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9pm...11pm...1am..the clock is
ticking and there's still no sign of
Sokhana. I won't lie at this point I
am worried because it's not like him
to stay out till this late. I mentally
slap myself "Why the fuck do you
care Mbali, this man almost killed
you. AGAIN!" Arg come on Mbali
don't be dramatic, he slapped you
and just two punches. Fuck Mbali
stop okay!
I find myself dialing his brother's
number after two glasses of wine.
I'm really worried. I think it's
because whenever we fight we
promised to never leave until it's
resolved and for the past 11 months
that's how it's been. We never go to
bed angry at each other, we'll we do
but we try to resolve it. When he
doesn't answer the first time I
remember "It's a Friday night
Mbali, he's in bed with his wife!"
Arg now I'm getting more worried,
where could he be. I'm biting my
finger nail worried when I hear my
phone ring, it's Sbonga, I'm a bit
dissapointed though
"Hey Sbonga" I say
Him: Hey Mbali, is everything
okay?
He had been sleeping you can tell.
Now I feel bad for waking him up
and I hope I didn't cause any drama
between him and his wife. Yho and
his wife is always in a bad mood, we
don't really get along honestly and
I'm fine with that. I don't need
friends anyway
"No No everything is fine. I'm
worried about your brother he left
around 9pm akakabuyi I wanted to
ask if akakho apho na because his
phone is off"
Him: No. I'll try and reach him. Did
you fight or something? "
I bite my lip contemplating. I didn't
want them to know what a
douchbag he was, I always
protected him. How foolish of me
Me: Noo. We had a
misunderstanding but it's nothing
serious
He's up by now you can tell
Him: Okay I'll ask ooSakhe and get
back to you
I nod replying "Okay Enkosi. And
sorry for waking you up"
Him: No it's fine. Sleep Mbali, you
have work neh. I'm sure he's fine"
Me: okay. And thank you again"
I hang up, I feel a bit tipsy by now.
I put the wine glass on the table
then walk to the bed. I open the
linen then switch off the side lamp
and I was gone the minute my head
hit the pillow.
"Babe it's 6 wake up" a heavy husky
voice says. I open one eye and I
realize this man is back. My mouth
stinks and my head hurts. Oh
honey that's what you get for
marrying an asshole.
Him: I'm sorry about last night I.. I
wanted to give you and I space. I
needed to think. Irresponsible and
selfish of me but I'm sorry
I open the linen and walk out of bed.
My breath stinks like shit, I glance
at the bottle of wine on the table
and I feel like throwing up. I get in
the bathroom yawning as I take a
piss.
He stands by the sliding door that
divides our bedroom and the
bathroom and watches me. I flush
and grab a toothbrush, put some
toothpaste and a bit of water then I
start brushing my teeth
We both take a shower in silence,
it's not awkward silence because I
think we both enjoying it I think. I
wear my black Zara high waisted
jeans, a white vest, white
Alexandre McQueen Sneakers and
my red blazer. Every Friday is a
casual day, I let my employees
show me they got game. Also
Friday is when I get to check on my
boutiques. Sokhana keeps stealing
glances now and again and I
couldn't care less. I am done with
my brows so I apply nude make up
then neatly play around with my
edges after tying my hair up in a
bun.
Him: Mrs Dlamini what game are
you playing at
I force a smile then roll my eyes
walking past him
Him: Ouch baby.
He is busy fixing his tie, I grab my
Chanel glasses and look through
my hang bag closet, I change to my
red hang bag then put everything
in. Mrs Vilakazi must be here by
now bc I can hear some noise
downstairs. I realize this fool's tie is
mezzd up so I fix it for him. He
grabs my bum then kisses my cheek
Him: Any plans for today?
Me: No
Him: I'll be at gym till 7, don't
forget tomorrow siya kulamcimbi
ekhaya
I nod having totally forgotten. Arg I
hate Makoti duties. No matter how
modern a family is you'll always
feel the need to kotiza when you're
the daughter in law. When we're
done with everything we go
downstairs, Mrs Vilakazi whom we
call MaVee has laid everything on
the table. We greet and chat briefly
then after breakfast Socks and I
walk out, the cars are already out of
the garage and in the drive way, he
kisses me briefly before I drive out
in my Landover. I am listening to
metro fm like every morning...
I park my car in the parking lot
then step out, great I'm on time. I
am exhausted honestly but I am
building my parents their dream
home and I gotta work.
"Mrs Dlamini" my receptionist Ano
says as I walk in. I feel lighter for
some weird reason now, again one
would say I am lying if I told them
last night I was beaten up.
Me: Hey Ano.
I walk past and the smell of fresh
coffee fills my nostrils as I walk
past the coffee room. I walk into my
office and I'm met by a beautiful
bunch of flowers. I roll my eyes
walking around to my seat across. I
put my handbag and the briefcase I
had with me. I grab a seat then
take the card on the flowers
"You're amazing Mrs D. Love you"
it reads. I immediately feel a lump
build up my throat. I wanna cry
because I hate my life right now.
"whatever you said in your prayers,
me too" Ano says walking in. I
quickly dispose the card in the bin
next to my table
Me: Any massages?
Her: yep. Updated on your diary.
You're meeting with the Mokoena's
at 10, Mr Gert will be a bit late so
he rescheduled his 11:30pm for
12pm
Me: That old man needs to retire
honestly.
I stir the coffee she just put on my
table then take a bite on the
chocolate muffin before me
Her: oh and it's Zane's birthday
today so I'll be out of the office for
20 minutes to pick up his cake. So
don't forget
Me: Alright
She turns on her heel and walks
out. It's an office tradition that we
celebrate every colleague's birthday.
That is I buy them a cake and we
sing them Happy birthday
Anyway I look through my diary,
check my emails and prepare for
my first meeting.
I'm buried in the books when my
cell phone rings. I reach for it and
realize it's my mother inlaw
Me: MaShange
Her: hey baby. Kunjani?
Me: I'm okay Ma, hwu?
Her: I am perfect. UAnty uthi
bazoshoda ngotshwala. Kodwa
ngimtshelile no Sokhana wathi
ayonkinga
We had asked her what to bring to
the family ritual tomorrow,
Sokhana hates going there empty
handed. And we honestly didn't
know what to get because what do
you get someone who has it all?
Tricky. They're introducing
Sokhana's baby cousin to the family
Me: Oh alright ke Ma.
Her: I can't wait to see you.
Me: Me too mama
Her: Okay ke sisi have a beautiful
day. Bye
Me: Byeee
We hang up and I throw my phone
aside. I realize it's 5 to 10 so I grab
my diary and note pad then make
way to the boardroom. I'm in my
second meeting now. The first was
tiring but it went amazing
Me: Mr Gert, good morning
Him: If it isn't the fiesty Mrs
Dlamini
We shake hands and take our seats
Me : How are you today?
Him: Couldn't be better.
Congratulations are in order, last
night was a success.
Me: I'll pass them to him.
Him: Right. So last week we
discussed that we need a social
media manager for our account and
maybe include influencers to create
awareness about the brand and our
events
Me: Yes and that would also boost
engagement and increase sales
Him: exactly. My team and I have
thought about it and you get the go
ahead. You can start planning, send
through the contract and we can
take it from there.
I huff as a sign of relief
Me: Thank you so much you won't
regret it. I'll send your PA the
contract by the end of today
We add on and touch on other
important matters on the agenda
and to my surprise the meeting
takes shorter than I thought, by
2pm I am done for the day and I
can feel exhaustion consume me. I
grab my handbag and walk out, I
plan to check on my boutique in
Sandton
Me: Ano I'm out for the day.
Ano: Have a great weekend Mrs D
I fake a smile walking out. My
phone rings as I unlock my car, I
reach for my pocket and I realize
it's Zipho. I answer excited
Me: Friend
Her: Hey Chomi let's do drinks
today. Me you and Zintle
I really don't feel like it, I just
wanna sleep honestly and as if she
can hear me think she says
"I am not taking no for an answer.
7pm my place"
I smile realizing she had dropped
the call already. Zipho is like that.
No is not in her vocabulary.
After checking on my boutiques I
decide to get myself a new khosi
Nkosi traditional dress at YDE, it's
a white over the shoulder dress
with blue detail. I rush to one of my
friend designers
Me: Babygirl
Her: Lovey. Awsemhle haibo boss
lady
Me: Get out of here. Look wethu
I take out the dress from the
shopping bag
Me: I need something for Socks to
compliment this.
Her: you're lucky I have just the
material
Me: yhuu enkosi
Her: Let me guess you need it today
Me: Ewe ntombi. I totally forgot
about getting something, we're
attending a family thing tomorrow
Her: Alright.
I decide to go to the salon nearby, I
get a new platinum 30" straight
weave. I'm done with everything by
6pm and Socks's shirt is done. She
usually designs our outfits so she
has our measurements.
Anyway maVee and the gardener
have left. I quickly put on the wig
and fix my lipstick. I leave the
laptop and make my way to Zipho's
place, she has an apartment
nearby.
One phone call and I'm in the flat.
Sokhana rings me and I bite my lip
contemplating whether to answer
or not. He went awol not so long
ago so I had every right to but I'm
not like that. I grab my phone and
move away from the girls a bit. I
stand by the balcony
Him: Hey uphi?
There's shuffling and I'm not sure
whether it's the network or he's
busy.
Me: I'm with Zipho
He breaths a bit before asking
Him: Oh uzobuya nini?
I am annoyed because how is that
any of his business? I was happy so
he should leave me alone
Me: I don't know Sokhana I don't
know
He keeps quiet for a few seconds
before saying
Him: Okay. Enjoy I love you
I roll my eyes then reply
Me: ok
Before hanging up. I walk back to
the girls. Sokhana irks my titts. He
used to party every weekend and
suddenly he changed. He doesn't
like going out, well he loves
working all the time it annoys me.
Don't get me wrong, he's still the
romantic, fun man that he's always
been but I'm 22 dude now I wanna
live my life and he wasn't about it.
Zipho : Chomi what did you get
Sokhana. That man is crazy about
you!
I smile genuinely. I don't for a
doubt doubt his love for me though
he has a funny and violent way of
showing it. Wtf am I even saying,
who hurts someone they claim to
love. I keep conflicting myself
Me: Nothing. Fire B
We all laugh
I grab the bottle of Vueve rich in
the ice bucket then pour in my
champagne glass
Zintle : Marriage life really suits
you chomi. You're glowing. You've
even gained meat in the right
places
Zipho: Dude!! Campus is boring
without you though
Me: Haskaa I right I wish I never
have to go back there.
I hate school with every Fibre in me.
I will go back though but not now.
I'm all about chasing the coins for
now. Sokhana's energy rubs off me.
The more he works the more I
work.
Zipho: who would've thought. That
one night could change your life so
beautifully my friend.
Anyway I met Sokhana at the club
it was my first time going there and
I was with ooZipho. He was there
with his girlfriend Mandisa, he
asked for my number and we
started being friends too. But he
fancied me so I said yes. I was a
side chick for about 3 months till I
decided its enough. Mind you I was
19 at the time. 6 months later he
proposed, we got married when I
turned 21.
Zintle: Ya'll need to hook me up
soon. Zipho I trust you.
Me: Eshe.
By 9pm I am drunk by now and I
wanna sleep. I snap and post on my
whatsapp and the first person who
sees the story is my husband Socks.
Him: Niphi?
Me: Zipho's
Him: I miss you
Me: Please don't Sokhana
Him: I'm with Sbonga and
Minenhle.
Me: You should've said something
Him: No take your time. We're
having a few drinks
Now I suddenly feel bad. See?? He
knows how my mind works, he
knows I'll feel bad and end up
driving home. Also I hate coming off
at the unsupportive or unruly wife
Me: okay
I hang up and my whole mood is
ruined by now.
Me: Girlie's let's go away for the
weekend
Zipho : on my birthday right??
I nod lying. I had totally forgot her
birthday was soon
Anyway I drive home and I'm met
by Sbonga's Mercedes c180 parked
on the drive way. I park my car and
step out. I try so hard to act sober. I
can hear the noise inside, doesn't
seem like three people. I lock my
car and get inside.
Me: Hey
Sbonga: Mbali. Heee you look
sloshed
I chuckle closing the door
Me: Haska. Hey Minnie
Minnie: Hey girl. Awsemhle, that
hair!!
I flip it. It's new and I had forgotten
about it
Me: Arg this old thing. Thank you
Sokhana opens his arms and I find
myself hugging him. He kisses my
cheek and whispers "You look
amazing babe"
I am blushing. We create small talk
then I get up and decide to grill
some chicken and veges. Minnie
and Sbonga have a 2 year old Lindo,
they have been married for 5 years
now. Minnie (26) is a doctor and
Sbonga a lawyer. They're really
inlove and compliment each other.
Sbonga is what you call, Indoda
yokwenene. Very focused.
The whole night in summary by us
having drinks and good food. It's a
fun chilled night but we have to be
up early tomorrow so by midnight
they leave. I take a shower and
change to short pyjamas and I let
my hair loose before putting a head
scarf on.
Me: When is your appointment?
You can see he is shocked. I
honestly wanna go through it with
him. That's the thing about me, I
always see the best in him. Here's
the thing, Sokhana has always been
good to me. When we met he would
spoil me, he paid for my shopping,
spoilt me rotten. My 21st birthday
was because of him. I went to Bali
at 21 because of him, I got my first
car at 21 because of him. Somehow
I feel indebted to him.
Me: Or ubuxoka?
Him: Cha. I'm just.. (he smiles
walking towards me) Monday at 4
I nod. He's standing in front of me
Him: I saw the shirt. Thank you
I fake a smile dropping my arms.
He encircles my waist with his
arms. Before saying
Him: thank you for everything
He baby kisses me then sets me
free from his arms. He is a bit
drunk I think and that shower
probably made him more drunk.
Sokhana is super tall and I on the
other hand look like a midget
compared to him. He has arms for
days
I suddenly feel horny. But rubbish
the feeling. I walk around to the
bed then get on my side. He joins
me shortly, switches off his side
lamp then encircles his arms
around my waist. "Goodnight" he
whispers
Me: Night.
A few minutes later I hear him
snore but I shortly follow. I am deep
in sleep when I hear a phone ring.
At first I think it's an alarm or idk
but after the first ring follows the
second. Arg I'm really agigitated
now.
I quickly glance at the man behind
me. He's fast asleep
I elbow him
"Your phone!"
Him: Mh. Mh
He mumbles. I can't sleep by now so
I grab the phone absent mindedly
and answer "HI"
"I need Sokhana" a voice says and
she's breathing heavily. I blink
twice and rub my eyes. It's a female
and she's calling at odd hours. This
is odd
Me: You what??
Her: Tell him his daughter is
having a seizure
Then she drops the phone.
I look at this phone then the guy
next to me. I chuckle and sit on my
bum
He mumbles something
"Sokhana wake up" he whispers
back
Him: Why baby?
Me: Get up!
He opens his eyes and rubs them
Him: It can't be morning already
Me: Your daughter is having a
seizure
(His eyes widen, he swallow)
Me: Your baby mama just called
(He's still staring at me and I can't
read his face but he's obviously
shocked and embarrassed that I
know
I get up from the bed and walk to
the bathroom, my bladder was full.
I realize that I am in tears)
"Did she say where they are?"
(I chuckle in disbelief)
Me: Wtf did you say?? You're asking
me if I know where your child is, a
child I know nothing about
Sokhana
(He's on his phone. He dials
whatever number then listens for a
while
"Finally.. Uphi is she fine... Are you
sure??... Okay"
I flush and go back to bed. I am
silently crying. What the hell did I
get myself into!)
Him: I wanted to tell you Mbali.
But I wasn't even sure if she's mine.
I'm sorry baby
(I flinch when he touches me)
Me: Don't. Touch. Me. Don't touch
me Sokhana
(I say inbetween sniffs. I am broken,
again but this pain is worse. I can
feel my heart break literally. If I
could tear it out ya'll would get an
exact image of how I felt. I even had
hiccufs and I couldn't control my
cry. I could literally feel my soul
being ripped out. If I could
remember the things Socks was
saying the whole time I'd probably
narrate them but I don't remember.
