A SEXUAL REGRESSION. THESE SAME TI M E ABSORBI NG ITSELF I N FANTASY. W H E N IT

T E N D E N C I ES DO NOT M E RELY CON STITUTE A A PPEARS DECOM POSE D LIKE ONE OF THE S E NTI­

PSYCHOLOGICAL I M PASSE: H E R E. IN A D D ITION. THEY MENTS THAT FO R M THE SPECTRE OF U N R E A LITY.

OPPOSE TH E M S E LV E S P A R T I C U LA R LY TO THE B EG I N N I N G WITH S E N T I M E NTS OF STRANG E N E S S .

ATTITU D E O F EXTE RIOR IZATION. WHICH CONFORM S DEJA VU. JAMAIS VU. PASSING THROUGH FALS E

T O THE ACTIVITY OF T H E M A LE. RECOGNITIONS. I LLUSIONS OF A DOUBLE. S ENTI­

M E NTS OF D I V I N ITY. PARTICI PATION. AND I NF L U ­

ON THE CONTRARY. IN THE OTH E R SEX. WHERE ENCE. INTUITIONS OF M E A N I NG. AND ENDING UP

THESE TENDENCIES H AV E A POS S I B L E I S S U E I N THE W I T H T H E TWILIGHT OF T H E WORLD. A N EMOTIONAL

B I OLOG I C A L D E STI N Y OF THE S U B J E C T-T H E A BOLITION WHICH IS FO R M A LLY D E S IG N A T E D I N

MATE R N A L OBJECT-THE DIVE RSION O F A PART OF GERMAN A S THE LOSS O F THE OBJECT (OBJEKT·

THE O E D I PA L DESIRE C E RTA I N LY T E N DS TO VERLUSTI.

N E UTRALIZE THE POTENTIAL OF THE COM PLEX. AND

T H E R E BY ITS S E X U A LIZATION E F F ECTS. B UT. BY PSYCHOA N A LY S I S E X P LA I N S THESE EXTR E M ELY

I M PO S I N G A CHANGE O F OBJ ECT. THE G E N ITAL D I V E R SE Q U A L I T I E S OF L I V E D E X P E R I E N C E BY

DRIVE B E TT E R DETAC H E S ITSELF F ROM THE V A R I A TIONS IN TH E Q U A L I TY OF VITAL E N E RGY

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FO R M U L A . AS VERBAL AS IT MAY APPEAR.

R E SPONDS TO A GIVEN IN PSYC H O A N A L YT I C

THESE EFFECTS A R E P E R PETUATED U N D E R FOR M S
PRACTICE: PSYCHOANA LYSTS MUST RECKON WITH DESIGNATED AS THE SUPE REGO AND THE EDO­
TH I S CATH E X I S IN THE OPERATION A L TRANSFER­ I D E A L. ACCORDING TO WHICH THEY ARE EITHER
ENCES OF T H E I R C U R E: WITH THE R ESO U R C E S
UNCONSCIOUS O R CONSCIOUS FOR THE SUBJECT.
OFFERED BY THIS CATH E X I S THE ANA LYST M UST
LET US SAY. THEY R E P RODUCE THE I M AGO OF TH E
BASE THE I N D ICATION OF T H E TREATMENT. THUS P A R E N T OF THE S A M E SEX. THUS THE EGO- I D E A L
A N A LYSTS HAVE R EC OG N I Z E D I N DI C E S O F AN CONTRIBUTES T O THE SEXUAL CONFOR M I SM OF TH E
OVE R LY N A RC ISSISTIC I N V E STMENT OF THE L I B I DO PSYC H E . BUT ACCOR D I NG TO THE DOCTR I N E. TH E
THROUGH THE SYMPTOMS C IT E D ABOVE. WHILE THE I MAGO OF THE FATH E R WOU LD HAVE A PROTO­
FOR M ATION OF THE O E D I P U S COMPLEX APPEARED TY P I C A L ROLE IN THESE TWO FU NCTIONS ON
A S TH E MOMENT AND THE PROOF OF A CATHEXIS ACCOUNT OF T H E DO M I NATION OF T H E M A LE.
SUFFICI ENT FOR THE TRANSFE RENCE.

IN T E R M S OF THE R E P R ESSION OF S E X U A LITY. WE

THIS ROLE O F O E D I P U S WOU L D COR RELATE WITH H A V E I N DICATED THAT TH I S CONC E PTION R E STS ON
TH E M ATURATION O F S E X U A LITY. THE ATTI TUDE T H E FANTASY OF CA STRATION. I F THE DOCTRI N E
FOU N D E D BY TH E G E N IT A L TENDENCY WOULD R E F E R S T O A R E A L THR EAT. IT I S A BOVE A L L THAT
C RYSTA LLIZE T H E V I T A L R E LATION TO R E A LITY. BECAUSE F R E U D . I N G E N I O U S L Y D Y N A M I ST AT
ACCORDING TO ITS NO R M A L TYPE. THIS ATTITUDE IS I DE N T I F Y I N G TE N D E N C I ES. REMAINS CLOSED BY
CHA RACTERIZED BY THE TERMS OF G I FT lDONI AND TRADITIONAL ATO M I S M T O T H E NOTION O F T H E
SAC R I FICE. G R A N DIOSE T E R M S. BUT ONES WHOSE ATOM I S M OF FORMS. T H U S . I N O D E R T O OBSERVE I N
MEAN ING REMAINS A M B I G U O U S A N D H E S ITA NT BOTH S E X E S THE E X I STENCE O F THE S A M E FANTASY
BETWEEN DEFENSE AND R E N U NCIATION. THROUGH IN A S M A LL G I R L O R OF A PHALLIC I M AGE OF TH E
THESE TERMS A BOLD CONCE PTION R E D I SCOVERS MOTH ER. HE IS CONSTR A I N E D TO EXPLA I N THESE
THE SECRET COM FORT OF A MORAL THEME: I N THE F A CTS BY P R EC OC I O U S R E V E LA T I O N S OF T H E
PASSAGE BETWEEN C A PT I V I TY AND OBLAVITY TH E D O M I N AT I O N OF THE MALE. R E V E L ATIONS THAT
VITA L TEST A N D T H E MORAL TEST A R E WANTONLY WOULD L E A D THE LITTLE GIRL TO NOSTA LGI A FOR
CONFUSED. V I R I LITY. T H E CHILD TO CONCE I V E O F ITS MOTH E R

A S V I R I LE. TH I S I S A G E N ES I S W H I C H . I N O R D E R TO

THIS CONCE PTION CAN DEFINE AN A N A LOGICAL F I N O BASIS I N I D ENTI FICATION. R EQU I R E S SUCH A

P S Y C H OG E N E S I S . IT C O N FO R M S TO THE M OST S U R C H A RG E OF M EC H A N I SM S FOR ITS PRACTICE

M A RKED LACK IN THE A NALYTIC DOCT R I N E : THAT IT WOULD SEEM TO B E E R RONEOUS.

N EGLECTI NG THE STR UCTU R E I N ORDER TO BENEFIT

THE DYNA M I C . HOW E V E R . THE A N A LYTIC EXPER­

IENCE OFFERS A CONTRI BUTION TO THE STUDY OF

M ENTAL FO R M S BY D E M ONSTRATING TH E I R FANTAS I E S OF FRAGM ENTATION

R E LA T I O N - W H E T H E R C O N D IT I O N A L O R SOLU­

TIONA L-TO THE A FFECTIV E C R I SES. BY DIFFEREN­

TH E M A TE R I A LS O F THE A N A LYTIC E X PE R I E N C E
TIATING THE FOR M A L GA M E OF THE COM PLEX. IT
S U G G E STS A DI FFERENT I N T E R P R ETATION: THE
B ECOMES POSSI B L E TO ESTAB L I S H A STE A D I E R
FANTASY C A STRATION I S I N E FFECT PRECEDED B Y
R E LATION S H I P B E TW E E N I T S FUNCTION A N D THE
A S E R I E S O F FANTA S I E S OF BODI LY FRAGMENTA­
STR UCTUR E OF THE D R A M A ESSENTI A L TO IT.
TION WHICH R E G R E S S I V E LY P R OC E E D F R O M

D I S LO C A T I O N TO D I S M E M B E R MENT. THROUGH

E M A SC U LATION TO D I S E M BOWLING. U P T O DEVORA­

TION AND S H ROUDI NG. THE E XA M I N ATION OF THESE

R E PRESSION OF S E X U A LITY FANTA S I E S R E V E A LS THAT THEY ARE I N SC R I B E D I N

A S I ", U LTANEOUSLY DESTRUCTIVE A N D I NVESTIGA­

IF IT MA RKS THE S U M M I T OF I N FANT SEXUALITY. THE TIVE FOR M OF P E N ETRATION. A S P I R I NG TO T H E

OEDI DPAL COM PLEX IS A LSO THE PROV I NCE OF SEC R ET OF T H E M A T E R N A L B R E A ST. E V E N THOUGH

R E PRESSION. I N THAT I T R E DUCES I M AGES TO A THIS R E LA TlON IS LIVED BY TH E S U BJECT IN A

STATE OF LATENCY U NT I L PUBERTY: IF IT DETER­ M A N N E R WHOSE A M BI V A L E N C E IS PROPORTIONAL

M INES A CON D ENSATION OF R E A LITY I N TH E TO ITS A RC H A I S M .

D I R ECTION OF LIFE. IT IS A LSO THE MOMENT OF

S U BLIMATION WHERE MAN OPENS HIS OWN B U T R E S E A R C H E RS W H O H A V E B E S T U N D E R STOOD

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( M E LA N I E KLE I N ) A R E O N LY CON C E R N E D W I T H THE TH E MOMENT OF A FFECTI VE R E INTEGRATION I N TO

SYMM ETRY A N D THE EXTENSION THAT THEY BRING THE WHOLE: R I T E S OF C I R C U M C I S.10N. W H I C H IN

TO THE FORMATION O F OEDIPUS. R E V E A L I NG. FOR ORDER TO S A N CTION SEXUAL MATU RITY, SHOW

EXAMPLE. THE NOSTA LGI A FOR MATE R N I TY IN THE THAT THE PE RSONA REACHES THEM ON LY AT THE

BOY. FOR US. T H E I R I NT E REST LI ES I N TH E EVIDENT PRICE OF CORPORAL MUTI LIATION.

U N R E A LITY OF TH E I R STRUCTU RE: THE EXAMINA­

TION OF THESE FANTASIES FOUN D I N D R E A M S AND TO DEFIN E TH IS G E N E S I S OF REPRESSION OF THE

C E RTA I N I M PULSES A L LOWS FOR THE A F F I RMATION PSYCHOLOGICAL PLA N E . ONE M UST RECALL THE
THAT THEY HAVE A B SOLUTELY NO R E LATION TO A IMAGINARY PLAY THAT CONDITIONS TH E FANTASY
R E A L B O D Y . B U T I N ST E A D TO A H E T E ROC L I T E OF CASTRATION. IN THE MOTH E R THE OBJECT THAT
MANNEQUIN. A BAROQUE DOLL, A TROPHY OF DETERMIN E S IT. IT I S IN THE RADICAL FORM OF
M E M B E RS WHE R E ONE M UST RECALL THE N A RCIS­ COU NTER DRIVES THAT REVEAL THEMSELVES TO
SISTIC OBJECT WHOSE G E N E S I S HAS BEEN EVOK ED THE A N A LYTIC E X P E R I ENCE I N ORDER TO CONSTI­
EARLIER: CONDITIONED I N MAN BY THE P R EC ESSION TUTE TH E M OST ARCHAIC KERNEL OF THE
OF I MAGINARY FO R M S OF TH E BODY ON THE SUPEREGO AND TO REPRESENT THE MOST MASSIVE
M A ST E R Y OF THE ACTUAL BODY [LE CORPS REPRESSION. TH I S FORC E DISTRI B UTES ITSELF WITH
PROPREI. B Y T H E DEFENSE V A L U E T H E SUBJECT THE DIFFERENCIATION OF TH I S FORM. THAT IS TO
GIVES TO THESE OBJECTS AGA I N ST TH E A N X I ETY OF SAY. THR O UGH THE PROGRESS IN WH ICH THE CHILD
VITAL DESTRUCTION. WHICH ARISE FROM THE R E A LI Z E S THE R E P R E SSIVE AGENCY IN THE
PREMATU RATION. AUTHORITY O F THE A D U LT: OTH ERWISE O N E COULD

NOT U N D E R S T A N D T H E F A C T - A P P A R E N T L Y

CONTRARY TO THE THEORY-THAT THE STRICTNESS

WITH WHICH TH E S U P E R EGO I N H I BITS THE FUNC­

TIONS OF TH E S U BJ ECT TENDS TO BE ESTABLISHED

TH E MATERNAL ORIGIN OF THE ARCHAIC S U P E R EGO
IN INVERSE PROPORTION TO TH E REAL SEVERITI E S

OF E D U C A TI O N . A LT H O U G H THE S U PE R EGO
TH E FA NTASY OF CASTRATION R E LATES TO THIS
ALREADY RECEIVES TRACES O F REAL ITY FROM THE
SAME OBJ ECT. BORN B E FO R E EITHER ANY MARKING
MATERNAL R E P R ESSION ALONE (TOILET-TR A I N I N G
OF THE ACTU A L BODY O R A'NY DISTINCTION OF THE
AND WEANING D I SC I P L I N E ) IN THE OEDI PUS
TH R EAT FROM TH E A D U LT. T H E FORM OF T H I S
COM P L E X T H E S E T R A C E S GO B E Y O N D TH E I R
OBJECT DOES N O T D E P E N D ON T H E S E X OF T H E
NARCISSISTIC FORM .
S U BJ ECT A N D I N STEAD DETE R M I N E S T H A T IT DOES

NOT SUFFER FROM THE FOR M U LA S OF TH E

EDUCATIONA L T R A D ITION. THE FA NTASY R E P R E ­

SENTS THE D E F E N S E T H A T TH E N A RC I S I STIC EGO­

I D E NTI F I E D WITH ITS M I RROR DOUBLE-DPPOSES TO SUBLIMATION OF R E A LITY

THE R E NEWAL OF T H E A N X I ETY THAT TENDED TO

D I STUR B IT AT THE F I RST MOM ENT OF O E D I PUS: A TH E ROLE OF THE COMPLEX I N THE SUBLI MATION OF

CRISIS WHCH DOES NOT C A U S E TH E I RR U PTION OF R EALITY I S NOW I NTRODUCED. TO U N D E RSTA N D

GENITAL DESI R E IN THE S U B J ECT AS M U C H AS I N THIS. O N E M U ST B E G I N A T THE POINT WHERE T H E

THE OBJECT T H A T IT R EACTUALIZES. N A M ELY THE DOCTR I N E P R E S ENTS A SOLUTION T O T H E DRAMA,

MOTH ER. THE S U B J ECT R E S PONDS TO THIS ANXI ETY NAM ELY OF T H E FORM IT HAS DISCOVE RED H E R E­

THAT THE OBJECT REAWAKENS B Y R EPRODUC I N G I DENTIFICATION. ACTUA LLY, ON ACCOUNT OF TH E

THE M ASOCHI STIC R E J ECTION TH ROUGH W H I C H H E INDENTI FICATION OF THE S U BJECT WITH THE I M AGO

S U R MOUNTED HIS P R IMORDIAL LOSS. BUT T H I S OF THE PARENT OF TH E SAME SEX, THE SUPEREGO

R E PRODUCTION O P E R AT E S ACCORD I N G T O T H E A N D EGO- I D E A L C A N R E V E A L TO E X P E R I E N C E

STR UCTURE THAT H E HAS ACQU I RED. THAT IS TO TRAITS CONFORM I NG T O T H E PARTICULARITIES O F

SAY I N A N I M AG I N A RY LOCALIZATION OF T H E DRIVE. THI S IMAGO.

SUCH A GENESIS OF SEXUAL R E P R E SSION IS NOT IN THIS. THE DOCTR I N E S E E S THE FACT OF A

W I T H O U T S O C I O L OG I C A L R E F E R EN C E : IT IS SECONDARY N A R C I S S I S M : IT DOES NOT DISTINGU I S H

EXPRESSED I N THE P R I MITIVE RITUALS W H E R E THE THIS P A R T I C U LA R I D E N T I F I C AT I O N F R OM T H E

L I N K BETWEEN TH I S R E P R ESSION A N D T H E ROOTS NARCISSISTIC ONE. T H E R E I S A LSO A N ASS I M I LA ­

OF ALL SOCIA L BONDS IS M A N I F E STED: C ELEBRA­ TION OF THE S U B J ECT TO T H E O B J E C T: TH E

TION R I TES WHICH. IN ORDER TO L I BERATE DOCTRI N E S E E S NO D I F F ERENCE OTH ER THAN T H E

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CONSTITUTION OF ONE MORE OBJECT OF DESI R E THE COMPLE X-TH AT IT IS NOT THE MOMENT OF

O P P OS I N G I T S E LF. A LO N G W ITH THE OEDIPAL DESIRE WHICH ESTA B L I S H E S T H E OBJECT IN ITS

D E S I R E . TO A BETTER FO R M ED EGO. ACCORDING TO N EW R E A LITY. B U T THE MOMENT OF THE SUBJ ECTS

THE CON STANTS OF H E DO N I S M . TH E FRUSTRATION N A RC I S S I STIC D E F E N S E .

OF THIS DE S I R E COULD R E S U LT I N THE SUBJ ECTS

RETU RN TO HIS P R I MORDIAL VORACITY OF T H I S MOME NT. I N C A U S I NG THE OBJ ECT T O A R I S E A S

A S S I M I LATION. A N D I N T H E FORMATION O F THE EGO. ONE WHOSE POSITION IS SITUATED AS AN
A R ETU R N TO A N I M P E RFECT I NTROJECTION OF T H E
OBSTACLE TO DES I R E. S HOWS IT TO BE COLORED BY
OBJ ECT. IN ORDER TO I M POSE ITSELF ON THE A T R A N SG R E S S I O N F E LT AS D A N G E ROUS. THE
SUBJ ECT. T H E I M AGO I S JUXTA POSED ONLY T O T H E OBJECT A PPEARS T O T H E EGO AT O N C E AS T H E
EGO. IN THE TWO EXCLUSIONS OF THE U NCON­ S U P PO RT O F ITS D E F E N S E A N D T H E E X A M PLE OF I T S
SCIOUS AND THE I D E A L. TR I U M PH. TH I S I S W H Y I T N O R M A L L Y C O M E S T O F I L L

TH E FRAME OF THE D O U B L E W H E R E TH E E G O F I RST

I D E NTI F I ES ITSE LF. A N D THROUGH W H ICH IT STI LL

C A N CONFUSE ITSELF W I T H THE OTH E R. THE OBJECT

ORIGI N A LITY OF T H E O E D I P A L I DENTI FICATION BRINGS A S EC U R ITY TO THE EGO BY STRE NGT H E N ­

ING THIS FRAME. BUT AT TH E SAME TIME IS IN

O P PO S I T I O N T O IT AS A N I D E A L THAT A LTERNATIVE­
HOWEVE R A MORE STRUCTU R A L AN ALYSIS OF T H E
LY EXA LTS AND D E P R ESSES IT.
OEDI P A L I DENTI FICATION A LLOWS ONE T O RECOG­

NIZE WITH I N IT A MORE DISTI NCTIVE FO RM. WHAT

APPEARS AT FIRST IS THE ANTINOMY OF TH E THIS MOMENT OF OEDI P U S PROVIDES THE PROTO­

FU NCTION W H I C H PLAYS THE P A R ENTAL I M AGO I N TYPE FO S U B L I MATION. AS M UC H IN T H E ROLE OF

THE S U B JECT; O N ONE H A N D. THE I M AGO I N H I B ITS M A S K E D P R E S E N C E PLAYED BY THE D R I V E A S BY

SEXUAL FUNCTION. BUT. S I NC E EXPE RIENCE SHOWS THE FORM IN W H I C H IT ASSU M E D THE OBJECT. T H I S

THAT T H E ACTION OF THE S U PEREGO AGAI NST THE SA M E FORM I S E V I D E N T I N E A C H C R I S I S W H E R E T H E

R E P ET I T I O N S OF THE TENDENCIES REMAINS AS CONDEN SATION (WHOSE E N I G M A WE H A V E POSE D

U NC O N S C I O U S AS THE TENDENCIES R EM A I N HIGHER U P) PRODUC ES ITSELF: T H I S LIGHT O F

R E P R E SSED. I T DOES SO I N A N UNCONSCIOUS FORM . S U R P R I S E T R A N S F I G U R E S A N OBJECT B Y D ISSOLV­

O N T H E OTH E R H A N D . THE I MAGO PRESERVES T H I S ING ITS EQU I V A L E N C E S IN A S U BJ ECT. AND

FU NCTION. B U T. S H E LT E R E D B Y I T S OWN M I SCON­ PROPOSES I T N O LON G E R A S A M E A N S TO T H E

C E PT I O N [ M E C O N N A I S S A N C E 1 . S I N C E T H E EGO­ SATI SFACTION OF D E S I R E . B U T A S A POLE TO T H E

IDEAL R E P R E S E N TS IN THE C O N SC I E N C E THE C R EATIONS OF PASSION. IT I S BY R E D UC I NG A G A I N

PREPA RATION OF THE PATH S FOR ITS FUTURE S U C H A N OBJECT THAT E X P E R I E N C E A TTA I N S A L L

RETU R N . THUS. IF TH E TENDENCY IS RESOLVED I T S D E PTH.

UNDER TWO MAJOR FOR M S WHERE ANALYSIS H A S

LEA R N E D TO R E C OG N I ZE I T - N A M E LY U NCON­ THUS. A SERIES OF A NTI NOMIC FUNCTIONS ARE

SCIOUSNESS A N D M I S U N D E RSTANDI NG-TH E I M AGO CON STITUTED IN TH E S U B JECT BY THE MAJOR

ITSELF A PP E A R S U N D E R TWO STRUCTU RES WHOSE C R I SES O F H U M A N R E A LITY. I N O R D E R T O CONTA I N

DISPA RITY DEFINES TH E F I R ST SUBLIMATION OF THE I N D E F I N I T E V I RT U A L I TIES O F ITS P ROGRESS; I F

REALITY. THE FU NCTION O F T H E CO N SC I E N C E S E E M S TO

EXPRESS PRI MORDI A L A NG U I S H . AND THAT OF

WE CANNOT STRESS ENOUGHT THAT THE OBJECT OF EQU IVALENC E R E F LECTS N A RC I S S I STIC CONF LICT.

I D E NTI FICATION HERE IS NOT T H E O B J E C T OF THEN THE FUNCTION O F THE EXAMPLE A PPEARS TO

DES I R E. BUT THAT WHICH I S OPPOSED TO TH E BE THE ORIGIN A L CONTRI BUTION OF THE O E D I PA L

OBJECT OF DESI RE IN THE OEDIPAL TRIANGLE. T H E COMPLEX.

I D E NT I F I CATION OF T H E M I M ETIC HAS BECOME

P R O P I T I ATORY. THE OBJECT OF THE SA DO­

MASOC H I STIC PARTICI PATION DISENGAGES FROM

THE SUBJECT. T A K I N G ITS D ISTANCE FROM HIM I N THE I M AGO OF T H E FATH E R

THE N E W A M B I G UITY O F F E A R A N D LOVE. BUT I N T H I S

STE P TOWARD REALITY. TH E PRIM ITIVE OBJECT O F HENCE. THE A C TU A L STRUCT U R E OF T H E O E D I P A L

D E S I R E S E E M S T O B E CON J U R E D AWAY. D R A M A D E S I G N A T E S T H E FATHE R A S G I V I N G TO T H E

FU NCTION OF S U BL I M ATION I T S E M I N E NT A N D MORE

THIS FACT DEFINES THE O R I G I N A L I T Y OF T H E PURE FOR M . IN THE OEDIPAL I D E NTIFICATION THE

OEDPIAL I DE N T I F I C ATION. IT SEEMS TO I NDICATE - I N I MAGO OF THE MOTH E R ACTU A L LY BETRAYS THE

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TIONS. M A R K I N G T H E EGO- I D E A L A S W E L L A S THE AUTHORITY I S NOT R E PR E SENTED B Y THE FATH E R

S U P E R EGO BY T H E FORMS AND THE A M BIVALENCE BUT OR D I N A R I LY BY A M A TE R N A L UNCLE. ONE

OF T H E S E I DENTI FICATIONS. I N TH E G I RL. J UST A S ETHNOLOGIST WHO W A S G U I D E D BY H I S KNOWLEDGE

TH E R E PRESSION OF S E X U A LITY MORE R E A D I LY OF PSYCHOA N A LYSIS. M A LI NOWS K I . KNEW HOW TO

I M PO S E S T H I S M E N TA L F R A G M E N TA T I O N W H E R E P E N ETRATE THE PSYC H I C I N C I D E N C E S OF T H I S

O N E C A N D E FI N E HYSTER I A O N BODILY F UNCTIONS. FACT: I F T H E MATE R N A L U N C L E PRACTICES T H E

SO T H E SUBLI M ATION OF THE M A T E R N A L I M AGO SOCI A L S PO N SOR S H I P A S GUA R D I A N OF FA M I LY­

TENDS TO TU R N I NTO A F E E L I N G O F R E P R ESSION R ELATED TABOOS A N D I N ITIATOR OF T R I B A L R I TES.

FOR ITS BA N K R U PTCY AND I N TO A SYSTEMATIC THE FATH ER. DISCHARGED FROM ALL R E PRESSIVE

CONCE R N FOR T H E M I RROR I M AGE. F U NCTION . PLAYS A MORE F A M I LI A R ROLE OF

PATRON A G E . AS MASTER OF T EC H N I Q U E S AND

EXAMPLE OF D A R I NG I N B U S I N ESS.
TO THE D EG R E E THAT I T DOM I NATES. T H E I M AGO OF

THE FATH E R POLA R I Z E S T H E MOST P E RFECT FOR M S

OF THE EGO-I D E A L I N BOTH S E XES. SUCH TH AT IT I S

ENOUGH T O I N DICATE THAT T H E FORM S REA LIZE THIS SEPARATION OF FUNCTIONS I M PLIES A
THE V I R I L E I D E A L IN TH E BOY AND T H E V I R G I N A L I N DIFFERENT EQU I L I B R I U M OF THE PSYC H E ATTESTE D
THE G I R L. O N T H E OTH E R H A N D . W E C A N STRESS TO BY THE AUTHOR TH ROUGH THE LACK OF
THE PHYSICA L L E S I O N S IN THE D I M I N UTIVE FOR M S N E U ROSI S H E OBSE RV E D I N T H E G ROU PS O F THE
OF TH I S I MAGO (ESPECIA LLY THOSE WHICH NORTH-WEST I S L A N D S O F MELANSIA. THIS EQU I L­
PRESENT THE I MAGO A S C R I PPLING O R B L I N D I NG) I N IBRIUM FORTU NATELY D E MONSTRATES THAT THE
ORDER T O DEVIATE T H E E N E RGY O F S U B L I M ATION OEDIPAL COMPLEX IS R E LA T I V E TO S OC I A L
FROM ITS CREATIVE D I R ECTION AND FAVOR ITS STRUCTU RE. BUT H E I N N O WAY A UTHORIZES THE
SECLUSION IN SOME IDEAL OF N A RC I S S I ST I C PARODISTIC M I RAGE AGA I N ST WHICH T H E SOCIO­
I N T E G R I TY . THE D E ATH OF THE FATHER. AT LOGI ST MUST A LW A Y S DEFEND H I M S E LF: THE
WHATEV E R STAGE O F D E V E LOPMENT I T APPEARS STEREOTYPE THAT MARKS THE C R E AT I O N S OF
A N D ACCOR D I N G TO THE DEGREE O F COMPLETION PERSONA LITY IS OPPOSE D TO T H E H A R MONY THAT
OF O E D I PUS. A T THE S A M E TIME TENDS TO A R R E ST IT CARRIES W I TH I N - F R O M ART TO MORALS-IN
THE PROGRESS OF R E A LITY BY FREEZING IT. BY S I M I LAR CULTURES. AND CON FOR M I NG TO THE
R E F E R R I NG A G R EA T N U M B E R OF N E U ROSES A N D PRESENT THEORY OF O E D I PUS. O N E M UST R E M E M ­
TH E I R G RAVITY TO S U C H C A USES. T H E E X P E R I E N C E BER IN T H I S R E V E R S A L H O W M U C H T H E I M PU LSES
THUS CONTR A D ICTS T H E T H E O R E T I C A L O R I ENTA­ OF SUBLIMATION ARE DOM I NA T E D BY SOC I A L
TION WHICH D E S I G NATES THE MAJOR AGENT OF R E PRESSION WHEN THESE TWO F U N CTIONS ARE
SUCH N E UROSES IN THE THREAT OF PATE R N A L SEPARATED.
FORCE.

IT I S ON THE CONTR A RY. BECA USE T H E PATE RNAL

I MAGO I S INVESTED BY R E PRESSION IT PROJECTS

ITS ORIG I N A L FORCE I N THE VERY S U B L I M ATIONS

THE COMPLEX A N D ITS SOCIOLOGICAL R E LATIVITY
WHICH SHOULD OVERCOME IT: THE OEDI PUS

COMPLEX ACQU I R E S S O M UC H FEC U N DITY [FECON­

I F I T APPEA R E D IN ITS PSYCHOLOG I C A L A N A LYSIS
DITEI BY TYI NG TOGETH E R THE PROGRESS OF THESE
THAT OEDI PUS M UST B E U N DERSTOOD IN T E R M S OF
FUNCTIONS IN SUCH A N ANTI NOMY. THIS ANTINOMY
ITS N A RC I SS I STIC A NTECEDENTS. THIS I S NOT TO
PLAYS IN T H E I N D I V I D U A L DRAMA. HERE W E WILL
SAY THAT IT IS BASED OUTS I D E OF SOCIOLOGICAL
SEE IT CONFI R M E D BY T H E EFFECTS O F DECOMPOSI­
RELATIVITY. TH E MOST DECISIVE R E S U LT OF ITS
TION: BUT THESE EFFECTS OF PROG RESS. I NTE­
PSYCHIC E FFECTS R E S I DES IN THE FACT THAT THE
GRATED A S THEY A R E IN AN I M M E N S E CULTURAL
FU NCTION O F R E P R ESSION A S WELL A S THAT OF
PATRIMONY. GO M UC H FURTHER BEYOND THIS
SUBLIMATION I S C O N C E NTRATED IN T H E I M AGO OF
DRAMA: N O R M A L I DE A LS. LEGA L STATUTES.
THE FATH E R : BUT TH I S IS A FACT OF SOC I A L
C R EATI V E I N S P I R A T I O N S . T H E P S YC H O L O G I S T
DETER M I N A T I O N . THE FACT OF THE PATER N A L
C A N NOT N EG LE C T THESE FOR M S WHICH. BY
FA M I LY.
CONCENTRATI N G T H E CONDITIONS OF T H E FUNC­

TIONA L CONFLICT OF O E D I PUS IN THE CONJUGAL

F A M I LY. REINTEGRATE THE S OC I A L D I A L E C T I C

ENGENDERED BY THIS CONFLICT I NTO THE

MATR I A RCHY A N D P A T R I A RCHY PSYCHOLOGICAL PROGRESS.

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THAT THE STUDY OF THESE FOR M S R E LATES TO MATE R N A L TYRA N N I ES A N D THE D EC L I N E OF T H E

H I STORY IS ALREADY ON E GIVEN FOR OUR R I T E OF ROY A L M U R D E R . WHATEV E R T H E I R FOR M .

A N A LY S I S : WE M U ST TAKE AS A PROB L E M OF THESE MYTHS ARE SITUATED AT THE E D G E OF

STRUCTU R E THE FACT T H AT T H E LIGHT OF H I STORY. F A R FROM THE B I RTH OF H U M A N ITY FROM

H I S TORICAL T R A D I TION ONLY FULLY STRUCK I N THE WHICH THE I M MEMORIAL CONTI N U AT I O N OF

A N N A LS OF PATR I A R C H I E S. WHEREAS IT ONLY MATR I A R C H A L C U LT U R E S A N D T H E STAGNATION OF

P E R I PH E RA LLY I L L U M I N ATED THE MATR I A RC H I E S P R I M ITIVE G RO U PS SEPA RATE T H E M .

T H A T A R E "ON LY" A LWAYS S U B JACENT TO A N C I E N T

C U LTU R E (AS IN THE I N V ESTIGATIONS OF BACH· ACCO R D I NG T O T H I S SOCIOLOGICAL REFERENCE.

OFENl. THE PROPH ETIC I S M BY W H I C H B E R SON A PPEALS TO

H I STORY. IN SO F A R A S I T I S PRODUCED E M I N E NTLY

BY THE J E W I S H PEOPLE. C A N BE U N D E RSTOOD BY

THE SITUATION O F B E I N G THE E L ECT PEOPLE-A

SITUATION C REATED SINCE TH E I R GROUP W A S THE

OPE N I NG OF T H E SOC I A L BON D R E P R E S E N T AT I V E O F P A T R I A R C H Y F O R OTH E R

GROUPS D E VOTED T O M A T E R N A L C U LTS. A N D B Y ITS

W I T H T H I S FACT W E U N I F Y T H E CRITICAL MOMENT CON V U LS I V E B A TT L E TO M A I N TA I N THE PATRI­

THAT B E RGSON D E F I N E D IN T H E FOU N DATION S OF ARCHAL I DE A L A G A I N ST THE I R R E P R E SS I B L E

MORA LITY: I T I S K NOWN THAT H E RETU R N S TO ITS SEDUCTION O F TH E S E M A T R I A R C H I ES. W E THUS SEE

FU NCTION OF SOCI A L D E F E N S E T H I S " A L L O R THE EXIGENCIES OF THE P E R SO N AND THE

NOT H I N G OF OBLIGATION." BY WHICH HE DES IG­ U N I V E RSA LIZATION O F T H E I D E A L D I A LECTICALLY

N A TE S THE BON D THAT C LOSES TH E H U M A N GROUP AFFIRMED IN S OC I ETY. AC ROSS THE H I STORY OF

U PO N ITS COH E R E NC E . HE RECOG N I Z E S IT IN P A T R I A RC H I A L PEOPLES: TESTI MONY TO THIS

OPPOSITION TO A T R A N SC E N D E NT E LA N O F LIFE I N PROGRESS I S FOU N D I N T H E LEGAL FOR M S. W H I C H

E V E R Y MOV E M E NT. W H I C H OPENS T H I S GROUP BY ETER N A LIZE THE M I SS I O N E X P E R I ENCED BY ROME

UNIVERSALIZING THE B O N D. AN A B STRACT IN ITS CONSC I E N C E A S M UCH A S IN ITS POWER. A

A N A LY S I S D I SCOV E R S A DOUBLE SOURCE NO M I SSION R E A LI Z E D BY THE ALREADY REVOLU­

DOUBT RETU R N E D AGAI NST THESE FO R M A L I S T TIONARY EXTENSION O F M O R A L PRIVE LEDGES FROM

I L L USIONS. BUT R E M A I N I NG L I M ITED T O TH E R E A C H A PAT R I A RC H TO AN I M M E N SE PLEBACY AND ONTO

OF A BSTRACTION. N O W . I F THE PSYCHOLOGI ST A N D ALL PEOPLE.

T H E SOCIOLOG I ST C A N RECOG N IZE. BY EXPE R I E NCE.

THE CONCRETE FOR M OF PRI MORDIA L OBLIGATION TWO F U NCTION S O F THIS PROCESS ARE R E F LECTED

IN THE I NT E R DICTION OF T H E MOTHER. SO I N T H E ON THE STRUCT U R E O F THE FA M I LY ITSELF: F I R ST.

SAME WAY THEY CAN D E M O NSTRATE A REAL THE T R A D I TI O N IN THE PATR I C I A N I DEALS. OF

PROC ESS O F "TH E OPE N I NG" OF THE SOCI A L BON D P R I V I L E DG E D FOR M S OF M A R R I AGE. A N D SECOND.

IN PATE R N A L A UTHOR ITY. SAYING THAT BY THE T H E A POTHEOTIC E X A LTATION THAT C H RISTI A N ITY

FU NCTION A L CONFLICT OF O E D I PUS. T H E O P E N I N G B R I N G S TO T H E E X I G E N C I E S OF THE P E RSON. T H E

I NTRODUCES A N I D E A L OF PROMISE I N TO REPRES­ C H U RC H I NTEGRATED THIS TRADITION I NTO T H E

SION. MOR A LITY OF C H RISTIANTIY B Y B R I NG I NG I N TO T H E

FO REGRO U N D TH E F R E E C H O I C E OF A PA RTN E R I N

I F THEY REFER TO TH E R I TES OF SAC R I F I C E B Y THE BOND OF M A RRIAGE. THUS CAUSING THE

WHICH PRIMITIVE C U LT U R E S (EVEN ATTA I N I NG A FA M I L I A L I N STITUTION T O TAKE T H E D EC I S I V E STEP

SOC I A LY E LEVATED CONCENTRATION) R E A L IZE T H E TOWA RDS ITS MOD E R N STRUCTU RE. N A M E LY T H E

FANTASI ES OF T H E P R I M O R D I A L R E LATION OF THE SECRET REVERSA L OF ITS PREPON DERANCE TO

M OT H E R WITH THE C R U E L E S T R I GO R - D I S M E M ­ THE ADVA NTAGE OF M A R RIAGE. T H I S REVERSAL

B E R E D BOD I E S A N D LIVE B U R IAL-IN MORE T H A N WAS REA LIZED I N T H E F I FTEENTH CENTURY WITH

O N E M YTH THEY W I L L R E A D THAT THE A D V E N T O F THE ECONOMIC R EVOLUTION THAT PRODUCED THE

PAT E R NA L A UTHORITY A NSWERS T O A TEMPERA· BO U RG E O I S SOC I ETY AND THE PSYC H O LOGY OF

M E N T OF P R I M ITIVE SOCIAL R E PRESSION. LEDGIBLE MODERN MAN.

IN T H E M YTH I C A M B I G U I TY OF TH E SAC R I F I C E OF

ABRAHAM. W H I C H I N T H E END FORMA LLY T I E S T H I S THE RELATIONS BETW E E N THE PSYCHOLOGY OF

M E A N I NG T O AN E X P R E SSION OF PROM I S E . T H I S MODE R N MAN AND THE CONJUGAL F A M I LY ARE

M E A N I NG DOES N O T A P PEA R A N Y L E S S I N THE MYTH WHAT. I N E F F ECT. PROPOSE T H E M S E LVES T O T H E

OF O E D I P U S (IF O N LY WE DO NOT N EG L ECT T H E STU D Y OF PSYCHOA NA LYSIS. T H I S M A N I S THE ONLY

E P I SODE OF T H E S P H I N X ) . A NO L E S S A M B I G UOUS OBJECT THAT IT HAS T R U LY S U B M ITTED TO ITS

REPRESENTATION OF THE E M A N C I PA T I O N OF E X P E R I E N C E AND I F THE PSYCHOA NA LYST R E D I S-

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COVERS I N H I M PSYC H IC R E FLECTION O F THE MOST F I N A L LY AND A BO V E A L L. THE EVIDENCE OF

ORIGINAL CON DITIONS O F M A N . C A N HE CLA I M TO SEXUAL L I F E IN TH E RE PRESE NTATI VES OF MORAL

CURE HIM OF P S YC H I C DEFICIENCIES WITHOUT CONSTR A I NTS-THE SI NGULARLY TRANSGRESSIVE

U N DERSTA N D I N G THEM W I TH I N T H E C U LTU RE THAT EXAMPLE O F T H E I MAGO O F TH E FAT H E R A S F A R A S

I M POSES THE H IG H EST E X IG E N C I E S U PON HIM­ THE PRI M O R I D A L I NTERDICTION IS CONCE R N ED­

WITHOUT U N D E R S TA N D I N G HIS OWN POSITION EXALT THE TENSION OF TH E LIBIDO A N O T H E !';COPE

FAC ING T H I S M A N AT T H E EXTRE M E POINT O F T H E OF SUBLI M ATION TO THE H IGHEST DEGREE.

SCIENTIFIC ATTITU DE?

THE COM PLEX OF THE CONJ UGAL F A M I LY FO R M S

THUS. I N OUR T I M E S. MAN IN WESTE R N C U LTURE THE S U P E R I O R ACCO M PL I SH M E NT S OF C H A RAC­

CAN LESS THAN EVER U N D E RSTA N D H I MSELF TER-H A P P I N E S S AND CREATION-IN ORDER TO

OUTSIDE T H E A NTI NOM I E S T H A T CONSTITUTE H I S MOST H U M A N E LY REALIZE THE CONFLICT OF M A N

R E LATIONS WITH NATURE AND SOC I ETY. HOW. WITH H I S MOST A RC H A I C AN GU IS H . TO OFFER H I M

OUTSIDE OF THESE. I S IT POSSIBLE T O U N D E RSTAN D THE LO Y A L E ST C LO S E D FIELD IN WHICH TO

FI RST. T H E A N G U I S H THAT M A N E X P RESSES I N THE M E A SU R E HI MSELF WITH THE M O ST PROFO U N D

SENTIM ENTS O F A P RO M E T H E A N T R A N SG RESSION FIGURES O F H I S DESTI N Y. A N D I N O R D E R T O A D A PT

TOW A R D THE CONDITIONS OF HIS LIFE. AND HIS INDIVIDUAL EXPE RI ENCE TO THE MOST

SECOND. THE M O ST E L EV A T E D C O N C E PT I O N S COMPLETE TRI UMPH AGAI NST THE O R IG I N A L

W H E R E H E OVE RC O M E S T H I S A N G U I SH. RECOGNIZ­ SERV ITU DE.

I NG THAT H E C R EATES H I M S E L F A N D H I S OBJECTS

TH ROUGH DIA LECTI CAL C R ISES. I N CONTI BUTING THE LARGEST D I F F E R E NTIATION TO

THE P E R SO N A L I T Y B E FO R E THE PERIOD OF

LATENCY. THE COMPLEX BRINGS TO S OC I A L

CONFRONTATIONS O F T H I S PERIOD THE MAXI M U M

EFFICIENCY FOR T H E RATIONAL FORMATION O F THE

THE ROLE OF THE F A M I L I A L FOR MATION
INDIVIDUAL IN EFFECT. AT THIS POINT ONE CAN

CONSI D E R THAT THE EDUCATIONAL ACTION

THIS CRITICAL AND S U B V E R S I V E M OV E M E NT W H E R E R EPRODUCES T H E PLAY OF N A RC I S S I STIC EQUIVA­
MAN I S R E A L I Z E D F I N D S ITS M O S T ACTI V E K E R N E L LENCES WHERE THE WORLD OF OBJECTS WAS BOR N .
I N THREE CON DITIONS O F T H E CONJ UGA L FA MI LY. IN A FULLER R E A LITY AND UNDER SU PERIOR

SUBLIMATIONS O F LOGIC A N D J U STICE. T H E MORE

IN ORDER TO I N ST I L L A UTHORITY IN THE CLOSEST VARIED AND RICH THE U NCONSC IOUS REALITIES

N EIGHBO R I NG G E N ERATION. A N D TO DO SO U N DER A I NTEG RATED I NTO THE FA M I LY E X P E R I E NC E ARE.

FA M I LI A R FIGURE. T H E CONJUGAL FA M I LY PLACES THE MORE FOR MATIVE THE WORK OF TH E I R

TH I S A UT H O R I TY AT THE MOST I M M E D IATE EN­ REDUCTION FOR RE ASON WILL BE.

TRANCE TO TH E C R EATIVE S U B V E RSION. FOR T H E

MOST COMMON OBSE RVATION. THIS IS A LREADY THUS. IF IN TH E S E MORAL CONDITIONS OF CR EATION
TRAN SLATED B Y THE I N V E R S I O N S O F T H E ORDER OF PSYCHOANALYSIS M A N I FESTS A R EVOLUTIONARY
G E N E RATIONS I MA G I N E D B Y T H E C H I LD. W H E R E HE FERMENT THAT ONE CAN GRASP O N LY TH ROUGH
SU BSTITUTES H I M S E L F FOR THE PARENT OR THE CONCRETE A N A LYSIS. IT I S RECOGN IZED IN ORDER
GRAN DPA RENT. TO PRODU C E A POWER IN THE FA M I LI A L STRUCTU RE

WHICH S U R PASSES ALL EDUCATIONAL RATIONA L­

ON THE OTH E R H A N D. IN T H I S THE PSYCH ISM IS IZATION. T H E FACT OF A SOCI A L E D UCATION WITH

FOR MED NO L E S S BY T H E I M AGE OF THE A DU LT TOTA LITA R I A N C LA I M S DESERV E S TO BE PROPOSED

TH A N AGA I NST ITS C O N S T R A I NTS. T H I S E FFECT TO THEOR ETIC I A N S NO MATTER W H AT SIDE THEY

OPERATES BY THE TRA N S M I SSION OF THE EGO­ TAKE. IN ORDER THAT EACH A R R I V E S A T HIS OWN

I D E A L. MOST P U R E LY. AS WE H A V E S A I D. FROM THE CONCLUSION FROM IT. ACCOR D I N G TO HIS OWN

FAT H E R TO THE SON; IT I N VO L V E S A POS ITIVE DESI RES.

S E L ECTION OF THE DRIVES AND THE G I FTS. A

P R OG R E S S I V E R E A LIZATION OF THE IDEAL IN

CHA RACTER. THE FACT O F FAM I LI E S OF E M I N ENT

MEN OWES TO TH I S PSYC HOLOGICA L PROCESS. AND

NOT TO THE A LLEGED H E R E DITY THAT ONE M UST DEC L I N E OF THE PATE R N A L I M AGO

RECOGNIZE I N ESSENTIA LLY RELATIONAL CAPACI­

TIES. IN THE FORMATION OF MOST G R E A T MEN. WE A RE

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LED TO PERCEIVE THE ROLE O F THE I MAGO OF THE STATE THAT WAS A M E LTI NG POT OF TH E MOST

FATH ER I N A STR I K I NGLY EVIDENT M A N N E R. IT IS D I V E R S E FA M I LY FORMS, FROM THE MOST A RC H A I C

WORTH NOTING ITS LITERARY A N D MORAL RADI­ T O THE M O S T E V O L V E D . F R O M THE L A S T AGNATIC

A N C E IN THE CLASSICAL ERA OF PROGRESS-FROM GROUPS OF PEASANT SLAVES TO T H E MOST

CORNEI LLE TO PROUDHON: AND I D EOLOGUES WHO R E D UC E D A N D DECADENT FOR M S O F A N U NSTA BLE

IN THE N I N ETEENTH C ENTURY BROUGHT THE MOST H O U S E HOLD, THE H E A RT H OF THE PETIT-BO U R ­

SUBVERSIVE C RITIQUES AGAI NST THE PATE RNAL­ GEOSI E , N O T TO M E NTION F E U D A L A N D M E RCANTILE

I STIC FA M I LY A R E NOT THOSE WHO PRESERVE THE PATE R N A L I S M S-THAT A SON OF A JEWISH

LEAST OF ITS WEIG HT. PATR I A RC H COULD H A V E I M A G I N E D THE OEDIPAL

COMPLEX, FOR WHAT IT I S WORTH, T H E DOM I N ANT

WE ARE NOT A MONG THOSE AFFLICTED BY THE FOR M S OF N E U ROSES AT THE END OF THE LAST

PRETENDED LOOSE N I NG OF THE FA M I LIA L BOND. I S CENTURY REVEALED THEIR I NTIMATE D E P E N D E NCY

IT N O T SIGNI FICANT T H A T T H E FA M I LY S H O U L D BE U PON THE CONDITIONS OF THE F A M I LY.

REDUCED TO ITS BIOLOGICAL GROU PING TO THE

DEGREE THAT IT I NT E G R A T E S THE H IG H EST S I N C E THE T I M E OF THE FI RST F R E U D I A N D I V I N A ­

C U LTURAL PROGRESS? BUT A LARGE N U M B E R OF T I O N S T H E S E N E U ROSES S E E M T O H A V E EVOLVE D

PSYC HOLOGICAL EFFECTS SEEM. TO US, DEPEN­ I N THE D I R ECTION OF A CHARACTER I STIC COMPLEX,

DENT U PON THE SOC I A L D EC L I N E OF THE PATE R N A L WHERE D U E EQUALLY TO THE SPEC I FICITY OF ITS

I MAGO: A DECLI NE CONDITION ED BY A RETU R N OF FOR M AND ITS G E N E RA LIZATION. IT I S THE K E R N A L

EXTR E M E EFFECTS OF S OC I A L PROGRESS ONTO THE OF T H E G REATEST N U M B E R OF N E UROSES-W H E R E

I N D I V I DUAL: A DEC L I N E A BOVE ALL MARKED I N OUR ONE C A N RECOG N I Z E THE G R EAT CONTEMPORARY

T I M E S BY THOSE COLLECTIVITIES WHO HAVE MOST N E U ROSIS. OUR EXPERI ENCE LEADS US TO

ST R O N G L Y F E LT THOSE E F FECTS, ECONO M I C DESIGNATE T H E PERSONA LITY OF THE FATH E R AS

C O N C E NTRATION A N D POL I T I C A L CATASTRO P H E . ITS PRINCI PLE DETE R M I NA NT, ALWAYS I N SOME WAY

WAS N O T TH E A RG U M ENT FOR M E D BY THE C H I E F O F D E F I C I E N T - A B S E N T, H U M I LIATED, DIVIDED OR

A TOTA LITA R I A N STATE AN A RGU M E N T AGAI NST FALSE. C O N FO R M I N G TO O U R C O N C E PT I O N OF

TRADITIONAL EDUCATION? IT IS A DECLI N E TIED OEDI P U S, THIS D E F IC I E NC Y C O M E S T O EXHAUST

MOST I NT I M ATELY TO THE DIA LECTIC OF THE [ T A R I Rl THE I N STI N C T I V E I M P U LS E S AND TO

CONJUGAL FA M I LY SINCE IT OPERATES BY A DAMAGE [TA R E R l THE DIA LECTIC OF SUBLI MATIONS.

RELATIVE GROWTH OF MATR I MON I A L EXIGENCI ES, S I N I ST E R G O D M OT H E R S AT THE C RA D L E OF

VERY V I S I BLE, FOR E XA M PLE, IN THE A M E RICAN WAY N E U ROSIS, I M POTE N C E A N D UTOPIA E N C LOSING H I S

OF LIFE, A MBITION-WH ETHE R IT STI F L E S IN HIM THE

C R E ATIONS AWAITED B Y T H E WO RLD I NTO W H I C H H E

NO M A TT E R WHAT ITS FUTURE, THIS D EC L I N E C A M E, OR W H E T H E R I N T H E OBJECT H E PROPOSES

CONSTITUTES A PSYCHOLOGICAL C R I S I S. MAYBE FOR H I S R E VOLT- H E FA I LS TO RECOGN I ZE HIS OWN

M OV E M E NT.
ON E M U ST R E LATE THE APPEA RANCE OF PSYCHO­

A N A LY S I S ITSELF TO ITS C RISIS, TH E SUBLIME

FORTU N E O F G E N I U S P E R H A PS DOES NOT A LONE JACQUES LACA N

EXPLAI N WHY I T WAS I N V I E N N A-THE C E NTER OF A TRANSLATED BY A NDREA KAHN

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W H AT SOM E M A Y C A L L S E X "PE R V E R­
SIONS"?

HOW M UCH DO YOU K NOW A BOUT UN USUAL SEX 3. T R A N S VE S T I T E C . R E C E I V I N G S E X U A L STI M ­

PRACTICES? ULATION BY RUBBING A­

G A I N ST SO M EON E OR SOME­

TH E R E WAS A TI M E WHEN A N YTH I N G BUT TH E THING

M I S S I O N A R Y POSITION W A S CONSI D E R E D I M MO R A L
4. 'FA I R E M I N ETTE' D. SEXUAL R E LA T I O N S WITH
A N D P E R V E R S E . S U R P R I S I N G L Y . TH I S ATTITU DE I S
A N I M A LS
STI LL H E L D BY M A N Y PEOPLE TODAY. H O W FA M I LI A R

A R E YOU WITH SO-C A L L E D " P ER V E R S I O N S ?" D O YOU

!S. BON D A G E E. FORC I B LY HAVING SEX
KNOW T H E M BY T H E I R P R O P E R N A M E S OR H A V E YO U
RELATIONS WITH A V I R G I N
B E E N TRA I N E D T O R ECOI L AT T H E V E R Y M E NTION OF

A S E X PRACTICE THAT IS OUT OF TH E O R D I N A RY? TO

6. U ROLAG N I A F. SEXUAL PLEASURE
TEST T H E ACC U RACY OF YOU R KNOWLEDGE, M ATCH
THROUGH KEEPING A SEX
THE F O L LOW I N G TERMS WITH TH E I R C O R R ECT
PARTN E R P R I SO N E R
D E F I N ITIONS. W R I T E T H E LETT E R OF THE CORR ECT

D E F I N I TI O N N E XT TO THE TERM IT D E SC R I B E S ,

TH E R E ARE MORE D E F I N I T I O N S THAN T E R M S, S O 7 . VOY E U R I S M G. EXPERIENCING SEXUAL

READ CAREFU LLY B E FO R E C H OO S I N G YOU R PLEA S U R E T H ROUGH P A I N

A N S W E R.

B . F L A G E L L ATION H. A P E R SON W H O I S S E X ­

1 . BESTIALITY A. SEXUAL PLEASURE U A LLY STI M U L A T E D BY

THROUGH WATC H I N G OTH­ W E A R I N G C LOTH I NG OF T H E

ERS E NGAGE IN SEX ACTS O P POSITE S E X

2. SCATOLOGY B. G I V I N G A WOM A N S E X U A L 9. O S P H R E S IOLAG N I A I. SEXUAL A D DICTION TO

PLEAS U R E BY ORALLY S P E C I F I C FOR M S OF STI M U ­

STI M U LATI NG HER GENI­ LA T I O N -G U N S, U N I FO R M S ,

TALS ET CETERA

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ON A YOUNG BOY B Y A M A N O N E'S G E N I T A L S TO OTH­

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U A LLY STIM ULATED BY I N ­ R. SEX W I TH T H R E E PEOPLE

FLICTING PA I N AT ONCE

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BY S M E LL I NG C E R TA I N

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1 6. TROI LISM P. S E X U A L STI M U L A T I O N

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U PO N A N SWER.

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OPPOSITION P L E A S U R EIJOUISSANCE DISCREDITED AND FRUSTRATED FOR CENTURI ES.

FIRST B Y C H R I ST I A N MORALITY, THEN A FTER B E I N G

THE WORD PLEASURE CROPPED UP IN WHAT I TAKEN OVE R BY A POS I T I V I ST, RATI O N A L I ST

WOULD C A LL A TACTI C A L WAY. I H A D T H E FEELING MORALITY, THE F R U STRATION WAS. OR IS A LAS, I N

THAT I NTELLEC T U A L LANGUAGE S U B M ITTED TOO T H E WAY O F BECO M I N G S O BY A C E R T A I N M A R X I ST

EASILY TO MORALIZING IMPERATIVES WHICH ETHIC.

E M PT I E D IT O F A L L NOTION O F JOUISSANCE. BY

REACTION I A TT E M PT E D TO R E INTRODUCE TH E THE SECO N D J U ST I FICATION FOR T H E E M E RG E NCE.

WORD AND NOT TO CENSURE IT IN MY OWN FOR TH E RETU R N OF T H E WORD "PLEA S U R E" IS

PERSO N A L F I E LD. N O T T O F R U STRATE B U T T O DE­ T H A T IT A L LOWS FOR A C E RTA I N E X PLORATION OF

F R U STRATE IT. THE HUMAN S U BJ ECT. IN TRYING TO ESTA BLISH

SOME KINO OF D I V I SION BETWEEN "PLEAS U R E" AND

A TACTIC A L MOVE IN T H E O R D E R OF IDEAS E NTAI LS " J O U I S SA N C E , " IN POS I N G T H E PROB L E M OF

EXPLANATIONS, G I R D S ITSELF WITH R E A SO N S. T H E JOUISSANC E , ONE COMES UP A G A I NST A VERY

FI RST R EASON I S T H A T S UBJECTI V E LY I A C C O R D A TOP I C A L TH E M E F A M I L I A R T O PSYCHOA N A LY S I S

C E RTAI N I M PORTA N C E TO WHAT COMES U N D E R T H E A N D OF I NTEREST T O WHAT I S C A L L E D THE A V A N T

H E A D I NG OF T H A T S O M E W H A T O L D - FA S H I O N E D GARDE.

TERM H E DO N I S M , AND P A R TI C U LA R LY T O T H E

TH E M E OF TH E ART OF L I V I NG. I N D I R ECTLY I THE OPPOSITION P LE A S U R EfJOUISSANCE I S ONE OF

A L R E A DY DREW ATTENTION TO THESE TH I NG S W H E N THOSE D E L I B E R A T E LY A RT I F I C I A L OPPOS I T I O N S

R E F E R R I NG TO B R EC H T AND HIS CIGARS, FOR FOR WHICH I HAVE A LW A Y S HAD A C E RT A I N

E X A M PLE. IN FACT. T HROUGHOUT T H E WORK OF PREDELICTION. I OFTEN T R I E D T O C R EATE SUCH

B R ECHT, A UTH E N T I C A LLY M A R X I ST A S N O ONE W I L L OPPOSITIONS: FOR E X A M P L E BETWEE N WRITING AND

DENY, EXTR E M E C O N S I D E R A TI O N IS GIVEN TO SC R I B B L I N G . D E NOTA T I O N AND C O N NOTAT I O N .

PLEASURE. SO FAR A S I AM CON C E R N E D THEN. I THESE OPPOSITIONS SHOULD NOT B E TA K E N TOO

TAKE ON THE R E S PO N S I B I L I T Y OF A C E R TA I N LITERALLY, BY A S K I N G ON E'S SELF FOR I N STANCE

H EDON I S M , THE RETURN TO A P H I LO S O P H Y IF SUCH AND SUCH A TEXT FALLS I N TO T H E

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CATEGORY OF PLEASURE OR JOUISSANCE. THEY FOR J U DG I NG TEXTS OF PLEASURE. FOR TEXTS O F
ARE OPPOSITIONS C H I E FLY USEFUL IN CLEARING A JOUISSANCE S U C H C RITERIA A R E STI LL OBSCURE.
PATH. IN GOI NG A STEP FURTHER: QUITE S I M PLY I N
SPEAKING A N D W RITING. DRAGGING

THAT SAID. THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN THE TWO PERHAPS I F I TALK A BOUT D RAGG I NG I'LL A R R I V E
WORDS IS NEVE RTH E LESS REAL. AND I AM NOT AT A D E F I N I TION. I T I S A N I M PORTANT THEME FOR
ALONE IN UPHOLD I NG IT. PLEASURE IS LINKED WITH ME. DRAGGING I S THE JOURNEY OF DESIRE. I T I S T H E
THE CONSISTENCY OF THE SELF. OF THE SUBJECT. BODY IN A STATE OF A L E RT. QUESTING I N
W H I C H A F F I R M S I T S E L F TH ROUGH V A L U E S OF ACCORDANCE WITH ITS OWN DESIRE. A N D THEN.
C O M FORT. E X P A N S I V E N E S S . EASE-A N D I N M Y DRAGGING I M PL I E S A TEMPORALITY WHICH LAYS
CASE. T O GIVE A N EXAM PLE. BELONGS T O THE STRESS ON THE E NCOU NTER. ON THE "FI RST T I M E."
D O M A I N OF R E A D I N G C L A S S I C A L W R I T E R S . AS AS I F T H E F I R S T E N C O U N T E R POS S E S S E D A N
OPPOSED TO THIS. JOUISSANCE I S THE SYSTEM OF EXTRAO R D I N A R Y P R I V I LEGE O F ITS OWN: THAT O F
READING. OR OF E N U NC I ATION. B Y MEANS OF WHICH B E I NG OUTSIDE A L L R E PETITION. R EPETITION I S A
THE SUBJECT. I N STEAD OF A FF I R M I NG. ABANDONS M A LE F I C E N T T H E M E F O R M E . R E ITERATION. T H E
ITSELF. U N D E RGOES THE EXPERI ENCE OF PRODI­ S T E R EOTY P E . THE N AT U R A L AS R E P ET I T I O N .
GALITY WHICH I S STRICTLY SPEAKING JOUISSANCE. DRAGGING I S T H E A NT I - N A T U R A L . T H E A N T I ­
R EPETITION. T H E ACT O F DRAGGING I S A N ACT

IF O N E SET OUT TO DO A PROV I S IONAL SORTI NG OF R E P E A T E D . B U T ITS C O N T E N T IS A B SO L U T E L Y

TEXTS ACCOR DING TO THOSE TWO WORDS. IT I S I N A UG U RAL.

CERTA I N THAT BY A H U G E MAJORITY T H E TEXTS W E

KNOW A N D LOVE A R E BROADLY SPEA K I NG TEXTS O F FOR THAT REASON D R AGGING I S A NOTION I CAN
PLEASURE. WHEREAS TEXTS O F JOUISSANCE A R E EASILY TRA NSFER FROM THE ORDER OF THE E ROTI C
EXT R E M E LY R A R E - A N D TH E R E'S NO S A Y I N G I F QUEST WHERE I T O R I G I N ATES. T O A QUEST A FTER
THEY A R E NOT ALSO TEXTS OF PLEASURE. WE MAY TEXTS FOR E X A M PLE. O R A QUEST FOR A TYPE O F
F I N D THESE TEXTS DISAGREEABLE OR AGGRESSIVE. FICTION. I N OTH E R WORDS. WHATEVER C O M E S TO
B U T PROVI S I O N A L L Y A T L E A ST. FO R A B R I E F LIGHT IN THE S U R P R I S E OF THE "FIRST TIM E."
I N STA NT. THEY TRA N S PORT U S A N D PROVOKE THAT
PRODIGA LITY OF THE LOSS OF SE LF. . . • DRAGG I NG A TEXT M U ST BE S E E N AS THE
C A PT U R E O F P H R A S E S . CITATIONS. FO R M U LAS.
THIS THEME OF JOUISSANCE BORDERS ON OTHE R F R A G M E N T S . T H E T H E M E OF S H O R T W R I T I N G .
TH E M ES. F O R EXAM PLE T H E T H E M E NOT OF DRUGS OBVIOUSLY. W H E N I T R Y T O PRODUCE T H I S SHORT
STRICTLY SPEAKI NG. BUT OF "DRUGG I NG." OR OF W R I T I N G B Y F R A G M ENTS. I PUT M Y S E L F IN THE
CERTA I N FORM S OF PERVERSION. POSITION OF A N A UTHOR WHOSE READER GOES
DRAGGING. I T I S THE LUCK OF T H E GAME. BUT A

... TEXTS OF J O U I S S A N C E ARE A V A NT-G A R D E M U C H S O U G H T- A FT E R L U C K . M U C H THOUGHT

TEXTS. THAT I S T O S A Y TEXTS NOT O N TH E S I D E O F ABOUT; S P I E D O N . I N A WAY.

T H E PROBABLE. HOWEVER I N C E NDIARY I T MA Y BE-I

TH I N K OF SA D E FOR E X A M PLE (ONE M I GHT BE PERVERSION

T E M PTED TO PLACE SADE A MONG TH E TEXTS OF

J O U I S SA N C E . WHERE IN MANY R E S PECTS HE "PERVERSION. QUITE S I M PLY. I S A WAY OF BEING
B E L O N G S. N O T B EC A U S E H E S P E A K S ABOUT H A PPY."
JOUISSANCE. B U T BY T H E W A Y H E SPEAKS OF IT!. I N
SPITE O F EVERYTHI NG. T H E SADIAN TEXT. BECAUSE IN THE FRAG M E NT FROM WHICH THIS PHRASE IS
IT IS S U B M I TT E D TO T H E CONSTR A I N T OF T H E TA KEN. I CITED THE WORD "PERVERSION" A FTER
EPOCH. TO THE C O D E OF THE PROBABLE. R E M A I N S A TWO ALLUSIONS TO HASHISH A N D HOMOSEXUALITY.
TEXT OF PLEA S U R E. THE TEXT OF JOUISSANCE H A S W H I C H M E A N S THAT H E R E "PERVERSION" DOES NOT
T O BE I N A SENSE U N R EADABLE. IT MUST COME A S A HAVE A PSYC HOA N A LYTIC R I GO U R-S I N C E FOR
JERK. NOT ONLY TO O U R REGISTER OF I M AGES A N D P S Y C H O A N A L Y S I S D R U G S A R E N OT ST R I CT L Y
IMAGI NATION. BUT ON T H E LEVEL OF LANGUAGE CLASSIBLE A S P E R V E R SIONS. PERVERSION I S THE
ITSELF . . •
SEA RCH FOR A P L E A S U R E THAT C A N NOT BE
T U R N E D TO THE PROFIT OF SOC I A L E N DS O R THE
I N FACT IT'S D I F F I C U LT TO EXPLA I N B E C A U S E . SPEC I E S. IT IS. FOR E X A M PLE. THE PLEASURE OF
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VOLU PTU A R I E S P R A C T I S E D G R A T U I TO U S LY. THE W H I C H TOU C H E S ON A NOTH ER T H E M E OF CONSI·

TH E M E OF PRODIGA L I TY. DERABLE I NTEREST TO M E AT THE MOM ENT. THAT OF

THE I M A G I N A RY. A S A MATTER OF FACT. T H E RB. IS

N E V E RTHELESS. A PSYCH O A N A LYTIC SPECI FICITY SOMETH I NG OF A TURNING POINT B E TW E E N

CAN B E RE·INTRODUCED I NTO T H E G E N E R A LITY OF FETI S H I ST TH I N K I NG A N D T H I N K I NG THE I M A G I N A RY.

THE TERM. THUS. A CCOR D I N G TO FREUDIAN BECA USE OF THAT. ONE COULD CONSI D E R RB. B Y

THOUGHT. ONE OF THE MAJOR P E R V E R SIONS IS H I M SELF AS B E I NG A CH ASTER BOOK T H A N THE

FETI S H I S M (TH E M E THAT C A N B E FOU N D I N THE W I S H PLEASU R E OF T H E TEXT: S I NCE TH E R E I S N O T T H E

FOR SEGMENTED WRITINGI. AND IN SO FAR AS. PROBLEM O F J O U I SSA N C E W H I C H P R E DO M I NATES.

PSYCHOANA LYT I C A L LY. P E R V E R S I O N I S D I VORC E D BUT TH A T O F TH E I M AGE. OF THE I M AGI N A RY.

FROM N E U ROSIS. FREUDIAN THOUGHT PUTS

E M PHASIS O N T H E FACT THAT T H E P E RVERT IS. ON WHAT I N T E R ESTS M E AT THE PRESENT M O M E N T IS

THE WHOLE. A H A P P Y P E R SON. TH E FIELD OF THE I M A G I N A RY. GIVEN ITS FI RST

PRODUCTION I N RB. BY H I M SELF. AND I'M BEGI N N I N G

ALL I H AVE DO N E SINCE THE BDOK ON JAPAN A S E M I N A R AT TH E ECOLE DES H A U TES ETUDES O N

I NCLUDING C E RTA I N FRAGM ENTS FROM RB. BY THE LA NGUAGE OF LOVE. W H I C H F O R M E I S LI N K E D

H I M SELF. IS UNDER THE SIGN OF A SORT OF EVEN MORE CLOSELY W I TH PROBLEMS OF TH E

PERVERSE WRITI NG. I MAGINA RY.

P E R V E RSION. BY WAY OF F E T I S H I S M . I M PL I E S A ROLA ND B A RT H E S

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Xci> ELSEWH E R E I OON'T OBVIOUSLY PAY TOO M UCH

ATTENTION TO M Y LISTE N E RS. I F SOME OF YOU WERE

HERE LAST TI M E . ( A N D IT WOU L D S U R P R I S E M E IF

XE
TH E R E ARE N OTI. YOU WILL REMEMBER THAT I

SPOKE OF SOM ETH I NG TO DO WITH A S U M MATION OF

THE BORRO M E A N KNOT. ONE CHAIN IN THREE: I F

(. . .J LATE FOR THE FI RST T I M E . . . O N E R I N G W E R E DETAC H E D FROM T H I S C H A I N . THE

OTH E R TWO WOULD NOT HOLD TOGETH E R FOR O N E

EXC U S E ME. T H I S I S TH E FI RST TIME THAT I A M FIVE I N STANT LONGER: I A M FORCED T O EXPLA I N W H Y

M I N UTES LATE. YOU ARE H E R E . I AM ALSO H E R E AND TH I S COMES A BOUT AS. AFTER A L L I A M N O T S U R E

T H IS I S GOOD • . . GOOD FOR YOU. BY THIS I MEAN THAT. G I V E N A L L T H E F U S S . S I M PLE AS IT I S. THIS I S

THAT I FEEL A B N O R M A L L Y GOOD. U N D E R TH E ENOUGH (FOR • • . 1. TH I S I S T O SAY. A QUESTION

I N FLUENCES OF A SLIGHT TEM PERATU RE A N D SOME CONC E R N I NG THE CONDITION. AS I H A D SA I D. OF

DR UGS. I F A L L OF A SUDDEN TH IS SET-UP EVER THE U NCONSC I O U S. WHICH I S TO SAY A QU ESTION

CHANGED. I WOULD HOPE THAT THOSE WHO HAVE POSED A BOUT WHAT I S LANGUAGE.

BEEN L I STE N I N G TO ME FOR SO M E TI M E W I LL

EXPLA I N TO THE I N ITIATES THAT TH I S IS THE FI RST

ACTUALLY. THERE I S A QU ESTION THAT R E M A I N S
T I M E IT HAS HAPPENED TO M E.
U N S ETTLED. DOES LANGUAGE HAVE TO BE

APPROAC H E D I N ITS G R A M MAR. I N W H I C H C A S E . IT I S

SOl I AM GOI NG TO TRY TH I S E V E N I NG TO LIVE UP TO
C E RTA I N THAT. IT C O M E S FROM A TOPOLOGY.
YOU R EXPECTATIONS. ESPEC I A LLY SINCE I SAID

THAT I AM HAVING FUN: I F I CONTI N U E SPEAKING IN

-WHAT I S A TOPOLOGY1
TH E SA M E TON E IT I S NOT S I M PLY FORCED. YOU

SHOULD EXC U S E ME. T H I S SHALL NOT BE CAUSED

-WHArs IN 1T1
BY MY ABNOR M A L STATE: RATHER IT SHALL BE

WITH I N THE LI N E OF WHAT I I NTENDED TO SAY TO

YOU. -WHAT I S A TOPOLOGY1

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-AH . WHAT IS A TOPOLOGY? HOW N I C E T H I S PERSON DIVERSE G R A M MATI C A L F U NCTIONS.

lSI A TOPOLOGY I S A THING THAT HAS A MATHE­

MATICAL D E F I N I TI O N ; IT IS THIS WHICH FI RSTLY

IT SEE M S TO ME THAT THERE IS ALREADY AN
COMES ON TO ITSELF. ( A N D) BY TH E NON-METRIC
OBSTACLE I N CONCEI VING TH I NGS LIKE TH IS. THAT
RE LATIONS.
I S THAT ONE I S OBLIGED TO PUT U N D E R THE SAME

TERM V E R BS AND VERY DIFFERENT TY P E S OF

-WHAT DOES THIS M E A N ? ACTIONS. WHY DOES LANGUAGE ASSEMBLE U N D E R

TH E SA M E CATEGORY FU NCTIONS W H I C H C A N ONLY

BY THE DISTORTED R E LATIONS. T H I S IS. STRICTLY BE CO N C E I V E D OF IN TH E I R ORIGIN UNDER

SPEAKI NG. A CASE O F THOSE K I N DS OF SUPPLE DIFFERENT E M ERGING MODES?

CI RCLES WHICH CONSTITUTED M Y "I D E M A N D YOU TO

D E N Y ME THAT WHICH I OFFER YOU;" EACH ONE IS A N EVERTHELESS. THE QUESTION STAYS SUSPEN DED;

CLOSED TH I N G. S U PPLE. A N D W H I C H O N LY HOLDS IT IS C E RTAIN THAT THERE WOULD BE SOM ETH I N G

TO BE CHA I N E D TO OTH E R S . N OT H I N G HOLDS INFI NITELY SATI SFYI NG IN CO N S I D E R I N G THAT

TOGETH E R A L O N E . TH I S TOPOLOGY. F R O M THE FACT LANGUAGE IS IN SOM E WAY MODELED ON THE

OF ITS . . . OF ITS MATHEMATICAL I N S E RTION. I S TIED FUNCTIONS THAT A R E S U PPOSED T O BE PHYSICAL

TO THE RELATIONS-AND R I G HT. THIS IS WHAT REA LITY. E V E N I F TH I S REA LITY I S ONLY (ATTA I N ­

SERVED TO D E M ON STRATE M Y LAST S E M I N A R-IS A B L E ) THROUGH THE BI A S OF A MATH E MATICAL

T IED TO THE R E LATIONS OF PURE S I G N I FYI NG. THAT FUNCTIO N A L I ZATION.

IS THAT IT I S TO TH E EXTENT THAT THESE TH REE

TERMS ARE THREE THAT WE SEE ( T H AT) THE FOR MY PART WHAT I AM IN TH E COU R S E OF
PRESENCE OF T H E T H I RD. THAT I S . BETWE EN THE
A DVA N C I N G TO YOU IS SOM ETH I N G WHICH IS
OTH E R TWO. I S A R ELATION. THAT THIS I S WHAT IS RADICALLY ATTACH E D TO T H E P U RELY TOPOLOGI­
MEANT BY T H E BOR RO M E A N KNOT. CAL O R I G I N OF LANGUAGE. I TH I N K I A M ABLE TO

TAKE ACCOUNT OF THIS TOPOLOGICAL OR I G I N BY

THE FACT THAT IT IS E S S E NTI A LLY TI E D TO

TH E R E IS A N OTH E R WAY TO A PP ROACH THIS
SOM ETH I NG WHICH H A P P E N S TO THE SPEAKING
LA N G U A G E -A N D OF COURSE THE TH I N G IS
B E I NG UNDER THE BIAS OF S E X U A LITY. IS TH E
P R E S E NT. IT IS P R E S E NT IN THE FACT THAT
SPEA K I N G BEING SPEAKING BECA USE OF SOM E­
SOM EONE. SOMEONE THAT I H A V E QUOTED. WHICH I T
TH ING WHICH HAPPENS TO SEXUA LITY OR DOES THE
TU R N S OUT I QUOTED A FTE R J A KOBSON D I D A N D
SOMETH I N G HA PPEN TO SEXUA LITY BECAUSE H E IS
THAT. AS IT T U R N S O U T I H A D KNOWN FROM BEFORE
A SPEA K I N G B E I NG. THIS I S THE A F FA I R I N WHICH I
• . . N A M ELY SOM E O N E N A M E D RENE THOM. A N D THIS
ABSTA I N FROM TREA D I NG. LEAVI NG IT UP TO YOU.
SOM EO N E TRIES AND C E R TA I N LY N OT WITHOUT

HAVING ALREADY FRAYED OR F A C I L I TA T E D

CERTA I N PATHS. TO A P P ROACH T H E QUESTION OF TH E FU N D A M E N TAL SC H E M E OF WHAT THIS IS

LANGUAGE UNDER THE S E M A NTIC BIAS. THAT IS A BOUT WHICH I WILL TRY TO PUSH A LITTLE

NOT FROM THE S I G N I FYI NG COMBI NATION. IN AS FURTH E R B E FO R E Y O U THIS EVENING IS TH I S : T H E

MUCH AS PURE MATHEMATICS CAN HELP US TO FUNCTION CA LLED SEXUA LITY IS DEFI N E D IN AS

CONCE I V E AS SUCH. BUT UNDER THE SEMANTIC M U C H A S WE KNOW SOMETH I NG ABOUT IT. A N D WE

ANGLE.THAT I S TO SAY NOT WITHOUT RESORTING KNOW A LITTLE ABOUT IT A FTER A L L IF ONLY FROM

A LSO TO M A TH E M A T I C S TO FIND. TO FIND IN EXPERI ENCE; WE KNOW FOR EXAMPLE THAT T H E

CERTA I N CU RVES. LET US SAY. C E RTA I N FORMS. I S E X E S A R E TWO.

WOULD A DD. A R E D E D U C E D FROM THESE C U RVES;

SOMETH I NG WHICH WOU L D P E R M I T US TO CONCEIVE NO MATTE R WHAT A R E NOWNED AUTHOR TH I N KS

OF LA NGUAGE AS. LErS SAY. SOM ETH I N G LIKE T H E ABOUT IT-A R E N OWN E D A UTHOR WHO I MUST SAY I N
E C H O OF P H Y S I C A L P H E N O M E N A . H E R TI M E . B E FORE S H E BROUGHT OUT TH I S BOOK

CALLED THE SECOND SEX. H A D BELIEVED. BECAUSE

F R O M TH I S E X A M P LE. I N T H A T WHICH I S P U R E L Y A N D OF SOM E U N KNOWN (TO M E ) ORIENTATION (BECAUSE

S I M P LY COM U N ICATION (OF) P H E NOMENA OF TO TELL THE TRUTH I H A D NOT YET STARTED TO

RESONANCE W H I C H WOU L D B E E L A BORATED (BY) TEACH A N YT H I NG) H A D BELIEVED SHE R E F E R R E D

C U RVES WHICH IN ORDER TO HAVE VALUE IN A T O ME B E F O R E S H E P U T O U T THE SECOND SEX. S H E

C E RTA I N ORDER OF FUNDAM ENTAL R E LATIONS. C A L L E D M E O N THE TELE PHONE T O SAY T O M E T H A T

WOU LD SECO N D A R I LY RESSEMBLE. AND HOMO­ ASSUREDLY S H E H A D N E E D O F MY COUNSEL TO

GENIZE SO AS TO BE TA K E N IN THE SAME CLARIFY WHAT SHOULD HAVE BEEN THE PSYCHO­

PA R E N T H E S I S . FROM WHICH WO U L D R E S U LT ANALYTIC T R I B UTA RY TO HER WOR K. A S I POINTED

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OUT TO H E R THAT IT WOULD H A V E TO BE AT LEAST­ W H A T DO W E H A V E . W H A T WE A R E R E F E R R I N G TO

AT BOTTOM TH I S IS A M I N I M U M S I NCE I HAVE B E E N AND D O N 'T BELIEVE THAT TH I S GOES W I THOUT

SPEA K I NG FOR 20 YEARS AND TH I S IS NOT S A Y I NG. W H A T W E A R E REFERRING TO. I S I F I M IGHT

ACC I D E NTA L - !5 O R 6 MONTHS BEFORE I COULD SAY. T H E S U PPOS E D ANIMAL MODEL. WE H A V E FOR

STRA IGHTEN OUT TH I S Q U E STION FOR H E R. SHE TH E R E LATION BETWEEN THE SEXES THE A N I M A L

MADE THE OBSE RVATION TO M E THAT IT WOULD NOT IMAGE OF COPULATION T H A T S E E M S T O U S TO

B E NORMAL THAT A BOOK. W H I C H BESIDES H A V I NG F U R N I S H A S U F F IC I E N T MODEL OF WHAT T H E R E I S

A L R E A DY B E E N IN P R E P A R ATION. SHOULD TAKE SO T O T H I S R E LATIO N SH I P A N D AT TH E S A M E TI M E O F

LONG; THE LAWS OF LITE RARY PRODUCTION A R E W H A T TH E R E I S ( O F TH E ) S E X U A L CON S I D E R E D AS

S U C H THAT T H E Y S E E M E D T O H A V E D E N I E D H E R T H E N E ED.

