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By telling this story from the perspective of a traveler in a and we all stumbled on; wheels and hours grinding,
foreign country, the poem hints that it’s all too easy to fall into a tripping
complacent, unresponsive way of looking at the world. Seen as Spiti rose up around us, sky propped open by its
with jaded eyes, even spectacular mountains might just look peaks.
like so many rocks; seen with alert attention, even familiar
things might look as bright and strange as an unknown The line break is rough and choppy, just like the road itself.
landscape.
The speaker has little to do other than look out of the window.
They notice the impressive "Spiti" valley rising up around them,
Where this theme appears in the poem:
and how the sky seems to be "propped open" by the high
• Lines 1-12 mountains. There is a sense of awe in this description, but it
doesn't negate the feeling that the speaker wants this journey
to end. The speaker might be in one of the most spectacular
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YSIS places in the world, but they're still somehow turned off to it,
not really taking in the splendor; they're much more alert to the
LINES 1-4 clammy leg of their seatmate than the sublime "peaks" outside
the window.
The bus was ...
... by its peaks. This free vverse
erse poem (written without a rh
rhyme
yme scheme or
regular meter) uses unrhymed couplets
couplets—two-line
As the poem opens, the speaker recalls traveling through the
stanzas—throughout. Alongside the poem's long lines, this
Himalayan mountains on a bus. They use evocative imagery to
creates an impression of a monotonous onward momentum,
set the scene in line 1:
capturing the speaker's mood on their journey.
The bus was crammed and the fat man rubbed LINES 5-8
against m
myy leg lik
likee a damp cat I traced the ...
... between two dhabas;
The reader immediately gets an impression of the bus's
crowded, uncomfortable conditions. Through vivid details like In the third stanza, the speaker sketches further details of the
this, the poem draws the reader into the speaker's mood. The journey. Readers might begin to feel as if they're either sitting
simile "like a damp cat" is intentionally icky, capturing the at the speaker's side or reading an entry in their diary.
unpleasantness and overfamiliarity of being squashed against a Terribly bored and uncomfortable, the speaker traces "the
sweaty neighbor. rockline on the window with my finger" to pass the time. They
Line 2 reveals that the speaker has a traveling companion who start counting "cows and gompas" (Buddhist monastic schools),
is sitting "three rows from the back." This person, likely a friend struggling to find a way to keep themselves entertained. All this
or a partner, is reading The Jataka Tales, a collection of ancient description makes the journey seem endless. The speaker feels
stories that describe the Buddha's past lives. It seems possible, like they have all the time in the world to fill.
then, that the speaker and their companion are foreigners: the When counting animals and landmarks proves insufficient, the
book signals an attempt to learn about the culture of the area. speaker grows increasingly bored. They feel their "eyes glaze
The companion presumably sits "three rows from the back" over"; they've stopped really seeing the world. Suddenly,
because the bus was too crowded for the two to sit though, they reach Gramphoo, a place known for its impressive
Where this symbol appears in the poem: • Lines 2-3: “back / and”
• Lines 7-11: “There, where the road divided, / I saw a thin • Lines 3-4: “tripping / as”
boy in red flannel squat between two dhabas; / a black- • Lines 6-7: “over / until”
eyed bean, slipped in between two crags, he was so small • Lines 9-10: “small / that”
/ that I almost missed him, until he turned, gap-toothed, • Lines 10-11: “me / with”
and shot me / with a toy gun.”
IMAGERY
"The Instant of My Death" is packed with visual and tactile
POETIC DEVICES imagery that conjures the speaker's memorable day on the bus.
The poem reads almost like a journal entry, recording the
ENJAMBMENT sights, sounds, and feelings of the speaker's travels. For
Enjambments help to capture the atmosphere and the example, the speaker notes that the bus is "crammed" and that
surprises of the speaker's bus journey. The break between lines a "fat man" presses against the speaker's leg "like a damp cat."