I was livid, my lips were shaking.
Being cheated on is the worst
feeling ever. You immediately
question your worth and why you're
not enough)
Me: Go to your woman! Not only
are you a woman beater but you're
also a womanizer Sokhana. What
did I do to deserve this?? Why me?
If you're enough of me why don't
you just dump me??
He squats in front of me and holds
my shoulders hushing me
Me: Don't tell me to hush Sokhana.
This time I am done! You can have
your child, your mistress and
everything! I am done
"Baby listen. MaDlamini"
I kick the blankets and walk to the
bathroom, I lock after shutting the
door and he begs me to come out for
the longest time.
It's morning when I wake up on the
bathroom mat, the light strikes my
eyes that I groan
"Babe please open up, Mbali?"
I get up, rinse my face and mouth
then step out of the bathroom
Him: Mbali really? Come on it's cold
phayana you wanna die
If looks could kill then the look I
gave him would've buried him. I go
straight to my closet and take out a
laggage bag.
Him: Can we talk about this Babe.
You can't just leave Mbali
Me: I know you don't love me but
this one time stop being selfish. Let
me go Sokhana. Let me be happy
once. I am tired of listening to you
lie to me over and over again. I'm
tired of being treated like rubbish
by you. Please
I think what stressed or hurt me
the most was knowing that I
probably shared his heart with
someone else, the humiliation and
ties that came with this hurt me.
Honestly at this point I just wished
he'd take his gun and shoot me,
physical pain is nothing compared
to emotional pain. That pain is a
permanent stain. It was even worse
now that there was a human being
tying them together. I had never
seen signs of cheating, socks was all
about me, he was either working,
working, playing with his boys or
being the perfect man to me. Well
before the abuse started. And that
too, I swept under the carpet.
Him: it's not what it seems like nje
and I need to explain that. I didn't
know I am a father until months
back
Me: Months you say!? What, that's
suppose to make me feel better.
That you're sleeping around
Him: I didn't sleep around. She
existed before I met you
I feel a knife stab me again. I bite
my lip shutting my eyes. I stop on
my strides
Me: existed before me?? (he nods)
Mandisa?
He nods unsure whether it's safe or
not
Me: You have got to be kidding me
Him: I didn't know she was
pregnant when when we broke up.
She only told me about Siphesihle
in January. We had a DNA test
done last month so I didn't know
Me: And when you knew wathula
right!? Lied to me everyday again.
Do you still love her??
Him: what ofcos not Mbali, I am
inlove with you, I love you.
Mandisa... I was waiting for the
right time to tell you. You had your
own shit to deal with. You lost your
uncle, then your colleague I was
worried for you
"Suxoka Socks. Suxoka you were
worried about yourself. It's always
about you. I never mattered and I
never will."
He twitches his jaw biting his lip
Him: I was sorry for not telling you
this but I knew you'd react like this.
Me: Is that suppose to make me feel
some type of way. You know what??
I'm so done with you.
He glances at his phone
Him: WuuMa.. (he presses answer
then puts the phone against his ear,
holding my hand. I set myself free
then start throwing my clothes in
the bag) . MaShange.... Ja we're
up..... Eish Ma.. I don't think we'll
make it... No, yes we kinda not
okay....no she's not feeling well...
Ufun ukhuluma nawe
Me: MaShange
Her: Hey sisi, konke kuhamba
kahle??
Me: No, mama I'm sorry I won't
make it. I'm driving down to East
London
Shocked she asks
"Niyalwa yini??" I nod as if she can
see me
Me: ewe mama and this time I'm
done. I'm leaving Sokhana Ma
She stays silent for a few seconds
before asking me
"Before you drive home baby please
come to the ritual. Sizothetha
kakhle sdibane noTata"
Me: Ma, I-
"I know baby and we won't stop you
from leaving"
I drop my head looking at the
balcony. I hate how manipulative
and conniving I law's are.
Me: Okay. I'll come
Her: Okay. You're a very strong girl
Mbali and my son loves you
I roll my eyes handing the phone
back to Sokhana who walks out
talking to his mom, arg mama's boy
this guy was spoint so much. Being
the last born made him
irresponsible and he got away with
so much. I finish throwing in stuff
in my albag then wheel it by the
wall. I'm still leaving after that
meeting, I was done being strong. I
take a shower then he follows just
after me. I feel exhausted and
drained, I also feel light headed
I take my time doing my make up
and by now he is annoyed because
he's dressed up. He is wearing blue
washed jeans, a white and blue
traditional shirt and white converse
sneakers. I watch him put on his
watch and I'd be lying if I said I
didn't feel anything, I love this guy
with every Fibre in me. Despite all
the bad in my life he was still as
attractive as the first time I laid my
eyes on him, the day I said I do.
"A picture lasts longer you know"
he says bringing me back to life.
He's smirking
I get back to doing my make up
Him: Babe it's 9 now.
Me: I'll be done shortly
Him: That's what you said an hour
ago
I turn back on my seat and he lifts
his hands as a sign of surrender. He
makes. The bed then walks out and
comes back having a bowl of muesli
and berries.
I put on my lashes then walk
around the room to dry them up.
I slip in my dress and sneakers, he
helps zip it up and he spanks my
bum as reward laughing.
Him: Fuck mama!
I roll my eyes walking away. He
knows how much I hate it.. He
made me breakfast so I quickly eat,
rinse the dishes and were good to go.
We start by liquor store and get the
alcohol list. I want KFC dunked
wings so he sucks up to me and gets
them by the drive thru before we
drive down to the village.
Woman: Hawu wuuSokhana lo
osem dala kanjena??
MaShange: Nginomakoti la
Woman 2: Waze wakhulu Mfana.
Saw bona Makoti
Me: Ewe Ma
Woman: ukuphi Mzukulu?
Sokhana: Cha, sisebencane phela
ngisafuna umkam Abe owami
kphela
There's laughing in the room
Woman: Whhh intsha yanamhlanje.
Niphathane kahle Bantabami.
Usatana akafuni nje impela
intwenhle.
Sokhana: Kusekhaya Lana Gogo.
Anginshiye, ngyacabanga badinga
usizo ngale emuva
Socks kisses my cheek before
walking out. Mother in law
suggests I go check on the other
ladies in the kitchen, there's
honestly not much to do here
because the cooking is taken care
off and people are just conversing. I
join in on the conversation. I look at
my sister in laws. Sibonga and
Mxolisi's wife. Mxolisi and Pearl
have two kids and Mxolisi had a
child from his previous relationship.
Pearl treats Nande like her own. I
wondered if I'd ever be able to do
that. But Pearl was 32, she was
emotionally ready for this, she
married knowing Mxo had a child
unlike myself who had no choice.
Sokhana is the perfect husband as
always, taking endless pictures of
me in the tent. He's definitely
getting Instagram Husband of the
year. Everyone knows him as a
romantic. Pearl who is my favorite
can tell I am not myself but every
Sunday we either make lunch at
her place, Minnie's or mine so she
knows we'll get a chance to speak
somehow. Around 6pm we say our
goodbyes and leave eMahlathini.
We drive in at his parent's place.
That is shortly after they ariive
kodwa they left 30 mins before.
Everyone is full and in high spirits
though. His mom offers us cake but
his dad wants to get straight into it
so we settle in the lounge
Suddenly I don't know how to say
what I needed to say. Suddenly I
feel bad for exposing Sokhana's
sheganians
MaShange: Mbali, what's going
on??
I clear my throat looking at My
father in law who is on the seat
opposite mine then Socks who's
leaning on his elbowed arm with his
leg crosses next to me
Me: Sokhana lied to me Ma. Last
night I found out that he has a
child with his ex or current
girlfriend Mandisa
(I hear grasps in the room)
"Sokhana engabe yiqiniso lelo
mfana??"
His dad asks shocked. His mom
quickly dismisses him by saying
"Cha baba a siyeke uMakoti aqede"
(His dad is angry by now. He sits
back at the couch again as if giving
me the go ahead)
Me: So ndambuza u Sokhana and
he said the child was existent
before we got married so the child is
probably 2 now. I don't know how to
believe the story he's pulling that
he didn't know kemna because
Sokhana always treats me like his
trash bin anyway. He doesn't
respect me mama, Sokhana (I stop
mid way and I decide against
telling them he hits me. I am a
mess with tears right now) he never
listens to anything I say. The past
10 months have been about him
and his fake apologies. I am done
baba. I am done
(His dad grasps, I can't see their
faces to study their reaction though
because I'm clouded by my tears.
His mom hands me a box of tears
and I wipe my eyes. I can only hear
sniffing now, my sniffing)
Dlamini: Angiqale ngixolise Makoti,
bengazi ukuthi izinto sezinjena
iskhathi esiningi angikho
ndiphoqeleka ukuthi ngibe in and
out ngenxa yomsebenzi nawe uyazi.
Sokhana Awukhuli mfana.
Sewahluleka ukonwabisa umkakho
mfana, kwenzekani uyisehluleki nje
somfana?!!
(Sokhana clears his throat then sits
up straight. I can't study his face,
hee looks I dk)
Dad: Khuluma yini awusezwa
nangamadlebe yhini!
Him: baba ngiqinisile Uma ngithi
bengazi. UMandisa ileyangane
yakwaBab'Cele. Uhlukana kwam
naye zange angtshele ukuthi
uzithwele. Ungtshele ngabo
January and I asked for DNA test
that she delayed. We ended up
doing them last week and I found
out ukuthi ingane yami. Bengazi
impela. Bengizomtshela uMbali
His dad: when? Tell her when??
Sok: Uma ngithola ithuba baba
Dad: you should've told her the
minute you found out mfana. Wake
wabona unyoko ekhala kanje
ngalengane?? Ushade iy'nyanga nje
and already usuyaphasalaka
ngenxa yamanga'akho.
Usehkulekile wena mfana, kulo
"Tell her at the right time" wakho
yesiohi lesoskhathi huh??
Ma: Aw baba sekwenzekile
phephisa
Anyway so we spoke about the
whole child thing. His dad was
against me ending things, from a
fathers point of view. He pleaded
me to sleep on it before making any
hasty decisions. And that I should
leave the following morning if I still
felt that I am not okay. Sokhana
seems really genuine though but
this wasn't the only time I had
considered leaving him, it was a
build up of events but this was the
last straw. I was only 22 but I was
gonna be caught up in baby mama
drama already. If she could call him
at 2am then tell him the baby is
fine again an hour later then
clearly she was pulling crazy stunts.
Stunts I didn't sign up for. If I
stayed then I'd have to accept his
child like my own and I didn't have
it in me. I barely had a child of my
own. We had coffee and cake before
his dad left to attend to a call and
his mom disappeared to the kitchen
leaving Sokhana and I in the room.
I had no intentions of leaving with
him and he needed to know that.
He asked that we talk outside and I
obliged. We sat on the table by the
braai area
Him: I am truly sorry babe. This is
really unfair on you; I will make it
right. You won't even know siphe
Me: Too late for that Socks
I get up and stand by the flower
garden hoping to breath. I wipe the
falling tear with the back of my
hand. He stands behind me.
Him: I think it's getting late you
must be exhausted.
Me: andifuni uhamba nawe
Sokhana
Him: Haibo babe come on
I shook my head breaking free. I
didn't feel safe around him, next
thing I know I get bashed for
calling him out in front of his
parents
Me: I know what's gonna happen
ufika kwethu endlini. Me earning
slaps and punches no andifuni
His mouth hung
Him: Mbali.. I won't hurt you. It's
me babe, I was stressed out yilanto
ka Mandisa but I'm fine now
I feel my heart hurt again
Me: So you hit me because you..
Because your mistress was
stressing you out?? I'll come fetch
my stuff tomorrow. I'm done
Sokhana, I'm done!
He tries to touch my arm and I
yank it. I am sooo done with this
man, the first thing I am doing is
driving out of here tomorrow. I
needed my grandmother to hush me
to sleep.

The following morning I woke up to

my mother's call. It was still early
though, around 6. I answered my
face still facing the pillow
Me: Hey Mama
Her: Hayi ntombi usalele? Atye nini
umntu wakho
I groan stretching
Me: He'll make a plan. It's 6 mama
Her: Eshe. Unjani, ninjani ndivuke
ndiku cinga wethu Tondo?
Me: I'm okay wena
Her: I'm good baby ndivuke ndini
cinga. Usalele uSokhana
Me: Ey mama andikho sendlini.
Ndimshiyile uSokhana
Her: Hayii kwenzekeni I thought
nonwabile njena. What do you
mean?
Me: Unomntana uSokhana mama.
Her: Nabani?? Umithisile?? Haybo
Mbali uthuleleni ixesha elingaka
Me: No mama(I sit up hoping to
explain everything properly) . His
ex showed up and they apparently
have a baby together
Her: Yhoo so he lied?
Me: Something like that. I am
driving down today
Her: haybo Mbali are you sure?
Me: Mama go to church. Sobonana
late
I hang up and decide to get ready.
My mom and I don't really have a
normal daughter and mother
relationship. We fight a lot because
we both have conflicting
personalities. We're good for a few
days but it can't be more than that.
When I was in high school, Sis Nox
would be caught up in the middle
all the time, dad chose to not get
involved. We'd be mad at each other
for the smallest things like why
behaved a certain way. My dad on
the other hand was always neutral
when you pour out your heart. I
failed two modules in first year and
he literally took me out for lunch
just to talk to me. All the quotable
phrases I know today are because of
him. Socks always used to tease me
ba I'm a daddies girl because I
apparently spoke about my dad allll
the time. My ex boyfriend
Phumelela once thought my mom
wasn't in my life because I hardly
spoke about her. Anyway I sommer
got up because I wasn't gonna be
able to sleep anyway. I feel a bit
sick though probably the crying or
stress I don't know. I make the bed
then take a shower in the en-suite
bathroom. My mom inlaw walks in
when I am using the body lotion.
Her: bengithi ngizokuvusa siye
esontweni
Me: Ndiyqondile nisalele shame.
Her: Are you coming with us or?
Me: Ha.a mama I thought about it
and I am still going home. You're
right I shouldn't make any hasty
decisions so I need to be away, go
and think and clear my head
She nods patting the seat next to
her. I follow and take the seat
Her: kuyona yonke lento ngane
yami do not let this one mistake
make you lose out on happiness and
your man. I am saying this because
I know how amazing you and
Sokhana are. The past few months
you've been happy and before this
too. I know loving a child that's not
yours is not something you signed
up for but when you love someone
you love them nengane as a
package. Gqoka ke sisi and come
down for breakfast angithi
I nod watching her walk out. I
change into my black dress that's in
the closet here then join the couple
for breakfast. My father in law is
still as sweet as ever and he's okay
with my decision. I drive to my
place to collect my stuff and
hopefully drive home soon. I find
Sokhana doing what looked like
mopping the floor. I stop on my
strides, he always spring cleans and
cooks when he is stressed. That's
another great thing about being
married to him, he loves cooking.
Yep a Zulu man!
Him: Hey
Me: Hi
Him: Unjani? I was just about to..
Me: I am getting my stuff then I'm
out of here
Him: Mbali it doesn't have to be
like that.
He drops the vacuum cleaner
Me: Silapha ngoku and I didn't get
us here
Him: please sit
He opens a chair for me by the
dinning table. I huff and sit. He sits
opposite me, holds my one hand. I
try to snatch it away but he holds
on.
Him: last night I did self I
introspection you're right we're
here now and it's my fault. Last
night after you denied coming home
with me I realized what a terrible
person I've been to you. You don't
deserve the way I treated you no
one does. But I can't let you go
Mbali. Babe please don't make me
let you go, don't give up on us. I am
getting help and from now on no
more surprises. Usemncane and
you really don't deserve this kodwa
ngiyakcela Mbali go home and
think about it. But if it comes down
to me having to set you free so you
can be happy I'll do that.
