10 Things I Hate About You
10 Things I Hate About You
Sam (2022)
I. I hate the way you are worrying people around you to the point that you do not care
about yourself. Fiony, it is okay to put yourself first before others, it is okay to think
of how you would feel instead to think of how they would feel. And it is okay too,
if most of the times you put other first—I get it but please, you, yourself, are more
important than anyone else.
II. I hate that you lie. I hate that you lie when you are hurting. You can tell me that you
are hurting. You can tell how things bothering you. World cruel sometimes, ya? It
seems like day by day keep getting harder and darker, isn’t it? But Fiony, I am here.
I am here for you to rest your head on. I am here for hearing your random talks,
listen to your thoughts.
III. I hate that you force yourself to not cry. Cry is not a sin. We grown-ups often think
that cry is a sign of weakness and often hold it. But Fiony, it is okay to cry
sometimes when you feel sad. Crying isn’t a bad thing that you should avoid. You
can cry. Cry it all out, let the sadness getting out from your heart.
IV. I hate that you feel sorry. For nothing. We can not control everything in this world.
We do not have the strength to hold everything in our hands. And it is not your fault.
It is not your fault if things does not go well as you expected, it is not your fault if
sometimes you are feeling blue. It is not your responsibility for making sure
everything in this world went well, Fiony. So please, do not be sorry.
V. I hate when you stayed up late at night—even after you have done your packed
schedule. Fiony, I want you to have enough rest. I want you to get enough sleep. I
know you worked so hard that sometimes you do not get time to rest but if there
was a small time or place use it for sleep, so your body would feel better.
VI. I hate that you are not confident. Sometimes you would feel down if you do not feel
satisfied with your work and you would blame yourself. One thing you should
know—Fiony, you are enough. Even if the world keep high expectations on you, at
least for me, you are enough. I hope you know that your existence itself is a blessing
for me. I want you know that you are worth it.
VII. I hate when you make me cry. I do not cry that often for someone yet you are the
first one that make me cry my balls out.
VIII. I hate when you are not around. I missed you everytime you do not perform. I
missed you everytime. Everytime.
IX. I hate when you stared at me. Your eyes carried so much feelings that I even do not
know what is exactly it is. I could not stand it any longer. I am very sorry if I always
get shy, uh, when you do this thing. It feels amazing yet heavy for me.
X. I hate that the nine things I wrote before makes me love you more. I do not hate
you. Not even close, not even a little bit, not even at all.
Nevertheless, I want you to be happy for days, months, and years ahead. I would love to see
your smile. I would love to hear your laugh for a little long more. Fiony, I am here to see you
home.
References : 10 Things I hate About You (1999), Home by Bruno Major, some based on my
experience