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Behind closed doors

By Kaydie

0777684685

Chapter 1

Leah

He literally banged the door kuita kunge it was my fault

achikanganwa kuti even I was just as shocked as he was. I could
understand yes kuti kuzvitambira was slightly difficult for him
but the way he had looked at me was more like an accusation.
Kuita kunge ndini ndainge ndaudza doctor what to say to him.
Takasara takatarisana kwakubva ndatarisa ku door kwaainge
kwabuda na Macus. My heart pounded followed by the sudden
shiver yandakaona on my body, maybe caused by Marcus's
reaction. I wanted to run after him asi my body went weak
ndikanzwa doctor vaakuti, "he will be fine, it's only kuti all this
came as a shock to him and it's not easy for a man to accept that
he is impotent."

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"So there is noway at all that we can have kids?" Ndakavhunza
and he seemed convinced that there was no way we could have
kids, his case was a very difficult one. "I can only suggest
adoption." I knew he would never agree to it saka ndakabuda
ndikamuwana atomutsa mota about to leave. I stopped him
ndikati, "were you just about to leave me behind? "

Akatondipindura without hiding kubhowekana kwaainge aita

akati,"It seemed iwewe na doctor wako still had so much to
discuss." Ndakapinda mumota ndikati, "now he is my doctor?"

"Hamheno," akadaro mota yaakutofamba. Ndakatura mafemo

ndichishaya what to say to him nekuti ndaiona kuti he was
hurting terribly. "Say it, I know you want to laugh at me."
Akadaro ndikati, "Marcus stop it andisi kuzvifunga kana
handisi. Why are you trying to put words into my mouth,
urikundifungira zvandisiri kufunga." Akapukuta musoro mota
ichipika speed ndikati, "Macus slow down."

"Leah look at me," aitaura achishandisa sign yemaoko kuti

ndinyatsomutarisa ndikati, "yes watii?" Akaseka akati, "nditarise
babie, ndinganzi handizvare here?" Akawedzera kuseka ndikati,

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"Macus this happens. Women go through it a lot wani." Akabva
atochinja face as if ndainge ndapa a very bad example, but it
was the only one that came into my mind.

Akadzora speed akati, "Yaa unozivei, it's better when a woman

can't have kids, there are other options like getting a sarogate,
second wife and stuff like that. Now tell me kuti kana zvichinzi
handizvare unopiwa mwana nani, ndiri kushandira chii nhai?"

"If you can't have kids then I dont want a child Marcus. We can
just live our lives as us, or get your brother's kids to take care
of." Akaridza tsamwa akati, "ngaipere," ndaitoziva kuti kana
zvadaro haachada kutaura saka ndakanyarara ndichimusiya kuti
adzikise hasha. For a moment I regreted going to the doctor with
him nekuti zvainge zvamutsa so many things. Iniwo it was
difficult for me to believe that my husband could not have kids,
we both wanted a baby and my dream of a big family had just
been crushed. Handina kuzoenda kubasa akanondisiya kumba
iye kwaakubuda achienda. Ndakazvikanda pamubhedha
ndikatanga kuchema. We had it all but that one thing was
lacking. Ndakasimuka and looked at our wedding photo
ndikawedzera kuchema. We had had our lives figured out, zvese
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we had laid out tichitonyora pasi kuti by this time tinenge taita
this and that. By this time tinenge taane vana vakadai and so on.
All that we had achieved we had ticked , kwangosara chinhu
one.

Feeling exhausted with my thoughts ndakagara pasi

kwaakumunyorera message ndichimuudza how much I loved
him. I hoped kuti somehow that would help him calm down a
little bit. Kungomuzivisa kuti I was not going anywhere, I was
there to stay and he did not need to worry. Haana kupindura
ndikasiya zvakadaro kwakuedza making something special for
dinner instead.

Akanonoka kudzoka akauya dzaakuenda kumaten ndatobatwa

nehope. Radio yemota ndiyo yakandivhundutsa, it was unlike
him saka ndakatombotadza kuziva kuti ndiani auya until
ndavhura curtain ndikamuona getting out of his car
achidzedzereka. Ndakapotsa ndachema realising how broken he
was kwakubuda panze ndichienda kunomutora. It was cold
outside but aiita kunge asiri kana kunzwa chando ndikati, "hey."
Akanditarisa and smiled kwakuti, "Leah," hugging me ndikati,
"yes."
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"Unoziva here kuti ndinokuda sei?" Akavhunza ndikati,
"unondida a lot." He hugged me tighter akati, "ndogona kukufira
Leah unomboziva here but I'm useless manje."

"Don't say that," panguva iyoyo misodzi yangu yakabuda

zvekutadza kuidzora. Kana kuipukuta futi ndakatadza
ndikanzwa my own chest burning with pain, kusvika
ndaakuchema zvainzwika kuti ndiri kuchema. "Hona
ndaakukuchemedza," he said achindibvisa paari kuti anditarise.
Akaisa mhanza yake pane yangu akati, "ndinokuda shaa am
sorry, hona ndadhakwa nhasi."

"Usadhakwe futi," ndakamuudza akati, "okay sorry, chimiraka

kuchema ndozotadza manje kuramba ndakakutarisa." His hand
reached to wipe my tears ndikafamba naye tichipinda mumba.
Akatarisa the nicely set table akati, "I'm sorry Leah."

"It's fine but the food has gone cold." He never really paid
attention to what I was telling him nekuti he was already digging
into the food asina basa nazvo. Ndakaramba ndakamira
watching him closely ndikati, "at least let me warm it up."

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"It's fine like this, chirikunaka wani." Ndakachibata ndikanzwa
chakatonhora but he still refused to let me warm it up.
Ndakazongogara paside akati, "eat with me, I must have spoiled
the romantic dinner." It had been spoilt asi ndaisakwanisa
kumuudza, afraid that nyaya yacho yaigona kuzondichinjira.
Achipedza kudya he got up ndikatevera kubedroom
kwandakamumanikidza kugeza achida kurara akadaro. Ndakada
kurara ndakadaro but mudumbu makatanga kurira nzara
ndikabuda kunodziisa chikafu, chandakadya just a bit
ndikadzokera kubedroom. I found him sleeping on the floor
ndikapinda busy getting him up kuti aende kunogeza. Nharo
dzake dzainge dzavakundibhowa but I managed to get him
cleaned up for bed.

That night ndakatadza kurara with so many thoughts on my

mind. I was not sure where to begin, that moment when your
future becomes uncertain and hautozive kuti zvichafamba sei.
Iyewo aiita like munhu aivhumuka husiku I had to keep
checking on him kuti ari right here. In the morning he was rather
quiet like he didn't want to talk anymore. Kutaurisa kwese kwe
the previous night kwainge kwapera and he was a totally

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different man and aitotyisa kutarisa. The moment he left
ndakasara ndikabata phone after ndafonerwa ndichinzi ndiende
pa group redu pa WhatsApp naAngy.

"Tirikuonana na1 anditi?" Said Angy kwaakubva awedzera kuti,

"Leah auya uyu." I typed kuti, "matii zvikanzi na
Florence,"imbomira zvekurara, we are meeting na 1."

"Ehoi," ndakapindura zvisingaende kure ndikanzi, "ko chii?"

Ndikati, "hapana ndakaneta." Florence jokingly said, "Marcus
haana kurara ka achishandira mwana." Ndakaseka zvekuvhara
vhara ndikati, "dzikama Flo musiye Macus." Ndakabva paphone
kwaakuramba ndakatarisa makumbo angu aive nekakuzvimba.
The doctor had warned me before about my slowly rising blood
pressure asi kuti nditi my mind was stable enough to get it down
zvainetsa, I was stressed .

End of chapter

Kaydie

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Behind closed doors

By Kaydie

Chapter 2

Leah

My senses had drifted, leaving me alone and empty. By the time

I heard a knock on my bedroom door, I had not realized how
much time had moved ndikanzwa Molly achiti, "sis Leah are
you in there?" Ndakapukuta kumeso ndikadaira kuti, "still here
watii?" Akapinda akati, "morning," ndikamudaira. She stood
close to the door asingade hake kusvika padhuze pandaiva asi
achioneka kuti she had something on her mind. Probably waiting
for me to speak, akaramba akanyarara ndikati, "ko chii," akati,
"you never got back to me about the early off. Ndirikuda kuenda
kumusha remember?" Ndaive ndatozvikanganwa kwaakumuti,
"yaa it's fine enda hako I will manage." Akaramba akamira
ndikati, "watii?"

"It's month-end," she reminded me. I reached for my wallet and

counted mari yaivamo. Ndakabvisa yake ndikamupa,

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akaiverenga akati, "thank you," kwakubuda achienda. Ndakasara
ndikapfeka nekutobuda kuti ndiende kubasa where I worked as a
pharmacist. Ndichipinda muoffice mangu handina kutanga
nekuita basa but my mind drifted ndikatanga kunzwa mashoko
ese akataurwa na doctor ringing in my head. Ndakabva in those
thoughts then I went back to the previous weekend where I had
had a bad experience at a family function yesister yaMarcus
yairoorwa. Ndakarwadziwa nekutaura kwandakanzwa kuchiitika
pakati pevanhu and even the way they looked at me ndaitariswa
as if hamheno zvandainge ndaita.

Handingati ndakanyeiwa ndichinzwa asi waitoona kuti

kusekerera kwaive kusekerera nekuti ndiripo. Kungobva
kwangu waigona kunzwa chikwee chichirira, I didn't need to be
told kuti ndataurwa. If it was not for his brother's wife
akarwadziwa akauya kuzondiudza, I would never have known
kuti vaitaura kuti chii pamusoro pangu. As I sat there
ndakazonzwa misodzi yaakuyerera, andina kana kunzwa kuti
padoor pangu paive pamira munhu.

"Urikuchemei?" Said Varaidzo aine face yaive ne a bit of a

frown yemunhu arikuda kunzwisisa kuti zviri kufamba sei.
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Ndakapukuta misodzi ndikati, "haa hapana," ndakamupindura
akati, "there is no point in lying when I have already seen you
crying pasina kuita zvekuudzwa." Ndakamutarisa iyewo
kwaakunditarisa and I failed to hold back my tears kwakubva
anditi, "usacheme Leah, I know whatever it is must be that bad
but usacheme." Ndakaedza kumisa misodzi yakaita nharo
dzekuramba ichibuda. That moment when you try hard to be
strong but then there is someone right in front of you wauri
kuona kuti is ready to give you a shoulder to cry on. "Oh Varie,
ooh my life is hell." Ndakataura ndichipukuta misodzi akati,
"ndiri kukunzwa, but what happened zvekuti ungacheme kudai
makuseni. Did you fight with Marcus?"

"Andisi kuziva if we fought?" That was the truth I was clueless.

"Saka chii?" Her face had worry kwakubva ndati, "what would
you do if you were me. Vanhu vachingotaura zvakawanda, and
you know kuti you can't even answer them back. They say
things behind your back, things that are not true but haugone
kuzvivhunza, nekuti firstly makuhwa awanzwa nawo handiti.
Then pamwe pacho unotogona kunzwa vanhu vachitaura but

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vanhu vacho vanyarikani and haugone kuvavhunza." Ndakaona
face yake ichichinja kuratidza kusvotwa kwakubva ati, "ndiani?"

"Hazvina basa," ndakadaro akati, "unozivei, uri mwana wamai

vangu iwewe and there is noway in hell I will let anyone hurt
you zvekusvika pakuchema kudai. Kana dziri hama dzana
Marcus ini hangu hapana kana one wandinozeza ipopaye. This is
not the first time yandakuona uchichema and then you try hard
to hide it from me. Ndozvinzwisisa kuti maybe you are trying to
protect your marriage but zvimwe zvacho vaakuzvinyanya
mhani." Ndakashaya zvekupindura ndikaramba ndakatarisa pasi.

"Wakanzi chii?" She asked ndikati, "inini handina kunzwa ini,

ndakaudzwa na maiguru kuti vakati ndiri mukadzi
wechikwambo ndicho chakavhara chibereko."

"Hee?" Akadaro achiwedzera kufinyama kwakubva ati, "doctor

vakati chii nezuro?"

"He said Marcus is the one that can't have kids. Inini nditori
right I'm perfectly fine, I'm very fertile as well." She shook her
head zvekupererwa kwakuti, "then they have the nerve to say
iwewe uri mukadzi wechikwambo. It's fine vakaita havo inini

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manje ndaakuda kuti zvakataurika zvacho zvingobuda pachena
nekuti iwewe uri right. Ivo wavo mwana ndiye murume
wechikwambo saka ngavaite kuti chikwambo chacho
chichidzosa hurume hwa Marcus akumitise, vakajaidzwa stereki
mhani. Why is it all the time pakaita problem zvinonzi
mukadzi." Ndakamumisa ndikati, "Varie remember he is my
husband, he is not even taking it well nezuro he went out and
came back home drunk."

"Manje kunwa doro kunogadzira hurume hunozvarisa here?"

She said ndikati,"please don't."

"I'm sorry I'm just hurt nekuti arikungotarisa and not doing
anything. Ehe murume wako and I know. Saka urikundiudza
kuti haazive here zvirikutaurika. Do you think kuti vanhu avo
havataure zvakashata kwaari here, obvious vanotaura and what
is he doing about it?"

"Ndipo paachaita sei?" I asked confused nekuti ndaisaona

mhosva ya Marcus. He probably was stressed about it as well
and even if aida kuvamisa kutaura, it was not up to him,
vaingotaura kana vada. She was not seeing it that way, maybe

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nekuti she was my sister she felt like he was not protecting me
enough.

"Handisi kukunyepera, ndiri kutsvaga one mukana chete, umwe

ndoda kumurova haafe akataura futi kwaasina kuswera."
Akaratidza kuti she was not joking and knowing her zvaanenge
ataura kuti achaita she would do it zvechokwadi.
Ndakakumbirisa kuti andisiye ndiyedze handling things on my
own. At least let Marcus and I find a way forward and deal with
our situation in a less straining way. She left, asi akaenda
akatsamwa. That was one of the hardest days of my life nekuti
even a message from Marcus never came. Ndakambotanga
ndichaedza kunzwisisa kuti he was stressed but ndakatozoona
zvanyanya. Even I was hurting too, hurting for him.

Kuma 1 ndakabuda ndikanosangana nevasikana. "Ko makumbo

kuzvimba what's going on asi bp yako ichiri kukwira," asked Flo
ndikati, "I think ndizvozvo. Kubva nezuro akadai?"

"Chii chakaitika nezuro, wakazoenda here kwa doctor?" Asked

Angy ndikati, "yaa waiting for results. I could not tell them yet
kuti my husband could not have kids. Takataura tichivaraidzika,

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during that lunch date Angy akatanga kutsvagwa nemurume
wake ndikanzwa avakuti, "Benji imbondisiya ndifeme
mbichana." Tese takangoshamisika kwakumusiya achitaura
paphone kusvika apedza ndikati, "what's going on?" Haana
kupindura nekukasika, instead she ate her salad kwakuzotura
mafemo akati, "when I got married to him agreeing to be his
second wife, I had no idea kuti it would be this difficult. I
thought I was going to be okay, I thought as long as he came
home I would be okay but I'm not. Worse being told kuti you
have to act like sisters." Akamira kutaura kwakubva aseka akati,
"what have I done vasikana? I should have let him go mhani,
akati kuchengera Benji. He was never like this, ipapa every
second he wants to know kuti ndirikupi, ndinaani, ndirikuita
nezvei."

Takatarisa Floence achifa nekuseka akati, "Angy ndakakuudza

ndikati, siyana na Benji paye ukati unomuda akadaro.
Rinonyenga rinohwarara rinosimudza musoro rawana. He is
now showing his true colors asi manje ngaazviitire hako iwewe.
Inini hangu zvekushungudzwa nemwana weimwe chembere
yaakuzviitira weti bodo."

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"I don't think kushusha, I think he is insecure." I said Angy
akati, "pane zvandaita here inini. Apa inyaya yekuti he was
supposed to come home nezuro but haana kuuya saka handisi
kutaura naye. I don't see him everyday then when he is supposed
to come orega kuuya anenge achida kuti ndiite sei?"

"Aewa Angy obviously pane zvakamutadzisa saka chiri

kukunetsa iwewe chii?" Akabva atotadza kupindura ndikaona
ajenga misodzi. Ndakabva ndatoziva kuti aakuda kuchema.
Ndakamutarisa ichiyerera ndikamutambidza tissue kuti apukute.

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Behind closed doors

By Kaydie : 0777684685

Chapter 3

Angy

I wiped my tears ndikatora phone kwakuisa mubag ndikati,

"toonana ndaakuenda ini." Leah akasimuka neni
akati,"imbomira urikuenda kupi uchichema." Ndakafemera
padenga realizing kuti I was drawing attention, vanhu vainge
vaakunditarisa tarisa. I sighed ndichimutarisa, ndipo pakapinda
Wendy akati, "sorry I'm late."

Flo akaseka akati, "saka wauyirei hako nekuti it seems munhu

wese aakuyenda."

"Haa kuenda kupiko imi garai pasi what's going on. Hapana
kana chatataura, kana ka project kedu makataura here?"
Akataura achigara pasi kwakuti, "and then, urikuchemei?"

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"She is stressed," ndakadairirwa na Leah who made me sit
down. Pakamboita a moment of silence Wendy kwaakuti, "okay
whats going on?"

"Hamheno mainini va Lilly ava, hanzi havachada kutongwa

nemurume wavakada vega." Said Flo, I scoffed at her thoughts
akati, "ko ndanyepa here ini. You got yourself in that situation
saka urikuda kuti zviite sei, bvira kana marriage yacho iri
kubvira?" Ndakanzwa kubatikana ndikasimuka ndichitoenda.
Leah ran after me akati, "Mira Angy." I responded angrily
ndikati, "unozivei, andidi hangu zvekutaura. Sometimes Flo can
be too much, ehe ane freedom of speech but handiide hangu.
Anoita kunge life yake iri perfect kuita kunge iye na Steve
havana ma problems."

"Siyana nazvo," she said ndikati, "Havana ma problems here?"

Ndaive ndaakubuditsa misodzi akati, "I believe vanawo, she just
enjoys appearing perfect." I cursed ndikaenda zvangu kumota
yangu and drove back to work. Ndainzwa kubatikana saka
ndaingokanda kanda mapepa kwese kwese. When Mr Baker
came in vakatoshama kuti chii chaiitika zvikanzi, "what's going
on," maziso avo achitarisa tarisa kwese kwese kwaive
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nemapaper. Ndakasimuka kubva pachair ndikanyepa kuti mhepo
yaive yapinda nepawindow ikaspreader mapaper. Ndakanhonga
mapaper vasina chavataura. Only when I was done ndipo
pavakati, "book me a ticket to SA ndiri kuda kubuda zviri
urgent." I nodded ndikasara ndichiita zvandainge ndatumwa.

After work ndakananga kumba ndikatanga nekugeza kwakubika

food yangu kuti ndidye. As I sat on the couch ndakatanga
kufunga kuti Flo aiedza kutaura kuti chii. Saka kutaura
kwandainge ndaita kuti I hated zvimwe zvaiitwa na Benji
ndainge ndakanganisa here. Kana kuti atumire message yekuita
sorry aive asina which left me even more irritated than ever.
Ndakaridza tsamwa asking myself kuti life yake yaive
yakanyanya kuita seiko zvekuti pakati pedu tese aizviita munhu
akarongeka stereki. Ndakaita nguva ndichifunga until
ndafonerwa na Wendy akati, "wasvika bho here kumba.
Wazongoenda ka paye, I'm sorry about what happened and I
hope that you are okay." Ndakatanga ndaridza tsamwa feeling
even more annoyed ndikati, "ndiri bho, Masara navo sei vana
miss perfect." She laughed first akati, "usadaro, we are all

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friends, I think anga achizama kukuonesa kuti you already chose
that saka be happy with that decision."

"What are friendships for when they can't comfort me ?"

Ndakavhunza akati, "inzwa Angy, vanhu vanosiyana."
Ndakaramba ndakanyarara akati, "anyway I wanted to check on
you."

"Ndiribho," I said kwakufamba kuenda kudoor kwandainzwa

knock. Ndakavhura door ndakabata phone ndikaona Benji who
took my phone ndisati kana ndapedza kutaura na Wendy.
Akatarisa akati, "hesi kani Angy," I shook my head
zvekupererwa ndikafamba ndichipinda mumba ndichimusiya
kuti atendeseke kuti zveshuwa ndaitaura na Angy. Satisfied kuti
it was Angy zve sure ndakadzoserwa phone ndikati, "gara
nayo."

"Saka watsamwa?" He asked ndikati, "Benji, what's this?

Unongotora phone, wafunga kuti ndiri kutaura naani?"

"Ndanga ndichida kuona kuti arikufonera mukadzi wangu kuma

8 ndiani?" Ndakasimudza maoko defeated akati, "saka urikutii?
I should not worry kuti mukadzi wangu arikutaura naani?"

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"Uchiita as if wakambondibata ndichihura?" He laughed but
zvaisatosekesa. Akabva agara pasi ndikabvisa butsu dzake
nemasocks. I didn't say anything more ndakanoisa kubedroom
kwakuisa mvura yake yekuti ageze. He bathed ndikamupa
chikafu chake kwakuti, "good night," ndichida kunorara akati,
"dzoka." Ndakamira ndakamutarisa akati, "urikuenda kupi
leaving me to eat alone, kuti zvaita sei?"

"Ndaneta," I said akati, "nei zvekuti ungatadze kundimirira kuti

ndipedze?" Kwaisave kuneta but I was just mad at him.
Ndakagara pasi and watched him eat kwaakuzoenda kunorara.
"I'm sorry," he said ndikati, "hazvisi kunakidza you were
supposed to come and see me nezuro but hauna kuuya, hauna
kana kutaura kuti hausi kuuya anymore. If you don't give me
that attention unenge uchida kuti ndipiwe naani Benji?" He
didn't respond nemuromo but instead he kissed my neck
nekutotanga caressing my breasts ndikati, "Mira shaa." He
stopped akati, "babie sorry andina kutaura kuti handisi kuuya."

"Saka Lilly deserves more attention than inini."

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"No I didn't say that, babie handina kana kurara kwa Lilly.
Sekuru hanzvadzi yamama irikurwara, ndakataura wani kuti
ndiko kwandiri kuenda?"

"How am I supposed to know when you dont tell me?"