POSS I B I L I TY OF HAVING MORE THAN 3 OR 4

I NTERVI EWS WITH ME. FOLLOWI N G TH I S . I DEC L I N E D I T I S NOT TH E R E . FAR FROM IT. B E L I E V E M E . WHAT
THE HONOR. HAS A LWAYS BEEN T H E WAY IT WAS. I DO NOT N E E D

TO RECALL WHAT "TO K N OW" M EA N S IN TH E

TH E BASIS OF WHAT I H A V E FOR SOME TIME BEEN B I B L I C A L S E N S E OF THE WORD. SI NCE A LWAYS THE

BRINGING OUT FOR YOU I S P R ECISELY TH I S THAT R E LI' T l O N OF THE NOUS TO SO M ET H I NG WHICH

TH E R E IS NO SECON D SEX. THAT TH E R E IS NO E X PE R I E NC E S ITS P A S S I VE I M PRI NT. WHAT IS

SECOND SEX F ROM THE MOMENT IN WHICH C A L L E D V A R IOUSLY B U T A S S U R E D LY WHOSE MOST

LANGUAGE ENTERS I NTO FU NCTION . OR. TO PUT COMMON G R E E K DENOM I N ATION IS THAT OF HYLE .

OTH E R W I S E TH E THI NGS CONCERNING WHAT IS H A S A LWAYS B E E N C A L L E D T H E MODE. T H E MODE

CALLED H ETEROSEX U A L I TY. IT I S PRECISELY THIS. OF R E LATION WHICH I S E N G E N D E R E D FROM S P I R I T

THAT THE WO R D HETEROS. W H ICH I S THE TERM A N D THAT H A S B E E N CON S I D E R E D A S MODELING

WHICH M E A N S OTH ER. I N G R E E K . IS PRECI S E LY. I N NOT AT A L L S I M PLY THE A N I MA L R E LATION S H I P. BUT

THIS POSITION. I N T H E R E LATION THAT IS CALLED TH E F U N D A M ENTAL MODE OF BEING OF WHAT ONE

SEXUAL I N TH E SPEA K I NG B E I NG. TO E M PTY ITSELF HOLDS TO B E TH E WORLD. THE C H I N ES E . IN TH I S

I N AS MUCH A S IT I S B E I NG. IT I S PRECISELY FROM C A S E . A P P E A L T O SOM ETH I N G W H I C H I S W R I TT E N AS

TH I S E M PTINESS THAT IT OFFERS TO THE S POKEN FOLLOWS.

WORD WHAT I CALL THE LOC U S OF THE OTH E R .

N A M E LY T H A T I N W H I C H I S I N SC R I BED TH E EFFECTS

OF THIS SPOKEN WORD. I AM NOT GOING TO

EMBELLISH T H I S B ECA USE A FT E R ALL THAT WOULD

DELAY U S FROM S E V E R A L ETYMOLOGICAL R E FER­

ENCES; HOW. H ETEROS WHICH IS SAID IN CERTA I N

G R E E K D I A LECTS WHOSE N A M E S I W I L L SPA R E YOU. THE C H I N ES E FOR A LONG TI M E A PP E A L E D TO TWO

(RALLIES THE) DE UTEROS. AND EXACTLY MARKS F U N D A M E NTAL ESSENCES WHICH ARE R E S PEC­

THAT THIS DE UTEROS I S . I N T H I S C A S E I F I MAY SAY T I V E LY-I PUT A BO V E THE FEM I N I N E ESSENCE.

SO. PASSED OVER. (WH AT) I S C A L L E D Y I N I N O R D E R T O O P POSE IT TO

YANG.

IT I S CLEAR THAT T H I S C A N SEEM SU R P R I S I NG. IT I S

OBVIOUS T H A T F O R S O M E TI M E. S U C H A N D S U C H A I F THERE WAS A N A R TI C U LATABLE R E LATION ON

FO R M U LA (AND IN TRUTH. IF I SAY FOR SOME T I M E IT THE S E X U A L LEV E L. IF TH E R E WAS AN A RTICU LAT­

I S THAT I DO NOT KNOW WHETHER THERE WAS A N A B L E R E LATION IN THE S P E A K I N G BEI NG. M UST IT.

I N DICATION OF A T I M E I N W H I C H IT W A S A FOR M U LA ) . A N D TH I S IS THE Q U E STION. D I STI N G U I S H ITSELF

SUCH A FO R M U L A IS P R E C I S ELY WHAT IS NOT FROM ALL THOSE O F T H E SAME SEX. AND EXPRESS

KNOW N . I N E V E RTHELESS C LA I M AND I UNDE RLI N E ITSELF TO ALL THOSE OF TH E OTH E R ? THIS IS

THAT WHAT YO U S E E I N THE DI AGRAM I S (EVE RY­ E V I D E N T FROM TH E IDEA SUGGESTED BY THE POINT

TH ING) THAT THE PSYCHOA N A LYTIC EXPE R I ENCE W H E R E W E ARE. BY T H E REFERENCE TO WHAT I'VE

BRINGS US. CALLED T H E A N I M A L M O D E L. THE A PTITUDE I F I C A N

PUT I T TH I S W A Y . O F E A C H F R O M O N E S I D E T O COUNT

FOR A LL T H E OTH E R S FROM THE OTH E R SIDE.

FOR TH IS. LET US R E M E M B E R ON WHAT R ESTS WHAT

WE CAN HAVE OF TH E C O N C E PT I O N . -NOT O F

H ETEROS E X U A L ITY. SI NCE THIS IS VERY WELL YOU SEE. THEN. THAT TH E STATEMENT I S P ROM U L­

NAMED. I F Y O U FOLLOW WHAT I JUST A DVA NCED­ GATED ACCOR D I N G TO THE SEMANTIC FORM

BUT (OF) B I S E X U A LITY. AT T H E POINT WH E R E WE ARE S I GN I FYI NG T H E U N I VE R S A L. R E PLAC I NG I N WHAT I

I N O U R STATE M E N T CONC E R N I NG TH I S SEXUA LITY. S A I D EACH O N E BY A N Y O N E AT ALL. OR BY NO MATTER

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THESE S I DES. WE WOU LD BE COM P LETELY IN THE I N THE B E HAVIOR WHICH I S E FFECTIVELY HERD- L I K E
ORDER OF W H AT. WHAT WOULD BE CALLED. I N T H E R E LATIONS H I P B ETWEEN TH E SEXES. I H A V E
S U GG ESTS ( R E C OG N I Z E IN THIS C O N D I T I ON A L ALREADY STRESSED T H A T I N SO-CALLED SEX U A L

SOM ETH I NG W H I C H M Y D I SCOU R S E ECHOES WHICH H U NTING OR C R U I S I N G . B O Y S STI M U LATE TH E M ­

WOU L D NOT BE A S E M B LA NC E ) [T H I S IS T H E TITLE O F SELVES. A N D AS FOR G I RLS. TH E Y LOVE T O DOUBLE

M Y S E M I N A R NO. 2 1 ( m A N D W ELLI I N R EPLACING THEMSE LVES. IN AS M UC H A S T H I S ADVANCES

THI S EACH ONE B Y A NYON E AT ALL. W E WOULD B E IN THEM. OF COU RSE. IT I S A N ETHOLOGICAL REMARK

TH I S I NDETE R M I N ACY OF WHAT I S CHOSEN IN EACH THAT I MAKE HERE. BUT WHICH SOLVES NOTH I N G

EVERY TO RESPOND TO EVERY OTH E R . BECAUSE I T S UFFICES T O R E FLECT ON TH I S TO S E E

I N THI S A N A M B IGUOUS I LLUSION W H I C H CAN NOT

T H E E A C H ONE T H A T I HAVE U S E D FI RST HAS TH E UPHOLD ITSELF FOR LONG.

EFFECT OF RECA LLING TO US THAT TH E EFFECTIVE

R ELATION S H I P IS NOT W I TH O U T EVO K I N G T H E TO BE MORE I NS I STENT H E R E AND TO HOLD MYSELF

HORIZON O F O N E T O ON E T O EACH H I S OWN EACH. AT THE L E V E L OF T H E MOST FUNDAM ENTAL

AND THIS B I U N I VOCAL CORRESPO NDENCE. ECHOES EXPERI E NCE. I WANT TO STAY CLOSE-CUT TO THE

TO WHAT WE KNOW TO BE E S S E N TI A L TO TH E GROUND. TO TH E ANA LYTICAL EXPERI E NCE. I W I L L

PRESENTATION OF N U M B ERS. R E M I N D Y O U T H A T TH E IMAGINARY I S WHAT WE

R ECON S T I T U T E IN THE ANIMAL M O D E L. WE

NB: W E CANNOT F ROM T H E START E LI M I NATE THE RECONSTITUTE I T ACCORDING TO OUR OWN IDEA. OF

EXISTENCE OF THESE TWO D I M ENSIONS. AND ONE COURSE: B ECAU S E IT IS CLEAR THAT WE CAN ONLY

CAN EVEN SAY THAT THE ANIMAL MODEL IS RECONSTRUCT THROUGH OBSE RVATION. BUT ON

P R E C I S E LY WHAT S UGGESTS TH E ANIMALIC THE CONTRARY. WE HAVE A N EXPERIENCE OF T H E

PHA NTASM. I F W E WOU LD NOT H A V E T H I S A N I M A L I MAGINA RY. A N EXPERI ENCE WHICH IS NOT E A S Y

MODEL. OR E V E N I F THE CHOICE W E R E B A S E D ON A (BUT W H I C H ) T H E PSYCHOA N A LYST I S ABLE TO

H A PHAZA R D ENCOUNTER. THE B I U N I VOCA L COUP­ INCREASE FOR US. TO SAY THINGS CRUDELY. IT W I L L

LING IS WHAT A PPEARS TO US OF IT. N A M E LY TH E R E NOT SEEM DIFFICULT. I T S E E M S T O ME. T O M A K E

A R E O N L Y T W O A N I MA LS W H I C H COUPLE TOGETHER. U N DERSTOOD T H A T I F I M A I NTAIN (I CALL T H I S

WE WOU LD NOT HAVE TH I S ESSENTI A L D I M ENSION CRUDELY. I T I S N O T C R UDE. RATH ER IT I S C R U EL.

WHICH CONSI STS VERY P R E C I S E LY IN TH E FACT AND WELLI MY GOD. ) THAT IN EVERY SEXUAL

THAT TH E E N CO U N T E R IS U N IQ U E . IT IS NO E NCOU N T E R . I F TH E R E IS S O M ETH I N G THAT

ACC IDENT I F I S A Y THAT IT I S EXACTLY FROM THIS. PSYCHOANALYSIS ALLOWS M E TO ADVANCE. I T I S

A N D FROM TH I S ALONE THAT TH E A N I M A L MODE L IS SOME VAGU E OUTLI NE OF ANOTH ER P RESENCE FOR

AROUSED. LETS C A L L TH I S THE ENCOUNTER OF WH ICH. MY GOD. TH E V U LGAR TERM OF FREE-FOR­

SOUL TO SOU L. ALL (ORGY) IS NOT A BSOLUTELY EXCLUDED. THI S

REFERENCE IN ITS E LF CONTA I N S NOTH I N G

WHOEVER K N OWS THE CONDITIONS OF THE DECISIVE S I NC E AFTER A L L ON E COULD ASSU M E A

SPEAKING B E I NG. I S NOT TO B E ASTO N I S H E D I N A N Y SERIOUS A I R A N D SAY THAT IT IS PRECISELY THE

C A S E T H A T THE ENCOUNTER ON T H I S B A S I S SERVES STIGMA O F A NOMALY. AS I F NORMAL, OR SIM PLY:

P R EC I S E LY TO BE REPEATED A S U N IQUE. THERE I S THE NORMAL WAS LOCATED SOM EWHERE.

NO N E E D H E R E T O B R I NG B A C K I NTO PLAY A N Y

D I M E N S I ON OF THE V I RTUOUS. IT I S THE VERY IT IS CERTA I N THAT I N A DVANC I NG THI S TE RM. THE

N E C E S S I T Y O F W H A T I N T H E S PE A K I N G B E I NG ONE I JUST P I N N E D-DOW N WITH T H I S BANAL N A M E . I

PRODUCES ITSELF OF THE U N IQUE. TO REPEAT CERTA I N LY D I D NOT S E E K TO VI BRATE IN YOU TH E

ITSELF. I T I S P R E C I S E LY IN THIS SENSE THAT IT I S EROTIC LYRE. IF S I M PLY THIS HAS A SMALL VALUE

O N L Y TH E A N I M A L M O D E L T H A T S U STA I N S ITSELF OF AWA K E N I NG. I F TH I S G I VES YOU AT LEAST THIS

AND A RO U S E S TH E PHANTASM THAT WE H A V E DIM ENSION. NOT THAT FROM WH ICH COM ES AN ECHO

C A L L E D A N I M A LIC. O F COU RSE. THE R E A R E ROYAL OF EROS. BUT S I M PLY O F THE P U R E DIMENSION OF

BASTA RDS. AND TH E R E ARE SOME FOR WHOM TH E REA L. I A M CERTA I N LY NOT HERE TO A M U S E

LANGUAGE DO E SN'T EXI ST. (BUT) IT I S OBVIOUSLY YOU IN THIS STRA I N .

NOT THESE WHO I NTEREST U S I N TH E ANALYTICAL

FI ELD. B U T LET US T R Y NOW T O C U T A W A Y A T WHAT THE

K I N S H I P OF THE U N I V E R SA LITY HAS TO DO WITH OUR

WHAT GIVES THE I LL U S I O N OF THE SEXUAL AFFAI R. NAM ELY THE STAT E M E N T BY WH I C H

R E LATION S H I P IN TH E SPEAKING BEI NG. IS OBJ ECTS SHOULD BE D I STRI BUTED I N TWO WHOLES

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OF O P POSED EQUIVALENCES. I HAVE J U ST NOTED TO R ETI R E I N ORDER TO A LLOW T H I S DEATH. ITS

FOR YOU THAT HERE THERE IS NO PLACE TO PO L I T I C A L SIGNIFICANCE. TH I S IS S I M PLY A

D E M A N D THE EQUAL D I STRI BUTION OF I N DI V I DUA LS. D I M E N SION FOR TH E I N D ICATION CONC E R N I NG

THAT I REMAIN HERE AND HAVE BEEN ABLE TO EXACTLY W H E R E THE Q U E STION L I E S THAT WE A R E

S U P PORT MY D I SCOU RSE ON THE B I U N I VOCITY OF R A I S I NG.

THE COUPLI N G . TH E R E ARE OR RATH E R TH E R E

MIGHT B E TWO U N I V E RSALS D E F I N E D J U ST B Y T H E I HAVE SAID THAT I F W E C A N SAY THAT THERE I S NO

ESTA B L I S H M E N T OF THE POS S I B I L I T Y OF A S E X U A L R E LATION. TH I S I S ASSUREDLY NOT IN ALL
RELATIONSH I P OF ONE TO A NOTHER. OF THE OTH E R I N N OC E N C E . IT IS B E C A U S E TH E EXPERI ENCE.
TO ONE. TH I S R E LA T I O N S H I P H A S A B SOLUTE LY N A M E LY A MODE O F D I SCOURSE W H I C H I S S U R E LY
NOTH I N G TO DO WITH WHAT I S O R D I N A R I LY CALLED N E V E R THAT OF THE HYSTERIC W H I C H IS BUT THE
SEXUAL R E LATON SHI PS. O N E HAS A WHOLE LOT OF ONE W H I C H I H A V E I N SC R I B E UNDER A Q U A D R U P A L
R E L A T I O N S H I PS TO TH E S E R E LATION S H I P S A N D D I V I S I O N ' A S BEING T H E A N A LYTI C A L D I SCOURSE.
ABOUT T H E S E R E LA T I O N S H I P S . ONE A LSO HAS AND WHICH COM E S OUT OF TH I S D I SCOURSE I S THE
SEVE R A L S M A L L RELATION S H I PS: T H I S TA KES U P H E R E T O FO R E U NEVOKED D I M E N SION OF THE
OUR WORDLY L I F E . B U T AT T H E LEVEL WH E R E I P H A L L I C FUNCTION.
PLACE MYSELF. IT IS A QU ESTION OF BASING THESE

RELATIONSH I PS WITH I N U N I V E R SALS.

IT IS N A M ELY THIS SOM ETH I N G BY WHICH THIS

S E X U A L R E LATION S H I P DOES NOT C H A R ACTE R I ZE

HOW DOES U N I V E RSAL MAN R E LATE H I M SELF TO
AT L E A ST ONE OF THESE TWO T E R M S. MORE
U N I V E RSA L WOMAN. TH I S IS THE QUESTION AND
P R EC I S E LY T H E TERM ATTACH E D T O T H E WORD: THE
TH I S I S T H E Q U E STION W H I C H I M POSES ITSELF O N
O N E . -HOW LONG I S I T GOING TO LAST1-IT I S NOT
US B Y T H E FACT THAT LANGUAGE D E M A N DS VERY
FROM ITS POSITION (OF ONE' WHICH WOULD BE
PREC I S E LY THAT IT B E FOU N D E D FROM H E R E : IF
REDUCIBLE TO TH I S SOM ETH I N G THAT I S CALLED
THERE WERE NO LA NGUAGE. THERE WOULD NO
E I TH E R MALE. O R I N C H I N ESE TE R M I NOLOGY THE
LONG E R B E A N Y QUESTION EITHER. AND WE WOU L D
YANG ESSENCE. IT I S P R EC I SELY ON THE CONTRARY
NOT H A V E T O B R I NG I NTO PLAY TH E U N I VERSAL.
OWING TO T H I S W H I C H A FTER A L L M E RITS TO BE
YESI TH I S R E LATION C A N P R E C I SELY RE-ENTER T H E
RECALLED. TO A C E N TU A TE THE M E A N I NG. TH E
OT H E R W H I C H I S ABSOLUTELY FOREIGN T O W H A T
H I D D E N M E A N I N G BECA U S E IT COMES TO US FROM
COULD H A V E B E E N H E R E P U R E LY AND S I M PLY AS
A F A R . OF THE TERM ORGAN. IT I S EXACTLY T H I S
ACC E S S O R Y . WHAT PERHAPS TO N I G H T WOULD
W H I C H I S ONLY A N O RG A N . T O ACCENTUATE THI NGS.
FORCE M E T O ACCENTUATE THE CAPITAL O. BY
AGA I N . A TOOL IT I S A RO U N D T H E TOOL THAT THE
WHICH I DESIG NATE THE OTH E R AS E M PTY. AS
A N A LYTI C A L EXPERIENCE I NC I T E S US TO SEE
SOMETH I N G OF S U P P L E M E N TA R I TY. AN H. THE
T U R N I N G E V E R YTH I NG THAT I S S A I D B Y T H E S E X U A L
HOTH ER. WHICH WOU LD NOT BE A B A D W A Y OF
R ELATION. AND TH I S IS A N O V E LTY. THIS IS
GETTING ACROSS THE D I M E N S I O N OF HATE W H I C H
E V ERYTH I N G W H I C H A N S W E R S TO T H E E M ERGENCE
CAN H E R E ENTER I NTO P L A Y . O R FOR US T O NOTICE
OF A DI SCOURSE WHICH A S S U R E DLY H A S NEVER
(WH E N ' FOR E X A M PLE. EVE RYT H I NG WE H A V E OF
YET COME TO LIGHT AND W H I C H C A N NOT CONC E I V E
P H I LOS O P H I C A L CONCOCTI O N DOES N OT . BY
OF ITSELF BY PRIOR E M E RG E N C E FROM TH E
CHANCE. CO M E FROM ONE CALLED SOC R AT E S
D I SC O U R S E OF SC I E N C E IN SO FAR AS IT IS THE
M A N I FE STLY H YSTE R I C A L . I MEAN TO SAY.
I N SERTION OF LANGUAGE OVER THE MATHE MATI­
C L I N I C A L LY H YSTE R I C A L: WE WOULD H A V E TH E
CAL R E A L.
RELATIONSH I P OF THESE C A TA L E P T I C ( . . . ,

MANI FESTATI ONS OF THE ONE CALLED SOCRATES.

I H A V E S A I D THAT WHAT IN THE R E LATIONSH I P O F
I F H E COULD HOLD A D I SCOU R S E WHICH I S NOT FOR
B E I NG I S STIGMATIZED I N THE D E E PLY S U BVERTED
NOTH I N G AT THE ORIGIN OF THE DISCOU RSE OF
LANGUAGE IS P R EC I S E LY THAT TH E R E IS NO
SC I ENCE. IT I S PRECISELY FOR HAVI NG BROUGHT
LONG E R A WAY. HOW N E V E RTHELESS I T I S DON E .
THE PURE S U B J E CT TO THE PLACE OF THE
B U T I N A D I M ENSION W H I C H APPEARS T O US TO BE
SEM BLA NCE. A N D THIS H E COULD DO PRECI S E LY ON
AN I LLUSION. THAT I T C A N NO LONG E R WRITE ITSELF
ACC O U N T OF THIS D I M ENSION WHICH FOR ME
IN TERMS OF M A L E AND FEMALE ESSENCES. WHAT
PRESENTED TH E HOTH E R A S SUCH. N A M E LY T H I S
DOES TH I S MEAN WHEN A FTER A LL. IT I S A L R E A D Y
H A T R E D OF H I S W I FE. T O C A L L IT B Y H E R N A M E . T H I S
W R I TT E N ?
PERSON ( . . . WHO W A S ' H I S W I F E . H I S W I FE T O THE

DEG R E E THAT S H E STA R V E D FOR H I M . THAT H E H A D

TO. AT T H E POI NT OF H I S D E A T H . POLITELY B E G H E R I F I R E J ECT TH I S A N C I E N T W R I T I N G U N TH E N A M E' O F

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TH E A N A LYTIC DISCO U R S E , YOU COULD OBJECT-A EQUALLY THE TWO P A R T N E R S, THE PHA LLIC

MORE THAN VALID O B J ECTI O N -T H A T I MYSELF FUNCTON DOES NOT MAKE THEM D I F F E R E NT, IT

W R I T E I T A LSO, S I N C E I N A N Y C A S E WHAT I J U ST P U T REMAINS N O LESS C L E A R T H A T F I R ST OF A L L THAT

B A C K ONE MORE TI M E O N TH E P A G E I S SOMETH I NG WE MUST SEARCH FOR THE DIFFE R E NCE ELSE­

WHICH CLAI M S TO S U P PO R T A W R I TI N G , THE WHERE.

N ETWORK O F T H E S E X U A L A F F A I R ,

AND IT IS HERE THAT THESE FO R M U LAS M E R IT

NEVERTHELESS, T H I S W R I T I N G ONLY A UTHORIZES QUESTIO N I NG FROM BOTH SI DES; THE LEFT SIDE

ITSE LF, ONLY TA K E S ITS FOR M , FROM A VERY ITSELF OPPOS I N G T H E R I GHT, THE HIGHER LEVEL

SPECIFIC WRITING, N A M ELY WHAT H A S PERMITTED ITSELF OPPOSING T H E LOWER LEVEL; WHAT DOES

THE I N TRODUCTION IN LOGI C OF AN I R R U PTION, TH I S M E A N ? WHAT THIS M E A N S D E S ERVES TO BE

N A M E LY A M A TH E M ATICAL TOPOLOGY. I T I S ONLY SOU NDED, OR I NVESTIGATED; BUT F I RST, I SHALL

FROM THE E X I STENCE O F THE FOR M U LATION OF SHOW HOW THEY C A N D E M O N STRATE A C E RTA I N

TH I S TOPOLOGY THAT WE COULD, FOR ANY SUPPORT.

P R O POS I T I O N , IMAGINE THAT WE C A N MAKE A

PROPOSITION F U NCTIO N . THAT IS TO SAY, SOM E ­ IT IS PLA I N THAT IT IS NOT BEC A U S E I H A VE

T H I N G W H I C H SPECI F I E S I T S E L F F R O M THE E MPTY E M P LO Y E D A FO R M U LA T I O N MADE FROM THE
PLACE THAT O N E LEAVES H E R E A N D IN FUNCTION I R R U PTION OF MATHEMATICS I NTO LOGIC THAT I
OF WHICH TH E A R G U M E NT DETE R M I N E S ITSELF. MYSELF TA KE THIS ALL TOGETH E R IN THE SAME

WAY; M Y FI RST OBSERVATIONS WILL CONSI ST OF

SHOW I NG THAT, I N EFFECT, THE M A N N E R I N WHICH I

H E R E , I CAN POI NT OUT TO YOU PRECI S E LY WHAT I
USE THIS IS SUCH THAT IT IS IN NO WAY
HAVE BOR ROWE D F ROM THE TRADITION OF
T R A N S L ATA B L E IN TERMS OF P R O PO S I T I O N A L
MATHEMATICAL I NSCR I PTION, I N S O FA R A S I T I S
LOGIC. I M E A N THAT MODE I N W H I C H TH E VARIA BLE,
SU BSTITUTED FOR T H E F I R ST FORMS-I DON'T SAY
OR WHAT IS CALLED THE V A R I A BLE, N A M ELY, THAT
FOR M A LI ZATION -OUTL I N E D B Y A R I STOTLE IN HIS
WHICH OCCUPIES A PLACE IN AN A RG U M ENT, IS
SYLLOGISTICS; CONSEQU ENTLY T H I S I N SC R I PTION
SOMETH I NG WHICH H E R E IS COM PLETELY SPEC I F I E D
U N DER THE TERM F U NCTION/A R G U M E N T WOULD BE
BY THE Q U A D R U PL E FORM UNDER WHICH TH E
ABLE TO OFFER US AN EASY TERM TO SPECIFY
RELATION OF TH E ARG U M EN T TO T H E FUNCTION IS
SEXUAL OPPOSITION. WHAT I S REQU I RED? I T WOULD
POSED.
SUFFICE THAT T H E R E S PE C T I V E F U N CTIONS O F

M A LE A N D F E M A L E BE D I STI N G U I S H E D A S Y I N A N D
I N ORDER TO M E RELY I NTRODUCE WHAT IT I S ABOUT,
YANG.
I WILL R E M I N D YOU THAT IN PROPOSITIONAL LOGIC,

WE HAVE AT THE F I RST LEVEL 4 F U N D A M E NTA L

IT IS PRECI SELY BECAUSE TH E F U NCTION IS
R E LA TI O N S : N EGATION, C O N J U N CT I O N , D I S J U NC­
U N IQUE, THAT I T I S A LWAYS A BOUT T H E F OF X, THAT
TION AND I M PLICATION. THERE ARE OTH ERS, BUT
IT I S ENGENDERED, A S YOU KNOW, A S IT I S NOT
THESE CO M E FI RST, AND ALL OTH E R S G O BACK TO
POSSIBLE, FROM THE SOLE FACT THAT YOU A R E
TH EM,
H E R E , T H A T Y O U A T L E AST M UST H A V E A SMALL

I DEA OF WHAT T H E DI FFICULTY OF COPULATION

ITSELF ENGENDE RS,

I M A I NTA I N THAT THE WAY I N W H I C H O U R POSITIONS

OF ARGUMENT A N D FU NCTION ARE WRITTEN ARE

THE oj> O F X A F F I R M S THAT I T I S T R U E -IT I S THE SUCH THAT WHAT I S POSED A S TR UTH CAN ONLY
SENSE GIVEN TO TH E T E R M F U NCTION-THAT WHAT N EGATE BY PASS I N G I N TO T H E REALM OF THE
RE LATES TO T H E E X E RCISE, IN TH E REGISTER OF FALSE PRECISELY WHAT I S UNTENABLE HERE, THIS
THE SEXUAL ACT, COMES FROM TH E PHALLIC I S THE SO-CALLED N EGATI VE RELATION, BECA USE
FU NCTION AGA I N , I T I S PRECISELY I N AS M U C H AS I T AT N O MATTER WHAT LEVEL, LOWER O R H IG H E R , THE
IS A M ATTER OF T H E PHALLIC FU NCTION FROM STATE M E N T OF TH E F U NCTION AS PHALLIC IS
WHATEVER S I D E WE LOOK AT, I M E A N FROM O N E POS E D EITHER AS TRUTH, OR P R E C I S E L Y, AS
SIDE OR FROM THE OTHE R , THAT S O M ETH I N G DEVIATION; BECAUSE AFTE R A LL, THE T R U E TRUTH
SOLICITES U S T O A K S THEN. HOW D O THE TWO WOU LD B E EXACTLY THAT WHICH DOESN'T WRITE
DI FFER, AND T H I S IS PREC I SE LY W H A T THE TWO ITSELF, THAT W H I C H H E R E C A NNOT WRITE ITSELF
FOR M U LA S IN TH E D I A G R A M SAY, EXCEPT IN A FORM WHICH CONTESTS T H E PHALLIC

FU NCTIO N , IT IS NOT TRUE THAT THE PHA LLIC

I F I T I S PROVED FROM THE FACT THAT TO DOM I N ATE FUNCTION IS THE FOU N DATION OF THE SEXUAL

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R E LATION: IN THESE TWO L E V E LS WH I C H STA Y F U NCTI ON. A N D SITUATES H E RSELF T H E R E ONLY A S

I N D E P E N D E NT A S SUCH. IT IS NOT A MATTER AT A L L TH E NOT- A L L TO B E S U B J UGATED.

OF M A K I N G O N E THE N EGATION OF THE OTH E R B U T

ON TH E CONTRARY OF M A K I N G ONE THE OBSTAC L E WHAT IS STRANGE I S T H E THE D I S J U NCTION NO

OF THE OTH E R . AGA I N ST THAT WHICH YOU SEE LONG E R H O L D S : I F YOU R E M E M BER. THE D I S J U NC­
R E D I STRI BUTED: IT I S PRECISELY AN I T T H A T EXI STS TION ONLY TAKES ON VALUE BY VI RTU E OF THE
A N D A N I T THAT DOES NOT EXI ST: IT IS A WHOLE ON FACT THAT TWO PROPOSITIONS CAN NOT B E FALSE
TH E ONE S I DE. AND ALL X. THE DO M A I N OF WHAT IS AT TH E S A M E T I M E: LET U S SAY. OF THE STRONGEST
M A L E D E F I N I N G lTSELF BY THE PHALLIC FU NCTION: OR THE W E A K E ST. I T I S A S S U R E D LY THE STRONGEST
THE DI FFERENCE IN TH E PO S I T I O N OF THE R E LA T I O N IN THAT IT IS WHAT IS THE MOST
A R G U M E NT I N T H E PHA LLIC POSITION O R F U N CTION D I F FI C U LT TO STI R TOGETH ER. BECA USE TH E R E
I S P R E C I S E L Y THAT IT I S NOT EVERY WOMAN W H I C H M U ST B E A M I N I M U M F O R THERE TO B E D I S J U NCTION.
WRITES ITSELF. FAR FROM TH E ONE ITSELF THAT D I S J U NCTION R E N D E R S VALID ONE PROPOSI­
O P POS E D T O T H E OTH E R A S ITS NEGATION. I T I S ON TION TO B E TRUE. TH E OTH E R FALSE. AND THAT OF
TH E CONT R A R Y FROM T H E I R SUBSISTA NCE ( H E R E COURSE BOTH O F THEM ARE TRUE. I HAVE CALLED
VERY POS I T I V E LY D E N I EDI T H A T TH E R E IS AN X T H E O N E TRUE. T H E OTH E R FALSE: I T I S P E RHAPS
W H I C H C A N U PHOLD ITSELF IN THIS R E A L M BEYOND THAT THE ONE IS FALSE. AND THE OTH E R TRUE:
TH E PHA LLIC FU NCTION. AND ON TH E OTH E R H A N D . THERE IS THEN AT L E A ST THREE CASES OF
THAT T H E R E I S N O T ONLY O N E . F O R THE S I M PLE COMBI NATIONS W H ICH TH E DISJU NCTION U PHOLDS.
R E A SON THAT WOM E N C A N NOT BE CASTRATED FOR

TH E BEST OF R E A SONS. THIS I S THE LEVEL OF WHAT

NOW H E R E W E HAVE TWO FUNCTIONS WHICH A R E
IS B LOC K E D P R E C I S E LY FOR US IN THE SEXUAL
POSITED A S N O T B E I NG-AS I S A I D A MOMENT AGO­
R E LATION. WHILE ON THE LEVEL OF THE PHA LLIC
THE T R U E TRUTH. THOSE WHICH ARE ABOVE: WE
FUNCTION. I T I S PRECISELY THE NOT-ALL' OPPOSED
SEEM TO HOLD HERE S O M E TH I N G WHICH GIVES
TO TH E A LL: T H E R E I N LIES THE POSSIBI LITY OF A
HOPE. N A M E L Y T H A T W E H A V E A R T I C U LATED A
R E D I ST R I BUTION FROM L E FT TO R IG H T. (WHICH
TRUE D I S J U NCTION. HOWEVER. LET US NOTE WHAT
ITSELFI W I LL BE FOU N D E D AS M A LE AND AS
TH E R E IS OF THE WRITTEN. WHICH I HAVE THE
F E M A LE.
O P P O RT U N I T Y TO A R T I C U LA T E IN A MANNER

B R I N G I N G I T A L I V E FOR YOU: O N ON E S I DE O F THIS 4>

T H E N EGATIVE R ELATION DOESN'T AT ALL FORCE OF X N EG A T E D W H E R E TH E PHALLIC FU NCTION
U S TO CHOOSE: ON THE CONTRA RY. I A S M U C H A S DOES NOT FUNCTION. TH E R E I S A POS S I B I LITY OF
W E A R E F A R F R O M H A V I NG T O CHOOSE. A N D THAT SEXUAL RELATI O N SH I P. WE H A V fi POSITED THAT
WE M U ST R E D I ST R I B U T E . T H E TWO SIDES ARE TH E R E E X I STS AN X I . . . 1. NOW W H A T DO W E H A V E O N
LEGITI M ATELY OPPOS ED TO EACH OTH ER. TH E OTH E R S I D E -W H E R E T H E R E DOES N O T E X I ST

AN X?

A FT E R N EGATION. I M E NTION E D CONJU NCTION.

WOULD NOT NEED TO ACCOU NT FOR CONJUCTION I N IN THE WAY THAT THE MODE IN WHICH TH E
TH I S C A S E . EXC E PT TO M A K E T H E OBSERVATION. ( I D I F F E R E NT I A T I O N B E TW E E N MALE A N D FEMALE.
H O P E T H E R E A R E ENOUGH PEOPLE H E R E WHO H A V E BETW E E N M A N A N D WOM A N I N TH E S P E A K I NG B E I N G
VAG U ELLY BROWSE D A BOOK ON L OG I C SO T H A T I W O U L D B E S U PPORTED. T H E R E IS A D I SCORD. W E
NEED NOT I N S I STI THAT THE CONJ U N C T I O N IS W I L L S E E LATE R W H A T TH I S M EA N S . AT T H E LEVEL
B A S E D PR E C I S E L Y O N TH I S : VALUE D E R I V E S ONLY OF U N I V E RSALS W H I C H ARE NOT S U PPORTED. FROM
BY V I RTU E OF T H E FACT THAT BOTH PROPOSITIONS TH E FACT OF T H E INCONSISTENCY OF O N E A MONG
CAN B E T R U E . TH E M . WHEN WE DEVIATE FROM THE FUNCTION

ITSELF. T H E R E E X I STS O N ONE S I D E A N X WHICH

NOWI T H I S I S EXACTLY WHAT I N N O WAY A LLOWS U S SATI S F I E S 4> X N EGATED. ON T H E OTH E R S I D E W E

TO M A I NTA I N WHAT I S I N THE D I AGRAM. S I N C E YOU HAVE THE D E F I N I TE FO R M U LATION THAT NO X

C A N S E E THAT FROM RIGHT TO LEFT. TH E R E I S NO ( WH I C H I HAVE I L L U ST R A T E D BY SAYING THAT

I D E NTITY AND P R E C I S E LY THERE WHERE A WOM A N F O R T H E B EST O F R EASONS. CAN NOT B E

QU ESTION OF WHAT IS PROPOSE D AS TURE E X I STS. CASTRATEDI W H I C H I S TO SAY AT T H E LEVEL W H E R E

B E A R I NG IN MIND 4> TO X. U N I V E RS A L S CAN TH E D I S J U NCTION WOU L D HAVE T H E OPPORT U N I TY

CONJOI N . T H E U N IVERSAL O F THE L E FT S I D E DOES TO PRODUCE ITSE LF. WE F I N D ONLY O N T H E O N E

NOT OPPOSE ITSELF TO TH E R IGHT SIDE. TO THE S I DE. F R O M T H E ONE/ON E AT LEAST W H A T I H A V E

EXTENT THAT I T HAS NO A RTIC U LABLE U N I VERSAL: P U T FORTH O F T H E AT-LEAST-QNE. A N D ON T H E

THAT I S IT I S TH E WOM A N WHO SEES TH E P H A LLIC OTH E R WE FI N D VERY P R EC I S E LY THE NON-

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EXI STENCE. THAT IS T H E R E LATION OF ONE TO ZERO. C ERTA I N D I G N ITY. SO THAT I WI LL P U B L I S H IT O N E OF

THESE DAYS. I F I PUBLISH AGA I N . W H I C H DOESN'T

W H E R E THE S E X U A L R E LATIONS H I P WOULD HAVE DEPEND ON M E . OTH ERS WOULD H A V E TO P U B L I S H

NO O P PORTU N I TY TO ACCOM P L I S H ITSELF. BUT W I T H ME. A S T H I S WOULD ENCO U R A G E M E A LITTLE.

SIMPL Y TO BE HOPED BEYOND THE A BOLITION A N D IF I PUBLISH. YOU WILL SEE W I T H WHAT C A R E I

THROUGH DIVERSION FROM T H E PHALLIC FUNCTION. HAVE LOCATED THE THI NGS WHICH I HAVE A LREADY

SAID FOR 3 YEARS. ON A CERTA I N N U M B E R OF

WE FIND ONLY ONE OF THE TWO SEXES AS A
REGISTE R S A BOUT THE PATE R N A L M ETAPHOR. AND
PRESENCE.
TH E PROPER NAME. F I N A LLY TH E R E WAS EVERY­

THI NG N E C ESSARY SO THAT. WITH TH E BIBLE. I GAVE

T H I S I S PREC I SELY WHAT I T BRI NGS C LOSER TO US
M EA N I N G TO TH I S MYTH I C ELUC U BRATION. BUT I
OF THE EXPE R I E N C E W H E R E WOMA N (THE U N IVER­
WON'T 00 T H I S EVER AGAIN.
SAL FOR WOM A N DOESN'T KNOW HOW TO ARISE

FROM TH E PHALLIC FU NCTION.) ONLY PARTICI PATES

EITHER TO WANT TO E N R A PT U R E M A N . OR M Y GODI I WON'T 00 TH I S EVER AGA I N BECA U S E A FTER ALL I

SHE I M POSES ON H I M THE S E R V I C E OF THE PHALLIC CAN SATI S F Y M YSELF BY FORM U LATI NG T H I NGS AT

FU NCTION. OR WORST O F A LL AND T H I S I S PERHAPS THE LEVEL OF LOG I C A L STR U C T U R E . WHICH

THE CASE IN W H I C H IT S H O U L D BE S A I D. SHE GIVES CERTAI N LY H A S ITS RIGHTS.

THE PHALLIC FU NCTION BACK TO H I M . BUT THIS

DOESN'T U N I V E RSA LIZE HER. IT IS NOT TH I S WHICH THEREI T H I S E OF X SLASHED. (IT DOE S N 'T EXI ST.

IS THE ROOT OF N O T- A L L : SHE R E V E A LS A N OTH I NG E X I STS AT A C E R TA I N LEVEL. WHERE

PLEASURE OTH E R THA N P H A LL I C : FE M I N I N E THERE WOULD BE A CHANCE FO R SEXUA L

JOUISSANCE W H I C H I N N O WAY D E P E N D S ON TH IS. I F RELATI O N S H I PS) THE HETEROS IN S O M U C H AS IT I S

WOM A N IS NOT N O T- A L L . IT IS BECAUSE HER ABSENT. IS NOT AT ALL N E C E S SA R I LY THE

JOU ISSANCE I S D U A L. PRIVILEOGE O F THE FEM I N I E SEX. I T I S S I M PLY THE

I N DICATION OF WHAT I N M Y DIAGRAM H A D I TS LITTLE

DESTI N Y O F WHAT I INSCRIBE AS THE S I G N I F I E R OF

T H I S I S IN FACT WHAT TI R E S I A S REVEA LED WHEN H E TH E SLASHED O. THIS MEANS TH E OTH E R : NO

RETU RNED F R O M B E I NG. BY T H E G R A C E OF ZEUS. MATTER WHERE ON E TAKES IT. THE OTH E R IS

THERESE. FOR A W H I LE . WITH O F C O U R S E TH E A BSENT F R O M THE MOM E N T T H A T I T ' S A Q U E STION

CONSEQUENCES WE A L L K N OW. A N D WHICH WERE OF SE X U A L RE LATION S H I PS.

LAI D-OUT. V I S I B LE . TH I S IS P E R H A PS THE CASE

THAT REVEALED TO OEDIPUS W H A T WOULD AWAIT NATURA L LY. AT THE LEVEL OF WHAT F U NCTIONS.
HIM. AS HAVING EXI STED. A S M A N OF TH I S SUPREME THAT I S TO SAY THE PHA LLIC FU NCTION. TH E R E I S
PO S S E S S I O N AND WHAT WOULD R E S U LT IN S I M PLY THIS D I SCOU R S E THAT I HAVE J U ST
DECEPTION W H E R E H I S PA RTN E R WOU L D KEEP H I M M E NTION ED. ON ONE SIDE AND THE OTH E R .
FROM T H E T R U E N A T U R E O F W H A T S H E OFFERED AUTOMATICA LLY ONE I S NOT I N T H E S A M E POS ITION.
FOR HIS JOUISSANCE. O R LET U S SAY IT I N ANOTH E R ON ON E SIDE IS A U N I V E R S A L. BASED ON A
WAY. WHAT WOULD R E S U LT I N D EC E PTION SINCE H I S R E LATIO N N ECESSARY TO TH E PHA LLIC F UNCTION.
PARTN E R D E M A N D E D H I M T O R E F U S E WHAT S H E AND ON THE OT H E R S I DE IS A R E LA T I O N OF
OFFERED H I M . CONTI N G E N C Y B EC A U S E WOM A N IS N O T- A LL. I

STRESS THEN THAT AT THE H I G H E R L E V E L. THE

TH I S M A N I FESTS A T TH E L E V E L O F T H E MYTH. THAT RELATI O N SH I P FOUNDED ON THE D I S A PPEARANCE.

IN ORDER TO EXIST AS A M A N AT A LEVEL SO AS TO TH E VAN I S H I NG . THE EXISTENCE O F O N E OF THE

ESCAPE THE P H A L LIC F U N CTION. TH E R E WOULD BE PARTN E R S WHO LEAVES THE PLACE E M PTY FOR

N O OTH ER WOM A N THAN THE ONE WHO OUGHT THE I N SC R I PTION OF SPEECH. IS NOT AT TH I S LEVEL

PREC I S E LY NOT TO HAVE EXISTED FOR H I M. THE PRIVI LEDGE OF EITH E R SIDE. IT I S J U ST THAT I N

ORDER FOR TH E R E TO B E A BASI S FOR SEX. T H E R E

THEREI WHY SHOU LDN'T S H E H A V E EXISTED. WHY MUST B E TWO. S U R E LY 0 A N D 1 M A K E 2 . ON THE

THE PROH I B ITION OF I N C EST? THIS WO U L D SYMBOLIC PLANE. I N SO FAR AS W E AGREE THAT

NECESSITATE THAT I GET I N VOLVED ALONG THE EXISTE N C E I S ROOTED I N THE SYMBOL. THIS I S WHAT

TRACK OF TH E NAME OF THE FATH ER WHERE DEFINES THE SPEAKING BEI NG.

P R EC I S E LY I HAVE SAID THAT I WOULD NEVER

TREAD AGA I N BECAUSE I REREAD (BECAUSE IT I S I N FACT SOMETH I NG THAT I S NOT WHAT I T IS. IT

SOM EONE A S K E D M E TO) M Y F I RST CONFERENCE IS JUST THAT THIS BEING IS A BSOLUTELY

HERE AT ST. A N N E IN 1 96 3 AND IT EVEN HAS A UNGRASPABLE A N D I T I S ALL THE MORE U NG R A S P-

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A B L E BECA U S E IT I S O B L I G E D TO SU PPORT ITSELF TH E I R STRUCTU RE. THERE M U ST WELL B E A

TH ROUGH TH E SYMBOL. IT I S CLEAR THAT A B E I NG. R E LATION S H I P TO S O M ETH I N G WH I C H IS NOT

W H I C H COM E S TO BE ONLY TH ROUGH THE SYMBOL. LANGUAGE.

IS PRECISELY THIS B E I NG WI THOUT B E I N G IN WHICH

(FROM TH E SOLE FACT THAT YOU SPEAK) YOU ALL OF CO U R S E IT IS E A SY T O U N D E R STA N D THAT
PA RTI C I PATE. BUT WHICH ON THE OTH E R HAND. P E O P L E W I L L S L I P G R O U N D ON T H E P RETEXT THAT
C ERTA I N LY S U P PORTS ITSELF AND I S E X I STENCE WHAT SEEMS TO T H E M TO BE T H I S "BEYOND OF
SINCE EXISTING IS NOT B E I NG . TH I S I S TO SAY. LA NGUAGE" C A N ON LY B E MATH E M AT I C A L. T H I S IS
EXISTING I S NOT D E P E N D I NG O N THE OTH E R . BECA U S E IT I S A N U M B E R. I T I S A Q U ESTION OF

Q U A NTITY. BUT P E R H A PS IT IS NOT STRICTLY

YOU A R E ALL H E R E T O SOM E D E G R E E T O EXI ST. B U T SPEAKING N U M E R I C ITY IN ALL ITS R E A LI TY TO

YOU ARE N O T PARTIC U L A R LY CALM ABOUT T H E W H I C H L A N G U A G E G I V E S ACCESS. B U T O N L Y T H E

NATURE OF YOU R O W N B E I N G . OTH E R W I S E YOU C A PA C I TY TO A NCHOR TH E ZERO AND ONE.

WOU L DN'T COME TO S E E K A S S U RA NC E I N SO M A N Y THROUGH T H I S TH E ENTRANCE WOU L D B E M A D E

PSYCHOANA LYTIC E F FORTS. R E A L. THE REAL WHICH A LO N E CAN BE THE

" B E YO N D OF LANGUAGE." N A M E LY T H E O N LY

H E R E TH E R E IS SOM ETH I N G COM PL.ETE LY ORIG I N A L DO M A I N I N W H I C H A SYM BOLIC I M POSSI BILITY C A N

IN THE FI RST E M ERGENCE OF L.OGIC: TH E DIFFI­ B E FOR M U LATED.

CUL TY. THE I NDECISION TH A T A R I STOTLE SHOWED

CO N C E R N I N G THE ST A T U S OF A PARTI C U L A R TH I S R E LATIO N SH I P. ACCESS I B L E TO LANGUAGE. I F

PROPOSITION. THESE A R E D I F F I C U L.TI ES TH AT H A V E IT IS P R EC I S E LY FOU N D E D ON A SEXUAL NON­

B E E N STR ESSED EL.SEW H E R E . BUT T H A T I D I D NOT R E LATIONSH I P C A N ONLY TH E R E FORE CONFRONT 0

D I SCOVER. FOR THOSE WHO D E S I R E A R E F E R ENCE. I AND 1 ; TH I S FACT WOULD E A S I LY FIND ITS

R E F E R YOU TO C A H I E R NO. 1 0 O F THE C A H I E RS POU R R E FLECTION I N T H E ELABORATION F R EG E G I V E S O F

L ' A N A LY S E . T H E A RTICLE BY JACQUES B R U N SCHWIG THE LOGI C A L G E N E S I S O F N U M B E R S .

IS E XC E L L E N T ; YOU WILL SEE P E R F ECTLY TH E

D I F F I C U LTY WHICH A R I STO T L E HAD WITH THE I H A V E S PO K E N OF THAT WHICH C A U S E S D I F F I C U LTY

PARTICULAR. I N TH I S LOGICAL G E N E S I S . N A M E LY T H E G A P . THE

GAP O F THE M ATH E M ATICAL TRI A N G L E . BETW E E N

H E PERCEIVED THAT E X I ST E N C E IN NO WAY C A N B E TH I S 0 A N D TH I S 2. A G A P W H I C H DOUBLES TH E I R

ESTA B L I S H E D OUTS I D E OF TH E U N I V E R S A L; FOR O P PO S I T I O N O F C O N F R O N T A T I O N . W H A T I NT E R ­

TH I S R EASON. HE SITUATES EXISTENCE AT THE V E N E S I S T H E R E O N L Y BECAUSE IT I S TH E E S S E N C E

L E V E L OF THE PARTI C U LA R. AND TH I S PARTI C U LA R OF T H E FI RST COUPLE. SO T H A T TH E R E M IGHT BE

I N N O WAY S U FFICES TO S U P PORT I T EVEN THOUGH TH E ESSENCE OF T H E TH I RD A N D SO THAT THE GAP

HE S E E M S TO S U PPORT IT BY V I RTUE OF TH E USE OF AS SUCH IS A LW A Y S LEFT TO THE TWO; THIS IS

TH E WORD SOME. SO M ET H I NG WHICH IS ESSENTIA L BECAUSE OF

SOMETH I NG M UC H MORE DANGEROUS W H I C H M I G H T

ON THE CONTRARY W H AT R E S U LTS FROM THE SO­ BE SUBSTITUTED IN THE A N A LY S I S OF T H E

C A L L E O FORM A L I ZATION OF Q U A NTI F I ERS (CA LLED M YT H I C A L ADVENTURES O F OEDIPUS ( I N THEM­

SELVES I N NO W A Y D I ST U R B I N G I N AS M U C H A S
Q U A NTI F I ERS BECAUSE O F A T RACE. L E FT I N THE
T H E Y A D M I R A B LY STRUCTU R E TH E N ECESSITY T H A T
P H I LOSOPHY OF H I STORY THROUGH THE FACT THAT

SOM EONE N A M E D A P U L I A . A NOVELIST OF NOT VERY THERE BE S O M E W H E R E A T- L E A ST -O N E W H I C H

GOOD TASTE AND A N U N R ESTR A I N E D MYSTIC. AND T R A N S C E N D S W H A T THERE I S OF TH E G R A S P O F T H E

WHO CREATED THE GOLDE N ASS. ONE DAY PHA LLIC FU NCTION; TH E MYTH OF THE PRIM A L

I NT R O D U C E D THE I D EA THAT IN A R I STOT L E FATH E R M E A N S NOT H I N G OTH E R TH A N TH I S ) . T H I S I S

E V E R YT H I N G THAT CON C E R N S A LL A N D SOM E WAS S U F F I C I E NT E N O U G H FOR U S TO M A K E U S E O F I T

OF TH E ORDER OF QUA NTITY. I T WAS NOT AT ALL BEYOND T H E FACT THAT W E F I N D I T CON F I R M E D B Y

LI K E TH AT,) I S S I M PLY TWO D I F FE R E N T MODES OF LOG I C A L STRUCTURATION.

WHAT I M IGHT CA LL. IF YOU W I L L A LLOW M E A LITTLE

I M PROVIZATION. THE I N C A R N ATION OF T H E SYM BOL. ON THE OTH E R H A ND. THERE IS ASSUREDLY

TH E PASSAGE I NTO ORDI N A R Y LIFE OF THE FACT NOTH I N G M O R E D A N G E RO U S T H A N TH E CO N F U S I O N

THAT THERE IS ALL A N D SOM E IN ALL LANGUAGES OV E R WHAT THERE IS OF TH E ONE. THE O N E IS

A S S U R E DLY FORC E S US TO POS E THAT ALL F R E Q U E NTLY EVOK E D BY FREUD A S T H E S IG N I F I E R

LA N G U AGE M U ST H A V E T H E SA M E ROOTS A N D THAT OF THE ESSENCE OF E ROS: IT A N D THE L I B I DO

AS ALL LANG UAGES ARE D E E PLY DIFFERENT I N WOU LD BOTH STRA I N TO M A K E ONE. ACCORD I N G TO

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AN OLD MYTH (NOT AT A L L OF THE M YT H I C A L MODE) OF BEING R E P R E S E NTED. THERE I S I N T H I S ONLY

ONE OF TH E F U N D A M E NT A L TENSIONS OF THE ONE REQU I SITE. I F I MIGHT SAY. A G R ATUITOUS O N E ;

WORLD WOULD STRA I N T O M A K E O N L Y O N E . THIS NOTH ING I M POSES TH I S AT·LEAST·ONE I F N O T T H E

M YT H IS T R U LY SOMETH I NG WHICH CAN ONLY U N IQUE C H A NC E -A N D STILL IT M U ST B E PLA Y E D

F U NCTION ON THE H O R I ZO N OF DELIR I U M AND OUT-QF WHICH SOMETH I NG F U NCTIONS ON TH E

W H I C H . STRICTLY S P E A K I NG. H A S NOTH I N G TO DO OTHER S I D E BUT ONLY AS AN I D E A L POINT. AS T H E

WITH A N YTH I NG AT ALL W H I C H W E ENCOU NTER IN POSSIBI LITY F O R ALL M E N T O ATTA I N IT THROUGH

EXPERI ENCE. IF T H E R E I S A N YTH I NG V E R Y OVERT IN IDENTIFICATION.

THE RE LATIONS H I P BETWEEN SEXES. THAT

A N A LYSIS NOT ONLY A RT I C ULATES B U T C A N B E PUT THERE IS IN T H I S A LOGICAL NECE SSITY WHICH I S
I N TO PLAY I N ALL D I R ECTIONS AND SENSES. H E R E I M POSED ON LY O N THE LEVEL O F THE WAGER. B U T
IS SOM E T H I N G WHICH CAUSES D I F F I C U LTY IN NOTICE O N THE OTH E R H A N D W H A T RESU LTS FROM
R E LATI O N S H I PS . THIS IS P R E C I S ELY R E LATION· IT CONC E R N I N G T H E M A L E U N I VERSAL; THUS. T H I S
S H I PS BETWE E N WOME N ; NOTH I N G COULD RESEM· AT·LEAST·ONE. ON W H I C H THE MYTH ICAL N A M E O F
BLE THE SPONTA N EITY O F T H E S E R E LATIONSHI PS. THE FATH E R I S S U STA I N E D. I S I N D I S PENSABLE.
WHICH IS NOW PRECISELY TH E H O R I ZO N I MEN·

TION E D EARLIER. AN A N I M A LIC BASED ON SOME

IT I S HERE THAT I ADVANCE A FLASH O F WHAT IS
A N I M A L MYTH; I N N O WAY I S EROS A T E N D E NCY O F
M I SSING FROM T H E FUNCTION. FROM THE NOTION O F
TH E ONE. ACCO R D I N G TO THIS FU NCTION. ANY
SPECIES A N D O F CLASS. AND CONSEQUE NTLY I T I S
ARTICU LATION M A K ES C L E A R T H A T T H E R E A R E TWO
NO ACCI DENT THAT T H I S ENTI RE DIALECTIC WAS
LEVELS OF SECRECY IN WHICH T H E OPPOSITION
LEFT OUT OF A R I STOTLE'S FORMS.
BETWEEN THE SEXES I S FOU N D E D ONLY IN D I SCORD

A N D ONLY I N A S M UC H AS T H E Y CAN IN NO WAY BE

I N FACT WHERE DOES T H I S E OF X FUNCTION.T H I S
I N STITUTED AS U N I VE R S A L . AT THE L E V E L OF
"TH ERE E X I STS AT·LEAST-ONE" W H I C H I S NOT T H E
EXISTENCE ON T H E CONTRARY. I S PR E C I SE LY AN
SLAVE OF THE PHAL LIC FUNCTION? T H I S I S O N L Y A
OPPOSITION CON S I ST I N G IN T H E C A N C ELLATION.
REQUISITE I W I L L SAY. OF A HOPELESS TYPE. FROM
THE E M PTYING OF ONE O F T H E FUNCTIONS A S BEING
THE POINT OF VIEW OF TH I S SOMETH I NG WHICH
THAT OF T H E OTH E R . REVEALED BY T H E POSSIBI LITY
ITSELF IS NOT EVEN S U STA I N E D TH ROUG H
OF AN ARTICULATION OF LA NGUAGE. T H I S I S WHAT
UN IVERSAL D E F I N ITON.
S E E M S TO M E ESSENTI A L TO B R I N G TO LIGHT.

NOTICE THAT A MOMENT AGO IN S P E A K I N G TO YOU

BUT ON THE OTH E R H A ND. OBSERVE THAT WITH
S U C C E S S I V E L Y A BOUT N EG A T I O N . CON J U NCTION
RES PECT TO THE MALE U N I VERSAL. TO TH E A OF X.
AND DISJ U NCTION. I HAD P U S H E D TO T H E LIMIT
TO THE <I> OF X. EVERY M A LE IS A SLAVE TO T H E
WHAT THERE WAS OF I M P LICATION. I T I S CLEAR
PHA LLIC FUNCTION. THIS AT·LEAST· ONE WHICH
THAT. HERE AGA I N . I M PLICATION CAN F U NCTION
FUNCTIONS T O ESCAPE. WHAT DOES TH I S M E A N ? I
ONLY BETW E E N THE TWO LEVELS. THAT O F THE
WILL SAY THAT IT I S -THE EXCEPTION, IT I S THE PATH
PHALLIC F U NCTION AND THAT W H I C H D I V E RTS IT.
WHEREIN I S CON F I R M E D BY US THE PROVERB W H I C H

SAYS, WITHOUT K NOWI NG W H A T IT SAYS, T H A T T H E

NOW NOTH I NG OF WHAT IS DISJU NCTION ON THE EXCEPTION PROVES TH E RU LE, I S S U PPORTED B Y

LOW E R LEVEL. ON THE LEVEL OF THE I N S U FFICIEN· U S . IT I S EXCEPTIONAL T H A T I T IS O N L Y W I T H T H E

CY O F U N I VERSAL SPEC I F ICATION. I M PL I E S THAT IF ANALYTIC A L D I SCOURSE THAT A U N I VERSAL C A N

AND ONLY IF TH E SYNCOPATION OF E X I STENCE FIND I N E X I STENCE ITS VERITABLE FOUN DATION I N

WHICH IS PRODUCED ON THE HIGHER LEVEL IS TH E EXCEPTION, W H IC H ASSUREDLY ALLOWS U S I N

ACTUA LLY PRODUC E D. THEN D I SCORD ON TH E ANY CASE TO D I STI N G U I S H THE U N I VERSAL TH U S

LOWE R LEVEL IS REQU I R E D A N D VICE VE RSA. ESTABLI S H E D FROM A N Y U S E THAT H A S B E E N

RENDERED COMMON B Y TH E P H I LO S O P H I C A L

ON THE OTH E R H AND. IT IS ONCE AGAIN TH E TRADITION O F T H E SO-CA LLED U N I VERSAL,

F U N CT I O N I N G OF THE R E LA T I O N S H I P OF TH E

H I G H E R LEVEL TO THE LOWE R LEVEL. I N O N E WAY BUT IT I S AN EXTRAORDINARY TH I NG THAT I FI N D

WHICH I S DIST I NCT A N D SEPARATED. T H E R E MUST MYSELF, I N TH I S WAY, O N T H E PATH OF A QUEST A N D

EXIST AT·LEAST-ONE·MAN WHICH I S THE ONE THAT BECA USE, FROM A N A N C I E NT FORMATION (I DON'T

SEEMS T R A N S M I TT E D ON THE LEVEL OF THIS NOT AT A LL NOT K NOW C H I NESE), I ASKED ONE OF

FEM I N I N E SPECI F I E D BY B E I N G NOT·ALL, A DUALITY. MY DEAR EST F R I E NDS TO RECALL TO M E WHAT

THE ONLY POINT IN WHICH D U A LITY H A S A CHANCE EVIDENTLY (I H A D) K E PT MORE O R LESS AS A

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BY SOM EON E FOR WHOM C H I N E S E I S THE MATE R N A L P H A L L I C F U NCTION IS QU ITE ACTI V E .

LA NGUAGE. I T I S ASS U R EDLY VERY STRANGE THAT

IN C H I N E SE. THE D E L I M I TATION OF ALL. IF I MIGHT I N A N Y C A S E . WOM A N I S NO M O R E I NS U R E D I N H E R

EXPRESS MYSELF THUS. IS A QUESTION OF THE U N I V E RSA L ESSENCE THAN M A N FOR T H E S I M PL E
MORE ANCIENT

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IS P RO­ R E A SON T H A T T H E CONTRA R Y OF T H E L I M IT. I S T H A T

TH E R E I S NONE. T H E R E I S NO EXCEPTION. THE FACT

ONE MIGHT SAY FOR E X A � �

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TH E M S E LVES: (MEl GO J E N N T E l MEl I N S I STS ON TH E

ORGE
THAT TH E R E IS NO E XC E PT I O N I N SU R E S

U N I V E R S A L A L R E A D Y S O POO R L Y E S TA B L I S H E D

E I TH E R F O R T H E R E A SON T H A T I T I S D I SCORDANT
THE

FACT THAT IT IS IN FACT TH E R E . AND IF YOU DOUBT OR THAT I T DOESN'T ASSURE T H E U N I V E RS A L OF

IT. TH E N U M E R I C A L (GOI SHOWS YOU V E RY WELL WOM A N . W I TH O U T EXCEPTION. FAR FROM GIVING

THAT ONE COU NTS BUT THAT THIS DOES NOT M A K E SOM E-ALL M O R E CON S I STENCY. TH I S NATURA LLY

TH E M NOT-ALL A N D TO TH I S I S A D D E D ( T E l W H I C H GIVES STI L L LESS C O N S I ST E N C Y TO W H AT IS

M E A N S : WITHOUT E XC E PTION. D E F I N E D A S NOT- A L L. A S ESSENTI A L LY DUAL.

YOU COU LD OBJ ECT T H A T WHAT WE D I SCOVER IN IF ALL OF THIS STA Y S WITH YOU AS A PROP.

WHAT I S ARTI C U LATED A S R E LATIONS H I P OF SIGN NECESSARY FOR E V E RYTH I N G THAT WE CAN

TO E X I STENCE THROUGH R E S P ECT OF A U N I V E RSAL A TTE M PT TO U S E A S A STEPLA D D E R . THEN W E M UST

STATUS. TA K E S ITS F I G U R E AS AN EXCEPTION. S E R IOUSLY QU ESTION THE I R R U PT I O N OF T HE

STR A N G E ST TH I NG: T H E FUNCTION O F TH E ONE.

BUT ALSO IT E X I STS ONLY A S CO R R E LATION OF.

WHAT I CALLED A MOM ENT AGO. THE ( E M PTI NESS) I WOND E R A LOT A BOUT A N I M A L M E NTA L I TY WHICH

OF T H E OTHER: I F IN V I R T U E W E HAVE PROGRESSED A FT E R A LL WOU LD ONLY BE U S E F U L TO M E A S A

IN THE LOGIC OF CLASSES. I T IS THAT WE HAVE M IRROR R E FERENCE. AS A M I R RO R WH ICH. AS

C R E ATED A LOG IC OF S E TS. THAT THE DI FFERENCE B E F O R E A L L M I R RORS. I RAVE. TH E R E I S SOM ETH I N G

BETW E E N A CLASS AND A S E T IS THAT WHEN THE W H I C H WE M I G H T ASK O U R S E L V E S : F O R T H E A N I M AL.

CLASS I S E M PTY. TH E R E IS STI LL TH I S ELEMENT OF I S T H E R E T H E ONE7

TH E E M PTY S ET. IT IS IN T H I S THAT ONCE MORE.

MATH E M A TICS HAS MADE P R OG R E S S TOW A R D S JACQUES LAC A N

LOGI C .

TRANSLATED BY DENISE GREEN

TH E X I N T H E RIGHT PART OF T H E D I A G R A M I M PL I E S

THAT T H E R E I S A U N I LATERA L I TY OF THE E X I STEN­

TIAL FUNCTION FOR T H E OTH E R PA RTN E R . THAT IS. I WOULD L I K E TO THAN K THOMAS GORA. SUZA N N E

THAT TH E R E ARE NO E XC E PT I O N S . TH E R E IS G U E RLAC AND JOHN RAJ C H M A N FOR TH E I R KIND

SOM ETH I NG THAT I S N O LONGE R I N SYMMETRY WITH ASSISTANCE I N T H E TRANSLAnO N OF T H I S TEXT.

THE REQU I R E M ENT OF THE AT-LEAST-ONE THAT A

MOM E N T AGO I CALLED H O P E LESS. THERE IS THIS REFERS TO THE THEORY OF FO U R

ANOTH E R REQU I R E M ENT WHICH R E S I DES IN THE D I SCO U R S E S O F T H E A N A LYST. T H E H Y STE RIC.

FACT THAT I N THE END. THE M A SCULI N E U N I VERSAL THE U N I V E R S I TY AND THE M A ST E R CF.

CAN ONLY GET I TS DUE WITH T H E I N SURANCE THAT RADIOPHON I E I N S C I LICET 2/3.

TH E R E E X I STS NO WOM A N WHO C A N BE CASTRATED.

TH I S IS FOR REASONS WHICH A PPEA R EVIDENT. NOTE: O N E OF LACAN'S FOR M U LAS IS WOMAN­
EXC E PT THAT THE B E H AV I O R OF WOMAN SUFFI- I S-NOT- E V E R YTHI NG. NOT- A L L R E F E R S TO THIS.

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"MOMMY, W H E N , A N D H O W , WAS I B U R N E D ON M Y AGA I N , ONLY TWO POSSI BLE SOLUTI ONS ARE OPEN

LEFT B R E A ST1" TO T H E DAUGHTER: IN THE MORE D E S I REABLE CASE,

I F THE NAM E-OF-THE- FATHER I S FU NCTIONI NG, S H E

"I WAS B U RN E D , TOO, ON THE RIGHT SIDE, A LITTLE W I L L DESPERATELY I D E N TIFY W I TH T H E PHALLUS I N

HIGHER U P, WHEN I WAS YOU R AGE." A FRA NTIC M A T E R N A L POSITION OR I N A DIZZYI N G

MASCARAD E-T H E VIA R E G I A OF THE H YSTER I C ; I N

T H E LESS DESIRABLE C A S E , I F A F U N DA M E NTA L

DEFICI ENCY OF T H E PATE R N A L FU NCTION IS A D D E D

T O THE ABSENCE OF THE MOTH ER'S RECOGNITION,

WHAT H A PP E N S IN THIS BRIEF EXC H A N G E ? A
TH ERE I S REASON TO F E A R A PSYC HOTIC BREAK­
QU ESTION IS A S K E D A N D ITS A N S W E R SETS UP A
DOWN.
MI RROR, G I V I N G R I S E TO A N I N VESTIGATION OF A

MOT H E R' S GAZE U PON HER DA U G H T E R UN THE

2. THE MOTH E R H E A R S THE ECHO AND REMAINS
M I R ROR). F R O M THIS S C E N E AND M A N Y OTH ERS
WITH I N T H A T ZON E W H I C H I S COM PLETELY S H A K E N
COLLECTED I N A N A LYTIC PRACTICE, IT WOULD SEEM
BY THOSE W A V E S F R O M WHICH S H E HAS NEVER
THAT WHAT THE DAUGHTER SAYS A BOUT HER
BEEN ABLE T O E S C A P E , S H E L U R E S H E R DAUGHTER
BODY-THAT I S , A BOUT THAT, I N T H E M I R ROR, W H I C H
INTO THE ZON E AND THE DAUGHTE R LOSES H E R
I S C A P A B L E O F G I V I N G H E R I D ENTITY-EVOKES, I N
WAY THERE. FROM T H E N O N , T H E R E CAN O N L Y BE
THE MOTH ER, A N I D E NTICAL SCENE THAT S H E H A S
MORE OF THE S A M E OLD REFRAIN ,
EXPERI ENCED H E RSELF. W H A T DOES S H E D O ? W E

C A N POI N T OUT TH R E E TYPES OF R E S PONSE. 3. THE MOT H E R R E D I SCOVERS H E R OWN QUESTION

IN HER D A U G H T E R'S Q U ESTI O N - I N E V I T A B LY, IT

SEEMS; B UT SHE I SOLATES IT A N D, I N THAT WAY,

ALLOWS HER DAUGHTER TO CONTI N U E TO SPEAK

1 . T H E MOTH E R , U PON H E A R I NG T H E E C H O OF H E R FOR HERSELF A LO N E.

DAUGHTER'S SPEECH, S I LENCES H E R O W N C H I LD­

HOOD QUESTION; "THAT" r'CA"] M U ST N E V E R SPEAK THIS TH I R D POSS I B I LITY APPEARS O N LY AS A WAY

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A LO N G THE PATH OF A C C E PTING C A ST R A T I O N , D I SCOU RSE, OF T H E D E S I R E OF TH E OTHE R . I S THE

WH I C H IS AS UT O P I C , IT SEEMS, AS NORMAL EROTOG E N IC BODY, AS DEFINED BY F R E U D. THE

S E X U A L I TY AT THE PASSING OF THE OEDIPUS PRECISION ADDED BY THE USE OF THE TERM

COMPLEX, (CF. F R E U D. ) " WOMA N'S-BODY" LIES. FOR U S . I N T H E FACT THAT

THE LITTLE G I R L. I N HER FI RST R E LATION S H I P WITH

WE SHALL RETURN TO THIS RATHER ROUGH THE MOTH E R WHO OCCUPIES T H E PLACE OF THE

CLINICAL OUTL I N E LATE R AND DEAL WITH IT I N OTH E R , E NCOU NTERS THE SAM E-BODY AS HER OWN.

T E R M S O F J O U I SSANCE.

LET US R E PEAT THAT THE BODY OF THE LITTLE G I RL.

LIKE THAT OF THE LITTLE BOY. IS "WH I P P E D BY

LANGUAGE." THE SIGNIFIER "WO M A N'S-BODY"

ATTEM PTS T O POINT TO T H E RELATION WITH T H E

THESE THREE SITUATIONS ARE ROOT E D , IT
SAM E-BODY WITH WHICH THE L I TT L E GIRL IS
APPEARS TO US, IN TH E M I RROR STA G E , THAT
N E C E S SA R I LY CONFRONTED. IN VIEW OF TH I S
STAG E W H I C H STRUCT U R E S THE E G O A N D I S THE
NOTION O F T H E S A M E-BODY, O N E COULD PROBABLY
FO U N D A T I O N OF WHAT W I LL LATER BECO M E
EXPLORE T H E Q U ESTION OF THE P E R M A N E N C E OF
ACCESS TO THE S Y M BOLIC, (WHEN THE C H I LO C A N
T H E L I B I D I N A L ATTA C H M E NT TO THE MOTH ER, THE
COUNT: 1 , 2 . . . : 3, I N S C R I B E D A T T H E ORIG I N , M A K E S
P U ZZ L I N G I NT E NSITY OF WHICH FREUD NEVER
THIS OPE RATION POS S I B LE).
C E A S E D T O E M PHASIZE. '

FOR THE C H I LO TO B E A B L E TO DISCOV E R ITSELF I N

WE NOW PROPOSE TO A N ALYZE WHAT WE S H A L L
ITS OWN IMAGE IT M UST B E SU PPORTED BY ITS
C A L L T H E M I R RO R SC E N E.
MOTH E R'S GAZE, IN OTH E R WORDS, THE MOTH E R

M UST ACCEPT T H E FACT THAT S H E I S S E E N A S

SEPARATE FROM THE C H I LO AND S E E I NG TH E

C H I LD: THAT IS, SHE M U ST ACQU I ESC E I N BEING

S U B J ECT TO SYM BOLIC LAW. M I RROR SC E N E

DENIAL OF SYM BOLIC LAW WO U L D ANNUL TH E WE C A L L I T A SC E N E B E C A U S E WE H A V E FOU N D

STRUCTU R I N G EF FECT OF THE M I R ROR. THAT. L I K E T H E P R I M A L SC E N E , IT I S CONSTR UCTE D

OVER A N D AGA I N IN D I FF E R E N T STAGES OF T H E

D I SCOURSE OF A N A LY S A N DS, PA RTICULA R LY OF

WOM E N A N A LY S A N DS. TRACING BACK THE TH REA D

OF T H E I R H I STORI ES, THEY NEVER FA I L TO RUN

TO TH I S EXPER I E NC E , W H I C H I S FUNDA M E NTAL FOR
AGROU N D AT T H A T MOM E NT W H E N T H E Y A R E T O B E
ALL C H I LD R E N . T H E R E IS ADDED. IN THE CASE OF
S E E N , R E C OG N I Z E D , NOT ONLY I N T H E G A Z E OF M E N ,
T H E LITTLE G I RL, A SECOND OPERATION THROUGH
BUT I N T H A T OF ALL WOM E N , (SI STERS, DAUGHTERS,
WHICH T H E DESTI N Y OF "WOMA N'S-BODY" I S PLAY E D
F R I E N DS-PLA C E D TH E R E FOR ONE WOM A N ) . IT I S I N
O U T . I N T H I S S E C O N D STAGE. THE MOTH E R EITH E R
TH I S U N E N D I NG MOV E M E N T OF RETURN TO THE
DOE S O R DOES N O T R EC OG N I ZE H E R DAUGHTE R'S
MOORING PLACE OF A N E V A N ESCENT EGO THAT W E
I MAGE, S I M U LT A N EO U S L Y S E PA RATE FROM TH E
M A Y A PP ROACH THE Q U E STION OF W H A T I S C A L L E D
MOTH ER'S I M AGE BUT CONTI N U A LLY R E S E M B L I N G IT.
FE M I N I N E JOUISSANCE.
AS G E N N I E LEMOI N E H A S I N S I STED. THIS OPERA­

TION I S A LWAYS M O R E OR LESS A FAILURE: THE

LET US POINT OUT THE C H A RACTER I ST I C S
WO M A N A LW A Y S REMAI NS. TO A GREATER OR

LESSER EXTENT. THE M I R ROR'S C A PTIVE. THESE PA RTIC U LA R TO T H I S S C E N E W H E N I T I S E X P E R I ­

E N C E D BY MOTHE R A N D DA UGHTER.
M O M E NTS OF T H E M I RROR STAGE A PPEAR AT T H E

C E NT E R OF ANY ATTE M PT T O DEAL WITH THE

Q U ESTION OF WOM A N , W H ATEVER THE CHANCE THE SCENE-MOTH E R'< + DAUGHTERA I N FRONT OF

C I R C U MSTA N C E S MAY B E THAT ACCOMPANY T H E TH E M I R ROR-CA N N OT FAIL TO BRING FORTH THE

F A C T OF R E P R E S E NTATION BY A WOM AN'S-BODY. SC ENE-MOTH E RB + D A U G HTER B IN FRONT OF TH E

S A M E M I R ROR. A N D SO FORTH AD I N FINITU M .

"WOMA N'S-BODY," OF COURSE, DOES NOT REFER TO

THE BI OLOGIC A L BODY, BUT RATH E R TO THE BODY MOTH E R'< ONCE A GA I N BECOM E S DAUGHTE RB B Y

THAT IS TRAC E D , CUT OUT AND A N I MATED BY T H E I N T E R M E D I A R Y O F T H E I MAGE OF DAUGHTER'< ,

DRIVES. THIS BODY, LOCATED IN THE FIELD OF W H I C H THE LATTER TH E N RECOVERS.

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AT THAT MOMENT W H E N T H E "ORTHOPE DIC" I MAGE MOTH E R C A N NOT BEAR THE GAZE OF HER

OF TH E C H I LD'S BODY A S SEPA RATE FROM TH AT OF DAUGHTER; IT IS AS IF SHE WERE PARA LYZED.

THE MOTHER I S CONSTITUTED. THE C H I LD S E E KS FROZEN BY THE FATE FUL I M AGE. ONE CAN SU PPOSE

SUPPORT IN T H E MOT H E R'S GAZE. WHAT WE HAVE TH AT THIS A FFLICTED GAZE FADES. BLIGHTS A N D

J U ST SKETC H E D OUT I N DICATES TH AT SHE R U N S DENIES THE DAUGHTER'S BODY. THE MOTH ER. W H O

THE RISK OF F I N D I N G A GAZE A L R EADY A BSORBED CAN NOT B R I NG H E RSELF T O S A Y : "YOU ARE THAT."

BY A NOTHER M I RROR G A M E . I DENTITY OF BODIES CONTENTS H E R SELF WITH A PA I N E D AND R E C R I M I ­

FAVORS THE VACI LLATION OF I MAGES. TH E SAME­ NATORY: "THAT I S ALL Y O U A R E." SHOULD T H I S NOT

BODY U N DERLI N ES T H E FRAGI LITY OF SEPARATION BE SEEN A S ONE SOURCE OF THE R A VAGES THAT

AT THE I M AG I N A RY LEVEL AND BLURS THIS G E N E RA LLY M A R K MOTH ER-DAUGHTER R E LATION­

ALREADY DEC E PTIVE I M AG E : IN THIS SPIRAL OF SHI PS?

ECHOES AND R E F LECTIONS THE LITTLE GIRL CAN

FIND NO STA B L E POI NT OF REFERENCE FOR TH E FORCE OF TH I S F U N DA M ENTA L EXPERI E NCE.

IDENTI FICATION. AT T H A T M O M E N T W H I C H SHOULD AS FAR AS THE E A R L I EST CONSTITUTION O F THE
BE FORMATI V E FOR THE LITTLE G I RL. THE MOTH E R EGO IS CONCERNED. CAN BE FELT ONLY I F THE
NOT ONLY OCC U P I E S HER OWN POSITION OF MOTH ER DOES NOT DENY CASTRATION. I F THIS IS
MOTH ER. B U T PARTI A LLY U S U RPS H E R D A UGHTER'S NOT THE CASE. WITH THE M I RROR I M AGE R E M I N DI N G
POSITION AS W E LL. P E R H A PS THE PR E-OE D I PA L HER THAT WOM A N ' S-BODY IS. F I R ST OF A L L. A
ATTACH MENT T O THE MOTH E R R E M A I N S S O VERY CASTRATED BODY. THE MOTH ER. IN ORDER TO BACK
STRONG BEC A U S E T H E PLACES OF T H E MOTH E R U P THE FANTASY THAT HER C H I LD I S A SU BSTITUTE
A N D OF T H E D A U G H T E R H A V E YET T O B E DEFIN ED. MAKING U P FOR CASTRATION. SHE WI LL ASSIGN H E R
THERE IS SOMETH I N G NOT R E P RESSED. N OT DAUGHTER THE FATE OF A WOULD- B E BOY.
I NSCRIBED IN THE S I G N I FY I N G O R D E R. THAT

R E E M E RG E S G E N E R A T I O N A FT E R G E N E R A T I O N .
THE VISION OF T H E C A ST R A T E D BODY. WHICH
PASSING FROM ON E GAZE TO A N OTH E R IN AN
REACTIVATES PENIS ENVY I N T H E M OTH E R. I S NOT
U N E N D I NG MOV E M E N T OF EXCHANGE. IS IT T H E
ENOUGH. HOWEVER. TO EXPLA I N H E R D I STRAUGHT.
MOTH E R O R TH E DAUGHTER W H O I S T H E AGENT O F
HA LF-HOR R I F I ED. HA LF-FASC I NATED GAZE.
TH I S M I R ROR E X P E R I E N C E? TH E MOTH E R PARTIA LLY

TAKES THE PLACE OF THE DAUGHTER A N D. BY THIS

DOUBLI NG. TA K E S AWAY FROM TH E DAUGHTER THE

P OS S I B I L I T Y OF FINDING HER PLACE IN THE

SYMBOLIC ORDER. T H E R E I S A C A PTURE I N THE TH E TH I NG '

M I RROR. ADDED TO T H I S EXCHANGE A N D I NTER­

DEPENDENCE OF PLACES IS TH E LITTLE G I R L'S TO BE A MOTH ER IS I N DEED TO BE C A STRATED. BUT

EXTR E M E "JU B I LATION" U PO N D I SCOV E R I N G THAT IT IS ALSO. BY VIRTUE OF NOT HAVING THE PHALLUS.