Me:Can I go home?
He furrows his brows, swallow
before answering "Yes".
I got to our room and start packing
my stuff, the stuff I'll need for the
time being. He helps me wheel the
bag to the car
Him: Be safe, take breaks
inbetween (something I used to
preach to him)
Me: Sure
Him: I'll fight for you Mbali
I start the engine
Me: Maybe she doesn't wanna be
fought for Socks. Maybe it's too late
I reverse leaving him with those
words. If Sokhana wanted to treat
me right we wouldn't have been
here in the first place. He just
didn't want to. For the first time
ever since I married him I stood up
for myself and I was proud.
I listen to Joyous Celebration
driving driving home, it was
literally clear and I took my time. I
was not driving into Mt Frere but I
made a short stop at the fuel
station. I also needed to freshen up.
I got what was my 3rd play of the
day, my legs were exhuasted
probably because I hadn't driven
this long in a while. Socks always
drove me home ever since we
started dating. I got two plays, wine
gums and biltong. I really wasn't
hungry but I wanted to chew on
something. The guy was cleaning
my windscreen so long I checked
my massages. Sokhana's last text
was him asking ndisalamba kakhle
na. I replied with yes then paid for
the fuel and tipped the guy. I
started driving again.
In 2 hours I was driving in at
Mthatha. I knew how my mom was
a fan of Nando's so I stopped by
Savoy and got it.
I immediately felt a sign of relief
when I saw the gate at home. I was
even smiling. I hooted once and
Bhut Sango whom helps my dad
around the house when he is not
around opened the gate, he was
washing my mom's car. I drove in
smiling. I kissed these smallest
things about being home.
When I stepped out I heard Honey's
bark and it was that of excitement.
But he was locked away
Me: Bhut Sango Enkosi. Ninjani?
Him: Siyaphila Phelo wena?
Me: Ndryt Nam ndisazonibona.
Sebebuyile ecaweni abazali bakho
He chuckles
Him: Ewe shame
We talk some more as he helps me
offload my bag and the packet of
Nando's. The house is soo clean, the
garden is neatly done and
everything is as good as I left it.
The new pool is squicky clean too. I
make it a mental note to go check
on my dad's properties tomorrow.
I step in the house and I am
welcomed by a hug.
Me : OH sis Nox ndimdala kangaka
She always calls me Phelo naye. It
was a pet name I got growing up. I
am also the youngest grandchild on
my dad's side of the family.
Her: You'll always be untondo tyhin.
Unjani mfazi?? Kunjani emendweni
I laugh out loud because she still
teases me ba what did Sokhana see
in my lazy self
Me : Eshe sisi kubi kubi
She chuckles taking my bag
Her: Hay Hay balisa
Me: Eyy soncokola ntombi. Baphi
abazali Bakho? Ndizphathele nesa
stuff sakho
Just then my mom comes down
uttering "Eshe singabakhe yedwa
ngoku" in her black flow dress and
cotton on sleepers
Me: Ohh haybo ntombendala
Ma: undincede ngoNandos lo uyihlo
oko ezulisa wonqena uya eSavoy
It's all nice and whatever till I start
telling my parents why I am home.
Everytime I tell the story I am a
mess, I cry like someone has died.
My dad calms me down and assures
me he'll get to the bottom of it. He
also assures me that I am home.
Tata: Dlamini... Niphilile??.. Into
engazukwenzeka ke Dlamini
kukuba ndinike intombi yam
yonwabile Ibuye ngenyembezi... "
he said walking out. At this point I
didn't care what he had to say, I
was done feeling sorry for Socks. I
was done with his family and him
too. If I could turn back the time I
would no doubt.
Mama: what did Sokhana say
xawusithi uyahamba?
Me: Mama not today. I know you'll
convince me to go back there but
this time it won't work. Gone are
those days. If usamthanda
uSokhana get him another wife
I lashed out and walked straight to
my room. My mom was a hypocrite
and I didn't have to deal with her
drama right now. She made
everything about her. I hate
parents who never support their
children who put their own selfish
benefits in the expense of their
child.
I decide to go help Sis Nox in the
kitchen with preparing dinner
Me: Hey ndithi ke Indoda
inomntana neEx eyy
Her: Suxoka! But how did you find
out?
Me: ubaby girl wafowna kaloku Sis
Nox ebusuku esithi umntana has a
seizure on his phone and
unfortunately yabanjwa Ndim. I
asked him akayiphika and his chat
is that he didn't know until a few
months back and he didn't know
how to tell me
Her: Yho hay yi mess.
Me: Tell me about it!
I switch on the oven
Her: But you're not considering
umshiya Mos uSocks ntombi
Me: Yho ha.a Sis Nox I love Socks
kodwa I don't think I'll be able to
love that child like my own. For the
mere fact that the mom can call
him anytime elace a bitter taste in
my mouth. I can't
Her: Arg she wanted to annoy you
that's why. She knew he's with you
Me: And my thing is that a few
minutes later he said Socks can
sleep she's fine
She claps once and puts her hands
on her waist
Her: Yho undincamisile. I know
those stunts.
Arg I feel lighter and I can smile. I
attend to Zintle's texts asking my
whereabouts. I promise Pearl a
lunch date so we can talk kakhle
because she heard I left. Sibonga
calls too and he's sympathetic and
worried.
Around 7pm we have dinner, I offer
to wash the dishes while Sis Nox
takes a bath. I bought her a bottle
of vodka(her favorite). My mom
likes wine, red wine and my dad
whiskey. She was over the moon.
Sis Nox has worked for the family
for about 10 years now, she's
practically family. My dad calls me
before his bed time while I am in
the kitchen with Sis Nox. She's
having her Vodka dashed with
ginger ale and ice. My mom is in
the living room having wine.
Me: Tata??
Him: sisi I spoke to your family in
law and we both want to talk things
through. Ku anjalo kakade
emtshatweni it's not about you only.
UTata zala wakho has business
eGhana this week uqala
Wednesday . I have meetings in
KZN too so we came to the
conclusion that we will drive down
together first thing tomorrow
morning. Mna, nawe nomamakhe.
I didn't really wanna say much SO
I okay it and my dad left for bed. I
was attempting to get up when
Mom called. For me
Her: amazwi akho ebehlbuhlungu
Mbali. I birthed you so I would
never choose someone else over you.
Everything I do is for you. I was
just concerned as your mother. I
want to see you happy and I know
Sokhana makes you happy. You
can't let go of two years over this,
you will bounce back and I know it.
I won't let you fumble everything
you've worked for ngenxa
yalanopatazana who wants to take
everything away from you. Your
husband loves you and I hope you
never forget that. Uxolo ke
mntanam uba uthando lwam
lukubonise kumbi. Ndizoshexa
Ndibuye umva ngoku
She left me feeling regretful and
guilty. I wished I could take back
my words or be selective ke. But
that was genuinely how I felt I was
glad we cleared the air qah. I also
knew how she felt. Anyway after a
glass of wine and three shots of
Nox's Vodka I called it a night and
immediately fell asleep. My mom
woke me up around 5am because
we had to leave at 6am. Nyani at
6am we drove out of Mthatha
heading TO Durban. It was
summer so by 5am it's already day.
My mom had coffee because my dad
refused to travel with anyone who
sleeps.
We arrived in Durban around 2pm.
I was so exhausted because the
couple I was driving with made me
drive all the way, my dad arguing
he was tired yena and oho my mom
never drives when my dad is
around unless push comes to shove.
Mama: Yho hay wawubona ntoni
Kwezi Nzule mntanam, washuya
amaXhosa emangaka
Dad: Hey hay basenza ooMbali
I am giggling this whole time. We
get off at the garage and get drinks
and also to freshen up. We're out of
time so me showing them(Well
mom because my dad knows his
way around here) around can only
happen tomorrow. Or we'll see the
outcome of today's meeting. We
first check in at the hotel that my
dad will be staying at, they put
their stuff and then we drive to my
I laws house. My father in law is
outside on the phone but he opens
for us the minute he glances.
Sokhana is around because his car
is parked outside, suddenly I feel
like throwing up. I can't wait till I
get out of this car and go to the
bathroom. I am also unsettled, I
feel like high school again. Like a
child that was caught doing
something wrong and now up for
detention.
Mama: Hey wakhile uDlamini
Dad: kakhulu zange idlale landoda.
Kofuneka nibe ngathi niyazala
Mbali, ayizogoqoza indlu ndikhona.
I roll my eyes at the baby topic. I
wasn't not ready for one honestly. I
needed to work on me first. So after
I stop the engine my dad steps out
first and we follow. My father in
law drops the phone and
immediately attends to us
Dl: Mkhozi (That's how they call
each other, yaqalwa nguTata ke)
Tata: Tyhini Dlamini wakhile apha
Dl: Uyabazi labantu besmame. Mrs
Damoyi
Mama: Molweni Tata ninjani?
Dl: Hay kuyaphileka impela.
Mambaliza
He teases. I smile greeting back. He
asks that we go inside, there's
Sokhana, his mom and Nomzamo is
bringing in a tray with intensiles
Dl: Masihlaleni phantsi ke. Tyhini
sdibana ngento ezi serious. Kudlala
ndfuna nize ketana kwelicala
Tata: Hay lisekhona ithuba bawo
We greet again then they ask
ngeMpilo and you know how
parents are. They catch up so I
excuse myself to the bathroom. I
literally throw up but it's not hectic.
I hear the door open, it's Sokhana
Him: Are you okay?
I get up and flush
Me: Ja I've been feeling weird
wethu kodwa ndryt
He looks at me for the longest time
before saying "Okay" by now I'm
done washing my hands and mouth.
We both leave the bathroom for the
lounge.
Mom in law: ukahle kodwa Koti?
I smile genuinely
Me: I'm okay Ma.
And the meeting begins. I obviously
said the same thing again. Sokhana
also said the same thing, that is
how it happened and why he kept
his child a secret.
Tata: Mbali ungumntana wam, my
one and only. Sokhana you're the
son I never had. I love you both
equally now. I understand your
frustration ntombam and why you
up and left but your husband is
sincere and he means it. Marriage
involves a lot of forgiving and
misunderstandings. Love doesn't
hurt but when you finally learn the
habits of someone overnight hurts
because awukhulanga naye.
Sokhana was wrong for keeping
umntana from you and I am sure he
has learnt from his mistake. Lies
are like cancer, they kill a good
thing slowly. This is your husband
Mbali don't make any rash
decisions out of anger. Marriage is
not like Umjolo. You don't up and
leave without talking things
through.

I feel betrayed. Out of everyone I

never expected my dad to betray me
like that, I watch them sit there
and conclude about my life as if I'm
not present. I feel no emotions
currently besides betrayal and
dissapointment. When they start
getting back to normal, that is
they're laughing and it's all jolly I
excuse myself feeling the urge to
puke again. I am even light headed.
Sokhana follows me as I get up and
in all honesty I wanna tell him to
fuck off but I don't wanna come off
as rude. I puke and rinse my mouth
using the mouth wash again. The
whole time he is standing next to
me and not saying a word. He
flushes the bathroom while I'm still
rinsing my mouth. I wash my
hands and step out. Still he is not
saying anything. I make my way to
the kitchen to help sis Nandi. I
briefly greet and ask where I can
help, she tells me she's done so I go
and lay the dining table and dinner
is served.
Around 9pm my dad asks that they
leave because he had an early
morning and my father in law has a
flight to catch. Sokhana and I walk
them out after they bid my in laws
goodbye. My mom is still taken
away by the beauty of this house
and I understand, I also leave in
awe everytime I am here. It's classy
and squicky clean. Also it's a big
house. I am also conflicted right
now, my dad always makes the best
decisions for me. He always puts
me first so I am a little shocked by
his judgment today. I even question
my doings, kept asking myself
whether I was overrating or not. At
that moment it felt like the walls
were closing in on me. I felt alone.
That they were choosing Sokhana's
side..
Eventually Sokhana and I drive
home and I am the first to step in
the house, he follows shortly. It's
really clean but my eyes land on the
two glasses of wine on the table. As
if reading my mind he says
"Ntokozo was here last night" I nod
making my way upstairs. I really
just wanna sleep rn but I need to
shower first. I find our bedding
changed, it smells fresh in here so
brother man really worked over the
weekend. He walks in wheeling my
laggage bag. I am happy that he
can Atleast read my mind because I
am in no mood to talk and he is
being a great person by letting me
be. He changes into his sleep wear
then wears his glasses walking out.
I assume he's going to the home
office. . I take my shower and when
I was done I took my e45 body
lotion and lotioned my body, put on
my perfume and my red night Rob.
I walk over to my closet and got my
black nylon head scarf and Socks
walks in carrying a glass of water.
He mentioned something about a
headache I remember, after
watching him walk over to the
medical bin. I open the bed covers
then get in bed. He follows me
shortly then says...
Sokhana: I will make things right
Mbali
I lay on my side
Me: And your child? (I ask)
Him: I don't know. I-
Me: if he is your child you should be
there for him. It's your
responsibility. Goodnight
He huffs and leaves the bed for a
few minutes. When he comes back I
am already drifting to sleep I can
barely even keep my eyes open. He
puts his arm on my waist then
whispers "I love you"....
The following morning I wake up to
Soks whispering.
Him: Babe uzobalate
I furrow my eyebrows feeling like I
need more sleep. I can't believe it's
morning already. Yho ha.a I decide
then and there that andizi
Me: I'm calling In sick today
I say tossing to sleep on my
stomach again
Him: Are you still not feeling well??
He puts the palm of his hand on my
forehead
Me: Ha.a I just wanna work from
home and check on the shops.
Naledi is slacking and Peter is
taking forever Nala honeymoon
yakhe.
Naledi worked as my temporary
manager but sales were dropping
and this was stressing me out. Also
she got orders wrong at times.
Him: did you call him again??
Me: Ewe he'll be back by Friday
He mumbles "Mhhm" "I'll come
back early" ke
Me: You have your appointment
remember
That's one of the things we spoke
about last night. I am still deep in
sleep though hence I am not giving
him the silent treatment. I usually
do that to dismiss talking further.
Him: Oh yhea that!
I Get up and give him the "Yes
that!" look
"Andizolibala. But if you need
anything please text me"
I nod yawning. I really feel
exhausted. I leave the bed because
of my bladder that needs to be
emptied. I briefly text Ano "I'm
calling in sick today. Please
reschedule all my meetings for the
next two days. I'll be working from
home. Oh and call if it's urgent"
I doze off again but I remember him
kissing my neck "Goodbye".
I wake up again around 10am and I
reach for my phone. My mom is
asking my whereabouts because
yena noMamazala are going for a
spa treatment. I toss the phone
aside and run to the bathroom to
puke but I am already too late, I
puked on the floor. I brush my teeth
and decide to take a shower. I undo
my hair knots that I did the
previous day then prepare to go and
entertain my dear mother. It's a
very hot day today. I start brushing
my teeth and I can't help but hear
the vacuum cleaner downstairs.
Ndinentloni who sleeps till 10! I am
still staring at the mirror when I
realize I am breaking out again. I
groan frustrated.
I hate pimples so much because
growing up I had acne at 16. I
would do hairstyles that hid my
forehead because they were my
biggest insecurity until I found a
dermatologist. I started feeling
confident again when I was 19,
that's when my skin started
clearing up. I make a mental note
to get a facial before things get out
of control. I have the worst skin, my
body and face tell when I am happy,
stressed or sad. I breakout when
stressed and I lose weight instantly.
Right now I am a side 36 and it's
my best weight I hope to keep it
here. I grew up a thick child but
growing up brought me shape. I'm
your typical, no boobs, flat stomach
and big belows. I got my big legs
from my dad's side and my curves
from my mom. My whole dad's side
of ten family is light skinned and I
took their complexion, my mom is
chocolate skinned.
I put on my brown summer hat
then grab my hand bag and car
keys walking out. I hope to feel
better after this appointment ke.
But I already feel better. I hate my
heart and how I easily forgive and
forget.
I find MaVee wiping the TV stand.