Ndakavhunza akati, "sorry ndakabva manheru," then began
caressing me again. I was overtaken by so much jealous ndikati,
"sorry I just got jealous." He went on top of me zvikanzi, "I
know you love me," kwakutanga sucking my breasts ndikatanga
kudairira. "I love you," he whispered parting my legs akatanga
kundigumha gumha. I was so impatient that ndakatora ndikaisa
ndega, "oooh," he groaned zvikanzi, "I missed this, I missed
being in there."

"Babie," I said moving ndichinzwa his size increasing with

every thrust he gave me. Ndakasimukira as he pushed deeper
and caressed his body kissing him in places I could reach. "I
want a baby now Mami," he said ndikati, "I thought we were not
in a rush?"

"We were not but I want now, I'm sure we have had enough fun
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answer. I smiled ndikati, "okay then," iye kwaakuti, "yes,
nomore contraceptives." The mood went better I could feel the
bed moving as he rocked me. Ndakaiswa makumbo ese
mudenga ndikachema ndichikumbira more and more. "Angy,"
he called me akavhara maziso which I found extremely sexy.
Ndakakurungira kwaakuti, "Benji harder." He gave me nesimba
rese ndikafunga kuti mubhedha uchatyoka as we both came.
Zvekumutsamwira zvakapera kwakutarisana smiling. It was his
smile that made me love him, aitoziva kuti ndikatsamwa all he
had to do was smile kuti ndimuregerere.

"Ndazviona," I said akati, "zvii?"

"That smile," I said reaching for his lips. In the morning

ndakavhura maziso ndanzwa achitaura paphone but he was not
in the bedroom. I got off the bed then walked to the bathroom
asi handina kuvhura door ndikanzwa achiti, "Lilly sha usade
kuomesa musoro Angy is my wife too." Ndakatoziva kuti she
was not happy with him sleeping over kumba kwangu.
Ndakaridza tsamwa kwaakuvhura door ndichipinda kuti
ndigeze. "Morning," I said achibva akata phone and kissed me
ndikati, "saka hauchabvumidzwa kurara kuno?"
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"Haa unomuziva wani Lilly." He said achiedza kurerutsa like I
was supposed to be okay with it. Ndakapinda ndikageza ndisina
kutaura chinhu asi ndainzwa kutosvotwa. I never disturbed her
time with him asi aitorwadziwa kana yava nguva yangu.
"Watsamwa here?" Akavhunza akamira padoor ndikati, "saka
wakatirei phone?"

Haana kupindura ndikati, "ini handidi munhu anofona kana uri

kuno. My house my rules." He joined me akati, "nhasi une hasha
chii?" Ndaitorevesa zvandaitaura nekuti I could see kuti
ndaakujairirwa.

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Kaydie

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Behind closed doors

By Kaydie : 0777684685

Chapter 4

Macus

Ndakaramba ndakatarisana nedoro kwakutarisa phone yangu

yairira. Handina kudaira Leah ndakafunga kuenda kumba
kwamai vangu first kwaakumutsa mota. Doro randaiva naro
ndakasiya rakadaro kwaakuvhura dashboard ndikaisa fearing
kumiswa nemapurisa paroad. Hana yangu yairova in a way I
could not understand and ndaiti ndikafunga what the doctor had
said ndaibva ndatowedzera kurohwa nehana. All I saw was
losing Leah to someone else which made my life miserable
before it even happened. Ndakaedza kuzviudza kuti she was
okay, she loved me but hapana paaizoramba achida murume
asingazvare. Obviously iye pachezvake she needed kids of her
own.

Ndakapotsa ndaroverana nemunhu wandakakata nekuda kwekuti

I was not concerntrating kwakubva ndaparker paside for a short

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while ndisati ndasimudzira kuenda kwandaida kuenda.
Ndichisvika ndakaona Patricia ariko asi achitobuda kuti aende
kumba kwake. She came to my window akadongorera akati,
"ndeip?" I faked a smile ndikati, "ndeip," ndichibuda mumota.
She hugged me mama vakati, "wauya wega nhasi hauna
handbag yako?"

"Yaa ndauya ndega, ko pakuzoti handbag manje, mukadzi

wangu ka wamuri kutaura mama." Havana kupindura instead
she hugged me kwakufamba neni kupinda mumba. Patricia
followed akati, "manje ndaakuenda kaini?" I was not bothered
ndakatozvikanda pasofa ndikati, "ufambe bho ariseiko tsaga
wako." Akatanga aseka akati ,"veduwee tsaga here?"

"Wangu mukadzi anonzi handbag wani ndotadza nei kuti wako

tsaga." Akawedzera kuseka akavhunza kuti, "varisei maiguru,"
ndikati, "fona unzwe kuti varisei nekuti andigone kutaura
zvandisingazive."

"Handiti mabva kumba here?" I nodded ndikati, "ehe ko kana

vazorwara." She lifted her hands up akati, "surrender, shungu
dzekuda kundiwachisaka." Ndakangosekerera ndakamutarisa

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achibva atora handbag yake akabuda kuenda. My father walked
in tikamhoresana, vakavhunza Leah ndikati aiva right mama
vakati, "ko maakunzwa sei nemusoro." He replied kuti waiva
naani ndikavhunza kuti wainge watanga riini vakati, "manheru."
I relaxed kwakuvhunza about ma tablets vakati vainge vanwa.
Handina kuzombotaura zvakawanda nekuda kwebhora
raitambwa pa tv. For that moment moyo wangu wakasununguka
taakutotaura zvebhora na daddy. Pava paya my phone rang again
ndikatumira message yekuti, "ndirikumba kwamama ndirikuuya
babie."

"Are you telling me that you can't answer your phone kana uri
kumba kwavo." She asked ndikati, "I can I just thought kuti it
was better kutumira message nekuti tirikuona bhora." Haana
kupindura then I went back to watching soccer kusvika mama
vauya nedinner tikadya. Bhora richipera ndakaoneka mama
vakati, "are you okay?" I nodded ndikati, "handichabvumidzwa
kuuya kuzokuonai here." She shook her head vachitoratidza kuti
visiting was not a problem. Maybe she had picked up something
on me asi havana havo kuzotaura except kuti, "sekuru vako
varikuda kukuona uyende unovaona."

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"Hoo hanzii?" I was curious asi havana kundiudza vakangoti
ndiende ndega ndinozvionera. Handina kuzomira ndakabuda
ndikaenda kumba where I met Leah angry. She didn't need to
tell me, ndakatozviona ndega as soon as I stepped into the
house. I tried kissing her akati, "you can be unfair Marcus. Is it
hard telling me that you are not coming home straight.
Unositaura wani what happened today?" Ndakaisa jacket on the
chair ndikagara pasi kwakutanga kubvisa boots. She stood next
to me akapeta maoko ndikati, "sorry."

"That's all?" She asked ndikati, "what more do I have to say. I

did something chausina kufarira and I apologised, I said I'm
sorry." She sighed, ndakasimudza musoro and saw tears in her
eyes. Ndakaita sendisina kumaona ndikasimuka kuenda
kubedroom. She followed me ndikamunzwa achitura mafemo
kasingapere. Ndaive ndiri pakati pekuchinja when she said, "are
you going to have your dinner?"

"I already ate, ndodya mangwana."

"Next time tell me not to bother cooking." She said banging the
door leaving the room, zvakaita kuti ndiite weak kwaakugara

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pamubhedha ndakabata musoro. Ndakavhara kumeso nemaoko
ndikaita nguva ndakadaro till I forced myself to get up and look
for my wife. Ndakamushaya mumba ndikaenda panze
kunomutsvaga ndikamuwana akagara panze asina kana jersey.
Ndakagara paside pake ndikamutarisa tikapedzisira tatarisana
ndikati, "Leah I'm sorry, I didn't mean to disrespect you or get
you upset."

"Yet you did, I'm very upset I won't lie," she said achitarisa
kuside kuti tisatarisane but I held her face ndikaita kuti
anditarise futi. "I'm sorry," I said again akati, "it's fine hazvo." I
rubbed her hands ndikati, "urikutonhodza mukadzi wangu."

"Handisi kunzwa chando," she said ndikati, "your body is cold

ndokumbirawo tipinde mumba." Akaramba akagara kwakuti,
"Marcus," ndikati, "hee?"

"Asi I don't love you enough?" Akavhunza ndikati, "why are

you speaking like that zvabva nekupi?"

"Ndiri kungovhunza hangu," she said ndikaona kuti my

behaviour was affecting her. I was trying hard to cope but
zvairamba I was so disappointed in myself. I had never felt less

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of a man and ndaiti ndikamutarisa I wondered kuti ainzwei,
aifungei regarding our issue. She loved me but I wondered how
long her love for me would last which made my life hell. I
reached to hug her ndikati, "you love me I know, I'm sorry for
being a jerk lately." I stayed in her arms until tazosimuka
kuenda mumba. That night we slept but I could tell kuti pfungwa
dzedu tese dzaiva kure.

In the morning I left early as usual and ndasvika kuoffice

ndikafonera sekuru ndichida kunzwa kuti yaiva nyaya yei.
Vakaramba kutaura paphone which left me with no option but to
go to his house after work kuti ndinozvinzwira. Avoiding the
same mistake ndakatanga ndaudza Leah then she said, "nezuro
wakaenda kwamama today it's your uncle what's going on?"

"Nothing babie mama vakati sekuru wants to see me?" I could

tell doubt in her tone paakapindura kuti, "hoo enda."

"I will call you kana ndasvika kana uchifunga kuti ndiri
kunyepa?" I told her akati, "no it's fine, no need for proof." We
both went quiet till she hung up ndikananga kumba kwasekuru.
Ndakasvika vachangobva kubasa tikavhunzana mufaro tisati

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tapinda munyaya yacho. Takamboita nyaya nagogo as well till
she left us na sekuru. Vakatanga kuvhunza zvekubasa
ndichipindura kwakuzoti, "kumba kurisei?"

"Kuri right," I said vakati,"ndaona kuti handingataure paphone.

Nguva yareba muzukuru, it's going for six years you know
that?" I already knew what he meant ndikati, "yaa."

"Wadii, ma doctors arikuti chii?" Ndakafemera padenga

ndichinzwa kuremerwa ndikati, "she is okay sekuru, I'm the one
with a problem."

"Are you sure about it?" Vakavhunza ndikati, "ndizvo

zvaakataura doctor watakanoona." He sighed vakati, "mmmm
muzukuru, I'm not saying it's a good thing but wakambozamawo
out there kuti uone kuti hauzvare zvechokwadi?" I shook my
head ndikati, "haa sekuru zvinonetsa zvekuwanza vakadzi izvi.
Besides I have been too focused on our life nekugadzira our
dreams to think about other women. I have been happy with
Leah."

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"Andisi kuti you are not happy, but what if ma doctor ari wrong?
That's why I'm saying kuti for a man to be said haazvare, hunge
azama zama kumwe zvoonekwa nema results."

"I can't cheat on my wife sekuru," I said with confidence vakati,

"it's not cheating usandibate pasipo ndiri kuti try and see if
noone gets pregnant." I scoffed vakati, "aizve urikutoshora what
I'm saying?"

"Sekuru, let's say munhu aita nhumbu kunze then what? I can't
lose Leah."

"Then we know kuti unozvara and Leah haazvare. What if

doctor vakatengwa kuti vataure zvakadaro. Kashoma kuti
murume asazvare Marcus. And I don't believe kuti iwewe
hauzvare, unozvara muzukuru." I didn't want to have false hope
at the same time I could not picture myself sleeping with
someone that was not my wife. Vakaramba vachitaura kusvika
ndati, "maakundiomesera sekuru, I'm stressed as it is haisi nyore
kuudzwa kuti hauzvare."

"Ndiri kukuudza solution and urikuzeza. Itira kure kunze uko,

haafe akaziva kuti ndo zvawaita. Kana two months chete kana

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three months woona kuti zviri kufamba sei. Unoitawo
zvakachangamuka zvisina kubatwa mukati.' he said
kwakusimudza drink kuti vanwe. Ndakapera simba ndikaramba
ndakatarisa drink randaive ndaisirwawo kuti ndinwe.

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Behind closed doors

By Kaydie : 0777684685

Chapter 5

Leah

Ndairamba ndichitarisa time ndikaona nine dzatokwana munhu

asina kuuya. Irritated as I was ndakaenda kunorara ndikasiya
ndakiya madoor angu. Ndiri pamubhedha ndaitoshaiwa hope at
the same time still feeling irritated nekutarisa nguva.
Ndakapedzisira ndaakutaura zvangu na Angy ndichivhunza zva
Benji akati, "he wants a baby now."

"Anditozive why you guys have been saying hee hatisati tava
ready. Look at Marcus and i zvaakuramba."

"Haa your case is not as if yakakonzereswa nekusanonoka dear.

Anyway what's going on mafungei did you get your results?"
Ndakanyepa ndikati, "not yet."

"Waneta here nemaporofita avamwene vako?" Her question

yakaita ndifunge all occasions ndichingonzi ndini ndine problem

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asi it's only the doctor that had said Marcus ndiye ane problem. I
reminded her akati, "chete zvinhu zvacho zvinonetsa stop
pressurising yourself wosiya nature to take it's course."

"I don't think I want to try anymore, too much pressure I want to
adopt." She went against the idea akati, "haa Leah mira, will
Marcus agree?"

"Andizive but I will try kutaura naye." Ndaisava sure and I knew
that it was a challenge kuti abvume. Nekusada kuramba
ndichitaura nyaya yacho I changed the subject ndikati,
"wakazotaura na Flo?"

"Haa handina, handidi zvekupihwa bp ndine my own issues

already zva Flo hamheno ikoko." Ndakangoseka ndikasiyana
nazvo kwaakutsvaga zvangu mwana wamai vangu. She was still
awake saka haana kunonoka kupindira hesi yangu zvikanzi,
"kunditsvaga manheru kwakanaka?" Ndakaseka ndikati, "I'm
bored Marcus abuda haasati adzoka uyu." She asked kuti,
"aenda kubhawa here?" ndikati, "haa no aenda kwasekuru vake
hamheno vakati varikuda kumuona." She sent an emoji ine

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rolling eyes ndikati, "chii," akati, "hakuna chimwe ezvi ndiwe
urikunyeiwa."

"Varie please," I said akati, "haa kupiko kwavangadaidze munhu

hwani, imbwa dzevanhu." Ndakatoona kuti nyaya dzekwana
Marcus dzaimupinza mucheek nekukasika ndichibva ndadzisiya
ndikati, "ariseiko muface wenyu Jack." Akavhurira chikwee pa
audio akati, "unoshura nhai, haa Jack noo mhani ane kamwe
kakupusa kanondi irritator."

"Zvatanga," ndakapindura ndikanzi, "I don't even know what

you like on that guy unoziva, andimufeele ini." Ndaitoshaiwa
kuti chainzi hapana hapana chacho chaiva chii, he was nice tall
and handsome. For someone that had lost her husband I wished
she could find someone that made her happy asi munhu wacho
aiona everything as funny. Ndakaramba ndichivhunza chete then
she said, "listen I have kids anditi unoziva. I have my three
babies and he does not have. That's a big challenge and
andisikuda hangu kuzviisa under unneccesary pressure. Imagine
getting married to a guy that has not had kids, apa iwe une three.
Haiwa ndisiyei zvangu ndingasava topic here kumba kwavo,
kuitwa three course meal."
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"Zvine basa rei, three kids yes but you are not old at all you only
had kids young." Akapikisa akati, "eh icho chakamutadzisa kuita
vana chii. Ko kana akatakura mhepo dza chaminuka dzinoda
arambe arimukomana ndini ndingadzigone here." Ndakaridza
chikwee kuvharira imba yese. "I need a man with kids also at
least zvinobalanca so." Ndakamira kupikisana and agreed to
everything she was saying kuti nyaya yacho ipere. After a while
ndakanzwa kuvhurwa kwegate and I knew that he was back.
Ndakaramba ndakarara kusvika atanga kufona ndisingadaire. He
sent a message akati, "babie wanga uri on app just now
ndivhurirewo." Ndakaridza tsamwa ndikafamba kunovhura. I
didn't speak to him ndakangonanga back kunorara ndikasiya
achitevera smelling of alcohol. I never commented, he went to
bath akadzoka ndichinyebedzera kurara kunyepedzera ngonono.

"Leah," he whispered, ndakaramba ndakanyarara until he

touched me ndikati, "ukutonhora."

"But ndageza wani, warm water futi?" Akadaro ndikati,

"urikutonhora."

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"Kana kuti maybe hausikuda ndikubate," ndakatadza kupindura
akati, "hausi kuda." Zvakaita nditure mafemo ndikati, "hanzii na
sekuru?"

"Haa inyaya dzeboys babie hadzina basa." Ndakashaya kuti

nyaya dzavo dze boys dzaida husiku hwese here, ndakavhunza
akati, "gogo ndivo vandinonotsa vachingoti gara. Anyway they
sent their regards." Moyo wangu waitsva nekuda kuziva
whatever they had discussed but airatidza kuti he was not telling
me. Ndakacheuka ndikatarisana naye ndikati, "sei usiri kuda
kundiudza nyaya yacho?"

"Babie he wanted to know kuti ma doctor arikuti chii?"

"And?" I asked akati, "ndavaudza kuti ndini ndakanzi ndine

problem." Ndakaramba ndakamutarisa and I could tell that he
was hurting badly. Ndakashaya kuti ndotaura kuti chii
ndakazoona ndasveerera his lips and kissed him. He responded
hungrily and removed my nightie as fast as he could. We
continued kissing and caressing till I went on top and took him
in. I looked at him and moaned at the same time closing my eyes
feeling every vein of his pleasuring my body. "I need you Leah,

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you are my life." He whispered ndikanzwa misodzi yangu
ichiungana. Ndakaedza kuti isadonhe and felt the sweetest
pinches he gave to my nipples, which gave me more energy to
ride him violently.

His loud groans filled the room, pasina nguva we had blankets
on the floor and all naked on the bed. The color of our skins
gave a beautiful view his dark chocolate skin was to die for. I
kissed his nipples, something he liked ndikanzwa a tight grip
yakaitwa on my waist. "Thats killing me," he said as I
continued. "Leah please," he said pushing himself deeper into
me. I started screaming as my body begged for more of him, i
wanted more badly. I rode him hard and called his name a
couple of times feeling my juices all over him. He groaned again
as we both picked up speed, my body wanted my husband.
"Marcus save me," I begged. He liked it when I begged, it made
him an animal ndakazoona ndaapasi feeling the hardest of his
thrusts. I loved him and that love made me cry, ndakanzwa
misodzi kubuda at the same time enjoying my orgasm.

I pressed him into me till he rested a bit then carried on till he

gave me another climax. "Why are you crying?" Akavhunza
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ndikati, "nekuti I love you." He kissed me akati, "sleep tight my
love."

Even though ndakarara ndainzwa kuti he was awake and he was

troubled. I knew kuti kumuvhunza was a waste of time since
ndaiziva nyaya yacho. Ndakarara hugging him hoping that
would make him feel better. In the morning he was in a better
mood, takatogeza tese tikabuda tese even though ndakabuda
nemota yangu. For once ndakashanda ndiine kakufara kusvika
ndiende kumba. Mazuva akati fambei ndikazonzwa tete vangu
vachiti, "koiwe murume wako haazvare," ndikati, "makaudzwa
naani?"

"Ndaitauraka nemukoma wako tichida kuti tionesane pakufamba

newe ndaakunzwa kuti murume wako haazvare." Ndakaomerwa
ndikapusa kutadza kupindura. Ndakashaya kuti Seiko ainge
avaudza I was not ready for my family kuti izive kuti ndizvo
zvaiitika. Moyo wangu wakarwadza thinking about his reaction
if he was to know kuti ndizvo zvirikuitika pane vaakuziva.
Ndakanzwa Hana kurova ndikati, "haa madoctor achiri kutitarisa
tete nothing has been confirmed."

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"Aiwaka kana asingazvare taura tobva taziva hedu kuti uri right
and maporofita aye ndeenhema."

"Handina chandingataure tete, not now."

"Ndazviziva hangu kuti uchavharira murume wako hazvina

mhosva. Handidi anozochema achiti varikunditi ngomwa
ndanga ndati tigare tadzifambira nyaya dzacho vogara vaziva
kuti wavo ndiye ane error."

"He is okay tete haana error." Kutomutaura in that way hurt me

kusvika ndafonera Varie ndikati, "shuwa Varie ungaudze tete
zvakadaro about Marcus when I told you in confidence."

"Leah tete vanga vaakuda kuenda newe kun'anga that's why

ndakazovaudza nekuti she was convinced kuti iwewe unayo
problem. Sorry hako ndakazongotaura but still vanhu vaye need
to know kuti kwavo ndiko kune nyaya."

"Not right now Varie, Marcus is still not okay. Sure pasina kana
mazuva zvobuda unoti anofungei. It will be as if I could not wait
to embarass him."

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"Haasi mwana mudiki Leah he has to get used to this the earlier
the better. Sorry about telling tete." Ndakaisa phone pasi
ndisisina simba kana. Kuzivikanwa kwenyaya na tete vangu
meant kuzivikanwa nemunhu wese, I was already a ticking time
bomb before she called him kuzotaura zvenyaya yacho.

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Behind closed doors

By Kaydie : 0777684685

Chapter 6

Wendy

I locked my door ndikafamba ndichidzika ma stairs of the flat,

kwaakumira ndichitarisa mota yaipinda neku gate, ndichida
kuona if that was Thabo's car. Realizing that it was him
ndakafambisa kudzika, feeling a little excited nekumuona. As he
got out of the car ndainge ndatosvika kare. Akamira akati,"I
thought I was coming upstairs,"ndikati,"what's upstairs?"

"I don't feel like going out anymore, ndirikutofunga kuti maybe
we should relax kuno kumba." Ndakabhowekana nekuti
zvekumba ndainge ndisiri kuzvida. Handina kupindura which
made him ask if everything was okay ndikati,"you promised kuti
we would not spend the day at home kozvachinja nguvai?"

"Ndapera mari babie," akadaro kwakutanga kutaura nhoroondo

dzainge dzaita kuti mari ipere ndikati,"ah hoo, it's fine."
Ndakafamba ndaakudzokera akati,"you can take me out kana
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uchida. Handiti unayo mari yacho?" Ndakamira ndikamutarisa,
there was nothing new nekuti everytime we went out I paid for
most of the stuff. Apa ndainge ndatofunga kuti maybe ndini
ndainge ndaakunospoilwa for once. Mari yake had a way
yekupera kana yava nguva yekuti ndiidyewo. Handina
kumupindura again ndakafamba ndikaenda upstairs kwakugara
pasofa ndakaturika makumbo. He came in and closed the door
kwaakuti,"Wendy, saka watsamwa nekuti ndati handina mari
nhasi?" The way he said it, ndakanzwa kupera simba
kwakunyarara.