S H E I S LIKE HER FIRST LOVE OBJECT. WE SHALL TO ASSU M E THE VALUE OF THE P H A LLUS. THAT IS.

HYPOTH ESIZE NOT ONLY THAT "SEPA RATION" OF TO OCCUpy THE PLACE OF THE T H I NG. T H E LOST

I MAGES I S ON LY PARTIA LLY COMPLETED. BUT THAT. OBJ ECT. DAS DING. THAT WHICH IS OUTS I D E OF T H E

MOREOVER. N A RC I S S I ST I C AND OBJECT CATH EXIS SIGN IFI ED-I N THE SYMBOLIC ORDE R. I T IS CA LLED

ARE CONFUSED WITH EACH OTH ER.2A lie B TH E PHALLUS.

SEEING H E R SON IN TH E M I R ROR. THE MOTH ER CAN THE LIVING BEING WHO IS SUBJECT TO SEXUAL

BELIEVE I N M I RACLES. S I N C E THE EQUATION BABY = R E PROD U C T I O N SUFFERS A REAL LOSS. (TH E

PENIS. REDUCE D TO AN I M AG I N A RY FU NCTION I N PLACENTA INDEED R E P R E S E N T S T H A T P A RT .

WHICH O N E OBJ ECT R E PLACES A NOTH E R O F EQUAL EQUAL T O H I MSELF. WHICH T H E I N DI V I D U A L LOSES

VALUE. I S I N FULL FORCE. M A S K I N G C A STRATION. AT B I RTH.1 THE PHALLUS OCC U P I E S THE FOREVER

EM PTY PLACE OF THIS REAL LOSS. TRANSPOSED

WHEN. CON F R O N T E D WITH THE I M A G E OF H E R INTO THE REGISTER OF THE S IG N I F I E R.

DAUGHTER. SHE D I SC O V E R S THAT OTH E R CAS­

TRATED. SPLIT BODY. SENDING BACK TO H E R THE THE I M M A T U R I TY OF T H E I N FANT H U M A N B E I NG

I MAGE OF H E R OWN BODY. OF TH E SAM E-BODY. THE KE EPS IT FROM PERCEIVING TH E L I M ITS OF ITS

MOTH E R'S WOU N D IS R EOP E N E D. SHE RETRACES BODY. H ENCE. THE M OT H E R . WHO. AS LACA N

THE PATH O F T H E S Y M BOLIC EQUATION. AND P E N I S DESCRIBES H E R. I S T H E BEARER O F THAT. L I K E THE

ENVY. WHICH HAS N EV E R BEEN L E FT B E H I N D . PLACENTA. WHICH T H E I N FANT CLA I M S AS ITS OWN.

REAPPEARS W I T H I T S F U L L L I B I N A L INTENSITY. THE IN OTH E R WORDS. THE B R E A ST. B Y SATI S F Y I N G

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I M POSS I B L E FUSION. VERY Q U I C KLY. H OW E V E R . R E A L FOR TH I S R E ASON, I N D I SCOURSE "TH E T H I N G

BECAUSE T H E MOTH E R D E S I R ES A N D I S S U BJ ECT RESOLVES I T S E L F I NTO A FFA I R S."

TO THE LAW OF THE S I G NI F I ER. H E R C A R I NG FOR

THE CH I L D WILL MARK ITS BODY. THE DESI R E

THUS, T H E MOTH E R OCCUPIES THE PLACE O F THE
HOLDING HER ELSEWH ERE H O L LOWS O U T T H E
T H ING. TO B E A MOTH E R I S THE FUTU R E ASSIGN E D
D I F FE R E N C E BETW E E N T H E C H I LD'S N E E D A N D ITS TO ALL WOM E N IN THE TH I R D ST A G E OF THE
D E M A N D . AT THE S A M E T I M E . THE SELF AND THE O E D I P U S C O M P L EX. W E A L L "FORGET." HOWEVER.
NOT-S ELF ARE CONSTITUTED. THE NOT-SE L F B E I N G
THAT T H E M OT H E R I S NOT THE OTHE R . THAT S H E
THAT W H I C H B R I NGS U N PLEASURE. I N R E F E R E N C E
O N LY HOLDS I T S PLACE.
TO THIS. ONE M A Y C O N S U L T THE PROJECT F O R A

S C I E N TI FIC PSYCHO LOGY. WHERE FREUD DEFINES

MOTH E R HOOD I S ONLY A F U NCTION. BUT EVERYO N E
WHAT H E M E A N S BY THE N E B E N M E N SCH COM PLEX4 :
T E N DS T O M A K E OF IT T H E V E R Y B E I N G OF WOM A N .
THE FIRST OBJECT SPLITS I NTO TWO PARTS. ONE OF
AT B I RT H . T H E C H I LD DOES NOT LOSE I T S MOTH E R : I T
T H E M R E M A I N S R A DICA LLY FOR E I G N . DAS D I N G . THE
LOSES T H E PLACE NTA. WHAT IT W I LL B E S E E K I NG.
S U BJECT W I LL A LWAYS TRY TO ASSI M I LATE THE
T H E R E FO R E . I S NOT ITS MOTH ER. BUT RATH E R. WHAT
OTH E R PART BY M E A N S OF I D E NTI FICATION: IT C A N
S H E R E P R E S E N TS .
BE CON SIDE RED. FROM T H E VERY F I RST MONTHS

O N . AS THE BEGI N N I NGS OF THE BODY ITSELF. I N

BECAUSE SHE IS THE F I RST L O V E OBJ ECT, T H E
TH I S P R I M A L EXPE R I E NCE O F THE ORGA N I ZATION OF
MOTH E R P A S S E S FROM H E R S Y M BOLIC F U N CTION
PSYC H IC R E A LITY. ONE ATTEM PTS TO R E D I SCOV E R
I N TO A N I M AG I N A RY R E G I STER: THE TEM PTATION I S
ON THE OUTS I D E AN OBJECT THAT ONCE WAS
A LWYAS GREAT F O R H E R T O F I L L THE E M PTY SPACE
EXPERIENCED AS B E LON G I N G T O THE I N S I D E. IN
OF THE T H I NG. TO COLO N IZE THE FIELD OF THE
ORDER TO PROVE THAT TH E OBJ ECT IS STI LL
R E A L. T H E LESS SHE ACCEPTS HER CASTRATION.
PRES ENT IN R E A LI TY.
THE MORE SHE W I L L SET H E RSELF U P TO SHORT

C I RC U I T THE PATH OF D E S I RE. AN A LWAYS P R E S E N T

TH E TH I N G DOES NOT E X I ST. IT D I ST I N G U I S H E S
OBJECT. S H E W I L L P R E V E N T TH E R E P R E S ENTATION
ITSELF B Y ITS A BSENCE. IT I S TH E R E FORE WITH I N
O F A M I SS I N G O B JECT THAT COULD FOU N D D E S I R E .
TH E REGISTER O F A DECOY O R L U R E THAT THE

MOTH E R OFFICIA LLY FU NCTIONS.

I N THIS P E R SPECTI VE. W I TH T H E MOTH E R PROFITING

FROM THIS SHORT C I R C U IT. THE R E CAN BE NO

PLACE FOR T H E P E RSON WHO MIGHT D I S P LA C E H E R :

BECAUSE THE C H I LD IS CAST I NTO THE R E A L M OF
H E R DAUGHTER.
D E M A ND. ITS BODY I S NOT M E R E LY A BIOLOGICAL

BODY. THE MOTH ER'S DESI R E TRACES EROTOG ENIC

ZON ES FROM WHICH DRIVE W I LL S P R I N G FORTH. T H E I M AG E THAT T H E M I R ROR S E N DS BACK TO A

WOMA N W H E N S H E IS C A R RY I N G H E R C H I LD IS NOT
I NTO THIS R EPETITIVE CYCLE. WHICH BEGAN WITH A

SEA RCH FOR THE LOST OBJECT. W I LL FALL T H E O N LY THE I MA G E O F HER OWN BODY, BUT A LSO THAT

OBJ ECT A IN ITS V A RIOUS G U I DES. T H E OBJECT A IS OF HER OWN M OT H E R . AT THAT I N STANT. SHE

BOTH R E M A I N D E R A N D AGENT IN THE PROCESS OF R E D I SCOV E R S I N H E R R E F LECTION H E R F I R ST LOVE

BECOMING A S U B J ECT. AS R E M A I N DE R S. THE OBJ ECT I N ITS MOST FASCINATING FOR M . IN THE

OBJ ECTS A CONSTITUTE T H E L I M IT OF A FORE V E R E N IGMATIC NATURE OF T H E T H I NG. PA R A DO X I C A L­

' LY, IN THE MOST " G L O R I O U S" I M AGE OF HER

FUTURE S U B J ECT. L A C A N SAYS OF THE OBJ ECTS :

"JOUISSANCE. W H I C H DOES NOT COM E U N D E R THE MOTH E R H OOD. S H E R U N S THE R I S K O F D I SAPPEAR­

E F FECTS OF THE P L EA S U R E P R I N C I PLE. TAKES ING AS C A STRATED MOTH E R AND OF B E I NG NO

R E F UG E I N THEM." T H E Y F U N CTION. T H E R E FORE. AS M O R E TH A N T H E DA UGHTER OF H E R REFLECTION. s

BOTH THE C A U S E AND THE S UPPORT O F DESIRE.

LET US REPEAT THAT T H E R E I S N O R E P R E S E NTA­ BECAUSE OF T H E C H A LL E N G E THAT S H E PRESE NTS

TIVE OF THE T H I NG. AN E M PTY SPACE AROUND TO THE SYM BO L I C ORDER. WOMA N'S POS ITION IS

WHICH DESI R E NEVER C EASES TO WANDER. IN P E R H A PS P E R V E R S E . I N D E E D. S H E MOLDS H E R S E L F

FA NTASY WHERE DES I R E IS SUSPENDED AND TO THE ROLE A L LOTT E D HER IN THE PHALLIC

W H E R E T H E R E PETITIVE QUEST STOPS FOR A SHORT ORDER ONLY SO AS TO B ETTER DENY THE

TI M E. T H E R E IS COLLUSION B ETWE E N THE OBJECT A C A ST R A T I O N I M PL I E D BY THAT ROLE. SHE IS

A N D THE T H I NG. IN THE I MA G I N A RY, THE OBJ ECT A OVERCO M E B Y TH E F A SC I NATION O F T H E R EFLEC­

COMES TO FILL THE E M PTY SPACE OF THE THI NG. TION OF B E I NG A L L- M OTH ER. HERE, " A L L- M OTH E R"

LET US R E M E M B E R THAT D I SCOURSE FUNCTIONS AS M E A N S B E I NG A MOTH E R COMPLETELY A N D B E I N G

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 ALL MOTHERS ROLLED I NTO O N E . THUS. THERE I S JOU I SSANCE

NO C H A NC E T H A T WOMA N·5-BODY. W H I C H WOULD

SIGN THE RECOG N I T I O N OF A CASTRATED BODY.

W I LL E M E RGE. E I T H E R FOR THE MOTH E R O R FOR T H E

XA
DAUGHTER. FO R THE D A UG H T E R . TH E R E IS NO

POSSI B I LITY O F I OENTI F ICATION W ITH T H E MOTH ER:

ONLY I M I TATION IS POS S I BLE." T H I N K I NG OF THE XE XE

M ETAPHOR OF THE SCR E A M THAT GIVES B I RTH TO

SI LENCE. O N E CAN IMAGINE I N SC R I PTION IN T H E

PHALLIC ORDER AS CONSTITUTIVE O F T H E NOT­ S(�)

A L L/NOT-WHOLE. ? BY D E N Y I NG C A STRATION. WOM A N

R E M A I N S IGNORANT OF H E R TWOFOLD DIVI SION. I N a

THE M I RROR SC ENE. SHE IS NO MORE THAN A

REFLECTION OF A R E FLECTION AD I N F I N I T U M . W H I C H

I S T O SAY. S H E I S NOTHI NG . TH E REFORE. A WOM A N

IS ONLY FOLLO W I NG THE LETTER OF THE LAW

HANDED DOWN IN THE THIRD S TA G E OF THE

THIS GRAPH FROM L A C A N'S S E M I N A I R E XX: EN·
OEDIPUS COM PL E X : A MOTH E R B E C O M ES THE
CORE l O DEALS WITH T H E QUESTION OF JOU ISSANCE.
MOTH ER. THIS PASSAGE IS F A C I L I TATED BY T H E
THOSE WHO LINE UP IN THE LEFT SECTION O F
FACT THAT THE MOTH E R F I G U R E I S A N I DEOLOGICAL
S P E A K I N G B E I NGS H A V E ACCESS T O THE OTH E R
P R O D U CT: SHE A LLOWS ONE TO AVOID THE
ONLY THROUGH T H E OBJECT A . THOSE WHO L I N E U P
QUESTION O F FEMININE S E X U A L I TY. L E A D I NG TO
O N THE R I G HT, HOWEVER, A R E NOT ONLY SUBJECT
THE R E A L THE M OTH E R F I G U R E M A S K S A L L LACKS.
TO THE PHA LLUS-PHA LLIC J O UISSANCE OR
I NC L U D I N G THE LACK OF A LL SYSTE M I ZATION. ( A N D
JOUISSA NCE TH ROUGH D I SCOURSE-BUT A R E A LSO
IN SPITE OF W H A T LACA N H A S SUGGESTED. T H E
IN A R E LATION OF PROX I M ITY TO THE OTHER, THAT
MOTH E R FIGURE CONTI N U E S TO WEIGH HEAVILY
SPEA K I NG B E I NGS. REGA RDLESS OF WHETHER THEY
U PO N A N A LYTIC THEORY.)
ARE M E N OR WOM EN. CAN B E FOU N D ON E I TH E R

S I D E I S NOT I NCOMPATIBLE WITH T H E FACT THAT

WOMEN. BECA U S E OF TH E I R R E I NFORCED AlTACH­

J UST A S THE MOTH E R TA K ES T H E PLACE OF T H E
MENT TO T H E MOTH E R WHO M E D I ATES ACCESS TO
LOST OBJ ECT AND IS L OV E D . SHE IS MADE
THE OTH E R. A R E PLAC E D IN A PRIVI LEGED M A N N E R
R E S PO N S I BLE FOR C A S T R A T I O N A N D I S HATED.
ON THE RIGHT. T H E N A T U R E OF TH I S R E I N FORCE­
ONCE AGA I N . WE FI N D IN THIS LOVE-HATE
MENT WAS DESC R I B E D IN THE FI RST PART OF T H I S
A M B I VA L E N C E THE DIVIDED STRUCTURE OF A
ARTICLE. I F A WOM A N PLACES H E RSELF ON T H E
WOMA N . AN I RR E D U C I B L E STRUCTURE RESISTING
LEFT, S H E W A N TS TO R E M A I N U N A W A R E OF H E R
A N A LY S I S A N D D I SCOU R S E. s
PORTION OF S H A DOW.

THE N E V E R- E N D I NG FA SCI N ATION O F T H E RELATION

THE PLACE OF THE OTH ER IS TH E BODY. THE "FI RST
WITH THE MOT H E R HOLDS A P A RT O F A WOM A N I N
MASTERSPACE O F I NSC R I PTIONS." A S LACAN SAYS.
T H E I M AG I N A R Y O R D E R : I N T H I S WAY. T H E MOTH ER.
IT I S A LSO THE U NCONSCIOUS: I N C A R I NG FOR H E R
A LTHOUGH T H E SPOKESPE RSON OF THE SYMBOLIC
C H I LD, T H E MOTH ER. T H E PLACE- K E E P E R OF T H E
ORDER. BARS TOTAL ACCESS TO IT.9
OTHER. TRACES I NSTI NCTUA L ZONES. T H E REPRE­

SENTATIVES OF WHICH. I N THE PSYC H I C A P P A R A ­

TUS, CONSTITUTE THE F I R S T I N SC R I PT I O N S .

BY D E N Y I NG T H I S S H A R E O F THE I N EX PLORABLE
( " I N STI N C T U A L DRIVES A R E T H E TREASURY O F
"SHA DOW" (FREUD I N D I CATES THAT T H E RELATION
SIGN I F I ERS.")
W I TH T H E MOTH E R HAS T H E CONSI STENCY OF A

SHADOW). A WOM A N DENIES H ER S E LF HER OWN

IT APPEARS TO US THAT A WOM A N A LW A Y S
RELATION WITH THE S Y M BO L I C ORDER AND
REMAI NS, T O A C E R TA I N EXTENT, I N TOUCH WITH
C ON D E M N S H E RS E L F TO I MITATION. R E PETITION
THI S F I E LD O F F I RST I NSCRIPTIONS. I NDEED, H E R
A N D R E C R I M I NATION.
LA B I D I N A L ECONOMY I S NOT ORGANIZED ENTI R E L Y

IN S U B M I SS I O N TO THE PHA LLUS. REPEATING

FOR A WOMA N TO B E ABLE TO S E I ZE T H E OCC ASION MONTRELAY'S D I SC USSION OF R E PRESSION A S A

TO SPEAK FOR "H E R S ELF." SHE M U ST ACKNOW­ STRUCTU R I N G PROCESS. WE S H A L L SAY THAT A

LEDGE THE P E R M A N E N C E O F THIS S H A DOW. PORTION OF A WOM A N'S LI B I DO REMAINS IN ITS

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R E LATION OF PROX I M ITY TO THE OTH E R AND COMES B A C K G RO U N D OF I N E X I ST E N C E , HER PERIOD,

TO A H A LT THERE. SEXUAL R E LATIONS, PREGNA NCY, AND GIVING

B I RTH A R E T H E R E A L "MOME NTS" W H E N A WOMAN

WHAT I S T H E N A T U R E O F THE CATH EXIS OF THIS CAN GIVE H E RS E L F THE I LLUSION OF EXI STI NG,

R E LATION? WE FIND IT D I F F I C U LT T O G R A S P W H E N S H E C A N C L I N G TO THAT W H I C H I N SC R I BES

BECAUSE. A LT H O U G H D I F F E R E NT FROM BOTH HER W I TH I N D I SCOURSE. SHE REVELS [ELLE J O U I RAl

N A RC I SSISM, AS IT IS COMMONLY D E F I N ED, AND IN THAT WHICH A FFECTS HER BODY A N D, I N O R D E R

AUTO-EROTISM, IT CAN NOT. HOWEVER, BE REDUCED TO REVEL EVEN MORE, SHE SPEAKS A BOUT IT.

TO A N OBJECT CATH E X I S, LET US NOTE THAT, IN PHALLIC J O U I SSANCE, I NSC R I B E D JOUISSA N C E . ' ,

N A RC I SSISM, WHAT I S L I B I D I N A LLY I N VESTED I S THE

PORTION OF THE OTH E R THAT ONE CARRIES W I TH I N A WOM A N CAN A LSO EXPE R I E NC E TH I S PHA LLIC

ONESELF. W H I LE T H I S I S EQUA LLY T R U E F O R T H E JOU ISSANCE IN THE M A SQUERADE, A PA RODY OF

BOY, CATH E X I S OF THE SA M E-BODY NO DO UBT I DENTIFICATION WITH THE OBJECT OF DESIRE,

R E I N FORCES TH E ATTRACTION OF NARCISSISM FOR W H I C H G I VE S H E R A FAVORED PLAC E I N T H E O R D E R

TH E LITTLE G I R L FOR WE ARE I N D E E D TA LKING OF D I SCOU R S E.

A BOUT THE BODY. BUT WHICH BODY? NOT JUST H E R

OWN BODY, SINCE, F O R THE G I R L, H E R O W N BODY I S WOMA N DOES NOT EXI ST. H E R PRECARIOUSN ESS AS
ALWAYS THE S A M E BODY A S , OR T H E RE FLECTION A S U B J EC T ( F R E Q U E NTLY STA G E D IN FAI NTING
OF TH E BODY OF, THE F I RST LOVE OBJECT A S WELL. S P E L LS ) , PLUNGES HER I N TO PASSIONATE,

IDEALIZING I DENTI FICATIONS THAT, FOR A W H I LE,

GIVE HER C O N S I STENCY. S H E SENSES THAT HER

WHOLE SELF IS NOT SUMMED UP IN HER MANY

PHALLIC JOUISSANCE
I MAGI N A RY F'OSITIONS, WHICH EXPLA I N S TO U S WHY

SHE OFTEN C OV E R S HER J O U ISSA N C E WITH A

I N TH E FATE ASSIGNED HER IN THE T H I R D PHASE OF DOLEF U L M A S K . S H E COMPLA I NS, M A K E S D E M A N DS
THE OEDIPUS C O M P L E X, A WOMAN DOES NOT A N D R A I LS A G A I NST THE PHALLIC ORDER, EITHER I N
D I SC OV E R H E RS E L F WHOLE, BUT S H E NEITHER S U BL I M E S I LENCE O R A M I DST U N E N D I NG REC R I M I ­
KNOWS N O R ACCEPTS T H I S. L E T US CON S I D E R T H E NATIONS. D E N I A L OF C A STRATION AND D I V I S ION
HYSTE RIC, WHOSE F'OSITION I S EXEMPLARY I N T H I S W I L L ALWAYS T A K E ITS TOLL. S U B L I M E MOTH E R S
REGARD, SHE SC R E A M S SOMETHING ABOUT WHICH D I SPLAY TH E I R B R U I S E D BOD I ES, WOMEN-OBJ ECTS
SHE KNOWS NOTHI NG. W I TH T H I S SC R E A M , WHICH A N G U I S H A S THEY COUNT THE GAZES S U PF'ORTING
SHE WANTS TO ADDRESS TO A N A L L-POWER F U L THEM.
FATH E R W H O W O U L D B E C A PA BLE OF A N S W E R I N G

HER QUESTION, SHE S U M MONS, I N STEAD OF A N D

BEYOND THAT FATHER, H E R MOTH ER. W H A T I S A

WOM A N ? WHAT DOES A WOM A N WA N T ? IF SHE

T H E OTH ER JOUISSANCE
" M I STAKES" H E R I N T E R LOC UTOR, N O DOUBT I T I S

BEC A U S E SHE K NOWS T H A T WOM A N D O E S NOT

EXI ST, BUT SHE C A N NOT ACCEPT THIS. WOMA N I S T H E M ETHA PHOR O F M A N'S J O U ISSA N C E .

H O W DOES S H E E X P E R I ENCE THIS?

LET US SAY FROM NOW ON THAT T H E HYSTERIC

PROBABLY R E V E LS IN [JO U I T . . . DEl THIS PLAY AS J O U I SSANCE VALUE [VALEUR DE J O U I SSANCE1,

BETW E E N "KNOW I NG" A N D "NOT K NOWING," I N A N Y OBJ ECT A IN TH E PHA NTASY OF A MAN A I M I NG FOR

CASE, M A SC U L I N E DES I R E MUST REMA I N U NSATIS­ THE OTH E R , OR A L O S T O B J ECT, SHE IS THE

FIED I N ORDER TO KEEP THE QUESTION OF THE REPRESE NTATI V E OF T H E THI NG. "DOES THAT FROM

R ELATION TO TH E MOTH E R FROM B E I NG BROACHED. WHICH ONE COMES A LSO COM ET' ["CE DO N T ON

ONCE AGAIN, T H E HYSTE R I C P RETENDS TO BELIEVE JOU IT, C E LA J O UI T- I L ?"l ( LACANI

THAT THERE W I LL B E A SEXUA L RELATION, THAT

THE MOTHER WILL BE ABLE TO SAY: "A WOMAN, IN THAT POS I T I O N W H E R E A L L I D EN T I F I C A T I O N S

THATS IT, I T EXISTS," BECO M E CON F U S E D WITH ONE A NOTH ER, A WOM A N

DOES N O T E X I ST; IS THIS NOT PRECISELY THE

THE EVENTS OF A WOM A N'S BODY A R E M A R K E D BY MOMENT W H E N S H E R U N S T H E R I S K OF E X P E R I ENC­

S U B M I SSION TO THE PHA LLIC ORDER: SHE NEVER I N G H E R S E LF AS NOT-WHOLE I N A FLEETING B U RST

STOPS SPEAKING A BOUT T H E M A N D, BY S P E A K I NG , OF D E R I S I O N ? LET US T H I N K A BOUT THE LADY I N

SHE REVELS IN THEM [ELLE EN JOUITJ. ON A COURTLY LOVE (THE LAUGH OF T H E M E D U S A ) WHO

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B ECA U S E S H E IS E NACTING AN I M A G I N A R Y DIVISION E N D LESS. I M ITATIVE R E PETITION.

O F W H IC H S H E C A N NOT SPEAK. BUT TO WH I C H SHE

H A S H A D ACCESS. ' 2 WO M A N IS NOT "LI B E R ATED" WHEN TH E R E PRES­

SION. T H E "FORGETTI NG." O F THE C A PTIVATING PRE­

OEDIPAL R ELATIONSH I P WITH THE MOTH E R IS

"HE W H OSE BODY IS L E FT TO T H E M E RCY OF R A I S E D . A T TH E MOST. T H I S A LLOWS H E R TO STA N O

A N OTH E R S E E S P U R E JOUISSANCE OPEN U P BEFORE BACK AND TAKE A C E RT A I N D I ST A N C E FROM

H I M." SUCH I S THE POSITION OF THE M ASOC H I ST I DE NT I F I C A T I O N S D E A R TO H E R. IT DOES NOT

WHO I DENTI FIES WITH THE OBJECT A. TH E A BO L I S H T H E M . BUT RATH E R M A K E S TH E M LESS

R E M A I NDER. THE WASTE O F THE OTH E R'S JOUIS­ R I G I D A N D CONSTRICTING. ' 4 WOM A N IS NOT-WHOLE.

SANCE. IF A WOMAN I D ENTI F I E S WITH T H E OBJECT A SO I S IT.

A LONG THE PATH TOW A R D T H E OTH ER. (CONFORM­

I NG TOTALLY W I TH THE ROLE ASSIGNED HER I N THE IN THIS A RTICLE W E HAVE L I M I T E D OURSELVES TO
M A SC U L I N E FANTASY). THEN WHAT KINO OF POI NTING OUT A FEW E L E M E NTS CONT R I B U T I NG TO
JOUISSANCE C A N SHE E X P E R I ENCE? DOES NOT A THE Q U ESTION OF WOMAN. WE H A V E N EG LECTED
PORTION OF H E R JOUISSANCE LEAVE THE ORDER O F V A R I O U S Q U E STIONS. MOST PARTI C U L A R LY. THAT
D I SCOU RSE I N O R D E R T O SET ITSELF A DR I FT? AT O F TH E R E LATION B ETWE E N T H E S E I D E NT I F I C A ­
THAT MOMENT WHEN A PA RT OF HER DOES NOT TIONS AND I D E O LOG Y . DOES NOT THE OTH E R
I N SC R I B E I TS E L F IN TH E ORDER OF DISCOURSE. A JOUISSA N C E . I N SPITE O R B E C A U S E O F ITS S I L E N C E .
WOM A N IS THE PLAC E - K E E P E R OF THE THING A N D I S . POS E Q U ESTIONS CONC E R N I NG T H E PHA LLIC
H E RSE LF. R E F E R R E D BACK TO H E R O W N DESI R E O R D E R ? W H A T C A N B E M E A N T BY T H E "FE M I N IZA­
FO R TH E T H I N G. TION" O F A SOC I ETY ONCE ONE SUS PECTS TH A T THE

PART OF A WOMAN WANTING TO B E BORN I S ONLY

IN TH A T SPACE SO CLOS E TO ITS MAGN ETIC POLE OBEYING A N ECONOMY O F CON S U M PTION? HOW CAN

THAT THE G U I D I NG LA N D M A R KS OF THE PHA LLIC THE SOC I A L GROUP R ECONCI L E ORGAN IZATION A N D

ORDER STOP F U N C TI O N I NG AND SUBV ERT O N E I N O RG A N IZATION?

A N OT H E R . DOES A WOM A N NOT EXPERIENCE

SOM ETHING. B EYON D TH E LAW THAT WO U L D IT REMAINS FOR US. WHO HAVE ATTE M PTED TO
RESEMBLE I NCEST WITH T H E MOTH E R ? LET U S TH I N K INSCRIBE OUR TRACE A LO N G S I D E SO MANY
O F SA I NT TH E R E S A O F A V I LA A N D OF T H E GOO S H E OTH E RS. NOT T O CONC LUDE.
COMPA R E S T O A N U RSE WITH A N I N E X H A USTI BLE

FLOW O F MILK.
A WOM A N AND WRITI NGIII TWOFOLD S P E EC H . BUT

TH E R E IS A CATCH. W R I TI NG. FOR A WOMAN: I T CAN

A WOM A N CAN E X P E R I E N C E T H I S JOUISSA N C E . BE POSSI BLE. IT SEEMS. IF SHE AGREES TO
SOM nI M ES. I F S H E A CC E PTS H E RSELF AS D I V I DED RECOG N I ZE BOTH THE M A R K O F T H E N A M E-OF-TH E­
BY DES I R I NG. FATH E R . WHICH PLACE S HER IN THE O R D E R OF

D I SC O U R S E AND THE PERMANENCE OF HER

ATTA C H M E NT TO THE MOTH E R . WHICH BORES A

TH I S J O U I SSA N C E CAN ONLY BE DESIGN ATED. IT
HOLE IN THAT O R D E R . W RITING. FOR A WOM A N : IS I T
C A N NOT BE SPOKEN. I T ESCAPES I N SC R I PTION. I N
P E R H A P S N O T W R I TI N G ON TH E MOT H E R'S BODY. B U T
TH E A N A LYTIC S I TUATION. " I T I S B Y T H I S M E A N S O F
RATH E R . WITH H E R BODY?
ACCESS TO THAT. I N T H E U NCONSCIOUS. W H I C H I S

NOT TH E REPR ESSED. THAT D I SC O U R S E CAN

S P R I N G FORTH. A LTHOUGH S H E C A N S A Y NOTH I N G IN THAT WAY. SHE C A N E SC A P E FROM A KINO OF

MORE A BOUT IT. A WOM A N C A N . AT T H A T MOMENT. WRITING WITH WHICH SHE WO U L D TRY TO I D E NTIFY

RECOG N I ZE THAT SHE I S NOT E N TI R E LY SU BJECT TO WITH MEN AND A LSO FROM I M PR I SON M E NT IN THE

TH E P H A LLIC F U NCTION. FOR THAT R E A SON. IF S H E ILLUSION O F WHAT I S C A LLED A F E M I N I N E W R I TI NG.

ACC E PTS HER D I V I S I O N . S H E W I L L SOM ETI M E S B E

A B L E T O SPEAK F O R " H E R S E LF" WITHIN D I SCOU RSE. CHANTAL MAI LLET AND SYLVIE SESE-LEGER

A G RE E I NG OCC A SIONA LLY TO REMAIN S I LENT. S H E TRA N S LATED BY TERESE LYONS

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I M AGE, BUT FUNDAM ENTA LLY. FOR THE SUBJECT. IT

THE I M PO S S I B I L I T Y OF ADEQUATELY R E P R OD U C I N G IS TO I N S E RT H I MSELF INTO A FU NCTION WHOSE

THE WORD " J O U I SS A N C E "- E N J O Y M E N T . EXTR E M E WOR K I NGS HAVE SEIZED H I M . " JACQUES L.ACAN. LE

PLEASURE. THE PLEASU R E O F S E X U A L C L I M AX­ SEM I N A I R E XI: LES QUATRE CONCEPTS FONDA M ENTAUX

H A S BEEN M UC H D ISCUSSED. I N ORDER TO AVOI D DE LA PSYCHANALYSE. [ 1 9641. P A R I S : S E U I L, 9 1 73.

AN A RB I T R A R Y CHOICE A M ON G ITS M U LT I P L E

M E A N I NGS. JOUISSANCE W I LL BE L E FT UNTRANS· 7 SEE LACAN'S S E M I N A R I E XX: E N C ORE. 11 9 7 2 · 3 1 .

LATED IN THIS A RTICLE. THE VERB " JO UIR:' PARIS: S E U I L, 1 975. (TRANSJ
HOWEVE R. WILL BE TRANSLATED WITH THE

SEMANTICALLY U N SATISFACTORY. B U T SYNTACTI· 8 CF. M. MONTRELA Y. RECH ERCHES S U R LA F E M I N ITE.

C A LLY ADEQUATE. "TO R E V E L." AND ONCE WITH THE

MORE DI RECT "TO COME:' IN BOTH CASES. THE

9 THE OEDI PUS COMPLEX SHATTERS A PA RT IN THE
FRENCH WILL B E I N D I CATED IN BRACKETS. (TRANSJ
LITTLE BOY: IT DOES NOT DISAPPE A R IN THE LITTLE

GIRL.. FREUD TELLS US THAT THE FATH E R I N H E RITS

" E V E RYTH I NG C O N N EC T E D WITH THIS FI RST
THE G I R L'S ATTAC H M E NT TO HER MOTH ER. TH I S
MOTHER·ATTACH M E NT HAS IN A N A LYSIS SEEMED
ATT A C H M E N T CONTI N U E S TO BE MARKED BY
TO M E SO ELUSI VE. LOST I N A PAST SO D I M A N D
AMBIGUITY.
S H A DOWY. SO H A R D TO R E S U S C ITATE. T H A T I T

S E E M E D AS I F I T H A D U N D E RG O N E S O M E SPEC I A LLY
10 SEE NOTE 7.
I N EX O RA B L E REPRESSION." SIGMUND FREUD.

"FEMALE S E X U A L I TY : ' IN S E X U A L ITY AND THE

1 1 WE WOULD SUGGEST THAT THE SIGNI FIERS
PSYCHOLOGY OF LOVE. N E W YORK: COLLI ER BOOKS.
"WOMAN'5-BODY" A N D "SAM E·BODY" FORCE U S TO
1 963. P. 1 95.
RECO N S I D E R T H E QUESTION OF TH E OBJECTS A. I T

SEEMS TO U S THAT. I N T H E CASE OF A WOMAN

2A " I N H E R 'AMOU R PROPRE: WOMA N D O E S N O T M A NAGE
INSC R I BED I N THE PHALLIC ORDER. THE OBJECTS A
TO DISTING U I S H HER OWN BODY FROM THAT WHICH
SUPPORTING H E R DESIRE ARE N EVER "COMPLETE·
WAS HER FIRST LOVE OBJECT." M. MONTRELAY.
LY" S E P ARATED FROM HER. (IN THIS RESPECT. THE
RECHERCHES SUR LA FEMINITE.
C H I L O OCCU P I E S A SPECIAL POS ITION.) A WOMAN

ALSO F I N DS H E R OBJECTS A UPON HER OWN BODY.

2B P E R H A PS CON FUSION OF CATH EXES A LSO PLAYS A
DOU BLED BY THE MATERNAL R EFLEXION.
ROLE FOR T H E MOTHER. WHO. AT THAT MOME NT,

LOVES THE DAUGHTER WHO RESEM B LES H E R A N D

12 CF. C H A NTAL M A I LLET. LA FEMME DANS L'AMOUR
FOR WHOM E V E RYTHI NG I S STlL.L POSSIBLE. (EVEN
COURTOIS. ( I N LETTRES DE L'ECOLEJ
THE AVOI DANCE O F C A STRATION?).

13 I T I S NOT WITHOUT I NTEREST THAT THE ANLAYST

3 SEE LACAN'S S E M I N A R O F 1 9 59·60, L'ETHN I Q U E DE
SHOULD BE A WOM A N . THIS UTTERANCE CAN BE
LA PSYC H A N A L YSE. (AS YET U N P U B L I S H ED.)
BACKED U P BY THE R ELATION SH I P WITH THE SAME·

BODY.
4 COMPLEXE D U PROC H A I N .

14 A WOMAN I S NEVER SAFE FROM I DENTI FICATIONS.

THE DAUGHTER IS. IN ALL L I K E L I HOOD. NOT
SHE I S ALSO I D E NTI FYI NG WHEN S H E TAKES THE
CATHECTED A S A LOVE OBJECT. S H E I S THERE ONLY
POSITION OF S U FFERI NG "KNOWL.EDGE:· THAT OF
IN ORDER TO A L LOW THE I M AG E OF THE MOTHER TO
THE PYTH I A PEN ETRATED BY TRUTH.
BE REVEA LED. SHE S UPPORTS THAT I MAGE.

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FEM I N I N E EROTI C I S M IS MORE CENSORED, LESS M A N I F E ST A T I O N S OF HIS DESI RE NOR OF THE

R E PRESSED THAN THAT OF A MAN. IT LENDS ITSELF EXTENT O F H I S PLEA S U R E S. H E EXPER I M E NTS, NOT

LESS EASILY TO LOSING ITSELF AS THE STA K E OF O N LY WITH C H A NC E BUT A LSO WITH THE LAW A N D

U NC O N S C I O U S R E P R E S ENTATION. THE DRIVES W I T H H I S S E X U A L O R G A N : H I S BODY ITSELF TAKES

WHOSE FO R C E WAS D E M O N STRATED BY THE O N THE VALUE OF STA KE.

ENGLISH SCHOOL. C I RC U M SC R I B E A PLAC E O R

''CONTI N E NT'' W H I C H C A N B E C A LLED -DARK" T O T H E IN R E LATION TO C A STRATION. TH E R E FO R E , TH E

EXTENT THAT IT I S OUTSIDE THE C I RC U M FE R ENCE POSITION OF TH E M A N D I FF E R S FROM THAT OF THE

OF T H E SYMBOLIC ECONOMY (FORECLOSED). WOMA N WHOSE S E X U A LITY IS CAPABLE OF

R E M A I N I NG ON THE EDGE O F A L L REPRESSION.

WHAT ARE THE P R OC E S S E S WHICH M A I NTA I N UNDER C E RTA I N C I R C U M STANCES THEN, THE STA K E

FEM I N ITY -OUTSIDE R E PRESSION." I N A STATE OF OF C ASTRATION FOR THE WOMA N F I N DS I TS E L F

NATURE, AS IT WERE? THE FI RST. OF A SOC I A L DI SPLACED: IT CONSISTS I N T H E SEXUA LITY A N D

ORDER, CONC E R N S THE A B SENCE OF PROH I B I ­ T H E D ES I R E OF T H E OTH E R SEX. MOST OFTEN THAT

T I O N S : T H E G I R L I S L E S S S U B J ECT THA N TH E BOY TO OF THE FATH E R AND THEN, OF THE M A SC U L I N E

THE T H R EATS AND TO THE DEFENCES WHICH PARTN ER. W H I C H I S W H Y P E R R I E R A N D GRANOFF

PENA LIZE MASTUR BATION. W E KEEP SI LENT A BOUT H AVE BEEN ABLE TO S HOW ... . . THE E XT R E M E

H E R M A STURBATION. A LL THE MORE A S I T I S LESS FEMININE S E N S I B I LITY TO ALL EXPERI ENCES

OBSERVABLE, FRANCOISE OOLTO H A S SHOWN THAT, R E LA T I N G TO T H E C A STRATION OF T H E M A N :'2

S H E LT E R E D BY T H E I R P R I VACY, THE G I R L. THE

WOMA N , CAN L I V E A "PROTECTED" SEXUALITY.' O N E YET OTH E R PROC E SSES. OF AN I N STINCTUAL A N D

TENDS T O REFER T O THE A N X I ETY OF RAPE A N D NOT SOCI A L ORDER. M A I NTA I N F E M I N I N E SEXUA LITY

PEN ETRATION W I TH O U T E M P H A S I Z I N G T H A T . IN OUTS I D E T H E ECONOMY O F REPRESENTATION-THE

R E A L ITY, O N T H E CONTR A R Y , T H E G I R L R I S K S I NTRICATION OF T H E O R A L- A N A L D R I V E S W I T H

LITTLE. T H E A NATOMY O F TH E BOY, O N THE OTH E R VAG I N A L PLEASURE, J O N ES , KLEIN A N D DOLTO

H A N D. EXPOSES H I M V E R Y E A R LY T O T H E REALIZA­ HAVE I N S I STED ON THE FACT THAT THE G I R L'S

TION THAT HE IS M A ST E R N EITHER OF THE ARCHAIC EXPERIENCES OF THE VAGINA ARE

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ORGANIZED AS A FUNCTION OF P RE-ESTABLISHED WE WOULD H A V E TO SPEC I FY FURTH E R WHAT I S
ORAL-A N A L SCH E M A S. A T T H E FURTHER EXTREME. ONLY I NTIMATED H E R E : THAT T H E R E A L OF T H E
P R E C OC I O U S S E X U A L I T Y " T U R N S " A R O U N D A BODY. I N TAK I NG FORM AT PUBE RTY. I N CHARGING
SINGLE ORIFICE. A N ORGAN WHICH I S BOTH ITSELF W I T H I N T E N S I TY A N D I M PO R T A N C E A N D
DIGESTIVE AND V AG I N A L. WHICH C E A SELESSLY PRESENCE. AS OBJECT O F THE LOVER'S DESI RE. RE­
TENDS TO ABSORB. O R A PPROPRIATE. TO DEVOUR. ACTUALIZES. RE-I NCARNATES. THE REAL O F THAT
WE F I N D AGAI N HERE T H E THE M E OF CONCENTRI­ OTHE R BODY. W HICH AT THE B EG I N N I N G OF L I FE WAS
CITY. THE SUBSTANCE OF WORDS. THE ORGANIZER OF
DESIRE: WHICH. LATER ON. WAS A LSO THE MATE R I A L

IF THI S I N SATIABLE ORGAN-HOLE IS AT THE CENTER OF A RCHAIC R E PRESSION. RECOV E R I N G H E RSELF

OF PRECOCIOUS SEXUA LITY. IF I T I N FL ECTS ALL AS MATER N A L BODY ( A N D ALSO AS PHALLUS). THE

PSYCHIC MOVEMENT ACCO R D I NG TO C I R C U LA R AND WOMAN C A N NO LONGE R REPRESS. "LOSE:' THE

C LOS E D SC H E M A S . I T C O M P R O M I S E S W O M A N ' S F I R ST STA K E OF R E P R E SE NTATI O N . A S IN THE

R E LA T I O N T O C A S T R A T I O N AND TH E LAW: TO TRAGEDY. R E PR ESENTATI ON IS T H R E A T E N E D BY

A BSORB. TO TAKE. TO U ND ERSTAND. IS TO REDUCE RUIN. BUT AT THE ROOT OF TH I S THREAT THERE A R E

THE WORLD TO T H E MOST ARCHAIC I N STI NCTUAL D I F F E R E N T P R OC E S S E S : F O R O E D I P U S . T H E

"LAWS." I T IS A MOV E M E N T OPPOSED TO THAT R E STOR A T I O N O F T H E STA K E P R OC E E D E D B Y

P R E S U P POS E D BY C A ST R A T I O N : WHERE THE CHANCE. F R O M T H E GODS: IT WAS EFFECTED I N

JOUISSANCE O F T H E BODY LOSE S ITSELF "FOR" A SPITE OF A PROHI BITION. NOTH I NG . O N THE

D I SCOU RSE WHICH IS OTHE R . CONTRARY. I S FORBIDDEN FOR T H E WOMEN: TH E R E

I S NO STATEM ENT OR L A W W H I C H PROHI BITS T H E
RECOVERY OF TH E STAKE SINCE T H E R E A L W H ICH
HERE. W E WILL N O T TH E R EFORE QUESTION T H E
I M PO S E S I T S E L F A N D T A K E S T H E P L A C E OF
T R U T H OF TH E CLI N IC A L OBSERVATIONS PRODUCED
REPRESSION A N D DESIRE IS. FOR H E R. THE REAL OF
BY THE ENGLI S H SCHOOL: ALL EXPE R I ENCE OF
H E R OWN BODY.
C H I LD A N A LYSI S CON F I R M S T H E P RECOCITY OF THE
"KNOWLEDGE" O F THE V AG I N A. MORE G E N ERALLY. I T
FROM NOW ON. ANXI ETY. TIED TO TH E PRESENCE OF
IS QUITE TRUE THAT THE VERY S M A LL G I R L
THI S BODY. CAN ONLY BE I N S I STENT. CONTI N U OUS.
EXPE R I E NCES H E R F E MI N I NI TY V E R Y EA RLY. BUT.
THIS BODY. SO CLOSE. W H ICH SHE H A S TO OCC U PY.
S I M U LATANEOUSLY. IT M UST BE STRESSED THAT
IS AN OJ ECT I N EXCESS WHICH MUST BE "LOST:'
SUCH A PRECOCI TY. FAR FROM FAVORING A POSSIBLE
THAT IS TO SAY. REPRESSED. IN O R D E R TO BE
"MATURATION." ACTS AS A N OBSTACLE TO IT. S I NCE IT
S Y M BOLIZED. H E N C E TH E S Y M PTOM S W H I C H SO
MAINTA I N S E ROTI C I S M OUTSIDE THE R E P R ESENTA­
OFTEN S I M U LATE THIS LOSS: "TH E R E IS NO LONGER
TION OF CASTRATION.
..
A N YTHI NG. O N LY THE HOLE. E M PTIN E S S . . . S U C H I S
THE L E IM O T I F OF ALL FEMI N I N E A N A LYSIS. W H I C H I T
WOULD BE A M I STA K E TO SEE AS THE EXPRESSION
ANXI ETY AND THE R E LATION TO THE BODY OF A N ALLEGED "CASTRATION." ON T H E CONTRA RY.
IT I S A DEFENSE PRODUCED IN O R D E R TO PARRY

A TH I R D S E R I E S OF PROCESSES STA N DS I N TH E WAY THE AVATA R S. THE DEFIC I E NCIES. O F SYMBOLIC

O F R E P R E S S I O N : C O N C E R N I N G T H E WO M A N ' S CASTRATION.

R E LATION TO HER OWN BODY. A R ELATION

S I M U LTANEOUSLY N A R C I S S I STIC A N D EROTIC. FOR THE A N A LYST OFTEN FINDS A "FE A R OF FEM I N I NITY"
THE WOMAN E N JOYS H E R BODY AS S H E WOULD THE IN CON N ECTION WITH FEM I N I N E A NX I ETY. E SPE­
BODY OF A NOTH E R . E V E R Y OCC U R R E NCE OF A C I A LLY IN T H E A DOLESCENT. WE HAVE TRIED TO
S E X U A L K I N D ( P U B ERTY. E ROTIC E X P E R I ENCES. S H OW T H A T T H I S F E A R IS NOT A R E S U LT OF
MATE R N I TY. ETC.) HAPPENS TO HER A S IF I T CAME P H A NTA S I E S O F V I OLATION A N D B R E A K I N G I N
FROM A NOTHE R (WOMA N ) : EVERY OCCURRENCE IS (EFFRACTION) A LONE • • . A T BOTTOM . I T I S FEA R OF
THE FASCINATING ACTUA LIZATION OF THE' FEMI­ THE FEM I N I N E BODY AS A NON-REPRESSED A N D
N I N ITY OF ALL WOM EN. BUT A LSO A N D A BOVE A LL. U N R E P R E S E NTABLE OBJ ECT. I N OTH E R WORDS.
OF THAT OF THE MOTHER. I T IS AS IF "TO BECOME FEM I N I N ITY. "ACCORDING TO JONES:' I.E .. F EM I N I N ITY
WOM A N ." "TO BE WOMAN" GAVE ACCESS TO A EXPER I E NC E D A S REAL AND I M ME D I ATE. IS THE
JOUISSANCE OF THE BODY AS FEM I N I N E AND/OR BLI N D SPOT OF THE SYMBOLIC PROCESS A N A LYZED
M A T E R N A L. IN TH E S ELF-LOVE SHE BEARS BY FRE UD. TWO I NCOMPATIB LE. H ETEROG E N EOUS
HERSELF. TH E WOMA N C A NNOT DIFFERENTIATE H E R T E R R I TO R I E S C O- E X I ST I N S I DE T H E F E M I N I N E
OWN BODY F ROM T H A T W H I C H W A S "TH E F I R ST U NCONSC I O U S : THAT O F R E P R E S E N TATION A N D
OBJECT." THAT WHICH REMAINS "THE DARK CONTIN ENT."

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I T I S R A R E F O R A N X I ETY T O M A N I FEST ITSELF A S THE NOVELS O F M A R G U ER ITE D U R A S U S E T H E S A M E

S U C H I N A N A LY S I S. IT I S U S U A LLY CAMOU FLAGED WOR L D OF STUPO R AND SI LENCE. I T COU L D BE
BY THE DEFENCES THAT IT PROVOK ES. IT IS A SHOWN THAT THIS SI LENCE. TH I S N O N- S P E EC H .
Q U E STION OF ORGA N I Z I N G A REPRESE NTATION OF
AGA I N E X H I B ITS T H E FASC I N ATING D I M E N SION O F
C A STRATION W H I C H IS NO LONGER SYMBOLIC. BUT
F E M I N I N E L A C K : D U R A S WANTS TO M A K E TH I S LACK
I M AG I N A RY: A LACK I S S I M U LATED A N D THEREBY " S P E A K" A S A C R Y (MODERATO CANTA B I L E ) . OR A S
TH E LOSS OF SO M E STA K E - A N U N D E RTA K I NG A L L "MUSIC." HERE. LET U S S I M PLY R E C A L L W H A T I S
THE MORE E A S I LY ACCOM P L I S H E D PRECISELY S A I D I N T H E RAV I S H M E N T OF L O L V STE I N : "WHAT W A S
BECAUSE FEM I N I N E AN ATOMY EXHI BITS A LAC K. N E E D E D W A S A WO RD-ABSENCE. A W O R D H O L E . . . I T
THAT OF T H E P E N I S. AT T H E S A M E TIME A S BEING C O U L D N O T H A V E B E E N SPOK E N . IT C O U L D O N L Y B E
HER OWN PHALLUS. TH E R E FORE. THE WOMA N WILL M A D E T O R E SO U N D." 3
D I S G U I S E H E R S E L F WITH T H I S LACK. THROWI NG I NTO

R E L I E F THE D I M EN SION OF CA STRATION AS TROM PE·

T H U S T H E S E X . THE VAGI NO-O R A L ORGAN OF T H E
L'OEI L
WOM A N . ACTS A S OBSTACLE T O CASTRATION: A T

TH E SA M E TIME. " F A L S E LY R E P R E S E N T I NG TH E
THE WAYS IN WHICH THIS CAN OC C U R ARE LATT E R IN ITS E FFECTS OF A L L U R E M E N T W H IC H
M U LTIPLE. ONE C A N PLAY O N THE ABSENCE O F THE PROVOKE A N X I E TY." T H I S I S W H Y M A N H A S A LWAYS
PENIS TH ROUGH SILENCE JUST AS WELL AS C A L L E D THE F E M I N I N E DEFENCES A N D M ASQUER­
TH ROUGH A R ESOU N D I NG V A N I TY. ONE C A N M A K E I T A D E EVIL
T H E MODEL OF E ROTIC. M YSTICAL. A N D N E U ROTIC

EXPERI E NCES. THE ANOREXIC R E F U S A L OF FOOD IS

WOM A N IS NOT ACCUSED OF T H I N K I NG OR OF
A GOOD EXAMPLE OF THE D E S I R E TO REDUCE A N D
COM M I TT I N G T H I S E V I L . BUT OF I N C A R N ATING IT. ' " I T
T O D I SSOLVE H E R O W N F L E S H . T O TAKE H E R OWN
IS THIS EVIL WHICH SCANDALIZES WHENEVER
BODY A S A C I P H E R . M A S OC H I S M A LSO M I M ES THE
WOMA N "PLAYS OUT' H E R S E X I N O R D E R T O E V A D E
LACK. TH ROUGH PASSIVITY. I M POTE N C E A N D DOING
THE WORD A N D TH E LAW. EACH TI M E S H E SUBVE RTS
NOTH I N G (" N E RIEN FAIRE"). T H E OBSE RVATIONS OF
A LAW OR A WORD WHICH RELIES ON THE
H E L E N E D E UTSCH A N D THOSE O F THE RECHERCHES
PREDOM I N A NTLY M A S C U L I N E STRUCTU R E O F T H E
NOUVELLES COULD B E U N D E RSTOOD I N T H I S WAY.
LOOK. F R E U D S A Y S THAT E V I L I S E X P E R I E N C E D A S
C ASTRATION IS S I M I LA R LY DISGUISED IN TH E
S U C H W H E N A N X I ETY G R I PS THE C H I LD I N FRONT O F
R E G I STER OF EROTIC FICTION: W H E R E THE F E M I N I N E
TH E UNVEILED BODY O F HIS MOTH E R . "DID H I S
O R I FICE. O. I S " F A LSE LY" R E PR E S E N T E D I N ITS
DESI R E TH E N REFER O N L Y T O TH I S HOLE OF
SUCCESSIVE M ETAMORPHOSES.
FLESH?" T H E W O M A N A FFORDS A G Ll M !"S E O F T H E

R E A L BY V I R T U E O F H E R R E LATION T O N OTHING­
HERE. I WOULD RATH E R TU R N TO THE POETS. THOSE THAT I S TO SAY. TO THE T H I NG. AT T H I S M O M E NT. THE
WHO HAVE WRITTEN I N T H E NOVELISTIC O R M A D E SYMBOLIC COLLAPSES I N TO T H E R E A L. FR E U D' A LSO
FILMS OUT OF THE FEMI N I N E DRAMA ("C I N EMA"'.
SAYS THAT THE P E R V E R T C A N NOT SEE THE
SINCE TH E L I M ITATIONS O F THIS ARTICLE RULE OUT
CASTRATED BODY OF H I S MOTH E R . I N T H I S S E N S E .
ANY D E TA I L E D C ON S I D E R A T I O N OF C L I N I C A L
E V E R Y M A N I S A P E RV E RT. ON T H E O N E H A N D. H E
CASES. E N J O Y S W I THOUT S A Y I N G SO. W I THOUT COM I NG TOO

C LOSE-FOR T H E N H E WOULD H A V E TO TA K E U PO N

TA K E FELLINI. TH E D I R ECTOR O F J U L I ETTE OF THE H I MS E L F A T E R R I B L E A N X I ETY. OR E V E N H A TE-: H E

SPIRITS. A F I L M SO BAFFLING. N O DOUBT. BEC A U S E IT ENJOYS BY PROXY THE THING HE GLIMPSES

B R I NGS OUT TH E PRESENCE OF THE "DARK THROUGH T H E MOTH E R . O N THE OTH E R H A N D. H E

CONTINE NT' S O W E L L T H E D I M E NSION O F F E M I N IN­ DOES NOT APPEAR T O U N D E RSTA N D THAT H E R

ITY THAT LACAN DESIGNATES AS M ASQU E R A D E . R E LATION T O T H E TH I N G I S S U B L I MATED. I T I S T H I S

TA K I N G THE TERM FROM JOA N R I V I E RE. " TAKES E V I L W H I C H H A S TO B E REPRESSED.

SHAPE IN THIS PILING UP O F C RAZY THI NGS.

FEATHERS. HATS AND STRANGE B A R OQ U E CON­ A F I L M L I K E DAYS OF WRATH'v LAYS B A R E A L L T H E

STRUCTIONS WHICH RISE UP L I K E SO M A N Y S I LENT M A SC U L I N E " D E F E N C ES" AGA I N ST F E M I N I N ITY A N D

I N SI G N IAS. BUT WHAT WE M U ST S E E I S THAT THE WOM A N ' S D I R EC T R ELATION T O JOUISSANCE. T H E

OBJ ECTI V E OF S UC H A M A SQUERADE I S TO SAY MAN IS TERRORIZED BY THE THREAT THAT

N OT H I NG. ABSOLUTE LY NOTHING. A N D IN ORDER TO F E M I N I N ITY RAISES FOR " H I S" R E P R E S S ION. IN

PRODUCE THIS NOTH I N G T H E WOMAN USE S H E R OWN O R D E R TO R E A S S U R E H I M A N D C O N V I N C E H I M . T H E

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WOMA N A LWAYS A DV A N C E S F U RT H E R A LONG H E R SC R I B E D . THE STA K E IS NOW P R ECOC I O U S

O W N PATH BY EXPLA I N I NG H E R S E LF, W I S H I NG T O FEM I N I NI TY AND NOT TH E PENIS O R M A SC U L I N E

S P E A K THE TRUTH, BUT SHE OOES N O T U N DER­ SEXUA LITY: P R ECOC I O U S F E M I N I N I TY B ECOM E S T H E

ST A N D THAT HER DISCOURSE WILL NOT AND MATERIAL OF R E P R ESSION. "ACCOR D I N G T O J O N ES"

C A N NOT B E R E C E I V E D . FOR T H E FACT O F BYPASS­ ONE OR S E V E R A L P E RIODS OF LATE NCY CORRES­

I NG THE LAW OF R E P R ES S I O N P R E C I S E L Y B Y SAYI N G PON D TO THIS DECATHEXIS OF S E X U A LITY, P E R IODS

ALL, CONTA M I NATES TH E M O S T P R E C I O U S TRUTH D U R I NG WHICH T H E LITTLE GIRL AND THE W O M A N

AND MAKES I T S U SPECT, ODIOUS AND C O N D E M N ­ D I S E N TA N G L E T H E M S ELVES FROM TH E I R OWN

ABLE. H E NCE M A SC U L I N E C E N S U RE. BOD I ES A N D ITS PLEASURES. THIS I S W H Y P E R I O D S

OF FRIGIDITY IN A N A LY S I S CAN OFT E N BE

THE F R U ST R A T I O N S , I NT E R D I C T I O N S A N D CON­
CONSI D E R E D AS AN I ND E X OF PROGRESS: THEY
T E M PT WHICH HAVE WEIGHED ON WOMEN FOR
MARK THE MOMENT WHEN THE PATI E N T DE­
C E N TU R I ES MAY I ND E E D BE ABSURD AND ARBI­
CATH ECTS T H E V AG I N A L-O R A L SC H E MA S W H I C H
TRARY, BUT THEY DO NOT M A TT E R . TH E M A I N THING
TI LL THEN W E R E A LO N E CAPABLE O F PROV I D I N G
IS THE FACT OF I M PO S I N G THE D E F I N ITIVE
ACCESS T O E ROTIC PLEASU RE.
A B A N D O N M E N T O F J O U I S S A N C E . T H E SCA N D A L C A N

THEN COME T O A N E N D-TH E F E M I N I N E S E X B E A R S

W I T N E S S T O C A STRATION . THE DE C I S I V E STE P BY WHICH THE FEM I N I N E

U NCONSC I O U S I S M O D I F I E D LI ES, NOT SO M U C H I N

THE C H A N G E O F LOVE OBJECT" A S I N T H E C H A N G E

THE A N A LYST, FOR HIS P A RT, C A N NOT DEFINE
IN THE U N C O N SC I O U S R E P R ESENTATIVE, MASCU­
F E M I N I N E C A STRATION S I M P LY A S T H E E F F ECT O F
LINE, PHALLIC R E P R E S E NTATIVES ARE S UBSTI­
HIS STRUCTU RES. IF THE EXEMPLAR OF THE
TUTED F O R T H E F I RST "CONCENTRIC" R E P R E S E N ­
HYSTE R I C A L, N E U ROTIC WOMA N I S O N E W H O N EVER
TATI VE. T H E L A W A N D T H E PATE R N A L I D E A L S O F
LETS U P WI S H I N G TO B E H E R SEX, I N V E R S E LY, I SN'T
THE FA T H E R WHICH ARE ARTICU LATED IN HER
THE " A D U LT" W O M A N ONE WHO RECONSTRUCTS H E R
D I SCOU R S E CONSTITUTE THE NEW R E P R E S E NTA­
SEXUALITY I N A F I E L D W H I C H G O E S B E Y O N D S E X ? T H E
TIVES CAPA B L E O F S U PPLANTING TH E MODELS OF
P R I N C I PLE OF A M A SC U L I N E L I B I DO U PH E L D BY
A R C H A IC R E P R E S E NTATIONS (FE M I N I N E OED I P U S) '
F R E U D COULD B E C L A R I F I E D A S A F U NCTION O F

TH I S "EXTRATE R RITOR I A LITY."

L E T US N O T E THAT T H I S S U BSTITUTION D O E S N OT

F E M I N I N E CASTRATION: H Y POTH ESES MUTI LATE THE W O MA N AND DEPR I V E HER OF A

P E N I S WH I C H S H E N E V E R H A D , BUT DEPRI VES H E R O F

T H E SENSE O F P R EC OC I O U S SEXUALITY. FE M I N I N I TY
ONCE AGA I N , LET US TA K E AN E X A M PLE FROM
I S FORGOTT E N , I ND E E D RE PRESSED, AND THIS LOSS
LITERATU R E, K LOSSOW S K I ' S PORTRAITS O F WOM E N
CONSTITUTES THE S Y M BOLIC CASTRATION O F T H E
E A S I LY LEND TH E M SELVES TO A CLINICAL
WOMAN,
COM M E NTARY. WE MIGHT B E SURPRISED AT THE

A STON I S H I N G L Y V I R I LE ATTR I B U T E S ( BOTH ANA­

TOM I C A L AND P S Y C H I C A L - 'N I T H WHICH THE

SUBLIMATION AND M ETAPHOR
AUTHOR E N OOWS H I S H E RO I N E S A N D D E D U C E FROM

THEM S O M E P E R V E R S I O N. I T IS A LSO POSSIBLE TO

IN A N A LY S I S AND MORE S P EC I F I C A LLY, IN TH E
SEE IN THESE ATTRIB UTES THE M A T E R I A L OF A
TRA NSFE R E N C E , ( I , E" THE SET OF U NCONSCI O U S
MORAL FABLE OUTLI N I NG A T Y P E OF P E R FECTED
MOD I FICATIONS P R O D U C E D BY THE E N U N C I ATION
FEMINI NITY: T H E "T R U E" WOMAN, T H E " F E M M E"
OF D I SCO U R S E O N T H E COUC H), THE D I M E N S I O N OF
WOMA N WOULD BE DRAWN AS SHE WHO HAS
PLEA S U R E C A N E M E RGE.
" FORGOTT E N " HER F E M I N I N ITY, AND WHO WOU LD

ENTRUST T H E J O U I S S A N C E A N D T H E R E PRESE NTA­

TION OF IT TO AN OTH E R . FOR THIS REASON, IN RECHERCH ES, TOROK SPEAKS OF ITS M A N I FESTA­

KLOSSOWSKI'S H E RO I N E , ROBE RTE, COULD IN NO TION: "W H E N ONE OF MY PAT I E NTS HAS ' U N DE R ­

WAY TALK ABOUT H E R S E LF, HER BOD Y OR "THE STOOD' A N I N TE R P R ETATION, WHEN. CONSEQUENT­

WORD THAT IT CONCEA LS.� I T IS SOMEON E E LSE'S LY, AN I N H I BITION IS L I FTED, A FREQUENT

TASK TO HOLD THE D I S C O U R S E O F F E M I N I N I TY, I N I NDICATION O F T H I S A DVANCE I S THAT THE PATI E N T

LOVE A N D/OR I N A NOVEL. D R E A MS A N D I N T H I S D R E A M S H E H A S A N O RG A S M "

(A D E SC R I PT I O N OF ONE OF THESE DREAMS

FOLOWS)."
UNDER T H E S I G N OF THIS FORG ETTING, A SECON D

ECONOMY OF D E S I R E, WHERE THE STA K E IS NO

LONG E R THE SAME, CAN EFFECTIVELY BE DE- TOROK, BY I N S I ST I N G ON THE FACT THAT A

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IS E L A BORATED. TELLS US WHAT IS E S S E N TI A L A N A LY S A N D'S P H A NTASY. T H E A N A L Y ST ENUNCI­

A BOUT T H I S P L EA S U R E . CONTRA R Y T O WHAT O N E ATES A C E R TA I N N U M B E R OF S I G N I F I E R S N ECES­

M I G H T TH I N K . TH I S P L E A S U R E DOES NOT L I E I N THE S A R I LY RELATING TO HIS OWN DESI R E AND HIS

L I FTI NG OF AN I N H I B I TION. IN TH E R E LEA S I NG O F L I STE N I NG-PLA C E . T H E S E WORDS A R E OTH E R : T H E

TENSION. C O N TA I N E D FOR TOO LONG. ON TH E A N A LYST'S D I SC O U R S E IS NOT R E FL E X I V E . BUT

CONTRARY. THE PLEASURE. FAR FROM BEING D I F F E R E NT. AS SUCH IT IS A METAPHOR. NOT A

EXPLICABLE BY THE CLICHE OF RELEASE ("DE­ M I R RO R . OF THE PATl E NT'S D I SC O U R S E . A N D.

FO U L E M E Nr')" A R I S E S F R O M THE PUTTI NG I N PLACE P R E C I S E LY. M ET A P H O R I S C A P A B LE OF E N G E N D E R ­

OF NEW R E P R E S E NTATI ONS. LET US NOTE THAT ING PLEASURE.

THESE WERE F I R ST E N U N C I A TED BY TH E OTH E R .

THE A N A LYST. W H O . IN I N T E R P R ETING. V E RBALLY FI RST FREUD AND TH E N LAC A N A N A LYZED THE
A R T I C U LA T E S S O M ETH I NG OF A SEXUA LITY MOTI V E S O F T H I S P L E A S U R E W I TH R E G A R D T O T H E
M A I NTA I N E D T I L L TH E N I N T H E STATE O F N A T U R E . I N JOKE. WE LAUGH WHEN WE PERCEIVE THAT THE
T H E "DA R K . " WORDS S P E A K A T E X T OTH E R T H A N T H A T W H I C H W E

T H O U G H T. AND IF THE OTH E R L A U G H S. IF THE

H E R E . T H E R E FO R E . P L E A S U R E I S T H E E FFECT O F M I S A P P R E H ENSION P L A Y S ON O N E M O R E REGISTER.

T H E WORD OF T H E OTH E R . M O R E S P EC I F I C A L LY. I T THE PLEASURE BECOMES KEENER STILL. WHAT

OCC U R S AT THE A DV E NT OF A S T R U CT U R I N G F U NCTION D O E S T H I S OTH E R TEXT. T H I S OTH E R E A R .

D I SCOU R S E . FOR WHAT IS ESS E N T I A L IN THE H A V E ? I T H A S T H E F U NCTION O F E N G E N D E R I NG A

A N A LY S I S OF A WOM A N I S N OT M A K I NG S E X U ALITY M ET A P H O R . THAT IS TO SAY. OF S U BS T I T U T I N G

M O R E "CON S C I O U S" O R I N T E R PRET I N G IT. AT LEAST I T S E L F F O R T H E P R E C E D I NG TEXT A N D L I S TE N I NG­

NOT I N THE SENSE N O R M A L LY GIVEN TO THIS TERM. PLACE. PLEASURE ARISES THE MOMENT THIS

THE ANA LYSrS WORD TA K E S ON A COMPLETELY M ET A P H O R I S PRODUCED. LACA N S A Y S THAT I T I S

D I F F E R E N T F U NCTI ON. I T N O LONG E R E X PLA I N S . BUT I DE NT I F I E D WITH THE VERY M E A N I NG OF THE

FROM THE SOLE FACT OF ARTICULATING. IT M ET A P H O R .7

STR UCTU RES. B Y V E R B A L L Y PUTTING I N PLACE A

R E P R E S E NTATION O F C A S T R A TION. T H E A N A LYSrS IN WHAT THEN. DOES THIS M E A N I NG B E R E FT O F

WORD MAKES S E X U A L I TY PASS I NTO DISCO U R S E . S I G N I F I C A TI O N C O N S I ST? W E C A N D E F I N E I T A S T H E

THIS TYPE OF I N T E R P R ET A T I O N T H E R E FO R E MEASURE OF THE E M PTY "SPACE" I NDUCED BY

RE PRESSES. A T L E A ST I N TH E S E N S E G I V E N TO T H E R E P R E S S I O N . T H E M ETAPHOR. BY POS I NG I T S E L F A S

W O R D H E RE. THAT WHICH IS NOT S POKE N . H O L LOWS O U T A N D

D E S I G N ATES T H I S S P A C E . F R E U D S A I D T H A T T H E

U N D ERSTOOD IN THIS WAY. I NTE R P R ETATION CAN P L EA S U R E OF T H E JOKE L I E S I N T H E R E T U R N O F

P E R H A PS HELP US TO LOCATE A C E RTA I N

THE R E P R ESSED. DOES IT NOT R A TH E R. LIE IN

C U L TU R A L AND S OC I A L F U N CT I O N O F PSYCHO­
PUTTI NG T H E D I M EN S I O N OF REPRESSION I NTO P L A Y O N

A N A LY S I S. T H E F R E U D I A N T H EORY OF S E X U A LITY
T H E LEVEL O F T H E T E X T ITSE1.F?

W A S D E V E LO P E D (MISE E N PLACE) IN R E LATION TO

WOM E N AND F E M I N I NI TY. WE CAN ASK W H E TH E R I T IS T H I S P L E A S U R E O F THE JOKE THAT CAN B E

PSYCHOA N A LY S I S WAS N OT A RT I C U L A T E D PRE­ EVOK E D I N R E LA T I O N TO A L L S U B L I M ATION. FO R I T

C I S E L Y I N O R D E R T O R E P R E SS F E M I N I N I TY ( I N T H E I S A N O P E R AT I O N W H I C H C O N S I STS I N OPE N I NG U P

S E N S E OF PRODUC I NG ITS S Y M BOLIC R E P R E S E NTA­ N E W D I V I S I O N S A N D SPACES I N T H E M A T E R I A L THAT

T I O N ) . AT THE S A M E T I M E . F R E U D'S R E S E R V ATIONS IT T R A N S FO R M S . IN THE TRANSFERENCE. THE

ABOUT JON E S WOU L D M A K E SENSE: T H E A TT E M PTS PAT I E NrS ORGASM TOOK NOTE O F A N I NT E R P R ETA­

TO " M A K E" F E M I N I N I TY " S P E A K" W O U L D S U R E LY TION. S U R E LY T H I S IS BEST R E P R E S E N T E D AS A

J EOPARDIZE T H E V E R Y R E P R ESSION THAT F R E U D BREATH OF AIR B ETWE E N TWO SIGNIFI ERS.

H A D K N O W N HOW TO A C H I E V E . S U D D E N LY O P E N E D U P B Y T H E M ETAPHOR?

LET U S RETU R N TO O U R E X A M PLE. W H A T PLEASU R E T H E O R G A S M . LIKE A B U ST OF LAUGHTER. TESTI F I E S

CAN THERE BE IN THE R E PRESSION THAT IS TO THE M E A N I NG-I N S I G N I F I C A NT-DF THE A N A L­

PRODUCED AT T H E M O M E N T O F I NT E R P R ETATION? YSrS WORD. WE M U S T NOW TRY TO R E D I SCOV E R

FI RST. LET U S S A Y THAT I N T E R PRETATION. A S I T IS THIS D I M E N SI O N OF " W I T" IN PLEAS U R E AND

A N A LYZED H E R E . DOES N OT CONSIST SO M UC H I N JOUISSANCE.

E X P LA I N I NG A N D COM M EN T I N G A S I N A RTICU LAT­

I N G . H E R E AGA I N . IT IS THE FORM OF WORDS W H I C H PLEA S U R E A N D J O U I SSANCE

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LY IN ITS NATURE AND EFFECTS. THERE I S VARI ETY CONSTITUTE FOR THE WOM A N O N E OF THE WAYS O F

IN THE PLACES OF THE BODY CATH ECTED. IN THE PUTTING A N ECONOMY I NTO PLACE W H E R E : 1 . T H E

LEVEL OF I NTENSITY. I N TH E OUTCOM E (ORGASM OR S I G N I F I E R WOU LD BE ACTUALIZED I N THE RHYTH M .

N OT > . AND IN THE E F F ECTS: A " S U CC E S S F U L" T H E PERIOD RETU RN O F THE P E N I S: 2. T H E STA K E

SEXUAL R E LATION CAN C A U S E C A L M OR A N X I ETY. WO ULD C O N S I ST O F T H E REPRESSED FEMININE

LET US A LSO R E M E M B E R THAT A N E U ROSIS C A N N OT DRIVES. ' o INSEPA RABLE F ROM T H E PENIS ITSELF;

N ECESSARI LY BE I N F E R R E D FROM F R I G I D I TY; A N D AND 3 . PLEASU R E WOULD BE THE M E A N I NG OF THE

T H AT. R E C I P R OC A L L Y . PSYCHOTI C S AND VERY M ETAPHOR THROUGH WHICH THE PENIS "WOULD

I M MATU RE WOM EN HAVE I NTENSE VAG I N A L REPRESS" T H E BODY. F E M I N I N E SEXUA LITY.

ORGA SMS.s

LET US BE MORE PR ECISE: THE PEN IS. ITS

HOW A R E WE TO M A K E S E N S E OF TH E E X U B E RANCE. THROBBING. ITS C A D E N C E A N D THE MOVE M E NTS O F

THE BIZA R R E N ESS A N D THE PARADOXES OF THESE LOVE- M A K I N G C O U L D B E SAID T O PRODUCE T H E

PLEA S U R ES? BY R E F E R R I NG LESS TO THE V A R I E ­ PUR EST AND MOST E L E M E N TA R Y FORM OF

TIES OF FORM AND I N T E N S ITY THAN TO TH E I R SIGN I FY I N G A RTIC U LATION. THAT' O F A S E R I ES O F

FU NCTION I N T H E PSYC H IC ECONOMY. H E R E AGA I N . BLOWS W H I C H M A R K OUT THE SPACE OF TH E BODY.

WE WILL D I ST I N G U I S H TWO T Y P E S OF SEXUAL

PLEAS U R E : THE P R ECOC I O U S AND THE SUBLI­ IT I S TH I S WHICH OPENS U P RHYTH M S A LL TH E MORE
MATED. A M PLE AND I NTENSE. A JOUISSANCE ALL TH E MORE

KEEN AND SERIOUS I N THAT THE P E N IS. THE OBJECT

THE FI RST WAS E A R L I E R SEEN TO BE T H E E FFECT WHICH I S ITS I N STR U M E N T. IS SCA RC E LY A N YTH I NG.

OF THE EXPE R I E N C E OF ARCH A IC S E X U ALITY. EVEN

I F IT I NVOLVES TWO PEOPLE. EVEN I F IT PRESENTS BUT TO STATE TH I S I S TO STATE A PARADOX: THE
THE APPEARANCE OF AN A D ULT S E X U A LITY. IT PENIS PROD U C E S JOUISSANCE BECA U S E IT
M E R E LY RE-ACTU A L IZES OR RAISES TO THE I N C A R N ATES A F I N I TU D E . S U B L I M A TION A L W A Y S
H I G H EST PITCH I N ORGASM. THE JOUISSANCE THAT I M P LIES A DE-IDEA LIZATION. THE PHALLIC SIG­
TH E WOM A N HAS OF H E RSELF. 9 I N THIS TYPE OF N I F I E R. DETAC H E D F R O M THE T E R R I FY I NG REPRE­
PLEA S U R E . THE OTH E R'S LOOK A N D HIS DESIRE. SENTATIONS OF T H E SUPE REGO WHICH RE VOLVE
FU RTH E R R E I N FORCE TH E C I RC U LA RITY OF THE A ROU ND THE I M A G I N A R Y PHALLUS. M U ST APPEA R
E R OTIC R E LA T I O N . HENCE THE A N X I ETY THAT AS AN OBJ ECT O F NOT- M UCH- M E A N I NG. "
A R I S E S B E FORE A N D AFTER T H E S E X U A L ACT.

TH I S STEP USUA LLY SUSPENDED D U R I NG CHI LD­

I N V E R S E LY. PLE A S U R E CAN B E STRUCTU R I NG I N ITS HOOD. TA KES PLACE A FTER THE FI RST SEX U A L
EFFECTS. THE SORT OF "G E N I US." O F I N S P I RATION EXPER I E NCES OF A D U LTHOOD. IS IT A QUESTION OF
WHICH TH E WOM A N D I SCOVERS AFTER LOVE. SHOWS U N CON S C I O U S PROCESSES? PROVI DED THE
THAT A N EVENT O F A N UNCONSCIOUS NATURE HAS GROUND HAS BEEN PREPARED. LIFE AND A
OC C U R R E D. WHICH HAS E N A BL E D HER TO TAKE U P CERTA I N ETH I C U N DERTAKE THIS WORK. TO THE
A C E RTA I N DI STA N C E F RO M T H E D A R K CONTI N E NT. EXTENT THAT ROMANTIC I D E A LIZATION IS SUCCESS­

FU LLY M O U R N E D ( R E L I N Q U I S H ED). TO THE EXTENT

WE WILL CALL S U B LI MATED PLEA S U R E THAT WHICH THAT THE D I M E N S ION OF THE G I FT PREDO M I NATES.

TA KES THE S A M E FOR MS AS I N C ESTUOUS PLEA­ THE PE N I S CAN OBJ ECTI FY. BY ITS VERY I N SIGN I F I ­

SURE WHILE NON ETHELESS PRESU PPOS I NG AND CANCE. THE " D I F F I C U LTY T O B E " OF T H E COU PLE. I N

CONFI R M I NG W O M E N ' S ACCESS TO THE S Y M BOLIC. WHICH JOUISSANCE IS LOST. T H U S I T C A N NO

TH I S PLEASURE IS NO LON G E R DERIVED FROM LONGER BE S E PA RATED I N ITS CONSISTENCY FROM

FEM I N I N ITY AS SUCH. BUT FROM THE SIGNIFIER. MORE THE MATE R I A L OF THIS A R C H A IC. FEM I N I N E

PRECI S E LY. FROM THE REPRESSION THAT IT BRINGS JOU I S S A N C E WHICH HAS BEEN RENOUNCED. I T

ABOUT: THIS IS WHY S U B L I M ATED PLEA S U R E IS EMBODI ES IT AS LOST. AND ALL OF A SUDDEN

I D ENTI FIED WITH THE PLEA S U R E DERIVED FROM THE RESTORES IT A H U N D R E DFOLD. FOR IT DEPLOYS

JOKE. TH IS JOUISSANCE IN DI R ECT PROPORTION TO T"'C'

FORGETTI NG. WHICH I S IN ITSELF I N FI N ITE.

SUCH A TRANSFORMATION ASSU M ES. ON THE ONE

H A ND. THE FORGETTING OF PRECOCIOUS F E M I N I N ­ THUS. ETHICS I S I N D I SSOC I A B LE F ROM A 'CERTA I N '

ITY. A N D ON TH E OTH E R . T H E SETTI NG I N PLACE OF A RELATION T O JOUISSANCE. T H E DE-IDEA LIZATION

NEW REPRESE NTATI VE OR SIGN I F I E R OF CASTRA- THAT I T IMPLIES ALONE MAKES POS S I BLE TH E

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TWO P E RFECTLY D I ST I N C T . H E T E R OG E N E O U S D U C E D I N A S U B L I M A T E D ECONOMY. IN T H E FOR M E R .

SPACES. THE V O L U PT U O U S SENSATION OF AN T H E R E S I D U E OF P L E A S U R E C O M E S T O A D E A D E N D .

A S P I R A T I ON OF THE WHOLE BODY IN A SPAC E S I N C E TH E WOM A N A GA I N F I N DS H E RSELF POWER­

A B SOLUTELY OTH E R A N D CONSEQU E NTLY. I N F I N ITE. LESS TO M A I NTA I N T H E UNCONSCIOUS ECONOMY.