Me: Mamam ndisayodibana no
Mama wam westhathu
Shhe turns smiling
Her: Umtshel'ukuthi avakashe
phela. Side leskhathi
I chuckle knowing my mom will
definitely take her up on her offer.
Me: I'll tell her.
I drive out and I play Cardi B's
album feeling myself. Arg everyone
feels like the queen when they play
rap album, female rappers are bad
bads. Anyway I pick up my mom
who's dressed in a white summer
dress, brown sandals and rocking
her cute bob
Her: Hay besendithi awuzi sisi.
Sendizokwenza aba Uber benu
because uNaShange is already on
her way there
Me: Hay une drama mfazi
We get a massage for an hour then
all get facials. My mom and mom In
law decide on manicure and I get a
pedi.
After that we decide to go get
something to eat, we settle for a
steak house. When we get there the
two ladies order two bottles of red
wine so I settle for lemonade.
They're getting along like house on
fire. I am seeing a side I have never
seen on Sokhana's mom. She's very
funny, care free and a sweetheart. I
always knew she's a nice person but
today I realize that she's really laid
back. They're talking about church,
their husband's and life in general.
They're like old friends. I am the
photographer and the sober one.
Things become awkward when they
start talking about their love lives.
My mom has always been open
about it I am not surprised but not
my mom in law bro.
Sokhana saves me when they ask
me the most awkward question.
Asking about what attracted me to
Sokhana, yho I'm speechless. By
now they managed to convince me
to get a glass of gin and tonic.
I get up and dissappear
Me: Hey
Him: Hi baby I'm on my way home
sewusendlini?
Me: No I'm still having dinner with
OoMama. Andisaxakwe they're lit
(We had been talking on Whatsapp
earlier and I mentioned my plans
for the day)
He laughs and asks "what??"
Me: Thank God you called they're
asking about my sex life
Him: no ways
Me: Yes ways.
Him: Hayke mabagoduke.
Soks and I talk some more then
hang up. I share some of the
pictures from today on my social
media. My mom has been updating
her WA statuses ndibhorekile.
Anyway... It's past time for me and
Dad called asking the wife's
whereabouts. After dropping my
mom at the hotel who's a mess. Not
literally though bc she is used to
this. Bayaphapha Abam abazali.
They're fun and very openly
affectionate. And I like that.
So for the next two weeks Sokhana
is really trying. He's attending
Therapy every Monday and
Thursday, we hardly argue and he
has changed , he is the Sokhana I
met when I was still a student. Well
Sokhana is always a gentleman
except when something irks him
the wrong way then he takes it out
on me. But for the past 2 weeks he
calmly argues me. At first I was
back with him for the sake of
whatever but I'd be lying if I said I
didn't love him. We've been driving
together to work and back and we
both stay up when one needs help
with work.
Today we are meeting his child
Enzo, that's the child's name.
MaVee and Pearl made me realize
that If I wanted things to work
between him and I I'd have to
accept his child and love him or I'd
push him to Mandisa's arms. At
first I rubished the thought but him
and I started having the baby topic
simamele uMetro fm one morning. I
saw how intrigued he was and I
didn't wanna deny him the chance
of knowing his daughter I had been
angry for too long.... Monday to
Friday we were both at the office,
Saturdays I work at my shops or
meet up with my friends and
Sundays we go to church and lunch
with our brothers. It is at this time
that we pray together the most,
Sokhana didn't pray, he did it when
I forced him. But now he even
reminds me before bedtime.
Yesterday after work we went gift
shopping because as always we
don't like going to a place empty
handed. We settled for a tea set and
crawling doll.
Him: Do you think she'll like it
I smile genuinely. He's really cute
when nervous
Him: I hope I don't say anything
wrong. Or drop her. I hope she likes
me
Me: Relax, she'll like you. You're
amazing
He huffs looking at the doll. We get
off the car and Mandisa is already
downstairs to let us in. She signs us
in. She's renting an apartment.
Socks: Hey
I don't know whether I was seeing
things or girly was in a bad mood.
She muttered "HI" turning on her
heels and she swayed her hip right
to left. We followed suit, at this
point Noone is saying anything to
anyone. She was literally dragging
her feet and chewing her
bubblegum for everyone to notice.
She stayed on the second floor, she
opened the door and we followed
suite again, my eyes traveled
around I don't know why. It's a
habit I guess..
Her: You may take a seat
Sokhana let me sit first then he
took the seat next to mine of the
two people seater couch. I suddenly
feel anxious I don't know why.
Mandisa: this is a surprise. I didn't
know you'll have company
Socks: She's my wife s-
Mandisa: I know you cheated on me
with her remember??
She blarts out. Oh well what do we
have here. Seems like someone will
be a problem I think.
Me: Now is really not the time
I manage to say. But sis already
has something to say because she
replies
Mandisa: So when is the time sis?
Huh. Enlighten me
Socks: Mandisa let's not make this
about you, me or Mbali. This is
about our daughter
By the sound of his voice he is
irritated. Sokhana might be nice
but he looses it very quickly.
Mandisa: heeeh seyinguMy
daughter manje when 2 months
back you went Mia when I told you
about her
Socks: Because you fucken hid her
away from me
I can see energies are exchanged by
now and this is unnecessary. These
two have unfinished business, well
sis does because Socks was done,
well I think let me not be forward.
Men are embarrassing you'd think
you know someone kanti.. . I hold
his arm to calm him down, he
glances at me then at my hand and
back to my face twitching his jaw. I
shake my head
Him: Mandisa can we just see Enzo?
Please
She rolls her eyes "Enzo" she calls
out
I hear footsteps and within seconds
walks in a beautiful baby girl with
the most gorgeous smile. I am
immediately taken away by her
beauty, she has her dad's eyebrows
and hair. I can't tell the energy in
the room, it's suddenly
overwhelming. My heart is beating
out of my chest as if I am meeting
my daughter. When she starts
talking I realize she also has a
dimple.
Mandisa: I want you to meet
someone baby
Enzo: Oh??
Mandisa takes Enzo and puts her
on her hip
"You remember asking me why
Makhulu is not your daddy??" Enzo
looks confused but nods, "This is
your daddy baby" she adds on
Socks opens his arms for a hug and
Enzo takes the bait, she looks like
one of those kids with contagious
energy and fun to babysit. She's not
fussy and she is really a bundle of
joy. She's been smiling since she
walked in the room. Socks is
hugging onto her like his life
depends on it, he brushes her back
saying
Socks: I am so sorry I haven't been
there to witness every milestone of
your life sthandwa Sami.
He means every word because I am
carefully looking at him. He is
genuinely happy. I suddenly feel
jealous, Mandisa just gave the love
of my life every reason to be in her
life, something I hadn't given him
at the time. Suddenly I am not so
sure about my decision to accept
Enzo and stay with Soks. I felt him
slip away a bit.. I am back to the
same feeling I felt when I heard he
had a child.
I sit back and watch Sokhana play
happy family with his daughter and
baby momma. Can't say I'm
surprised though, I expected this. I
even regret agreeing to tag along, I
should've thought it through but
then again I am somehow
comforted by the quarrel that
happened a few minutes ago.
Mandisa offers us something to
drink but I don't trust anything she
touches sorry. I am relieved when
Sokhana also declines the coffee
offer. I am now aunti Mbali and
they try to include me in their
family time. Mandisa cuts our visit
short when she mentions that her
mom is fetching Enzo for the
weekend. Although Soks seems a
bit dissapointed I am relieved to
finally get out of there. I need to
breath and I need time to digest
everything. Soks and I say our
goodbyes and he promises that we
will visit soon, I mentally reply
"Andizi". I was not putting myself
in that position again until I was
matured and emotionally ready for
this because me saying never again
would be me playing myself. Enzo
was gonna be in our lives for
forever . Whe he drives us home I
am mesmarised by how he's talking
about Enzo. I feel jealous, jealous of
a 2 year old. Fuck Mbali you're
selfish I think again
Him: Babe you've been awfully
quiet. Is this about Mandisa and I?
He asks, I quickly snap back. I had
been thinking about it
Ne: No of cause not
I lie
Him: Then what is wrong. I can tell
something is not right
He nudges my thigh as if telling me
to be honest
Me: It's silly man
He smiles then puts the strand of
hair was on my face at the back of
my ear
Him: Then share with me
I sigh looking straight into his eyes.
I wanna say something but I don't
wanna piss him off or seem selfish.
I am currently playing with my
fingers rn. I don't wanna spoil his
good mood because I saw how
happy he was back in there. This
was the happy I hadn't seen in a
long time..
Me: It's ju-..(I breath) I don't think I
am ready to accept Enzo. (there's
awkward silence for 2 seconds as I
take a break) The first time my
eyes landed on her I was taken
away by her beauty and how she
looked a bit like you. She has your
features and any fool can tell that
she is yours. Undive kakhle I am
not trying to be selfish here but.. I
just realized that me and you will
never share the feeling of
welcoming our first child on earth
together. I'm overwhelmed by
everything and I know I pushed for
you to be here today
Him: mbali You should never feel
like your feelings are unvalid.
Sikhulumile savumela ukuthi
skhuluma ngawo onke amaFeelings
esinawo Mina nawe. Secondly
you're justified to feel the way
you're feeling right now but I want
you to listen to me. No one will ever
take your place in my heart not
even Enzo. I might be related to
Enzo by blood but I am because you
are. I am sorry you feel this way
and again it's partly my fault. I
promise to always make you feel
special baby. You have nothing to
worry about
( I am surprised he did not
overreact or mis understand me,
well the right word is glad. I really
didn't wanna come off as insensitive
and selfish. He nudges my cheeks,
baby kisses me then hugs me
grabbed my bum)
Me: Hayi
I hit my chest playfully
Him: Xolo but this dress is
tempting. I think I'm hard
We both look at his pants and yep
he is
Me: You're a oervet
Him: I'm always for you. Now let's
go get my baby her new pants
He sits comfortably before driving
us to the mall. . He's driving us to
the mall, holds my hand here and
there. I am actually happy we
cleared the air because I feel as
though a heavy weight has been
lifted off my shoulders. We park the
car at the mall then start off at
Zara. I am blown away by their new
pants and shirts. After Zara we go
to Edgar's then cotton on. When
hunger kicks in for the billionth
time today we go to woolwroths and
get a few things and some
smoothies. I wait in the car because
I am super tired and he left for
clicks. He comes back with a small
plastic bag but he won't show me
what's there. I decide to let him be
because I'll find out anyway..
When we get home he avoids
talking about the plastic again and
I decide let me let him be. I hate
cooking shame and he knows this
so I watch him make us chicken
shwarmas and fries whilst I'm
sipping on Savanna, my favorite
indoor drink. When you're adulting
enyinto you must always have
alcohol somewhere. He serves us
the Sharma and chips when I'm on
my third savanna. He is having
cranberry juice because he plans to
work later on. He suggests we
watch a movie because Ne weather
iyavuma so I switch on the heater,
grab a fleece and we settle on the
couch, his head on my lap. The
weather is a bit cold now. Half way
through the movie he comments
Him: Heeh ye baby theni ngathi
periods have left the chat nje la
kuwena
Me: It's probably my hormones
I say sipping on my Sav
Him: but explain the weight gain
He suddenly looks up to my face
Me: I am probably happy
Him: Hee probably unjani na
lomfazi
Me: you know what I mean. I am
not pregnant.. Yet
Him: then I cum low fat surely
Me: Stop it
Him: obviously
Me: Do you think we'd make good
parents?
I say joking. Honest Soks and I
were still childish I think. Well mna.
I loved attention from this man and
I wasn't ready to share it with
anyone and bringing a baby to the
equation would be disaster
especially considering how things
were between us. We were still
working on us
Him: earlier you said I will
Me: Yes but I am not sure about me.
I am scared I might be a bad
mother
Him: Never. Your heart is a gem.
I absent mindedly said " Rha
semnandi nantsi into"
Looking at the logo
Him: You just love alcohol
Me: You did not lie!
Him: Hebanna!
And we joked around.
Him: I need a new car
Me: I knew you'd say this. All those
"This car is fucking big" comments.
I knew it
Him: Hayi babe it's a big caar, I
need something smaller
Me: hay yi grocery yemoto.
Decided?
Him: It'll be a surprise
Me: hehake is this my or your car
Him: Mine but you love driving my
cars
Me: Eshe
I suddenly crave ice cream so I get
up and walk to the kitchen to get it.
I cut two slices of Belgium cake
that we got earlier then scoop
blueberry cheese cake ice cream in
the bowls. I put everything on the
tray.
Him: Eyy ubaba zange adlale lana
Me: you won!
He spanks my bum when I put the
tray on the table. We have the
desert then I lay on his chest. He
puts his hands in the open space in
my dress, playing with my boobs.
Me : Mhhm.na
Ya'll know that feeling when you
haven't been touched for a very long
time and you've had a few bevs??
That exact feeling. Okay maybe not
for long but if you're a married
couple or you stay with your
partner you'll know that 3 days is a
lot. I hadn't been intimate for about
3 weeks now. Ngathi I could strip
there and then and have him in me.
Him: ngenzeni? Haw Ngoba bamba
nje umkami sengonile
Me: You're turning me on
Him: lucky you you have a man
who's always hard for you
He put my nipples inbetween his
finger, gently brushing and
squeezing them. They're hard
already and my clit is throbbing. I
want him so bad. He kisses my
head, going down my collarbone
and stays on my neck. He's
breathing heavily and he keeps
nudging on my neck and I know he
probably wants to leave a mark. I
found myself turning and I sat on
his lap then we started kissing. His
hand on my waist and mine on his
neck. He's groaning in my mouth
because my vagina is attached to
his manhood and I am dry humping
him. I am soaking wet by every
second that his hands touch my
body. They travel to my thigh and
one goes under my dress.
Him: I missed you
I mumble me too but he stops mid
way and looks at me. The bitch in
me opens my legs to give him access.
He takes his time but when I feel
his hand make contact with my
baby I freeze and bit my bottom lip.
He rubs on top of my baby his lip
inbetween his teeth.
Him: You're such a horny freak
He says laughing. I smile taking his
lips back to mine. He rubs his
finger up and down before he
moving my panty to the side. I felt
his finger enter my pussy hole and I
finally caught my breath. He
mutters "Shit" because I was wet.
He was inserting it in and out
dancing the rhythm of our kissing.
His mouth leaving traces of love on
my neck and collar bone I can
barely keep my eyes open. He took
off my dress and I was left with my
wet panty on. He's immediately
taken away when he realizes I don't
have a bra on and my boobs are
pointed at him, his weakness. He
softly mutters another fuck before
kissing them then sucked on one
while his finger was fingering my
pussy. I was heavily breathing by
now and I wanted him in me. The
room was filled with sound of my
wet pussy everytime he inserted his
finger and our breathing. His waist
is attached to mine and the sound
of his panting is turning me on. My
clit was throbbing. "Fuck you're so
wet baby again" he says. I think I
came but I don't know..
He roughly puts me on the couch
and I watch him take off his Tshirt
and I'll never forget the look he had
on his face when he unbuckled his
pants. It was the "I want you so
bad" look. I was licking my lips
absent mindedly
Him: cha musukungbheka kanjalo
Me: Haibo njani
I said embarrased
Him: Like you will eat me up.
I giggle teasing. He likes it when I
take control although he never let's
me. He'll let me suck his dick for 3
minutes but I always end up
laughing at how pathetic he looks
so he stops me. Also I am not as
adventurous as he is, he is probably
shocked that I am even saying this,
well this happens when I drink a
glass or two. But ya'll know sex
with a Lil liquor in your body is top
2 and not 2. Okay maybe 2 is fine
because sex with the live of your
life is top 1 everyday.
Me: Maybe I will
I get up and push him against the
couch. I am super horny right now
and I'll laugh at my drunk ass
after.
Him: Okay ma'am
I took off my panty and got on top
of his lap. I gently stroke his dick
and he groans. Knowing Soks he'll
only fuck me two million years later.