"Asi hausi kunzinzwa, ndozvawatotsamwira?" Ndakasvotwa

kwakugara zvakanaka ndakamutarisa ndikati, "Thabo, on this
day you have the guts to say ndatsamwira kuti hauna mari.
Mazuva ese atinoenda out who pays ? Is it not me? Mari yako
inomboenda kupi chaizvo iwewe nekuti you don't spend it on
me. I do the spending ndotoita kurota being spoiled by you." He
had been standing , akagara pasi akati,"saka iwewe urikuverenga
zvese zvaunondiitira?"

Even angering me more he still had to say that. "Andisi

kuverenga but you made me feel bad kuti ndatsamwa nekuti you
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are not taking me out hauna mari. Mari yakanyanya
kundikoshera riini?"

"Kana uchiona ichitokukwidza bp kureva kuti it's important

Wendy."

"Ya it's important but I never gave it much importance in our

relationship."

"Watotsamwa ka ipapa, and waakutondiverengera

zvaunondiitira." Ndakasimuka where I was sitting ndikaenda ku
bedroom. Ndakabvisa wig yandainge ndapfeka kwaakurara
ndakafuga gumbeze ndichiedza kubvisa kusvotwa kwandainge
ndaita. Ndakaenda pa group redu ndikati,"shura ra Thabo." Flo
ndiye akatanga kuvhunza kuti, "ata sei?" Uyo waitoziva kuti she
was always online aisashaikwa pamhepo. Ndakatotanga
nekumuseka ndikati,"iwe Flo unombowana time nemurume
wako here," akati,"ah handiti nyaya dzinombopera here?"

"Dzichiperereiko, dzako dzinopera 24/7 Flo." Akaseka

akati,"haa kana, we do understand kuti we also have our private
lives that have nothing to do with each other. He gives me time
to have fun iniwo ndichimupa mukana nema bhururu ake. We

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don't want to suffocate each other, you get what I'm saying?"
Ndakabvumira kuti zvipere asi the truth was I could not
understand how their relationship was like. Hamheno pamwe
ndiyo perfect yacho yaingoimbwa nezvayo. Ndakataura nyaya
yangu then she laughed akati,"boys renyu rinoda kukumorai
mari ndakabvira kare ndichikuudza Wendy. Thabo wako uyu
anenge anoda vakadzi vanoshanda kuitira kuti iye achiitirwa.
Anofonyora babie zvemhando zvekuti padiki padiki anenge
achikumbira iwe uchingomupa chete. Stop doing it ah, vakadzi
are meant to be spent on mhani. Nyangwe akafunga kuti
watsamwira mari ndikoko ehe itsamwire handiti unofanira
kuidya? Anomboita contribution yeiko mulife mako munhu
iyeyu nhaiwe Wendy, yekuti tingatoti understand nekuti
anokuitira zvakati."

"Siya mwana iwe," said Leah then Flo said, "kumusiireiko

nhaiwe. Haikonai kunyepa kuti money is not important, it is
important ukaona kuti waakudyiwa. Iwe ungaite munhu
anongokuvhura gumbo oregedza kutenga sipo yekuti ugeze
tsvina yaakusiya nayo." Akabva aisa tuma emoji twekuseka
Angy akati,"aewa yesipo haifanire kushaikwa. Urikuda

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kukwesherwa mahara. Type dzakadaro dzinoendesa mari
kumwe iwe uchinyimwa uchinzi understand kuti handina." All
they were saying was beginning to depress me zvekuti
ndakatozopedzisira ndadumbirwa. When he came into the room
ndainge ndisisade kutaura. He came on the bed kwakurara
akatarisa mudenga ndikaita sendisipo.

Pasina kanguva akada kundibata ndikamurambidza akati,"hoo

pane vaakubata, vaane mvumo vasiri isu?"

"I'm not in the mood," he chuckled akati,"iwewe wakatanga riini

tuna moods twako utwu. I could have been somewhere but I'm
here with you and urikundipa attitude."

"Usaite kunge kuva kwako pano urikundiitira favor."

Ndakamujekesera ipapo nekuti ndaisada kuita kunge ndiri
kudanana ndega.

"I didn't say that ndati I could have been somewhere but I'm
here." He tried justifying himself ndikati, "Ehe cause you want
ka." He shook his head kwakubva ati,"sorry okay maybe I said it
wrongly." My eyes were fixed on the fitted cupboards
ndichitarisa boots dzangu dzaibudikira. Deep in my thoughts I

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wondered where our relationship was going. Thabo
aisanzwisisika, at least I was aware of that. Chairwadza was that
I loved him, when your heart wants what it wants and you can't
let go. It was not about spending on me but aingoita tumanyepo
twaisanzwisisika and that worried me.

Ndakazoona kuti kumutsamwira was not helping any of us

kwaakubva ndamuka nekuti ndainzwa nzara. I had not eaten
ndichiti ndichanodya kumberi so I made a bowl of cerevita
ndanzwa mudumbu kurira. As he followed me into the kitchen
he stood and watched me akati,"manakiro awakaita hauna kana
kufitwa nekutsamwa." I faked a laugh kwaakubva atora mukana
wekuswedera to hug me. I had no choice but hug him back
neniwo ndaitodawo kuti mood ichinje, already feeling tired of
the tension. Takazoswera hedu pamba, akarara futi pamba pangu
then in the morning he said, "babie ndipo 20 ye fuel."
Ndakaramba ndakanyarara akati,"babie," ndikati, "andina."
Andina kuziva kuti he had already seen my wallet yaakavhura
akaona muine mari. "Mari yese iyi and urikundinyima?"

"Ine ma plans sorry," I said achibva atora by ginga ndikati,

"Thabo please dzosera nhai?"
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"Ndikasaisa fuel iri kuperera muroad ," akadaro achiratidza kuva
serious ndikati,"why didn't you load your car with fuel. You
can't just take mari hangu ine ma plans ka."

"Ma plans eyi, what's not in the house?" Ndakatura mafemo

ndichibva ndamuramwira mari yacho ndikati, "urikundivhunza
what's not in the house ndiwe unotenga here?" Akaridza tsamwa
akati,"vakadzi mukaita Mari hamheno kamwe karough
kamunoita so."

"Haisi rough but kuzara kwezvinhu muno ndini, I work hard for
my money . Iwewe ndikakuti ndipoo unotanga kundiverengera
zvinhu zvisina basa. Une mukadzi here iwewe wekuti ndingati
yese irikuenda ikoko."

"Ayas zvakaoma," he said grabbing his jacket to leave.

Paakabuda I actually cried, I felt so much sadness deep inside. I
felt used and ndaitonzwa mashoko aFlo ekuti anorara newe
otadza kukusiira kana yesipo yekuti ugeze. Zvakandipa hasha,
kuzvitsamwira nekuti somehow I was not being in control of my
life. I felt like I was wasting my life at the same time my
weekend had been ruined. Ndakaswera ndakarara

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kwaakuzobuda kuma 5 ndichienda kumashops epa Belvedere
kunotsvaga tunhu tunonaka just to get my mood back.

As I was leaving ndakadhumira pamunhu, ndaive busy looking

at my receipt. "Ouch, "I said kwakubva ati"sorry." I looked up
ndikaona Steve , Flo's husband iyewo kwakubva aita
kakushamisika like he had not expected to see me. "Steve," I
said akati, "Wendy , hie?" We stepped aside together
ndikati,"what are you doing kuno. It's not your area?"

"Taking a drive," he said ndikati,"okay where is Flo?"

"At home, anyway urikuitei?"

"Buying goodies," ndakadaro achibva adongorera muplastic bag

akati,"chocolates and chocolates, what's the occasion?"

"Hapana , boredom and irritation. Ndirikuda kugadzirisa ma

nerves angu." Akandiseka akati,"asi uriwega?" I nodded
akati,"sorry, you stay around here handiti?" Ndakanongedzera
my flat akati,"ah iwe padhuze dhuze Apo?"

"Ehe padhuze." He smiled akati,"okay, chienda unodya

machocolates ako ugadzirise mood." Akataura achitora hwani

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ndikati," you can't go in eating it , you have to eat and finish
then go inside the shop."

"Zvariri basa nhai, since you are going home, let me take a walk
with you ndichidya then ndodzoka ndapedza." I chuckled
ndaakutanga kufamba kubva pamashops kuenda kumba. "This is
nice," he said sucking the chocolate ndikati,"Ndoziva zvinhu
zvangu.

End of chapter

Kaydie

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Behind closed doors

By Kaydie : 0777684685

Chapter 7

Wendy

As we got closer to my place he stopped kwakubva ati,"I think I

will leave you here, ndapedza chocolate yanga ichinaka." I
smiled ndikati,"it's okay greet Flo," he nodded smiling
kwaakundisiya achienda zvake ini kwaakuendawo kumba
kwangu. Ndakapinda mumba then went to my bedroom
kunorara ndichidya ma chocolates ndikati kuna Flo ,"ndimba
ndimba ndaiona." She laughed akati kupiko?"

"Mukufamba imomu," I said akati,"okay anga anaani?"

"Ega zvake," ndakadaro akati,"yaa he left saying he was taking a

drive. Ndatoita nungo ini apa atombonditi hande tese ndikaita
nungo." Ndakamuseka ndikati,"nhaiwe Flo how can you be lazy
to take a drive with such a hunk. Ko akatorwa muroad umu?"
Akaseka kunge ndainge ndataura zvisingaite then she
said,"asiukanditarisa unondiona ndiri mushoma here zvekuti my

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husband would dare take a second glance at another woman. I'm
not bragging get me right but Steve ndewangu.'

"Andina hangu kuramba kuti ndewako," I said to her

akati,"ukaziva izvozvo wapedza. Kashoma kunzwa kuti Steve
aonekwa nemunhu never, ndikatonzwa kuti aonekwa nemunhu
then munhu iyeye ndiye anenge achitondinyepera I know my
Steve." Ndakangobvumira ndikati,"Inga henyu mune vanhu
vamunotemba. Isu vedu hatitozive kuti nyamavhuvhu arikuenda
ne direction ipi." Akandiseka akati,"veduwee, type
dzamunosangana nadzo haikona kungotora marara kwese
kwese." Ndakanzwa kunge my life was such a mess the way
yazvaizotaurwa nazvo.

Ndakati pamwe bragging yapera kwaakunzi, "Ipapa ndakagara

hangu mumba ndakapfeka stilleto yakaunzwa na Steve nezuro.
Ngainake Mai mwana Mira ndikutumire pic," akadaro
kwaakutora nekunditumira pa app. Iyowo yanga yakanaka
zvisingaite ndikati,"that's nice haa zvakarongeka asikana."

"Ndinenge ndisingade hangu bragging about my life asikana asi

kana zvichifaya zvinofanira kutaurwa kuti zviri kufaya." She

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said ndikatiwo,"haa tazviona regai tirare hedu isu tine life
isingafaye." Ndakatobva asati apindura and ipapo I was already
regretting kumuudza kuti I had seen her husband. Mushainiro
wazvazoitwa kunge she was showing off to all of us and it was
annoying. That moment I understood why Angeline complained
about Flo. Ndakaridza tsamwa kwaakuzvidyira ma chocolates
angu pasina zvimwe zvandaifunga. Hope dzakatozobata
ndikakotsira semunhu aive akaneta nekushandurwa the whole
night kushandurirwa kutorerwa mari futi. Izvozvo
zvakanyanyondipa bp ndaakufungwa kusekwa na Flo
kwandainge ndaitwa.

Pandakazomuka kuneta kwapera ndakatanga kutsvaga Angy

then I said to her, "ndaakunzwisisa why ambuya vaye
vachikumara."

"Flo here?" Akavhunza ndikati,"ivavo." Akavhunza what had

happened ndikamuudza then she said, "just the other day
wakandiudza to calm down wazvionaka kuti hazvibude."

"Haa ndasvotwa, mashoko ake andibhowa zvekuti. Madam

perfect and perfect everything."

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"Musi waachahurirwa ndipo paachaona kuti kunze hakuna
kucheaper uku." She said ndikati,"haasati angosangana nazvo
chete mira uone, manje manje ndiye achaudza vamwe kuti
murume haasi wekutemba." Takataura zvataida sevanhu
vaisvotwa then she said, "ndaakuenda ini Benji ari munzira
kuuya he wants me ready." Ndakaseka ndikati,"ready for what?"
Akati,"zvinhu zvakeka. Hanzi pfuti yakakoka mabara babie gara
wagadzirira." We laughed hard ndikati,"mupe zvaarikuda
handiti akaroora here, mupe nemuseredzero."

"Mmmm mazuvano akaipirwa uyu arikuita kushupa chaiko.

Fanika apa auya mazuva akateedzana kuita kunge
ndichasvuurwa." Ndakasimudzira kuseka then she joined me
ndikati,"itwa iwe don't complain." She hung up on me ndikasara
ndichiseka ndega kwekanguva. It was already going for 8 pm
kwakumuka ndichinobika kuti ndidye. I wanted to spoil myself
kwakubika nyama hobho nema this and that. Ndichipedza
ndakaungaanidza chikafu ndikatanga kudya telling myself I
deserved it. Nguva iyoyo ndakanzi na Thabo, "urikuitei,"
ndikati, "kuzviponda nechikafu."

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"Ndiuyewo," akadaro ndikati,"chatopera." He laughed
akati,"anyway I'm close to your place ndirikuuya."

"Ndiri kubuda," I said akati,"kuenda kupi?"

"Out with the girls, ndakanyepa nekuti I wanted to be alone

akati,"this late, waudza ani kuti you are going out with the
girls?" Ndakaseka ndikati,"ndaifanira kuudza ani?"

"Asi urikudanana wega?" He asked ndikati,"andizive but I feel

that way sometimes."

"You are loosing respect, "akadaro ndikati,"hoo." Ndaisatova

nemashoko ekuramba ndichipikisana naye ndakazonzwa
oti,"hapana kwauri kuenda." Ndakaseka ndikati,"urikutaura
saani nhai? Kumba kwedu hakuna kana mbeva yakasvikako asi
waakundiudza zvekuita?" Aive atokanganwa kuti he left me
pissed off and ndaitove neshungu. Haana kupindura ndichibva
ndasiyawo phone kure neni. Ndakapedza kudya ndikanogeza
kwaakutanga hangu kutsvaga chekupfeka kuti ndirare. Ndisati
ndapedza ndakanzwa kuvhurwa kwe door then I realized kuti
ndainge ndisati ndakiya door. Ndakadongorera ndikaona Thabo.
Akafamba achiuya pandiri akati,"what's with you?" Andina

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zvandakataura, I walked back into my bedroom ndikatanga
zvangu kutsvaga zvandaida. Zvekutsvaga nightie zvakamira
kwaakuburitsa a very short dress kuita semunhu aida kuenda
out. Akaribvuta ndikati,"chii futi?"

"Iwe handina basa nekuti kumba kwenyu hakuna kusvika gonzo

sezvawanga uchitaura but ukada kundiitira ma funnies
tovhiringana wazvinzwa. Kana ndakuudza kuti hausikuenda I
mean kuti hausi kuenda ndidzikamire." I showed no worries
ndikati, "ndipoo dress rangu, wakamira mumba mangu. Ndini
murume ndini mukadzi muno, usade kundishungurudza mhani
Thabo. Mangwana mwangana ndongoita zvaunoda iwewe ko
zvandinoda ndichazviita riini?"

"Urikuda kuita chii? Kunosangana nanaani? Vana Angy nana

Leah vese avo havana varume here. Muri kuda kunoita sei
husiku hwakadai, maakuda kuita chihure chisina basa wotanga
kundiudza kuti handisi murume muno iwewe." Akatanga
kundijunga junga ndikati,"stop it andisi kuzvida."

"Hoo so l should listen to zvaunoda iwewe, chii chaurikuda

iwewe so that you respect and treat me like your man, hee,

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chii?" He had closed the gap achiratidza hasha ndikati,"enda
shaa, everything you do zvine kakundidzvanyirira mukati. If you
want to be my man then act like one, make me feel like a
woman zvinongoitwa vakadzi vese nevanhu vavo."

"So you have been discussing me with your friends?"

Akavhunza ndikati,"ndozvandataura here?" Akandisandudzira
kumadziro ndikati,"you will hurt me stop it." Ndainge
ndavakutya kuti mundebele uyu ndainge ndakambomudireiko. I
had been warned kuti they could be violent sometimes and
nehasha dzaaive nadzo ndakaona kuti ndogona kurohwa then I
relaxed. He traced my body with his fingers akati,"you are not
going out period." I nodded akati,"who is your man?" I
stammered saying,"you."

"Good," akadaro achibvisa towel nekurikanda kure."Thabo

wait," I said akati,"aewa i hate being stopped when I want you."
The mood was just wrong and I didn't want, but the way he was
instilling fear in me kusvika pakumusiya kuti aite zvaaida.
Haana kutora nguva he was done yet leaving me numb and
unhappy. Ndakadonhedza misodzi then he said,"sorry babie I

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could not hold it." Andina chandakataura I remained silent
akati,"I will make it up to you."

"Usandivhundutsire," ndakadaro akati,"don't disrespect me the

way you did."

"You wanted to hit me," he looked away kuita kunge ainge asina
kufunga kundirova kwaakubva ati,"don't give me reason to hit
you then." I didn't think there was ever a reason yaiita kuti
tisvike ipapo but with Thabo he was always right. Kupikisa
kwaive kupedza nguva saka ndakamusiya akadaro. Pava paye he
took out hundred dollars akandipa kwaakuti, "oh, spoil yourself
unozoti handikude."

"Wamboti hauna mari wani?" I asked confused akati,"eheka

ndazoita madhiri." Ndakangotora kwaakuisa mari yacho
muwallet ndichifarira kuti mari yangu yaainge atora yainge
yadzoswa and raive shura kuipihwa.

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Behind closed doors

By Kaydie : 0777684685

Chapter 8

Marcus

After mazuva of complete silence ndisina kuzotaura na sekuru

after ndabva kumba kwavo. He messaged me asking kuti
ndainge ndava papi ndikati,"zvirikurema?" He made it sound
simple, maybe nekuti i had not cheated on my wife before
ndosaka zvaindiremera.

"Kana zvashupa tinotsvaga, besides iwe ungade kuita

zvekutsvagirwa here at your age Marcus. Zvauri kuita izvi
hwaahukadzi uhu manje you are wasting time." Handina kudaira
instead I stared at the the door with a blank mind unable to
understand how my life had reached where it was. I wanted it all
to stop, wake up and find everything in order but I knew I was at
a stage of no return. A part of me wanted to know , ndakamboda
kufunga a second opinion from another doctor asi nekuda
kwekutya disappointment handina kuda kudzokerako futi. As

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insane as it was I felt like maybe he was right in his on way even
though it was not the best option. I tried picturing it all but the
picture I got was very wrong.

When I got off the phone I felt my chest tightening, feeling like I
was getting into a state of depression asi ndakazviudza kuti I had
to be a man about it. Most men were doing it and I was not the
first neither was I going to be the last. Its not that I didn't
consider Leah's feelings, I did ndizvo zvaiita kuti ndiremerwe
asi zvakare the possibility of being able to get a woman pregnant
ndiyo yandaida kuona kana yaivapo.

Ndakaita mazuva ndichiti ndikatarisa Leah ndonzwa hana

kurova, she had been my queen, she still was, had been there
with me kubva pakutanga. When we didn't have much , we built
our lives together, supporting each other and it hurt badly that I
was going to betray her. "What's on your mind?" She asked me
aona ndanyanya kunyarara kwakubva ndasekerera
zvekunyepedzera and lied in her face. "Nothing I'm not thinking
at all." But I was thinking and my heart was breaking.

"I was thinking," akadaro smiling ndikati,"I'm listening."

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"I was thinking of adoption being an option." It was not
something I wanted at that time saka andina kugona kuvanza the
frown on my face. Akakasika kuzviona akati,"I'm not saying
right away Marcus, I'm saying later on kana uchida. Take time
to think about it.

"No, "I refused kwakubva aratidza kubatikana

ndikati,"andisikuda Leah." Akada kutaura kwaakubva arega.
Her smile was fake and I knew kwaive kuda kungoti nyaya
ipere. Akasimuka akati,"let me make lunch," as it was a
weekend tese tiri pamba. Handina kumumisa nekuti ndaida
kugara ndichimbofunga. Yes it was an option but then everyone
would know kuti we adopted and never bothered to really try
and have wedu. It felt like she had also given up on me and
zvakandirwadza I needed hope. Something to make me believe
that there was a miracle out there.

When she finally brought food ndainge ndadumbirwa, she asked

me to eat asi ndakatadza, instead ndakamutarisa ndikati,"saka
newewo you are now believing kuti handikwanise?"

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"I'm not saying anything, considering that you are stressed about
it ndangoona iri option not kuti ndiri kukuonai that way."
Kunyangwe akatadza kutaura chokwadi asi I could see through
her that she believed that I could not. "Wakamboita nhumbu?" I
asked her akati," you know that I never got pregnant before."

"Before me Leah?" I asked again ndichiti pamwe the one before

me had gotten her pregnant ini ndichitadza." Ndakaona
anditarisa nekurwadziwa asi neniwo ndairwadziwa. "Marcus I
was 17 when I had a relationship with someone that was not
you." I knew that and ndakazvibvuma ndikati,"I know but how
do I know what happened. You are so confident about all this
meaning maybe pamakarara mese makapanana nhumbu."

"Ikaenda kupi?" She asked ndikati,"amheno, you tell me." She

got angry kwaakusimuka achindisiya ndega. I felt frustrated
kwakubva ndasimuka ndikatora ma keys kuti ndibude ndifurwe
nemhepo. "Where are you going ?" Akavhunza akamira
akazembera madziro ndikati,"I need to breath Leah."

"So I'm now suffocating you nekuti l made a suggestion that you
didn't like?"

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"It's not about the suggestion that you have made Leah. But the
fact that you believe kuti handisi murume."