C A N NOT S I M PLY B E E X P LA I N E D AS THE EFFECT OF THIS FORM OF ORGA S M . R E G I STERI NG PLE A S U R E

THE PERCEPTION OF THE VAGI N A L C A VITY. IT OUTS I D E SIGNIFICANCE (SIG NI FIANCE). BARS

I M PL I E S THAT T H I S C A V I TY I S HOLLOWED OUT BY ACCESS TO T H E S Y M BOLIC. S U B L I M ATION. O N T H E

R E PRESSION. THAT IS TO SAY. BY A SYMBOLIC CONTR A R Y. T R A N S PO RTS N O T O N L Y P L E A S U R E B U T

OP E R ATION. THE ORGASM I NTO M ETA P HOR. O R G A S M . E N D LESS­

LY R E N E W E D. B ROUGHT TO A W H I TE H EAT.

CONSEQUE NTLY. PLEASURE. FA R FROM BEING EXPLODES AT THE M O M E NT OF PLE A S U R E . IT

R E D U C E D T O T H E EXCITATION OF A N ORGAN. O N T H E BURSTS I N T H E DOU B L E SENSE O F THE FRENCH

C O N T R A RY. T R A N SPORTS THE WOM A N I N TO THE T E R M ECLATER: T H E S E N S E OF D E F LAGRATION A N D

F I E L D OF T H E S IG N I F I E R. S U B L I M ATED PLEASURE. THAT O F A R E V E LATION. TH E R E I S T H E R E FORE A

L I K E T H E DREAM AND HYPNONIS. L I K E THE POETIC CONTI N U ITY OF THE A S C E N T OF P L E A S U R E A N D OF

ACT. M A RKS A M O M E N T W H E N THE U NCONSC IOUS ITS A POG E E IN ORGASM: TH E ONE CARRIES THE

R E P R E S E NTATION T A K E S ON A N ABSOLUTE V A L U E : S I GN I FI E R T O ITS M A X I M U M I NC A N DESCENCE: T H E

I N OTH E R WORDS. W H E N THE ACT OF A RTICULATING OTH E R M A R K S THE M O M E N T W H E N THE D I SCOURSE.

PRODUCES ON I TS OWN THE M E A N I NG OF DIS­ IN EXPLODING UNDER THE E FFECT OF ITS OWN

COU R S E . ( M E A N I NG NOT H I N G). SWEE P I NG A W A Y A L L FORCE . COMES TO THE POINT OF B R E A K I NG. OF

SI G N I FICATION. I T L A Y S H O L D O F THE WOM A N A N D COM I NG A PA RT. I T I S N O LONG E R A N YTH I NG.

C A TC H E S HER IN ITS PROGRESSION AND ITS

RH Y T H M S . ' 2
TO BREAK ITSELF. TO D I SJOINT ITSELF. I N OTH E R

WOR D S . TO A RT I C U LA T E ITSELF THROUGH A

FOR T H E M A N . E XC E PTIONS A S IDE. ' 3 T H I S TR A N S­ M EA N I NG W H I C H E N D LESSLY ESCAPES. ORGASM I N

PORT A T I O N I N TO THE SIGNI FIER C A N NOT BE DISCOURSE L E A DS US TO THE POI NT WHERE

PRODUCED I N S O V I O L E N T A N D R A D I C A L A WAY. I N FEMI N I N E JOUISSANCE C A N BE U N D E RSTOOD A S

FACT. HOW C O U L D H E A B A N DO N H I MSELF TO THAT WRITING (ECRITURE). TO T H E POI NT W H E R E I T M U ST

WH I C H H E H I M S E L F CONTROLS. A N D FROM WHOSE A PP E A R THAT T H I S J O U I S S A N C E A N D THE LITE R A R Y

PL A Y HE GIVES JOUISSANCE. MOREOV E R . TH I S T E X T ( W H I C H I S A LSO W R ITTEN L I K E A N ORGASM

GAME (PLAY) I NVOLVES THE R I S K OF DETU M ES­ PRODUC E D FROM W I TH I N DISCOURSE). A R E THE

CENCE. 1 4 AND A LSO THE V E R TIGO A N D A N X I ETY EFFECT O F T H E SAME M U R D E R O F T H E S I G N I F I E R .

A RO U S E D BY THE A B S O L UTE O F FEM I N I N E D E M A N D :

T H E WOMA N E X PECTS A N D R E C E IVES A L L TH E R E I S

I SN'T T H I S W H Y BATA I LLE. J A R R Y A N D JABES S P E A K
O F T H E P E N I S AT T H E MOMENT OF LOVE
OF W R I T I NG A S T H E J O U I SS A N C E O F A WOMA N7 A N D

W H Y T H A T W H I C H S H E I S W R I T I N G I S T H E N A M E7'v
IF W E NO LON G E R C O N S I D E R WHAT I S PROPE R L Y

CALLED PLE A S U RE. BUT THE ORGASM U S U A LLY

DESIGNATED A S "JO U I S S A NCE" BY THE A N A LYST. A M I C H E LE MONTRELA Y

S I M I LA R DISTINCTION M U ST BE MADE BETW E E N TRANSLATED BY PARVEEN ADA M S

NOTES 3 M A RGUERITE DURAS. LA RAVISSEMENT DE L O L V

STEIN. GA LLIMA RD. P. 54.

F. DOLTO. 'LA L I B I DO ET SON DESTIN FEMI N I N ,' LA

PSYCHANAL YSE. VI I . P U F. 4 P. KLOSSOWSKI. LES LOIS DE L·HOSPITALITE . P. 1 45.

W. GRANOFF AND F. PERRI ER. 'LE PROBLEME DE LA THE 'C H A N G E OF O B J E C T' D E S I G NATES THE

P E R V E RSION CHES LA FEMME ET LES IDEAUX RENUNCIATION O F T H E FIRST LOVE OBJECT. THE

FEM I N I NS: LA PSYCHANALYSE. V I I . T H I S ARTICLE I S MOTH ER. IN FAVO U R OF THE FATHER. ON T H I S

ESSENTIA L FOR THEORETICAL WORK O N FEM I N I N E PROBLEM. CF J. LUQUET-PARAT. ' L E CHANGEMENT

SEXUALITY. O·OBJET.

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WHERE THE WOM A N PUTS HERSELF AT STA K E

7 A P R O POS OF M ETA P H O R , CF J, L.AC A N , 'THE (ENJEU).

AGENCY OF THE L.ETTER IN THE UNCONSCIOUS:

ECRITS, A S E L EC T I O N (TRANS, A, S H E R I DA N ) . '3 EXCEPT IN THE CASE OF ACTU A L. HOMOSEXUALITY.

T A V I S TO C K , 1 9 7 7 A N D ' L. E S F O R M A T I O N S D E HOWEVER, W E MUST B E CAREFUL NOT TO SET UP

L'INCONSCI E NT: S E M I N A I R E 1 9 !5 6-!57), O N PL.EASURE TOO C L EA R - C U T A D I STINCTION B ET W E E N THE

BY THE SAME A UTHOR: 'PROPOS D I R ECTIFS POUR SEXUALITY OF THE M A N A N D THAT O F T H E WOM A N ,

UN CONGRES SUR LA S E X U A L.ITE F E M I N I NE: I N W I T HO U T P R E TE N D I N G TO S ETTLE THE WHOLE

ECRI TS, S E U I L. , ( T R A N S L.ATION IN P R E P A R ATION, PROBLEM OF BISEXUA L.ITY H E R E , L.ET U S ONL.Y SAY

FEM I N I N E SEXUA LITY IN THE SCHOOL OF �ACQUES THAT EVERY MASC U L I N E SUBJ ECT I S CATHECTED

LACAN, J, ROSE AND J . M ITCHE L.L. M A C M I L.LAN.) AS THE OB�ECT A N D PRODUCT OF HIS MOTHE R : HE

WAS 'PART OF THE MATERNAL. BODY. I N R E LATION

8 C F F, DOLTO, O P CIT. TO TH E M A SC U L I N E BODY AND U N C O N SC I O U S

C A TH E X I S THEN. ONE C O U L. D A L. S O S P E A K OF

9 'FEM I N I NITY' A S I M PLI E D I N MATE R N A L. F E M I N I N ITY.

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WOULD NOT THE SEXUAL. ACT B E STRUCTU R I NG FOR

THE MAL.E SUBJECT TO THE EXTENT THAT. PUTTI NG

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WOUL.D PRODUCE EACH T I M E T H E COUPURE WHICH
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SEPARATES THE M A N FROM HIS MOTH ER, WHILE
OF T H E PENIS.
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IT WAS NECESSARY TO C L.EA R UP A M ISUNDER­
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OF TH E PHA L.LUS: ECRITS A SELECTION, TAVISTOCK
SIGNIFIER C O U L. D INTERPRET THE FACT OF
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DISCOURSE, FOR THE WOMAN, WHO, ON THE REPRESSION: REFOU LEM ENT.

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R E L.ATION IS I N D I RECT IT PASSES THROUGH T H E v, NOM PUNS ON THE FRENCH NEGATIVE NON AND

( P A T E R N A L.) M ET A P H O R OF THE M A T E R N A L. ALSO R E F E R S T O L E NOM D U P E R E (NAM E-QF-THE­

D I SCOU R S E . A METAPHOR WHICH. A S WE HAVE FATHER).

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 FRAGMENTS OF A LOVER'S DISCOU RSE

JACQUES H E N RIC: ROLA N D BARTHES, IT H IM S E L F S E U I Ll -BY T H E PARAOOX. W H E N A S ET OF

S E E M S T O M E THAT S I N C E DEGREE ZERO OF POS ITIONS SEEMS TO CONSOLI DATE, TO CONSTI­

W R I T I N G , M YT H O L O G I ES AND W I TH EACH TUTE A D E F I NITE S OC I A L SITUATION. THEN I T'S

FOLLOW I NG BOOK I T H A S B E E N L E S S A N D TRUE, SPONTA N EOUSLY AND WITHOUT T H I N K I NG I

L E S S E A S Y T O LOCA LI ZE YOU A S A WRITER. WANT TO OPT OUT. IN THAT I CON S I D E R MYSELF A N

HOW, LOOKING BACK ON YOU R PAST WORK, I NT E L L E C T U A L, SINCE THE FUNCTION OF THE

DO YOU S I TU ATE YOU RSELF I N T H E H I STORY I N T E L L EC T U A L IS A LW A Y S T O O PT OUT WHEN

OF THOUGHT OF TH ESE LAST YEA RS? A N D T H I N G S "BEG I N T O J E LL." A S TO T H E S ECOND PART

TODAY , WHAT PLACE DO YOU FEEL YOU OF YOUR QUESTION. HOW DO I SITUATE MYSELF NOW.

OCCU PY I N T H E DISCUSS ION OF C U R R ENT I OON'T S E E MYSELF AT A L L A S SOM EO N E WHO I S

I DEAS? TRYING TO BE O R I G I N A L, BUT A S SOMEONE WHO

A LW A Y S TRIES TO SPEAK UP FOR A C E RT A I N

ROLAND BARTHES: I N THE FRAGM ENTS OF A LOVER'S M A R G I N A LITY. WHAT IS M O R E C O M P L I C A T E D TO

DISCOURSE, OF A D I SC O U R S E , TH E R E IS AS IT EXPLA I N IS THAT I N MY C A S E TH E R E IS N E V E R A N Y

HAPPENS A FIGURE WITH A GREEK NAME, TH E GLORY I N TH E C LA I M TO B E M A RG I N A L. I T I S OON E

ADJECTIVE A P P L I E D TO SOCRATES. SOCRATES WAS G E N T LY IF POS S I B L E . A M A R G I N A LITY THAT

SA I D TO BE ATOPOS, THAT I S TO SAY "WITHOUT A P R E S E R V E S A SPECTS O F COU RTESY, TO T E N D E R ­

PLACE , " UNCLASSIFIABLE. IT IS AN A DJ ECTI V E I N E SS-WHY Non-A N D O N E YOU CA N'T PUT A TAG

U S U A LLY APPLY TO TH E BELOVED, SO THAT AS T H E TO IN THE P R E S E N T C U R R EN T OF I DEAS.

SU PPOSE D LOV E R I N THE B OO K I DON'T S E E MYSELF

AS ATOPOS, BUT ON TH E CONTRARY AS SOMEONE J. H.: WITH YOU THERE OFTEN S E E M S TO BE,
E XT R E M E LY B A N A l.., WITH A W E LL- K N O W N CASE AND QUITE E X P L I C I T LY, A DO U B L E AND
H ISTORY. W I THOUT TA K I N G SI DES O N W H ETH E R O R CONTR A D I CTORY ATTITUDE. O N O N E H A N D
NOT I AM UNCLASSIFIA BLE. I M U ST A D M I T T H A T I YOU SHOW YOU R I NTER EST FO R TH E
H A V E A LWAYS WORK E D IN FITS A N D STARTS, BY MODERNS ( I NTRODUCTION TO BRECHT IN
PHASES, MOTORIZED SO TO S PEAK-SOMETH I NG I F R A N C E , TH E N EW NOVEL, TEL QUEL . . . ) ON
TOU CH E D ON IN TH E R.B. (ROLA N D BARTH ES BY TH E OT H E R HAND YOU LIKE RECALLING

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Y O U R TASTE FOR T R A D I TI O N A L LITE RATU R E . FOR THE S U BJ E C T OF THE I M AGI N A RY , I CAN

W H AT I S T H E COH E R E N C E T H A T U N D E R LI ES PROVIDE M Y S E L F WITH AN A L I B I FOR WORK THAT I S

TH E S E ATTI T U D E S ? SOMEWHAT AHEAD OF ITS TI M E, A FORM OF

TO M O R ROW'S A V A N T- G A R D E P E R H A PS , WITH A
R. B.: I DO N ' T K N O W I F T H E R E I S A N U N D E RLYING
TOUCH OF H U M O U R NATURA LLY. ' "
COH E R ENCE. B U T Irs REALLY T H E CRUX OF THE

M A TT E R . T H I NG S HAVE N O T A LW A Y S BEEN SO
J. H.: I S N'T IT SOMEWHAT P R OVOCATI V E TO
C L E A R TO ME AS YOU M A K E T H E M SOUN D NOW. AND
S P E A K ABOUT "LOVE" TODAY I N TH E T E R M S
FOR A LONG TI M E I F E LT MYSELF A LMOST
OF Y E STE R DA Y , AND AT T H E H E IGHT O F
S H A M E FU LLY TOR N B E TW E E N S O M E O F M Y TASTES.
S T R UCTU R A L I S M TO D E FE N D T H E "PLEA­
OR WHAT I WOU LD C A L L -S I N C E I'M FOND OF
S U R E OF TH E TEXT"?
D E F I N I N G TH I NG S IN TERMS O F CON D UCT RATH E R

T H A N TASTE-MY E V E N I NG R E A D I NG (WHAT I R E A D
R. B.: NO DOUBT, BUT I DON'T FEEL M Y B E H A V I O U R IS
IN THE EVENI NG) WHICH ARE A LW A Y S THE

CLASSICS. A N D M Y WORK D U R I NG T H E DAY W H E N . A QU ESTION OF TACTICS. S I M PLY THAT I H A V E , AS

Irs TRUE. W I T H O U T A N Y K I N D O F H Y POC R I SY. I F E E L YOU SO WELL PUT IT, A KIND OF P R O FO U N D

M Y S E L F V E R Y M U C H I N T U N E. O N T H E THEORETICAL D I FFIC ULTY I N PUTTI N G U P WITH T H E STER EOTY PE,

AND C RITICAL L E V E L. WITH VARIOUS MODERN THE E LA BORATION OF LITTLE COLLECT I V E LAN­

WORKS. FOR A LONG TI M E THE CONTRADICTION G U AGES, SO FA M I LI A R TO ME THROUG H MY WORK I N

R E M A I N E D C L A N D E ST I N E . AND I T WAS O N L Y WITH A PARTIC U L A R S P H E R E, T H E STU DENT S P H E R E . Irs

VERY EASY FOR ME TO DETECT THOSE STER EO­

T H E PREASURE OF THE TEXT T H A T I C A M E OUT I NTO

TH E OPEN. RECOG N I Z I N G I N M Y S E L F A N D M A KING TYPED LANGUAGES OF M A RG I N A L I TY, S T E R EO­

TYPES OF T H E NON-STEREOTYPE. I C A N HEAR T H E M

THE READER R EC O G N I Z E . A TASTE FOR THE

LITERATURE OF THE P A ST. THEN. AS A LW A Y S T A K I NG FO R M . AT F I RST T H E R E'S A KIND OF

HAPPENS WHEN ONE A D M I T S T O A T A S T E FOR PLEASURE I N I T , B U T LITTLE B Y L I TT L E I T BECO M E S

SOMETH I NG . TH EORY IS NOT FAR OFF. A N D I MORE BURDENSOME. FOR A WHILE I DON'T DARE

OR LESS T R Y TO THEORIZE M Y TASTE FOR THE PAST. EXTRICATE M Y S E LF, I N THE E N D OFTEN BEC A U S E OF

I MAKE USE OF TWO A R G U M E NT S : FI R S T O F A AN INCIDENT I N MY PERSONAL LIFE, I FIND THE

M ET A P H O R . H I ST O R Y ADVANCES IN A SPIRAL COURAGE TO BREAK WITH SUCH LANGUAGES.

ACCO R D I NG TO VICO'S I M AG E . O L D T H I NGS RETURN.

BUT OBVIOUSLY T H E Y DON'T RETURN TO T H E S A M E

PLACE; CON S E Q U E N T L Y THERE ARE TASTES.

TH E ARCH ETYP E OF PASSIONATE LOV E
V A L U E S. M A N N E RS. "WRITI NGS" FROM THE PAST

WHICH CAN RETU R N , BUT TO A VERY MODERN

PLACE, T H E S E C O N D A R G U M ENT IS A SSOCIATED J. H.: LET'S GO BACK TO FRAGM ENTS OF A

WITH MY WORK ON THE LOVE R , THE LOV E R LOVER'S D I SCOURSE IF YOU W I L L TO AVOID

DEVELOPS P R I N C I PALLY I N T H E R EG I STER O F W H AT, ANY M I S U N D E RSTA N DI NG ON THE PART OF

SINCE LAC A N , WE CALL THE I M AG I N A RY-AND I THE READER, WOU LD YOU E X P LA I N THE

CON S I D E R M YS E L F A S U BJ ECT OF T H E I MA G I N A RY, I TITLE?

HAVE A L I V I NG R E LATION S H I P WITH T H E LITERA­

T U R E OF T H E PAST B E C A U S E I T PROV I D E S M E WITH R. B.: THAT M EA N S GIVING A BRIEF ACCOUNT OF THE

IMAGES AND E S TA B L I S H E S FOR ME A GOOD PROJECrS BACKGROU ND, I HAD A S E M I N A R AT THE

R E LA T I ON S H I P WITH THE I M AG E , FOR E X A M PLE, ECOLE DES HAUTES ETUDES, AND YOU K N OW W E A RE

STO R Y AND NOVEL ARE D I M E N SIONS OF THE A C E R TA I N NUMBER OF R ES E A R C H WO R K E R S ,

I MAGI NARY W H I C H E X I ST E D I N R E A D A B L E LITERA­ E S S A Y I STS, WO R K I N G ON THE NOTION OF D I S­

TURE, BY R ECOG N I Z I N G MY ATTAC H M E N T TO SUCH COURSE A N D THE DISCURSIVE. NOTION WH ICH

LITER ATU R E I AGITATE IN FAVOUR OF THE SUBJECT BREAKS AWAY FROM THAT OF TONG UE, OF

IN SO FAR AS THIS S U BJ E C T IS IN A SENSE LA NGUAGE. I T I S THE DISCURSIVE I N A V E R Y W I D E

D I S I N H E R I T E D, CRUSHED B Y T H O S E TWO G R E A T S E N S E : THE DISCURSIVE. T H E N A P P E O F LA NGUAGE

PSYC H I C S T R U CT U R E S WHICH MORE THAN ANY I S A N OBJECT OF A N A LYSIS. A L I TT L E OVER TWO

OTH E R S HAVE A R R ES T E D THE ATTENTION OF Y E A R S AGO I S A I D TO MYSELF THAT I WOULD STUDY

MODE R N I TY, NA M E LY N E UROSIS AND PSYCHOSIS, A CERTA I N TYPE O F D I SCOURSE: W H A T I P R E S U M E D

T H E I M AG I N A RY S U B J ECT IS A POOR R E LATION OF T O BE THE A M OROUS DISCOU RSE. M A K I N G I T C L E A R

THOSE STRUCTU R E S BECAUSE HE IS NEITHER F R O M TH E START T H A T T H E LOVE R S I INTENDED

A LTOG E T H E R PSYCHOTIC, NOR A LTOG ETH E R S H O U L D B E LONG T O W H A T I S C A L L E D PASSION ATE

N E U ROTIC. YOU SEE, B Y M I LITATING D I SC R ETELY LOVE, ROM A NTIC LOVE, SO I DEC I D E D TO HOLD A

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SEMINAR WHICH WOULD BE THE OBJ ECTI VE J. H.: EVEN SO, WHO SAYS "I" IN THESE
A N A LY S I S O F A TYPE O F T H E DISC U RS I V E . I TH E N FRAG M ENTS?
C H O S E A S U P PORTING TEXT A N D A N A LYSED THE

A M OROUS D I SCOU R S E IN THAT WORK. NOT TH E

R. B.: TO YOU I CAN S A Y A N D YOU W I LL U N DE RSTA N D ,
WORK ITSELF. BUT THE A MOROUS D I SCOURSE. IT
H E WHO S A Y S " I " I N T H E BOOK I S T H E "I" O F W R I T I NG,
W A S W E R T H E R B Y GOETHE. W H I C H I S THE VE RITABLE
N A T U R A L LY ON THAT POINT I COULD B E C O R N E R E D
A R C H ETYPE OF PASSIONATE LOVE . BUT D U R I N G THE
I NTO S A Y I N G T H A T I T W A S M E. S O I ' L L R E PLY WITH
TWO Y E A R S OF THE S E M I N A R I BECA M E A W A R E OF A
T H E C A N N I N ES S O F A NOR M A N AND S A Y I T I S ME
D O U B L E MOV E M E N T. F I RST OF ALL I NOTI C E D THAT I
AND IT I S NOT M E . I T IS NO M O R E M E , I F YOU WILL
WAS PROJ ECTI NG MYSELF IN T E R M S OF MY PAST
A L LO W TH E C O M P A R I SO N WHICH IS P E R H A PS
EXPERI ENCE OR MY LI FE I N TO C E RTA I N OF THE
I N FA T U A T I O N , THAN ST E N D H A L D I R ECTI N G A
F I G U R E S. I EVEN R E A C H E D THE POI N T O F CONFUS­
CHARACTER. TH AT'S WHAT MAKES THE TEXT
ING F I G U R E S FROM M Y OWN LIFE WITH THE F I G U R E S
SOM E W H A T R O M A N T I C . I N A N Y C A S E TH E R E LATION­
O F W E RT H E R .
SHIP B E TW E E N THE AUTHOR AND THE STAG E

C H A R A C T E R HE D I R ECTS IS OF THE T Y P E I N FICTION.

SECOND D I S CO V E R Y : THE LISTEN E R S OF THE

J. H.: T H A T'S T R U E, C E RTA I N "FRAG M E NTS"
S E M I N A R PROJECTED T H E M S E LVES V E R Y STRONG­
A R E R E A LLY T H E BEGI N N I NGS OF STO R I E S ,
LY I NTO WHAT WAS S A I D. UNDER THOSE CONDI­
T H E S T O R Y B EG I N S T O TAKE S H A PE A N D I S
TIONS. I SAID TO M Y S E L F. THE ONLY HON EST
I M M E D I A T E LY I NT E R R U PTED. I H A V E OFTEN
C O U R S E . W H E N P A S S I N G FROM S E M I N A R T O BOOK .
WON D E R E D R E A D I NG THESE V E RY SUC­
W A S NOT TO W R I T E A T R E A T I S E O N T H E A M O ROUS
CESSFUL, VERY "WELL W R I TT E N " BEGIN­
D I SC O U R S E . B E C A U S E T H A T WOU LD H A V E BEEN A
N I NG S , W H Y DO E S N 'T H E CONTI N U E? W H Y NOT
KIND OF LIE (f W A SN'T A I M ING EITHER AT A
A R E A L N O V E L? A R E A L A UTOBIOG R A PHY?
G E N E RA LITY O F T H E SC I E NT I F I C K I N D ) . BUT ON THE

CONTRARY. TO W R I T E THE D I SCOU R S E OF A LOV E R .

R . B . : O N E D A Y P E R H A PS . I H A V E BEEN P LA Y I N G WITH

T H E I DE A FOR A LONG TI M E NOW. BUT WHERE THIS

OF COURSE. N I ETZSCHE'S I N FLUENCE. EVEN IF I BOOK I S C O NC E R N E D, IF THE STORY N E V E R J E LLS,

M O D I F I E D H I M CON S I D E R A B LY, WAS APPRECIABLE I T IS, I ' D SAY, B EC A U S E OF A DOCT R I N E . T H E V I S I ON I

A T T H A T T I M E . PARTI C U LA R LY ALL T H A T N I ETZSC H E H A V E O F T H E A MO R O U S D I SCOU R S E IS ESSENTI A L­

S A Y S A BOUT T H E N E E D F O R " D R A M ATIZI NG," FOR LY A F R AG M E NT A R Y , D I SCONTI N UOUS. BUTTERFLY

A DO PTING A M ETHOD OF " D R A MATIZATION," W H I C H V I S IO N . THEY ARE E P I SO D E S OF LANGUAGE

HAD F O R M E THE E P I ST E M O LOG I C A L A DVA NTAGE FLUTTE R I NG ROU N D IN THE HEAD OF THE ENA­

O F F R E E I NG ME FROM T H E M ETA LANGUAGE. AFTER MOU R E D AND P A S SIONATE LOV E R , AND THESE

THE PLEAS U R E OF T H E T E XT I COU L D NO LONGE R E P I SO D E S ARE B R U S Q U E LY I N T E R R U PT E D BE­

B E A R A N Y " D I S S E RTATION" O N T H E SUBJ ECT. 5 0 ! CA USE OF SOM E H A P P E N I NG, BECAU S E OF

MADE UP, S I M ULATED A D I SC O U R S E W H I C H IS THE J E A LO U S Y , A M IS S E D R E N DEZ-VOUS, A N U N B E A R A B ­

D I SCOURSE OF A LO V E R . THE TITLE IS QUITE LY LONG W A I T, WHICH INTERVENE, AND AT T H A T

E X P L I C I T A N D P U R POSELY D E S I G N E D: IT I S NOT A M O M E N T T H O S E SORT OF S C R A P S OF MONOLOG U E

BOOK ON THE A MOROUS D I SC O U R S E , IT I S THE A R E B R O K E N A N D W E P A S S TO A NOTH E R F I G U R E. I

D ISCOURSE OF A LOV E R , THE LO V E R IS NOT H A V E R E S PECTED T H E R A D I C A L D I SCONTI N U I TY OF

N EC E S S A R I LY M E . I'LL B E Q U I TE F R A N K A BOUT I T , T H I S STO R M OF LA N G U A G E R A G I N G IN TH E H E A D OF

SOME E L E M E NTS STEM FROM ME, OTH E R S FROM T H E LOV E R . IT IS WHY I CUT UP THE W H O L E I NTO

GOETHE'S WERTH E R , OR FROM MY C U LT U R A L F R AG M E N T S A R R A N G E D IN A L P H ABETIC A L O R D E R .

R E A D I NGS O F THE M YSTICS, O F PHYCHOA N A LYSIS, AT A L L C O STS I W A NTED TO AVOI D ANY RESEM­

OF N I ETZSC H E . . . . THERE ARE A LSO WHAT HAS BLANCE WITH A L O V E STORY. M Y CONVICTION IS

BEEN CON F I D E D TO M E, CONVERSATIONS, WHICH THAT TH E WELL-MADE LOVE STO R Y , WITH A

COME FROM F R I E N DS. THEY ARE V E R Y M U C H A PART B EG I N N I N G , A N D E N D, A N D A C R I S I S IN T H E M I D D L E ,

O F T H I S BOOK. THE R E S U LT T H E N I S T H E D I SC O U R S E I S TH E W A Y SOC I ETY P ROPOSES THAT T H E LOV E R

O F A SUBJ ECT WHO SAYS "I," WHO I S T H E R E FORE S H O U L D R ECONC I LE H I M S E L F W I T H T H E LA N G U A G E

I N D I V I DU A L I Z E D AT T H E L E V E L OF T H E E N U N C I A ­ OF T H E G R EAT O R P H E U S , B Y M A K I NG U P A STO R Y

TION: BUT IT IS NEVERTHE LESS A C O M POS E D FO R HIMSELF IN WHICH HE PUTS H I M S ELF. I AM

D I SCOU R S E , S I M U LATED. OR IF YOU LIKE, A P E RS U A D E D T H AT THE LOV E R WHO SUFFERS

D I SC O U R S E OF "CUTS" (AS A FILM IS PUT R E C E I V E S N O B E N E F I T FROM T H E R ECON C I L IA T I O N ,

TOG ETH E R ) . A N D T H A T P A R A DO X I C A LLY ENOUGH H E I S N O T I N

2 3B
THE LOVE STORY. HE 15 I N SOM ETH I N G W H I C H 1 5 DI SCOU R S E I S FAR M O R E KITSCH T H A N A BOOK O N

M UC H CLOS E R TO A STATE OF FOLLY. N O T FOR D R UGS. F O R E X A M PLE.

NOTH I N G 00 W E S P E A K OF "MOON STR U C K LOVERS":

FROM THE LOV E R'S POINT O F VIEW T H E STORY 15 J . H.: I S N'T IT A FOR M OF A U DAC I TY TO S P E A K
I M POSSIBLE. SO AT EACH TU R N I TRIED TO BREAK A S YOU 00 A B O U T LOVE. I N F A C E OF T H E
TH E B U I LD-UP O F T H E STO R Y . A T O N E MOMENT I I NVAS I V E PSYC H O A N A LYT I C D I SCOU R S E ?
EVEN THOUGHT OF PLAC I N G A FIGU RE AT TH E

B EG I N N I NG. E Q U I V A L E N T TO AN I N IT I A L FO U N DA ­
R. B . : I T S TR U E T H A T I N M Y BOOK T H E R E I S W H A T I
TION. LOVE AT FI RST S I G HT. E N AMORATION.
M IGHT T E R M AN " I N T E R E STING" R ELATION WITH T H E
BEW ITCH M E NT: FOR A LONG TI M E I H E S I TATED. TH E N
PSYC H O A N A LYTIC DI SCOURSE BECAUSE T H I S
I S A I D N O . EVEN THAT I C A N 'T S W E A R T O IT B E I N G
R E L A TI O N E V O LV E D C O N C U R R E N T L Y W I T H T H E
CH RONOLOGICALLY A F I RST F I G U R E B E C A U S E ITS
SEMINAR A N D T H E BOOK. YOU KNOW V E R Y W E L L
QUITE POS S I B L E THAT LOVE A T F I RST SIGHT O N LY
T H A T I F O N E E XA M I N ES C U LTURE TODAY-IT I S A L S O
FU NCTIO N S IN R ETROSP ECT. ITS SOM ETH I N G THE
ONE O F T H E T H E M E S OF THE BOOK-TH E R E I S N O
LOV E R TE LLS H I M S E LF. 50. ITS A D I SCONTI N UOUS
O N E M A J O R L A N G U A G E WHICH T A K E S I N C H A R G E
BOOK W H I C H PROTESTS I N A SMALL W A Y AGA I N ST
THE AMOROUS STATE. A M ONG THE MAJOR LAN­
THE LOVE STORY.
GUAGES. PSYC H O A N A LY S I S HAS AT LEAST

ATT E M P T E D A DESC R I PTION OF THE A MOROUS

STATE. T H E Y E X I ST I N F R E UD. I N LAC A N . I N OTH E R

A N A LYSTS. I W A S O B L I G E D TO M A K E U S E OF THOSE
:'
TO WRITE FOR T H E B E LOVED D E S C R I PT I O N S . THEY WERE :
TO P I C A L ' T H E Y

ATTRACTED M E BY TH E I R EXTR E M E PERTI N E N C E . I

J. H . : WHAT 00 YOU M E A N WHEN YOU W R I TE: "I INCLUDE T H E M I N T H E BOOK BECAUSE THE LOV E R I

A M ON THE SIDE OF THE W R ITI NG." PRESENT 15 A SUBJ ECT WITH THE C U LT U R E OF

TODAY. W I T H T H E N . A D A S H OF PSCYHO A N A LY S I S

WHICH HE APPLIES TO H I MSELF IN A P R I M I TIVE

R. B.: F I R ST A D I G R ESSION: I R E A L I Z E D THERE W E R E
FASHION. BUT AS T H E S I M ULATED D I SCOU R S E O F
TWO TYPES OF LOV E R S . ONE. B E LO N G I N G TO
THE LO V E R A D V A N C E D. IT DEVELOPED AS THE
FRENCH LITERATU R E . FROM R A C I N E TO PROUST. 15.
A F F I R M ATION O F A V A L U E . LOVE A S A N O R D E R O F
LET U S SAY. P A R A NOIC. T H E J E A LO U S LOV E R . T H E
A F F I R M A T I V E V A L U E S R E S I STANT T O A LL ATTACK.
OTH E R TYPE DOES N O T E X I ST I N F R E N C H LITE RA­
AT THAT MOM ENT THE LO V E R CAN ONLY CUT
TURE BUT H A S BEEN A D M I R A BLY P R ESENTED BY
H I MSELF OFF FROM THE PSYCHOA N A LYTIC DIS­
G E R M A N ROM A N T I C I S M AND NOTA BLY IN T H E LIEDER
COURSE. F O R ALTHOUGH EFFECTI V E LY IT S P E A K S
OF SC H U B E RT AND SC H U M A N N ( ABOUT WHICH I
OF THE A MOROUS S T A T E: . IT DOES 50 IN A
A LSO S P E A K IN TH E BOOK). T H I S TYPE OF LOV E R IS
DEROGATO R Y FASHION. I N VITING THE LOV E R TO
NOT C E N T E R E D ON J E A LOUSY: J E A LO U S Y 15 NOT
R E I NTEGRATE A C E RTA I N N O R M A L I TY. TO S E PA­
EXCLUDE D FROM PASSIONATE LOV E BUT THE
RATE " B E I NG IN LOVE" FROM "LOVI NG." TO "LOVE
A MOROUS SENTI M E N T I S F A R MORE D E M ONSTRA­
REASON A B LY." ETC . . . . THERE I S A N OR M A LITY OF
TIVE. IT SEEKS FULFI L L M EN T . THE ESSENTIAL
THE AMOROUS STATE IN PSYCHOA NA LYSIS W H I C H 1 5
F I G U R E THEN I S T H E MOTH E R . O N E OF T H E FIGURES
I N FACT T H E R E V I N DICATION O F T H E COUPLE. O F
I N M Y BOOK D E A LS P R E C I S E LY WITH T H E LONGI NG.
THE M A R R I E D C O U P L E EVEN . . . 50 T H E R E LATION I
THE T E M PTATIO N . THE D R I V E THE LOVE R SO OFTEN
HAVE IN T H I S BOOK WITH PSYCHOAN A LYSIS IS V E R Y
FEELS IT SEEMS. AND WHICH THE BOOKS VO UCH

FOR. TO C R EATE. O R TO PAI NT. OR TO W R ITE FOR THE A M B IGUOUS: ITS A R E LATION W H I C H . AS A LW A Y S .

M AKES USE OF T H E D E SC R I PTIONS. OF PSYCHO­

B E LO V E D . I TRY TO EXPRESS THE P ROFOU N D
A N A LYTIC I D E A S BUT WHICH USES THEM R A TH E R
PESSI M I S M O N E C A N H A V E I N T H A T R E S PECT SINCE
L I K E T H E E L E M ENTS OF FICTION. W H I C H A R E NOT
THE LOVER'S D I SCOU R S E C A N N OT B E C O M E WRITING
NECESS A R I LY C R E D I BLE.
W I T H O U T E N O R M O U S J E TTI S O N I N G S AND T R A N S­

FO R M ATIONS.

I HAVE TH E PROFOUN D CONVICTION THAT THE

LOVE R IS M A RG I N A L. HENCE THE DECI SION THAT

FOR M E TO P U B L I S H TH I S BOOK W A S IN A C E RTA I N W R I T I NG A S M O R A L ITY

WAY TO SPEAK UP FOR A M A R G I N A L I TY WHICH

TO D A Y 15 R E I N FO R C E D BY NOT EVEN BEING IN J. H.: N E V E R . A S IN R E A D I NG YOU . H A V E I H A D

MARGINAL FASHION. A BOOK ON THE AMOROUS SO ST R O N G L Y THE IMPRESSION THAT

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W R I T I NG IS FU N D A M E NT A L L Y A QU ESTION OF " L I V I N G TOGETH ER." W H IC H S ETS OUT TO E X P LORE

ETH I C S . YOU I N S I ST E D ON TH I S PO I NT IN TH E UTO P I A OF C E RT A I N S M A LL G ROU PS. NOT

YOUR I NAUGURAL LECTU R E TO T H E COL­ COM M U N I T I E S AS W E KNEW T H E M AFTER TH E H I PPIE

LEGE OF F R A N C E . I WOU LD L I K E TO R ETU R N M OV E M E N T S . BUT THE U TO P I A OF A FFECTI VE

T O IT . . . G R O U P I NGS W H O R E A LLY L I V E TOGETH E R B U T EACH

AT HIS OWN R H YTH M . WHAT ONCE U S E D TO BE

R B.: Irs A V E R Y GOOD Q U E STION. BUT I AM NOT C A L L E D BY O R I E N T A L MONKS. I DI O R H YTH M Y . I H A V E

C L E A R A BOUT IT AT A L L. A N D I C A N ONLY SA Y THAT I CENTERED THE COU R S E ON TH E I DEA OF 1 010-

F E E L THE WRITING OF T H I S BOOK TO BE SOMETH I N G RH YTH M Y .

A P A RT. BECA U S E OF ITS S U BJECT. I HAD TO

PROTECT THE BOOK. T O P RO r E C T A DISCOU RSE IT S E E M S T O M E N O W T H A T W H E R E THE COU R S E I S

H E L D I N THE N A M E OF TH E " I :' WHICH IS ALL THE CONC E R N E D I W I L L R E T U R N T O MATE R I A L THAT IS

SA M E A RISK. M Y B I GGEST DEFENSIVE WEAPON WAS S P E C I F I C A L LY LITERARY. BUT I A LW A Y S GIVE

PURE LANG U A G E . OR TO PUT IT EVEN MORE MYSELF LEAVE TO D I G R ESS A N D. AS YOU SO

P R EC I S E LY. SYNTAX. I W A S CONSCIOUS TO WHAT A R I G HTLY S A I D. TO I N C I TE T H E E M ERGENCE FROM

POI NT SYNTAX COULD PROTECT TH E ONE WHO WAS TH E W R I T I N G OF AN ETH I C A L VANI S H I N G POI N T.

S P E A K I N G . IT I S A DOU BLE- E DG E D SWORD BECAUSE

IT C A N A LSO B E A N I N S TR U M E NT OF OPPRESSION­
I AM S U R E THAT IF N E XT Y E A R I G I V E M Y ATTE NTION
IT VERY OFTEN IS-BUT WHEN T H E SUBJ ECT IS VERY TO C H A R ACTE R I STIC L I T E R A R Y FOR M . ETH ICS W I L L
V U L N E R ABLE. V E RY OPEN. V E RY A LONE. SYNTAX
BE BACK.
PROTECTS H I M . THIS BOOK IS PRETTY SYNTA XIC.

WHICH I S TO SAY THAT Irs NOT A VERY LYRIC TEXT.

IF I WERE A P H I LOSOP H E R . AND I F I WANTED TO
MORE L l TOT I C . MORE E L L I PTIC. WITHOUT MANY
WRITE A MAJOR T R E A T I S E . I WOULD G I V E IT T H E
MAJOR I N V E NTIONS OF WORDS OR N EOLOGI SMS.
N A M E OF A S T U D Y OF L I T E R A R Y A N A LYSIS. U N D E R
BUT W H E R E ATTE NTION I S GIVEN TO THE TU RN OF
COV E R OF A LITE R A R Y A N A LYSIS I WOU LD T R Y TO
PHRASE. TH AT'S WHEN W R I T I N G F U NCTIONS AS A
D I S E N G A G E AN ETH I C IN THE BROADEST S E N S E OF
' SORT OF MORA L CODE. H A V I N G ITS MODELS RATH E R
T H E WOR D .
O N TH E S I D E O F AGNOST I C I S M . SCEPTI CISM. MORAL

CODES THAT ARE NOT T H E MORAL CODES OF FAITH.

ROLA N D B A R T H E S I NT E R V I E W E D

BY JACQU ES H E N R I C
J . H.: WHAT I S THE TITLE O F YOU R COU R S E AT

TH E COLLEGE O F F R A N C E ? STAT E M E NTS RECORDED O N TAPE ON 4.4.77

R B.: I H A V E LA U N C H E D A S E R I ES OF COURSES O N TRAN SLATI O N BY CATH E R I N E D U NCAN

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MOV I NG G I R L

''I ' M NOT BEA UTI F U L. I ' M WORSE." RATH E R FAITH F U LLY BY I M PARTING T H E LOGI STIC

- M A R I E DO R V A L ROLE I N I T I A LLY HELD BY THE FI RST WOMA N TO

SC I E N C E A N D T H E TEC H N I C A L M E D I A .

I N SOFA R A S ITS P R I N C I P A L T H E M E COMES D O W N TO

S C I E N C E-TEC H N O LOGY-OTH E R WORLDS. THE R E N E W A L A P PEA R I N G IN THE B I B LE AS THE SEDUCER OF

OF SC I E N C E F I C T I O N I N T H E U N ITED STATES A N D I N ' TH US
W O M A N . WHO I N T U R N S E D U C E S M A N . SATA N
THE BIG INDUSTRIAL COUNTRIES SEEMS TO BE BEG I N S THE CYCLE O F A H U M A N I TY DOO M E D LESS
L I N K E D T D T H A T OF R E L I G I O N AND SECTS. SC I E N C E TO DEATH THAN TO D I S A PPE A R A N C E. THAT IS. TO
F I C T I O N N A R RATIVE. I N EFFECT. SHOWS M O S T OF US THE E X P U LS I O N FROM T H E U N I V E R S E IT PREVIOUS­
TURNING I N C I RCLES L I K E T H E BLI N D BEFORE T H E LY I N H ABITED. T H I S B E I NG ACCOM PLISHED FI RST AS
VERY OBVIOU S N ESS OF TH E F A M I L I A R U N I VE R S E . A A P H E NO M E N O N OF CONSCIOUSNESS: THE PHYSI­

K I N D OF I NCOM PATI B I LITY BETWEEN OUR PHYSICAL C A L EXPULSION FROM T H E E A R HTL Y P A R A D I S E I S

PRESENCE IN THE WORLD AND THE DIFFERENT P R E C E D E D BY A N A B R U PT D I SORDE R I N G OF SIGHT
D E G R E ES OF A NOCT U R N A L A N E STH E S I A OF THAT C O M PLETELY C H A NGES T H E A P P E A R A N C E O F
CONSC I O U S N E S S WHICH K E E PS M A K I NG US LAPSE T H E W O R L D A S L I V E D B Y THE COUPLE: T H E I R EYES
I N TO SHORT OR P ROLO N G E D . M I LD OR SERIOUS ARE O P E N E D. THEY SEE THEY A R E N A KED. THEY
STATES OF ABSENCE WHICH MAY INDEED BRING COVER U P TH E I R N A K E D N ESS. THEY TRY TO H I D E

A BOUT. BY V A R I O U S M EA N S. OUR S U D D E N I M M E R­ T H E M SELVES. A N D T O AVOID THE S I G H T OF GOD.

SION IN OTH E R U N I V E R SES-PARALLEL. I NTER­ WHAT THIS I N VOLVES I S A N ASTO N I SH I NG SUCCES­
STI TIAL. B I F U RCATI N G -A N D EVEN PUSH US I N TO SION OF V I S U A L P H E N O M E N A . AND NOT. A S HAS SO
THAT BLACK HOLE WHICH WOULD ONLY BE THE OFTEN BEEN R E PE A T E D. A SEXUAL I N NOVATI ON. IN
EXCESSIVE R A PI DITY O F T H I S PASSAGE. COLLA PS­ FACT. THE SEDUCTION-THE " L E A D I N G ASIDE" OF
ING THE I N I T I A L S E PA RATION OF DAYS AND N I G HTS SEDUCERE-H E R E TA K E S ON A C O S M O- D YN A M I C
IN A PURE P H E N O M ENON OF SPEED. D I M E N S I O N : SEDUCTI O N I S A RITE O F PASSA G E FROM

ONE U N I V E RSE TO A N O TH E R WHICH I M PLIES A

IN FACT. T H I S TYPE OF N A R RATIVE O N LY A D A PTS DECISIVE DEPARTUR E FOR H U M A NITY. THE

THE J U D EO- C H R I ST I A N V ERSION OF GENESIS BEGI N N I NG OF A N A VIGATION O F BOD I E S AND

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S E N S E S. F R O M S O M ETH I N G I M M U T A B L E TOW A R D MASS SENSIBI LITY M UST NOT BE U N D E RESTI M ATED.
ANOTH E R REGION OF T I M E . A SPACE-TI M E ESSEN­ IN F A CT. THE S O L I TA R Y P L E A S U R E THAT T H E
TIALLY DIFFERENT S I N C E E X P E R I ENCED A S MOBILE. C I N E M ATOGRAPHIC MOTOR A FFORDS THE PO R N O
CONDUCTIVE. TRAN S FORMABLE. A S THE C REATION F I L M V I E W E R A LR E A D Y A N NO U N C E S T H E F O R E ­
OF A SECOND U N I VERSE WHICH WOULD DEPEND SHORTENING WHICH I S BEG I N N I NG A N D CAN BE
ENTI REL Y UPON T H I S I NITIAL RITE. T H E LEADING A S I D E COMPARED TO THAT O F T H E SC I E N C E F I C T I O N
OF S E D UCTION. T H E N . I S I NSC R I B E D V E R Y P R EC I SE­ NARRATIVE I N R E LATION T O THE B I B L I C A L STORY: IT
LY IN THE DYN A M I C O F THE WORLD: T H E R E WOM AN I S I M PLIES T H E DISAPPEARANCE OF HUMAN I NTER­
NOT POSSESSIVE. POSSESSED OR POSSESSING BUT MEDIARIES A N D THE E M ERGENCE OF A SEXUALITY
ATTRACTIVE. TH I S FORCE O F ATTRACTION I S IN FACT DIRECTLY CONCERNED WITH A TEC H N I C A L OBJECT.
G R A V I TATION. U N I V E R S A L H E A V I N E SS. TH E AXIS PROVI DED T H E LATTER B E A MOTOR O R VECTO R OF
M U NDI. M I STRESS OF PASSAGE. S H E H A S U P TILL MOVEM ENT. T H E HORROR FILM THEN SUCCEEDS AS
NOW E FFECTI VELY ORGA N I ZE D A L L THAT I S SPEED. A M ATTER O F COURSE THE E ROTIC F I L M A S A M O R E
ALL THAT H A S A PART I N THE MOV E M E N T OF M AN's PERFECT F U L F I L L M E N T OF THE L A W OF MOV E M E NT.
LIFE. ALL THAT CONCU R S OR COMPETES WITH IT. IN A WORLD W H E R E TECHNOLOGICAL PROGRESS
CORRESPONDS TO THE UTI LIZATION A N D QUEST O F

THIS B E LOVED WHO A CCOR D I N G TO NOV A L I S 15 THE SUPER ROGATORY SPEEDS.

S U M M A R Y OF THE U N I VE RS E AND TH I S U N IVERSE

WHICH 1 5 ONLY T H E EXTENSION O F T H E BELOVED. B U T TH I S WAY OF FOLLOWI N G FASHION. OF
THE BODY OF WOM A N THUS CONFOU N D E D WITH A C O N FO R M I NG T O U S A G E S A N D T O C O D E S . S O
BODY OF COM M U N ICATIONS. IS AN IDEAL VECTOR RIGOROUSLY R E SPECTED I N THE MOST I NDUSTR I A L­
BETWEEN M A N A N D THE NEW WORLD. NO LONG E R IS IZED COU N T R I E S EVEN AS FAR AS TH E R E P U L S I V E
TH E R E A COUP L E BUT A T R I LOG Y O F SORTS: THE ATTITUDES A N D P U N K OF THE LAST FEW YEARS. ALL
SOLITARY MOVEM ENT OF SEDUCERE OR THE SEXUAL ON LY BRI NGS TO LIGHT T H E VERY FOU N DATION OF
COU PLING THAT R E QU I R E S I NT E R D E P E N D E N T EVERY M E A N S OF S EDUCTION: TO ATTRACT T H E
M OV E M E N T
IMPLIES A THIRD PA R T N E R . THE L O O K I S TO C A PT U R E A N D T H U S D I V E RT T H E
TERRITORIAL BODy. 2 ATTENTION. A N OPTICAL I LLUSION I N A U N I V E R S E
ITSELF P E R C E I V E D WHOLELY AS I LLUSORY A N D
WHERE D I SS I M U LATION TRI U M PH S AS A SYNDROME
OF MOVE M E NT. AND HENCE OF T E R ROR. W H I L E
G I R LS O F TODAY M A Y CONDESC E N D T O L E T GUYS
THE E P I SODE I N GENESIS R E V E A L S THAT TH E
"PICK TH E M UP," SOMEWHAT A S THOUGH H ITCH ­
ACCOM P L I S H M E N T OF THE RITE OF PASSAGE
H I K ING. I N O R D E R TO ENJOY I N THE I R C O M P A N Y T H E
LEADING FROM ONE U N I V E R S E T O A N OTH E R
SELF-INVOLUTION ASSOCIATED W I T H HITTING T H E
PRODUCES NOT O N L Y A M ETAMORPHOS I S O F SIGHT
ROAD. THEY STI LL S H R I N K AT THE THOUGHT O F
BUT A N I M M EDIATE CAMOU FLAGE AND CAREFUL
B E I NG 'TA K E N I N " OR. MORE LITERA L LY. OF B E I N G
D I S S I M U LATION O F THE BODY. H E R E O N E MAY
TOLD TO " G O GET LOST."
R E C A L L H A N N A H A R E N DT ' S R E F L E C T I O N THAT
"TERROR 1 5 T H E FULFI LLM E NT OF THE LAW OF
MOVEMENT." I N T H E B I B LI C A L N A R RATIVE. FEAR I S FORMERLY. THE I N STITUTIONS FOR THE EDUCATION
S I M U LA TA N EO U S W I T H SEDUCTION P R E C I S E LY OF LITTLE G I R LS H A D COMPA RABLE ENDS. T H E
BECA USE THE LATTE R IS TRAVERSED IN A PHENO­ SEVERE DISCIPLINE A I M E D AT M A K I N G A CREATOR
M ENON OF SPEED S U C H THAT THE ANTICI PATION OF OF A RTEFACTS OUT OF TH E C H I LD. AS A CONSTA N T
A N ACC I D E NT OCCU R S I N STANTLY. I S N 'T THE "SIN" R E F E R E N C E TO T H E MARVELOUS M EC H A N IC I TY O F
OF THE F I RST MAN COMMONLY CALLED T H E "FALL," T H E WOMAN'S VECTOR-BODY. B U T A LSO T O H E R
T H E A N C I E N T S T H U S E ST A B L I S H I N G A D I R E C T LACK O F P ERSONA L I NTELLIGENCE. 3 DEPORTMENT.
R ELATION BETW E E N W H A T I S C O N V E NTIONALLY M A N N ER S . D A N C E . M A N U A L WORK. A N D F I N E R Y
CALLED ORIGI N A L SIN AND T H I S TERRESTRIAL PULL WERE U S E F U L I N CAMOUFLAGI NG PHYSIOLOG I C A L
W H I C H T H E Y C O N S I D E R E D TO BE T H E F I R ST I D E N TI T Y . " N A T U R E " A N D ITS W E A K N E S S E S .
NATURAL MOTOR OF T H E F R E E A CC E LE R ATION OF IGNORANCE. I NDEED SEXUAL I NDIFFERENCE. G A V E
BOD I ES. OF TH E I R P ROJECTION BUT A LSO OF THE I R T H ESE S U P POSEDLY I N NOCENT L A S S E S A G R EATER
COLLISION? WH E N A LA I N SCH LOKOFF ELABORATES TECHNICAL RELIABI LITY FOR THE EXECUTION OF AN
ON THE REPLACE M E N T OF E ROTIC O R PORNO FIILMS E N DLESSLY R E PEATED S E R I E S O F M A N E U V E R S
BY HORROR F I L M S. AND STATES THAT "SEX NO INTENDED T O S U BJ UGATE THOSE AROUND THE M .
LONGE R EXISTS AND THAT FEAR H A S R EPLACED IT." A N D PARTICULARLY THE CHOSEN PARTNERS. W H O
THE I M PORTA N C E O F SUCH A MODIFICATION OF W E R E TH E I R SOLE E FFECTIV E PROTECTION A GA I N ST

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DOW E R I E D GI RLS TO AN E A R LY M A R RIAGE A N D THE D I S A P PE A R A N C E O F T H E PARTN E R OR PA RTN E R S

OTH E R S TO THE CONVENT. MEAN LABOR. PROSTI ­ I N S P A C E A N D TI M E : T O L E A D T H E M A S I D E I S TO

TUTION OR DESTITUTION. F I N A LLY. THE CHEAP L E A D T H E M TO NOT H I N G N ESS, A N D TO T H I S EXTENT

ROMA NTIC NOVELS C A N STOP A T T H E WEDDING. NOT THE S E D UCTIVE ACTI V I TY I NT E R F E R E S WITH T H E

OUT OF MODESTY. BUT BECAUSE THE TEC H N I C A L TECH N I C A L FATALITY A N D MORE P R EC I S E LY T H E

E X PLOIT OF T H E Y O U N G W O M A N THERE R E A C H E S TEC H N I Q U E OF WAR. A S DESC R I B E D B Y COLON E L

ITS END. S H E H A S LED H E R SPOUSE T O H E R S I D E . D E LA I R , I T I S A N A RT W H I C H M UST B E CEASE LESSLY

H Y M EN'S RITE O F P A S S A G E IS NO LONGER HER I N T R A N S FO R M ATION A N D WHICH DOESN'T ESCAPE

B U SI N ES S . OFTEN SHE W I LL DRAW FROM TH E T H E G E N E R A L LAW OF T H E WORLD: TO STA N D STI LL

CONJUGAL B E D A COLD A N D DEFIN ITIVE HATRED I S TO D I E .

FOR HER AWKWARD HUSBAND. COM PA RABLE TO

THAT OF THE TRAN SVESTITE (ONE USED TO SPEAK " M A N Y WOM E N H A V E LOVE D T H E M S E L V E S I N M E , "
IN FOR M E R TIMES MORE P R E C I S E L Y O F TRANS· S A I D F R A N Z LI SZT. H I M S E L F A GREAT SEDUCER. T H E
V E STI S M , A WORD WHICH A LSO S U GG ESTS TH E REMARK CONTAI N S BOTH THE NOTI O N OF A
TRAVELO. OR DRAG Q U E E N ) . THE YOUNG V I RG I N'S R E D UCTION OF T H E S P E E D OF CONQU E ST A N D OF A
MOTILE P E R FOR M A N C E A L R E ADY A N NOUNCES THE R E C I P RO C A L I N VI S I B I LITY. IN THE VERY R A P­
CLAIM OF THE "WO M E N I N MOVEM ENT' OF M LF (THE PROC H E M E NT OF "LOVE M A K I NG" THE TEC H N I C A L
FRENCH WOMEN'S L I B E RATION MOV E M ENT>: WE ARE EXPERTISE OF THE SEDUCER OR SEDUCTRESS
NOT SEX OBJ ECTS. C R E ATES TH E CONTRADICTION, THE I M M EDIATE

COMM UTATION OF P E R SONS D O E S N O T ABOLISH

T H E I N A C C E S S I B I LITY WHICH PREVIOUSLY C R EATED

T H E S E P A RATION OF D I STANCE AND A PA RTNESS.

TO A RAGON'S MOTTO WOMAN IS THE FUTURE OF MAN B E S I DES, I T I S A LWAYS EASY TO A N N I H I LATE T H E

THE MLF OPPOSES ITS MAN IS THE PAST OF WOMAN. PARTN E R WITHOUT A S M UCH A S L E A V I N G H I M O R

THUS EACH T R I E S TO I N STALL T H E OTH E R IN A HER FOR A SECON D. THUS, IN A N O L D COUPLE,

D E F E R R E D T I M E . THAT OF T H E GREAT N A V IGATION EACH SPOUSE BECOMES I N V I S I B L E TO T H E OTH E R

O F THE SPECIES. S I M PLY ON ACCOU N T O F T H E R E PETITION O F A

L I M ITED N U M B E R OF SIGNS. ODORS. A N D COMMON

H A B I TS SO MUCH A PA RT OF TH E DA I LY R EG I M E N
O N E D I SCOV E R S I N LOVER' MODALITIES A PENDU­
T H A T T H E Y A R E A L R E A DY K NOWN A N D E XPECTED
L U M E FFECT SUGGESTIVE OF THIS KIND OF LEADING
BY THE P A RTN E R . 4 AS TIME PASSES. T H E CON­
ASIDE: THE S UFFRAGETTES O R T H E GROUPS FOR
FOR M I S M OF H A B I T C R E ATES A K I N D OF NARRATI V E
WOMEN'S LIBERATION D EMONSTRATE MORE
SUM MARY, A TRUE E F F ECT OF A N A MO R P H O S I S ,
NOTICEABLY A FT E R TH E WARS, THE GREAT
S I N C E THE "ANGLE O F T E M PORAL VISION" CHANGES
CONFLICTS DEADLY TO M A LES. TH E SENTI M E NTAL.
TO SUCH A N EXTENT I N THE AGED THAT T H E Y C A N
ROMANTIC PERIODS D E V E LO P ON THE CONTR A R Y
T A L K A BOUT A N E V E N T OF FORTY Y E A R S A G O A S I F
B E FO R E OR D U R I NG T H E R EVOLUTIONS A N D WARS.
I T H A D H A PP E N E D T H E S A M E D A Y . W H I LE H A V I N G
T H U S THE M I LITARY MOBI LIZA TION I S S U BSTITUTED
TOTA LLY FORGOTT E N W H AT THEY D I D A M O M E N T
FOR THE LOV E R S' " T R A N S PORT," THE YOUNG
A G O . T H I S I S A P R E L U D E T O OTH E R U N I VE R S E S O F
W O M A N ' S "G I V I N G H ER S E L F TO THE MOBILIZED
S P E E D ( F A S T OR SLOW), I NV I S I BLE TO TH E COMMON
SOLDIER B E FO R E H I S DEPARTURE, BECAUSE HE
EYE, SO M E W H AT LIKE I N THE DISASTER F I L M S SHOT
M A Y D I E " I S C E RTAI N LY R E A L ENOUGH A N EVENT.
BY STUNTM E N WHICH C A N NOT B E P ROJ ECTED I N
BUT W H AT IS AIMED AT H ERE AG A I N IS THE
REAL TIME. U N D E R ST A N DA B LY. S I N C E THE S U D­
R ELEGATION O F T H E PARTN E R . A N D T H E U N I VERSE
D E N N ESS OF TH E A C C I D E N T I M PL I E S SO M A N Y
OF W A R THAT W I LL I N STANTLY PUT M A N I NTO T H E
EVE NTS U N FO L D I N G I N SUCH A COMPRESS E D T I M E
WO M A N ' S P A S T , I N V E RS E L Y . TH E H A ST I L Y C O N ­
T H A T T H E C O M M O N E Y E C A NNOT R ECORD T H E M A L L
CLUDED. SO-C A L L E D " W A R M A R R I AGE" WILL B E
A N D T H U S M E R E LY S U M M A RIZES TH E M . THE T I M E O F
E P H E M E R A L I N MOST CASES. WH E N T H E SOLDI E R
THE N A R RATIVE A PP E A R S T O BE I NCOMPATI B L E
HAS THE BAD IDEA OF R E T U R N I NG SAFE AND
WITH V I S I O N I T S E L F . A N D IT BECOMES NECESSRY­
SOU N D TO T H E PRESENT OF H I S WIFE. H E W I L L B E
I N O R D E R TO S E E -TO I NTRODUCE, PARA DOXI C A L LY .
R E J ECTED, L I TT L E B Y L I TT L E THE T R A G I C C H ARAC­
A D I SOR D E R I NG OF SIGHT. SLOW·MOTION.
TER OF THE N ECESSITY TO SEDUCE A ND TO KEEP

ON SEDUCI NG IS REVEALED: IT IS LIKE AN

EXORBITANT I NFLATION O F TH E LAW O F MOV E M E N T S I M I LA R L Y . W H A T T H E MOVE M E N T OF R O M A N T I C

A N D OF THE VECTORI A L F AC U LTIES OF T H E BODY. PASSIONS I N LlSZT'S FORMULA SHOWED, TlHROUGH

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ACCELERATION O F T H E LOV E RS' T R A N S PORT, WAS C H I LD R E N AND H US B A N D K I LL E D IN THE WAR

A C O M P ETITION RATH E R THAN AN O P PO S I T I O N WHENEVER SHE I S G I V E N THE O P PORTU N I TY , TO

BETWEEN M ETA BOLICS A N D TEC H N IQ U E , A VALORI­ THOSE W I DOWS WHO A S SU M E TH E I R B E R E A V E M E N T

ZATION O F TH E RITES O F PASSAGE AND OF TH E I R AS A P R I V I LEDGED POSITION, NO LONGE R G O I N G

NUMBER TO THE D E TR I M E N T O F THE BOD I E S O U T , NOU R I SH I NG A BARELY D I SG U I SED H A T R E D

TH EMS ELVES, A N D O F THEIR PRESENCE IN THE FOR THO S E STI L L ALIVE, THE S URVIVORS AND

WORLD, s E S P E C I A LLY TH E I R O W N PROG E N Y , O R T O TH I S

TELEGRA M -" I F T H E W A R I S LOST, LET THE NATION

PERISH"-I N WHICH H I T L E R D EC I D E S TO COM B I N E

SUCC E E D I N G OR O P POS I NG L'HO M M E FATAL (THE
H I S EFFORTS WITH THOSE OF H I S E N E M I E S I N O R D E R
WARRIOR), THE FEMME FATALE I S R A R E LY A PR ETTY
T O COM P L E T E THE D E S T R U C T I O N OF HIS OWN
WOMA N : RATH E R S H E IS WORSE. ONE IS STRUCK BY
PEOPLE B Y A N N I H I LATING T H E LAST R ESOU RCES O F
THE PHYSICAL A U ST E R I TY OF THE C E L E BRATED
TH E HOM E L A N D-WE F I N O OURSELVES NOT A T T H E
COURTESANS, ' A N D B Y THE CONTRAST I T OFFERS
OPPOSITE B U T RATH E R A T DELIRIOUS APOGEES O F
WITH TH E M AG N I FI C E N C E O F TH E I R F I N E R Y AND THE
T H E SEDUCTI V E ACTI VITY' ?
B R I L L I A N C E OF TH E I R A R M S O F S EDUCTION, H E R E

AGA I N , THE PHYSIOLOG I C A L I D ENTITY S E E M S TO

IN FACT, TH E WO M E N OF TH E M L F DEVELOP A
D I S A P P E A R B E H I N D T H E A PP E A L OF A 'TEC H N I C A L
SI M I LA R ATTITU D E : THEY PREACH T H E PARTN E R'S
VALORIZATION SUCH THAT M A N Y OF T H E S E WOM E N
LIB ERATION IN THE M A N N E R OF T H E OLD W I DOWS:
WILL CONTI N U E TO EXERCISE TH E I R F U NCTION
CURE US OF LOVE I S O N E O F TH E I R S LOGA N S. TH E Y
UNTIL A V E R Y A D V A N C E D AGE, SEVENTY TO E I GHTY
H A V E K I LLED TH E SPOUSE, TH E FATH E R A N D T H E
FOR SOME OF T H E M , WHO W I L L K E E P O N GETTING
C H I LD, A N D T H E S E A R E S I G N I FICA NTLY AMONG T H E
PA I D FOR TH E I R S E R V I CES. IT WAS NOT RARE
THEMES W H I C H H A V E C REATED TH E I R U N A N I M ITY.
EITHER T O S E E O N E O F T H E M R E A C H TH E S U M M I T O F
ABORTI O N , FOR E X A M PLE, HAS A GREAT FORCE OF
TH E STATE H I E R A RC H Y, N O R , I N V E R S E LY, T O SEE
SYMBOLIC TRANSCENDENCE SINCE IT REFERS
WOM EN OF THE H I G H EST RANK M EA S U R E THEM­
D I RECTLY T O M U R DE R A S A BY- P RODUCT O F LOVE.
SELVES AGAI N ST P U B L I C WOM E N AND EMBARK ON
I N THE U N ITED STATES, A LL O F T H I S TAKES THE
VERITABLE M A R AT H O N S , ACHIEVING SPEED
ULTIMATE FOR M OF A NEW, M E RC I LESS SOC I A L
RECORDS I N TH E CONVEYA NCE O F PASSENGERS ON
STRUGG L E BETWEEN CLIQUES THAT H A V E BECO M E
TH E SEXUAL VOYAGE , AND WORKI NG TO SUCH A
HOMOS E X U A L I N T H E PURSUIT O F POWER, I N FLU­
HIGH OUTPUT THAT THEY WERE CONSIDERED
ENCE AND MONEY.
MON A R C H S OR RATH E R "POLEM A RC HS" .J UST LIKE

M E N , HERE A S W E LL, TH E ACCELERATION O F THE

RITE OF PASSAGE C L E A R L Y I M PL I E S T H E PRESENCE

OF T H E T E R R I TO R I A L BODY A S THI R D PARTNER, THE

SEDUCERE C A N N O MORE B E R E D U C E D TO SEXUAL

IN S H A K E S P E A R E' S T H E TA M I N G OF THE SHREW,
COM M E R C E TH A N THE . ACTI V I T I Y O F THE POLE­
PETR U C H I O ROUGHLY REFUSES HIS WIFE TH E
MARCH O R CONQ U E R O R CAN B E COM P A R E D TO A SERVICES O F A M A I D , PROPOS I N G I N STE A D THOSE
"H U M A N COM M E RCE," SUCH AS C L A U S E W ITZ, FOR OF H I S ARMS S E R V A NT: "MY MAN K NOWS HOW TO
EXAM PLE, U N D ERSTAN DS IT. FREDERICK I I'S "TO
TAKE CARE OF M Y A RMOR," H E SAYS, "SURELY H E
ADVANCE IS TO CONQUER," T H E H A ST E WITH WHICH
CAN LACE UP YOU R CORSET." IN THIS ABSURD
A L E X A N D E R T H E G R E A T DROVE ON, CONC E R N E D COM M A N D, L'HOM M E FATAL A L R E A D Y RECOGNIZES
ONLY T O F I N D TH E L I M I T O F H I S FORCE'S EXPAN­
H I MSELF A S TH E PAST OF H I S WIFE: H I S S P A R K L I N G
SION, BUT ALSO T H E D R I V E R'S GLANCE AT THE
S H I ELD, H I S COMBAT F I NERY, ALL W I L L SOON
SPEEDOMETER OF TH E R A C I NG-CA R, O R O F COMBAT
BECOM E USELESS, HARMFUL EVEN, WITH THE
AS THE EXISTENTIAL M EASURE OF THE WARRIOR'S
B EG I N N I N G O F H I G H L Y TECH NOLOGICAL WARFARE.
BEING-ALL I NVOLVE A VERTIGINOUS FLDW OF TIME,6
AT THE OUTSET O F THE 20TH C ENTURY, WOMA N I N
THESE PERPETU A L A S S A U LTS A G A I N S T DISTANCE
H E R TURN W I L L A B A N DON THE CORSET .JUST W H E N
A LSO R EPRODU C E I N D E F I N I TE LY THE I N I T I A L RITE
T H E A R M A M ENT O F T H E R A C E R A N D T H E R A C E T O
OF PASSAGE, A N A B R I DG M E N T O F THE U N I VERSE
A R M S A RE BECOM I NG PHENOMENA O F SOC I ETY. R I D
M A D E POSSIBLE B Y T H E S P E E D O F T H E ASSA U LT, OF T H E CORSET, S H E C A N DEVOTE H E R S E LF TO

COMPETITI V E S PO RT S , AND CLI M B I N TO F A ST

"MOST OF THE TIME LOVE IS A BY-PRODUCT OF VEHICLES. TH E S E D UCTION O F WOMAN AS A BY­

M UR D E R , " THE M YSTER Y WRITER AGATHA C H R I ST I E PRODUCT OF M U RD E R OR S I M PLY AS A VECTOR OF

LO V E D TO R E P E AT. FROM THE C E L I N ESQUE VOYAGE GIVES WAY TO THE LIBERATION OF T H E NEW

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S P E E D: THE FEMININE A RTE FACT IS NO LONGER SOM ETH I NG WHICH WOU L D NO LONGER B E D I SCON­

R E SORTED TO E XC E PT A S A N ORNAMENT TO THE TINUOUS, A F I N A L S U PPRESSION OF T H E D I F F E R ­

V E H ICLE IN B E A UT Y P A R A DES, A DV E R T I Z I N G ENCES BETW E E N NATU R E A N D C U LTURE, U TO P I A

M ETAPHORS O R POLITICAL A N D M I LITARY PROPA­ AND R E A LITY. BY M A K I NG S E DUCTION'S RITE OF

GANDA, THIS D I S A P P E A R A N C E OF WOMA N I N T H E PASSAGE A CONTI NUOUS PH ENOMENON TECH NO­

FATALITY OF THE TEC H N I C A L OBJECT CREATES A LOGY WOU L D MAKE S E NSORY D E R A N G E M E NT A

NEW M A SS LANGUAGE WHICH F A I T H F U L LY RE­ P E R M A N ENT CON DITION, AN OSC I LLATI NG T R I P FOR

FLECTS T H E FASCI ST LA NGUAGE OF TH E FUTU R I ST CONSC I O U S N E S S WHICH WOU LD HAVE AS ABSO­

ELITE AT THE BEGI N N I N G OF THE C E NTU RY: "TH E LUTE POLES ONLY B I RT H AND DEATH. AND WOU L D

H EAT OF A P I E C E OF I R O N OR W OO D NOW A ROUSES B E THE E N D O F A L L R ELIGION A N D P H I LOSOPHY. I N

U S MORE TH A N T H E S M I LE OR TEA R S OF A WOM AN, S H O RT, H ERACLITUS' D I STI NCTION B E TW E E N

. . . WE WILL TRANSFORM E DG A R ALLAN POE'S WAKING AND SLEEP ("THOSE ASLEEP ARE IN

NEVERMORE I NTO A S H R I LL JOY. . . , WITH U S B EG I N S S E PARATE WORLDS, THOSE A W A K E I N A COM MON

THE REIGN OF TH E ROOTLESS MAN, TH E M U LTIPLIED WORLD") WOU L D C E A S E TO A PPLY. IT WOU L D TH U S

M A N WHO MI NGLES WITH I RO N , FEEDS ON ELECTRI­ SO M E HOW B E N O R M A L F O R TH E LIGHT OF MOTORS

C ITY . . . . YOU C A N SEE THEN HOW MUCH WE DESPISE TO E XTI N G U I S H THAT OF R EASON AS TH E I D E A L

TH E PROPAG A N D A C A R R I E D OUT I N DEFENSE O F ACTIVATION OF M A N AWAKENED A N D SENSOR OF

TH E A ESTH ETICS OF LA NDSCAPE . . . TH E GREAT R E A LITY, ASPI R I N G T O A STATE O F V I G I L I N A WOR L D

SYMBOLI STS L E A N I N G OVER THE NUDE BODY OF G I V E N A S C O M M O N (TH E PRECONDITION F O R T H E

WOM A N . . . FEMALE BEA UTY, IDEAL AND FATAL" FORMATION OF M E A N I NG). SCI ENCE A N D TECH NO­

( M A R I N ETTI, 1 9 1 0). LOGY WOULD ACTUALLY C R E ATE A NEW SOCI ETY

WHOSE M E M BE R S WOULD ALL BECOME SLEEPERS,

L I V I N G OUT I LLUSORY DAYS AND NATURALLY VERY

I N A R E C E NT I NT E R V I E W GIVEN TO TH E N EWSPAPER M UC H AT EASE I N A SITUATION O F ''TOTAL PEACE,"
F R A NCE·SOI R , TH E P I LOT J EAN-MA R I E SAGET
AND OF N UC L E A R DISSUASION, TH E LATTER ITSELF
STATED: " A T THAT TI M E T O B E A TEST PI LOT WAS
B E I N G D E V E LOPED ACORD I N G TO T H E P R I N C I PL E O F
R E A LLY TO FLY I NTO TH E U N K NOWN . . . . NOW WE L E A ST A C T I O N SO D E A R T O E N G I N E ERS, "ACCORD­
HAVE ANOTH E R F R U STRATION. Irs TOO BAD, BUT ING TO A C U R V E O F OPTI M A L D I ST R I BUTION OF T H E
W E CAN'T FLY THE P L A N E S OF RIVAL COMPA N I ES E X E RTION OF FO R C E S WHICH G U A R A NTEE EQUI L­
BECAUSE OF COMMERCIAL C O M P ET I T I O N . I'VE IBRIUM AND TH E AVOI DANCE OF A CC I D E N T S . "
NEVER L I FT E D O F F WITH AN F- 1 !S, M UC H T O M Y HENCE A WORLD ENTI RELY S U S P E N D E D ON T H E
REGR ET. COM P A N Y PI LOTS, ON THE CONTRARY, FLY T H R E S HOLD OF AN U LT I M ATE OPERATION W H I C H
ON A LL MODELS, SINCE THEY HAVE TO MAKE WOU LD E FFECTIVELY C A R R Y O U T F O R H U M A N ITY A
COM PARISONS . . . . TH EY'RE PRIVI LEDGED," CLIMB­ RITE OF PASSAGE C O M PA R A B L E TO THAT IN
I N G I NTO H I S M I R A G E 4000, S A PET ADDS: "I'M ON GENESIS.
THE OTH E R S I DEI" THERE IS I ND E E D A TECH NO­

LOGI C A L DON J U A N I S M , A "LI FTING" OF M A C H I N E S

WHICH SUPPLA NTS THAT OF LOGISTIC SPOUSES,

TH E I N ITIAL T R I LOGY IS THUS CO M P L ET E L Y W H E N AT TH E O PE N I NG OF THE C E NTURY SPENGLER

MODI FIED, A N D T H E R E LATIONS H I P I S ESTA B L I S H E D FORESAW TH E " R ETU R N OF SCI ENCE TO ITS

B E T W E E N A U N I SE X (TH E DEFI N ITIVE DISSI M ULATION PSYC H IC N A T I V E LA N D" A N D T H E COM PLETELY N EW

OF PHYSIOLOG I C A L I DE NTITY) AND A TEC H N I C A L RUINS OF F A U ST I A N C I V I L I ZA T I O N -" I TS DEBRIS

VECTOR, THE CONTACTS WITH T H E B O D Y OF THE SCATTE R E D HERE A N D THERE, FORGOTT E N , T H E

B E LOVED OR THE T E R RITOR I A L BODY DISAPPEAR­ R A I LWAYS A N D G R EAT PACKET BOATS AS FOSSIL­

ING PRE DICTA BLY A S T H E DYNAMICS OF PASSAGE IZED AS THE ROMAN ROA DS OR TH E G R EAT WALL OF

I NC REASE. BUT TH E A S SU M PTION OF THE VAR IOUS C H I NA"-HE D I DN'T T H I N K THAT THESE R U I N S W E R E

RITES O F PASSAGE BY MASS PRODUCTION IS A EARLIER THE L A T E N T FOR M S , T H E ABANDONED

P H E N O M E NO N I M PO R T A N T IN A NOTH E R WAY. B L U E P R I NTS OF A U N I QU E AND I R R E S I ST I B L E

PARAPHRASING R A G E OT'S FORMU LA, W R I TT E N PROJECT-QR PROJECTION-QF T H E WEST TOWA R D

ABOUT 1 920, O N E C A N S A Y T H A T TH E TECHNOLOGI­ A T E C H N O LOG I C A L BEYOND AS M Y ST E R I O U S ,

C A L R EVOLUTION H A S F I N A LLY B E E N USED ONLY TO FINA LLY, AS THAT OF ANCIENT R E LIGIONS,

I N STALL THE VERY FIXITY OF LIFE I N DIS PLACEMENT CONFRONTING WITH ITS S P EC I A L E FFECTS TH E

ITSELF. " M OB I L I S IN MOBI LE," MOB I L E W I TH I N A G R EAT N A T U R A L POWERS, A N D M A C H I NATING TH E

MOBILE, THE MOTTO O F J U L E S VERNE'S NAUTILUS, CATASTRO P H I C U N C E RTAINTIES WHICH STI R THE

D E F I N E S BOTH EVERY T R A N S PORT VEHICLE A N D, I N COLLECT I V E AND I ND I V I DUAL CONSC I ENCE,

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W E A R E C U R R ENTLY REDI SCOV E R I NG T H E M YSTERY OVER IT. SO IT COULD LOOK AT ME A S MUCH AS I

OF THE T E C H N O L OG I C A L VEHICLE, WHICH WE LOOK AT IT. . . . YOU S H O U L D K NOW ITS N A M E ; J E

A P PR E H E N D LESS A S A CON S U M E R OBJECT TO B E T'AI ME."

DESI R E D O R REJ ECTED T H A N M O R E E S S ENTIALLY

AS THE VECTOR OF D E S I R E S J UST A S OBSOLES­ THE VEHICLE C O M PLETELY R EPLACES THE

CENT A S OUR DREAMS, AS A STRANGE PROCES­ B E LOVED. TH E "MOT H E R - L A N D S C A P E " I N H A B I T E D
S I O N A L ACCOM PA N I M E N T , OUTS I D E OF H I STORY BY T H E "SPI RIT OF M ETAMORPHOSIS." TECH NOLOGI­
AND H A RDLY G E OG R A P H I C , AS A PLAY OF THE C A L FATALITY A PPEARS A S THE F I N A L S E D UCTION.
EGO'S R E PR E S ENTATI O N S AKIN TO AN ON E I R I C FAR MORE BLINDING AND FEARFUL THAN ITS
FALSE LIGHT " , THIS DELI RIOUS JOY OF SPEED ANTH ROPOMORPHIC B L U E P R I NTS. T H A N K S TO TH E
ECLIPSING T H E I N F I N ITY O F D R E A M S (MARI N ETTIl. SPEED A LO N E IT C A N G I V E OUR A S P I RATIONS. T H E

PHYSIC I A N DOM I N I Q U E PIGNON, FOR E X A M P L E .

AROUND 1 9 00, COLONEL DE ROCHAS. AN EX· REMARKED A BOUT TH E N UCLEAR ACC I D E NT A T

A D M I N I ST R A T O R O F T H E P O L Y T E C H N I C I N ST I T U T E , H A RRISBU RG: ''T H E R E A LITY O F TH E R EACTOR, A S

ATTEMPTED TO D E M O N STRATE W I T H H I S XENOGLOSSY WITH EVE R YTH I N G CONC E R N I NG T H E ATOM. CAN NOT

THAT "A SUBJ ECT U N D E R H YPNOSI S C O U L D EXCEED B E ASSESSED WITH ORDI N A RY WOR D S . . . • THE MOST

THE L I M I T O F HUMAN E X P E R I E N C E AND G O BACK I N TI M E POW E R F U L CO M P UT E R IS I N F I N I TELY SLOW

WITHOUT TOO M UCH FATIG U E." M E M BERS OF T H E CO M PA R E D TO REAL P R OC E S S E S . THUS IN

"C R U S H I N G A U TO M O B I L E OF THE FIFTIES CLUB" NUCLEAR C I RC L E S. THE EXPERTS K N OW THAT TH E Y

I N D U L G E T H E M SE L V E S IN A S I M I L A R ACTI V I TY, T H E C A N NOT M O N I TO R WITH A COMPUTER WHAT IS

M E D I U M B E I N G I N THIS C A S E A M ERICAN C A R S OF THE R E A L LY HAPPENING IN A R EACTOR OUT OF

FI FTI ES-CA D I LLACS, BUICKS. F O R DS. C H EV R O L ETS. CONTROL. . , • I N T H E EVENT O F A N ACCIDENT, THEN.