He'll foreplay me till I die then sex
me to sleep. Right now I just want
him in me. I position and calculate
how I'm gonna do this. I can't risk
taking him all in because I might
burst my insides motase because
the guy is huge. Before I can even
sit properly he inserts his dick and
pulls me down. I scream
"Fuckkkkkk baby" rolling my
eyeballs he takes my lips into his
and mumbles 'xolo' already moving
under me, I think he tore me inside
there's no way. He spanks my bum
as though telling me to get on with
it. I start moving at a slow pace. He
follows my lead, me bouncing on his
dick. His hands settle on my bum
and mine on my boobs and down to
my clit. He sucks on my titt and I
lay back a little still moving on top
of him. He's groaning and that's
motivation for me. I am also
enjoying myself. But he's too big so
I gently lay on his chest, my arms
on either side of the couch on top of
him then start twerking on his dick.
The sound of my bum everytime it
makes contact with his skin is
turning him on. I can feel my juices
build up and I said "I'm gonna cum
baby",I chase my orgasm and he's
helping me. He's just doing it right.
He gently grabs my bum and within
a split second he is on top of me. I
give him access so he gets
inbetween my begs and I can feel
his dick rub against my vagina. He
kisses my lips and I moan. He
gently inserts the tip of his dick and
I feel my eyeballs roll again. He
inserts his hard dickk in me and I
release a breath that I seem to have
been holding in
Me: Fuckk
He groans "You're so warm baby"
He thrusts in and out in a gentle
pace. His hands are on mine and
pinned at the top of my head. I pin
my legs on his waist and as if
giving him permission he increases
his pace now letting go of my
hands.
Me: Sokssss
He groans back "baby?" I am
running my hands from my boobs
and everywhere on the couch I am
panting. He lifts one of my legs and
he's getting full access now. I
scream "Fuck baby.. Ha.ana Soksy"
His one hand finds my clit and he
presses there. I can feel my eyeballs
turn back AGAIN! I find him
looking at me with an
unexplainable look when I
accidentally open them.
Him: Fuck I missed you!
Sunday I woke up first, took a
glance at the guy next to me. He
was fast asleep but he should be
tired because by the time I passed
out he was still working and he
really did a number on me. My
vagina even hurts. When I try to
shift position he holds on for dear
life. I reach for my phone and
realize it's still 6am so I go back to
sleep. "Mrs Dlamini"
I hear. I opened my eyes and I was
met by the love of my life standing
with a tray of food. Arg what a gem
Me : Heyy
I say
Him: you sound tired
Me: Because you did a number on
me
He laughs putting the tray on my
bed side. I sit on my bum stretching
and yawning.
Him: My kiss
Me: Morning breath baby. Fuck
ndinentloko
Him: It's a hangover and what did I
say about my morning kiss?
"Even with morning breath" we
both say.
Him: Good student!
He smiles. Arg he's been saying this
for 2 years now I obviously know
the line.
I lean forward and give him a peck.
He puts the tray on my lap
Me: Ah baby let me rinse my mouth
first
He lets me, I use the mouthwash
and empty my bladder. My person
made toasted bread, a sliced avo,
omlette, bacon strips and beans. Oh
and a cup of tea. He feeds me and I
am wondering what he wants. He is
usually nice when he wants
something. Also I don't fully trust
this act because of the recent
incidents.. Usually he is too nice
then changes over time. But I'll
enjoy the ride
We get ready for church. I take out
my black pleated knee high dress,
and dress up. I lay my white blazer
on the bed then start on my make
up. When Soks comes out of the
shower I am applying nude
eyeshadow then I prime my face.
Today I am on time because when
he finishes I am also done with my
make up. I put on my 12" wig and
blazer then he helps with my white
stilletoe. He is wearing black formal
pants, brown turtle neck and brown
monk shoes and his brownish coat
blazer. Arg I admire mentally. But I
can't shake the smell of his cologne.
It's unpleasant. We have enough
time so he plays camera man and I
return the favor because I married
a social media lover. I knew my
pictures would make it to his
Twitter and Instagram before I
even take them there. It's his brand
to overtake me. Shame Sokhana
loves social media let me just put it
like that. We'll be cuddling on the
couch next thing I'm up there. I'm
mad at him and ignoring him next
thing it's there and my mad face.
People find it cute I do too but
sometimes it's too much.
Anyway he drives us to church, it's
a 3 hour service because by 1 we're
driving back home. Sibonga and
Pearl are at Pearl's mothers house
in Umlazi so it gave us an excuse to
skip the Sunday dinner. I don't feel
like seeing anyway.
Me: Baby no ways. Your cologne!
I say opening the window wider
Him: I theni??
Me:It's just different today
He looks at me smiling the foward
Him: I'll change it
I hope I didn't hurt him though
because he loves this cologne. I am
just surprised at how he suddenly
takes everything with no offense..
When we get home I quickly change
to my Woolworth purple sleepers
then start making lunch, I make
him a rib burger and chips. I have a
smoothie . Around 3pm He helps
me peel what's necessary for dinner.
Well just potatoes, carrots,
mushrooms and beetroot. I do the
cooking.
Him: Baby ngomso Siya kugqirha
ke
I look at him and he is resting his
face on his hand supported on his
arms. He has the biggest smile
Me: you won't drop this kewena. I
am not pregnant don't get my hopes
up for nothing
Him: So you want to be a mother?
I shrug putting the knife down.
Suddenly I have an interest. I don't
know honestly.
Me: You know I do but not now
Him: Then you have nothing to
worry about. I'm just worried about
your caffeine intake
Me: Okay fine
He then goes back to watching his
sports highlights. Being a mother
means I am responsible for
someone's life. I'll be their go to
person and I always have be happy
because their happiness depends on
me. I won't lie raising a child is
frightening. You could do it right
but still raise an unhappy child. It's
scary dude
I had just put the toffee pudding in
the oven when my phone rang. I
quickly took off my baking gloves
then answered upon realizing it's
an unsaved number.
Me: Hello
"Mbali Ndim uNofolile wethu
ntombi"
Nof... It's my dad's sister. I am
surprised because she never calls
me we only talk at family
gatherings. Either way I am not
really close to my dad's family. I am
only close to my granny and her
last born Zodwa. And we're close
because she always goes the extra
mile to make sure I am okay. She's
really trying honestly. Also she's
not really close to her family too,
they're toxic apparently so she is
living her life in East London, and
she's happy.
Me: hey Dabs
Her: unjani torho? (Before I can
even reply, she adds) USanelisiwe u
stranded apho ebezofuna
umsebenzi. Ndicela undinccede
mntaka bhuti
I roll my eyes because I should have
known.
Me: Yho dabs uphi? I'm at home
now but I'll make a plan
Her: I will tell her to send you her
location on whatsapp sure ke sisi
And just like that she drops the call.
I laugh in disbelief dialing my
moms number, hay I could not
believe it.
"Babygirl" she answers in great
spirit.
Me: Heee guess who just called?
your sister inlaw
Her: Uwoah lo unezitho
eziyimbombozi??
I chuckle because she loathes her,
my aunt doesn't have manners.
She's always in everyone's
business and her kids lack respect
in her eyes they are never wrong.
They back chat abantu abadala and
they have no direction really in life.
She has 3 kids, all girls. Sanelisiwe
is the second born (24) the last
time we spoke she had a boyfriend
in Alwal North and she was happy
there with him.
Me: Oh haike wena ewe. So uSane
is stranded in Durban. And I have
to go fetch her and I'm assuming I
have to accommodate her too
because that's where it's going. You
know ba njani ke ababantu but I
couldn't say no
Mama: Zange wazithanda ke
uNofolile shame. Ubengathi
uyatixa kwakho and she must know
it's not for long.
Me: Oh Mama I'm sure they
changed
(They used to steal)
Her: Gade nendoda yakho.
Bekhohlakele gqith abantwana
baka Nofolile
I laugh at my moms exaggeration.
She's not impressed. I find Soks
walking downstairs, he is glued on
his phone and he's changed to
shorts and a Tshirt now
Me: Babe
He opens his arm and snakes me
under for a hug
Him: Mhm??
Me: do you remember my dad's
sister lo wayekucela imali? ( that's
the only way I can think of
describing her. She embarrassed
me shame. Asked Soks for money
on our lobola negotiations day. My
mom was furious when we heard,
BUT Soks had already given it to
her, a R1000 engamazi nomazi) she
just called uthi Sanelisiwe her
second born is stuck at the Station
caba she was here to meet someone
who's ignoring her calls now. She
needs a place to sleep uze kwi
interview
He looks at me furrowing his
eyebrows
Then let's me free
Me: It's just for two nights max. I'm
sure she'll leave
Soks doesn't like his family here
because he loves privacy and he
believes they should come for the
day and leave
Him: So uyomthatha kengk?
"Yep" (I say taking off the apron)
Me: please watch the oven for me
torho kungatshhi.
Him: Eshe. Okay
I throw the apron at him, grab my
keys and off I go.
It's not long till I get to the station,
I look around but I fail ndaske
ndaxakwa noba I probably don't
know her. I went and parked next
to the bus that was taking in people,
went on my Whatsapp and dialed
her number that she had sent the
location on...
Her: Hello Mbali
Me: Hey I'm driving the white
Mercedes"
Her: The one with Mbali number
plate?
Me: Ewe
Arg this wasn't rocket science. She's
waiting for Mbali so the Mbali
registration was here haybo.
Anyway I watch her drag her
suitcase, she looks bigger she's
gained weight and she's thickums.
She had braids on, wearing maroon
thighs, a white shirt and sandals. I
wouldn't have seen her Ngoba she
was sitting in one of the shelters. I
step out to help
Me: Hey mntase
Her: Hey yhuu awsemhle. I last
saw you ngomtshato kaloku
We both opened our arms and
shared a hug
Me: bekukdala nyani. Jonga
masiyfake apha
I open the back seat door and we
put the suit case, it's quiet big.
Me: Heeh hay ufake iwardrope
yonke soze uve
I say joking
Her: Kaloku uhambo alunampumlo
ntombi
We close the door then she takes
the front passenger seat and I the
drivers seat. We put our seat belts
on and I start driving us home
Me: Soo uzosebenza Ngapha?
Her: Something like that, ndine
interview ngomso. I was suppose to
stay over at a friend's qah caba her
man's is being dramatic
Me: oh shame sorry.
Her: Heeeh you look different.
UnguMfazi nyani
I laugh taking a glance at her then
back to the road
Me: Njani??
I laugh taking a glance at her then
back to the road
Me: Njani??
Her: unesdima and you're glowing.
Me: Thank you. Konwabekile
We continue chit chatting then we
get home. Soks is watching TV
having a glass of wine and biltong.
His feet on my the table even
Me: Haybo babe sincedise
I say struggling to wheel this big
bag. Guy takes a glance then bites
his biltong. I put the bag. He wears
a smile getting up
Me: NguSanelisiwe kelo baby.
Mntase meet Sokhana. You know
him ke
Her: Hay ndambonela kude kaloku.
Hi bhuti
Sokhana: Hey Sane. Unjani sesi?
You must be tired
He gets up and hugs her briefly
Her: Dinwe nyani. Ndryt wena?
Socks: Hay Siyaphila .
He grabs the bag and wheels it
down the passage..
Me: Mntase I'll dish up soon neh.
Masambe do you need anything to
drink?
Her: Ngase ndisele amanzi
abandayo
She follows me and I show her
around the kitchen, while she's
helping herself I quickly dish up. I
put everything on the dining table
including glasses and desert
We dine over a light conversation.
Sane has an interview at 8 so I'll be
dropping her off because it's closer
to where I work. Soks washes the
dishes while I show Sane the
bathroom and the room she'll be
sleeping in.
She must be really tired shame.
I go back to the kitchen to help
Soks with the dishes, he's almost
done packing them in the
dishwasher so I help with clearing
up the table. I left him switching off
the lights and checking outside.
Hee finally joined me bland I was
already wearing my night Rob and
head scarf. I was lying on my back
in bed, going through my phone
when he walked in
Me: Hee you took your time
Him: I forgot to send an email
mami
He takes off his clothes and gets in
on his side. He's still sitting on his
lap, I immediately lay my head on
his lap and I concentrate on my
Twitter account,
Him: Babe
I mumble
Me: Mhm??
He touches my cheek
Him: Ngibheke phela
I turn and take a look.
Me: What??
Him: And?
Me: And what??
Him: I got these yesterday (He
opens his side drawer and comes
out three pregnancy tests. I feel my
insides turn) . I'll stop annoying you
if you take them

Me: Morning Ano

I say walking past reception desk.
Ano: Boss lady good morning.
Awusemhle
Me: Thank you
Today I feel good. I don't know
whether it's because it's my favorite
day of the week or because of the
newly found news of something
growing inside of me. Or because
my husband is treating me like a 90
year old. Soks insisted that we
share a shower and he made me
breakfast in bed again. He was
already calling me Mama and I
don't know it just does things to me.
He packed me a fruit salad because
from now on he wants me to eat
every chance I get I swear if it were
up to him. I'd stop working already.
We have decided to not let anyone
know just as yet also later on we
have a doctors appointment.
There's a fresh pot of flowers and a
"Goodmorning" card just like every
Monday morning. I must have been
lost in my thoughts because I only
snapped back when Ano walked in
with a coffee pot and two fresh
croissants. I am seated on my
chair
Her: Are you okay??
Me: Jhea I was just thinking.
Her: Well here you go.
She puts the cup and pot on my
table. I had read somewhere that
coffee or caffeine was not good for
unborn babies. Argg listen to me,
I'm not even sure about this
pregnancy yet but I am making
changes in my life. My heart breaks
at the thought that pregnancy tests
lie sometimes. I wouldn't be okay. I
was already excited about having a
baby
Me: Arg I think I've been taking a
lot of caffeine lately. Can we please
make it tea now. Until I feel better
She obliges immediately taking the
coffee pot and she walked out. In 2
minutes she was back and with a
fresh tea pot
Her: There. Fresh pot
Me: Thank you sweety. How is my
day looking?
I take a sip of my rooibos after
stiring the honey and lemon in.
Her: Sure no problem. You have a
coffee slash tea( she laughs) date
with Mrs Mbambo at 12. The HR
department has started looking for
a new delivery guy so they'll start
with interviews sometime this week.
oh and they have found potential
applicants for the photographer
vacant post.
Me: Great. Oh I have a doctors
appointment at 3 so please clear up
anything after that
Her: Okay no problem
Me: That will be all thanks
She turns on her heel and walks
out.
I devour the cup going through my
Twitter account. I'm a hit early
because I didn't want Sane to be
late for her interview. "Woke up the
happiest man alive. I really won
here" I read. Sokhana and I drove
out at the same time and caba
when we were at the robots he took
a picture of me driving, I didn't
even see that. I look so serious, I
hate him already. I go through the
comments and it's compliments
about how great he is at
husbanding and how cute I look
I put my phone away and start
checking my emails.
Buried in my work I am disturbed
by an incoming call, I take it and
realize it's a whatsapp call from
Sane.
Me: HI Mntase
Her: Hey Mbali I am done here but
I don't know how to get home
Me : Jonga neh, send me your exact
location, I'll get you an Uber to take
you home. Uzofika esekhona
uMam'Vilakazi she leaves around 4
Her: Okay enkosi
I hang up then immediately log in
on my Uber app. I send her the
drivers name and car model
(screens hot) then she tells me she's
in the car. I made the payment on
card.
Zipho walks in my office
Her: I swear to God I don't have
friends anymore
I laugh at how dramatic she is
Me: Haibo sisi
Her:Campus is sooo lonely dude.
Those new girlie's are boring haibo
Me : It's just for this year njena
She throws herself on the chair
opposite me
Her: Still. Anyway... Please make
time for me in your weekends
Me: oh mntase you know I always
have time for you
Her: Next weekend is your birthday
and we are painting the town red!!
Me: What? I didn't even know!
Her: Sis you're only 22
subayisgogwana la
Me: Okay sorry Ndim owrongo. I
have a meeting at 12 then we can
have lunch, on me
Her: Thank you Mrs. Anyway what
are you working on here.