"I never said hausi murume , being a man is not about giving a
woman kids Marcus. It's about how you love and respect your
woman , how you take care of her, how you provide for her.
That's being a man nekuti babies are a bonus . Are you saying
kuti pese pandanga ndichinzi I'm the one with a problem iwewe
wanga uchindiona sendisiri mukadzi." Ndakatadza kumupindura
but it was not how I saw her. Ndakaramba ndakanyarara then
she walked away ndikati,"Leah come back," asi haana kudzoka
ndakamunzwa closing the bedroom door. How things were
needed us to cool off which gave me pressure to actually leave
the house kuti ndimbotenderera.

As I was driving around I stopped at a park ndikafunga

kumbopinda ndichiona hangu kuti vanhu vaiitei. I kinda looked
stupid all by myself nekuti ndaingoona vanhu vari either a
family kana kuti vari two two. Ndainge ndavakutoda kubuda
when I thought of taking a moment to answer ma messages
andainzwa achipinda paphone pangu. I sat down, and the first
one yandakatanga kuvhura was the one from my wife yaive
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yakanzi, "at times you make my life complicated. If it's not your
family stressing me nemashoko it's you." I sighed and typed,
"are you saying ndokunetsa everyday?"

"Andichatoziva ini."she said which got me feeling like there was

nothing I was doing right anymore nekuti kana ainge aakusaziva
if I stressed her daily or not zvaireva kuti I was not good in any
way. Ndakabatikana and put my phone away kwaakuramba
ndakagara staring at the ground ndichiona masvosve achifamba
ari muline. I got fascinated kwakutora phone ndikatanga kutora
video yemasvosve. Ndakazonzwa munhu akatanga kundiseka
which made me lift my head to meet a lady staring at me.
Handina chandakataura iye kwaakuti,"do you do
documentaries?" I shook my head iye kwaakuti,"okay then why
are you taking a video yemasvosve?" I wanted to say siyana neni
then decided to be kind. "I'm bored," I said akati,"that's how
Sundays are." Akatanga hake kufamba ndikati,"are you coming
from church?" She nodded continuing to walk then I said,
"wanditaudza and now you are leaving me bored." Akaseka
zvake kwaakutanga making steps back akati,"pandamira ndanga
ndichida kuona what you were doing exactly. Ndatonakidzwa

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with the way you were concentrating on the ants, I mean you
should have seen your face." Ndakazviseka ndikati,"I must have
been that bad handiti?"

"Not really but well, you know." She said shrugging which
made me chuckle ndikati, "Saka haudi kugara, kungotaura ne
bored stranger in the park."

"Ndoda kuenda hangu kumba." Ndakavhunza kuti kumba kupi

akati," St Martins."

"Oooh there saka you came all the way to Avonlea for church?"

"Visiting my grandmother and church as well." She said still

standing ndikati,"munhu anotaura akamira is rude, saka
haunyare?" Zvakamunakidza kwaakusekerera achigara pasi
akati,"this is weird, ndotonetsekana nekutaura ini."

"Yet you are speaking to me?"she nodded sitting on the ground

ndikati,"I'm Marcus."

"Molly," she said kwakuenderera mberi achiti,"what are you

doing in the park , you look like you should be home with the
family."

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"Do I look old? I frowned akati,"noo silly , I'm just saying, this
does not look like your kind of place."

"I see ,yakaita sei? Kana kuti ndakaita sei?" Akapfunya chisero
zvakandisekesa kwaakubva ati,"andizive ini but you look a bit
not from here that's all." Ndakapedzisira ndaseka and that's how
the conversation started.

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Behind closed doors

By Kaydie : 0777684685

Chapter 9

Leah

I looked at the clock then outside, kunze kwainge kwatanga

kusviba. I had so many thoughts wondering where he was which
increased my agitation kusvika pakusimuka kuti
ndichimbobudawo. Sezvo pamba paive nemunhu there was no
need to worry kuti pangabiwe. I took a drive ndikaenda kumba
kwa Varie wandakawana achibika sadza ndikati,"ndere
nguvaiko iri."

"Tarisaka time uone kuti nderenguvai," she said laughing

kwakuti zvangu,"hoo ndere manheru."

"Confusion yako iri papi," ndakavhunzwa ndikaseka

kwakuti,"sorry ndangomuka ndikananga kuno." She took out
plates ndikanzi,"urikurida?" I nodded ndichinzwa mudumbu
mangu kurira nzara. Kubva kuramwirwa kwandainge ndaitwa
food na Marcus neniwo apetite yakabva yapera. "Asi hauna
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kudya kumba kwako?" Varie asked ndikati,"ndozvinoita munhu
arikuda kupa munhu sadza here veduwee?" She giggled
ndikati,"koimwe plate ndeyani." Akaseka akati,"ndeya Jack."

"Hezvo,"ndakadaro ndichishamisika kuti he was there

ndikati,"You didn't say?"

"Ndatotaura kaipapa, relax we have been drinking hedu as

friends nothing more. Sadza nderekudzikisa doro." Ndakaramba
ndakamutarisa as she continued dishing up the food. "Mota yake
irikupi?" Ndaive ndaakudongorera panze nekuti kusvika
kwandainge ndaita I had not seen his car outside. "He came with
a taxi, mota yaenda ku service."

"That makes sense," I said with a naughty look that she quickly
dismissed. She gave me mine kwaakutakura mamwe two
ndikanzi ndiuye nedoro rave mufridge. "Ko hamusati maneta?"
Ndakavhunza confused nekuti zvainge zvanzi sadza
nderekudzikisa doro.

"Handisini ndaritenga saka ndoda kupedza rese atenga wacho

asati aripedza." She left me in the kitchen ndikatakura doro
raaida kwaakuyenda kudining kwake. She called him ndikaona

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achibudikira kubva kuspare ndikaziva kuti sure ainge
arambidzwa bedroom. I smiled greeting him kwaakubva
ati,"hesi mainini." Ndakawedzera kusekerera ndikaona apihwa
ziso na Varie then he said, "whaaat, Leah mudiki kwandiri."

"Murisei bamkuru," I found ,myself saying ndichida zvangu

kuona reaction ya Varie who quickly made a face
akati,"mmmhh ndidzikamirei." We both ignored her
kwaakutanga kudya Jack achitaura nyaya. He was so calm
ndaitonzwa tsitsi. The way he was looking at Varie iye wacho
aisatoona kana. Aiti akanhonga musuwa obva atarisa Varie kuita
kunge achadonhedza sadza. I chuckled which made my sister
look at me zvekuti urikusekei. Ndakatsindira setswa
kwaakupotsa ndadzipwa. "Chii mainini," Jack asked Amira
kudya achindicherechedza ndikati,"hapana ndirikunakidzwa
nekamutimbiro kamuri kuita sadza."

"Riri kunaka," he said continuing kubva paainge asiira. I could

not possibly understand why Varie was saying no to him when I
thought of him cool. Takazopedza kudya ndikaenda nemaplates,
Ivo vari two vainge vaakuseredzera nedoro. Ndiri mukitchen
ndakavhunzwa kwandaiva na Marcus ndikati,"kwa Varie." He
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never said anything else but I knew kuti he was home. Andina
kuda kumhanyira kuendako ndakatoita seasiko ndikatandara
kusvika na 9 kwakuzowoneka.

"Ndaakutobudawo," said Varie ndikati,"kuenda kupi?"

"Dakunosiya Jack kumba kwake zve." Akapindura achindiita

kunge ndanga ndisina kunyatsofunga."oh okay I thought kuti
arikurara." Ndaive ndavakutoseka pandakanzi,"ukwane,"
ndichisundirwa panze. Takabuda tese then she asked why I had
stayed late ndikati,"I wanted to catch up with you, and see Jack."
Ndakadaro ndichitambisa tsiye zvemisikanzwa then she opened
my car door akati,"enda shamwari." Ndakabvako ndichiseka, at
least I had had fun time with the two of them. When I got home
Marcus was sitting outside. I parked my car and walked towards
the front door akati,"Leah," akatarisa pasi kwaakuzosimudza
musoro kuti anditarise.

"Hie," I said ndichitofamba ndikanzi,"what time is it?"

Ndakatarisa ndikati,"to ten."

"Hoo, ndidzo time dzekupinda mumba?"

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"I left late," I defended myself akati,"when you saw that it was
late then why did you leave the house. Hausi murume iwewe
what if something happens to you muroad unoita sei?"

" Dai zvaitika ndaingokudaidza," I said ndikazoona kuti

zvandainge ndataura sounded a bit rude. He got up akafamba
kupinda mumba ndikati,"saka wafema zvakanaka kwawanga
waenda." Akangonditarisa and shook his head kwakuti," I will
not argue newe I'm not in the mood. Haudzoke kumba this late
wotanga kundivhunza stuff like that Leah."

"I can ask you anything I want, handiti you are my husband." I
followed him into the bedroom. Ndakavhara door ndikati,"so
now tell me, ndekupi kwawanga waenda kwakuita kuti
ufaranuke. You left me home, I was not good company ,tell me
then kuti anga achikunakidza ndiani."

"Babie stop," he said tichimira takatarisana. He placed his hand

on my chin then reached to kiss me. He stopped and said, "I love
you." I felt weak ndikati,"I love you too." We hugged
ndikaturirana mafemo. We sat on the bed takarembedza
makumbo like two people that simply needed a break. For a

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while noone spoke and ndakazodzika heading for a shower
kwakudzoka kunorara. That night we just cuddled till the
morning when it was a brand new day for work.

We both tried hard not to be tense taitototaura nyaya tichiseka.

Takabudirana kuenda kubasa asi takatombotora nguva by his car
with him kissing me suggesting we get back inside the house.
"I'm late babie," ndakataura ndaakuda kutizira kumota yangu
then he pulled my hand akati,"Leah please." I lied that I would
pass by his office ndiko kundisiya kwaakaita. Kubuda
ndaisakwanisa nekuti I was so busy and ndakanzwa
nekufonerwa ndichinzi urikuuya nguvai. "I will make it up to
you tonight," I promised akati,"haudaro ndatadza kushanda." I
giggled kusvika ndakata phone. Those were moments that made
our love beautiful, yes we fought but we also made up fast.

Towards home time Florence posted achiti she was having a get
together and celebrate over the weekend kwakubva ndaseka
ndikati,"hezvo, asahwira nhasi musi weMonday."

"Handinei ne Monday ini, "she said achiwedzera kuti,"ndiri

kuda kungotenda ishe varikundiitira zvakanaka, makomborero

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double double Steve akanditengera Range asikana yakasvika
nezuro." Maphotos akabva amwaiwa and it indeed looked
beautiful. "Congratulations," i said to her kwakubva ati kuna
Wendy, "Wendy dear wakanyarara why?" Ndakaseka ndega
ndikati uku kwaakuda kudenha uku.

"Hesi akoma, ndanga ndichimboedza kuona kuti

ndingamuwanepiko blesser anondiitira zvidhafu dhafu zvinenge
zvamakaitirwa izvi makorokoto vakaita havo mhofu." Again I
giggled ndichimirira kuda kuona kuti who will type next. "Ini
ndirikuda kunopimpisa Honda fit yangu very soon inenge
yaakuita kunge range." Said Angy ndikatadza kuzvibata.
Ndakagegedza ndiri muoffice ndikati,"range unoidiiko Angy,
Honda fit yakanaka wani."

"Kupimper kuita Seiko chinja mota iwe haikona kuita mota

yakuita kunge bhero." Group rakabva ranyararwa kuti zii,
pandakaona Angy typing ndakabva ndabva. Ndakaremerwa
kwaakuyenda kuinbox kwa Angy ndikati,"stop typing please.
Ndakaita wekufonera ndaona asina kuvhura zvikanzi,"siya
ndipedzerane naye."

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"For the sake of peace nyarara, we all know how she is."

"Aewa nyangwe ikaita kunge bhero ndeyangu I bought it with

my hard earned money."

"Ndikuzviziva hangu, handiti you know anoda flambo here?"

Akavava akati, "shaa iwewe chaiye une irinani asi hauite shura
rakadai." Akavava but I managed to get her calm. Ndakazoenda
pagroup ndikati,"saka touya nei?"

"Huyai nevanhu venyu ka nema presents kana mada." She said

ndikangoti ehoi. Ndichisvika kumba I found my husband
charged up,he never said anything akangotanga nekutora zvinhu
zvake ndikazoti maswera sei apedza."

"Unodheerera Leah," he said ndikati,"sorry babie," ndaakutanga

kumuudza about the celebration ya Flo. Akaseka akati,"hoo
ndozviriko." Ndakatanga kumuudza about what she had done
kuna Angy akati, "iwewe why uchitamba nemunhu akadaro?"

"Ndozvaari babie." He shook his head tichisimuka kuenda

kunogeza. That week was a busy one asi hatina kumira being
reminded kuti taifanira kutenga ma presents. Saturday yakasvika

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but Marcus refused to go with me achiti he had no time for
vanhu vanenge vachida kushamisira. I knew his no was a no
which left me stuck until bamnini vasvika. Ndakafara ndichiona
vachipinda and before he sat down ndakabva ndati,"bamnini."
He smiled zvikanzi,"mukadzi wedu."

"Handeika kuparty yeshamwari yangu." Marcus chuckled

akati,"usafurirwe hakuna zviriko kune vanhu vanongoshaina."

"Meaning kune hwahwa hunodhura," he said sitting down.

Ndakabvuma pehwahwa hunodhura zvikanzi,"bho handei?"

"Saka moda kundisiya?" Marcus complained ndikati,"handiti

waramba here." I thought he would change his mind asi akabva
ati,"bho endai," ini kwakuti, "bamnini kana muchida hwahwa
handei." He smiled getting up vachitora ma key kubva kwandiri.

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Behind closed doors

By Kaydie : 0777684685

Chapter 10

Flo

"Steve," I called him ndakazvitarisa mumirror, he was busy on

his phone then he said, "hhhmmm,"

"Look at me," I said complaining akati, "watii babie,"

achisimudza musoro kuti anditarise. "You look sexy," akadaro
aona kuti ndizvo zvandaida kunzwa. He chose my outfits most
of the time and I did his saka ndaitoda kuudzwa kuti zvaita. "Is
it not too short , vanhu vaakutanga kuuyaka they must not steal
my show." He laughed achimuka akati, "wakachenesesa,
nyangwe pakaita ari over dressed ndiwe unenge wakachena
zvako kudarika vese." I smiled kwakubva ndapiwa kiss padama.
He took his clothes akapfeka kwaakuti, "handina kuchenesesa
manje." I chuckled ndikati, "wakachenesesa, I wonder kuti
Wendy arikuuya here, muface wake haatembeke ka. Then Angy
she might be angry ndakaseka mota yake nezuro."

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"Iwe wakaisekerei?"

"Honda fit babie," he chuckled akati, "wakaoma kwakupfeka

boots, picked up his phone kwakubuda ini ndichitevera
mumashure. As I got into my lounge ndakadaidza Prim ndikati,
"wona kuti hapana kana pane dust handiti?"

"Ndatarisa kwese hakuna," akadaro ndikati, "aewa haikona kuita

nharo, ndati tarisa. Ko kana dust rasara richienda pazvinhu after
you cleaned up." Akafamba achibva pandiri ndikati, "Mira Prim,
asi watsamwira kutumwa?" She shook her head akati, "haa
kana."

"Hoo okay ndanga ndatoshamisika ka ipapa and I thought

maybe I'm nolonger allowed to send you. Ah ndanga ndatotadza
kuzvinzwisisa ini unoziva."

"Okay, regai ndiyende," akadaro walking away ndikanzwa

kugate kuchivhurwa. Ndakasekerera as my aunt drove in
ndikabuda kunovatambira. "Aunt," ndakadaro ndichivavhurira
door remota ivo kwaakusekerera vachiti, "hesi kani mai Lo."

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"Tete vangu," I chuckled vakati, "ko vanhu vacho varikupi
ndatoti ndanonoka kaini."

"Varikuuya havo don't worry, mandiigirei?" Ndaive ndava

kutodongorera Ivo kwaakuseka ndikati, "murikuseka futi."

"I'm laughing because your uncle vaseka ndichitaura kuti you

wanted a present ye mota." I scoffed ndikati, "saka zvinosekesa
here izvozvo." Vakabva vanditambidza present vakati, "oh ma
tissue aya, ekuisa mumota."

"Kuti ndichagara ndichida kuenda kutoilet here?" I asked vakati,

"ndizvo zvandaona zvinoenderana nemota. Aripiko baba Lo?"
Taive tava kufamba kuenda mumba ndikati, "he is there." As we
got in ndakadaidzira kuti aunt Chabata vauya and Lorraine came
running kwataiva. Steve akabudikira and zvakaita as if my aunt
vaive vavhurira kuuya kwevamwe nekuti mota dzakachinjana
kupinda. "Hie Leah," I smiled as she jumped out ndikati,
"ndianiko akafanana na Marcus."

"Ndibamnini vangu," she said ndikati, "hoo okay ko Marcus

arikupi?"

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"Ariko kumba he is not well." Akadaro ndikati, "that's okay,
"hesi bamnini, munonzani nhai?" He smiled vakabuditsa dimple
ndikati, "aikaka mune ma dimples?" Leah laughed bamnini
vacho kwakuti, "call me Sergio."

"The football player?" Ndakavhunza ndikanzi, "whatever you

prefer." His calmness was cool which made him stand out. As
the party began ndaive ndabatwa ne excitement yekungonzwa
kuti life was good. Angy akauya neBenz aina Benji then Wendy
came alone ndikati, "koiwe hauna partner sei?"

"Haunaka kutaura kuti vasina mapartner havasi kudiwa? Oh

present yako."

"Thanks hun ko mundex aramba kuuya here?"

"He said he was busy." Akadaro achipfuririra kunogara zvake

paive na Leah na Angy." Ndakafamba ndikaendapo Angy akati,
"Inga wakachena, naivo mhofu haa vakachena. Kuchenera mota
here uku?" I laughed ndikati, "kwana Angy vanhu
havachabvumidzwa kuchena here?"

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"Yaa zvirikuenderana nemota yacho, ndiyoka iyo ine ma
ribbon?" I nodded ndikati, "it's a beast right."

"Ehe haisi Honda fit." She said ndikati, "Amana uchiri panyaya
yanezuro here I thought kuti yakapera. Sorry kana
ndakakubhowa?" Before she could respond ndakadaidzwa na
steve kwaakuyenda where he was akati, "ndine nzara shaa ita
fast." Ndakasuduruka ndikaenda kunoona ma caterers kuti vaiva
papi. Everything was perfect the food was great, ndainzwa kuda
kuchema ne happiness I had been blessed having Steve in my
life.

Wendy

I can't say I didn't have fun, pane pamwe pekuti even uchida
kubhowekana unoshaya reason yekubhowekana. If she could
spend it we were there to enjoy it. Kana doro randakanwa
ndaingosanganisa andina kana kuziva kuti ndainwa chii
ndaingonwa zvichienda zvakadaro. Ndakasvika pakunzi na Leah
zvakwana ndikati, "ndisiye shaa rega ndidye mari ya mhofu
namai mhofu." She chuckled ndikati, "waona ka,"
ndichiwedzera kuseka. "Uchaenda naani kumba?" She asked

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ndikati, "I will drive, mota yangu ndinayo hapana kana
chinoshupa apa, chimira ndiyende kunoita weti nditapudze
doro." Ndakasimuka kwakubva ndambomira akati, "kwidza
dress hona rakwira."

"Ndakadzikisa iro raiva mini Kare kwaakufamba slowly going

to the bathroom. Ndakaita zvandaida ndikapotsa ndabatwa
nehope ndirimo kwaakuzobuda ndaita zvekuvhunduka.
Ndakabuda ndikafamba ndiine ka confusion ndikanovhura door
ndichiti ndirikubuda panze wanike ndavhurira mhofu
vachichinja hembe dzavo. Ndakangoti, "aaah sorry,"
ndichiramba ndakatarisa then he said, "the door." Feeling
embarassed I closed the door kwakufamba ndichirasika until
ndaona musikana wa Flo ndikati, "konhaiwe panze ndepapi."
She laughed akati, "let's go," achifamba neni kusvika andisvitsa
pana Leah ndikatanga nekuseka. She watched me akati,
"wakakwana here iwe inwa mushe."

"Haa ndiri sobber," I said kwaakuwedzera kuseka until she

joined in akati, "what's going on?"

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"Ko ndarasika ka pakudzoka , iro zi Mansion ra Flo
ndikanovhurira mhofu vachipfeka. Asi vadirwa hwahwa here
kana kuti ifashion show varikuchinja dzimwe dzinoenderana ne
hour yatiri." She narrowed her eyes akati, "haaa nhaiwe
haunyare. Saka wadii?"

"Ndaramba ndakatarisa underwear yanga yakabumba."

Ndakabva ndamira kutaura and chuckled ndichipa example
yezvandainge ndaona ndichiti, "apa kubumba so." Leah akaita
zvekundibata ruoko akati, "chinyarara , ukanzwikwa na Flo kuti
waonerera murume wake hazvipere mushe unonzi wauya
kuzodhakwa kuti umupindire."

"Haa arikudya zvake namambo," ndakadaro ndichigegedza

Angy akati, "yuwi zvakwana iwe you will contaminate our
brains ah." Ndakazonyarara ndaneta nekuseka and carried on
having fun. Aewa mota takaratidzwa ikambofambiswa
tikapembera. Ndakazoti ndavarairwa Flo abuda nevamwe for a
test drive ndikanzi, "hey." Ndakatarisana na Steve setswa
kwakuda kundibata zvikanzi, "saka urikuseka chii?" I shook my
head ndikati, "hapana." He handed me my phone ndikati,
"waiwanepi?"
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"You left it in the toilet ndaipiwa na Prim." Ndakamutenda
kwakuti, "I'm sorry for walking in on you." He didn't say
anything instead he looked at me akati, "wauya naani?"

"Ndega," I said akati, "une ma chocolates?"

"Andina ini," I said kwaakubva ati, "ndiri kumada." Ndakanzwa

kakunyara nekuti I didn't want to read him wrongly ndikati,
"pihwaka na Flo."