ETC.8 THEY A R E LIKE BLI N D MEN TU R N I N G IN A CI RCLE A S

T H E Y T R Y T O M A K E A DECISION , " 9

"ALBERT LIVES TO THE F U L LEST AS IN 1 950." A

J O U R N A L I ST WRITES ABOUT ONE IN PARTIC ULAR. THE TECH N I C I A N B E CO M E S T H E VICTIM OF T H E

" D U R I N G T H E W E E K H E D R I V E S H I S REG ULAR CAR. BUT MOVEMENT H E HAS PRODUC ED. H A V I NG BECO M E

WHEN HE BRI NGS OUT HIS B E L A I R. HE DRESSES TEDDY APHASIC, H E R EPEATS I N THE A BSOLUTE OF T H E

BOY STYLE. HIS WIFE RIDING IN T H E BACK WITH THE K I D. PLA NT'S CONTROL ROOM TH E S I M PL I F I E D GES­

THAT'S HOW THEY D I D IT,' HE SAYS. HE D R EA M E D ABOUT T U R E S OF A PR I M A L MAGN ETIC R I T E W H O S E "MOB I L E

T H E CAR FOR FI FTEEN YEARS. AS SOON AS HE SAW IT. WITHOUT MOB I LITY" A S YET T O B E C L A R I F I ED.

HE I M A G I N E D ITS FI RST COLOR. SPARK L I N G B L U E WITH A

LIGHTER ROOF, ITS CHROME FITTI N GS. THE ROCKET HE BRINGS TO M I N D C A PTA I N H A TTE R A S. J U L E S
AFFIXED TO THE TIP OF THE HOOD. 'AT NIGHT I J U ST V E R N E 'S H E RO. A P R E C U RSOR OF SUCH REAL
LOOK AT IT,' HE ADDS. 'BEFORE LEAVING THE GARAGE I H E ROS A S THE NORWEGI A N R O A L D A M U NDSEN OR
PAT ITS FENDER. I SPEAK TO IT. YOU SEE. I PUT THE TH E ITA L I A N U M B ERTO NOBILE. R U S H I N G TOWA R D S
ROCKET O N IT. BECAUSE I FELT IT N EEDED IT. YOU MUST A BEYON D WITHOUT AN I D E NTITY FOR I T RESEMBLES
SEE IT AT N I G HT. WHEN I T V I B RATES A N D GLOWS. IT'S A NOTH ING AT ALL AND YET I S NOT NOT H I NGNESS: T H E
SENSITI V E M AC H I N E. ' " NORTH P O L E . BUT A L S O DESE RTS. A N D S I D E R E A L

S PACE. T O LOOK F O R . T O S E E K O U T . T O DISCOVER,

FOR HIS PART. DANIEL (AGE S I XT E E N . STUDYI NG BUT H E R E ALL PARTNERS HAVE D I SA PP E A R E D

MECHANICS AND ELECTRICITY AT A TECHNICAL FOR E V E R . AND C A PTA I N HATTE R A S. "TH I S S A D

SCHOOL) WANTS A MOTORCYCLE, AS HE TELLS A VICTI M OF A SUBLIM E PASSION." IS SUFFERING

JOURNALIST FROM L E M O N D E ; ''I'D L I K E A B I K E , A BIG FROM WHAT HIS DOCTOR CALLS A "POLA R

BIKE. A R E A L L Y BIG B I K E TO GO WHEREVER I WANT. M A D N ESS." HE H A S BECOM E PART A N D PARCEL OF

A N YW H E R E . I'D L I K E TO K E E P O N R I D I NG. WITHOUT THE I R R E S I ST I B L E R I T E OF PASSAGE: "FOLLOWED

EVER STOPPI N G . I'D LI K E I T TO D R I V E ITSELF WHEN BY HIS FAITH F U L DOG. WHO G A Z E D AT H I M WITH

I'M TIRED. I'D LIKE IT TO B E THE COLOR OF THE SOFT, SAD EYES, CAPTAI N H A TT E R A S WENT OUT

OC E A N . WITH SAILS IN TH E DISTANCE AND E V E RY DAY FOR LONG WALKS, BUT THESE

S U R R O U N D E D BY G U LLS. I ' D L I K E IT TO SH I N E WITH I N VARIA BLY L E D H I M I N THE S A M E D I R ECTI ON, THAT

ALL ITS LIGHTS AND C H R O M E FITTINGS, TO LIGHT UP OF A C E RTA I N PATH OF STEN COTTAGE. H A V I N G

EVERYTH I NG AT THE SAME TIME. 1'0 LIKE IT TO A R R IVED AT T H E E N D O F TH E P A T H . T H E CAPTA I N

CON S U M E NOT H I NG. J U ST A LITTLE ATMOSPHE R E W O U L D STA R T WALKING BACKWARDS. SHOULD

FROM TI M E T O T I M E . I ' D L I K E IT T O BE V E R Y FAST, S O I SOM EON E STOP H I M , H E WOU LD PO I N T TO A FIXED

COULD S E E ONLY WHAT I L I K E . . . . 1'0 PUT D I A LS ALL SPOT I N THE SKY. ' " THE DOCTOR VERY SOON

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U N D E R STOO D THE M OT I V E OF T H I S S I NGULAR TOWA RD THE NORTH." l O

OBSTI NACY. AND G U ESSED WHY THE STROLL

A LW A Y S TOOK A C O N S T A N T D I R EC T I O N . AS IF
PAUL VI RILIO
UNDER THE I N FL U E N C E O F A MAGNETIC FORCE.

C A PTA I N JOHN H ATT E R A S I N V A R I A BLY W A L K E D TRANSLATED BY J O H N JOH NSTON

NOTES LIFE WITHOUT B E I NG OF USE. U N LESS SOM E DAY

HE R E C E I VES TH E ORDER TO REACTI VATE

THE SERPENT SERVES AS MASK FOR A HOSTILE H I M S E LF, HE T H E N Q U I C K LY PUTS TO WOR K THE

B E I NG WHICH A N C I E NT W I S DO M AND THEN M A TE R I A L P ROOFS OF HIS I LL U SO R Y E X I S­

C H R I ST I A N I T Y WANTED TO SEE A S SATA N . TENCE. W H I C H W I L L G I V E H I M THE C R E D I B I LITY

"WOMAN S A W THAT TH E TREE [OF KNOWLEDGE] N ECESSARY TO ACCOM PLISH TH E SINGULAR

WAS GOOD TO EAT A N D PLEASING TO LOOK AT." M I SSION WITH W H I C H H E HAS B E E N SUDDENLY

E N T R U STED. W I THOUT A L E RT I N G T H E S U S P I ­
2 TH E MAN. ADA M . COMES FROM TH E EARTH. C I O N S O F H I S N E I G H BORS,

ADAMA, "GA R D E N " I S TRANSLATED "PARADISE"

IN THE GREEK V E RS I O N AND THEN TRADI­ " C F, PAU L V I R I L I O. "M ETEM PSYCHOSE DU

T I O N A LLY, EDEN I S A G EOG RA P H I C A L N A M E PASSAG E R." TRAVERSES, NO, B ( M A Y. 1 977).

WHICH ELUDES A L L LOCALIZATION; ITS I N ITIAL

M EA N I NG MAY H A V E B E E N "STEPPE" (COM EN­ II VITESSE ET POLITI Q U E . O P, C I T. . P. 9 8: "TH E

TARY OF T H E J E RUSALEM BIBLE), P E R FO R M A NC E OF THE I NVADER RESEMBLES

THAT O F HIS COUNTE R P A RT I N SPORTS, , . , "

3 .
.. . . TH E R E IS A LW A Y S TH E DI FFERENCE

B ETWEEN T H E 'LI B E R A L' A N D THE ·AUTOMATIC·. 7 IN E DG A R ALLAN POE'S "MORELLA" THE

W H I C H IS A PURE MOTOR FUNCTION AND CAN B E H US B A N D CON FESSES A PROPOS THE AGONY

P E R FO R M E D EQUALLY WELL B Y T H E IGNORANT O F HIS WIFE: "I WAS Y E A R N I N G WITH A N I NTENSE

OR A N I M A LS , . , M A N U A L LABOR BEING FOR AND DEVOU R I N G D E S I R E FOR THE MOM E N T OF

A N THROPOC ENTRIC SOCI ETY AS IGNOBLE A S IT M O R E L LA ' S D E A T H . " WEARY O F W A I T I NG. HE

W A S FOR THE M IDDLE AGES . , . THE WOR K E R S F I N A LL Y K I LLS H ER: "MY B E LOVED. H E NCE­

BOD I ES. AND THOSE OF WOM E N AND LOST FORTH M I N E A N D IN H E A V E N FOREVER,"

C H I LDREN [CONSTITUTED] THE I D E A L OBJECT

O F TRA I N I NG, , • . " P A U L V I R I LIO. VITESSE ET e C F, IN L I BERATION ( F E B .. 1 979). CORI N N E

POLiTI Q U E ( P A R I S : G A L I LE E. 1 9 77). B R I S E DO U ' S I NTE R ES T I N G ARTICLE O N THE

COLLECTORS O F C A R S O F THE 50'S A N D TH E I R

4 THIS KINO OF A NESTHE S I A OF FAMILIARS B Y M E ETINGS ON T H E F I RST T H U RSDAY N IGHT O F

TH E REPETITION OF B A N A L ATTITUDES I S U S E D E A C H MONTH. PLACE D E L A CONCORDE,

NOTABLY BY THE S E C R E T S E R V I C E S W H O H A V E

CR EATED A VERY PARTICUAR CATEGORY O F 9 DOMI N I Q U E PIGNON. DES RISQUES D'ACCIDENT

SPI ES: THE SLEEPERS. T H E SLEEPER HAS TO DANS LES C E N T R A L ES N UC L E A I R E S ( PA R I S :

MOVE TO A FO R E I G N PLACE. WO R K . GET 80URGOIS. 1 976),

M A R R I ED. H A V E C H I LDREN, HE I S T H E R E A S A

U S E LESS PAWN IN THE GAME OF INTERNA­ '0 J U LES V E R N E. LES AVENTURES DU CAPITA I N E

TIO N A L ESPIONAGE. A N D M A Y LIVE H I S WHOLE HATTERAS ( P A R I S : HACHETTE).

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DISCOU RSE A N D SEXUA LITY:
TOWARD THE TEXT U R E OF E ROS

A LTHOUGH IT IS NOT APPARENT THAT TRA DITIONA L ODDS WITH THE HIGHER STATUS OF T H E "EIDOS" TO
PHI LOSOPHY H A S H A D M UC H OF VA L U E T O SAY WHICH IT IS DRAWN. A LTHOUGH A M O R E F E RTI LE
ABOUT THE BODY AND REGA R D I N G S E X U A LITY. NOTION OF THE I M PORTA NCE AND PREVALENCE OF
BEGI N N I NG WITH THIS R E A LISATION O N E MAY MOVE E ROTIC DRIVE AND PRESENCE IN ALL H U M A N
FROM THIS LACKING D I SC O U R S E TOWA R D A E X P E R I E N C E . T H E P L A TO N I C D O C T R I N E M U ST
D I S CO U R S E O F T H E B O D Y W I T H U S. T H E P R E ­ ULTI MATELY FACE ITS OWNMOST I M POVER I S H M E N T
SOCRATIC PHI LOSOPHE R S P E R H A PS F I RST SPOKE I N THE RIGI DITY A N D STER I LITY OF CARTES I A N M I ND­
OF LOVE IN TH E CONTEXT O F STRI FE. I N TRODUCING BODY DUALI SM. IF W E ARE CONFRONTED B Y THE
PASSION OR THR U ST A S FORCED U PON THE GRID OF D I F F I C U LTY O F TA K I N G UP A DI S C O U R S E ON
A TELOS. E P I STEMOLOG I C A L L Y D E R I VED. H E N C E . SEXUALITY FROM " W I T H I N" T H E R EG I O N O F
LOVE OR PASSION A S MOVEM E NT WAS CON F I N E D TO TRADITI O N A L P H I LOSOPHY I T I S B EC A U S E O F T H E
THE TOPOS CONTROLLED B Y A S U B JECT. IN SUCH A R I G I D B U T S T I C K Y G R I D I T H A S E N FO R C E D .
FASHION. THE I M PU L S E OF A S E X U A L NATURE OR GEN ERA LLY O N TH E G ROUNDS O F A N ARCHE: O F
FORCE IS S E E N SUBOR D I N ATED TO AN A RCHE:. SOON REASON. U PO N T H E P L A Y . M O V E M E N T . AND
TO BECOME A LL-REASONABLE. MOST OBVIOUSLY. RICHNESS O F "BODY" A N D "BODI LY" EXPERIENCE.
THE D I SCOU R S E A B O U T T H I S I M P U LS E . LOVE­ THE ADDED DIFFICULTY IS THAT OF B E I N G W I TH I N OR
STRIFE. WAS CARRIED O N WITHOUT A N Y REFERENCE O U TS I D E A P A R TI C U LA R T Y P E O F D I SC O U R S E .
TO THE "FLESH" OF BODIES; RATHER. THE STAGE OF PHI LOSOPH I C O R OTHER. WHICH W I L L I N F I LTRATE
E M P I R I C A L H Y POTH E S I S AND V E R I F I CATION WAS ITS PA R T I C U L A R E P I STEMOLOG I C A L G R I D U PO N
ONLY S U PPOSED. OUR SEEI NG- B E I NG O U R SEXUAL-BODI ES.

I F THE PLATO N I C CONSIDERATION OF "EROS" I S A IF O N E T H E N C A N B E G I N TO S P E A K OF T H E

FULLER. R IC H E R D I SC O U R S E U PO N T H E POLY­ MOVEMENT A N D PLAY O F BODIES. WITHOUT FORCI N G
MORPHOUS C H A RACTER OF E ROTIC DRIVE AND ITS T H E STA M P OF B E I N G U PON T H E I R B EC O M I N G
UPHOLDING O R I N FO R M I N G THE G R I D OF THE WORLD (WHICH N I E TZSC H E R I GHTLY I N DI C AT E D A S T H E
K N O W N TO M A N . IT R E M A I N S N O N E T H E L E S S T R A P OF A L L TH I N K I N G A N D SPEAKINGI. I T BECOMES
I N FECTED B Y T H E S A M E PROBLEM O F BEING AT CLEAR TO WHAT DEGREE DIALECTI C A L OPPOSITION.

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W H I C H ENTA ILS A TRUNCATED MOVEM ENT, WILL NOT W H A T IS P E R H A P S U LT I M A T E L Y ST R I K I N G A N D
S U F F I C E . D E R R I D A H A S H I N T E D W E L L AT TH E STRANGE ABOUT D E R R I DA'S TREATM ENT OF HEGEL­
I M POTE N C E OF PH I LOSO P H Y AS SO U N D I NG ITS GEN ET, IN SPITE OF T H E CONTRAST OF "SEX U A L"
DEATH-KNELL WITH THE C U L M I NATING PHI LOSOPHY TH E M E S WITH CON C E PTUAL, H EG E L I A N SCH E M A S, I S
OF H EG E L . M O V E M E N T IS S A C R I F I C E D TO T H E T H A T D E R R I DA I M PLICITYLY ACC E PTS A DISJUNC­
OVER-DOM I N A N T PRESENCE O F A MOVE MENT O R TU R E OR D I SCONTI N UITY BETWE E N P H I LOSOP H Y
T H R U ST, T H A T O F REASON. T H E FIGURE O F M A ti, A N D LITERATURE. TH E LATTER S E E M S T O T A K E
A L W A Y S A S R E A S O N A B L E , C U LT I V A T E D M A N , OVE R TH E FUNCTION A N D DESTI NY OF THE FORM E R
I N STALLS ITSELF U N I V E R S A L LY A T TH E EXPENSE W H E N T H E M A R G I N S O F PHILOSOPHI C A L ENDEA­
OF T H E SC U LPTED, I MAGED FORM AND MOVEM E N T VO U R A R E P U S H E D TO OV E R F LO W . Y ET , T H E
O F T H E D I V I N E . T H E H O P E D-FOR OSC I L L A T I O N I N A DEQUACY O F T H I S J U M P I S NOWH E R E MORE
SOLI D I F I ES A N D T H E D U A L E RECTIONS, DIVINE A N D C L E A R LY EVI DENCED T H A N I N THE PERSON AND
H U M A N , BECOME FLACCID. C REATIVE MOVEM ENT, WOR K O F G E N ET H I M S E LF , FOR T H E "STUFF" OF THE
PLAY, AND FORCE, SUBJ ECTED TO THE MOVEM E N T R E L A T I O N S H I P O F T H E M A N - W O R K - G E N ET, HIS
OF M I N D, COLLAPSE I NTO TH E GENE RATION OF A N SEXUAL-EXPERI ENCE-BECOM E-LiTE RARY, I S A T THE
E M PTY DISCOURSE, THE HEGELI A N BODY HAS N O SAME TI M E A TH R U ST TOWA RD A N D CLOTURE OF
F L E S H . NO V U L N E R A B I LITY; HENCE, IT C A N NOT EXPRESSION. DERRIDA I R O N I C A LLY PA R A L L E L S
OFFER TO US ANY LONGER ITS FACE U PON WHICH THE C O L L A P S E OF T H E H EGELI A N CONC E PTU A L
W E COULD GAZE, M UC H LESS TO WHICH WE COULD PHALLUS WITH THE I M POTE N C E A N D A LLEGED
S P E A K AND SEE, FEEL IT RESPOND. DESIRE FOR I M PO T E N C E OF G E N ET'S NON­
EXPRESSIVE WORK. YET, H A S GENET B E E N GIVEN A N
D E R R I DA'S D I SCOURSE ABOUT H EGEL AND GENET ADEQUATE A N D E M PATH ETIC TREATMENT?
M A Y B E TAKEN A S A SUGGESTION OR WARNING
A BOUT THE INTRINSICALLY STU LTI FYING TENDENCY IT WOULD B E A S E V E R E M I STAKE TO CONFUSE T H E
O F THOUGHT TO OVE RCOM E THE BODY. I N ORDER RESPECTIVE T REATM E N T OF G E N ET BY D E R R I DA
THAT PLAY R E M A I N A T T H E H EART OF THOUGHT­ AND SARTRE I N A S M U C H A S BOTH D I F F E R I N
BODY, THE ELABORATION OF THOUGHT-BODY M UST SUBSTA N TI A L A N D PARTICULAR DETA I LS. YET. THE
REMAIN PRESENT TO US IN ALL ITS M OV E M E NT, LONG - R U N RESULTS O F BOTH WRITERS' SUBJ ECT­
WITHOUT BEING PASSED DOWN OR FALLING TO US ING THE M A N - W O R K -G E N ET A N D H I S S E X U A L­
A S SOLI DIFIED, A D M I R A BLE EXC R E M E NT. ' DERRIDA LITE R A R Y EXPRESSION TO A TYPE OF P H I LOSOPH I­
SHOWS FORCEFU LLY THE EXTENT TO WHICH TH E CAL SCR UTI N Y SEEM N O N E TOO D I S T A N T I N
A D M I RABLE E XC R E M ENT OF H EGEL IS STI L L AMONG S UBSTA NCE. SARTRE H A S P E R H A PS ONLY BEEN
US IN THE FOR M OF HIS CONSI DERATIONS A S TO THE MORE BLU NT, LESS A LLUSIVE THAN DERRI DA, IN
G E N E RATION AND F I L I ATION OF THOUGHT, T H E FORC I N G THE FLESHY-SENSUAL PROSE AND
D I A LECTIC OF C H I LO-BI RTH A N D FATH E R -DEATH, POETRY O F GENET I N TO T H E CONCEPTUAL MOLD OF
SEXUALITY-PROC R EATION AND ITS I N STITUTION IN TH E PACKAGED "SYM BOL," S A RTRE C LA I M S ;
AND U P HOLDING, BEING- I N FORMED BY THE STATE,

NOUS POU VON S A P R E S E N T COM P R E N D R E

D E R R I DA'S DISCOU RSE E M ERGES IN ITS RELIANCE
L'AVENTURE D E GENET. C E PETIT HOMME E NER­
U PO N G E N E T AS C O U N T E R-TH R U ST TO T H E
G I Q U E ET ACTIF S'EST VOU E A A LA FOLLE
T H O U G H T- P H A L L U S O F H E G E L. U LT I M A T E L Y ,
ENTREPRISE DE DEVENIR CE QU'IL EST DE J A ET DE
HOWEVER, H E ONLY WEAKLY SUGGESTS THAT ONE
DE TRUI RE CE QU'IL NE PEUT EMPECHER D' ETRE.
MA Y N E E D TO R EC O N S I D E R THE RESEMBLANCE
A U S S I TOT SA VOLONT E SE VOLATI LISE DANS
B E T W E E N DION YSOS A N D C H RIST. O N E SHOULD
L'I MAGINAIRE. PUI SQU'ELLE VEUT CE QU'ON NE
O N LY HOPE TO GLI M PSE T H E I R COUNTER-FACING
PEUT VOULOI R, C'EST QU'ELLE RE VE QU'ELLE LE
B E Y O N D O R A BO V E T H E S U R F A C E O F T H E I R
VEUT. VO U E E S PA R N A T U R E A DE M E U R E R
E M E RG E N C E AS T H R U STS O F I M M A N E N C E O R
INEFFICACES, S E S D E STR U C T I O N S E T S E S
TRANSCENDENCE. I N A N Y CASE, T H E I R COLLAPSE
APPROBATIONS ONT L I E U SYM BOLI Q U E M E NT. DU
FOR DERRIDA HAS L E FT ONLY THE DEBRIS OR
JOUR 00 IL A CHOISI DE VOULOI R SON DESTIN,
R E S I D U E OF DI SCOURSE, THE SCATTE RED R E M A I N S
GENET A D E CID E , A SON INSU. DE SE FA I RE
OF W H I C H POI NT T O THE POLA R O P POSITIONS OF A N
SYMBOLE, DE S'EXPRI MER PAR DES SYMBOLES ET
I M POTENT, H ETEROS E X U A L SPACE O F HEGELIAN
DE VIVRE AU M I LIEU DES SYMBOLES. 2
" I N T E L L I G I B I L I TY " OR A N E N R I C H E D B U T NON­
G E N E RATIVE, HOMOSEXUAL, "I NCOM M U N ICABILITY"
OF LITERARY SPACE WITH G E N ET LURKING IN THE TH E FOR C E OF SA RTRE'S CRITIQUE AND A P P ROACH
W INGS. TO G E N ET AND HIS S E X U A L-LITE RARY EXPE R I E N C E

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IS TO REDUCE TH E M TO THE LOC U S OF THE C O N SC I O U S N E S S IS A LACK WHICH IN FUTILE

I M A G I N A R Y OR E MOTI ONAL, T H E PLACE FOR SARTRE FASH ION A TT E M PTS TO FILL UP ITSELF. MAKE

WHICH I S ONE OF MAGICAL T R A N S FO R MATION OF ITS E L F S O L I D . IN A N Y C A S E MAN IS AT L E A ST

THE WORLD. I M PLICIT I S THE C H A RG E THAT GEN ET, CAPABLE OF PARA LLELING THE M O V E M E N T OF

FOR TH E MOST P A R T, C A N N OT A C H I E V E T H E THAT " L A C K - F I L L I N G - U P-TOWA RD- P L E N I T U D E" I N

LUC I D ITY O F A P P RO AC H I NG E X P E R I E NCE I N I TS PR O S E . WITH A DISCOURSE WHICH REMAINS

RADICAL RELATION TO CONSC I O U S N E S S AS ONE OF OSC I L L A T O R Y . D I S -C U R S I VE. F O L L OW I N G THE

NEGATION, SARTRE U LT I M A T E L Y REMAINS THE SUGGESTIONS O F EXISTENTIAL PSYC HOA N A LYSIS

STA U N C H D E F E N D E R O F A TRADITIONAL M ETA­ ON BROA D OUTLI N E . ONE M U ST NOT B E A R DOWN TOO

PHYSICAL-RELIGIOUS VIEW TOWA R D E XPRESSION, DEE PLY I NTO TH E PLACE OF SEXUA L-SYMBOL FOR

SEXUAL A N D LITE RARY, I N HIS C H A R A CTERIZATION FEA R OF TH E BOTTO M L E S S PLU N G E IT MIGHT

OF GENET AS U N A BLE, I M POTENT, I N E F F ECTUAL TO ENTA I L. FOR TH I S IS WHAT SARTRE ULTI M ATELY

CARRY H I MSELF TOW A R D A PLACE W H I C H WOULD BE SEES AS THE PLACE OF G E N ET'S SYMBOLIC

CON-STRUCTI VE. FOR A LL HIS E XTE N S I V E USE OF INVOLVEM ENT:

G E N E RA LIZED M A R X I ST- F R E U D I A N NOTI ONS,

SARTRE REMAINS H I G H LY I M PR I SO N E D B Y TH E
CHUTE. VIDE. N U I T DU NON-SAVOI R: I L N E 'S'AGIT
STRONGLY H ETEROSEX U A L-CONCEPT UA L STA NCE
PAS D' U N E POES I E APOLLI NIENNE Q U I JOU I R A I T
TOW A R D C R E A T I V I T Y . G E N E T ' S I N H A BITING IN
O'IMAGES BRI LLANTES ET V I L I B L E S . C ' E S T LE
SEXUAL-LITE RARY FASHION TH E PLAC E OF SYM BOL
VERTIGE. LE MANQUE. LE NEANT, LA NEGATION QUI
AND THE PECULIA R MOVEM E N T THAT PLACE
MARQ U E NT L'EMOTION POETIQUE. 4
ENTA I LS, I S S E E N BY SARTRE A S NON- PRODUCTI VE,

NON-C REATIVE, N E I T H E R FOR G E N ET IN "SURPAS­

SI NG" HIS SITUATION, NOR FOR U S I N B E I NG SPOKEN ALTHOUGH THE S P I R I T OF TH E SARTREAN E N TER­

TO FROM THIS. G E N ETS NON-EXPRESSIVE PLACE OF PRISE H A S CERTA I NLY BEEN TO CON S I D E R " E V E R Y

DISCOURSE. HUMAN FACT' AS SIGNI FICATIVE,e THE FORCE OF

SARTR E A N E PI S T E M OLOGY H A S L I M ITED IF NOT

OFTE N CRUSHED THE OPTI Q U E WITH WHICH THE

A LT H O U G H THERE IS A C E R TA I N D E PTH AND
PH ENOM E N A ARE VI EWED. I F THE LUC I D PROSE OF
RICHNESS T O SARTR E'S TALK OF G E N ET A N D HIS
KNOWING I S TO B E E N FORCED VERSUS TH E M U RKY,
WOR K . IT MUST B E S A I D THAT I N TH E E N D SARTRE
EM PTY, FALL I NTO NOT H I NGN ESS PROFF E R E D BY
HAS ON LY MADE GENET MORE M A N AGEABLE FOR
TH E POETRY OF EMOTION OR POETIC EMOTI O N . T H E
US. DEFUSED THE FORCE OF G E N ETS THROWING
PLACE O F SYM BOL, O N E WI LL NOT BE S U R P R I S E D BY
I N TO QU ESTI O N TH E POSS I B I L I ITY OF ANY DIS­
THE RAPIDLY A N O EASI LY CONQUERE D NOTI O N S OF
COURSE U PON SEXUA LITY A S WELL A S THE ABI LITY
BEING AND NOTH I N G N ESS A N D ITS D I SCOU R S E ON
TO I N H A BIT THE PLACE OF SYM BOL W H I L E HANGING
SEXUALITY. CAN ONE E X PECT SARTRE TO C A P­
ON TO ANY VESTIGES OF CONCEPTUAL THOUGHT.
TIVATE. W I TH R E F U R B I S H E D H EG E L I A N C AT E GO­
SARTRE HAS C E RTA I N LY BETRAYED THE POVERTY
RI ES, THE PATHOS OF THE S Y M BOL OR TH E
OF AT LEAST PART OF HIS PROJECT IN ONE SHORT
SYM BOL'S P A R T I C I PATION WITH THE PLA C E OF
C H A R ACTE RIZATION OF GEN ET:
PASSION. L U ST, AND THE DEPTH OF TH E I R

I NTERFACE7 SARTREAN LUCI DITY WOULD CON V I N C E

DES SON A DOLESC ENCE, IL N'A P LUS AUCUN
US THAT T H E P L A C E OF PASSION I N G E N E R A L A N D
RAPPORT "NORMAL". C'EST-A' O I R E DE PROSE AVEC
SEXUAL I N TE R C O U R S E IN ITS H ET E R OS E X U A L
LE LANGUAGE. 3
PARTI C U L A R ITY I S N O MORE THAN THE S P E C I A L

CASE OF THE ONTOLOGICAL- H U M A N TH R U ST O F

TH E VACUITY O F SA RTRE'S TREATM E N T OF SYMBOL­ FI LLING U P H O L E S I N B E I NG. I T WOULO S H O W U S T H E

PROSE I S STR I K I N G A N D I N STR UCTI V E AS TO THE A PPROP R I AT I V E . G RA S P I N G C H A R ACTER O F TH E

I N A DEQUACY OF THIS APPROACH WITH RES PECT TO CA RESS. T H E TOUCH I NG-SEIZI NG OF A B R E A ST AS

THE COMPLEXITY O F THE M A N - W O R K-G E N E T I N AN ATTE M PT TO GET HOLO OF BEING. THE T H R UST

PARTICULAR A N D TO A N Y D I SCOURSE I N G E N E R AL. OF A PENIS AS PROJECT-U PON-TH E-WORLD. THE

THE NOR M A LC Y OF PROSE FOR SA RTRE. IN A TUMBLE IN TO THE VAGINA AS M AN'S FA LLI NG­

RESTRICTED SENSE, PERTA I N S TO LANGUAGE. IN A E N C LOS U R E BACK I N TO TH E NOTH I N G THAT H E

LA RGER CONTEXT. HOWEVER. THAT NORMALCY HAS A LWAYS IS. R E T U R N S TOWARD. A N D PROJ ECTS

A S ITS REFERENCE THE SPEECH AND CATEGORIES BEYON D . TH E CAREFUL LAYI N G-OUT OF THE

O F N EG A T I N G AND A PP R O P R I A T I V E CONSCIOUS­ CATEGO R I E S AND MOVEM ENTS O F H U M A N CON­

N ESS WHICH SARTRE LA I D OUT MOST EXTENSIVELY SC I O U S N E S S IN SITUATIONS W H I C H S A RT R E

IN BEING AND NOTH I N G N ESS. I F. FOR SARTRE. ACH I EVES I N B E I N G A N O NOTH INGNESS A R E S E E N

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R EG I O N A L ONTOLOGY PERTA I N I NG TO SEXUA LITY. A G E I S E X POSED TO T H E SCI E N C E OF S E X U A LITY,

YET. THIS F U N C TI O N I N G IS IN THE DAY-LIGHT. THROUGH F R E U D , REICH A N D OTH E RS, A S WELL A S

L U C I DITY OF A P P R O P R I A T I V E C O N SC I O U S N E S S I NVOLV E D IN A R E VO L UTION OF PLEASURE.

W H I C H FASHIONS T H E B A S I S A N D T H E PROSE O F ITS FOUC A U LTS TALK O F T H E POSSI B I LITY O F S E X U A L

OWN MOST D I SCOU R S E TO THE STRICT EXCLUSION D I SCOU R S E I N T H I S CONTEXT I S THEN B A S E D U PO N

OF I N VOL V E M E N T WITH TH E N IGHT OF NON­ TH E R E C I PROCAL I N T E R C H A N G E A N D ECONOMY OF

K NOWLEDGE. REPRESSION AND P R E D I C A TION WHICH R E S PE C ­

TIVELY AND M UT U A L L Y R E ST R I C T AND U PH O L D

SUCH D I SC O U R S E . FOUC A U LTS ATT E M PT IS TO

OUTLI N E A R E S P O N S E T O A N D T H E N G O BEYOND
I N SPITE OF T H E L I M ITATI O N S O F SARTRE'S VIEW TO
O N E P R I M A RY QUESTION:
AND DI SCOU R S E ON S E X U A LITY. IT IS A P P A R E NT

THAT HE IS A W A R E OF I M PO S I N G A C E RTA IN G R I D OF

S U B J ECT-OBJ ECT U PON G E N ET IN PARTI C U L A R A N D LA QU ESTION Q U E JE VOU D R A I S POSER N'EST PAS:

U PO N THE S E N S U A L-SYMBOLIC I N G E N E R A L. A T T H E PO U R Q U O I SO M M E S - N O U S REPRIMES. MAIS

END OF HIS LONG W O R K AND INTRODUCTION TO POURQUOI D I SONS-NOUS, AVEC TANT D E PASSION,

G E N ETS WORKS, HE SUGGESTS EVEN THAT ONE TANT DE RANCOE U R CONTRE NOTRE PASSE LE

M IGHT N E E D TO P L U N G E I NTO TH E I M AGI N A R Y I N PLUS P R OC H E . CONTRE NOTR E PRESENT ET

O R D E R T O STOP F L E E I N G T H E "OBJ ECTI VE" B Y THE CONTRE NOUS-MEM ES. QUE N O U S-SOM M E S

" S U BJ ECTI VE" AND TH E " S U BJECTI VE" BY T H E R E P R I M ES?7

"OBJECTI VE":

FO U C A U LT C LA I M S AT L E AST TH R E E FAC ETS FOR

CE JEU DE CACHE-CACHE NE PRENDRA FIN HIS STRATEGY OF R E PLYI NG TO THIS Q U ESTIO N­
QU'AU JOUR 00 NOUS A U RONS LE COU RAGE H I STO R I C A L. H I STOR I C A L-TH E O R E T I C A L. H I ST O R I ­
D'ALLER JUSQU'AU BOUT DE NOUS-M � M E DANS LES C A L-POLITICAL. AT I SS U E FOR EACH LEVEL A R E
DEUX DI RECTIONS A LA FOIS." T H E ESSENTI A L QU ESTI O N S : I S T H E R E PRESSION O F

S E X U A LITY A N D D I SCO U R S E A BOUT I T R E A LLY I N

SARTRE. IN S P E A K I N G OF T H I S P E R PETUAL GAME OF EVIDENCE H I STOR I C A LLY? I S T H E MECHANISM O F

H I D E AND S E E K W H I C H P H I LOSOPHICAL D I SCOU RSE POW E R I N SOC I ETI ES SUCH A S O U R S ESSENTIALLY

I S COWA RDLY WONT TO P U R S U E , I S LUCIO ENOUGH OF THE R E P R E S S I V E O R D E R ? DOES THE C RI T I C A L

TO SEE HIS OWN D I SCOU R S E AS ENSNARED TO D I S CO U R S E OF AND A BO U T SEXUA LITY RUN

SOM E DEG R E E I N TH E G R I DS O F THE TRADITIONAL A G A I N ST THE G R A I N O F G E N E R A L R E P R ESSION OR

M I N D - B O D Y , T H O U G H T- E X P R E S S I V I T Y , S U B J ECT­ I N STALL I T S E LF AND FIND ITSELF SITUATED FROM

OBJECT, DUALISMS. H E HAS A T LEAST THE SENSE W I TH I N THAT FIELD AND SOU RCE OF R E P R ESSION?

TO SEE, ALBEIT UNABLE TO CARRY OUT THAT

S E E I NG CON S I STENTLY, TH AT ONE M UST PUSH IN I N B RO A D OUTLI N E . T H E STRE NGTH AND D E PTH OF
THE TWO D I R ECTI ONS AT ONCE, F I N A LLY BEYOND F O U C A U LT ' S A N A LYSIS IS TO I N D I C ATE THE
THEM. WE HAVE H I NTED AT TH E NEED TO CON S I D E R C O N FI N E M E N T, R E ST R I C T I O N . AND STI F L I N G OF
SEXUALITY I N ITS "SYMBOLIC" D E PTH RATH E R T H A N D I SCOU R S E O N S E X U A LITY A N D T H E R E P R ESSION
AS A M E R E M E A N S TO T H E F U LFI LLMENT OF T H E OF S E X U A LITY IN TH E V E R Y LOC U S W H E R E SUCH
O N TOLOG I C A L- E P I ST E M OLOG I C A L "H U M A N - S I T U A ­ TALK A PP E A R S TO BE IN THE OPEN. FOUC A U LT
TION," IT WILL B E N E C E S S A R Y TO RETURN TO A N D SHOWS THE EXTENT TO W H I C H . E V E N S I N C E THE E N D
F I L L O U T TH I S DEPTH. Y E T , FOR THE MOMENT, I N OF T H E S I XT E E NTH C E NTU RY. T H E P U TT I N G I N THE
PURSUING THE D I F F I C U LTI E S OF DOING A DIS­ O P E N OF D I SC O U R S E A S TO S E X U A LITY H A S NOT
COU R SE ON S E X U A LITY, IT I S N ECESSARY T O S E E BEEN S U BJECTED TO MERE R E ST R I C T I O N IN A
THE H I STOR I C A L A S W E L L A S " P H I LOSO P H I C A L" SOLELY N EGATIVE SENSE. RATH E R , IT H A S BEEN
R ESTRICTIONS U PO N ANY S U C H DISCOURSE AND TA M E p I RO N I C A LLY BY A GROWING I NC I T E M E N T TO
THE CONFI N I N G CONTEXT OUT OF W H I C H IT M IGHT COM E OUT I NTO T H E OPEN, ONLY TO BE DOMESTI­
A R I SE. CATED BY AND I NTO A SCIENCE OF S E X U A LITY.

S E X U A LITY AND D I SC O U R S E ON S E X U A LITY H A V E

I N I NTRODUC I NG TH E FI RST PAGES OF A CONTI NU­ N O T SO M UC H B E E N RESTRICTED BY A RIGOUROUS

I NG WORK ON S E X U A LI T Y , MICHEL FOUC A U LT P R I N C I P L E O F S E LECTION A N D TABDO BUT F I N A LLY

SPEAKS OF A MOD E R N P U R I TA N I S M ' S HAVING D I F F U S E D A N D D E F U S E D BY BROAD D I S S E M I N ATION

I M PO S E D ITS DECREE OF PROHI BITION, I N EXIS­ AND E M PLAC E M E N T BY THE WILL TO KNOW. THE

T E N C E , A N D I NCOM M U N I C A B I LITY UPON THE SPACE D E PTH A N D R I C H E S OF TH E PLACE OF T H E V E RTIGE

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HAVE BEEN T R A N S FO R M E D BY THE K N OW I NG

D I SCOURSE I N THE O P E N OF A M O D E R N A LCH E M Y THE QU ESTION OF CONTROL IS MORE R I C H LY

WHICH PROBES RATHER TH A N PA RTICI PATES WITH
OUTL I N E D AS FOUCA U LT CONTRASTS "ARS EROTICA"
TH E H I DDEN SECRET: WITH "SCI ENTIA SEXUA LIS." WHEREAS A RS EROTIC .. , AS

M A N I FEST AND P R A CT I C E D IN E A STE R N AND

. . . CE QUI EST PROPRE AUX SOClirr ES MODERNES, ARABIC-MOSLEM COUNTRIES, RELIED U PO N

CE N'EST PAS QU'ELLES A l E NT VOU E LE SEXE A DRAWING THE "T R U T H " OF SEXUALITY FROM

RESTER DANS L'OMBRE, C'EST Q U ' E LLES SE PLEA S U R E ITSELF, TA K E N A S A P R A X I S I N T H E M OST

SOIENT VOUEES A EN PARLER TOUJOURS, EN LE INTI MATE, RICH A N D COMPLEX D E PTHS AS EXPER­

FAISANT VALOIR COMME LE SECRET. S IENCE, SCI ENTIA SEXUALIS H A S TYPI F I E D WESTE R N

"EXPE R I E NCE" A N D CON F I N E M ENT OF THE TR UTH OF

F O U C A U LT DISCUSSES THE BRI NGING TO THE SEXUALITY, ARS E ROTICA KNOWS NO REFERENCE TO

"FORE" OF TH I S SECRET AND I T S B E I N G TA M E D C R I TERI A OF U T I L I TY, ABSOLUTE LAWS OF

W I TH I N THE CATEGO R I ES OF TH E N A TU R E- LAW, PERMISSION A N D TABOO. I T I N HABITS TH E PLACE O F

EXC L U S I O N - D I S C R E E T M A R R I A G E . T H E N EW MASTERY OF A N D WITH R E S PONSE TO O N E'S BODY,

P U R I TA N I S M AND STIFLING OF A DEEPER DIS­ ITS U N I Q U E AND PARTIC U L A R JOY A N D PLEA S U R E ,

C O U R S E W I T H SEXUA LITY I S SET U P BY M E DICAL­ A FORG ETTI N G OF T I M E A N D LIM ITS. I T I S A LAT E R A L

SC I E N T I F I C P R I ESTS AS THE FORCE OF THE A N D DEPTH PLUNGE I NTO THE S P A C E OF R I C H N ESS

C H U RCH-C LERGY W A N ES. S E X U A LITY V I EWED FROM AND AB U N D A NCE OF LIFE, A N EXILE FOR DEATH

THE GRID OF A D U LTS-C H I L D R E N - I N ST I T U T I O N S AND ITS M ENACES, IT IS A RE PROACH TO AN

I M PLIES C LASSI FICATION A N D CON F I N E M ENT WHICH E X T E R I O R- I N T E R I O R D U A L I S M , A CONTROL, OWN­

I S NONETH ELESS BROAD ENOUGH TO MAKE ROOM MOST G R A S P OF O N E'S T I M E-SPACE BY TOUC H I N G

FOR " D I S P A R ATE" B E H A V I O U R , I N CORPORATE TH E TEXT U R E OF THE P L A C E OF THE POWER OF L I F E .

" P E R VERSIONS" BY GIVING THEM A N A LYSTI C

STATUS. ONE SEES READILY THAT THE CONCEP­ THE PO V E R T Y O F W E S T E R N SCI E NTIA S E X U A L I S

TUAL GRID WHICH U PHOLDS S E X U A L D I SCOURSE IS H I NGES P R I M A R I LY ON I T S BEING OR B ECOM I NG THE

BROA D E R THAN THE S TA I D , D I R ECT L I N E S OF BASTA R D FORM OF T H E RICHER ARS EROTICA -ALL

FILI ATION-G E N E RATION OF THE HEGELI A N SC HEMA. BY WAY O F CEDI NG OVER THE PLACE OF SEXUALITY

YET, I F L I N E A R I TY I S G I V E N U P FOR S P I R A LS OR TO TH E G R E E D AND S E I Z U R E OF THE COURTROOM

CONC ENTRIC WEBS WHICH A LLOW "PERVE RSIONS" AND CON FESSION WHICH I S THE PLACE OF A VOWING

AT THE M A R G I N S OR EXTR E M ITIES, T H E PLACE OF THE S E C R ET. S E X U A LI T Y M U ST BE A F F I R M ED,

SEXUA LITY AND DISCOURSE TO AND WITH THAT ASSERTED, CON FESSED, F O R IT T O T A K E I T S PLACE

PLA C E ARE ONLY COV E R E D OVER A N D M A NAGED BY I N WEST E R N SOCIETY. PLEASURE AND THE DEPTH IT

A NEW PURITA N I S M . ENTA I LS , IS R E P LA C E D BY THE PLEA S U R E OF

A N A LYSI S , O N E'S OWN MOST RESPON S E WITH AND TO

PLEASU R E AND TH E SEXUAL PLACE IS O UTDIS­

YET, FOUCA U LT I S N O T O N L Y CONC E R N E D T O SHOW
TA NCED BY THE SI LENT RESPONSE OF DOM I N ATION
THE E P I S T E M O LOG I C A L M I S-M A N A G E M ENT OF
OF H E WHO LI STE N S TO THE S E X U A L CON FESSION
SEXUAL M ATTE R S AND DISCOURSE BUT, MORE­
OR WHO CATEGORIZES AND CLASS I F I E S IT,
O V E R , T O I N DI CATE T H E C R U C I A L LATE R A L S P R E A D

OF SEXUALITY I N A N D THROUGH R E LATIONS OF A

S OC I A L - P O L I T I C A L FABRIC. HE C LA I M S THAT THE WESTE R N E N G U L F M E N T IN THE POVERTY OF

PLEA S U R E AND POW E R DO N O T N EGATE EACH SCIENTIA SEXUALIS I N VO L V E S ITS CLINICAL

OTH ER, NOR S I M PLY V I E F O R TH E I R RES PECTIVE CODI FICATION O F S E X U A L CONFESSION BASED ON

POS ITIONS. RATH ER, THEY "CHASE A FTER EACH THEORIES OF GENERAL C A U SALITY APPLIED TO

OTH E R A N D GET ENTANGLED THE ONE WITH TH E PARTI C U L A R SEX U A L EXPERI ENCE. THE WILL TO

OTH E R ACCO R D I NG TO COMPLEX M E C H A N I S M S OF KNOW T H E SEXUA L E X P E R I E NCE DOM I N ATES A N D

EXC ITATION AND EXCITING EACH OTH E R ONWA RD." CRUSHES THE PLACE A N D DISCOURSE O F SEXUALI­

I RO N I C A LLY, S E X U A L DISCOURSE IN THE RECENT TY A N D ITS RICH POTE NTI A L OF I N D I V I DUATION A N D

AGE I S PLAG U E D BY I TS CON F I N E M E N T IN THE OPEN: EXPRESS I O N ON O N E'S OWN MOST TE R M S AND

A S SUCH IT I S I N VOLVED IN A VAST SYSTEM OF TOWA RD O N E'S D E E PEST AND MOST P E R SO N A L

SOC I O - PO L I T I C A L CONTROL WHICH TA K E S IT PLEASURES. THE DEPTH O F SEXUAL EXPE RI ENCE

SER IOUSLY A N D BROADLY, EVEN A LLOW I N G ROOM BECOMES G LOSSED OVER A S A TYPE OF LATENCY

FOR A COM PLEXITY OF "PERVERSIONS" OF SEXUAL INTRINSIC TO S E X U A LITY BUT WHICH M U ST BE

BEHAVIOURS AND ACTS, T H U S A LLOWI NG A MORE BROUGHT TO THE FOR E OF DAYLIGHT LUCIDITY A N D

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" N I G H T OF N O N - K N O W I N G . " H E N C E , SC I E NTI A FOR T H E C L I N I C H A S B ECO M E THE STAGE UPON

SEXUALIS I N STALLS A N D E N FORCES A METHOD OF WHICH THE F R A G M E NTS AND PIECES OF THE

INTER PRETATI ON, A M E DI C A L- H E R M E N E UTIC RAPE SHATTER E D SEXUA L-S Y M BOLIC-PLACE HAVE B E E N

OF THE SEXUAL BODY, THE SOCIETY I N GENERAL STREWN, T H E PLA YERS NO LONGER A LLOWED TH E I R

WHICH LISTE NS, BUT THE A N A LYST I N PARTICULAR PLEAS U R A BLE PLACE, B E I NG RE-PLACED BY THE

WHO RECORDS TH E S E X U A L CONFESSION, BECOME S PECTATORS OF SOCI ETY A N D A N A LYST:

MASTERS OF PARDON, J U DGES OF ACTS WHO THEN

CONDEMN OR J U STI FY, M A STERS OF THE TRUTH AND EN ENCADRANT LA VIE DE L' E N F A N T DANS
CONTROLL E R S OF THE PLACE O F S E X U A LI T Y . L'OEDIPE, EN FAISANT D E S R E LATIONS FAMILIALES
A LT H O U G H THERE ARE AT LEAST TWO LEVELS L'UNIVERSE LLE M EDIATION DE L'ENFANCE, ON SE
I NVOLVED, "C L I N I C A L" A N D " POLITICO-SOC I A L," T H E CONDA M N E A M ECON N A ITRE LA PRODUCTION DE
T W O I N TE R P R E N ETRATE A N D I N FORM A N D S U PPORT L'INCONSC I ENTE LUI-MEME, ET LES MECANISMES
EAC H OTH E R , COLLECTIFS QUI PORTENT A C R U S U R L'I NCON­

SCI E NT, NOTA M M E NT TOUT LE JEU D U R E FOULE­

FIRST, AS S UGGESTED B Y FOUCAULT A N D B ROUGHT M E NT ORIG I N A I RE, DES M A C H I N E S D E S I R A NTES ET

OUT MORE CLEARLY I N HIS WORK ON MADN ESS AND D U CORPS SANS ORGA N E S . CAR L ' I N CONSCIENT

TH E BI RTH OF CONFI N E M E N T A ND THE CLIN I C AND EST ORPHELIN. ET SE PRODUIT LUI-MEME DANS

AS CONCRETELY CRITICIZED BY DELEUZE AND L'I DENTITE DE LA NATURE ET DE L'HOM M E . ' 2

G U A TTA R I . SCIENTIA S E X UALIS H A S ITS MOST A R D E NT

COMPANION I N THE C L I N I C A N D TH E PSYCHOLOGI­

C A L-SEXUAL LITE R A T U R E IT U PHOLDS AND PRAC­ THE POVERTY O F M UC H O F THE PSYCHOA N A LYTIC

TIC E S , DELEUZE A N D G U A TT A R I S P E A K OF T H E D I SCOURSE ON S E X U A LITY IS W E LL SKETC H E D OUT

GREAT CONTR I BUTION OF PSYCHOANALYS I S T O A I N THESE R E M A R K S , MOREOVER, THEY I N D ICATE A

DISCOUSE ON S E X U A LITY, PARTICULARLY IN D I RECTION FOR E N RI C H E D D I SCOU RSE TO TA KE

TOUC H I NG T H E DEPTHS O F T H E UNCONSCIOUS. YET, REGARDING A N D WITH THE PLACE OF SEXUA LITY,

THE STI FLING M A N N E R OF EXPOSING THAT D E PTH IS THAT PLACE WHICH I S THE PEC U L I A R I N DI V I D U A L'S

TH E UPHOLDING OF R I G I D CLASSI FICATION AS S E E N FUSION WITH "NATU RE," THE RELATION M E NTION E D

IN TH E P R A C T I C E OF H E A R I N G TH E AVOWALS OF H E R E AS A N I D E NTITY M U ST B E FLESH E D-OUT AS

COMPLEXES GROU N D E D I N A STE R I L E E P I STEMO­ THE PLACE OF I MPLOS I V E-EXPLOS I V E FUSION OF

LOGICAL PLACE, THAT OF , , ' L I B I DO- UNCONSCIOUS-SYMBOL: A NEW SENSE FOR

S E X U A L S U R FACE M UST BE DEVELOPED A N D GIVEN

U N NOUVEL I D E A L I S M E : A L'INCONSCIENT COM M E TEXTU RE, THAT PSYCHOA N A LYSIS A LONE CANNOT

U S I N E . ON A SU BSTITUE U N THEA ANTIQUE: A U X B R I N G-OUT THAT D E PTH A N D TEXT U R E BEGINS TO

UN ITES DE PRODUCTION D E L'INCONSCIENT, O N A BE MORE E V I D E NT.

SUBSTITUE LA REPRESENTATION: A L'INCONSCIENT

PRODUCTIF, ON A S UBSTITUE UN INCONSCIENT QUI SECONDLY, THE C L I N I C A L LEVEL A N D ITS STULTIFY­

N E POUVAIT PLUS QUE S'EXPRIMER (LE MYTHE, LA I NG U S E O F A SEXUAL DISCOURSE I S AUGM ENTED
TRAGE DIE, LE REVE . , .l ' O AND MUTUA LLY I N T E R P E N ETRATED BY A POLITICO­

SOCIAL LEVEL, AT THIS LEVEL ALSO CONTROL A N D

FOLLOWING T H E ALLUSIVE S U GGESTION O F JOYCE J U OG E M E NT A R E C R U C I A L, A LB E I T N O T ALWAYS

AS TO RE-EMBOD I M E NT, AND WISH I NG TO TOU C H E V I D E NT, THIS DUE PRI M A R I LY TO THE CA PACITY OF

AC ROSS T O THAT D E PTH OF S E X U A L EXPE R I ENCE SCI ENTIA SEX UALIS FOR D I S P E RSION AND LATERAL

W H I C H D,H, LAWRENCE SAW B E I NG SMOTH E R E D BY CON F I N E M E NT, FOUC A U LT WRITES:

S E X U A L- P S Y C H O LOG I C A L D I SC O U R S E , D E L E U ZE­

G U ATTA RI TH ROW I NTO Q U E STION THE EPI STEMO­ L'H I STO I R E DE LA S E X U A LITE, SI ON VEUT LA

LOGY AND A N C I ENT-TH EATRE OF PSYCHOANALYSIS CENTR E R SUR LES MECANISMES DE R E P RESSION,

WITH ITS SENSE OF RE-PRESENTATION AND EX­ S U PPOSE DEUX R U PTU R ES, L' U N E A U COURS DU

PRESSION WHICH ARE ACCOMPLI S H E D AT TH E XVII' Snl:C LE: N A ISSANCE DES GRANDES PROH IBI­

EXPENSE OF THE L I V E D- S E X U A L-BODY, IT IS NOT TIONS, VALORISATION DE LA SEULE SEXUA LITE

ALTOGETH ER C L E A R THAT THE I R WOR K I NG G R I D OF A D U L TE ET M A T R I M O N I A LE , IMPE RATIFS DE

M A C H I N E - R EC O R D I N G - R E ACTION- F E E D B A C K W I LL DECENCE, ESQUI V E OBLIGATOI RE DU CORPS, M I S E

BE ULTI MATELY CAPABLE OF AVOI D I NG THE TRAP AU SILENCE ET PUDEURS I M PE RATIVES DU

O F SCI E NTI A S E X U A L l S. " A T TH E V E R Y L E A ST, LANGAGE: L'AUTRE, AU XX' SI ECLE: MOINS

HOWEVER, THEY R I G HTLY C R I TICIZE TH E A BORTIVE R U PT U R E D' A I L L E U R S Q U ' I N F L E X I O N DE LA

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DE LA R E P R E SSION A VA I E NT COMMENCE A SE LESS AND MORE THAN A Q U ESTION OF MERE
DESERRER . . . '3 C R I TI C I S M OF DELEUZE AND G U ATTA R I . IT I S A

QUESTIO N OF P U S H I N G T H E I R NOTI N OF DESI R I NG­

THE P R I M A R Y D I F F E R E N C E S B E T W E E N TH E TWO MACH I N E S TO THE L I M I T : OF S E E I N G THE POSI T I V E

SORTS OF R E P R E S S IO N R E G A R D I NG S E X U A L I TY SENSE OF THE D I S P E R S I O N OF L I B I D I N A L I M PU L S E

AND SEXUAL D I SC O U R S E HANG ON THE SOCIO­ EVEN U PO N AND BACK TOW A R D THE ANCIENT

POLITICAL CA PACITY TO CONFI N E S E X U A L DE PTH THEATRE O F SYM BOL-TRAGEDY : O F EXPLORING T H E

TO A DE-LI M I T E D PLACE. A C LOSETED V E RTI C A L SEARCH F O R A FULLNESS A N D D E PTH OF FLESH A S

SPACE OR TO A N U N - L I M I TE D . " O P E N " LAT E R A L IT COUR S E S T H ROUGH A N D T R A C E S I T S E L F U PON

S PACE O F D I S P E R S I O N A N D DE-FUSION. TH E OLD LIFE. OUR I N DICATIONS A S TO TH I S . A P E R H A PS

P U R I T A N I S M C E D E S G LA D L Y TO THE N EW: T H E OLD MORE R A D I C A L V I E W TO T H E PLACE OF S E X U A L I T Y

TASK OF CON F I N E M E N T WAS TI R I NG AND U NABLE TO AND D I SC O U R S E ARE TA K E N IN V I E W I NG THE

COPE ULTI M A T E L Y WITH T H E I M PLOS I V E - E X PLOS I V E PA I N E D FAC E S OF THE " M A D" FIGURES OF

FO RCE O F LI B I D I N A L- S Y M BOLIC- I D E NTITY. T H E N E W H6 LDE R L I N AND N I ETZSC H E A LONG T H E FLESH­

P U R I TA N I S M AS D I S P E R S IO N WILL ACCO M P L I S H STREWN PATH OF D I SSOLUTION O F T H E MO D E R N

M O R E RADICALLY W H A T W A S A LWAYS AT I S S U E : A G E I NTO L I B I D I N A L SCH I ZOPH R E N I A .

WE HEA R THE CALM. CLEAR. S O M E W H A T Q U I ET

ON POU R R A I T D I R E Q U ' A U V I E U X D R O I T DE FAIRE
VOICE O F THE S I M PL E C A R PE N T E R ZI M M E R AS H E
MOURI R OU D E LAISSER VIVRE S'EST SUBSTITUE U N
WRITES TO H 6 L D E R L I N ' S MO T H E R D U R I NG TH E
POUVO I R D E F A I RE V I V R E OU DE R E J ET E R DANS LA
YEARS OF HER SON'S G ROWI NG " M A D N ESS" AND
MORT. 1 4
FREQU E N T SI LENCE:

T H E POSS I B I L I T I E S OF T H E N E W P U R I T A N I S M . T H E
HIS POETIC SPIRIT STI L L SHOWS ITSELF TO B E
OPEN D I SCOU R S E ON S E X U A LITY. T H E STATUS OF
ACTIVE: I N M Y H O U S E H E S A W A DRAWI NG OF A
SCI ENTIA SEX U A LI S. I N VO L V E DISPERSION WHICH
GREEK TEMPLE. HE ASKED ME TO MAKE ONE L I K E IT I N
M A N AGES A N D CONTROLS AT E V E R Y L E V E L A N D
WOOD. I R E P L I E D T H A T I H A V E T O WORK FOR M Y
S E E K S O U T E V E R Y F I B R E O F T H E H U M A N PLAC E .
LIVI NG. THAT I AM NOT FORT U N ATE ENOUGH TO
PEN ETRATING ITS T E X T U R E A N D U N D E R M I N I NG I T S
LIVE I N P H I LOSOPHIC CALM LIKE H I M : I M M E DI ATELY
T I S S U E . F L E S H I S M A D E . CONTROL LED. S POKEN O N .
H E REPLI ED. "OH BUT I A M A POOR C R E A T U R E : AND
C L A S S I F I E D. M U T I L A T E D. AND U LT I M A T E L Y R E ­
IN TH E SAME M I NUTE H E WROTE T H E FOLLOWI N G
J ECTED I F N ECESSA RY. S PECTATORSH I P. ANA LY­
VERSES ON A WOODEN BOARD WITH A PENCIL
SIS. SEXUAL D I SC O U R S E . P U N I SH M E N T A N D

POLITICAL CONTROL H A V E FOLLOWED THE S A M E

THE L I N E S OF LIFE A R E VARIOUS.
P A T H STREWN W I T H H U M A N F L E S H . THE TORTURE OF
A S FOOTPATHS ARE.
DA M I E N S. ' 5 TH E CON F I N E M E N T O F T H E SICK. MAD.
AND AS THE MOUNTA I NS' CONTO U R S .
A N D OVERLY POLITI C A L D I S PA RATE. THE M A D N E S S
W H A T H E R E W E ARE. Y O N D E R A GOD
OF N I ETZSC H E . H 6 LDE R L I N A N D ARTAUD. A R E A L L
CAN COMPLETE WITH H A R M O N I ES.
ALONG THE W A Y O F T H E CONTROL OF TH E FLESH O F
ETE R N A L R ECOM P E N S E . A N D PEACE. ' 6
I DENTITY O F N A T U R E A N D M A N .

D E L E U ZE AND G UATTA R I HAVE MORE FULLY PERHAPS ONE B E G I N S TO S P E A K WITH H 6 LDE R L I N

OUTLI N E D THE FLESH-STREWN PATH AS THE RATH ER T H A N J UST A BOUT H I M A S WE F E E L A N D

H I S TO R I C A L- G E N E T I C M O V E M E N T O F P R I M I T I V E ­ HEAR TH E SC R A P I NG OF HIS PENCIL U PON THE

DESPOT-CA P I TA L A N D U LTI MATE D I SSOLUTION I N TO WOOD. WATCH THE POET G I VE U P TH E P R I V I LEGE D

SCH I ZOPH R E N I A O F CONTEM PO R A R Y SOCI ETY A N D PLACE A N D PAPER. FA M I LI A R TEXTU R E A N D S I TE O F

ITS RETURN TO A N E W B U T D I S- P L A C E D SENSE O F H I S USU A L D I SCOU R S E . C A R E F O R H I S F U M B L I N G

THE P R I M I TI V E - S A V A G E . T H E I R OUTLI N I NG THE WITH THE W OO D A N D OTH E R P A R T I A L OJECTS O F

NEGATIVE. DESTRUCTIVE. EX- PLOS I O N OF TH E H I S-OUR F R AG M E NT E D W O R L D . U LT I M A TE L Y . H I S

L I B I D I N A L I M PU LS E A N D ITS H I STO R Y O F CON FRON­ GESTU R E I S TO CAPTIVATE. C A R E S S . A N D FA S H I O N

TATION WITH POW E R AND CON F I N E M E N T I S QUITE THE FLESH OF HIS WORLD TH ROUGH P O ET I C

PERSUASIVE. Y E T. IT IS NOT C L E A R TO WHAT DI SCOU RSE. E M BLEMATIC O F TH E SC H I ZOPH R E N I C

RADICAL AN EXTENT T H E Y A R E W I LL I NG T O PUSH DIVI SION AND F R A G M ENTATION OF THE CONTE M ­

THEI R OWN NOTION OF THE STAT U S OF THE POR A R Y WORLD IS THE GULF BETW E E N THE

UNCONSCIOUS A S A N O R P H A N W H I C H G E N ERATES CAR PENTER'S H A N DL I N G O F T H E EARTH. ALTHOUGH

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U N ABLE TO FASH ION IT I NTO THE PLACE OF THE I N A D EQ UATE FORM U L.ATIONS OR V I E WS TO SEXUAL.­
WHOLE A S EXPRESSIVE. AND T H E POErs EXPRES­ ITY A N D THE L I B I D I N A L. D E PTH OF TH E WORL.D. THEY

SIVE DI SCOU RSE. A LTHOUGH U NABLE TO TOUCH SEEM TO HAVE OVERLOOKED THE SENSE I N WHICH

FROM I TS ETH E R E A L SPACE TO THE FLESH. LOOK. TH E M YTHIC-DREAM-PLAY OF LIBIDINAL. I M P U L.SE

A N D M A R ROW OF TH E L I V E D- F E LT WORLD. H 6LDER­ HAS BEEN STI F L E D PA RT I C U L. A R L.Y B Y F R E U D
LlN'S DESPA I R OVER THIS FRAGMENTATION A LONG THROUGH WHAT T H E POET BL.A K E TERMED " M I ND­

THE PATHS OF LIFE SEEKS COM FORT AND FORG E D M A N A C L. E S" -TH O S E O F THE TH I N K E R
RECONCI LI ATION I N THE HOPE FOR THE FLEEING A N A L.YST. N I ETZSC H E 'S D I R ECTIO N . ALREADY A

GOD'S C A PA C I TY TO FASHION H A R MO N Y IN PATH STRUCK U PON BY H 6L.DERL.IN. POI NTS TO THE

A N OTH E R WORLD. MOST C E NTRA L TO THE TRAGEDY PL.ACE O F PLAY WHICH I S L. I B I D I N A L.- S Y M BOLIC.

OF H 6 LDERLl N'S OWNMOST A RTISTIC D I SSOLUTION CHARACTERIZED MOST F UL.L.Y BY THE SATYR OF

IS P E R H A PS HIS FLE E I NG FROM AND DIS-PLACING G R E E K TRAGEDY. N I ETZSCH E SPEAKS LUCI D LY AND

HIS WO R L D TOWA R D A NOTH E R . H IG H E R . WO R L D I RO N I C AL.L.Y O F A M ETAPHYSICAL. COMFORT WHICH

B E Y O N D THE WORLD. Y E T . H E H A S BEAUTIFU LLY IS N E I TH E R P R O P E R L.Y M ETA P H Y S I C A L. NOR A

STRUGG LED WITH AND PARTIA LL.Y P U R S U E D T H E COM FORT. HE SPEAKS OF NO WORLD ABOVE OR

S E N S E O F I N SC R I PTION A N D E M BODI M ENT. STRUCK BEL.OW THI S O N E -THAT OF OUR BODIES. FLESH.

OUT A PATH TOWA R D POETICALLY TA K I NG U P ONE'S S E X U A L. D E S I R E . A N D POETIC- L. I B I D I N A L. T H R U ST

F L. E S H I N T H E W O R L D AG A I N ST TH E PATH OF U PO N O U R WORL.D. NOR IS REALLY A COMFORT. I N

PARTI A L OBJECTS A N D FRAGM E NTATION WHICH IS THE SENSE O F A CONSOLATION. A T ISSUE. FOR OU R

THE D I S SO L U T I O N A N D C O N F I N E M E N T O F THE WOR L. D E M BOD I M E N T IS BOTH A PLUNGE FROM A N D

PLA C E O F S E X U A L-CREATIVE-SYMBOL. TOWA R D OUR OWN F L E S H E D - BO D I E S AND A

CAREFUL. SC U L.PTING W H I C H WE DO A N D A R E : IN A

N I ETZSC H E S E E M S TO H A V E CLEARLY P U R S U E D A SENSE BOTH A WORK AND JOY OF A RT I S T I C

S I M I L.A R PATH . TAKING IT FURTHER THAN H 6L.DER­ C REATION.

LIN. BUT IN TH E SAME SPIRIT AND OVE R AGAI NST

TH E D I S SOLUTION OF A C E NTER WHICH NO L.ON G E R

IF TH E M ETAPHYSIC I A N S COUL.D GET TH E I R H A N D S
HOLDS. TA K I N G U S C LOS E R T O A S E X U A L D I S­
ON T H I S " I D E A " - A N D T H A T W O U L. D A L. R E A D Y
COU R S E A N D TH E LlB I D I N A L.L.Y C REATIVE FL.ESH OF
I NVOLVE A P H A L L I C - D E S POT I C S E I Z U R E -T H E Y
SYMBOL AS T H E PLACE OF T H E H U M A N :
W O U L. D L.A B E L. AND C L. A S S I F Y IT AS FINITE

TR A N SC E N D E N C E . C E RTA I N L.Y S O M ETH I N G L. I K E

T H E M ETAPHYSICAL COMFORT-WITH W H I C H I A M
THAT I S A T STAK E . AT L.EAST A S OPPOSED TO
S UGGESTI NG EVEN NOW. EVERY TRUE TRAGEDY
TRAN SC E N D E NC E TOWAR D AN ABSOL.UTE I N F I N ITE.
LEAVES US-THAT LIFE IS AT THE BOTTOM OF
YET. N I ETZSC H E H A S SL.AMMED THE DOOR I N TH E I R
THINGS. DESPITE ALL THE CHA NGES OF A PPEAR­
FAC E S : ZA R A TH U ST R A W I L L. NOT E A T A T TH E I R
A NCES. I N DESTRUCTABLY POWERFUL A N D P\..E A­
TA B L. E . FOR THE N O T I O N O F S U B J ECT I S N O T
S U R A B LE-THI S COMFORT APPEARS IN INCARNATE
ALL.UDED T O H E R E . R A T H E R . N I ETZSCH E S P E A K S
CLARITY IN THE CHORUS OF SATYRS . . .
CONCRETEL. Y O F TH E F L. E S H E D-OUT. E M BO D I E D

SATYR AS BOTH A R C HETYPE OF M A N A N D SYMBOL

. . . T H E SATYR WAS THE A RC H ETYPE OF MAN. THE
OF TH E S E X U A L POL.Y-PRESENCE A N D RICH POWER
EMBODIMENT OF HIS HIGH EST AND MOST I NTENSE
OF NATURE. N I ETZSC H E STRIKES AT THE HEART O F
EMOTIONS. THE ECSTATIC REVELER E N R A PTURED
THAT I D E NTITY O F M AN-NATURE T O W H I C H DELEUZE
B Y THE PROXI M ITY OF H I S GOO. THE SYMPATHETIC
A N D GUATTARI ALL.UDE AS THE ORPHAN WHICH IS
COM P A NION I N WHOM THE SUFFERING OF THE GOO
TH E U NCONSCIOUS. TH EY. LIKE N I ETZSC H E . SPEAK
IS R EPEATED. ONE WHO PROCLAIMS WISDOM FROM
OF TH E DEPTH O F L I B I D I N A L.L.Y- I NVESTED U NCON­
THE VERY H E A RT OF NATURE. A SYMBOL OF THE
SCIOUS AND OF S E X U A L I M PUL.SE AS MORE THAN A
S E X U A L O M N I POTE N C E OF NATURE W H I C H THE
PROC R EATIV E D E PTH. H ENCE. THE U NCONSCIOUS
GREEKS USED TO CONTEMPLATE WITH REVERENT
HAS NO PA R ENTAGE. N O SOURCE GROUN D FOR THE
WO N OE R . ' 7
M ET A P H Y S I C I A N TO S T A N D U P O N . NO D E S POTIC

PAR E N T TO OO M I NATE IT. YET. I F DELEUZE A N D

ONE W O U L. D SEEM TO HAVE O N L. Y C E R T A I N G UATTA RI S E E TH E I R W A Y TO LIBERATING SEXUAL
SUGGESTIONS TO FOL.L.OW. SUCH A S THESE RICH DISCOURSE FROM ITS MERE F A SC I N ATION A N D
AND C O M P L. E X NOTI O N S O F H6L D E R L I N AND L I B I D I N A L. FI XATION U PO N THE SACRED FAM I LY A N D
N I ETZSC H E . AS A WAY B E YO N D THE RAPID A M ER E UTILITY O F P ROCREATION. THESE S E E M
R E J ECTION B Y DEL.EUZE A N D GUATTAR I O F THE P E R H A PS R E P L. A C E D A T THE L. E V E L. O F T H E
A N C I E N T- T H E A T R E OF M YT H AND DREAM AS FIXATION UPON P LE A S U R E OF DESI RING-MAC H I N E S .

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O F V I T A L I S M· M EC H A M I S M , N I ETZSC H E'S PLAYFUL MASCULI N E . H A R DLY F E M I N I N E , T H E SOFT F U S I O N

SATYR BECKONS, THE SATYR PLAYS IN TH E ARENA POINT O F BOTH. IT I S THE GOATS F A C E O F M A N . A L L

OF T H E TRAGIC, A N AREA DE·LIM ITED. THE PLACE OF US. PAN, A L L. IS N OT PAN A PH RODITE'S

OF MAN'S DESTI N Y TO BE H I S BODY AND LIVE I N T H E COMPAN ION, THE FATH ER OF E RO S ? ' 8 YET.

WORLD, N I ETZSC H E TRANSFORMS T H E PLACE O F A PH RODITE T H REATENS PAN. R E M I N D I N G ALL T H A T

TRAGEDY I N T O T H E FULL P L A C E OF A L O V E O F THAT EROS I S THE AB AN DO N ED C H I LO OF A L L O F U S .

DESTI N Y, A JOY WITH THE WORLD, THE SATYR I S FREED FROM THE HORN E D DOMINANCE OF

ODDLY THE COMPANION O F T H E GOD. R E PEATI NG AGGRESSION B Y THE WI NGS O F A FREE PLAY A MONG

H I S SUFFERING IN EACH OF M A N'S ATTEMPTS TO US. THE HORNED AGG RESSION OF T H E D I SSOL UTION

ESCAPE HIS BODY A N D WORLD, B E OR TOUCH A GOD, OF SCH I ZOP H REN IC CAPITALI SM-TH E DISPERSION

REFUSE LOVE OF H I S D E STI NY, AS FLESH I NG.QUT OF ALL-WOULD SEIZE APHRODITE, VIOLATE HER

E C S TA T I C A L L Y TH E H IG HEST E M OT I O N S AND ABUNDANT R E C E PT I V I T Y AND C REATION AS

FULLEST DESI R E S O F M A N . TH E SATYR R EVELS A N D MOT H E R OF E ROS. I N O R D E R TO M A N AGE AND

SPEAKS WISDOM FROM WITH I N AND WITHOUT CONTROL HER C H I LO. EROS FLOATS F R E E LY .

NATUR E , M A N I S BOTH W I TH I N NATURE, THE WORLD, PLAYFU LLY: F L E E I N G . Y E T E V E N TO U C H I N G T H E

,
A N D W ITHOUT A NATURE. O R F I X E D ESSENCE, H I S SO U R C E OF THE T H R EAT. TH E N O U R I S H I N G ,

PLAYFUL. S E X U A L. S Y M BOLIC M OV E M E N T IS T H E RECEPTI VE, FLESH AND FACE OF A P H RO D I T E

TA KING U P A N D B E I N G THE FLESH OF T H A T FORCE BESPEAK TH E OFTEN FORGOTTEN PLAY O F O U R

OF LIFE WHICH IS AT T H E BOTTOM OF ALL TH I NGS. PLACE: T H E A M B I VALENT DESI R E A N D VIOLENCE OF

WHICH IS HIS WORLD OF POWER, YET WITHOUT PAN'S E M BODI M E NT S H R I E K OUR P R E D I CA M E N T I N

DOM I N ATION AND REVENGE AGAI NST TIME AND TH E TI M E O F SCU LPTU R E BECOME M A C H I N E . E ROS

DESTIN Y. A N D PLEASU R E . TOUCHES BOTH. COM PLETING A C I RC LE. W A I T I N G

F O R TH E DANCE OF PLAYFUL EMBOD I M E NT. A LWA YS

R E M E M B E R I NG THE MOI ST, TENDER. FLESH O F H E R

TH E PLACE O F N I ETZSCH E'S S A T Y R I S THE PLACE MOT H E R . BORN OUT OF TH E C U TT I N G OFF OF

OF L I B I D I N A L· S Y M BOLIC PLAY. THAT PLAY IS THE AGGRESSION. T H E SATYR M U ST B E TH E BECO M I N G

WORLD WHICH WE FACE. W H I C H FACES U S AROU ND. O F H I S F L E S H . THE FU LLNESS O F H I S PLACE. A N D

IT I S THE PLAY OF T H E FLESH OF THE FACE WHICH THE LOVE OF THAT PLACE. THE PATH TO THAT

STAR K LY. N A K EDLY. U N AB A S H EDLY CRIES WITH US, PLACE I S THE D I SCOURSE SOUGHT. H E ED I NG T H E

S M I LES OR L A U G H S WITH US. IT I S THE PLAY OF W H I S P E R OF T H E G ENTLY FLESH-SCU LPTE D E ROS

SOFT. P L I A N T. F L E S H -T H E C H I LD'S UNWORN AMID THE R A NT I N G . SCREA M I NG , GRATING OF

VOLUPTUOUS N ESS: T H E S E D UCTI VE GLANCE: T H E STEELY. CONCR ETE. SC H I ZOPH R E N I C C A PITALI S M .

W R I N K LED. TO R N M O V E M E NT OF AGED LINES

TRAVE RSING A D I SSOLUTION FOUGHT T O THE LAST ROBERT V A N RODEN A LL E N

NOTES 6 CF. SARTRE. G ENET. P. 662.

7 M I C H E L FOUCAULT, HISTOI RE DE LA SEXUALITE

CF. JACQU E S D E R R I DA. G LA S (PA R I S: EDITIONS
GALI LEE. 1 9741. PP. 2 8 6- 2 9 1 AND P. 7. ( P R E M I E R TOMEI LA VOLONTE DE SAVOI R ( P A R I S :

GALLI M A R D . 1 9761, p , 1 6.

2 J EAN.PA U L SARTRE. SAIN T G E N ET-COMEDIEN ET

8 IBID. P. 49.
MARTYR ( P A R I S : G A L L I M A RD, 1 9 5 2 8< 1 9701. p,
390. (EMPHASIS A DD E O)
9 CF. I BID" PP. 77 8< FF.
3 IBID .. P. 3 1 5, ( E M P H A S I S A DDEO)
10 GI LLES D E LEUZE ET FELIX GUATTARI. L'ANTI­
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CF, SARTRE. T H E E M OTIONS. TRANSLATED BY ..

BERNARD F R EC H T M A N (NEW YORK: P H I LO·

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SO PHICAL LIBRARY. 1 9481. P. 6.

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( A N D T H E CASE OF WAG N E R ) T R A N S . BY WALTER

14 IBID , p , 1 8 1 . K A U F M A N N ( N EW YOR K : RANDOM HOUSE. 1 9 6 1 ) .

PP. :59. 6 1 . ( E M PH A S I S ADDED)

1� CF. FOUC A U LT. SURVEILLER ET PUNIR (PA R I S :

G A L L I MARD. 1 9 7 :5 1 . 18 THESE C LOSI NG R E M A R K S I N S P I R E D FROM T H E

STR I K I NG "STATUE OF APH RODITE A N D P A N " I N
16 LETTER OF APRIL 1 9. 1 8 1 2 CITED AND T H E NATI O N A L A RC HA EOLOGICAL M U S E U M O F

TRANSLATE D BY M IC H A E L H E l M I N H I S PAPER ATH E N S . P HOTOG R A P H I C R E PRODUCTION OF

"WHAT IS PHI LOSOPHY? -AGAI N?" (THE PENN­ THE STA T U E IS FOUND IN THE M U S E U M'S

S Y L VA N I A STATE U N I V E R S ITY) . P. 1 1- 1 1 . (MY P U B LICATION ENTITLED "NATIONAL ARCHA EO­

E M PHASIS) LO G I C A L MUSEUM OF ATHE NS" ( ATH E N S .

G R E EC E : P . GALLI AS. 1 9 7 1 ) . PP. 101 Be 1 04.

54. R . TU RNS BACK AND RETU R N S TO THE LANDING.

55. THE CORPU LENT M A N TRIES TO I NTERCEPT H E R .

56. HOLDING H E R BAG AT ARM'S LENGTH. R . H ITS THE COR P U L E N T M A N IN THE FACE.

57. THE CORPU LENT MAN PRETENDS TO FALL OVER. K N E E LS AND SEIZES R. BY HER A N K LES.

58- 60. THE A R M OF THE CORPULENT MAN ROU N D THE CALVES OF R:S LEGS. T H E CORPULENT M A N

L I FTS R. WHO STRUGG LES. AND TH ROWS H E R O V E R H I S SHOULDER.

59. THE HANDS OF THE CORPU LENT M A N MOV I NG UP BE H I N D T H E K N E E S OVER THE SUSPEN D E R B E LT

TOWARD R:S THIGHS A N D B UTTOCKS.

6 1 -62. TH E CORPULENT MAN C A R R I E S R. DOWN THE STA I R S TOW A R D THE B A S E M E NT. TH E COR PULENT

M A N SQU EEZING LEGS OF R. HANGING OVER H I S SHOULDER. R. STRUGG L I NG A N D H ITTING HIM WITH H E R
FI STS-THE BOTTOM OF THE STA I R S I N FRONT OF A DOOR T H A T H E K I C K S O P E N .