She's looking at my laptop
Me: Arg stupid boring proposals
Her: I always wonder. How your life
love would've turned out if I didn't
force you to go to that party
ngalamini
Me: I will forever be indebted to you
dude. Yho what a man
Her: bruuu. Soks is head over heels.
I saw his tweet this morning
Me : He annoys me.
Her: someone suggested a YouTube
channel
Me: Ah, No!
Her: It would be interesting hey
Me: No andizi. Oh invite Zintle too.
I miss ya'll
Her: Let me text her.
We converse some more. I try and
get some work done though and she
is busy with her book. We are both
disturbed by my phone ringing. I
smile upon realizing it's my favorite
person
Me: Hey
Him: Hey Mama. Sewdlile?
Me: It's just after 11 baby
Him: I packed that snack for 11.
Eat something, don't starve my
baby
Me: Okay fine daddy
Him: That's right. I miss you
Me: I'm with Zipho stop
Him: So?? Zipho needs to get a man
Me: You're mean
Him: Haska
Me: Baby so thetha later.
Him: Mhhm. K don't forget I'll come
pick you up at 3
Me: Let's meet kwa Gqirha. I have
a lunch date with Zipho then I'll go
to the shop
Him:Okay, sharp
Me: Mncwa
Zipho: you're happy dude
Me: I am friend
Her: And I'm here for this!
Me: arg stop
Her: Hay ngiserious oe, you've
changed. You're matured and
you've changed in a beautiful way.
Sokhana won!
Me: definitely!!
At half 11 we drive to the
restaurant where I'll meet Mrs
Mbambo. She's not here yet but it's
a few minutes to 12. Zipho gets
herself a table and Mrs Mbambo
walks in looking like a dream as
always. Zipho orders herself
champagne while I meet up with
Mrs Mbambo. Zintle walks in
shortly wearing the shortest dress
in the room. She's showing off her
gorgeous legs and her long curly
wig.
Mrs Mbambo is a fashion designer
and she has a show coming up to
showcase her new fashion line.
She's just got a collaboration with
YDE. She's your gorgeous Venda
born but Zulu speaking woman. She
grew up in KZN with her mother's
side of the family and married this
side. I learn that we will have a
meeting on Wednesday with her
team and brainstorm for the show.
Mrs Mbambo that I call Lufuno
only likes me because our
husband's are in the same line of
work and she's also into fashion
just like myself. Another reason
maybe that we're both young, she's
24.
Her: We should go out together
sometime. I wanna go wine tasting.
Or for sushi. I don't really have
friends this side
Me: Right?? I'll see you on
Wednesday neh??
We hug goodbye and they leave.
The two idiots I call friends are
having champagne and sushi.
Zintle: You looked so serious chomi.
Wow
Zipho: Yho I couldn't recognize you.
Who was that mnge??
Me: Mrs Mbambo
Zintle: She's gorgeous omg
Me: Shame and she wants to take
me out
Zipho: Invite her to your birthday.
Oh and she must understand you
already have your hoes
Me: Ofcause! Arg I don't know what
I wanna do for my birthday yaz
Zipho: arg and Cubana is boring
manje oe.
Me: Dude. I'm over going out
Zintle: Since when?? Eshe
Me: I don't know man
Zipho offers me champagne glass
and I decline.
Zipho: hawu sesi
Me: I have a doctors appointment
sbhanxa
Zintle: Mhhhm. I met a new man
bafetsu
Me: Phi chomi I saw the whatsapp
text on the group qah ke Mr
husband was keeping me busy
Zipho: TMI. Shut up
We all laugh
Zintle: And akasyekele nje. Anyway
we met at your boutique wethu that
day.. Then he was at Cubana and I
was at Cubana so he called us to his
table. Just Zipho and I. And
ordered us Champagne and Jager.
He was nice, asking if we're okay.
Zintle tells us all about her man
and I can see my friend is ready to
send us dress making. She is head
over heels so whatever the guy did
swept her off her feet. I settle the
bill and we drive to my boutique.
My manager is back and I am
happy again. I am inlove with the
new stock. I spoil my friends with
new dresses and shoes. Knowing
them, they change outfits every
weekend. They're your "Slay
queens". Thank God I met Sokhana
when I did
It's half past 2 when I drive to the
doctor's appointment. I park my car
and I spot Soks'. He is early I
think..
I take the lift to the second floor
and I'm met by his face when I
enter the surgery. It's not full
because they work by appointments.
Which is great
Him:hey
He gets up and envelops me in his
arms
Me: You're early
I take the seat next to him
Him: I couldn't wait
Me: Havve you reported at
reception?
Him: Yhea. Ungena kwami. Are you
okay?
He asks kissing my hand that was
now on his
Me: Ja. I th-
I am cut short when "Dlamini?" the
doctor calls out. Sokhana gets up
and squeezes my hand, I follow
suit and we follow the doctor. It's
an Indian man in his 50s I think.
Doctor Govenda...
Doc: Mr and Mrs Dlamini. (he says
with the brightest smile) Good
afternoon.
Soks: Afternoon doctor
We both take our seats and he
closes the door behind us.
Sokhana's got my handbag on his
lap and my hand in his. I think
we're both nervous
Doc: I trust you're both well or
maybe one isn't hence you're here.
How can I help today?
Soks: actually Mrs here is here for
your services. Or the both of us. .
She's been feeling sick lately and
she missed her period. Oh and we
took a pregnancy test yesterday
and it came back positive. Well 3 of
them
I squeeze his hand when the doctor
nods and jotts something down.
Sokhana huffs and we look at each
other
The doctor smiles again looking at
us
Doctor: Mrs Dlamini when was
your last period?
Me: I.... don't know.... I can't
remember (I stutter. I'm a nervous
wreck)
Him: And the sickness. Is it nausea?
Loss of appetite?
I nod
Him: Fatigue?
I nod again huffing
Him: Mhhm let's take a urine test
and see what the problem might be.
Could be unbalanced hormones,
stress or even better someone might
be growing inside there. . A lot of
things can lead to missed periods.
He gets up and goes to the sink.
Then takes a fresh cup
Him: You'll take this cup and go to
the door on your left down the
passage. I need a portion of your
urine right?
He's wearing the biggest smile.
I oblige and do as told then come
back. He takes two stripes and
what looked like a pregnancy test.
He tries to create conversation to
cut the tension in the room.
Him: You ma'am are gonna be a
beautiful mother soon. You're both
pregnant
He throws the stripes and
pregnancy test in the bin getting up
I feel better again, my stomach is
not grumbling. A light has been
lifted off my shoulders and I am
feeling the same feeling I felt
yesterday when I looked at those
pregnancy tests. Sokhana kisses my
hand. He is also relieved.
Doc: I can also make a scan if you
want
He suggests
Soks: Please
Dr Governdor is smiling the whole
time and laughing at how nervous I
look, again. I climb on the bed and
he asks me to gently lift my shirt. I
unbutton it and he puts a towel on
my breast to cover them.
Him: I'll put this gel on your
stomach, it will be uncomfortable
and a bit cold right?
I nod again when he asks us to look
at the monitor. He starts with the
ultra sound and for a minute there
I thought it was useless until I
heard the heartbeat.
Sokhana: Wait is that the heart
beat??
Dr nods again
Him: Yes. A very strong one. This
baby is very healthy
Sokhana: Wow. Can you tell how
far she is
Him: Yes... 12 weeks
Me: That's 3 months right?
Dr: Ahh she's talking again. Yes
Ma'am
Sokhana: Can we tell the gender
yet?
I blurt out loud
Me: NO
I wanted it to be a surprise honestly
Doc: I can't tell yet. And I'm sure
mama wants to guve it some time
right??
Sok: oh woman. It's probably a boy
Me:No. This is a girl
The doctor is laughing through out.
Doctor: This is amazing
Soks: What.. What's amazing?
Doctor : The heartbeat. Very strong
baby there.
He wipes the gel of my stomach and
I dress up. He prints two scans for
us
He gives us a prescription for my
vitamins and the date for my next
visit, where I'll have to go for blood
tests etc. I'll be seeing him every
month from now on. He also
recommends a dietician because
Sokhana wants to know what's safe
to eat and what's not.
We live the surgery smiling from
ear to ear. Sokhana insists on going
to the pharmacy so I can start
taking my vitamins the following
morning. He is being fussy and it's
frustrating me. I kiss him goodbye
and we part ways, me driving home
and Him to the gym.
I take forever because of traffic, you
know how annoying it is to drive
home around 4 and 5 evening.
Everyone is in a rush. My mother
calls to check up on me and the new
visitor. She's bored to fuck when I
tell her she hasn't said anything
about leaving. To be quiet honest I
don't expect her to, she just got a
job so she had to settle in kakhle
kqala. Also I was never close to my
cousins and Sokhana was about
family. It was time he met my
family too. And I was hopeful that
Sane had changed. I was
immediately met by the aroma
coming from the house. I stepped in
then put my handbag on the table, I
could hear Sane sing in the kitchen.
I grabbed my stuff then went
upstairs, took of my heels and
changed to flats and let go of my
blazer. I went to her downstairs. I
absent mindedly asked
Me: You cooked??
Rude because I should've atleast
said HI or something. But I wasn't
comfortable with her cooking. I
don't know it just didn't sit well
with me. Only I cooked for Sokhana,
not even my mom did it. Secondly
she was wearing a denim bum short
and an oversized Tshirt which
makes the short non existent. Don't
get me wrong I was fine with her
clothing but she had to understand
she stays with her brother in law
apha and It wasn't sitting well with
me. Suddenly I regretted letting her
stay
Her: yes. Yho I didn't even see you...
akhonto it's the least I can do.
Nindincedile. I got the job.
Me: Oh that's great,
congratulations sis.
(She was gonna be a waitress)
Where is Soks??
She asks. I'm a bit taken by
surprise by this question too. Oh
Mbali stop being pregnant. She's
just being nice another voice says
Me : Soks is still at the gym.
Her: Okay akhongxaki
Damn right ayikho. I grab a mango
then go switch on TV. Soks comes
home in 2 hours and he takes a
shower before joining us for dinner.
I pack the dishes in the dishwasher
and we sit in the lounge and watch
TV in silence. Not the awkward
silence but the "Were focusing
silence"
Her: When are you planning to
have kids?
She asks randomly
Me: Why?
I ask genuinely curious. Where did
this come from?
Her: No I'm just curious and
creating conversation wethu
I look at Soks who's busy on his
phone and not giving us the time or
day.
Me: When we're ready, right babe??
I elbow his arm. He looks at me
then back to the TV
Her: I wish I listened to my moms
words dude. Kids aren't child's play.
But Atleast you can afford them
nina
Soks chuckles and I'm wondering if
whatever's funny is on the phone or
this conversation. Ndandipitsekile
and it looked like my man wasn't
gonna be a part of this.
Me: Yes but ayomali qah into
ebalulekileyo mntase. Emotional
stability is also important. And
fneke afike kwikhaya elifudumeleyo
I defend myself
Her: But you and Soks seem happy
nje
Sokhana looks at me and back to
the TV
Me: We are kakade but
sisandotshata so we like it isithi
soy2
Her: Mhhm.
She finally dismisses. I don't know
how I feel. My mom texts me she
wants a video call so I excuse
myself and go upstairs....

The next few days were I don't

know. Sane had started at work
and she had adjusted very well. I'd
drop her off when I go to work
because it was on the way then pick
her up. Sometimes Sokhana and I
would drive together so she'd take a
taxi back. Soks didn't really like her
though I could tell because he
avoided conversing with her and
he'd only speak when spoken to
when she was around. My mom was
pushing me to ask her about
moving out but I just couldn't bring
myself to do it. This was my cousin
guys and I couldn't just let her nje
to be.
The pregnancy had been fun so far.
The last week went by swiftly and
the baby was bringing us together.
Sokhana had separation anxiety.
He'd call every chance he gets and
it frustrated me so much.
I am dying to let my mom know but
knowing her, soon my I laws will
know and she'll take the first flight
here. She's always wanted D
grandchildren. Also I was avoiding
the drama like I said.
it's Ntokozo's birthday weekend
and Soks tells me they'll be
celebrating in Port Elizabeth. I am
not surprised though because
usually they celebrate their
birthdays out of town. It's always a
"The boys" weekend. I even stopped
fussing, well I didn't let me not lie.
I don't know I think I trust
Sokhana a lot. I've never seen or
noticed anything that he might be
cheating so that's why. So the week
went by smoothly, Soks was busy.
He's working on one of the biggest
projects so it needs all his attention.
I am being a good wife by making
sure he is fed and really fed.
Anyway Sane is working a night
shift tonight so it's just me and him
in the house, I am checking on my
pots. He asks randomly
Him: Baby I'm not selfish for
leaving tomorrow right?
He earns my attention.
Me: No baby go. You'll be stuck
with me once my belly is big
Honestly I want him to live his life
just like how I lived mine. Once the
baby arrives it will be chaos
Him: you're showing
Me: I am??
He nods smiling
Me: awuncume
Him: I've always prayed about this
day. You in the kitchen, me
drinking my beer and a little one
giving us a headache
Me: it feels like a dream neh
Him: A dream come true.
Me: Speaking of a dream come true.
Babe.
Him: Mhm?
Me: you haven't been saying
anything about Enzo. I think you
shouldn't be financially there qah.
Spend time with her
He doesn't reply but I know he
heard me
Me: start somewhere.
Him: I'll.. You're right. I don't know
it just hasn't sank that I have a
child out there. I'll ask Mandisa
that we meet up
Me: Great. Plus I think it'll prepare
us for the journey we're going
ahead.
He grabs my hand across
Him: Thank you. You're a dream
come true
Me : keep saying that and I might
give you another baby tonight
Him: say no more dynamite
We both laugh thinking of Skeem
saam
Me: Hehake Marothi
We continue preparing dinner.
Being a mother to be was gonna be
the death of me. I was emotional
about everything. I had a really soft
spot for Enzo and I hoped one day
she'd be a good sister to my baby
too. I honestly wanted my child to
know about Enzo and the same
with Enzo too but Mandisa and
Soks were dragging feet about this.
I finally get in bed and I realize
that I really was exhausted. My
back always hurts lately. I wanna
ask Mr to give me a foot rub but he
avails himself before I can even
ask.
Me: You deserve husband of the
decade
He blushes revealing his dimple
that I love admiring so much. It
makes his face perfect. He hates it
though
Him: Baby uMama ebesithini??
Me : she misses us. And she was
just asking ba sinjani
Him : Oh. We've been neglecting
them hey
Me: We have. I felt bad.
Him: But Inkinga they stay 40
minutes away
Me: And they can always come. I
think u Bhorekile uMama. Kalk
your dad is always busy and
catching flights
Him: But she has money to spend
and her fake friends
I Hitt his shoulder playfully!
Me: That's a mean thing to say
Him: Hay baby nyani. I can spot
fake friends for Nina from a
distance.
Me: Heeeh. You're about to tell me
something??
Him: Tuu. Hee ye baby u Ntokozo
(he start laughing) walked in
kuNosipho(he laughs again)
nalantwana yakhe.
Oh he dies! He finds it so funny. I
am shocked bc Zipho didn't mention
this
Me: Suxoka!
He gets up and comes back with his
phone, next thing he's playing a
voice
nite. Ntokozo is furious
" Mfetsu asambe Friday.
Ngizodubula umuntu la. Nosipho
ngimbone nalabhari yakhe.
Belamza"
Me: He's dramatic. Ni uptight
gqithi. Nosi is old enough!
Him: Rha I'd kill whoever shoves
his tongue down Rethabile's
throat( his cousin)
Me: Eshe baby do you honestly
think retha has no man
Him: Baby ha.a I don't like where
this conversation is headed because
I'll oveerthink this. Asiyekele.
I laugh at how protective he is.