"Haana," he said ndikati, "chiendai kunotenga ba Lo." He

chuckled kwakufamba achibva pandiri. Handizive why I felt a
little weird ne that conversation but I brushed it off ndikagara
pasi. Pakazokwana nguva dzekuenda kumba ndakabuda ndega
and drove home asi ndichitotya kurovera nekuti ndaiita
ndichibuda muroad. Happy to finally reach home ndakapinda
nekunanga kunogeza straight nekuti ndainzwa kuti ndainhuwa
doro rega rega. I dozed off kwakuzopepuka around midnight
ndichitanga nekusveerera phone yangu. There was a message
yaive yakanzi, "did you get home safely," ndikati, "Ya who is
this." Ndakasimuka ndichinotsvaga mvura kwakudzoka paine
yaive yakanzi Steve. I frowned ndichida kuziva how he had

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gotten my number then remembered kuti he had brought my
phone to me.

"Yeah I got home fine, asi matorerei number yangu ba Lo."

Ndakavhunza akati, "dai ndisina kutora ndiani aizoziva kuti
wasvika kumba sei." I rolled my eyes kwaakukanda phone kure
ndisingade zvenyaya nevarume vevanhu. Ndakadya
ndikadzokera kunorara kwakuzomuka futi kuma three nguva
dzakapinda Thabo ndikati, "urikubva kupi this time?"

"Ndirikubva kuma rounds , hesi." He joined me ndikati, "hesi."

"I'm tired," he said ndikati, "yaa me too goodnight."

Akaswederera padhuze akati, "why are you smelling of alcohol"
ndikati, "I had a bit." I wondered kuti sei yainzwika still ini
ndainge ndageza mukanwa then he said, "wanwa kwana Flo?" I
nodded zvikanzi, "waakundijairira, why were you drinking
alcohol ini ndakakuudza kuti haunwe ndisipo?" I was not in the
mood to argue kwakubva ndati, "sorry I got carried away."
Akatura mafemo kwakufemera padenga ndikati, "I said sorry."

"Yaa when people get drunk they act wild you better have
behaved kwawanga waenda ikoko."

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"I behaved Thabo, can you not doubt me for once,
hazvinakidze." He kissed my neck kwakubva tarara. In the
morning aida sadza ndiro randakamukira kubika, surprised kuti
ainge auya negrocery. Ndakaseka ndega kwakufamba kuenda
kubedroom ndikanoti, "thank you for the groceries," akati,
"anditi you complain kuti andisi murume."

"It's not that," I said akati, "yaa whatever, huya pano tione." I
already knew what he wanted. Ndichibva pamubhedha I saw a
message yaive yakanzi, "I hope hauna hangover," kubva kuna
steve.

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Behind closed doors

By Kaydie : 0777684685

Chapter 11

Wendy

I quickly deleted the message kwaakudzima phone kuitira kuti

Thabo asafungire zvisina basa. Ndakatonanga kunoisa pacharger
kuti iite seiyaiva isina moto kwaakumuti tiende kunogeza. That
day yakaswera iri pacharger, Thabo left around five after a call
achiti he was not coming back. Ndaitodawo kuzorora I didn't
mind at all and that's the time yandakabatidza phone. Hapana
imwe message yandakaona except a thank you message that
came from Flo achititenda about coming over to her house.
"Thanks wakatimwisa hwahwa," ndakadaro kwaakuisa ma
laughing emojis akati, "haa kana uriwe hako wakanwa
mudhedhe shamwari. It's good paisava nevanyarikani kana
shamwari dza mhofu dzepamusoro soro hamheno
ndainyarirepi." Ndakaseka ndikati, "hamheno ndezvako, asi
hapana zvandakaita wani."

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"Haumuzive here Flo," said Angy iye akati, "ndopamunorasika
when I try teaching you guys you guys zvinhu shit classy.
Hamuteerere but zvinhu zviri classy hazvidi vhavhu vhavhu."
Ndakangoti, "ah," iye kwakuti, "asi still thanks nekuuya."
Ndakangoseka zvangu ndichibva pa app nekutodzokera
kunorara. Pandakazomuka futi kumanheru ndainge
ndavakunhonga nhonga hembe dzaive dzakakandwa pasi
dzandainge ndisina kunhonga nekuda kwekuneta. Mu jacket ma
Thabo mainzwika kuti there was something inside.
Ndakatombofunga kuti imari ndikafara chaizvo ndisati ndaona,
only to be disappointed ndichiona ka plastic ke white kaive
nepowder mukati. I frowned ndichikazoomer kuda kuona kuti
mune chii but I could not tell kuti chii. For a moment hana
yakada kurova thinking kuti they were drugs nekuti the way it
was, was more like what I saw in the movies kuvanhu vaiita
zvema drugs.

I sat down not sure who to ask, ndaitotya kuvhunza iye which
forced me to ask Leah nekuti ndiye wandaiziva aive nehana
yakati tsitsei. I sent her a picture ndikati, "nhaiwe chii icho?"

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She sent laughing emojis akati, "nhai Wendy how am I supposed
to know kuti chii iwe uriwe unacho."

"I saw this mujacket ra Thabo and I'm confused handisi kuziva
kuti chii."

"Mmm asi aakuita zvemadrugs?" She asked ndikati, "don't scare

me nekuti I don't want to think that. Kutozvifunga is freaking
me out sha."

"Dzosera pawakawana kapepa ikako," she advised ini

kwaakudzosera pandainge ndakawana ndikati, "do you think he
could be doing drugs?"

"I don't want to think that he is doing drugs Wendy nekuti drug
lords are never good." Zvakaita kuti hana iwedzere kurova asi
akazotanga futi kundidzikamisa hana kuti ndisapanike.
Zvakandishungurudza until he came back home ndikakaburitsa.
"What is this?" Ndakavhunza then he grabbed it away from me
akati, "leave that."

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"What is it?" Ndakavhunza futi akati, "leave it it's nothing,
glucose," he said lying in my face ndikati, "oh if it's glucose let
me have some. "

"Siyana nayo I want to use it?" Kumhanya kwemaziso ake got

me worried ndikatoziva kuti somehow he was lying to me chete.
Ndakada kumutorera by force then he pushed me zvekutopotsa
ndadonda ndikati, "what was that," holding my chest akati, "I
told you to leave it."

"And why are you hiding it as if it's some kind of drug?" He got
up akati, "you think I do drugs?"

"If it's glucose then let me taste it." He cursed akafamba kubuda
mubedroom ndikamutevera. I was scared but I needed to talk.
He stood by the fridge akabuditsa mvura aakutoita as if nyaya
yacho yainge yapera. "Thabo are you on drugs?" I kept asking
which infuriated him akati, "don't piss me off Wendy. This is
not what I came for, do you hear me."

"I know that it's not what you came for but I also need to know,
I can't have you doing drugs in my house. Imagine if I'm to be
found in possession of such things what will I do." I might have

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pushed him then he slapped me akati, "are you sick? Can you
not keep quiet why do you have to irritate me like that." Still
shocked by how he slapped me ndakaramba ndakabata dama
ndakamutarisa. Ndakaburitsa misodzi and walked to my
bedroom ndikanokiya door kwakugara ndakarizembera. I sniffed
out of pain ndikanzwa Ava kunocker door achiti, "open up I'm
sorry." Handina kumupindura but he kept knocking and
apologizing. Pandakazovhura door face yake yaive nekakupusa
pusa asi ndaive ndoda kutobudawo zvangu ndisisade kuvapo. He
held my hand akati, "I'm sorry, I should not have done that."

"Ya you hit me," ndakadaro akati, "you should not have pushed
me like that."

"So it's my fault that I needed answers?"

"I answered you, handina kukupindura here but you kept

accusing me."

"Thank you for what you did Thabo, ndanga ndichivhunza

wani." I said wiping my tears, misodzi yairamba ichibuda unable
to believe kuti ainge andirova. "Kana wakanditarisa ndinoita
zvema drugs here inini?" Akavhunza ndikati, "I don't know, I'm

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not with you all the time saka how am I supposed to know
zvaunoita kana uri wega?"

"Hausi kuona kuti you are actually accusing me indirectly

ipapa." I said, "arg," kwakufamba ndabhowekana kuti sorry
yake yaive nema but. He followed me kulounge kwandaive
ndagara akati, "how can I even make you my wife when you
doubt me this much." Ndakasimudza musoro tikatarisana
ndikati, "I may want to get married but I'm not desperate zvekuti
ungati I have to worship you Thabo." Akaramba akanditarisa
kwakutora makey ake and left. Ndakasimuka ndikavhara door
rangu, kutokiya ndichiti kana akadzoka I was not going to open
the door. I cursed and felt sorry for myself kunzwa kuti dai
ndamurovawo chete.

Molly

Ndaiti ndikataura na Marcus ndaibatwa neimwe excitement

yandaitadza kuexplainer even if I tried. Kunyanya akanditarisa,
his voice raiita kunditekenyedza. Ndakatarisa photo yaaive
anditumira when I asked to see him, zoomed it and kept staring

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at it for a while. When Linda asked what I was doing
ndakamuratidza photo then she laughed akati, "he is married."

"Haasi kwana," I argued akati, "hakuna hunk yakadaro isina

kuroora Molly. Handidi uite heartbreak munin'ina." Ndakanzwa
kakusvotwa ndikati, "it's not like we are dating tirikungotaura
zvedu pasina zvakawanda."

"Hoo nyaya dzei, kashoma kuti murume anotaura nemukadzi

pasina mamwe maintentions Molly." She was done packing her
bag aakubuda kuenda ku south for a short holiday. Ndakasimuka
putting my phone down ndikati, "if he is married then what was
he doing in the park alone?"

"Haa iwe saka munhu Ari married haawanikwe mu park alone

here." Akandivhunza ndikati, "kwako kuri kungoda kuti ave
married here." I was becoming annoyed. I really hoped that he
was not nekuti mutauriro waainge aakuita wainzwika kuti une
kakundida mukati. She shook her head akati, "let me go hangu,
usamitiswe please." Taxi yake yainge yasvika saka ndakabuda
naye ndikanomusiya panze. Ndichidzoka I looked for his
Facebook account asi ndaive ndisina surname yake

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ndikapedzisira ndasiyana nazvo. When he called me ndaitaura
low low kusvika andivhunza ndikati, "hapana I'm tired chete."

"What have you been doing?" Akavhunza ndikati, "just tired

that's all. Ndanga ndichimboita zvechikoro, I final year kaiyi."

"You have to pass," akadaro ndikati, "thanks kubasa kurisei?"

"Kurikubhowa," akadaro ndikati, "sei" akati, "ndakusuwa." It

flattered me asi I could not let my sister's words pass which
forced me to ask again if he was married akati, "well things are
complicated that's all I can say." Hana yangu yakarova ndikati,
"hausi kundipindura Marcus."

Akaseka akati, "tomboti ndiri married would you want me the

same way I want you."

"You never told me that you wanted me." I said needing him to
say that he was not married. "Ndatokuudza wani." Akadaro
which had me a little excited ndikati, "if you are married then
you can't want me."

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"The heart wants what it wants." Akadaro ndikati, "Marcus
hautare zvinonzwisisika." He apologized kwakuti, "will talk
about that, I'm in a complicated situation that's all."

"Situation." It was more confusing until I said, "fine you will tell
me when you are ready."

"I miss you," akadaro ndikati, "really."

"Yes and I wish I could see you, urikupi?" Ndakamuudza kuti

kumba akati, "hoo kunosvikika?" Ndakanzwa kutya kuunza
murume pamba ndikati, "kuroad ka, not mumba." Akaseka akati,
"it's okay as long as I get to see you."

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Chapter 12

Marcus

I watched the flickering of the hazards as I parked outside her

gate. I could not ignore my conscience ndichizvivhunza what I
was doing there. Before I could change my mind akabuda panze
and walked over to my car kwakupinda mukati. She smiled
akanditarisa ndikati, "hesi." She sat properly akati, "how was
your day I almost thought that you were not coming anymore."

"Why would I lie to you," I said iye akati, "I don't know.
Handisati ndaakunyanya kukuziva stereki." She smiled at the
same time avoiding eye contact with me. I can't deny kuti hana
yangu yairova zvekusvika pakutomboshaya kuti ndotaura kuti
chii iye kwaakuti. "Sei wakanditarisa usiri kutaura chinhu?"

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"Ndirikuyeverwa newe," ndakamupindura achibva aruma
muromo wepazasi achiratidza kunyara ndikati, "nhasi
wakanyanya kunaka."

"You are flattering me, haunyare here." Ndakasimudza mota

smiling ndikavhunza kwataienda akati, "hamheno anditi it's you
that came to see me."

"Ehe ndauya but I don't have to decide everything. Ndiudze

kwauri kuda kuenda sezvo waramba kuti tiende mumba."

"Handisi kuziva kwekuenda ini," she said ndikafunga

kwekuenda just to park. Ndakawana a spot and parked there
kwaakumbomutarisa. Takambotaura dzimwe nyaya kusvika
ndazoona kuti let me remind her of what I had said to her earlier.
Again akaratidza kunyara ndikati, "saka hausi kundida."

"You never really answered about your marital status." I knew it

was an issue kwakubva ndati, "I prefer being called married kuti
ndisanetsane nevasikana." She rolled her eyes akati, "uchamira
riini kutaura zvema funnies?" Ndakamuvhunzawo kuti, "iwewe
uchamira riini kuvhunza about me being married asi you want
me to be married?" She sighed akati, "okay saka you are not?" I

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smiled without saying anything, the one thing I was failing to do
was deny my wife point blank. I was already betraying her in a
worst possible manner and I could not add more. "Saka iwewe
ndozvawanga uchida kungonzwa chete kuti undiudze that you
like me."

"Handina kuti I like you," akadaro ndikati, "handisi kumirira

kuudzwa nemuromo because your eyes are doing the talking."
She tried hard kuzviviga but I knew hapana kwaaienda she liked
me a lot. I took her hand ndikati, "tell me that you want me too."
She brushed her hair akati, "I'm still getting to know you."

"Handina kuramba but what does wanting and getting to know a

person have to do with anything. Those are two separate things."
Akatanga kukwenya huro achitadza kutaura ndikati, "I guess
you prefer me being liked by someone else." Akanditarisa akati,
"saka pane list nhai?"

"Hapana," I said kwaakuwedzera kuti, "urikuda nguva

yekumbofunga?" akaseka akati, "now I feel as if ndava ku
primary or secondary kwawaikumbira mukomana time to think."

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We both laughed and talked until ati, "ko kana ndine mukomana
kare?"

"Then you would not be sitting with me in my car." I said akati,

"fine wahwina. I don't want to rush okay, I wanna take things
slow hangu since I'm getting to know you. I do like you Marcus
but what scares me is that you look too good to be true."

"Hezvo," ndakadaira ndichimutsa mota iye akati, "I don't want

to fall for someone anozo..." Ndakamukata ndikati, "really
Molly, you think too much. Imbomira kufungisisa and give me a
chance, ukaona zvisingakuitire then you leave I won't stop you."
There was silence in the car as I drove around. She never said
anything about nyaya yedu and handinawo kumuvhunza futi.
Ndakazowoneka ndaona kuti time yainge yafamba ndaisada
kunetsana na Leah kumba. As I parked the car by her gate
ndakaramba ndakamutarisa, she was attractive and for a moment
I felt bad about my intentions.

Molly

Ndichipinda mumba I sat down and thought hard. If he was

married then he would have said it kuti he was married meaning

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he was not. Ndakafunga how he had asked if ndaida kuti ave
married. Izvozvo zvakandiudza kuti he was not kwakubva
ndasekerera telling myself I had met one hell of a man. I could
not stop smiling kunzwa kuti ndaisagona waiting for another
moment for him to talk to me. After an hour I texted
ndichivhunza kuti asvika kumba here akati, "just got home
ndakunogeza."

"Wait," I said to him akati, "what is it?

"Can I call you?" Ndakavhunza akati, "ndaakunogeza ka

ndozobata sei phone?"

"I really like you Marcus, I really do, I don't even know much
about you but I really like you." I found myself admitting my
feelings for him iye kwakuti, "you have just made me a happy
man."

"Marcus don't hurt me," I typed akati, "why would I, sei uri
kunyanya kundifungira zvisina basa?" It was always a woman's
worry yekutya kurwadziswa. "I'm sorry, I'm a little scared that's
all." Mashoko a Linda aiita kundi killer mood so I tried hard kuti
ndisazvifunge. Ndakanyengetedzwa ndichiudzwa zvinonakidza

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kusvika ati, "totaura ndapedza kugeza." I think kwaive
kuvarairwa nekuti kupedza kwacho kugeza kwakanonoka.
Ndakamutumira ma messages akazopindurwa after nine ndikati,
"ko wanga waenda kupi, kwanga kuchiri kugeza here?"

Akatanga nekuti, "sorry love I had dozed off ndiri kunzwa

kuneta." I complained ndikati, "saka wakutorara ipapa?"

"Handisi kuda kukusiya but tomorrow is a hectic day."

Ndakanzwa kubatikana but I understood kuti munhu aimukira
kubasa. Early in the morning ndakamutswa ne message yakanzi,
"ndakusuwa muka." Ndasekerera ndikati, "ndamuka huya." I
figured kuti he had already gone to work saka akatadza
kupindura. Ndakazofonerwa kuma 9 tikatanga kutaura nyaya
zvakapotsa zvandinonotsa kuenda kuchikoro. "Ndouya
ndokutora," he said ndikasekerera zvekuti dai Linda aivapo even
she could not wipe the smile off my face. I anticipated seeing
him again and haana kunyepa, nguva dzandakapedza akanditora
akaenda neni kumba. He parked pa gate kwaakubva anditarisa
akati, "ndaakuenda kumba." Ndakavhunza why the hurry akati
he had work to do ini kwaakuti, "what if I don't want you to go
now." I wanted him there, being in his presents. I could not
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understand why I was fast falling for the stranger I knew so little
about. He caressed my face akati, "ndikanonoka manje
ndoshanda sei kubasa."

"I thought you were the boss there?" I said akati, "asi boss
havashande here. Handiti ndivo vanonyatsoshanda kudarika
vamwe, besides handisi boss ini." I don't know why I felt like he
was lying to me, maybe nekuti he dressed in clothes that looked
expensive andizive. Yanga isiri hayo problem ndakangoti, "it
doesn't matter what you do."

"Saka kana ndichicleaner matoilets unongondida ndakadaro?" I

laughed ndikati, "unenge uchinyepa hako if you were to say that.
Hakuna cleaner anofamba ne BM." He chuckled akati,
"ndeyekukwereta ka." I ignored him ndikati, "when will I see
you again?"

"Mangwana ka," he said ndikati, "okay asi nhasi sei usiri kuda
spending time with me." I complained akaseka kwaakuti,
"ndauya wani kuzokutora kubva kuchikoro ndikakuunza
kumba." Ainge adaro hake asi I felt like I needed more of him.
Handina kuzoda kuramba ndichimunetsa ndakamusiya achienda

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kumba kwake. I sighed as he drove off ndikazvivhunza what I
had done to get such a man. I pinched myself ndichida kunzwa
kuti ndakamuka here kwaakuzviseka ndanzwa kurwadziwa.
Ndakapinda mumba ndikanzi na Fadzi, "new bae aenda here,"
ndikati, "aenda shaa."

"You are not happy ?" Akavhunza ndikati, "I'm scared of the
way I'm falling for him. It's like I can't control my feelings
unoziva."

"Ndizvo zvinoita rudo," akadaro nekuseka ndikati, "at the same

time he makes me a little scared. Linda thinks he is married but
andina kuona ring mumaoko ini."

"Ko ring ndiro rinotaura kuti married here? Ring ndere vema
white wedding but traditional marriage haina Inga you know
wani."

"Saka urikuti he is married?" Ndakavhunza akati, "aewa I'm not

saying he is, he looks young wani. Vamwe vanhu make money
before marriage ndikoka kurongeka nhai." Kungonzwa someone
else supporting me kwakaita kuti ndinzwe kusungunuka enough
to trust him.

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Chapter 13

Leah

When Marcus came into the room ndaive ndakagara working on

our monthly budget. Akafamba and kissed my cheek and there
was a something off which made me stop what I was doing
ndikati, "why are you smelling different?" Akanditarisa akaita as
if aida kuvhara maziso but with a frown of confusion ndikati,
"yeah you are smelling different like maybe a lady's perfume or
something hamheno ikoko." Akaseka moving away from me
akati, "Leah come on, lady's perfume from where?" Ndakaisa
pen pasi kwaakufamba ndichisvika paari ndikati, "let me smell
you then." Ndaisapotsa when it came to his smell ndaitoziva the
difference. Ndakamufemedza ndikanzwa that perfume which
made me frown ndikati, "Marcus you got a lady's perfume."

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"Haa love, it must be maybe munhu wandagumhana naye when
I was buying something for you in the super market because
waakutondipa confusion."

"I see , watengei?" "Strawberries they are in the kitchen." I

smiled ndikamusiya kwaakuenda kunotora two kuti ndidye. I
stopped and thought of making strawberry paste for my
icecream. "Mo, wapedza here?" I asked her ndaona achitatarika
ne bucket rehembe akati, "ndapedza ndaneta manje."

"Siya unopedzisa mangwana chizorora." She nodded taking her

leave kwakubva ndaenda zvangu pagroup ndikatanga kutaura
nevasikana vachitaura kuti titange round. "Nderemariiko?" I
asked Angy akati, "hamheno Mai Lo varikutaura zvema 500 I
can't afford andishande kubank ini." I saw Flo typing
kwaakubva ati, "haisi nyaya yekushanda mubank but mukadzi
ngaangwavhe ngwavhe zvakachangamuka so. Vakadzi vasvinu
vanoshaya ma 500 for saving murikuita basa Reiko. Ini
handiende kuoffice asi ndinayo."

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"iwewe unopihwa na mhofu saka nyarara," Wendy said ini
ndikati, "ngatingoitaika round remari iri affordable for
everyone."

"Like remariikowo you complain too much you guys." Akadaro

Flo ndikati, "hamheno vamweka vavhunze."

"For me hangu 300, Benji ane mhuri two saka zvinozorema

ndikada kuti ndirikuda mari hobho." Said Angy

"Unoti ane mhuri hobho iwewe ndiwe wakamutuma kudziita

here?" Asked Flo ini kwaakubva ndaseka ndikati,
"zvinovhunzwa munhu here izvozvo?"

"Ndirikudaka kunzwisisa, handiti Benji kuita vakadzi two

kureva kuti he could afford zvese zvevakadzi two. Indava uchida
kujaidza Benji iwe Angy. Kana uchida 500 tell him kuti that's
what you want."

"He is my husband, I dont have to demand as if ndiri kukumbira

boyfriend ichazonditizaka." Flo sent laughing emojis akati, "iwe
murume iboyfriend yako hapana kana difference apa.