2 :5 8
C R I T I C A L 5 E X
TO DESTROY S E X U A LITY

TO PUT N ESSES A L L OF O U R " L I F E " P RODUCTI VITY UN D E R

ITS O W N PA R A LYZI NG A D M I N I STRATION. IT TURNS

A LTHOUG H THE C A P I T A L I ST ORDER A PPEARS TO BE EACH OF U S I NTO A C R I PPLE. CUT OFF F R O M H I S

TOLERA NT. IT I N FACT H A S A LWAYS CONTROLLED OWN B O D Y . A STR A N G E R TO H I S O W N D E S I R E S .

L I F E THROUGH ITS E X P R E S S I V E . SEXUAL. EMOTION­

A L AND A FFECTI VE A S P ECTS. CONSTR A I N I NG IT TO

THE DICTATES OF ITS TOTA LITA R I A N ORGA N I ZATION

B A S E D O N E X PLOITATI O N . P R I V ATE P R O P E RTY.

M A L E DOM I N A NCE. PROFIT. A N D PROFITA B I L I TY. IT A N END

EXERCISES TH I S CONTROL U N DER ALL OF I TS

VARIOUS G U I SES: T H E F A M I LY. SCHOOLS. THE WOR K T H E FORCES OF CA PITALIST OCC U PATION CONTIN­

PLACE. T H E A R MY. R U LES. D I SCOU RSE. IT U N F A I L­ UALLY REFINE TH E I R SYSTEM OF AGG R E S S I O N .

I N G LY P U R S U E S ITS A BJECT M I SSION OF CASTRAT­ PROVOCATION. EXTORTION S O A S T O USE IT A LONG

ING. OPPRESSING. TORT U R I NG. AND MANGLI NG THE WITH A MASSIVE R E I N FO R C E M E N T OF SOC I A L

BODY. ALL TH E BETTER TO I N SC R I BE ITS LAWS U PON TERROR ( I N D I V I D U A L GUI LTI TO R E P R ESS. EXC LUDE

O U R FLESH. TO R I V ET I NTO OUR UNCONSCIOUS ITS AND N E UTRA LIZE A L L THOSE PRACTICES OF O U R

M E C H A N I S M S FOR PROPAGATI NG SLAVERY. WILL THAT DON'T R E PRODUCE THESE FOR M S OF

DOM I N ATION. AND SO TH I S THOU S A N D-YEA R-OLD

REIGN OF U N H A P PY G R A T I F I C A T I O N . SAC R I F I C E .

TH E CAPITALIST STATE U S E S R ETENTION. STASIS. R ESIGNATION. COD I F I E D M ASOC H I S M AND DEATH

SC A R I F I CATION AND N E U ROSI S TO I M POSE ITS P E R PETUATES ITSELF. HERE R E I G N S CASTRATION.

NORMS AND MODELS. I M P R I NT ITS C H A RACTERS. REDUCING THE " S U B J ECT" TO A G U I LT- R I D D E N .

ASSIGN ITS ROLES. PROM U LGATE ITS PROG R A M S . . . N E U ROTIC. I N DUSTRIOUS B E I NG . LITTLE M O R E THAN

I T P E R M E ATES O U R BOD I E S . FORC I NG ITS ROOTS OF A M A N U A L LABO R E R . TH I S OLD O R D E R . REEKING OF

DEATH DEEP I N TO OUR S M A LLEST CREVIC ES. IT ROTT I N G BOD I ES. I S INDEED HORRI FYING. BUT I T H A S

TA K E S OVE R O U R ORGANS. ROBS US OF OUR VITAL FORC E D US TO D I R ECT TH E R E VO L U T I O N A R Y

F UNCTIONS. M UTI LATES OUR PLEA SU RES. HAR- S T R U G G L E A G A I N ST C A P I T A L I S T O P P R E S S I O N

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L I V I N G FLESH OF O U R OWN BODY. U P R I SI N G OF L I F E A G A I N ST A L L O F T H E M A N I F ESTA­

TIONS OF D EATH W H I C H CONTI N U A LLY I N S I N UATE

THEMSELVES I N TO OUR BODY. EVER MORE S U BTLY

B I N D I N G OUR E N E RG I ES, DESI R ES. R E A LITY TO TH E

I M PERATI V E S OF T H E ESTA B L I S H E D O R D E R . THEY

TO THE FO RM T H E CONTO U R S O F A N E W FISSURE, A MORE

R A D ICA L AND DEFINITIVE C O N F R O N TA T I O N . AC­

WE WANT TO FREE THE SPACE -TH E CONTEXT. THE CORDI NG TO W H I C H THESE R EVOLUTIONARY

LOC U S -O F THE BODY AND ITS OWN SPECIFIC FORCES ARE " N E C E S S A R I LY" A R R A NG I N G TH E M ­

D E S I R E S FROM TH I S "FO R E I G N " G R I P. IT I S A LONG SELVES.

THIS "PATH" THAT WE PROPOSE TO "WORK"

TOWARDS T H E L I B E R ATION O F SOC I A L SPACE. T H E R E

I S NO S E PA RATION B E T W E E N TH E T W O : I OPPRESS

MYSELF BECAUSE THIS "I" I S THE PRODUCT OF A

THE BODY
SYSTEM OF OPPRESSION OPE RATING AC ROSS ALL

FO R M S OF E X P E R I E N C E .
W E CAN N O LONG E R STA N D BY I D L Y W H I LE W E A R E

ROBBED OF OUR MOUTHS. OUR A NUSES. OUR

A " R E VOLUTI O N A R Y CONSCI O U S N ESS" I S NOTH I N G
S E X U A L M E M BERS, O U R GUTS, O U R V E I N S . . . J UST
BUT A C H I M E RA A S L O N G A S IT R E M A I NS OUTS I D E
SO THEY C A N TU R N TH E M I NTO PA RTS FOR TH E I R
OF A " R E V O L U TI O N A R Y BODY," A BODY WHICH
IGNOMI N I O U S MAC H I N E W H I C H PRODUCES C A PITAL,
G E N E RATES ITS O W N F R E E DO M .
EX PLOITATION AND THE F A M I LY.

HERE WE FIND WOMEN, R EVOLTI NG A G A I NST THE

WE CAN N O LON G E R STAN D BY I DL Y W H I L E THEY
MALE POW E R THAT HAS BEEN I N S E M I NATED IN
CONTROL. R EG U LATE AND OCCUpy O U R M UCOUS
TH E I R BOD I E S FOR C E N T U R I ES: H O M O S EX U A LS,
M E M BR A N E S , THE PORES O F OUR S K I N , T H E ENTI R E
R EVOLTI NG A G A I NST THE T E R RO R I Z I N G FASC I S M OF
SENTI E N T S U R FACE OF O U R BODY.
NORMA LITY: A DOLESCENCE, REVOLT I N G A G A I NST

TH E PATHOLOG I C A L A U T H O R I TY OF A D U LTS. THEY

W E CAN NO LONG E R STA N D BY I DLY W H I L E TH E Y U S E
HAVE BEGUN, COLLECTI V E L Y , TO OPEN UP TH E
O U R NE RVOUS S Y S T E M A S A RELAY I N TH E SYSTEM
BODY'S SPACE TO S U BV E R S I O N A N D TO OPEN UP THE
OF CAPITA L I ST, F E D E R A L. PATR I A R C H A L EX PLOITA­
SPACE OF S U B V E R S I ON TO TH E " I M M E D IATE N E EDS
TION. NOR W H I LE THEY USE O U R B R A I N AS A M E A N S
OF T H E BODY."
OF PUN I S H M ENT P R OG R AM M E D BY A M B I E NT POWE R.

HERE WE FIND PEOPLE B EG I N N I NG TO QUESTION

WE CAN NO LON G E R NOT "CO ME" O R HOLD BACK
AND I N VESTIGATE THE VA R I O U S MODES BY W H I C H
O U R SH IT, O U R SALIVA. OUR E N E RGY ACCO R D I N G TO
DESI R E IS P RO D U C E D, TH E LINKS BETWEEN
THEIR LAWS WITH TH E I R M INOR. TO L E R A T E D
J O U I SSANC E -T H E H E IG H T O F C OG N I T I V E AND
I N F RACTIONS. WE W A NT T O EXPLO D E T H E F R I G I D .
S E X U A L F U L F I LLM ENT-A N D POW E R , BETWEEN THE
I N H I BITED, MORTI F I E D BODY THAT CAPITALISM
BODY A N D S U BJ ECT A S CONSC IO U S N E SS, A S TH EY
WANTS S O DESPERATELY TO MAKE OUT O F O U R
EXIST EVERYWH E R E TH ROUGHOUT C A PITALIST
L I V I NG BODY.
SOCI ETY, E V E N A M O N G R A D I C A L G R O U PS.

TO ESC A P E F RO M T H E SEDENTARY

SLAUGHTER O F

WANTI N G TH E F U N D A M ENTAL F R E E DOM TO ENTER

HERE WE FIND PEOPLE WHO H AVE S H ORT­ INTO THESE REVOLUTI O N A R Y PRACTICES E NTA I LS

C I RCUITED T H E H A C K N E Y E D S E PA RATION BETWE EN OUR ESCAPING FROM TH E L I M ITS OF OUR OWN

"POLITICS" AND L I V E D E X P E R I ENCE, A SEPA RATION " S E LF." WE M U ST TURN TH E " S U B J ECT" W I TH I N

B R I N G I N G G E N E R O U S R ETU R N S TO TH E M A N AG E R S O U R S E LV E S UPSI DE-DOWN: E SC A PE F R O M T H E

OF O U R BO U RG E O I S SOCI ETY A S W E L L A S TO THOSE S E D E N TA R Y , F R O M T H E "C I V I LI Z E D STATE" AND

WHO PR ETE N D TO R E P R E S E N T THE M A SSES AND TO CROSS TH E SPACES OF A L I M ITLESS BODY; LIVE I N

SPEAK IN TH E I R N A M E . T H E W I L L F U L M O B I L I TY BEYOND S E X U A LITY, B E YON D

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THI S IS HOW SOME OF U S H A V E COM E TO FEEL THE B R E A K DOWN TH E CONDITION OF ONE'S I M PR I SON­

VITAL NEED TO FREE O U R S E LV E S "TOG E TH E R " MENT W I TH I N ANY STR UCTU RE; WE W A N T TO

FROM THE G R I P OF THE FORCES T H A T OPPRESS D E STROY IT, TO G ET RIO OF IT BECAUSE I N THE

AND R E PRESS O U R D E S I R E S . F I N A L A N A LYSIS IT FU NCTIONS AS AN I N F I N ITELY

R E PEATI N G CASTRATION MAC H I N E DESIGNED TO

W E STR I V E TO TA K E O U R PERSONAL, I NTIMATE LIFE R E PRODUCE E V E RYWH E R E AND I N EVERYON E THE

E X P E R IENCES AND CON F R O N T TH E M , EXPLORE U NQU ESTIO N I N G OBEDI ENCE OF A SLAVE.

TH E M . LIVE THEM COLLECTIVELY. WE S T R I V E TO

B R E A K DOWN TH E CONCRETE WALL THAT S E RVES "SEXUALITY" IS J U ST A S MONSTROUS IN WHAT IT

TH E DOM I N A N T SOC I A L O R D E R BY S E PA R ATI NG "PERMITS" AS IN WHAT IT RESTRI CTS; CLEA R LY,
B E I NG FROM APPEARANCE, S POK E N FROM UN­ "LIBERA LIZED" S E X U A L MORES AND THE EXTENTION
SPOK E N , PRI VATE F R O M S OC I A L. OF " E ROTI C I S M " T H R O U G H A D V E R T I S I NG TO A L L

SOCI A L L I F E STRUCTU R E D A N D CONTROLLED BY

WE STRIVE TO ELUCI DATE IN COMMON THE TH E M A N AG E R S OF "ADVANC E D" CAPITALISM DO

MECHANISM B E H I N D ATT R A C T I O N . R E P U LS I O N . NOTH I N G MORE THAN I N C R E A S E THE EFFICIENCY OF

R E S I STANCE. ORGASM; TO M AKE CLEAR TH E TH E " R E PRODUCTIVE" F U N CTION OF THE "OFF I C I A L"

U N I V E RSE OF O U R R E P R E S E NTATIONS, FETISHES, LIBIDO. RATH E R THAN R E D UCE SEXUAL DISCON­

OBSESSIONS, PHOBIAS. THE " U N M E NTIONABLE" HAS TE NT, T H E S E P R A CTIC E S IN FACT EXTEND TH E

BECOME OUR PREOCCU PATION, OUR MESSAGE, OUR REALM OF F R U ST R A T I O N A N D "LACK" THAT

POL I T I C A L T I M E-BOM B SINCE I N TH E R E A L M O F FACI LITATES T H E T R A N S FO R M ATION OF D E S I R E

S OC I A L I NTE RACTION POLITICS E X H I B I TS A I N TO A COMPULSI V E CON S U M E R I S M A N D GUARAN­

F U N D A M ENTAL WISH TO BE "ALIVE." TEES "TH E C REATION OF DEMAND," THE DRIVING

POWER BEHIND CA PITA LISM'S A POLOGIES. THE R E IS

N O F U N D A M E NTA L D I F F E R E N C E B E TW E E N T H E
WE HAVE DEC I DED TO E XPLODE THE UNBEARABLE
" I M MACULATE CONCE PTION" A N D T H E PUBLICITY­
SECRET THAT POW E R USES AGAINST EVERYONE
MINDED PROSTITUTE, BETWEEN CONJUGAL DUTY
WHOSE LIVES I NCLUDE ANY SENSUAL. SEXUAL OR
AND T H E " E N LI G H T E N E D " P R O M I SC U I TY OF TH E
AFFECTIVE I N VOLV E M ENT WHATSOEVER-TH E SAME
BOURGEOI S I E : TH E PROGRESSION IS U N B RO K E N .
K I N O OF CONTROL IT EXERCISES OVE R A N Y R E A L
TH E SAME RESTRICTIONS A PPLY. THE SA M E
SOCI A L ACTI ON T H A T PRODUCES OR R E P RODUCES
F R A G M E N TATION O F T H E BODY A S SOU RC E O F
FOR M S O F OPPRESSION.
D E S I R E CONTI N U E S U N A BATED. ONLY THE STRA­

TEGY C H ANGES.

TO D E STROY SEXUA LITY. WHAT WE WANT, WHAT WE DESIRE IS TO K I C K IN THE

FACADE OVER S E X U A LITY A N D ITS R E P R E S E NTA­

TIONS SO THAT WE M IGHT D I SCOVER J U ST WHAT OU R

IN O R D E R TO E X PLORE M UTUA LLY OUR I N DI V I D U A L
LIVING BODY IS.
H I STOR I ES, WE U N D ERTOOK T O DETE R M I N E HOW

O U R LIVES AS R E F LECTED THROUGH OUR DESIRES

WERE ENTI R E LY CONTROLLED BY T H E BASIC LAWS

OF O U R B U R E A UC R ATIC, BOU RGEOI S. AND J U D EO­

TO GET R I D OF PROG R A M M ED TRA I N I NG.
C H R I ST I A N SOC I E T Y , AND HOW THEY WERE

SUBSUMED UNDER ITS R U LES OF MAXIMUM

PROFITABI LITY, S U R PLUS V A L U E AND R E PRODUCE­ WE W A N T TO F R E E , R E LEASE, U N FETT E R AND

A B I L I TY . WE CONFRONTED OUR INDIVIDUAL R E LI EVE TH I S LIVING BODY S O A S TO F R E E A LL OF

"E X P E R I E NCES" B Y R ECOGNIZING THAT, HOWEVER ITS E N E RGI ES, DESI RES, PASSIONS C R U S H E D BY

"FREE" THEY MAY HAVE A PP E A R E D TO U S , WE OUR C O N SC R I PT I V E AND P R OG R A M E D SOC I A L

CONTI N U A LLY CONFO R M TO THE STEREOTYPES OF SYSTEM .

AN OFFICIAL S E X U A LITY THAT CONTROLS EVERY

S E X U A L EXPE R I E N C E FROM T H E CONJ UGAL BED TO W E W A N T T O B E A B L E T O EXERCISE E A C H O F O U R

THE B O R D E L LO TO SAY NOTH I N G OF P U B LI C VITAL FU NCTIONS EXPERI ENCING TH E I R FULL

TOI L ETS, DISCOS, FACTO R I E S , CONFESSIONALS, SEX COM PLEMENT OF PLEASU R E .

SHOPS. PRISONS. SCHOOLS, SUBWAYS, ETC.

W E W A N T T O R E D I SCOV E R SE NSATIONS AS B A S I C A S
WE'RE NOT CONC E R N E D WITH SIM PLY B R E A K I NG THE P LE A S U R E I N B R E AT H I N G THAT H A S B E E N

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POL L U T I O N : OR THE P L EA S U R E IN E A T I NG A N D AWA R E T H A T L I B E R A T I N G T H E BODY F O R S E N S U A L.

D I G E S T I N G THAT H A S B E E N I NT E R R U PTED BY T H E S E X U A L . A FFECTIVE A N D ECSTATIC R E LATION S H I PS

RH YTH M OF PROFITA B I LITY A N D T H E ERSATZ FOOD IS I N S E P A R A B LY LINKED TO LIBERATING WOM E N

I T PRODUCES: O R T H E PLEA S U R E I N S H I TTI NG AND AND DESTROYING MALE DOM I N A N C E A N D R O L E

P E D E R A S TY T H A T H A S B E E N SYSTE M A T I C A L L Y M OD E LS - E S P E C I A LLY S E X U A L ROLE MODELS. I T I S

ASSA U LT E D BY T H E C A P I TA L I ST ESTA B L I S H M E NrS L I K E W I S E L I N K E D T O D E STROY I NG A L L FOR M S O F

OPINION OF THE SPH I NCTER. IT I N SC R I B E S O P P R E S S I O N A N D " N O R M A LITY."

D I R ECTLY U PO N T H I S F L E S H ITS F U N D A M E NT A L

P R I N C I PLES: T H E POWE R L I N E S O F EXPLOITATION. W E WANT TO B E RID O F A L L ROLES AND I DENTITI E S

THE N E U ROSI S OF ACC U M U LATION. T H E MYSTIQUE B A S E D ON T H E P H A L L U S .
OF PROPERTY AND PROPRI ETY. ETC. WE WANT TO

R E D I SCOVER THE PLEASURE IN S H A K I NG OUR­

W E WANT TO B E R I D OF S E X U A L SEGR EGATI O N . W E
S E L V E S JOYOU SLY. WITHOUT S H A M E. N O T BECA USE
WANT TO B E R I D O F T H E CATEGO R I E S O F M A N A N D
OF NEED OR COM P E N SATION. BUT J UST FOR THE
WOM A N . GAY AND S T R A I G H T. POS S E S S O R AND
SHEER PLE A S U R E OF S H A K I N G O U R S E LVES. WE
POSSESSED. G R E A T E R A N D LESSER. M A S T E R A N D
WANT TO R E D I SC O V E R THE PLEASURES OF
S L A V E . WE W A N T I N ST E A D T O BE TRANSSEXUAL.
V I B RATI NG. H U M M I NG . S P E A K I N G . WALK I NG. MOV I N G .
A U TO N O M O U S . MOBI LE AND M U LT I P L E HUMAN
EXPRESSING O U R S E LV E S . RAVING. S I NG I N G ­
BEINGS WITH VARYING DIFFERENCES W H O CAN
FINDING PLEA S U R E IN OUR BODY IN A L L WAYS
INTERCHANGE D E S I R E S . GRATIFICATIONS. ECSTA­
POS S I BLE. WE WANT TO REDI SCOVER T H E PLEA­
C I E S . AND T E N D E R E M OTIONS WITHOUT R E F E R R I N G
SURE IN PRODU C I N G PLEASURE A N D IN CREATING­
B A C K T O T A B L E S OF S U R PLUS V A L U E O R PO W E R
PLE A S U R E THAT H A S BEEN RUTH LESSLY STRA I GHT­
STRUCTU R E S T H A T A RE N'T A LREADY I N T H E R U L E S
JACKETED BY THE E D UCATIONAL SYSTEM IN
OF THE GAME.
C H A RG E OF PRODUCI NG W O R K E R S-COM M A N D

CON S U M E RS.
WE HAVE BEGUN AND SHALL CONTI N U E TO

PROD U C E A N E W S OC I ETAL R E A LITY I N W H I C H T H E

G R E ATEST ECSTACY C O M B I N E S W I T H T H E G R EAT­

EST CONSC I O U S N E S S . WE HAVE BEGUN WITH T H E

TO L I B E RATE E N E R G I E S BODY. WITH THE R E VO L U T I O N A R Y BODY. THE

PRODUCTI V E SPACE O F "SUBVERSIVE" STRE NGTH

WE S E E K TO OPEN O U R BODY TO OTH E R BODI ES. TO AND THE E FFECTI V E SPACE OF ALL OPPRESSION.

A NO T H E R BODY: TO TRANSM I T V I BRATIONS. TO CONSEQU ENTLY. WE HAVE R E U N ITED "POLITIC A L"

C I R C U LATE E N E RG I E S . TO A R RANGE D E S I R E S TO PRACTICE WITH T H E R E A LITY O F THE BODY A N D ITS

THAT EACH IS F R E E TO PLAY OUT ITS FANTA S I E S A N FU NCTIONS BY COLLECTIVELY I N VESTIGATING ALL

ECSTASI ES. S O T H A T WE M i G H T LiVE WiTHOUT G U I LT TH E VARIOUS MODES O F L I B E RATION. T H I S I S O U R

A N D W I THOUT I N H I B I TI NG A L L T H E S E N S U A L INTRA­ O N LY C H A N C E TO F I G H T A GA I N ST THE OPPRESSIVE

AND I NTERPERSONAL PRACTI C E S WE NEED SO OUR C A P I T A L I ST STATE WHERE IT WORKS D I R ECTLY. THIS

DAY-TO- D A Y R E A LITY WON'T TURN I NTO THE SLOW IS THE O N LY A PPROACH THAT CAN TRULY

AGO N Y THAT C A P I TA L I S M AND B U R E A UC R A C Y STRE NGTH E N U S AGA I N ST A SYSTEM O F DOM I NA ­

PROJ ECT AS A M O D E L Exi sTE N C E . WE S E E K TO R I P TION THAT CONTI N U A LLY EXPANDS ITS POWERS O F

O U T OF OURSELVES THE FESTERING R U MOR O F "WE A K E N I NG" A N D " M O L D I NG" T H E I N D I V I D U A L TO

GUI LT THAT F O R THOUSANDS OF YEARS H A S B E E N ITS AXIOMS. A F F I L I ATING HIM TO ITS ORDER OF

AT T H E ROOT O F A L L OPPRESSION. DOGS.

OF COURSE. WE REALIZE HOW MANY OBSTAC LES WE G U Y H OC K E N G H E M

HAVE TO OVERCOM E TO MAKE O U R ASPI RATIONS

INTO SOM ETH I NG MORE T H A N THE DREAMS OF A TRANSLATED BY T O M GORA

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A BODY WITHOUT ORGA N S

O N NOV E M B E R 2 8 . 1 947 ARTA U D DECLARES WAR OESOP H A G U S . W I TH O U T A BLADDER. AND WITH

ON THE ORGANS: TO HAVE DONE WITH THE S H A TT E R E D R I BS. HE USED SOMETI MES TO

J U DG E M E N T O F GOD. ' "FOR YOU C A N T I E M E U P I F SWALLOW PART O F H I S O W N LARYN X WITH H I S FOOD.

YOU W I S H . BUT TH E R E I S NOTH I N G M O R E U S E LESS ETC. BUT DIVI N E M I R A C LE S ( " RAYS") A LW A Y S

THAN AN ORG A N . " IT I S NOT J UST R A D I OPHONIC R ESTO R E D WHAT HAD BEEN D E STROY E D . . . . .3 ) .

E X PE R I M E NT A T I O N BUT A L S O B I O LOG I C A L A N D THERE IS THE S C H I ZO BODY. C A R RYI NG ON AN

POLITICAL. I N C U R R I N G C E N S U R E A N D R E PRESSION. ACTIVE I NT E R N A L STRUGGLE AGA I N ST THE

BODY AND SOCI US. POLITICS AND E X P E R I M E NTA· ORGA NS. E V E N A T THE COST OF CATATO N I A . TH E R E

TION. YOU W I LL NOT B E A L LOWE D TO E X P E R I M ENT I N I S TH E D R U G G E D BODY. T H E EXPE R I M ENTAL SC H I ZO:

PEACE. ''THE H U M A N BODY I S SCA N DALOUSLY I N E FF I C I ENT.

I N STEAD OF A MOUTH AND AN ANUS TO GET OUT OF

ORDER WHY NOT HAVE O N E ALL·PU R POSE HOLE TO

T H E BWO: I T I S A LR E A D Y O N T H E W A Y A S SOON A S EAT AND E L I M I N ATE? W E COULD SEAL U P NOSE A N D

T H E BODY H A S H A D E N O U G H OF T H E O R G A N S A N D MOUTH. F I LL I N TH E STO M ACH. M A K E AN A I R HOLE

WA NTS T O P U T T H E M A S I D E . O R LOSE S T H E M . ITS A D I R ECT I NTO T H E LUNGS W H E R E I T SHOULD H A V E

LONG P R OC E S S I O N : T H E H Y PO C H O N D R I A C BODY B E E N I N T H E F I R ST PLAC E . . :,4 A N D T H E R E I S T H E

WHOSE ORGANS H A V E B E E N DESTROYED: ONCE T H E M A S OC H I STIC BODY WHICH C A N NOT BE U N D E R·

D E S T R UCTION I S ACCOM P LI S H E D NOTH I N G E L S E STOOD IN T E R M S O F PA I N . FOR W H AT IS I N VOLVED I S

H A PP E N S -"M I S S X C L A I M S THAT S H E H A S LOST H E R PRIMA R I LY T H E BWO. IT H A S ITSELF SEWN U P B Y ITS

B R A I N . N E R V E S . C H EST. S TO M A C H AND BOWELS. SADIST O R ITS W H O R E -T H E EYES. THE ANUS. T H E

ALL SHE HAS L E FT IS THE SKIN AND BONES O F T H E U R ETH R A . THE B R E A ST S . TH E NOSE SEWN U P.

DISORGANIZED 80DY: THESE ARE HER VERY C OQ U E TT I S H L Y ADDING 8 U TTO N S WITH FO U R

WORDS2 T H E R E IS THE PA R A N O I D BODY. WHOSE HOLES. I T H A S ITSELF S U S PE N D E D TO STOP T H E

ORGA N S A R E A TTA C K E D BY OUTS I D E FORC E S AND ORGANS FROM FU NCTI O N I NG. FLAY E D A S IF THE

R E STOR E D TO OUTS I D E E N E R G I E S ("HE LIVED FOR A ORGA N S WERE SKIN D E E P. SODO M I Z E D . S M OT H ·

LONG TI M E WITHOUT A STOM A C H . W ITHOUT E R ED. D EFECATED IN THE M OUTH SO THAT

I NTESTI N E S . A LMOST WITHOUT LUNGS. W I T H A TORN EVERYT H I N G I S S E A L E D TIGHT.

2 C1 !5
WHY TH I S DREARY ARRAY OF SEWN. VITRIFIED. BOTH HAVE NOTH I N G BUT A BODY WITHOUT

C A TATON I Z E D . A S P I R AT E D BODI ES. I F T H E B W O I S O RG A N S

A LSO F U L L O F G A I E T Y . ECSTA S Y . F R I S K Y DANC I NG ? A N D T H E V I B R A T I O N S T H A T COM E OFF I T

WHY THESE E X A M P LES THEN. WHY ARE THEY P I TY F O R W HOEV E R S I G N S H I M S E L F C A E S A R

NECESSARY? THEY ARE D E P R ESSING E X A M P LES THE C RU C I F I E D

FOR A C H E E R F U L H E A RT. E M PT I E D BOD I E S I N STEAD F O R Y O U C A N NOT T R U S T H I M

OF F U L L O N E S . YOU HAVE DE PLETED YOU R S E L V E S S I N C E H E DI DN'T E V E R

INSTEAD OF F I LL I N G YOU R S E L F U P. HAVE YOU C A L L H I M S E L F H E LIOGA B A L U S A N D S P I NOZA.

SHOWN ENOUGH PRUDENCE? PRUDENCE. NOT (SECRET SONG OF T H E YOUNG ROSIC R U C I A N S)

W I SDOM. AS DOS E . AS THE I M MANENT RULE OF

WE G R A D U A LLY R E A LIZE THAT T H E BWO IS NOT T H E
EXPE R I M E NTAT I O N : I N J ECTIONS O F P R U D E N C E . YOU
OPPOSITE O F T H E O R G A N S AT A LL . I T S E N E M I E S
H A V E B E E N D E F EA T E D IN A G R EAT BATTLE.
ARE NOT THE ORGANS. THE ENEMY IS THE

ORGA N I S M . T H E BWO DOE S N'T OPPOSE TH E O RG A N S .

R E R E A D I NG H E L IO G A B A L U S A N D THE TARAH U M A RAS
B U T T H E O R G A N IZATION O F T H E O R G A N S THAT WE
(FOR H E LIOG A B A L U S IS S P I NOZ A : SPI NOZA
CALL THE ORG A N I S M . IT IS TRUE THAT A R TA U D
H EL I OG A B A L U S R E V I V E D . T H E ONE H I D I N G B E H I N D
W A G E S H I S WA R A G A I NST T H E O R G A N S . BUT WHAT
THE TERRIFYING P H I LOSOP H E R . T H E MAD PH I LO­
HE HAS R E A LLY HAD IT W I T H AND R E A LLY R E S E NTS
SOPH E R . THE OTH E R H I DI N G U N DER THE G U I S E OF
IS T H E ORG A N I S M . T H E BODY IS THE B O D Y . A L O N E I T
THE C H A STE L E N S G R I N D E R . A N D A VOYAGE TO THE
STA NDS. A N D I N N E E D OF N O ORGA NS. O R G A N I S M IT
LA N D OF T H E TA RA H U M ARAS I S EXP E R I M E NTA TION.
N EV E R IS. ORGANISMS ARE E N E M I E S OF THE BODY · THE
P E Y OT E . SPI NOZA. H E L I OG A B A L U S AND P E YOTE
BWO I SN'T OPPO SE D TO T H E O RG A N S . BUT WITH ITS
HAVE THE SAME FO R M U LA : A N ARCHY AND U N ITY
"LEG I T I M ATE ORGANS" WHICH A R E TO BE C O M PO S E D
ARE ONE A N D THE S A M E T H I N G . NOT AT A LL T H E
A N D SET. I T I S OPPOS E D TO THE ORGA N I S M . T O T H E
UN ITY OF TH E ONE. BUT A DEE PER U N ITY.),"
ORGA N I C O R G A N IZATION OF ORGANS. TH E J U DG ·
P R E C I S E L Y W H A T T H E TWO BOOKS O F ARTA U D S A Y :
M E N T OF G O D . T H E S Y S T E M OF T H E J U D G M E N T OF
F U S I B I L I TY AS I N F I N I T E Z E RO. P L A N E OF C O N S I S ­
GOD. T H E T H EOLOG I C A L SYSTEM. I S P R EC I S E LY THE
TENCY. MATT E R W I T H O U T G O D S : P R I N C I PLES. AS
O P E R A T I O N S O F HE WHO M A K E S A N ORG A N I S M . AN
FORCES. ESS E N C E S . S U BSTA N C E S . E L E M E NTS.
O R G A N IZATION O F THE ORGANS. WHICH W E C A L L AN
R E M I SSIONS. PRODUCTIONS OR RE PRODUCTIONS:
ORGA N I S M . BECAUSE H E C A N NOT BEAR T H E BWO.
THE WAYS OF B E I NG. O R M O D A L I T I E S . V I BRATIONS.
B EC A U S E HE H OU N DS IT. R I P S IT O P E N . TO G I V E
I N T E N SITI ES. B R E AT H S . N U M B E RS : AND FINALLY
PRECEDENCE TO THIS DREADFUL T H I NG. THE
THE D I F F I C U LT Y O F ATT A I N I N G T H I S W O R L D O F
O RG A N I S M . T H E O RG A N I S M I S A L R E A DY P R E C I S E L Y
CROW N E D A N A RC H Y. I F O N E S T A Y S AT THE L E V E L
T H A T. THE J UDGMENT OF GOD. WHICH OOCTOR S
O F T H E O R G A N S -"TH E L I V E R THAT M A K E S T H E S K I N
PROFIT AND TAKE THEIR POW E R FROM. THE
YELLOW. THE BRAIN B E S I EG E D BY SYPH I L I S . T H E
O R G A N I SM I S NOT T H E BODY A T A L L. NOT T H E BWO
I NTESTI N E W H I C H E X P E LS E XC R E MENT." A N D I F O N E
BUT A STRA T U M ON T H E BWO. W H I C H I S TO SAY A
REMAINS T R A P P E D W I T H I N T H E ORG A N I S M W H I C H
P H E N O M E NO N OF A CC U M U LATION. OF COA G U LA­
BLOC KS T H E F L O W S A N D HOLDS U S I N O U R WORLD
TION. O F S E D I M E NTATION WHICH I M POSES FO R M S
HERE.
A N D F U NCTIONS O N IT. R E LATIONS A N D H I E R A R C H I ­

CAL AND DOM I N A N T ORGA N I ZATIONS. TRANSCEN­

H E L I OG A B A L U S A N D S P I NOZA A R E O N E A N D D E N C I E S ORGANIZED FOR THE P U R POSE O F U S E F U L

TH E SA M E T H I N G WOR K . " B I N D M E I F YOU W I LL." W E N E V E R STOP B E I N G

LONG L I V E THE ROSE STRATI F I E D . BUT WHO I S T H I S W E . W H I C H I S N O T M E .

H E L I OG A B A L U S AND S P I NOZA M A K E THE S I N C E T H E SUBJECT B E LONGS T O A STRATUM A N D

S A M E CHOICE D E P E N DS O N I T N O LESS T H A N T H E ORGA N I S M ? WE

LONG L I V E T H E C ROSS NOW A N S W E R : I T I S THE BWO. THAT G L AC I A L R E A LITY

TH E C H A STE P H I LO SO P H E R W I THOUT N E E D ON WHICH T H E S E A L L U V IO N S . S E D I M E N TATI O N S .

A N D T H E C R U E L E M P E R O R W H I C H S H ITS COAGULATIONS. PLiCATIONS A N D C O M P R E S S I O N S

ALL OV E R WHICH M A K E U P A N ORG A N I S M - A N D A S I G N I FICA­

H A V E THE S A M E S E N S E O F T H E C I TY TION AND A S U B J E C T -OC C U R . THIS IS WHAT

PUTT I N G A N A RC H Y IN U N ITY AND TH E O N E E N D U R E S : T H E J U DG M E N T O F GOD W H I C H W E I G H S

I N ANARCHY A N D E X E R C I S E S ITS W I L L ON IT. IT'S W I TH I N I T THAT

M U LTI PLICITY THE O R G A N S ARE C O M PO S E D I NTO W H A T W E C A L L

HOMO. E U N U C H . S A DO. M A SO . TRA NSV ESTITE A N O RG A N I S M . T H E BWO H O W L S : ''T H E Y'VE M A D E M E

PANTHE. MODO N AT U R.I S U B STANTI A L I ST A N ORGA N I S M ! T H E Y H A V E B R O K E N M E U N D U LY'"

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THE J U DG M E N T OF GOD TEARS IT FROM ITS AND TH E N , T H E R E'S A NOTH E R T H I N G : DON'T TH I N K

I M M A N E NCE AND MAKES IT AN O RG A N I S M , A THAT U N DO I N G T H E O RG A N I S M IS PARTICULARLY

S I G N I FICATION, A S U BJ ECT, I T IS T H E STRATI F I E D . AS D I F F I C U LT, ANY MORE D I F F I C U LT T H A N U N DO I N G

A R E S U LT IT OSC I L LATES BETWEEN TWO POLES. T H E TH E OTH E R STRATA. S I G N I F I C A N C E A N D s U B J ECTI­

S U R FACES O F STRATI FICATI O N U PON W H I C H I T FALLS VATION. S IG N I FI C A N C E AND I NT E R P R ETATION AS

BACK AND YIELDS TO J U D G M E N T AND THE PLANE OF CLOSE C L I N G T O T H E S O U L A S TH E O R G A N I S M D O E S

CONSIST EN C Y IN W H I C H I T U N FOLDS AND OPENS ITSELF T O THE BODY. YOU DON'T G E T RID OF THEM SO

TO E X PE R I M E NTATI O N . A N D IF THE BWO IS A L I M IT. I F E A S I LY EITH ER. AND THE S U B J EC T-HOW IS IT

ONE IS NEVER THROUGH ATTA I N I NG IT, IT'S POSSI B L E TO U N H I NG E TH E POINTS O F S U B J ECTI­

BECA U S E THERE IS A LW A Y S A N OTH E R STRAT U M VATION WHICH FIX US, NAIL US TO A DOM I N A N T

B E H I N D T H E FIRST ONE. O N E STRATUM E MBEDDED R E A LITY? TEAR T H E C O N SC I O U S N E S S FROM THE

I N A NOTH E R . FOR I T T A K E S M A N Y S T R A T A . A N D NOT S U BJ ECT T O M A K E I T A MEANS OF E X P L O R A TI O N .

J U ST OF THE O RG A N I S M . TO MAKE UP THE VOYAGE. TEAR T H E UNCONSCIOUS F R O M S I G N I FI C A N C E

J U D G M E N T O F GOD. T H E R E I S A P E R PETU A L A N D A N D I NTERPRETATION TO M A K E A T R U E PROD UCTI ON

VIOLENT STR I F E B E TW E E N T H E PLA N E O F CONSIS­ OUT OF IT. THE O B J ECT OF A P R O D U C TI O N ­

TENCY. W H I C H FREES T H E BWO, RUNS T H R O UGHOUT PRODUC E TH E U NCONSCIO US!-TH l s I S C E RTA I N LY

AND U N DOES A L L T H E STRATA AND T H E S U R FACES NO MORE N O LESS D I F F I C U LT T H A N T E A R I N G T H E

OF STRATI FICATIONS WHICH BLOCK IT. BIND IT O R BODY F R O M TH E ORGAN I S M . P R U D E N C E I S T H E A RT

FOLD IT B A C K . COMMON TO A L L T H R E E : A N D I F IT H A PP E N S T H A T

ONE BRUSHES A GA I N ST DEATH IN U N DO I N G THE

ORG A N I S M , O N E A LSO D A N C E S O N T H E EDGE O F

TH E R E IS NO M A S OC H I ST, D RU GG E D. A LCOHOLIC
FALSEHOOD, T H E I LL USORY, TH E H A L L U C I NATORY.
BWO WHICH DOE S N 'T CONFRONT THIS PROBLEM A N D
PSYC H I C D EATH BY AVOI DING M EA N I N G AND
TH E R E I S N O G E N E R A L SOLUTION. L I F E O R D E A T H :
I NT E R P R E T A T I O N WHICH ARE STRA N G E SAFE­
AN OEDIPAL G R E E D-WH ETH E R ONE A B SO R B S
GUA RDS A G A I N ST M ADNESS. AND ONE RISKS
A LCOHOL. ACID OR CRACKS OF THE W H I P. YOU
U N R E A L I TY AS SOON AS ONE LEAVES THE
DON'T GO AT I T W I TH A H A M M E R BUT WITH A V E R Y
DOM I N A N T R E A LITY TO B E COM E A N O M A D I N T H E
FINE FILE. SELF D E ST R U C T I O N . YES, DEATH
M A S K E D O N E . A R TA U D C A R E F U LLY M EA S U R E S A N D
I N ST I NCT, NO. T O U N DO TH E ORGA N I S M H A S N E V E R
WE IGHS H I S WO RDS: C O N SC I O U S N E S S " K N O W S W H A T
M E A N T T O K I LL YOU R S ELF, B U T T O O P E N T H E BODY
IS GOOD FOR IT AND WHAT DOES IT HARM: AND
TO C O N N ECTI O N S WHICH P R E S U PPOSE A WHOLE
THEREFORE IT K N OW S WHAT THOUG HTS AND
P E R FECT A R R A N G E M E NT , C I R C U ITS, C O N J U NC­
F E E L I NG S I T CAN PROFITABLY A CC E PT, WITHOUT
TIONS, TIERS A N D T H RE SHOLDS, PASSAGES A N D
DANGE M , AND WHICH ARE INJU RIOUS TO ITS
DISTR I B UTIONS O F I NT E N S I T I ES. T E R R ITOR I E S A N D
F R E E DO M . A BOVE ALL, I T KNOWS J U S T HOW FA R ITS
M E A S U R E D DETE R RI TOR I A LIZATIONS R EM I N I SC E NT
BEING EXTENDS, HOW F A R I T H A S N'T G O N E YET OR
OF K A FKA'S S U R V EYOR. WHAT COULD BE MORE
H A SN'T T H E RIGHT TO GO WITHOUT F A L L I N G I NTO
D A N G E R O U S TH A N A N I N TE N S I TY. B U T A LSO W H A T
U N REALITY, THE I L LUSORY, T H E U N- M A D E , T H E U N ­
COULD B E M O R E A MO R O U S ? M A K E P R U D E NC E T H E
P R E PA R E D . . . A PLA N E W H IC H N O R M A L CONSCIOUS­
POLITIC A L- E X PE R I M E NT A L V I R T U E . T H E POWE R O R
N ESS NEVER ATTA I N S B U T WHICH C I G U R I A LLOWS
POT E N T I A LITY O F T H E BWO. T H E V I R T U E O F LOV I NG.
U S TO R E A C H , A N D W H I C H IS THE V E R Y M YSTERY O F
LET EVERYONE I N V E NT HIS OWN P R U D E NC E ,
A L L POETRY. B U T TH E R E I S A N OTH E R L E V E L I N T H E
SOM ETH I NG T H E O PPOSITE O F M I ST R U ST, R E S ENT­
HUMAN BEI NG, AN OBSCU R E , FOR M L ESS ONE,
M EN T A N D GLUTTO N Y ALL TOGETH E R . O N LY I C A N
WHERE C O N SC I O U S N E S S H A SN'T ENTERED BUT
K NOW I F I A M D R U N K, SA I D T H E CON S U L, A G A I NST
WHICH SU RROUNDS IT LIKE AN U N E L U C I DA T E D
THE BASE A S S E RTIONS O F PSYCHOA N A LY S I S (TO
EXTENSION, OR A T H R E AT, DEPENDING ON TH E
FIND YOU R S E LF, LOOK I N TO YOU R C H I LD HOOD) W E
CASE. A N D W H I C H A LSO R E L E A S E S A D V E NTU ROUS
SAY: Y O U D O N . K NOW W H A T Y O U A R E A N D YO U'LL
S E N SATI ONS AND PERC E PTIONS. THESE A R E THE
O N LY KNOW BY E X P E R I M E N T I N G , G E N TL E EXPERI­
S H A M E LE S S F A N TA S I E S W H I C H A FFECT T H E SICK
M ENTATION. I F YOU A R E C A PA B L E O F IT. N O O N E
C O N SC I O U S N E S S . I. TOO. HAVE HAD FA L S E
C A N SAY "I A M A M A SOCH I ST:' N O O N E C A N S A Y "I A M
S E N SA T I O N S , FALSE PERCEPTIONS, AND HAVE
A HOMOS E X U A L:' N O O N E C A N S A Y "I A M A D R U G
B E L I E V E D I N TH E M . " 7
A DDICT." SOM E O N E , SOMETH I N G A W AITS US. BUT

W H A T ? I T M IG H T B E SOM ETH I N G E LS E . O N E CA N'T

TELL I N ADVANCE. ONE D O E S N 'T K NO W I N IT IS NECESSARY TO R ETA I N E NO U G H OF TH E

R ETROSPECT, ONE D O E S N 'T EVEN KNOW AT T H E ORG A N I S M SO THAT I T C A N R E C O NSTITUTE I T S E L F

T I M E. E X P E R I M E NTATION, SEARCH FOR TH E BWO. AT E A C H N E W D A W N , A N D TO K E E P A S M A L L S U P P L Y

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OF M E A N I NG AND I N T E R P R ETATION. EVEN TO FORC E -O R E L S E Y O U D I S I NTEG RATE I N A S U I C I D A L

OPPOSE T H E M TO T H E I R OWN SYSTEM. FOR THOSE OR MAD B R E A K DOWN A N D D I S R U PT T H E STRATA

TIMES WHEN C I R C U MSTA N C E S REQU I R E IT. W H E N W H I C H FALL BACK DOWN O N YOU A L L THE H A R D E R ­

T H I NGS. PEOPLE. E V E N SITUATIONS FORC E Y O U TO HOSPITAL OR C E M ET E R Y . W H A T YOU ACT U A L L Y

IT. AND ONE M UST KEEP SMALL RATIONS OF HAVE TO DO IS TH I S : SITUATE YOURSELF ON A

S U B J ECTIVITY O N ONE'S DON K E Y MASK I N O R D E R TO C ERTA I N STRATUM, E X P E R I M E N T WITH T H E OPPOR·

BE A B L E TO COPE WITH THE DOM I N A N T R E A LITY. B E T U N I T I E S I T OFFERS YOU, LOOK FOR A PROPITIOUS

POLITE. A L W A Y S BE POL I T E . SCH IZO-POLITE SSE. T H E SPOT. POS S I B L E M O M E NTS OF DETE R R I TO R I A LlZA·

EXQUISITE POLITE NESS OF H OLDER L I N . BE TION AND LINES OF RECEDENCE, EXPERIENCE

C E R E M O N I O U S . M I M E THE STRATA. I N SHORT. O N E T H E M , SEC U R E C E RTA I N CON N ECTIONS O F FLOWS

D O E S N 'T ATTA I N TH E BWO AND ITS PLANE OF H E R E AND T H E R E , TRY OUT CONTI N U A O F I N T E N S I ·

C O N S I STENCY BY W I LDLY DESTRATI FYI NG O N E S E LF . T I E S LITTLE BY LITTLE. ALWAYS K E E P I N G A S M A L L

T H I S I S E V E N T H E R E ASON W H Y W E ENCO U N T E R T H E P I E C E OF NEW T E R R I TO R Y A V A I LA BLE. IT I S I N A

P A R A DO X OF THE L UG U B R IO U S AND E M PT I E D RELATION. ACCOR D I N G TO A M E TI C U LOUS R E L ATION

BOD I E S AT THE BEGI N N I NG : THEY HAD E M PTI E D W I TH T H E STRATA T H A T O N E SUCCEEDS IN OPE N I N G

THEMSELVES OF TH E I R ORGANS I N ST E A D OF UP C H A N N E LS OF R EC E D E N C E AND M A K I NG

LOO K I N G FO R T H E MOMENTS W H E N T H E Y COULD COM B I N AT I O N S OF FLOWS PASS THROUGH AND

PATIENTLY AND T E M PORA R I LY U N DO T H I S ORG A N I · ESCAPE. THAT ONE MANAGES TO RELEASE

ZATION OF THE O RG A N S WHICH WE C A LL THE CONTI N U O U S I NT E N S I T I E S FOR A BWO. CONN ECT.

ORG A N I S M : THEY HAD F A L L E N . S W I R L I NG. IN AN COMBINE. CONTI N U E. W E A R E IN A SOC I A L FO R M A ·

E X C E S S OF S I G N I F I C A N C E AND I NTERPRETATIO N . TION : S E E , F I RST OF ALL, H O W I T I S STRATI F I E D FOR

R U N N I NG A I M LE S S L Y O R . ON THE CONT R A R Y . I N A US. IN US IN THE VERY PLACE WHERE WE ARE:

DODD E R I N G S T U PO R ( FO R NOTHI N G N E S S IS STI L L R E LATE T H E STRATA T O THE DE E P E R COLLECTIV E

T H E S U P R E M E S I G N I F I E R . J U ST A S S I L E N C E I S T H E M AC H I N I C S E T· U P IN WHICH WE ARE TRAPPED:

G R E A TEST VACANT I N T E R P R ETATIONI I N STEAD O F OVERT U R N T H E SET· U P V E R Y GE NTLY. B R I NG I T I N

R E P LACI NG T H E M B Y THE C I RC U MSTA NTI A L A RT O F TOU C H W I T H T H E PLACE OF C O N S I STENCY O N T H E

AN E X P E R I M E NTA L POS I T I V I S M : T H E Y H A D LOST OTH E R S I DE OF T H E S T R A T A . O N LY THEN D O E S THE

TH E I R EGOS. WHICH T H E Y TH E N SOUGH T FOR ALL BWO R E V E A L ITSELF FOR WHAT IT I S . CONN ECTION

T H E H A R D E R AND MORE D E S P E RATELY ( FOR P ITY'S OF D E S I R E S . CONJ U N CTION O F FLOWS. CONTI N U U M

S A K E . G I V E ME BACK SOM E M OO R I N GS!) S I N C E T H E Y OF I NT E N S I T I E S .

D I D N 'T K NOW HOW TO P A Y O U T TH E I R NOM A D I C

D E P E R S O N A L I ZATION. E I TH E R W I T H I N TH E M S E LV E S TH E R E IS A BWO O F C A PI T A L I S M . CANCEROUS

OR WITHOUT. T H E R E A R E I N FACT M A N Y WAYS TO B U R G EO N I N G M O N E Y . M O N E Y P RO DU C I N G M O N E Y .

M I S S THE BWO. E I T H E R O N E DOESN'T M A N A G E TO C A PI T A L I T S E L F W I TH ITS E X P A N S I V E · I N FLATION

PRODUCE IT. OR. H A V I N G PRODUCED IT SOMEWHAT. S U B J ECTIVATION: CAPITALISM M U ST C O N T R O L IT,

NOTH I NG H A PP E N S UP ON I T-TH E INTENSITIES O R I E NT IT. KEEP IT STRATI F I E D FOR ITS OWN

D O N 'T C I R C U LA T E: OR GET B LOC K E D . THIS ON " H E A LTH". I T S OWN "ORGAN I S M". EVEN WHEN WE

ACCO U N T OF T H E BWO I S CONSTANTLY OSC I L LAT· CON S I D E R A P A R TI C U L A R SOC I A L FOR M ATION, OR A

ING B ET W E E N THE S U R FACES WHICH STRATIFY I T PARTICULAR STRATIFYING MECHANSIM IN A

AND THE P LA N E WHICH L I B E RATES IT. IF YOU FOR M ATION, W E C A N S A Y THAT EACH A N D E V E R Y

RELEASE IT TH ROUGH TOO VIOLENT A G E STU R E . ONE HAS ITS BWO R E A DY TO CORRODE. TO

B R E A K U P T H E STRATA WITHOUT P R U D E N C E . YOU PROLIFERATE, TO COV E R AND INVADE THE

WILL H AVE K ILLED Y O U R S E L F, YOU WILL HAVE TOTA L I T Y OF THE SOC I A L FI ELD, ENTERI N G IN

M I S S E D T H E P L A N E . (TH E R E IS NOTH I N G BUT THE R ELATION O F V I O L E N C E A N D R I V A L R Y A S W E L L A S

PLAN. TH E P R OG R A M . SAID THE M I LITARY MAN ALLIANCES AND C O M PLI C I T I E S WITH OTH E R

K L E I ST T O H I S YOU N G E R SI STER U L R I K E. W H O H E FO R M A T I O N S , OTH E R MECHANISMS AND THEIR

FELT G A V E H E R S E LF O V E R T O H E R FANTA S I E S TOO BWOS. TH E B W O OF C A PITA L I S M W H I C H E I T H E R

E A S I LY.) THE S A M E M U LT I P L E HORROR IS I N VOLVED F I N D S O R DOESN'T FI N D I T S R E G U LATION I N THE

IN S TA Y I NG S T R A T I F I E D - E I T H E R YOU REMAIN A STATE, B U T A LSO T H E BWO OF T H E STATE W H I C H

P R I SO N E R OF YOU R ORGA N I S M . THE ORG A N I S M A N D EITH E R F I N DS O R DO E S N 'T F I N D ITS REGU LATION I N

ITS DOCTORS, S U B J ECT T O S I G N I FICANCE. S I G N I F I · INTERMEDIARY BO D I E S . W H I C H T H E M S E L V E S

C A N C E A N D I T S PSYCHOA N A LYST. E N S N A R E D I N I T S F U R N I S H BWOS. A BWO O F THE A R M Y T A K E S O V E R

R E C E N D E N C E , BOU N D T O THE DOM I N A N T R E A LlTY­ T H E S T A T E . A BSORBS E V E RYTH I NG I N ITS T U M O R ,

AND YOU DON'T EVEN FEEL IT: ONE C A N LIVE L I K E ITS C A N C E RO U S C EL L S PROLI F E R A T I N G E V E R Y ·
­
THAT A N D B E CONTENT W I T H O N ESELF, H A LF D E A D W H E R E . I N E V E R Y FACTORY, E V E R Y SCHOOL, EVERY

A M ONG T H E S Y M BOLS OF POWE R A N D T H E I C O N S O F H O U S E H OLD. C H I LE : WE HAVE THE MOST D EMO·

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C R ATIC A R M Y I N THE WORLD, S A I D THE C H I LEAN, I T TH E M . C LOSE THEM OFF. NOT I N ORDER TO U N DO

HAS EARS F O R T H E P E O P L E A N D E Y E S F O R T H E TH E STRATA WITH THE NECESS A R Y PRECAUTIONS

CONSTITUTION, BUT TH E B W O OF CAPITAL I N FLATION BUT TO S H U T T H E M U P AGA I N , E V E N TO THE POI NT

BREAKS OUT ALL T H E MORE V I O LENTLY WHEN THE OF REMOVING T H E I R FORM AND A RTICU LATION -NOT

A I M I S TO B R I N G DOWN A SOC I A LIST GOV E R N M ENT: TO MAKE "OT H E R" CONNECTIONS AND COM B I N A ­

THE ARMY LO S E S ITS EARS AND ITS EYES, TIONS P OS S I B L E BUT, ON THE C O N T R A R Y, TO

U N LEASH ES, I N ITS T U R N A BWO THAT DESTROYS E N S U R E T H E PROLIFE RATION O F T H E S A M E . B LI N D

THE GO V E R N M E N T, TAKES OVER THE STATE TO SCA R R I N G , N A Z I ECONOMY-NOT T O D I SCOVER T H E

R E STORE AN "OR G A N I C A N D H E A LTHY" C A PITA LISM MAC H I N I C POTENTI A L OF DES I R E B UT TO E N S U R E

FROM THE DEPTHS O F UTTER TERROR. COMPLEXITY T H E C LOS E D HOLD A N D POW E R O F A M E C H A N ISTIC

OF ALLIANCES AND RIVALRI ES: NAZISM FOR D E S I R E : SUCH A R E THE C A N C E R O U S OR FASCI STIC

I N STA NCE-DON'T J UST TH I N K OF THE GENERAL BWOS, T E R R I F Y I N G CA RICATU R E S O F THE PLA N E OF

R E LATION BETW E E N N A Z I S M A N D C A PITA L I S M , BUT CONSISTENCY AND YET NO LESS BWO THAN THE

REMEMBER T H E BWO OF N A Z I S M A N D TH E R A V I N G OTHERS.

B W O OF GERMAN CAPITALISM BEFORE THE NAZI

TAKEOVER, CO N S I D E R HOW THE N A Z I BWO R ECON­ IT I S THROUGH THE BWO THAT O N E DESIRES. TH E R E

STITUTES CAPITAL'S "O RG A N I S M " I N G E R M A NY, HOW I S DE S I R E E V E R Y TI M E T H E R E I S BWO O F O N E K I N D

NAZISM ORGA N I Z E S ITSELF BY U N L E A S H I N G A BWO O R ANOTH E R . DEATH I N STI NCT, Y E S , DESI R E E V E N

OF THE ARMY D I STI NCT FROM THE BWO OF THE I N C LUDES THAT I N TH E E M PT I E D B W O S , AS IT DOES

PA RTY, ETC.-TH E R E IS A BWO OF THE F A M I LY, T H E THE ABOLITION OF D E S I R E I N C A N C EROUS BWOS.

SCHOOL, THE FACTORY, T H E C I TY, ETC . -THE O N E S HOW DOES DESIRE M A NAGE TO DESI R E ITS OWN

OPERATING I N R E LATION T O T H E OTH E R S , I NTER­ REPRESSION? HOW C A N DESI RE, THE M AC H I N I ST,

LOC K E D WITH I N E A C H OTH E R , C R EATING STR A N G E MAKE ITSELF M E C H A N I ST I C DESIRE OF THE

ALLIANCES A N D R I V A L R I ES. (TH E R E I S A B W O OF PROLI F E RATION O F T H E SAME? C E R TA I N LY I T I S NOT

PSYCHOA N A L Y S I S : T H E PSY C H O A N A LYST H I MSE LF, A QUESTION OF I D EOLOGY, FALSE C O N S C I O U S N E S S .

WITHOUT EYES, WITHOUT EARS, AND WITHOUT A L I E S. E R RO R . OR S U P ERSTITION. TH E BWO HAS

MOUTH. A CANCER OF I N T E R P R ET A T I O N , I NT E R ­ NOTH I N G T O D O WITH I D EOLOGY: P U R E M A TT E R . I T I S

M I N A B L E A N A L Y S I S , A N I N F I N ITY OF WORDS F O R A N A PHENOME NON OF PHYSICAL. B I O LO G I C A L .

I N FI N I TE AMOUNT OF MONEY, SILENCE AS TH E PSY C H I C A L AND SO C I A L M A TT E R . DESIRE IS

S U P R E M E I N TE R P R ETATI O N , PROLIFE RATION IN A N MATER I A L. A L L DES I R E I S D E S I R E O F BWO. BWO OF

I N C R EASINGLY A S P H Y X I A T I N G PSYCHOSOMATIC MONEY. BWO OF TH E STATE. BWO OF TH E A R M Y . BWO

C I RCU IT'> I N S HORT, W E B E L I E V E T H A T T H E STRATA OF THE PARTY. BWO OF THE FA M I LY . YES. ALL THAT

T H EMSELVES E N G E N D E R BWOS. IF THE STRATA ARE A CAN BE DESI RED. HAS BEEN, IS AND WILL BE.

M A TT E R OF C O A G U L A T I O N , OF S E D I M E N TATION FASC I S M I S DESI R E. C A N C E R I S D E S I R E . T H E A R M Y

U PON T H E BWO, A L L A STRATUM N EE D S I S A Q U I C K DESIRES I T S BWO. T H E PO LICE DESI R E I TS BWO. T H E

S E D I M E N TATION TO FO R M ITS SPECIFIC TUMOR STATE DESI R E S I T S BWO. TH E FA M I LY DESI R E S ITS

WITH I N ITSELF, OR IN A C E R TA I N FORM ATION OF BWO. DES I R E WENDS ITS WAY THROUGH THE

PARTICULAR APPARATUS: THE BWO OF TH E DA NGERS: I T C A N NOT WARD OFF T H E E M PTI E D A N D

STRATU M , W H I C H IS STI L L PART O F THE J U OG M E N T CANCEROUS BOD I E S W H I C H S U M M O N I T, EXC E PT BY

OF G O D . EVERY STRATUM H A S ITS HOLES, I T S L I N E S REACH ING THE PLA N E OF CON S I S T E N C Y WHICH

OF RECEDENCE AND M OV E M E N T S OF DETE R R I ­ DI SSOLVES T H E M AS I F I N ACID.

TOR I ALIZATION. T O B E S W A LLO W E D UP I N THESE

HOLES, NOT I N ORDER TO R E A C H TH E DESTRATI F I E D G I LLES DELEUZE A N D F E L I X G U ATTA R I

PLA N E OF CONS I STE N C Y B U T I N O R D E R T O PLUG TRA N S LATED BY SUZA N N E G U E RLAC

NOTES

TO HAVE DO N E WITH THE J U D G M E N T OF G O D . SEVERAL POINTS OF VI EW: THE H YPOCHO N D R I AC

SEMIOTEXT(E), VOL. n. NO. 3. 1 9 77, P. 6 1 . EX P E R I E N C E S. H I S O R G A N S A R E D E F I N I T I V E L Y

DESTROYE D WITHOUT ANY POSSI B LE R ESTORATION

2 J U LES COTARD: ETA RD S U R LES MALADIES CEREBRA· EXC E PT BY S I M ULACRUM: HE MONOLOG U E S AND

L E S ET M E N TA L E S . B R A I L L I E R E . 1 89 1 . COTA R D ACC U S E S H I MSELF I NSTEAD OF E N T E R I N G I NTO A

STRESSES T H E D I F F E R E NCE BETWE EN HYPOCHON­ D I A L OG U E WITH MORE OR LESS IMAGI NARY

DRIAC DELIRIUM AND PARANOI D D E L I R I UM FROM I N T E R LOCUTORS O R PE RSEC UTORS: H E I S N EGATI-

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S O U L , WITHOUT G O D ) W H E R E A S THE P A R A N O I A C I S "R EDUCES" THE M U L T I P L I C I TY IN "BRINGING IT

A " G R E A T ONTOLOGIST". BACK" T O T H E O N E . H E M A K E S H E L I OG A B A L U S SOM E

KIND OF H EG E L I A N . HE DOESN'T SEE THE MULTI·

DR. SCH R I B E R ' S MEMOIRS. QUOTED B Y S , FREUD, PliCITY A S GOING B E YOND ALL OPPOSITION F RO M

"NOTES ON A CASE OF P A R A NOIA". S.E" XII, p, 1 7, T H E B EG I N N I NG . A N D A BOVE A L L C A N C E L I N G A N Y

SUCH QUESTION. ANY D I A LECTI C A L MOV E M E N T

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F R O M T H E B EG I N N I NG ,
WILLIAM B U R ROUGHS, NAKED LUNCH, NEW YORK:

G ROVE PRESS, 1 9 59, P. 131,

6 A N TO N I N ARTAUD. "THE BODY IS THE BODY,"

A N TON I N A R TA U D, H E LIOGABALUS. O R T H E A N A R· SEMIOTEXTIE). O P . CIT. . P. 59.
C H I ST CROWNED IN SELECTED WRITINGS. NEW YORK:
FARRAR, ST R A U S AND GI ROUX. 1 9 76. AND YET

H E RE. CON C E R N I NG H E LI OG A B A LUS. A RT A U D STI LL 7 A RT A U D , A VOYAGE TO THE LAND DF TARA H U M A RA S

PRESE NTS US THE I D E NTITY O F THE ONE A N D T H E SELECTED WRITINGS. O P . C I T

FRONTIERS BROKEN

HOLLY GOLIGHTLY M E ETS THE WI L.D BOYS, OR W A S IT M E L. I N A M ERCOU R I 7 " N E G R O STREETS AT DOWN, O R

NOT," SHE SAID, ADJUSTI NG H E R DA RK GLASSES, "VAGI N A S U N D E R E V E R Y A R M . "

M I STER M A RG U L. I E S .

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"AT ORGASM, THE G R I M A C E A N D CONTORTION OF A THE PATI ENT IS WAITING IN KNEE-CHEST POSITION.

WOMAN'S FACE GRAPHICALLY EXPRESS THE I NCREMENT ELECTR ICA LLY POWE R E D PLASTIC P E N I SES ARE

OF M YOTO N I C TENSION THROUGHOUT THE ENTIRE READY FOR ACTION. THEY HAVE BEEN A D.JUSTED TO

BODY, THE M USCLES O F THE NECK A N D THE LONG HER SIZE. AND THEY N EVER FA I L,

M USCLES OF T H E ARM AND LEGS USUALLY CONTRACT

I NTO I N VOLUNTARY SPASM ' " THE PHYSIOLOGICAL THEY A R E NOT H U M A N .

ONSET OF ORGASM I S SIGNALED BY CONTRACTIONS OF

THE TARGET ORGANS, STARTI N G WITH T H E ORGASM I C

THE HUMAN ELEMENT H A SN'T A LTOG E T H E R
PLATFORM I N T H E O U T E R THIRD O F T H E VAGINA " ,
DISAPP E A R E D: T H E D E PTH AND RATE OF P E N I L E
ORGASM I C CONTRACTI O N S O F THE UTERUS HAVE BEEN
THRUST I S STI L L DETE R M I NED BY THE I N DI V I D U A L'S
RECORDED BY BOTH I NTRAUTE R I N E AND ABDOMI NALLY
OWN DEMA NDS. A S TENSION ELEVATES. R A P I D I TY
PLACED ELECTRODES, BOTH TEC H N I Q U E S I N D I CATE
OF THRUST I N C R E A S ES.
THAT THE UTERI N E CONTRACTIO N S HAVE ONSET

A L M O ST S I M U L TA N E O U S L Y WITH THOSE OF THE

THE MACH I N E N E V E R ORGASMS.
ORGASM I C PLATFOR M . , , "

A R TI F I C I A L C O I T A L T EC H N I Q U E S HAVE BEEN

CAMERA IN HAND, ELECTRODES IN POS I T I O N . VA STLY I M PROVED B Y RADIO PHYS I C I STS. PLASTIC

M ASTERS A N D .JOHN SON. YOU R I N T R E P I D REPOR­ PENISES F UNCTION A S PLATE GLASS. COLD- LIGHT

TERS, ARE ON THE SC E N E. M E A S U RING AND I L L U M I NATION A LLOWS OBSERVATION A N D RECORD­

RECORDING T H E ACTION. T H I S I S. T H E Y C L A I M I N THE ING WITHOUT D I STORTION. A N I M PARTIAL A PPROACH

PREFACE OF TH E I R STUDY, HUMAN SEXUAL TO H U M A N SEXUAL EXPERI ENCE CAN NOW BEGIN.

RESPONSE. "A F I R ST STEP TOW A R D A N OPEN -DOOR

POLICY." BUT WHAT DOES AN I M PARTI A L A PPROACH DO TO

HUMAN S E X U A LITY? WHAT DOES IT DO TO A P­

PROACH IT L I K E A N Y OTH ER PHENOM E NON. A N D A

SEX. A T LAST. IS WIDE OPEN. SEPARATE PH ENOM ENON AT THAT, IN THE COLD

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LIGHT OF TH E SEX LAB. TH ROUGH THE N A R ROW DESIRE DOE S N 'T STEM FROM I N T E R D I CTION. NOR IS

LENS AND TH E PEC U L I A R ANGLE OF THE PLATE IT ACCO M PA N I ED BY G U I LT O R SHAME. INDIAN

GLASS-LIKE PENIS7 MORALITY STRICTLY BANS SUCH B ELATED.

"CIVI LIZED" REACTIONS. SEXUA LITY R E M A I N S

ESSENTIALLY FESTI VE; THE I M PL I E D RULE IS

I F WE CAN A P P ROACH HUMAN SEXUA LITY AS A RAT.
" W H A T EV E R IS PLEASURABLE I S I N TR I N S I CA LL Y
A DEAD RAT. IT MAY BE THAT EVE RYWH E R E

S E X U A LITY IS LOOS I NG THE P L U R A L I TY OF GOOD.'"

D I M E N S I O N S -T H E VIOLENCE. THE JOY. THE

MYSTERY. THE T E R ROR. TH E EXUBERANCE-THAT EVERYTHING C H A N G ES WHEN MAN FA LLS PREY TO

HAVE MADE I T A TRULY H U MAN E X P E R I E NCE. H I S "CONSC I ENCE." BY FAR. AS N I ETZSC H E PUTS IT.

THE WEAK EST AND L E A ST C E R TA I N OF OUR

ORGA N S . M A N-TH E - P R E DATOR B ECOM E S TH E

WE KNOW EVE RYTHI N G ABOUT SEX. A N D WE'RE NOT

AFRA I D TO ASK. BUT IS I T WORTH ASKING W H E N " P R O U D A N I M A L." A LL T H E M O R E I N S E C U R E A BOUT

H I S OWN DOINGS THAT HE K E E PS M E A S U R I NG T H E M

E V E R Y TH I N G WE KNOW A BO U T SEX F U RT H E R

OBJECTIFIES IT? E R ECTION. C L ITORAL STI M U LATION.

AGA I N ST A D E S P E R ATELY I DOLIZED V E R S I O N O F

H I M S E LF. FROM A N A S S E RTIVE. C R E ATIVE ACTION.

ORAL SEX. P R E MATU R E E J A C ULATION. VAG I N A L
S E X G R A D U A LLY TU R N S I NTO A DOM ESTICATED A N D
ORGASM. A N A L I NTE RCOU RSE-WE KNOW IT A LL. W E
N A R C I S S I ST I C REACTION-A T R Y I N G TEST FOR
DON'T LOOK A T T H E K I NSEY R EPORT: WE WATCH THE

JOH N N Y CARSON SHOW. FRAG I L E EGOS.

AS SOCI ETY M A K E S S E X U A LITY I NTO A N OBJ ECTI VE.

"AUTONOMOUS" F U N CT I O N . IT I SO L A T E S TH E

INDIVIDUAL EVEN FURTHER BY M A K I NG SEX HIS

WE HAVE BECOM E VOY E U R S OF OUR OWN SEXUAL­
MOST PRI VATE POSSESSION A N D R E S PO NS I B I LITY
ITY. WE DON'T H I D E A NYTHI NG. ESPECIALLY FROM
W H I L E R E STITUTI N G I T PUBLICLY A R O U N D HIM AS A
STR A NG E RS. W E W E LC O M E PUBLIC I NSPECTI ON.
COLLECTIVE " A M B I A N C E . "

YOU W I LL N OT I C E HERE H OW THE RECTA L

TODAY S EX'S M A I N F U NCTION I S T O CATE R T O THE
SPHINCTER O F T H E F E M A L E SAMPLE CONTRACTS
EGO'S N E E DS. W H I C H ARE NOT SO M U C H I N STI NCT­
AND T E R M I N ATES. HOW THE B R E A STS' A R EOLAE­
UAL AS THEY ARE PRO M OTIONAL. SEX. L I K E THE
TH I S WAY. P L E A S E - R ET R A C T RAPI DLY AFTER
BODY. LIKE E V E RYTH I N G FOR T H A T MATTER. IS
ORGASM WH I LE THE S E X F L U S H SUBSIDES AND
B E I N G M A R KETED A T THE SA M E T I M E I T I S B E I N G
HYPERVENTI LATION G R A D U A LLY DECREASES . . .
" F R E E D."

OUR SOCIETY I S SATU RATED WITH SEX. BUT I S OUR

PRI M IT I V E C U LT U R E S R U T H L E SS L Y BRAND TH E
SEX REALLY SEXUAL7
FLESH OF TRIBESME N TO REMIND THEM WHERE

THEY B E LONG. W E A R E N O T C R U E L A N Y MORE-GOD

BY SEXUALITY I DON'T M E A N . OF COURSE. A S I M PLE.
FOR B I D - B U T WE D O N ' T B E LO N G A N Y W H E R E .
"NATURAL" ACTIVITY BUT A COMPLEX PHENO M E NON
E S P E C I A LLY I N O U R OWN BODY. W E A R E A PEOPLE
IN WHICH PHYSIOLOG I C A L. M ENTAL. A N D SOC I A L
WITHOUT A M E MORY. AND WITHOUT A FUTU RE. O U R
D I M E N S IONS CONSTANTLY O V E R L A P . EACH C U L­
ON LY NATU R A L G R O U N D I NG. OUR R E A L "STOCK" I S
TURE APPROPRIATES S E X U ALITY IN ITS OWN WAY.
I N T H E STOCK-EXCHANGE. OUR O N L Y V A L U E S L I E I N
BUT I N NO OTH ER SOCIETY HAS SEXUALI TY BEEN SO
THE VOL U M E A N D SPEED O F TRADING. THATS W H Y OUR
I N T I M ATELY PERMEATED WITH OR. R AT H E R .
" B R A N DS" A R E R E MOVABLE TAGS.
CONSTITUTED B Y SOC I A L R E P R E S ENTATIONS.

YANOMANI INDIANS OF V E N EZ U E L A CODIFY

S E X U A LI TY IN TER M S OF K I N S H I P. W H I C H A R E

R E P RESENTATIONS I N TH E I R OWN RIGHT. BUT THE SEX. IN OTH E R WORDS. IS B E I NG M A D E I NTO A SIGN.

YANOMANI ARE NOT OBSESSED WITH THEM A S W E

ARE. T H E Y F I N D W A Y S T O ACCOMMODATE TH E I R A S I G N R E P R E S E NTS THE EGO FOR A NOTH E R EGO.

MOST PRESSING INCLI NATIONS. E V E N W H E N THESE BUT W H A T IS THE EGO ITSELF. A FT E R A LL. IF NOT

DESIRES HAPPEN TO CONTRA DICT TH E PROH I B ITION A NOTH E R R E P R E S E NTATI ON7 A R E P R E S E NTATION

O F I NCEST. LOV E R S S I M P L Y D E C I D E TO " N A M E " R E P R E S E NTS A R E PR E S E NTATION FOR A N OTH E R

EACH OTH E R D I FF E R E NT L Y • • . THEIR SEXUAL R E P R E S ENTATION. C I R C U LA R ITY O F S I G N S : "SO

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TEENAGE FANTASY WALKING DOWN T H E STREET." MEANI NG T O PEOPLE:' 2
WRITES ANDY WARHOL. "IT'S PROBABLY NOT YOU R
FANTASY. BUT SOMEONE WHO H A D THE S A M E pop ITEM S DON'T HAVE TO M E A N ANYTHI NG TO
FANTASY AS YOU A N D D EC I D E D I N ST E A D O F PEOPLE. THEY A R E NOT CRYING FOR A QUESTION.
GETII NG I T O R B E I NG IT. T O LOOK LIKE IT. A N D S O H E FOR ALL-TOO-HUMAN QUESTIONS ("WHAT DOES SEX
W E N T T O T H E STORE A N D BOUGHT T H E LOOK THAT M EAN TO M E ?" ) . "HUMAN R ESPONSES" A R E A LWAYS
YOU BOTH LIKE. SO FORGET IT." UNHUMAN.

FORGETTI NG. OUR O N LY M EMORY. I F MASTERS AND JOH N SON'S BOOK H A D B E E N

T R U LY U N H U MA N A N D N O T J U ST OBJECTI V E . I T
THE I NDIVI D U A L'S STRONGEST NEED IS TO SIGNI FY. M IGHT H A V E B E E N QUITE EXCITI NG. U N H U M A N SEX
T H R O U G H T H E P R E C A R I O U S E X E R C I S E OF H I S AT LEAST WOULD HAVE BEEN DIFFERENT. EVEN
SEXUALITY. H I S DEGREE O F CONTROL O F H IMSELF H O L L Y W O O D I S G E TT I N G T I R E D OF R O U T I N E
AND T H E WOR L D . HIS VERY C R A V I N G FOR A P ­ SEXPLOITATlON: " M O V I E-GOE R S W A N T TO SEE
P R O V A L A N D R E C OG N I T I O N C O N D E M N S H I M . SOMETH ING SPECIAL. L I K E A SPACE S H I P COM I N G
H O W E V E R . TO P E R PETU A L D I SCONTENT. OBSES­ DOWN. A N D LAS E R B E A M S." DECLARES AN ACTRESS
S I VELY H E FOCUSES O N H I S SEXUA L I TY A S I F SEX FROM CLOSE ENCOUNTERS OF THE THIRD KIND. "TH EY
ITSELF COULD P RO T E C T H I M AGAINST T H E WANT TO EXPERIENCE FEAR A N D M YSTERY," 3 ONLY
F L O A T I N G A N X I ETY H I S O W N P E R FO R M A N C E TECHNOLOGY CAN STI L L MAKE US STAN D I N AWE
S I M U LTANEOUSLY C R YSTA LLIZES. A N D E X P E R I E N C E ANEW THESE P R I M ITIVE E M O­
TIONS. ONLY WHEN IT TA KES US SOMEWH ERE ELSE.

"TODAY WE SEEM A N I M ATED E XC LU S I V E LY BY FEAR. I N A NOTH E R SPACE. IN A NOTHE R D I M ENSION-"OUT

W E FEAR EVEN THAT WHICH I S GOOD. THAT WHICH IS OF THIS WORLD"-CAN SEX MAKE US EXPERIENCE

H E A LTHY. THAT WHICH IS JOYOUS:' W R I TE S H E N R Y FEAR A N D M YSTERY.

M I LL E R I N THE WORLD O F SEX. " A N D WHAT I S THE

H E RO? P R I M A R I LY O N E WHO H A S CONQUERED H I S ONE STEP F U RTH ER. AND OUR SEXOLOGISTS MAY
FEARS . . • H I S S I N G U L A R VIRTUE I S THAT H E H A S WELL HAVE PLANTED THEIR F LAG ON THE
BECO M E O N E W I T H LI FE. O N E W I T H H I M S E LF. HAVING EMERGING CONTI NENT O F SEXUAL TECHNOLOGY.
CEASED TO DOUBT A N D QUESTION. H E QUICKENS BUT THE BOOK NEVER G ETS THAT FAR. IT NEVER
T H E FLOW AND RHYTHM OF LI FE." R E A C H E S THE P O I N T W H E R E M A N ' S I D E N T I T Y
VACI LLATES I N T H E H A N DS OF T H E MACHINE.

ALL WE A R E L E FT W I T H . A T T H I S P O I N T IS A
HAUNTING Q UESTION. IT COMES. A P P ROPRIATELY. FAILING TO B E U N H U M A N . THE BOOK ALSO FAILS TO
F R O M T H E T H E M E S O N G OF H U M A N ' S E X U A L BE SIM PLY H U M A N . SOM EWHERE. UNDER THE COLD
RESPONSE. A BOSTON-BASED BAND: LIGHT O F SCIENCE. H U M A N SUBJECTS EXPERIENCE
FAILURES O R M U LTI PLE ORGAS M S IN THE HANDS O F
PROFESS I O N A L S U R ROGATES O R OTH E R WELL­
WHAT DOES SEX M EA N TO ME?
ADJUSTED M ECHANICAL MATES. BUT NOTH I NG I N
WHAT DOES SEX M EA N TO SOCIETY?
T H E BOOK B E T R A Y S T H E S U B J ECTS' S I L E N T
CONV U L S I O N S , T H E S E A R E J U S T SAM PLES O F
THE QUESTION IS ITS OWN ANSWER. WE HAVE NOT H U M A N R E S PO N S E S M EANT TO TEST I F Y FOR A
YET CONQU E R E D OUR FEARS. HUMANITY THAT WAS.

CASEY CAMERON. A S I NG E R OF TH E BAND. TOLD ANYONE. IN THE MEANTIME. CAN FIND HIS OWN BY
DON S H EWEY HOW HE THOUGHT OF ITS N A M E. H E LINGERI NG AMONG THIS GRAY C E METARY OF SIGNS.
W A S W O R K I N G I N A BOOKSTO R E A T T H E T I M E ANYONE C A N M A K E U P HIS OWN SEXUAL "PROFI LE"
M A S T E R S A N D J O H NSON'S BOOK W A S A B E ST­ BY CHECKING THE E M PTY BOXES AND COMPA R I N G
SELLER: "A LOT O F PEOPLE WOU L D COME IN A N D TH E E M PTY TRACES OF AN E M PTY PLEASUR E T O
ASK FOR THE B OO K RATH E R F U RTI V E LY . . • YOU T H E VA I N PASSION OF H I S O W N I DENTITY.
COU L D JUST SEE THE DISA PPOI NTMENT WILT THE I R
FACE W H E N T H E Y LOOKE D THROUGH IT. BECAUSE I T
WAS SO BOR I N G . I THOUGHT I T WAS A FUNNY
COMM E NTAR Y O N THE SOCI ETY; IT WAS SUCH A POP
ITEM-THE FI RST BOOK WITH THE 'SEX' IN THE TITLE WE DON'T ACTUALLY N EED TO ROAR THROUGH

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SPACE. OUT OF OUR OWN I DENTITY. A HONDA T H E COLLECTIV E MECHANISMS ( L I K E SACRIFICE,
GOLDWI NG 1 000 WILL DO. "FEAR AND M YSTERY" I NITIATION, C A N N I BA LI S M ) P R I MITIVE SOC I ETIES USE
DOESN'T MEAN GOING PLACES-EROTIC TRAVEL­ TO P R EVENT T H E E M ERGENCE I N THEIR M I DST OF
OGUE-BUT BECO M I NG OUT OF PLACE. COLLA PSING SUCH A THING AS I ND I V I D U A L I TY-A N D W I T H
INDIVIDUAL TI M E A N D SPACE IN THE VECTOR OF I N DI V I D U A LITY T H E D I V I S IONS, H I ERARCHIES,
MOVEM ENT. OPPRESSION A N D E X P LOITATION THAT MAKE U P
" H U M A N " H I STORY.