Enzo must forget about boys
shame.. After the foot rub he
washes his hands and joins me in
bed. I am slowly drifting to sleep
and if he'd give me round nyana I'd
pass out. Just thinking about it I
become wet instantly. He spoons
me, my leg on his waist and he
kisses me goodnight but I am not
about that business. I hold onto his
neck and kiss him for longer than
he anticipated. He chuckles then
looks at me
Him: You can never kiss me and
not be horny
I suddenly feel shy.
Me: Because you never give me
basic kisses
Him: Basic kisses?
I nod
He starts teasing me, playing hard
to get but eventually I get my
sweets and I sleep like an angel...
The following morning I help him
pack, we were up at 5am. He packs
his clothes, I suddenly feel like
asking him to stay but I won't be
that girl. A man needs to breath
right???
He's looking like a snack in his
white Tshirt, blue short jeans and
white airforce. I wanna eat him up
Me: You're coming back right??
He looks confused so he looks at me.
Giving his bag his back. He was
putting in something
Me : Because I am stressed out. You
look like a snack
Him: haw babe
He snakes my waist and kisses me.
I pull out because if I didn't at that
time I would've been late for work.
Him: I am coming back in one piece
mama
Me: I'll miss you
I sulk. He kisses me
Him: I miss you already
He pecks my lips again
Me: behave!!!
Him: Definitely
KHANYA
Yhuuu Tshomi, today will be one
for the books. Unemali la bhuti
please don't dissapoint ndiyakwazi
kaloku wena uyakhaleza nodikwa"
lelethu says looking at the new red
dress she had purchased earlier at
The fix. It sits so perfectly on her.
I'm in my red bobtube body on dress
Me: he must not annoy me naye
I am busy on my IPhone 7 plus that
I had purchased earlier. I'm
updating my phone
Her: uZizo will be here soon.
She takes the bottle of Krone by my
bed side and pours a glass
Her: She still can't believe uyifake
nyani la Tata lemali
I chuckle
Me: Yho andiyoKaka mna of cause
he did
So last night I went out to Cubana
like I do every Friday, well every
Friday and Saturday I go out. I
went out with my girls and I met
this Nigerian man Nyasha who
took care of our bill and we
obviously ended up at Raddison Blu.
He transfered 10k into my account
so I needed a phone and I got one,
plus a new outfit for myself. That's
the thing about my life, I always
have to wear something new. It's a
habit, I love feeling good. Nyasha is
always away on business though,
and it wasn't the first time we
hookup but he's a genuine
gentlemen. It was the first time I go
out with him with my friends
though
An hour goes past and Zizo is here,
we're busy with our face beats
having two bottles of Krone and
hookah. We all share an apartment
and we study Psychology together
so it made sense for us to stay
together. Anyway a call goes
through on Zizo's phone. The guy
she hooked up with will be at
Cubana with his friends so he
wants us to chill with them. It's a
bit tricky because the guy from last
night will be there too but arg I'll
cross that bridge when we get there.
Also Nyasha is not uptight . By
7pm we're done with our make ups,
I look stunning in my dress and
colorless white shoe. I grab my
black bag and start snapping on my
long mirror in my room. I look
snatched. My ponytail looks well
put and so do my edges.
Anyway, the guys pick us up and
I'm shook because the rule is "we
Uber there. No guy should know
where we stay" Secondly I thought
it was one of those boys that talk
too much but woah, seems like it'll
be fun. So it's three cars, an audi,
Mercedes and a porche. I must say
I'm impressed, there are 4 guys and
two girls already in the cars so it's
chilled. Anyway we get to Cubana
and we get a reserved table. I see
Zizo chat to one of the guys who I
assumed was the guy she hooked
up with last night, I'm conversing
with Lele and the other people on
the table. We're like getting to
know each other.
Four ice buckets with shampopo's
come through and the other 2 have
4 henesseys and 2 Jager meisters.
I mentally make a note ba Today
I'm getting sloshed. Also these guys
must use coke there's no way in hell
they'll finish this alcohol. Anyway
I'm chatting to Lele and this guy
Max who's Zulu. He's actually very
nice, they're all nice and gentlemen.
I learn that two are doctors and 2
are in corporate including the guy
whose birth dying, Ntokozo. They
are in PE for the weekend they
were leaving on Sunday. Max,
Ntokozo and Sokhana are Zulu
from KZN and the guy in a white
Lacoste golf tee shirt is Xhosa, his
name is Siya. They're all cute I
think.
The night goes well, I am obviously
snapping. And I am genuinely
liking the vibe. The guys are very
much fun to be around. Come to
think of it I've never tasted Zulu
dick, and tonight I might just.
Lmfaoo, don't blame the girl they
are cute. I notice how the caramel
skinned guy is always on his phone.
He keeps smiling whenever he
looks at the screen. I am curious
because why wasn't he here.
I was deep in my sleep, finally
getting good sleep because the man
I call my husband was texting me
all night. I only slept at 11. I moan
agitated when my phone rings. I
grab it under the pillow, the way I
was drowsy I couldn't even lift my
hand to put it in the charger or
something. I answer "Mhhm?"
Him: Babe awukalali??
I feel like crying. He can't be doing
this again.
Me: Baby it's 4am of cause ndilele
There's shuffling as though he is
changing seats or something
Him: I know. I miss you and bundle
of joy
Me: you're drunk my love
Him: I wanna see you
Me: Sokhana tomorrow. Ndilele
njena
Him: Wow someone doesn't miss me
Me: I do. This house is too big
Him: Sane usemsebenzini yini?
Me: yes but I'm used to waking up
next to you
Him: Oh uMkam bandla. I'll be
back soon mama
Me: uphi?
Him: The hotel room. I'll pass out
any minute from now
Me: Mhhm okay
Him: I love it when you moan like
that. When I'm inside you
He teases. Just hearing his voice is
doing things to me. It's the way he
said it. I hoped he was in bed alone
ke because my biggest fear is
someone tasting and knowing him
like I do. I wouldn't blame whoever
would stick around because the guy
could give it. Also some people
really aren't fazed by a damn
marriage certificate. Arg I just
hoped whenever he was about to do
shhit, he would think of me
Me: stop
Him: How your eyes roll whenever I
insert the tip of my dick
Me: baby I'm gonna be horny
Him: are you touching yourself?
Me: No
Him: Fuck my B3 is about to die.
Ave ngiqhanyelwe mama and its
because of you. You distracted me
all night
Me: Come back soon
Him: I might cut this trip short
Me: It's banter. Enjoy the birthday
daddy. Then you can come and
murder my walls
He groans
Him: ngiyakthanda
Me: Love you too. Lala ke
Him: Ngase ngilale wena
I was about to reply when he hung
up. It was definitely his B3. What a
relief. I drifted back to sleep
instantly!
Khanya
The following day I wake up and
my head hurts. I'm sleeping on a
chest, flashbacks of yesterday come
back and I moan in pain. My head
hurts but that sex, literally one for
the books lol. I try to move and he
lets me. Tsii he looks perfect but I
need to pee. I get up and walk to
the bathroom naked. I take the
mouth wash on the sink and use it.
I don't look too bad, I'm surprised I
don't have make up on. I walk back
to the room after washing my
hands and I see the Johnsons baby
wipes on the side of the bed weird.
What does this guy do with wipes??
Anyway I assume he cleaned my
face I think. I reach for my phone
and it's just after 11. Last night
was crazy, I had never gotten that
drunk in a while. Usually I drink
normally when I'm out with
unfamiliar guys because I'm not
easily trusting if that makes sense.
But The guy sleeping next to me
and his friends were VERY nice but
I'm shook because I never hook up
with guys his age. I don't know his
age but he looks young. The biggest
age gap I've had with someone I
hooked up with is 25 so that's about
it, reason being sex with younger
guys is draining. Don't get me
wrong I love having sex but if no
feelings are involved one round is
fine, leave or I'll leave after. I
glance at the McDonald's paper bag
next to the bed. Haibo we even
went to McDonald's? I must have
been really out of it, now I'm
curious about what else went down.
The only think I remember was me
kissing him when we were in the
car and I might have asked for sex
lol.
I sit on the bed and a few seconds
later, he turns and groans. I'm
naked
Him: Morning gorgeous
I turn and take a glance. He has
this beautiful tattoo on his chest
and arm.
"Mbali 03/07/2015" it's written. I
assume he has a 1 year old baby ke.
This was cute
Me: Morning sleepy head
Him: You're up early. Uyaphi?
Eshe home what does he mean
Me: it's after 11 so akukho early.
I turn back to the bottle of water by
my side and I take a gulp.
Him: Still...fuxk I need a shower.
My head is throbbing
I'm still drinking the water
Me : Yho I'm dying. Have amanzi
Him: need to shower first
He got up and walked to the
bathroom, peed and then I heard
the shower running. There's a
bottle of Hennessy by the
headboard and vueve clieqout.
None of these hoes are picking up
their phones and I'm pissed. I
wanna know they're safe and
they're up. "Wanna fuck??" I texted.
I wanna bury myself bc wow girl
that liver!
He walked back in the room and
came straight to my direction then
he held my face and he kissed my
lips.
"join me" he said, yho this was
awkward this guy was being
unnecessary and for some reason I
couldn't say no. The kisses, pda,
now a shower together?? Last night
he was so affectionate I think that's
why I wanted him in me so bad.
He'd casually smile at me and wink.
Also one of the girls there was into
him but he was politely brushing
her off, liked that. Indoda enetype.
But then again we were all drunk. I
agreed and we took a shower
together. He was washing my chest
and so was I. I learnt that Lele left
with Zizo and Max, Ntokozo with
one of the other huns. Moguy was
maintaining eye contact making it
more awkward for me
Him: You wanna say something
Me: No
Him: manje yini ngimubi
wangangbheki
Arg. He speaks Zulu so fluently,
he's amazing
Me: Because.. Arg undenzela intloni
He cocked a brow and held on his
lower lip inbetween his teeth before
chuckling
Him: ubungenayo amahloni ke izolo
I hit his chest playfully and
continue scrubbing him. I can feel
his hands move from my boods to
my waist and down my belly button.
I grasp when he touches the inside
of my thighs. I spread my legs
hoping he'd touch my baby already,
I have my lips inbetween my teeth
but he stops and kisses me. I kiss
him back now wrapping my arms
around his neck. He pulls back then
his hand goes up my cookie. He
touches it then heavily breathes.
Him: It's so neat baby
I roll my eyes smiling because he's
teasing me. I feel his one finger
enter my baby and I close my eyes
moaning. He chuckles and softly
says "Always ready for papa". I'm
blushing. His second finger and he
starts finger fucking me. I bring his
neck closer and I start kissing him,
spreading my legs wider to give him
access. I keep moaning and my
moans match the rhythm of his
finger. By now we've both dropped
the scrubs. He picks me up and pins
me on the corner of the shower.
Both our breathing was intense he
left my lips so my neck and down
my jawline. His one finger brushed
my cookie from the back. I held on
his neck hoping he'd get on with the
program already. He inserted one
finger whilst sucking on my titt. I
softly moaned "Fuck" he inserted
his second finger and I could feel
my eyeballs roll. His fingers started
fucking me again but from behind
and I encircled my legs around his
waist. He dropped me then
switched off the tap, picked me up
and dropped me on the bed in the
bedroom. Before I could utter a
single word, he grabbed my legs by
the edge of the bed and he was
staring in between my legs. A
hoarse "shit" left his mouth when
he parted my legs, I held on the
sheets and waited for him to enter
my baby but instead I felt his
breath against my baby then his
tongue make contact with my
cookie. He devoured my vagina like
some plate. From grabbing the
sheets, begging him to stop, my legs
shaking I couldn't keep the tears in,
for the first time I felt tears roll
down my eyes. When I came the
second time, he got up picked me
up.
Him: Khanya
I didn't reply still unable to be okay
Him: Khanya
Me: Mhhm?
He laid on the bed and picked me
up and put me on his lap
Him: Sit on my face baby
This was embarrassing. What did
he even mean
Him: woza
And taking his lead because clearly
this guy was not about to change
his mind anytime soon. I finally sat
on his face and when I felt his
tongue make contact with my baby
I felt my eyeballs roll. His hands
were on my waist and he kept
groaning and whispering fucks and
shits.
I'd try and ruin away but he'd still
keep me still
Me: I'm gonna cum Soks I'm gonna
come
I was now on the verge of getting
my second orgasm, my legs were
failing me and I couldn't catch my
breath. My clit was throbbing and
this guy hadn't stopped. I hoped I
called him right bc that's how his
number was saved on my phone
I started pouncing my waist, I was
gone!
When I felt my cum finally leave
my body I used the little power in
me and I collapsed on the bed
Him: Fuck Khanya I said cum on
my face
He got up and got inbetween my
legs
Him: Awumameli
He picked me up as if to put a
diaper then rubbed his dick from
my clit to my opening. I was looking
at him like a baby. What was this
guy doing to me
He hit my clit and opening before
entering my hole. I rolled my eyes
again when he inserted hinself.
He's still in me when he moved to
his side of the bed and tores a
condom. I am a bit sad, ey that
entrance was a grand one. Anyway
he wears the condom the slowly
enters my tenple
"Fuuuuck baby" he said. I moaned
in response as he thrusted in and
out of me.
Him: you're so sweet baby
I had my bottom lip inbetween my
teeth. His groans matched my
moans and he'd randomly spank
me . I felt liquid on my cheeks and I
realized I was crying, tears. When
came again, this guy wasn't even
fazed by my tears instead he drilled
me more. He flipped me and
entered from behind and there I
lost it. I felt pee leave my vagina
and he didn't stop, when he was
about to come he spanked me and
held on my neck. He increased his
pace and this means my moans
were probably louder. He was
cursing and groaning. After a lot of
going, he collapsed. On the bed on
top of me. Tyhini I was onto
something here
(I'll only post the next entry when
ya'll also give me 200 likes and ya'll
interacts more ke bc you are
bullying me � � )

I get to work and it's the usual

routine, my first cup of tea and
fresh doughnuts. I make a mental
note to call Mrs Dlamini to ask
about the proceedings of this
weekend. Today I have a busy day,
we're conducting interviews for the
new brand manager, our current
one is pregnant and she'll go on
maternity leave. It's an internal
recruitment though. My mom tells
me my grandmother is not feeling
well but they took her to the doctor
so that's also stressing me tf out.
There's a knock on my door when I
am trying to make sense of the
report that's in front of my eyes. It
doesn't add up or I am the problem.
"Come in" I say. The door swings
open and walks in Ano
Me:What can I do for you??
Excuse my mood today, I am in a
bad mood.
Ano: We have a problem again.
Jessica is late. Mr Zungu hates
waiting and he wants to see you
Arg that stubborn hard headed
man. He always complains. Typical
patriarchal man.
Me: Uphi u Jessica??
She shrugs
Me: did you try her cell Ano??
Ano: Her phone. Emails she's not
replying
I drag a long "Mxm" getting up.
Me: her Diary??
She made a copy of their last
meeting so she gives it to me and I
make my way to the boardroom.
Me: Mr Zungu
I say testing waters. If he is also in
a bad mood then I am killing
Jessica
Him: Mbali. Let's not be formal.
Okay he's not his usual self he's
sipping on a glass of whiskey on the
rocks. I grab a seat then pour a
glass of water from the water jar
next to me
Me: how are you??
Him: Been good, I haven't seen you
in a while
Me: Because you're always out of
the country
Him: Yep. I said become my third
wife and we'd be living this life
together.
Me: no thanks. One man is enough
and so should one wife
Him: arg all you women want is
money but you... (he sits back on
his chair) there's something about
you. I don't know... I can't seem to
put a ring to it that's probably why
that boy cuffed you
I chuckle glad he's not in a horrible
mood.
Me: I'd never agree to being a
housewife you should know that
He chuckles
Him: I know that's why you'd be my
favorite wife
Me: Eshe.
Him: your husband is lucky. Now
let's be serious where is your
Jessica
I huff trying to find the right words
to explain this without looking
stupid or incompetent because men
like Zungu are the "I told you" type.