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Ukamunamata hokoyo." Ndakashama ndichiseka ndikati,"iwe
haikona kuda kufurira mwana iwewe uchinamata wako."

"Andinamate Steve , Steve anonamata ini pabatisisei ipapo.

What I want I get, what I demand I get, he knows kuti murume
and he must provide. Handinga zvarire maharaka without
enjoying the benefits. Murume ngaaite semurume kwete kuda
kuita murume weku bedroom chete, kupihwa nzara pedzezvo
ndonyimwa chikafu chacho. Ku benefita chii ipapa"

"Ko zvaunenge waakupopota?" Asked Wendy ini kwaakuseka

ndikati, "zvakwana ehe una mhofu murume kwese tazvinzwa."

"Ehe haaa mhofu isimbi pamari nepakupisa mushini ndigere."

Ndakagegedza kusvika Marcus apinda akati, "urikuseka chii?"
Ndakaramba ndichiseka kwaakubva atora phone ndikati, "haa
babie ndipe mhani."

"I wanna see chakusekesa, you never know pamwe pane

murume arikunakidza mukadzi wangu." Ndakada kutora akati,
"aizve ukaramba it will get me curious."

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"Inyaya dzevakadzi kani Marcus," I said ndapererwa kwakubva
atarisa akati, "ah," ndikati, "hanzii?" He gave me the phone ini
kwaakuverenga ndikaona Flo akanyora kuti, "iwe Leah how far
doctor akati chiiko uchiri kupisirwa mushini mahara here."
Immediately I went weak kunzwa kupera simba ndikati,
"Marcus." He ignored me ndikati, "it's not what you think.'

"I see," he said amira kufamba akati, "tell me what I'm thinking
then." Ndakapera power akati, "you told your friends kuti
handizvare?" I shook my head fast ndikati, "nooo I never told
them that."

"Okay hanzi urikupisirwa mushini mahara?" Ndakanzwa hana

kurova ndikati, "Marcus ndiwo mutauriro wa Flo, munhu wese
anotomuziva."

"And you are okay with it, you are okay with her dissing me.
Are those the things that you discuss mugroup menyu?"
Ndakada kuchema kwakunyora kuna Flo kuti, "what the hell did
you just write," at that time Marcus akaramba akanditarisa. He
got up from the bed akati, "thanks a lot Leah if your love is like
that then keep it." He banged the door ndikamutevera ndikati, "I

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swear Marcus I never said anything to them. Andisi
kutonzwisisa what just happened."

"What just happened is that I found out kuti my wife has been
telling her friends kuti andizvare. The one woman I love, how
can your friend say kuti urikurarirwa mahara. What does that
say?"

"You saw her wani she asked kuti doctor vakati chii?"

"Yes I saw that part but why add the part yekuti kupisirwa
mushini mahara. Meaning kuti wakavaudza kuti handizvare way
before we went to the doctor handiti."

"Noo Marcus," I said trying hard to get him to calm down but
ndakaona so much pain in his eyes kwakubva ati, "it's fine Leah,
it's fine." Akabuda panze ndikasara kwakuona flo achindivhunza
kuti aita sei ndikati, "my husband thinks kuti ndakakuudzai kuti
haazvare."

Angy sent ma shocked images ndikati, "things are not well right
now. Marcus took my phone ndichiseka akafunga kuti hamheno
munhu wandiri kutaura naye. He saw our chat and he saw

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message ya Flo." Iyewo Flo defended herself akati, "where did I
say kuti haazvare. Iye arikuita hasha asi haazvare here. If that's
the case then sorry henyu muudze kuti hapana chandinoziva
about his fertility ini." Ndakatanga kuchema kwaakusiyana
nezvephone ndikagara zvangu pasi. I could not understand kuti
zvainge zvafamba sei panguva diki diki isu taive tichitofara
zvedu. I had noone to speak to besides looking for Varie who
said, "urikuchemei," ndikati, "I'm in trouble." Akavhunza kuti
chii kwaakubva ndamuudza nyaya akati, "talk to him zve and
explain properly."

"I tried Varie I tried."

"Shamwari yakowo inenge ine dzungu, mashoko ekutaura here

iwayo?" I sniffed akati, "stop crying, kana aona zvakadaro then
it's good nekuti that's the same thing that has been happening to
you. His family vanotaura zvakashata pamusoro pako. He found
out kuti haazvare, pawaitaurwa handiti ainyarara. Kana asvika
pakunzwa kurwadziwa it means kuti he must understand how
you also feel kana uchitaurwa."

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"But andina kuvaudza." I said akati, "ehe hauna Leah
ndirikukunzwa. Iyewo paanovhunzwa nevanhu kuti sei musina
mwana anotii. Okay let's look back, paakavhunzwa nevanhu
before today, remember kuti maporofita amai vake aitaura kuti
iwe hauzvare. Tell me kuti paaivhunzwa in private aiti chii.
Obvious aiti mukadzi wangu haazvare. If he could tell people
about you then he should chill and let people talk about him
also. Ndiko kuti zvibalance nekuti why should you suffer when
he has the problem."

"He is my husband Varie it's better vanhu vakataura kuti

andizvare than him."

"Why?' nekuti wakazvarirwa kutukwa here. Kutukirwa umwe

munhu no. Amai vedu chaivo vanotaura nesu zvakanaka. Why
should you endure the pain of a barren woman when you are not
barren. For who, for your husband? Does he realize how much
he is putting you through just to cover up his own impotence." I
was not sure what to say or what to think but I wanted my
husband to be okay. Ndakabva pa call and went out to look for
him but his car had already driven off ndakaona gate
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Chapter 14

Marcus

I parked about a few meters from my house kwakubva ndamisa

mota and adjusted the seat to a more comfortable position.
Ndakadzima ma lights kwakubva ndavhara maziso. Ndakatura
mafemo and my mind and my heart were boiling at the same
time. Ndairwadziwa kuti her friends knew about our problem,
kureva kuti she told them everything chaiitika mumba medu. I
had no idea how deep she had gone with our issues and
zvakandiwedzera kurwadziwa. Ndakaita dzinenge 30 minutes
parked kwaakumutsa mota and drove away. Ndaingoenda not
sure where I was going kusvika ndazomira ndakatarisana ne
road yemandara. I parked on the side of the road and called
Sergio ndichibvunza where he was akati, "I'm in town what's
going on?"

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"Hapana haudi kutsvagwa?" He chuckled akati, "murikuda
kundinwisa doro here?"

"It's a Thursday," I reminded him akati, "zviya munoshandira

varungu , ini ndiri murungu wangu besides zvakaipei taking one
or two, where are you?"

"Pane kwandiri kubva I'm close to town."

"Pass by the beer engine," akadaro ndikati, "urikuda ndirohwe

ndasvika kumba ndichinhuwa doro?" Akaseka akati, "relax
maiguru munhu bho ndovaudza kuti I was with you." Ndakaisa
phone pasi and drove to the beer engine kwandakaona akagara
with a friend of his achidya maribs ndikati, "isaka imwe order
ndine nzara." He smiled making an order kwakumhoresana
neshamwari yake Misheck. "it's been a span," akadaro ndikati,
"hamusi kubatika ka vapfanha murikuti you can't hang out
nemadhara anymore."

"Haa basa ndiro ma1 kuwanika like this ma two minutes."

"Uchiri kuita zve mining?" Ndakavhunza akati, "yaa but tight at

the moment, kwakadhirika kukapotsa kwauraya vanhu."

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"Mmmmh," I said Sergio akati, "mukadzi wangu arisei kumba."

"She's okay." I replied kwaakubva atora phone akafonera Leah

akati, "maiguru hesi." She must have replied nekuti akati, "why
are you sounding low." Akaita kanguva akateerera kwakubva
ati, "murume ndinaye." He looked at me without saying
anything still talking on the phone kusvika apedza then hung up.
Haana zvaakataura kwakuti, "yes that's sorted, ko maribs how
far." Ndakatora plate yake ndikatanga kudya ndichiti iye amirire
mamwe aiuya. We drank and chatted for a while until my phone
rang. Ndakatarisa ndikaona ari Molly kwakubva ndasiya
yakadaro. Pakaita 5 missed calls kwakubva kwapinda message
yakanzi, "why are you not picking my calls." I could not answer
vakomana varipo I excused myself ndikaenda panze to call her
back.

"Hey," I said akadaira kuti, "why were you not picking up my

call?"

"Sorry love pane kwandiri?"

"Kupi ikoko?" She asked ndikati, "I'm having a beer in town."

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"Ah manheru kudai," her tone yakandiudza kuti she was not
cool with it ndikati, "yaa ko ndinganwe nguvai."

"You left me uchiti you had to work wakanganwa?" Ndainge

ndatokanganwa ndikati, "yes and I had to drop off something in
town, ndimo mandasangana ne brother yangu now we are
having a beer." Akanyarara ndikati, "what's wrong?'

"Hapana ko mukasangana nevasikana ikoko." Ndakaseka

ndikati, "hapana kana musikana aripo just boys."

"Ukudaro cause I'm not there," she said ndikati, "saka hausi
kunditruster inga zvakaoma."

"I trust you it's only kuti I'm feeling a little jealous chete."
Akadaro ndikati, "sorry."

"Come and see me a little bit." Akakumbira ndikati, "I can't I

have to go home after this."

"Marcus please I really miss you." She said begging me ndikati,

"fine I will see kana ndapedza zvandiri kuita." I hung up the call
kwaakubva ndadzokera mukati. We continued drinking until

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Sergio said, "munhu ngaachienda kumba andisikuda kurohwa
namaiguru."

"Waakundidzinga here?" Ndakavhunza akati, "ehe." I was

already tipsy kwaakubva ndawedzera kunwa mbichana. He
stopped me akati, "zvakwana." Ndakaseka ndikasimuka
kwaakubuda panze kuenda kumota. As I was about to get in he
said to me, "whats going on with you and maiguru."

"Nothing," ndakapindura akati, "no she said you just left after
you had a misunderstanding."

"Misunderstanding, did she tell you what she did?" He shook his
head ndikati, "ask her what she did then get back to me."
Ndakavhara door remota kwaakusimudza mota. At that time
Molly started calling ndikati, "chii babie?"

"Are you coming?"

"I'm a little drunk ndokuona mangwana," ndakadaro akati,

"babie just come please." Ndainge ndaakunzwa hope but she
kept insisting kwakubva ndaenda ikoko. I parked outside ndikati

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abude panze. She came out akapinda kwaakubva aramba
akanditarisa ndikati, "chii?"

"Wanwa hobho doro I don't like it." Ndakabatanidza maoko

ndikati, "sorry andinwe futi hobho." Ndakadzikisa seat futi
kwakubva ndaita zvekurara ndakamutarisa. She looked innocent
and for a moment I told myself to leave. Ndakatomuka ndikati,
"ndakuona ndaakuenda," akaramba akati, "you just got here
hazviite." She moved closer to me kwaakusveerera my lips and
kissed me. I put my hand behind her neck and kissed her back.
Ndakadzima ma lights emota and continued kissing her until
atanga kufemera padenga. She stopped kwaakunditarisa akati, "I
love you." I kissed her again ndikatanga kuisa maoko muhembe.
Ndakabva paseat ndikamuisa paseat rangu kwakuenda pamusoro
pake and continued nezvandaiita.

"Oooooh," she moaned pulling me down achida more. She kept

moaning as I carressed her kusvika ndaisa maoko inbetween her
legs akati, "Marcus." Immediately I stopped, I thought about my
wife and I could not continue. Molly looked at me kwakubva ati,
"you are crazy." Ndakanyepedzera kuseka ndichitobva paari

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ndikati, "kwana iwewe indava uchitanga zvimwe at a time like
this."

"Andina chandatanga ini," akaramba ndikati, "who kissed me

first."shyly she said, "I have been wishing to kiss you."

"Saka wafara?" Ndakavhunza akati, "ehe ndafara,"

kwaakuzvigadzirisa hembe." She went back to her seat ndikati,
"I really have to go, ndikarara ndogona kutadza kumuka." Haana
kuzoramba she kissed me again kwakubuda achienda iniwo
ndikasara ndichienda. I went back home ndikasvika nekuenda
kunogeza. Leah was sleeping, I knew she was not really sleeping
asi haana kumuka pandakapinda. After shower ndakapinda
kwaakuzama kurara. In about twenty minutes she said, "were
you really with Sergio?" Andina kupindura akati, "Marcus." I
turned ndikamutarisa kwaakuti, "yaa I'm sure you can still smell
a bit of alcohol even though ndakwesha mazino."

"Does this mean that you are going to drink each time we have a
misunderstanding?"

"That's not a misunderstanding, unondinyeya neshamwari

dzako. I'm even wondering what more you told them about me."

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"Marcus I never told them anything, if you want you can scroll
back uwone kuti pane pandakambodaro here."

"Ko kana wadzima?" I said iye akati, "unozivei I'm done

explaining myself if you don't want to believe me as your wife
then hamheno waunotenda kwaari asiri inini."

"Usandikwidzire voice Leah." I said akati, "no Marcus you are

being unfair. I told you kuti babie I never did that, yes I'm sorry
they know kuti we have a baby issue. I spoke to them wondering
if they knew any specialist kuti andibatsire cause all those
prophets said I'm the one with a problem. I been going to church
but no change saka I wanted help elsewhere. Was I wrong to
seek help nekuti I want to give you a baby Marcus."

"It's not bad seeking help but Leah talking about our problems to
other people is a no for me. Such a big thing is a no nekuti you
will get to a point where you will tell them everything out of
desperation."

"I'm sorry okay," she said ndikati, "Leah, promise me you did
not." She shook her head akati, "Marcus I never did such, I'm
sorry about what Flo said, anongotaura uyu."

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"I don't want to have to choose friends for you but I'm telling
you kuti andiide shamwari yako iyo."

"Ndamutsiura already but you can't leave me all the time we

argue." She said ndikati, "Ndinenge ndisingade kutaura
zvakawanda." She moved closer to me akati, "it's better upopote
than walking out on me." Mhanza dzedu dzakagumhana then
she said, "I'm mad at you for drinking."

"Sorry babie," I said achibva atanga kundibata bata.

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To be on sale from chapter 21

Behind closed doors

By Kaydie

Chapter 15

Wendy

Ndakamuka ndichinzwa ma cramps ari serious ndichitadza

kubva pamubhedha. I tried hard ndikatonzwa kuti ndaakuda
kutopenga nepain yacho zvakaita kuti ndifonere Thabo. "I'm
coming," akadaro achikata phone ndichibva ndakambaira
kuenda kubathroom kuti ndinogeza. Zvakaita sezvaita nani
ndikatogeza zvakanaka. Ndichingopedza the pain started again
ndichibva ndagara pamubhedha ndakamonera towel. I felt weird
then realized I was bleeding, in a mist of confusion I wondered
if that was my monthly period that had changed. As I reached to
dress myself ndisingakanganise zvinhu the pain grew more and
more resulting in screams.

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Pakasvika Thabo I could barely talk aingovhunza if I was okay.
Ndakaita hasha ndikati, "do I look okay?"

"I'm sorry,"akadaro akati, "you are bleeding why?"

"I don't know," ndakapindura as he dressed me up kwaakuyenda

neni kwa doctor. Ndakaita nguva watching them rush attending
to me, after a while the doctor looked at me akati, "I'm sorry did
you know that you were pregnant?" Ndakavhura maziso with
shock, "pregnant?" Ndakavhunza hana ichitotanga kurova
ndikati, "I didn't know, ndine Jadel."

"Mmmmhhh," akadaro akati, "well probably rakuramba but you

were in your first weeks of pregnancy unfortunately yabva, I'm
sorry." Handina kana kumupindura ndakangoramba
ndakanyarara akati, "have you been under a lot of stress or have
you been working hard lately?"

"A little bit stressed," I said akati, "another reason is when you
mix meds that weaken the Jadel it's easy to get pregnant."
Handina kupindura ndaitove ne confusion akazongoti, "I'm
sorry, should I let you husband in?" Ndakada kuti he is not
ndikanyara kuti ndingataure zvisina basa. I nodded achibva

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abuda, after a minute Thabo came akati, "are you okay?
Hanzii?"

"He said I was pregnant?" He frowned akati, "pregnant? You

never told me saka you were pregnant and never told me?"

"I didn't even know." Ndakadaro akaranba akanditarisa zviye

zvekuti tell the truth but I had no energy to explain myself
ndaitovewo nezvaindinetsa panguva iyoyo. Especially asking
myself kuti ndainge ndadii chaizvo kuti nhumbu ibate.
Ndakatanga kufunga if I had taken other meds kumashure uko
ndikaona kuti there was a possibility nekuti ndaizeza zvirwere
ndaingoti ndikaita sendaakuda kurwara ndotenga mapiritsi. "I'm
sorry," akazotaura ndikaramba ndakanyarara akati, "I guess you
are not going home now, I will come back and check on you
because I have to go somewhere." Ndakabvumira and let him
leave iniwo ndaitoda sometime alone.

After a day ndasukwa chibereko I went back home ndipo

pandakazoudzawo hama dzangu what happened Angy akati,
"don't scare me iwe."

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"Saka wakaitira mundex nhumbu, eish sorry hako shaa," said
Flo ndikati, "I didn't know that I was pregnant guys. I found out
nezuro."

"I'm really sorry," said Leah kwakuti, "I'm not saying it's a good
thing but I wish dai ndakaitawo miscarriage zvayo just to prove
kuti ndinozvara." I typed kuti, "sorry, makagadzirisana here na
Marcus?"

"Ya we spoke about it and we are cool now."

"Manje ini ndakadzvokorwa neziso rekuti urikunyepa waiziva

kuti une nhumbu." Flo akaseka akati, "imi vanhu vamunodanana
navo munenge mavazvuva muchuru chipiko. Nezuro uno Leah
was full force explaining to her husband nezvenyaya yaainge
ahakira mufoni. Then nhasi it's you, you need to explain
kumundex," akawedzera kuseka Angy akati, "kana munhu asina
kunzwisisa muite kuti anzwisise ka chakaipa chii."

"Aaaaah mukadzi wa Benji ndiwe umwe wajaira explaining

yourself Kuna Benji maningi." Said Flo

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"He is my husband saka unoda ndiudze Ani, nyaya idzi hadzina
production kana. Let's get back to nyaya ye round sorry hako
Wendy you can always try again."

"Handisi kuda mwana ini," I said Flo akati, "macondom ari tii."

"Iwe unorarwa necondom?" Asked Angy Flo akati, "ndisiye

zvangu mhofu havadi izvozvo kana ini wacho handidi.
Ndimhofu vangu ka Ava, vasiyana nevarume vaunenge uchiziva
kuti kune mumwe ariko."

"Nyangwe Benji ane mumwe kana ari mumba mangu

ndewangu." Said Angy Leah akati, "Flo dzikama, noone is
perfect please haikona kudaro vamwe." Ndainge ndisisade
kutaura saka ndakanyarara ndikarega kutumira mamessage
aitozondipa stress. I decided to sleep and kuma five Thabo came
home achibva agara pamubhedha akati, "right, tell me kuti
nhumbu ndeyani nekuti you never told me. Dai yanga iri yangu
wakandiudza kare but it's clear to me kuti une dzawanga
uchitsikisa." Ndakashamisika ndikati, "you know what Thabo I
don't have time for this. I'm still trying to figure out how I got

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pregnant when I have Jadel on iwe waakundiudza nezvekuti I
was cheating, seriously?"

"Iwe munhu angatadze kuziva kuti ane nhumbu here?"

"I'm telling you kuti I didn't know, he said early weeks meaning
kut munhu can get pregnant asiri kuziva, umwe anogona
kutosvika three months zvese zviri normal asingazive kana. I'm
in pain and you are doing this to me instead of comforting me.
Hauna kana kundivhunza how I'm feeling but watanga nema
accusations."

"You don't speak to me uchikwidza voice ziva kuti ukutaura

naani." Akadaro kwaakubva ndanzwa chest ichipisa nehasha.
Ndakafemera padenga ndikanzwa misodzi ichitanga kubuda
kunzwa kubvunda nehasha. Ndakasimuka ndikada kubuda then
he blocked my way akati, "haubude ndichitaura newe."

"No Thabo it's enough now I can't handle this." I wiped my tears
akati, "kana iri yangu wakabvisaka, wakabvisirei?"

"Go to the doctor and ask him if I attempted kubvisa nhumbu

umire kundinetsa please."

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"Ndiri kukunetsa pai when I'm trying to understand something."

"You understand something kana wauya with an open mind

kwete kuti unouya with so many accusations. Ndikada kutaura
you keep crushing me what is that?" Akandibata ruoko akati,
"tell me the truth, wakabvisa here."

"Haaa Thabo mhani," I said screaming achibva andisiya

ndikabuda. Ndakaenda kukitchen ndikanotora poto ndaona
anditevera ndikati, "stay away from me." He chuckled akati,
"behave yourself Wendy, kwana iwewe." Ndakamutema nayo
akaigama kwakuti, "ndaakuzokurova manje."

"Hit me, kill me, do it all." Akaisa poto kure kwaakundibata

pahuro zvekundidzvanya akati, "iwewe ndokukuvadza
wanzwa." I could not breath and he was tightening his grip. I
coughed kwaakubva andisiya to breath properly. I could not
even believe kuti ndizvo zvaainge andiita. Akabva atobuda
akaenda ndikasara ndichichema. Around two ndakabuda
ndikafamba kuenda kumashops kunotsvaga juice raive rapera.
Ndakatenga kwaakunotarisa kuti gas raivepo here pa service
station ndipo pandakanzi, "hesi." Ndakatarisa munhu aive ataura

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ndikaona ari Steve ndikati, "hey what are you doing here again."
He chuckled akati, "business, I been coming here for a while."

"What kinda business?" Ndakavhunza akati, "I want the garage

riripano. I have actually finalized the deal ndosaka urikuona kuti
it's being painted ne different color."

"I was surprised kuti chii chiri kuitika, anyway that's really
nice." He stared at me akati, "your eyes are swollen why were
you crying?"

"I'm not feeling well that's all," I said akati, "really, what's
wrong with your neck?" I frowned ndikati, "what do you mean?"
He took out his phone and took a photo of me, akanditaridza
ndikaona malines emaoko. Ndakashaya kuti ndoti chii akati,
"who did that to you?" Ndakati ndaisaziva akati, "come on, I can
see kuti maoko, did you fight with your boyfriend?"