IT I SN'T TH E M A C H I N E ITSELF THAT I S E ROTIC. IT IS

THE VI OLENCE OF SPEED AND FEAR AND FUSION THAT
GOES WITH IT. " A N D T H E F E E L I N G OF U TT E R
EXHI LARATION A S YOU G U I D E THE BIG MACH I N E WE'VE REACHED THE OTH E R END OF THE LINE.
THROUGH TRAFFIC . . . , CONTROLLING T H E BEAST WE'RE NOW B L I N DLY TRYING TO BREAK OPEN THE
WITH YOU R BODY AS MUCH AS WITH TH E CONTROLS C U M B E RSOME CARAPACE OF THE EGO I N ORDER TO
. . . AND TH I N K I NG HOW M UC H GREATER THIS FEELS R E E STABLISH OU RSELVES AS PART OF A NATU R E
THAN FLYING A PLA N E , . . A LMOST A S E X U A L THAT, I N THE M E A N T I M E , I S FAST DISA PPEA R I NG. AT
TH RI LL.'" W H A T I S TR U LY EROTIC IS TO BE O N E WITH THIS POI NT TECHNOLOGY MAY WELL BE THE ONLY
TH E MACH I N E , ONE WITH THE BEAST-FLY I NG AT NATURE W E HAVE LEFT, A LTHOUGH TECH NOPH I L I C
H IGH SPEED AWAY FROM THI S DOM ESTICATION OF INTENSITY (SPEED A N D F U S I O N ) A UTOMATICALLY
OUR BODY AND OUR S E N S E S THAT W E C A L L L I B E R A T E S A L L T H E OTH E R POT E N TI A L I T I E S OF
H U M A NITY. BECOMING (BECOMI N G A N I M A L, OR PLA NT, O R TH I NG)
THAT A R E C LO S E L Y C LO S E T E D IN WHAT T H E
W E S H O U L D N 'T BE S U R P R I S E D TO D I S C O V E R C U LTURE KEEPS CALLI NG-GOD KNOWS WHY-THE
I N T I M ATELY W E L D E D TOG ETH E R I N T H E MOTOR­ FREE I N D I V I D U A L.
CYC LE E X H I L A R A T I O N , TWO "CO N T R A D I C TO R Y"
D I M E N SIONS-BEAST, M A C H I N E-OF S E X U A L EX· " I F WE COULD J U ST LEAVE WELL ENOUGH ALONE,"
PERIENCE. THE CONTRADICTION ONLY EXI STS IN COM M E NTS L A R R Y B A N GOR, L E A D S I N G E R A N D
RATION A L TE R M S THOUGH, AS SOON AS A C E RTA I N WRITER OF H U M A N SEXUAL RESPONSE, "WE M IGHT
L E V E L O F I N T E N S I TY ( T E R R O R , V E LOC I T Y ) I S B E ABLE TO H A N DLE TH I NGS A S EASI LY AS A N I MALS
REACHED, SEXUA LITY LOSE S I T S RATIONALITY, A N D DO W H E N THEY'RE JUST L I C K I NG EACH OTH E R AND
CATEGOR I ES T H E I R PERTI N E NCE, PU R E L Y I N D I ­ PICKING BUGS." BUT T H E FREE I N D I V I D U A L-THAT
VIDUAL D I M E N S IONS, W H I C H ENDLESSLY REQUI R E A SCA R E D/SAC R E D COW-CANNOT LIVE A LONE, OR
MEAN I NG ("WHAT DOES S E X MEAN . . . "), DISSOLVE L E A V E A N YO N E A LO N E S I N C E HE IS ENTIRELY
INTO A STATE OF U N L I M ITED BECOMI NG. DEPEN DENT F O R H I S E X I STENCE UPON WHATEVER
JUDGEM ENT, REAL OR I MAGI N A RY, THAT I S BEING
MAN DOESN'T ACTUA LLY BECO M E AN A N I M A L, NOR PASSED ONTO H I M .
DOES H E BECOM E A M AC H I N E: THE FEAR A N D
MYSTERY O F SEXUA LITY DON'T RESULT FROM M A N T H E I N D I V I DU A L'S L I F E I S AN E N DLESS POPULARITY
BECO M I N G SOMETHING ELSE A N D ACQU I R I NG CONTEST. "LOVE M E , LOVE M E , " T H I S ABJECT
A NOTH E R I D E N T I T Y , T H E Y R E S U LT F R O M H I S R EQ U E ST I N ST I L L E D B Y T H E C U LT U R E I S H A M ·
HES ITATION BETWEEN G E N D E R S A N D S P E C I E S ­ M E R E D ON O U R SENSES, ON O U R "FEELI NGS," AS
BEING ALIEN T O HIS O W N SPECIES A S W E L L A S TO THEY SAY, L I K E DI SCO-MUSIC ON F M RADIO EVERY
OTHER SPECIES: USING OTH E R SPECIES IN ORDER TO FRI DAY N IGHT. "BE YOU R S E LF, B E POPULAR, HAVE
GET R I D OF T H E L I M I TATIONS A N D EXCLUSIONS OF FUN": THIS IS HOW, IN THE ABSENCE OF ANY
ONE'S OWN. TRADITION, T H E C U LT U R E TRAI N S ITS C H I LDREN.
THIS IS HOW W E B RA N D OUR OWN WITH TH E

THIS IS, AFTER ALL, THE FUNCTION OF TOTEM I S M I N I ND E L I BLE SEA L OF I N S E C U RITY A N D S U B MISSION,

PRIMITIVE SOCI ETIES. CONTRA R Y TO CLAUDE L E VI.

S T R A U S S ' A S S U M PT I O N S , T O T E M I S M I S N ' T A I F THE INDIVIDUAL IS A S OC I A L O B J E C T - A
STRUCTUR A L DEVICE BY WHICH MAN USES NATURE R E P R E S S E D A N D REPRESSIVE P R O D U C T OF TH E
I N ORDER TO S E PA RATE H I M S E LF FROM IT, I T IS, ON C U LTURE-, WHY NOT AT LEAST SUBSTITUTE FOR
TH E CONTRA RY, THE R I TUA LIZED EXPERIENCE B Y H I M A NOTH E R OBJECT (A P I ECE OF FURNITURE, FOR
W H I C H PRIMITIVE SOC I ETIES MAKE SURE M A N ISN'T I N STANCE) OR RATH E R USE HIM LIKE AN OBJECT,
GOING TO SEPARATE HIMSELF FROM NATURE ANYMORE L I K E AN A N I MA L, IN ORDER TO TEAR H I M AWAY FROM
THAN SETTING H I M SE L F APART FROM THE OTHER H I S PAR A LY2ING H U M A N ITY:

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"NOW TURN ME O N TH ERE IS A VIOLENCE O F SC I E N C E, B UT THAT

A N D I'LL RESPO N D TO Y O U VIOLENCE ISN'T M EANT TO BRINGING THE "SAM PLES"

LIKE A H U M A N B E I N G , TO A P E AK-AT T H E MOST TO G I V E TH E M THE

B U T THAT'S N O T R E A LLY TRUE," "GRATIFICATION" OF A SUCCESS F U L ORGASM. TH E

VIOLENCE OF OBJECn VlrY AMOUNTS TO DENYING

THE ANIMAL IN MAN W H I L E S I M U LT A N E O U S L Y

BANGOR'S UNOFFICI A L THEME SONG FOR H U M A N
RELEGATI NG M A N TO TH E STIM U LUS-AND-RESPONSE
SEXUAL RESPONSE, HE E X P LA I N S , IS ABOUT
STATUS OF A N AUTOMATON OR A G U I N E A PIG,
"CROSSING THE H U M AN /A N I M A L B A R R I E R, W H I C H IS

A FAVORITE TH E M E OF M I N E, HUMANS B E I N G LI K E

A N I M A LS A N D EVOLV I N G TOWA RD F U R N ITURE, T H E THE "SAVAGE" PART OF H U M A N SEXUALlrY, TH E

MOST NOBLE TH I N G A H U M A N B E I N G CAN 00 IS ACT TER ROR AND MYSTERY ATTACH E D TO A SI LENT,

AS FURNITURE FOR SOM EO N E ELSE," SINCE WE I R RATI O N A L B E H A V I O R A B E R R A T I O N S T I L L R E ­

CAN'T H A N DLE T H I NGS A S EASILY AS A N I MA LS, "TH E TURNS IN MONSTROUS, U N H U M A N FOR M S WHEN­

CLOSEST WE C A N COME TO THAT IS T H E F U R NITU R E EVER R E ASON S LU M BE R S (WE C A L L TH IS: THE

IDEA AND TH E S E POO R ATTEM PTS AT A N I M A L UNCONSCIOUS), BUT OUR SEXUA LlrY, LIKE PETS AT

I N T I M AC Y T H R O U G H S E X U A L I TY-POOR B E C A U S E HOME, OR GA DGETS IN THE K I TC H E N , O R T H E

IT'S NOT A REGULAR EVERYDAY B EHAVIOR U NCONSCIOUS ON TH E COUC H , IS BY N O W SO

PATTER N . Irs M O R E L I K E T H I S SPORADIC BEHAVIOR THORO U G H LY DOMESTICATED BY T H E C U LTU R E

ABER RATION." THAT I T C A N BE TESTED T O DEATH I N TH E LAB, O R

F L A TT E N E D OUT IN TH E " R E A L" WORLD OF

Q U E ST I O N N A I R E S AND STA T I S T I C S WITHOUT

"TREAT ME LIKE A N OBJECT," - "FUCK ME LIKE A
AROUSI NG I N U S A N Y SENSE O F OUTRAGE-oR AN
DOG, L I K E TH E PIG I AM." - " M A K E ME F E E L L I K E A N
I R R E PRESSIBLE LAUGHTER.
A N I M A L": T H E W H O L E T H E MATICS I S R E PEATED

OVER A N D OVE R AGAIN IN HEAVY GAY S8cM. THIS

ISN'T, HOWEVER, A SPECIALIZED OBSESSION, THE

SYMBOL COM ES U P WH E N EVER PEOPLE STRI V E TO

BE BROUGHT TO A P E A K A N D R EACH (THROUGH THE AGE OF THE CANOY SHOP

BEATING, OR A N Y OTH E R MEANS) A C E RTA I N

GRADIENT O F I NTENSITY THAT WOU L D STR I P THEM

OF THEIR PSYC HOLOG I C A L D E F E N S ES-OF THE

"FREE" I NDIVI D U A LITY THE SOCI ETY PRESE NTS AS

"WE SHOULD B E G R ATE FUL THAT
ITS MOST ENVI A B L E ACH I EVEM ENT.
WE LIVE I N A N AGE WHEN MATURE

PEOPLE HAVE A FORU M SUCH AS

THE EXPERIENCE DOESN'T HAVE TO BE EXCLUSIVE­
YOUR MAGAZI N E IN W H I C H TO
LY SEXUAL. "WH E N PEOPLE SAY 'TREAT ME LIKE AN
SHARE T H E I R D I SCOV E R I E S IN THE
A N I MAL,' THEY ONLY WANT PART OF TH E ROLE,"
BO U N D L E S S WO R L D OF PLEA­
ESTIMATES JOHN P R ESTON. ''TH EY ONLY WANT IT I N
SURE."
A SEXUAL CONTEXT, I T GOES WAY BEYOND THAT:' B

THE PENTHOUSE LETTERS

I RO N I CA LLY, M A ST E R S A N D JOH NSON'S E X P E R I ­

M E NTS A LSO G O WAY B E YO N D HUMAN SEXUAL

CONTEXT S I N C E THEY LITERALLY TREAT H U MA N S

L I K E A N I M A LS,
GON E ARE THE DAYS WHEN THE A NONYMOUS

AUTHOR OF MY SECRET L I F E COULD WON D E R I F ALL

P R I M ITIVE SOC I ETI E S SHOWED MORE R E S P ECT TO
MEN SHARED HIS STR A N G E "LETC H ES," HOPING
A N I MALS THAN WE DO TO H U M A NS. THEY DIDN'T
THAT HIS OWN EXPERI ENCE, IF PRI NTED, WOULD
CON S I D E R A N I M A LS AS D E B A S E D OR I N F E R I O R .
ENA BLE OTH E R S TO COM P A R E , A S HE H I M S E L F
A N I MALS WERE D E E M E D S A C R E D ENOUGH TO B E
COULDN'T.
SACRIFICED IN A COLLECTIVE R I T U A L, OR

ELEVATED T O T H E RA N K OF TOT E M . WE DON 'T

WE KNOW FOR A FACT THAT ALL M E N , AND WOM EN
SAC R I F I C E ANYT HI NG A NYMORE, ESPECIALLY NOT
TOO, SHA R E HIS PASSIONS. BUT TH EY A R E N'T THAT
H U MANS, BUT WE TREAT THEM L I K E DI RT AND WE
STRANGE ANYMORE.
LOWER OURSELVES TO T H E LEVEL O F A PAVLOVIAN

DOG. THIS IS WHAT WE CALL " H U M A N I SM," AND

" H U M A N SCIENCES:' TH ERE ARE NO SECRET LIVES-NO MORE SECRETS,

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PENTHOUSE R E A D E R S A R E MORE THAN W I LLING TO WOM E N WHO ORGASM MORE FREQUE NTLY, DR,

SHARE TH E I R OWN DISCOVE R I ES I N TH E "BOU ND­ KASSORLA R ECOG N I ZE S SQUA R E LY, A R E BETTER
LESS WORLD" OF SEX, THE ERA OF THE G R EAT ABLE TO FOC U S O N THEIR N O R M A L ACTI VITIES,

EXPLORERS, HOWEVER, I S D E F I NITELY OVER, THEY TEND TO BE "MORE SUCCESSFUL, MORE

MOTIVATED, AND MORE ABLE T O E X P R E SS FEEL­

TH E SECRET VICTOR I A N GENTLEMAN WAS I M B U E D INGS OF S E L F-WORTH AND S E LF- E ST E E M , T H E Y

WITH TH E I M PORTANCE OF H I S M I SSION, HE T R U L Y F E E L PEACEFUL, R ELAXED, A N D ENTH U S E D ABOUT

L I V E D F O R SEX ALON E, L I K E R E N E C A I LL E , H E W A S PARTICI PATI NG IN WORK AND FAM I LY ACTIVITI ES,"

E X P LO R I N G A FOR B I D D E N CONTI NENT DRESSED I N (SEE A BOVE TH E PENTHOUSE H A P PY SLAVE, SOM E

A R A B S H I RT, REACHING THE S I LENT T I M B U KTU OF PEOPLE A R E R E A LLY LOO K I NG FOR IT.! NO ONE CAN

SEX AT T H E PERIL OF HIS L I F E , TA KE AWAY YOUR " I N A L I E N A B LE R I G Hr' TO SEXUAL

F U L F I L L M E NT, THE R E NOWN E D P S Y C H O L OG I S T

CONCLUDES, SHOWING TH E FLAG,

PENTHOUSE R E A D E R S DO N ' T GO FOR T H E ABYSSES
IN H U M A N NATURE, THEY ARE TOU R I STS O F SEX,

TA K I N G S N A P SHOTS AT THE W I NDING A M AZONS OF F UC K I N G'S THE C U R E, FOLKS.

HUMAN SEXUAL R E S PO N S E FROM THE P LA N E

W I N DOW, TO SHOW THE FOLKS BACK HOME. "EVE RYON E I S ENTITLED TO EN.JOY THE FEAST OF

S E X U A L I TY, A N D ANYONE CAN LEARN HOW TO ENJOY

T H E Y DON'T E X PLORE S E X U A L I TY, THEY EXCHANGE IT," SHE ADDS, ENCOURAGING H E R " M I LLIONS OF

R EC I PES, VIEWERS" (HER AD AGAIN), WHAT A BO U T THE

M I LLIONS OF ROBOTS A L L OVER TH E COUNTRY?

THEY TOO ARE PEAC E F U L. AND MOTIVATED, A N D

A R E A D E R R E LATES HOW HIS WIFE DI PS HIS PENIS I N
"ENTH U S E D" ABOUT W O R K , T H E Y T OO C O U L D START
A S U G A R-HON EY M I XTURE, T H E N WRAPS A TOWE L
CONCENTRATING ON TH E M S E LVES. AS SHE ADVISES
F I L L E D WITH I C E CUBES A ROU ND I T , FREEZING TH I S
HER NICE G I RLS TO DO. AND ZERO I N ON T H E I R OWN
" D E L I G H T F U L L Y TA STY DISH," HE I N T U R N PRE­
P L EA S U R A B LE S E N SATIONS.
PARES A TINY P I ZZA- L I K E C R EATION WHICH HE

I N S E RT S IN HER VAGI N A B E FO R E B E DT I M E , "I

C A N NOT B EG I N TO TELL YOU," H E CONC LUDES, "HOW THERE I S N O G U A R A N T E E THOUGH THAT ROBOTS

THIS M UT U A L C U L I N A RY C R E ATIVITY HAS H E L P E D WOU LD EVER A C H I E V E TOTAL SEXUAL SATISFACTION.

OUR SEX L I V E S," ( H E A LSO A DMITS THEY G A I N E D THEY A I N'T N E U ROTIC E NOUGH FOR THAT,

M O R E THAN 1 0 LBS.!

M A K I NG I T ON TOP OF THE TV SET-DR OVER TH E

"A HAPPIER SEX LIFE HAS M ADE ME A BETTER AQU A R I U M . G E N I TALS DANGLING IN THE WATER FOR

HOUSEKEEPER, MOTH E R , AND W I FE," A READER T H E FISH TO N I BBLE-ADDS "MUCH STRENGTH TO

PROUDLY A N NOUNCES BETW E E N TWO HOT HAIR­ O U R S E X LIFE," PROCLA I M S A NOTHE R PENTHOUSE

B R U S H SESSIONS W I TH H E R H USBAND, R E A D E R W I TH A SIGH OF RELIEF, THE FALTER I N G

E R EC T I O N OF A H A R A SSED BUSINESSMAN IS

B RO U G H T "BACK TO N O R M A L" B Y H I S CHANCE

OR, I R E N E KASSORLA, THE "RENOWNED, I N NOVATIV E
D I SCOVE R Y OF TH E PU LSATING PROPERTI ES OF A
PSYCHOLOGI ST," .JOI N S I N THE HOSA N N A , YES, S H E
T U N I NG FORK, ANOTH E R B EDROOM VI RTUOSO PAYS
PROC LA I M S IN HER RECENT MASTERPI ECE, NICE
A MOV I N G HOMAGE TO HIS SAXOPHONE, IT HAS
GI RLS DO, R E P E ATEDLY ADVERTISED ON A FULL
BECOME. H E WRITES, "A T H I R D PARTY I N OUR SEX
PAGE OF TH E N EW YORK TI MES. "N ICE G I R LS DO HAVE
L I F E AND J U ST T H E S I G H T OF I T M A K E S M Y W I F E GO
SEXUAL FANTA S I E S , . . N I C E G I RLS DO EN.JOY SEX,"

S U C H A N I C E D I SCOVERY. WE'RE SURE GLAD T H E R E N UTS,"

IS AN I N NOVA T I V E PSYCHOLOGIST T O FIGHT FOR

THE CAUSE, ARE WE W I T N E S S I NG THE DAWN OF A N EW

"TROI L I S M"-MY W I FE, MY BATTE R Y A N D I ?

AFTER A DECADE OF WOMAN'S LIB, NICE G I R LS, I T

S E E M S, STI LL A R E " A WALKING MASS O F S E N S U A L THE TECHNOPH I L I C R E VOLUTION IS S I LENTLY

G U I LT," WHAT S H O U L D N I C E G I RLS DO THEN? T H E GAINING MOM E N T U M A M ONG THE MASSES, SOON

ANSWER I S S H O RT, B U T POI NTED, IT TAKES FOU R EVERYW H E R E SEX WILL BE FULLY A UTOMATIZED,

LETTERS AND A LOT OF COURAGE TO EX PLODE M I LLIONS OF NICE G I RLS WILL ORGASM IN U N I SO N

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BEFORE S E TT L. I N G FOR S W E E T S I X- S I XTY-TH R E E

SEX A L. R E A D Y EXTENDS FAR B EY O N D HUMAN WHO W I L. L. SATISFY HER N E EDS "FOR L.OVE A N D S E X

REACH. WHAT REMAINS "HUMAN," HOWEVER. IS WITH THE S A M E MAN."

E V E R YO N E 'S OBSESSIVE CONCE R N F O R TH E I R

N IGHTI M E DIET-TH E I R "SEX L.IVES." COM PUL.SION H A S GONE PUBL.IC, A N D S E X COM P U L.­

SORY. SO M U C H SO THAT WE A R E L.EFT WON D E R I N G

SEX IS NO L.ON G E R A PART OF L.lFE: I T I S L.IFE, W H Y A N YO N E SHOUL.D E V E N BOTH E R DOCU M E N T I N G

RATH ER, WHICH IS A PART OF SEX: "UNTIL. A M A N F I V E H U N DR E D L.AZY L.A YS.

HAS SPENT S E V E R A L. M I N UT E S S L.O W L. Y AND

L.OV I N G L.Y I N S ERTING H I S F I N G E R I N TO H I S L.OVE'S THERE IS A M O R A L. TO R A C H E L. E N G L. I S H ' S

B E H I N D TO L.UBRICATE A N D R E L.A X IT," EXCL.A I M S A A R I TH M ETIC THOUGH. I T POPS U P I N H E R I N S P I R E D

BORN-AG A I N MECHANIC, "HE H ASN'T L.IVED." YES, E P I L.OGU E : " A FTER FEEU NG L. I K E THE C H I L. D I N T H E

SEX I S L.IFE�ROSE SEL.AVY. BUT WHAT H A PPENS TO C A N D Y SHOP WITH A NEW L. I N E OF C R E DIT, O N E M A Y

L. I F E IF SEX I S I N S H A M B L.ES? D I SCOVE R THAT S E X I S A NATU R A L., R E PETIT I V E

BODIL.Y F UNCTION L. I K E E A T I N G A N D S L. E E P I N G , A N D

"WE TR I E D TO I M PROVE OUR E ROTIC STI M UL.I TO T H A T C O N D I T I O N A L. RUL.ES ON ITS B E H A V I O R A R E

EACH OTHER." A DISCI PL.E OF PAVL.OV ROM ANTI­ U N FOUN DED."

C A L. L. Y R E C A L. L. S . "I'VE MADE A CAREER OF

B U I L.D I N G MY H U S B A N D' S H A RD-ONS . . •" ECHOES A CANDIED SEX, CANDID THO U G H T. HOW MUCH

M I L.ITANT HOUSEWIFE. SO WE'RE L.EFT WITH OUR SEX ARTI FICE D I D I T TAKE U S TO COME T O TH I S NATURAL

L.IVES D A NGL.I N G A T THE TIPS OF O U R FI NGERS, CONCL.USION?

F R A I L. F L. O W E R S OF F L. E S H - R O S E , E ROS-WE

CONSTA N TL.Y H A V E T O R E L.A X A N D L.UBRICATE FOR

FEAR IT W I L.L. B R E A K DOWN A L.TOGETH E R .

TO STA RT WITH, EATING IS NOT A S N ATU R A L. A

M Y SEX L.I FE. Y O U R S E X L.IFE. O U R SEX L. I V E S . . .
FU NCTION AS IT SOU NDS. M A U NOWSKI OBSERVES
TER RI B L.E L.ITAN Y THAT ACCOM P A NI ES WHATEVER
THAT FOR TROB R I A N D ISL.ANDERS, EATING I S IN N O
WE 00 L.IKE A N EXORCI S M -<:> R EXAM.
WAY R E G A R D E D AS I N D I S P E N S I B L. E TO L. I F E . IN

FACT. HE ASSERTS, "THEY HAVE N O I DE A THAT

"HOW'S YOU SEX L.IFE TODAY?" THE THERA PIST ASKS TH ERE I S SUCH A THING AS PHYSIOL.OG I C A L. N E E D
WITH A KNOW I N G L.ooK, H A N D I N G HIS PATI ENT A BOX FOR A L.l M E NTATI ON, OR THAT T H E BODY I S B U I L.T U P
OF KL.EENEX. ON FOOD." ONE EATS S I M PL.Y BECAUSE ONE IS

H U NG R Y OR G R E E DY.

"JUST AWFUL.." - "TER R I FIC, HOPE IT L.ASTS." -

"SOMEWHAT I M PROVED." - "NONE TOO EXCITI NG . . . " FOR I S L. A N DERS, SEX IS NOT A NATURAL. FU NCTION

L.IKE EATING, BUT EATING A N U N N A T U R A L. FU NCTION

"HOW M A N Y T I M ES A W E EK?" L.IKE SEX. AND I T I S TO BE PERFORM E D P R I VATE L.Y,

IN SECL.USION, JUST L. I K E SEX, TO F E N D OFF A N Y

DANGER.
B L. A N K FACE, EYES F I L. L. E D WITH T R E M B L. I N G

C I PHERS. "M Y S E X L. I F E . • ."

SEXUAL.ITY H A S A L.WAYS BEEN A H I GH L.Y COD I F I E D

A N D RITUAL.IZED ACTI VITY I N H U M A N A S W E L.L. A S

SEX HAVE M E RCY U PO N US.
A N I MA L. SOC I ETIES WHERE MATI NG PATTE R N S OBEY

A STRICT SUCCESSION OF SIGNAL.S SPECIFIC TO

EACH SPECIES. THE PRESENT D I SCOVERY OF SEX

RACHEL. ENGL.ISH, T H E A UTHOR OF M Y FIRST 500, A
e AS A "NATURAL. FUNCTION" R E S U L.TS FROM THE
FAST S E X A UTOBI OG R A PHY, IS SOM ETH I NG OF A
BREAKING DOWN OF SOCIAL. CODES, THE DECAY O F
PROFESSI O N A L.. I N O R D E R TO K E E P TRACK OF H E R
COL.L.ECTIVE STRUCTURES. A N D T H E DECA DENCE
FL.EETI NG A R M Y OF L.OV E RS, SHE RESORTED TO
OF MORES U N D E R TH E L.EV E L. L. I N G P R E SS U R E OF
I SS U I N G N U M B E R S . S H A L. L. WE SAY, PARAPHRASING
KAPITA L..
TH E I N TRODUCTION TO M Y SECRET UFE. THAT W E

HAVE B E FO R E US A NOTH E R RECORD OF ''TH E

E R OT I C L. I FE OF A P R O FO U N D L. Y C O M P U L. S I V E ANTHROPOL.OGI STS M A I NTAI N THAT THE A B S E N C E

P E R S O N"? H A R D L. Y SO. J U ST TH E ORDINARY OF AL.L. RESTRAI NTS, R UL.ES, A N D V A L. U E S C A NNOT

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E X I ST IN ANY C U LT U R E , HOWEVER DEGRADED OR OUR SOC I ETY. SEX IS NOT N A T U R A L, IT IS AS

D E C A D E N T IT MAY BE, THEY A R E RIG HT, OF COURSE, H Y P E R R E A L- A S MADE U P-AS M AC ROBIOTIC FOOD,

MORAL R E S T R A I NTS HAVE NOT A LTOG E T H E R

D I S A P P E A R E D FROM O U R SOCI ETI ES, THE FA M I LY, A NEW M A L E COLOG N E , R E C ENTLY A D V E R T I S E D I N

H O W E V E R , I S TOO MORI B U N D, PA RENTAL A UTHORITY F A S H I O N MAGAZI N ES, M I X E S THE ACTU A L S M E L L O F
AND RELIGIOUS VALUES TOO FAR GON E TO BE P E R S P I R ATION WITH A C H E M I C A L. G E N E RO U S L Y
FO R C E D BACK P E R M A N E N TLY IN TO AN A RC H A I C A P P L I E D A FT E R YOUR D A I LY DEODORANT, I T W I L L
MOLD, THE B R I DE H A S B E E N STR I P P E D B A R E B Y D R I V E Y O U R LOV E R A BSOLUTELY W I LD.
K A PITAL, E V E N ,

THAT'S HOW W E L I K E IT: R A U NCHY, BUT C L E A N . W I LD ,

WHETHER WE LIKE IT OR N O T, THE LAW OF BUT S A F E . T H E R E A L T H I NG, BUT A LL M A D E U P .
EXC H A N G E D E L I N E A T E S TH E HORIZON O F TH E

SEXUAL R E VOLUTI O N , NO WON D E R SEXUAL

TH AT'S HOW WE LIKE E V ERYTH I NG : THE B E ST
R E VOLUTION, TOO, I S TU R N I N G INWARD LIKE AN
R E A L I TY MON E Y C A N B U Y .
I NG ROWN N A I L,

T H E GOLDEN R U L E OF L I B E R A L CAPITA L I S M IS TO
MOA NS O F P LE A S U R E K E E P F I L L I N G T H E A I R - A R E
TU R N A BLIND EYE TO E V E RYTH I NG T H AT'S
THEY REAL OR IMAGI NARY7 ARE THEY THE
M A R KETABLE, NO M O R A L TA BOO C A N H O L D TOO
SUCCE S S F U L S I M U LA C R U M OF A F E M A L E ORGASM
LONG A G A I NST THE I N C R E D I B LE PRESSURE TO
OR T H E I N D I SC R E ET R ECORDI NG OF T H E ACT U A L
I N C O R P O R A T E , I N ST R U M E N T A L I Z E , A N D E X H I B I T
PHYSIOLOGICA L E V ENT7 T H E E N O R M I TY O F F E M A L E
PARTS H I TH E RTO K E PT OUT O F SIGHT OR CARE­
ORGASM ON FM R A D IOS I S S U C H THAT IT T R A N ­
FULLY CON F I N E D TO T H E M A R G I NS.
SC E N DS A N Y H U M A N A G E N T OR R E A LITY. ( M A L E S

A R E N'T THAT CONC ERNED WITH THEIR OWN

THE BODY OF KAPITAL IS A POLY M O R P H O U S ORGAS M I C A TTA I N M E NTS. THEY ARE TOO BUSY
PERVERSE BODY V I RT U A L L Y FREED FROM ANY M A I NTA I N I NG T H E E R EC T FACADE.!
I M P E D I M ENT, CONSTA N TLY E X P LO R I NG NEW

ITI N ER A R I ES, R EACH I N G OUT ON ALL SIDES

FEMALE O R G A S M I S A C H A LL E N G E TO BOTH SEXES.
W I T H O U T C O M M ITTI N G I T S E L F T O A N Y - A LW A Y S
IT HOV E R S IN THE A I R, IN THE R E A L M OF PURE
R E A DY, HOW E V E R , T O B R I NG B A C K I NTO TH E FOLD
ESSENCES. LIKE THE M USIC OF THE S P H E R ES-A
OF N O R M A LITY W H ATEVER "PE RVERSION" IT C A N
M AG N I F I E D MODEL O F EROTIC A C HI E V E M E NT FOR
B E N E FIT FROM.
E V ERYON E TO PEG U PON TH E I R D E S I R ES, TH E I R

FANTA S I ES. A N D TH E I R GROW I N G A N X I ETIES.

C H I LD R E N SHOULD BE PROTECTED FROM M E N'S

STRA NG E LETC H ES, BUT PRETTY BABIES ARE SO

M A L E A N X I ET I E S , H OW E V E R . W I L L SOON B E OVER. I N
SEXY . . .
A FEW M O N T H S A N YO N E W I LL B E A B L E TO B U Y A N

E R ECTION, OR EVEN RENT ONE BY THE MONTH.

TH I S DOESN'T MEAN, OF COURSE. THAT SEXUAL
R E N T - A N - I M P L A N T© AND ECO N O M Y E R EC T I O N ©
PO L Y M O R PH I S M I S I N T R I N S I C A LLY C A P I TA L I ST I C ,
A L R E A DY OPE RATE I N TWENTY CITIES I N TH E U . S .
S I M PLY T H A T K A PITA L PROV I DES TH E R E A L B A S I S
A N D C A N A DA . T H E D E V I C E I S QUITE S I M PLE. ALL IT
F O R I T S EXISTENCE.
TA K E S I S A S I L I CO N E ROD I N S ERTED I N E A C H OF

THE CORPORA C A V E R NOSA. NO O N E C A N TELL T H E

KAPITAL TH R I V E S ON CONTRADICTIONS. ITS DIFFERENCE, EVEN UNDER CLOSE SC R U T I N Y .
DY N A M I S M C L E A R LY L I E S T H E R E . TH E RIGHT H A N D I N STA LLATION I S F R E E.
DO E S N'T K NOW WHAT T H E L E FT IS DOING, ESPE­

C I A L L Y IF TH E R E A R E AT LEAST TWO DOZEN H A N DS

T H E R E' S ONLY ONE M I NOR DRAWBACK: THE
EXT E N D E D IN EVERY POSSI BL E DIR ECTION, LIKE
E R ECTION IS P E R M A N ENT. M A N Y OF O U R C USTO­
B U D D H A'S,
M E R S WON'T M I N D IT AT A LL. T H E Y H A V E TO CATC H

U P WITH T H E T I M ES.

W H A T H AS B E CO M E N A T U R A L FOR US A BOUT S E X I S

FAR FROM BEING A PRODUCT OF NATU R E , THE NOT THE BODILY FU NCTION. BUT TH E H I G H LY

A L L E G E D NATURALNESS OF OU R SEXUA LITY I S A SOP H I STICATE D C A N DY SHOP FEELI N G . IS TH E R E

BY-PRODUCT OF TH E I N C R E A S I N G ABSTRACTION OF A NYTH I N G MORE NATURAL TO THE AVERAGE

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POINT. W E M A Y H AV E P A S S E D I T A L R EADY.

A FT E R C E N TU R I ES O F M O R A L RESTRA I NT, S E X U A L­

I TY-AT LONG LAST-HAS C O M E O F AGE, T H E AGE OF GEORGES BATA I L L E HAD A KEEN U N D E RSTA N D I N G

THE C A N OY SHOP, O F T H E D I L E M M A . TH Ars W H Y H E D E L I BERATELY

SET OUT TO I N J ECT M A S S I V E DOSES OF SA C R E D

I NTO TH E M A I N L I N E OF SEXUA LITY I N O R D E R TO

M I C H A E L B A U M A N N , A L E A D E R O F TH E J U N E 2 N D
HE IGHTEN TH E POWE R OF TRANSGRESSION, IN A
URBAN G U E R R I LLA GROUP IN WEST GERMANY
SOC I E TY THAT L E V E LS E V E R YT H I N G TO TH E
( ST I L L SOUGHT ON BANK ROBBERY C H A RG E S ) ,
GROUND, BATA I LLE FORCED S E X U A L D I FF E R E N C E S
RECALLS WHAT HE LEARNED FROM S U D D E N LY
T O COM E OUT L I K E A W O U N D . H I S W A S , I N M A N Y
H AV I NG "AN I N S A N E A M O U N T OF M O N E Y TO SPENO."
RES PECTS, A DI NOS A U R'S ENTE R P R I S E , F R E N E T I C
H E SOON FOU N D H I M S E L F B U Y I NG A M O U N TA I N OF
AND FLA M BOYA NT, POSS I B LY T H E L A S T S U STA I N E D
RA DIOS, A N ENTI R E P A R K I NG LOT O F CARS: ''THE
ATTEMPT T O T U R N BACK TH E CLOCK O F DE S I R E .
MORE SECRET THE T H I NGS YOU DO, THE MORE

LIKELY you A R E TO F A L L RIGHT I NTO CONSUMER­

I S M . " HIS SECRET L I F E H A D MADE HIM A NATU R A L I NC EST A R O U S E S I N D I G N ATION I N SAVAGES. N O S O

PREY TO TH E CANOY S TO R E SYNDROME, SOFT WITH MATURE, C I V I L I ZED, RESOU RCEFUL I N D I VI D­

TERROR OF CON S U M E R I S M , MORE POW E R F U L THAN UALS WRITI NG TO PENTHOUSE:

ANY I DE O LOGY OR CO N D I T I O N A L RULE OF BE­

HAVIOR. "LAST S U M M E R I WAS WITH MY GIRL F R I E N D IN THE

WOODS. WE WERE COM PLETELY NAKED AND

A GAY L I B PROPO N ENT. TA L K I N G O N TV A BOUT H I S SCR EWI NG O U R H E A RTS OUT . . . M Y MOTH E R [ A N D

N E I G H BORHOOD GAY BARS, R EC ENTLY S A I D, " I r s TEAC H E R ] A S K E D I F T H E Y COULD JOI N U S . . . AFT E R

L I K E GOING I NTO A C A N O Y STOR E A N D SAYI NG, ' I ' L L A M I NUTE W E W E R E A L L SC REWI NG. S I NC E T H A T DA Y

H A V E TH I S ONE, A N D TH I S ONE, A N D T H I S , A N D T H I S . (AS I AM AN O N LY C H I LO) I SLEEP WITH MY M OTH E R

. . ." CON S U M E R SEX. SEX ON TH E I N STALLMENT EVERY N I GHT. W E SOM ETI MES HAVE M Y C H I C K A N D

PLA N . TEACH E R S H A R E O U R KI NG-SIZE B E D WITH U S . "

NO LO N G E R A CATEGORY O F EROS, EXCESS I S

WHAT IS T R U LY A M A Z I NG HERE IS NOT TH E
M E R E LY A D E L I N Q U E N T ACCOUNT.
EXI STENC E O F I N CEST-IT H A S A LWAYS E X I STED,

ESPECIA LLY IN PATR I A RC H A L SOC I ETI ES-BUT T H E

IF "NATURE" DOESN'T TAKE ITS TOLL, THE G R E EDY ABSENCE OF S A C R E D H O R R O R , L E T A LO N E O F
CHILO M A Y B E R E M I N D E D O F ITS E X I STENCE BY A MORAL REPUGNANCE. BATA I L LE'S MA MERE (MY
CURT NOTE FROM YOU R F R I E N D L Y C A N OY SHOP: MOTH E R ) , A STORY O F MATERNAL CONVULSION A N D
"RECENT TRANSACTI ONS POST E D TO YOU R DEPRAVITY, COULD SOON B E R E A D WITH A S M U C H
ACCO U N T HAVE CAUSED YOUR B A LA N C E TO PASSION A S THE D E A D SEA SC ROLLS.
S U BSTA NTIA LLY EXC E E D YOU R C R E D I T L I N E . T H I S I S

C O N TR A R Y TO OUR AGREEMENT AND WE ARE,

ANOTH E R R E A D E R DESCRIBES HIS OWN PROFA N A ­
TH E R E FORE, T E R M I N AT I N G A N Y F U R T H E R USE O F
T I O N I N T H E S A M E C OO L , MATTE R-OF-FACT F A S H I O N :
O U R C R EDIT C A R D . " S E X U A L E X C E S S I S NO MORE
"SHE WAS OFFER I NG NO RESISTA N C E , SO I E A S E D
THE A PPROV A L O F LIFE I NTO D E A TH (GEORGES
H E R D O W N O N TH E ' B E D A N D AT TH E S A M E TI M E
BATA I LLE), J UST TH E END OF THE L I N E , T I M E TO PAY
R E M OV E D MY S H O RTS. I BEGAN S UC K I NG AND
OFF A N D SETTLE FOR MORE S E DA T E SEX,
K I SSING H E R B R E A ST UNTI L SHE W A S MOA N I N G WITH

PLEAS U R E . I D E FLOW E R E D M Y SISTER THAT N IG H T

A N D WE H A V E E N JOYED SEX TOGETH E R TO T H I S

DAY."

I NC EST HAS LOST ITS FLOWER, A N D T R A N SG R ES­

FOR C E N TU R I ES DESIRE H A S BEEN CONDITIONED TO

S A L I V AT E LIKE A DOG WHENEVER TH E R E IS SION ITS A PPEA L. ENJOY YOUR FAM I LY LIFE TO

SOM ETH I NG TO B E T R A N S G R E S S E D. PROH I BITIONS, YOU R H E A Rr s CONTE NT, BUT DON'T YOU EVER ASK

THOUGH, HAVE LOST MOST O F TH E I R POWER. W E R E FOR R E V U LSION AND ECSTASY.

THEY TO FADE OUT A N Y F U R T H E R , D E S I R E AS WE

E X P E R I E NC E IT MAY WELL BREAK DOWN A LTO­ I N-SEX I S N 'T A S M U C H EXCITI NG A S I T I S PRACTICAL:

GETH E R . 'TH E TH I NG I L I K E A BOUT IT WAS THAT I T W A S SO

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CON V E N I ENT. I COULD GET ALL THE SEX I WANTED G I V E Y O U TH E P H Y S I C A L S A T I S F A C TI O N YOU ' R E

AND N E V E R EVEN HAD TO LEAVE THE HOUSEl WHEN .- N T I T L E D T O - A N YO N E OR A N YT H I N G . SEXY

HE MOV E D I NTO A N A P A RT M E NT, I WOULD GO OV E R SAXOPHONE, SWINGING SOA P S T I C K S ( FO R G E T

A N D S E E H I M . N O O N E E V E R THOUGHT A NYTH ING A BO U T TH E G E N D E R I l : THEY' D R E A LLY M A K E ANY

A BOUT GOI NG OV E R TO S E E M Y OWN BROTH ER." W I F E GO N UTS.

H O M E SEX I S SO SAFE, SO H A N DY, SO MUCH FUN, E V ERYON E I S EQU A L U N DE R THE LAW. THE LAW OF

AND I T CAN B E ENJOYED WITHOUT LEAVING THE G R A T I F ICATION. NOT J U ST EQUAL: THE SAME, EXIT

HOUSE, L I K E TV. A L L I N THE FA MILY. Irs A WONDER T H E I N D I V I DU A L, HIS B A D B R E ATH A N D HIS TWISTED

NO ONE EVER THOUGHT O F THAT BEFORE, PSYCHO LOGY, E N T E R T H E C LO N E , I M M O R T A L,

I M MA C U LATE.

EXIT TWO THOU S A N D YEARS O F AGONY. N O MORE

D E A D L Y SIN AND BLOODY RETRIBUTION. NO MORE SON OF SAME: A N I M AGE'S I M AGE.

SAC R I LEGE. NO MORE TRAG EDY. MY KI NGDOM FOR A

KI NG-SIZE BED. NO WON D E R C LO N I NG I S NOW BEING ELEVATED TO

M ETAPHYSICAL H EIGHTS. WE A R E A L L C H I LD R E N OF

END OF THE LI N E . E N D G A M E , T H E SAME G E N D E R LESS MATRIX, A L L HYDROGEN­

BOU N D TO A N ORIGI N A L BASE, MOTH E R DNA, THE

U LT I M ATE V I R G I N .

TH E R E A R E N O M O R E BROTH E R S O R SISTERS, NO

MORE G E N I TORS O R E V E N G E N DERS FOR PEOPLE

WHO ARE SIM PLY LOOKI N G FOR ALL THE SEX THEY

CAN GET. AS RACHEL E N G L I S H REMA RKS POI NTED­

LY: "IT I S EASY TO OVER LOOK THE GENDER OF THE T H E H UG E B O D Y T H A T S P R A WLS O V E R T H E PAGES

P E R SON GIVING SEXUAL S A T I S FA C T I O N WHEN OF THE P ENTHOUSE LETTERS. COLLECTI N G AT

S H E E R G R AT I F I CATION I S T H E M A I N P U R POSE O F R A NDOM B I TS AND PIECES O F ITS NEW EQU I P M ENT,

T H E ACT:' C L A I M S TO R E P R E S E N T ''THE S E X U A L STATE O F THE

NATION:' T H E R E IS SEX-AN D TH E R E I S PENTHOUSE

SEX, TH E C OV E R PROUDLY A N NO U N C ES. SO I S T H I S

GENDER: "ANY OF TWO OR M O R E CATEGORI ES, AS

M A SC U L I N E , FEMENI NE, A N D N E UT E R : ' S E X LESS PENTHOUSE NATION?

G E N D E R . G E N D E R LESS SEX, N E UTER CATEGORIES.

SEX, LIKE FASHION I S BECO M I N G A GENDER LESS A NATION OF GRATI F I E D C ITIZENS, A LA N D OF

S U B J ECT. B LOO M I N G D A L E ' S S PONSORS T H I E R R Y SATISFI E D C ON S U M E RS I N VITE YOU TO C ELEBRATE

M U G LE R ' S A N D R O G Y N O U S J U M PS U I T S, F E M A L E THE JOYS OF S E X -G E N I T A L S AND GENDERS

BODY B U I LD E R S STO R M THE PROFESSION AND P R E C A R I OU S L Y D A N G L I NG ON THE EDGE OF

MALE S T R I P P E R S H A R A S S E D BY U N D E R C O V E R BOR E DO M A N D B A N K R U PTCY,

P O L I C EWOM E N IN L AW R E N C E , MASS, FILE FOR

R E V E R S E DISC R I M I NATION. I F CATEGORI E S DON'T "A M U N D A N E S E X L I F E C A N BE COM P A R E D TO A

HOLD A N YMORE, I N C EST S I M PL Y BECOMES I M POS­ FROZEN T V D I N N ER," SUGGESTS D R . KASSORLA, "IT
S I BLE, W I LL KEEP YOU A LIVE, BUT Irs NOT A GOU R M ET

B A N Q U ET S E R V E D IN A POSH RESTA U RA N T,"

PAN I C A MONG TH E S H A REHOLDERS OF THE

A M E R I C A N P S YC H O A N A L Y T I C A L A S SOC I A T I O N . M I LLIONS OF A M E RICANS MAY WELL BE I N TO

"STOCKS FALL O N WOR R I E S O V E R OEDIPUS RATES," G O U R M E T FOOD, BUT THEY A R E NOT GREAT C H E FS
A N NOUNCES BUSINESS NEWS. IS PSYCHOA N A LYSIS BECA U S E OF IT. THEY A R E S E R V I C I N G TO DEATH
BECO M I NG A S H R I N K I NG PROPOSITION? THEIR FAVORITE R E C I PE: "SINCE THAT MEMORABLE

D A Y, O N E SATURDAY E A C H MONTH W E H A V E HAD

WHAT OTH E R CATEGO R I E S CAN W E STI LL N E UTRAL­ TH E S A M E SESSION," A PENTHOUSE R E A D E R E X U LTS

IZE IN O U R BLI N D, I N D I SC R I M I N ATE A P PETITE FOR E XPECTANTLY. COM P U LSION TO R E P EAT, D E ATH­

S E X U A L "GRATI FICATION"? W I S H C LOT H E D IN WHITE FEATH E R .

I T I S NOT J U ST THE G E N D E R O F THE P E RSON THAT IS T H E F A C T I S THAT LOTS O F PEOPLE DON'T S E R V I C E

EASY TO OVERLOOK. T H E P E RSON H I MSELF HAS A N YT H I N G OR ANYONE A N YM O R E , THE MORON

BECOME SECON D A R Y TO T H E ACT. A NYON E CAN M A J O R I TY FA LLS A S L E E P ON A COLD T V D I N N E R.

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A N Y "ESCORT' I N TOWN WOULD TELL YOU THAT EVEN MASTERP I EC E S STI LL-BOR N I N E M PTY EMBRACES.
H E R C U STOM E R S A R E NOT OVERLY EAGER TO GET WASTE OF T I M E. WASTE OF E N E RG Y. WASTE OF
DOWN TO B U S I N ESS. IT'S NOT THAT THEY A R E WHITE MATTER.
AFRA I D O F SEX: T H E Y A R E J UST TOO LON ELY, TOO
BORE D OR TOO D R UGGED UP TO M A K E A MOVE OF AND HOW U N I M AGI NATIVE, SISYPH U S STUCK ON H I S
THE I R OWN. T H E MOST SEXUALLY ACTI VE M E RELY ROCKS. N I ETZSCHE'S ETE R N A L COM I N G . C U T IT OUT
SIT A N D WATCH WHILE THE GIRL P E R FO R M S WITH A A LTOGET H E R . NOT CA STRATION - I N D I FF E R E N C E .
H I R E D STUD. W H A T THEY R E ALLY WANT I S N T SEX, IT S A Y S STiV BATORS, L E A D S I NGER O F T H E DEAD
IS H U M A N P R E SE N C E , M ET E R E D COMPANY. NOT BOYS: "THEY'RE J UST NOT INTERESTED, TH EY'VE
H EAT, J UST W A R MTH. THEY BASK FOR A W H I LE IN AN HAD PHYSICAL R E LATIONS SINCE THE AGE O F 1 0,
ATMOS P H E R E O F SEXUALITY WITHOUT HAVING TO SO, BY THE T I M E TH EY A R E 1 5, TH E Y'RE LOOK I N G
FACE ITS D R Y DEMANDS. F O R N EW K I C KS:' S E X I S NOT TH E U LTIMATE DOPE
ANYMORE, JADED D UDES. ANGEL'S LUST.
"SEX I S H A R D WORK JUST L I K E EVERYTH I NG ELSE,"
DROPS ANDY W A R HOL WITH A PLASTIC GRIN, SOME WE'VE THROWN T H E TOWEL ON THE BOXI NG R I NG. NO.
STAGE CAT STR I KES. OTH E R S E N V ISION A SEXLESS THANK YOU. I'D RATH E R PUT M Y E N E RG I E S
SOCI ETY. ELSEWH E R E. WHY S HOULD I LET SEX, THIS V A M P I R E ,
THIS ANTIQUITY, POLICE THE WORLD?
ZERO WORK, THE WAY OF THE FUTUR E?

IT HAD TO E N D U P THAT WAY,

IT I S NOT ARTAUD, NOT EVEN ABELARD. NO ANGRY

VITUPERATIONS STI LL S M AC K I NG O F RELIGION. NO
SAC R IFICING A N YT H I NG. HERODIAS LIES ON T H E
BLANK P A G E OF H E R D A T E BOOK, BEAUTI FU LLY
STERILE. NO REPRESSION, NO S U B LI MATION. NOT
POST-SEXUAL S E X
EVEN CASTRATION, T H A T F R E U D I A N B A N D A I D .
BUSINESS AS U S U A L.

THE AGENDA IS FU LL. J U ST NO S E X .

" I ' D RATH E R L A U G H I N BED T H A N
D O IT."
THIS IS NEW YORK , NEW YORK. A N D W H A T I S GOOD
FOR NEW YORK IS GOOD FOR THE WORLD. LISTE N ,
ANDY WARHOL
WORLD, THE SEXLESS M ESSAGE OF A S E X Y CITY.

SEXLESS SEX, T H E U LTI MATE WISDOM. M A K I NG IT BY

I T HAD TO HAPPEN IN NEW YORK. NOT IN A SEXUALLY
THE SKIN OF YOU R TEETH. THE AGE OF DRACULA: "IF
DEVELOPING C A PITAL LI K E PA R I S O R C A LCUTTA, I N
HELEN G U R LEY BROWN WERE TO A N A LYZE DRAC U LA .
N E W YORK, W H E R E S E X I S T H E MOST ACCESSIBLE
I'M S U R E S HE'D SAY T H A T NO SEX I S S E XY:' S E X ISN'T
COMMODITY.
SEXY ENOUGH. TOO MUCH OF A MOUTHF U L, NOT
ENOUGH OF A BITE.
THEY DECLA R E D IT PUBLICLY. ITS TOO MUCH, ITS
ENOUGH. NO MORE SEX.
MORE AND MORE PEOPLE A R E J U M PI N G OFF T H E
T R A I N . " W E WANT OUT," POST-SE X U A L REVOLUTION­
I T MADE H I STORY. ARIES LOUDLY PROCLA I M . WHO ARE THESE N E W
DEVIANTS? S H A LL WE LOOK F O R T H E M AMONG T H E
NO SEX. THE LAST F RONTI E R . TRADITIONAL A D E PTS O F ANHEDONIA, AS PSYC H I A­
T R I STS L I K E TO C A L L I T? TO S T A T E IT M O R E

SEX I S S U C H A HASSLE. SUCH A BORE. SUCH A BLUNTLY: HAS EVERYONE GONE J U N KY O R

WASTE: "TH I N K OF A L L TH E T I M E A N D E N ERGY SCHIZOPH RENIC?

SPENT I N THE SEARCH A N D CON S U M M ATION-AND

THE H ANGOVE R S OF SEX. THINK OF TH E BOOKS I BELIEVE IT O R NOT, ASEXUALITY COMES TO US FROM
COULD HAVE WRITTEN, THE PHOTOGRAPHS I COULD THE OPPOSITE END OF THE SPECTRU M-FROM THE
HAVE TAKEN . . :'7 F A M I L I A R ARGUM ENT. SO MANY B U S I N E S S COM M U N ITY. SMALL E N T R E P R E N E U R S

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AN YMORE, T H E Y H A V E TO S A V E A L L TH E I R Q U E E N S A T H EA RT.
E N E R G I E S TO K E E P THE B U S I N ESS AFLOAT: "TH ESE
PEOPLE ARE NOT LIKE COLLEGE K I DS WHO HAVE
TI M E FOR SEX BECAUSE THEy'VE GOT NOTH ING
E L S E TO DO. THESE ARE BUSY. ACTIVE PEOPLE,"
STEVE RUBELL, CO-OWNER OF STU DIO 154. POI NTED­ IN THE M EANTI M E SEX H A S G ROWN DEMOCRATIC.
LY DECLARED TO ARTHUR BELL. EVEN WOR K I NG 1 6 A LTHOUGH STI LL A N I M M AT U R E I N DUSTRY, THE SEX
H O U R S A DAY DI D N 'T SAVE H I M FROM A TAXING T R A D E H A S B E C O M E " A M U LTI B I L L I O N - D O L L A R
B A N K R U PTCY. B U S I N ESS WITH T H E C H A R ACTE R I STICS OF M A N Y
C O N V E N T I ON A L I N D U S T R I ES-A LARGE W O R K ­
FORCE, H I G H - S A LA R I E D E X E C U T I V E S , B R I S K
GON E ARE THE DAYS WHEN B U SY, ACTIVE PEOPLE
COMPETITION, T R A D E PUBLICATIONS, BOA R D
M E SSED AROUND W I TH T H E I R SEXY SECRETARIES,
M E ET I N G S , S A L E S CON V E N TI O N S , " R E PORTS T H E
S M A L L ENTR E P R E N E U R S DON'T LEAVE TH E OFFICE
NEW YORK TIMES. s D I LDOS A N D VIBRATORS CAN B E
A N Y MORE.
CHARGED T O VISA OR MASTERC A R D ACCOUNTS,
AND THE VI DEODI S K B U S I N ESS I S PLUGGING INTO
N ELSON ROC K E F E LLER I S A PRI M E EXAMPLE. H E
TH E SEX I N DUSTRY TO A C H I EV E ITS FIRST M AJOR
S I M PLY WOR K E D H M S E LF T O DEATH .
BREAKTHROUGH.

D E N N I S SOBI N , PUBLI S H E R OF THE ADULT BUSINESS

R E PO R T , A WASHI NGTON BASED SEX-TRA D E
NEW YORK IS STI L L TOYING WITH THE IDEA OF N EWSLETTER, ESTI MATES THAT THE SEX BUSINESS
A S E X U A L CHIC. "IT WAS J UST A JOKE," ESTI M ATES HAS "T H E SA M E POTE N T I A L F O R SALES AND
R I C H A R D GOLDST E I N , OF T H E VI LLAGE VOICE. "MOST PROFITS A S T H E FOOD I N DUSTRY. I T I S A GROWTH
OF THE 'ASEXUAL' P E O P L E I NT E R V I E W E D B Y I N D U STRY THAT C A N NOT GO BACKWARDS."
A R T H U R BELL S I M PLY WERE CLOSET GAYS." JOKE
OR NO JOKE, NO SEX MAY WELL HAVE REACHED D E SC R I B I N G THE SHOW-WORLD C E NTER ON 4 2 N D
EPIDEMIC PROPORTIONS I N THE SOFT BELLY OF STREET WHERE "SERVIC ES" HAVE BEEN EXTEN­
A M E RICA. S I V E LY RATIONALIZED, M R . W E I SBROD, WHO
M O N I TO R S THE SEX I N DUSTRY I N C ENTRAL
"SO M E PEOPLE CA N'T WORK W H I LE THEY A R E I NTO M A N HATTA N , COM M E NTS DRYLY, "ITS SEXUAL FAST
S E X , " CON F I D E S R O B E RTA, WHO M A N A G E S A FOOD." M A CROBIOTIC SEX SHOU LDN'T B E TOO FAR
MASSAGE P A R LO R IN DOWNTOWN PITTSBURGH, "I OFF,
MYSELF CA N'T WORK WITHOUT IT. IT GIVES ME A
BOOST OF E N ERGY," S H E ESTIMATES, HOWEVER, ARE WE GETTING C LOSE TO WHAT H E N R Y M I LLER,
THAT 20% OF THE C I TY I S I NTO VARIOUS FORM S OF LAC K I N G A NAME FOR IT, CALLED THE LAND O F
ABSTI N E NCE, NONE OF H E R C USTOM ERS, A N D NON E FUCK1 A L A N D FREE F R O M SUPE RSTITION, RITUAL,
OF H E R G I R LS, OF COURSE, H A S BEEN CONTA M I ­ I DO LATRY, FEAR O R G U I LT: "WHAT A M AN'S SEX L I FE
N A T E D , MASSAGE OBLIGE. BUT N O T EVERYONE CAN M A Y BE U N D E R A N E W ORDER," HE EXCLA I M ED,
TURN SEXUA LITY I NTO A FU LL-FLEDGED PROFES­ " S U R PA S S E S MY F E E B L E I MA G I N ATION TO DES­
SION. BESI DES, SHE A DDS, "SOME PEOPLE LIKE TO CRIBE." W E NOW HAVE A TA STE-J UST A TASTE-OF
TRY A NEW THING, J UST FOR THE HECK OF IT," THE N E W O R D E R , I T D I D N 'T T A K E T H A T M U C H
I MAGI NATION. IT I S T H E LA N D O F NOD A LL OVER
IS A B STI NENCE A R E ACTION TO THE "OVERKI LL" OF AGAIN,
THE SEXUAL R EVOLUTION?, GABRIELE BROWN, PH.D,
SUGGESTS I N H E R TI M ELY BOOK, THE NEW CELI BACY, SEX HAS CEASED T O B E EXTRAORDINA RY, EVEN
WHY MORE MEN AND WOMEN ARE ABSTAINING FROM FOR O R D I N A R Y PEOPLE. PSYCHOLOGI STS R E PORT
SEX-AN D ENJOYING IT.s I S THE "TH RI LL" GON E SOU R THAT IT I S BECOMING A M ER ICA'S DOMI NANT SOC I A L
IN O U R SEXUALLY OPEN SOCI ETY? ACTIVITY, EVE RYWH E R E S E X I S T A K E N CASUA LLY
AS L E G I T I M A T E E N T E R TA I N M E N T , "TH E M I DD L E
REVOLUTIONS ARE NEVER GOOD CLASS H A S T H E T I M E A N D E N E RGY A N D MONEY TO
NEWS FOR QUEENS. PRACTICE SEX A S R E C R E ATION," ESTIMATES D U A N E
WHEN EVERYTHI N G I S PERMITTED COLGLAZI ER, P R E S I D E N T O F PLE A S U R E CH EST LTD.
NOT H I N G IS EXTRAORDINARY AND A FORM E R W A L L STREET TRADER, TH E

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"M YSTE RIOUS A N D U N KNOWN, POS S I BLY FOR E V E R FEEL S E X U A LLY I N A DEQU ATE, AND HOW WOM E N

U N K NOWABLE" WOR L D OF S E X I S BEING TRADED RESPOND T O THOSE O F U S W I T H THOSE F E A RS,"

FOR D I S N EYLAND, T H E LA N D O F F U C K RECAST I N DEC LA R E D T H E N E W JERRY R U B I N A COUPLE O F

PLASTIC PA R A D I S E , YEARS A G O , "I COULDN'T TALK T O W O M E N B E C A U S E I

WAS AFRA I D TO LOOK BAD." WAS T H E OLD R U B I N

BUT EVEN RECREATION CAN BE A HEADACHE, A F R A I D TO LOOK B A D W H E N H E W E N T T O CONGRESS

COPI N G WITH THE N EW SEXUAL F R E EDOM, TH E H A LF-N UDE WITH L I V E A M M U N I TION? W A S T H A T J U ST

M ENTA L H E A LTH PROFESSION W A R N S , H A S BECOME A N O TH E R " S U P E R M A S C U L I N I T Y T R I P " T H A T

THERAPY EVENTUALLY MANAGED T O C U RE? "I

T H E NEW CHALLENGE, BUT WHAT IS NOT A "CH A L­
WOR R I E D A BOUT M Y COCK SIZE. ABOUT P R E M A T U R E
LENGE" FOR THE M I DDLE C LASS? T H E C U LTURE

K E E PS TRA I N I N G T H E I N D I V I D U A L TO ASSERT H I S EJACULATION. WI LL I G E T I T U P A T ALL? I WAS

OBSESSE D WITH SEX."

S U P E R IORITY THROUGH A C O M PA R I SON, PASSION

OF CON FO R M I S M , W H O W I LL EVER T E L L YOUR SILENT

TORTU RE? M I D D L E CLASS S E X I S A R E A L FIGHT WITH THE " M E DECADE" R E A LLY D I D A GOOD JOB O N OUR

BLOOD A N D G UTS, K E E P I N G I T U P BETTER THAN THE "AMERICAN R E VO L U T I O N A R I E S , " JERRY RUBIN

JONES': NOW THAT C A R S ARE S H R I N KI NG I N SIZE R E M A I N S A S EXEM PLARY O F TH E C U LTU R E I N H I S

AND APPEAL, S E X LOOMS B I G IN T H E N E I G H BOR'S N E U ROTI C A BJ ECTION A S ACTOR RONALD REAGAN

EYE. PROPPED U P TO THE L I M ELIGHT O F TH E PRESI­

D E NCY.

NO WONDER THE P E N D U L U M I S S W I N G I NG W I LDLY

THE OTH E R WAY. "T H E PRESSURE FROM THE

C U LTU R E I S V E R Y STRONG NOT T O B E C HASTE,"

ASSERTS DR. JOYCE BROTH E R S. "NOBODY WANTS

TO HEAR ABOUT YOUR I NT E R EST IN ELECTRON ICS W E DON'T H A V E SEX A N Y MORE, WE H A V E "SEX U A L

BUT A BOUT HOW MANY W O M E N YOU HAVE," SAYS PROBL E M S,"

CARL C LA Y, D I R ECTOR O F THE BLACK SPECTR U M

THEATER, 'TH E M E D I A PROJECTS T H A T S E X M U ST EVERY S I NGLE WEEK, MASTERS AND J O H N SO N

ALWAYS BE ON YOU R M I N D, E V E R Y RECORD SAYS, REPEAT I T OBLIGI NGLY I N YOU R L OC A L P A P E R I N

'DO IT, DO IT, DO IT " ,' T H E R E I S SO MUCH TO C A S E YOU FORGET. W O M E N 'S " N E W A S S E R T I V E ­

OVERCOM E." 1 0 N ESS" SCA R ES M E N I N TO A "NEW I M POTENCE," O N L Y

T O BE L E FT, I N TU R N , STR A N D E D W I T H A S M A N Y

S E X USED T O B E A MOLOTOV COCKTA I L A N D D O IT A A N X I ETIES. M E N A R E H A V I NG PROBL E M S B E C A U S E

DECLARATION OF WAR. IT IS A M E R I KA ' S FRUS­ T H E Y A R E M E N , A N D WOM E N B E C A U S E TH E Y A R E

T R A T E D P E N I S , S H O U T E D J E R R Y R U B I N , T H A T LED WOM EN, TH E PER FECT SET-UP.

U S TO V I E T N A M . SEXUAL I N S E C U R I TY B R E E DS

I M PE R I A L I S M . . . A M E R I KA'S N E W SATI ETY SU RELY H A V I NG SEXUAL PROBLEMS? MALE PROG R A M OF

M U ST HAVE C H A NG E D SOMETHI NG , NO MORE A P PLI E D SEX T H E R A PY: "IF YOU H A V E PROBLEMS I N

F R U ST R A T I O N , NO MORE I N S EC U R I TY. N O MORE GETTING A N ERECTION ONCE I N A W H I LE-A N D DON'T

H A R D H A T S A N D C I A. J U ST TH E H YSTE R I A ON I R A N WORRY ABOUT IT-YOU ARE JUST LIKE M I LLIONS OF

A N D B LOODBATHS I N E L SA LVADOR. M EN," M I LLIONS OF M E N CONC E R N E D A BOUT THEI R

P E R FO R M A N C E , D E S P E RATELY T R Y I N G TO K E E P

W E S H A LL OVERCOME S E X SOM E DAY. BUT W I LL WE THEIR EGO 9 (ACTUALLY 3 ) I N C H E S U P . "TH E S E

EVER B E ABLE TO OVERCO M E T H E PRESSURE FROM DOUBTS MAY H O U N D YOU ALL D A Y LON G - I N T H E

T H E C U LTU R E ? S H OW E R , AT WORK, R I DING IN THE CAR AND

ESPEC I A LLY I N B E D," D R , DOLO R E S KELLER, PH.D.

GOES ON TACT F U LLY, "T H E MORE YOU KEEP

WE ARE PLUN G I N G WITH A L L O U R E N ERGY I N TO T H I N K I NG A BO U T IT, T H E S O FT E R Y O U R PENI S

OPPOSITE V A LUATIONS. BUT C H A STE OR P ROMIS­ BECOMES. S H E M A Y SAY, ' I REALLY DI DN'T F E E L L I K E

C UOUS, ASEX U A L OR H Y P E R ACTIVE, OPPOSITIONS I T ANYWAY . . , ' S U C H COMM ENTS O N L Y S E R V E T O

M EAN VERY L I TT L E AS LONG AS WE KEEP M A K E YOU F E E L WORSE," SO FT M A CH I N E, B U T N O

INTERNALIZING THE PRESSURE FROM TH E C U L­ H A R D FEELI NGS.

TURE. IT IS THIS P R E S S U R E THAT M A KES OUR

SEXUALITY SO N E U ROTIC, I T I S T H I S A N X I ETY, A N D SO ANY OLD RECIPE W I LL DO. S U G G E S TI O N S ,

N O T SEX P E R SE, THAT B R A N DS O U R M I N DS. "I'M I N STRUCTIONS. D A I LY M I RACLES OF T H E T U N I N G

CONFRONTI N G I S S U ES O F HOW AND WHY WE GUYS FORK, OR THE TV SET.

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YOU DAYDR E A M OF THE M I S S E D Cl.I MAX AND TRY TO PI STS A BO U T TH E I R S E X U A l. PERFORMANCE:

IMAGINE WHAT I T'S LIKE TO CO M E ? T H E N THE I M POTE N C E . PREMATURE E .J A C U L A T I O N . F A I L. E D

CA SSETTE PROGR A M DEALING WITH T H I S SUB.JECT ORGA S M . T H E WORKS. T H EY WOUL.D QU E U E U P AT
COULD MAKE THOSE D R E A M S BECOM E AN EXCITING TH E OFFICE WITH TH E I R L. I M P ORGAN IN HAND.

R E A LITY." ONLY DREAMS COME TRUE. AMERICAN THOSE W E R E TH E DAYS.

DREAMS C A N N E D I N A CASSETTE.

NOT A N Y MORE.

" I F O N l.Y SOMEONE ELSE COU l. D DO IT FOR ME . . . "

PATI E N T S ARE GROWING I M PATIENT WITH SEX.

SOME PEOPLE DO. "WE'RE GETTING BOR E D WITH T H E SHOW." T H E Y SAY.

"YOU KNOW. BEING M AC H O BAGS."

" H A V E YOU CHECKED OUR S U R ROGATE PROGR A M ?"'

"UH." HE S C R A TC H E S HIS H E AD. THEN. WITH A "A N D THEY C LA I M THEY'RE NOT R E P R E S S E D OR

FA LTE R I NG VOICE: "DO YOU THINK THEY COULD I M POTENT? SOM E N E RVE."

HA NDLE TH E WHOl.E DARN THING Al.TOGETH ER?

I'VE A FEEl.ING SEX'S NOT FOR THE LAYMAN ANY­ " S H A L. L. W E START WITH A S E R I E S OF E L. ECTRO­
MORE . . ... SHOCKS. DOCTOR?"

AS LONG AS W E HAVE NOT CONQ U E R E D OUR FEARS OVER THE L.AST FEW YEARS. LACK OF S E X U A L.
A N D OVERCOME THE N E U ROTIC SC ENARIO I N DUCED INTER EST H A S BECOME T H E N U M B E R ONE PATI ENT
BY T H E C U l.TURE. IT M ATTERS LITTLE WHETH ER W E SYMPTOM . SOM E PSYCHOL.OG ISTS BEGIN TO F E E L.
CON F RONT S E X U A L ISSUES OR R E N O U N C E SEX
TH E P I N C H . OTH ERS FIGHT BACK.
ALTOGETH E R .

DR. WILLIAM M A ST E R S EXA M I N ES THE CORPUS

DELICTI. TH I S IS D E F I N I T E L. Y A P A T H O L. OG I C A L.

PHENOMENON. H E PRONOUNCES GRAVELY. TAKING

OFF H I S GL.ASSES TO SHOW H I S N A K E D SOUL THE

PROFESSION BREATHES MORE FREEL.Y. AS L.ONG

M E N T A l. H E A LTH P R O F E S S I O N A l.S REALIZED IT

I N STA NTl.Y. THEY DI DN'T FEEl. TOO TH REATE N E D BY AS I T I S PATHOL.OG I C A L. . . .

TH E C LA I M S OF TH E NEW CELI BATES. THERE W E R E

PLENTY O F R E ASONS F O R W O R R Y THOUGH: A FT E R G U I LT. G U I LT. G U I L.T. DIAGNOSES DR. ROLL.O MAY.

ALL. AS G A B R I E l. E BROWN . A PSYCH Ol.OG I S T VICTO R I A N S W E R E G U I L.TY I F THEY E X P E R I E N C E D

H E R S E L F . R E A D I l. Y A D M I TS . T H E TH E R A P E U T I C S E X . H E STATES. " N O W WE FEEL. G U l L.TY I F W E DON'T."

F I E l. D HAS VI RTUA LLY C E A S E D T O FU NCTION AS A

F I E l. D AND HAS BECOME A S P E C I A L I ZATI O N IN TH E PROFESSION IS NOW B E A M I NG. WHO CARES

SEXUAl.ITY. BUT I T COULD A S EASILY DO WITHOUT W H E R E G U I L.T COM E S FROM AS l. O N G AS IT IS THERE?
SEX AS l.ONG AS NO SEX COUl.D BE I NTERPRETED TH E R A PY . l. I K E THE SEX TRADE. IS A G ROWTH
AS A N OT H E R S Y M PTOM OF P S Y C H O l. OG I C A l. I N D U STRY THAT C A N NOT GO BACKWAR DS.
DEFENSE. OR I N STINCTUAL A B E R RATION.

BEH I N D EACH L.UKEWARM BED SQ UATS A SPEC I A L.-

THERAPISTS CAN C E RTA I N l.Y GET SOM E M I LEAGE 1ST B U S I L.Y T A K I N G NOTES. SAYS DR. H E L.E N SINGER
OUT OF ASEXUA l.ITY. THEY CAN G ET SOM E M I LEAGE KAPL.AN. D I R ECTOR OF TH E HUMAN S E X U A L ITY
OUT OF ANYTH ING. NOTH I N G CAN STOP TH E PROGR A M AT THE NEW YORK HOSPITAl.: " FO R SOME
ADVANCE OF UPWARDl.Y MOBIl.E PROFESSIONALS. PEOPL.E. S E X I S FRAUGHT WITH SO M UCH A N X I ETY.

ANGER AND N EGATI V E EMOTION THAT IT MAY BE A

THE C U LTURE K E E PS CALLING U PON AN ARMY OF BETT E R A D A PTATION NOT TO RISK IT." AND A

PRO FESSIONA l.S TO DRESS U P SOCI A L TRIVIA I NTO R E S I D E N T PSYC H I ATR I ST AT BEL.L.EVUE: "IT IS NOT

MON U M ENTAL TRUTHS. THE PUBLIC SHOUl.D NEVER U N R E A SO N A B L. E TO B E L I EVE THAT SOM EO N E I N

BE E X POSED U N PREPARED TO T H E H A R D EDGES OF POL. I T I C S OR B U S I N ESS TODAY IS SO A N X I ETY­

ANY E V E NT. WHO K NOWS? THEY M IGHT EVEN CHOKE R I D D E N THAT HE CA N'T HAVE SEX . . . IT M I G H T BE A

ON THEM. WE SURE NEED LOTS O F SPECIA LISTS TO TOTA L.L.Y A P P ROPRI ATE RESPONSE TO AN INTENSE

FIl.E DOWN EVERYTH I NG I NTO SMOOTH. ROU NDED ENVI RON M E NT." SEXOL.OGI STS DON'T TAKE RISKS

PIl.LS. EITHER. IT M IGHT B E A TOTAL.L.Y A PPROPRIATE

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LETS S E E W H E R E TH I S LEADS U S TO.

THE I N FLATION OF S E X U A L I TY H A D A LOT TO DO

WITH A N X I ETY TO START WITH. I T IS IN SEX THAT T H E WE'VE B E E N TOLD THAT WE C A N 'T DO WITHOUT S E X .

A N X I ETY·R I D D E N . D E P L E T E D· I N F L A T E D W E S T E R N S U R E WE C A N . M O N K S D I D IT-OR SO THEY CLA I M .

EGO USED TO FIND A T E M POR A R Y R E LI E F AND NOW TH AT MONKS ARE NO LONGER G I V E N T H E

REVENGE. NOW THAT SEX IS NO S H ELTER. THE PROPER " R E SPECT AND ADMIRATION THEY

EGO I S READY TO DO A N YT H I NG SHORT OF GIVING R EC E I V E D E A R L I E R" (GA B R I ELE BROWN), A N D TH E I R

I TSELF U P . LIVES E V E N CON S I D E R E D SOMEWHAT " U N N A TU R A L"

BY THE G E N E R A L PUBLIC, T I M E MAY BE R I PE TO

N E U ROSIS I SN'T T H E I LL N E S S I T I S S U P POSED T O B E . FEED TH E MONK I N US.

IT IS A N OT H E R WORD FO R N O R M ALITY. AND

N O R M A L I TY IS P R ETTY SICK. IF YOU WANT MY WE'VE B E E N SO T R A I N E D TO COUCH EVERYTH I N G I N

OPINION. OH. N OT H I N G D R A M ATIC, N OT H I N G SEXUAL T E R M S , V E R Y R E STRICTI V E TERMS, THAT

FLA M BOYANT. A N X I ETY O N A DAI LY BASIS. ENOUGH WE'RE H A V I NG A H A R D T I M E SEPARATI NG S E X U A L·

P R E S S U R E TO KEEP T H E I ND I V I D U A L ON HIS TOES, ITY FROM D E S I R E .

BUT NOT SO M U C H AS TO ACTUALLY I N C A PACITATE

HIM SOC I A LLY. N E RVOUS E N ERGY M U ST BE FED I N NO WA Y I S S E X U A LITY T H E " I N F R A STRUCTURE" OF

I NTO THE MACH I N E, NOT BREAK IT DOWN A LTO­ DESIRE. DESI R E DOESN'T HAVE TO B E TIED DOWN TO
G E TH ER. SEX. PEOPLE CAN LIVE W I THOUT SEX-T H E Y J UST

CAN'T LIVE W I TH O U T D ES I R E . RENOUNCING

NOW T H A T TH E I N DI V I D U A L IS D I VO R C E D FROM S E X U A LITY I SN'T T H E "FINAL SOLUTI O N :' DESIRE

DWINDLING " T R I B A L" S T R U CT U R E S ( FA M I LY , S I M PLY B R A N C H E S O U T OF S E X U A L I TY I N O R D E R TO

C O M M U N ITY. ETC . ) , HE HAS A HARD TI M E NOT INVEST OTH E R , LESS LOADED, TERRITORI ES. T H E

FALLI N G A P A RT IN HIS I NC R E A S I N G I SOLATION. ALL BECOM I NG NON·S E X U A L O F DESI R E IS A FA I RL Y

T H E MORE REASON TO S E X U A LI Z E THE I N D I V I D U A L EXTR E M E A N D P R E C A R I O U S FO R M OF POLYS E X U A L ·

W H I L E I N DI V I DU A LIZI NG H I S S E X U A LITY. IT I S T H E ITY: P O LYSEXUALITY WITHOUT SEX,

C R I PPLE LEADING T H E BLI N D .

THE S H A K E R S' B E DT I M E RITUAL (WH I R L I N G ) IS

A N X I ETY N O W W O R K S BOTH W A Y S . T H I S "DOUBLE
USUALLY I NT E R PRETED AS A COM M U N A L TECH·
B I N D" C LE A R L Y D E F I N E S THE P R E D I C A M E NT OF
NIQUE FOR THE RELEASE OF SEXUAL TENSION:
NORMAL N E U ROTIC I N D I V I DUALS-AN D NOT, AS
R E NOU N C I N G GENITAL LOVE GIVES ACCESS TO
G REGORY BATESON C LA I M E D, S C H I ZOPH R E N ICS. BY
WHAT HERBERT R I C H A R DS O N CALLS A "NEW
LI N K I NG TOTAL SATIS FACTION TO I N DI V I D U A L S E LF·
POLYM O R PH O U S S E X U A L ITY,"
ESTEE M , S E X U A LITY HAS B ECO M E J U ST A N OTH E R

TEST. A LB E I T TH E MOST E XC R U C I AT I N G , FOR ALL

RECENT M EDICAL DATA PROV I D E S F U RT H E R
TDO V U L N E R A B L E EGOS.
JUSTI FICATION FOR T H E I NFECTIOUS WITHDRAWAL

FROM S E X U ALITY. N E U ROLOGIST R I C H A R D M A Y E U X

DR. I.M. POTENTS H I LA R I O U S COMPI LATION OF 1 0 1
FO U N D T H AT SOME P E Or L E "EXPE RI ENCE A
REASONS NOT TO HAVE SEX TONIG HT. " WITH ITS NON·
PROFO U N D A M N ES I A AND D I SO R I E NTATION FOR
E R OG E N OU S ZON E S AND D I AG R A M S O F POSITIONS
SEVER A L HOURS A FT E R HAVI NG SEXUAL I NT E R .
NOT TO HAVE SEX IN, IS A C L E A R S Y M PTOM OF TH E
COURSE :' IT S E E M S N O WON D E R M ENTAL PATI E NTS
PRESENT REVERSAL OF S E X U A L T R E N D S. NEU·
COME BEGG I N G FOR MORE ELECTROSHOCKS. D I RTY
ROTIC "TRAGEDY" R E V E A LS I T S E L F F O R WHAT IT I S :
OLD M I N D S . THEY GET MORE THAN THEY DESERVE.
A M E R E S E X U A L JOKE. IT IS WDODY ALLEN TH E

OTH E R WAY A RO U N D.
ATTENTION: SEX IS KILLER N U M ERO UNO IN THIS

COUNTRY. EVERY 80 SECONDS A CAR GOES

BERSERK ON T H E H IGHWAY FOR N O D I SC E R N I B L E

REASON. A LCOHOL T E S T : N EGATIVE. T H E PH E NO·

SEX OR NO S E X : I DON'T S E E W H Y WE SHOULD BE M ENON BAFFLES THE POLICE. DRIVERS SHOULD BE

MADE TO CHOOSE BETW E E N T H E TWO. T H E S E K I N D S S E V E R E LY PROHIBITED FROM HAVING I NT E R .