The only reason he's with my
company is because his wife likes
me. We go to church together. He
straight up told me he was only
doing business with us because of
his wife. It's been 6 months now
and I think we passed the test but
with this man you never know
Me: Jessica had an emergency to
attend to but I am here now. Sorry
for being late
He fakes a smile
Me: Shall we??
Him: Jessica was suppose to.. (he
stops midway and smiles I furrow
my eyebrows wanting him to go on)
You're lucky I am in a good mood
and I have a soft spot for you but
this mistake shouldn't happen
again. It's unprofessional Mrs
Dlamini and my time is precious.
Have a beautiful day wifey
Before I can even say anything he
gets up, takes his phone and car
keys and he walks out. I am going
to kill that bitch! I mentally make
note.
I get up and step out of the
boardroom angry. I keep chuckling
in disbelief, working with people
who knew your age sometimes was
shit. Jessica was probably
undermining me because she knows
I was young. When Sokhana made
me CEO a lot of people questioned
his decision. So when I was doing
my last year in Varsity I was
already doing some work for this
company because he wanted me to
be hands on. I did my internship for
3 months and when the previous
CEO resigned I stepped in. I think
she was forced too but he denies it.
Anyway I alert Ano to send Jess
through as soon as she steps in my
building.
I groan and dial MaShange's
number, I was unsure about the
event that will take place the
upcoming weekend so I wanted to
ask what was expected of me. She
picked up
Ma: Mbalenhle yendodana yami
(My sons beautiful flower)
I smile Forgetting for a minute
about the bad day I am having.
Me: Someone is in a good mood.
Molo Ma (Hey Ma)
Her: ngijabule impela(I am really
happy) . Uright wena ngane
yami( Are you okay my child) ??
Me: I am okay Ma. Uhm Sokhana
told me about the proceedings of
this weekend and shame ndi
clueless mna( I am a bit clueless) .
Do we need to get anything besides
into zosela nezo Pheka( things to
cook and drink) ??
Her : No it's nothing hectic yet sisi.
Bazisa ingane kphela sibone ukuthi
eyethu ngempela na ( They're just
bringing over the child so we can
see if it's really ours) , just bring
your beautiful self. Sizokhuluma
ngaloko Uma simazisa (we will talk
about that when we know the child)
officially
Me: Ohh okay
Here's the things Lo mama didn't
buy the whole Sokhana has a baby
thing. She wasn't loud about it but I
could see, she didn't seem
interested to know about the child.
Any woman who knows they have a
grandchild somewhere would make
sure their son makes things right
straight away.
Her: Ave uhlakaniphile Mbali .
Ucabanga izinto
engingazicabanganga (You're so
smart Mbali. I didn't even give that
a though)
Me:ohh Ma I know we're all busy so
fneke sincedisane (We need to help
each other)
Her: And I am glad my baby has
you as a wife. Ubemuhle , labantu
baka Sokhana must know uwena
oshadiwe uwena undlunkulu phela.
Ingane yami ibonwe lakuwena
ukuthi ilubaba we Khaya (Sokhana
's people must know you're married
and you're the queen. They must
see him through you)
Me: I'm sure she knows
Her: Good. Ngiyazi ulunentliziyo
enhle ngane yam kodwa abantu
abafuni nje into enhle don't relax (I
know you have a beautiful heart my
child but some people hate seeing
other people happy.)
Me: Okay ke Mama Ndizokfounela
Friday again xandisiza kwelocala.
Sokhana une dinner plans on
Friday. I'm sure we will drive there
Friday night though
Her: Okay sisi. Enjoy your day
Me: Thanks MaShange bye
My door swings open and there
stands Jessica. She's in jeans and
she doesn't look like she's here to
work. I get pissed at the sight.
Me: Are you gonna stand there or
you'll explain yourself?
She takes slow strides to
Jess: I had a family emergency
Me: Okay??
Her: I had a family emergency
Me: Okay. So should the world stop
because you have a stupid
emergency?? What was so
important that you couldn't pick up
a damn phone and call in sick.
Her: Lwando is cheating on me
I chuckled unable to comprehend.
I bit the inside of my mouth
blinking repeatedly
Me: Let me get something. You
almost cost us our biggest client
because Uyatyelwa wena(you're
being cheated on) ? How is that my
problem Jessica?? I am afraid I'll
have to give you another written
warning, this is the second one sisi.
I'm sorry that Lwando is cheating
on you but you should be
professional, leave your problems at
home
Let's be honest guys. When you
date someone in the same
workplace what are you thinking??
That it might or might now work
out. But if it doesn't do you risk
loosing your job? NO. Sibadala to be
reminded about this all the time.
Jess: Mbali how was I suppose to
face him?? We work together
Me:It's Mrs Dlamini to you.
Secondly stop making your
problems mine. You should've
thought about that before deciding
to start dating in the work place.
Pull up your socks or I'll do the job
myself.
She was playing with her fingers. I
looked up
Me: Anything else??( she shook her
head) Good close the door on your
way out I have a business to run.
With that said I got back to my
books.
Around 2pm we were meeting our
last candidate Craig for the position,
never liked Craig but his work
speaks for him. I am simply sitting
in these meetings for input but if it
were up to me I'd chose him and
move. But then again it's a big
decision
I quickly made chicken mushroom a
and spinach pasta. Baby got back
from gym after 7 with my second
favorite cake, Belgium cake.
Sokhana was gonna be the death of
me, I was gonna look like a whale
soon because of him.
"Hey Makoti" (hello Wifey)
Ntokozo says walking in screaming
for the whole neighborhood to hear.
I regretted opening that damn gate
Me: Azba ungxolelani Molo (I
wonder why you're screaming. HI)
Him: Haww ngikkhumbulile
Mambaliza (I missed you
Mambaliza)
He opens his hands and before I
can even say anything I'm in his
arms for a hug.
Me: Azba undikwritshelani
He let's go and screams again
Him: Uphi uMnganami(Where is
my friend?) Bafooo sengikhona(My
brother I'm here)
Me: Akukho setywaleni apha. (This
is not a sheebeen) He's changing
Him: Awww Makavele phela
usefikile uBest friend. (He needs to
come back now, his best friend is
here)
I follow his lead to the kitchen, he
opens the fridge and takes out a
beer, a beer opener in the drawer
and he helps himself
Me: Uyfunani Indoda yam (What do
you want from my man?)
Him: Haw wungan wam phela
loya( he is my friend sis) and
ngiyazi kuyadliwa lay'khaya (And I
know you make mean meals here)
Me: Eshe when are you getting
someone??
Him : Weeeh phela Mambaliza
angeke kulunge phela ukuthi
sishade sonke. Angek impela nje
(Eish Mbali, it wouldn't make sense
if we were all married. It's a
disaster)
Soks: Bafo
Ntokz: Bafo usuyakhulphala
manje.(You're gaining weight)
Mambaliza uyenzani lendoda
(Mambaliza what are you doing to
this man?)
Me: Hay uhlukane Nam ke wena
(Leave me alone)
I start taking out the plates and
desert bowls as well as glasses. I
went to lay the dining table. I
couldn't make out what they were
talking about but it seemed serious
because Sokhana kept muttering
"Mxm weh". He looked so cute when
he's annoyed.
Me: Oh Sane mntase this is
Ntokozo. Ntokozo Sane my cousin
Ntokozo: Haww Bafo. Yini
ungangtsheli ukuthi nine Mbali
yesbini la (Wow Mbali why didn't
ya'll tell me you have a second
flower in this house?)
He gets up and stands next to Sane
Me: hay sudika umntasekhaya
(Please don't annoy my cousin)
Ntokozo: Sawbona Nkosazana
(Hello beautiful lady)
He stretches out his hand and Sane
stretches her. He takes her hand
into his
Sane: Molo Ntokozo
Ntokozo: Inkomo zigcwel isbaya
ntokazi, ngivumele ngivuse umuzi
kababa (The kraal is full of cows,
allow me to revive my father's
home)
Me: Shut up
Soks: Baby stop cock blocking. Sane
ujabulile Haw (Sane is enjoying
this show)
Sane: Hehake Skwii ndilahlwa
nanguwe (Wow in law, you're also
turning your back on me?)
And uSane was really blushing. We
eventually sat down for dinner.
Nkz: Mambaliza get a nice dress it's
my birthday dinner on Friday
ungakhohlwa ngiyazi wena
uyisgogwana( Don't forget I know
you're a granny)
Soks: Haw Ngeke bafo (No no) .
Again
Ntkz: Go big or go home.
Ndinentombi kanje uyabazi (I have
a girlfriend and you know) ooBaby
and going out.
Me: You deserve it. Umntu
ugugile( You're old) The big 30s
Ntkz: But ngisemuhle (I'm still
handsome)
Me: I don't know about that
After Ntokozo left, well after
forever because he stayed till 9,
Sanelisiwe dissapeared to her room
so it meant She wasn't about
washing dishes yena. My baby was
washing them so I helped. As tired
as I was.
Him: Baby Mrs Mabuza Invited
you to her tea party. I tried coming
up with excuses but I'll be working
with her husband a lot now that's
why she wants to know you.
I finish up wiping the plate thaf I
was washing
Me: Baby you know ziyandibhora
ezi house wives mna (These rich
house wives bore me) . We never
have things to talk about besides
my age, men. And I'm always
getting attention because of my age
Him: I know my love kodwa
ngiyacela (But please)
I huff bored already. I've been to so
many luncheons with these type of
ladies and I always get bored. They
somehow manage to shift the
attention to me. How I got married
so young and they end up giving me
tips on how to keep a man,
something I needed no help with.
Me: "Mbali, how did you meet your
husband and how did he propose.
Oh what a hunk you must be the
happiest couple I know. Oh my
Gosh I need to go shopping" I say
imitating their annoying voices he
chuckles playing with my cheek
after putting the glass on the
drying rack
Him: Aw baby that bad??
Me: Yho ngase ndife.
Him:Kodwa Nala Ngan Bakho
abangasile bayabhora( Your very
forward friends are boring too)
I put my hands on my waist in
disbelief
Me: Haibo? The same Zipho that
you'll forever be indebted to?? Your
words kefuthi
Him: ngashele ngok wami.
Wangqoma engekho. And you
know what I mean. We need people
who are also married in our circle..
And in business.
I stop again and look at this man
going on and on.
Me: hehake (wow) this is new
Him: I've been telling you haw
Me: No I am surprised because your
friends change skirts like socks soo
I don't see that as good influence
He stops now giving me a change to
put the spoons in their drawer
Him: Who is friends??
Me: Eshe don't play dumb.
Him: No enlighten me
He says this chuckling so clearly
it's not serious
Me: ooNtokozo
Him: Wehhh, they are not married.
Ntokozo's drama is his, I'm never
been dragged in it angazi ke ngawe
(I don't know about you) Mrs
friends mama slay queen
.
I think he realized I wasn't gonna
answer obububhanxa (That
nonsense) mna so he continued
Him: I'm not gonna have a tabloid
wife. The only time you'll trend will
be because of your great work not
because you're friends with home
wreckers.
I chuckle feeling dissapointed. He
starts cleaning the sinks
Me: Since when is Zipho a home
wrecker. Or uyakufuna?? (she
wants you)
Him: she's not my type she wouldnl
never. And I love Zipho she's like a
baby sister to me but.. She's not a
good friend for you.
I squint my eyes taken by surprise
because he was saying all of this
not even giving me attention. It was
like a casual conversation
.
Me: What's your type then?? School
me
Him: You
Me: but how am I different from
Zintle and Zipho?? He hung the
dish cloths "Wehh ngfuna uklala
mina(I wanna go to bed) ngiyabona
uyanglwisa(I can see you're
fighting)"
He walked out and honestly I didn't
give shit. I wasn't in the mood to
argue with him. I answered my
ringing phone because I had
promised to tell my mom something.
I was 4 months pregnant now so it
made sense to involve her in the
pregnancy before she hears it from
someone else, my mom in law to say.
They seemed to call each other
often lately. With the weekend
ceremony coming up she was gonna
notice I was definitely pregnant.
Not that I looked big but if you've
had kids before you can see
someone who's pregnant.
Me: Mama
Her: Hey lovey, unjani??
Me: I'm okay Mama wena
Her: ndryt Nam (I'm also good) sisi.
You sound sad. Uphi uSoks wakho
Me: He's upstairs doing God knows
what
I say irritated. The conversation we
had was still putting me off
Her: Niyakwaxabene (You fought
again)
Me: ow mama ha.a ( Mom no) we
had an argument. He suddenly
doesn't like my friends
Her: haibo why?? (But why?)
Me: I don't know. Uthi (He says) I
need women like me in my circle.
Her: Unyanisile ke wethu qah
unenkani ufuze uyihlo ( Oh he right
though but you're stubborn just like
your father)
Me: Mama you're taking his side
again
Her: And that's your other problem.
If people don't see things your way
then they are against you which is
wrong. Umdala (You're old) Mbali
you should know by now that
Sokhana would never say things
out of boredom. He has a reason
Me: Haibo Mama his reason is
unfair and invalid. Uthi (he says
it's) because I am married I need
more married women around for
wisdom. He never says anything
about Zintle though and it's funny
because he has known Zipho all his
life
Her: Andithi wawuthukwa apha
ngenxa ye chomi zakho (wasn't it
recently when you were swore at
because of those same friends?)
Me: But I can't just dump my 2
friends. Like that
Her: Yho haike sisi umtshato
unesdima (Marriage is sacred) .
Bangakutyeli Indoda (Watch out
they don't snatch your man) .
Khona how are you friends with
people who do such Mbali. How did.
You end up being friends.
Me: mama come on. Obviously
when we were still students they
were kids
Her: Mhhm
Me: Mama no
Her: She did before yintoni
engamohlula. ( what would stop
her)
Me: Anyway I need to tell you
something before I forget
Her: Yintoni?? (What's that?)
Me: UzobanguMakhulu (You will be
a grandmother girl) ntombi
A smile screeps on my face
immediately changing my mood
Her: Hayi Mambaliza ka mama.
Uthini nakum sisi?? (Wow
Mommies Mbali, what are you even
saying?)
Me: Ndimithi mama (I am pregnant
mommy)
It sounded so weird. I initially
wanted to text her but I reckoned it
would be weird and awkward
Her: Oh zamnandi ezondaba
mntanam (That is great news my
baby) Uyabona umenze Indoda
uSokhana( you've made Sokhana a
man) . He must be so happy.
Umqinisile umzi wakho
Mbali( You've made that house a
home)
Me: Woah lowo is already buying
baby clothes
Her: Oh bethuna. Congratulations
mntanam. Seniyazi uba zingaphi
Inyanga? ( do you know how far you
are?)
Me: 4 now, I'll be 5 months next
week
Her: Hay Mbali ude undifihlele!
(Why did you hide it?)
Me: Hay kaloku ubune ngxaki
zakho mfazi and bendifuna uba
sure (You had your own problems
so I needed to be sure)
Her: Heeeh. Yhuuu ndizawfounela
utatakho ngoku, akazokonwaba (I'll
call your dad, he'll be so happy)
Me: Mama ungaxeleli wonke umntu
ndiyakcela. UTata naye
angayithethi nditshiswe lulwimi
Nam (Mama please don't tell
everyone and so must dad. I wasn't
gonna tell you but I had this urgue)
Her: Hai Mbali what do you mean??
I never tell people your business
Me: I know
That was a lie because she does.
She tells everyone my business.
UMbali works here. UMbali drives
this. UMbali did this, it's annoying.
Her: Mnk undibulisele
kuSokhana(Greet Sokhana for me) .
I love you
Me: Love you too
I hang up and I'd be lying if I said I
didn't give the chat a thought. I
thought about this new need to
change my circle and honestly they
kinda made sense but I loved my
friends irregardless. I wasn't gonna
change who I vibe with because of
my marital status. And besides my
friends had always been like this,
long before I even got married. I
had already adjusted my life I
wasn't about to change everything
else out of what ifs. Maybe if I
spent less time telling them my
business he'd be satisfied.

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