"Ndaakuenda," ndakadaro akati, "hey hey hey, wait." It was

embarrasing kuoneka kuti someone ainge andikuvadza. Ndainge
ndisina kana kutarisa mirror panguva yandakabuda mumba
kureva kuti munhu wese muroad could see. Ndakanyara

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kutarisana na Steve then he said, "if he did this to you then he
doesn't deserve you Wendy."

"It's a long story," I said akati, "no its not. Nomatter what this is
a no." He took off his jacket kwakubva andipfekedza akati,
"vhara this, noone needs to see this." I could not even say no
nekuti I was embarassed. Akatora gas tank rangu and got it filled
kwaakutanga kundiperekedza kumba.

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To be on sale from Chapter21

Behind closed doors

By Kaydie : 0777684685

Chapter 16

Steve

I was worried zvekusvika pakuramba ndichifamba naye kusvika

asvika pamba. Another mind told me to just leave asi I was
worried about her ndikati, "who is upstairs?"

"Noone," akapindura ndikati, "I'm making sure kuti ndiri

kukusiya mumba nekuti handisi kunzwisisa whatever is
happening to you."

"You don't need to," akadaro achimira kuti ndisaende mberi

ndikati, "you are my wife's friend. I would never forgive myself
If something was to happen to you knowing that I could I have
saved your life."

"Now you are speaking as if pane arikuda kundiponda," she said

ndikati, "the marks on your neck arikutaura kuti whoever it is is
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violent and you need to let him go. Get a peace order kana
zvanetsa." Akatungamira aona kuti I was not leaving her alone.
When we got to her flat ndakamira padoor akati, "chingopindai
since you are already here." Ndakapinda looking around
ndichida kuona any sign of broken glasses or someone but
handina kuwana anything. I sat down as she offered me juice
ndikati, "don't worry about me." She nodded achibvisa jacket
rangu kwaakundipa ndikaisa paside kwaakuti, "you have a really
nice place here, very simple and neat."

"Haa kupiko, just trying," akapindura sitting opposite me

ndikati, "ndaakuenda ini, last time I asked for chocolates
ndakanyimwa." With a smile she said, "sorry hako and paye I
was drunk I must have acted badly." Ndakaramba ndikati, "no
you were being yourself munhu haafanire kunyanya kuva
uptight." Ndakaona achinyara ndikafunga kuti probably its the
issue yekuti she had walked in on me naked and ainge
avakufunga her mistakingly walking in on me. Neniwo
ndakabatwa nekakunyara kwaakusimuka ndikati, "ndaakuenda I
will see you around. From today onwards we are now neibours."

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Haana kuda kunditarisa akangoti, "thank you for walking me
home and covering up my shame."

"You said you were sick," ndakadaro ndichimira kufamba akati,

"yeah."

"What happened?" Ndakavhunza akati, "I lost a baby, I didn't

know that I was pregnant." I frowned ndikati, "saka you were
fighting with him iwe wabva nhumbu?" She nodded ndikati,
"zvakaoma, I'm sorry." I could see her teary eyes ndikati, "are
you sure you are okay." Akayeredza misodzi nodding ndikaona
kuti kuzvisimbisa asi munhu aitorwadziwa zvakanyanya but
trying to be strong. "Don't let me hold you back, they must be
looking for you already kwamabva ba Lo." The change in the
way she addressed me told me how uncomfortable she was
becoming ndikati, "it's fine, when you need help, I mean dealing
with such a man then call me don't hesitate okay." Akabvumira
nemusoro ini kwaakubuda mumba make ndichidzokera
kugarage. I didn't stay long I went back to my office ndikazoona
message yaive yakanzi, "you forgot your jacket kumba." I called
her ndikati, "aizve, I knew there was something
chandakanganwa but I could not tell kuti chii. "I will pick that
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up mangwana handiti," I said ndaona kuti I could not possibly
go back there.

"It's fine," akadaro nekukata. Ndichisvika kumba ndakamboita a

bit of time ndakanyarara. Ndakada kutaura na Flo but she was
busy on her phone. Ndakazvishingisa ndikati, "babie," akaita
kakuvhunduka ndikati, "unorwara ukuvhundukei?" She laughed
akati, "haa ndikumbotsiura Wendy, Thabo wake istupid chaiyo
imagine kurova munhu who didn't even know she was pregnant
pamusoro pazvo oti hee wabvisa nhumbu kana kuti you were
cheating on me kudaro daro." There was nomore need yekuti
ndivhunze nezvazvo nekuti nyaya yacho ndainge ndainzwa kare.
I wondered if she had told Flo kuti we met kwaakubva
ndavhunza zvimwe zvaitaurika akati, "haachadi kupindura, vese
havadi the fact that ndinoti dyoo pakutaura handivande vande."

"Don't be too harsh on your friend she needs you," ndakadaro

iye kwaakuti, "haa Wendy haanzwe, unotoshaya kuti pamundex
arikutsvageiko nhai."

"It's love ka nhai," I said iye akati, "love my foot. Wendy

akapusa ndiyo nyaya iripo and achafira kupusa ikoko."

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Ndakangoseka ndikati, "yaa zvakaoma," kwaakubva ndanyarara
zvangu ndisingade kupinda mazviri.

Wendy

Ndakanzwa kuvhurwa kwedoor ndiri mutoilet hana ikarova. I

knew kuti I needed to change my key kuti munhu asangopinda
pese pese. Ndichibuda he was already in the bedroom, handina
chandakataura. Akabvisa jacket achida kuisa mucloset
kwakusangana nejacket ra Steve. Akanditarisa akafinyama
kwaakuburitsa jacket akati, "nderani because it's not mine."
Tone yacho yaitove yekundivhunditsira ndikati, "ndera Steve."
He frowned akati, "Steve, his jacket is in your closet. Which
Steve is this?" Ndakandandama akati, "iwe kaiwe."

"Flo's husband," I said already scared akati, "where did you get
it?" Ndakada kuti rasiiwa na Flo asi it didn't even make sense he
was going to call and ask her if that was true. "He left it here?"
Ndakapindura kwaakubva aseka akati, "yaa I should have
known kuti kunetsana neni two minutes you were already
calling another man to your rescue. You thought of your friend's

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husband ndiye wawaunza pano to comfort you. Is he the one
akakupa nhumbu?"

"Noo Thabo stop it," I said akati, "hauna here kumuunza pano?"
Ndakandandama akati, "hey can't you speak?" Ndainge ndava
kuona the real Thabo manje, a man I was scared of.
Ndakamanikidzira kuti, "I met him by the shops and he walked
me home." Ndisati ndapedza kutaura akandiregedzera mbama.
Ndakagomera ndikati, "Thabo how could you." Akandipa imwe
akati, "unosangana nemurume kuroad then you bring him here.
Osiya jacket rake zvaita sei, zvanga zvanyanya kuita sei?" Did
he pleasure you good zvekuti aita kusiya jacket rake." I could
not even speak, I listened to him vent his anger. Akandisimudza
akati, "iwe ndokunyudza banga ukada kundiitira mafunnies,
what was he doing here."

"He saw marks on my neck Thabo," I managed to say akati,

"what marks."

"Incase you have not noticed wandikuvadza makuseni. I went to

buy gas not knowing kuti you left marks on my neck ndiwo
aaona and covered me with his jacket." Ndakaita kunge

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ndawedzera moto akati, "hoo saka he's your man now. What was
the need to cover you with his jacket? Kana kuti ndiwe waenda
wakadaro uchida kunovaratidza kuti I'm such a bad guy."

"Noo Thabo," I said akati, "give me his number ." Ndakaramba

akati, "I'm not going to ask twice." Ndakadaidzira number from
my phone maoko achidedera. Ndaiti he would not call but he did
and he was straight to say, "Steve." Akadairwa call ikaiswa
paloud akati, "are you the one with a jacket ririkumba kwa
Wendy?" Akabvuma akanzi, "rasarirei, chii chaita kuti
ukanganwe jacket?"

"I'm sure she explained why, I forgot it there. I bet you are the
guy that left marks on her neck."

"Don't say the guy, my name is Thabo, her boyfriend." Steve

chuckled akati, "yaa I figured you had to be the boyfriend nekuti
a real man would never hurt his woman that way. I will pick up
my jacket tomorrow."

"You are not picking it up tomorrow nekuti you are not coming
back here Ari ega, you are picking it up today. It was not your
right to interfer in our lives causing confusion. You have a wife

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at home ziva zvekufadzana ikoko I deal with my woman the
way I want kwete zvekuudzirwa kuti ita izvi usaite izvi. I have
never told you kuti bata so mukadzi wako nekuti thats your
business. Why do you care so much zvekuti wamuperekedza
kusvika mumba wadii kugumira kuroad. I'm sure your wife does
not know kuti wapinda mumba me friend yake asiri kuzviziva."

"I will pick up my jacket today all because of Wendy, otherwise

dai uriwe chete I was never going to bother coming there.
Haundiudzire zvekuita especially when you lack discipline." He
hung up Thabo kwakuti, "ndozvaunoudzaka vanhu vako kuti I
lack discipline?" I could not answer ndakangomutarisa
wondering kuti sei ndaimuda. I didn't want anymore I wanted to
get away from him.

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Onsale from chapter 21

Behind closed doors

By Kaydie : 0777684685

Chapter 17

Steve

Kunyangwe ndaisada kutsamwa but I felt his attitude was

horrible. Ndakasvotwa nekubuda ndisingade kubuda asi there
was nothing I could do when Wendy was in more trouble
because of my jacket. Ndakatora makeys ndikati kuna Flo,"I
need to do something ndiri kudzoka." She looked up akati,"kiss
yangu." I gave her ndikabuda kunopinda mumota nekutorova
pasi. I got to Wendy's flat and knocked on the door rakavhurwa
with the guy I believed to be Thabo wacho and it turned out true
kuti he was the one. Handina chandakataura I went in ndikatora
jacket rangu raive raiswa pasofa at the same time maziso angu
achimhanyira kutarisa kuna Wendy who sat there quietly
ndikati,"are you alright?" She nodded Thabo akati, "why would
she not be alright?"

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"I have noticed kuti hauzive kwekushandisira maoko that's
why," ndakamupindura ndisina kana kuzesa kutaura ndikaona
achiseka akaisa muromo paside. I sighed ndikati,"domestic
violence, women abuse is right in front of me I can report you if
I want to but ndirikunyara Wendy my wife's friend. Don't think
just because ndanyara nhasi I will still do it mangwana, I'm very
good at changing my mind and you have no idea what I can do
to you given the platform to go ahead." Akamira kuseka
akasunga face kwaakuti,"I think you need to leave."

"I'm not in the mood of staying either," ndakapindura

ndichitofamba kuenda ndikatura mafemo ndabuda padoor.
Moyo wangu waityira Wendy but I didn't want to worsen her
situation. That is the only reason yakaita kuti ndimusiye
ndidzokere kumba. Ndisati ndaenda ndakaita kanguva parked
outside her flat waiting kuti ndinzwe something asi hapana
chakaita kwaakuenda zvangu kumba. That night ndakatadza
kurara and I regreted ever giving her my jacket iro rainge
rawedzera kukonzeresa in her already messed up relationship.
Hana yangu yaingoti ko mwana wevanhu akaurayiwa then what.
Flo akasvika pakuti,"what's wrong babie, you keep tossing and

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turning ndikati,"ah hamheno nhai i feel as if takasika kurara."
Akaseka akati,"ita mushe tarara same time wani."
Ndakangonyepedzera kuseka ndikati,"ndaakurara manje
usanditaudze.

In the morning ndakamukira kutarisa phone ndichiti pamwe

ainge anditumira message achindiudza kuti ari right asi she had
not sent anything. I got ready for work zvikanzi na Flo, "babie
ndirikuda kutamba round." I nodded akati,"ndere ma 500." I
nodded akati,"month-end but it has not been finalized nekuti
pane varikuremerwa nemari dzacho the likes of Angy and
Wendy."

"Saka madii kuita zviri affordable," ndakavhunza akati,"manje

totamba round nemafigures asina musoro here babie?"
Ndaisawona the need yeround racho kwaari ndikati, "iwewe
urikuda round rei?"

"Rekuchengeta marika," akadaro achigegedza ndikati,

"washayei?"

"Andina kushaya but handiti vanhu vanongotamba maround

vachiita tunhu twavo."

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"Ehe ndakunzwa but still answer me, washayei?" Akatadza
kundipindura ndikati,"urikuda mari yekuita sei nhai babie?"

"Haa ba Lo mhani why all those questions nhai. I'm now feeling
bad kuti ndazvitaura." Face yacho yandakapihwa yaive
yemunhu abatikana ndikati,"fine but itaka round which
accommodates everyone. Haasi wese mukadzi wa Mhofu saka
dzikama." Akaseka achibuda ndikasarawo ndichibudawo kuenda
kumota. Ndakasiya nguva dzichifamba kusvika dzava ten
o'clock ndikazvishingisa kufonera Wendy. She answered
ndikati,"usadaro you have no idea how worried I been."

"You should not worry about me," akadaro ndikati,"dont say

that. Ndakakonzeresa zvese zviya zviya."

"I'm okay Steve," she said ndikati,"tell me one good reason why
you are with him. Why are you inlove with a guy who treats you
that way."

"I don't know, I guess I'm a fool." Ndakanzwa tsitsi

ndikati,"don't do that to yourself, wakasara bho here?"

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"Yaa had a little argument but I'm fine." Again ndakanzwa tsitsi
ndikati," like I said before when you need anything let me
know."

"Maybe one thing," akadaro ndikati,"tell me what it is."

"I want to change my lock, he has the key to my flat saka

andichada kuti angosvika achipinda."

"Wendy wadii kungotama nhai?" I suggested akati,"where will I

find a better flat, an affordable one for that matter."
Ndakavhunza kuti aibhadhara marii akandiudza ndikati,"you can
get a flat mhani iwe mira nditaure nehama yangu ane ma flats
ndonzwa if there is something."

"Thanks a lot," she said hanging up. Feeling the urgency of her
state I called Mukaro ndikati,"ndipooka den." Akatanga akosora
akati,"ndiani arikuida?"

"A friend of mine," akaseka akati,"shamwari yako ndini, imwe

shamwari ndeipi?"

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"Imbomira zvekuvhunzisisa mhani iwe." I said akati,"dzikama,
pane arikubuda month-end Kuna seventh uko kana uri serious
anopinda ikoko but ndoda Mari yangu plus deposit."

"Haa deposit yeiko iwe, handiti ndakuudza kuti ishamwari

yangu here."

"Asi mukadzi ?" Akavhunza achiseka ndikati,"ifriend

yamadam."

"Saka anotadza nei kubhadhara deposit, hakuna zvakadaro

ndirikuda deposit." Takanetsana ndikati,"pakaitika mayas
ndobhadhara dzikama," I assured him ndipo paakabvuma
ndikaudza Wendy kuti ndainge ndamuwanira pekugara.

Leah

Ndakaona tete vachisvika kumba vasina kana kutaura kuti she

was coming. Hamheno kakusagadzikana jemoyo
kakangondibata ndichivatambira ndikati,"Hamunaka kutaura
kuti you were coming." Vakandidarika vachinogara pasi
vakati,"ah ko ukati hauko usingade kuti ndiuye. Hesi kani
bamnini?" She greeted Marcus iye kwaakuvadaira ndikatanga

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kufamba ndichienda kunogara pasi. Mumoyo mangu ndaive
ndava kutozvivhunza the reason for her visit isina kana
kutaurwa kuti she was coming. Ndakavatarisa kumeso asi Ivo
manje vaisatoda kunditarisa. Ndakatanga kupukuta maoko that
were already a little sweaty ndikati,"bamkuru varisei." She
answered nicely kuti he was well Marcus akati,"manga
magarisawo musina kuuya tete." Vakasekerera vakati,"ah
ndinenge ndiriko zvangu kumba."

They spoke for a little while kwaakubva vazoti,"saka kuno

kurisei," ndakakasika kuti,"zvese zviri right tete." Mo akauya
nedrink akavapa nekutodzokera vakasara vachidira. Vakanwa
zvekunwa almost rese semunhu aiva nenyota kwaakushaker
glass a bit like munhu ainwa masese kwaakupedzisa rese.
"Anyway," vakadaro vapedza vakati,"handisi munhu anonyanya
kutenderera maningi hangu ini I need to go back to my house
andirare mudzimba dzevanhu." Takatarisana na Marcus
ndakamirira what was to come vakati,"nyaya iripo bamnini and
imi mainini, handidi hangu kuvanza kuita as if hapana chisiri
kuzivikanwa. Makaenda kwa doctor vakati kudii?" Hana
yakarova ndikatarisana na Marcus. Ndakatadza kupindura

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vakati,"ngatitaurei nekukasika nekuti ndiri kuda kudzokera nhasi
andirare mudzimba dzevanhu." Marcus haana kudaira iniwo
ndakashaiwa kuti ndoti kudii kusvika ndazotii. "Zvese zviri
right."

"Hakuna right, bamnini zvakanzi doctor vakati zvinhu hazvisi

right kwamuri. Vakataura maiguru venyu kuti Tete bamnini
vanzi havasi right. Chandisimudza ndechekuti mumusha menyu
varikuti Leah wedu ndiye anedambudziko pedzezvo votaura
mashoko anorwadza pamusoro pake. Leah akasvika pakunzi
mukadzi wechikwambo haazvari hamheno kana akataura. Saka
ini ndauya ndichida kunzwisisa kuti zvakamira sei toona kuti
tozvifsmbisa sei. Tirikuda way forward nekuti hazvinakidze
Leah achipihwa mhosva yaasina." Pavakanyarara ndakashaya
kuti ndodiiko, it had been just a few days tanetsana achifungira
kuti ndaudza shamwari dzangu and there was my aunt spilling it
all out. Ndakada kuchema Marcus akati,"ndiani arikutaura
zvakashata pamusoro pa Leah nekuti personally noone has ever
faced me achitaura zvakashata. Kutaura nezvembereko yes that
has happened asi kutaura zvakashata andisi kuziva nezvazvo.

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She never told me saka I'm surprised kuti hanzi pane nyaya
dzakadaro dzakataurika."

"Leah," Tete said ndikanzwa kuoma mate mukanwa

vakati,"hausati wamboudza murume wako kuti varikukutaura."
Ndakaramba ndakanyarara vakati,"veduwee ndoda kuenda
kumba andirare mudzimba dzevanhu." I shook my head zvekuti
andina kumuudza iye kwaakuti,"saka wakaudza vamwe vese
and you never told me kuti pane ataura zvakashata pamusoro
pako."

"I didn't want to cause confusion." I said akati,"hoo saka it's

good kuti ndozonzwa natete and inini waunogara naye hauna
kubvira wafunga kuti it was only fair telling me first. Is it not
my duty to protect you as my wife?"

"It is," I responded ndichikakama then he asked,"you told

maiguru kuti I'm the one ane problem?" Ndainzwa kuda kupera
mweya Tete kwaakuti,"zveakataura ndiani azvisisina basa
bamnini. Ichokwadi here?" Tete vakavhunza futi ndikaramba
ndikati,"no hakuna zvakadaro."

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"Okay saka ndiwe une dambudziko, hazvina mhosva nekuti
nyaya kwandabva nayo kure. Bamnini, manga mafungei sezvo
Leah arikuramba achinzi ndiye ane problem. Taurai ndiripo
nhasi kunyangwe ndiri pakumhanya. Tokupai mumwe mukadzi
here muzame tione kuti chii chirikuitika?"

"No," he said kwakuti,"Leah is fine too."

"Hapana fine apa ini handidi vanhu vanovanza. Kana kuti

toenda hedu kune mumwe doctor."

"Aewa," I quickly said tete vakati,"zvese hamusi kuda. Bamnini

kusatye kana, taurai kuti hamusi kuda vana tokusiyai kana kuti
tokuwanirai mumwe sezvo mese mati kwa doctor no, kureva
kuti muri kuziva zvamuri."

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To be on sale from 21

Behind closed doors

By Kaydie

Chapter 18

Leah

I failed to tell her kuti Marcus had been said ndiye anayo
knowing kuti it was going to be another story. "Hatina pressure
yemwana." I said Tete vakati, "ndizvo here bamnini?" He
nodded akatarisa pasi Tete kwaakundipa ziso vakati, "zvamuri
kuita zvechivande vande izvi vamwe muchachema. Handisi
kuda hangu anoti bufu achiti Leah ane problem nekuti maramba
kuti tiende tese. Bamnini musanyare kutaura kuti hazvina
kumira mushe kune mushonga yechivanhi iriko. Ehe maybe
murikunyara asi kune vamwewo varume vaitonzi havazvare
nema doctor vakazvara. Midzi inoshandiswa kuchibhoi
zvakasiyana nemapiritsi nekuti yese mushonga nekuti musiyano
uripakuti mapiritsi munoita kupimirwa pachirungu and
akapihwawo ka design karinani nani."

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He never responded he remained silent mumba mukaita
runyararo kwaakubva vati. "Hoo mashaya mashoko ndaakuenda
zvangu ini ndingadokerwe ndichitaura nezvimumumu. Pamwe
kusiya chivanhu muchiti muri vananati, bva mirai kunwa
mapiritsi nekuti yese mishongaka." With that she got up
vakataura kuti vaakuenda. Ndakasimuka ndikabuda navo
tavapanze kwakuti kwandiri, "iwe ndiwe stupid manje. Varaidzo
haana kundinyepera iwe ndiwe wandinyepera manje. Murume
wako imvura dzeka handiti?" I shook my head vakati, "gara
wakadaro Leah, gara utukwe zvekuti nemhuri yake.". Ndakada
kutaura ndikamira Tete vakafambisa kubuda zvekuti ndakasara
ndakamira vabuda kare. Ndakatadza kana kufamba
ndichidzokera mumba, I stood there ndichinzwa kuti body
yangu yaneta I had no idea kuti ndoita sei. Obviously he was
angry with me, ndakasvika pakuzonzwa iye oti, "pinda hako
mumba it's fine." Ndaive ndisina kuona kuti akamira
akanditarisa which made me turn ndikati, "I'm really sorry."

Akanyatsovhunza zviri soft akati, "kuti waita sei," ndikati, "I

told my sister and she told my aunt."

"It's funny wazviramba when I asked you but it's fine."

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"I'm sorry, I was worried nekuti you were not taking things well
and I had no idea who to talk to."