OF EXCLUSIONS A LWAYS S M A C K OF N E U ROTICI S M , COU R S E S E V E R A L H O U R S BEFORE THEY HIT T H E

W H I C H I S EXACTLY WHAT W E W E R E T R Y I N G T O G E T ROAD. S TA N D A R D T E STS W I LL BE E N FO R C E D :

R I D O F , INSTEAD OF S E X . B U T L E T S A S S U M E FOR A HEART B E AT. M U SC U LA R T E N S I O N , U R I N A L Y S I S .

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POLICE DOGS. MOR EOV E R . WOULD S N I F F I T OUT I N A N T I DOT E TO S E X U A L STRESS I S NOTH I N G N EW-A

NO TIME. TH E R A P I STS JOB. F R E E LY CHOSEN C E L I BACY IS AN

A LTOGETH E R D I F F E R E NT STORY. WHAT M A K E S O N E

S E X IS N O T GOOD F O R Y O U . T H E SURGEON G E N E R A L B E C O M E A BSTI N E NT?

H A S DETERM I N E D T H A T FUC K I N G IS DANGEROUS TO

YO U R H E A LTH. FI FTY JACK R A BBITS FUC K I N G FI FTY "1 R EA L L Y DON'T LI K E B E I N G RUN BY A NYTH I NG-I
TIMES A DAY FOR F I FTY CONSECUTIVE DAYS E S P E C I A LLY DON'T E N J OY B E I N G M A N I P U LATED BY
CONTRACTED I T BEFORE ENTERING COMA. SEX IS
A PHYSICAL F E E L I NG:' SAYS A LE X A N D R A . A
C A N C E R PRO N E . TI M E TO KICK THE HABIT: " I T'S LIKE
CELI BATE WOM A N INTERVIEWED FOR TH E BOOK.
S M O K I NG:' S U G G E STS FRANK LA N G E L L A . " O N C E GIVING SEX UP IS A DECLARATION OF I ND E P E N ­
YOU GET OVER TH E FI RST TH R E E OR FOU R WEEKS. IT D E N C E. A POS I T I V E A C T . N O T J U ST TH E E X P RESSION
COM ES EASY." IT DOESN'T C O M E AT A LL.
OF A M EN T A L PARALYSIS. I F YOU' R E C A UGHT IN THE

L A B Y R I NTH OF SEX. YOU C A N A LWAYS I N VENT A

R E M E DY. FORGE A NEW DEVICE. YOU C A N GROW

W I NGS-SI M P L Y BEWA R E OF ANGELISM . • . ONCE

ABOVE SEXUAL E X E RTION. OTHE R VALUES WILL

SEX AND DECADENCE E M E R G E IN TH E D I STANCE.

FEMALE ORGASM HAS BECOM E THE PRIME

CONCE R N FOR BOTH SEXES. " EQ U A L PAY FOR

" TH E TIME HAS COME WHEN WE EQU A L WORK O R A N ORGASM FOR A N ORGASM:'

H A V E TO P A Y F O R HAVING B E E N Q U I PS THE NEW C E LIBACY. S E X U A L P L E A S U R E ON

C H R I ST I A N S F O R TWO THOU S A N D TH E A S S E M B LY-LI N E . . . THE FOC U S ON ORGASM

YEARS: WE ARE LOS I N G THE FU RTH E R TIGHTE N E D TH E ALREADY R ESTRICTIV E

C E N T E R O F GRAVITY B Y VI RTUE O F E M PH A S I S ON LOV E M A K I NG. W I T H O R G A S M LOO M I N G

WHICH WE L I V ED. WE ARE LOST ABOVE. "THE FUTU R E B ECA M E MORE I M PORTANT

FOR A WHILE. A B R U PT L Y WE THAN THE P R E S E NT:' COM P LA I N S S A R A H . A NOTHE R

PLUNGE I N TO THE OPPOSITE C E L I BATE. A S E X U A LITY H A S N O FUT U R E . B U T H A S I T

VALUATIONS. WITH ALL TH E GOT A P R E S E NT?

E N ERGY THAT SUCH AN EXTR E M E

OVEREVALUATION OF MAN HAS

IF A S E X U A LITY M E A N S EXPERI E N C I N G SEXUALITY IN
G E N E R ATED I N MA N:'
NON·GEN ITAL WAYS, ITS POT E N T I A L IS T R U LY

I N F I N ITE. W H A T FA LLS AWAY (DE·CA DENS) FROM SEX,

- N I ETZSC H E A FT E R A LL. I S O N L Y THE PALE CARICATURE THAT

K E PT POK I N G THE I N D I V I D U A L I NTO S U B M I SS I O N ,

REMEMBER J ER R Y RUBIN: D I D N'T HE END UP IN

WALL STRE ET? A S E X U A LITY A S A FOR M OF N I H I LI S M

I S A W A R M A CH I N E C A P A BLE OF ATTA C K I N G TH E
IT IS T E M PTING T O CON S I D E R A S E X U A LITY A M E R E
R E A C T I V E POW E R S AT WORK IN OUR S E X U A LITY, I F
BACKLASH AGA I N ST T H E S E X U A L REVOLUTION. T H E
TH E DESTRUCTION C O U L D B E M A D E ACTI V E , A N D
PHENOM ENON. HOWEVER. I S M O R E COMPLEX. I T I S
N O T A N E M I C , E X U B E R A NT, A N D N O T NOSTA LGIC: I F
MADE IN PART OF TH E E X H A U ST I O N FROM A
I T W E R E T O C O M E FROM A N OVERFLOW O F L I F E . A N D
MOV E M E N T THE C U LTU R E H A ST E N E D TO MAKE
NOT FROM A TH I N LY-V E I L E D DEATH-W I S H , A S E X U A L­
S E R V I C E A BLE. B U T I N PART A LSO O F O U R GROW I N G
ITY COULD C E RTA I N LY H E LP R E STORE S E X U A LITY
CA PACITY T O WITHSTA N D S E X U A L WASTE. T H E S E
TO ITS F U L L N E S S .
T W O T H R EADS-D E N I A L OF S E X U A LITY. " GY M N A S ­

TICS OF TH E W I L L" - R U N S I M U LT A N EO U S L Y

THROUGH THE C L A I M S O F T H E N E W CELI BACY. ONLY A S E X U A LITY I S A S Y M PTOM OF DECADENCE. A N D

BY DI FFERENTIATI NG THE TWO ASPECTS CAN A LIKE OTH E R S Y M PTO M S OF DECADENCE, IT IS
R E A L EVALUATION OF THE A S E X U A L PHENOMENON A M B IG U O U S B Y D E F I N ITION. A M B I G U I TY I SN'T S U C H
B E A C H I EVED. THAT I T R EQUI R ES A N E L U C I DATION-EVEN LESS A

CRITIQUE: SOME E L E M E N TS S I M PLY NEED TO BE

" L ET'S FACE IT. IT'S MORE I N T E RESTING TO BE "FORGOTTEN," OTH ERS MOBI LIZED. O N C E T H E FOCU S

C E L I B AT E THAN TO B E I M POTENT:' GABR I E L E BROWN ON G E N ITA L SEX IS R E M OV E D , A "NEW POLY­

C O NC E D E S CYN ICALLY. A S E X U A L I TY AS AN M O R P H O U S S E X U A LITY" C O M E S I N TO B E I NG.

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THE OLD POLYM O R PHOUS S EX U A LITY WAS FOR THE S E X U A L ORGA N S ARE B E I NG U S E D. THEY A R E BEING

YOUNG. F R E U D DESC R I B E D I T A S U N FOC U S ED. NON­ USED E XT E N S I V E L Y TO N A T U RA L I Z E C U LT U R A L

GENITAL. H E A LSO C A L L E D IT PERVERSE. QUITE A P R E J U DICES. I r s TI M E T O TAKE T H E ORGANS AWAY

SLI P OF TH E TONG U E F R O M T H E I N V E N TOR O F FROM THEIR C U LT U R A L NATURALN ESS. TIME TO

PARAPRAXES: HAS ANYONE EVER SEEN A PER­ S U B V E R T T H E H I E R A R C H I C ORGA N I ZATION OF T H E

V E RSION THAT PRECEDES T H E LAW? BUT THAT WAS B O D Y POLITIC.

P R EC I S E L Y TH E POINT. C H I LD R E N A R E THE R E A L

P E R V E RTS B E C A U S E THEY H A V E N T P!,-I D T H E I R D U E S . A S E X U ALITY COULD LI BERATE S E X U A L ORGANS

THEY A R E POLYMORPHOUS WITHOUT G U I LT. NO O N E FOR OHTER P U R PO S E S . IT COULD A L LO W A
SHOULD BE A L LOW E D T H A T M UC H FRE EDOM: A CONSTANT R E S H U FFLI NG O F BODY FUNCTIONS. IT
TYPI C A L CASE OF "POLY MORPHOUS ENVY:' COULD OPEN UP WI TH I N THE COLD RATIONALITY OF

A CT I V E. BUSY PEOPLE A V E RT I G I N O U S SPACE

BUT WHAT IS ACTUA L L Y P O LY M O R P H O U S IN H IT H E RTO R ESTR I C T E D TO THE MARGINS OF

ASEXUAL SEXUA LITY? T H E S H A K E R S' TEC H N I Q U E SOC I ETY: T H E I M PERSON A L BODY O F TH E J U NKY.

FOR TH E REALEASE OF B E DT I M E TENSION IS T H E TORTU R E D BODY O F THE M A SO. T H E L I M I TLESS

I N VO KE D BY H E R B E RT R I C H A R DSON A S A MODEL O F BODY O F THE SCHIZO. 1 2

POLY M O R PH O U S S E X U A LITY. W H A T I S POLYMOR­

PHOUS A BOUT THAT? W H I RLING AWAY FROM SEX. AT A S E X U A LITY AS A FORM OF S E X U A L I T Y S I M P L Y

B E ST. IS DA N C I N G Y O U R S E L F AWAY ( N I ETZSC H E I . MEANS "NON-GO A L O R I E NTED SEX." AND THArs
POLY M O R PHOUS S E LF. F O R SURE. NOT POLYMOR­ THAT. IT MEANS I N V ENTING A BODY W ITHOUT
PHOUS S E X . ORGA N S T H A T DOESN'T H A V E T O BE OBSESSED WITH

GENITAL ACCO M P L I S H M E NT.

MAYBE THE A TT E M PT TO SE PARATE WHAT IS

S E X U A L AND WHAT I S NOT I S STILL TOO RESTRIC­ IT S H O U L D N 'T BE OBSESSED WITH G E N I TA L

TIVE. IS P H Y S I C A L CLOS E N ESS AND I NTIMACY CONTI N E N C E EITHER. T H E N E W C E L I BACY. EXPLA I N S
S E X U A L L Y POLY M O R P H O U S ? W H E R E D O E S S E X G A B R I ELE BROWN. I S S I M PL E R THAN H A V I NG S E X . I T
START. W H E R E DOES IT E N D ? FRANK LANGELLA H A S I NVOLVES. S H E WRITES. "DOING NOTH I I"G."
A N A N S W E R. ASEXUA LITY. H E S A Y S . "IS THE FI RST

STEP YOU TAKE WHEN YOU DECIDE TO BECOME

NO N H U M A N . THE PENIS. VAGI NA. B REASTS EXIST. I F DOING NOT H I N G ACTU A L LY REQUI R ES A LOT OF

O N E W A N TS TO U S E T H E M . O N E M UST H A V E SEX:' DOI NG. DOING NOTHI N G D I ET: AVOID A NYTH ING SPICY.

SEX ORGANS SHOU LDN'T B E WASTED. WHO KNOW? I NC L U D I N G THOUGHTS. DOING NOTH I N G SPORTS:

THEY COU LD DRY UP AND FALL TO THE GROU ND. EXERCISE TO DEATH. STA N O O N YOU R SHOULDER

THE N EG LECTED PENIS MAY SHRI N K B EYOND TO PUMP T H E E N ERGY AWAY FROM THE GENITALS.

R ECOGN ITION. LIKE A V U LG A R LITTLE TWO. DAS DOING NOTH I N G E X P E D I E NTS? BLOW YO U R L U ST

KLINE W H O W A NTS T O H E A R OF A NATURAL A W A Y WITH COLD SHOWE RS. OR S U F FOCATE IT BY

CASTRATION A N YWAY? A S E X U A LI TY ANNOUNCES A N SQU ATTING OFER A B AS I N OF COOL WATER. LAST.

" U N N A T U R A L" U S E OF H U M A N ORGANS. B U T I S T H E BUT NOT L E A ST. "IT IS C L E A R THAT IF YOU WANT TO

H U M A N BODY U S E D T H A T N ATU RALLY A FT E R A LL? I N DU LG E IN CELI BACY. YOU DON'T M ASTU R BATE."

S E X U A L I T Y ISNT O N LY IN SEX. SEXUAL ORGA N S C A N SOM E I N D U LG E N C E.

S P R O U T A NYWH E R E W H E N G I V E N T H E CHANCE.

A R E WE "GOI N G BEYOND" THE S E X U A L R EVOLUTION .

M O D E R N S E X U A LI T Y I S BY F A R TOO SPEC I ALIZED TO H A V E WE "GROWN BEYOND THE N E E D FOR SEX"-oR

TAKE A C H ANCE. ANATO M I C A L D I FFERENCES A R E ARE W E S E E K I N G R E M ISSION FOR OUR SINS? I S THE

A LW A Y S EXPERI ENCED A S AN I R REMEDIABLE NEW C E L I BA C Y A S E C U LAR WAY TO A NEW

O P P OS I T I O N . "SEPARATE FLESH ENGAGED I N R E LI G I O N ? IT S E E M S AT LEAST T O G I V E NEW

E NDLESS S E X U A L C O N F L I CTS" (WILLIAM BUR­ CURRENCY TO T R A D IT I O N A L T EC H N I Q U E S O F

ROUGHS). SEX: 'TH E C H A RACTER O F B E I NG EITHER S E X U A L R ESTR A I NT. S O M E FR E E DO M . C E L I BA C Y .

MALE OR FEMALE . • . " WHY NOT FEM-MALE SUGGESTS G A B R I ELE BROWN. IS L I K E TA K I NG A

( T R A N S S E X U A LS ) . MAN-NIMAL (TH E ELEPHANT VACATION FROM SEX. S O M E VACATION.

M A N ) . OR WOM - I N ERAL? W H Y N O T A D O U P S I NGU­

L A R I T I ES. INSTEAD O F OPPOS I NG DIFFERENCES? A N Y FORM OF EXCLUSION I S REACTI VE-UN LESS IT

B E CO M I N G UNHUMAN AS AN ACCESS TO NON­ I S S I M PLY M EA N T TACTICA LLY. NOT A BSOLUTELY.

EXCLUSIVE C O N N ECTI O N S - A TRULY C R AT I V E AS A MEANS TO "MAKE A SC E T I C I S M N A TU R A L

A S S E M BLY-LINE. A G A I N . " (TH E W I L L T O POWER). DISSUASION FROM SEX

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 PARADOXICALLY E N D S U P GIVI NG SEXUAL VALUE DAV I D THORSTAD, A SPOKE S M A N FOR THE NORTH
TO E V E R Y T H I N G ( FO O D , E X E R C I S E , ETC.) T H A T A M E R ICAN M AN/BOY LOVE ASSOCIATION, POI NTED
H A D N T Y E T BEEN D I R ECTLY A FFECTED BY S E X . IT OUT THAT BOYS H A V E A H E A LTH I E R A TT I T U D E
ALSO M E A N S FALLI N G BACK ON A N A NTI·MASTUR­ TOWA RD LOVE T H A N A LOT OF A D U LTS DO: "TH E Y
BATORY STAN D THAT I N ITIALLY PLAYED A CRUCIAL DONT CARRY AROUND ALL THI S L O V E BAGGAGE
ROLE I N THE H Y P E R-SOC I A LI ZATION OF SEX-WHICH THAT A D U LTS HAVE ACCUM U LATED." ' 3 G A B R I E L E
THE NEW CELI BACY P R EC I S E LY OPPOSES, I N THIS BROWN'S C O N C E PTION OF LOV E , S O PURE. SO
RESPECT, FAR FROM B E I N G A N EXIT FROM SEX, WHOLE, SO TRUE TO ONESELF, I S D E F I NITELY FOR
ASEXUALITY R E P R E S E NT S ITS U LTI MATE ACCOM­ ADULTS O N LY.
PLI S H M ENT.

"I WAS TRYING FOR A N ADULT LOVE STORY, A STORY

WHERE THE PEOPLE GET TOGETHER BECAUSE T H E Y
SO IS FREUD' S S U B L I M ATION OF S E X U A L DRIVES
A R E I N L O V E RATH E R THAN B E C A U S E THEY W A N T
I NTO "WORKS OF S E RVICE," OR A "GE N ERALIZED
T O GO T O BED," DECLARES PLAYWRIGHT LANFORD
LOVE FOR EVERYONE" FOR THAT MATTER, LOVE FOR
WI LSON. "SO MANY LOVE STOR I ES ARE REA LLY SEX
EVERYONE? WHAT A BOUT H A I G A N D P I NOCHET . , .
STORIES. I WANTED TO HAVE TWO PEOPLE DISCOVER
"G E N E R A L I Z E D LOVE. SAME A S LOVE: SOC I A L
. . . THAT THEY HAD FOU N D THE P E RFECT PER­
D E T E R G E NT , " ( M Y D E F I N I TI O N , ) T H E P A R A N O I D
SON." ' 4 P U R E , PERFECT, WHOLE, T R U E-TH E L A N D
M AC H I N E CLEANS ITSELF OF T H E D I RT O F
OF N O D A L L O V E R AGAI N .
I N D I V I DU A L I S M A N D C O M PETITION. G U I LT, G U I LT,
G U I LT. WHAT CAN B E POLYMORPHOUS A BOUT THESE
GENERALIZED P E R V E R S I ONS? S O T H E P E N D U L U M SWI NGS THE OTH E R WAY. A FT E R
LOVE-SEX: A FT E R S EX-LOVE, A N D BACK A G A I N .
N O W T H E N E W CELI BACY. S OO N THE N E W M A R R I AGE.
AS SDON AS YOU TA K E A VACATION FROM THE LAND
OR THE N E W P R I EST.
OF NOD, GOD I S WAITING FOR YOU WITH OPEN ARMS.
READY TO TU R N THE N E W E N E RG Y I NTO A N EW DEAL.
S K I RTS OR FROCKS UP THE LEG, DOWN THE LEG.
A NEW DEAL, A M YSTI FYING FICTION THAT EXACTLY
TH E N UP AGAI N . SO MUCH IS N EW FOR SO LITTLE
M I R RO R S TH E OLD G E N ITAL TYRA N NY. " H I G H E R
CHANGE. BUT WHO CARES? LIFE I S S HORT. AND SO
PLEAS U R ES C O M E TO R E PL A C E LOW E R O N E S , "
IS MEMORY. SIGNS C I RC U LATE, ONLY DIFFERENCES
PROMPTS GABRI ELE BROWN. S O M E H I G H .
COUNT. I F THERE A R E ANY LEFT.

THAT THE NEW C E L I B A C Y SHOWS A STRONG

INTEREST "IN R E LIGION A N D S P I R I T U A L DEVELOP­
M ENT' SHOULDNT C O M E A S A S U R P R I SE. "IT WAS A
ARE WE H E A D I NG TOWARD AN ASEXUAL SOCI ETY?
GREAT RELI E F. AS W E LL AS A G R E AT K I N D OF
ASKS ARTHU R BELL, IT DEPENDS, OF COU RSE, HOW
F R E E DO M , T O BE F R E E ·OF S E X U A L D ES I R E,"
YOU DEFI N E ASEXUAL A NON·GENITALLY·FOC USED,
CONFESSES M I C H A E L. WHO EXPERIENCED I N H I S
POLYCENTRIC, POLYSEXUAL SOC I ETY: YES, EVEN·
YOUTH A FRUSTRATED VOCATION F O R P R I ESTHOOD
TUALLY. A "NEW" A BSTI NENT SOC I ETY: HOPEFU LLY
(WHAT COULD HE D01 H I S FAM I LY WASN'T EVEN
NOT. TH E REFUSAL OF SEX I S SO M U C H A PART OF
CATHOLIC . . J. R E LIGION DOESNT NEED A FROCK.
RETENTIVE H ABITS A N D SAVINGS OBSESSIONS. ITS
THE NEW EMPHASIS O N LOVE CAN DO J UST AS WELL.
BEEN M I XE D U P FOR SO LONG WITH RELIGIOUS
TEILHARD DE C H A R D IN'S " U N IV E R S A L LOVE" WILL
ASCETIC I S M A N D P U R ITANICAL P R U D E RY. WITH T H E
SHOW YOU T H E WAY.
ETHICS OF WORK A N D INDIVIDUAL RESPONSABI LITY,
ITS ROOTS GO SO DEEP IN THE A M E R I C A N SOIL THAT
MANY THERAPISTS AGREE THAT T H E BIG TABOO
I DOUBT V E R Y M UC H A N Y NEW VALUE C A N COME
TODAY ISN'T ON SEX A NYMORE, IT IS ON LOVE: SEX I S
OUT OF ALL THAT. FOR ALL ITS ETH E R E A L CLAIMS,
A N E X C U S E T O A V O I D I N T I M A C Y , E MOT I O N A L
ASEXUA LITY IS STILL TOO EARTHY, T OO "FUNKY," TO
COM MITM ENT, T R U E LOVE, ETC. "I FEEL MORE PURE,
BE TRUSTED. NOT DEFUNK ENOUGH TO B E JOYOUSLY
MORE WHOLE, MORE TRUE TO M YSELF A N D M UC H
REBORN OUT OF ITS ASHES.
M O R E A B LE TO LOVE DEE PLY," DECLA R E S CELI BATE
ALEXANDRA. "I REALLY E NJOY GIVI N G TO OTHERS
BECA U S E, UNLIKE SEX. IT DOESNT E N D A N D THE R E IT CAN B E BORN-AGAIN THOUGH P R ETTY EASI LY.
I S NO N EED F O R A M UT U A L PAY OFF." NO M UTUAL JUST LISTEN TO REV. JERRY FALWELL A N D THE
PAY OFF: THE A M E R I C A N WAY O F LOVE. A REAL LIKE. I T C A N POP U P AGA I N RIGHTEOUSLY A S NO
BARG A I N . SEX SQUA D S TH ROW I NG BOM BS AND S P R E A D I N G

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TH E L A N D. (WOM E N AGAI NST PORNOGRAPHY IS A ATE OURSELVES FROM THE SNARES OF THE

CLEAR WA R N I NG. BUT NOT A REAL THR EAT. IF THEY C U LTURE.

W E R E LESS LITERAL- M I N DED, THEY WOULD PICKET

A N N I E. NOT LOLITA . . .1 A S E X U ALITY C A R R I ES AS O U R SOCI ETY K E E PS R E PEATI N G ITSELF OVER AND

WELL IN ITS DRY BOSOM PURE SEEDS OF SEDITION: OVER AGA I N . SOM ETI M E S AS A TRAGEDY. SOME­
S E XO R E X I A . SEX ST R I K E , C O N S U M E R'S BOYCOTT. TIMES AS A FARCE, BUT NOT IN A SUCCESSION
BUT FOR THE MOST PART, I T W I L L R E M A I N A SOFT ( M A RX): BOTH A R E P R E S E NT AT O N C E I N TH E S A M E
N I H I LIST PHASE. A PASSING FAD. PHENOMENON. W H ETH E R WE S U B M I T W I L L I NGLY TO

ITS PATHOS, OR D E R I D E ITS G R A VITY WITH LOUD

AT LEAST WE'RE BEING GIVEN, EVEN DECLARA­ LAUGHTER REMAINS A M ATTER O F CHOICE. BUT

T I V E LY, THE POSSI BI LITY OF OPTI NG OUT OF THE ONLY LAUGHTER CAN EVENTUA LLY BREAK OPEN

LOA D E D OPPOSITION BETW E E N SEXUAL R E PRES­ TH E HALL OF M I RRORS THAT GIVE US A FRA I L

SION AND SEXUAL L I B ERATION. IF THE PRESENT SENSE OF S E C U R I TY-FOR WHICH WE HAVE T O P A Y A

BATTLE OF DECADENCE W E R E ONLY ABOUT THAT, I T STAGGE R I NG COST IN TERMS OF POWERLESSNESS

WOULD STI LL BE WORTH THE TROUBLE. A N D A N X I ETY.

W E K E E P M A R K I NG TI M E PASSIVELY. R EACTI V E LY.

E N D L E SSLY P L U N G I N G I N OPPOSITE VALUATIONS.

THIS B R I NGS US BACK TO THE NOTION OF FEVER I S H LY B U R N I NG A WEALTH OF VALUES THAT

DECADENCE. LET M E C LA R I FY I T FURTH ER B E FORE I COULD STI LL TESTIFY TO A N I NTENSE C R E ATIVITY IF

GET BACK TO SEX. WE KNEW HOW TO M A R K THEM WITH THE ACTI VE

POWER O F O U R I M AG I N ATION. AS ROLA N D BARTHES

DECADENCE HAS NOTH I N G TO DO WITH THE A LL­ ONCE SAID OF T H E N A R RATIVE ( A N D H I STORY I S A

TOO-LI N E A R CONCEPTION OF DECLI NE. DEC L I N E OF N A RRATIVE, O U R BLOODY M YTH), IF WE DON'T READ

TH E WEST. DECADENCE I SN'T DECLI NE, U N LESS WE A N A R RATIVE OVER AGA I N. WE K E E P R E A D I NG IT

W E R E TO "DEC L I N E" THE W E ST G RAM MATICALLY. A N D EVERYW H E R E , U N K NOWI N G LY. ASEXUA LITY I S ONE

NOT H I STOR I C A LLY. FAR FROM DECLI N I NG. THE OF THE MANY FICTIONS O F THE C U LTURE. BUT I F WE

WEST IS GOING F E V E R I S H LY THROUGH A LL I T S REREAD I T C A R E FULLY, I NSTEAD OF TRAS H I N G I T

C A S E S A N D FLEXIONS. THIS EXPLA I N S W H Y BOTH O U T OF T H E W I N DOW . W E W I L L DISCOV E R T H A T THE

L I B E RATION AND R E P R ES S I O N A R E S I M U LTAN­ H I STORY OF S E X U A L ITY-OR THE SEXUALIZATI O N OF

EOU SLY PRESENT AT T H E OPPOSITE E N O S OF T H E H I S TO R Y - I S CONVENI ENTLY STAGED IN TH I S

SEXUAL PA RADIGM A S W E L L AS I N E A C H OF THE C U R IO U S L Y A M B I G UOUS PHENOMENON.

S I N G U LA R SEXUAL EXPERIENCES THAT KEEP SURFAC­

ING IN THE C U LTURE (IN THE M EDIA) AT AN EVER

Q U I C K E N I NG PACE: HOMOS E X U A LITY, LES B I A N I S M ,

S Sc M . T R A N SV E S T I S M . T R A N S S E X U A L I TY. SOON
T H E ASEXUAL SYM PTOM I S EVEN MORE COMPLEX
PEDOPH I L I A . . . THE PARADIGM A LSO I NC LUDES
THAN WHAT RECENT H I STOR I A N S OF SEXUALITY
P E L � M E LL A LL THE E X P E R I ME NTS WE KEEP
WOULD BE W I L L I NG TO A D M IT.
U P RooTING-DEF U N K I NG-FROM OTH E R C U LTURES

IN OUR I N SATIABLE DISSATI S FACTION WITH OUR

T H E PRESCRI PTION TO EXTERNALIZE SEXUA LITY I N
OWN SORRY LOT: M E DITATION AND M A RT I A L
D I SCOU R S E U S E D TO G O A LONG WTH THE OSTEN­
A RTS,TAO SEX A N D PLATO'S RETREAT-BODY TAGS
S I BLE PROSC R I PTION OF ANY SEXUAL EXPRESSION.
A N D BODY TEC H N I QU ES.
NOW THAT S E X U A L I TY S U R FA C E S S M OOTH L Y

E V E R Y W H E R E , C A N WE STI LL ASSIGN I T A C R U C I A L

THE WEST DOESN'T D E C L I N E. IT IS, ON THE ROLE IN THE PRESENT STRATEGY OF CONTROL.

CONTRARY, LOSI N G I T S S E N S E O F TI M I NG: I T S FAITH HOWEVE R POSI T I V E THIS CONTROL MAY BE? HOW

I N P ROGRESS (H-BOMB), ITS DESIRE FOR C H ANGE COULD W E POS S I B LY BELI EVE THAT T H E R E'S A N Y

(ZERO GROWTH) . ITS HOPE FOR A POS ITIVE OUTCOME "TRUTH" TO BE EXTRACTED, AND POWE R T O B E

( R EVOLUTION). TH E WEST D O E SN'T D EC L I N E, IT D E R I V E D, FROM ALL TOO R E A D I L Y A V A I LA B L E

K E E PS M ARKING T I M E. T I M E N O W I S EVERYTH I NG B U T ACCOUNTS OF INDIVIDUAL "SEX L I V E S"? T H E

L I N E A R . IT HAS BECOM E E XC H A NGEABLE. D I S POS­ PROPENS ITY T O S P E A K A BOUT SEX H A S BECO M E

ABLE, REVERSI BLE. C I RC U L A R LIKE EVE RYTH ING SUCH AN E X P L I C I T. E X P ECTED. AND EXPEDIENT

ELSE. WE KEEP I N T E R P R ET I N G TI M E AND ITS FEATURE OF OUR SOC I ETY THAT IT TAKES A

PRODUCTIONS TELEOLOG I C A LLY. BUT TH I S S I MPLY C ERTAI N A MO U N T OF COURAG E TO A S S U M E THAT

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TH E PRESENT I N FLATIO N OF S E X U A L D I SCOURSE. THAT BELONGS TO THE VERY SA M E FRAM EWORK
FROM W H I C H HE WAS A PPARENTLY TRYI N G TO

WHEN M I C H E L FOUC A ULT'S H I STORY OF SEXUALITY EXTRICATE H I M S E L F. DO WE REALLY GAIN THAT

CAME OUT IN PARIS, IN 1 976, I T I M M ED I ATELY M ET MUCH FROM A S S E R T I N G T H AT S EX UA L I T Y I S

WITH ANGRY OBJ ECTIONS. "WHAT ABOUT SEXUAL REPRESSIVE RATH E R THAN REPRESSED? WHAT I S ,

M I SERY?" FRENCH C R I TI C S S N A P P E D BACK. ON THIS AFTER ALL, THE NOTION O F S E X U A LITY A S A

S I D E O F THE ATLANTIC, H I S POSITION PARADOXI­ POSITIVE CONTROL IF NOT REPRESSION IN DRAG?

CA LLY SOU NDS, IN THE WORDS OF A NEW YORK

C R ITIC, RATH E R " P U R I TA N I C A L. " S E X U A LITY M A Y WHEN FOUCA U LT SWI NGS FROM A N EGATI V E TO A
STI LL B E PRETTY HEAVY ON T H E FRENCH: I N T H E POSITIVE CONCEPTION OF CONTROL, HE R E M A I N S
N EW WORLD, I T S I M P L Y D E F I E S G R A V ITY. S E X SQU A R E L Y W I TH I N T H E S P E C I F I C ECON O M Y OF
FLOATS A ROUN D A I M LESSLY L I K E A M ATZO B A L L I N DECADENCE, WHICH D O E S N 'T P R OG R E S S OR
C H I C K E N BROTH, O R BACKGROU N D M U SI C I N A REGRESS, O R EVEN LESS DEGENERATE, BUT K E EPS
HOWA R D JOHNSON'S. OSC I LLAT I N G BETW E E N A LTERNATI V E AND CON­
TRA D ICTORY MOV E M ENTS, THE H I STOR I A N'S BOLD

IT MAY B E THAT CROSSING THE ATLANTIC I N VOLVES RE-EVALUATION O F H I STORY I N PENDULOUS T E R M S

MORE THAN A TRANSLATION: A NOTHE R SWI NG OF THE I S PROB A B L Y M O R E I N D EBTED T O T H E S E V E R Y

PENDULUM, ANOTH E R TURN OF T H E SCR EW. OSC I LLATI O N S TH A N IT I S TO T H E ACTUAL H I STORY

OF THE WEST.

IT ISN'T THAT FOUC A U LT'S A N A LYSIS DOESN'T HOLD:

IT HOLDS ITS E LF BRI LLI ANTLY. BUT I T DOESN'T HOLD ASEXUA LITY F U L LY P A RTICI PATES IN THE PRESENT

A N YTH I NG ELSE ANYMORE, ESPEC I ALLY NOT SEX, EXTENUATION OF S E X U A LITY I N THE C U LTURE, BUT

AT T H I S P O I N T , S E X U A L I T Y IS COMPLETELY I S THIS "EXTER M I NATION," A S JEAN BAUDRI LLARD

D I VORCED FROM A N Y "WILL TO KNOWLEDGE," ANY I M PL I ES, I R R EV E R S I B LE? SHOULD W E DESPA I R OF

D ES I R E FOR RATION A LITY- I F SUCH A P H I LOSO­ SEXUALITY T H E W A Y WE'VE COM E TO DESPA I R O F

PHER'S WI LL, AND SUCH A FRENCH DISEASE EVER THE IDEA O F R E VOLUTION? AFTE R THE " E N D OF

SET FOOT I N TH I S COUNTRY O N THESE TERMS. I SN'T I DEOLOGI ES," SHOULD WE PROCLA I M LOUDLY THE

I T PARADOX I C A L TH AT SUCH A STRONG I N DICTM ENT E N D OF SEX?

OF S E X U A L D I SCOU R S E COM ES AT A TI M E W H E N
TH I S D I SCO U R S E HAS G R O W N SO P U B L I C A N D BAUDRI LLA R D DOESN'T H ESITATE TO TAKE THAT
RH ETORICAL, SO FOSSI LIZED A S TO L OO S E ALL STEP, E V E R YT H I NG CON S I D E R E D , HE A S S E RT S
CREDIBI LITY? A R E W E CON D E M N E D TO E N DLESSLY R U T H L E S S LY, "TH E R E'S ONLY ONE K I N D OF
DEFI N E I N THEORETICAL T E R M S WHAT HAS CEASED SEXUALITY-MALE S E X U A LITY. SEXUA LITY I S T H I S
TO EXIST -IF I T EVER E X I ST E D IN THE F I R ST PLACE? STRONG, DISCRI M I N ATIVE STRUCTU RE C E N T E R E D
ON T H E PHALLUS, O N CASTRATION, O N THE N A M E­
FO U C A U L T ' S T H E S I S M A Y W E L L BE A N OT H E R OF-TH E-FAT H E R , ON R E PRESSION . " , e LAC K A N D
ATTE M PT TO SAVE T H E TRUTH A BOUT S E X UALITY AT INTERDICTION, F R USTRATION A N D G U I LT, F E A R A N D
A TI M E WHEN SEX HAS OUTGROWN A N Y FINA LITY, TRANSGRESSION A R E S O INTI M ATELY WOVE N I N TO
EVEN A CONTROLLING F I N A L I TY, TO P E R M EATE ALL T H E S E X U A L F A B R I C T H A T D I S M I S S I NG T H E M
LEVELS OF SOCI ETY WITH A SOFT A N D EXACER­ A LTOGETH E R DEPRIVES SEXUALITY O F ITS ONLY
BATED E ROTI C I S M , WE ARE NOT S E X U A LLY AUTHENTIC ANCHORAGE. NOW THAT SEXUALITY CAN
D E P R I V E D, N O R A R E W E U N D E R A N Y FOR M O F B E TOT A L L Y E X T E R N A L I Z E D , HE C O N C L U D E S ,
SEXUAL S U R V E I LLANCE. W E A R E S I M PLY M I LDLY THERE'S NOTH I NG L E FT TO B E DESIRED. PENTHOUSE
DISINTERESTED, AS THE GROWING RECOGNITION OF PEOPLE COU LDN'T AGREE MORE: "WE FIND," W RITES
ASEXUA LITY CLEARLY I NDICATES, A READER. ''THAT ORAL PLAY, TOGETH ER WITH T H E
USE O F V I B R ATORS A N D AT T I M E S A DI LDO, PROVI D E

IT COULD B E A R G U E D THAT M I C H E L FOUCA U LT'S US WITH EVERYTH I NG W E COULD WISH FOR," N O

EXCESSIVE O V E RESTI MATION OF CONTROL I N MORE LACK, NO M O R E FRUSTRATION, N O MORE

SEXUALITY PARTICI PATES I N ITS OWN RIGHT I N THE WISH. BUT I S T H E FUTURE OF S E X U A LITY IN THE

RUSH TO OPPOSITE VALUES THAT LIES AT T H E ROOT H A NDS OF PENTHOUSE READERS? A N D I S D E S I R E TO

OF D E C A D E N C E . A FT E R H A V I N G S UC C E S S F U LLY BE REDUC E D T O A POSH SEXUAL D E M A N D?

CHA LLENGED ONE OF T H E M O S T O B ST I N A T E

A S S U M PTIO N S O F T H E C U LT U R E , N A M ELY THAT W H AT' S C O M I N G TO AN END, RATHER, IS THE
S E X U A L I TY IS R E P R E S S E D , FOU C A U LT S I M U LAT- REACTIVE CONC E PTION O F S E X U A LITY B A U D R I L-

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THAN PROCLA I M I NG ITS AGONY. A L R EADY FREUD P R EOCC U PATIONS RECALL THE ROSY CHEEK OF

H A D TO FAST-FREEZE N E U ROTiC SEXUALITY INTO A T ER M I N A L T U B E R C U LO S I S (YES, AN OLD M ETHA­

SC I E NTIFIC MOLD FOR FEAR IT WOULD D I S I NTE­ PHOR); D EATH ASSUMES THE T R A P P I NG S O F

G R ATE COMPLETELY. IT I S T H I S "OBJECTI VE" FRAME, H E A LTH. E N D OF PRODUCTION. E N D OF POLITICS.

G R OWN MORE VACANT AND OBSESSIVE A S TIME E N D OF SEX.

W E N T BY. THAT H E L D TOG ETH ER A LITTLE LONGER

THE FA I L I NG GRAVITY OF S E X U A LITY. NOW THAT THIS

G R A V I TY I S COLLA PSING UNDER ITS OWN WEIGHT, PLURALITY OF I NT E R P R ETATIONS IS A LWAYS A SIGN

WE CAN I N D E E D E X PECT TO B E LOST FOR A WHILE. OF STR E NGTH. B A U D R I LLA RD'S G E N E R A L SCH E M E ,
POSSI BLE FOR A GOOD W H I LE . BU T BEING LOST AT F O R A L L I T S I NTELLIGENCE, R E M A I N S A SEDUCTI VE
THIS POI NT MAY N OT BE AN ENTIRELY N EGAT I V E S I M PL I F ICATION. A N OTH E R ATTE M PT TO MEET THE

SITUATION. IT MAY E V E N B E M O R E FRU ITFUL T H A N I R R ESISTI BLE NEED FOR U NITY A T THE EXPENSE O F

M A K I NG SWEEPING A S S U M PT I O N S IN PURELY T H E DIST U R B I NG A N D A M BIGUOUS CHA RACTER O F

O P POSITIVE TERMS, OR PROPHETIC I NTERPRETA­ T H E P H E N O M E N A . "A N I H I LI ST I S A M A N W H O JUDGES

TIONS ROOTED IN T H E "SYM BOLIC ECONOMY" OF OF T H E WORLD A S IT I S THAT I T OUGHT NOT TO BE,

P R I M I TIVE CULTU R E S WE'VE C E RTAINLY DON E OU R AND OF THE WORLD A S I T OUGHT TO B E THAT I T

BEST TO EXTERM I N ATE. OOESN'T E X I ST . . . T H E PATHOS O F ' I N V A I N ' I S T H E

N I H I LI STS' PATHOS." (THE WILL TO PO W E R ) .

R EACTING AGA I N ST A R E ACTION MAY BE, AFTER B A U D R I L LA RD'S C O O L PATHOS M A N AG E S TO

ALL. AS MUCH A SHOW OF STRE NGTH AS A SIGN OF PRESERVE I NTACT THE F A C U LTY TO C R EATE

W E A KNESS OR D E B I LITY. TH I S I S THE CONTEXT I FICTIONS. B U T H I S FICTION OF P R I M ITIVE C U LTURES

WOULD LIKE TO ASSIGN TO THE RESISTIBLE GIVES AT B E ST A NOSTA LGIC TWIST TO WHAT

ASCENSION O F TH E N E W C E LI BACY. ESSENTIA LLY R E M A I N S A MONIST INTERPRETATION

OF SOCI ETY.

BAUDRI LLARD D E T E CTS IN THE ECLI PSE OF

DECADENCE DOES N'T H A V E TO LEAD TO APOCA­
SEXUALITY ONE O F T H E M A N Y SYM PTOMS OF THE
L Y P S E -NOW OR LATER. "TH E D EC L I N E IS CON­
G E N E RAL I MPLOSION OF THE C U LT U R E . ONLY
STANTLY R E S U M ED, REVERSED, N E UTRALIZED, A N D
P R I M ITIVE SOC I ET I E S, H E A S S E RTS, CAN ACCOMO­
THIS IN MANY W A YS , " W R I T E S J E A N - F R A N C O I S
DATE AMBIVALENT P H E N O M E N A BECAUSE IT IS I N
LYOTA RD. " · B A U D R I LLARD'S BELI E F I N A N I M PEND­
TH E I R M IDST ONLY THAT A POSITIVE REVERSIBI LITY
ING DOOM EXEMPLIFIES ON THE CONTR A R Y THE
OF EXCHANGES T R U LY EXI STS. IN THESE SOC I ETIES
POWER OF THE R EACTI V E FORCES AT WORK IN
TH E DEAD, FOR I N STANCE, ARE NEVER EXCLUDED
WESTERN N I H I LI S M : TH E ACTI V E DESTRUCTION O F
FROM TH E SYMBOLIC C I RC U LATION OF THE GROUP.
V A L U E S , THE JOYOUS D I S MI S S A L O F A L L-TDO- PIOUS
THEY REMAIN ACTIV E PARTNERS I N THE M U LTIPLE
I DEOLOG I E S ( I NC L U D I NG TH E RELIGION OF M A R X I S M ,
C I R C U ITS OF EXC H A N G E BY WHICH PR I M I T I V E
OF COU R S E ) I S A LWAYS IN DANGER OF T U R N I N G
CU LTU RES M A I NT A I N TH E I R H ARMONIOUS BALANCE
I N TO THEORETI C A L MOR B I DITY. SKI D D I NG O N T H E
BETWEEN L I FE AND DEATH, THE CLAN A N D THE
W A Y. U N A B L E T O G R I P T H E R O A D OF PRACTICAL
EARTH. WE, ON THE OTH E R H A ND, EXCLUDE THE
N I H I LISM, B A U D R I LLAR D'S W I L L TO NOTH I NG N ESS
DEAD I N A BIOLOG I C A L DEATH. WE DENY THEM ANY
ENOS UP TH E M A TIZI NG ITSELF AS A COLLECTI VE
PART IN THE S Y M BO L I C C I R C U LA T I O N OF THE
D E ATH-W I S H .
GROUP. I N STEAD OF M A K I N G DEATH A SOC I A L ACT,

WE END UP M A K I N G OUR L I F E A LIVING DEATH.

THE ASEXUAL CLA I M COULDN'T BE A M BIVA LENT I N

THE SAME FASH ION, HE WOULD LO G I C A L L Y I T OOESN'T H A V E TO E N D U P T H A T W A Y . IT DOESN'T

CONCLUDE. IT C A N ONLY SIGNAL THAT SEXUAL HAVE TO END AT A LL.. S E X H A S BECO M E A POS I T I V E

OP POS I T I O N S , L I K E A L L O P PO S I T I O N S . C A N NOT PHENOMENON, BUT S I M U LTANEOUSLY I T I S LOS I N G

HOLD ANYMORE. THE OVEREVA LUATION OF SEX, ITS POW E R OVER OUR LIVES. NO LON G E R RE­

THE HYPER-PRODUCTION OF SEXUAL SIGNS, THE PRESSED, S E X I S NO LON G E R REPRESSIVE. N E I T H E R

H Y P E R- R E A L I T Y OF SEXUAL PLEASURE DON'T EXTE R M I NATI NG, NOR EXTE R M I NATED, SEX M A Y B E

I N D ICATE THE GROW I NG POWE R OF SEXUA LITY I N O N ITS WAY T O B E L E FT W E L L ENOUGH A LO N E - FO R

TH E CULTURE; I T I S THE U LT I M ATE FRENZY, THE A W H I LE AT L E A ST. ANOTHER SWING OF THE

LAST SEIZURE BEFORE S E X U A LITY COLLAPSES P E N D U L U M M A Y B R I NG I T BACK WITH BRIGHT E Y E S

ALTOGETH ER. W E S E X U A LI Z E EVERYTH I NG I N SIGHT A N D R O S Y C H E E KS.

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SYM PTOMS L I K E S E X DEGEN E RATE O R I M PLODE, BE P R E SS U R E D I N TO S H A R I NG THEIR SEXUAL

RATH ER THAT THEY R E PEAT T H E MSELVES IN M A N Y D I SCOVER I ES, W H I L E CELI BATES C O M P LA I N THAT

WAYS, THAT THEY KEEP MARKING TIME AND "AS WE BEGAN TO HAVE MORE AND MORE S E X U A L

C H A N G I NG PLACES, E N DLESS LY, THE PROBLEM S E X P E R I E N C E S TOGETH ER, W E STO P P E D COM M U N I ­

I SN'T THAT EVERYTH I NG I S C O M I N G T O A H E A D , OR CATING I N OTH E R WAYS . . . " T H E R E A R E SO M A N Y

TO A N END, BUT THAT WE DON'T SEEM TO BE ABLE TO WAYS TO C O M M U N I CATE: IT IS NOT SEX, IT IS

END ANYTHI N G ANYMORE. NEITHER GOD, NOR MAN, COM M UNICATION THAT IS C O M M U N ICATED THROUGH

NOR SEX-NOR TR UTH. O U R PROBLEM I SN'T THAT WE SEXUALITY. I T I S N'T T H E G R EAT A M E R I C A N GOA L OF

ARE DECADENTS, BUT THAT WE ARE NOT DECADENT CONSTANT SEXUALITY THAT PRESSU R E S US, BUT

ENOUGH. NOT ACTIVELY, JOYOUSLY DECADENT, W E THE GREAT AMERICAN GOAL OF CONSTANT

KEEP OSC I LLATI NG B E T W E E N A R O M A N T I C N I H I L I S M , COM M U N I CATION,

A DESPERATE ESTHETICS OF DESTRUCTION, A N D A

W I LL TO KNOW L E DG E THAT M A I NTAI N S A LI V E T H E COM M U N ICATION I S T H E T E R M I N A L PAY OFF. SEX,

TEM PTATION F O R T R U T H AT T H E S A M E T I M E AS IT LOVE, WORDS, EVERYT H I N G H A S TO B E TRADED,
DENOUCNES ITSELF A S POWE R. EVERYTHI N G M A D E EXPLICIT IN ORDER TO ACQU I R E

SOC I A L VA LUE, E M PT Y WORDS, THE U LTI M AT E

POTLATCH.

BY PUTTI N G E V E R YO N E IN A SITUATION OF

THE PRESENT W E I GHTLESSNESS OF SEX REVEALS , D I SCOU R S E , I N A P O S I T I O N O F "I N T E R S U B J ECTI­

HOWEVER, IN A NAKED FOR M , LIKE THE BEACH VITY," THE C U LTU R E MAKES SURE NO ONE CAN

AFTER A STO R M , W H A T UNDERLIES T H E PRESSURE ESCAPE THE ENVIABLE STATUS OF T H E NORMAL

EXERTED BY THE C U LT U R E ON S E X U A LITY, A NEU ROTIC I N D I V I D U A L, TO B E A LON E R, A LOONY, A

PRESSURE A PLLI E D E L S EW H E R E AS W E LL, IN BACH ELOR M A CH I N E IS WORSE T H A N BEING DEAD:

OTH E R CONTEXTS A N D FOR S I M I LA R P U RPOSES. I T AMOUNTS TO BETR A Y I N G THE SOC I A L CONTRACT,

THIS PRESSURE I S SO BASIC, I T IS SO MUCH A PART SUCH IS THE MAGIC P R O P E RTY A TTA C H E D TO

OF THE PROCESS OF SOCIALIZATION ITSELF THAT COM M U N ICATION: THE LAST SACRI FICE, THE LAST

WE M A Y HAVE A TENDENCY TO OVE R LOOK IT, O R R I TUAL, THE E M PTY MANA O R HAU THAT FORCE US

ATTR I B UTE IT T O THE POWERS OF S PEECH, T H I S TO RETU R N THE VACANT CALL OF T H E C U LTURE,

PRESSU R E H A S NOTH I NG T O DO W I T H SEX PROPER, A N D BY T H E SAME TOK E N , E N D LESSLY, PAY OUR

A LTHOUGH IT HAS FOU N D IN SEX, A FTER TWO DEBT A S A FREE I N DI V I D U A L.

CENTUR I ES O F CONTRA D I CTORY SIGNA LS, AND T H E

MORE R ECENT PLAG U E OF POP U L A R F R E U D I A N I S M ,

A W E L L- P R E P A R E D COUCH, THIS PRESSU RE IN A YOU N G COUNTRY L I K E THE U,S .. T H E B A R E FACT

RESIDES RATH E R O N THE CONSTANT OBLIGATION OF SOC I A L CONTACT S U BSTITUTES FOR THE MORE
TO COM M UNICATE ONESELF. DEEPLY ROOTED CONSTRAI NTS TH A T PREVA I L IN

OTH ER C U LTURES. SO WE KEEP IN TOUCH, W E STAY

AN I N D I V I DU A L, IN TH I S C U LTURE, I S SOMEONE W H O ON BY COM M U N ICATI NG VI RTU ALLY A N YTH I NG TO

I S NEVER ALONE , O R S I LENT. H E H A S TO COMM U N I ­ A N YONE. WE KEEP IN TOUCH E N DLESSLY A S WE

CATE A T ALL T I M ES, I N A L L SITUATIONS-WITH H I S K E E P THE TV ON A T A L L T I M E S W I THOUT PAYING

N E I G H BO R , HIS LOVER, HIS T H E R A P I ST, HIS MUCH ATTENTION TO T H E PROGRA M S , W E KEEP I N

FEELI NGS, H I S C A T, H I S P I L LOW, H I S OWN SELF. A N TOUCH DESPERATELY BECAUSE T H E CULTU RE H A S

I N D I V I D U A L I S SOMEONE W H O I S A LWAYS PLUGGED STA MPED ON O U R FLESH THE D R E A D O F REJ ECTION

ON TO TH E M A CH I N E; SOMEON E WHO I S A LWAYS ON. AND TH E C U R S E OF SOLITUDE.

COM M U N ICATION DO ESN'T HAVE TO BE P R IVATE, THE MESSAGE THAT I S B E I NG C O M M U N ICATED

B UT THERE IS NOTH I NG TOO P R I V ATE TO BE (''TRUTH'), O R T H E STRUCTU R E OF C O M M U N ICATION

COM M U N ICATED: " N I C E G I R LS D O TALK A BOUT SEX ("SYMBOLIC EXC H A NGE"), ARE SECONDARY TO THE

OPENLY WITH THEIR M AT E S , " R EC O M M E N D S DR. FACT THAT A COM M U N I CATION IS BEING ESTA­

IRENE KASSORLA. AND JERRY RUBIN AGAIN: " M I N E BLISHED, A N D, HOPEFULLY, M A I N T A I N E D. THIS IS

IS THE FIRST BOOK TO ENCOURAGE MEN TO WHAT ROMAN J A KOBSON CALLS THE PHATIC

C O M M U N I C A T E T H E S E I N N E R M OST R E A C T I O N S , " F U NCT I O N , THIS F U NCTION OF CONTACT IS,

LOVE R S DON'T MAKE LOVE, T H E Y C O M M U NICATE OBVIOUSLY. THE DEGREE ZERO O F C U M M U N I CATION,

THROUGH SEX. BUT IT REMAINS AN ESSENTIAL FEATURE IN A

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INTERRUPT E D. I T I S A N ESSENTI A L CONDITION FOR C O M M U N ICATION, I T SOLI D I F I ES IT. I T EXACERBATES
ANY I N D I V I D U A L EXHANGE TO TA KE PLACE. IN T H I S IT, I T GIVES I T ITS F I N A L FOR M BY ENGAGING IT IN A
R E SPECT, A LTHOUGH THE M ESSAGE CAN H E L P TO R I C H E R HALL OF M I R RORS. CONTACT DOESN'T N E E D
E X E M PL I F Y TH E PO W E R O F TH E M E D I U M T O T O B E S E X U A L. BUT I T C A N BE SEXUA LIZED, T U R N E D
C O M M U NICATE, Y E S , IT I S THE M E D I U M THAT I S T H E I NTO A C H A R M ,
M ESSAGE,

WE DO N ' T C A L L T H A T SEX A N YMORE. WE C A L L IT:

THAT'S WHY ASEXUA LITY M I SSES THE M A R K , IF I T B E I NG S EXY,
E V E R ATTEM PT E D T O TAKE A I M , TO SUBSTITUTE ONE
FORM OF COM M U N I CATION ( LOVE) FOR ANOTHE R B E I NG SEXY HAS NOTH I N G TO DO W I TH BEING
(SEX) CHANGES V E R Y LITTLE A S LONG AS WE K E E P S E X U A L, B E I NG S E X Y DOESN'T L E A D T O S E X , S E X I S
EXTE R M I NATI NG T H E M ESSAGE TO L E T THE M E D I U M DEEP AND DARK, SEXY M ERELY SKIMS THE
R E IG N SUPR E M E, S U R FACE. P R I M EVA L MONSTERS A R E NEVER TOO
FA R OFF. BUT THEY A R E CONTA I NED. EXORC IZED.
SEX IS COMPULSIVE AND U N P R E D I C T A B L E : WE
DON'T C H OOS E OUR G E N D E R ( Y E T ) , W E DON'T
C O M M U N I CATON IS A LW A Y S A F U NCTION OF COMM A N D AN E R ECTION (YET), SEXY HAS NO
DISTANCE, IT A LWAYS R E I N FORCES TH E POLES A N D GENDER. I T ISN'T EXPLICIT O R PHYSICAL L I K E S E X . I T
ROLES O F INTERSUBJECTI V I TY, TH E "DIA LECTICS" I S A L L A LLUSION A N D S UGGESTION. I T I S A PROM I S E
OF REPRESE NTATION, THE CLOSENESS OF SEXUAL T H A T DOESN'T H AVE T O M ATER I ALIZE. S E X Y S I M PLY
CONTACT C O U L D T H R E A T E N T H I S DISTANCE, AROUSES I N T E R EST-A N I N T E R EST WE KEEP
L I B E R A T E O U R S E LV E S F R O M O U R S E P A R A T E I NTERPRETI N G S E X U ALLY, LIKE EVE RYTHI N G ELSE,
F L E S H , D I S E N GA G E TH E I N D I VI D U A L FROM TH E BUT A T A S A F E DISTANCE FROM SEX. WE ARE
E N D LESS CONFLICTS WHERE HE ACCOMPLI S H E S "HAVI NG" SEX. O R WE T H I N K WE DO. BUT WE ARE, OR
H I M SELF AS I N D I V I D U A L, THATS W H Y COMM U NICA· WE ARE NOT, SEXY.
TION HAS TO B E STRICTLY E N FORCED A N D A SOCIAL
FO R M OF CONTACT SU BSTITUTED TO THE SILENT
S E X R E Q U I R E S AN ACTION. S EX Y D E F I N E S TH E
E X P E R I E NC E OF S E X U A LITY,
ACTOR, IT IS A Q U A LI TY, AN ESSENCE THAT GIVES
T H E I N DI V I D U A L A S PECI A L VALUE, SEX I S
TH E R E I S NO END TO SOC I A L THERAPY. TH E R E IS NO E XC H A N G E A B L E , B U T SEXY IS A " N A T U R A L"
E N D TO TH E T A L K I NG C U R E, THERAPY HAS COME TO ATTR I B UTE, A GRACE. A N ELECTION, A USE VALUE.
ADHERE SO C LO S E L Y TO SEXUA LITY AS T O
LITERALLY TA K E I T S PLACE, THE MOVE FROM COUCH
WE K NOW N OW T H A T USE VALUES ARE THE
TO BED WAS EASY E NOUGH S I NCE SEX ITSELF HAS
ROUSSE A U I ST M YTH O F MA RXIST EC ONOMY, USE
BECO M E A FUCKING CURE: I T WAS UNBEA R A B LE
VALUES ARE M E A N T TO G R O U N D E X C H A N G E
THA T A N YTH I NG, LET ALON E SEXUALITY, SHOULD
VALUES I N SOM E SORT O F NATURALN ESS. BEING
RETAI N A N Y S H A DOW AT THE CORE, ANY ONCE OF
S E X Y I S T H E N A T U R A L I ZATION OF SEX. I T WH ITE·
SERENE MYSTERY, A N Y FESTIVE VIOLENCE, ANY
WASHES S E X OF ITS CRUDE FU NCTIONA LITY. SEX
SILENT INTENSITY, I NTENSITIES TDO HAVE TO BE
REMAINS I N SUSPENSION, CASTING A D E E P SHADOW
COM M U N I CATED, ESPECIALLY B ECAUSE THEY K E E P
O N T H E S E X Y S U R F A C E , BUT T H E S U R FA C E I S
EVAD I NG COM M U NICATION,
TIGHTLY SEALED. SUGA RCOATED. M U M M I FIED.

SEXY I S T H E VACC I N E FOR SEX. I T I NTRODUCES IN

TH E SOC I A L BODY T H E DEAD VIRUS OF S E X TO
PRODUCE I M M U N ITY AGA I NST T H E SEXUAL TH REAT.
I T I NDUCES THE FORMATION OF ANTIBOD I E S MEANT
INTERLUDE
TO B E I NTRODU C E D D I RECTLY I N TO TH E M A I N L I N E
O F THE C U LT U R E . T H E FUNCTION OF THESE
ANTIBODI ES I S TO N E U T R A LIZE T H E EFFECT O F SEX,
TO ALLEVIATE TH E ANGUISH THAT GOES WITH IT.
"NOT TO COMM UNICATE ONESELF; TH E S E A N T I BOD I E S A R E , I N TH E I R REACTI V E PART,
S I LENCE; BEWARING OF CHARM," WHAT WE CALLED T H E N EW CELI BACY. THIS BRAND
OF ASEXUA LITY C A N'T POSSIBLY B E TH E FUTURE O F
(THE WILL TO POWER) S E X . I T I S M E R E L Y ITS COMPL E M E NT,

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BEING S EXY FREES US FROM THE P R E S S U R E TO AN E M I N E N TLY R E S PO N S I B L E ACT, RESPO N S I B L E ,

P E R FORM , WITHOUT RENOUNCING P E R FORMANCE S I N C E REPRE H ENSIBLE. THE PLEAS U R E OF T H E S I G N S ,

ALTOGETH ER. B E I NG S E X Y I S T H E D E G R E E ZERO OF AND THE POU N D OF FLESH, P A I D T H E P R I C E OF

P E R FORM A N C E : T H E PURE P E R FO R M A N C E O F T H E G U I LT,

EGO, I T S E N D L E S S M I R ROR-PH A S E ,

M A STU RBATION WAS NOT O N LY H U M A N , I T W A S M A N

B E I N G SEXY I S T O S E X WHAT T H E PHATIC FUNCTION H I M SELF - T H E NOR M A L I ND I V I D U A L C A UG H T I N T H E

I S TO TH E MODE L OF COM M U N I C ATION: COM M U N I CA­ NET O F S I G N S, ENTRAPPED IN THE STOCK S OF

TION I N ITS E M PTY FO R M , SEX A S A PURE, DI STANT, R E P R E S E N T A T I O N S W H I C H , C E A S E L E S S LY E X ­

SOC I A L CONTACT, TRACTED FROM H I M THE A D M I SS I O N O F H I S DEBT

AND TH E TOK ENS OF HIS S U B M I SSION,

W H I LE I T OUTWAR DLY MOB I LIZED A L L T H E ENER­

GIES, THE FIGHT A G A I N ST M A S T U R B A T I O N IN

R E A LITY K E PT EXORCIZING A MOR E U N AC C E PTABLE

PERVERSION, A N E X PE R I M E NT WHOSE OUTC O M E IS

IDIOSEXES
SO SHATTE R I N G THAT IT DI DN'T EVEN B E N E F I T FROM

THIS S U BT L E FO R M OF R E C OG N I T I O N T H AT IS

I NTERDICTION,

''TH E R E IS N O S U C H T H I N G AS AN

IDIOLECT, AN I D I O L ECT IS A

P E R V E R S E FICTION,"
T H E SAV A G E H A S H I S ANTH ROPOLOGIST, THE J U N K Y

H I S CONN ECTION, THE SCHIZO H I S PSYCH I ATRIST,

- ROMAN JAKOBSON
WHAT I S U PSETTI NG ABOUT TH E S E T R U LY SOLITA RY

PERVERSIONS I S THAT THEY HARDLY PROJECT ANY

S H ADOW. O R ELECIT A N Y ECHO S I N C E TH E Y DON'T

SEEM TO MAKE ANY ATTE M PT TO COM M U N ICATE

I S TH E R E SUCH A T H I NG AS A SOC I A L S E X U A LITIES? TH E I R E X P E R I ENCE, I T I S TH I S S I L E N C E THAT FOR US
ROMAN J A KOBSON WOULD V I GOROU S LY D E N Y TH E I R E PITOM I Z E S THE U N H U M A N IN M A N ,
VERY EXISTENCE, EVEN M A ST U R B A T I O N , SO

OBSTI NATELY T R A C K E D DOWN B Y TH E DEFENDERS

WHAT COULD WE CALL THESE UNHUMAN PRAC­
OF MORAL ORDER, N EV E R REFUSED TO COM M UN I ­
TIC ES? DO W E HAVE A N A M E FOR SOM ETH I NG THAT
CATE, BETW E E N TH E H A N D A N D TH E S E X TH E R E
GOES WITHOUT SAYI N G ? WE WI LL CALL TH E M :
S ETTLED A R I C H LAYE R O F S I G N S , A L L TH E WEIGHT
I DIOSEXES.
OF REPRESENTATI ONS,

NOTH I N G E X I STS OUTS I D E HUMAN COM M U N I CATION.

M A ST U R BATI O N W A S N'T AN A S OC I A L ACTIVITY
ASSERT S ROMAN J A KOBSON, L I K E I D IOLECTS. H E
S I N C E I T R E M A I N E D C O S A M ENTALE, A M A N I PULA­
C E RTA I N LY WOU L D DISMISS I DI O S E X E S AS "PER­
TION OF M E A N I N G A S M UC H AS A PHYSICAL ACT. IN
VERSE F ICTIONS," PERVERSE, THEY S U R E LY A R E , BUT
NO WAY D I D SUCH A W I T H D R A WA L FROM SOCIETY
ARE THEY FICTIONS? IN TH E I R S U B M E RG E D
I N T E R R U PT COM M U N ICATION, IT GAVE IT ON THE
E X I STENCE. THEY FU NCTION A S TH E OBSC U R E MYTH
CONTRARY A P E R FECT F I N I S H , M A S T U RBATION WAS
OF THE C U LT U R E -ITS UNATTA I N A B LE H O R I ZON,
H U NTED DOWN SO F E R OC I O U S LY BY BOURGEOIS

MORALITY S I M PLY B EC A U S E I T GAVE I T AN I DEAL

S U R FACE OF I N T E R V E NTION. THANKS TO MASTUR­

BATION, FOUC A U LT IS C O R R ECT H E RE, S U R V E I L­

LANCE M A N A G E D T O S I N K D E E P E R I N THE WEAVE OF W E ONLY KNOW THE E X I STENCE O F IDIOSEXES BY

THE S OC I A L FABRIC AND P E N ETRATE THE MOST THE TRACES THEY OCC A S IONALLY LEAVE B E H I N D ,

SECRET CORN E R S OF I ND I V I D U A L CONSCIOUSNESS, M EDICAL R E PORTS. POLICE FILES, MORGU E . WAX

OR R A TH E R S T A M PE D ON THE I N D I V I D U A L' S M U S E U M , ON LY ACC I DENTS O R DEATH M A NAGE TO

CONSCIOUSNESS T H E S E A L OF S E C R ECY. RETURN TO SOC I ETY WHAT E S S E NT I A L L Y IS A

DISCRETE, OBSTI NATE. I R R E M E D I A B LY S EC R E T

ACTIVITY-A V E R Y QU I ET K I N D O F M A D N E SS, A N D

AGA I N ST ALL A P P E A R A N C ES, TO M ASTURBATE WAS THIS SOC I A LIZATION R E M A I N S D I S C R ETE AS WELL.

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so D E E P IS OU R REVULSION WHEN CONFRONTED TO STROUS M A C H I N E H ASTILY PUT TOG ETH E R . AN
S E X U A L EXPERIENCES THAT NEVER WERE M EANT ENORMOUS DILDO M A D E WITH WIRE AND PAINTED
TO B E BROUGHT TO LIGHT. MICHEL D E M·UZAN. TO COTTON W H I C H HE FASTENED TO A N U PTU R N E D
START WITH. WAITED TEN Y E A R S B E FO R E H E STOOL. H I S MOUTH GAGGED BY A G A S M A S K , T H E
P U B L I S H E D H I S D E SC R I PT I O N O F T H E SC A R R E D B O D Y S U S P E N D E D T O A SYSTEM OF PULLEYS. B R I D E
M A SO THAT ACCI D ENTALLY F E LL I N H I S H A N DS. I N DRAG O F THE S O M B E R G U EST H E W A N T E D TO
SEDUCE, PATI E NTLY. M ETHODICALLY. I N C H BY INCH.

01\ " MAY WONDER IF THE VIOLENT O R MORTU ARY H E PUSHED U P HIS V I SCERA A DEADLY PLEASURE.

STATUS OF THESE TRACES DON'T A LTER DRAS­ A MOST MODEST. OBSC U R E . OBSTI NATE PRACTICE.

TICA LLY THE C REPUSCULAR I MAGE WE H A V E OF ON WHICH TH E R E I S STRICTLY NOTHI N G TO SAY

IDIOSEXUALITIES. FOR ONE DEADLY EXPERI ENCE SINCE IT R E M A I NS, AT LEAST FOR US. BEYON D

D E POS I T E D IN T H E A R C H I V E S O F C O L L E CT I V E H U M A N RECOGN ITION.

M EMORY. H O W M A N Y R E M A I N U N K NOWN T O T H E
M E DICO-LEGAL I N STITUTION? WHAT SEEMS PRETTY CAN WE STI L L C A L L H U M A N SEXUA LITY THIS
CLEAR THOUGH IS THAT THE F A T A L I T Y I S N'T EXPERIENCE WITHOUT A M I R ROR. O R A M I R AGE.
TOTA LLY EXTERNAL TO THE I D IOSEX U A L'S EXPERI­ WITHOUT ANY I DENTITY TO BREAK APART. WHI LE
M ENT. I T REMAINS ITS U LTI MATE SANCTION. IF NOT O N E A FTE R THE OTH E R ALL TH E CATEGO R I E S OF
ITS E X PLICIT GOAL. S U B J ECTIVITY S I L ENTLY C R U M BLE DOWN? ONLY A
FICTION, BU T A FICTION WITHOUT AN I M AGE, A N D

TH E R E I S A WORLD OF DIFFER ENCE BETWEEN THE WITHOUT A LANGUAGE COULD POSS I B LY EVOKE.

FLOATING LI B I DO. THE DISEMBODIED SEXUA LITY OF WITHOUT CANCELLI NG, THE RADICAL EXTRA N E ITY

THE SC H I ZO AND TH E TERMI N A L FI XATION OF THE OF SUCH AN IDIOSEX U A L EXPERIENCE.

I D I O S E X U A L O N AN E X I G U O U S , BUT E X A C T I N G .
PRACTICE. BOTH BACH E LOR MACH I N ES. HOWEVER.
DEA L WITH GRADI ENTS OF I N T E NSITY RATHER THAN
THIS E X TE N S I V E R E P R E S E NTATION T H A T NOW
D R E A D OF SOLITUDE I S SO MUCH A PART O F T H E
PAS S E S FOR SEXUALITY. T H I S INTENSITY COULD
C U LTURE, I T SO G R E ATLY HA U NTS THE M I N D OF
EXPLAIN WHY ANY ATTE M PT TO ACCOUNT VERBA LLY
EVERY I N DI V I D U A L THAT T H E R E IS A L W A Y S
OR E V E N VISUALLY FOR TH E S E EXPERI ENCES. THE
S O M E O N E T O A C CO M P L I S H T H E D R E A D , A N D
TER ROR A N D FASC I N ATION THEY GENE RATE I N US.
CON F I R M T H E C U RSE. THERE I S ALWAYS SOMEONE
I M M E D I ATELY A FFECT I N DE PTH OU R VERY NOTION
TO GO THROUGH THE SCR E E N . THE CONTROLL I N G
OF WHAT SOCI A LI ZATION I S ABOUT.
SC R E E N OF PHANTASY, A N D FULFILL THE H O R R I ­
F I E D F A SC I N AT I O N O F T H E C U LT U R E . I N T H I S
THE O B S E S S I O N A L F I N D S A PROT E C T I O N I N A
R E SPECT, T H E LON E R , T H E LOONY, ALSO B E LONGS.
HIGHLY RITUALIZED TERRITORY MEANT TO EXOR­
HE PAYS H I S DUES TO SOCIETY IN TERMS OF H I S
CIZE H I S ANGUISH. THE IDIOSEXUAL IS WAY BEYOND
O W N DEATH-W I S H .
SUCH N E U ROTIC PROTOCOLS. HE DOESN'T ATTE M PT
TO R E G ULATE H I S D E S I R E BY B R I NGING IT TO BEAR
TO B E L O N G OR T O D I E . A MOST R E A S S U R I NG
U PO N A DISPLACED AND C I R C UMSC R I BED OBJECT
A LTE R N A T I V E FO R A C I V I L I ZATION SO D I SCON­
( F ET I S H ) . ON THE CONTR A R Y , HE FOC U S E S H I S
TENTED WITH ITSELF. T H E C U LTURE THUS M A K E S
D ES I R E O N A S I NGLE POI NT I N ORDER TO REACH
S U R E T H A T A N Y ATTEMPT T O SITUATE ONESELF
SUCH A PITCH OF I NTENSITY THAT IT EXPLODES ALL
OUTS I D E OF ITS REACH W I L L E N D U P CONF I R M I N G IN
HUMAN COORD I N ATES. THE I DIOSEXUAL I S PAST A N Y
AN EXEMPLARY FASHION T H E V A L I D I TY OF ITS
I N D I V I D UA L A N X I ETY S I M PL Y B ECA U S E HE H A S
DREADFUL I N J U NCTION.
MANAGED T O I NTEGRATE I N H I S ITINERARY THE
MORT A L D I ME NSION OF DESI R E .

A LAWYER B R E A K I N G THE SOCI A L CONTRACT, A MAN

IT WASN'T E A S Y FOR THE M A N O F THE FORENSIC OF SPEECH WALLED IN A DEAD SILENCE: CAN THE

MUSEUM (BACK COVER). A LAWYE R, TO CLEAR U P I N C U LTU R E STI L L R EC OG NI Z E ITSELF IN SUCH A

H I S BUSY TIM E-TABLE A VACANT SPACE H E MAY LUGU BRIOUS PARODY?

HAVE KNOWN TO BE THE LAST. ONCE HIS FAMILY

WAS S E NT TO FLORI DA . H E BOOKED A ROOM I N A THE LAWYER'S LAST G R I MACE STI LL A N SWERS TO
HOT E L A N D LOCK E D H I M S E L F UP WITH A MON- THE SOC I A L G R I N O F THE I N DI V I DUAL. W E MAY NOT

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KNOW, WE MAY NOT WANT TO K N OW , BUT TH E "TH E GRIMACE AND CONTORTION OF A WOMAN'S FACE

C U LTU R E K N OWS THAT T H E G R I N A N D T H E G R I MACE, AT ORGASM . . . "

T H E LONE R A N D T H E I N D I V I D U A L H A V E BUT O N E

FACE.
SYLV E R E LOTRI N G E R

N E W YORK. MARCH 1 6, 1 98 1

NOTES

JACQUES L I ZOT, LE CERCLE D E S F E U X. ED. DU 9 THE N E W YORK TI M ES. FEBRUARY 9, 1 98 1 .

S E U I L, 1 97 6 .
10 " FATH E R S AND SONS TA LK A BOUT GROW I N G
2 DON S H EWEY, " H U M A N S E X U A L R E S PONSE," THE U P." T H E N E W YORK T I M ES. F E B R U A R Y 9 , 1 9 8 1 .

SOHO N EWS, J A N U A R Y 1 4, 1 98 1 .
II CROWN P U B L I S H E R S , 1 98 1 .

3 A R TH U R B E L L , " A S E X U A L I TY , " T H E V I L L A G E

VOICE, J A N U A R Y 23, 1 978, 12 CF, G I LLES D E LEUZE/FELIX GUATTA R I , "HOW TO

MAKE O N E S E LF A BODY WITHOUT O R G A NS."

4 M A RTY R U B I N , " LA M E N T FOR A LOST LOVER,"

MAN DATE NO. 6. 13 SEMIOTEXTCEl SPECIAL. ISSUE ON "LOV I NG BOYS,"

SUMMER 1 980.

� JOHN PRESTON, U N PUBLI S H E D I NT E R V I EW WITH

S . L. 14 THE SOHO N E WS. NOVEMBER 5. 1 9BO,

6 R A C H E L E N G L I S H , M Y F I RST 500. DELL, 1 9 79. I� JEAN B A U D R I LLA R D, DE LA S E D U CT I O N .

GALILEE, 1 980,
7 A RTH U R B E LL, OP. CIT.. QUOTES F R O M STIV

BATORS, STEVE R U B EL L, FRANK LANGELLA. 16 JEAN-FRANCOIS LYOTARD, "EXPE D I E N TS D A N S

L A DECA D E N CE," I N RUDI M E NTS PArEN S , 1 0/ 1 8,

8 McGRAW H I LL, 1 9 80. QUOTES F R O M DR, JOYCE U.G.E" 1 977.

BROTH ERS, OR. ROLLO MAY, DR, HE. .. . EN S I NG E R

KAPLAN, DR. RICHARD MAYEUX, HERBERT I A M V E R Y G RATE F U L TO K A R E N HORNICK FOR H E R H E L P

R I C H A RDSON, I N PREPA R I N G T H I S M A N USCRIPT

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63. A GYMNAS I U M : TOWA R D THE M I DDLE PARALLEL B A R S EQU I PPED WITH LEATHER STRAPS.

64. THE CORPU LENT MAN AND THE SQUAT M A N DRAG R. TOW A R D TH E B A R S.

65. THE TWO M E N HOLD R. U PRIGHT. H E R A R M S STRETCH E D BETWEEN T H E P A R A LLEL BARS.

66. ROBERTE'S HANDS. W R I STS ATTACHED BY STRAPS TO VERTICAL B A R S.

67. THE SQU A T MAN. WITH SEVERAL SHORT MOVEMENTS. P U L LS OFF R:S S K I RT.

67 A. ROBERTE'S LEGS. STAM PING H E R FEET STILL WEARI NG SHOES. ON T H E FLOOR R:S S K I RT A N D SLIP.

68. ROBERTE'S FACE. HEAD LOWER E D, WATCHING WHAT I S H APPEN I NG OUT OF TH E COR N E R OF H E R EYE.

68 A. THE SQUAT MAN SEIZES ONE OF H E R FEET BY THE A N KLE. TIES IT UP B Y A LEAT H E R STRA P TO
THE BASE OF O N E OF TH E VERTICAL BARS.

68 B. THE SQUAT MAN SHOWS ROBERTE A PICTURE OF HER F I N G E R-PRI NTS.

68 C. THE CORPULENT M A N. SEEN FROM REAR. BENDI NG OVER ONE OF ROBERTE'S TI E D H A N DS .

69. (CLOSE UP) ROBE RTE'S H A ND. F I N G E R S FOLDED ON PALM. C LOS E D F I ST.

70. (CLOSE UP) THE H A N D OF THE COLOSSOS ON ROBERTE'S H A N D. BEGINS TO U NFOLD FINGERS.

7 1 . ROBERTE'S FACE. EYES O N THE CORPULENT MAN: EXPRESSION CHANGING FROM ASTONI S H M E N T TO
I R R ITATION: FROWNS. LOWE R S EYES. PINCHED LI PS. (CLOSE U P)

72. ROBERTE'S H A N D. A LL FI NGERS UNFOLDED. H E LD BETW E E N BOTH H A N D S OF CORPULENT M A N . WHO

SUCKS HER N A I LS . (CLOSE UP)

73. TH E PALM OF ROBERTE'S H A N D TOWARD WHICH THE COR P U L E N T M A N B R I NGS HIS MOUTH. (CLOSE UP)

74. THE CORPULENT M AN'S TONGU E ON ROBERTE'S PALM.

75. MOVEMENT OF ROBE RTE'S FREE LEG: RAISING KNEE, LEG OUTSTRETC H ED, FOOT TH ROWN FORWAR D
AGAI NST T H E COR P U LENT MAN'S THIGH.

76. TH E CORPU LENT M A N'S TONGUE ON ROBERTE'S PALM.

77. R:S LEG. OUTSTRETC H E D FI RST, LI FTS.

77 B. THE SQUAT M A N WATCH I NG R:S SEX OUT OF SHOT.

78. R:S RAISED K N E E MOVI NG TO COVER SEX WITH THIGH.

7 B B. ROBERTE'S FACE T U R N E D AWAY, HEAD THROWN BACK, EYES TOWA R D C E I L I NG, THEN LIDS LOWERED,
LIPS HALF OPEN.

79. T H E CORPU LENT M A N'S TONGUE SLIDES OVER R:S PALM T H E N T H E COR P U L E N T M A N COLLA PSES.

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79 B. THE SQUAT M A N LI FTS TH E COR P U L E NT M A N A N D TAKES H I M AWAY.

80. ROBERTE SUSPENDED ON THE BARS.

81. TH E SQU AT M A N B EG I N S TO UNTIE ROBERTE. SLOW LY.

82. ROBERTE ON HER FE ET. S K I RTLESS. H A I R S LIG HTLY D I S H EVELLED. FACES THE SQUAT M A N .

83. THE S Q U A T M A N P I C K S U P ROBERTE'S S K I RT FROM T H E FLOOR.

84. ROBE RTE P UTS ON HER SKIRT.

85. THE SQU AT M A N OFFERS ROBERTE A G LASS OF COG N AC .

86. ROBERTE S LA PS T H E SQUAT MAN.

B7. WITH A GESTU R E . T H E SQUAT M A N PULLS ROBERTE'S S K I RT OFF AGA I N . A N D PUTS HIS FOOT ON IT ON

TH E FLOOR.

88. ROBERTE SLAPS THE SQUAT MAN AGA I N . WHO DOES NOT F L I N C H .

89. FADE OUT.

90. ROBERTE ON THE REGENCY CAFE TERRACE. EATING A CROISSA NT.

91. THE G Y M N AS I U M . P A R A L L E L BARS WITH LEATH ER STRA PS. FADE OUT.

92. TH E FO UNTA I N S ON T H E SQUARE OF THE TH EA TRE F R A N C A I S .

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