3 and 4, for instance, simulates the jerkiness of the ride: This image captures the speaker's claustrophobic discomfort;
their fellow passenger's leg, invading their space, feels
and we all stumbled on; wheels and hours grinding, overfamiliar and a little clammy.
tripping In the second stanza, the journey feels endless: "we all
as Spiti rose up around us, sky propped open by its stumbled on; wheels and hours grinding, tripping." This imagery
peaks. evokes the jerky rhythms and harsh sounds of the bus as it
rides the rough mountain roads. There's great beauty here too,
Here, the line itself "trip[s]" at just the same moment as the bus though. The speaker's image of the "sky propped open" by the
does, creating an abrupt, jolting rhythm. "peaks" of the Himalayas gets at just how dramatic and soaring
Later on, enjambments help to mark important turning points the mountains look.
in the poem, often by splitting a sentence across a stanza, not Against this backdrop, the little boy who pretends to shoot the
just a line. Take a look at the moment when the speaker's speaker pops out vividly. He looks like a "black-eyed bean," he's
monotonous bus journey finally changes: cutely "gap-toothed," and he's dressed in bright, memorable
"red flannel." He's a shock of color against the uniformity of the
counted cows and gompas, felt my eyes glaze over landscape, making the pretend shooting feel all the more vivid,
until we reached Gramphoo. [...] unsettling, and strange.
By splitting the sentence here, the speaker places special Where Imagery appears in the poem:
emphasis on the word "until," making it clear that an important
• Line 1: “The bus was crammed and the fat man rubbed
change is coming. The firm, full-stop caesur
caesuraa after "Gramphoo"
against my leg like a damp cat”
adds to the gravity of the moment as well.
• Line 3: “we all stumbled on; wheels and hours grinding,
Perhaps the poem's most telling and meaningful enjambment tripping”
comes in lines 10-11 (leaping another stanza break): • Line 4: “Spiti rose up around us, sky propped open by its
peaks”
[...] I almost missed him, until he turned, gap-toothed, • Lines 8-11: “I saw a thin boy in red flannel squat
and shot me between two dhabas; / a black-eyed bean, slipped in
with a toy gun. [...] between two crags, he was so small / that I almost
missed him, until he turned, gap-toothed, and shot me /
For just a fraction of a second, the words "shot me" hang in the with a toy gun”
air, giving the reader a moment to believe that the speaker
really did die. The title of the poem, after all, leaves that METAPHOR
possibility open. The enjambment thus helps the reader to Metaphors help to capture the speaker's thoughtful vision of
share the speaker's moment of shock. the world around them, in all its unfamiliarity.
As the bus makes its long, weary way across the Himalayas, the
Where Enjambment appears in the poem: speaker looks out the window to see the "sky propped open" by
• Lines 1-2: “cat / while” the "peaks" of the mountains. This metaphor suggests that the
mountains look almost supernaturally tall, and it also captures a
"The Instant of My Death" recounts a bus journey through the This particular stretch of the speaker's journey is home to a
Himalayan mountains. The speaker takes in the grandeur of the substantial Buddhist population. As the speaker observes,
Spiti valley, whose peaks seem to "prop[] open" the sky. there are many Buddhist gompas (religious institutions of
learning, rather like a cross between a temple and a university)
The speaker can't really enjoy their surroundings, though, in the region, marks of a historical Tibetan Buddhist influence.
because the bus is so cramped (note the "fat man" rubbing up Alongside the image of the little boy with the toy gun, these
against the speaker's leg). The journey feels like it's going to discreet allusions remind readers that some of the lands the
drag on forever. The speaker passes the time by counting—or speaker might travel through on a journey across the
tracing—features in the landscape as it rolls by. Himalayas have fraught histories of violence and invasion.
The monotonous, uncomfortable journey lulls the speaker into During the 20th century alone, for instance, Tibet was invaded
a kind of stupor, which makes it doubly surprising and by Britain, then annexed by China, with much bloodshed and
memorable when a little boy pops up out of the landscape and destruction.
pretends to shoot her. Indeed, the atmosphere of boredom and
the sense that the journey will go on forever are what make this
playful reminder of mortality all the more shocking.
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• An Interview with the P
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oet — Read an interview in Magma
Howard, James. "The Instant of My Death." LitCharts. LitCharts LLC,
magazine in which Sarah Jackson discusses her work.
21 Nov 2023. Web. 5 Dec 2023.
(https:/
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magmapoetry.com/interview-with-sar
.com/interview-with-sarah-jackson/)
ah-jackson/)
• More Jackson P Poems
oems — Read more poems from the book CHICAGO MANUAL
in which "The Instant of My Death" appeared. Howard, James. "The Instant of My Death." LitCharts LLC,
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eblogs.blogspot.com/2012/08/three- November 21, 2023. Retrieved December 5, 2023.
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