"You spoke to the perfect person who told the perfect person."
Again. He was calm making it very hard for me to get easy.
Ndakayeredza misodzi scared, scared that he had lost trust in
me. Scared that they were going to laugh at him, scared kuti
ainge avakufunga zvakawanda pamusoro pangu. "I'm sorry she
told tete," I deepily apologized akati, "it's fine amai. Udzai vese
hazvina basa." Akafamba achidzokera mumba ndikatevera
mumashure. I went straight to the bedroom iye akaramba
akagara mu lounge. Ndakafonera Varie ndikati, "shaa nyaya
yako yandipandukira." I explained akati, "but iwewe watadza
nei kubva wangosiya kuti zvibude nhaiwe Leah." I explained
why I could not akati, "mwana wamai vangu sometimes une
kakupusa so. That was the perfect moment, pawaiendeswa
kumaporofita it was public news, everyone knew. Just because
it's Marcus hazvichafanire kubuda nekuti murume."

"Zvirinani ataure ega Varie pane kuti nditaure inini." I tried

telling her but akavava kusvika andikatira phone nekutsamwa. I
sniffed ndikaramba ndakatarisa phone. That day there was no
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communication between us akabva angondinyararira neniwo
ndaisaziva kuti ndomutanga ndichiti kudii. The next day he
came home a little late and aive akapfeka face yekuti ndakatya
kana kubvunza kuti wanonoka sei. Ndakaona zvirinani kuti
ndimupe time yekumbofunga ndikaita zvandaiita saka umwe
nemumwe aingove pa phone yake asingataure nemumwe.
Ndaakuda kutorara bamnini kwaakunditi, "hesi mukadzi."
Ndakamboda kunyarara ndikati, "hesi bamnini." He was typing
for a long time message isingauye kwaakubva kwazouya
yakanzi, "are you okay?" Ndakaseka ndega ndikati, "zvakaoma,
the whole time ndati pamwe pachauya long message sure kutora
five minutes muchinyora three words." Vakaseka vakati, "sorry
kani, I wasn't sure what to say. That day you were not okay and
we never spoke since."

"I dont know what's going on ini bamnini. It's hard kuti
zvitaurike paphone."

"We can meet." He said ndikati, "hamubatike." Vakaseka vakati,

"I will make time for you." I smiled ndikati, "okay when?"

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"Tell me kuti when and I will come." Ndakafunga kuti ndotaura
kuti riini but with the way things were it was much better earlier
than later. "Mangwana saka," I said vakati it was fine. In the
morning umwe nemumwe aiita twake kusvika ndazotii, "can we
talk."

"Sure," he responded ndikati, "how come when people spoke

openly about me being unable to conceive you never got this
mad. It was okay and they could talk about it anytime without
even proof from the doctor. Hauna kana musi wawakatsamwa."
Akapfeka boots akati, "the difference is they took you there and
you agreed because you wanted us to have a child handiti. You
never told me that you were uncomfortable in the first place so I
thought it was okay. Even after hauna kundiratidza kuti you
didn't want to go there anymore , you still went and that is you.
Inini hangu when it comes to my personal staff handidi hangu,
it's best for me to figure things out ndega ndotaura ndega kwete
kuti umwe munhu anotaura nyaya dzangu. Your sister
akanotaura dzangu, dzawakamuudza iwewe, a very emotional
issue for me, something that I told you personally kuti I was
uncomfortable with. That is the difference, before I could figure

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things out wainge watotaura kudhara without thinking about my
feelings."

"I have admitted that I was wrong there but how long are we
going to go on like this? You ignoring me and all."

"I'm not ignoring you handisi kungoziva kuti ndotaura newe

kutii." Ndakatura mafemo kwakutora bag rangu ndikabuda. I
drove to work feeling like nothing made sense, I was beginning
to hate my life zvekuti pandakasangana na Sergio I was an
emotional wrack. He hugged me akati, "hey why are you
crying." I sniffed ndichibva paari wiping my tears ndikati, "I
don't know, I'm not doing anything right these days. I don't
make him happy anymore, every move is a mistake and
somehow I'm being found on the wrong side pese pese."

"Calm down," akadaro softly akanditarisa mumaziso kwaakuti,

"relax okay, take your time and tell me."

"Firstly you have to promise me that you will not tell him that I
told you zvandichataura nekuti he will get really mad at me." He
nodded promising ndikati, "it started when went to the doctor.
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with a problem the doctor said he can't have kids. All along
those prophets have been saying ndini but the doctor said it's
him. Saka kubva ipapo he is very emotional, he is snapping and
easily getting mad. Unfortunately I told my sister about it and
she told tete then Tete came to the house and confronted us
about it. I had to lie kuti the doctor never said haazvare."

"Damn," he said ndikati, "so that day he mistakenly saw a

message from my friend yaitaura nezvemwana and all akafunga
kuti ndakaudza shamwari dzangu but I never did I swear. Haasi
kundipa time to talk."

"Calm down okay," I tried hard ndisingade kuti vaone kuti

ndirikuchema but ndakanyatsochema till Sergio said, "please
don't, its enough I can't watch you cry like this."

"I'm sad Sergio, I really am, I keep telling myself that I'm going
to be okay but things are getting worse."

"So wait, the doctor said you are okay and you can have kids?" I
nodded akati, "I see, haaa ma1. For a man it's a difficult thing to
accept nekuti anenge achiti anofanira kukudza dzinza you know.
His name should live on. These are rare cases and worse after he

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had believed that it's you with a problem, meaning kuti pese apa
he was made to believe kuti anozvara. I'm sorry wifey but ma1,
ndogona kutadza explaining how it's like for a man but it's a
deep one."

"I suggested adopting and he doesn't want." Sergio stared at me

akati, "do you really want adoption kana kuti you are thinking
that ndiyo solution to the problem. Don't you want a baby
wifey?" I took a deep breath ndichibva ndashaya kuti ndotii. "Be
honest with me?" He said ndikati, "I don't know, I just want all
this to end."

"Deep down you want to feel how it's like to be pregnant," he

said, I could not lie I nodded.

End of chapter

Kaydie

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To be on sale from 21

Behind closed doors

By Kaydie : 0777684685

Chapter 19

Molly

"Huya kugate," said Marcus. Ndainge ndichangobva kupedza

class, I packed my stuff ndikatora bag kuti ndibude Fadzi akati,
"bae wako auya?" nodded nekutobuda ndikanzwa achitevera
mumashure. Ndakacheuka ndikati, "asi waakutoendawo?"
Akabvumira kwaakufamba tese tichienda kugate. "Nice cut,"
she said achizevezera aona Marcus ndikati, "kwana siyana ne
cut yake." Akaseka achifambisa kundidarika kwakubva amira
kuside kwa driver achimhoresa Marcus. He smiled asi kwete
zvaienda kure akati, "hesi Fadzi." Ndakanopinda kuside
kwangu, he looked at me akati, "hesi." Ndakasekerera
ndichiswedera to kiss him akati, "tiende?" Ndakagutsurira
musoro and waved at Fadzi.

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Ndakaona achienda road yemutown ndikati, "what are we going
to do in town?"

"I was thinking," he said ndikati, "okay about what?"

"I don't know since we are in a relationship, I was thinking that

maybe we should know where we stand." I frowned ndikati,
"okay pa chii?"

"Don't get me wrong handiti?" Akadaro ndikati, "okay I'm

listening." He smiled akati, "face yako babie imbosekerera
tione." Ndakatoseka akati, "okay I was thinking maybe we
should go for an HIV test kana kuti we can buy from the
pharmacy and do it. Not that I wanna sleep with you now but I
believe it's good knowing where we both stand to avoid
surprises." Ndakaramba ndakanyarara ndichifunga what he had
said ndikati, "okay." Akaita seashamisika ne fast response yangu
but I had nothing to hide, it was not as if I had gone around
sleeping with guys. Akanyatsonditarisa akati, "are you serious
kuti you don't mind?"

"I really don't," I responded ndikati, "asi I should be worried?

Maybe you think ndinorara nevarume stereki?"

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"Noo noo babie, what I asked for is something chinovhundutsa
vanhu and I'm actually happy with how you responded fast. I
mean I'm impressed with the way you responded." Ndakaramba
ndakamutarisa ndikati, "have you been with a lot of women?"
He shook his head akati, "no handina it's only kuti it's something
I want to do hangu." I could understand so we decided to go for
an HIV test together. We both came out negative akati, "tell
me." Ndakamirira kuti andivhunze kwaakuzoti, "I don't want to
sound crazy but ...." Ndakamukata ndaona aremerwa ndikati,
"I'm not a virgin Marcus if thats what you want to ask but I had
sex with one guy. He died a week later in a car accident. Ever
since then it's been hard for me to get into relationships and I
don't even know why it's been easy for me to feel comfortable
with you. Allow you to get close to me, date me even." Neniwo
ndaisatozvinzwisisa but after the passing of Travis I hated life. It
took me a long time to get over him, not kuti I had completely
gotten over him asi ndainge ndazviudza kuti I had to move on.

"I'm sorry," akadaro ndikati, "don't be, it's part of life."

"Ndabva ndanyara," akadaro ndikaseka ndikati, "don't be silly

handiti you wanted to know."
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"Saka it happened once?" He asked ndikati, "yes." He asked if
we had used protection ndikati, "yes, I was not even ready to get
pregnant." He sighed achibva amutsa mota akati, "are you over
him yet?" Ndakashaya kuti ndopindura kuti chii but I didnt want
him feeling as if I was thinking of another man. Marcus was that
man who got me feeling a little scared. He had taken over my
heart and thats all I wanted him to feel. "I'm over him,"
ndakapindura akati, "good, I don't like sharing, even with a dead
person." The way he spoke gave me butterflies kutonzwa kuda
zvakawanda something that I was finding insane nekuti it was
very much unlike me. Hamheno zvaaingondiita so zvekuti
ndaibva ndanzwa body yangu yese ichimerera.

Ndakaona anyarara ndikati, "I'm all yours." We got to my place

akati, "ndiani ari mumba."

"Hapana, I stay with my sister but she's in SA." Akaramba

akanditarisa ndikati, "chii," akati, "sei ndisingapinzwe mumba
asi pane akakosha anofanira kupinda imomo here?"

"Noo babie handipinze vanhu mumba." Akanditarisa akati,

"ndiri vanhu?" I shook my head akati, "so?" Ndakapererwa

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kusvika ndati, "sorry hande," ndichiona kuti he was feeling as if
handisi kumukoshesa. Ndainzwa kutya for some reason
ndikazviudza kuti it was probably because ndainge ndisati
ndambopinza munhu mumba. Kutotya kuti kondikawanikwa
nehama yangu ndiine mukomana mumba zvaitonzi ndaakuita
zvechihure. He followed me ndichiedza kuzvibata then he took a
seat on the couch akati, "saka wanga uchiremerwa nei?" I faked
a smile kwaakugara next to him ndikavhunza if he wanted juice
akati, "yea sure unei?" Ndakataura akasarudza ndikauya
neraaida racho.

He drank slowly achindivhunza when my sister would be back

ndikati, "she took a holiday, she's on leave saka she decided
kuenda ku SA." Akavhunza kuti kunaani ndikati, "kune hama
yedu kunyangwe hazvo I knew kuti she had gone kunoona
mukomana wake ikoko. For sometime we kept talking until ati,
"sei nhasi wakagara kure neni?" Ndakakakama akati, "huya
padhuze sezvaunongoita mumota." Ndakaswedera padhuze
akaita kuti ndimuzembere kwaakuti, "saka you are always
alone?"

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Ndakagutsurira ndikati, "now that she's not around yes." He
pushed up my chin kusvika tatarisana then he reached to kiss
me. Dzimwe pfungwa dzakati dzikama unogona kuswera
wakumurwa hembe but the way he kissed me good ndakatadza
kumumisa. Akamira ega akati, "you are beautiful." Ndisati
ndapindura he kissed me again, with a bit of deeper emotions. I
felt his hand getting into my t-shirt ndikamboda kuti aewa but
still it was Marcus. He cupped my breast ndikanzwa kupindwa
nekachando zvakaita kuti ndinamirire paari. Ndakabatwa futi
ndikafemeruka zvine kakutya mukati. I felt him unclipping my
bra kuback ndikati, "Marcus keep it there."

"Hapana zvandiri kuita," he said ndikati, "you unclipped my

bra."

"I know, I want to caress my woman that's all." Akasara opedza

kutaura ratova loose kudhara ndaakubatwa pa skin chaipo.
Ndakavhara maziso kunzwa a deeper need for him to keep
caressing me kunzwa kuti ndikasabatwa hamheno. Ndakatanga
making sounds moaning with every touch which encouraged
him to keep carressing me. "Remove this," he said achindibvisa
t-shirt kwaakutorasa bra rangu futi. He kissed me deepily maoko
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ake working their magic on my nipples, I wanted to cry I felt
weak. Ndakatanga kutadza kugara zvakanaka ndikanzwa kuti I
wanted his skin on mine. Slowly I unbuttoned his shirt and
admired what I saw, he had such a beautiful body you could
never deny. I reminded myself that it was less than a month with
him and I could not be that stupid. Ndakapindwa nepfungwa
dzakawanda like I was a Christian and kuchurch zvaisadiwa asi
pfungwa idzodzo dzakadzima as his hands never stopped
touching me.

"I want my woman," he whispered in my ear, at the same time

biting it. Ndakanzwa kumerera nekutonzwa his hand richipinda
mupanty mangu. Ndakagumhiwa pakati ndikati, "wait Marcus
wait."

"It's hard to wait when you are making me feel this insane." His
body temperature was very hot and because of his finger that
was inside my panties and rubbing every sensitive part I moaned
ndikati, "let's wait it's not the right time."

"There is never a right time Molly, I want you now." Maoko ake
ese akadzikisa jean rangu randaive ndakapfeka akapuruziva my

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ass achiitawo kuti ndinzwe kuti my underwear make maive
nemoto. He lay me on the sofa akabvisa ma jeans kwaakukasika
kudzoka pandiri ndisati ndachinja mind. He removed my panty
akandipuruzira my clit achiita achindiyamwa mukaka. My
moaning became louder failing to control myself. I could feel
myself getting wetter and wetter I said, "Marcus I need you
now."

"You do?" Akavhunza ndikati, "Marcus." He kissed me

achindisimudza.

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Chapter 20

Molly

There were thoughts in my head before he went further like

what if he leaves me soon after. Ndakanzwa hana yangu kurova
ndikati, "no Marcus." Maybe I had allowed him to go a step
further without much thought and panguva iyoyo ndakatadza
kumudzora he was nolonger listening. It was painful
zvandakashama nazvo, I pushed him off iye kwaakumira akati,
"what's this," achivhunza neconfusion nekuti neniwo ndaive
neconfusion. Ndakatora mukana kuti ndibve pasi pake but
akabva atondivharira even worse akati, "what you said and what
I'm noticing is different." Ndakashaya kuti ndopindura kuti chii
kwaakubva ndati, "I said it happened once."

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"You are lying?" Akadaro ndikanzwa kuda kuchema ndikati,
"Marcus I swear it happened once." Akaramba akanditarisa
ndikashaya kuti mupfungwa dzake aifunga kuti chii. I wondered
if he was angry with me kana kuti aive asiri, I was just confused.
Akadzikira and kissed me, ndaive ndavakutya which made me
kiss him back nekutya kurambwa. Ndakatanga kunyengetedzwa
zvakare kusvika ndega ndavakunzwa kumuda zvakadarikidza.
Andina kana kuziva kuti he would try again ndakavarairwa. I
screamed after I felt a sharp pain ndikati, "Marcus stop it." He
did, akabva amira and said, "I'm sorry, you lied to me kuti
akarara newe haana kurara newe." Ndakashama akati, "he did
not."

"He did," ndakapikisa akati, "did you feel the sharp pain you just
felt now?" Ndakakakama nekuti zvakaitika when I was drunk
tafarisa during his birthday party. I remembered getting drunk
and making out with him and I remembered achipfeka condom.
Zvimwe zvacho zvaisanzwisisika zvekuti in the morning I
remembered achiti we had had sex. Maybe nekuda kwe position
yataiva, we had no clothes on saka neniwo I believed it. Marcus
akaramba akanditarisa ndichishaiwa kuti ndoti kudii.

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Ndakangonzwa misodzi yaakuyerera yega iye kwaakutanga
moving inside me zvikanzi, "ndokuda and I'm happy."
Ndakawedzera kuchema Travis had lied. Maybe he didn't want
me to sleep with someone else kana kuti he genuinely thought
kuti tainge tarara tese. "Stop crying," Marcus whispered asi
ndakatadza kumira. "please stop crying." He said again ndikati,
"I'm sorry, I'm in shock and I'm also in pain, zvirikurwadza
Marcus."

"I know, mira mbichana okay." Akadaro asi ndaitadza ini, iyewo
aiita zvinyoro nyoro zvekuti ndakambotanga kunzwa kunge
zvaakunakidza. Akaramba achiita till atanga kuita neforce
achiratidza kuti he was enjoying every bit of it. Akazondisiya
anzwa kuti zvaita then he kissed me pamhanza akati, "ndokuda."
He wiped my tears asi ndaive ndoshaiwa zvekuita nekuda
kwenyadzi, everything else was still very confusing kwandiri.
Ndiye akaita zvese even cleaning me up zvese ndiye akaita. I
dressed up after ndagezeswa zvikanzi, "don't even think about
sleeping with another man." Ndakaboira boira still confused
kwaakugutsirira musoro.l, still trying to make sense of
everything.

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He left after a while ndikasara ndichienda mberi nekuchema at
the same time scared as hell over what I had done. Ndaida
kuudza Fadzi kuti Travis had lied to me asi ndakanyara kutaura.
Iniwo back then I had wondered kuti ndainge ndakaudzwa kuti
zvinorwadza asi sei zvainge zvisina kurwadza. The fact that we
had woken up naked neniwo ndichinzwa kuti ndainge
ndagumwa gumwa down there. Maybe he had tried zvikaramba
ndookusiya hamheno. Ndakatura mafemo ndaona kuti I was
stressing myself nezvinhu zvaive zvisina basa kwaakusiyana
nazvo. I switched ndikatanga kufunga Marcus and all that we
had done ndikanzwa kufara nekutya zvese. Iyewo haana kurega
kutaura as soon as he got home. That night we spoke until late
ndichiudzwa kuti he wanted more asi ndaitonzwa kuzeza.

He picked me up from school again the following day tikaenda

kumba. I didn't need to invite him in akapinda ega. Kutopinda
ari mumood yekuti kana kuramba ndakatadza besides telling
him that I was scared. Ndakatanga ndagezeswa kwaakuendwa
neni ku bedroom. There he took his time playing around with
my body until ndasvika futi pakukumbira ndega. Ndakanzwa
kunyatsovhurwa and he penetrated my small vg. I let myself go

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as he kept telling me to be calm. Slowly I started feeling
pleasure arising in me. Slowly I moaned to his movements
feeling every stroke. After a while ndakatanga kumover a little
which he liked akati, "urikunaka."

"Aaaaah," I moaned feeling him more akati, "I want to hear

more of those." Zvakazviita zvega, I increased my moaning
kusvika ndati, "Marcus it's nice." "Yeah," akadaro reaching to
suck my nipples." Ndakavhura maziso as my body reacted in a
way I could not explain. "Ooooh," I found myself needing him
kuti arambe achiita zvaaiita. "Marcus," I said as pleasure
increased. I loved his groaning sounds, kungoziva kuti he was
enjoying me and at that time worse knowing that he was actually
my first and not the one I thought was. His caresses were
amazing and his thrusts felt like I was floating in air. As
confusion and pleasure increased I felt like I wanted to use the
bathroom. I told him to stop cause I wanted to use the bathroom
but he chuckled akati, "do it here."

"Marcus I really need the bathroom," I said at the same time

feeling like I couldn't hold it any longer. He said again, "you
don't need the bathroom, that's how it feels so let it go."
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Ndakatya kuzosekwa naye but I failed to hold it ndikanzwa
zvichibuda zvega ndikadeedzera kuti, "I love you Marcus."
Zvechokwadi ndakanzwa a deeper kind of love yakandityisa.

Marcus

Ndakamutarisa ndikanzwa kutya nezvandakanzwa panguva

iyoyo. I think maybe it was the tightness of her vg but she had
made me cum strong. Ndakaita nguva ndichinzwa kupera simba
but I could also not shake the feeling of betraying Leah.
Kungofunga that chete ndakabva Pana Molly and faked a smile
ndisingade kuratidza kuti I had suddenly become stressed.

I was caught up in the middle and not sure what to do asi I knew
somehow I was dragging myself into very deep trouble.
Ndaitadza kutarisa Molly zvakanaka and ndizvo zvakaita kuti
ndisagare kumba kwavo. Ndakamusiira mari ndikati, "get your
hair done andisikuda zvaunazvo."

"Zvashata?" She asked ndikati, "Tsvaga tint, get another hair

cut." She chuckled akati, "you spoke like Fadzi."
Akandizembera ndikati, "be a good girl andidi kunetsana newe."

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"Ndinenge ndaita sei?" She asked ndikati, "I don't know, ndati
be a good girl chete." Akasveerera muromo wangu and kissed
me slowly. Ndakazobvako ndikananga kumba kwandakawana
Leah asiko. I went straight for the shower, pandakabuda ndipo
pandakawana adzoka akati, "hey." Ndakatadza kumutarisa
ndikadaira ndakatarisa pasi. Akafamba achiuya padhuze akati,
"wanonoka kudzoka."

"Handina kunyanya," ndakadaro going for the lotion kuti

ndizore. Haana kugara akanangawo kunogeza ndikasara ndega.
Things were a little tense between us but ndainge ndatojaira kuti
nyaya yangu yainge yava kuzivikanzwa nevanhu. Izvozvo
zvakaita kuti ndisade kutaura nevanhu except for sekuru
vandakaenda ndichinoona kuti nditaure nyaya ya Molly. "Eheka
ndookuti murume, murume anozamawo kunze uku kwete kuti
anongonzi zvakati ototi ndizvo." I faked a smile ndikati,
"zvirikurema nekuti andina kuzvijaira." Havana kuona chakaipa
vakatonditi, "it will get better. Handiti mukati make munodziya
hamo?" I chuckled ndikati, "ehe," Ivo kwaakuti, "very good,
ukadzimara wanyanya kudziirwa hauzombotye. Besides iyo
poto haidi ye beef mazuva ese kwete, ungasafinhikana here."

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Handina hangu kupindura nekuti Leah ainge asati andifinha
zvake.

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